Blind Cats Flying

A reader asks…

“You talked in one of your blogs of Mars initiating something which you described as “flying blind” and I had a dream about this.  It was the second dream about forgetting and I wondered if you could talk more about the memory asteroid.

“In the first dream I saw my beloved and long dead cat – he was thin and incontinent and being looked after by my cousin – I had forgotten about him and I felt bad – how could I have forgotten him when I had loved him so much?  This was clearly about my abandoned genius.

“The flying blind dream was about me flying a plane, a biplane or small plane with other people in it, but I wasn’t there, I was somewhere else at the time and I was aware the plane took off.  I felt confident I could go back to the plane, but when I tried to I realised I had forgotten how and by the end of the dream I had forgotten about the plane as I got involved with what was going on around me.

“Two powerful dreams for the beginning of the year with memory as the theme.  I would be grateful for any comments.”

Cats are potent symbols.  They make good Genii.  What happens when you imagine yourself Being your Cat?  Your cousin?

The “Flying Blind” Initiation was Mars-Neptune, something about the Relationship between the Physical and the Spiritual, between Effort and Magic, between Matter and Energy.  Close to the South Node as it is, this Initiation also can’t help being about the Loss of the Veil.  The Flying Blind part is like the Lilith-Sedna Mystery School – Accepting Paradox, reverting to “Beginner’s Mind.”   It may be as if the Veil is ripped off, but we can’t “see” what’s behind the Glass Darkly because we can’t assemble the Revealed into anything we Understand.

That’s the Paradox of Growth in Consciousness – because any Interpretation we make freezes us back into Duality, we have to be willing and able to leave the symbols behind the Veil Uninterpreted, and Allow ourself to stay in Perpetual Curiosity.  “I Wonder if there’s anything in these Dreams that I need to Understand Consciously, or if the Dream has already done its Work” would be a good PIAVA with the potential to bypass our pre-existing Birdcage.

Is there anything about the Physical that Frightens you?  Anything about the Metaphysical that elicits Fear?  A Searching and Fearless Inventory about Fear would be useful. with “You poor Sweetheart…”s and Tapping on whatever you find.  The Deep Energy is about getting Honest with ourselves about Fear.  With our Fears calmed by Compassion and Truth, we can Manifest directly…

http://danielscranton.com/contentment-creation-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

I’ve often been in half-awake state thinking about some affliction I or someone else has, and spontaneously started imagining making a herbal potion, with absolute certainty about what Herbs to use.  Then poof I “wake up” and have no idea what Herbs might work, if any.  That tells me that I’ve a Curandera or Curandero among my Parallels (corroborated by other parts of my Life), I’m just not ready to Identify fully with her or him yet.

What happens when you Imagine yourself Being the plane?  Imagining yourself Being one of the other folks in the plane might also provide Insight.

Your knowing you could return to the plane then Forgetting how sounds very similar; you have a Metaphysical-Traveler Shaman in your Parallels whom you can utilize as a Guide till you’re ready to Transcend All of your Parallels so you can freely access all of their Skills as you wish.  Have you read any of Robert Moss’s books on Dreams?  

After Eugene Gendlin’s Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams, I always try to leave my Dreams as Open as I can, so they don’t get trapped inside my a priori mental Dualities.  One way he recommends for that, is to append “…or something like that” to the end of every statement you would make about any possible meaning of the Dream.

The asteroid Mnemosyne is correlated with Memory, and it’s been traveling with the Uranus-Eris-Ceres Stellium.  So the “Ten Thousand Vignettes” of Memory that many of us have been having, is about Letting Go of our Masks and finding our Yintegrity.  Embracing our Fears and Recovering our Abandoned Genius are critically important parts of this.  Your Dream Stories sound very similar to our waking Vignettes.

Eris-Uranus New Moon

Bottom Line

The 4 June New Moon is a major trigger for the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation, which is about Getting Honest with Ourselves around our formerly-Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  We’ve also referred to them as Masks and Archetypes, and Despair.  This is really about Rebirth.  Unfortunately it may not be the most Effortless Birth, as our favorite Pattern is to cling to our Olde Ego while the New Ego is trying to get born.  That’s very painful.

We have to Let Go and Let God/Goddess.  Trust the process.  Whenever the going gets tough, recognize that you’re in Resistance to the Change.  It may not at all be obvious what else you can do besides Resist – Resistance is your Olde Ego trying to Survive, and that’s exactly what Egos do for a living, they’re good at it, and that’s why you hire them, because when they Survive, you Survive.  Except during the occasional Rebirths; we have to endure an Ego Death to allow a Rebirth.  

Your New Ego isn’t formed yet, and while we may have an inkling where to find its chrysalis, we won’t know what it Feels like.  So we’re stuck with PIAVAs (“God/Goddess, please give me a clue what to do besides Resist” or “I Wonder what it will Feel like when I finish wriggling out of this old carapace that’s so tight I can’t Breathe”) and Tapping (“Even though I feel worthless and hopeless, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself”) and Empathizing (“You poor Sweetheart, you really feel like you’re being tortured, don’t you”) and the like.

Once you succeed in Letting Go, you’ll be surprised at how quickly it gets Easy.

 

Details

1.  There’s a big Challenge to Embrace our Despair.  Remember that “Unconscious Despair” is failure to Believe that what you Need is even Possible.  Set aside your YesButs for a moment and Imagine that you could have what you Need or Want.  Now go back to your YesButs and convert each one to a YesAnd.  “YesBut you just aren’t Sexy enough to get that” might become “YesAnd I just Need one Lover.”  “YesBut you’ll never be able to earn enough Money for that” may be “YesAnd What If someone gave it to me as a Gift!”

You want to Touch that Feeling that you would have if your Dream came true, and hold it as long as you can, till it becomes a when rather than an if,  If you can hold that Feeling enough, it won’t matter whether your Dream actually Manifests, because you’ll already have what your Dream would have given you – Peace, Joy, Excitement, Self-Respect, Power, Grace.  What’s a Lover or a Red Convertible compared to that!  And if you had those Feelings most of the time, you could probably score Lovers and Convertibles pretty easy, if you still wanted to.

This is the difference between your Deepest Desires and your Mission in the Lifetime.  What you Desire isn’t actually the Object of your Dreams, it only seems that way because you live in a Material World.  What you actually Crave, what you came her to achieve, is How the Object of your Dreams Makes you Feel.  From that Feeling you can have anything you Ask for.  And guess what!  You’ll be Asking for different things, and they won’t have any YesButs.  It’s a Hologram, y’know, and you’re the projector.

2.  While this is a big Challenge, it doesn’t come without tools that can actually make it pretty Easy.  However, to manifest the Ease, we have to realize that Rebirth is the Ego’s Least Favorite party game, and Love our Olde Ego into oblivion.  Try Gratitude that It’s gotten you this far.  Try just really really appreciating how incredibly Comfortable your Olde Ego Feels, and PIAVA that your New Ego is going to Feel even more Comfortable once you’ve moved through the Grief of Giving Up your Olde Friend who’s kept you Safe.

3.  What will make your Rebirth Easier?  Getting Honest about what you’ve been trying to hide from yourself.  You may not know the details, but you know the general theme.  Abuse?  You don’t need to remember who or when, you just need to Trust your Feelings about it.  Fear?  Anger?  Embrace them.  Locate them in your Body, and move all of your Attention into the center of that place, and hold it there.  Bring it back when it wanders.  Stay with it till it dissolves or moves.  If it moves, follow it.

Eventually you’ll need to Surrender all Blame.  Blame looks toward the Past to assign Cause, while Responsibility looks toward the Future to improve Outcomes.  Any time you catch yourself attributing some Emotion or Sensation in your Body to any outside Cause, stop and bring your Attention back into your Body.  I’m always gnawing at myself because my neighbors have no idea what I’m trying to do in my Garden, and condemn it as a Jungle.

I need to catch myself thinking that, and bring my Attention back into my own Body.  Those Emotions and Sensations have their Roots in my Personal and Karmic Histories.  Those are my Emotions, the neighbors only trigger them.  I need to take up the Practice of locating them in my Body, and Loving them right where they are, exactly as they are.  If I Reject any Emotion, I dampen them all, and without any of them I’m not a Whole Person, I’m dis-eased.

