More Healing

Here’s a quick review of what’s coming up…

 

♥ 22 November – Full Moon at 1 Gemini (9:30 pm PST). 

We’ve seen this Cuspal Action a few times recently, for instance https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/11/02/fire-earth-air-4/. 

A major theme of this Full Moon is Choosing to Allow Chronic Physical issues to be Healed Instantaneously.  We have two major categories of Resistance to this – first, we don’t Believe it’s Possible because we’ve been taught otherwise.  And Second, when we do Allow this, it won’t be the only thing in our Life that Changes, so unless we’re Prepared for that, our Ego will Resist the ancillary Changes, and that will reinstate the Chronic issue that we’re “Comfortable” with.  Don’t for a minute think that Comfort and Victimhood can’t co-exist; we’re all a bit Proud of our Victim Postures, or we wouldn’t keep giving them Support.

The Moon Conjoins Lachesis (Consciously Choosing the length of a Timeline), and while the rest of the chart forms a bowl, North Node-Varuna (Mission-Life Force) is an outlier Reflecting all of the other planets.

We could also easily find that our Abuse Memories continue to plague us until we Accept the fact that it is Resistance to our Held Emotions and Comfort with our Karma that lock us into Dyspleasure.  This is a bit of a Gordian Knot, but for starters we can Strive to get Conscious of the ways we are Comfortable with our Karma, and we can Ask ourself “What Emotions do I Refuse to Feel?”

Mars-OR10 T-Squares the Full Moon, while Chiron (Despair and Miracles) Squares a Stellium of Karma (q.v.), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), and Pholus (Ability to Respond rather than React).

On the other hand, the Opportunity for Healing is Immense.

Klotho (Beginnings) Conjoins the South Node (Held Emotions), indicating that we may Begin to be Willing to Embrace what we’ve been Rejecting as “I’d rather Die than do that!” – or that our Held Emotions will Begin to bother us more, as Hidden Psychological Bugaboos will eventually go to great lengths to get themselves Revealed.  Since this Opposes Varuna-North Node, our Preference for continuing to Live our Karma as Physical Discomfort may get tested.

And Soul (Uranus) makes Blessed Angles to our PTSD (Mars-OR10) and to our Need to Take Responsibility (Karma-Quaoar-Pholus).  Remember that Responsibility means Able-to-Respond-to-Improve-Outcomes; Blame Lives in a totally different Universe.

The Biggest Configuration in the Full Moon chart is this Nose-Cone…

It’s a graphic illustration of the incredible Synergy between Beginning to Open Up to our Held Emotions (Klotho-South Node deep in the soup on the right) and Investing our Life Force in our Life Mission (Varuna-North Node on the left).  You can almost Feel the Energy bouncing back and forth like a laser till it reaches Escape Velocity.  Our Held Emotions obscure the very Skills we need in order to Energize our Mission, Skills we accrued in, or borrow from, Other Lifetimes.  The Other Lifetimes need not even be “our own” – when we’re Clear enough, we have direct access, through our Mitochondria, to All the Information in the Universe.  We Are after all All One.

 

♥ By the way, asteroid Karma moved from Sagittarius (Let My People Go!) to Capricorn (Just Fix It!) on 16 September (8pm PST if your Journal is that accurate).  Capricorn is more Difficult than Sagittarius in some ways.  In Sagittarius all we have to do is Let Go; the hard part is Realizing it.  Who would think, after a Lifetime of being ravaged by our Karma, that all we ever had to do was just Let Go of it!  In Capricorn we have to Work at it.  We might even have to Plan-Execute, but beginning with PIAVA will always give us a rocket start.

 

♥ 24 November – Neptune Station at 14 Pisces (5pm PST). 

Neptune’s Bottom Line is that it is characterized by Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity.  Which is great as long as we Remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.  Mostly because our Childhood World was not Safe, our Programmed Reaction to Confusion is to Try to Figure It Out so we can find Safety.  Whether we succeed or not, this Act of Thinking kills our Growth and freezes us inside our old cage.  When Neptune is Lit Up, there’s no point in Thinking; you’ll never Figure It Out.  We’ll just get more Confused.

Till we switch to our Spiritual Eyes. 

The Neptune-Station chart is very Singular.  It offers tremendous Insight into what drives our Limitations, while making it Clear that to Grow into that Illumination, we’ll need to drop some Deep Judgments that Define us.  You know, them Ego Deaths we’ve mentioned occasionally.  Remember it’s not “I’d rather Die!” it’s “I’d rather Die.”  It’s not You that’s threatened, it’s your “I,” your Identity, your Ego.  The other 99.999% of You will continue just fine, and far better off than before your greatly-Exaggerated Demise.

