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Rebirth Full Moon II

June 16, 2019

Second, and almost as Foremost, at the 17 July Full Moon, is the symbol for Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) that’s Merged with the symbol for our Essence (the Sun).  And since a Full Moon is by definition a Dichotomy (Opposition) between our Essence and our Instincts (the Moon), this means a Dichotomy between our Forbidden Genius (Ixion) and our Unlimited Potential.

Nothing unusual about Dichotomies – in 3D we Live in Duality.  So we’re actually used to thinking that our Potential and what’s Forbidden are Either/Or.  We can either be good little Boys and Girls and Realize our Potential, or we can Rebel and make everybody Reject us.  That’s the Codependent Perspective, where the only way to Realize our Potential is through Socially Approved Channels.  Which is great if the World is Stable and Sane.

Which it ain’t these days.  The World is Changing Rapidly on just about all levels except Huper Responsibility, and is by no measure Psychologically Healthy.  The only thing we can Change is ourself, so if the World needs Changing, we have to Change it one self at a time – us.  As Pogo famously said long ago, “We Have Seen the Enemy.”  So what’s the first thing we have to Change?  The Socially Approved part, because that’s what’s suppressing Huper Responsibility and Psychological Health.  In Mythology and astrology there’s an Expert at Social Disapproval, namely Ixion.

So we turn the Dichotomy on it’s head.  We move toward Unlimited Potential by engaging the Forbidden.  You’re seeing it at the moment in Hong Kong, recently in France, soon in the British Isles.  Engaging the Forbidden doesn’t necessarily mean Confrontation though; there are a million ways to do it Constructively, without making everybody Angry (except your Programmers and their Internalizations).  Here’s one example – https://www.washingtonpost.com/business/2019/06/12/new-plan-remove-trillion-tons-carbon-dioxide-atmosphere-bury-it/.

In this environment we Succeed by Dismissing one of the “Shoulds” that shout at us, and instead Embracing one of the Intuitions that are always Whispering sweet nothings in our ear.

Which isn’t always easy, because as Hupers we’re Encapsulated in our Habits, and no Habits are more Difficult to Escape than our Karma.  And at this Full Moon those Habits are front and center, and Challenging us to Break Free of them (the Full Moon is T-Squared by asteroid Karma).  Well, we’re hardly rookies around our Karma, especially lately, so it’s not like this is an unfamiliar Challenge for us.  We could even Remind everyone that the Journey from 3D to 5D can easily be Reframed as the Journey of Cleansing ourself of our Karma.

As Mother Gaia moves deeper into Her Split between 3D and 5D, Cleansing our individual Karma gets more and more critical, so it’s good that it’s Lit Up here.  It’s not difficult to see what a Morass the 3D version is rapidly becoming, so the sooner we depart the better.  Waiting around for the Psychopaths to Change won’t serve your Future at all, you’ll just end up with them Running the Asylum, as if they aren’t already.  If you aren’t sure what the 3D-5D Split is all about, read Michael Roads’s Through the Eyes of Love series.  His is the only place I’ve seen it clearly described, though I don’t think he ever uses the terms.

That’s the Meat of the Full Moon itself, but we still have four other Prominent Features to go, not to mention the Hidden Treasures.  So, to be continued, though here’s an outline…

Grand Cross

Golden Rectangle

Diamond Star

Moon-Ixion-Galactic Center

The Hidden Treasures are…

Nemesis-Mercury-North Node

Upcoming Stations

Gifts 3

February 28, 2019

There’s a lot going on in this week’s primary chart, which we included in Gifts 1 several days ago.  It would be better to break out each of the main Patterns or Configurations, but I haven’t had time.  We already discussed the Manifestation and Choice (Makemake-Moira Station) Self-Resolving Challenge (Diamond Star), and next we’ll cover the Searching and Fearless Inventory (Karma-Veritas Station) Diamond Star.  Find a Diamond Star in the chart by looking for a red triangle that’s also the point of a green wedge, like the ones pointing to Makemake and asteroid Karma.

Diamond Stars, or Self-Resolving Challenges, have five Players.  The crux of the Challenge is embedded in the planet at the point of the red triangle (T-Square or Challenge) and green wedge (Finger of God or Pay Attention to This!).

Here that’s asteroid Karma.  We interpret that straightforwardly as Karma, but by that we don’t mean Retribution, we mean Inertia, Habit Patterns.  Yes, we very much bring them with us into each Lifetime.   We ain’t “blank slates” when we’re born, we’re fully developed Personalities, we’re just very Spaced Out from our journey through the Wormhole.

You know how difficult or easy it can be to Change a Habit, depending on how long and how often we’ve used it to make Life Easier.  Our Karmic Patterns are multi-Lifetime by definition, and one of their defining characteristics is that we usually use them to Defend ourself against certain Emotions that our Ego Believes will be Fatal if we Feel them.  You know the second-grade rule, “Sticks and Stone may Break my Bones, but Emotions will Never Hurt me.”  Bullshit.  Emotions can be more Painful than a Broken Bone.

So yes, even in the best of circumstances, Karma is Challenging, but this is a Self-Resolving Challenge, so it’s a tremendous Gift.  We’ll carry into our next Lifetime any Karma that we don’t Let Go Of Now, so Self-Resolving Karma isn’t just Life-Changing, it’s Game-Changing.  I don’t know if you’ve ever had the Experience, or Interpreted it this way, but when you Let Go of a significant chunk of Karma, you can actually see the Movies Changing as they march off into the Infinite Future, like giant multidimensional Dominoes!  It’s Exhilarating!

The second major Player in this Diamond Star is the Stationary (28 February, 11pm PST) asteroid Veritas, which means Truth.  So Facing the Truth of our Karma is what’s going on here, but that doesn’t mean Admitting we were Abusive in Roman days or anything Retributive like that.  It means Being Willing to Experience the Emotions that Scare the Shit out of us.  But remember, this is Self-Resolving! So not only is it, relatively, no Big Deal, it’s Easy, and a Big Relief.  Really it’s the Opportunity of a Lifetime!  No, more like the Opportunity of a Long Span of Lifetimes!!

Be particularly Attentive to Fear.  If it threatens to arise, Kegel it.  Our Karma is hidden beneath layers and layers of Subterfuge, Judgment, and Rationalization.  Ever meet someone who announces that they “Aren’t the kind of person that…”?  Or who “Can’t understand how anyone could like…”?  Or who is Unwaveringly Certain that they Know They’re Right about…?  Those are the kind of tightly sealed Cartons that we pack our Karma into so we can Pretend it’s a Virtue rather than a Limitation.

Then we go around looking for Other people who share our Limitation, to Protect ourself from the hidden underlying Emotions even more.  Once we start opening those Cartons to see what’s inside, we’re likely to find Fear.  If we’ve Trained ourself to be ultrasensitive to the first signs of Fear (which Opportunity our early February Adventures with Sedna Offered to us), then we can catch it Early enough to just Grab it and Hug it.  We Grab and Hug Fear by Kegeling.  If we’re quick enough, we only need one Kegel.  If we let the Fear grow before we Notice it and Respond, we may also need Breathing and Tapping.

