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Make Ego Great Again II

August 13, 2017

A friend sent this link to a Vedic interpretation of Eclipses…

http://visionaryreadings.com/the-meaning-of-eclipses-in-vedic-astrology/

And then described how their Life has been bothered by bureaucratic snafus recently. 

Where we are Looking has a lot to do with how we Perceive Reality.  Consider the contrast between Looking at the Fear Propaganda on TV in the USofA, or Looking at, for example, http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html or http://danielscranton.com/ .  Not to imply that the Arcturians have any kind of monopoly on Relevance to what’s happening on the Planet.  You might resonate more to the Pleiadeans or https://lightquest-intl.com/ or http://www.starwars.com/games-apps .

Vedic astrology has a tendency to Believe it does have a monopoly on Truth.  If it provides Perspective that is useful to you, then, as with any Perspective, by all means use it.  The more Lenses we have to see the World through, the closer we are to actually participating in Reality rather than our own Projections.  When any Perspective strikes Fear, though, we need to Tap Out the Fear before we use the Perspective.  If a Perspective is good for nothing more than bringing Unconscious Fear into Consciousness where you can Love it to Death, then it’s a very Powerful Perspective for you.  Alternatively, with a technique like Theta Healing, where the Outcome is immediately available to us, we can modify our Command until we find one that works, or alternate Theta and Tapping.

The root of the monopoly tendency in Vedic astrology is Religious Politics.  Simply put, if it’s Either/Or it’s Political.  If it’s Both/And, it’s Spiritual.  We make no claim that this is an absolute Truth, but we suggest strongly that it’s a very Reliable First Approximation and a very Useful Perspective.  Vedic astrology supported Political Hinduism, as distinct from Esoteric Hinduism.  Political Hinduism supported ongoing Abuse of the Dalit or Harijan caste just as Political Christianity supported ongoing Slavery and Abuse of Primary Cultures everywhere they were encountered.  Certainty is a Tool of Political Agendas.

We look at it this way.  Hinduism is frequently accused of promoting Fatalism, and Political Hinduism certainly appears to.  As with most Religions, I don’t believe that Esoteric Hinduism does promote Fatalism.  Fate and Free Will are usually seen as an Either/Or, so as with any Duality, we Know that this is a 3D Veil attempting to obscure the Both/And, Multifarious and Unitary Reality on the Other Side.

The difference between Fate and Free Will is that our Fate is what befalls us when we’re Captives of the Karmic and Generational and Social Archetypes that we usually refer to as our Limiting Beliefs.  Free Will is what we Obtain when we step outside of the Limited Reality of the these Archetypes.  Even the “Laws” of Physics are simply Archetypes, Projections of the Ego’s need for Stasis and the mind’s need for the Illusion of Understanding.  If you’ve ever had a Wannabe Guru Manifest in your bedroom in a pillar of shimmering colored pinpricks of light like on Star Trek, you’d understand this.  Or Channeled an Antarean, or met a Walk-In, or Encountered one of your Doubles.

To me Growth in Consciousness (which means Freeing yourself from some Archetype), which usually requires an Ego Death of some sort, is not about Discovery, but about Differentiation.  We See or Feel more layers of Reality when we start noticing that there are Trees in the Forest, Trees of different Colors, Trees that have Birds and Bears in them, Birds and Bear that may be different from one another and that eat different Foods, etc etc.  There is no better way to Illuminate an Archetype or Assumption that we’ve wrapped our Limited view of Reality around, than for it suddenly to disappear.

Would we notice if suddenly all the Birch Trees disappeared from the Forest?  We might only notice that something had Changed.  But if they reappeared while we were pondering what it was that Changed, then suddenly our Consciousness would have a whole new Perspective on Birch Trees.  This is precisely what happens during an Eclipse; that which we Assume is Constant blinks off for a short time, then returns to its former Glory.  And we’re talking about the Sun, which Symbolizes our Essence.  Hence we consider Eclipses to be about Illumination, and that’s precisely what they are. 

Remember that in the Unconscious there is no Negation.  When you Pray for No War, you’re most likely to get War, because the Unconscious does not have a No in its vocabulary.  As we usually put it, astrology and the Unconscious determine Dimension, but not Direction.  The Cat may still be Alive or Not.  Eclipse is the Absence of Light, as Fear is the Absence of Love.  The Dimensions in those statements are Light and Love.  The Direction – Absence or Presence – is a Political Decision by the Ego, by yourself.

When you make a Decision to Choose Light and Love rather than Absence on any Issue in your Life, you threaten the Karmic or Family or Cultural Archetype that would keep you in Scarcity, with Fire and Fury like the World has never known.  So guess what the Archetype does in return?  It threatens to surround your Ego with Missiles, while its Ally the Ego warns you to seek cover and “not” to look at the flash.  As if you would have time for anything approaching that.  Ego and Archetype are one and the same. 

Hence we always recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely” to our PIAVAs

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/

PIAVAs directly address the Unconscious.  The Unconscious is in Charge, and one of its “Rules” is that no Prayer goes unanswered – that’s just a Perspective, but we suggest strongly that it’s a Reliable First Approximation and a Useful Perspective.   Use it as a filter to Examine your Life.  Every Negative thought you have is a Prayer.  Every Victim Emotion that you have is a Prayer.  Your Prayers specify the Dimension, and your Negativity and Victimhood specify the Direction.  Thoughts and Emotions are self-reinforcing, and their Negativity and Victimhood reinforce each other.  Your Negative thoughts and Victim Emotions are generated by your Archetypes.

When you PIAVA something and you’re ready to Receive it, the Universe will deliver it, just like Amazon or Taobao.  When you aren’t ready to Receive it, what the Universe will deliver, when you see the Universe through a Benevolent Lens, is Illustration of Why You Haven’t Been Manifesting That All Along.  That often looks like the Opposite of what you Asked for – the same principle as an Eclipse; often the fastest way to get you to Notice something that you’ve been taking for granted, is to Remove it.

There are some things which you have always been Abundant in.  Your Archetypes support your Ego in those arenas.  There are other things that have always been Difficult for you.  Those Define your Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.  Jane Roberts’s (Seth’s) The Nature of Personal Reality is an excellent exposition of this Lens.

Your thoughts and Emotions are not beyond your Control.  Your Ego can Choose to Intervene and Change the Direction.  It may take years of Persistence to shut down a strong Archetype, but never consider it Impossible.  You can PIAVA Assistance in Changing the Direction of the Archetype from Scarcity to Abundance – or vice versa for Abuse, though you’re better off Asking for Respect and Inviolate Boundaries, or whatever it is that you Want, rather than Asking for what you Don’t Want.

In Real Life this is an Either/Or Universe.  Fate is still going on.  If your Fate is to be Rich and Famous and Irresistible, then you may not want to Change it – though “Good” Karma is said to be harder to Change than “Bad” Karma, so when you start to get tired of being Rich and Famous and Irresistible, you may want to PIAVA Choice.  You may want to Choose Rich and Famous and Irresistible on Tuesdays and Fridays, Happy and Private on Wednesdays and Thursdays, and Surprised on Saturdays and Sundays and Mondays – but even that is an Archetype that will be Obsolete soon.

There isn’t much difference between Attention and Intention.  If your Attention is always on Negativity and Scarcity, whether in thought or Emotion, the Unconscious will consider that your Intention, and Manifest it for you.  Your Attention is under your Control.  You may have a nasty Habit of Focusing on your Negative thoughts and Bummer Emotions, and it may take a lot of Work to Change the Habit, but it is doable.  The Key is Noticing and Congratulating.

Rather than beating yourself up when you Notice that you’re Unconsciously indulging your Negativity, Congratulate yourself for Noticing.  You’re substituting Positive Reinforcement for Negative Reinforcement, and the more often you do this, the easier it becomes.  You’ll be surprised at how Effective this simple step is; Congratulate yourself for Noticing that you’re Repeating an undesired Habit, rather than cursing yourself for Repeating the Habit.

