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Curiosity and Desire

June 17, 2016

It’s hard to overemphasize how important it is to maintain our Curiosity about how our newfound Vulnerability (ie, Loss of our Masks) will impact our Mission (and Deepest Desires).  

As always, we don’t mean Curiosity as a means to an end – Questions seeking Answers.  We mean Curiosity as an end in itself – Wonder and Awe, eyes wide and mouth ajar.

Since our Deepest Desires are often a source of Vexation – we Want it but we can’t seem to Get it, or Keep it when we do – we might well find our mind grinding away on our Lifelong Frustrations.  If that’s the case, this grinding is exactly the Pattern that we need to Replace.  That’s why it’s Lit Up.

Which is the Key to the Temple, to Realize that when any Bummer is Lit Up, it’s Lit Up to inform us that we have Work to do on our Limiting Beliefs.  And the Work is easy – we just Embrace ourself.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Bummed by this, aren’t you.”  The apparently difficult part is Discerning that Oh Yeah, we’re Feeling here, and we don’t like the Feeling!  We need to Learn to Love ALL of our Feelings, and this is The Opportunity to Practice just that!!  Hooray!!

Chances are we’ve built up Stories around why our Deepest Desires elude us – because of some quirk of our childhood perhaps, or maybe we’ve concluded that Huper Nature just works that way, or some Pattern that we believe Limits us but we’ve never been able to Change.  Mindstuff.  Let it all Go.  Come to Curiosity instead…

“I Wonder why my Deepest Desires always elude me.”

Just that simple.  Make it a Mantra, a Ritual.  Carve it into your mirrors, your refrigerator door, your smartphone, write it on the inside of your eyelids.  Don’t let it become rote.  Close your eyes when you say it to yourself (except when driving or operating machinery), and really Feel that Energy bubbling up from the Deeps.

While this particularly applies next week to our Deepest Desires, it’s an excellent strategy for dealing with any stuck Pattern we have.  What if we want to Eat less, or less often, or less Sugar, for instance.  Then whenever we have a moment of Awareness before or during our urge to Eat, we can pause a minute and…

I Wonder why I always want to Eat while I’m writing.

Followed by a pause.  This is a PIAVA – an invitation to Intuition – so we need to pause and Change the Subject.  We could go back to Eating 

(we Change the Subject to prevent the mind from constraining us to our existing Limiting Beliefs; Eating is quite different from Analyzing Eating),

for instance, or back to writing.  The Intuition will surprise us later.

We mentioned in passing that Jupiter’s Initiation of the North Node (Exact 3pm PDT 24 June at 17 Virgo – Volcanos) Biquintiles (Learning New Rituals) Uranus’s and Eris’s Initiation of Ceres (Exact 8pm 21 June and 5am 23 June, respectively, both at 24 Aries – Abundance), but it deserves more than a mention.  

These are Waxing Biquintiles.  

In the evolution of a Cycle, the Waxing 

  • Trioctile (8th Harmonic/Rebalancing, and 3rd Harmonic/Compassion) precedes the 
  • Biquintile (5th Harmonic/Learning, and 2nd Harmonic/Ritual), which in turn precedes the 
  • Quincunx (12th Harmonic/Pattern-Breaking, and 5th Harmonic/Learning).

So once a new Energy

  • Becomes Permanent (Square) and
  • Blesses us for Acknowledging it (Trine – without Acknowledgement, the Trine denotes Arrogance),
  • We Lovingly Adapt to it (Trioctile),
  • Learn and Practice new Rituals that match the new Energy (Biquintile), and 
  • Break any old Habits that would get in our way (Quincunx).  

By choosing Magnetism (PIAVA – Curiosity) instead of Dynamism (Plan-Do), we gain Free Attention to use on our Seva rather than our Process.

So it would behoove to see what our Jupiter-Uranus and Jupiter-Eris Cycles are about.  The current Jupiter-Uranus Cycle (Expanding into greater Connection to Soul) began in June 2010 at 1 Aries (Manifesting Form).  The current Jupiter-Eris Cycle (Amplifying Truth) was Initiated at the end of April 2011 in 22 Aries (“The gate to the garden of all fulfilled desires“).  Intense.

What a “Coincidence” that Desire arises.  Not to mention the hint that Truth leads to fulfillment of Desire.

For a while on 23 June (approximately 6am to 11am PDT), the Jupiter/North Node to Uranus/Eris/Ceres Biquintile is joined by Venus and the Moon to form four-fifths of a Grand Quintile (Learning Made Easy).  The Vacancy – the Energy we’d Supply Consciously in order to complete the Grand Quintile and remove the Stress – is the last degree of Scorpio (Mischievousness).  So it’s important to Play, perhaps just a bit impolitely.

At the same time, Chiron and Saturn join Venus in an intertwined Septangle – Venus Triseptiles Saturn which Biseptiles Chiron which in turn Biseptiles Venus.

The Biseptile is about Timing our Rituals for maximum Effect, and the Triseptile is about Timing our Compassion so it’s neither Taken for Granted nor Abused.

We could read this as, The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is to be Loving and Gentle with ourself (Venus) whenever we find ourself touching our Despair (Chiron).  Venus occupies the inflection point between the Septangle and the incipient Grand Sextile, telling us that the Key is Magnetic.

Native American New Moon I

October 12, 2015

As we mentioned in the last post…

“There are actually two other Configurations in … Monday’s New Moon chart, [which] color it strongly.  One of them will provide Epiphanies about our Soul Self and [about] how [we might] adjust our Values and Identity to manifest [our Soul Self into our current Lifetime] more strongly (which Epiphanies will be multiplied by our intervening success at achieving Beginner’s Mind).  

“The other is about being Reborn into the Unimaginable through taking small steps toward Embracing our Orphaned Forbidden Genius.”

“Which are in turn, (1) a Uranus Mjolnir (a third planet at the far Midpoint between two planets that Square one another) on a base of Venus Square Saturn, and (2) a Golden Rectangle between dwarf planets Eris, Chaos, Haumea, and Ixion, with Centaur Pholus Conjunct Ixion, the New Moon Conjunct Haumea, and Uranus Conjunct Eris.”

Mjolnir is two Trioctiles from each end of a Square, merging on a third planet, which becomes the focus of the Mjolnir.  The Configuration is sometimes called “Thor’s Hammer,” and the term Mjolnir is Norwegian for just that.  Thor’s Hammer is often associated with destructive force, but that’s not quite accurate.  In the same sense that Uranus represents Disruption – Disruption of what is no longer in alignment with the Soul’s path for us in the Lifetime, Thor’s Hammer represents penetration of any Defense – as in any Defensiveness that protects the Ego from following the Soul’s path in the Lifetime.  Lightning is a good representation of the Mjolnir, as it is for the corresponding symbol in the Hindu tradition, the Vajra – sudden illumination of the Darkness, or Epiphany.

The Waxing Trioctile, 135 Degrees, combines the Eighth and Third Harmonics – Adjustment/Rebalancing and Love with Wisdom.  In the evolution of a Cycle, it sits between the Trine (120 Degrees) and the Biquintile (144); between the Grace that follows from aligning one’s path with the Zeitgeist (Trine), and the Realization of the Value of Tradition and the Power of Ritual (Biquintile).  The Biquintile in turn is followed closely by the Quincunx (150, Curiosity), the Triseptile (154) – Shamanic Power exercised for the Good of All, and the Quadrinovile (160) – Mastery gained through Self-Examination in Contemplation.  

This is a powerful section of the Zodiac, corresponding to Leo and early Virgo.  There are massive Changes going on, but they’re faced with the Courage of Leo, because the Uncertainty and Confusion of the earlier sections of the Zodiac have passed under the Bridge, and by now we kind of have a feel for what’s going down.  The notion that a Trioctile is a minor Square (often called a “Sesqui-Square”) is valid in only one sense: the sense that the Ego is a Trickster that can point one in the wrong direction if one focuses on Greed or Revenge.  Of course the zone of the Waning Trioctile and its near neighbors corresponds to Scorpio – the Debriefing that follows the Phitile.  While Leo embodies Courage, the defining quality of Scorpio is Fearlessness.

In today’s Mjolnir, the Waxing Trioctile is Venus to Uranus: Adjusting and Rebalancing our Values to better reflect the ongoing Descent of our Soul Self.  The Cycle Initiated in March at 15 Aries, “A Native American weaving a ceremonial blanket.”

The Waning Trioctile is Saturn to Uranus: Debriefing the Ego to discover what it has Learned about the Soul’s Intention as a result of its Experience with the Cycle that is beginning to unwind – which was “The Pope Blessing the Faithful,” 30 Sagittarius, February 1988, part of the Harmonic Convergence.

The Square is Waning, Venus to Saturn: Challenge to Ease up on the Ego’s role as the Protector of our Physical Vehicle.  The Cycle is “Native Americans making camp after moving into new territory,” – 26 Scorpio, November 2014.  In other words, some of our Beliefs about what we need to Survive have become Limiting Beliefs, that we’re Challenged to Let Go of.