The Kegels 5 post is a good quick review of February if you need it – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/02/07/kegels-5/.

Asteroid Veritas sits on one side of the Base of the red triangle or T-Square.  The Base of a T-Square is an Opposition, two planets that sit on opposite sides of the Zodiac.  An Opposition is an Apparent Contradiction.  Apparent because there are no Contradictions in the Real World, they exist only in the Dualistic mind.  The Opposition is the Second-Harmonic Angle, and the Second Harmonic is about Ritual.  Ritual gains its considerable Power through Repetition.   We Repeat the hell out of those Cartons we mentioned that we use to obscure our Karma from ourself, the more the merrier!  Or so our Ego Believes.

On the Other side of the Zodiac from Veritas in this Configuration is Mars (Action, Anger).  The suggestion is that we can process this Karma quickly by just Looking For, Admitting, and Embracing all of the Anger we’ve become accustomed to Repressing.  I suspect you’ve already been Re-Experiencing odd snippets of Childhood Anger that have been popping up without apparent provocation.  Look at your Life through the Eyes of Anger.

For instance, all your Life other people have been Rejecting or refusing to acknowledge your Hidden Genius.  You’re used to it.  Like my New Yorker friend said, “There are eleven million people in New York, so if you’re one in a million there are eleven other people here just like you!”  Since our Hidden or Forbidden Genius is usually wrapped tightly in Shame, however, meeting them on friendly terms may not be Easy.  You may even be starting to Acknowledge your Genius as an unappreciated Gift, so you don’t even bother to Judge the Naivete of others, they just don’t know any better.

That’s Great, but turn it around for a moment, just as an exercise.  Shame is Anger turned inward, and it’s Toxic.  It’s probably a major contributor to Cancer, as the Cells attempt to Mirror to the Ego what’s going on deep inside the Organism.  It may be hard to find, but somewhere down there you’re Angry at not being Recognized, Angry at the Blind Spots in your Culture that make you Invisible.  More important, you’re Angry at your Childhood Programmers for making you Ashamed of your Greatest Gift to the Planet.

This is not trivial, because Giving that Gift to the World is a critical piece in the Gigantic Puzzle that will bring the World back into Balance.  Our Mutual Survival depends on it.  That long-buried Anger may be barely Recognizable as Anger, but it was there.  Find it, Poor Sweetheart it, Embrace it, Love it to Death.  This is a rare Get-Out-of-Jail-Free card.  When we Stuffed that Anger we also Stuffed a critical part of Our Self and Soul.  Reach in, pull it out, and give it a Place of Honor on your Altar.

The other two points on a Diamond Star sit at each end of the Base of the green wedge or Finger of God.  These form the Cat’s-Cradle of blue lines that represent the Grace that Allows the Diamond Star to be Self-Resolving.

The first of these two is asteroid Moira.  If we recall from Gifts 1 that Moira is about Fate, which is our Karma when we aren’t Conscious of it, and about Choice, which is Liberated when we become Conscious.  Once we Recognize that we have a Karmic Pattern to Do such-and-such or React to such-and-such, we’re Free to Choose to Change the Habit. This is one element of the Grace making the Dismissal of our Karma Self-Resolving.

The second element of Grace here is the dwarf planet Orcus.  Orcus is about Making and Breaking Oaths.  Oaths, Vows, Promises, Commitments – they represent a big part of the Foundation of the Patriarchy.  Once you make an Oath, you Surrender your Free Will and your Future.  Oaths are not generally considered Revertible.  You will then, if you’re Loyal to your Oath, adjust your Behavior and Speech to reflect it.  These become Habits.  Then you forget that you made the Oath, and your Habits become your Karma, your deep Patterns that lie beyond your ordinary Conscious Control.

Till you Let Go of the KarmaKarma does not Grasp us, we Grasp our Karma.  Letting Go of it is Effortless.  We have only to Recognize that, and Commit ourself to Letting Go of the Old Patterns and Expectations, while Developing New ones.  Notice, though, that this is a new Commitment, another Oath.  The Oath process is a fundamental part of Existence.  We don’t Eliminate it, we Adapt it to What We Want, and we as best we can Remain Conscious of which Commitments Serve us best, while we Jettison the rest.  We can’t Live without Oaths and hence Limitations, but we can Minimize them.

More Healing

November 19, 2018

Here’s a quick review of what’s coming up…

 

22 November – Full Moon at 1 Gemini (9:30 pm PST). 

We’ve seen this Cuspal Action a few times recently, for instance https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/11/02/fire-earth-air-4/

A major theme of this Full Moon is Choosing to Allow Chronic Physical issues to be Healed Instantaneously.  We have two major categories of Resistance to this – first, we don’t Believe it’s Possible because we’ve been taught otherwise.  And Second, when we do Allow this, it won’t be the only thing in our Life that Changes, so unless we’re Prepared for that, our Ego will Resist the ancillary Changes, and that will reinstate the Chronic issue that we’re “Comfortable” with.  Don’t for a minute think that Comfort and Victimhood can’t co-exist; we’re all a bit Proud of our Victim Postures, or we wouldn’t keep giving them Support.

The Moon Conjoins Lachesis (Consciously Choosing the length of a Timeline), and while the rest of the chart forms a bowl, North Node-Varuna (Mission-Life Force) is an outlier Reflecting all of the other planets.

We could also easily find that our Abuse Memories continue to plague us until we Accept the fact that it is Resistance to our Held Emotions and Comfort with our Karma that lock us into Dyspleasure.  This is a bit of a Gordian Knot, but for starters we can Strive to get Conscious of the ways we are Comfortable with our Karma, and we can Ask ourself “What Emotions do I Refuse to Feel?”

Mars-OR10 T-Squares the Full Moon, while Chiron (Despair and Miracles) Squares a Stellium of Karma (q.v.), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), and Pholus (Ability to Respond rather than React).

On the other hand, the Opportunity for Healing is Immense.

Klotho (Beginnings) Conjoins the South Node (Held Emotions), indicating that we may Begin to be Willing to Embrace what we’ve been Rejecting as “I’d rather Die than do that!” – or that our Held Emotions will Begin to bother us more, as Hidden Psychological Bugaboos will eventually go to great lengths to get themselves Revealed.  Since this Opposes Varuna-North Node, our Preference for continuing to Live our Karma as Physical Discomfort may get tested.

And Soul (Uranus) makes Blessed Angles to our PTSD (Mars-OR10) and to our Need to Take Responsibility (Karma-Quaoar-Pholus).  Remember that Responsibility means Able-to-Respond-to-Improve-Outcomes; Blame Lives in a totally different Universe.

The Biggest Configuration in the Full Moon chart is this Nose-Cone…

It’s a graphic illustration of the incredible Synergy between Beginning to Open Up to our Held Emotions (Klotho-South Node deep in the soup on the right) and Investing our Life Force in our Life Mission (Varuna-North Node on the left).  You can almost Feel the Energy bouncing back and forth like a laser till it reaches Escape Velocity.  Our Held Emotions obscure the very Skills we need in order to Energize our Mission, Skills we accrued in, or borrow from, Other Lifetimes.  The Other Lifetimes need not even be “our own” – when we’re Clear enough, we have direct access, through our Mitochondria, to All the Information in the Universe.  We Are after all All One.

