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Self-Judgment and Self-Love VIII

January 22, 2019

Two other Cycles Began today, 22 January, both members of the Grand Octile we discussed in Self-Love IV (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/01/18/self-judgment-and-self-love-iv/).

Haumea Initiated Pallas at 9:30 am PST.  This almost-five-year Cycle is about Resetting all of our Boundaries.  There’s an obvious Connection to our Self-Sovereignty, as our Boundaries are what Separates Me from Not-Me.  Expanding our Consciousness is usually about Growing Me into Not-Me, but Rooting Not-Me out of Me can be more essential.  There’s no way we can Pursue What We Want if we can’t tell What Our Puppet-Master Wants from What We Want.

Our Mission isn’t even something we Recognize till we Banish Who We Should Be and Claim Ownership of Who We Are.  This Cycle Begins in 27 Libra, “An airplane sails, high in the clear sky.”  Our only tether would be Fossil Fuel.  The implication is that we may want to Let Go of the Old Order and make our own Homestead.  Not necessarily as a hardcopy Farm, but as an Independent Agency, where we Depend as little as possible on the Fossil Culture that’s so obviously in serious Decline.

The Guardian has an interesting review of a book on what the author calls Surveillance Capitalism

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2019/jan/20/shoshana-zuboff-age-of-surveillance-capitalism-google-facebook

“The result [of Surveillance Capitalism] is that the choice mechanisms we have traditionally associated with the private realm are eroded or vitiated.  There can be no exit from processes that are intentionally designed to bypass individual awareness and produce ignorance, especially when these are the very same processes upon which we must depend for effective daily life.”

So perhaps we should also be thinking about cutting our Digital Lifeline as well.  While an airplane can only go so far without refueling, what’s the point if it has no idea where it’s going?  It’s Connection to GPS and airports is very useful if we want more than Joyrides.  We intend to dissect 2020 soon, with its earnest Beginning of the Digital Age.  Will it Embrace us, or Betray us?  If current trends aren’t diverted, it’ll be the latter.

Jupiter Initiated Venus at 4:30 am PST.  While this is only a one-year Cycle, it’s about Expanding our Values, which is important for our Task of Growing our Consciousness into a Space where we are able to Manifest our Heart’s Desires.  The Cycle Begins at 16 Sagittarius, “Seagulls fly around a ship in expectation of food.”  More Flying, but in this Cycle we’re Flying Toward, and, basically, Begging for scraps.  We could easily end up in that role in the Digital Age.

But in addition to the Sabian Symbol of the Initiation Degree of a Cycle, we also rely on the chart of its Initiation, since that is indeed its Birth chart.  And both of these Cycles are Born at the Grand-Octile Life-Force Self-Love Full Moon Total Lunar Eclipse that we’ve been writing about for the last ten days.  So we can expect the Changes in our Boundaries and Values to be permeated with Insight, Love, Vitality, Curiosity, Liberation, and Grace, even as Surveillance Catpiddleism and its Digital allies make Expansion of our Consciousness critical for our Survival.

“It was strange and rather gratifying that I, who am one of the lowliest members of our group, should have been chosen, with two of the humbler fairies in theirs, to bring before the band the possibility of yet another branch of helping those in trouble.  This rescue work has now become one of their regular tasks.

“From one meeting to another I’m filled with anticipation as to what we shall do and where we shall go on our next.

“Together we have seen things which I never knew existed and Nixus and Lyssis have taught me almost all I know about meditation.  I try to learn now, not only because I want to understand about everything within my mental range but because, in discussing new-found facts with them, they always somehow shed a different light on the subject.  They disclose to me each new aspect as they learn it, whether it is about healing, their work with the human earthbound, or their counterpart in the fairy world.

“They encourage me in my so far vain efforts to come in closer contact with my ceris (a member of another evolution), and when I can’t hear what he is saying to me, they act as interpreters.  They tell me about the many entities upon whom I rely for my continued existence in my present form.  About these, I know even less than I do about my ceris.

“Some time ago I felt that, with so many things going on around me, if I became in tune with all of them, the whole issue would be confused.  I understand now, however, that this isn’t true, that as one became in tune with another evolution, a whole new sector of one’s mind became animated, and one is thus equipped to receive more and more knowledge.

“When one realizes that each evolution has its own rate of vibration and that everything that grows with them and ’round them is also vibrating faster or slower than all the other evolutions, that they have their own plants and animals, different types of homes, instruments, music and all the others, one realizes that one isn’t going to have a dull moment for a good many thousand years.  Each new aspect learned opens up others till my head spins at the thought.

“I’ve talked to quite a lot of people about these other evolutions and they seem even less known than the fairies, which all goes to prove that just because a person’s dead, he doesn’t necessarily know much, if any, more than you do.

“Where we do score, though, is that as soon as we start wondering about some new subject, and we make a few enquiries about it, it’s never long before we just ‘happen’ to run into someone who can answer the questions which have been puzzling us.  A little later we also ‘happen’ to run into someone who holds classes on the very subject that interests us and so we are gradually led from one teacher to another until we are ready for the more practical side to be demonstrated.”

–“Nixus and Lyssis,” by John, in Daphne Charters, My Forty Years with the Fairies, pp. 161-2.

Self-Doubt 3

October 21, 2018

Here’s the picture of the Sappho-Station chart that stars Eris…

We’re actually getting a little ahead of ourself, as we haven’t discussed the role of Sappho in Her own Station chart yet, but this is important too.  The Configuration is called a Yin Gate.  You won’t find much information about the Yin Gate in the astrological literature, because I made it up.  But you can read all about it at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/12/02/the-yin-gate-and-piavas/.  In a nutshell, a Yin Gate is a Mystery School, where we’re forced to Accept Paradox as primary.  In order to do that, we need to reject Dualism and Contradiction, ie, get out of the mindbone.

These days, because there are so many charts and so little time, I usually just read the central axis, which is, after all, what distinguishes a Yin Gate from an “ordinary” Golden Rectangle.  But feel free to read the four Quincunxes (long green lines) yourself – the link above tells how, as they’re always instructive…

  • Fear/Power (Sedna) and Rebirth (Haumea)
  • Denial (Eris) and Expansion (Jupiter)
  • Truth (Aletheia) and Denial (Eris)
  • Rebirth (Haumea) and Despair/Miracles (Chiron)

And you can read the two diagonal Oppositions (long red lines) that Describe the Golden Rectangle itself…

  • Fear (Sedna) and Expansion (Jupiter) – what’s Mysterious about Expanding into Fear?
  • Truth (Aletheia) and Despair/Miracles (Chiron) – which is actually closer to Truth, the Despair or the Miracle?