Use this general model with everything that you suspect may be lurking in your Underwhere – Inadequacy, Self-Hate, Belief in Fate, Addiction, Guilt, Shame, any Limiting Belief, and anything else that comes up.  When the Emotion begins to Overwhelm, Tap it Out.

4.  The whole chart actually falls into a pool of Enormous Grace, but there’s a leak in the pool.  To plug it, we need to recognize the Challenges we’ve Lived through, Honor ourself for Living through them, and be Willing to talk about them so others can Learn from our travails.

 

The Astrology

1.  Aside from the Eris-Uranus Initiation itself of course, the primary focus of the chart is a Chiron T-Square (Challenge to Convert Despair to Miracles) across and Opposition between an Ixion-Pholus Conjunction (Taking Full Responsibility to Let our Orphaned Genius out of the closet) and a Karma-Chaos Conjunction (But without my old Patterns it all looks Chaotic! or Karma is Dead; Long Live Karma!).
2. This T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) is actually a Diamond Star (Making what would be difficult, Easy), with Sappho (Self-Love) and a Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction (either Feeling like you had this coming, or Recognizing that Rebirth feels like Death because they’re just different sides of the same Coin) on the feet of the Chiron Yod.
3. The Eris-Uranus Initiation (Revelation of Denial) is at the focus of a Quintile Yod (huge Learning Opportunity).  However, the Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction Opposes the Eris-Uranus Initiation, converting the QYod into a Quintile Kite and shifting some of the emphasis onto Haumea-Nemesis.  A Yod pointing to a Sedna-Atropos Conjunction (The Demise of Fear, foreshadowed of course by the Fear of Demise) from the base of the Sextile from Haumea-Nemesis to Ixion-Pholus.
4. Eris-Uranus, Karma-Chaos, Sappho, Haumea-Nemesis, and Ixion-Pholus form five points of a Grand Sextile (Enormous Grace, though we need to take the first step).  The Vacancy is 24 Aquarius, “A person, having overcome their compulsions, shares the deep wisdom that results from their experience: The constructive use to which difficult past experiences can be put as examples for those who are still striving to overcome their compulsions,” aka Archetypes/Masks/Karma.

Loss of the Veil

The Loss of the Veil that separates additional Dimensions from the Linear 3-4D Reality we believe ourselves to be Living in, was forecast in the 1/1/2000 chart, as Neptune Conjoined the South Node.  Here’s a story about that.

A friend managed to trip and free-fall from a standing position, hands otherwise engaged, onto their hip on a hard floor.  My friend is for their age still young and robust enough, thanks partly to Yoga, that no bones were broken, and they knew enough about self-care to treat themselves very Gently, so, thus far, there seems to be no significant damage to their Vehicle (that is, physical Body).  They did have the thought that if they were older they could easily have broken their hip.  Afterward they went to their Yoga class, and by “luck” received a half-hour massage from a master healer there.

Now here’s the weird part.  When they got back from Yoga, there were two voice messages from their adult child waiting.  My friend did not go to the hospital, no need.  But their adult child got two calls from a hospital across town, saying that their parent had been released from the hospital and was okay.  Not one call but two.  They verified that the calls were actually from the hospital, or at least that they appeared to be from a phone number registered to the hospital.

The adult child wasn’t even first on the hospital’s notification list, they were second.  The first person on the list got no calls.  Probably just a software error or newbie operator error, as hospitals ramp up their new-fangled digital medical records capabilities, right?

Phone numbers can be spoofed, but that would still leave many questions about who knew about the fall, and who would have a motivation to spoof a call from the hospital.  Maybe someone in their Yoga class was a closet hacker, overheard the story, and was planning to spoof bills from the hospital.  That would be plausible in the US, but my friend lives in a civilized country, with single-payer healthcare, so scamming is unlikely.

Following Castaneda, one of our strategies for Living in times of rapid Change (such as Now), is that, the more Perspectives we can collect, the better we’ll be prepared for a World going Weird.  It’s also a Challenge to Consciousness, as we often get to hold Contradictory Beliefs at the same time, reminding us that there are no Contradictions in Nature, only in the mind.  Mind is Dualistic – Either/or; Nature is Mutivarious and Unitary – Both/And.  Apparent Paradoxes just mean that we still see through the glass darkly.

One of the side effects of String Theory, which is still a useful way to look at sub-nano-scale physics, is that there are probably something like 11 or 12 Dimensions rather than 3 or 4, most of which are hidden from our very limited five senses – most of us can’t even see or feel radio waves.  

One possible consequence of String Theory is that there may actually be a very large number of alternate Universes, possibly supporting the notion of Parallel Lives.  One possible Perspective on this is that, each time we make a Decision, a part of ourself branches off and follows that path into an alternate Universe, while other parts of ourself take different paths into other alternate Universes.

So, again, remember that this is an exercise in Consciousness-stretching, not any proclamation of the way it really may be.  We have no idea what’s really out there.  But do keep in mind that the Veil is thinning, the Veil which separates the various alternate Universes.  Our friend isn’t trained in the Occult Arts, but definitely has the natural aptitude for them.  

Our friend did not report doing a “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade” or a “Revert” on their Thought about how in a different circumstance bones could have broken.  Thoughts have Power.  That’s why we Cancel the Thought, Neutralize the Vibrations produced, and Upgrade the Thinker when we encounter a “negative” Thought about an outcome we wouldn’t Want to Live through.  

I’m suggesting that one way to make sense of the hospital’s weird calls, is that my friend’s Thought triggered a loose thread dangling from the fabric of an alternate Universe, which bled through to their child’s Linear Reality.  The bleedthrough may be an invitation to my friend to further develop their natural abilities in the Occult Arts – it wouldn’t be the first invitation they’ve received recently.

Now, as Robert Moss often reminds us about our Dreams, some of them are prophetic, so it behooves us to be mindful of that possibility.  Dreams, Thoughts, what’s the difference.  “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade” has the potential to reduce the likelihood of prophesy, but it pays as we get older to Pay Closer Attention to what we do and reduce our multitasking, in order to increase our Mindfulness of each Action that we take.  

It would be a good idea for my friend to Tap Out their Thought, with a phrase something like “Even though I Feared that I could break bones, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  It could save them a future trip to the hospital.  If you’re thinking about Fate just now, Moss reports many instances where he’s had Dreams that turned out to be prophetic, but he’s recognized the Drama as it unfolded, and cut it short, avoiding the negative result of the Dream.  We haven’t finished Co-Creating the Future yet.

Another Busy Weekend

We have dedicated our Lives to suppressing certain Emotions and Memories and even Thoughts, and for good reason.  They would Overwhelm us, and we have More Important things to do.  Till now.

Thing is, those Emotions and Memories and Thoughts are the doorways to Healing our Limiting Beliefs, making it Safe to Remove our remaining Masks, eliminating Self-Sabotage, uncorking our Forbidden Genius, and to painlessly achieving the Yintegrity and Self-Sovereignty that we so crave, but which we hold back from because we fear it would so Disrupt our Lives and the Lives of those we Love and Depend upon.  That sentence was not approved by the FDA, but I believe it’s True.  And it may even positively impact our Physical Health.

The Universe will bring these Emotions and Memories and Thoughts to us in early June, and the Universe has been, and continues to, give us Opportunities to get a head start.  And every early Opportunity we take advantage of will make June less painful.  If we’re still in Resistance to these Emotions and Memories and Thoughts in June, the process could well be painful.  The Universe is our friend, if we Learn to listen to Her.

As you probably know by now, Eris (Truthtelling) Initiates Uranus (Our Connection to Our Individual Soul) in early June.   We expect this to do a pretty good job of finishing up the Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since 2012.  Well, let’s put it this way – late May and early June will be the Can-Opener phase of this Initiation.  The Initiation occurs at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia: Openness to the influx of spiritual energies.“

When an Angle between two planets repeats, as is usually the case with outer planets, the first event always catches us off guard.  The last time this event occurred was in 1926, so very few of us have Experienced it in our current Lifetime.  If you know someone in their 90s who’s freaking out, this is probably why.  The less Experience we have with an Energy, the more likely it is to catch us off guard.  Forewarned is forearmed, however, so even if we’re off guard, knowing in general what the Energy is about can help us make sense out of what’s happening, and can help us step out of the Victim Modality we’d otherwise be in.