Stationary Neptune Opposes Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and Squares Nemesis (Ego Death) and Hopi (Respect for All Things).  It’s also the focus of a Mjölnir Kite (yellow diamond) from Venus Square North Node (Values that Conflict with our Mission)…

Limitation is Created by Oaths, Vows, Promises.  Once we Forget that as Sovereign Entities we still have Choice regardless of our Oaths, or we Forget the Oaths themselves, our Limitations become our Karma.  Of course we still have the Choice to Step Out the Back Jack (Sagittarius), or at least Work At It (Capricorn) to just Let our Karma Go, but who Remembers that?  At least we aren’t Resolved to our Fate; that’s a Soul Death rather than an Ego Death.  “Wer immer strebend sich bemüht, Den können wir erlösen.”

Our Oaths morph into our Values, and then we really Invest Ego into them.  When we Betray our Values, we don’t just Betray whomever we Pledged ourself to, we Betray Family.  Betraying Family is like Banishment.  Unless we’ve done our Walkabout or Vision Quest, one of our strongest Limitations is that we don’t Believe that we can Survive without Family.  Our Values are up for review.

 

♥ 1 December – Vesta enters Aquarius (12:30 pm PST).

I think of asteroid Vesta as symbolizing our Bottom-Line Beliefs.  Our Values might be what we Strive for, but our Beliefs Describe the Edges of the World we Live in. 

One of our Strongest Tools for Growth is the Willingness to Suspend Disbelief. 

Capricorn is so hard-headed that Suspending Disbelief since late September has probably been Difficult.  Aquarius, which adores Wishful Thinking, should make it Easier to Try On New Beliefs like we would clothes, through late January.  Aquarius can however tend toward Fundamentalism – Believing that our Metaphors are literally True, which makes Other People’s Metaphors fake news.  We Grow by being able to Grok that Contradictions are a property of the Dualistic Mind, not a property of the World we Observe.  The Real World is Multifarious and Unitary, which Dualism isn’t capable of Understanding.

 

♥ While the Greeks invented Patriarchy, they continued to have deep Respect for Goddesses and their Magnetic Rituals.  The Romans on the other hand, pretty much institutionalized Patriarchy.  The Greek Hestia (which Conjoins Uranus as we speak) was Goddess of the Hearth, while the Roman equivalent Vesta was made Virgin Goddess of the State.  By the time the Popes got done reworking Roman culture, the Marys and their peers were very much also-rans.

The asteroids Aletheia (Greek for Truth) and Veritas (Latin for Truth) both orbit in a bit over 5½ years, Veritas taking a month longer for each full circuit.  Consequently, their Cycle together is three Centuries long.  The current Cycle was Initiated in December 2003 at 29 Capricorn, “A woman reading tea leaves.”  Aletheia and Veritas dance together until 2035, when Aletheia begins skipping ahead for the next several Centuries.  The previous Cycle spanned 1675 to 2003.

While the Impact will likely be subtle, we can presume that the New Cycle will be Stronger when Aletheia Leads Veritas, while the Old Cycle will try to reassert itself when Veritas Leads.  Aletheia Led December 2003-May 2004, January 2009-May 2010, and March 2014-May 2016, and will Lead again October 2019-May 2022, November 2024-April 2028, June 2030-May 2034, and from August 2035 on.

Since May 2016, the Latin Veritas has been Leading.  In October 2019, however, the Greek Aletheia takes the baton back, until 2022.  Aletheia may be a bit more likely to Enquire how someone else’s Opinions have evolved, rather than to simply label them as Wrong.  If that holds true, it would be a Blessing for the next US election.

 

♥ While Mercury goes Direct again at the New Moon on 6 December, the next Biggie is the simultaneous Stations of Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and Orcus (Breaking Oaths) on 9-10 December.  Those should help us ferret out the ancient Oaths which have stuck our Karma to us like flypaper and enforced our Limitations.  It’s worth noting that Recanting our Obsolete Oaths, Allowing our Held Emotions, gaining Awareness of our Unconscious Fears, and Recovering our Hidden Genius are really all just different parts of the same Elephant.

Then, finally, we get a week or so off!

Mind, Heart, and Healing

The simultaneous 16-November Mercury and Venus Stations give us a great Opportunity to examine our Relationships with Mind (Mercury) and Heart (Venus).  Folks often refer to Mind as “Head,” but it’s actually our Solar Plexus/Third Chakra where thought originates, so we don’t choose to use that Metaphor.  Knowing that thought originates “below” the Heart is instructive, however, as a minuscule effort to counteract the Western European notion that Mind is “higher than” Heart.

