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Self-Abandonment Full Moon

November 10, 2019

Well, that’s one option for the 12 November 2019 (5:30 am PST) Full Moon.  Hopefully we’ll Live it by Becoming Conscious of any Karmic Patterns we have to Give Our Power Away instead (the most likely hassle to accompany the Full Moon is a T-Square focused on Lilith/Self-Sovereignty and asteroid Karma/Karma). Trusting your Intuition will be Transformative (Finger of God to dwarf Planet Asbolus/Intuition, which Opposes asteroid Bee-Zed/Transcendence in the base of the T-Square).

The Full Moon itself is about Fear that we may Fail when we try to Change (asteroid Lachesis Opposite asteroid Eurydike) Negative Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) about ourself that Arise into our Awareness (Mercury) at this time.  It’s an unfounded Fear, as in this case the Challenge to our Ability to Change Karmic Habits is Self-Resolving (the Lachesis arm of the Full Moon Grand Cross is a Diamond Star).

A potential Bane is our Self-Doubt (Finger of God to dwarf planet Chariklo Conjunct Pluto), though I expect we’ll be Surprised at how quickly that Changes to Self-Confidence when we Let Go Of the Doubt.

The chart is less complicated than it looks…

Choosing Life or Despair II

November 2, 2019

As we mentioned in the earlier post, till 10pm today (2 November 2019) we shouldn’t be Surprised to find ourself Confused over how to Act to Protect our Self-Sovereignty.  We could well be up against an Ancient Habit to do otherwise – or to Wall ourself off too much.  My First Teacher used to say that if we’re Operating from a place of Love, we can Trust “the three Es” – we’re Energized, Excited, and Never Have to Explain Ourself.  Is there someone we Feel the Need to Explain Ourself to?  Or someone whom we want to think well of us, and we’re thinking that if we Explained Ourself it would help?

Asteroid Karma (Ancient Habits, possibly Self-Sabotaging) is Stationary (Strong) in Pisces (Letting Go of Emotional Baggage) at the focus of T-Square (Big Challenge), and Conjunct Lilith (Codependence/Self-Sovereignty) and Neptune (Material Confusion/Spiritual Clarity).  The T-Square springs from the Opposition between dwarf planet Asbolus (Intuition) and asteroid Bee-Zed (Transformation). 

We probably Intuitively Know how to Transform the Karma that’s Lit Up, but Choosing that Option is likely to be Difficult.  The situation may be Confounded by a strong internal Urge to Honor a Tradition from our Family of Origin or other Childhood Source that we Know is actually Prejudicial, and to do so would make us Doubt our own Commitment to Fairness.  We’re likely to be keenly Aware of the Downsides of either course of Action, and Uncertain of the Benefits.

Meanwhile Mars (Action) Squares (Challenges) a very complex combination of the Moon (our Instincts), Pluto (Compulsion, Transformation/Trance-Formation), dwarf planet Chariklo (Self-Confidence/Self-Doubt), and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things).  Here’s the chart…

Well, that’s all in the realm of Either/Or, isn’t it.  That’s about Politics, but if we Desire Integrity and Clarity, Politics is the wrong Direction.  We Confront an Either/Or by moving to Both/And.  When Either/Or has us over a barrel, though, Both/And seems way out of reach.  So we have to Invoke a Higher Power, and we all “have” one.  One quick way to get there is through what we call “PIAVA,” Prayer, Intention, Affirmation, Visualization, Asking, and several other silent letters like Wondering, Expanding, Commanding, among others.

We’re moving to the Quincunx (green line) between Mars and Karma, as the Key to the “Tricolor” Configuration of Asbolus Square (red line=Tension) Karma Quincunx (green=Curiosity) Mars Trine Asbolus (blue=Grace).  Addressing the Tension using Curiosity Liberates the Grace. 

Curiosity means we don’t know the Answer to an Either/Or question, and rather than Researching which to Choose, we Open ourself to Receiving a Higher Perspective that we don’t currently have.  “Beginner’s Mind” as the Buddhists call it.  We can do that with a Question-like Statement that’s not a Question, such as…

“I Wonder how I might Retain my Integrity yet Communicate Forthrightly, Honestly, and Clearly to everyone in this Conundrum.”

Then we have to “Change the Subject” – put our Full Attention Elsewhere.  If we continue to think about the Conundrum, we’ll freeze ourself in our usual Either/Or dilemma.  If that’s Difficult, we can try saying to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling Stuck, aren’t you.”  When our nose is deep in the Perceived Problem, we can’t see outside of it to Recognize Positive Alternatives.  So we Change the Subject, and Wait for our Intuition to provide us with New Perspectives.

Choosing Life or Despair

October 31, 2019

Just a quick warning, till I find time to write more.

Our Karma is Lit Up Strongly between now and 2 November 2019 (10pm PDT), particularly our Habits of Giving Away our Power to whomever Asks for it.

Asteroid Karma (Karma, Inertia, ancient Habits) is Stationary (Strong) Conjunct Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) and Neptune (Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity), at the focus of a T-Square (Big Challenge).

And we’re already Feeling a Disturbance in the (Life) Force as our Vitality is Illuminated between now and 4 November (1am PST).  This Disturbance may be for many a Turning Point in the Climate Change Emergency, as we reach a dual Decision point between Fate and Choice, and between Victimhood and Taking Charge.

Dwarf planet Varuna (the Life Force, Vitality) is Stationary (Strong) as one arm of a Kite (Grace Directed toward a Cause) with the Truth of our Values (asteroid Aletheia/Truth-of-the-Heart Conjunct Venus) on the other arm.  The central axis of the Kite is also the base of a T-Square (Big Challenge) that’s Focused on Climate Change (dwarf planets Pholus/Responsiveness and Quaoar/Survival-Instincts Conjunct on the Cusp of Capricorn/Just Fix It).

The base of the T-Square and central axis of the Kite is about whether or not we’re Willing to Take our Power – the Opposition between Despair and Miracles (Chiron) on the one hand and Victimhood or Action (asteroid Moira/Fate-or-Choice Conjunct dwarf planet Makemake/Manifestation) on the other hand. 

If we let either Chironean Discouragement or the Powerless Acceptance of our Moiraic Fate rule our Actions, we Lose.  But if we Allow Miracles to overcome Despair (by Poor-Sweethearting and then Changing the Subject, for instance), and move from Fate to Choice (by becoming Conscious of our Karma, for instance) we can begin to Manifest (Makemake) what we have Chosen.