Let’s take what we hope will be an extreme example – suppose we were sexually abused as a child.  We don’t remember it, we only notice that in some situations we feel Unsafe or Angry or Scared, or maybe we’re uncomfortable with Intimacy.  If those Memories pop up in late May or early June, we’re going to Regress to the age when the abuse occurred, and to the Skillset and Boundaries that we had – or more accurately didn’t have – at that age.  Victim Modality is a foregone conclusion, most especially if those Memories arise as a result of some similar-feeling Unsafety in the then-Present Moment.

If we are somehow reminded that there is likely to be a “100-year” Regression (a Regression on such a scale that it occurs only once in a century) going on, we’re still going to be caught off guard, but we’re likely to be able to Recover our Present-Moment Skillsets much sooner than if we didn’t get the memo, or as the case may be, the blog post.

We’ve talked before about “Sensitivity” – how Sensitive we are to an astrological event, something astrologers can “Orb,” and I sometimes call “Slop.”  When an event is pending, most folks can certainly begin feeling it when it comes within one Degree of being exact.  Of course the Muggles will be in Denial, finding all manner of excuses, thinking it’s Heartburn.  The more Sensitive among us will begin feeling an event when it comes within three Degrees.  The most Sensitive of us will feel it sooner than that.

The Eris-Uranus Initiation reaches one Degree of Sensitivity in Mid-May.  It reached three Degrees of Sensitivity in late March.  Most folks who read this are likely to be at least three-Degrees Sensitive, so most of us are already Feeling it.  We Feel it through pressure to stop hiding or covering up parts of ourself that we’ve thought were less attractive or less Skillful.  Through Vulnerability.  Through Epiphanies about where we’ve been seeing through a glass darkly.  Through old Identities and Ego-Masks and Archetypes that we’re outgrowing.  Through a Desire to stop “Playing Games.”

An Initiation is a Conjunction.  When Angles repeat three times, as the Uranus-Eris Conjunction does, the first occurrence is a Can-Opener.  It opens a “Can of Worms” that we didn’t know was waiting for us.  The second and third occurrences are also Conjunctions, but they aren’t Initiations – only the first event is an Initiation.  We’re almost always in Victim Mode during a Can-Opener.

The second occurrence is an Exposition – the same Energy recurs front and center, but this time it seems to occur in slow motion (Retrograde), so we have a far better chance of understanding what’s happening “to us,” and consequently a far better chance of moving from Victim Mode to Master Mode.  In Victim Mode things happen to us, we have no Control over them.  In Master Mode, even if things happen to us, we have Skills to deal with them adequately.  

If we Master an Energy during the Exposition, then the third occurrence is a Confidence-Builder.  The Energy and Process recurs, but this time we’re ready and able to deal with it using our now-Present-Moment Skillsets, including those we learned in the previous two events, and we sail through it, feeling great about our new Expertise.  If we didn’t Master the Energy during the Exposition, then the third occurrence becomes another Opportunity, another Exposition.

The Uranus-Pluto Square recurred six times after the Can-Opener, giving us an indication of how Important the Universe thought it was for us to Recover our Yintegrity.  As if Pluto didn’t already symbolize what is Mandatory (Adaptable but not Avoidable).  The Can-Opener (June 2012) was followed by five Expositions (October 2012, May and November 2013, May and December 2014) before the Confidence-Builder (March 2015).  

The Uranus-Eris Exposition peaks in late September, while the Confidence-Builder occurs at the Ides of March next year.

In other words, as Uranus approaches Eris, that section of the Zodiac (now 21-23 Aries) gets very Hot.  The Sun (our Essence) crossed that section last weekend (April 9-11), while Varuna (Cellular Wisdom) and Chariklo (Beauty and Charm) were Stationary.  Venus (our Values) crosses that section two weekends hence, April 22-24.  In between, this coming weekend (April 16-17), Mars (Action) and Pluto (Inevitability) are Stationary (Strong).

There’s a joke about two Olde-Boy psychologists trading stories about “Freudian slips.”  One says his attention was drawn to the bosom of a ticket-seller on a recent trip to Pittsburgh, and he accidentally asked for a picket to his destination instead of a ticket.  The other says, “That’s nothing.  The other day I was having dinner with my mother and when I meant to ask her to pass the butter, what came out instead was ‘Mother, you’ve ruined my Life and I hate you!’ ”  

It would be really appropriate to Mars-Pluto – and fortuitous – if such Freudian slips came out this weekend, because they would constitute bright flashing lights pointing us toward clues about what hasn’t come to the surface of Consciousness yet.  Let your tongue be your Guide this weekend.  Same with “slip-ups” of any sort.  Make a wrong turn on the way to the store?  Where did you end up?  Drop a jar of Honey on a hard floor?  What do you suppose that might mean?  PIAVA the question.  Run into someone you haven’t seen in a long time?  A stranger strikes up an interesting conversation?  Pay Attention this weekend.

In particular, in addition to the Retrograde Stations of Pluto (5am PDT 17 April at 18 Capricorn) and Mars (1am PDT 18 April at 9 Sagittarius), Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) Initiates Mercury (Communication) at 3pm PDT 16 April, in 17 Taurus, “A symbolic battle between ‘swords’ and ‘torches’.”  Fascinating Symbol, as Swords symbolize mentality, as does Mercury.  That leaves Vesta standing in for Torches, indicating that…

Our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs are Burning their way out of Denial now, and will be for the next fifteen months, while this Mercury-Vesta Cycle moves through.  Just long enough to cover the Eris-Uranus Confidence-Builder.

We’ll talk more about the Vesta-Mercury Initiation – with its two Tricolors and Grand Trine – in the next installment, but note that while it’s occurring, the Sun is crossing the asteroid Mnemosyne – Memory.  What a jokester, this Universe!

Kundalini Rising II

The Elves of Lily Hill Farm don’t mince words (Penny Kelly, p.191)…

“Humans are at the top of nature’s heap.  Ye humans need everything that’s in the heap under ye to support yer form of life.  But nothing in the heap needs that human at the top.  Ye humans are the most expendable of all – yet ye all think yer indispensable!  

“Picture the security of the human race right now as one lonely person riding a unicycle across a tightrope that is tied between two poles anchored in soup bowls floating on an ocean,  Yer position is tenuous – at best.”

But there be Hope (Genia Haddon, Body Metaphors, pp.108-9)…

“Neither participational consciousness [the original Matriarchy] nor differentiating objectivity [the Patriarchy] characterizes this third model.  It [the Age of the Yang Feminine – the Age of Lilith] encourages a ‘both-and’ way of looking at things.  Although uncommon in the Patriarchal Age, this sort of consciousness is sometimes experiened in mystical states or with the aid of psychedelic drugs.  

“A pair of opposites that are mutually exclusive as seen by patriarchal, differentiating consciousness are no longer contradictory when comprehended by mentation that simultaneously holds awareness of various levels or orders of wholes.  In other words, this is a style of consciousness that is attentive to varying contexts and can shift from one to another, or even hold several in awareness simultaneously [Castaneda’s ‘Cognitive Dissonance’].

“In such a system, we should expect to experience life as multivalent rather than focused, contextually transformative rather than goal oriented.  Within the gestative system [Matriarchy], movement was contained and cyclic.  The metaphor for progress was natural, vegetative proliferation and succession of seasons.  Phases succeeded one another in a repeating pattern, like a circle, or like the snake biting its tail.  

“In the phallic system, movement is goal oriented and linear, like a arrow.  Progress is pictured as ascent achieved through competition and mastery.  In the exertive [Yang Feminine] system, movement is to be rooted in context and emerging out of it, like a spiral or helix … [in which] interleaved ascending and descending coils suggest the contexting of ‘opposites’ within a larger whole that retains their distinctions, yet transcends their opposition [the ‘Coin’].”

“In an Age reflecting the nature of the exertive womb [Yang Feminine] rather than the phallus, property ownership and exploitation would simply cease to be meaningful concepts, based as they are on patriarchal principles of separating out and power over.  It is beyond my capacity to picture concretely such a world based on exertive-world principles of egalitarian networks, contextual transformation, and holistic transcendence.  

“To appreciate how alien exertive-womb principles still are, try to imagine what sort of pattern would replace ‘ownership’ of animal pets by ‘masters’ in an age in which the dominant motif is no longer hierarchical. … These are the watchwords: context, egalitarian, transformation, multiple wholes, self-transcendence, non-uniform multiplicity, both-and simultaneity without loss of distinctions, network.”