When the Huper apparatus works properly, Heart defines the Direction, and Mind hews the path.

Whatever’s going on in your Young Life, try looking at it through that Lens.  Ask yourself about your Goals.  Imagine Achieving your First Priority Goal, or making significant Progress in that Direction…

Does this bring tears, or pride? 

Do you even actually Believe that it’s Possible to Achieve your First-Priority Goal?

For instance, if I look at why this blog is one of the Most Important things I devote my Time to, is my First Priority Goal to Raise Huper Consciousness, or is it to Restore Respect for our Home Planet and its Other Residents and Entities that Hupers Dismiss as Inferior, Imaginary, or Non-Existent?  Through this Lens I see that my First Priority Goal is the latter; Raising Huper Consciousness is the Means, not the Ends.  That Realization will shift some of my day-to-day Priorities. 

In the Hope that it will put your Identity into your Heart so you can be Reminded what that feels like, I urge you to spend a half-hour with this video…

https://vimeo.com/295823303

Take a few deep Breaths, as we’re Shifting Direction in this essay as we are in Real Life…

♥ We’ll be spending the next several days with our Abuse Memories, as dwarf planets Nessus and OR10 are Stationary through 20 November.  It might be temporarily more Painful to be in your Heart for this instead of in your Mind, but it will also be more Healing. 

Healing is like taking an Onion apart one layer at a time.  We get Conscious of the outer layer, the tears flow, then we get Angry, work through that in one way or another, come to relative peace, and then, if we’re lucky, Rest before the next layer presents itself to be peeled away. 

Don’t let the brevity of that paragraph diminish the Process it describes, as for many of us that’s the Story of Our Lives, and the complexities, detours, potholes, and washouts along the way are Monumental.  They Define us because they take up so much of our Time and Attention.  Moving back to the Heart Reframes our Identity so we’re more Conscious of Who We Really Are, so we are Reminded that our Healing Journey is the Means, not the Ends.

The 19 November Nessus-Station and 20 November OR10-Station chart is relatively straightforward…

Both Stations Conjoin Mars, which can bring up more unpleasant Memories than would otherwise be the case, as Mars can imply violence as well as Action.  On the other hand, if we Act to Heal our Memories by Embracing them with the Heart, Mars here can be a boon. 

The red line to Jupiter just tells us that this is a Big Healing.  Big Healings often mean Big Healing Crises, where the symptoms that Reveal the Need for Healing increase before they begin to subside.  It’s so Tempting to Freak Out and redouble our Efforts to suppress the symptoms when this happens. 

We can’t advise you to Resist that Temptation, but we can suggest that you Moderate your Reaction to the Temptation.  Try an Aspirin before you reach for the Fentanyl, or a Beer instead of a Bloody Mary, or a Cracker instead of a Cookie.  Better yet, take the space to put All of your Attention directly into the Center of your Discomfort and Hold it there.

The other two Stellia in the chart (a Stellium is a group of three or more planets) stand out as well, and they Challenge (the red line between them) one another.

The upper one is an amalgam of Truth (asteroid Aletheia), Boundaries (asteroid Pallas), and Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake).  We could read that as “How might we best Manifest Boundaries around the Truth of our Discomfort?”  The green line to Nessus-OR10 indicates that it’s a Question, not an Answer.  The Root Truth of our Discomfort probably isn’t Physical, but Emotional and Spiritual. 

Our Reaction to suppress the physical symptoms, much reinforced by our Cultural Programming, may not be the Most Effective Boundaries to use.  We will almost certainly Heal faster and with fewer complications if we can Soften our Boundaries, Embrace our Discomfort, put our Attention Lovingly and Gently into it, and Let It Change our Identity.  If you haven’t Noticed yet that Changing your Identity Changes Everything, it would be a good time to Learn it.  Learning that is Life-Changing.

The other Stellium includes The Most Important Thing (Saturn), Transcendence (asteroid BZ509), and Self-Sovereignty (dwarf planet Hylonome).  The tell here is that We Are Somehow Giving Away Our Power, and this is a very Important Opportunity to Take It Back.  We may just be Allowing our Pain to Define us, rather than the other way ’round.  Or perhaps Allowing our historical or current Abusers to Define us.  By maintaining our Archetypal Reactions to Abuse, we may be Allowing someone else to Control us.