Busy August IV

August 3, 2019

And Mercury was Stationary 45 minutes after the New Moon, and now Moves Forward again, so we’re likely to have a talkative couple of weeks as well.

I was kind of bummed this morning, when I noticed that it was a too-familiar Feeling, one I’ve spent a lot of time with over the course of my Life.  Then it dawned on me – Duh!  Asteroid Karma is Stationary 5 August!  It took a couple dozen Poor-Sweethearts to turn that around!

I’ve also noticed that I’ve been having a hard time getting enough Sleep, but I’m also not Feeling as tired as I “should” be from it most of the time when I’m awake.  That’s a typical Response to Uranus.  Uranus isn’t Stationary till 11 August, but Jupiter is Stationary on the same day, amplifying the Impact.  I usually allocate about a week to the Impact of an outer planet Station, but with a wide enough Perspective, I’m sure we could extend that to several months.

So we’ve got some homework to do…

A symbol for our Karma (asteroid Karma) is Strong (Stationary) from now till 5 August (3pm PDT), in 3 Aries and Merged With (Conjunct) the symbol for Converting Despair to Miracles (dwarf planet Chiron), which is handy, since our Karma often leaves us near Despair.

We convert Despair to Miracles through Self-Empathy, by Poor-Sweethearting ourself – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Discouraged again, aren’t you.”  With that simple statement, we Shift our Identity from Discouragement (I am Discouraged) to Compassion (the Self-Empathy).  We have to Change the Subject, or our Thoughts will dump us right back into Discouragement.  If we have trouble Changing the Subject – as is likely with Karma or Habits that are much older than our Current Incarnation, we have to repeat our Poor-Sweethearts.  It’s not how many times we fall down, it’s how many times we get up.

The Karma-Station chart…

…has six primary foci…

  • The Identification with dwarf planet Chiron, the symbol for Self-Empathy if we’re Conscious, and for Despair if we aren’t.
  • The symbol for Vitality (dwarf planet Varuna) stands alone on one half of the chart, making it a Standout.  It’s well placed, with more Grace than Challenge, but it does carry a warning – that we should Pay Attention to any Subtle Messages we get about whether we can do more to Protect our own Survival (Varuna sits at the Far Midpoint of a Sextile between dwarf planets OR10 [Intrusive Memories] and Pholus-Quaoar [Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts] – ie, at the focus of a Finger of God).
  • A Major Challenge to our Survival; Reality is a Mirror for what we Feel, so if we Persist in Indulging our Karmic Bummers instead of Poor-Sweethearting them, we’ll keep Birthing Bummers into Hardcopy Reality, and this will Bring Down the whole Planet (T-Square to Pholus-Quaoar from Karma-Chiron Opposite dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation]).
  • We are Challenged to Trust the Truth of This (T-Square to Veritas from the Opposition of Varuna to asteroid Eurydike [Trust]).  Remember that Truth is August’s Fundamental Issue, as Fact-Truth or Mind-Truth (Veritas) and Value-Truth or Heart-Truth (Aletheia) are both Strong (Stationary) during August.  Or re-read the recent post Truthiness 2, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/25/truthiness-2/.
  • The chart tells us that we need to Consciously contribute our own Energy – Gratitude and Excitement about Imaginary Miraculous Outcomes would be a great start (Grand Sextile Vacancy at 4 Gemini, “Holly and Mistletoe reawaken old memories of Christmas”).
  • We’re also called to Pay Attention to What Is Critical to our Vitality and What Inhibits our Vitality, and adjust our Priorities accordingly (Fire Grand Trine from Karma-Chiron to Varuna to dwarf planet Ceres [Sustainability and Sustenance]).

This is a fairly long article, but it’s a Perfect Illustration of the Karma-Station chart…

https://www.kosmosjournal.org/kj_article/the-holy-grail-of-restoration/

Ecosystem in Recovery

Our own Lives are parallel – when we allow our Unconscious Ancient Habits to run our Life, its Ecosystem collapses.  When we’re Willing to Break those Patterns, the Ecosystem of our Life Recovers its natural functions.  How to Break the Patterns?

Noticing what’s Going On in the Present Moment is the crucial First Step.  This morning I was Bummed.  I could have Accepted it as fait accompli and allowed my thoughts to trudge through all of my Karma‘s Previous Incarnations and likely Future Repetitions.  I could also have wasted my Energy worrying about shortage of Sleep.  To me this is the Value of astrology – instead I could Realize that asteroid Karma and Uranus are Lit Up, and Change the Water.  Of course I could do that without astrology as well, but every reminder helps!

Rebirth Full Moon II

June 16, 2019

Second, and almost as Foremost, at the 17 July Full Moon, is the symbol for Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) that’s Merged with the symbol for our Essence (the Sun).  And since a Full Moon is by definition a Dichotomy (Opposition) between our Essence and our Instincts (the Moon), this means a Dichotomy between our Forbidden Genius (Ixion) and our Unlimited Potential.

Nothing unusual about Dichotomies – in 3D we Live in Duality.  So we’re actually used to thinking that our Potential and what’s Forbidden are Either/Or.  We can either be good little Boys and Girls and Realize our Potential, or we can Rebel and make everybody Reject us.  That’s the Codependent Perspective, where the only way to Realize our Potential is through Socially Approved Channels.  Which is great if the World is Stable and Sane.

Which it ain’t these days.  The World is Changing Rapidly on just about all levels except Huper Responsibility, and is by no measure Psychologically Healthy.  The only thing we can Change is ourself, so if the World needs Changing, we have to Change it one self at a time – us.  As Pogo famously said long ago, “We Have Seen the Enemy.”  So what’s the first thing we have to Change?  The Socially Approved part, because that’s what’s suppressing Huper Responsibility and Psychological Health.  In Mythology and astrology there’s an Expert at Social Disapproval, namely Ixion.

So we turn the Dichotomy on it’s head.  We move toward Unlimited Potential by engaging the Forbidden.  You’re seeing it at the moment in Hong Kong, recently in France, soon in the British Isles.  Engaging the Forbidden doesn’t necessarily mean Confrontation though; there are a million ways to do it Constructively, without making everybody Angry (except your Programmers and their Internalizations).  Here’s one example – https://www.washingtonpost.com/business/2019/06/12/new-plan-remove-trillion-tons-carbon-dioxide-atmosphere-bury-it/.

In this environment we Succeed by Dismissing one of the “Shoulds” that shout at us, and instead Embracing one of the Intuitions that are always Whispering sweet nothings in our ear.

