Soulful Full Moon

I’m still behind on paper, still working on the 19-22 January 2023 Moira-Uranus New Moon report, which is important because it’s Impact lasts till the 20 February New Moon. But in Real Life, when the clouds above my skylight parted last night, it became Glaringly Obvious that the 5-6 February Full Moon is upon us! So what’s it about?

First, it Dances with our Soul in quite a Challenging manner (non-Self-Resolving Uranus T-Square to the Full Moon Opposition). The Full Moon itself is at 17 Leo, Irrepresible Emergence of the Underworld. The Sun is at 17 Aquarius, Maintaining the Details of Tradition. Our Tradition is to treat the Underworld this way…

Uranus, though, sits at 90 Degrees from both of them, but at 16 Taurus, The Compulsive Truth of Love. It’s Squeezed between Star Menkar in 15 Taurus, The Repeatedly Erupting Need to Surrender, and 17 Taurus, Eruption of Unconscious Contents. Sounds like David Icke, post-Ayahuasca. If you’ve ever watched much television or studied much History, you know well how brutal and sadistic Hupers can be.

We may have Memories or Dreams or Visions that emulate television in their Brutality and Sadism. We may even have Chosen to Confront some of that when we were in the Lightworker’s Lounge Simulator. Whether from the Simulator or from any sort of Experience that we Identify as Personal, we may have Karma that approaches this. There is no Ego Identity in the Unconscious, it’s Impersonal. Some people consider it to have Three main Realms, the Universal, symbolized by Pluto, the Cultural (by Neptune), and the Individual (by Uranus).

Wait! If the Unconscious is full of Bogeypersons, how can we consider Uranus, the Individual Unconscious, to represent The Soul? You’re thinking of Freud’s Subconscious. That’s the Dungeon where all of our Demons are Chained Up (or were, till this Full Moon, I guess). Jung’s Unconscious is the Dragon’s Lair, where our Lost Treasures are cached – the ones that will make us Whole and take us to 5D – Protected by the Dragon. The costumes and makeup are better there.

The Subconscious and the Unconscious are actually the same place. The only difference is the Perspective of the Observing Ego. Is Thor’s Hammer the Sledge of Destruction? Or is it the Mjölnir – Lightning – of Epiphany and Enlightenment? There’s a pretty Clear and very Traditional Dichotomy at work here, isn’t there – the Famous Dichotomy between Good and Evil. Well, Dichotomies are what Dimensionality? Two? What do we know about 2D? That’s where the Mind Lives, isn’t it. Nature doesn’t Live there, Reality doesn’t Live there.

You aren’t old enough to remember the old Kodak Brownie camera from the 1950s. My first camera. They may have had color film for it, but who could afford that? When we could spare the cash to get a roll developed, we got 2×2 inch (5×5 cm) black and white snapshots. 2 inches, 2 colors (sorta – shades of grey actually), 2D. That’s where Good and Evil Lived, there in the Brownie, and on the couch – and in the 50s. Actually, developers would only develop Good. Evil snapshots got confiscated. You had to go to Polaroid to capture Evil, and that was still originally only Sepia and White. Color TV was still ten years away. You can make Color with 3 pigments, but mixing them together in different combinations and intensities will provide an almost Infinite number of additional Dimensions.

That helps, but to get to Nature or Reality you need to add many more Dimensions, starting with Linear Time. Video simulates Linear Time, and consumes Linear Time to watch, but it still doesn’t do 3D well, or approach all the variations and nuances of Nature or Reality, or even of Huper Culture and Artifacts. All of these considerations are about Separation, a 2D Concept. Language, the Currency of 2D, can describe, usually crudely, many characteristics of 3D and sometimes beyond, but it has precious few words for Unitary. So we have to admit that 2D is woefully Inadequate to capture the Paradoxical way Nature is Multidimensional and Unitary.

The Unconscious is also Multidimensional and Unitary. The Three Realms are marked off just for the convenience of astrologers and psychologists and their Minds. The Three are Irretrievably Interwoven and Entangled. The distinctions between the Realms are pretty Arbitrary. Think of it as a Gigantic Blob floating in Interdimensional Space, like Dark Matter or Dark Energy, obviously Occupying the same space we Live In. The outside of this Unconscious Blob is studded with Rings. Bilbo was trying to find one of them. When we stick a finger into one of the rings on the outside of the Unconscious, it sticks. That’s Karma.

Since the Unconscious is Invisible or Transparent, we can never know the Source of the Karma. All we can do is Notice and Identify (crudely, since it’s multidimensional, but that’s a start) the Pattern of Behaviour that it produces, and Act or Speak Differently, Hoping the Change will impact the Karma broadly – for instance, will Stopping Generational Abuse End the Karma itself, or just our own Ring of it? We don’t know, we just do the best we can, and Assume that we’ll simultaneously Chip Away at the larger Cultural Realm of the Blob. If it helps, we can Assume that the Karma was part of the Original Intelligence of the Universe, put there as a Heuristic or Teaching Device for us demented Hupers.

The Finger of the Goddess, consisting of two planets two Signs apart, with a third planet at their Far Midpoint, five Signs away, making an Acute Triangle or Wedge. Five Signs is called a Quincunx (Latin for “5/12ths”) and indicating Mystery, or Dimensionality higher than 2 or 3. In Nature there are no Contradictions – which are 2D and therefore in the Mind of the Observer – there are only Paradoxes where there appear to be Contradictions, and this is also true of Mystery, the Quincunx, and the Finger of the Goddess. The Finger combines the 5th Harmonic (Learning) with the 12th Harmonic (Pattern-Breaking). We can’t change a Problem using the same Thinking that postulated the Problem, so we have to Learn a New Way to Break the Problem.

The T-Square consists of two planets in Opposition or 6 Signs apart, with a third planet at their Midpoint, three Signs away, making a Right Triangle. Three Signs is one fourth of the Zodiac, hence it’s the 4th Harmonic, signifying Dominion. Western Culture understands only Domination, not Dominion, as the tale of Damocles illustrates. Damocles covets the Emperor’s Luxury, so he asks if he can sit in for a day and Enjoy the Domination. The Emperor says “Sure,” but hangs a Sword over the Throne by a single Horsehair to symbolize the Complexity of the Duties that he must perform to maintain his Dominion. Damocles is Terrified by the implications of Accountability, and Runs Away. The Moon, by the way, symbolizes Accountability.

So the T-Square signifies Mastery through Challenge or Mastery through Adeptitude, which Damocles could have Worked toward had he not Run Away. Now, if we add a Finger of the Goddess to the T-Square, with each of their “third planets” being the same planet, then the base of the T-Square makes a nest of Trines and Sextiles (both of which signify Grace) with the base of the Finger, and this Basket of Grace under the T-Square makes the T-Square Self-Resolving. If it’s hard for you to follow all the triangles, this is all mapped out graphically in the post at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/self-resolution/. Bear with us, we’re making a Point.

If Damocles was in a Self-Resolving Challenge, and had not run, but tried Sitting with his Discomfort (in the sense of Sitting in Meditation), he would have had an Aha! Experience, understood the message, untied the Sword, handed it back to the Emperor, thanked him, and Lived Happily Ever After. In a Self-Resolving Challenge (T-Square plus Finger of the Goddess), the Distressing Patterns we Break by Sitting with the Challenge are Patterns that were ready to Let Go of us, Rings that were ready to Break Open at the slightest Tug, or even On Their Own. (Thanks to Boozilla for the loan of the Patient Bear.)

Earlier we mentioned a Configuration that Ego astrologers refer to as a Thor’s Hammer, as it’s Implications can be troublesome for the Ego. It’s two planets 90 Degrees apart with a third planet halfway between them at their Far Midpoint, 4½ Signs away. The Ego astrologers refer to the 4½-Sign Angle as a Sesqui-Square because what they see is a Challenge similar to a Square (Sesqui means 1½). In Ascension astrology, we see a Trioctile Angle there, because we regard the Octile, the 8th Harmonic (1/8th of the Zodiac or 45 Degrees), as a very legitimate Angle in its own right, meaning Adjustment or Justice.

We refer to the Configuration as a Mjölnir, or Trioctile Yod. That’s just Norwegian for Thor’s Hammer, but the Hammer has so much Destructive Baggage from Hollywood’s interpretations of it, that we needed a more neutral term that emphasized the Lightning aspect of Thor’s Hammer. Lightning, a legitimate meaning of the Hammer in Norse Lore, is just as Destructive, but it’s more Focused, and Illuminates the Situation. So we regard the Octile as meaning Insight, and the Mjölnir as signifying Epiphany. The Trioctile combines the 3rd Harmonic (Love with Wisdom) and the 8th (Adjustment), so Implies Bringing into Balance.

Now, if a T-Square (Challenge) and a Mjölnir (Rebalancing) point to the same planet, then the Challenge is Self-Resolving with a Caveat. We have to do our Work. The Patterns to be Broken will likely be Difficult, such as Rejecting Feelings that We’d Rather Die than Feel. The Angles made between the base of the Mjölnir and the base of the Square, rather than Trines and Sextiles as was the case with the Finger, are Octiles and Trioctiles – Justice and Rebalancing.

There may be Guilt involved with the planets in the Mjölnir, and we may need to Make Amends to bring the Guilt “to Justice.” Often the Amends will need to be make to Ourself, for Abandoning an Inner Child for most of our Life, for instance. Guilt is seldom “Deserved” – it’s usually someone else Blaming us to Protect their own Ego. If it was something “we” did “wrong,” Regret would be more appropriate than Guilt. We put “we” in quotes because if it’s Karmic, it wasn’t even “us” that were involved, “we” weren’t there! “Wrong” is in quotes because it’s a Judgment, a Duality, an Intellectualization, a Thought. We can be Tortured by Thoughts, but not Blamed for them.

We’ll talk about how the Full Moon Triggers Mjölnirs tomorrow.

For now there’s one more Important Issue we need to mention. Karma is By Definition Not Present Moment. It has roots in other Lifetimes. Even if they’re Parallel Lifetimes, they aren’t in Our (Our Ego’s) Present Moment. It’s Effortless to Bring Karma into the Present Moment – all we need to do is Repeat Self-Destructive Habits Mindlessly. Yes, we haven’t traced most of our Karma back to its first Pattern. The Present-Moment Re-Enactment of Karma often starts with one of those Feelings that We’d Rather Die Than Feel.

Each time we Feel that, our Reaction is to Repress it, often before we even Realize we’ve Felt it, because we’ve been Practicing Repression for so long that it’s Automatic. Often it was part of our Programming. We weren’t Allowed to Feel that because our Programmers couldn’t Stand It themselves. So when we begin to Notice a Karmic Pattern beginning to Repeat, we may be Noticing the second or third Pattern in a series. That doesn’t matter. Whatever stage we Notice, that’ll make it easier to trace back to earlier Patterns.