Ask yourself about that.  “Do I Allow someone else to Push My Buttons, so I’m a Sock Puppet in their hands?”  Be Loving and Gentle with the Answer you get.  Don’t try to use the Mind to Change your Reactions; use the Heart.  Do that with PIAVA – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ if you’re new hereabouts. 

While it might be alarming at first, Dr. Perry has a great blog post on how this occurs, at https://makeitultrapsychology.wordpress.com/2018/10/26/you-teach-others-how-to-treat-you/.  Be very Gentle with yourself around this, and Take the Space you need to process it.  Start by PIAVAing Safety.

Leghold Traps

As is often the case, Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian friends are right on time with the current astrology…

https://danielscranton.com/you-get-to-choose-your-timeline-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are considering all of the possibilities that are in front of you, and we are noticing that there are a few right now that will be quite pleasing to all of you, especially those of you who are awakened.  These timelines are available to you now because of how well you have been absorbing and assimilating the energies that are being sent to you constantly.

“We want you to realize that you are not fated to live out some preordained destiny here on planet Earth.  You are choosing the path that you set yourselves on, and if you look at the rest of humanity and what’s going on in terms of the world stage, you might get discouraged.  You might think that they are determining the path for humanity, but we want to assure you that it has nothing to do with what is outside of you.

“You can choose one of the more enticing timelines in front of you, and you can bring a version of the rest of humanity with you.  You are the enlightened ones who are leading this pathway to ascension, and you are taking more willing participants with you than you realize.  A lot of awakenings have yet to occur, and you will be ready to continue on in that leadership role when those around you surprise you with their newly enlightened perspectives.

“So please recognize how significant you are and how much of a say you have in which of these timelines you are on.  We are sending you the vibration of those timelines.  It is embedded in this transmission.  Please feel for it, and recognize that we haven’t created the timelines or the vibration of them.  You have.  We are just coming through to remind you of what you have created and that you have access to it.”

Asteroid Moira is Stationary tomorrow 15 November (3:52 am PST at 22 Cancer), which means that we’re Feeling its Energy Strongly this week, whether we’re Consciously Aware of it or not.  How might we tune into this Energy if it’s not obvious to us? 

Firstly, we may Feel Trapped in a Timeline. 

That would be the Contrarian indicator.  When the Unconscious wants us to Learn something it often uses a Contrary, or Funhouse Mirror.  If it wants us to, say, Let Go of an Attachment to Boobs or Pecs so we can begin to notice what’s behind them, for instance, it might put us in circumstances where we’re surrounded or confronted by them.  That could Force us to Break the Trance and Respond Differently than we usually would, just because our usual Reactions would leave us looking foolish, bruising our Ego just when we want it to glow. 

So, what do we mean by a Timeline? 

A Lifetime is a Timeline.  Not the biggest, but a big one.

A Timeline might be a span of Time, but it also might be a Concept or an Emotion or a Habit.

The period when our Identity is dominated by a particular Attachment or Association or Characteristic would be another Timeline.  Say you were Homecoming Empress or Emperor in high school, and you let that Define your Identity.  Then you went to college, and as a newbie you were nobody.

How might you React and Respond to that Ego-bruising?  If you carry Resentment for the rest of your Life, you’re Trapped in the Homecoming Timeline.  If you can recognize how silly you’ve been, laugh if off, and begin making new friends as equals, you’ve Dismissed that Timeline and entered a more Positive one. 

A Timeline might be the span of time where your thoughts and Feelings and moods are dominated by a particular Unconscious, Semi-Conscious, or Conscious Fear or Anxiety – Scarcity, for instance, or Persecution, or Abandonment.  You would begin to Dissolve the Timeline when you Noticed the Limitation and began PIAVAing or otherwise Acting to Shift it.

One Timeline might be while you Lived in Scarcity and Believed it was your only option. 

A second one might be when you Realize that a few other people aren’t in Scarcity, and you start thinking “Why not me?” 

A third Timeline might start when you quit making excuses to defend your inferiority, and begin a serious Effort to Shift your Abundance Karma. 

Then you would enter a fourth Timeline when you began to Experience Abundance but didn’t always Trust that it was Truly Yours.

And finally, even if you aren’t Enjoying all of the Abundance you Want in every moment, once you began to Know in your Heart that it’s your Birthright and it’s on its way, you’ll be in a fifth Timeline around Scarcity and Abundance.

A Timeline might cover the time when you were in a particular job or profession, with all its trappings, Egoic and otherwise.

Or in a particular Relationship or type of Relationship.