Which isn’t always easy, because as Hupers we’re Encapsulated in our Habits, and no Habits are more Difficult to Escape than our Karma.  And at this Full Moon those Habits are front and center, and Challenging us to Break Free of them (the Full Moon is T-Squared by asteroid Karma).  Well, we’re hardly rookies around our Karma, especially lately, so it’s not like this is an unfamiliar Challenge for us.  We could even Remind everyone that the Journey from 3D to 5D can easily be Reframed as the Journey of Cleansing ourself of our Karma.

As Mother Gaia moves deeper into Her Split between 3D and 5D, Cleansing our individual Karma gets more and more critical, so it’s good that it’s Lit Up here.  It’s not difficult to see what a Morass the 3D version is rapidly becoming, so the sooner we depart the better.  Waiting around for the Psychopaths to Change won’t serve your Future at all, you’ll just end up with them Running the Asylum, as if they aren’t already.  If you aren’t sure what the 3D-5D Split is all about, read Michael Roads’s Through the Eyes of Love series.  His is the only place I’ve seen it clearly described, though I don’t think he ever uses the terms.

That’s the Meat of the Full Moon itself, but we still have four other Prominent Features to go, not to mention the Hidden Treasures.  So, to be continued, though here’s an outline…

Grand Cross

Golden Rectangle

Diamond Star

Moon-Ixion-Galactic Center

The Hidden Treasures are…

Nemesis-Mercury-North Node

Upcoming Stations

Gifts 3

February 28, 2019

There’s a lot going on in this week’s primary chart, which we included in Gifts 1 several days ago.  It would be better to break out each of the main Patterns or Configurations, but I haven’t had time.  We already discussed the Manifestation and Choice (Makemake-Moira Station) Self-Resolving Challenge (Diamond Star), and next we’ll cover the Searching and Fearless Inventory (Karma-Veritas Station) Diamond Star.  Find a Diamond Star in the chart by looking for a red triangle that’s also the point of a green wedge, like the ones pointing to Makemake and asteroid Karma.

Diamond Stars, or Self-Resolving Challenges, have five Players.  The crux of the Challenge is embedded in the planet at the point of the red triangle (T-Square or Challenge) and green wedge (Finger of God or Pay Attention to This!).

Here that’s asteroid Karma.  We interpret that straightforwardly as Karma, but by that we don’t mean Retribution, we mean Inertia, Habit Patterns.  Yes, we very much bring them with us into each Lifetime.   We ain’t “blank slates” when we’re born, we’re fully developed Personalities, we’re just very Spaced Out from our journey through the Wormhole.

You know how difficult or easy it can be to Change a Habit, depending on how long and how often we’ve used it to make Life Easier.  Our Karmic Patterns are multi-Lifetime by definition, and one of their defining characteristics is that we usually use them to Defend ourself against certain Emotions that our Ego Believes will be Fatal if we Feel them.  You know the second-grade rule, “Sticks and Stone may Break my Bones, but Emotions will Never Hurt me.”  Bullshit.  Emotions can be more Painful than a Broken Bone.

So yes, even in the best of circumstances, Karma is Challenging, but this is a Self-Resolving Challenge, so it’s a tremendous Gift.  We’ll carry into our next Lifetime any Karma that we don’t Let Go Of Now, so Self-Resolving Karma isn’t just Life-Changing, it’s Game-Changing.  I don’t know if you’ve ever had the Experience, or Interpreted it this way, but when you Let Go of a significant chunk of Karma, you can actually see the Movies Changing as they march off into the Infinite Future, like giant multidimensional Dominoes!  It’s Exhilarating!

The second major Player in this Diamond Star is the Stationary (28 February, 11pm PST) asteroid Veritas, which means Truth.  So Facing the Truth of our Karma is what’s going on here, but that doesn’t mean Admitting we were Abusive in Roman days or anything Retributive like that.  It means Being Willing to Experience the Emotions that Scare the Shit out of us.  But remember, this is Self-Resolving! So not only is it, relatively, no Big Deal, it’s Easy, and a Big Relief.  Really it’s the Opportunity of a Lifetime!  No, more like the Opportunity of a Long Span of Lifetimes!!

Be particularly Attentive to Fear.  If it threatens to arise, Kegel it.  Our Karma is hidden beneath layers and layers of Subterfuge, Judgment, and Rationalization.  Ever meet someone who announces that they “Aren’t the kind of person that…”?  Or who “Can’t understand how anyone could like…”?  Or who is Unwaveringly Certain that they Know They’re Right about…?  Those are the kind of tightly sealed Cartons that we pack our Karma into so we can Pretend it’s a Virtue rather than a Limitation.

Then we go around looking for Other people who share our Limitation, to Protect ourself from the hidden underlying Emotions even more.  Once we start opening those Cartons to see what’s inside, we’re likely to find Fear.  If we’ve Trained ourself to be ultrasensitive to the first signs of Fear (which Opportunity our early February Adventures with Sedna Offered to us), then we can catch it Early enough to just Grab it and Hug it.  We Grab and Hug Fear by Kegeling.  If we’re quick enough, we only need one Kegel.  If we let the Fear grow before we Notice it and Respond, we may also need Breathing and Tapping.

The Kegels 5 post is a good quick review of February if you need it – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/02/07/kegels-5/.

Asteroid Veritas sits on one side of the Base of the red triangle or T-Square.  The Base of a T-Square is an Opposition, two planets that sit on opposite sides of the Zodiac.  An Opposition is an Apparent Contradiction.  Apparent because there are no Contradictions in the Real World, they exist only in the Dualistic mind.  The Opposition is the Second-Harmonic Angle, and the Second Harmonic is about Ritual.  Ritual gains its considerable Power through Repetition.   We Repeat the hell out of those Cartons we mentioned that we use to obscure our Karma from ourself, the more the merrier!  Or so our Ego Believes.

On the Other side of the Zodiac from Veritas in this Configuration is Mars (Action, Anger).  The suggestion is that we can process this Karma quickly by just Looking For, Admitting, and Embracing all of the Anger we’ve become accustomed to Repressing.  I suspect you’ve already been Re-Experiencing odd snippets of Childhood Anger that have been popping up without apparent provocation.  Look at your Life through the Eyes of Anger.