 

By the way, asteroid Karma moved from Sagittarius (Let My People Go!) to Capricorn (Just Fix It!) on 16 September (8pm PST if your Journal is that accurate).  Capricorn is more Difficult than Sagittarius in some ways.  In Sagittarius all we have to do is Let Go; the hard part is Realizing it.  Who would think, after a Lifetime of being ravaged by our Karma, that all we ever had to do was just Let Go of it!  In Capricorn we have to Work at it.  We might even have to Plan-Execute, but beginning with PIAVA will always give us a rocket start.

 

24 November – Neptune Station at 14 Pisces (5pm PST). 

Neptune’s Bottom Line is that it is characterized by Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity.  Which is great as long as we Remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.  Mostly because our Childhood World was not Safe, our Programmed Reaction to Confusion is to Try to Figure It Out so we can find Safety.  Whether we succeed or not, this Act of Thinking kills our Growth and freezes us inside our old cage.  When Neptune is Lit Up, there’s no point in Thinking; you’ll never Figure It Out.  We’ll just get more Confused.

Till we switch to our Spiritual Eyes. 

The Neptune-Station chart is very Singular.  It offers tremendous Insight into what drives our Limitations, while making it Clear that to Grow into that Illumination, we’ll need to drop some Deep Judgments that Define us.  You know, them Ego Deaths we’ve mentioned occasionally.  Remember it’s not “I’d rather Die!” it’s “I’d rather Die.”  It’s not You that’s threatened, it’s your “I,” your Identity, your Ego.  The other 99.999% of You will continue just fine, and far better off than before your greatly-Exaggerated Demise.

Stationary Neptune Opposes Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and Squares Nemesis (Ego Death) and Hopi (Respect for All Things).  It’s also the focus of a Mjölnir Kite (yellow diamond) from Venus Square North Node (Values that Conflict with our Mission)…

Limitation is Created by Oaths, Vows, Promises.  Once we Forget that as Sovereign Entities we still have Choice regardless of our Oaths, or we Forget the Oaths themselves, our Limitations become our Karma.  Of course we still have the Choice to Step Out the Back Jack (Sagittarius), or at least Work At It (Capricorn) to just Let our Karma Go, but who Remembers that?  At least we aren’t Resolved to our Fate; that’s a Soul Death rather than an Ego Death.  “Wer immer strebend sich bemüht, Den können wir erlösen.”

Our Oaths morph into our Values, and then we really Invest Ego into them.  When we Betray our Values, we don’t just Betray whomever we Pledged ourself to, we Betray Family.  Betraying Family is like Banishment.  Unless we’ve done our Walkabout or Vision Quest, one of our strongest Limitations is that we don’t Believe that we can Survive without Family.  Our Values are up for review.

 

1 December – Vesta enters Aquarius (12:30 pm PST).

I think of asteroid Vesta as symbolizing our Bottom-Line Beliefs.  Our Values might be what we Strive for, but our Beliefs Describe the Edges of the World we Live in. 

One of our Strongest Tools for Growth is the Willingness to Suspend Disbelief. 

Capricorn is so hard-headed that Suspending Disbelief since late September has probably been Difficult.  Aquarius, which adores Wishful Thinking, should make it Easier to Try On New Beliefs like we would clothes, through late January.  Aquarius can however tend toward Fundamentalism – Believing that our Metaphors are literally True, which makes Other People’s Metaphors fake news.  We Grow by being able to Grok that Contradictions are a property of the Dualistic Mind, not a property of the World we Observe The Real World is Multifarious and Unitary, which Dualism isn’t capable of Understanding.

 

While the Greeks invented Patriarchy, they continued to have deep Respect for Goddesses and their Magnetic Rituals.  The Romans on the other hand, pretty much institutionalized Patriarchy.  The Greek Hestia (which Conjoins Uranus as we speak) was Goddess of the Hearth, while the Roman equivalent Vesta was made Virgin Goddess of the State.  By the time the Popes got done reworking Roman culture, the Marys and their peers were very much also-rans.

The asteroids Aletheia (Greek for Truth) and Veritas (Latin for Truth) both orbit in a bit over 5½ years, Veritas taking a month longer for each full circuit.  Consequently, their Cycle together is three Centuries long.  The current Cycle was Initiated in December 2003 at 29 Capricorn, “A woman reading tea leaves.”  Aletheia and Veritas dance together until 2035, when Aletheia begins skipping ahead for the next several Centuries.  The previous Cycle spanned 1675 to 2003.

While the Impact will likely be subtle, we can presume that the New Cycle will be Stronger when Aletheia Leads Veritas, while the Old Cycle will try to reassert itself when Veritas Leads.  Aletheia Led December 2003-May 2004, January 2009-May 2010, and March 2014-May 2016, and will Lead again October 2019-May 2022, November 2024-April 2028, June 2030-May 2034, and from August 2035 on.

Since May 2016, the Latin Veritas has been Leading.  In October 2019, however, the Greek Aletheia takes the baton back, until 2022.  Aletheia may be a bit more likely to Enquire how someone else’s Opinions have evolved, rather than to simply label them as Wrong.  If that holds true, it would be a Blessing for the next US election.

 

While Mercury goes Direct again at the New Moon on 6 December, the next Biggie is the simultaneous Stations of Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and Orcus (Breaking Oaths) on 9-10 December.  Those should help us ferret out the ancient Oaths which have stuck our Karma to us like flypaper and enforced our Limitations.  It’s worth noting that Recanting our Obsolete Oaths, Allowing our Held Emotions, gaining Awareness of our Unconscious Fears, and Recovering our Hidden Genius are really all just different parts of the same Elephant.

Then, finally, we get a week or so off!

Half-Marathon

November 10, 2018

The next few weeks will be a bit like a half-marathon, as we run through three gauntlets and nine astroevents in rapid succession.

 

First up, on 11 November (1:30pm PST) Ceres moves into Scorpio until almost the end of January.  Ceres is about Sustainability, and Scorpio is about Getting To The Bottom of Things.  We’ve been trying to isolate Sustainable Relationships (Libra) since early September.  Now we just Want a Sustainably Lifestyle.  Well, the Easiest way to Achieve Sustainability is to think in terms of Sustenance. 

Sustenance – What Can We Do Without? – is the flip side of the Sustainability Coin.  You may be considering it already.  Turning off lights when you leave the room?  Thinking about how to get along without something instead of how to get it?  The payoff will Surprise you.  With Sign Changes, the Zeitgeist just Changes.  The more Sensitive you are to the planet and Signs, the sooner you’ll Notice it – if you’re looking, of course.

 

There are three Stations on 15-16 November, so those will keep us occupied till then.  Station Energy is most intense before the Exact Station, building as we approach the Station, then dropping off sharply.  Usually.  There are exceptions, and we need to talk about those.  Remind me.  And asteroid Karma enters Capricorn on the 16th (8pm PST).