Here’s an example of Both/And/And-that-too, from Robert Moss’s Dreaming True pp290-1…

“The philosopher of Science Thomas Kuhn observed that we get a paradigm shift when the accumulation of ‘anomalies’ forces the abandonment of old scientific paradigms and the adoption of new ones.  Dream journalists can contribute mightily to the emergence and understanding of new paradigms in science” by, for instance…

• “Case studies of interactive dreaming that will provide mutually confirming evidence that consciousness is never confined to the brain.
• “Documented and witnessed reports of dream precognition, telepathy, and other psi phenomena that will establish that these are entirely natural events and that our everyday experience is not the only engagement with time and space that is possible.
• “Serial dreams in which we return to locales where we seem to be leading a continuous life as our present selves, but with some different elements in the scene.  For example: we may be married to a different person, living in a different town, following a different line of work.  Serial dreams of this type may provide strong experiential evidence for the ‘parallel universes’ hypothesis.
• “Serial dreams in which we enter the situation or perspective of people living in other times or dimensions who are clearly not our familiar selves.  These experiences may be suggestive of our connectedness, in our multidimensional identity, with a vast family of consciousness in many time periods and frequency domains.”

The Eclipse Grand Cross is tight, spanning only three Degrees, 17-19 of the Mutable Signs (Pisces, Virgo, Sagittarius, Gemini).

In general, Angles between planets that are less than three Degrees apart can be considered to have a strong impact on the Present Moment.  Angles between planets that are less than eight Degrees apart will have less effect on the Present Moment, but will have profound impact on any project or Entity or Identity that is born at the time.  

“Orb” is the astrological term for the inexactitude of interplanetary Angles, but we prefer “Sensitivity” because how responsive we are to the Angles depends on how Sensitive we are to Energy.  The average Muggle might be hard-pressed to detect one Degree of Orb, while a Sensitive person could feel the impact of eight or ten Degrees even in the Present Moment.  We’ll all be much more Sensitive to any current-moment Angle that mirrors an Angle in our Natal chart.

Because we use many more planets, asteroids, dwarfs, and Centaurs than traditional astrology, for birth charts we try to keep our Attention directed toward Angles that are less than five Degrees apart.  Because we expect most of our readers to be Sensitive to Energy, we often use five degrees for Present-Moment charts as well.

Exceptions arise when Angles adjoin one another.  For instance, the Total Solar Eclipse occurs at 19 Degrees of Pisces, two Degrees from Chiron at 21 Degrees, and three Degrees from the South Node at 22 Degrees.  But Ceres sits at 16 Degrees, three Degrees on the other side of the Eclipse.  So we have a choice: we can interpret Eclipse-Chiron-South Node and Eclipse-Ceres as two distinct relevant Energies, or we can read Ceres-Eclipse-Chiron-South Node as one Stellium and one Energy.  To be thorough, we should do both, that is, read all three.

So now we’ve stretched from 17-19 Degrees to 16-22 Degrees, sevan Degrees of Separation.  Still well within traditional astrology’s span for a birth chart.  Lilith is also at 22 Degrees, so this allows our Grand Trine and Kite, since Pallas, like Saturn, is at 17 Degrees.  Haumea is very Conjunct Lilith, but at 24 Degrees.  We can’t ignore Haumea’s promise to Rebirth Lilith, but this brings us to 17-24 Degrees, and 16-24 if we  include Ceres, which is hard to exclude when the Ceres-Saturn Square is only half a Degree from being Exact.  While this seems like way too much slop for Present-Moment consideration, we can’t ignore the interconnections.

So far we have involved planets in Pisces (Ceres-Eclipse-Chiron-South Node), Aquarius (Pallas), Sagittarius (Saturn), Libra (Lilith-Haumea), Virgo (Jupiter-North Node), and Gemini (Chaos).  Uranus-Eris at 19-23 of Aries makes our Kite into five-sixth of a Grand Sextile, and the asteroid Klotho at 17 Leo completes it.

Klotho is one of the “Fates” – Klotho cuts the fabric from which Lifetimes are woven, Lachesis measures out the length of a Lifetime, and Atropos cuts the chord when that length is reached.  Their mother Moirai completes the foursome.  

It’s important to remember that Fate and Free Will, as a Duality, cannot be properties of the Universe at Large, as the Universe at Large is Multifarious.  Duality does happen to be a signal property of the Observing Human mind, however, so we interpret Fate as a philosophical issue, not an Existential issue.  It is striking, though, how often astrology seems to Teach us about what’s going on, as if our Co-Creations have long been mapped out by the Stars, as if the best outcome we could hope for from a Lifetime would be an Oscar.

We’re fond of saying that if we use Senses and Skills beyond the intellect, or if we desire to peer into the Unconscious, there is no Contradiction, only Paradox.  In most cases that’s giving the mind more credit than it deserves, but it’s certainly a valid Perspective.  So we could profitably view the Question of Fate and Free Will as a Paradox.  In fact, we can even look at it through Genia’s Yang-Feminine Perspective as a case of “both-and simultaneity without loss of distinctions”!  

How handy.  We’re being Rebirthed into the Yang-Feminine Age as we speak!  

We don’t usually think of Klotho as a heavy hitter, but completing a Grand Sextile gets our Attention, particularly with Haumea Rebirthing Lilith.  The combination means that…

This is a particularly germinal time for building foundations for our Role in the New “Fresh Violets in an Ancient Pottery Bowl” Culture that we’re Co-Creating.

Big revisions to our Cultural Zeitgeist were promised by the 2009 Neptune-Chiron Initiation, “Fresh Violets in an Ancient Pottery Bowl,” which we consider to be the astrological correlate of the Derivative Crisis that the Lizards quite successfully spun as a Mortgage-Deadbeat Crisis.  Genia’s comments are validation for what we’ve been talking about in this regard.

In a significant way, we’re “cutting the cloth” this month for our New economic and ecologic Persona.  We’ve suggested that major Commitments are better delayed till after June’s Eris-Uranus Initiation, since we can expect to meet whole new elements of ourselves then, but if we Trust our Knowing, there is a lot of preparatory work we can be doing that doesn’t involve firm Commitment.  And while New Moons are generally considered to impact the following two to four weeks, Eclipses are usually given a longer span of influence, often nine months.  So if we pinned on the Pattern this month, and wielded our pinking shears in July, we’d be in good stead.

Kelley Hunter usually reads the more traditional astrological symbols, while I stray into all manner of questionable nooks and crannies, so it’s particularly validating when the two of us walk down the same lane.  Her readings have been more mundane than mine of late, so we haven’t been linking to her newsletter.  On the other hand, she literally “wrote the books” on Lilith, and few folks are more in touch with the evolving Age of Lilith than she.  Her reading for this Eclipse mirrors ours, but of course as always adding much of note…

http://heliastar.com/cosmic-news/the-new-note-eclipse/

So we regard this Eclipse chart as a legitimate Grand Sextile, in addition to the Kite, Grand Trine, and Grand Cross – very Powerful.  The nature of a Sextile is Grace, as long as we provide the initial impetus to kickstart the process.  A Grand Sextile is about processes that feed on themselves and become virtuous cycles, like Genia’s interleaving helixes.  We may even be able to kickstart one of the Sextiles and watch it activate the other five!  Let’s talk about that in another installment.

I don’t want to leave this train of thought without bringing Pluto into the picture.  Pluto, at 18 Capricorn, Sextiles the Eclipse, and this Sextile forms the base of a Finger of God pointing directly at Klotho.  So it’s a good thing we included Klotho.  It doesn’t pay to ignore Pluto, or Eclipses.

Pluto represents that which Cannot Be Ignored.  I think of Pluto as a Powerful River, not in Space but in Time.  Paddling our canoe upstream is not an option; we’ll simply get pulled backwards into the rapids, if not the falls.  We need to ride this River downstream.  We can, however, steer toward one bank or the other, camp on an island, and since we can see where we’re going, pull out to portage around the falls.

The Klotho Finger of God tells us to Pay Attention Now to the way we’re designing the New Life that we’re Rebirthing for the Age of Lilith, to make sure that our New Life flows with the current and not against it.  The Eclipse-Ceres Conjunction reinforces this Directive, Asking us to Attend to Sustainability here.  

And to the other side of the Sustainability Coin, Sustenance – which means Letting Go of what’s no longer necessary – especially our Limiting Beliefs, which will be illuminated brightly for us with the Eclipse (which provides Illumination by showing us what it’s like without what we take for granted) on the South Node (which harbors our Held Emotions).  Penny Kelly spends about 90% of her book describing how difficult it was to Let Go of all the Resistance she had to Receiving Insight from The Elves of Lily Hill Farm.