So really, there are Big Questions here…

  • Ritual and Tradition are strong here.  What a “coincidence” that this New Moon occurs on Native American Day.
  • Since March, what have you connected or reconnected with, that you Feel is Sacred?  Have you established a Ritual, or Ritual Object, of some sort to honor it?
  • What has the Ego Learned since the Harmonic Convergence!  Wow.  Who were you in 1986?  What’s Changed in your Field since then?  What’s different now about the way you Defend your Health and your “turf” and the externalities that you Identify with (work? Relationship? Family? Money? Religion? Sports? Politics?)?  Does your current Perspective seem like Growth, or backsliding, compared to where you were in 1986?  Of course it’s Both/And; in what ways is it Growth, and in what ways is it backsliding?  Where are the razor-wire fences you can Levitate over?
  • Things in your Life were Changing rapidly in late 2014 and early 2015.  You made some Decisions about what you needed to do to Support yourself.  Decisions are like Instant Karma; they create Patterns that are useful in the short run, but which seldom come with their own Sunset Provisions.  We forget we made them, and we don’t revisit them to see if they’re still relevant.  What Decisions about Survival did you make in late 2014 and early 2015, and are they still relevant?  Or are they holding you back?  Both/And?  How to Rebalance/Adjust them to bring them into the Present Moment.  

Decisions don’t have to be explicit; recurring thoughts can have the same Power.  What were you thinking about in late 2014 and early 2015?  Were your thoughts Constructive, or Fearful in nature?  

So you don’t have to get bogged down in details, you may want to just PIAVA that obsolete Decisions and Patterns come to your Attention, gently and lovingly, and Adjustments appropriate to Now become Clear.  Make sure you include the gently and lovingly, because a PIAVA like this could turn your Life upside down if you didn’t also ask for Grace.  You may want to limit it to recent Decisions and Patterns, or, if you don’t, be watchful for Overwhelm, and respond to it with a compensatory PIAVA on the order of Visualizing or Affirming that the Changes in your Life occur at exactly the right speed, so you’re neither too early nor too late to synch with the Planetary Changes.  Or, you can just Levitate over the fence.

In the next installment, we’ll go into “The other [Configuration] is about being Reborn into the Unimaginable through taking small steps toward Embracing our Orphaned Forbidden Genius.”

Portal 14.9.15 – Part II

September 17, 2015

ErinConwellErin Conwell’s photo of one of the fires in Glacier National Park (Montana) earlier this year, a good symbol for the Ego and the Eruption of unwelcome Unconscious Contents.

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This is Water under the bridge (Monday’s Ceres Station), but as we’ve often said, I find Interpretation to be more valuable than Prediction, and I’m often led to useful Interpretations in the course of writing this blog.

A reader writes…

“Wow, I didn’t realize the intensity of Mars-quincunx-Ceres until yesterday!”

To which I reply … No biscuits!  Dumped me right into one of my worst Chronic childhood Traumas.  I’d be congratulating myself for recognizing that without being totally overwhelmed, if I wasn’t still in the middle of the Re-Experience.

This reader being an astrologer, I can follow with … I think of it though as Mars Square Sedna, with Mars-Quincunx-Ceres the Perpetual Curiosity path (~ I wonder how I can Take Responsibility to Act Sustainably here?) in the Tricolor, said Perpetual Curiosity liberating the Grace in the Ceres-Sedna Trine (in many cases Action taken out of Presence will probably be more sustainable than Action taken out of Fear or Action taken out of Anger) to resolve the Mars-Square-Sedna dilemma, which is something like “Am I Reacting out of Anger, or out of Fear?”  Translating…

The previous post covers this fairly well I think.  If we Act on our Basic Rule of Safety First, we might have enough Presence to delay Acting at all until we’re more grounded.  We could PIAVA “I wonder what would be most effective, Responding to my Fear, Responding to my Anger, or delaying Response.”  And then – Changing the Subject – waiting for our Intuition (or its Mirror, the Universe) to direct us into one course or another.

But it’s a lot more complicated than this.  Mars-Square-Sedna is the base of a Trine Fez, that is, there are two Tricolors across the Square: not just Sedna-Square-Mars-Quincunx-Ceres-Trine-Sedna, but also Mars-Square-Sedna-Quincunx-the Stellium-Trine-Mars – which is why we’ve woven Responsibility into the interpretation above.

Then there’s an additional, intertwined Square and Tricolor, Eris-Square-Ceres-Quincunx-Mars-Trine-Eris.

This additional part of the Ceres Station is another preview of June 2016’s Eris-Uranus Initiation, which will bring up any unfinished business we have left from our 2012-2015 Uranus-Pluto Yintegrity Adventures.  The objective of these Yintegrity Adventures was to bring our True Self into the forefront of our Personality.  Whatever portions are still holding back will get the call.  Problem is, those portions are not holding back because they Want to – far from it! 

Let’s look at a few snippets from Bessel Van der Kolk’s The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“Dissociation is the essence of trauma.  The overwhelming experience is split off and fragmented, so that the emotions, sounds, images, thoughts, and physical sensations related to the trauma take on a life of their own.  The sensory fragments of memory intrude into the present, where they are literally relived.  As long as the trauma is not resolved, the stress hormones that the body secretes to protect itself keep circulating, and the defensive movements and emotional responses keep getting replayed … Many people may not be aware of the connection between their ‘crazy’ feelings and reactions and the traumatic events that are being replayed.  They have no idea why the respond … as if they were about to be annihilated.

Flashback and reliving are in some ways worse than the trauma itself.  A traumatic event has a beginning and an end – at some point it is over.  But for people with PTSD a flashback can occur at any time, whether they are awake or asleep.  There is no way of knowing when it’s going to occur again or how long it will last.  People who suffer from flashbacks often organize their lives around trying to protect against them. … Shame becomes the dominant emotion and hiding the truth the central preoccupation.” [pp.66-67]

“If the fight/flight/freeze response is successful and we escape the danger, we recover our internal equilibrium and gradually [recover].  If for some reason the normal response is blocked – for example, when people are held down, trapped, or otherwise prevented from taking effective action, be it in a war zone, a car accident, domestic violence, or a rape – the brain keeps secreting stress chemicals, and the brain’s electrical circuits continue to fire in vain.  Long after the actual event has passed, the brain may keep sending signals to the body to escape a threat that no longer exists.” [p.54]

“Whenever we feel threatened, we instinctively turn to the first level [of safety], social engagement.  We call out for help, support, and comfort from the people around us.  But if no one comes to our aid [or we’re conditioned to expect no one to], or if we’re in immediate danger, the organism reverts to a more primitive way to survive: fight or flight.  We fight off our attacker, or we run to a safe place.  However, if this fails – we can’t get away, we’re held down or trapped – the organism tries to preserve itself by shutting down … We are then in a state of freeze or collapse.” [p.80]

Trauma can be either Acute (an event or several) or Chronic (prolonged repression of a natural part of ourself).  Our greatest Power (which is usually, as Marianne Williamson avers, our Greatest Fear) often overwhelmed our significant adults as we were growing up.  So they tried to socialize it out of us, very often producing Chronic Trauma in the process.  Or, if our significant adults weren’t Emotionally mature (which was and is often the case, as any child’s significant adults – or older siblings with Power Over us – are often not far out of their teens), they basically exploited our Power for their own ends.  For instance, they would Shame us in order to Feel like they were in Control.  Or Abuse of far worse proportions.

And that additional Square is the base of a Mjolnir focused on Jupiter.  A Mjolnir is formed when a third planet occupies the far midpoint of two planets that Square one another, Bridging the Square with two Trioctiles.  The Octile is about Adjustment and Rebalancing, the “Tri” about Love with Wisdom, the Trioctile about Insight, and the Mjolnir (or Hammer of Thor) is about Epiphany.

So there’s a good chance we’ve been Opened Up to the parts of our Self which have yet to Bloom, and we’ll be working with these parts until next June.  Be Loving and Gentle with them, as they are likely to be some of our most Vulnerable places.  It’s Difficult and can be Terrifying, but it’s about Embracing the Forest Fire, not Extinguishing it.  It contains our Power.

Here’s one of Dr. Kim’s processes to help us through this…

http://events.instantteleseminar.com/?eventid=74490222

Find her at http://drkimderamo.com/ .

Full Moon 31.7.15 – Time to Act

July 30, 2015

gal3837bpGalena, Lead Sulfite, the ultimate Grouding Crystal.  Heavy, you only need a little.  Find a small Crystal and keep it in a pill capsule or a small plastic bottle; you don’t want to be handling or inhaling the Lead.  Galena collects and stores Energy that’s not ready to be used yet, so you can use it as a reservoir.

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There are places in our Lives where we Hesitate to take full control because no one has given us Permission or Authority to do so.  Power is never Given, only Taken.  These are precisely the places where WE need to Give Ourselves not just Permission and Authority, but a Mandate.  We need to Take the Power.  You know what needs doing.  This Full Moon is the time to Get Started.

There are places in our Lives where we Hesitate to take full control because no one has given us Permission or Authority to do so. 

Power is never Given, only Taken

These are precisely the places where WE need to Give Ourselves not just Permission and Authority, but a Mandate. 

We need to Take the Power

You know what needs doing. 

This Full Moon is the time to Get Started.

It bears repeating.  Read it again.  And stop Hesitating.  It’s your Mission.

The Full Moon (4am PDT on 31 July – http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt4.htm ) is the focus of a Mjolnir Kite across the Square from Chiron to Pholus-Ixion.

The Mjolnir is formed by a third planet at the Far Midpoint of two planets that make a Square – a triangle with a Square on the base and two Triociles for sides.  The Trioctile is about Insight into bringing things back into Balance.  Mjolnir is the Norwegian term for Thor’s Hammer, which isn’t so much about Destruction as about Irresistable Force; Lightning is a common metaphor.  The Hindu Vajra is very similar in meaning.  The Mjolnir is then about Epiphany – Irresistable Insights that are Life-Changing.

