Archive for the ‘Expectation’ Category

Ascension New Moon 3

April 21, 2020

In general New Moons and Full Moons impact the two to four weeks that follow, so the Ascension New Moon will give us a sturdy Blanket to shelter under during the upcoming several weeks of potential Difficulty.  We’ll get to the potential Difficulty shortly, but first let’s finish talking about the Blanket.

In the chart of the 22 April 2020 New Moon Blanket, we haven’t discussed the long green wedge (Finger of the Goddess) that points to “OR10” – a dwarf planet out beyond Pluto known mostly by its code name, 2007 OR10 (though recently officially named Gonggong).  OR10 is about Intrusive Memories, which are usually Karmic to some degree, and at least bitter-sweet if not downright unpleasant.  The green wedge means “Pay Attention!”  In this case, it means that those Intrusive Memories are priceless Clues about the Karma we’re being Asked to Let Go Of.

The red triangle (T-Square) that points to the upper left in the chart (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/04/19/ascension-new-moon/) represents a Challenge that Impediments to our Self-Love (Sappho-Makemake) are likely to prevent us from Letting Go Of our Self-Sabotaging Karma (South Node) and moving toward our Lifetime Mission – toward Ascension or Enlightenment (North Node). We could rephrase that as Letting Go Of our Self-Sabotage, if we can, will enable the Unconditional Self-Love that will Heal our Life.

I know that most of us most of the time consider ourselves to be Victims of our Karma, so it may sound strange to label it “Self-Sabotaging.”  But even though Karma is about Inertia rather than Retribution, it’s still our own Inertia – Habit Patterns we built up in Other Lifetimes.  A birth chart is a map of a Lifetime that We As A Soul Chose for a Lifetime.  So yes, your Ego is indeed a Victim of your Karma, but from the Perspective of your Soul, your Karma consists of Self-Sabotaging Habits that YouAsASoul Chose to Break Through in the Current Lifetime.

Since We took this Lifetime to Help Heal the Planet, we don’t need to consider this Karma to be “ours” from the Soul’s Perspective.  Certainly it’s become “ours” from the Ego’s Perspective, by Adoption.  But for each of us, our Karma is a picture of what the Planet and the Species needs to set itself Free From in order to move into its next Incarnation.  We Serve the Planet by helping Liberate It from these persistent Patterns, just as we Serve our own continuing Liberation.

The green wedge that also points to the upper left in the chart is what makes the Challenge Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star), by adding a large measure of Grace (the blue Trine Bridge under the T-Square) to the Challenge.

As always, the nature of the Challenge is to endure the Test of our mettle without sacrificing our Self-Love.  Karma is Dead, it Died in 2012 when Time As We Knew It ended.  What hasn’t Died is our Habituation to it.  So we Expect to have to Endure the same old Bummers every time a similar situation arrives.  Well, a Self-Resolving Challenge means that the same old Bummers aren’t going to Arise this time.  Can we Recognize that, and Let Go of our Expectation of Suffering?  That’s what’s being Challenged here!  Expectations are like placebos – they’re easily and often mistaken for their Mirror.

When I was in fifth grade an older student caught me alone in the restroom after school was over, and acted like he was starting to rough me up.  This was the 1950s, and beating people up was something many did for Fun (just ask The Donald or his mentor Roy Cohn).  I was trained not to fight back, and I didn’t.

After he’d acted like he was going to rough me up for several minutes, he stopped and pointed out to me that he wasn’t hurting me and didn’t plan to – what I was experiencing was Fear, not Harm.  Being in the middle of my Expectation of Harm, I was too shaken to do much except be dumbfounded, but days later, once I calmed down, I gradually realized what a Gift he had given me.

The feet of this green wedge, which are also knees of the upside-down blue truss bridge, are OR10 and the Uranus-Hopi New Moon.  What this tells us is that the Keys to Effortlessly Letting Go Of our Self-Sabotage are Paying Attention to our Intrusive Memories and to our Judgments (Hopi).

The short green lines are also important.  We don’t talk about them much, but they’re actually one of the greater Gifts of astrology.  They indicate the Twelfth Harmonic, the Pattern-Breaker.  They tell us which Habits are available for Revision…

  • Our Mission (North Node) Relative to our Vitality (Varuna [the Life Force]) – Do we regard dis-ease symptoms as something Wrong that needs to be Fixed, or as the Body bringing itself back into Balance and thus something we want to Be Lovingly Present With and Observe?  We’re kind of Living this Out Culturally with the Moronavirus, aren’t we.
  • Our Intrusive Memories (OR10) Relative to our Edges (Pallas [Boundaries] and Saturn [The Most Important Thing]) – In my fifth-grade Experience, I was deeply Identified With (ie, Ego-Involved With) my Fear – no Boundary between “me” and “my Fear.”  Examine the difference in your Body Sensations as you say “I’m Scared” and then “I Feel Scared.”  Those Distinctions are critical to staying in the Present Moment and staying Neutral, which is where we meet the Source of our Power (Saturn-Pallas Trines [Grace] Sappho-Makemake).
  • Our Edges (Pallas-Saturn) Relative to our Horror Pictures (South Node [our Karmic Powerlessness] and Ixion [our Unclaimed Unique Genius]) about Climate Change (Pholus [I Know I’m Forgetting something] and Quaoar [our Survival Instincts]) – How do we single-handedly, or Communally, “Fix” Climate Change?  By Persistently Focusing our Attention (aka Claiming our Unique Genius as Creator Beings or Manifestors) on the Future that We Want to Live In.

Of course we’re going to be running all manner of Intrusive Karmic Memories of Natural Disasters and the Greater Disasters that Hupers can make on their own.  We don’t want to Deny these.  We want to Acknowledge their Reality while we simultaneously Acknowledge that we aren’t actually Experiencing them in the Present Moment.  Thus Disidentified with the Karmic Drama we’re in a position to send it a Healing PIAVA.  That’s why we came to this Planet at this time.

What?  Oh yeah, the Difficulty coming up.  Next post.