For instance, all your Life other people have been Rejecting or refusing to acknowledge your Hidden Genius.  You’re used to it.  Like my New Yorker friend said, “There are eleven million people in New York, so if you’re one in a million there are eleven other people here just like you!”  Since our Hidden or Forbidden Genius is usually wrapped tightly in Shame, however, meeting them on friendly terms may not be Easy.  You may even be starting to Acknowledge your Genius as an unappreciated Gift, so you don’t even bother to Judge the Naivete of others, they just don’t know any better.

That’s Great, but turn it around for a moment, just as an exercise.  Shame is Anger turned inward, and it’s Toxic.  It’s probably a major contributor to Cancer, as the Cells attempt to Mirror to the Ego what’s going on deep inside the Organism.  It may be hard to find, but somewhere down there you’re Angry at not being Recognized, Angry at the Blind Spots in your Culture that make you Invisible.  More important, you’re Angry at your Childhood Programmers for making you Ashamed of your Greatest Gift to the Planet.

This is not trivial, because Giving that Gift to the World is a critical piece in the Gigantic Puzzle that will bring the World back into Balance.  Our Mutual Survival depends on it.  That long-buried Anger may be barely Recognizable as Anger, but it was there.  Find it, Poor Sweetheart it, Embrace it, Love it to Death.  This is a rare Get-Out-of-Jail-Free card.  When we Stuffed that Anger we also Stuffed a critical part of Our Self and Soul.  Reach in, pull it out, and give it a Place of Honor on your Altar.

The other two points on a Diamond Star sit at each end of the Base of the green wedge or Finger of God.  These form the Cat’s-Cradle of blue lines that represent the Grace that Allows the Diamond Star to be Self-Resolving.

The first of these two is asteroid Moira.  If we recall from Gifts 1 that Moira is about Fate, which is our Karma when we aren’t Conscious of it, and about Choice, which is Liberated when we become Conscious.  Once we Recognize that we have a Karmic Pattern to Do such-and-such or React to such-and-such, we’re Free to Choose to Change the Habit. This is one element of the Grace making the Dismissal of our Karma Self-Resolving.

The second element of Grace here is the dwarf planet Orcus.  Orcus is about Making and Breaking Oaths.  Oaths, Vows, Promises, Commitments – they represent a big part of the Foundation of the Patriarchy.  Once you make an Oath, you Surrender your Free Will and your Future.  Oaths are not generally considered Revertible.  You will then, if you’re Loyal to your Oath, adjust your Behavior and Speech to reflect it.  These become Habits.  Then you forget that you made the Oath, and your Habits become your Karma, your deep Patterns that lie beyond your ordinary Conscious Control.

Till you Let Go of the KarmaKarma does not Grasp us, we Grasp our Karma.  Letting Go of it is Effortless.  We have only to Recognize that, and Commit ourself to Letting Go of the Old Patterns and Expectations, while Developing New ones.  Notice, though, that this is a new Commitment, another Oath.  The Oath process is a fundamental part of Existence.  We don’t Eliminate it, we Adapt it to What We Want, and we as best we can Remain Conscious of which Commitments Serve us best, while we Jettison the rest.  We can’t Live without Oaths and hence Limitations, but we can Minimize them.

More Healing

November 19, 2018

Here’s a quick review of what’s coming up…

 

22 November – Full Moon at 1 Gemini (9:30 pm PST). 

We’ve seen this Cuspal Action a few times recently, for instance https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/11/02/fire-earth-air-4/

A major theme of this Full Moon is Choosing to Allow Chronic Physical issues to be Healed Instantaneously.  We have two major categories of Resistance to this – first, we don’t Believe it’s Possible because we’ve been taught otherwise.  And Second, when we do Allow this, it won’t be the only thing in our Life that Changes, so unless we’re Prepared for that, our Ego will Resist the ancillary Changes, and that will reinstate the Chronic issue that we’re “Comfortable” with.  Don’t for a minute think that Comfort and Victimhood can’t co-exist; we’re all a bit Proud of our Victim Postures, or we wouldn’t keep giving them Support.

The Moon Conjoins Lachesis (Consciously Choosing the length of a Timeline), and while the rest of the chart forms a bowl, North Node-Varuna (Mission-Life Force) is an outlier Reflecting all of the other planets.

We could also easily find that our Abuse Memories continue to plague us until we Accept the fact that it is Resistance to our Held Emotions and Comfort with our Karma that lock us into Dyspleasure.  This is a bit of a Gordian Knot, but for starters we can Strive to get Conscious of the ways we are Comfortable with our Karma, and we can Ask ourself “What Emotions do I Refuse to Feel?”

Mars-OR10 T-Squares the Full Moon, while Chiron (Despair and Miracles) Squares a Stellium of Karma (q.v.), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), and Pholus (Ability to Respond rather than React).

On the other hand, the Opportunity for Healing is Immense.

Klotho (Beginnings) Conjoins the South Node (Held Emotions), indicating that we may Begin to be Willing to Embrace what we’ve been Rejecting as “I’d rather Die than do that!” – or that our Held Emotions will Begin to bother us more, as Hidden Psychological Bugaboos will eventually go to great lengths to get themselves Revealed.  Since this Opposes Varuna-North Node, our Preference for continuing to Live our Karma as Physical Discomfort may get tested.

And Soul (Uranus) makes Blessed Angles to our PTSD (Mars-OR10) and to our Need to Take Responsibility (Karma-Quaoar-Pholus).  Remember that Responsibility means Able-to-Respond-to-Improve-Outcomes; Blame Lives in a totally different Universe.

The Biggest Configuration in the Full Moon chart is this Nose-Cone…

It’s a graphic illustration of the incredible Synergy between Beginning to Open Up to our Held Emotions (Klotho-South Node deep in the soup on the right) and Investing our Life Force in our Life Mission (Varuna-North Node on the left).  You can almost Feel the Energy bouncing back and forth like a laser till it reaches Escape Velocity.  Our Held Emotions obscure the very Skills we need in order to Energize our Mission, Skills we accrued in, or borrow from, Other Lifetimes.  The Other Lifetimes need not even be “our own” – when we’re Clear enough, we have direct access, through our Mitochondria, to All the Information in the Universe.  We Are after all All One.

 

By the way, asteroid Karma moved from Sagittarius (Let My People Go!) to Capricorn (Just Fix It!) on 16 September (8pm PST if your Journal is that accurate).  Capricorn is more Difficult than Sagittarius in some ways.  In Sagittarius all we have to do is Let Go; the hard part is Realizing it.  Who would think, after a Lifetime of being ravaged by our Karma, that all we ever had to do was just Let Go of it!  In Capricorn we have to Work at it.  We might even have to Plan-Execute, but beginning with PIAVA will always give us a rocket start.