The central axis here is Eris Opposite Haumea.  To the Left Brain this represents a Contradiction between Denial and Rebirth.  That might suggest to us that by Opening Up To What We’ve Been Denying, we can be Reborn.  That’s common in religions, where Opening Up to the Denial that the Great Spirit (usually in one of Her Fraudulent Disguises) is In Charge Allows us to be Born Again. 

And that’s Great, because Denial of a Higher Power is one of the worst Self-Sabotages we can Perpetrate – it’s exactly how Science is Destroying the Planet.  Of course the religions, with their Fake-News Godheads, are doing Gaia no favors either.  Both tend to be Fundamentalist, which means that they take their Metaphors Literally – they Believe their own Propaganda.  And that’s exactly how they Sabotage themselves, because they aren’t Open to the Multidimensionality of Real Life.  Their strategies work until they don’t.

The crux is that we can’t Open Up To What We’ve Been Denying, because it’s in the Unconscious, which by definition is not accessible to our Consciousness.  By Dynamic or Plan-Execute means.  But that’s exactly what PIAVA does, it Allows the Ego and the Unconscious to Communicate and Co-Create Constructively.

So in a Yin Gate, an Eris-Haumea Opposition suggests that we need to Open Up to the Paradoxes about how Denial and Rebirth Interact.  What are those?  Well, they’re Unknowable, because in a Yin Gate they cross the Conscious-Unconscious Barrier.  So we have to PIAVA – Pray or Intend or Ask or Visualize or Affirm (or Command or Feel Into or Go Meta or…) that these Paradoxes be Revealed to us – and that we don’t instantly murder them by stuffing them into the closed box of Understanding.

Quantum Jump 19: Vesta III

July 30, 2018

Here’s the Vesta Station chart…

The Square Fez, Golden Rectangle, and double T-Squares (or, together, Square Fez with double chinstrap) are drawn in heavy lines, and the Grand Trine in lighter lines.  To Identify each…

  • The Square Fez is Pluto-Venus-Chaos-Eris
  • The Golden Rectangle is Chaos-Eris-Vesta-Haumea
  • The T-Squares are the red triangles
  • The Grand Trine is Eris-Vesta-Mercury

Since we’re dealing with a Reorg of our Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta Station), it shouldn’t be too surprising that we may be Compelled (Pluto T-Square) to Violate or Reform our previous Values (Venus T-Square). 

Two questions are prominent – see if you can Hold them as Questions rather than trying to Answer them; our Answers always spring from what we already know, so it we use them to Close the Questions, we never Grow…

  • “I Wonder what previous Limits I’ll be Compelled to Exceed” (Pluto Quincunx Chaos-Asbolus)
  • “I Wonder what I may now be ready to See, that I’ve been Denying” (Venus Quincunx Eris)
  • These are the Diagonals of the Square Fez; any Fez is most easily approached through its Diagonal Quincunxes

And there are two Dualities that are important for us to Transcend or Unify.  Answers are more appropriate here, as long as we remain Open to Better (New or more Comprehensive or just plain outrageous) Answers…

  • My Hidden Genius and its Suppression (Vesta-Ixion Opposite Chaos-Asbolus)
  • Denial and Rebirth (Eris Opposite Haumea-Atropos)
  • The Grace in the Golden Rectangle (it’s blue in the chart; it’s Golden because the ratio of its ends to its sides is Sacred Geometry’s Golden Angle) is Liberated by Resolving its Diagonal Oppositions

A New Atropos-Haumea Cycle Begins 10 August at 24 Libra, “A butterfly with an extra wing on its left side.”  In general, the Left Side implies the Receptive or Yin side of things, so we could interpret the Symbol as an emphasis on the Feminine.  While the Cycle itself can be seen as enigmatic – Beginnings (Haumea) Initiating Endings (Atropos) – we can also read it as Quenching Hindrances to Rebirth.  Hence, Quenching Hindrances to the Rebirth of the Feminine.

Which puts us right into the Heart of the Eris Myths – Eris Challenged the Vanity of the Primary Greek Goddesses, as well as the Hubris of the Greek Gods who both Manipulated and were Enthralled by their Vanity.  That’s kind of a Metaphor for an Archetype in general – we are loathe to Surrender the Archetype because we Manipulate it to our Advantage, even while the Archetype Manipulates us to its Advantage.  Think manchild ‘Rump and daddyproxy Pootin’.

One of the easiest way to Resolve any Disharmony is to Reframe it as a Virtue, though it’s not about “Spinning” it, it’s literally about viewing it through a new legitimate Perspective.  For instance, Denial, while we use it as an insult to Manipulate Guilt in others, is actually a Powerful Psychological Tool that we use, mostly Unconsciously, to postpone what we’re not ready to deal with.

So the Eris-Haumea/Atropos Opposition becomes an Invocation to Accept greater Authority and Autonomy for the Feminine in our Personal and Cultural Beliefs and Actions.

The New Vesta-Ixion Cycle began 23 March at 28 Sagittarius – on the Galactic Center – “An ancient bridge over a beautiful stream is still in constant use.”  Our Hidden and Forbidden Genius Ixion is almost certainly a long- and well-honed Skill developed in many Past and Parallel Lives.  That could be our Ancient Bridge.  The Beautiful Stream could be the Unconscious Beliefs that have brought us to Where We Are.  In the spirit of Denial as a Powerful Focusing Tool, our Limiting Beliefs have served to bring us to the Cusp of Ascension.

A bit more subtle but Powerful is the “Still in Constant Use” part of the Symbol.  Even though our Hidden Genius has been Forbidden, the Limitation is more about Recognition than Use.  So while we won’t Talk about it, or use it in situations where it would be Seen, we actually use it all of the time when no one is Watching.  So there is Hidden Power in your Fantasies about Manifesting your Greatest Desires.

Fantasies are usually scenarios we don’t actually Want to happen, because they would overly Complicate our Life, disrupting too many of the Masks we use to Protect our True Self.  It may be reasonable to suggest that Enlightenment occurs when we no longer need to Protect our True Self, when we Realize that our True Self is actually Source and as such is not Vulnerable to Harm.

While Chaos doesn’t Initiate Asbolus until 2024, it’s a 96-year Cycle, so we can reasonably consider the five-degree gap between them to be at least Hinting about the New Cycle now.  The New Cycle begins at 4 Cancer, “A cat arguing with a mouse.”  The Cat here would be our Unlimited Potential, while the Mouse would be our Resistance to our Intuitions about Reaching into it to pluck its Fruit.