The Mjolnir Kite has a fourth planet Opposite the third, or at the Near Midpoint of the Square.  The third planet is the Focus of the Mjolnir, but the fourth planet is the Focus of the Mjolnir Kite.  The Insights and Epiphany pertain to the issues raised by the Square.  The two planet in Opposition provide information about how the Epiphany is revealed.

In this case, the Moon is the Focus of the Mjolnir Kite, and the Opposition is the Full Moon itself – the Epiphany will be revealed through Illumination, Brightly.  No more through a glass darkly here.  The Square joins Chiron – Despair and Miracle – with the Pholus-Ixion Conjunction.  Ixion is about Unconscious Commitment to the point of pathology, and Pholus is about Responsibility to the point of Obsession.  Few of us are willing to let our Ixion out of the cage in the back room.  But if we do, and Take Full Responsibility (not Blame, which looks backward for Cause, but Responsibility, which looks forward for Impact) for it, Miracles await.

Confused?  Good – first stage of Growth, eh?

What are you Discouraged about?  That’s where your Mission is, and that’s where the Miracles are hiding.  You came here to do this, and it takes a whole bunch of Courage to Commit so strongly to what – because there’s no Support, it’s all your project – feels like a Suicide Mission.  Your Support will fall in line after you Take Full Responsibility and Commit – but you’ll be continually Teaching, because your Support has its own Mission that’s tangential to yours.  You can’t just delegate; you need to continue to monitor and stay fully involved.

Chaos Opposes Pholus-Ixion; there is Unlimited Potential here for those who are willing to risk Full Commitment.  Chiron T-Squares this Opposition…

Very scary but Miraculous results if you risk it.  Don’t expect easy going or early success; in fact any success will be partial.  You aren’t in this to succeed; you’re in it because it’s Who You Are.

The Full-Moon and Chaos-Pholus-Ixion Oppositions are Octile and Trioctile to one another, forming a Trioctile Box.

Box or Rectangular Configurations like the Mystic or Golden Rectangle (with Trine and Sextile sides) are all about the Energy in the Oppositions.  The Trioctile Box is about Adjustment, Balance, and Insight.

Giving us emphasis on both the Illumination aspect of the Full Moon and the Full Responsibility-Unlimited Scope aspect of Chaos-Pholus-Ixion, which multiplies the Power of the Mjolnir Kite.

Not only that, but the Opposition between Chaos and Pholus-Ixion, along with the Opposition between Uranus-Eris and Haumea (Rebirth as a result of the Revelation of what’s been Hidden – which is evolving into the first half of 2016), form a Golden Rectangle.  Golden Rectangles are about Grace – if we’re willing to immerse ourselves in the Oppositions.  In other words…

There is information we don’t have yet, and which we may not have until well into 2016.  Rather than wait for the information, you want to Trust your Instincts now, and get started now.  You really do know what your bottom line is, what to you is The Most Important Thing.  That’s all you really need to know.  What do want to Change, and what do you want it to look like after you Change it?  You know that much very well.

Saturn (The Most Important Thing) is Stationary on 1 August at 11pm PDT (http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt23.htm ).

There are two aspects to that.  First, where would you deploy them if you had the Resources you need.  And second, what is it that stops you from having those Resources?  Your Desires might seem Selfish, but they aren’t.  Selfish is what people called you because they were afraid of your Passion, and because their Ego was Competing with you.  If you believed you were Selfish then they could preserve their sense of superiority.  This is what Ixion is about – Selfish.  Selfish as an epitaph that slows you down, and Selfish as a Full Commitment to set everything else aside and Focus on your Most Important Thing.

So we need to drop any Shame or Hesitation we feel about Wanting what we’ve always Wanted – those are the Resources we need to Create our Most Important Thing.  Who will be upset with you if you put your own Wants first, ahead of theirs?  It’s not that they are holding you back; it’s your Limiting Beliefs about what will happen if you jet ahead.  Holding back isn’t an option any more; you’ll just have to find out what will really happen.  It’ll probably be quite different from what you imagine – our Limiting Beliefs are like that.

Catching Up 1…

May 20, 2015

CalbucoHell hath no fury like a woman scorned, especially if we’re talking Mother Earth.  Recent Fireworks in Chile as another Volcano goes off, this one Calbuco.  If you’re living nearby, relative to business as usual, this certainly qualifies as a Sudden Breakthrough Insight.  For more amazing pictures, including this one, see http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3088077/Apocalyptic-skies-return-Chile-second-volcano-erupts-entire-landscape-bathed-blood-red.html .

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But let’s start with our ongoing Gluten thread.  Here’s the interview with Dr. Osborne about autoimmune diseases and Foods on Trudy Scott’s Anxiety Summit…

http://www.theanxietysummit.com/replay-gift/

These interviews will only be available through 9am PDT May 21.  Scroll down to find Dr. Osborne’s interview.  Among other things, he says “Gluten is the only scientifically verified cause of autoimmune disease.”  I haven’t listened to the other interviews, but judging from Trudy’s other interviews they’re probably excellent.  We linked to the very educational comments about this interview recently in Anxiety, Food, Habit

When I sent my own comment about the lack of products that are both Gluten-Free and Organic, Trudy referred me to the comments on the Glyphosate session in the 2013 Anxiety Summit.  She asks that I include the header…

“Trudy Scott (CN), Certified Nutritionist is the founder of http://www.everywomanover29.com , a thriving nutrition practice with a focus on food, mood and women’s health. Trudy educates women about the amazing healing powers of food and nutrients and helps them find natural solutions for anxiety and other mood problems.  Trudy’s goal for all her clients (and all women): ‘You can be your healthiest, look your best and feel on-top-of-the-world emotionally!’ – See more at: http://www.everywomanover29.com/blog/roundup-toxic-anxiety-autism-celiac-disease/#sthash.2Kd7IPzm.dpuf

These informative comments are at…

http://www.everywomanover29.com/blog/roundup-toxic-anxiety-autism-celiac-disease/

In her new post Eugenia Oganova clarifies our insistence that we need to pay attention to Gluten, Glyphosate, and Food Quality as part of the new Chiron-Neptune Cycle and the Ascension of the Planet in general…

“This ascension alchemical process is, in fact, ‘chemical’ too – it takes a huge toll on our bodies (mostly the endocrine, immune, and nervous systems, and brain functioning), which means we have to be the masters of our bodies as well, not only the heart and the mind (making this ascension process very difficult indeed!)”

The whole post, including many other very useful insights, is at…

http://eugeniaoganova.blogspot.com/2015/05/why-is-ascension-so-hard.html

She finishes with…

Our job, as lightworkers, ‘starseeds’, and ‘forerunners of ascension’, is to remain in the Higher 3-D Earth vibration, and create from there – not to attempt to change all of the old negative systems, or focus on ‘exposing’ them by talking about them all the time (as if they need exposing! – anyone who can see and hear – does, and for those who don’t, it is because they can’t, no matter how loudly we choose to tell them the truth).”

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From here let’s transition to a question by reader Isaac George – see Isaac’s blog…

http://www.isaacgeorge.com/blog/shake-and-break-new-moon-in-taurus-may-18-2015

for another great Perspective on our Eye of Medusa .. I of M .. IAM Ego Death .. ED New Moon, including a lovely picture of it. 

My camera and computer aren’t speaking, so I’m temporarily off chart pictures.  Note that the Grand Trine he shows is what we would usually refer to as a South Node Kite – meaning that the emphasis here is on any Limiting Beliefs that we haven’t cleared yet, but that there is huge dumb-luck Grace available to us – which will shift the emphasis from our Limiting Beliefs to the Hidden Skills that lie beneath our Karma.  When we repressed a Lifetime because it ended in torture, it was usually because we were onto something big that threatened Mr. Big.  When we Let Go of our Resistance to the resulting negative Held Emotions, that Breakthrough material comes flying out!  Expect Miracles.

With Dr. D’Eramo’s exercises from our recent Portal 21-25.5 post, we may soon be shouting WHO YOU? instead of YOO HOO when we look in the mirror (paraphrasing reader Φ’s comment).  Isaac links to Linda Hill’s blog at…

http://spiritlibrary.com/lynda-hill/a-promise-of-a-renewal-and-a-revival-of-life-and-love-mays-new-moon-in-taurus

Which contains yet another useful view (it’s Both/And, the more Perspectives the better), but scroll down to “The new Moon is on Taurus 27” for her fascinating expansion on the Sabian Symbols involved.

While everyone’s focused on Algol the Eye of Medusa, we need to point out the the New Moon is also very close to the Star Capulus the Phallic Sword of Perseus, the male equivalent of Algol.  So we can expect everyone’s Sexuality and Relationships to be significantly Transformed this month.

We expect the primary impact of a New Moon to extend to the following New Moon, building to the Full Moon and a bit beyond (to the Phitile) then debriefing.

Isaac’s looking ahead and asking…

“Just a-wonderin’ about 8th harmonic Semi-Squares or Octiles – do you find them to be that big a deal?  One that’s upcoming is Saturn-Pluto from June through August.”