 

24 November – Neptune Station at 14 Pisces (5pm PST). 

Neptune’s Bottom Line is that it is characterized by Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity.  Which is great as long as we Remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.  Mostly because our Childhood World was not Safe, our Programmed Reaction to Confusion is to Try to Figure It Out so we can find Safety.  Whether we succeed or not, this Act of Thinking kills our Growth and freezes us inside our old cage.  When Neptune is Lit Up, there’s no point in Thinking; you’ll never Figure It Out.  We’ll just get more Confused.

Till we switch to our Spiritual Eyes. 

The Neptune-Station chart is very Singular.  It offers tremendous Insight into what drives our Limitations, while making it Clear that to Grow into that Illumination, we’ll need to drop some Deep Judgments that Define us.  You know, them Ego Deaths we’ve mentioned occasionally.  Remember it’s not “I’d rather Die!” it’s “I’d rather Die.”  It’s not You that’s threatened, it’s your “I,” your Identity, your Ego.  The other 99.999% of You will continue just fine, and far better off than before your greatly-Exaggerated Demise.

Stationary Neptune Opposes Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and Squares Nemesis (Ego Death) and Hopi (Respect for All Things).  It’s also the focus of a Mjölnir Kite (yellow diamond) from Venus Square North Node (Values that Conflict with our Mission)…

Limitation is Created by Oaths, Vows, Promises.  Once we Forget that as Sovereign Entities we still have Choice regardless of our Oaths, or we Forget the Oaths themselves, our Limitations become our Karma.  Of course we still have the Choice to Step Out the Back Jack (Sagittarius), or at least Work At It (Capricorn) to just Let our Karma Go, but who Remembers that?  At least we aren’t Resolved to our Fate; that’s a Soul Death rather than an Ego Death.  “Wer immer strebend sich bemüht, Den können wir erlösen.”

Our Oaths morph into our Values, and then we really Invest Ego into them.  When we Betray our Values, we don’t just Betray whomever we Pledged ourself to, we Betray Family.  Betraying Family is like Banishment.  Unless we’ve done our Walkabout or Vision Quest, one of our strongest Limitations is that we don’t Believe that we can Survive without Family.  Our Values are up for review.

 

1 December – Vesta enters Aquarius (12:30 pm PST).

I think of asteroid Vesta as symbolizing our Bottom-Line Beliefs.  Our Values might be what we Strive for, but our Beliefs Describe the Edges of the World we Live in. 

One of our Strongest Tools for Growth is the Willingness to Suspend Disbelief. 

Capricorn is so hard-headed that Suspending Disbelief since late September has probably been Difficult.  Aquarius, which adores Wishful Thinking, should make it Easier to Try On New Beliefs like we would clothes, through late January.  Aquarius can however tend toward Fundamentalism – Believing that our Metaphors are literally True, which makes Other People’s Metaphors fake news.  We Grow by being able to Grok that Contradictions are a property of the Dualistic Mind, not a property of the World we Observe The Real World is Multifarious and Unitary, which Dualism isn’t capable of Understanding.

 

While the Greeks invented Patriarchy, they continued to have deep Respect for Goddesses and their Magnetic Rituals.  The Romans on the other hand, pretty much institutionalized Patriarchy.  The Greek Hestia (which Conjoins Uranus as we speak) was Goddess of the Hearth, while the Roman equivalent Vesta was made Virgin Goddess of the State.  By the time the Popes got done reworking Roman culture, the Marys and their peers were very much also-rans.

The asteroids Aletheia (Greek for Truth) and Veritas (Latin for Truth) both orbit in a bit over 5½ years, Veritas taking a month longer for each full circuit.  Consequently, their Cycle together is three Centuries long.  The current Cycle was Initiated in December 2003 at 29 Capricorn, “A woman reading tea leaves.”  Aletheia and Veritas dance together until 2035, when Aletheia begins skipping ahead for the next several Centuries.  The previous Cycle spanned 1675 to 2003.

While the Impact will likely be subtle, we can presume that the New Cycle will be Stronger when Aletheia Leads Veritas, while the Old Cycle will try to reassert itself when Veritas Leads.  Aletheia Led December 2003-May 2004, January 2009-May 2010, and March 2014-May 2016, and will Lead again October 2019-May 2022, November 2024-April 2028, June 2030-May 2034, and from August 2035 on.

Since May 2016, the Latin Veritas has been Leading.  In October 2019, however, the Greek Aletheia takes the baton back, until 2022.  Aletheia may be a bit more likely to Enquire how someone else’s Opinions have evolved, rather than to simply label them as Wrong.  If that holds true, it would be a Blessing for the next US election.

 

While Mercury goes Direct again at the New Moon on 6 December, the next Biggie is the simultaneous Stations of Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and Orcus (Breaking Oaths) on 9-10 December.  Those should help us ferret out the ancient Oaths which have stuck our Karma to us like flypaper and enforced our Limitations.  It’s worth noting that Recanting our Obsolete Oaths, Allowing our Held Emotions, gaining Awareness of our Unconscious Fears, and Recovering our Hidden Genius are really all just different parts of the same Elephant.

Then, finally, we get a week or so off!

Half-Marathon

November 10, 2018

The next few weeks will be a bit like a half-marathon, as we run through three gauntlets and nine astroevents in rapid succession.

 

First up, on 11 November (1:30pm PST) Ceres moves into Scorpio until almost the end of January.  Ceres is about Sustainability, and Scorpio is about Getting To The Bottom of Things.  We’ve been trying to isolate Sustainable Relationships (Libra) since early September.  Now we just Want a Sustainably Lifestyle.  Well, the Easiest way to Achieve Sustainability is to think in terms of Sustenance. 

Sustenance – What Can We Do Without? – is the flip side of the Sustainability Coin.  You may be considering it already.  Turning off lights when you leave the room?  Thinking about how to get along without something instead of how to get it?  The payoff will Surprise you.  With Sign Changes, the Zeitgeist just Changes.  The more Sensitive you are to the planet and Signs, the sooner you’ll Notice it – if you’re looking, of course.

 

There are three Stations on 15-16 November, so those will keep us occupied till then.  Station Energy is most intense before the Exact Station, building as we approach the Station, then dropping off sharply.  Usually.  There are exceptions, and we need to talk about those.  Remind me.  And asteroid Karma enters Capricorn on the 16th (8pm PST).