Or while you held a particular set of Conscious or Unconscious ideas about Life, the Universe, or Anything.

Or any other relatively Continuous segment of a Lifetime – or longer.  For instance, it might be the series of Lifetimes in which a particular Karmic bugaboo torments you.

And secondly, and hopefully, Strong Moira Energy can Manifest as the very Noticing that brings a Timeline into your Consciousness so it can be Shifted, or the very Knowing that can mark the end of a Transitional Timeline and the beginning of an Ascended Timeline.

So look at your matrix of Habits.  Are any Changing markedly?  Any new ones appearing?  Are you Reacting Differently than usual to any particular Triggers?  Have you noticed yourself stopping an old Reaction Pattern, and thinking about whether an Alternative Response might be more Self-Supporting?

Just as an example, a couple of decades ago I bought a new car that turned out to be infamous for having lousy seats.  I also got a new pair of glasses that “feature” Monovision (where they don’t attempt to make your vision in both eyes match, but expect the brain to learn how to compensate).  Before that, I could drive long distances Easily and Comfortably.  After that, I would always get drowsy after a couple hours of driving.  So I developed a litany of compensatory techniques.

Well, yesterday I had to attend a four-hour meeting in a town more than three hours away from where I live. 

If you have to do something like that every day, which I realize many do, you not only have my sympathy, but also my Prayers that you can Break that Timeline Effortlessly and Productively, very soon! 

So I packed up a good selection of my compensatory techniques and set off.  When I got home thirteen hours later I Realized that I had only used one compensatory technique, and that sparingly; I hadn’t been drowsy once all day; my Attention was good except for one speaker who mumbled a lot; and I needed only one of my anti-compensatory techniques to unwind.  This is a big Shift in my Endurance Timelines!

The Mythological Moira symbolized Fate.  Greek Drama is full of characters Trapped in their Timelines.  The Difference between Fate and Choice is Consciousness. 

If you’re in a Timeline you don’t like, PIAVA to Notice what Triggers your own Habits that Trap you in the Timeline.  It’s not about anyone else, it’s about you.  Your Present-Moment Ego (“You”) has probably not Chosen to be Trapped in a Timeline.  But ultimately, as Souls, we are Sovereign.  Other, Unconscious segments of your “Youness” have Chosen this, probably as a Contrary.  One way to begin to Escape, is to Ask yourself, “What part of me has Chosen this?” 

Maybe the “Unconscious Choice” was part of your Childhood Programming.  Our Childhood Programming is highly correlated with our Karma, aka the Patterns that our Soul Chose for us to Break Out Of in the Current Lifetime.  When we face a Limitation that Others obviously don’t face, that Difference Identifies where our Childhood Programming has led us away from What We Actually Want for Ourself.

Maybe the “Unconscious Choice” is only Unconscious because you’ve Forgotten that this particular Timeline is one that is Bedeviling the Planet, and your Superhero Soul Chose to come to Earth at this Time to help Heal it, and in order to do that you first have to Lose yourself in the Trap before you can Emerge from it like a Butterfly from its Chrysalis.  You can’t Teach or Lead others out of Traps that you haven’t yourself been Trapped in.

There’s a high probability that it’s Both/And.

As you’ve probably noticed, Timelines of course can be horribly convoluted and tangled with one another.  When we start to unravel one, several others pop up.  That can be very Confusing, so it’s Important to Remember that Confusion is the first sign of Growth.  You don’t want to get Trapped in an Analysis Timeline when Confusion occurs.  It’s very Tempting to try to Figure Out What’s Going On, but you want to Avoid that Temptation.  Enjoy the Confusion for what it is.  Just pretend like you’re Stoned.

Don’t let either Confusion or Analysis stop you from reaching into the Timeline for clues.  You want to Observe Triggers.  When does the Trapped Feeling start, and what came just before that?  Like when you’re unraveling a huge Knot, there will come a time when the rest of the Knot falls apart on its own because you finally found the Key.  Trust that this will happen.

Sedna and Fear

Sedna is the first Sednoid.  The Discovery of Sedna required a whole new class of minor planets.  Plutoids are dwarf planets that are similar to Pluto in scale, distance, and orbit.  Sedna is an order of magnitude further away than Pluto, having an orbit 45 times as long as Pluto’s.  They’re so distant that we can count on one hand the number of Sednoids discovered so far.