My reply, astrologer-to-astrologer…

“I follow Angie Arrien’s book The Tarot Handbook for my guide to the Harmonics.  Condensing what she says about the Eighth (Octile)…

‘…the universal principle of alignment and balance… reflecting negotiation and truth… having pierced the veils of illusion, delusion, and deception… Maat, the Goddess of Law, Truth, and Justice… Libra… Alpha and Omega… The principle of Balance requires that whatever is initiated (Alpha) must be completed (Omega) at some time… Legalities, financial balance, and business acumen… the integrating, balancing and synthesizing mind… the application of creative ideas in tangible, useful ways… value being truthful in difficult situations… honor my word and commitments… any problem or block in your life can be handled by doing two things: by communicating directly and by taking swift action.’

Fabulous book (pp.55-57), indispensable for astrology.

But there’s a lot more than the Octile going on…

Saturn Opposes Sedna and makes a T-Square with Jupiter, while being at the focus of a Kite with Ceres and Lilith.  Meanwhile there’s a Vesta Mjolnir on the Jupiter-Saturn Square, a Pluto Mjolnir on the Jupiter-Sedna Square, and a Jupiter Mjolnir on the Vesta-Pluto Square!  And Saturn is Unx (Twelfth Harmonic, Breaking Patterns) to the rather incredible Stellium on the Galactic Center.  Busy Busy Busy!  More to come as we approach June 19.

We haven’t seen many Mjolnirs for a while.  It occurs when a third planet sits at the far Midpoint between two planets that Square one another, making Trioctiles to each end of the Square.  Mjolnir is the Norwegian term for the Hammer of Thor, known to break the unbreakable.  We transfer that to our normally unbreakable Limiting Beliefs.  Like its Sanskrit correlate the Vajra, it’s associated with Lightning, so we usually translate a Mjolnir as Epiphany or Sudden Breakthrough Insight.

All of which implies to me that we’ll be Living in a very different World by October (another “Octo”)!  Expect to see the peak of this Action around August 1, when Saturn turns Direct, though three degrees of Sensitivity spans the end of April through the end of September – in other words we’re already in the cauldron and the Fire has been lit, it’s just not gotten very warm yet.  The Exact Octiles occur on June 19 and August 13, which will probably also see Energy peaks.

It might be worth noting that this is the same Saturn-Pluto Cycle that brought us “9/11,”  which occurred at the Waning Square.  This is the Waning Octile or Semi-Square, half a Square, which is much less of a Crisis and more of an Adjustment.  Both are in the Void, as the prior Cycle winds down.  Our task here is to clear away the detritus of the old Cycle so we can begin the new one afresh, without baggage from the old one.  Many fence-sitters might realize that they can no longer keep Living their old Yangtegrities.  Angie talks about being Responsible to one’s Commitments as being part of the Eighth Harmonic, but if those Commitments aren’t True to Oneself, this is a challenge to the Commitment, not to the Responsibility.

Square Planets Up Your Nodes

February 21, 2015

mnvesu5222bpManganvesuvianite – the Manganese-rich form of Vesuvianite, named for the Volcano that decimated Roman Pompeii.  Vesuvianite symbolizes the Mother Goddess, Creator of All That Is, and her Power to Heal “Miraculously.”  It appears as a Miracle to the Limited mind; it’s everyday to the Goddess.  The Manganese clears away Confusion so we can see the Growth that’s hiding behind it and Embrace it.

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A reader asks…

“Can you talk more about those of us who have a planet squaring the nodes?”

Which is an excellent question.  It’s a similar situation for folks with planets Conjunct either Node. 

A “Square” is two planets that are separated by one fourth of the Zodiac; they’re near the same Degree but three Signs apart.  A T-Square is two Squares connected end-to-end, or two planets Opposing one another with a third planet halfway between them.  Both mean Mastery through Challenge, the T-Square’s Challenge being more Challenging than a single Square’s Challenge.

First though, let me address another reader comment…

“That discussion of squares/Tsquares got me – depressed – no, actually, I recognized that feeling as despair when I read it.  Your writings have taught me to recognize that feeling –  despair.  And unconscious despair.  I never knew what that darkness was.  It’s been interesting to note where, when, how often it comes.  That’s helped clear a fair amount of it to an extent…just recognizing it for what it is.  That post brought it on.  Condemnation.  I always thought squares were Mastery Through Challenge.  So there is no ‘never.’  Mastery comes.  Not just ‘getting it’ but MASTERY!!  I feel like they should be called Infinitely Perpetual Challenge then.  Give it up.  You ain’t getting anywhere.”

Well, Infinitely Perpetual Challenge isn’t far off – till you Change your Objective.  Let’s take any of us that have Squares to Mars or Venus for an example – that’s timely, with Mars Initiating Venus and Wabi-Sabi Stationary.  We don’t even need a Square between Mars and Venus, just some other planet Squaring Mars or Venus.  Those movie scenes and ads about Perfect Romance and Perfect Bodies and Perfect Faces are irresistible to us.  Pant, Pant.  And that’s the whole idea – it ain’t Real, it’s a Trance.  I’ll wager that every Relationship you’ve ever been in had some positive feature.  If you cut out each one of those boons and pasted it on your Ken or Barbie doll, you’ll witness your Mastery first-hand.  You just haven’t put them together all at once.

That’s actually a great way to move toward What You Want – list the pieces or characteristics of your Desire, check to see which ones you’ve already Manifested, and then work on the others.  When you get most of them checked off, list all the combinations – A+B, A+C, B+C, etc. and start working on those – you can Plan and Execute, or PIAVFA, or both.  Then if you need to, work on the triplets – A+B+C, A+B+D, B+C+D, etc. – and the quadruplets.  Sound too complex?  Hmmm.  Maybe it’s your Desire that’s too complex.  Maybe you need to Prioritize a little.

Let’s try a thought experiment.  Think about your unfulfilled Desire.  Now pick its two most important characteristics.  Just for the sake of illustration we’ll call them Passion and Security.  Sound contradictory? 

That may be part of your Frustration.  Contradiction exists only in the mind, not in Reality.  In Reality it’s Both/And; in Real Life it’s called Paradox, not Contradiction.  If we’re striving for two Paradoxical qualities that we Believe are Contradictory, we will be doomed to Infinitely Perpetual Challenge.  It’s very difficult to Manifest what we don’t Believe – this is part of the Powerful “Placebo” effect.  So the first thing we may need to PIAFA is that we Believe our Desire is Possible.

Back to Passion and Security.  Ever feel Passion toward your Desire?  If not, Imagine it (Feelize or Visualize or …).  Shake It Off, take a drink of Water, and then think about the times you’ve felt Security around your Desire.  You may not have met any of your other requirements, but you felt Security.  If you haven’t Experienced Security around your Desire, not even for a few minutes, then Imagine what it’ll feel like when you do.  (If it’s a Relationship Desire, think Friendship.)  Then Let It Go, Dance a bit, another drink of Water, then recall or Imagine Manifesting both Security and Passion around your Desire.  Add Belief if you need to.

Feel good?  Or are their Yesbuts squeaking in the background – or shrieking in the foreground?  Yesbuts can feel Frustrating, but they’re just information about what else your Desire needs.  A frequently Unconscious Yesbut is whether or not you Deserve to Manifest Your Heart’s Desire. 

Virtually all of us went to the same Obedience School, where we were given a biscuit if we got the right answer, and if we’re very lucky only fingerwagged when we got the wrong answer.  Lots of folks would consider it Sociopathic if you Believed that you just Deserved things without having to Earn them.  Well, you do Deserve to Manifest your Heart’s Desire, right or wrong.  If your Heart’s Desire is punishable by Life or the Chair, so be it, you’ll just have to face the music.  But that’s not about Deserving; it’s about what your Culture permits and how well you finesse it.

Okay, you’ve Shaken It Off and Let It Go again and danced around the Fire, and now you’re sitting there feeling what it’s like to Believe in and Deserve to Manifest Safety and Passion around your Desire. 

I know, they’re still Yesbutting you, but Imagine that Belief, Deserving, Security, and Excitement are all you Want, that they’re Enough.

Ahhhhh! – Wonderful, isn’t it!

No?  Well, that’s it then. 

Desire is indeed an Infinitely Perpetual Challenge.  The basic problem is that Desire is misspelled.  It’s really spelled M-o-t-i-v-a-t-i-o-n.  Now there has to be a Balance between Motivation and Satisfaction, or else we’ll never feel good about Life.  So what to do?  Well, we certainly don’t need to give up our Desire, that would be the equivalent of Death.  We might need to dial it back a little, and approach it one piece or characteristic at a time, or set intermediate and achievable Goals that we can Celebrate along the way, so we can enjoy the Journey and not just the possibly hallucinatory Destination.

But the real key to Enjoying a Square or T-Square is shifting our Objective from Desire to Learning.  We’re always Learning, so we can Celebrate some quantity of Learning (even if we don’t understand yet what it is) from every Experience.  So a Square or a T-Square is about Learning about our Desire.  Once we make that shift we’re free to Play.  Learning is usually Surprising – otherwise we’d already be Learned.  So we’re open to Surprise as well as Success.  We really can afford to Play with it, because when Learning is our Objective, the bigger and faster our failures, the more we Learn.

That is MASTERY.  You’ve actually experienced it in your Life, around lesser Frustrations, like Spelling or Story Problems or DiffyQ or Asking for a raise or maintaining your Health.