Karma’s been in Sagittarius since the Ides of January.  Sagittarius of course is about Letting Go, so we’ve had a good run – haven’t we.  Remember how much more Limited your Life was last winter?  Karma even went Retrograde in Sagittarius, so it hung out there longer, just for us.  It only takes about ten weeks to cross Capricorn instead of ten months.  That’s just as well, because Capricorn, which stands for “Just Do It,” can get us in trouble when it comes to Karma.  Till the end of January, if it’s Habitual, we should “Just Do It For The Last Time.”  Ok?

The three 15-16 November Stations are…

  • Asteroid Moira on 15 November (4am PST).  Moira is about Choice.
  • Venus on 16 November (3am PST), which is about our Values.
  • Mercury on 16 November (5:30 pm PST) – Communication, Awareness, Mentality.

So we’re likely to Experience it as we might Experience a Moira-Venus-Mercury Initiation, meaning we’re becoming Aware that we have Choices around our own Values.  Our Betters make a big deal about Living Up To Our Values, but when you think about it, what they really want you to do is Live Up to Their Values.  You gain a lot of Self-Sovereignty when you see through that Farce.

This isn’t a real Initiation, but if it was, again depending on how Sensitive we are to it, the Energy would be very Strong on both sides of the Exact Intiation, but there would be a Shift in your Attitude.  Beforehand you’d be glib about it as if no one was watching you critically.  Then after the Exact Initiation you’d feel increasingly censured, till you took the Energy Underground.  Which is what you’ll probably do.  For a while.  Unless it’s your Mission.

We should Review Moira a bit.  Moira means Fate.  But Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we become Conscious, we Realize we don’t have to do that any more.  Fate + Consciousness = Choice.  So we Interpret Fate as Choice.  Astrology, at least the kind that we do, is about Growing our Consciousness.  So as astrologers we always Ask first and Ask last, “Are you Conscious of this?”  Right?  With an open mind. 

Sure, they teach traditional astrology as if it was as reliable as Engineering.  When I take a course in astrology and assume it’s a seminar, and start contributing the Insights I’ve Learned from astrology, I’m usually “corrected.”  But in Real Life we’re all Different, and you’ll never know when you’re going to meet someone who’s Different from anyone you or the astroelders ever met.  Especially when more of the Others come ashore.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equals.  That’s why we’re advised never to use Negation when we PIAVA, and that’s why we often get the Opposite of what we Asked for when we PIAVA (which is a sign of Success).  The Unconscious has Dimensions, but it’s not Dualistic; its Directions are Circular.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with PIAVA, it’s a bottom-line concept to bring into Consciousness for the current Eon – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

 

The Big Challenge arrives in earnest before 19-20 November.  We’ll Feel this one well before that, because it’s a Biggie, and the three days between the 16th and the 19th aren’t long enough for it to run its course.  So we’ll have to go back and modify the previous Interpretation later.

The Biggie is about Nessus and OR10. Nessus Stands Still on 19 November (7am PST), and OR10 does the same on 20 November (9pm PST).

We’ve done this before recently, many times, as the two were fellow travelers for several years.  They’re no longer fellow travelers (in the sense of being Merged), but when they have Stations together it Feels like they’re Merged again.  Nessus represents Abuse and Privilege, OR10 Invasive Memories.  So this is mostly about Recovering Abuse Memories.  Recovering is the good part, because it’s not possible to Let Them Go while they’re still Unconscious.

Now, while Nessus and OR10 were Merged, we Merged with these not-so-pleasant Memories, usually Feeling Shame or/and Rage in the process.  So we’re likely to Re-Experience that, and being Creatures of Habit (er, Karma, ie Inertia), we’ll be Expecting to Merge with them again.  But we won’t, unless we make that Unconscious Choice.  We don’t need to. 

We can make the Conscious Choice to Dislodge our Identity from them this time, because now the Energies themselves are no longer Merged.  As time goes on they’ll be less and less Merged, so start now or you’ll find yourself Out of Synch with the Universe later.  Whatever sort of Ascension, 5D, Enlightenment, Bliss, Collaboration, Community, Ease, or other kind of Grace you Want to characterize your Future, being Out of Synch with the Universe won’t help at all.

This is Subtle, so Pay Attention.  When someone Abuses us and we Remember, once we get past the Shame, we Want Revenge.  We’ll Forgive eventually (even though that Feels Impossible most of the time), but we Want some kind of Compensation for having Endured that.  It Ruined our Life after all.  But here’s the Secret – Revenge will be so much more Successful if you’re no longer Attached or Identified with your Rage.  Sure, Living Well is the Best Revenge, and that may be the Choice you make.  But even if you Decide that you do want Payback, you’ll be able to exact a finer torture if you’re Neutral.

Remember, Karma is Inertia, not Retribution.  It’s Force of Habit, continuing to Choose an old Habit because it’s the Easiest thing to do – Automatic, in fact.  That’s why we need Consciousness to Abandon our Karma, because we have to Notice it before we can Change it.  Hard to Notice what’s Automatic.  So we aren’t talking about accumulating “Bad Karma” for exacting Revenge.  We’re talking about Teaching someone a Lesson they won’t Forget. 

So what if they’re Old now; we take our Karma with us to Other Lifetimes, so they’ll continue to Abuse if they don’t Learn their Lesson.  They need to be able to Notice what it feels like to be Abused, and they need to Realize that Other People aren’t their Property to be used as toys.  Once you’ve Let Go of your Rage, you’ll be able to plan an exquisite curriculum for them.  Dull blades are Harder to Ignore.  As they say, Forgive the Person, not the Behavior.  But first you have to show them that the two are Different.  As long as they’re Unconscious, the Behavior is the Person.

Now, about Forgiveness.  Like any other sort of Consciousness, Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery.  One day we just Notice that we don’t hold ill will against them any more.  Yes, we can make a Choice to Forgive – it’s just a PIAVA, but that’s really a Choice to enter into the process of Forgiving.  It’s unlikely to take you to Forgiveness straightaway, unless you were ready anyway. 

We always need to “Be Careful What We Ask For,” or better yet, “Be Mindful of What We’ve Asked For,” so we can monitor and Interpret the Funhouse-Mirror events that PIAVAs can Create when we aren’t quite ready to Receive them.  Like getting sicker initially after we Ask for Healing – we Feel sicker, so we take more of the Toxins that were making us sick.  Or finding Abuse Memories arising after we Ask for Healing of our Abuse.  No, it don’t Feel good, but we have to get them into Consciousness in order to Change them.  If we aren’t Aware of the way Consciousness arrives, we can easily tie ourself in knots.