We may be able to get ahead of this process by PIAVAing to know What Came Before the last time this Karma was Triggered? Then we can Notice that Pattern when it reoccurs, to see if it’s part of the Chain of Events and Feelings that lead to Outcomes we don’t Want. If we can be Vigilant about this process, ultimately we can simply Refuse to Cooperate when the Triggers are pulled. Fear is often one of the Feelings that we’d rather Die than Feel. Not all Fear, but Fear of a certain Tone, Fear that Regresses us to Past Deaths or Past Experiences that “we” Experienced as Worse than Death.

Once we Interrupt the Chain of Events and Feelings that lead to Outcomes we don’t Want, it becomes Obvious that Karma is Just a Thought. Like the old Sticks and Stones May Break My Bones, but Thoughts Will Never Hurt Me till we let them lead us down a Train of Karma. From the Perspective of the Octile and Trioctile, every Event and Feeling is a Teacher, and the more Unpleasant it is, the more Important is the Lesson. Blaming the Teacher when we don’t Grok the Lesson helps no one.

Rhodonite (the red, a Manganese Inosilicate with Calcium, Iron, and Magnesium substituting for some of the Manganese; an Inosilicate is one with the Silicate units joined into long chains) and Galena (the silver-black, Lead Sulfate), which “blends the heart pink with the dark root Chakra colors [and] helps a person self-actualize as it increases awareness of dignity, self-respect, and self-regard [and] grounds all these essential awarenesses to a stable foundation. … It is a unique aid to insight as it strengthens the heart connection to the higher self, bridging the intelligence and learning ability of the heart tissue with the higher self while bypassing the brain” (Marquist & Frasl, pp.127-8).

Edges 5

In response to…

“So this week is not about Figuring Out how your Oaths or Limitations are Related to your Abuse or Privilege, it’s about Surrendering your Need to Figure It Out, and Giving In to Mystery.  There’s far more for us to Learn that way.”

Reader and friend Quilless says…

“Good, because I am ‘up to here’ with trying to figure things out.  It’s so flacking exhausting!”

Absolutely!  It’s Lit Up this week, but it makes an indispensable Lifetime Strategy.  Like Nick says about Tapping, “Try It On Everything” where in this case “It” is Giving Anything and Everything To A “Higher Power.”  And our own Unconscious is one of our most Powerful “Higher” Powers – that’s why I persist in refusing to refer to it as Subconscious.

The (not “Our”) Unconscious changes Moment to Moment, because it’s defined as Everything we aren’t Ego-Identified with in this Moment.  It’s “The” and not “Our” because when we are able to reach beyond our Ego-Identification, we don’t just access other parts of ourself, we have access to All The Information In The Universe.

So yes, a very Powerful Habit is Noticing when we’re trying to “Figure It (Anything) Out,” and instead PIAVAing Clarity, or Missing Information, or The Best Outcome for All Concerned, or whatever it is we’re trying to squeeze into the “Left-Brain’s” Limiting Dualities.  We could even PIAVA to “Intuit It Out” instead!

And Quilless bring up an astrotechnical issue as well…

“I am having trouble with finding the trioctile in my program, though.  I used a calculator for (360 / 8) x 3 and got 135, but isn’t that a sesquisquare?  My eyes tell me they are not the same because there are actual sesquisq glyphs on your chart on the orange lines, but we are looking at yellow.  Confused!”

Yes indeed, a Trioctile and a Sesquisquare are the same Animal.  We don’t use the “Sesqui” term because we don’t interpret Octiles as part of the Square family.  Certainly they’re related, but the Square has such a strong reputation as Ongoing Frustration, that we don’t want to pollute the Octile as well.  As you know, since the Fourth Harmonic is about Dominion, we interpret a Square as a Challenge to Adeptness or to Mastery.  The symbol for the Fourth Harmonic is The Emperor, and we choose to interpret that as a Strong and Wise and Empathetic Leader, one that everyone would Trust to solve their disputes and to project equitable policies.

So we reinterpret the Square as a Searching and Fearless Quest (which is after all the Fourth Step in AA) for Understanding and Remediation of the Compulsive Need that’s usually indicated by the focal planet, with help from the other two.  If we can reframe our Squares as Graduate Seminars (there are no Answers, only Better Questions), we can come to Peace and even Excitement about them, because it quiets the Perfectionism and Inferiority that we have painted them with, and allows us to see how we’ve actually made great progress with them over the course of our Lifetime.

In fact, we always try to convince People that their Squares are not their greatest Curse, though until they’re Reframed that’s what they feel like.  Your Squares are actually your greatest areas of Expertise, because you’ve not only eliminated many of the zillions of Strategies that don’t work Perfectly to “Solve” that “Problem,” but you thoroughly understand, through Experience, how and why and when each Strategy doesn’t work, and what’s to be Gained and Learned from using it in which circumstances!  Squares feel like Problems to be Solved, but they aren’t, they’re Issues We’ve Chosen to Study in great Depth and Breadth.

The Octile is a whole ‘nother Animal.  The symbol for the Eighth Harmonic is the Egyptian Goddess Maat, who is in charge of Law, Truth, and Justice (Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook, p.55), and the interpretation is Returning to Balance.  While Resolving a Square by reinterpreting it as a Lifetime Learning assignment might Return us to Balance, that hardly makes an Octile a “Semisquare” or half of a Lifetime Frustration, as Ego astrology would have it.

Now a Trioctile combines the Eighth and Third Harmonics.  The Third Harmonic is the Empress, symbol of Love with Wisdom.  So we end up with Returning to Balance through Love and Wisdom!  Can we think of a more Desirable Strategy?  We abbreviate this interpretation as Insight.

When a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint of a Square, this third planet is Trioctile to both ends of the Square.  Even if we’ve Reframed our Squares as Exciting Explorations, they’re still Difficult, since Squares never get Effortless for us.  So if we can get a Double Insight about them, we’re Golden!

Ego astrology calls this Trioctile Yod Configuration a “Thor’s Hammer,” with all the Marvel-Comics baggage about Destruction.  As we mentioned, we chose a more neutral (because it’s foreign and probably unknown to most English-speakers) Norwegian term for Thor’s Sledge, “Mjölnir.”  I don’t know if Norwegians read Marvel Comics or not, so it may have been better to use the Vedic term Vajra.  At any rate, the interpretation we use for the Mjölnir is Epiphany – Insight Squared.

To better illustrate our new Trioctile Yin Gate, here it is without all of the other lines on the chart, and with the Octile family Angles drawn in purple…

We Recognize a Yin Gate by its Dos Equis.  In general, the meat of any Configuration lies in its Diagonals, but since interpreting all of those is arduous, we can follow our Quincunx Yin Gate precedent and simplify (ie, Surrender our Need to Figure It Out) by just Expecting to be Encountering Paradox around the central Axis – Abuse/Privilege and Oaths/Limitations, or Nessus and Orcus.  That’ll be great Fun to watch for.

And by the way, if we look at a Square as a Bioctile, we would combine the Eighth Harmonic Return to Balance with the Second Harmonic Ritual.  The shortcoming of Ritual is that it’s generally Dualistic, while the Universe is Unitary and Multifarious.  So if one was a wayward Priest or Priestess, and Returning to Balance meant Returning to your Dualistic Vows, then sure, the Challenges of your Square would simply be Temptations to stray.  But if we want to Live in a Dimension higher than 2D, Dualistic Ritual and Returning to Balance are Difficult or even Oxymoronic mates – hence Rudhyar’s original pronouncement that the Square was the Evolutionary Step that Huperity hasn’t Mastered yet.

And yes, Solar Fire uses the standard Sesquisquare symbol (a square with a bent tail) in the background chart, but the Trioctiles that they’re so indicating don’t apply to the particular Degrees that the Nessus Station chart asks us to use: 12 Degrees ± 3 for Nessus et al, and 12+15 or 27 Degrees ± 3 Degrees for the Octiles to the Nessus Degree.  And the Trioctiles that we’re indicating apply to planets that aren’t on the background chart because Solar Fire doesn’t include them in its library of planets.

The Sesquisquares/Trioctiles that Solar Fire did draw, looking just at those in Zodiac-spanning Configurations, make an interesting frosting for our Yin cake…

Again, the Octile family is drawn in purple.  They make a Trioctile Box.  It makes an interesting collection of Energies that we’re tasked with Returning to Balance…

• Venus, our Inner Female, Values, Heart
• Mars-North Node, our Willingness to Devote our Actions and Energies toward our Mission
• Saturn-South Node, our Willingness to Accept that our Unfinished Business is The Most Important Thing going on
• Ceres, Sustainability

That’s a bundle!  We’re Returning our Gender Identity to Balance, as well as the Sustainability of our Relationship to our Karma (the Octiles), and we can Expect Insights (the Trioctiles) about how Obsolete Values can perpetuate our Karma, and about making our Dedication to our Mission more Sustainable.  Remember that the Other Side of Sustainability is Sustenance, so the last-named may arrive as Insights about what can be eliminated because while it may be Valuable, it isn’t the Core Essence of our Mission.

If we Ask what the Coin is on our Abuse/Privilege Dimension, one excellent candidate is Equality, with Respect thrown in.  So what does today’s news media say about Abuse, Privilege, Equality, Oaths, and Limitations?  A bunch…

https://www.seattletimes.com/seattle-news/seattle-yoga-teachers-undoing-whiteness-class/

“Laura Humpf braced herself for fresh salvos of death threats, rage-soaked slurs and indictments of ‘reverse racism’ from media provocateurs.  The Seattle yoga instructor had endured it before, four years ago, after putting out word about a class for people of color only, at her studio…

“This spring, Humpf publicized an ‘Undoing Whiteness’ yoga class at Rainier Beach Yoga, geared toward white people wishing to ‘unpack the harmful ways white supremacy is embedded’ in their ‘body, mind and heart.’  Along with providing a contemplative space, the class would dissect the ‘pathology of whiteness’ — an obliviousness to the batch of privileges society grants white skin — and how it operates in daily life.”

https://www.washingtonpost.com/national/in-alabama–where-lawmakers-banned-abortion-for-rape-victims–rapists-parental-rights-are-protected/2019/06/09/6d2aa5de-831b-11e9-933d-7501070ee669_story.html

“When a young woman came to the Family Services of North Alabama office last year for help with trauma, saying she had been raped by her step-uncle when she was 15, rape crisis advocate Portia Shepherd heard something that ‘killed me, shocked me.’  The step-uncle, who was getting out of jail after a drug conviction, wanted to be a part of their child’s life.  And in Alabama, the alleged rapist could get custody.”

https://www.theguardian.com/news/datablog/2019/jun/09/black-hispanic-people-air-pollution-inequity-study

“The team found that white people and those of other races experience about 17% less air pollution exposure than is caused by their consumption.  But black and Hispanic people inhale 56% and 63% excess exposure, respectively, relative to their consumption.”

https://www.washingtonpost.com/religion/2019/06/09/southern-baptists-are-supposed-talk-about-sex-abuse-right-now-theyre-discussing-whether-one-woman-can-preach/

“As thousands of Southern Baptists prepare to arrive this week in Birmingham, Ala., for their annual meeting, many have expected for months that it would focus on questions of how to handle sexual abuse and coverups in their own churches.  Moore is expected to be there, sitting on a panel on sexual abuse with several others, including the president of the Southern Baptist Convention.