And in fact, with a Square or T-Square, you are a Master, because you’ve always been Motivated to Explore the Edges of your Infinitely Perpetual Challenging Desire.  Take Music as an example.  If you’re Mozart, you were a Master at Birth.  If you’re Salieri, you’ve been working your butt off all your Life, and he gets all the contracts.  But suppose you’re Vivaldi, and you’re trying to figure out whether you want a minor or major key for your concerto about Spring.  Mozart could tell you in a flash.  But Salieri would be able to tell you why you need a minor key. 

If you were depending on Mozart you’d need to ask him again for each Season.  The answer you got from Salieri would allow you to figure it out on your own.  So who’s the real Master – Mozart or Salieri?

This is Real, it’s not a rationalization or a PR trick.  You may need to start your process by Believing that it’s possible to shift your Objective from your Desire to Learning about your Desire.

Conjunctions and Oppositions are similarly Heuristic.  Oppositions Challenge us to escape Duality by recognizing that while the Heads and the Tails distract us from what’s really happening, focusing on the Coin will trigger our Intuition.  Conjunctions Challenge us to Accept that just because our Perspective on the World isn’t popular, that doesn’t mean it’s wrong.  In fact, the more unusual our Perspective, the more Powerful.  You may end up writing things that won’t be understood for 200 years, or that only six people on the Planet will grok, but the Value in that is immeasurable. 

Squares and T-Squares are members of the Fourth Harmonic, which is basically Mastery or Dominion; the Emperor.  But it’s the Fifth Harmonic that’s about Learning, so we must be wrong, eh?  No, we Master each Harmonic by adopting the Perspective of a higher Dimension.  The First Harmonic, Conjunction, is about Self.  The Infinitely Perpetual Challenge about Self is Other, which is introduced by the Second Harmonic, Opposition. 

The Challenge of Self “versus” Other is resolved by Love, the Third Harmonic or Trine.  The Infinitely Perpetual Challenge about Love lies in resolving Codependence, via Healthy Control or Dominion, the Fourth Harmonic – Squares.  We resolve the Frustration of the Fourth Harmonic by using the Fifth, Learning, the Quintile.  We resolve the Paradox of Inequality between the Student and the Teacher by moving to mutually respectful Partnership, the Sixth Harmonic or Sextile.  And so on.

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Squares to the Nodes

Okay, finally we get to the original question.  But I think you’ll agree that the detour was useful. 

We’ve been equating the North Node to Desire and Mission, and now we’re talking about Squares as if they represented Desire.  These are two different flavors of Desire.  A North-Node Desire is hardwired in.  Moving in the direction of a North-Node Desire produces the sense that we’re on the right track, even as Satisfaction avoids us.  North-Node Desires evolve without much Frustration; we don’t recall how different our current North-Node Desires are from our picture of it five or ten years ago.  The basic sense is one of Progress.  A T-Square Desire on the other hand is an unachievable chimera that we set up to Motivate ourselves.  It’s a picture of Perfection.  It probably hasn’t changed substantially since we were five or ten years old.  The basic sense is one of Frustration.

So, if we put them both together, Progress with Frustration, gradual evolution with our Perfect Pictures, the whole process can be very Confusing.  And we may not remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.  That’s probably the key we need to resolve a T-Square to the Nodes – remembering that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.

Note that since the Nodes by definition Oppose one another, a Square to the Nodes is always a T-Square.

There are a couple of productive processes for dealing with Confusion.  We can acknowledge it with Gratitude.  “Omigosh, there’s Confusion!  Thank Goddess I’m Growing out of that dilemma!  That’s Exciting!”  And Curiosity.  Unlike the programming we got in school, real Learning is always Surprising.  If we had any idea how a real Life dilemma would be resolved, it wouldn’t be a dilemma.  So acknowledging Confusion as the first step of Growth almost automatically inspires Curiosity.  And Curiosity, like Love, is Goddessly, as both eschew Judgment.  We don’t want to strive for Curiosity about how our T-Square will be resolved – because we’d get stuck to our Perfect Pictures again.  Curiosity about what we’ll Learn next about our Desire fits perfectly, however.

We come to the difference between Desire and Fantasy.  Suppose for instance that we crave Acknowledgement.  If as ankle-biters we weren’t Valued for who we really were, we’ll spend our Lives craving Acknowledgement.  We have a picture of how that might happen.  We might be “Discovered,” for instance.  That’s a very nice alternative to Earning Acknowledgement.  Once who we really are is Discovered, everything else will fall into place, and it will all be easy.  That’s how we know it’s a Fantasy – everything else becomes easy.  Fantasy is a Manifestation-killer. 

When we detect Fantasy we need to substitute Curiosity.  We don’t know what it will look like when we’re Acknowledged – we’ve never been there.  We know the Perfect Picture we daydream about, but our Desire is behind that Picture, not in it.  When that Picture arises and we recognize it (how can we not? – we’ve been daydreaming it all our Life!), we need to pull the cord next to it so it rolls up like an old-fashioned window-shade.  Behind it there’s a Wilderness, and it’s Delightful and Dangerous and Exciting and very Compelling.  You can’t Imagine what’s in there!  But doesn’t it inspire Curiosity!

So let’s take some examples.  Suppose Saturn, which represents The Most Important Thing, Squares our Nodes.  It’s never this simple, because many other influences are afoot – such as the Sign of our Saturn, and other Angles to it from other planets.  But we could have a Lifetime Frustration about knowing what’s The Most Important Thing.  Is it Learning new Skills or collecting boons by using the Skills we have?  Is it Love, or is it Power?  So we need to find a reliable way to move from Confusion to Curiosity around The Most Important Thing.

In Psychic School one of the first tricks you Learn is “What if you did know?”  When Duality wants you to do Either/Or and you aren’t in touch with your Intuition enough to understand how Both/And might work in this circumstance, you can Ask yourself, “What if I did know?”  Chances are you will have already rejected at least one answer to the question, and that answer will probably pop back into Consciousness.  There’s a danger here.  This is an exercise for developing your Intuition, it’s not your Intuition. 

The answer you get is an excellent trial balloon, and a great first guess about what’s The Most Important Thing.  It’s worth trying.  But it may only work for a few steps.  West might be the correct direction for the first three strides, but you need to be alert for when Confusion arises again, and Ask again.  The next four might be North – or West again.  If you decide that one direction is Most Important forever, you’re likely to end up in a swamp.  After you practice this for a while it will become your Intuition, and you’ll develop the habit of recognizing Confusion and shifting immediately to Curiosity.  Eventually you won’t even notice the intervening steps, you’ll just Intuitively know what comes next.

But it’s still a Square; you can never sit on your laurels.  It will always be evolving, and you’ll always be Learning more about how to define The Most Important Thing, on more and more subtle levels, till you finally realize that there’s no one you can compare notes with, because no one else knows as much as you know about it – you are the Master.  It Squares your Nodes, so knowing it is The Most Important Thing in your Life.  When you Celebrate your Certainty about knowing the Most Important Thing, you’re about to step into the muck.  Celebrate Learning more about how to discern The Most Important Thing instead.

Now, think back over your Life.  How many times have you repeated this dance, and how many different ways have you Learned for dealing with it?  Include all the ways you’ve forgotten that you Learned (what if you did remember?).  In truth you’re the Master of this Process.  There’s no one better than you to teach it to others, because you’ve Explored all the blind alleys and discovered all the thoroughfares.  And more important, you know how to find the mainlines that haven’t been discovered yet. 

The primary characteristic of any Square is a shortage of Self-Acknowledgement.

That’s another process for resolving a Square in any given moment – moving to Gratitude – make a list of what is working for you.

Or Jupiter – what if Jupiter Squared our Nodes?  Jupiter is about Fortune, Expansion, Amplification.  When Jupiter dances with your Nodes, your Mission is always foremost in your Attention.  That’s fabulous, as no one will ever be able to accuse you of not immer strebend.  But it’s never Enough, is it.  Jupiter’s the Great Benefic, but Never Enough is a bummer.  So Self-Acknowledgement of your Enoughness has to become your mantra.  You’ve beaten it practically to death, but Enoughness is your Mastery.  Now you need to Master Not-Quite-Enoughness.  Your Challenge is to Learn to feel good about Performing at 90%.  When you get pretty good at that you can try 80%.  You’ll be More Than Enough at 50% – you can spend the other 50% having Fun.  You’re already doing this, aren’t you.  That’s MASTERY! 

We just can’t Acknowledge that we’re actually Manifesting the Power to Serve Effectively when we’re the Victim of our own Unconscious Motivation.  Dominion requires the Ability to Respond to “threats” to our Healthy Control.  As long as the Power to Serve Effectively is our Goal instead of Learning to Use the Power to Serve Effectively, Frustration follows, because Life is a moving target and “those people” – who really are less competent and less dedicated than you because they don’t have Jupiter Squaring their Nodes – are your Teachers, Unconsciously of course.  You’re underemployed, but you won’t be able to leverage yourself into a position where you also have the Authority and Responsibility to Serve Effectively – and the rewards, until you Learn to Honor yourself. 

There’s still time to remember all of the little and big Successes along this course, and Celebrate each one.  They’ll feel burdensome until you reframe them from Frustration about Failure, to Excitement about Learning.  Buy three big sheets of gold-colored cardboard and a “Sharpie” permanent marker.  Take an hour each week, choose one of your historical Frustrations, fully Embrace your Grief about how your hard work was unseen and unacknowledged and even actively thwarted, and then Ask “What did I Learn from this?”  If what you Learned feels negative, Ask “What was the positive function of that?”  “What was one positive thing that came out of it?