The keystone in this Drama is the Initiation of Moirai, mother of the Fates, by Pluto on 10 March, at 18 Capricorn, “The Union Jack flag flies from a British warship.”  Rudhyar’s interpretation, “Protection provided by institutions in charge of maintaining order,” reeks of the Patriarchy, as Rudhyar’s roots were deep in European traditions.  

Our interpretation springs instead from the 1/1/2000 Initiation of Chiron by Pluto, “A flag turning into an Eagle, turning into a Chanticleer heralding the Dawn.”  The flag represents the old Loyalist status quo Ego, the Eagle the wide, inclusive Perspective of the Yang Feminine, and the Dawn of course the EnLightenment that follows.

So now we’re tossed back into the “Paradox” of Fate and Free Will with a renewed sense of Importance.  It would probably be quite accurate to say that astrology shows us our Fate if we proceed Unconsciously.  If we interpret the Squares to the Eclipse negatively, we’d Expect that because the Eclipse will cause us to freeze like a Deer in the headlights because there are too many Choices (Chaos), we’ll find our Future to be severely Limiting (Saturn).  

And I imagine that this will be an apt description of the Future confronting many of the Muggles that still suffer under the Illusion that their employer and their government have their interest at Heart, as the propaganda machine continues to work overtime to keep them convinced.  Ask your doctor if Climate Change Denial is good for you, it should say.  Ask your doctor if Globalization is good for you.  Ask your doctor if Glyphosate-saturated, mineral-deficient food-like substances are good for you.  If Death occurs, tell your doctor immediately and discontinue use.

I’m sure it’s an apt description for the poor blokes who’ve just been trying to survive the Drought and Turmoil in the Middle East, and for the Greeks being trampled by the results, after being wrung out by the Vulture Capitalists and Multinational Patriarchs running the EU.  We may not be able to divert the Pluto River, but we do have the option to Respond Consciously to the currents, to recognize that The Most Important Thing (Saturn) confronting us is Making Choices to steer our Unlimited Future (Chaos) in directions that promote our Deepest Desires and further our Mission in the Lifetime (Jupiter-North Node).

We still have quite a bit of material left in this Eclipse chart that keeps on Giving – to be continued!

Upper Limits

A Reader shares a recent Dream…

“In a bank, with a long line at the teller’s window.  I stood in the line, but then began playing with my toddler daughter.  At one point she said, ‘Mommy, I think it’s your turn.’  I went to the window, but the teller picked up the check and deposit slip and set it aside and told me sternly, ‘Sorry, you have to wait in line if you want me to deposit this.’  

“This made me very angry and I told my daughter, ‘I will just take my business somewhere else,’ and went to take my check back.  But the teller said, ‘Go back in line if you want this back’ (very sternly, like she was punishing me for enjoying myself with my child and not following rules).  This made me really angry, wondering how she could treat me like this.  I said I would call the cops, that this is illegal.  I felt hurt, brushed aside, helpless. 

“This triggered, when I woke up, really deep feelings of deep pain and helplessness with my children when they were very young, how being a single parent (my husband traveled all the time, and when he was home he didn’t do anything with us, and would get mad if I asked for help), dragging my kids along everywhere, them not cooperating, feeling helpless when I wanted to be a good mom and yet didn’t know how to handle them, tired, despairing, helpless, hopeless.  

 

“The pain was so deep, and yet, I did not even know I had it.  I cried and stayed with the pain while intending that I see though it and let it go.  I did appreciate being shown this pain that I did not remember, as it was certainly ‘mine,’ historically.”

 

This is a perfect illustration of what we refer to as “Held Emotions,” symbolized by the South Node.  It’s likely that this is not the first Lifetime in which our Reader has encountered this Archetype, as it’s a variation on the grip of Slavery that the Patriarchy has held over Women (and most Men, actually) for several millennia now.  These are the things we Tap Out or otherwise Stand Still for in Step Three of our earlier Aim Higher post.  Our Reader describes the Skillful job she did in Standing Still for the Pain.  

 

This is an Archetype, an Energy Field that exists apart from us as individuals.  Every time anyone Stands Still (as opposed to running away or hiding again) for a hurtful Archetype, it weakens.  This is Sisiutl, the two-headed Monster that turns to Stone anyone who holds its gaze.  Standing Still and closing our eyes, the Monster comes closer and closer, and as we endure its foul breath it surrounds us, its two heads see one another, and it is Sisiutl that turns itself to Stone.

 

Our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs have their origins in “real” historical or Karmic events.  When it’s time for us to stretch beyond them – as it is now, BigTime, as we described in Aim Higher – we often run into a re-creation of those events, as if the doorway is blocked by a Black Widow’s web, with Her Majesty in the center waiting for us.  The re-creation may be virtual or hardcopy.  It works like Karma – it doesn’t grasp us, we grasp it.  So if we Let Go, we can Liberate ourselves and dismiss the Limiting Belief in the process.

 

Hidden behind our Held Emotions and Limiting Beliefs, are the Skills we learned long ago, but forgot we had because they were buried by the Pain.  Those are the Skills we need to accomplish our Mission in the Lifetime.  This is the Earth Game.  It’s not about Stepping off the Treadmill, that’s just a story.  It’s about melting these destructive Archetypes, one Sisiutl Experience at a time.  Eventually, someone will melt the Last shred of that Field, and we will all be free of it.  You can see a Death Rattle of this Archetype in the Antichrist who’s running for the US presidency.

 

Gay Hendricks refers to these as our “Upper Limits” – when things are going too well for us, we invent something to bring us back to where we’re Comfortable, lest we be frightened by our own Light and the realization that we are “Powerful beyond Measure.”  There’s usually no need for invention, though, as our Personal and Collective Shadows hold many Monsters that can help keep us in line as our small self.  There is seldom only one encounter with these Monsters – they retest us to be sure we won’t fall back into their arms.  It gets easier every time, though.  

 

Here’s Genia Haddon’s description of this Archetype (Body Metaphors, p.20)…

“Patriarchal culture greatly elevates the phallic masculine qualities, expecting a subordinate all-yin feminine to provide sufficient counterbalance.  But unless relativized by the presence of the testicular [yin] masculine plus both the gestative [yin] feminine and the exertive [yang] feminine, eventually the phallic masculine turns pernicious.  

 

“The exaggerated phallus becomes intrusive, rigidly erect and unbending, hard, harsh, domineering, coercive, invasive, exploitative.  It results in the raping of the planet’s natural resources, questionably intrusive medical procedures, the proliferation of penislike instruments that shoot bullets and missiles, perpetual striving for dominance by powers and superpowers, dependence on rigid doctrine in religion, absence of contextual compassion in the legal system, and so on.”

 

In Genia’s view, the emergence of the Patriarchy, where the Whole is an Individual, was as inevitable as the initial emergence of the Matriarchy, where the Individual was merely a unit of the Community Whole, with no independent Identity.  In the Matriarchy, our Reader would not have been alone in her “duties.”  In this Perspective, the Yang Masculine will eventually yield to the Yang Feminine, where all Dualities defined by the Patriarchy will achieve equal status, and both the Individual, and any Groups it joins, will form Wholes, Wholes of Wholes.

 

In the Mythology behind astrology, it is Lilith – Yindependence and Self-Sovereignty, that symbolizes the Yang Feminine.  

 

In our Reader’s chart, her Natal Lilith completes a Grand Trine with Transiting Orcus and Chariklo, lending great Grace to her Liberation.  Orcus is the Punisher of those who would Betray their Oaths, one of the original enforcers for the Patriarchy.  Orcus symbolizes the sort of Guilt and Inadequacy she felt about her difficulties with her kids – and the Transcendance of that same Guilt and Inadequacy.  Orcus is like Sisiutl, and will turn itself to Stone when we Stand Still for it.  And of course Orcus Opposes Neptune, so her Natal Lilith completes a Transiting Neptune Kite, symbolizing that her Work on this Archetype, while Experienced as deeply Personal, is in fact a lot more than Personal, a Wayshower for the Collective.