So how can we Honor our Fantasies more as Practice for Plucking the Fruits of our Unlimited Potential?  We could Fantasize that our Fantasies themselves Manifest in such a manner that our Resistance to them is undisturbed, that Miracles Allow our Deepest Desires to Manifest without Resistance from ourself or Others.  But that would be a Fantasy, which by definition we tend not to Want to actually happen.

What to do then?  We could PIAVA Both/And.  To do that we have to recast our Resistance to our Hidden Genius as our Friend.  Rather than the Side Effects we Don’t Want to happen as a result of Living our Genius Out Loud, list the Effects we Do Want to happen.  For instance, that might be Confidence and Celebration rather than Shame and Banishment.

Such a PIAVA is likely to be so Powerful as to Explode our Lifestyle, so we want to approach it carefully.  We can easily Entrench our Current Ego rather than Expand it, by asking it to Grow too much at once.  A Powerful approach to Powerful Shifts is to alternate Theta and Tapping and Resting.

Suppose we’ve been a Skinny Kid all our Lives in spite of our Best Efforts to the contrary, and we Want to stop Others from kicking sand in our face at the Beach.  We could start by Thetaing what the Italians call Bella Figura (https://www.theguardian.com/world/2018/jul/27/10-of-the-best-words-in-the-world-that-dont-translate-into-english).  Then when we get to the Show Me part, we just look to see what Resistance arises in ourself.

Then we Tap on that Resistance, and run the Theta again, allowing the Command phrase to Change as our Perspective on it Changes.  When we find more Resistance, we Tap it Out too.  After a couple of Iterations, or even just one, we Rest for several hours or a day or two, to let what we’ve Changed so far Integrate.  Then we run another Theta-Tap-Theta-Tap Sequence, and Rest again. 

Try this, and let me know how it works.  If you don’t already have the Theta and Tapping techniques down, the details are at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/ and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4.

13.12 Full Moon IV

December 11, 2016

https://newsununity.com/2016/11/23/the-arcturians-living-in-the-fifth-dimensional-now/

“Surely the paradox of all paradoxes.  The enlightened Being that I, and others like me, had struggled to reach was never above or beyond, or in some distant future, but the greater Truth of who we are, right here and now.”  –Michael Roads, Journey into Oneness: Into a Timeless Realm, p.13.

Before we move on to the rest of December (which is also busy – can we Expect otherwise?), let’s spend a few minutes on the several “niggling little irritants” in the Full Moon chart.

[1] A while back we mentioned that the Hylonome-Makemake Cycle, which is about how Manifestation is blocked by Archetypes that we’ve Merged with.  We keep Manifesting the Archetype instead of What we Want, until we do it enough times to figure it out, if we ever do figure it out (hint: it’d not about Judgment).  Here’s what we said then (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/12/01/1-december/) …

(8) Think about how the last week or two have been very different in your Life.  Seeing more Mysterious movements out of the corner of your eye?  Obvious signs of Ego Rebirth (such as feeling lost on a route you’ve traveled often)?  Long deep Sleeps?  Unusually sharp Intuitions?  Unexplainable surges of Excitement?  Angels are becoming more Present; keep your eye out for evidence of them. The more you Acknowledge their Presence, the more they can work their Magic.

(8) On 5 December at about 3am, Hylonome (Detaching from Archetypes) Waxing Squares (Challenge) Makemake (Manifestation).  The Hylonome-Makemake Cycle in general is about Letting Go of Self-Sabotage.  The Energy of a Cycle is strong around its Initiation, then goes underground till the Waxing Square, then reaches the mainstream.  The current Cycle was Initiated in June 1989 (think Harmonic Convergence) at 3 Virgo, “Two Guardian Angels“!

Turns out that was an error; this Cycle isn’t really about the Guardian Angels; it’s about “Black and white children playing happily together” (September 1988 at 4 Virgo).  Not to worry about the Angels, They’re here; I’ve long since learned that an “error” in a chart is a valuable Intuition.  It’s great news about the Children.

In the Full Moon chart, Makemake is at the focus of a T-Square with Hylonome and asteroid Atropos.  Atropos is about Endings.  

This is more good news, as Inhibitions to Manifestation End.  However, it’s a T-Square, so it’s a Challenge, and the Challenge is likely to be our Attachment to the Inhibitions.  Maybe you’ve been getting glimpses of Possibilities that you’d never entertained before, but dismissed them as too remote?  Reconsider.

In a “naked” T-Square (ie, absent a Grand Cross to Complete it), the Strongest point is the Vacancy Opposite to the planet at the focus.  Here that would be 5 Aries, which is about “Self-Transcendence.”

“People are never without help from Self or other Beings.  The help is always there, but of course, if  you are closed and unreceptive, then unfortunately you create and maintain your own helplessness.”  —op. cit. p.17

[2] The asteroid Lachesis, which is about Setting the Duration of an Ego’s Lifetime, makes a T-Square across the Opposition betwen Haumea-Pandora (Rebirth into Gender Balance) and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Clearing the Memories that Hold the Emotions which Prevent Our Heart’s Truth from Becoming the Permanent Essence of Our Identity).  Ah yes, those Ten Thousand Vignettes.  This sounds more like a huge Opportunity than a Challenge, but of course many of the Vignettes are No Fun.

The Vacancy for this T-Square is 23 Cancer, a “Literary Society.”  

Hmmm.  Are we overthinking this one?  Certainly those Vignettes will be bringing up lots of pregnant Emotions that will beg us to fill out their balloon with What-If and If-Only and Why-Didn’t-I and What-Could-Have thoughts.  But there’s another trend developing here.

While Jupiter is still five-and-a-half Degrees and nine months from being Initiated by Haumea, Both Jupiter and Haumea are within our three-Degree range of Sensitivity to Uranus-et al and Lachesis, giving us a second naked Lachesis T-Square, with Jupiter.  The Vacancy for this one is 21 Cancer, A virtuosa performing an opera.  So…

There is a Timing Issue here.  Next September our Rebirth into greater Identification with our Heart’s Truth will Blossom into full unmistakeable Glory.  There will be no Doubt!  All we’re doing now is Finishing Business, cleaning up the flotsam and jetsam from the previous Jupiter-Haumea Cycle.  That Cycle was about “Children blowing soap bubbles.”  From the Perspective of our Mastery, all these Vignettes, and their referents, are just playful shimmery bubbles, of no substance!  That’s a Revelation to remember!

Insight Forest II

September 25, 2016

We’ll pick up where we left off at the end of Insight Forest I…

(4) What happens when our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs get blown away, and how can we prepare for that?  