This particular Eclipse occurs while Mercury is Retrograde, and the Vedic Eclipse interpretation we linked to at the beginning of this article reads much like the average Western astrology’s interpretation of Mercury Retrograde.  Our approach to Retrogradations is the same as our approach to Eclipses.  But rather than Demanifestation of something routine, a Retrogradation may encourage Obsession on it – not a matter of Dimension, just a matter of Direction, so absolutely available to be Changed by the Ego with PIAVAs and Persistence. 

I usually find Retrogrades to be more Contemplative than Obsessive, but the same Energies apply – Contemplate What you Want, not What you Don’t Want.  If you’re particularly Skilled at Obsession, Obsess on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want.  We’ve already talked about Obsession and Changing the Subject, an important step in PIAVAing

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/08/09/cause-an-defect-full-moon-iv/

If you can’t shake Negative Energy while you’re trying to Focus on What You Want, Tap it Out.  Be sure to measure the Intensity of the Energy before and after Tapping, and Recognize that you may need to Iterate, and even alternate with other forms of PIAVAing.  Persistence counts.

The dwarf planet that deals with our Unlimited Potential is Chaos, which is in the Air Grand Trine and Dynamic Grand Sextile of the recent Full Moon; see the previous post.  It’s joined in the Grand Trine by Haumea/Rebirth and South Node/Karma, but the other three, Fire, points in the Grand Sextile are North Node/Mission and Purpose, Eris/Revelation of Denial, and Lilith-Saturn-Ixion-Pholus/In Order to Achieve Self-Sovereignty the Most Important Thing is that we Become Responsible to our Unique and Probably Forbidden Genius.

The dwarf planet and Centaur Hylonome deals with Letting Go of Archetypes, and the asteroid Juno deals with the Edges of Consciousness.  It’s no Coincidence that they’re Conjunct as we speak.  Hylonome Initiated Juno in February 2017, starting a new 9-year Cycle at 8 Capricorn, “In a Sun-lit home domestic birds sing joyously.”  We’re in the middle of the Exposition (which actually peaked 28 July).  The Confidence-Builder occurs at the September Equinox.

Make Ego Great Again

August 12, 2017

Well, maybe we’d really be Choosing Famine after all…

http://mashable.com/2017/08/09/north-korea-nuclear-war-climate-change-winter/#.3pYlkGLQiqn

At least we finally understand ‘Rump’s rejection of the Paris Treaty – he had a “better” way in mind.  All the Grand Trines in the Full Moon chart suggest Positive Outcomes, but from the Ego’s Perspective we’re never sure exactly what a Positive Outcome really might be, since the Ego Loves to get Attached to Dead-End status quo situations. Maybe a Nuclear Winter would end up being kinder or more equitable than rising sea levels.  Or, once ‘Rump preemptively nukes Venezuela as well, the falling dominoes might leave few of us here to Enjoy a Nuclear Winter.

Mercury’s now Retrograde, till 4 September.  It backs over much of the first half of Virgo and the last Duad (two-and-a-half Degrees) of Leo.  So the path that we’ve trod in our Mind’s Eye (it’s Mercury after all) since 24 July has involved a likely rather significant Fall from Grace with ourself, as we tested our concept of Self-Love intellectually (Cancer Duad of Leo), found it to be a miserable failure (Virgo Duad of Virgo), then studied its Mirror-Image in Others (Libra and Scorpio Duads), Rejected that (Sagittarius Duad), then began to Start Over (Capricorn Duad).

Now we run this sequence in reverse.  We have to assume that when the Universe Asks us to Repeat a sequence three or more times, it means that we’re really supposed to grok this.  So our next step will likely be to look again for Babies in the Bathwater we discarded during the first week of August, then go back and review all the Vignettes we Re-Experienced in the last week of July (Realizing now that they’re reversed left-to-right, which may mean we might want to reverse the roles in the Vignetted scenarios), and through that process, somehow Fall in Love with ourself again.

Then, between 4 September and the Equinox, we go back through the process in the original direction.  Just as Mercury begins to go Direct again, Mars goes into Virgo, assisting us in our Efforts toward Self-Improvement.  See if you can shift your Attention from Self-Improvement to Self-Acceptance in September.  Virgo can do Ego Death either way – Criticizing itself to Death or Loving itself to Death.  The Criticism path is a treadmill, the Loving path leads to Permanent Growth.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like this is The End, aren’t you.” 

By the time Mercury breaks out of it’s “Shadow Period” (29 Leo to 12 Virgo) at the Equinox, Venus will just be entering Virgo, and we’ll be ready for it.  Nobody’s going to be “Ascending” till they can do Ego Deaths Lovingly.  Surrender (Giving Over to Forces more Powerful and Benevolent than our Ego, not Giving Up) helps a great deal.

When the Sky darkens during the Total Eclipse and you can see the planets lined up, starting west-northwest of the Hole in the Sky where the Sun used to be, and stretching in a line almost halfway across the Sky toward the east-southeast, you should see Venus, Mars, the Sun, Mercury, Jupiter, and Saturn, in that order.  Venus and Jupiter will be brightest.  Mars, reddish, will be close to the Hole.  You might want to memorize this order, since you’ll only have two minutes of darkness, and the fireworks around the Hole in the Sky will be, appropriately, Demanding most of your Attention.

We have a great many metaphorical Rebirths and New Timelines these days.  This will help move us into them…

http://danielscranton.com/creating-new-timelines-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We have observed that many of you are creating the timelines for yourselves that are ideal from your perspective, and we can see you moving closer and closer to these timelines.  This is the perfect timing to be engaged in such creative work, because you are supported by the energies that are upon you.  You are more supported in creating something new at this time than you are in creating some rehashed, ideal, third-dimensional existence.

[such as the Nuclear Winter that ‘Rump is preparing for us]

“In other words, you are moving forward, not backwards. 

[It’s only the Mind that’s moving backwards; the rest of us is moving forward]

“So in order for you to align with the energies that are moving you forward, you must be willing to go to places you have not gone before.  We are talking about vibration here.  We are talking about getting out of your heads and into the vibrational field you want to be in.

“Your heads are capable of telling you about all of the wonderful things that you have seen here on planet Earth in all of your lifetimes, and you can conjure up a pretty good experience for yourself through what you have seen, what you have done, what you have heard about, but what will absolutely knock your socks off is the unknown that you are creating.

“To create with vibration takes you beyond everything that you’ve experienced thus far in the physical and everything that you’ve ever wanted to experience as well.  Now, the fifth dimensional energies that are upon you are nudging you in this direction.  They are attempting to free you from the limitations of your minds and to nudge you into the unknown field of yet-to-be-experienced vibration.

“And then all you have to do is surrender to the process, because you could not possibly imagine how you are going to come to the timeline that you’re creating.  You cannot imagine because it’s something that you haven’t experienced, and you haven’t heard about yet.

“Soon enough, however, you are going to start to hear about experiences that others are having, unexplainable experiences, experiences that go beyond imagination, beyond thought.  This is what we see you all reaching for as you construct your ideal version of the fifth dimension and you continue to inch your way towards it.”

The Bottom Line is that we Create our Own Reality.  The more we Stretch ourselves beyond the daily Fear propaganda, the more we contribute to the Transformation of the Planet, and the easier it will be for all of us to Roll Our Own.

Stations of the Tōkaidō

June 16, 2016

This is a technical note about astrology, though I think most folks will find it useful.

Because we all go around the Sun at different speeds, for part of the year most of the planets appear to go “backwards,” or “Retrograde.”  

We use “Tropical” astrology, which means we look at the planets as they appear from Earth; in Sidereal astrology (as the planets would appear from the Sun, if you have your asbestos booties on) there are no Retrogradations, everybody’s just in the same roller derby.  Also, in Tropical astrology, we locate the planets in Signs relative to the March Equinox, not relative to the location of a particular Constellation in the Sky, as Sidereal astrology does.