But in the run-up to the meeting, Moore has become a focus of attention…  many Southern Baptists believe that women should not have authority over men and that by teaching men, let alone ‘preaching,’ they are exerting authority.  So it is rare for Southern Baptist women to preach or teach the Bible in front of men during a traditional Sunday service.”

https://www.seattletimes.com/seattle-news/the-flight-shame-issue-comes-home-to-rick-steves/

“In terms of carbon emissions that lead to global warming, there’s probably nothing worse we can do on an individual basis than take an intercontinental flight.  A single round-trip flight between Seattle and, say, Rome, emits about 3.5 tons of CO2 per person — the same as nine months of driving in the average U.S. car, according to the EPA.  The carbon cost of flying is so steep that in Europe it’s led to a new movement that the Swedes call ‘flygskam.’  It translates as ‘flight shame.’  The premise is: fly less, or even, don’t fly at all.”

https://www.theguardian.com/society/2019/jun/09/plastic-bags-single-use-waste-everywhere-how

“Business has profited immeasurably for decades by using cheap plastic packaging, and yet the cost of cleaning up after them has fallen to consumers and local governments.  ‘These are complicated, wicked problems that require very complicated, multi-actor solutions,’ says Christopher Jones, senior lecturer in environmental psychology at the University of Surrey in the UK.  ‘Government can introduce legislation and guidelines that can also affect retailers, so you need retailers onboard as well.  But there is a degree of responsibility on the consumer – if you continue to buy cheap goods that are being sourced in an unsustainable way, then they are going to continue to make them.’ “

The notion that the end user can have any influence on the plastics industry is ridiculous.  When Fascist Governments are unable or unwilling to make laws that protect the Planet because it will impact someone’s profits, only Greed wins.  This is what Government is for, to solve problems that are too big for smaller groups to solve.  When the Fascists control the Government and the media both, the conversation is always Reframed to shift all Responsibility to the People who don’t have the scope to be able to contribute to a real solution.

We should all pile all of our Garbage on the doorsteps of the politicians that we’ve “democratically” elected to solve these kinds of Issues.  That might provide motivation to get them to do their jobs.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love IV

The sleeper in the 20 January Full Moon Total Lunar Eclipse (9:16 pm PST) is the virtually simultaneous Station of Sappho (9:12 pm PST).  Sappho of course symbolizes Self-Love.  While this is fabulous, what may be most in-your-face are any Impediments you have to Self-Love.  So if you aren’t Ecstatic, now and for the next several days, Rejoice!  You’re getting in touch with exactly what you need to Let Go Of in order to take your next big step into Liberation.  Often the most difficult part of Growth is ferreting out what holds you back, so this is a profound Gift of the Eclipse.

We usually begin our interpretation of any chart with its most Unusual or Significant Configuration, and this won’t be an exception, because both the Sappho Station and the Eclipse are part of a Grand Octile – eight planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac.  I don’t recall ever seeing a Grand Octile before in my fifty years of doing astrology, so this is indeed Unusual…

…No, there was one at the Ides of February 2014.  It may not have been as tidy, but it was certainly Prophetic (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/configurations/grand-octile/).

The Eighth Harmonic is about Alignment, Balance, and Justice, giving us the Opportunity to Realign anything in our Lives that’s out of Balance – particularly about the Relationships between the eight principles in the Grand Octile…

• Any gaps in our Self-Love will be Lit Up so we can Fill them – Sappho.

• Manifesting our Mission in Real Time and Enjoying the resulting Boost to our Vitality – Eclipsed Moon-Varuna-North Node.

• Letting Go of Ancient Oaths that have since cemented into Karmic Limitations – Orcus.

• Reconsideration of all of our Boundaries with everyone and everything – Pallas-Haumea.

• Expanding and Realigning our Values to match whom we’ve become – Venus-Jupiter.

• Becoming Aware that we’re Done with what we thought was our unavoidable Karma but turned out to be just Bad Habits that can be Replaced – Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury.

• Our Relationship to Spirit – Neptune.

• Our Relationship to our own Soul – Uranus.

A Grand Octile features eight Squares (Challenges), but each is Gifted by an accompanying Mjölnir.  A Mjölnir is formed when a third planet occupies the Far Midpoint of the two ends of a Square.  Ego astrologers refer to it as a Hammer of Thor, implying a threat to the Ego.  We chose the Norwegian equivalent because it implies Lightning – an Illuminating Irresistible Force rather than a Crushing Sledge.  The Vedic Vajra serves the same function.

Our favorite Octile is the Trioctile, three eighths of the way ’round the Zodiac, because it combines the Third Harmonic (Love with Wisdom) and the Eighth (Realignment, Balance) – what could possibly go wrong with that?  Well, okay, we could get our Ego toasted by having to Confront our Resistance to Realigning into Love and Wisdom – Bummer!  With the South Node involved, we could even have to deal with our Held Emotions, the ones “we’d rather Die” than Feel.  Remember the proper syntax is “we’d (Old Ego) rather Die” not “we’d rather Die.”

A Mjölnir is a Square and two Trioctiles; combining Realignment into Love and Wisdom with Lightning, we get Epiphany!  Our eight Epiphanies are…

• Using Self-Love to Redraw the Boundaries that Keep our Held Emotions and Karma Unconscious (Pallas-Haumea Square Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury Trioctile Stationary Sappho).

• Expansion into Union with Spirit by Embracing our Deepest Desires (Venus-Jupiter Square Neptune Trioctile Moon-North Node-Varuna).

• Renouncing our Historical Oaths to Enjoy the Demise of our Karma (Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury Square Uranus Trioctile Orcus).

• Relaxing the Boundaries that falsely Distinguish between our Self-Love and Spiritual Ecstasy (Neptune Square Stationary Sappho Trioctile Pallas-Haumea).

• Growing into the Recognition that our Lifetime Mission is to Identify with our Soul (Uranus Square Moon-North Node-Varuna Trioctile Venus-Jupiter).

• Destroying our Karma by Choosing Self-Love over Discipline (Stationary Sappho Square Orcus Trioctile Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury).

• Reaching toward Enlightenment by Healing our Impediments to Vitality (Moon-North Node-Varuna Square Pallas-Haumea Trioctile Neptune).

• Allowing our Soul to Grow by Renouncing and Renegotiating our Commitments (Orcus Square Venus-Jupiter Trioctile Uranus).

Not to mention our eight Octiles…

• Gracing our Mission with Self-Respect – Stationary Sappho Octile Moon-North Node-Varuna.

• Choosing Freedom over Commitment – Moon-North Node-Varuna Octile Orcus.

• Renouncing our Limitations – Orcus Octile Pallas-Haumea.

• Newfound Perspective and Vision – Pallas-Haumea Octile Venus-Jupiter.

• Embracing What We Want – Venus-Jupiter Octile Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury.

• Recognizing the Spirit can Liberate us from what we have Believed to be Irredeemable – Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury Octile Neptune.

• Merging our Individual Soul with the Goddess – Neptune Octile Uranus.

• Unconditionally Loving the Gateway to our own Soul – Uranus Octile Stationary Sappho.

Lotsa work to do!  Here’s an assignment from Dan Scranton’s Arcturian friends…

https://danielscranton.com/you-receive-because-you-feel-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“You Receive Because You Feel

“What makes you better candidates for receiving the energies that we and the other beings send is that you decided that before you incarnated in this lifetime that you would awaken.  In order to awaken, you would also need to be sensitive, empathic, compassionate beings.

“In order to receive higher frequency energies, you must first be attuned to what feels good and what does not feel good.  This is what makes you all excellent creators.  It makes you all harder to lie to, and it gives you so many different ways to help others.  If you don’t know how something feels when someone else experiences it, then it’s harder for you to have compassion for that person and to hold space for them.

“Now, you also have the opposite end of the spectrum there on planet Earth.  You have people who do not feel much of anything at all, and we have a very hard time reaching them in any way that we have attempted thus far.  Therefore, we need your help in reaching the humans that we can’t, and one thing that you have in common with them that we do not is that you are physical human beings.

“And there will always be a way to reach one of your human cohorts there who needs reaching.  We will continue to deliver the energies to you, and we will continue to implore you to spread those energies around so that others may experience what it feels like to engage with higher frequency energies.”

If it’s your Mission of course.  You wouldn’t want to Commit to anything that doesn’t Serve Your Soul, would you?

Raising Vibrations

From John Perkins’s The World Is as You Dream It (pp.96-7)…

” ‘To camay,’ Manco [a Quechua Shaman] explained, ‘is to breathe unity into.  No corresponding word exists in Spanish.  Even the idea is difficult to express, for it seems that you northerners don’t believe such things.  In our lives, it is a very important concept, perhaps the most important.  We have several related words: churay, ruray, and supay.  These have to do with creating.  But camay is the most powerful.

“He knelt before a gnarled old agave, a special plant to Andean people that is related to the aloe.  ‘This plant appeared to be dead a year ago.  I camayed into it every day, and now look.’  He patted it tenderly.  ‘Old, but very much alive.’  He stood.  ‘We are all one.’  He turned slowly in a circle, his hands at his side, palms out.  ‘When one of our parts is out of balance, others can help to bring them back.  That is when we camay.’ … ‘The blowing we do during a healing is a form of camaying.  We breathe unity into the sick or injured person to restore balance.’ “

The astrological correlate of Restoring Balance is in particular the Trioctile – three eighths of the way ’round the Zodiac – and in general the Octile, one eighth of the way.  The Eighth Harmonic is itself about Rebalancing, and we favor three of them because the Third Harmonic is all about Love with Wisdom.  We’re especially fond of the Mjölnir or “Hammer of Thor” Configuration, which is a third planet Trioctile to each end of a Square.

Conventional or Ego- and Fate-Reinforcing astrology sees the Square as a Malefic, and the Hammer of Thor as Destructive.  From the Perspective of Spiritual or Ego- and Karma-Transforming astrology, the Square represents Mastery through Challenge, and the Mjölnir, like its predecessor the Vedic Vajra, symbolizes Lightning, Illumination, or Epiphany.  Our recent Stations include a couple of Mjölnirs… 

The long lavender lines are Trioctiles, the short ones Octiles.  The red Squares are, of course, Bioctiles – two eighths equals one fourth.  The Square is ultimately also about Illumination.  Jupiter is the Focus of a Mjölnir across the Sedna-South Node Square, meaning that the Jupiter Station at the Full Moon, and its ongoing Mjölnir, has Illuminated and will continue to Illuminate the Places where we Fear our own Karma – that’s basically the Regressed Hellhole I found myself in through much of the last fortnight. 