Boundaries and Twins

Boundaries continue to be Lit Up strongly.  I find myself learning from several different directions all about sliding through what I normally think of as pretty firm Boundaries – like the Boundary between the Air and the Earth, or between Then and Now.  Here are a couple of other examples of penetrating Boundaries…

https://lightlover1964.wordpress.com/2016/01/14/the-andromedans-twins-january-142016/

“In the Baltic, I have been reminded again and again that one of the gifts of dreaming is that it opens authentic connections to the ancestors, offering us the chance to heal the wounds of the past and effect cultural soul recovery.  It can bring us back to the truth of Island Woman and the ancient grandmothers, to those who upheld partnership societies instead of orders based on conquest and patriarchy.  

“In this way, we can make a vital contribution to the assignment Marija Gimbutas gave us when she said, in ringing tones, ‘We must refocus our collective memory.  The necessity of this has never been greater as we discover that the path of ‘progress’ is extinguishing the very conditions for life on earth.”  –Robert Moss, Dreaming the Soul Back Home, p.230

Pallas – Boundaries – recently Initiated (22 December, 19 Capricorn, “A five-year-old child carrying a bag filled with groceries“) and Exposed (12 January) by Mercury, and Initiated by Pluto (11 December, 15 Capricorn, “In a hospital, the children’s ward is filled with toys“), is Conjoined by the Sun most of next week, and remains so at the 23 January Full Moon.

In addition, Magic is afoot.  Jupiter-North Node (Expanding into our Mission), Centaur and dwarf planet Chariklo (Walking in Beauty), asteroid and dwarf planet Ceres (Sustainability), and Uranus (Yintegrity) are all Septile or Biseptile to one another, making four sevenths of a Grand Septile (Major Magic).  For much of January, two asteroids -Apollo (Light, Prophecy, Healing) and Panacea (Universal Healing) – occupy the fifth position in mid-Scorpio, and a third asteroid, Psyche (the Soul) sits in the sixth position, in Gemini.

On 19 January, the Moon crosses Psyche.  But on 23 January, at the Full Moon, the Moon occupies position number 7, completing the full Grand Septile – Major Magic, and Major Healing Magic!  The lineup is worth reviewing…

• The Great Benefic – Jupiter
• Our Mission and Deepest Desires – the North Node
• Walking in Beauty – Chariklo
• The Sustainable – Ceres
• Our Soul Self – Uranus
• Light and Healing – Apollo
• Universal Healing – Panacea
• The Soul – Psyche
• The Manifestor – Moon

All lined up in a Powerful Shamanic Configuration.  The Seventh Harmonic is about Stillness and Action – saving one’s Power until the precise moment when it will have an impact far beyond what you can imagine, and not wasting it on what will not produce the Desired result.

And as a bonus, our Chief Asteroid Officer Elizabeth points out that the asteroid Atropos Conjoins the South Node and Opposes Jupiter for the last half of January.  Atropos is one of the three Fates.  Her two sisters spin and measure out the length of Chord that our individual Lives will span, and Atropos, the Inevitable, cuts the Chord when our Time is up.  The South Node Initiates Atropos at the Full Moon, in 25 Pisces, “A religious organization succeeds in overcoming the corrupting infuence of perverted practices and materialized ideals: The power of the Soul to intervene in the personal life and to induce necessary catharses.“

Wow.  So do we all die in Blissful Healing at the Full Moon?

Well, by now we understand Ego Death, don’t we.  Atropos on the South Node, which represents our Held Emotions, the blocks that Limit us and prevent us from Manifesting our Deepest Desires.  As Elizabeth puts it, Atropos “represents the definitive and irrevocable severing of a situation, affair or process” – our Opportunity to definitively and irrevocably Let Go of our Held Emotions and Limiting Beliefs!

Remember that our Karma does not bind us, we grasp it!  Every time our old Bummers arise, we have the Opportunity to Embrace them again (by rueing them or indulging the negative thoughts, for instance) or Let them Go (by Tapping them Out, or Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrading them, for example).  Karma is Inertia, Habit Patterns.  The more often we Embrace past bummers, the more we cement our Karma in place.  The more often we express our Delight that that was in the Past and is not happening in the Present Moment, the more we create new Habit Patterns.

Have you lately been catching yourself reviewing less than satisfactory Outcomes to old situations?  That’s exactly what we mean.

Ego Deaths aren’t always Wine and Roses; often they feel more like Too Much Wine, and Thorns.  Review the early signals that Ego Death is upon us –

• Getting or Feeling Lost in your own neighborhood or while doing routine tasks
• Confusion
• “I’d rather die than go through that again!”
• “I’d do anything for Love, but I won’t do that!”
• “If only I’d had the wits and the guts to do it differently!”
• Unexpected or unusual Emotions or thoughts
• Feeling Shame or Anger or Regret

Grief is appropriate; Embrace it Tenderly and Lovingly.  It should feel positive, almost like a mild version of Tears of Joy.  If it starts to get Heavy, don’t follow it, Let it Go, Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade.  Tap it Out.

The sooner you notice that you’re slipping out of your Olde Ego and into something more comfortable, Embrace the Empty Void that will temporarily take its place.  All your Life you’ve been saving up two piles of chips.  The first pile holds all the times you’ve decided it wasn’t worth it, or it wasn’t possible, or it hurt too much, or it was too dangerous, or Mom would never approve, or it was too much trouble to follow your Dreams.  The other pile holds all the times when you daydreamed about how great it would be if you somehow found yourself stepping Efforlessly into your Dreams.

Take the first pile up to the cashier, and trade it in for cash, all of it.  There’s a lot of Energy bound up in those thoughts and resulting Feelings, and you can now let it Create your Dreams.  Bundle up the second pile, along with your new cash stash, and store them in your Solar Plexus.

It’s not like you’re going to go right out and start spending your Lottery winnings.  You’re going to be stumbling around Feeling kind of Autistic for a while.  Let it Be.  Be Gentle with yourself; you’re Newborn.  Keep coming back to Curiosity about what you’ll Co-Create next; Let it Flow out of your Heart and Surprise your mind.  You’ve just been Reborn, so of course you’re going to be taking a while to figure out where you End and the rest of the World begins – if you ever do figure that out!  That’s one of the things that’s likely to be most radically different now.  

Remember you don’t need to DO to Create the Future you want, you need to ALLOW it to happen.  If you catch yourself Working at it, stop and Rest.  It should Feel like Play.  The Universe will deliver it to you, you only need to Call it.  Relax.  It’s Yours.  It won’t go away.

Write “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade” at the top of the next twenty pages of your Journal.  You can even Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade your Bliss if it starts to Feel Overwhelming; it’ll return tenfold, when you’re ready to handle it, after you’ve practiced up.

Whoa – what was that!  A negative thought?  “How many times have I fooled myself thinking it’ll be different now?”  Tap it Out.  This is Big Magic – Let it In.  You might want to go back and reread the LightLover link and the Robert Moss quote now, to see if they’ve Changed.  That’s another sign of Rebirth – things start Changing right before your eyes.

More Timely Wisdom

More timely wisdom from Elder Mountain…

https://eldermountain.wordpress.com/2016/01/11/chaos-magik/

As the Nodes (with Jupiter on the North Node) are backing into a Grand Cross with the dwarf planets Chaos and Ixion, and Neptune Opposes the dwarf planet Orcus, on 13 January, a few days hence.

A Grand Cross is formed when four planets are equally spaced around the Zodiac.  It’s like four T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge), except it’s Balanced, so it ends up being “just” Busy – lots of little Fires to put out, so we don’t have the luxury or the time to dwell on how imperfect it all Feels, like we do with a T-Square.  We’re so Busy multitasking that we get to Feel some degree of temporary Satisfaction from finding a series of adequate solutions that suffice for the short term.

The Nodes of course indicate what we’re doing here; the South Node where we came from, and the North Node where we’d like to go.  Of course All There Is Is Now, so the Nodes flip a lot…

Turns out we need to Let Go of the Held Emotions or Past-Life PTSD that our South Node represents, in order to Recover the Past Life Skills that are necessary to resolve the issues that stand between us and our destination, and realize our Mission for the Lifetime.

And as our CAO (Chief Asteroid Officer) points out, the asteroid Karma (the Inertia Created by Our Held Emotions) is approaching the dwarf planet Eris (Revelation of What’s Being Denied), crossing it on 18 January.  However, this is a Confidence-Builder crossing.  The Can-Opener occurred 8 October 2015, and the Exposition 30 December.