The planets and Moon move in the Sky from west to east; it’s the turning of the Earth that makes it look like they’re moving from east to west.  To see their true movement, you have to take a series of snapshots of the Sky every night at midnight and play them in a zoetrope.  When we pass a slower planet in the derby, that planet will appear in this series of midnight snapshots to stop, go westward for a while, stop again, and then resume its eastward motion.

When a planet stops, it’s said to be “Stationary,” or to be “having a Station” or “Standing Still.”  But there are several important nuances to this term, that we usually gloss over.

The most important thing to know is that the influence of a planet is Strongest in the days (inner planets) or week (outer planets) before it’s Exact Station.  

The influence of any planet is always relative – if there are six Big astroevents going on at the same time, any one of them by itself probably won’t seem as overwhelming.  And the Strength of a Station depends on our Sensitivity – in general, to that planet, and to the Location of its Station.  If it Stands Still on one of the planets in our birth chart, for instance, it may as well be Standing on our toe.

We say a week for the Strong influence of a Stationary outer planet because that’s about as much time as we can get without contamination for a zillion other astrothingies, and because that’s approximately where my span of Sensitivity lies for the average outer planet.  If your Sensitivity is greater, you’ll Feel a Station earlier; if you’re a Muggle, you may not Feel it at all.

It also depends on your ability to distinguish one Energy from another.  If six planets are Stationary at once, like at the Centaur Convention on the Galactic Center a few years back, or if there are a number of Strong Angles going on at the same time (like now), it’ll take a very Discerning eye to separate out the Influences – as if it mattered.

This week Neptune and Makemake were Stationary at the same time, with less than a day between them.  We couldn’t really tune into Makemake while Neptune was still Stationary – the Energy we were experiencing wasn’t Neptune, but Neptune-Makemake.  Once Neptune found its Exact Station, its Strength began to wane, and we could tune in to Makemake more readily.  

Next week Pallas and Juno will do the same trick; Pallas’s Exact Station occurs about half-past 6pm PDT on 21 June, and Juno’s at 1pm on 22 June.  So we’ll be feeling Pallas-Juno for most of the 21st, and Juno after that – though there’s a whole lot else going on next week, so I don’t expect these Energies to stand out prominently, unless they’re Standing on your toes.

While there is a moment of Exact Station, when the planet literally turns about, they don’t screech to a sudden stop, then burn rubber; they slow down and speed up gradually before and after their Stations, and in general the slower they’re moving, the more they’re saying “Hey, Look at Me!”  So we often say that a planet “is Stationary” when it’s within one Degree (inner planets) or one week (outer planets) of it’s Exact Station.

We find the Energy to be Strongest before the Exact Station.  A planet speeds up gradually after the Exact Station, and while it’s still moving very slowly it’s still technically Stationary and still Stronger than usual, but not as Strong as before the Station.  With this week’s Neptune and Makemake Stations, for instance, we mostly talked about how Strong they were leading up to their Exact Stations, not so much afterwards.

As with any astroevent, we’ve found that Consciousness is primary.  If we’re Aware that Pallas is Stationary, for instance, then we won’t be surprised if we see Boundaries coming up for renegotiation.  If we aren’t Conscious of what Pallas is up to, we may be caught off guard, and avoid the suggested renegotiations.  If we renegotiate in a timely fashion, then the Energy is deflated once the Exact Station passes.  If we don’t, then the Energy can drag on.

In particular, Decisions can extend any astroevent.  For instance, if someone insults or harasses us on the 21st and we don’t call them on it (here’s a helpful tool: https://s3-us-west-2.amazonaws.com/nwrn.org/files/Nw16N/NW16News0316.pdf  ) and instead just Judge them, then we lose our Curiosity and poison our Relationship with that person.  That Energy could last “forever.”  If we renegotiate on the spot and Revert, then Pallas Energy moves back into the background.

The poster child for this is 9/11.  The Saturn-Pluto Energy that provoked 9/11 was finished in August.  But the Lizards had other plans, introducing their 1000-page Patriot Act and US-economy-supporting (as arms merchant to the World) “Perpetual War” within a few days anyway.  So we’re still dealing with that Energy fifteen years later, and it shows no sign of de-escalating.

A planet can be “Stationary Retrograde,” when it’s slowing down to turn backwards, or “Stationary Direct,” when it’s slowing down to turn forward again.  Personally, we find that the Strengthening of a planet’s Energy at either Station is much more important than whether it’s turning Retrograde or Direct, so we usually just focus on the Station.

Similarly, we don’t usually make a big deal out of whether a planet is Direct or Retrograde.  There are some cases where the impact is obvious – as with Mercury – but usually it’s just a matter of whether we’re being Extroverted or Introverted around the planet’s Energy, and we find that whether the planet is Stationary is much more prominent than whether it Retrograde.  Your experience may differ.

One thing that does matter, is that when a planet turns Retrograde it crosses a patch of Sky three (or more, if the planet is far away) times instead of once, implying that the Universe really wants us to get the hang of this piece of Sky.  If the planet makes a triple Angle to another planet in the Sky, or to a planet in our birth chart, that’s a Big Deal.

When a planet makes multiple Angles to another, we refer to the first event as the “Can-Opener,” because the Energy often appears to come out of “left field” and surprise us.  If we’re dealing with slow-moving outer planets, we may have little or no experience with that particular combination of Energies in our Lifetime, so it may really catch us off guard.  The Can-Opener occurs before a planet turns Retrograde.

As the multiple Angle repeats, we gain experience with it, so we refer to the second (Retrograde) and subsequent events as “Expositions,” because they Expose us to the Energies so we can get more comfortable with them.

The last event of a multiple Angle we call a “Confidence-Builder,” because by now we’ve probably gained enough familiarity with the Energy combination that we feel confident dealing with it.  The Confidence-Builder occurs after the planet turns Direct again.

When folks refer to a Retrogradation, they’re usually referring to the timespan when the planet is actually Retrograde.  To an astrologer it’s more important to know when the planet first enters the patch of Sky over which it will later Retrograde, and when it finally exits that patch of Sky, after it turns Direct again.  

This entire span is called a “Shadow Period,” in both time and astrological Degrees.  It’s important because it encompasses the Can-Opener and the Confidence-Builder, while the Retrograde period itself only includes the Expositions.

The two most important things to know about Stations are (1) that a planet’s Influence is Strongest just prior to its Exact Station, whether it’s turning Retrograde or Direct, and (2) that we need to look ahead to find a planet’s Shadow Period, so we can be Conscious of Can-Openers as the arise.

No Medical History

May 2, 2016

Okay, so “where does Eris seem to be leading me next?”  What Masks are being pulled upon for me?  

Well, about 45 years ago I realized that dentistry was a treadmill that required more effort than payoff, and about 35 years ago I discovered that mainstream medicine wasn’t worth the money either.  Originally, I just didn’t want to devote my Life to buying someone else a new Mercedes every few years, without getting much in return.  As the years have gone by, I’ve seen many more reasons to eschew for-profit medicine and its master Big Pharma, particularly where it does more harm than good in the name of quarterly profits, inflated Lifestyles, and vested interests.

So a week ago, I woke up with a swollen face and neck from an infected tooth.  I’ve been through several abscesses, Healing them with other means, but never anything like this.  Plus, it freaked out my wife.  So we went to her dentist.  Turns out that sort of swelling can close the windpipe without much notice, so I ended up spending the weekend in the hospital getting a course of IV antibiotics and steroids.  After a third of a century of abstinence, stepping into the dental, mainstream medicine, and pharmaceutical worlds in one leap was certainly a huge Ego Death.