Of course we Fear our Karma – that’s the nature of Held Emotions, Emotions that we can’t Tolerate, that we’d rather Die than Re-Experience.  Which is precisely the point – we need an Ego Death here to Expand the way Jupiter would like us to.  The Jupiter T-Square crosses the Opposition between Vertias (Truth) and Juno-Chariklo (Bringing Self-Confidence under Conscious Control), but it’s also a Diamond Star, as Jupiter is at the Focus of a Finger of God from the Venus-Neptune (Our Spiritual Values) Sextile.  Which is to say that Jupiter would like us to – and is offering to help us to – Transform our Relationship to Fear and Held Emotions by Rebalancing the Relationships between our Spiritual Values, Consciousness, and Self-Confidence.

Which, incidentally, has Sedna Squaring the Nodes.  This Square will be Exact – a Can-Opener if there ever was one – on 3 July.  So we’re very lucky to have had the Jupiter Station Illuminating this Process before we get submerged into the depths of it, so we know to bring an extra oxygen tank.  The slower a planet, the deeper it’s Influence in the Unconscious.  Sedna takes fifty times as long as Pluto to make it’s way ’round the Zodiac once.  Most of the other new dwarf planets are called Plutoids, because they’re basically similar to Pluto.  Sedna is so far out that they made a whole new class for it – Sednoids.  So far it’s the only one with a name.

So, what is it that will make you soil your knickers before you can make it to the loo?  Aliens landing in your back yard?  Fire taking down your apartment block?  Nucular War?  A Lunatic in charge?  A Fairy landing on your thumb?  A Plant talking to you?  Abandonment?  Suffocation?  Your neighbors at the door with pitchforks and torches?  Not enough Money?  A Terroirist Attack?  May be a good time to do some pre-planning.

The other Mjölnir is Focused on Varuna (the Life Force), from the Square between recently-Stationary Neptune and Lilith, suggesting that Balancing your Spiritual Beliefs and your Self-Sovereignty will enhance your Life Force; or, as Michael Roads frequently says, “it’s not enough to Believe it, you have to Live it.”  The Neptune T-Square is also a Diamond Star, and one corner of a Water Grand Trine besides. 

Our third recent Station was Makemake; note that it’s Octile to both ends of the Vesta-Sappho Square – We’ll Manifest more easily when we Align our Self-Love with our Unconscious Beliefs.

Dan Scranton’s latest contribution to this issue…

http://danielscranton.com/raising-your-frequency-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“Greetings.  We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“Your frequency matters.  Your frequency, the rate at which you vibrate the energy of your consciousness, becomes your life experience.  It is as simple as that.  However, you have a lot to think about and a lot to do, and you certainly have a lot to process emotionally.  All of that leaves you with very little of your precious time to tend to your frequency.

“You would be very well served by giving it your attention at least periodically throughout your day.  It would be advantageous to you to have reminders for yourselves, to check in and feel how high or low that frequency is.

“You can tell by what you are feeling, but you can also tell by what you are thinking, and even what you are doing.  Certainly, your physical bodies are wonderful feedback mechanisms.  If there is something going on with you physically, then there is certainly something going on with you frequency-wise.  There is always some underlying vibrational cause to what you are experiencing in the physical.

“So if you pay attention to what you are doing, what you are thinking, what you are saying, and how you are feeling physically and emotionally, you will become aware of your vibration.  Once you become aware of it, the next part is to tune into it, to zero in on it.

“You do that by going within.  Pay attention to where you feel particular vibrations.  Pay attention because it serves you to, and because by giving it your attention, you automatically shift it.  You automatically shift the frequency of your vibration by intending to do so, and by focusing on it you awaken yourselves.

“You are in a constant state of awakening now.  The easiest way for you to experience an awakening is to feel into your energetic bodies.  Your energetic bodies don’t just surround you.  They can also be accessed within your physical frame, your physical structure.  And giving them your attention, giving your physical and energetic and your emotional bodies your attention, is all it takes to raise your frequency.

“We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”

Curiosity and Desire

It’s hard to overemphasize how important it is to maintain our Curiosity about how our newfound Vulnerability (ie, Loss of our Masks) will impact our Mission (and Deepest Desires).  

As always, we don’t mean Curiosity as a means to an end – Questions seeking Answers.  We mean Curiosity as an end in itself – Wonder and Awe, eyes wide and mouth ajar.

Since our Deepest Desires are often a source of Vexation – we Want it but we can’t seem to Get it, or Keep it when we do – we might well find our mind grinding away on our Lifelong Frustrations.  If that’s the case, this grinding is exactly the Pattern that we need to Replace.  That’s why it’s Lit Up.

Which is the Key to the Temple, to Realize that when any Bummer is Lit Up, it’s Lit Up to inform us that we have Work to do on our Limiting Beliefs.  And the Work is easy – we just Embrace ourself.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Bummed by this, aren’t you.”  The apparently difficult part is Discerning that Oh Yeah, we’re Feeling here, and we don’t like the Feeling!  We need to Learn to Love ALL of our Feelings, and this is The Opportunity to Practice just that!!  Hooray!!

Chances are we’ve built up Stories around why our Deepest Desires elude us – because of some quirk of our childhood perhaps, or maybe we’ve concluded that Huper Nature just works that way, or some Pattern that we believe Limits us but we’ve never been able to Change.  Mindstuff.  Let it all Go.  Come to Curiosity instead…

“I Wonder why my Deepest Desires always elude me.”

Just that simple.  Make it a Mantra, a Ritual.  Carve it into your mirrors, your refrigerator door, your smartphone, write it on the inside of your eyelids.  Don’t let it become rote.  Close your eyes when you say it to yourself (except when driving or operating machinery), and really Feel that Energy bubbling up from the Deeps.

While this particularly applies next week to our Deepest Desires, it’s an excellent strategy for dealing with any stuck Pattern we have.  What if we want to Eat less, or less often, or less Sugar, for instance.  Then whenever we have a moment of Awareness before or during our urge to Eat, we can pause a minute and…

I Wonder why I always want to Eat while I’m writing.

Followed by a pause.  This is a PIAVA – an invitation to Intuition – so we need to pause and Change the Subject.  We could go back to Eating 

(we Change the Subject to prevent the mind from constraining us to our existing Limiting Beliefs; Eating is quite different from Analyzing Eating),

for instance, or back to writing.  The Intuition will surprise us later.

We mentioned in passing that Jupiter’s Initiation of the North Node (Exact 3pm PDT 24 June at 17 Virgo – Volcanos) Biquintiles (Learning New Rituals) Uranus’s and Eris’s Initiation of Ceres (Exact 8pm 21 June and 5am 23 June, respectively, both at 24 Aries – Abundance), but it deserves more than a mention.  

These are Waxing Biquintiles.  

In the evolution of a Cycle, the Waxing 

• Trioctile (8th Harmonic/Rebalancing, and 3rd Harmonic/Compassion) precedes the 
• Biquintile (5th Harmonic/Learning, and 2nd Harmonic/Ritual), which in turn precedes the 
• Quincunx (12th Harmonic/Pattern-Breaking, and 5th Harmonic/Learning).

So once a new Energy

• Becomes Permanent (Square) and
• Blesses us for Acknowledging it (Trine – without Acknowledgement, the Trine denotes Arrogance),
• We Lovingly Adapt to it (Trioctile),
• Learn and Practice new Rituals that match the new Energy (Biquintile), and 
• Break any old Habits that would get in our way (Quincunx).  

By choosing Magnetism (PIAVA – Curiosity) instead of Dynamism (Plan-Do), we gain Free Attention to use on our Seva rather than our Process.

So it would behoove to see what our Jupiter-Uranus and Jupiter-Eris Cycles are about.  The current Jupiter-Uranus Cycle (Expanding into greater Connection to Soul) began in June 2010 at 1 Aries (Manifesting Form).  The current Jupiter-Eris Cycle (Amplifying Truth) was Initiated at the end of April 2011 in 22 Aries (“The gate to the garden of all fulfilled desires“).  Intense.

What a “Coincidence” that Desire arises.  Not to mention the hint that Truth leads to fulfillment of Desire.

For a while on 23 June (approximately 6am to 11am PDT), the Jupiter/North Node to Uranus/Eris/Ceres Biquintile is joined by Venus and the Moon to form four-fifths of a Grand Quintile (Learning Made Easy).  The Vacancy – the Energy we’d Supply Consciously in order to complete the Grand Quintile and remove the Stress – is the last degree of Scorpio (Mischievousness).  So it’s important to Play, perhaps just a bit impolitely.

At the same time, Chiron and Saturn join Venus in an intertwined Septangle – Venus Triseptiles Saturn which Biseptiles Chiron which in turn Biseptiles Venus.

The Biseptile is about Timing our Rituals for maximum Effect, and the Triseptile is about Timing our Compassion so it’s neither Taken for Granted nor Abused.

We could read this as, The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is to be Loving and Gentle with ourself (Venus) whenever we find ourself touching our Despair (Chiron).  Venus occupies the inflection point between the Septangle and the incipient Grand Sextile, telling us that the Key is Magnetic.

Native American New Moon I

As we mentioned in the last post…

“There are actually two other Configurations in … Monday’s New Moon chart, [which] color it strongly.  One of them will provide Epiphanies about our Soul Self and [about] how [we might] adjust our Values and Identity to manifest [our Soul Self into our current Lifetime] more strongly (which Epiphanies will be multiplied by our intervening success at achieving Beginner’s Mind).  

“The other is about being Reborn into the Unimaginable through taking small steps toward Embracing our Orphaned Forbidden Genius.”

“Which are in turn, (1) a Uranus Mjolnir (a third planet at the far Midpoint between two planets that Square one another) on a base of Venus Square Saturn, and (2) a Golden Rectangle between dwarf planets Eris, Chaos, Haumea, and Ixion, with Centaur Pholus Conjunct Ixion, the New Moon Conjunct Haumea, and Uranus Conjunct Eris.”

A Mjolnir is two Trioctiles from each end of a Square, merging on a third planet, which becomes the focus of the Mjolnir.  The Configuration is sometimes called “Thor’s Hammer,” and the term Mjolnir is Norwegian for just that.  Thor’s Hammer is often associated with destructive force, but that’s not quite accurate.  In the same sense that Uranus represents Disruption – Disruption of what is no longer in alignment with the Soul’s path for us in the Lifetime, Thor’s Hammer represents penetration of any Defense – as in any Defensiveness that protects the Ego from following the Soul’s path in the Lifetime.  Lightning is a good representation of the Mjolnir, as it is for the corresponding symbol in the Hindu tradition, the Vajra – sudden illumination of the Darkness, or Epiphany.

The Waxing Trioctile, 135 Degrees, combines the Eighth and Third Harmonics – Adjustment/Rebalancing and Love with Wisdom.  In the evolution of a Cycle, it sits between the Trine (120 Degrees) and the Biquintile (144); between the Grace that follows from aligning one’s path with the Zeitgeist (Trine), and the Realization of the Value of Tradition and the Power of Ritual (Biquintile).  The Biquintile in turn is followed closely by the Quincunx (150, Curiosity), the Triseptile (154) – Shamanic Power exercised for the Good of All, and the Quadrinovile (160) – Mastery gained through Self-Examination in Contemplation.  