We’ve been interpreting Sedna as Fear because Action Committed under the Influence of Terror is the predominant Energy in the Sedna myth.  The dawn of television brought us Mutual of Omaha’s Wild Kingdom, belaboring how Nature was “red in tooth and claw.”  If you remember black and white TV you probably remember Marlin Perkins…

Young and impressionable, we didn’t make the connection until decades later between Insurance and Fear.  Other voices have since demonstrated how Nature is more accurately characterized as remarkably Collaborative and Synergistic.  Mutual of Omaha hasn’t been the only agent that Feeds on our Fear.  Politicians and color TV have since elevated Fear to a high art.  It’s a central pillar of the Healing Crisis that is the creeping Fascism that’s been trying to spread like a dark shadow across our Home Planet. 

A look at Sedna’s Discovery chart makes it obvious that its Emergence into Huper Consciousness, like Wild Kingdom ultimately was, is about Becoming Aware of our Unconscious Fear.  Here’s the chart…

Sedna sits on the North Node, meaning that Sedna’s Emergence into our Consciousness Serves our Mission directly. 

Sedna is one member of a Grand Sextile, the most favorable of all astrological Configurations, which avers that Grace will follow all of our Self-Initiated Actions.  We gain Leverage by Noticing when we’re Feeling Fear so we can Act Consciously rather than Habitually.  We Convert Fear to Power by doing Kegels, because Kegels slow down Time, giving us Time to Consider our Actions.  Remembering to Breathe is always useful too.

The other five corners of the Grand Sextile are…

• Moira … Awareness Allows Choice to Replace Fate; Moira is Stationary as we speak
  
• Nessus-Veritas-Aletheia … Revelation of the Truth about Abuse and Privilege; Nessus is Exactly Stationary a week from now, so probably already Present in our Energy Field
  
• Sun-South Node … Illumination of our Self-Sabotaging Habits
• Jupiter-Lachesis-Makemake … Changing Timelines Consciously to Expand our Ability to Create What We Want
• The Moon – Authenticity

The Grand Sextile means that these six Principles all reinforce one another positively.

The other major element is a Diamond Star or Self-Resolving Challenge, focused on Pluto-Sappho, which implies Transformation of the Nature of our Self-Love.  It’s a lot Easier to Love ourself when we can be Authentic, Call Out Abuse when we see it, Support ourself Unconditionally, Choose to Create What We Really Want, and Know that we’re in step with our Lifetime Mission.  What can possibly go wrong?

Well, we can Allow Unconscious Fear to creep into our Attitudes and Motivate our Actions without our Becoming Aware of it.  We would be shocked if we knew how much of our Lives are Motivated by Fear – everything that’s preceded by Judgment, for instance.  Actually, feeling like “something isn’t right” is a good Indicator here in the Age of Sedna, that we’re on the Cusp of Noticing a shard of Unconscious Fear that we haven’t yet Detected and Identified as Self-Sabotaging.

I was Feeling that way last week, and I didn’t know why.  Now I understand – I have a dozen deadlines in the last half of November, and until yesterday I wasn’t sure I could meet them all.  Yesterday I didn’t finish one of the bigger ones, but I finished enough that I’m now confident that finishing it will be just a matter of walking through several well-known steps, which I expect to have ample time for.  So I was Feeling Anxiety and not recognizing it.  Anxiety is Fear in a cheap suit.

I did, today, Tap Out Anxiety, before (not instead of!) reaching for a Walnut Shortbread Cookie (it was delicious), but that was only a prelude to my Realizing, just now, that Anxiety was the source of my Feeling a Disturbance in the Force last week.  So many things have been Climaxing lately, that it won’t Surprise me at all to see Anxiety finally becoming a Trigger for Consciousness instead of a Trigger for Soul-Devouring Thoughts. 

Sedna Stands Still during the first week of the coming February.  If we take every Opportunity to be Alert to any upwelling of Anxiety between now and then, we may be able to put a checkmark next to it on our Karmic To-Do List!  That would be a Life-Changer.

Half-Marathon

The next few weeks will be a bit like a half-marathon, as we run through three gauntlets and nine astroevents in rapid succession.

 

♥ First up, on 11 November (1:30pm PST) Ceres moves into Scorpio until almost the end of January.  Ceres is about Sustainability, and Scorpio is about Getting To The Bottom of Things.  We’ve been trying to isolate Sustainable Relationships (Libra) since early September.  Now we just Want a Sustainably Lifestyle.  Well, the Easiest way to Achieve Sustainability is to think in terms of Sustenance. 

Sustenance – What Can We Do Without? – is the flip side of the Sustainability Coin.  You may be considering it already.  Turning off lights when you leave the room?  Thinking about how to get along without something instead of how to get it?  The payoff will Surprise you.  With Sign Changes, the Zeitgeist just Changes.  The more Sensitive you are to the planet and Signs, the sooner you’ll Notice it – if you’re looking, of course.