Rhetoric is the Language style we use when we assume that whomever we’re talking to has the same Unconscious Beliefs as we do.  I use it a lot, so does Trump.  It’s the Language we use when we’re talking to our Tribe, and it saves us a lot of words.  One of its effect is to make someone from a rival Tribe either Angry or Intimidated.  Since Anger is a Sin in polite society, that ends up being the same as Intimidated.  Problem is, part of the Essence of our Changes is the Insight that we’re All One Tribe.

While some of us may be somewhat Conscious of the basis for our Rhetoric, much of it based on our Unconscious Beliefs, and the Unconscious Belief that someone with different Unconscious Beliefs is Corrupt, Ignorant, Degenerate, Deplorable, or all of the above.  Even if they are all that, our Attitude toward them would be different if they were part of our own Tribe.  We would probably be inspired to educate them – which of course would be received as insulting and condescending, just as we’re insulted when they try to “educate” or brainwash us.

So one of the impacts of Changes in our Unconscious Beliefs, is that we may begin to doubt our own Rhetoric, which could be a serious blow to our Identity.  Most of us to one degree or another Ego-Identify with our Tribe.  We could also just find ourselves more Disturbed than usual by Rhetoric, ours or theirs.  Eventually we’ll have to work out ways to tolerate different Unconscious Beliefs, and communicate Honestly with folks whose Unconscious Beliefs are all screwed up.

At the very least we could Learn to become Conscious of how the Lizards (Rhetoric Alert) use Rhetoric to Manipulate us.  If you have the misfortune of watching the US Unpresidential Debates on 26 September, you’ll get a good Teaching on Rhetoric, and how your Attitude towards it is Changing.  Basically, any Insecurity you Feel could well be linked to Changes in your Unconscious Beliefs and your Unconscious Identity.  Any Discomfort you encounter, it would behoove to Wonder if it might be related to Changes in your Unconscious Beliefs.  You might discover a gap between yourself and old friends or family.

There are three major corollaries to the Collapse of our Unconscious Beliefs, and to our resulting Insecurity.  The first is the impending collapse of our Cultures and Economies (the Waning Saturn-Neptune Square).  The second is the need to Review Who We Believe We Are and Why We Do What We Do, and whether the latter serves the former (Saturn Square to the Nodes).  The third is the Potential or Actual Disruption in our Lives resulting from the Loss of our Masks (Haumea Opposite Uranus-Eris).  Are we indulging Business As Usual and pretending that these Changes may not impact us, or waiting till the last minute to prepare for them?

In the US, September is “Emergency Preparedness Month.”  Are we prepared to see our Cultural, Egoic, and Habitual Foundations disrupted, without resorting to gang violence?

Witnessing and Mirrors

October 4, 2015

Many of us didn’t get education of this sort as kids – in fact, most kids still don’t.  So we need to locate Discernment Skills on our own…

“Self-regulation can be taught to many kids who cycle between frantic activity and immobility. In addition to reading, writing, and arithmetic, all kids need to learn self-awareness, self-regulation, and communication as part of their core curriculum.  Just as we teach history and geography, we need to teach children how their brains and bodies work.  For adults and children alike, being in control of ourselves requires becoming familiar with our inner world and accurately identifying what scares, upsets, or delights us.

“Emotional intelligence starts with labeling your own feelings and attuning to the emotions of the people around you.  We begin very simply: with mirrors.  Looking into a mirror helps kids to be aware of what they look like when they are sad, angry, bored, or disappointed.  Then we ask them, ‘How do you feel when you see a face like that?’  We teach them how their brains are built, what emotions are for and where they are registered in their bodies, and how they can communicate their feelings to the people around them.  They learn that their facial muscles give clues about what they are feeling and then experiment with how their facial expressions affect other people.

“We also strengthen the brain’s watchtower by teaching them to recognize and name their physical sensations.  For example, when their chest tightens, that probably means that they are nervous; their breathing becomes shallow and they feel uptight.  What does anger feel like, and what can they do to change that sensation in their body?  What happens if they take a deep breath or take tine out to jump rope or hit a punching bag?  Does tapping acupressure points help?  We try to provide children, teachers, and other care providers with a toolbox of ways to take charge of their emotional reactions.

“To promote reciprocity, we use other mirroring exercises, which are the foundation of safe interpersonal communication.  Kids practice imitating one another’s facial expressions.  They proceed to imitating gestures and sounds and then get up and move in sync.  To play well, they have to pay attention to really seeing and hearing one another.  Games like Simon Says lead to lots of sniggering and giggling – signs of safety and relaxation.  When teenagers balk at these ‘stupid games,’ we nod understandingly and enlist their cooperation by asking them to demonstrate games to the little kids, who ‘need their help.’ “

–Bessel Van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma, pp.354-5

The only Challenges in the Sky right now are made by planets that will be somewhere else tomorrow, so we have a nice quiet window here to nurse the wounds from Re-Experiencing our Trauma last month.  

The order of the day is to be Loving and Gentle with ourselves.  If you’re exhausted, small wonder; we’ve just finished a Psychic marathon.  Heavy Emotions that linger from last month can most likely be Let Go without consequences; remember that with Saturn now in Sagittarius, The Most Important Thing is Letting Go and Moving On.  Don’t “Release” them – you don’t want to “Re-lease” and sign up for another year’s lease on them.  Words can be important.  Let them Go instead.  “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgade” them – Cancel the thoughts that would reinforce the negative Emotion, Neutralize the Vibrations they project, and Upgrade the sender (ie, us).

And remember that our Karma does not grasp us, we grasp our Karma.  It’s Inertia, past Habits continuing on their own accord.  You couldn’t even drive a car or pick your nose without the Power of Habituation, so don’t knock it.  Just Dehabituate what no longer Serves you, including any Lingering Heavy Emotions.  There are no planets transiting Scorpio right now, so there is no reason to dig deeper or hold tighter; at the moment, the Treasure is elsewhere.

Of course the key to Dehabituating is Noticing – Discernment, Witnessing.  We can’t Change a Habit if we don’t see it.  Virgo specializes in Discernment, and Jupiter (Expansion) is there Trining (Grace) Pluto (Compulsion), so the Angels will line up behind us when we Intend (or Ask or Affirm or Pray or Visualize or Command or any of the other extended PIAVA Magnetic-Creative techniques) to Change the way we Respond to Disturbances in the Force.

With Chiron moving out of its T-Square with Chaos and Pallas-Pholus-Ixion, the only Squares around today are Venus-Sedna and Sun-Pluto.  Sun-Pluto will last a few more days, but we do that twice a year, so we aren’t rookies at it.  We gauge the Difficulty of celestial Angles by their rarity; the more an Angle appears, the more Experience we have with it.  Just now the Moon completes a T-Square with Sun and Pluto, but this also happens twice a year, and for only a few hours, so it’s an excellent time to focus that Pluto Purging Energy on anything we no longer need.  The Sky is full of Oppositions, but without any Squares, those are just Dualities.