This is a powerful section of the Zodiac, corresponding to Leo and early Virgo.  There are massive Changes going on, but they’re faced with the Courage of Leo, because the Uncertainty and Confusion of the earlier sections of the Zodiac have passed under the Bridge, and by now we kind of have a feel for what’s going down.  The notion that a Trioctile is a minor Square (often called a “Sesqui-Square”) is valid in only one sense: the sense that the Ego is a Trickster that can point one in the wrong direction if one focuses on Greed or Revenge.  Of course the zone of the Waning Trioctile and its near neighbors corresponds to Scorpio – the Debriefing that follows the Phitile.  While Leo embodies Courage, the defining quality of Scorpio is Fearlessness.

In today’s Mjolnir, the Waxing Trioctile is Venus to Uranus: Adjusting and Rebalancing our Values to better reflect the ongoing Descent of our Soul Self.  The Cycle Initiated in March at 15 Aries, “A Native American weaving a ceremonial blanket.”

The Waning Trioctile is Saturn to Uranus: Debriefing the Ego to discover what it has Learned about the Soul’s Intention as a result of its Experience with the Cycle that is beginning to unwind – which was “The Pope Blessing the Faithful,” 30 Sagittarius, February 1988, part of the Harmonic Convergence.

The Square is Waning, Venus to Saturn: Challenge to Ease up on the Ego’s role as the Protector of our Physical Vehicle.  The Cycle is “Native Americans making camp after moving into new territory,” – 26 Scorpio, November 2014.  In other words, some of our Beliefs about what we need to Survive have become Limiting Beliefs, that we’re Challenged to Let Go of.

So really, there are Big Questions here…

• Ritual and Tradition are strong here.  What a “coincidence” that this New Moon occurs on Native American Day.
• Since March, what have you connected or reconnected with, that you Feel is Sacred?  Have you established a Ritual, or Ritual Object, of some sort to honor it?
• What has the Ego Learned since the Harmonic Convergence!  Wow.  Who were you in 1986?  What’s Changed in your Field since then?  What’s different now about the way you Defend your Health and your “turf” and the externalities that you Identify with (work? Relationship? Family? Money? Religion? Sports? Politics?)?  Does your current Perspective seem like Growth, or backsliding, compared to where you were in 1986?  Of course it’s Both/And; in what ways is it Growth, and in what ways is it backsliding?  Where are the razor-wire fences you can Levitate over?
• Things in your Life were Changing rapidly in late 2014 and early 2015.  You made some Decisions about what you needed to do to Support yourself.  Decisions are like Instant Karma; they create Patterns that are useful in the short run, but which seldom come with their own Sunset Provisions.  We forget we made them, and we don’t revisit them to see if they’re still relevant.  What Decisions about Survival did you make in late 2014 and early 2015, and are they still relevant?  Or are they holding you back?  Both/And?  How to Rebalance/Adjust them to bring them into the Present Moment.  

Decisions don’t have to be explicit; recurring thoughts can have the same Power.  What were you thinking about in late 2014 and early 2015?  Were your thoughts Constructive, or Fearful in nature?  

So you don’t have to get bogged down in details, you may want to just PIAVA that obsolete Decisions and Patterns come to your Attention, gently and lovingly, and Adjustments appropriate to Now become Clear.  Make sure you include the gently and lovingly, because a PIAVA like this could turn your Life upside down if you didn’t also ask for Grace.  You may want to limit it to recent Decisions and Patterns, or, if you don’t, be watchful for Overwhelm, and respond to it with a compensatory PIAVA on the order of Visualizing or Affirming that the Changes in your Life occur at exactly the right speed, so you’re neither too early nor too late to synch with the Planetary Changes.  Or, you can just Levitate over the fence.

In the next installment, we’ll go into “The other [Configuration] is about being Reborn into the Unimaginable through taking small steps toward Embracing our Orphaned Forbidden Genius.”

Portal 14.9.15 – Part II

Erin Conwell’s photo of one of the fires in Glacier National Park (Montana) earlier this year, a good symbol for the Ego and the Eruption of unwelcome Unconscious Contents.

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This is Water under the bridge (Monday’s Ceres Station), but as we’ve often said, I find Interpretation to be more valuable than Prediction, and I’m often led to useful Interpretations in the course of writing this blog.

A reader writes…

“Wow, I didn’t realize the intensity of Mars-quincunx-Ceres until yesterday!”

To which I reply … No biscuits!  Dumped me right into one of my worst Chronic childhood Traumas.  I’d be congratulating myself for recognizing that without being totally overwhelmed, if I wasn’t still in the middle of the Re-Experience.

This reader being an astrologer, I can follow with … I think of it though as Mars Square Sedna, with Mars-Quincunx-Ceres the Perpetual Curiosity path (~ I wonder how I can Take Responsibility to Act Sustainably here?) in the Tricolor, said Perpetual Curiosity liberating the Grace in the Ceres-Sedna Trine (in many cases Action taken out of Presence will probably be more sustainable than Action taken out of Fear or Action taken out of Anger) to resolve the Mars-Square-Sedna dilemma, which is something like “Am I Reacting out of Anger, or out of Fear?”  Translating…

The previous post covers this fairly well I think.  If we Act on our Basic Rule of Safety First, we might have enough Presence to delay Acting at all until we’re more grounded.  We could PIAVA “I wonder what would be most effective, Responding to my Fear, Responding to my Anger, or delaying Response.”  And then – Changing the Subject – waiting for our Intuition (or its Mirror, the Universe) to direct us into one course or another.

But it’s a lot more complicated than this.  Mars-Square-Sedna is the base of a Trine Fez, that is, there are two Tricolors across the Square: not just Sedna-Square-Mars-Quincunx-Ceres-Trine-Sedna, but also Mars-Square-Sedna-Quincunx-the Stellium-Trine-Mars – which is why we’ve woven Responsibility into the interpretation above.

Then there’s an additional, intertwined Square and Tricolor, Eris-Square-Ceres-Quincunx-Mars-Trine-Eris.

This additional part of the Ceres Station is another preview of June 2016’s Eris-Uranus Initiation, which will bring up any unfinished business we have left from our 2012-2015 Uranus-Pluto Yintegrity Adventures.  The objective of these Yintegrity Adventures was to bring our True Self into the forefront of our Personality.  Whatever portions are still holding back will get the call.  Problem is, those portions are not holding back because they Want to – far from it! 

Let’s look at a few snippets from Bessel Van der Kolk’s The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma…

“Dissociation is the essence of trauma.  The overwhelming experience is split off and fragmented, so that the emotions, sounds, images, thoughts, and physical sensations related to the trauma take on a life of their own.  The sensory fragments of memory intrude into the present, where they are literally relived.  As long as the trauma is not resolved, the stress hormones that the body secretes to protect itself keep circulating, and the defensive movements and emotional responses keep getting replayed … Many people may not be aware of the connection between their ‘crazy’ feelings and reactions and the traumatic events that are being replayed.  They have no idea why the respond … as if they were about to be annihilated.

Flashback and reliving are in some ways worse than the trauma itself.  A traumatic event has a beginning and an end – at some point it is over.  But for people with PTSD a flashback can occur at any time, whether they are awake or asleep.  There is no way of knowing when it’s going to occur again or how long it will last.  People who suffer from flashbacks often organize their lives around trying to protect against them. … Shame becomes the dominant emotion and hiding the truth the central preoccupation.” [pp.66-67]

“If the fight/flight/freeze response is successful and we escape the danger, we recover our internal equilibrium and gradually [recover].  If for some reason the normal response is blocked – for example, when people are held down, trapped, or otherwise prevented from taking effective action, be it in a war zone, a car accident, domestic violence, or a rape – the brain keeps secreting stress chemicals, and the brain’s electrical circuits continue to fire in vain.  Long after the actual event has passed, the brain may keep sending signals to the body to escape a threat that no longer exists.” [p.54]

“Whenever we feel threatened, we instinctively turn to the first level [of safety], social engagement.  We call out for help, support, and comfort from the people around us.  But if no one comes to our aid [or we’re conditioned to expect no one to], or if we’re in immediate danger, the organism reverts to a more primitive way to survive: fight or flight.  We fight off our attacker, or we run to a safe place.  However, if this fails – we can’t get away, we’re held down or trapped – the organism tries to preserve itself by shutting down … We are then in a state of freeze or collapse.” [p.80]

Trauma can be either Acute (an event or several) or Chronic (prolonged repression of a natural part of ourself).  Our greatest Power (which is usually, as Marianne Williamson avers, our Greatest Fear) often overwhelmed our significant adults as we were growing up.  So they tried to socialize it out of us, very often producing Chronic Trauma in the process.  Or, if our significant adults weren’t Emotionally mature (which was and is often the case, as any child’s significant adults – or older siblings with Power Over us – are often not far out of their teens), they basically exploited our Power for their own ends.  For instance, they would Shame us in order to Feel like they were in Control.  Or Abuse of far worse proportions.

And that additional Square is the base of a Mjolnir focused on Jupiter.  A Mjolnir is formed when a third planet occupies the far midpoint of two planets that Square one another, Bridging the Square with two Trioctiles.  The Octile is about Adjustment and Rebalancing, the “Tri” about Love with Wisdom, the Trioctile about Insight, and the Mjolnir (or Hammer of Thor) is about Epiphany.

So there’s a good chance we’ve been Opened Up to the parts of our Self which have yet to Bloom, and we’ll be working with these parts until next June.  Be Loving and Gentle with them, as they are likely to be some of our most Vulnerable places.  It’s Difficult and can be Terrifying, but it’s about Embracing the Forest Fire, not Extinguishing it.  It contains our Power.

Here’s one of Dr. Kim’s processes to help us through this…

http://events.instantteleseminar.com/?eventid=74490222

Find her at http://drkimderamo.com/ .

Full Moon 31.7.15 – Time to Act

Galena, Lead Sulfite, the ultimate Grouding Crystal.  Heavy, you only need a little.  Find a small Crystal and keep it in a pill capsule or a small plastic bottle; you don’t want to be handling or inhaling the Lead.  Galena collects and stores Energy that’s not ready to be used yet, so you can use it as a reservoir.

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There are places in our Lives where we Hesitate to take full control because no one has given us Permission or Authority to do so.  Power is never Given, only Taken.  These are precisely the places where WE need to Give Ourselves not just Permission and Authority, but a Mandate.  We need to Take the Power.  You know what needs doing.  This Full Moon is the time to Get Started.

There are places in our Lives where we Hesitate to take full control because no one has given us Permission or Authority to do so. 

Power is never Given, only Taken. 

These are precisely the places where WE need to Give Ourselves not just Permission and Authority, but a Mandate. 

We need to Take the Power. 

You know what needs doing. 