Karma’s been in Sagittarius since the Ides of January.  Sagittarius of course is about Letting Go, so we’ve had a good run – haven’t we.  Remember how much more Limited your Life was last winter?  Karma even went Retrograde in Sagittarius, so it hung out there longer, just for us.  It only takes about ten weeks to cross Capricorn instead of ten months.  That’s just as well, because Capricorn, which stands for “Just Do It,” can get us in trouble when it comes to Karma.  Till the end of January, if it’s Habitual, we should “Just Do It For The Last Time.”  Ok?

The three 15-16 November Stations are…

  • Asteroid Moira on 15 November (4am PST).  Moira is about Choice.
  • Venus on 16 November (3am PST), which is about our Values.
  • Mercury on 16 November (5:30 pm PST) – Communication, Awareness, Mentality.

So we’re likely to Experience it as we might Experience a Moira-Venus-Mercury Initiation, meaning we’re becoming Aware that we have Choices around our own Values.  Our Betters make a big deal about Living Up To Our Values, but when you think about it, what they really want you to do is Live Up to Their Values.  You gain a lot of Self-Sovereignty when you see through that Farce.

This isn’t a real Initiation, but if it was, again depending on how Sensitive we are to it, the Energy would be very Strong on both sides of the Exact Intiation, but there would be a Shift in your Attitude.  Beforehand you’d be glib about it as if no one was watching you critically.  Then after the Exact Initiation you’d feel increasingly censured, till you took the Energy Underground.  Which is what you’ll probably do.  For a while.  Unless it’s your Mission.

We should Review Moira a bit.  Moira means Fate.  But Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we become Conscious, we Realize we don’t have to do that any more.  Fate + Consciousness = Choice.  So we Interpret Fate as Choice.  Astrology, at least the kind that we do, is about Growing our Consciousness.  So as astrologers we always Ask first and Ask last, “Are you Conscious of this?”  Right?  With an open mind. 

Sure, they teach traditional astrology as if it was as reliable as Engineering.  When I take a course in astrology and assume it’s a seminar, and start contributing the Insights I’ve Learned from astrology, I’m usually “corrected.”  But in Real Life we’re all Different, and you’ll never know when you’re going to meet someone who’s Different from anyone you or the astroelders ever met.  Especially when more of the Others come ashore.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equals.  That’s why we’re advised never to use Negation when we PIAVA, and that’s why we often get the Opposite of what we Asked for when we PIAVA (which is a sign of Success).  The Unconscious has Dimensions, but it’s not Dualistic; its Directions are Circular.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with PIAVA, it’s a bottom-line concept to bring into Consciousness for the current Eon – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

 

The Big Challenge arrives in earnest before 19-20 November.  We’ll Feel this one well before that, because it’s a Biggie, and the three days between the 16th and the 19th aren’t long enough for it to run its course.  So we’ll have to go back and modify the previous Interpretation later.

The Biggie is about Nessus and OR10. Nessus Stands Still on 19 November (7am PST), and OR10 does the same on 20 November (9pm PST).

We’ve done this before recently, many times, as the two were fellow travelers for several years.  They’re no longer fellow travelers (in the sense of being Merged), but when they have Stations together it Feels like they’re Merged again.  Nessus represents Abuse and Privilege, OR10 Invasive Memories.  So this is mostly about Recovering Abuse Memories.  Recovering is the good part, because it’s not possible to Let Them Go while they’re still Unconscious.

Now, while Nessus and OR10 were Merged, we Merged with these not-so-pleasant Memories, usually Feeling Shame or/and Rage in the process.  So we’re likely to Re-Experience that, and being Creatures of Habit (er, Karma, ie Inertia), we’ll be Expecting to Merge with them again.  But we won’t, unless we make that Unconscious Choice.  We don’t need to. 

We can make the Conscious Choice to Dislodge our Identity from them this time, because now the Energies themselves are no longer Merged.  As time goes on they’ll be less and less Merged, so start now or you’ll find yourself Out of Synch with the Universe later.  Whatever sort of Ascension, 5D, Enlightenment, Bliss, Collaboration, Community, Ease, or other kind of Grace you Want to characterize your Future, being Out of Synch with the Universe won’t help at all.

This is Subtle, so Pay Attention.  When someone Abuses us and we Remember, once we get past the Shame, we Want Revenge.  We’ll Forgive eventually (even though that Feels Impossible most of the time), but we Want some kind of Compensation for having Endured that.  It Ruined our Life after all.  But here’s the Secret – Revenge will be so much more Successful if you’re no longer Attached or Identified with your Rage.  Sure, Living Well is the Best Revenge, and that may be the Choice you make.  But even if you Decide that you do want Payback, you’ll be able to exact a finer torture if you’re Neutral.

Remember, Karma is Inertia, not Retribution.  It’s Force of Habit, continuing to Choose an old Habit because it’s the Easiest thing to do – Automatic, in fact.  That’s why we need Consciousness to Abandon our Karma, because we have to Notice it before we can Change it.  Hard to Notice what’s Automatic.  So we aren’t talking about accumulating “Bad Karma” for exacting Revenge.  We’re talking about Teaching someone a Lesson they won’t Forget. 

So what if they’re Old now; we take our Karma with us to Other Lifetimes, so they’ll continue to Abuse if they don’t Learn their Lesson.  They need to be able to Notice what it feels like to be Abused, and they need to Realize that Other People aren’t their Property to be used as toys.  Once you’ve Let Go of your Rage, you’ll be able to plan an exquisite curriculum for them.  Dull blades are Harder to Ignore.  As they say, Forgive the Person, not the Behavior.  But first you have to show them that the two are Different.  As long as they’re Unconscious, the Behavior is the Person.

Now, about Forgiveness.  Like any other sort of Consciousness, Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery.  One day we just Notice that we don’t hold ill will against them any more.  Yes, we can make a Choice to Forgive – it’s just a PIAVA, but that’s really a Choice to enter into the process of Forgiving.  It’s unlikely to take you to Forgiveness straightaway, unless you were ready anyway. 

We always need to “Be Careful What We Ask For,” or better yet, “Be Mindful of What We’ve Asked For,” so we can monitor and Interpret the Funhouse-Mirror events that PIAVAs can Create when we aren’t quite ready to Receive them.  Like getting sicker initially after we Ask for Healing – we Feel sicker, so we take more of the Toxins that were making us sick.  Or finding Abuse Memories arising after we Ask for Healing of our Abuse.  No, it don’t Feel good, but we have to get them into Consciousness in order to Change them.  If we aren’t Aware of the way Consciousness arrives, we can easily tie ourself in knots.

Now, how are we likely to Experience an OR10-Nessus-Moira-Venus-Mercury faux Initiation, because that’s probably what much of November 10-20 will Feel like?  Well, put all the terms in a sentence.  Invasive Memories, Abuse, Choice, Values, Awareness.  Maybe something like Becoming Aware that we have Choice around the Values that we Created for ourself as a result of early Abuse that we now Remember?  Or becoming Aware that we have Repressed Memories of Abuse, and Choosing to Alter our Values to make room for their Recovery?