 

♥ There are three Stations on 15-16 November, so those will keep us occupied till then.  Station Energy is most intense before the Exact Station, building as we approach the Station, then dropping off sharply.  Usually.  There are exceptions, and we need to talk about those.  Remind me.  And asteroid Karma enters Capricorn on the 16th (8pm PST).

Karma’s been in Sagittarius since the Ides of January.  Sagittarius of course is about Letting Go, so we’ve had a good run – haven’t we.  Remember how much more Limited your Life was last winter?  Karma even went Retrograde in Sagittarius, so it hung out there longer, just for us.  It only takes about ten weeks to cross Capricorn instead of ten months.  That’s just as well, because Capricorn, which stands for “Just Do It,” can get us in trouble when it comes to Karma.  Till the end of January, if it’s Habitual, we should “Just Do It For The Last Time.”  Ok?

The three 15-16 November Stations are…

• Asteroid Moira on 15 November (4am PST).  Moira is about Choice.
• Venus on 16 November (3am PST), which is about our Values.
• Mercury on 16 November (5:30 pm PST) – Communication, Awareness, Mentality.

So we’re likely to Experience it as we might Experience a Moira-Venus-Mercury Initiation, meaning we’re becoming Aware that we have Choices around our own Values.  Our Betters make a big deal about Living Up To Our Values, but when you think about it, what they really want you to do is Live Up to Their Values.  You gain a lot of Self-Sovereignty when you see through that Farce.

This isn’t a real Initiation, but if it was, again depending on how Sensitive we are to it, the Energy would be very Strong on both sides of the Exact Intiation, but there would be a Shift in your Attitude.  Beforehand you’d be glib about it as if no one was watching you critically.  Then after the Exact Initiation you’d feel increasingly censured, till you took the Energy Underground.  Which is what you’ll probably do.  For a while.  Unless it’s your Mission.

We should Review Moira a bit.  Moira means Fate.  But Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we become Conscious, we Realize we don’t have to do that any more.  Fate + Consciousness = Choice.  So we Interpret Fate as Choice.  Astrology, at least the kind that we do, is about Growing our Consciousness.  So as astrologers we always Ask first and Ask last, “Are you Conscious of this?”  Right?  With an open mind. 

Sure, they teach traditional astrology as if it was as reliable as Engineering.  When I take a course in astrology and assume it’s a seminar, and start contributing the Insights I’ve Learned from astrology, I’m usually “corrected.”  But in Real Life we’re all Different, and you’ll never know when you’re going to meet someone who’s Different from anyone you or the astroelders ever met.  Especially when more of the Others come ashore.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equals.  That’s why we’re advised never to use Negation when we PIAVA, and that’s why we often get the Opposite of what we Asked for when we PIAVA (which is a sign of Success).  The Unconscious has Dimensions, but it’s not Dualistic; its Directions are Circular.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with PIAVA, it’s a bottom-line concept to bring into Consciousness for the current Eon – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

 

♥ The Big Challenge arrives in earnest before 19-20 November.  We’ll Feel this one well before that, because it’s a Biggie, and the three days between the 16th and the 19th aren’t long enough for it to run its course.  So we’ll have to go back and modify the previous Interpretation later.

The Biggie is about Nessus and OR10. Nessus Stands Still on 19 November (7am PST), and OR10 does the same on 20 November (9pm PST).

We’ve done this before recently, many times, as the two were fellow travelers for several years.  They’re no longer fellow travelers (in the sense of being Merged), but when they have Stations together it Feels like they’re Merged again.  Nessus represents Abuse and Privilege, OR10 Invasive Memories.  So this is mostly about Recovering Abuse Memories.  Recovering is the good part, because it’s not possible to Let Them Go while they’re still Unconscious.

Now, while Nessus and OR10 were Merged, we Merged with these not-so-pleasant Memories, usually Feeling Shame or/and Rage in the process.  So we’re likely to Re-Experience that, and being Creatures of Habit (er, Karma, ie Inertia), we’ll be Expecting to Merge with them again.  But we won’t, unless we make that Unconscious Choice.  We don’t need to. 

We can make the Conscious Choice to Dislodge our Identity from them this time, because now the Energies themselves are no longer Merged.  As time goes on they’ll be less and less Merged, so start now or you’ll find yourself Out of Synch with the Universe later.  Whatever sort of Ascension, 5D, Enlightenment, Bliss, Collaboration, Community, Ease, or other kind of Grace you Want to characterize your Future, being Out of Synch with the Universe won’t help at all.