This Full Moon is the time to Get Started.

It bears repeating.  Read it again.  And stop Hesitating.  It’s your Mission.

The Full Moon (4am PDT on 31 July – http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt4.htm ) is the focus of a Mjolnir Kite across the Square from Chiron to Pholus-Ixion.

The Mjolnir is formed by a third planet at the Far Midpoint of two planets that make a Square – a triangle with a Square on the base and two Triociles for sides.  The Trioctile is about Insight into bringing things back into Balance.  Mjolnir is the Norwegian term for Thor’s Hammer, which isn’t so much about Destruction as about Irresistable Force; Lightning is a common metaphor.  The Hindu Vajra is very similar in meaning.  The Mjolnir is then about Epiphany – Irresistable Insights that are Life-Changing.

The Mjolnir Kite has a fourth planet Opposite the third, or at the Near Midpoint of the Square.  The third planet is the Focus of the Mjolnir, but the fourth planet is the Focus of the Mjolnir Kite.  The Insights and Epiphany pertain to the issues raised by the Square.  The two planet in Opposition provide information about how the Epiphany is revealed.

In this case, the Moon is the Focus of the Mjolnir Kite, and the Opposition is the Full Moon itself – the Epiphany will be revealed through Illumination, Brightly.  No more through a glass darkly here.  The Square joins Chiron – Despair and Miracle – with the Pholus-Ixion Conjunction.  Ixion is about Unconscious Commitment to the point of pathology, and Pholus is about Responsibility to the point of Obsession.  Few of us are willing to let our Ixion out of the cage in the back room.  But if we do, and Take Full Responsibility (not Blame, which looks backward for Cause, but Responsibility, which looks forward for Impact) for it, Miracles await.

Confused?  Good – first stage of Growth, eh?

What are you Discouraged about?  That’s where your Mission is, and that’s where the Miracles are hiding.  You came here to do this, and it takes a whole bunch of Courage to Commit so strongly to what – because there’s no Support, it’s all your project – feels like a Suicide Mission.  Your Support will fall in line after you Take Full Responsibility and Commit – but you’ll be continually Teaching, because your Support has its own Mission that’s tangential to yours.  You can’t just delegate; you need to continue to monitor and stay fully involved.

Chaos Opposes Pholus-Ixion; there is Unlimited Potential here for those who are willing to risk Full Commitment.  Chiron T-Squares this Opposition…

Very scary but Miraculous results if you risk it.  Don’t expect easy going or early success; in fact any success will be partial.  You aren’t in this to succeed; you’re in it because it’s Who You Are.

The Full-Moon and Chaos-Pholus-Ixion Oppositions are Octile and Trioctile to one another, forming a Trioctile Box.

Box or Rectangular Configurations like the Mystic or Golden Rectangle (with Trine and Sextile sides) are all about the Energy in the Oppositions.  The Trioctile Box is about Adjustment, Balance, and Insight.

Giving us emphasis on both the Illumination aspect of the Full Moon and the Full Responsibility-Unlimited Scope aspect of Chaos-Pholus-Ixion, which multiplies the Power of the Mjolnir Kite.

Not only that, but the Opposition between Chaos and Pholus-Ixion, along with the Opposition between Uranus-Eris and Haumea (Rebirth as a result of the Revelation of what’s been Hidden – which is evolving into the first half of 2016), form a Golden Rectangle.  Golden Rectangles are about Grace – if we’re willing to immerse ourselves in the Oppositions.  In other words…

There is information we don’t have yet, and which we may not have until well into 2016.  Rather than wait for the information, you want to Trust your Instincts now, and get started now.  You really do know what your bottom line is, what to you is The Most Important Thing.  That’s all you really need to know.  What do want to Change, and what do you want it to look like after you Change it?  You know that much very well.

Saturn (The Most Important Thing) is Stationary on 1 August at 11pm PDT (http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt23.htm ).

There are two aspects to that.  First, where would you deploy them if you had the Resources you need.  And second, what is it that stops you from having those Resources?  Your Desires might seem Selfish, but they aren’t.  Selfish is what people called you because they were afraid of your Passion, and because their Ego was Competing with you.  If you believed you were Selfish then they could preserve their sense of superiority.  This is what Ixion is about – Selfish.  Selfish as an epitaph that slows you down, and Selfish as a Full Commitment to set everything else aside and Focus on your Most Important Thing.

So we need to drop any Shame or Hesitation we feel about Wanting what we’ve always Wanted – those are the Resources we need to Create our Most Important Thing.  Who will be upset with you if you put your own Wants first, ahead of theirs?  It’s not that they are holding you back; it’s your Limiting Beliefs about what will happen if you jet ahead.  Holding back isn’t an option any more; you’ll just have to find out what will really happen.  It’ll probably be quite different from what you imagine – our Limiting Beliefs are like that.

Catching Up 1…

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned, especially if we’re talking Mother Earth.  Recent Fireworks in Chile as another Volcano goes off, this one Calbuco.  If you’re living nearby, relative to business as usual, this certainly qualifies as a Sudden Breakthrough Insight.  For more amazing pictures, including this one, see http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3088077/Apocalyptic-skies-return-Chile-second-volcano-erupts-entire-landscape-bathed-blood-red.html .

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But let’s start with our ongoing Gluten thread.  Here’s the interview with Dr. Osborne about autoimmune diseases and Foods on Trudy Scott’s Anxiety Summit…

http://www.theanxietysummit.com/replay-gift/

These interviews will only be available through 9am PDT May 21.  Scroll down to find Dr. Osborne’s interview.  Among other things, he says “Gluten is the only scientifically verified cause of autoimmune disease.”  I haven’t listened to the other interviews, but judging from Trudy’s other interviews they’re probably excellent.  We linked to the very educational comments about this interview recently in Anxiety, Food, Habit. 

When I sent my own comment about the lack of products that are both Gluten-Free and Organic, Trudy referred me to the comments on the Glyphosate session in the 2013 Anxiety Summit.  She asks that I include the header…

“Trudy Scott (CN), Certified Nutritionist is the founder of http://www.everywomanover29.com , a thriving nutrition practice with a focus on food, mood and women’s health. Trudy educates women about the amazing healing powers of food and nutrients and helps them find natural solutions for anxiety and other mood problems.  Trudy’s goal for all her clients (and all women): ‘You can be your healthiest, look your best and feel on-top-of-the-world emotionally!’ – See more at: http://www.everywomanover29.com/blog/roundup-toxic-anxiety-autism-celiac-disease/#sthash.2Kd7IPzm.dpuf “

These informative comments are at…

http://www.everywomanover29.com/blog/roundup-toxic-anxiety-autism-celiac-disease/

In her new post Eugenia Oganova clarifies our insistence that we need to pay attention to Gluten, Glyphosate, and Food Quality as part of the new Chiron-Neptune Cycle and the Ascension of the Planet in general…

“This ascension alchemical process is, in fact, ‘chemical’ too – it takes a huge toll on our bodies (mostly the endocrine, immune, and nervous systems, and brain functioning), which means we have to be the masters of our bodies as well, not only the heart and the mind (making this ascension process very difficult indeed!)”

The whole post, including many other very useful insights, is at…

http://eugeniaoganova.blogspot.com/2015/05/why-is-ascension-so-hard.html

She finishes with…

“Our job, as lightworkers, ‘starseeds’, and ‘forerunners of ascension’, is to remain in the Higher 3-D Earth vibration, and create from there – not to attempt to change all of the old negative systems, or focus on ‘exposing’ them by talking about them all the time (as if they need exposing! – anyone who can see and hear – does, and for those who don’t, it is because they can’t, no matter how loudly we choose to tell them the truth).”

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From here let’s transition to a question by reader Isaac George – see Isaac’s blog…

http://www.isaacgeorge.com/blog/shake-and-break-new-moon-in-taurus-may-18-2015

for another great Perspective on our Eye of Medusa .. I of M .. IAM Ego Death .. ED New Moon, including a lovely picture of it. 

My camera and computer aren’t speaking, so I’m temporarily off chart pictures.  Note that the Grand Trine he shows is what we would usually refer to as a South Node Kite – meaning that the emphasis here is on any Limiting Beliefs that we haven’t cleared yet, but that there is huge dumb-luck Grace available to us – which will shift the emphasis from our Limiting Beliefs to the Hidden Skills that lie beneath our Karma.  When we repressed a Lifetime because it ended in torture, it was usually because we were onto something big that threatened Mr. Big.  When we Let Go of our Resistance to the resulting negative Held Emotions, that Breakthrough material comes flying out!  Expect Miracles.

With Dr. D’Eramo’s exercises from our recent Portal 21-25.5 post, we may soon be shouting WHO YOU? instead of YOO HOO when we look in the mirror (paraphrasing reader Φ’s comment).  Isaac links to Linda Hill’s blog at…

http://spiritlibrary.com/lynda-hill/a-promise-of-a-renewal-and-a-revival-of-life-and-love-mays-new-moon-in-taurus

Which contains yet another useful view (it’s Both/And, the more Perspectives the better), but scroll down to “The new Moon is on Taurus 27” for her fascinating expansion on the Sabian Symbols involved.

While everyone’s focused on Algol the Eye of Medusa, we need to point out the the New Moon is also very close to the Star Capulus the Phallic Sword of Perseus, the male equivalent of Algol.  So we can expect everyone’s Sexuality and Relationships to be significantly Transformed this month.

We expect the primary impact of a New Moon to extend to the following New Moon, building to the Full Moon and a bit beyond (to the Phitile) then debriefing.

Isaac’s looking ahead and asking…

“Just a-wonderin’ about 8th harmonic Semi-Squares or Octiles – do you find them to be that big a deal?  One that’s upcoming is Saturn-Pluto from June through August.”

My reply, astrologer-to-astrologer…

“I follow Angie Arrien’s book The Tarot Handbook for my guide to the Harmonics.  Condensing what she says about the Eighth (Octile)…

‘…the universal principle of alignment and balance… reflecting negotiation and truth… having pierced the veils of illusion, delusion, and deception… Maat, the Goddess of Law, Truth, and Justice… Libra… Alpha and Omega… The principle of Balance requires that whatever is initiated (Alpha) must be completed (Omega) at some time… Legalities, financial balance, and business acumen… the integrating, balancing and synthesizing mind… the application of creative ideas in tangible, useful ways… value being truthful in difficult situations… honor my word and commitments… any problem or block in your life can be handled by doing two things: by communicating directly and by taking swift action.’

Fabulous book (pp.55-57), indispensable for astrology.“

But there’s a lot more than the Octile going on…

Saturn Opposes Sedna and makes a T-Square with Jupiter, while being at the focus of a Kite with Ceres and Lilith.  Meanwhile there’s a Vesta Mjolnir on the Jupiter-Saturn Square, a Pluto Mjolnir on the Jupiter-Sedna Square, and a Jupiter Mjolnir on the Vesta-Pluto Square!  And Saturn is Unx (Twelfth Harmonic, Breaking Patterns) to the rather incredible Stellium on the Galactic Center.  Busy Busy Busy!  More to come as we approach June 19.