 

The Full Moon on the Cusp of Gemini follows closely, on 22 November (9:30 pm PST), and Neptune Stands Still shortly after that, on 25 November (5pm PST) at the Midpoint of Pisces.  The Cusp of Gemini is the quintessential point of Letting Go.  Neptune is a Powerful planet, so we’re likely to begin to Feel some Neptune Energy before we’re done with our Big Challenge.  The most Important thing to Remember about Neptune is that it renders the Material World Confusing. 

It also adds Clarity to our view of the Spiritual World, but that Confusion is what we want to Pay Attention to here, because Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, and Growth is what we want.  But, we have to Avoid reacting to Confusion by trying to “Figure It Out.”  If we Intellectualize it, we will Restrict our Growth to Zero, because it’s our Intellectual Cage that Constrains our Limited World View and with it our Limited Reality. 

Confusion is one of the most Precious and Powerful Gifts we’ll ever be Given; don’t spoil it by Thinking it out of Existence.  Relish it.  Be Excited by it.  Breathe, do Kegels.  Don’t Tap Out your Confusion; Tap out your Need to Intellectualize your Confusion.

“Even though I’m really tempted to make up Stories that can Rescue me from Feeling Confused, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  We can’t Tolerate Confusion because it takes us back to when we weren’t Safe, when someone who was supposed to Love us was Abusing us, and it didn’t make sense, and we had to Figure Out how to Escape.  It was a matter of Life and Death.

Like Curiosity, one of our highest Priorities should be Allowing Confusion to be an Emotion that Stands on its own.  A Real Emotion doesn’t have a direct or indirect Object.  It’s “I Feel Angry,” not “I Feel Angry about…” or “-at.”  Feelings are Intransitive, if you know your grammar rules.  The modifiers we so often put on our Feeling-words take them out of the realm of Emotion and put them in the realm of Thought.  The “-about” and “-at” and other Object-like additions are Thoughts, not Feelings.

In Truth, because we’re so seldom in the Present Moment, and because we aren’t Omniscient, we never actually know the Sources of our Emotions.  We Feel Angry.  Period.  We don’t know Why.  We can know what Triggered our Anger, maybe, if we’re Aware of what transpired just before we Felt it.  But even that just tells us what the Trigger was, not the Cause.  We might be Angry because an Unconscious Abuse Memory was just Triggered, and maybe the actual Triggering was a brown coat. 

Sure, we can make up Stories about the person who was wearing the brown coat, to Imagine that they were doing all manner of awful things to us, because our Unconscious Memory is about all manner of awful things.  But they’re Innocent.  Even the Antichrist is Innocent.  We have no idea who in our Personal or Cultural or Karmic History he reminds us of.  Pontius Pilate perhaps, or Brad the Impaler, or Adolf Hitler.  For many of us, those Concentration Camps and Death Chambers are a very recent Memory, even in Linear Time.

I was born nine months to the day after the Firebombing of Hamburg.  I didn’t even know Hamburg was Firebombed until I looked up when Dresden was Firebombed because I was wondering why my teachers always said that my German accent sounded so authentic and because I used to paint pictures of cities on fire and because I used to have so many Memories and Experiences of No Way Out.  And then there was the Firebombing of Tokyo – look that one up.  Not to mention Vietnam. 

See, what’d I tell you, Abuse Memories already.

Another Molt III

October 18, 2018

I can usually tell when folks are having hard times, by the number of folks calling up the blog as a whole, rather than a specific article.  Not so many this week, so I’m assuming folks are doing fine, which is great!  You’re Transcending Ego Death Transparently, Congratulations!

It’s been a busy week for me, so I’ve just interpreted the astrology directly.  Let’s catch up a little – here’s the 18 October Nemesis Station chart…

Our fundamental Challenge (T-Square) is to make Sustainable (Ceres) the Powerful Rebirth (Pluto-Klotho) of our Choice of Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).  That Challenge is compounded by the Duality (Opposition) between Ego Death (Nemesis-Asbolus) and our Limiting Beliefs and Self-Destructive Habits (asteroid Karma), creating quite an Opportunity. 

The process is Eased and made almost Automatic by the Air Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings around thought and Communication) connecting Nemesis, Ceres, and the Moon (Authenticity).  Traditional astrology tells us that the focus of a T-Square which is also a corner of a Grand Trine, is a Challenge we may be able to walk through Transparently, without even noticing. 

But the downside of a Grand Trine is Arrogance – if we’re born with one we tend to think everybody else must be pretty dumb because they can’t do what we do Effortlessly.  Until we Discover that everyone has their own Adeptness, and this just happens to be ours.  This is one reason why sports is emphasized in education – teamwork doesn’t work worth beans when the 150-pound sprinters are protecting the quarterback and the 300-pound brick walls are trundling downfield to catch passes.

In other words, by Enjoying Effortlessness this last week, we could be missing the Lesson.  By all means Enjoy all the Effortlessness you can find!  But to really accelerate our Consciousness, we be ahead to spend an hour or so contemplating why it was an Easy week.  What were we doing differently than we usually do? 

For instance, my natal Saturn is in Gemini, so Disciple and me are from different planets.  But I just finished several weeks of intense workload and deadlines, and did it Easily.  How?  I did something I’ve never done before – I used a calendar to schedule things.  Pretty primitive Discipline, but radical for the likes of Saturn in Gemini.

I did it without ever having to Choose to do what I didn’t Want to do at any time, which is a Protocol I follow as much as I can.  After many years of Living Saturn in Gemini I do know that what’s Most Important does get done on time, somehow.  And it gets done a lot more Efficiently, let alone more Enjoyably, than when I ignore my Moment-to-Moment Wants and Force it.

So I need to pause and Celebrate the Unique way my Saturn operates.  Hail Saturn in Gemini!  Turns out that in the Nemesis-Station charts, Saturn sits on the Near Midpoint between Klotho-Pluto and Karma, and the Far Midpoint between Nemesis-Asbolus and Moira.  So Saturn is a Powerful Sleeper here.  For me, at least part of the Gift was about using Discipline Effortlessly.

We should also point out that the Grand Trine was a Kite, focusing the Grace of the Grand Trine itself on the fourth planet at the head of the Kite, asteroid Karma.  So we were also Gifted by Ease at Transcending our Self-Sabotaging Patterns and Habits.  That also illuminates my Saturn “Lesson.”  What do you suppose your own Lesson about Sustaining Consciousness was?

No. II

September 15, 2018

Here’s a start at the Details.  The 17 September Station is Hylonome’s.  She was a Centaur who was so distraught that her Lover was killed in the disturbance where Chiron was injured, that she killed herself with the same arrow that killed her Lover.  Evidently Life without him was worthless.  In other words, she was Merged with him, she couldn’t tell where she ended and he began.

Now these Greek Myths tell us what happens when we’re Unconscious.  When we’re Conscious, we have Choices.  So, leaning toward Consciousness, we interpret dwarf planet Hylonome as the Choice to set Boundaries that facilitate our own Self-Sovereignty.  In general, we regard Self-Sovereignty as good, but we recognize that this is a Judgment, and that Judgment and Unconditional Love make uneasy mates. 