But it didn’t feel like it.  There was no clinging, no hesitation, no doubt.  My traditional self-Healing methods weren’t working, it felt like something I couldn’t just tolerate or adapt to, and, just one “easy” step after another, here I was in the hospital sucking up the drugs that destroy the first third of one’s immune system.  Of course I was hyperalert for the many unnecessary doctor visits and irrelevant tests that you read about hospitals using to exploit the unwary, and ready to be defensive about my choices if they tried to “diagnose” me.  Diagnosis is a label with enormous baggage attached to it.

But it didn’t happen.  The tests and docs all seemed pretty central to the issue at hand, the people were very nice, mostly genuine, educated, caring, and sharp.  So there’s the first piece of Eris intel – that our Eridean edification may arrive through witnessing that our accustomed Judgments aren’t valid.  Our Judgments are certainly Limiting Beliefs.  And mainstream medicine is powerfully good at dealing with emergencies.

Turns out I’m healthier than I thought I was.  Doc after doc, nurse after nurse, most of them said something like “70-plus, no medical history, no medications, relatively good health – how do you do it?  I’m on four meds already in my 50s.”  By the third time, I realized it was a serious question, so I started answering.  I told them to look up Functional Medicine, whose creed is from Aristotle – “Let Food be thy Medicine, and Medicine be thy Food” – and of course why and how to avoid Glyphosate.   Many of them were already partway there in their personal Lives.  Functional Medicine is new, but I’ve been following its precepts pretty faithfully for 35 years.

There’s the second piece of Eris intel – that the World is educable.  I’m sure it will take a looong time before hospital “food” gets up to snuff – there was nothing on the menu that I could eat, even after they dismissed surgery and allowed that it was Safe for me to eat.  Even the Broth – they had no list of ingredients for it, it just “came in a pouch.”  So I got my first-ever two-day Fast, which was easy and felt good.  More potential Ego Bullets dodged.

Once I got out of the hospital I had to start thinking about having the tooth pulled, and a friend inadvertently reminded me that Mercury was about to go Retrograde.  I don’t usually worry much about Retrogrades, but then, I don’t sign a lot of contracts.  The timeliness of the reminder gave me pause.  I didn’t think it would be possible to get it out before Mercury went Retrograde; could I wait till after it turned Direct again?  I didn’t want to revisit it again and again.

Differences of opinion among the docs – some said no way to wait, some said finish the antibiotics first (I’m still on followup oral antibiotics).  The oral surgeon’s office said he was booked for the next three weeks – maybe waiting was my answer.  But the surgeon offered his consulting services two days after I got out of the hospital.  At the consultation he proposed pulling the tooth at 9:30am on 28 April.  Mercury turned Retro at 10:20am – problem solved.

And with it another piece of Eris intel – don’t waste your time trying to Do and Plan – go straight to PIAVA instead.  That one’s BIG.

Of course, now that I’ve had the offending tooth extracted and had to go two more days at home with only liquid Foods, I see that fasting isn’t as easy when you’re feeling better and surrounded by all of those tasty treats that dance and sing and wave their tentacles every time you walk by.  So now we’re getting in a little deeper with this fourth piece of Eris intel – I’m intellectually Conscious that I eat to dispel Anxiety, but I haven’t scratched the surface of the Emotional Discernment that will be necessary to Change that Pattern.

As I’ve said many times, the Noticing is the hardest part, the Acting differently will be a Challenge, but once the effort begins, the process is self-reinforcing.  So it’ll probably be easier than I imagine.  But this use of Food for Emotional Control, rather than Nutrition or Celebration, certainly qualifies as one of those things that “we will discover in the way of unknown Beliefs, or long-standing Limits that we’ve misinterpreted as Irritations or social norms, and which are likely to come into Focus as Self-Sabotage.”  And that we’ll be clinging to, in an addictive sense.

Multiple personalities – the folks who have cancer in one personality and not in another, for instance – is a heavier situation than most of us are in.  But we all have multiple subpersonalities that may relate to each other only in passing.  In some mind-spaces I have no difficulty at all passing up a candy bar – why would I want to do that to myself?  In other spaces, it’s Sure, I can do that!  In yet others it’s Whoa, have you tried that new Ocho Dark Coffee organic-chocolate organic-coffee bar?  It’s incredible!  

These three people kinda know each other, but not well.  It’s almost as if they’re independent of the overall director of the Vehicle.  They kind of take turns running the show, and when one is in charge, the others may be distant witnesses, but it almost seems like they don’t care.  Of course tooth pain calls forth sub #1 (why would I do that to myself?) fairly reliably, because the negative feedback is immediate.

The fifth potential Ego hit will be around how to pay the hospital bills when they arrive.  And I can see another, sixth piece of Eris intel – once I’m back on my feet, will I withstand the pressure to give in to the dental treadmill?  I’ve yet to see dentistry really working – they wail on your mouth and checkbook, and the only result is that they want to see you again in three months, or sooner.  Or will I submit eagerly, if I can scrounge up the money, because it might seem easier than self-Healing?

Time will tell about this one.  The Eris-Uranus Initiation is still a month off.  We don’t know what will Change, or how we’ll Change.

Edargorter

January 3, 2016

 ?Edargorter seog tenalp a nehw sneppah tahw

Well, we need a mirror to be able to read what’s going on.  A journal would also be handy.  By the time a planet does go Edargorter, it’s already taken us on a journey.  In case you haven’t noticed, Edargorter is Retrograde spelled, of course, backwards.  By the time a planet turns Retrograde, we’ve already missed the point.

When a planet turns Retro, it crosses a section of the Zodiac, stops, backs up over it again, stops again, then finally runs over this same section of the Zodiac for a third time, before moving on.  If we happen to be Ego-identified with that section of the Zodiac (let’s say we have a natal planet there), and the Gnidargorter planet happens to be as Heavy as a Mack Truck, we want to know when it’s coming through the first time, so we can step out of the way then.  By the time it’s backing up, our Ego is already just a grease spot.

We use a simple rule, the Experience Rule.  It says that the more times we’ve Experienced a particular astroevent, the easier it is, simply because we have more practice dealing with it.  

That’s one reason why we say that if you have a Square and especially a T-Square in your natal chart, you’re the Expert on that subject, because you have more Experience with it than anyone else around.  Squares never Feel good, especially if we have a perfectionistic streak, or if we compare our Life to that of Others.  So you probably discount your Skill.  But you are the Expert, and once you begin to understand that, your Life Changes forever, because you’re no longer the Victim of your own Life.  You become the Master instead.

This rule is also why we pretty much ignore the inner planets, because they zip around the Zodiac so often that we all have plenty of Experience with them.  Yes, Mercury’s turning Edargorter, but that happens three times a year, so we’re all Experts already on Mercury Edargorter.  Of course, Mercury doesn’t thrice cross the second half of Capricorn three times a year, it only does that once every six years.  But Mercury crosses your natal Capricorn planets every year, and Squares them twice a year.  

Compare that to Pluto, which only crosses anyone’s natal planets every 250 years – most of us go a Lifetime without Experiencing that, so it’s a Big Deal.  When one of those outer planets takes a mind to triple-cross one of your natal planets, this is a whole new Experience for you.  One of the guidelines of Time Management says that you can’t estimate how long something will take to do if you’ve never done it before.  Similarly, you can’t know how to deal with Pluto crossing your natal Mercury if you’ve never Experienced it before.

Mercury crossing Pluto isn’t nearly so intense as Pluto crossing Mercury, but it’s a good example of how to deal with Sedargorter.  Mercury will be Retrograding over the last half of Capricorn this month, and in the process Retrograding over – that is, thrice crossing – Pluto and Pallas.  It’s already run over them once, so while Mercury’s more like a Smart Car than a Mack Truck, it’s already knocked down Pluto and Pallas for the first time.