When you feel good about that Learning, cut a trophy honoring yourself for that  Success out of the gold cardboard, and give it a title and an approximate date.  As you process each historical Frustration there will be too many trophies (it’s Jupiter after all!) to keep on your mantle or altar all at once, so keep the extras in a box.  Each morning choose one trophy to put back in the box, and replace it with a new one chosen “randomly” from the box.  Spend a minute remembering the Frustration you felt as you climbed that mountain, and find the Relief you felt when you Learned that Lesson.

What about Venus?  Venus stands for our Values, so you’re probably often at odds about which Value of yours to follow.  Having multiple Values is fantastic – no danger of becoming a Zealot, eh?  But boy, those Zealots sure look Satisfied, don’t they?  Compared to my Confusion, that looks like a Blessing!  What if being Multifarious was the Blessing?  It’s a Square, it’s always a moving target.  I think of a Spiral, where we revisit the same issue over and over again but with slightly different circumstances.  A friend and reader uses the metaphor of “an elevator which stops at identical floors, but different things happen depending on where your head/vibes/frequency is.”

But the constant about is this is Constant Learning.  Your Values are Universal, but for every moment a different Hierarchy of Values applies.  If you’re anything like the rest of us, you’ve been programmed to apply the Values that were handed down by your family heritage in every moment.  You’ll be Learning how to stop and reconsider every moment, so you can apply the Values that work best in the circumstances.  You’ll know when you got it right because there will be a short burst of North-Node Satisfaction, the sense that you’re on the right track.  Till the Square’s Never-Quite-Right Energy butts in again.  No worries, it’s just Confusion, the first stage of Growth.  Isn’t that Curious!  I wonder which Values apply here – Growth or Certainty?

The Centaur Nessus Squaring the Nodes?  Confusion over Action, how to meet one’s needs with finesse rather than force, and how to replace that Confusion with Curiosity and Self-Acknowledgement.  Passive Pacifism isn’t worth much.  A Pacifist who knows how to Embrace and Master their own need to Dominate is a Teacher of Value.

The dwarf planet Ceres would tie us in knots over what’s Sustainable, and beg us to replace our Preaching and Self-Abuse about it with frequent PIAVFAs about how to make it stick. 

The poster child of dwarf planets, Pluto?  Sorry, your Life Path is intense, and you won’t bargain your way out of it.  You’ve probably already been in and out of Addiction, as there’s no faster way to understand Control.  Your Hero’s Journey is the Heroin’s Journey, figuratively or literally.  So what if no one listens to you – you see the Future, and they don’t.  Let them stumble; it’s their Learning Experience.  Your Certainty is a hindrance, though.  See if you can reprogram your Trance to seek Curiosity instead – you’re the Master of Trance-Re-Formation after all, even if you haven’t Recognized it yet.

If it’s the Centaur Hylonome Squaring your Nodes, Grief is your constant companion.  She’s just over your left shoulder.  Don’t push her away any more; Embrace Her.  Once you let Her swallow you like Inanna was swallowed by the Sun, over and over again, you’ll emerge Surprisingly quickly, each time having gained deep Insight.  Be Curious about where Grief will lead you next, as it’s a deep service to Humanity and to the Planet.

Inanna’s symbol is the Grand Octile – the Eighth Harmonic is where we go to resolve the puzzles presented by Magic.  This Ouija Board Uranus-Pluto Cycle is about Magic, and you know what comes next.  You are a Visitor from the distance Future, come to try to steer us away from impending disaster.  Embrace that Perspective without succumbing to Certainty or rejecting your constant Grief about being Unrecognized.  Grief is your greatest Tool.

Ah, Lilith.  It feels Confusing only because you’re ahead of your Time.  The World is moving toward Yindependence – Universal Respect for Self-Sovereignty – and you’re the advance guard.  Let yourself be Curious about how you can best help move the Planet forward.  The Hero’s Journey is well documented; it’s up to you to document the Heroine’s Journey for us as well.  Starhawk’s Truth or Dare is a good starting place for you.

Then there’s Uranus!  Yes, there are deep mists between you and your Soul, and many false profits.  You can’t dispel Confusion with Certainty, it must be Embraced.  It’s all Metaphor, Both/And.  What will happen if you Surrender to Confusion? 

Anyone else wanting to come forward?

Portal 4.5

April 5, 2014

elsmcit1688bpElestial Citrine.

Elestial Quartz formed quickly in Water, hence its multiple merged points.  It’s one Crystal, with many points.  It brings Angelic assistance to the task of allowing our True Self to manifest into practical Form.  Citrine brings all four of our Bodies into alignment, transforms negative Emotions, and clears away impediments to our Understanding of how it all fits together.  Smokey Quartz (Elestials are Smokey, and Citrine is a form of Quartz) absorbs negative radiation as well.

 

Programming the Future

There’s a fascinating interview with John Hogue on Coast to Coast AM, at…

http://www.coasttocoastam.com/show/2014/03/26

Starting about ten minutes in.  You have to subscribe to get access to it, so I’ll summarize the key points…

John is a Nostradamus scholar, and refers to his study and use of the idioms of 16th-Century French to help decode Nostradamus’s quatrains.  After a long discussion of the predictions of Nostradamus and several other seers down over the centuries, he considers whether a second Cold War will begin this month, or in October, and whether a nuclear WWIII is likely to befall us –  “Raining Stars from the Sky and killing more people in one day than all previous wars combined” as one prognostication put it – though that would fit for an asteroid collision as well.

Then he discusses various views of the Antichrist, and his belief that the Antichrist is actually our own Unconsciousness, some foretelling we “Walk into the conflagration with eyes wide open.”  And how he regards the massive Denial (see “1964-1973” in Unexploded Bomb) we live in today as example.  Then they took a couple of calls from listeners.

One listener wanted to discuss his pet theories about the Malaysian Airlines 777.  John rather sternly cut him off at the ankles, citing his obsession with the missing airliner as a sterling example of the slavish obeisance to the mass hypnosis peddled by the corporate media that decorates our massive Denial.

Another caller was a fellow who patiently explained to John how he could avoid the catastrophe and get sent to Heaven instead by taking Jesus as his Savior.  John gently shot him out of the water, pointing out that there are 32 other Christian sects, each with their own recipe for Salvation, not to mention the many sects of Buddhism, Hinduism, Islam, and YouNameItism.  Again, slavish obeisance to the intellectual formulae peddled by the religions is exactly the sort of hypnosis that will keep us in Denial.

He pointed out that future events will be unlike anything we’ve witnessed in the past, and the only way Humanity will wake up and say NO! is by stepping outside of the established propaganda machines and obsolete paradigms, opening our Observer Selves to witness the massive Destruction barreling down on us and the signs and signals of its progress, and raising our collective Voices to take Action to at least delay it if not transform it.

On the other hand, Bill Clinton was on the tube the other night talking about how the youngsters he works with have their eyes open and are creating all manner of innovative approaches to shift the Energy.  In contrast to the alleged Hollywood Boulevard dunces that his Puer host shamelessly exploits nightly.

 

Prediction and Interpretation

As I hope you know by now, we focus here on interpretation rather than prediction.  We do that for a couple of reasons.  First, while astrology is a great lever for focusing the Intuition, no two people have the same chart and the same set of Life experiences, and no two people will react or respond the same way to a given Energy.  Second, everyone actually uses words differently, so even if you Intuit exactly what someone is up to, the probability of actually communicating it is small.  Third, You would have to understand in advance how the person would likely use the information; you wouldn’t want to create unnecessary additional difficulty for them.  Finally, you want to harness the Placebo effect as much as you can, so you try to propose not possible futures but paths to Healing.

Which is what I like about John Hogue’s interview – he was proposing a path to Healing – namely, getting Conscious.  Which is exactly what Portal 4.5 is about.  It’s a unique and shining opportunity, because the rest of April is fraught with potential Challenges of Yintegrity.  So the more we can use Portal 4.5 to lever up our Consciousness, the more effective will be our response to the Challenges before us.

 

There are six overlapping Energies running through this Portal.

The first three are of longer duration, but form an important backdrop for the Portal itself.

  • We are moving toward Compassion for both the limitations of Physical Reality and the travails demanded by Spirit.  Recognize Confusion as the first stage of Growth, and respond to any difficulty by letting go of your obsession with the Material.  Look for the Energy behind it. 

The Trioctile is three eighths of the way ’round the Zodiac.  The Eighth Harmonic is about Realignment, and the Third about Love with Wisdom.  Mars (Physical Energy) is making a Waning Trioctile to Neptune (Spiritual Energy).  The Waning Mars-Neptune Cycle is about “Petrified tree trunks lie broken on desert sand” – yes, the infrastructure of civilization is broken, but it’s time to move beyond that realization and begin building a new structure.

  • The first stage of Rebuilding is to find Compassion for ourselves over our discovery that the pillars of our own Belief Systems have also collapsed.  We aren’t sure what to Believe any more, and that’s a good thing – it means we’re moving out beyond the intellectual formulae and mass hypnosis to a place where we can see more clearly and respond when we need to.  Stay with the Confusion – it will lead you to very important new Insights.

While the Chiron Mjolnir has dissolved because Lilith (as is her wont) has gone her own way, the Waning Trioctile from the Vesta-Ceres-North Node Conjunction to Chiron remains strong.