Remember too that it’s always Both/And, never Either/Or.  Whenever you seem to be helicoptering over some Duality like heads or tails, move to the Coin.  Do we cling to what little is left of our Franchise within The System as it fails, for instance (ie, job, money), or do we put our Attention into developing Alternatives (ie, growing food, developing real Community)?  What’s the Coin?  The Coin is Survival (if a different Coin pops out for you, go with that – it’s not Either/Or) and Sustenance.  We move to Sustenance by Letting Go of anything we don’t Need.  That’ll serve us in either Future.

The biggest Configuration facing us is a Mystic or Golden Rectangle – four planets Trine and Sextile to one another.  Remember Phi, the Golden Angle and Golden Ratio we mentioned when we spoke recently of the Saturn-Uranus Phitile?  Well, a Golden Rectangle is Golden because the ratio between the length of a Trine and the length of a Sextile is the Golden Ratio.  The Energy of a Golden Rectangle arises from the Oppositions, but the Oppositions Bridge one another, so it represents a double puzzle with a ready solution.  It’s a Hierophant, Teaching us as we walk through it.  The Oppositions here are dwarf planet Chaos (Infinite Improbability) to Pallas-Pholus-Ixion (Protecting our Pathological Genius), and dwarf planets Haumea (Rebirth) to Eris (Revelation).

Our Pathological Genius is the irrepressible part of you that’s socially unacceptable, or at least your parents believed it to be, so they tried to beat it out of you.  Since it’s irrepressible, you do it anyway, but you do your best to disguise it so no one notices.  Which of course they do, if they’re at all observant.  But they’re too polite to mention it.  So you may as well just come out of whatever closet you think you’re hiding in, at least in the company of your closest friends.  Turns out your Pathological Genius is just that, your Genius.  Your one-of-a-kind Steve Jobs or Osho sort of character that most people can’t stand, but which the World really needs.  You may not have noticed yet, but Pleasing sucks.  It takes you to the lowest common denominator, just below Mediocre.  The World needs you to be a Star instead, and you could easily displease most of the people most of the time being a Star.  Do it anyway.  For the Planet, before it becomes uninhabitable.

No question that it’s scary.  Before you came to this Planet you “picked” these parents and Asked them to try to beat it out of you so you would be sure to become Conscious of it.  Then you went into the cosmic simulator and programmed it to give you a bunch of Past Lives where you were put to Death because of it, so you’d be sure to have Karma around it, so you’d have to make a Conscious Choice to Dehabituate your Resistance to your Genius.  Sure, you were put to Death, Ego Death.  Well, you just did that last month, and you Lived through it.  Your parents made sure that you Ego-Identify with the scam that you aren’t really who you really Are.  We don’t get anywhere except Mediocrity without Ego Death.  Yeah though I walk through the Valley of Ego Death.  iDeath, as Brautigan called it when Jobs was just 13, thirty years before the iMac.  

The adjectival form of Ego is “Political.”  Ego is about Power.  Power is never Given, it’s always Taken.

Whistleblowing

March 21, 2015

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In a few hours (8am PDT March 21; see http://www.jbuss.com/pdt8.htm for other time zones) the dwarf planet Eris (Exposing Denial) Initiates Mars (Action), at 23 Aries, “A pregnant woman in light summer dress,” starting a new two-year Cycle.

It’s going to be hard to hide things for the next couple of years, so we may as well start practicing forthrightness now.  I mean, speaking our Truth is a big part of  the Yintegrity work we’ve been doing for that last few years anyway.  Several times lately, when I would usually have just kept quiet so as not to waste more time on those old arguments and judgments again, expecting someone to criticize, I’ve decided, okay, it’s Yintegrity time, I better speak up.  And when I did, the expected criticism didn’t arise.  Time to examine all of our Expectations, invoke our Curiosity, and try out more Truthspeaking than we otherwise would.

You know how much you’ve Changed in the last three years – give other folks a chance to demonstrate how much they’ve Changed.  Expecting Others to continue to lead with their Limiting Beliefs just keeps The Shift underground longer.  In this new province, we’ll all be better off agreeing to disagree than by continuing to pretend not to disagree.  Which implicates our Actions as well.  Since we’ll have a hard time hiding the results of our Actions, we may have to consider the consequences before we Act, rather than after.

You may remember that Plutoid dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth) Opposed Eris not so long ago, a Blooming of their 1831 “Big Bear sitting down and waving all of its paws” Initiation.  They’re still only half a degree from their Opposition.  What if one manifestation of this Big Bear is Racism.  Brazil forbade Slavery in 1831, and opposition to Slavery in the US began to heat up then.  In many ways Europe is living with the delayed consequences of its Colonialism and the Racism embedded in it.  India’s dealing with deep-seated Sexism.  We could even extend that to Inequality of all manner, including the Mass Extinction we’re in the middle of Co-Creating.  We could see this Cycle as the Birth of the end of Denial around Inequality.  There’s an about-to-become extinct species, sitting there waving its paws, “Yoohoo, I’m here too.  Don’t forget me”

The Plutoid dwarf planet Ixion (Unbridled Desire) makes a Trine-Sextile Bridge across this Opposition.  Another side of Unbridled Desire is If you ain’t got nothin’ you got nothin’ to lose, which is the position many victims of Inequality are increasingly finding themselves in, making their rebellion harder to stop, and making embedded Inequality harder to continue to Deny.  The Haumea-Ixion Sextile is also the base of a Finger of God pointing at the probably dwarf planet Sedna (Fear and Actions perpetrated under the influence of Fear).  While Pluto takes 250 years to orbit the Sun, Sedna takes 11,400.  It’s waaay out there, and what little is known about it suggests that it’s unlike other dwarf planets.

So we’re looking at Actions perpetrated under the influence of Fear becoming harder to hide and find excuses for, and bringing Xenophobia out into some degree of Consciousness where it can be examined as something a bit more consequential than a camp song on a fraternity bus.  Power is obviously involved here, but does Power evolve as a response to Fear?  Is Power necessary when there is nothing to Fear?

The final link to Mars-Eris in our map of March 21 and the two years to follow is an Octile (Rebalancing) to Neptune (among other things, Culture).  The Quintile (Learning) from Neptune to Pallas (Boundaries) is the base of the Quintile Yod (Pay Attention to Learning This) pointing at Juno (the Edges of Consciousness).