Now, how are we likely to Experience an OR10-Nessus-Moira-Venus-Mercury faux Initiation, because that’s probably what much of November 10-20 will Feel like?  Well, put all the terms in a sentence.  Invasive Memories, Abuse, Choice, Values, Awareness.  Maybe something like Becoming Aware that we have Choice around the Values that we Created for ourself as a result of early Abuse that we now Remember?  Or becoming Aware that we have Repressed Memories of Abuse, and Choosing to Alter our Values to make room for their Recovery?

 

The Full Moon on the Cusp of Gemini follows closely, on 22 November (9:30 pm PST), and Neptune Stands Still shortly after that, on 25 November (5pm PST) at the Midpoint of Pisces.  The Cusp of Gemini is the quintessential point of Letting Go.  Neptune is a Powerful planet, so we’re likely to begin to Feel some Neptune Energy before we’re done with our Big Challenge.  The most Important thing to Remember about Neptune is that it renders the Material World Confusing. 

It also adds Clarity to our view of the Spiritual World, but that Confusion is what we want to Pay Attention to here, because Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, and Growth is what we want.  But, we have to Avoid reacting to Confusion by trying to “Figure It Out.”  If we Intellectualize it, we will Restrict our Growth to Zero, because it’s our Intellectual Cage that Constrains our Limited World View and with it our Limited Reality. 

Confusion is one of the most Precious and Powerful Gifts we’ll ever be Given; don’t spoil it by Thinking it out of Existence.  Relish it.  Be Excited by it.  Breathe, do Kegels.  Don’t Tap Out your Confusion; Tap out your Need to Intellectualize your Confusion.

“Even though I’m really tempted to make up Stories that can Rescue me from Feeling Confused, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  We can’t Tolerate Confusion because it takes us back to when we weren’t Safe, when someone who was supposed to Love us was Abusing us, and it didn’t make sense, and we had to Figure Out how to Escape.  It was a matter of Life and Death.

Like Curiosity, one of our highest Priorities should be Allowing Confusion to be an Emotion that Stands on its own.  A Real Emotion doesn’t have a direct or indirect Object.  It’s “I Feel Angry,” not “I Feel Angry about…” or “-at.”  Feelings are Intransitive, if you know your grammar rules.  The modifiers we so often put on our Feeling-words take them out of the realm of Emotion and put them in the realm of Thought.  The “-about” and “-at” and other Object-like additions are Thoughts, not Feelings.

In Truth, because we’re so seldom in the Present Moment, and because we aren’t Omniscient, we never actually know the Sources of our Emotions.  We Feel Angry.  Period.  We don’t know Why.  We can know what Triggered our Anger, maybe, if we’re Aware of what transpired just before we Felt it.  But even that just tells us what the Trigger was, not the Cause.  We might be Angry because an Unconscious Abuse Memory was just Triggered, and maybe the actual Triggering was a brown coat. 

Sure, we can make up Stories about the person who was wearing the brown coat, to Imagine that they were doing all manner of awful things to us, because our Unconscious Memory is about all manner of awful things.  But they’re Innocent.  Even the Antichrist is Innocent.  We have no idea who in our Personal or Cultural or Karmic History he reminds us of.  Pontius Pilate perhaps, or Brad the Impaler, or Adolf Hitler.  For many of us, those Concentration Camps and Death Chambers are a very recent Memory, even in Linear Time.

I was born nine months to the day after the Firebombing of Hamburg.  I didn’t even know Hamburg was Firebombed until I looked up when Dresden was Firebombed because I was wondering why my teachers always said that my German accent sounded so authentic and because I used to paint pictures of cities on fire and because I used to have so many Memories and Experiences of No Way Out.  And then there was the Firebombing of Tokyo – look that one up.  Not to mention Vietnam. 

See, what’d I tell you, Abuse Memories already.

Another Molt III

October 18, 2018

I can usually tell when folks are having hard times, by the number of folks calling up the blog as a whole, rather than a specific article.  Not so many this week, so I’m assuming folks are doing fine, which is great!  You’re Transcending Ego Death Transparently, Congratulations!

It’s been a busy week for me, so I’ve just interpreted the astrology directly.  Let’s catch up a little – here’s the 18 October Nemesis Station chart…

Our fundamental Challenge (T-Square) is to make Sustainable (Ceres) the Powerful Rebirth (Pluto-Klotho) of our Choice of Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).  That Challenge is compounded by the Duality (Opposition) between Ego Death (Nemesis-Asbolus) and our Limiting Beliefs and Self-Destructive Habits (asteroid Karma), creating quite an Opportunity. 

The process is Eased and made almost Automatic by the Air Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings around thought and Communication) connecting Nemesis, Ceres, and the Moon (Authenticity).  Traditional astrology tells us that the focus of a T-Square which is also a corner of a Grand Trine, is a Challenge we may be able to walk through Transparently, without even noticing. 

But the downside of a Grand Trine is Arrogance – if we’re born with one we tend to think everybody else must be pretty dumb because they can’t do what we do Effortlessly.  Until we Discover that everyone has their own Adeptness, and this just happens to be ours.  This is one reason why sports is emphasized in education – teamwork doesn’t work worth beans when the 150-pound sprinters are protecting the quarterback and the 300-pound brick walls are trundling downfield to catch passes.

In other words, by Enjoying Effortlessness this last week, we could be missing the Lesson.  By all means Enjoy all the Effortlessness you can find!  But to really accelerate our Consciousness, we be ahead to spend an hour or so contemplating why it was an Easy week.  What were we doing differently than we usually do? 

For instance, my natal Saturn is in Gemini, so Disciple and me are from different planets.  But I just finished several weeks of intense workload and deadlines, and did it Easily.  How?  I did something I’ve never done before – I used a calendar to schedule things.  Pretty primitive Discipline, but radical for the likes of Saturn in Gemini.

I did it without ever having to Choose to do what I didn’t Want to do at any time, which is a Protocol I follow as much as I can.  After many years of Living Saturn in Gemini I do know that what’s Most Important does get done on time, somehow.  And it gets done a lot more Efficiently, let alone more Enjoyably, than when I ignore my Moment-to-Moment Wants and Force it.

So I need to pause and Celebrate the Unique way my Saturn operates.  Hail Saturn in Gemini!  Turns out that in the Nemesis-Station charts, Saturn sits on the Near Midpoint between Klotho-Pluto and Karma, and the Far Midpoint between Nemesis-Asbolus and Moira.  So Saturn is a Powerful Sleeper here.  For me, at least part of the Gift was about using Discipline Effortlessly.