We haven’t seen many Mjolnirs for a while.  It occurs when a third planet sits at the far Midpoint between two planets that Square one another, making Trioctiles to each end of the Square.  Mjolnir is the Norwegian term for the Hammer of Thor, known to break the unbreakable.  We transfer that to our normally unbreakable Limiting Beliefs.  Like its Sanskrit correlate the Vajra, it’s associated with Lightning, so we usually translate a Mjolnir as Epiphany or Sudden Breakthrough Insight.

All of which implies to me that we’ll be Living in a very different World by October (another “Octo”)!  Expect to see the peak of this Action around August 1, when Saturn turns Direct, though three degrees of Sensitivity spans the end of April through the end of September – in other words we’re already in the cauldron and the Fire has been lit, it’s just not gotten very warm yet.  The Exact Octiles occur on June 19 and August 13, which will probably also see Energy peaks.

It might be worth noting that this is the same Saturn-Pluto Cycle that brought us “9/11,”  which occurred at the Waning Square.  This is the Waning Octile or Semi-Square, half a Square, which is much less of a Crisis and more of an Adjustment.  Both are in the Void, as the prior Cycle winds down.  Our task here is to clear away the detritus of the old Cycle so we can begin the new one afresh, without baggage from the old one.  Many fence-sitters might realize that they can no longer keep Living their old Yangtegrities.  Angie talks about being Responsible to one’s Commitments as being part of the Eighth Harmonic, but if those Commitments aren’t True to Oneself, this is a challenge to the Commitment, not to the Responsibility.

Square Planets Up Your Nodes

Manganvesuvianite – the Manganese-rich form of Vesuvianite, named for the Volcano that decimated Roman Pompeii.  Vesuvianite symbolizes the Mother Goddess, Creator of All That Is, and her Power to Heal “Miraculously.”  It appears as a Miracle to the Limited mind; it’s everyday to the Goddess.  The Manganese clears away Confusion so we can see the Growth that’s hiding behind it and Embrace it.

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A reader asks…

“Can you talk more about those of us who have a planet squaring the nodes?”

Which is an excellent question.  It’s a similar situation for folks with planets Conjunct either Node. 

A “Square” is two planets that are separated by one fourth of the Zodiac; they’re near the same Degree but three Signs apart.  A T-Square is two Squares connected end-to-end, or two planets Opposing one another with a third planet halfway between them.  Both mean Mastery through Challenge, the T-Square’s Challenge being more Challenging than a single Square’s Challenge.

First though, let me address another reader comment…

“That discussion of squares/Tsquares got me – depressed – no, actually, I recognized that feeling as despair when I read it.  Your writings have taught me to recognize that feeling –  despair.  And unconscious despair.  I never knew what that darkness was.  It’s been interesting to note where, when, how often it comes.  That’s helped clear a fair amount of it to an extent…just recognizing it for what it is.  That post brought it on.  Condemnation.  I always thought squares were Mastery Through Challenge.  So there is no ‘never.’  Mastery comes.  Not just ‘getting it’ but MASTERY!!  I feel like they should be called Infinitely Perpetual Challenge then.  Give it up.  You ain’t getting anywhere.”

Well, Infinitely Perpetual Challenge isn’t far off – till you Change your Objective.  Let’s take any of us that have Squares to Mars or Venus for an example – that’s timely, with Mars Initiating Venus and Wabi-Sabi Stationary.  We don’t even need a Square between Mars and Venus, just some other planet Squaring Mars or Venus.  Those movie scenes and ads about Perfect Romance and Perfect Bodies and Perfect Faces are irresistible to us.  Pant, Pant.  And that’s the whole idea – it ain’t Real, it’s a Trance.  I’ll wager that every Relationship you’ve ever been in had some positive feature.  If you cut out each one of those boons and pasted it on your Ken or Barbie doll, you’ll witness your Mastery first-hand.  You just haven’t put them together all at once.

That’s actually a great way to move toward What You Want – list the pieces or characteristics of your Desire, check to see which ones you’ve already Manifested, and then work on the others.  When you get most of them checked off, list all the combinations – A+B, A+C, B+C, etc. and start working on those – you can Plan and Execute, or PIAVFA, or both.  Then if you need to, work on the triplets – A+B+C, A+B+D, B+C+D, etc. – and the quadruplets.  Sound too complex?  Hmmm.  Maybe it’s your Desire that’s too complex.  Maybe you need to Prioritize a little.

Let’s try a thought experiment.  Think about your unfulfilled Desire.  Now pick its two most important characteristics.  Just for the sake of illustration we’ll call them Passion and Security.  Sound contradictory? 

That may be part of your Frustration.  Contradiction exists only in the mind, not in Reality.  In Reality it’s Both/And; in Real Life it’s called Paradox, not Contradiction.  If we’re striving for two Paradoxical qualities that we Believe are Contradictory, we will be doomed to Infinitely Perpetual Challenge.  It’s very difficult to Manifest what we don’t Believe – this is part of the Powerful “Placebo” effect.  So the first thing we may need to PIAFA is that we Believe our Desire is Possible.

Back to Passion and Security.  Ever feel Passion toward your Desire?  If not, Imagine it (Feelize or Visualize or …).  Shake It Off, take a drink of Water, and then think about the times you’ve felt Security around your Desire.  You may not have met any of your other requirements, but you felt Security.  If you haven’t Experienced Security around your Desire, not even for a few minutes, then Imagine what it’ll feel like when you do.  (If it’s a Relationship Desire, think Friendship.)  Then Let It Go, Dance a bit, another drink of Water, then recall or Imagine Manifesting both Security and Passion around your Desire.  Add Belief if you need to.

Feel good?  Or are their Yesbuts squeaking in the background – or shrieking in the foreground?  Yesbuts can feel Frustrating, but they’re just information about what else your Desire needs.  A frequently Unconscious Yesbut is whether or not you Deserve to Manifest Your Heart’s Desire. 

Virtually all of us went to the same Obedience School, where we were given a biscuit if we got the right answer, and if we’re very lucky only fingerwagged when we got the wrong answer.  Lots of folks would consider it Sociopathic if you Believed that you just Deserved things without having to Earn them.  Well, you do Deserve to Manifest your Heart’s Desire, right or wrong.  If your Heart’s Desire is punishable by Life or the Chair, so be it, you’ll just have to face the music.  But that’s not about Deserving; it’s about what your Culture permits and how well you finesse it.

Okay, you’ve Shaken It Off and Let It Go again and danced around the Fire, and now you’re sitting there feeling what it’s like to Believe in and Deserve to Manifest Safety and Passion around your Desire. 

I know, they’re still Yesbutting you, but Imagine that Belief, Deserving, Security, and Excitement are all you Want, that they’re Enough.

Ahhhhh! – Wonderful, isn’t it!

No?  Well, that’s it then. 

Desire is indeed an Infinitely Perpetual Challenge.  The basic problem is that Desire is misspelled.  It’s really spelled M-o-t-i-v-a-t-i-o-n.  Now there has to be a Balance between Motivation and Satisfaction, or else we’ll never feel good about Life.  So what to do?  Well, we certainly don’t need to give up our Desire, that would be the equivalent of Death.  We might need to dial it back a little, and approach it one piece or characteristic at a time, or set intermediate and achievable Goals that we can Celebrate along the way, so we can enjoy the Journey and not just the possibly hallucinatory Destination.

But the real key to Enjoying a Square or T-Square is shifting our Objective from Desire to Learning.  We’re always Learning, so we can Celebrate some quantity of Learning (even if we don’t understand yet what it is) from every Experience.  So a Square or a T-Square is about Learning about our Desire.  Once we make that shift we’re free to Play.  Learning is usually Surprising – otherwise we’d already be Learned.  So we’re open to Surprise as well as Success.  We really can afford to Play with it, because when Learning is our Objective, the bigger and faster our failures, the more we Learn.

That is MASTERY.  You’ve actually experienced it in your Life, around lesser Frustrations, like Spelling or Story Problems or DiffyQ or Asking for a raise or maintaining your Health.

And in fact, with a Square or T-Square, you are a Master, because you’ve always been Motivated to Explore the Edges of your Infinitely Perpetual Challenging Desire.  Take Music as an example.  If you’re Mozart, you were a Master at Birth.  If you’re Salieri, you’ve been working your butt off all your Life, and he gets all the contracts.  But suppose you’re Vivaldi, and you’re trying to figure out whether you want a minor or major key for your concerto about Spring.  Mozart could tell you in a flash.  But Salieri would be able to tell you why you need a minor key. 

If you were depending on Mozart you’d need to ask him again for each Season.  The answer you got from Salieri would allow you to figure it out on your own.  So who’s the real Master – Mozart or Salieri?

This is Real, it’s not a rationalization or a PR trick.  You may need to start your process by Believing that it’s possible to shift your Objective from your Desire to Learning about your Desire.

Conjunctions and Oppositions are similarly Heuristic.  Oppositions Challenge us to escape Duality by recognizing that while the Heads and the Tails distract us from what’s really happening, focusing on the Coin will trigger our Intuition.  Conjunctions Challenge us to Accept that just because our Perspective on the World isn’t popular, that doesn’t mean it’s wrong.  In fact, the more unusual our Perspective, the more Powerful.  You may end up writing things that won’t be understood for 200 years, or that only six people on the Planet will grok, but the Value in that is immeasurable. 

Squares and T-Squares are members of the Fourth Harmonic, which is basically Mastery or Dominion; the Emperor.  But it’s the Fifth Harmonic that’s about Learning, so we must be wrong, eh?  No, we Master each Harmonic by adopting the Perspective of a higher Dimension.  The First Harmonic, Conjunction, is about Self.  The Infinitely Perpetual Challenge about Self is Other, which is introduced by the Second Harmonic, Opposition. 

The Challenge of Self “versus” Other is resolved by Love, the Third Harmonic or Trine.  The Infinitely Perpetual Challenge about Love lies in resolving Codependence, via Healthy Control or Dominion, the Fourth Harmonic – Squares.  We resolve the Frustration of the Fourth Harmonic by using the Fifth, Learning, the Quintile.  We resolve the Paradox of Inequality between the Student and the Teacher by moving to mutually respectful Partnership, the Sixth Harmonic or Sextile.  And so on.

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Squares to the Nodes

Okay, finally we get to the original question.  But I think you’ll agree that the detour was useful. 

We’ve been equating the North Node to Desire and Mission, and now we’re talking about Squares as if they represented Desire.  These are two different flavors of Desire.  A North-Node Desire is hardwired in.  Moving in the direction of a North-Node Desire produces the sense that we’re on the right track, even as Satisfaction avoids us.  North-Node Desires evolve without much Frustration; we don’t recall how different our current North-Node Desires are from our picture of it five or ten years ago.  The basic sense is one of Progress.  A T-Square Desire on the other hand is an unachievable chimera that we set up to Motivate ourselves.  It’s a picture of Perfection.  It probably hasn’t changed substantially since we were five or ten years old.  The basic sense is one of Frustration.