Our Judgment is Conditional – one of the characteristics of the Patriarchy is that most of us were/are Codependent – Merged with Others.  Perhaps with a Lover, maybe with a Boss, perhaps a Hero, maybe an Antagonist.  As we leave the Patriarchy behind, moving out of Codependence is an important step, because outside of the Patriarchy, the Power structure isn’t nearly as hierarchical. 

In organizations that have embraced the Digital Age, management structures have flattened considerably, as the wider spread of information has allowed Decision-Making to move lower in the structure.  The Digital Age spans the first two Centuries of the Age of Aquarius.  We’ll have more to say about Self-Sovereignty later, but for now we’ll consider it to be a positive trend.

So here’s the core of the Hylonome Station chart…

The Station itself occurs at 6pm PDT, but we’ve drawn the chart for 8pm PDT to give the Moon time to catch up to Hylonome, as the Moon frequently serves as a Timer for larger events.

Most of you are probably too young to remember Patty Hearst’s apparent Merger with her kidnappers, but Merging with our Abusers is not at all uncommon – in fact it may be the only way we can Tolerate Abuse in situations where we don’t feel like we have a Choice.And most of us have been in that situation to one degree or another, probably many times.  Employment comes to mind.

On the left corner of the red square in the chart above is the dwarf planet Nessus, symbolizing Abuse and it’s Opposite, Privilege.  The red square is a “Grand Cross,” and it means that we bounce around between its four corners, exploring their relationships with one another.  On the right corner are the dwarf planet Orcus, symbolizing Oath-making and -breaking, and asteroid Pallas, which represents Boundaries.

Do you remember how Confused you were about your Boundaries with your Abusers?  Do you remember making Oaths, maybe to never Talk Back, maybe to never get into that situation again, maybe to get even someday, maybe to somehow Escape, maybe never to tell anyone.  Every Oath we’ve ever made and not Disavowed, is still in our Field and Limiting our Life.

So just looking at these two corners of the Grand Cross, we can see that we’re deep into Reconsidering our Boundaries against Abuse and the Oaths we made around it.  Abuse can take many forms.  We can all think of the obvious ones, but Abuse includes things like chronic Disrespect.  Whenever someone treats you as less than a Spark of the Divine, that’s Abuse.  And whenever you treat someone else as less than Divine. 

As these issues arise, remember that Confusion is good.  Confusion is the first step of Growth, but only if we Allow Confusion to stand on its own.  If our Response is to compulsively Figure It Out, we can’t help but get stuck in our Old Birdcage.  That’s one of the worst elements of Abuse – as Divine Beings, it’s Unbelievably Confusing that someone would Abuse us.  Our Oaths in Response were to Allay Confusion.  We need to Celebrate Confusion instead, and this is our chance to Disavow those Oaths we made under duress.

At the top of the red square is the asteroid Karma.  Whoa.  Remember that Karma is not Retribution, as most folks use the word.  It’s Inertia, Habit Patterns.  Whenever the asteroid is Lit Up, there are probably Patterns – Oaths and their consequences – from Past or Parallel Lives that are impacting our current Lifetime.  It’s a Blessing, because every strong Angle that asteroid Karma makes is an Opportunity to Recognize the Patterns and make alternative Choices.

And at the bottom of the Grand Cross is the asteroid Lachesis.  Lachesis was one of the three “Fates” in the Greek Worldview, the one that measured the Length of a Timeline.  That might be a Lifetime, or it might be a particular theme or segment or other part of a Lifetime.  Again, in the Greek Myth, that was an apparently unavoidable Fate.  And again, we move toward Choice.

Karma, our Ancient Patterns, is so Easy to Choose because it’s so familiar that we take it for granted.  So Easy that we almost never Notice that it’s us that is Choosing it – we usually feel like it’s imposed upon us.  If in our Karmic Pattern C happened as a result of A and B, guess what we’re going to Expect when A and B happen now!  Expectation is an Unconscious Choice, and it’s a very Strong and very Subtle Manifestor. 

So the Critical piece of Changing a Timeline we don’t like, is Awareness.  We have to Consciously Notice the deja vu, and then we have to be Aware that we’re going to Expect certain consequences, and we have to Consciously turn those Expectations aside.  We have to Choose a fresh alternative. 

Like “No.”  Not “No!” – Neutrality is important.  Not “No thank you” – we don’t need to thank someone for not Respecting our Divinity.  Just “No.”  So there’s nothing for them to React to.  No Explanation, no discussion, no argument, except maybe “What is it about No that you don’t understand?”  But even that invites Discussion, so it’s better off to think it than say it. 

Then you walk away.  Into a crowd if you don’t Feel Safe.  Which suggests that you may want to be Alert this weekend.  Not necessarily paranoid, but you might want to Avoid situations where you’re Alone with someone you’re not sure you Trust completely.  When you first Notice the deja vu, you don’t want to be Alone with someone who reminds you of a past Abuse. 

That will make you paranoid and put you at a great disadvantage, because you’ll have lost your Neutrality, and you may be Afraid to say just “No.”  The likelihood that you’ll actually re-create a historical Abuse is small, because this is about Letting Go of Past Abuse Patterns.  We only have to re-create Abuse when we’ve been too blind for too long and our Soul has given up trying to point out our “Fate” to our Ego gently.

Quantum Jump 10

July 19, 2018

Well, we don’t seem to be able to escape this Quantum Jump Province yet, which is fine, or at least, it Is What It Is.  More of our Big Rebirth, in other words.  20-21 July features

  • The Station of Eris (6am PDT) at 25 Aries (which I somehow failed to notice until just now) – meaning that we might encounter Insights about the cornerstones that keep our Limiting Beliefs in place.
  • The Initiation of Sappho by Lachesis (10am PDT) at 25 Taurus, “A vast public park”; the Cycle is about Choosing What to Love about Ourself, begging the question, “Why would we Choose NOT to Love anything about Ourself?”  The Degree says that Choosing to Love ALL of Ourself will open up a Vast Public Park for us to play in.
  • The Station of asteroid Karma (2pm PDT) at 1 Sagittarius – more likelihood of Insights about the Edges between Who We Are and Who We Think We Are, and, since Karma is now full-time in Sagittarius (Letting Go), we may find it easier to Let Go of our Self-Judgments.
  • The Initiation of Nemesis by Sedna (5am) at 28 Taurus, “A woman, past her ‘change of life,’ experiences a new love”; when we Claim Fear as Power, we have no need to Fear Ego Death of any sort, including Ego Deaths that Challenge the deepest levels of our Identity both Personally and Culturally.

Notice that if we use six-Degree birth-chart Sensitivity, which is appropriate since Rebirth is what we’re talking about, these all make significant Dances with each other.  In fact, except for a Vacancy at the end of Aquarius or beginning of Pisces, we have a “Grand Unx,” or twelve planets more or less equidistant from one another, which is the Ideal situation for Breaking Up Old Habit Patterns, Karmic or otherwise.