We should also point out that the Grand Trine was a Kite, focusing the Grace of the Grand Trine itself on the fourth planet at the head of the Kite, asteroid Karma.  So we were also Gifted by Ease at Transcending our Self-Sabotaging Patterns and Habits.  That also illuminates my Saturn “Lesson.”  What do you suppose your own Lesson about Sustaining Consciousness was?

No. II

September 15, 2018

Here’s a start at the Details.  The 17 September Station is Hylonome’s.  She was a Centaur who was so distraught that her Lover was killed in the disturbance where Chiron was injured, that she killed herself with the same arrow that killed her Lover.  Evidently Life without him was worthless.  In other words, she was Merged with him, she couldn’t tell where she ended and he began.

Now these Greek Myths tell us what happens when we’re Unconscious.  When we’re Conscious, we have Choices.  So, leaning toward Consciousness, we interpret dwarf planet Hylonome as the Choice to set Boundaries that facilitate our own Self-Sovereignty.  In general, we regard Self-Sovereignty as good, but we recognize that this is a Judgment, and that Judgment and Unconditional Love make uneasy mates. 

Our Judgment is Conditional – one of the characteristics of the Patriarchy is that most of us were/are Codependent – Merged with Others.  Perhaps with a Lover, maybe with a Boss, perhaps a Hero, maybe an Antagonist.  As we leave the Patriarchy behind, moving out of Codependence is an important step, because outside of the Patriarchy, the Power structure isn’t nearly as hierarchical. 

In organizations that have embraced the Digital Age, management structures have flattened considerably, as the wider spread of information has allowed Decision-Making to move lower in the structure.  The Digital Age spans the first two Centuries of the Age of Aquarius.  We’ll have more to say about Self-Sovereignty later, but for now we’ll consider it to be a positive trend.

So here’s the core of the Hylonome Station chart…

The Station itself occurs at 6pm PDT, but we’ve drawn the chart for 8pm PDT to give the Moon time to catch up to Hylonome, as the Moon frequently serves as a Timer for larger events.

Most of you are probably too young to remember Patty Hearst’s apparent Merger with her kidnappers, but Merging with our Abusers is not at all uncommon – in fact it may be the only way we can Tolerate Abuse in situations where we don’t feel like we have a Choice.And most of us have been in that situation to one degree or another, probably many times.  Employment comes to mind.

On the left corner of the red square in the chart above is the dwarf planet Nessus, symbolizing Abuse and it’s Opposite, Privilege.  The red square is a “Grand Cross,” and it means that we bounce around between its four corners, exploring their relationships with one another.  On the right corner are the dwarf planet Orcus, symbolizing Oath-making and -breaking, and asteroid Pallas, which represents Boundaries.

Do you remember how Confused you were about your Boundaries with your Abusers?  Do you remember making Oaths, maybe to never Talk Back, maybe to never get into that situation again, maybe to get even someday, maybe to somehow Escape, maybe never to tell anyone.  Every Oath we’ve ever made and not Disavowed, is still in our Field and Limiting our Life.

So just looking at these two corners of the Grand Cross, we can see that we’re deep into Reconsidering our Boundaries against Abuse and the Oaths we made around it.  Abuse can take many forms.  We can all think of the obvious ones, but Abuse includes things like chronic Disrespect.  Whenever someone treats you as less than a Spark of the Divine, that’s Abuse.  And whenever you treat someone else as less than Divine. 

As these issues arise, remember that Confusion is good.  Confusion is the first step of Growth, but only if we Allow Confusion to stand on its own.  If our Response is to compulsively Figure It Out, we can’t help but get stuck in our Old Birdcage.  That’s one of the worst elements of Abuse – as Divine Beings, it’s Unbelievably Confusing that someone would Abuse us.  Our Oaths in Response were to Allay Confusion.  We need to Celebrate Confusion instead, and this is our chance to Disavow those Oaths we made under duress.

At the top of the red square is the asteroid Karma.  Whoa.  Remember that Karma is not Retribution, as most folks use the word.  It’s Inertia, Habit Patterns.  Whenever the asteroid is Lit Up, there are probably Patterns – Oaths and their consequences – from Past or Parallel Lives that are impacting our current Lifetime.  It’s a Blessing, because every strong Angle that asteroid Karma makes is an Opportunity to Recognize the Patterns and make alternative Choices.

And at the bottom of the Grand Cross is the asteroid Lachesis.  Lachesis was one of the three “Fates” in the Greek Worldview, the one that measured the Length of a Timeline.  That might be a Lifetime, or it might be a particular theme or segment or other part of a Lifetime.  Again, in the Greek Myth, that was an apparently unavoidable Fate.  And again, we move toward Choice.

Karma, our Ancient Patterns, is so Easy to Choose because it’s so familiar that we take it for granted.  So Easy that we almost never Notice that it’s us that is Choosing it – we usually feel like it’s imposed upon us.  If in our Karmic Pattern C happened as a result of A and B, guess what we’re going to Expect when A and B happen now!  Expectation is an Unconscious Choice, and it’s a very Strong and very Subtle Manifestor. 

So the Critical piece of Changing a Timeline we don’t like, is Awareness.  We have to Consciously Notice the deja vu, and then we have to be Aware that we’re going to Expect certain consequences, and we have to Consciously turn those Expectations aside.  We have to Choose a fresh alternative. 

Like “No.”  Not “No!” – Neutrality is important.  Not “No thank you” – we don’t need to thank someone for not Respecting our Divinity.  Just “No.”  So there’s nothing for them to React to.  No Explanation, no discussion, no argument, except maybe “What is it about No that you don’t understand?”  But even that invites Discussion, so it’s better off to think it than say it. 

Then you walk away.  Into a crowd if you don’t Feel Safe.  Which suggests that you may want to be Alert this weekend.  Not necessarily paranoid, but you might want to Avoid situations where you’re Alone with someone you’re not sure you Trust completely.  When you first Notice the deja vu, you don’t want to be Alone with someone who reminds you of a past Abuse. 

That will make you paranoid and put you at a great disadvantage, because you’ll have lost your Neutrality, and you may be Afraid to say just “No.”  The likelihood that you’ll actually re-create a historical Abuse is small, because this is about Letting Go of Past Abuse Patterns.  We only have to re-create Abuse when we’ve been too blind for too long and our Soul has given up trying to point out our “Fate” to our Ego gently.