  • The April 5-7 window is a powerful opening for putting into practice the increasingly urgent feeling that we need to Let Go of our Masks and let our True Self shine through.  In fact, we’re highly likely to start this process by putting our foot in our mouth in a big way.  When that happens, don’t backtrack.  Do apologize for being abrupt, and make sure you’re speaking about your feelings and not about other people.  But stay with your Truth – it’s how we will recognize our Team and get to work.

After being recently Initiated by Uranus, Juno is about to Initiate the Sun.  The Juno-Uranus Initiation was the “Unexploded bomb.”  The Sun-Juno Initiation will be about “Abundance made possible by Human cooperation.”  And the Sun-Juno Initiation takes place right on Eris!  So there will be big sheets of Denial peeled away here.

The other three Energies are more ephemeral.  Two of these more ephemeral Energies form the primary Portal, opening from around 9am PDT to 6pm PDT on April 5.

  • The Most Important Thing during this Window will be to Trust what may feel like “random” Emotions.  Those are our Instincts.  They come straight from our Heart and Soul, not from our Programming or our Intellect.  They could put us into awkward situations, but stay with your Truth, as this is the process of moving into Yintegrity.

A Quintile Yod forms when a third planet occupies the far midpoint between two planets that Quintile one another.  It means that the third planet becomes the focus of attention to direct the Energies of the other two planets, while the whole Configuration introduces a probably-inconvenient but definitely-important “Learning Opportunity.”  Here Saturn is the focus, with the Moon and the Sun-Juno Conjunction as the feet.

  • There is Great Grace available in the synergies between Trusting our Instincts, Allowing our Belief System to be scrambled not with Doubt but with Curiosity, and enlisting our Compassion for Self and Other.

The Moon makes a Grand Trine with Venus and the Vesta-Ceres-North Node Conjunction.

  • The Grace multiplies many times over when we lovingly and gently open to our Karma.  We recoil from our Karma (the unpleasant experiences that we don’t want to see repeated) because it has given us such grief in the past.  But it’s a mere shadow of its former self, and when we open our Heart to it and find Compassion for ourself in its grip, it will dissolve in a few minutes.  But we have to Consciously take that step – notice our recoil, congratulate ourself for noticing it, and then soften our Resistance to it.

The South Node and Pallas Trine one another and Sextile the Grand Trine, forming five points of a Grand Sextile.  That tells us to look at the Vacancy – the missing jetliner, no, the missing sixth point that would complete the Grand Sextile.  That happens to be a busy point, as Quaoar and Chariklo are both recently Stationary there, and it happens to be where the Galactic Center sits, or the Black Whole at the center of the Milky Way Galaxy.  Just to put frosting on the cake, the asteroid Karma is there as well, itself Stationing in a few weeks.

In other words, the force of the entire Galaxy is at our backs here!  But the onus is upon us to take the first step out of our habitual reactions.  It almost doesn’t matter how we respond or act, as long as it’s different and new.  That’s one thing about the True Self – we don’t do it, we stand back and allow it to come through.  We just Relax and stop Resisting it.  It’s the easiest thing in the World, it’s absolutely natural for you – when you Let It Go.  We’re used to being punished or Shamed for being ourselves, because that’s what brings it into sharp focus for us and separates it from the background noise.  We just need to confront the Shaming, and embrace our historical Punished One.

We still need to write about the Water Nymph Chariklo, known about the Heavens for her Beauty and Grace.

King Bolete

March 21, 2014

Look at this incredible “Toadstool” Configuration…

DSCN4839Not only is Icarus sitting on the budding Uranus-Juno Initiation, which we know is the focus of a T-Square with Pluto and Jupiter, but Juno-Uranus is also the focus of a Mjolnir!  Which means that each of the three Squares in the picture form the base of their own Mjolnir!  The Juno-Uranus Mjolnir has a base made up of Pallas and Saturn.  The “King Bolete” (Boletus edulis, aka Cep or Steinpilz), generally considered to be the most desirable Mushroom on the Planet, has a plump base like this Configuration does.

In other words, we’re about to get a download that’ll boot us out of our Masks like we were a slapstick cartoon character getting a good kick in the behind.

But lets break that first paragraph down to try to make it more accessible to folks who don’t speak astrologuese.  The links lead to more information.  You can also use the “index” at right to further explore a topic…

Icarus – An asteroid that may imply over-exuberance, and possibly danger to the Ego.

Uranus – A planet symbolizing the Individual Soul and our urge to express our True Self, which we often call our Yintegrity.  In traditional Western astrology Uranus means Disruption, but that’s because it Disrupts that which is false, and causes houses of cards to tumble.

Juno – An asteroid signifying the Edge between the Unconscious and Consciousness, and our Unconscious Identity.  Juno can reveal Archetypes,  gigantic impersonal and often Cultural complexes, that we’ve Merged with, and that essentially control us and make us believe we’re right when we’re out to lunch.  Patriotism is an Archetype, for instance, as is Fundamentalism of any sort.  Like those Tea-Partiers waving signs that say “Government get your hands off my Medicare” – even when they understand that Medicare is a government program, the Fundamental aspect of their Belief makes the knowledge irrelevant.  Fundamentalism means taking your metaphors literally.  Scientific Fundamentalism can be as destructive as Religious.

Initiation – When two planets/asteroids meet in the sky, they initiate a new Cycle.  The Juno-Uranus Cycle runs 4-5 years, and represents the interface between our Ego Consciousness and our True Self.  The Juno-Uranus Cycle being born is about an unexploded bomb.

If we put together what we have so far, we end up with…

A possibility of putting our foot into the mouth of the Masks we use to keep other people from seeing the parts of our True Self that we don’t Believe are Safe to express.  We may have been shamed by the significant adults in our childhood about those parts of ourself, or been put to death in a “past” Life because of them, for instance, or both.  (It’s usually Both/And.)   This Shift will last about a week, during which time we’ll see the beginning of processes that will run for several years and very much change who we believe ourselves to be.

T-Square – Two planets that Oppose one another, with a third halfway between them.  The T-Square in the picture above is the red triangle pointing upward, so named because they form a “T” when you draw lines that connect each of the three planets to the center of the circle.  We use red to signify Creative Tension or Motivation.  The Energy in a T-Square is focused upon the third planet, in this case Juno-Uranus.  A T-Square means Mastery through Challenge.

A prominent characteristic of T-Squares is that they never feel satisfying, because they aren’t a “problem that needs to be Solved” (which would make us feel successful); they’re an “open question that we’re compulsively Exploring” that doesn’t have any concrete answers – imagine being obsessed with “What’s the meaning of Life?”  Once we drop the expectation of Solution and learn to enjoy the Exploration, a T-Square no longer implies Frustration, and can be the Joy of our Life.  Since we obsess on the question, a T-Square is often the area of our greatest expertise, but while we remain in Frustration we don’t recognize our skill.

Pluto – A planet symbolizing Global Energy shifts, Transformations, Trance Reformations, and Changes that end up, by virtue of the difficulty of Resisting them, appearing to be Mandatory.

Jupiter – A planet representing Expansion or Amplification, and in general Good Fortune.

So this T-Square would imply that…

We are being Challenged to Express more and more of our True Self, and we’re finding it increasingly difficult to Resist and hold on to our Masks and False Selves.  This process runs from 2012 to 2015, so we’re well into it.  It reaches one of its crescendos in April.

MjolnirA Norwegian word meaning “Hammer of Thor,” equivalent to the Vajra or Dorje of South Asian traditions.  A Mjolnir occurs when two planets are separated by one fourth of the Zodiac, and a third planet is three-eighths of the Zodiac from each.  The Energy of a Mjolnir is focused on the third planet, so we name our Mjolnirs using the name of the third planet.  It signifies an irresistible force meeting a hard place.

While that can imply destruction, the most useful symbology for us is Lightning.  We usually interpret it as Epiphany, as Thor’s Hammer destroyed mountains in the sense of removing obstacles in his path.  Similarly, a Lightning Insight can destroy an Egoic house of cards.  As an Epiphany, we don’t usually object, though it may take us quite a bit of work to make our amends and reorganize our Life to align with our new Self.  From the perspective of other people who’ve become attached to our prior personality, such an Epiphany can be devastating.

So a Juno-Uranus Mjolnir implies…

The likelihood of Life-Changing Insights about the Masks we may not even realize we’re wearing.

Square – Two planets that are separated by one fourth of the Zodiac.  It’s called a Square because if you have four of them and draw lines between the four planets you’d make a square.  The long red line in the picture is an Opposition; the sort red lines are Squares.

Trioctile – The gold lines in the picture, connecting two planets that are three-eighths of the way ’round the Zodiac.  The Trioctile symbolizes Realignment and Bringing into Balance.  As with most Angles between planets, Realignment can mean disruption, as we have to release our attachment to that which is no longer in Balance (if it ever was).  If you were a coal company you’d be running scared these days, for instance.

Pallas – An asteroid meaning Boundaries and Edges.  The Serenity Prayer is a good example of Pallas Energy – Lord, please grant me the Power to Change that which I can, the Serenity to Accept that which I can’t, and the Wisdom to know the difference.

Saturn – A planet asking us to Pay Attention to The Most Important Thing and postpone our Attention to all other priorities.  If we’re attached to our lower priorities, Saturn can feel like Limitation, but it’s real meaning if Focus and ConcentrationIt can mean Contraction if we’re over-extended.