So, if we put them both together, Progress with Frustration, gradual evolution with our Perfect Pictures, the whole process can be very Confusing.  And we may not remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.  That’s probably the key we need to resolve a T-Square to the Nodes – remembering that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.

Note that since the Nodes by definition Oppose one another, a Square to the Nodes is always a T-Square.

There are a couple of productive processes for dealing with Confusion.  We can acknowledge it with Gratitude.  “Omigosh, there’s Confusion!  Thank Goddess I’m Growing out of that dilemma!  That’s Exciting!”  And Curiosity.  Unlike the programming we got in school, real Learning is always Surprising.  If we had any idea how a real Life dilemma would be resolved, it wouldn’t be a dilemma.  So acknowledging Confusion as the first step of Growth almost automatically inspires Curiosity.  And Curiosity, like Love, is Goddessly, as both eschew Judgment.  We don’t want to strive for Curiosity about how our T-Square will be resolved – because we’d get stuck to our Perfect Pictures again.  Curiosity about what we’ll Learn next about our Desire fits perfectly, however.

We come to the difference between Desire and Fantasy.  Suppose for instance that we crave Acknowledgement.  If as ankle-biters we weren’t Valued for who we really were, we’ll spend our Lives craving Acknowledgement.  We have a picture of how that might happen.  We might be “Discovered,” for instance.  That’s a very nice alternative to Earning Acknowledgement.  Once who we really are is Discovered, everything else will fall into place, and it will all be easy.  That’s how we know it’s a Fantasy – everything else becomes easy.  Fantasy is a Manifestation-killer. 

When we detect Fantasy we need to substitute Curiosity.  We don’t know what it will look like when we’re Acknowledged – we’ve never been there.  We know the Perfect Picture we daydream about, but our Desire is behind that Picture, not in it.  When that Picture arises and we recognize it (how can we not? – we’ve been daydreaming it all our Life!), we need to pull the cord next to it so it rolls up like an old-fashioned window-shade.  Behind it there’s a Wilderness, and it’s Delightful and Dangerous and Exciting and very Compelling.  You can’t Imagine what’s in there!  But doesn’t it inspire Curiosity!

So let’s take some examples.  Suppose Saturn, which represents The Most Important Thing, Squares our Nodes.  It’s never this simple, because many other influences are afoot – such as the Sign of our Saturn, and other Angles to it from other planets.  But we could have a Lifetime Frustration about knowing what’s The Most Important Thing.  Is it Learning new Skills or collecting boons by using the Skills we have?  Is it Love, or is it Power?  So we need to find a reliable way to move from Confusion to Curiosity around The Most Important Thing.

In Psychic School one of the first tricks you Learn is “What if you did know?”  When Duality wants you to do Either/Or and you aren’t in touch with your Intuition enough to understand how Both/And might work in this circumstance, you can Ask yourself, “What if I did know?”  Chances are you will have already rejected at least one answer to the question, and that answer will probably pop back into Consciousness.  There’s a danger here.  This is an exercise for developing your Intuition, it’s not your Intuition. 

The answer you get is an excellent trial balloon, and a great first guess about what’s The Most Important Thing.  It’s worth trying.  But it may only work for a few steps.  West might be the correct direction for the first three strides, but you need to be alert for when Confusion arises again, and Ask again.  The next four might be North – or West again.  If you decide that one direction is Most Important forever, you’re likely to end up in a swamp.  After you practice this for a while it will become your Intuition, and you’ll develop the habit of recognizing Confusion and shifting immediately to Curiosity.  Eventually you won’t even notice the intervening steps, you’ll just Intuitively know what comes next.

But it’s still a Square; you can never sit on your laurels.  It will always be evolving, and you’ll always be Learning more about how to define The Most Important Thing, on more and more subtle levels, till you finally realize that there’s no one you can compare notes with, because no one else knows as much as you know about it – you are the Master.  It Squares your Nodes, so knowing it is The Most Important Thing in your Life.  When you Celebrate your Certainty about knowing the Most Important Thing, you’re about to step into the muck.  Celebrate Learning more about how to discern The Most Important Thing instead.

Now, think back over your Life.  How many times have you repeated this dance, and how many different ways have you Learned for dealing with it?  Include all the ways you’ve forgotten that you Learned (what if you did remember?).  In truth you’re the Master of this Process.  There’s no one better than you to teach it to others, because you’ve Explored all the blind alleys and discovered all the thoroughfares.  And more important, you know how to find the mainlines that haven’t been discovered yet. 

The primary characteristic of any Square is a shortage of Self-Acknowledgement.

That’s another process for resolving a Square in any given moment – moving to Gratitude – make a list of what is working for you.

Or Jupiter – what if Jupiter Squared our Nodes?  Jupiter is about Fortune, Expansion, Amplification.  When Jupiter dances with your Nodes, your Mission is always foremost in your Attention.  That’s fabulous, as no one will ever be able to accuse you of not immer strebend.  But it’s never Enough, is it.  Jupiter’s the Great Benefic, but Never Enough is a bummer.  So Self-Acknowledgement of your Enoughness has to become your mantra.  You’ve beaten it practically to death, but Enoughness is your Mastery.  Now you need to Master Not-Quite-Enoughness.  Your Challenge is to Learn to feel good about Performing at 90%.  When you get pretty good at that you can try 80%.  You’ll be More Than Enough at 50% – you can spend the other 50% having Fun.  You’re already doing this, aren’t you.  That’s MASTERY! 

We just can’t Acknowledge that we’re actually Manifesting the Power to Serve Effectively when we’re the Victim of our own Unconscious Motivation.  Dominion requires the Ability to Respond to “threats” to our Healthy Control.  As long as the Power to Serve Effectively is our Goal instead of Learning to Use the Power to Serve Effectively, Frustration follows, because Life is a moving target and “those people” – who really are less competent and less dedicated than you because they don’t have Jupiter Squaring their Nodes – are your Teachers, Unconsciously of course.  You’re underemployed, but you won’t be able to leverage yourself into a position where you also have the Authority and Responsibility to Serve Effectively – and the rewards, until you Learn to Honor yourself. 

There’s still time to remember all of the little and big Successes along this course, and Celebrate each one.  They’ll feel burdensome until you reframe them from Frustration about Failure, to Excitement about Learning.  Buy three big sheets of gold-colored cardboard and a “Sharpie” permanent marker.  Take an hour each week, choose one of your historical Frustrations, fully Embrace your Grief about how your hard work was unseen and unacknowledged and even actively thwarted, and then Ask “What did I Learn from this?”  If what you Learned feels negative, Ask “What was the positive function of that?”  “What was one positive thing that came out of it?

When you feel good about that Learning, cut a trophy honoring yourself for that  Success out of the gold cardboard, and give it a title and an approximate date.  As you process each historical Frustration there will be too many trophies (it’s Jupiter after all!) to keep on your mantle or altar all at once, so keep the extras in a box.  Each morning choose one trophy to put back in the box, and replace it with a new one chosen “randomly” from the box.  Spend a minute remembering the Frustration you felt as you climbed that mountain, and find the Relief you felt when you Learned that Lesson.

What about Venus?  Venus stands for our Values, so you’re probably often at odds about which Value of yours to follow.  Having multiple Values is fantastic – no danger of becoming a Zealot, eh?  But boy, those Zealots sure look Satisfied, don’t they?  Compared to my Confusion, that looks like a Blessing!  What if being Multifarious was the Blessing?  It’s a Square, it’s always a moving target.  I think of a Spiral, where we revisit the same issue over and over again but with slightly different circumstances.  A friend and reader uses the metaphor of “an elevator which stops at identical floors, but different things happen depending on where your head/vibes/frequency is.”

But the constant about is this is Constant Learning.  Your Values are Universal, but for every moment a different Hierarchy of Values applies.  If you’re anything like the rest of us, you’ve been programmed to apply the Values that were handed down by your family heritage in every moment.  You’ll be Learning how to stop and reconsider every moment, so you can apply the Values that work best in the circumstances.  You’ll know when you got it right because there will be a short burst of North-Node Satisfaction, the sense that you’re on the right track.  Till the Square’s Never-Quite-Right Energy butts in again.  No worries, it’s just Confusion, the first stage of Growth.  Isn’t that Curious!  I wonder which Values apply here – Growth or Certainty?

The Centaur Nessus Squaring the Nodes?  Confusion over Action, how to meet one’s needs with finesse rather than force, and how to replace that Confusion with Curiosity and Self-Acknowledgement.  Passive Pacifism isn’t worth much.  A Pacifist who knows how to Embrace and Master their own need to Dominate is a Teacher of Value.

The dwarf planet Ceres would tie us in knots over what’s Sustainable, and beg us to replace our Preaching and Self-Abuse about it with frequent PIAVFAs about how to make it stick. 

The poster child of dwarf planets, Pluto?  Sorry, your Life Path is intense, and you won’t bargain your way out of it.  You’ve probably already been in and out of Addiction, as there’s no faster way to understand Control.  Your Hero’s Journey is the Heroin’s Journey, figuratively or literally.  So what if no one listens to you – you see the Future, and they don’t.  Let them stumble; it’s their Learning Experience.  Your Certainty is a hindrance, though.  See if you can reprogram your Trance to seek Curiosity instead – you’re the Master of Trance-Re-Formation after all, even if you haven’t Recognized it yet.

If it’s the Centaur Hylonome Squaring your Nodes, Grief is your constant companion.  She’s just over your left shoulder.  Don’t push her away any more; Embrace Her.  Once you let Her swallow you like Inanna was swallowed by the Sun, over and over again, you’ll emerge Surprisingly quickly, each time having gained deep Insight.  Be Curious about where Grief will lead you next, as it’s a deep service to Humanity and to the Planet.

Inanna’s symbol is the Grand Octile – the Eighth Harmonic is where we go to resolve the puzzles presented by Magic.  This Ouija Board Uranus-Pluto Cycle is about Magic, and you know what comes next.  You are a Visitor from the distance Future, come to try to steer us away from impending disaster.  Embrace that Perspective without succumbing to Certainty or rejecting your constant Grief about being Unrecognized.  Grief is your greatest Tool.

Ah, Lilith.  It feels Confusing only because you’re ahead of your Time.  The World is moving toward Yindependence – Universal Respect for Self-Sovereignty – and you’re the advance guard.  Let yourself be Curious about how you can best help move the Planet forward.  The Hero’s Journey is well documented; it’s up to you to document the Heroine’s Journey for us as well.  Starhawk’s Truth or Dare is a good starting place for you.

Then there’s Uranus!  Yes, there are deep mists between you and your Soul, and many false profits.  You can’t dispel Confusion with Certainty, it must be Embraced.  It’s all Metaphor, Both/And.  What will happen if you Surrender to Confusion? 

Anyone else wanting to come forward?