With Jupiter on the North Node, we’re hearing a Siren Song from our Mission…  

Our intuitive grasp of our “Real” Mission changes as we raise our Frequency to encompass more of the Universe.  Seeing as we do through a glass darkly, it really is a Siren Song that we’re hearing, tempting us to toss ourself into the morass of our Current Desires, rather than lose our current Ego in prayer that we may Embrace more of its True Meaning.

Which dilemma is also being lit up by an impending Initiation of Mars (Self-Assertion) by Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) that’s complete on 24 January.  

The dwarf planet Chaos represents Unlimited Potential – it’s the Zero Point Field or “Vacuum” that existed before Zeus and the Patriarchy “Created” “Order.”  In the Quantum World, “Reality” is indeterminate till it’s not.  (Or as they say, indeterminate till it’s Witnessed, but that’s incredibly anthropomorphic.)  Chaos is what you haven’t Manifested yet.

Ironically, the Greek version of Vesta was the Goddess of the Hearth, Hestia, and the ancient Greeks toasted Hestia before they toasted Zeus, and after they toasted Zeus.  They were smart enough to honor what really mattered while propping up the male Ego.  Vesta – Unconscious Belief – guards the Edges of Chaos, to keep too many Demons and Daemons and Diamonds from breaking through the Veil.  

This week’s Neptune-Orcas Opposition chart includes a Vesta Yod based on the Sextile between Mars-Juno and Orcas.

The dwarf planet Ixion represents our Pathological Genius.  Ixion was the male figure that ignored Zeus’s Rules of Order, and pursued his Desires without thought of Consequences.  Ixion is our feral unprogrammed Inner Child.  

Underneath our Programming we are all Mozarts and Einsteins and Jeannes d’Arc and Queen Victorias – we have an irrepressible Destiny that was not crushed by our Programming, only driven into the Unconscious.  Our Programming relegated our Genius to the realm of the Pathological – we were Punished and Shamed for it.  

No Blame here; this is how Consciousness grows.  As we Create Security we also Create boredom, so we seek the Light by venturing forth into the Wilderness.  Soon we’re Lost, and have to find our way back “Home.”  Then we rinse and repeat.  On the scale of a Lifetime, our Programmers are chosen to set up ways for us to get Lost that will cause us eventually to remember our Mission.  We are each puzzle pieces in a multibillion-piece puzzle, and like one of Gollum’s riddles, the puzzle will be “solved” when we all Embrace our Pathological Genii.

Putting all this together, we can expect that for most of January we’ll be rushing about putting out Karmic Fires.  If these take the form of rescuing anyone from their Pain, don’t waste the Mirror.  External hardcopy “Reality” is no different from our Dreams.  It all has something to do with what we’re bringing into Consciousness, though seldom in a straightforward manner.  

As I’ve done many times, I recommend Eugene Gendlin’s excellent book, Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams.  It’s a collection of clever techniques for coaxing Meaning from your Dreams non-intellectually, and can very productively be used to coax Meaning from your daily adventures in the “Real” Hologram as well.  As an example, he recommends avoiding polarity flip-flops – when you Decide that a Change is necessary, don’t jump from Black to White; instead, shift to a 90%-saturated grey.  Our Symbols are road signs, not airports.

There are directions in our Life that have Unlimited Potential, and Embracing – Witnessing – our Shame and Fear of Punishment, can Create major leaps in that direction.  “You poor Sweetheart, they really Shamed you for that, didn’t they.”  By noticing that we’re in Shame or Fear and Lovingly Witnessing it, we stop being Shame or Fear, and instead become Compassion.

So our January will include glimpses of the Unlimited – like a billion-dollar lottery.  Then we’ll recall our humdrum daily life and how seldom we’ve Created real Miracles, dismiss the Dream, and fade back into worrying about the mortgage.  Then our Desires will rise up, and we’ll Fantasize doing what will Really make us come Alive, till our Held Emotions make us realize how incredibly uncomfortable we’d be if we actually came close to indulging that Fantasy.  

This is January’s Grand Cross.  We’re there already, aren’t we.  Celebrate it!  Embrace each glimpse of the Unlimited.  PIAVA it!  Make it BIG.  If we all had to split that lottery, we’d still have more money than we’ve ever dreamed of having.  We could all win!  

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?  Actually, who are you not to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.

“There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.  We are all meant to shine, as children do.  We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”  (Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love, pp.190-191)

Notice when you return to worrying about the mortgage, or cancer, or whether Aunt Charlene was insulted, or anything else, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade, and Tap it out.  Tap on it till you’re Neutral about it.  

When your Forbidden Desire wells up, Celebrate the Excitement trapped in it.  A secret to Manifesting anything is to practice having the Feeling in your Body, that you’ll have when you Manifest it.  That’s what you really want!  You’ll get bored with a red Lamborghini, or scared by a trip around the World; you’ll never be bored or scared by Excitement.  Get Conscious of the Discomfort you’d feel if your Fantasy Materialized.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’d really Feel uncomfortable, wouldn’t you.  Do you want to talk about it?”  Ask yourself how old you are.

Neptune represents everything bigger than our Individual Soul – the Collective Culture, and its many Shadows.  When we try to look at Neptune through Material eyes, the result is Confusion – which of course is the first stage of Growth in Consciousness.  Shifting to Spiritual eyes, we find Clarity.  Unfinished Business, and all of our Emotional Baggage around it.

Orcus is the Punisher of Broken Oaths.  

Your Held Emotions are Held by vows never to put yourself into that position again.  As with Ixion, where you may have Amends to make over Unintended Consequences of Impulsive Actions, with Orcus you may have Yangtegrity Contracts that need to be Renegotiated.  If your counterparties are long since dead or otherwise gone from your Life, no worries.  If you can feel the Weight of the Contract, you can feel the counterparty, and you can Renegotiate with them exactly where they are in your “mind’s eye” or your bellyvision.

This Renegotiation might take the form of noticing the cable or garden hose that connects you with them in the Energy Realm.  It’s connected to your belly by a fishhook.  Gently twist it out with one hand, then use your other hand to seal the wound with Golden Light.  With grace, hand the hook and the cable back to your counterparty.  If they accept it with equal Grace, you’re Golden, though you don’t want to turn your back until they withdraw.  Make a note to scan your Body in a few days to make sure the cable hasn’t been replaced while you weren’t looking.  If so, rinse and repeat.

If they don’t accept it Gracefully, you may need to take more decisive Action.  Enlist the aid of a Carnivore, then reach out with your imaginary Bowie Knife, slice their end of the cable, and feed the cable to your helper.  An Alligator works great for this purpose.  Give your new friend the assignment to stand guard here, and eat any new attempts to re-cable you.  They may also plead for Mercy; don’t buy it, it’s a ploy.  You want your Energetic Contracts to be Equal-to-Equal.  In these realms, keep your spine straight and your shoulders lifted.  There can be no hindrance to your Energetic Self-Sovereignty.

If your counterparties are still Alive, use your wardrobe Mirrors – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/10/21/boundaries-forgiveness-mirrors/.  And remember to persevere.

So a Challenging Neptune-Orcus Angle would be about renegotiating our Social Contracts.

Our Social Contracts stretch a lot farther than we usually imagine.  For instance, if we’re chronically underfunded, we have a Social Contract to Give Away too much of what we need to Survive.  If our Relationships don’t Delight us, then we have a Social Contract of Mistrust or Unworthiness.  When we Renegotiate our Contracts, our counterparties may not be individuals, but Archetypes.  You may need to Renegotiate with Slavery, or Gender Inequality.

There’s an excellent reason why Primary Cultures personified their “Gods.”  If you personify an Archetype, you can Negotiate with it one-on-one.  You can shrink it from a Global Monolith to a Cocker Spaniel.  What if Gender Inequality was a Hamster, and Slavery was a Squirrel; you can personify them however you like, as long as your Vigilance prevents them from nesting in your petticoats.  Use your Mirror and Cable techniques till you stand Tall and Clear and Powerful Beyond Measure, and we can Enjoy the billion-dollar lottery payout together.