We consider that first crossing the Can-Opener crossing, because it introduces whatever Difficulty we have with the two planets.  Mercury crossing Pluto might Challenge us to find a new, Transformed way of thinking, for instance, or it might force us to think about something we don’t like to think about, or make us talk about something that makes us very uncomfortable, because we don’t have much practice at it.  That happened on 19th December, so it’s Water under the bridge.

Except that whatever unfinished business we have around that – maybe someone feels insulted by what you said on 19 December, or maybe your Mother’s Ghost stands at your shoulder, eyes like ice, a little bit colder, saying to you, “You cannot do that, it breaks all the rules you learned in school” – will be revisited during the second and third crossings.  Mercury will cross Pluto again on 21st January.  We call that second crossing the Exposition phase.  We get to Experience the Can-Opener again, but this time having seen it once already, we’re a bit wiser, and it happens in slow motion.  The process is Exposed, and we get to practice with it – maybe make amends, or tell our Mother’s Ghost where to go.

Mercury crosses Pluto for the third time on 28 January.  By then we’ll be old hands at this.  We’ll just thank Mom’s Ghost for contributing, we’ll have learned how to Speak our Truth without insulting anyone, and the Transformation of our thinking will be complete.  So we call this third crossing the Confidence-Builder stage.

Mercury over Pallas works the same way.  Can-Opener 22 December, when we were probably forced to make new Discernments, or more likely, got in trouble for not making a Discernment we didn’t know we were supposed to make.  The Exposition is 12 January, when you’re likely to figure out why they’re mad at you.  And the Confidence-Builder is 21 February.  We can make a big deal out of the Roman Caristia holiday on the 22nd, and make amends for whatever faux pas we committed at the Solstice – or maybe let that person who took our omission so seriously then know that they were out of line to Blame us for their Expectations.

Pluto’s just entering the second half of Capricorn.  Pluto in Capricorn means “Just fix it!”  We all know it’s a problem, and we know how to fix it, so let’s just get to work and get it done.  The first half of Capricorn is all business, completely pragmatic.  But the second half is the Cancer half of Capricorn.  In the second half we remember that there’s more to Life than business or engineering; we have to make sure the results are nurturing for the People and the Planet.  So this is our first introduction to softening the hard edges of our “Just fix it” efforts, where we start to think about what needs to be done and how we might do it.

Mercury also Squared Uranus on 20 December, the Can-Opener Square, probably when we realized that we’ve still got a few Masks to take off before we can be True to ourSelf.  Those’ll be Exposed more on 20 January, and we’re likely to find the Confidence to remove them on 30 January.

Bottom Line: if we want to be able to step out of the path of those Mack Trucks, we need to know about these Sedargorter before they happen, not while they’re happening.

Internal Adjustments

October 2, 2014

MnTaOpManganotantalite, an Oxide of Manganese and Tantalum, will help keep Communication flowing, especially the all-important Communication between our Olde Selves and our New Selves here in this era of Great Change.

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Other than Portal 10.1-8 (we added more information to the end of that post at about 2pm PDT October 2), Mercury’s October 4 (10am PDT) Retrograde Station is pretty quiet.

It would make a Mercury-Square-Juno-Quincunx-Neptune-Trine-Mercury Tricolor, but you’d need 7 degrees of Orb to count it, and the big Orb would apply to the Quincunx, and few astrologers would ever give you that, even in a natal chart.

In case you’re a total newbie, Mercury turns Retrograde for three weeks at a shot every four months.  The traditional meaning is that Communication and Travel may become difficult, though I find that interpretation to range from subtle to irrelevant.  Retrograde means the Energy is directed inward rather than outward, and the majority of folks think that’s weird (or pathological) because only 25% of us are more introverted than extroverted, and extroverts have zero Empathy for introverts.

When a planet turns “Retrograde,” it appears to move backward in the sky.  To see this “backward” motion you’d need to take a snapshot of the sky every night at the same time, then compile the snapshots into a movie.  The planet isn’t really moving backward, we’re just passing it (or, in the case of Mercury or Venus, it’s on the other side of the Sun), so it appears to move backward. 

When a planet changes direction, it’s either “Stationary Retrograde” (turning Retro) or “Stationary Direct” (starting to go forward again).  The influence of a planet is very strong when it’s Stationary, whether Retro or Direct.

The Real impact of a Retrogradation – other than these two periods of planetary strength while the planet is Stationary – is that we get to (or have to) review three times the curriculum covered by the planet’s Retrogradation.  The planet crosses this playground once forward, then stops and backs up across it a second time, then stops again and crosses it again.  At the Retrograde Station, the planet has crossed the playground once, and it’s about to start crossing it again backwards.

The official term for this playground is the “Shadow Period.”

So in this case we have Mercury Retrograding over the last half of Libra.  Mercury is basically about Thinking.  Libra is about the self-absorbed individual meeting for the first time Other – we usually think of Other as Other People, but really it applies to anything that the individual sees as Not-Self.  The first half of Libra is about encountering Other.  The second half is about how, having encountered Other, the individual is changed.

So in the Big Picture, here in Pi’s domain after the End of Time, we’ve now encountered Other from the place of Responsibility (Ability to Respond) rather than the place of Blame (Who did that?).  This is the first Libra Mercury Retro since the End of Time.  So for the next three weeks we’ll be rethinking our Relationships to Other, making more space for Responsibility and less for Blame.  That usually means owning our Projections – recognizing that it’s our Reactions that are causing us discomfort, more than their Behaviors.  But this World is New, so who knows what it will mean now.

In the Medium Frame, we’re about five sevenths of the way through the Yintegrity work we’ve also been doing since 2012.  For the last three weeks we’ve been meeting Other through the frame of our evolving Yintegrity.  Some folks are pleased with our Yintegrity and some folks aren’t.  How have we Reacted and Responded to these differences?  We’ll be rethinking them for the next three weeks.

In the more local Picture, we’ve now met Other after the early-September Centaur Stampede Galactic Download that we briefly summarized in Portal 10.1-8.  Centaurs are, after all, half Human and half Other.  Mercury entered the playground on September 14, so we’ve been encountering Other through the filter of the Galactic Download since then.  Have you noticed how Other has seemed different since September 14?  For the next three weeks we’ll be rethinking our Relationships with this Other as well.

Our Yindependence is another changing element in our 21st-Century evolution and devolution.  How has Other Reacted to these Changes, and how have we Responded to their Reactions?  How have we Reacted to growing Yindependence in Other?  Yindependence is a big part of the Centaur Stampede Grand Trine.  Another issue we’ll be rethinking over the next three weeks.

The other thing that’s useful to know about a Retrogradation, is which planets are danced with three times, as the Retrograding planet crosses the playground thrice.  These are the interactions that the Universe wants us to review very thoroughly.  There are several here…

Pallas Initiates Mercury on September 11 at 14 of Libra.  Libra 14 isn’t within the Shadow Period, but Mercury Conjoins Pallas twice more in October and November.  Libra 14 is “In the heat of the noon hour a man takes a siesta.

A major element of our rethinking will be about how we need to shift our Boundaries with Other.  For instance, suppose for us Nature is part of Self or Other.  How then do we React to the news that so many species have gone extinct in the past forty years?  Empathize for a moment with an extincting species.  How would it feel to be the last remaining individual of your species?  How will your Boundaries be shifting to adjust to the Changes in your Yintegrity, your Responsibility, your Yindependence, and your Relationship to the Galaxy?

On September 16-17 Mercury Waxing Squares Juno and is Initiated by both Haumea and the North Node, at 21 of Libra.  On September 19 Mercury Opposes Eris.  All of these Angles are repeated twice more in October and November.  Libra 21 is “A Sunday crowd enjoying the beach.

As we’ve been harping on at length, we’re being Reborn anew as the hidden elements of our Karma are Revealed and Released.  This new Entity we are Becoming will need to be rethinking all of their Relationships and Boundaries with Others of all stripes.

