Anxious? The Retrogradation of Venus “is” (as without, so within) the Descent of Inanna, where the Goddess is systematically stripped of Her Olde Ego. If you haven’t read Starhawk’s Truth or Dare, her wonderful Manifesto of Power-With, now is the time to do it. Whatever you’re Anxious about today, probably identifies the Ego/Beliefs/Limitations that are about to be rinsed away over the next six weeks.
Tapping this morning on “I am scared about…” I realized that I was strongly emphasizing the first word, the “I” part. So I Tapped on “I am that I am” instead, which quelled the mental noise and left the Apprehension in the Body – which is at least closer to Truth, and Feels that way. Tapping on just “I’m Scared” several times reduces the intensity of that.
I’m reminded of a snippet of an old Mel Gibson film I saw once. Some monster of a guy was threatening to beat the krap out of him and he says, “Are you going to kill me?” And the monster says “Whazzamatta, you scared?” And Gibson says “No, I’m just trying to plan my day.”
So yes, given the state of the World and an imminent Descent into Ego Death, a measure of enduring vague Fear is probably appropriate. It might be a good time to try out the Violet Fire…
I’m lost without the Anxiety, because if I don’t know what ills may befall me I don’t know what to Do to protect myself from them. Which is actually good, since Anxiety seldom makes accurate predictions, excepting self-fulfilling prophesies. As is so often the case, Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian Channeling for today addresses the issue succinctly…
Of course he doesn’t call it that, or even refer directly to it, but he’s basically talking about PIAVAing. In case you’re new here, that means…
Rather than What To Do to Protect myself from What I Fear, PIAVA suggests I focus on What I Want. I mean, if I’m Anxious about those things, it means I’m not fully prepared for them, so Ego Death around them is a great Outcome, as it may well Liberate me from my Limiting Beliefs around them, which would be a huge boon. An imminent Ego Death is cause for Celebration, though I haven’t Breathed enough yet to get to Excitement. So I can try PIAVAs on the order of “May I be relieved of cause for Anxiety around…”
And it helps to recall that my Anxieties were around issues I’ve previously PIAVAed about – that’s a call to Pay Attention. When I do Pay Attention I understand immediately that these Anxieties are Up so I can Let Go of them. The Archetype, the Karmic Pattern to be Broken, is Worry, intellectualizing the Emotional and Physical. As for the vague Apprehension – just an exercise in Soft Belly.
Whenever Ego Death lurks, we should Ask, Where is Nemesis? In ten days she crosses Pluto. A Pluto Ego Death should be a big one. Turns out that today is the day when Nemesis comes within our usual standard of three Degrees of Sensitivity to Pluto. Nemesis-Pluto is a five-year Cycle, taking us up to – haven’t we seen this number recently? – 2022. The Initiation is 13 March at 4am in 20 Capricorn – “A hidden choir singing,” invoking Heaven. So perhaps just PIAVAing Heaven on Earth would be appropriate, though it’s Scary to contemplate the potential Healing Crises from that! What the Hell, though, we’re already Scared.
The next Question that pops to mind, Where is Eurydike – Trust? The Eurydice Myth was all about Trusting that Escape from Pluto’s Realm was possible! This deserves an essay all its own…
Asteroid Eurydike is one foot of another Flying Squirrel Configuration that features three Fingers of God, pointing at
- Eurydike (Trust) itself, from the Sextile between Mercury-Neptune (Confusion) and Hylonome-Juno-Chariklo (Becoming Conscious of Charismatic Archetypes)
- Hopi (Respect for All Things), across the Sextile from Mnemosyne-Ceres (Remembering How to Create Sustainability) to Mercury-Neptune
- Mercury-Neptune at the head of the Kite Opposite Karma-Orcus (Breaking Archetypal Oaths) at the Midpoint between Hopi and Eurydike
Mercury-Neptune – Blessed Confusion – is in charge of the whole Eurydike Configuration. Neptune Initiates Mercury at 4am PST on 4 March at 12 Pisces, being “tested” as we are Initiated into a new phase of our Spiritual Evolution. Okay.