So “The Juno-Uranus Mjolnir has a base made up of Pallas and Saturn” means…

One could make a good case for the notion that moving toward being and expressing our True Self may be The Most Important Thing in our Lives.  We set up our Masks in order to make a Safe Space for us to do the best we can in the circumstances we found ourself in.  So we can expect major Insights into Realignment of our Boundaries, and Changes in our understanding of what’s The Most Important Thing, that facilitate our embodying our True Self.

And “each of the three Squares in the picture form the base of their own Mjolnir,” aka the other two arrowheads in the picture, are a Pallas Mjolnir based on the Uranus-Pluto Square and a Saturn Mjolnir based on the Jupiter-Uranus Square

The Pallas Mjolnir means that…

We’ve been rejecting parts of our True Self that we left behind before we even learned that we had a choice.  We’re likely to encounter circumstances where we’re forced to bring those parts up into Consciousness.  If you keep finding yourself in situations where you’re Judging other people, those are likely to be the Self-Censorship that you’ve been Unconscious about.

The Saturn Mjolnir will imply…

While Pallas often implies that we need to tighten our Boundaries in certain circumstances, here we’re being asked to Expand our Edges instead.  When we Judge someone, we can Stretch our concepts of what’s okay, or we can Tighten the distinction that separates us from them.  Here the more likely preference is to Stretch.  In fact, it could even be The Most Important Thing we need to do.  In order to accept some rejected characteristic of our True Self, the first thing we need to do is relax our Judgment of others who portray that characteristic.

This Toadstool Configuration is long-lasting, though Saturn’s role in it is weakening.  It’s worth noting that this chart rules the birth of Northern Spring and Southern Autumn, implying that its impact will linger for at least three months.

Now you can maybe see why we also want to include the astrologuese – if you know any astrologuese, we can communicate to you in one paragraph what otherwise requires more than twenty paragraphs of mind-numbing detail.  We aren’t asking you to learn astrology if you have no interest, but we do suggest that if you pay a little more attention than you otherwise would while reading about astrology, and occasionally check the links and index when inspired, you’ll gradually absorb enough to amplify the amount of information you receive from a given quantity of reading.

Oracular Full Moon

February 15, 2014

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Translucent forms of Beryl – Beryllium Cyclosilicate – are preferred for Scrying.  Beryl comes in many colors; the transparent Gem form is called Emerald when green.

Algol, the Eye of Medusa

Didn’t notice until just now (with thanks to Elizabeth) that the Eighth Harmonic Full Moon was also Square to the Star Algol, near the end of Taurus, completing the Grand Cross with Saturn.  In just about every mythic tradition you can name, Algol is considered the epitome of “evil.”  It’s the Eye of Medusa.  A glance turns you to Stone.  And like most things “evil,” when we look to see who’s making the condemnations, it gets very clear – it’s the Olde Male.

In Kelley Hunter’s book Living Lilith: Four Dimensions of the Cosmic Feminine, Algol/Medusa is one of the Four.  Here’s a snippet from page 27…

“Kalli Halvorsen of HerStar calls Algol the star of female passion and intensity.  As the Eye of Medusa, Algol gives witness to the violation and abuse of feminine power and sexuality, she suggests, which gives rise to a profound rage.  This rage can be self-protective, yet it often needs some kind of expression so that it does not turn in on itself from paralysis of repressed emotions, a cancerous emotional situation.  In Epheta, Vivian Bennerson, ‘Mother B,’ a wise woman who worked with Medusa as I work with Lilith, wrote, ‘Let us become angry enough to care about ourselves… let self-love develop as it ought once we admit and realize that this power is within our grasp.’ “

And yes, one glance at feminine power and sexuality can turn an Olde Male away from all manner of destruction and greed, as if turned to Stone.  Algol is currently at 27 degrees of Taurus, and like all Stars moving forward only at the rate of the Progression of the Equinoxes, the slow wobble that gives the Earth it’s 24,000-year Cycle.  Our movement into the Age of Aquarius is part of that Cycle.

Remember in Eighth Harmonic Full Moon how we said that we had six out of the eight positions necessary to make a Grand Octile?  Well, Algol makes the seventh.  That makes the eighth position, the Vacancy, the most important point in the chart, because we need to fill in that Energy in order to bring the entire chart into Balance.  What sort of Energy is that?  Eleven degrees of Libra, “A professor peering over her glasses at her students.”  That means it’s up to us to seek knowledge here.

The Grand Octile

But what’s going on there at the Vacancy?  The Asteroid Apollo is nearby.  If we count Apollo, that makes eight.  It’s a lovely chart…

G8Two Grand Crosses, an Octile apart.  And look at all the Mjolnirs

Mj8Epiphanies galore!  So who is this Apollo?  Among other things, he was the God of Light, Healing, Truth, and Prophesy.  He’s usually depicted naked – without any Masks – as befits our overarching Yintegrity Uranus-Pluto Square.  Apollo Opposes Uranus here, converting the Uranus-Pluto-Jupiter T-Square into a Grand Cross.

As the God of Prophesy, one of his totems was the Omphalos Stone at the Temple of Delphi…

450px-Omphalos_museumAn Omphalos is a navel, and the Omphalos at Delphi represented the bellybutton of the World, or the gateway to the center of the Unconscious.  It also channeled the hypnotizing fumes to the Oracles.  Those designs on the Stone are usually considered to be a net of knots.  But those aren’t knots.  They’re Vajras

pISTzefV5BQ1iM_Remember what a Vajra is?  It’s the Hindu equivalent of a Mjolnir, symbolizing Lightning, Diamond: incomparably hard, blindingly fast, and – your choice – incredibly destructive or blindingly illuminating.  Destructive of illusion, delusion, and deception, just as Angie says in her description of the Eighth Harmonic.  If we’ve clothed ourselves with illusion, delusion, and deception, we may be stripped naked.  In one epiphanic glance, our Masks could be turned to Stone, and shattered.

What an incredible “coincidence,” that it would be Apollo the God of Illumination that completes our Grand Octile, our octet of Mjolnirs!

Goshen3056bpClear Beryl is called Goshenite.  Beryllium, very toxic in powdered form, symbolizes Serpent Energy, Kundalini, Medusa’s hair, the Temptress of Lilith’s “rival” Eve.  There’s a ring-pass-not here, in the sense that opening up fully to the Oracle may turn your Life upside down.

 

8th Harmonic Full Moon

February 13, 2014

crabnebulaThe Crab Nebula

An Extra Portal

The February 14 Full Moon (4pm PST) chart is loaded with Eighth-Harmonic Angles, the Eighth being about Realignment and Balance.  We’re two points shy of a Grand Octile – eight planets evenly spaced ’round the Zodiac.  In addition to our old friend the Chiron Mjolnir, there are Mjolnirs to Uranus, Jupiter, Saturn, and the Moon.  Mjolnirs are about Epiphanies.

So be prepared for one heck of an eye-opening Full Moon!  We’ll be learning startling things about our True Self, our Culture, and Manifestation – whether or not we’re Open to having our World Reframed, or turned sideways.  If we aren’t Open, we’ll just dismiss them as improbable.  If we are – Wow, be ready to leap forward!  In honor of the occasion, Eris even has a Trioctile to Pallas – which is good, because it will allow us to screen out perceptions that we’d experience as psychotic.  Other than that, all bets are off.

Look at all these gold lines, mostly Trioctiles, with a few Octiles…

DSCN4735Don’t forget that Squares are Bioctiles.

See if you can tease it apart.  If we remove the Chiron Mjolnir and the Eris Trioctile, we have two T-Squares (the dark red lines) that are Octile to one another – that’s what makes all the extra Mjolnirs.  Uranus is of course T-Square to the Jupiter-Pluto Opposition, and Saturn T-Squares the Full Moon Axis.  Saturn, which says Pay Attention to the Most Important Thing, is the kingpin in the chart.  The bottom line is…

Pay Attention to Expanding your Realignment with your True Self.  Sure, you’re Scared to drop your Masks, they’ve served you well all your Life.  But now you get to relax a little and just be yourself more, do and say things you always wanted to do or say.  Be as silly or serious as you want to be, moment to moment.  You don’t have to worry about being “consistent” for anybody, even for yourself.  That was your Mask that had to feign consistency, not the Real You.  Your Life is Art, go ahead and make it so.

Don’t worry if you believe you don’t really know who your True Self is; it’ll take care of itself just fine if you let it.  Don’t worry about feeling foolish or looking dumb – everybody’s in the same boat.  You’ve practiced with your Masks for many – or very many – years; you haven’t practiced with your True Self as much, so of course you’re a newbie, just like everybody else.  You’ll be slick as can be before you know it.

If your World appears to be turning inside out and upside down, let it be.  It’s not a breakdown, it’s a breakthrough.  It’s like the Sun coming out after a Storm.  Look beyond the part of yourself that’s Scared, breathe, and find the part of yourself that’s Excited.  Exalted even.  You do want to come back and be lovingly and gently Present with your Fear – tap it out, or just sit quietly with your arms around it.  Then when you feel a little stronger, you can go play.

Being a Full Moon, the impact will linger beyond the Portal itself, but the Energy will be strongest as we approach the Full Moon itself, especially six hours before and after.  As Leonard Cohen puts it, “There is a crack, a crack in everything / That’s how the Light gets in / That’s how the Light gets in.”