While Mercury’s Shadow Period is over by October 26, the Confidence Builder recurrences of the Mercury-Pallas and Mercury-Juno adventures won’t occur till mid-November.

Song of Mars

May 18, 2014

rube4360bpTourmaline is traditionally one of the stronger Healing Stones because of the Boron in it.  Angels can fly because they take themselves lightly, and Boron is the fifth-lightest element.  There are officially 29 different Tourmalines, as the Crystal structure is complex and has many substitutions and variations.  The Lithium-rich version of Tourmaline is called (by geologists) Elbaite.  Lithium is the third-lightest element!  So these Angels can really fly.  Informally, Elbaite comes in several varieties.  The pinky-reddy ones, like this lovely example, are called (by non-geologists) Rubellite.

 

Well, this remarkable opportunity

“This is a remarkable opportunity to Let Go of any and all Patterns, especially Relationship Patterns, that keep us from living out our Deepest Desires.  Not only are they up in our face, but there’s very strong Grace behind our Intentions.”

may not feel so hot, when all or our Limiting Beliefs and Self-Sabotaging Patterns really are up in our face, eh?

But take heart.  At half past 6pm PDT on May 19, Mars turns Direct, and once that happens (or once you realize it’s happening – it works like that, it’s called Consciousness, and it’s an alternative to Victimhood), the flavor should lighten up.  As we’ve said often, a planet’s Song is strongest when it’s Stationary, ie, now.

Mars works with our Assertiveness.  Without Mars it’s difficult to set effective Boundaries.  The Passion to follow our Joy comes from Mars.  Western Culture rewards highly the folks who can allow their Mars to run amok without remorse.  The rest of us get the trickle-down, which has been pretty much in the red lately.  So if we aren’t already sociopathic, there’s a couple of things we can do. 

First, we can be loving and gentle with our remorse.  Remorse is a good thing actually, because it motivates us to do the second thing, which is to improve our skill at Assertiveness.  It’s totally possible to be consummately effective at setting solid Boundaries while harming no one and being completely charming about it.  We just haven’t figured out how to do it yet.  We’ll probably need to PIAVA that.

So let’s review what we know about this particular Mars Station…

The most significant characteristic of this Mars Retrograde Period is it’s entanglement with Jupiter and the Uranus-Pluto Square.

Retrogrades, Repeating Events, and the Can-Opener:  Remember that when a planet entangles with another during a Retrograde Period, it usually makes the same angle with the other planet three times.  The first event we’ve called the “Can-Opener” because it pops the lid off of some drama we’ve been keeping in the basement, usually catching us off guard and throwing us out of our comfort zone.

The Can-Opener is usually the meat of an issue.  The other two recurrences are much less memorable, unless we’re in the habit of counting our Blessings, of course.  In this case, the Exposition or second pass for all three Cycles – Mars-Uranus, Mars-Pluto, and Mars-Jupiter – occurred at the same time, in April.  How was that for you?

The Exposition and Confidence-Builder:  The second pass we’ve called the “Exposition” because the same drama recurs, but this time it unfolds more slowly, giving us the opportunity to practice our skills at dealing with it.  The third time is the “Confidence-Builder,” because now when the drama comes back we deal with it pretty easily, having extended our comfort zone by learning and practicing new skills.

Responsibility:  All this assumes that we’ve taken Responsibility for it at the Can-Opener, or at least during the Exposition (often we’re too off-guard at the Can-Opener to be present with Responsibility.  That’s not Blame, that’s the willingness and ability to Respond, as opposed to being the Victim of the drama.  The longer we delay taking Responsibility, the more adamant is the Universe at rubbing our face in the issue.

Stations:  Between each of these three events the offending planet is Stationary.  That is, the soon-to-be-Retrograde planet passes the other one once going forward (Can-Opener), then it Stations and turns Retrograde, then it backs up and passes the second time going backward (Exposition), then it Stations and turns Direct again, before finally crossing the entangled planet for the third time (Confidence-Builder).  And as we’ve said, the offending planet is strongest when it’s Stationary.

Pictures at an Exposition:  So we might see the Exposition itself as occurring in three stages, once at the Retrograde Station, again at the second crossing, and finally at the Direct Station.  That gives us five events, and five is the number of Learning.

So just what is it we’re likely to be learning here?

The Mars-Uranus Can-Opener occurred around Christmas (2013).  It was an Opposition, a minor culmination of the Mars-Uranus Cycle that began in March 2013 at 9 of Aries, “A Crystal gazer: The development of an inner realization of organic wholeness.”

Sabian Symbols:  In the same way that each astrological Sign has a flavor or meaning, each degree of the zodiac, all 360 of them, has it’s own flavor!  The flavor or deep meaning of an individual degree is called its Sabian Symbol.  We put it in quotes and italics, and often amend it with Dane Rudhyar’s expansion on it from his book An Astrological Mandala.

Is there a part of yourself that’s been brewing for a little over a year, that has to do with integrating various parts of your Life, and that allows you to bring more of your Passion into the pursuit of your Deepest Desires?  Or at least a strengthening drive to seek your Passion or Follow your Joy?  Maybe some issue or decision or process that was lit up last Christmas?  You could easily have breakthroughs here.

The Mars-Pluto entanglement here is a Waning Square.  Its Can-Opener was during the last few days of 2013, and this Cycle began in late November 2012, at 9 of Capricorn, “An Angel carrying a harp: The revelation of the spiritual meaning and purpose at the core of any life situation.”  Mars-Pluto usually doesn’t screw around, so this sounds like it’s right out of Pi’s playbook around Responsibility.

Squares – the Motivators:  A Square between two planets – when one is a quarter of the way round the loop from the other – I’m sure you know by now if you’ve been reading for long, is an Angle symbolizing Mastery through Challenge.  The Waning Square is the time of debriefing, for reviewing what we’ve experienced and learned, so we can be sure to take it with us when we leave.  The Waxing Square is when a Cycle’s Song gets into the elevators, or the Energy becomes permanent.  Prior to the Waxing Square, the Song was mostly in the background.

Remember Northern Winter Solstice 2012, when the Mayan Calendar ended and Pi replaced Gaia as the Goddess inhabiting the Earth?  Seems like only yesterday, right?  Whoa, no way.  That was lifetimes ago in subjective time.  Can you detect a qualitative difference in your own Life?  This is a real good time to Pay Attention to what’s Changed, what hasn’t Changed, and what still need to Change.

The Mars-Jupiter Cycle began in July 2013, and hit the Can-Opener of its Waxing Square in January of this year.  The Initiation was at 6 of Cancer, “Game Birds feathering their nests: An instinctual dedication of self to new forms of life.”

There are new stages of your Life being born here.  Do you feel them?  Are they part of your own Intention, or are they being forced upon you?  Are you Resisting?  (It’s futile, y’know.) 

Meanwhile, Mars has also been dancing with Vesta, Ceres, and the North Node.  Mars came sashaying right up to all three of them in late February, but stopped a few degrees shy of overtaking them, as they all turned Retrograde at one big party around March 1.  In July, once Mars gathers momentum again, it will overtake these three and Initiate new Cycles.  So there are a number of Energies that are fading into history here.  Probably wouldn’t hurt to talk more about those too, as we’ll be Intuiting those Futures too here at the Mars Station.  But we’ll do that later; for now…

And Endings Galore. 

We’re growing increasingly frustrated about following a course we’ve been considering to be Sacred, as we see Moths eating holes in that tapestry.  The Sacred is important, we can’t just abandon it completely, so something else will be taking its place.  Do you have any sense of what that might be yet?

We can’t keep following paths that aren’t Sustainable.  Changes are coming down there too.

Passion about our Mission?  Hard to do when we aren’t sure what it is.  But you actually do know.  Ask yourself, “What if I did know?” and then stop, back up, and pick up that first answer that you rejected so quickly that you barely noticed.  It’s impractical?  So…what’s your point?  It’s Disruptive?  Well, what will it Disrupt – that fraying old Unsustainable portrait you had of what you used to think was Sacred?