The Compassionate Witness

Here’s a great way to celebrate today’s astroevents, recommended by a reader…

http://manyvoices.soundstrue.com/the-mystery-of-holding/

Which astroevents include a Jupiter T-Square (the Challenge to Master Expansion) Bridged by Eris (Revelation of Denial).  Jupiter Squares a Sun-Chaos Opposition (contrasting our Essence with our Unlimited Potential).  Eris is on the far side of the T-Square, creating a Sun-Square-Jupiter-Quincunx-Eris-Trine-Sun Tricolor, implying that…

When confronted by our Hesitation to Expand Freely, we can unlock the available Dumb-Luck Grace by PIAVAing, “I Wonder what Insights I need in order to take maximum advantage of this fabulous opportunity to Grow, while Enjoying Safely?”

That is, when confronted by our Hesitation to Expand Freely (Sun Square Jupiter), we unlock the Dumb-Luck Grace (Sun-Eris Trine) by PIAVAing (Jupiter Quincunx Eris), “God/Goddess, what Insight do I need to take advantage of this opportunity, Safely?“

Remember it’s a PIAVA, so you want a “Permanent” Curiosity.  You aren’t looking for Answers, you’re looking for a state of Wonder and Awe.  You will get Insights, great, go ahead and use them to restructure your Attitudes.  But don’t consider them to be the Answer to your Query; consider them to be step one of many in your process, and follow them with another “I Wonder what else I might need to Understand to take maximum advantage of this fabulous opportunity to Grow, Lovingly and Gently?” and another and another.

Of course regular readers will recognize that Chiron is written all over the “manyvoices” post above, as it’s a fabulous description of how Chiron converts Despair to Miracles through Empathy.  Miracles occur because the Impossible becomes Possible when our Attitudes change.

The most crippling kind of Despair is what we call “Unconscious Despair” – when we don’t even consider something to be Possible.  For instance, do you ever Daydream about

Having more money than I could ever use for any purpose that I could possibly consider worth doing, including the purpose of improving the lives of every person, critter, and biome on the Planet, in effective ways and in proportion to their need?  

If you react negatively to the word “money” in there, take it out and put in the word “Magic” instead.  

Well, why not pursue your Dream?  And if you don’t have such Daydreams, why not?  Seems almost laughable, doesn’t it, it’s so far from Plausible.  And you don’t Believe in Magic?  Why not?  That’s Unconscious Despair, where we allow the “Plausible” to define our Upper Limits rather than the “Possible.”  And do you ever Imagine that anything is Possible?  Why not?  More Unconscious Despair.

The Jupiter T-Square and Eris Bridge are only one Degree apart, more than close enough to fit within our usual three-Degree limit of Sensitivity for astroevents that we expect to have a measurable impact on us day to day.  But what if we Expanded our way of looking at this to include Projects that we start now?  

It’s traditional to use between one and three degrees of Sensitivity for “Transits” – current astroevents.  Appropriate levels of Sensitivity really depend on the person and the planets involved.  For the average triple Pisces having a Transit to their Neptune, ten Degrees may be more appropriate.  But for a birth chart, an “orb” (as astrologers refer to it) of six to ten degrees is traditional.

Chiron is three to five Degrees from Jupiter, Eris, Chaos, and the Sun – well within our limit of Sensitivity for any Project we wish to begin now.  Mars (Action) and Sedna (Embracing Fear) also join in Gracefully – Mars completes a Golden Rectangle with Eris, Chaos, and the Sun, and Sedna Bridges the Jupiter-Chiron Opposition.

So why not begin the Project of Lovingly and Gently Embracing ALL of our Emotions and Behaviors?  It’s an ideal time for it, as the Universe is lining up behind us.  We might start with the PIAVA, “Ganeshi, please remove all obstacles that separate me from completely and unconditionally Accepting and Loving myself.”

The Pholus-Quaoar-Galactic Center-Ixion-Hylonome-Chariklo Stellium (which by the way starts only four Degrees from the Sun) will even Support such a Project, as we can interpret that as An order (Quaoar) from the Galactic Command to Take Full Responsibility (Pholus) for Allowing whatever Ego Deaths (Hylonome) are necessary for us to Embrace our Pathological Genius (Ixion) and Walk in Beauty (Chariklo).

 

 

Wanna

Well, had I known in advance, I certainly would have warned youalls about the Chiron Station last Friday.  Grandtrines (https://grandtrines.wordpress.com/) had to remind me.  Another opportunity NOT to re-grasp our Old Bummers as they try to fly out of our ears, and another reminder that we grasp our Karma, not the other way around.  Have you noticed that Change is in the air even more than it has been lately?  I find these daily readings to be useful…

https://mosaicofthesoul.wordpress.com/2015/11/30/color-of-the-day-saxony-blue-november-30-2015/

Here’s another picture of it…

http://iamthequeenoflight.com/2015/11/24/the-dissolving-of-3d-paradigm-5th-dimensional-consciousness/

My own experience hasn’t been as dramatic, but it’s certainly been interesting.  A couple weeks ago the computer on which I do most of my astrology crashed.  I tried several interventions, but none worked.  Meanwhile, it’s going on Thanksgiving in the USofA, where nothing much gets done, so I didn’t even try to call in the pros.  Big storm last week, power out for a while – computers go down and don’t restart on their own.  

Then a couple nights ago, Ganeshi, the Hindu Remover of Obstacles, was all over my napitations.  So I Asked Ganeshi to Remove All Obstacles between me and my computer working again.  The next day it occurs to me while thinking about how to navigate a repair to the computer, that I should retry those initial interventions again before rebooting the computer.  Voila, we’re back in business!

I don’t know which day they found this Diamond on, but they announced it on November 18.  It’s the second-largest natural Diamond ever discovered.  The weight?  1111 carats.  “Coincidences” galore…

http://www.lucaradiamond.com/

Dr. Kim has said this before, but this is a particularly skillful presentation…

http://drkimderamo.com/can-doing-nothing-really-change-your-life/

 Illustrating the principle that Mind, Body, Emotion, Spirit, Energy are not different “segments” of Reality, but different Perspectives on Reality.  Like Linear Time and the necessity of Competition, the Segmentation view is just a mass hypnosis.  A single episode of Instantaneous Healing disproves the Segmentation principle.  Until you ditch your Segmentation Beliefs, you won’t Believe Instantaneous Healing even when it slaps you upside the head, and you’ll Revert.  Here’s a remedial exercise…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Di5Ua44iuXc

 You could even Ask Ganeshi to Remove All of the Obstacles between yourself and Instantaneous Healing, though you’d also want to be sure to Ask for a Gentle and Loving Release of All the Obstacles, lest your Reality pixelate.  The Veil is thinning after all.  Carol Look will help…

http://www.carollook.com/the-yes-code/

If you’ve gotten this far, here’s an Instantaneous Healing story from Robert Moss’s Dreaming the Soul Back Home (pp.116-7), with a few small changes just to make the story flow in shorter form…

” ‘I don’t know what I’m doing here,’ an attendee declared early in one of my [Dreaming] workshops in France.  ‘I’m not a dreamer.  I haven’t remembered any dreams since I was seven years old.’  

“In the intimacy of a small group she told us that when she was seven, she dreamed that a hand came from behind a curtain, offering her chocolate.  She loved chocolate, but she was terrified by the disembodied hand.  She woke up screaming.  Her parents did what adults so often do out of ignorance.  They told her to forget the dream – ‘It’s just a dream’ – and go back to sleep.

“She could not forget, so (good Catholic girl) she prayed to Jesus and Mary and all the Saints never to dream again.  

“It seemed her prayers were answered.  She now agreed, bravely, that she would try to re-enter the ‘old’ dream with a firm and clear intention: she wanted to open the curtain and see who was behind it.  The group members, including me, would go with her during a drumming session, as companions on the road and to act as bodyguards if she ran into anything nasty.

“Our bodyguard services were not required.  At the end of the drumming, she was jubilant and astonished.  She had found a being of radiant light behind the curtain [who turned out to be a compassionate friend of her father’s who had been a good friend to her in her youth].  

“He apologized for having frightened her in the dream of long ago.  He had been killed in a car accident shortly before her dream.  His face had been disfigured, and he had not wanted to frighten her by appearing to her as he looked after the crash, so he had veiled his face with the curtain.”

It’s always hard to know in advance what’s behind the Veil, but it’s usually not nearly as nasty as we imagine it to be, and even when it is, once we remember that it’s not Present Moment, the nastiness is short-lived.  Notice the Oath, in this case a fervent Prayer.  This short-lived Regression into nastiness, and/or our Fear of it, is the “Punishment” that Orcus metes out to Oath-Breakers.  We’ll look at the Orcus “Discovery” chart next.