The Vacancy is filled by the Fixed Star Deneb Algedi in the Mertail of Capricorn.  Bernadette says (Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars, pp.302-4) “the law-giving, justice-oriented god trying to civilize his people is probably the best [interpretation], since this would reflect its long history.  This is the star of the person who is a benefic ruler, one who is trying to use wisdom and knowledge to protect and help the people around them.”  Then she goes on to cite Mother Teresa as her example.

Wouldn’t it be great if such a person would step forward to save us from Sinki into Hel, now that the Antichrist is so clearly and blatantly illustrating the Exact Opposite.  Remember that in the Unconscious, which does not do Duality, Opposites are Equal.  Or do you suppose that the Antichrist was just playing Br’er Rabbit to his friend’s Br’er Bear?  That’s too funny.

Quantum Jump

July 6, 2018

As we mentioned in the previous post, we’re now…

“Diving Deep into the 8 July (7:30 am PDT) Haumea-Rebirth Station, where the notions about Rebooting and Commitment turn out to be timely on more than one account.  With the Station of Jupiter-Expansion only two days after that (10am PDT 10 July), we can Expect a Bigger-than-Usual Rebirth.”

The crux of the Haumea Station at 24 Libra is a Challenge to Begin in Earnest a thorough Transformation of the way we operate our Self-Sovereignty.

The Opposition from Haumea to Eris (Revelation of What’s Been Denied) is T-Squared by a Stellium of Klotho (Beginning New Timelines), Pluto (Transformation), BZ509 (Transcendence), and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty).

Transformation, which we should be spelling Trancereform, mean Re-Forming our Underlying Trance.  Our Trance is the Unconscious programs that run our Lives.  Since we think and Feel through our Ego, of course we think and Feel that our own Conscious Ego is what runs our Lives, but till we’re fully Enlightened, it’s the Unconscious that holds the Lion’s share of the Power in our Psyches.

It will behoove us to be as Open as we can be to Change, since these are Strong Energies, and if we’re in Resistance to them, even Unconscious Resistance, they may take Strong Action to get our Attention.  I suggest PIAVAing a Loving and Gentle Transition, since sudden jolts can actually make our Olde Ego more entrenched.

The Challenge is not without Blessings, as we have three hidden Resources that will Ease our Labor, if we let them.  Our Power to Choose is one of them, and Our Hidden Genius is another.  The third is more complex, and we’ll discuss that later.

Trine Bridges to the T-Square are formed by the Conjunction of Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and Ixion (our Forbidden Genius), and the Conjunction of asteroid Moira (Fate or Choice) and dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential).

Both of those Bridges may be Stressful.  Our Unconscious Beliefs are a prime contributor to the Repression of our Hidden Genius, so we’ll have to be Open to Change around Appreciating what no one else has every Appreciated about us.  And while our Potential is actually Unlimited, we seldom Feel that way, and we even more seldom Feel like we have any Choice about it – another place where our Unconscious Limits restrict us. 

When something is Unconscious, “we” don’t know about it – it’s Unconscious.  Of course there is a part of us that does know, and we’ll have much to gain by contacting that part of us.  Who Are You when you Let Yourself Daydream?  If you were Free to Pursue your Deepest Desire, Who would you become?  Can you Embrace those two People with All of the Love in your Heart and with None of the Judgment in your mind? 

That’s a very worthy assignment for the next several days, and will also be very useful for the Adventure to follow – the 15 July Station of Hopi (Respect for All Things) and the 20 July Station of asteroid Karma (Reviewing Habit Patterns).

The 10 July Jupiter Station (14 Scorpio) Conjoins Hopi, so we’ll transition right into the following stage of our Expansion.  The Jupiter Station Asks of us that we do two PIAVAs

  • “Can I Grow into Non-Judgment while Maintaining my Authenticity?”  (Moon Quincunx Jupiter-Hopi)
  • “Can I Transcend my Mental Birdcage to Access the Larger Universe?”  (Mercury Quincunx Neptune)

These two Quincunxes are the diagonals (crux) of a Square Fez.

We may even want to Ask “May I…” in addition to “Can I…,” though that would be a separate step, as the Jupiter Station Asks us to Sustain Curiosity about these apparent Contradictions.  I’d suggest Letting your Curiosity percolate for a while before asserting your Desires.

Karma Station II

April 9, 2018

Well, as we said (more or less) at the end of the previous post, at the Karma Station, Rebirth (Haumea) was flying high and pointing Heavenward at the top of a Kite while Challenged (T-Squared) by the Dilemma (Opposition) of How Much Truth (Aletheia) can we stand to Integrate into our New Beginning (Klotho), while Grounded (the tail of the Kite) by Revelation of our Soul’s Purpose (Eris-Uranus).  Resolution of the Challenge is much aided (Diamond Star) by Cooperation (Sextile) between Fear (Sedna) and Self-Love (Sappho).

In the chart Haumea doesn’t look like it’s soaring much; it’s in the lower left.  The orientation of the chart is determined by the time zone and time of day.  On the Left Coast of North America, Haumea was overhead at 11:30pm PDT on 7 April, while the chart is for the moment of Karma’s Station at 6pm.  We focus on Energy, as embodied by the Angles and Configurations.  In this regard, Energy is Exalting Haumea, no matter where She is in the circle.

That’s an interesting concept, Fear Cooperating with Self-Love to midwife a Rebirth of our Soul’s Purpose into the Ego.  In fact, Fear Cooperating with Self-Love by itself is an interesting concept.  Remember though that it’s not any part of the Cosmos that’s Negative or Positive, it’s our Perception that can make that part seem one or the other.  And of course the Dualistic mind dearly Loves to Separate, Evaluate, and Pronounce, whereas in Real Life it’s just It Is As It Is, the Judgments are our own, almost always having to do with our Held Emotions.  We’ve been Learning lately how Fear is just Power, and a lot of it – as our Kegels have been demonstrating, eh? 

Let’s look at that Grounding Chord, Uranus-Eris.  This is a new Cycle that lasts almost a century.  The Initiation was 8 June 2016 (around 10pm PDT) at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia: Openness to the influx of spiritual energies.”  With less than five Degrees of Separation, this Cycle is just beginning to burrow Underground.  It won’t emerge into mainstream Culture until 2039 (the Waxing Square), another two decades.

This illustrates one of the most important elements of Self-Sovereignty.  If we’re mirroring our Culture or copying our betters instead of following our Heart, we’ll be deep in Denial about the ongoing Influx of Spiritual Energies.  Like the sign on the wall where I used to work, “If you’re not part of the Solution, you’re part of the Problem.”  This first quarter of a Cycle is where Foundations are built – by those who Respect the Energy whether Weasel News promotes it or not. 

Which takes us back to the first chart in the previous post, the 15-19 Degree chart.  The Initiation of the Moon by Lilith occurred two hours after the Karma Station, only a Degree and a half from being exactly one Sign away.  Moon Cycles only last a month, but they’re very much In-Your-Face, as any woman can aver.  The Cycle was born at 17 Capricorn, “A repressed woman finds a psychological release in nudism: The escape from bondage to social inhibitions and a reliance upon the wisdom of the body.”  This symbol is about the Degree, not the Moon or Lilith – the reiteration of theme is as serendipitous as it is remarkable.