Mercury’s Shadow

October 18, 2013

When a planet goes Retrograde, it recrosses the same (usually fairly small) region of the Zodiac three times – once forward, then backwards, then forward again.  If there are other planets within that region – or if you have natal planets there – then they meet multiple times, often setting the stage for a Big Lesson.  We call the three meetings

  1. The Can-Opener (because something often catches us off guard and regresses us)
  2. The Exposition (because the same something recurs but more slowly so we can understand it better and respond, and
  3. The Confidence-Builder (because by the time it happens the third time, we know how to handle it).

In between the Can-Opener and the Exposition, there’s a Retrograde Station, which is likely to re-stimulate the Can-Opener experience.  And in between the Exposition and the Confidence-Builder, there’s a Direct Station, which is likely to further expose the Exposition.

The reason we don’t pay much attention to the inner planets is that we get so much practice with them that we’re all well experienced at dealing with them.  Mercury crosses every other planet once a year.  On the other hand, for example, Chiron crosses each inner planet only once every fifty years, and the outer planets less often than that (not counting the triple crossings we mentioned above).  So in this blog we mostly talk about the interactions that are rare – those between the slow-moving outer planets.

So we don’t usually make a big deal about Mercury turning Retrograde, it happens three times a year – we get lots of practice.  There’s a Can-Opener, but it’s usually not a big deal.

We’re talking about it now because it dances thrice over the North Node, and as you know, the Nodes are being Squared by Juno, and that Karmic-Gorgon-wrestling is the astrological Main Event these days.  In addition, Saturn just crossed the North Node as well – another recent Main Event, so Mercury’s dancing with Saturn too.  Since Mercury is about Awareness, and the Juno-Nodes Main Event is about what’s coming into Consciousness – aka what’s coming into Awareness, it’s timely.  And Mercury also dances with the Eclipse.

One more piece of background, the Shadow Period.  Mercury goes Retrograde on October 21 (at half past 3am PDT) at 19 degrees of Scorpio.  Then it goes backward, back to 3 of Scorpio.  If we just pay attention to the Retrograde period, we miss the Can-Opener, and in doing so we can miss a major opportunity for personal growth.  We’ve encountered the Can-Opener, we haven’t missed it in that sense, but we don’t realize that it’s part of a set, so we don’t notice the connection and what we’ve learned.

So we need to look at the whole dance, from Mercury’s first crossing of 3 Scorpio, through the Retrograde period, and beyond, till Mercury again crosses 19 Scorpio.  Astrologers call the whole shebang the Shadow Period.  So here’s the whole Mercury timetable…

  • October 1 – Mercury first crosses 3 Scorpio and enters its Shadow Period
  • October 2 – Mercury Square Juno Can-Opener 5 Scorpio
  • October 5-6 – Mercury Conjunct North Node Can-Opener (aka North Node Initiates Mercury) 9 Scorpio
  • October 8 – Mercury Conjunct Saturn Can-Opener (aka Saturn Initiates Mercury) 11 Scorpio
  • October 21 – Mercury Stationary Retrograde at 19 Scorpio
  • October 29 – Mercury Conjunct Saturn Exposition (ie, Retrograde) 14 Scorpio
  • November 1 – Mercury-Sun Conjunction 10 Scorpio
  • November 2 – Mercury Square Juno Exposition 9 Scorpio
  • November 2-3 – Mercury Conjunct North Node Exposition 8 Scorpio
  • (November 3 – Solar Eclipse 12 Scorpio)
  • November 10 – Mercury Stationary Direct 3 Scorpio
  • November 17-18 – Mercury Conjunct North Node Confidence-Builder 7 Scorpio
  • November 24 – Mercury Square Juno Confidence-Builder 16 Scorpio
  • November 25 – Mercury Conjunct Saturn Confidence-Builder 17 Scorpio
  • November 27 – Mercury leaves Shadow Period Scorpio 19

If we rotate the matrix to emphasize content rather than timing, we get…

  • Mercury Square Juno October 2, November 2, November 24
  • Mercury Conjunct North Node Oct 5-6, Nov 2-3, Nov 17-18
  • Mercury Conjunct Saturn October 8, October 29, November 25

Notice how the Juno Square and North Node Conjunction converge in time on November 2-3, while the Juno Square and the Saturn Conjunction converge on November 24-25.  Things could get complicated then, even though it’s the (relatively easy) Expositions November 2-3 and the (easier yet) Confidence-Builders November 24-25, because events will reverberate with one another.  The November 3 Solar Eclipse will emphasis to the earlier dates.

Juno Squares Saturn November 29 (17 Scorpio), but by then we’re done with the Juno-Nodes T-Squares.

Now that we’ve led you through the maze, what’s the reward?  Well, mostly it’s – if you have a journal,

  • October 29 will teach you about whatever you stumbled over around October 8 (Mercury-Saturn: New Awareness of our Priorities and Limits)
  • November 2-3 will teach you about anything that flummoxed you between October 2 and October 6 (Mercury-Juno-North Node: New Awareness of Unconscious Identity and our Mission in the Lifetime)

Give or take a day or two on the dates, as events in the “real” World, even though related to a given astrological event, are often triggered by a third party (such as the Moon).

If you don’t have a journal, then you can see why it behooves us to start paying attention when a planet crosses into its Shadow Period, rather than waiting till it turns Retrograde.  I don’t keep a daily journal per se, but I can tell from Earthquakes and Mythic New Moon that I was feeling a bit paranoid between October 2 and 6.  I’ll be delighted if by the end of November I’m Confident about not being mauled by these Gorgon-wrestling matches!

We’re busy wrestling, but it wouldn’t hurt to try to find time to see what other Shadow Periods we’re immersed in (such as Jupiter’s – Jupiter turns Retrograde November 6).

Abandonment and Portal 10.12

October 10, 2013

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Discover Magazine doesn’t put their current issue on the Internet, so I can’t link to it, but there’s an article in it about a dude who has success healing OCD.  His four-step method should make progress with Abandonment too.  Not that it does the job overnight; it takes some time, attention, and work.  The Discover issue also has a nice spread on ISON, and an interesting article on research into what used to be called “MCS.”

Relabeling

It’s only one of an infinite number of ways to split the Universe, but we can divide and conquer many of our negative feelings by labeling them Our Abandonment (Don’t leave me!) and Our Suffocation (Don’t touch me, don’t talk to me every again!).  “Relabeling” is the first step in Jeffrey Schwartz’s process; in his OCD folks, it goes from I’m crazy to There goes my OCD again!  With Abandonment it goes from I’ll never make it! to There goes my Abandonment again!  It goes from Me to Mine, and that’s important.  Witnessing our Emotions with our Intellect.

Now, Abandonment is afoot for real, believe me.  Walk in to any room full of people, and every Abandonment feeling you’ve ever experienced will light up like it was brand fresh, at least in the USofA.  And nobody’s making it up – approximately 99.999999% of the people in the US are being Abandoned in the Present Moment, in a serious way, and there’s a serious threat to the rest of the Planet as well.  Their Livelihood is threatened, and Livelihood is almost universally aligned with Identity.  So we’re surrounded by Ego Death, and it feels horrible.

So are we making light of this, just relabeling Abandonment?  It’s not just Feelings that we’re talking about.  It’s real!  But if we allow ourselves to regress to our early Abandonment, we lose all of the skills that we learned in the interim.  If we can push ourselves into the Present Moment, we’ll still be Abandoned in the Real World, but we’ll have our full skill set to respond to it.