So there may be hope for Racism, Colonialism, Sexism, Egotism, Species Extinction, and other forms of Inequality and Exploitation, to come up into Consciousness here.  In the Unconscious, they can only be the subjects of Rhetoric and Distrust.  As they move toward Consciousness, they invite examination and revision.

Grand Happies

November 27, 2014

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As we get ready for the penultimate challenge to our Yintegrity and a Big Solstice, we’re graced with a series of positive Energies.

The next-to-the-last Uranus-Pluto Square happens December 15, while Uranus is Stationary.  The Uranus Station, the Solstice, and the New Moon all happen within a few hours on December 21.  It should get a little less intense after December 23, when Saturn finally exits Scorpio.  And Makemake is Stationary on December 31.

But meanwhile we have a series of Grand Trines and Kites.

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Grand Happy #1

  • Venus and Juno are both Trine to the South Node as we speak (till December 2), creating a Kite focused on the North Node.  The Moon crosses the South Node on December 1.

Between November 27 and December 2, we have a great opportunity for Insights into what we’re doing here, especially on December 1.

  • From November 29 till December 11, Ceres moves into the Venus position in the Kite, and between December 6 and 11, both the Sun and Mercury join Ceres.  The Moon Opposes Ceres on December 6, and crosses Juno on December 11.

Between December 2 and 11 it will be easy to convert these Insights into more complete Understanding of the context, and make the Changes permanent.  Expect December 6 and 11 to stand out. 

  • Juno Squares Pallas, which is in turn Quincunx to the South Node.

There will be places and times when we have to decide whether to Change a Pattern or not – it makes sense to prefer a Known Shortcoming (such as a self-sabotaging Pattern) over a Change that may be an Improvement but we won’t know for sure till we Live it.  You can answer this question for yourself by Asking if you’ve ever been in a situation that’s similar to the one that makes you hesitate to Change.  If you have, make the Change.  

  • And of course Uranus Squares Pluto.

If you haven’t, Ask yourself if the Change would be a more Honest expression of who you really feel yourself to be.  If it would, make the Change.

  • Venus-Ceres Squares Chiron, which is in turn Quincunx to Juno.

We can locate the Miracles we need for Self-Transformation by Wondering what might be the positive function of our Shortcomings.  They usually Protect us from something.  You don’t need to identify precisely what you’re being Protected from.  You just need to Wonder how you could allow yourself to be Protected from it, whatever it is, without suffering the negative consequences that lead you to consider your Habit as a Shortcoming.

For instance, imagine holding your self-sabotaging Pattern in one open palm.  You don’t need to identify the Pattern, you can just call it “that which has prevented me from Manifesting my Wants, whatever it is.”  Then rename it as “My Protection.”  You don’t need to know what it is you’re Protecting yourself from, just realize that it has your best interests at heart, even if it’s misguided.  Now hold your Protection in one palm, and what you Want in the other.  Slowly and gently bring your hands together, feeling the Resistance as you move, till your Want palm rests atop your Protection palm.

For instance, suppose I’ve almost always had enough Money to survive, but not so much Money to not have to worry about it.  So not having lots of Money has Protected me from something, from some consequences that I don’t want.  That Protection has been valuable to me, or I wouldn’t have kept it.  So I resist the temptation to name the various unwanted consequences, and I just put “Protection” in my right palm. 

I put my Want, “enough Money,” in my left palm, and slowly bring my palms together.  Feel the Resistance, but keep moving, gently.  When I get my Money palm over snuggled on top of my Protection palm, I’ve modeled in my body what it will feel like to have both at the same time.  Rinse and repeat frequently.  (It wouldn’t hurt to actually rinse your hands in cool Water between repetitions.)  When I do this I can literally feel my brain reorganizing itself, like a cartoon drawing of bees buzzing, as well as the neurons in my shoulders and arms shifting around.

It’s a Powerful technique.  I just tried it on the Anxiety that often arises while I’m writing these (“How do you know that’s true?”), and the compulsive eating that usually results – holding Confidence and Calm in one palm, and Humility and Healthy Uncertainty in the other.  I could feel the shift, but just in case I put a few drops of Mimulus Bach Flower Essence under my tongue instead of an Über Dark Chocolate Turtle Larabar.  Yes, I’ll keep that Change, and enjoy the Über later.

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Grand Happy #2

As Venus moves out of Grand Trine #1, it moves into Grand Trine/Kite #2, making a Grand Trine with the dwarf planet Eris and a Stationary Jupiter.  While Venus fills this corner for only several days (December 2-8), both the dwarf planet Ixion and the Centaur Pholus sit behind Venus.  These planets move a lot slower, so this background Grand Trine spans late October through late January.

The dwarf planet Ixion’s namesake was a sociopath with no moral sense whatsoever, so it’s easy to be startled by this Energy.  But think of it simply as our willingness to be, not ruthless, but relentless in pursuit of our Goals.  Think of it as a two-palms exercise; put your potential ruthlessness in one palm, and your moral sense in the other and bring them together.  Ixion is only one planet; he’s outnumbered many times.

The Centaur Pholus represents inappropriate Blame.  We could be deeply invested in avoiding any situation where we appear to be ruthless or inconsiderate of the greater good – something on this order could easily be the crux of our self-sabotage.  We don’t need to know more about it; we just want to be able to accomplish our Mission.  We can just leave our old Karma at the Goodwill drop-off and never bother about it again.  Someone else can put those Patterns to good use – they may need that sort of Protection worse than we did.

The dwarf planet Eris is about bringing into Consciousness what’s previously been Denied.  Denial is of course a positive Energy, one that Protects us from being Overwhelmed.

A Stationary Jupiter is a very Powerful Animal.  So we can expect that, between late October and late January, we will be ready to, and able to, Witness and Transcend many of our Self-Limiting Patterns.

But wait – you implied there was a Kite involved.  Oh yes, on December 3 (I don’t have the exact time – sometime around 4am PST December 3, give or take a couple hours) Eris is Opposed by the dwarf planet Haumea, making Haumea the head of the Kite, aka the Leader of the Pack.

The dwarf planet Haumea is also Powerful, daughter of Pele and the Hawaiian Goddess of Rebirth.  Rebirth that is not to be Resisted.

The Opposition follows from Eris’s Initiation of Haumea in 1831 at 23 Aquarius, “A big Bear sitting down and waving all of its paws.”  That’ll certainly get our attention, won’t it.  Sitting, she’ll be less threatening than she otherwise would be.  Plus, with paws busy waving, they’ll be more difficult to convert to chasing (us).

So we can expect these Miracles that we Manifest to be jaw-droppingly Awesome.