This foretells a major Letting Go of Unconscious Codependent Patterns over the next month, perhaps at the price of having to confront Held Emotions.  Held, or Forbidden, Emotions are those which guard the sanctity of our Karma.  They’re almost always Unconscious, since unless we’re one of those people who’s fond of saying “I’m not one of those people who…” then we repeat those Patterns without even noticing that we’re doing it; it’s just the Way the World Is to us.

The Angle between Karma and the Initiation, an Unx (one Sign – “Unx” means one twelfth), tells us that we’re peering into the doorway to the Unconscious.  As such, our most Powerful tool is probably PIAVA (Prayer, Intention, Asking, Vizualising, Affirming, plus several extensions – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).  When we’re dealing with the Unconscious, Dynamic or Masculine methods of Creativity just create the sort of messes Shakespeare and Homer loved to write about.  We need Magnetic or Feminine methods.

The Unconscious is in many many ways a Wild Animal, and we don’t tame a Wild Animal with a leghold trap.  We patiently Offer Her Food at a neutral location, and sit patiently quite a distance away, with our gaze perpendicular to the Critter, keeping our Expectations low.   Every several days we try moving a half-inch closer, while watching out of our corner-eye to see if our Intended is nervous.  If She is, we back off a little the next day. 

She knows we’re there, and our presence is a counterpoint to our Gift, a condition so to speak.  She knows that this is a Negotiation, and that She has the upper hand.  She makes these kinds of Negotiations every day, for Survival, with other Critters big and small, and She’s an Expert at the Art of the Deal.  So we follow the PIAVA recipe – Ask (Offer), Change the Subject (at least pretend to look the other way), and Pay Attention (did She accept my moving closer?).  Maybe something like…

“I Wonder What I might do to Prepare myself for meeting my Karma head-on.”

Or, using the more audacious Command version (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/) because it has the advantage of instant feedback, so we can work in many iterations in a short amount of time…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I meet my Held Emotions Bravely, Lovingly, and Gently.  It Is Done, It is Done, It is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  …(deep Breath)…  Show me.”

The other end of the Opposition to the Stationary asteroid Karma is Asbolus – the sort of Intuition that leads us to Experiences which Create Wisdom.  That’s actually Perfect for dealing with Held Emotions, but remember that our Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  And, being Conscious, we have Choice.  So we can Choose to Encounter Wisdom Bravely, Lovingly, and Gently, even if – or especially if – we don’t know yet what it is we’re about to Encounter.

Using Theta Commands will give us clues so we can be better Prepared, though when we’re dealing with the Unconscious we always need to Expect Surprises.  Having our Surprises served with sides of Love and Gentleness, and Bravery, will be a boon.  When Theta gives us clues that trigger Emotion (as is likely in this case), don’t forget Tapping and Kegels, and of course Breathing. 

The Sabian Symbol suggests that Shame may be involved, as that’s a frequent Reaction to Nudity.  Shame is one of the most Difficult Emotions, if not the most Difficult Emotion, to stay Present for.  It’s highly skilled at totally overwhelming the Present Moment and the Ego.  We can be Hypnotized just by hearing the name that our Shamers called us.  It would probably behoove to Meditate on every recollection we have of Shame, and maybe include…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Bravely, Lovingly, and Gently stay Present, Grounded, and Strong when Shame threatens to Arise, and even more so when it actually does Arise.  It Is Done, It is Done, It is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  …(deep Breath)…  Show me.”

Practice it, so you Recognize it instantly and Respond Lovingly to your Self and to the Stress in your Body.  It’s your Karma, it’s not something you haven’t Experienced before.  And you know in advance, if you remember, that this is a Flushback, not a re-enactment.  Karma is a movie.  You’re either in the audience, or sucked into the screen.  Let the Emotions wash over you, but stay in the audience this time, K?  The more you Practice, the Easier it gets.

Karma Station I

April 8, 2018

The Karma Station chart, in 15-19 Degrees, is pretty straightforward…

Asteroid Karma sets up a Dialog (Opposition) with dwarf planet Asbolus.  We learned last month that Asbolus signified those Intuition which, by putting us into “Learning Opportunities,” lead us into the sorts of Experience which result in Wisdom, if not a good time.  So our Dialog is likely to run something like…

Karma: “Well, are we going to confront our Held Emotions this week, or run the same tired Archetypes that we’re Conscious of only because they’re so Boring?”

Asbolus: “Uh, I was just about to Pray for Peace.”

And actually, while those two journeys will be very different, they both may lead us to where we want to go. 

Whichever way we Chose, our helpmate (Trine Bridge or blue lines) was our Essence (Sun).  What’s really most Powerful in each Moment – Standing Firm against a Challenge, or Leaning into Surrender?  Each moment is likely to be a little different.  As Jewel says, more or less, “If Praying was Enough, we’d be there already.”  But she’s referring to the Collective.  If we’re Praying for a Peaceful Experience of our own Life – Loving and Gentle Surrender of our Resistance, for instance –  we may be able to simply Melt Away our ancient Held Emotions.

On the other hand if we’re about to Pray for Peace because we’re in a Panic about what we Fear, dealing with our Fear first will be a lot more Powerful, because Praying while IN Fear is a lot like Praying FOR Fear.  Noticing, Breathing, Tapping, Kegeling till we’re more Grounded and Centered, and then Praying for Peace would probably Create Improved Outcomes.

The Curiosity Strategy (Quincunx Bridge or green lines) takes a very different path, through Commitment to Authenticity and Self-Sovereignty (Moon-Lilith).  While a good word for Asbolus is “Intuition,” a good word for the Moon is “Instinct.”  There’s a subtle difference there.  An Intuition is a Suggestion from our Higher Self.  Sometimes a very Strong Suggestion, but a Suggestion nonetheless, a Recommendation.  An Instinct on the other hand is more like an Order.

See if you can feel the Difference in your Body.  On the one hand, for a few moments move your Attention into your Essence…

Now for a few moments move your Attention into your Authenticity…

And now for a few moments move your Attention into your Self-Sovereignty…

No Conclusions, just Notice the Differences.  My Feeling Sense, Attention Span, and Quality of Attention of each was very Different, in ways that I wouldn’t have Expected.  Not better or worse, but Different.  Try the same exercise with Intuition and Instinct if you like.

The 24-28 Degree Zone in the Karma Station chart is a lot busier than the 15-19 Degree Zone…

The Grand Cross (heavy red lines, or Big Motivation) meets the Grand Trine (blue symmetrical triangle, or Great Blessings) in Eris-Uranus – Revelation of our Own Soul.  The Grand Trine, though, is stretched into a Kite by Haumea – Rebirth.  This, plus the fact that the Haumea T-Square, with Sedna and Sappho, makes the only Diamond Star in the Grand Cross, means that Rebirth is the Captain of this chart.  We’ll talk more about that in the next post.