I’ve been pulling out all the stops to embrace my own Abandonment.  I dreamed a few days ago about a huge airliner tossed like a leaf in a storm and slamming into the ground a few yards away from me.  I Tapped for 90 minutes after waking up yesterday morning to get clear enough to know what to do with myself.  When I drove onto a ferry full of people later in the day, it took me ten minutes of vigorous Tapping to work myself out of terror.  When I get really lost in Emotions I can’t put into perspective or plan amends for, I resort to looking up my Transits – which planets in the Sky are messing with my natal planets?  That always works.  This time, no new information there.

When there’s a storm of Emotion, if you have any degree of Sensitivity, it feels like we’ve lost healthy control over our Lives.  When there’s a storm of Abandonment, it’s particularly nasty.  Snowden is creating storms of Suffocation, and they aren’t nearly so bleak as the Abandonment storm – even though they’re just as Real and may be a bigger threat to our Identity and Safety in the long run.  It’s a standard pychic “rule” that you can’t clear other people’s Feelings.

But you can get your buns into the Present Moment.

That’ll allow you to bring your full adult skills with you when you do face whatever rug is being pulled out from under you.

So first we Relabel – Yes, I feel terrified, but how much of that is a response to a real threat, and how much of it is My Abandonment?  We’ve already stepped outside of the terror; it may not be abated yet, but now we’re looking at it instead of being it.

Re-attribute

The second step is to Re-attribute.  Initially I attributed my terror to some threat to my continued existence.  But knowing that I carry around with me a carpetbag of Abandonment, I know that I need to look to see how much of my Emotion is attributed to my Baggage.  I don’t want to respond to my Baggage, I want to respond to the Present Moment.  There’s a real threat in the Present Moment for many people, and it’ll be surprising if it doesn’t extend to me.  But responses to my Unfinished Business would just make things more entangled and complex.

The Reattribution step is an analytical one.  Differentiating the various sources of my Abandonment, and responding to each part appropriately.

Refocus

The third step is Refocus.  In the current situation, after we’d separated the Present Moment from our Regression, we’d Refocus from all those negative Failure messages we got as a child, to whatever real Present Moment threats are upon us, or upon our Community, and how we might respond to them.

In a long-term effort to heal our Abandonment we’d train ourselves, through gentle and loving practice, to Refocus from “running scared” – continuing our everyday Lives but with a thick layer of Anxiety, to “sitting still” – Tapping out the overwhelming segments of the Emotions, recognizing the voices that are telling us we’re inadequate, identifying our approximate age when we received those messages, empathizing with our Historical Child as if they were a lost child we encountered in the park (You poor Sweetheart, you’re probably scared; let me help you find your way home), differentiating what’s really going on in the Present Moment, and PIAVAing or Planning a Healing response to it.

Humpty Dumpty is your Identity.  Once it’s broken, all the King’s men can’t put it back together again.  If you try to continue to function when your Shell is broken, you’re just going to egg everything.  When your Shell is broken, you have to STOP and devote your full Attention to pasting it back together.  While all the King’s men couldn’t do that, you can, by stepping outside and Witnessing your discombobulation.

Revalue

The fourth step in Dr. Schwartz’s regimen is to Revalue our priorities – kind of the Saturn stage (looking for the most important thing).  In the current moment, in our terror, our Values are on our Survival and our Ego.  What does it mean if we Fail to keep our family Safe?  What does that say about us?  Is that Shame we’re feeling?  We’re focusing on the inventory of all the Valuable things we stand to lose.

But what’s anyone’s most scarce, most Valuable commodity?  Their Attention.  There are real threats here, we can’t afford to waste our Attention on Shame and Feelings of Failure.  But that’s precisely what we need to do, efficiently, so we can move on to addressing the real threats.  To do that efficiently, we Relabel, Re-attribute, Refocus, and then once we’ve differentiated Reality from Regression, we set aside our Valuing of Pride (the Shame) and Success (the Failure), and shift our Valuing to Responding to the Real Threats.

In a long-term program to Revalue our Abandonment process, where there may not be real threats (if we ever get back to that place again), we’d Value our ability to differentiate the various sources of our Abandonment, and our ability to respond to each appropriately.

It turns out that we are in fact engaged in a long-term program to Relabel, Re-attribute, Refocus, and Revalue our Unfinished Business, as starting this week, Juno again Squares the Nodes. 

In Dr. Schwartz’s OCD crew, their OCD was identified in brain scans that clearly showed how various parts of their brains were acting differently than the brains of those without OCD.  And after a period of time working with his four R’s, their brain scans looked a lot more like someone without OCD.

Juno and the Nodes

When a planet Retrogrades it often makes multiple Angles with another planet.  Juno first Squared the Nodes during most of May 2013.  Then at the Ides of June, it stopped and turned around.  It made a Retrograde Square to the Nodes from mid-July to mid-August.  Then in late September it turned Direct again.  It Squares the Nodes for the third time from now until November 7.

When an Angle repeats thrice like this, we call the first event the “Can-Opener,” because it usually surprises us with some unexpected dilemma that we don’t offhand know how to deal with.  The second pass we call the “Exposition,” because the problem repeats, but this time at a more reasonable pace, and we have time to try out a few strategies for dealing with it.  The third visit is the “Confidence-Builder,” because now the problem recurs but we know what we’re doing, so we dispatch it efficiently.

Juno represents our Unconscious Identity (what makes us feel insulted?) and that which is coming into Consciousness.  Juno Squaring the Nodes means we’re discovering things about our Excess Baggage that we didn’t know about (such as another layer of our Abandonment), and we’re discovering things about our Deepest Desires and what we came here to do.  So we’re in the Confidence-Builder stage of this process!

That gives us a much more fruitful perspective, because we can know that the next layer of our Abandonment could well be the last!  While the bottom-most layers may well be the hardest, we can expect that they won’t take nearly as long as most of the other layers have – simply because by now we’ve learned to be quite skillful at this process!  Even if you aren’t Conscious of how you’ve changed, you have changed.

Portal 10.12

We get a special gift on October 12, when the Moon crosses Juno and helps it Square the Nodes.  The Moon often triggers hardcopy events that reflect the underlying Energies, so while the Moon is on Juno it’s an excellent time to practice “sitting still” and taking Dr. Schwartz’s four steps – especially if there are, for better or worse, real-world events during the Portal – which using three degrees of Sensitivity runs from about 1pm PDT October 12 to 2am PDT October 13.

We get a lot of help through this Portal.  The Chiron-Pluto Bridge that we talked about earlier is still there, and now it’s offering an alternative path to the Juno Square.  You couldn’t ask for better help than Chiron and Pluto!

P10.12Look at Venus making a Quincunx (green) to the South Node and a Sextile (blue) to Juno, forming a Challenge-Curiosity-Grace (red-green-blue) loop from Juno to South Node to Venus.  That boils down to

  1. Whoa, something’s hassling me! (Challenge from Baggage)
  2. I wonder how I can Walk in Beauty with That?!? (Curiosity: Venus)
  3. Oh, I get it! (Grace – Coming into Consciousness)

Especially when the Ceres (making it permanent) Mjolnir (Insight) across the same Juno-South Node Square is still there (till the 16th).  The same Insight that’s embedded in #3 above, but from a different source.  The purple lines in the Mjolnir are three-eighths of the way around the Zodiac – the Eighth Harmonic is about Realignment, and the Third Harmonic is Love with Wisdom.  Another benefic!

And finally, Uranus makes a Quincunx to the North Node:

I’m used to thinking of Desire as mundane or even profane, but I wonder how my Soul Self is reflected in my Deepest Desires?!?

Which turns out to be a very deep question, one that, when answered fully, reveals why Self-Love is the key to Ascension.  It’s not drawn in, but there’s a nice Trine (Grace) between Uranus (Yintegrity) and Venus (Walking in Beauty).  Yes, Yintegrity and Walking in Beauty are from the same family, but that doesn’t mean there can’t be Conflict between them.  So a Trine between them is doubly beneficial.

Rose Quartz and Self-Love are twins.