Given that, it’s very important not to try to understand or manipulate.  Changing our Self-Limiting Patterns isn’t something we do, it’s something we allow.  We all have Fantasies about what it would be like to have our Needs and Wants met, and how that might evolve.  If it was going to happen according to our Fantasies, it would have happened a long time ago.  You don’t know how it will happen, because it hasn’t happened before.  If you knew, you’d have done it a long time ago. 

Miracles are things you’ve never thought of.  If you try to think them instead of making an empty space for them, they won’t happen, because your thinking is unable to leave the rut of your old Self-Limiting Patterns.

Internal Adjustments

October 2, 2014

MnTaOpManganotantalite, an Oxide of Manganese and Tantalum, will help keep Communication flowing, especially the all-important Communication between our Olde Selves and our New Selves here in this era of Great Change.

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Other than Portal 10.1-8 (we added more information to the end of that post at about 2pm PDT October 2), Mercury’s October 4 (10am PDT) Retrograde Station is pretty quiet.

It would make a Mercury-Square-Juno-Quincunx-Neptune-Trine-Mercury Tricolor, but you’d need 7 degrees of Orb to count it, and the big Orb would apply to the Quincunx, and few astrologers would ever give you that, even in a natal chart.

In case you’re a total newbie, Mercury turns Retrograde for three weeks at a shot every four months.  The traditional meaning is that Communication and Travel may become difficult, though I find that interpretation to range from subtle to irrelevant.  Retrograde means the Energy is directed inward rather than outward, and the majority of folks think that’s weird (or pathological) because only 25% of us are more introverted than extroverted, and extroverts have zero Empathy for introverts.

When a planet turns “Retrograde,” it appears to move backward in the sky.  To see this “backward” motion you’d need to take a snapshot of the sky every night at the same time, then compile the snapshots into a movie.  The planet isn’t really moving backward, we’re just passing it (or, in the case of Mercury or Venus, it’s on the other side of the Sun), so it appears to move backward. 

When a planet changes direction, it’s either “Stationary Retrograde” (turning Retro) or “Stationary Direct” (starting to go forward again).  The influence of a planet is very strong when it’s Stationary, whether Retro or Direct.

The Real impact of a Retrogradation – other than these two periods of planetary strength while the planet is Stationary – is that we get to (or have to) review three times the curriculum covered by the planet’s Retrogradation.  The planet crosses this playground once forward, then stops and backs up across it a second time, then stops again and crosses it again.  At the Retrograde Station, the planet has crossed the playground once, and it’s about to start crossing it again backwards.

The official term for this playground is the “Shadow Period.”

So in this case we have Mercury Retrograding over the last half of Libra.  Mercury is basically about Thinking.  Libra is about the self-absorbed individual meeting for the first time Other – we usually think of Other as Other People, but really it applies to anything that the individual sees as Not-Self.  The first half of Libra is about encountering Other.  The second half is about how, having encountered Other, the individual is changed.

So in the Big Picture, here in Pi’s domain after the End of Time, we’ve now encountered Other from the place of Responsibility (Ability to Respond) rather than the place of Blame (Who did that?).  This is the first Libra Mercury Retro since the End of Time.  So for the next three weeks we’ll be rethinking our Relationships to Other, making more space for Responsibility and less for Blame.  That usually means owning our Projections – recognizing that it’s our Reactions that are causing us discomfort, more than their Behaviors.  But this World is New, so who knows what it will mean now.

In the Medium Frame, we’re about five sevenths of the way through the Yintegrity work we’ve also been doing since 2012.  For the last three weeks we’ve been meeting Other through the frame of our evolving Yintegrity.  Some folks are pleased with our Yintegrity and some folks aren’t.  How have we Reacted and Responded to these differences?  We’ll be rethinking them for the next three weeks.

In the more local Picture, we’ve now met Other after the early-September Centaur Stampede Galactic Download that we briefly summarized in Portal 10.1-8.  Centaurs are, after all, half Human and half Other.  Mercury entered the playground on September 14, so we’ve been encountering Other through the filter of the Galactic Download since then.  Have you noticed how Other has seemed different since September 14?  For the next three weeks we’ll be rethinking our Relationships with this Other as well.

Our Yindependence is another changing element in our 21st-Century evolution and devolution.  How has Other Reacted to these Changes, and how have we Responded to their Reactions?  How have we Reacted to growing Yindependence in Other?  Yindependence is a big part of the Centaur Stampede Grand Trine.  Another issue we’ll be rethinking over the next three weeks.

The other thing that’s useful to know about a Retrogradation, is which planets are danced with three times, as the Retrograding planet crosses the playground thrice.  These are the interactions that the Universe wants us to review very thoroughly.  There are several here…

Pallas Initiates Mercury on September 11 at 14 of Libra.  Libra 14 isn’t within the Shadow Period, but Mercury Conjoins Pallas twice more in October and November.  Libra 14 is “In the heat of the noon hour a man takes a siesta.

A major element of our rethinking will be about how we need to shift our Boundaries with Other.  For instance, suppose for us Nature is part of Self or Other.  How then do we React to the news that so many species have gone extinct in the past forty years?  Empathize for a moment with an extincting species.  How would it feel to be the last remaining individual of your species?  How will your Boundaries be shifting to adjust to the Changes in your Yintegrity, your Responsibility, your Yindependence, and your Relationship to the Galaxy?

On September 16-17 Mercury Waxing Squares Juno and is Initiated by both Haumea and the North Node, at 21 of Libra.  On September 19 Mercury Opposes Eris.  All of these Angles are repeated twice more in October and November.  Libra 21 is “A Sunday crowd enjoying the beach.

As we’ve been harping on at length, we’re being Reborn anew as the hidden elements of our Karma are Revealed and Released.  This new Entity we are Becoming will need to be rethinking all of their Relationships and Boundaries with Others of all stripes.

While Mercury’s Shadow Period is over by October 26, the Confidence Builder recurrences of the Mercury-Pallas and Mercury-Juno adventures won’t occur till mid-November.

Chaos I – Portal 9.20

September 20, 2014

polder2169bpI love this stuff.  It’s called Poldervaartite (or Olmiite) of all things, a Calcium Manganese Nesosilicate.  A Nesosilicate is a simple Silicate, like Garnet or Topaz.  Poldervaartite is a great candidate for the Witch’s Cauldron that is Chaos – not the kind of Chaos we think of as confusing and disordered, but the Chaos of Greek mythology – pure unlimited unmanifest Potential.

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The modern egocentric antropocentric materialist reductionist deterministic “Western” Worldview ranks Chaos right down there with Entropy,  the T word, and Poop.  Yet in Science itself, Chaos Theory applies not to abject disorder and disgust, but to situations where small changes in initial conditions can lead to qualitatively different results.  Untidy perhaps, but not disordered, especially if you don’t constrain your Reality to being purely mechanistic.

In its original Greek form, Chaos simply referred to the Void, the open ground prior to the Creation of Form.  Consider…

When the seekers come close to attaining their goal, their descriptions of what they regard as the supreme principle of existence are strikingly similar … an immense and unfathomable field of consciousness endowed with infinite intelligence and creative power … a cosmic emptiness – a void.  Yet, paradoxically, it is also an essential fullness.  Although it does not feature anything in a concretely manifest form, it contains all of existence in potential.  The vacuum they experience is a plenum; nothing is missing in it.  It is the ultimate source of existence, the cradle of all being.  It is pregnant with the possibility of everything there is.”  –Ervin Laszlo, Science and the Akashic Field, p.120.

And Dr. Laszlo is obviously a materialist, as he has trouble regarding Consciousness itself as “being” or “existence”!  Rather than calling it the Source or Cradle, we’d be more likely to say that it IS Existence and All Being, the place from which the Illusion of Separation arises.

So what the Greeks would call Chaos, we would call the Quantum Vacuum or the Zero Point Field, home of The Creator of All That Is.

Elizabeth has pointed out that the probable dwarf planet Chaos is Stationary Retrograde on September 20-21.  A dwarf planet differs from an asteroid by having enough gravity and rotation to mold itself into a sphere.  Not knowing much about Chaos, it’s considered a “probable” dwarf planet.  It lives out in the realm of Pluto – the orbit of Chaos spans 40 to 50 “AU” (the distance from the Sun to the Earth is an AU) while Pluto’s orbit spans 30-50 AU.  But Pluto is four times as big as Chaos.

The reason we bring this up, is that Chaos’s Station is Opposite the Centaur Stampede in the big September-October Grand Trine.

We’ve already mentioned that the North Node and Haumea make the Centaur-Galactic Center Grand Trine into a Kite and puts the focus of the Configuration on Haumea-North Node.

But the addition of Chaos moves the focus there, as it’s Stationary.  That’s at 20 degrees of Gemini, “A modern cafeteria displays an abundance of food, products of various regions.”  Lots of pregnant themes in there – Abundance, Carbon Footprints, Voting with our Dollars, Globalization.

Chaos’s perihelion (closest approach to the Sun – and a quick check on the potential meaning of a new planet) occurs at 18 Cancer, “A Hen scratching the ground to find nourishment for her progeny.”  Now that’s a Locavore.  So the Station illuminates the contrast.

Her discovery location (another quick check) was 27 Taurus, “An old Indian woman selling the artifacts of her tribe to passers-by.”  Interesting.  The implication to me is that she’s selling her tribe’s cultural heritage, not just newly-created artworks.  Globalization and Abundance issues again.

But the addition of Chaos also creates five sixths of a Grand Sextile, which moves the focus again, to the Vacant sixth position.  That’s 21 Aquarius, “A disappointed and disillusioned woman courageously faces a seemingly empty life,” re-emphasizing the whole business of Unconscious Despair – the Belief that it’s just not possible to get one’s needs met.  But this is a Chaos chart, where “empty” takes on a special meaning and invokes the Miracle side of Chiron.

But let’s look at the chart.  In the first picture in Chaos Pictures, you can see that, thanks to an Eris-South Node Yod makes the original Kite into a Brilliant.  That means we look to Eris-South Node for the primary indication.  You can also see an Eris-South Node Mjolnir (the gold lines) – an enhanced Brilliant!  So while we need to include all of our previous information, the Big Deal here is Eris-South Node.

The bottom line is that, sure, this is a max-Grace much-enhanced Grand Trine, and that’s great news and guarantees a positive outcome.  But the road to that positive outcome could be very rough, as it leads through our native PTSD, through all of the Past Deaths and Emotional Traumas that we’ve accumulated without processing and Letting Go.  Most of us would “rather die” than do that, as it’s a huge Ego Death and feels like we’re going to literally die.  We aren’t, but our Ego is, in order to make space for a larger Reborn Ego, and since most of us ARE our Ego, it’s probably going to hurt.

This is actually easy to work around.  All we need to do is, for a few minutes, stop Identifying with our Ego.  Yes, you laugh, because yes, that’s not possible.  Unconscious Denial, eh?  There are actually a zillion techniques for doing that.  Here’s just one – expanding your Self so you Identify with the Solar System instead of your personal Ego…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CuM678WXs0c

Shades of Juno, the Edges of our Consciousness – we’ll come back to that.

Remember, Karma is dead, so why do we still have to do this?  The difference is that we don’t have to get lost in pain for years or Lifetimes, as we used to do.  Once we Own it and Witness it, now our Karma just dissolves.  We do need to Change our Lifestyle, perhaps Consciously – if we continue to live through the same Patterns as we did before, we aren’t dealing with Karma any more, just with bad habits.  And we need to do one other thing.

We need to Empathize with our old pain.

“You poor Sweetheart, that was really painful, wasn’t it.”

We also need to be gentle with ourselves – if we try to rush through the process or power through it, we’ll overload ourselves and accumulate more Karma rather than Letting it Go.

Let me look up the exact time of the Chaos Station.  Bingo; it’s right now, as I write this, fifteen minutes before 6pm PDT on September 20!  I usually give a range of time when a Portal is open, with three degrees of Sensitivity, but Chaos moves Pluto-slow, so Chaos is not the limiting factor here.  The limiting factor is the Trine from Lilith to Eris, which is within three degrees till October 20.

The charts though are drawn for 8pm PDT September 21, because that’s when the Moon perfects the T-Square with Mars and Neptune that you see in the second picture of Chaos Pictures.  It’s the Moon-Mars Square that forms the base of the Mjolnir in the enhanced Brilliant in the first picture.

That Mjolnir will be a boon, as it will provide Epiphanies about what we’re Denying.  Moon and Mars are our two major methods of manifesting Form – Mars via planning and executing and Moon via focusing Emotional Energy into the glue that keeps Matter from repelling itself.

The second picture is a whole new animal, so let’s deal with it in a separate post.

Remember we said we’d come back to Juno?  We’ve drawn in the Juno T-Square with the Nodes (and Eris and Haumea) in the second picture in the Chaos Pictures post.  This tells us we’ll need to Expand the Edges of our Consciousness in order to make room to Embrace the ancient pain of what we’ve been Denying for so many Lifetimes, to Let Go of our old Ego, and to allow the Rebirth in Fire that Haumea promises.  We’ll look at that second picture in the next post.