This is Subtle, so Pay Attention.  When someone Abuses us and we Remember, once we get past the Shame, we Want Revenge.  We’ll Forgive eventually (even though that Feels Impossible most of the time), but we Want some kind of Compensation for having Endured that.  It Ruined our Life after all.  But here’s the Secret – Revenge will be so much more Successful if you’re no longer Attached or Identified with your Rage.  Sure, Living Well is the Best Revenge, and that may be the Choice you make.  But even if you Decide that you do want Payback, you’ll be able to exact a finer torture if you’re Neutral.

Remember, Karma is Inertia, not Retribution.  It’s Force of Habit, continuing to Choose an old Habit because it’s the Easiest thing to do – Automatic, in fact.  That’s why we need Consciousness to Abandon our Karma, because we have to Notice it before we can Change it.  Hard to Notice what’s Automatic.  So we aren’t talking about accumulating “Bad Karma” for exacting Revenge.  We’re talking about Teaching someone a Lesson they won’t Forget. 

So what if they’re Old now; we take our Karma with us to Other Lifetimes, so they’ll continue to Abuse if they don’t Learn their Lesson.  They need to be able to Notice what it feels like to be Abused, and they need to Realize that Other People aren’t their Property to be used as toys.  Once you’ve Let Go of your Rage, you’ll be able to plan an exquisite curriculum for them.  Dull blades are Harder to Ignore.  As they say, Forgive the Person, not the Behavior.  But first you have to show them that the two are Different.  As long as they’re Unconscious, the Behavior is the Person.

Now, about Forgiveness.  Like any other sort of Consciousness, Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery.  One day we just Notice that we don’t hold ill will against them any more.  Yes, we can make a Choice to Forgive – it’s just a PIAVA, but that’s really a Choice to enter into the process of Forgiving.  It’s unlikely to take you to Forgiveness straightaway, unless you were ready anyway. 

We always need to “Be Careful What We Ask For,” or better yet, “Be Mindful of What We’ve Asked For,” so we can monitor and Interpret the Funhouse-Mirror events that PIAVAs can Create when we aren’t quite ready to Receive them.  Like getting sicker initially after we Ask for Healing – we Feel sicker, so we take more of the Toxins that were making us sick.  Or finding Abuse Memories arising after we Ask for Healing of our Abuse.  No, it don’t Feel good, but we have to get them into Consciousness in order to Change them.  If we aren’t Aware of the way Consciousness arrives, we can easily tie ourself in knots.

Now, how are we likely to Experience an OR10-Nessus-Moira-Venus-Mercury faux Initiation, because that’s probably what much of November 10-20 will Feel like?  Well, put all the terms in a sentence.  Invasive Memories, Abuse, Choice, Values, Awareness.  Maybe something like Becoming Aware that we have Choice around the Values that we Created for ourself as a result of early Abuse that we now Remember?  Or becoming Aware that we have Repressed Memories of Abuse, and Choosing to Alter our Values to make room for their Recovery?

 

♥ The Full Moon on the Cusp of Gemini follows closely, on 22 November (9:30 pm PST), and Neptune Stands Still shortly after that, on 25 November (5pm PST) at the Midpoint of Pisces.  The Cusp of Gemini is the quintessential point of Letting Go.  Neptune is a Powerful planet, so we’re likely to begin to Feel some Neptune Energy before we’re done with our Big Challenge.  The most Important thing to Remember about Neptune is that it renders the Material World Confusing. 

It also adds Clarity to our view of the Spiritual World, but that Confusion is what we want to Pay Attention to here, because Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, and Growth is what we want.  But, we have to Avoid reacting to Confusion by trying to “Figure It Out.”  If we Intellectualize it, we will Restrict our Growth to Zero, because it’s our Intellectual Cage that Constrains our Limited World View and with it our Limited Reality. 

Confusion is one of the most Precious and Powerful Gifts we’ll ever be Given; don’t spoil it by Thinking it out of Existence.  Relish it.  Be Excited by it.  Breathe, do Kegels.  Don’t Tap Out your Confusion; Tap out your Need to Intellectualize your Confusion.

“Even though I’m really tempted to make up Stories that can Rescue me from Feeling Confused, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  We can’t Tolerate Confusion because it takes us back to when we weren’t Safe, when someone who was supposed to Love us was Abusing us, and it didn’t make sense, and we had to Figure Out how to Escape.  It was a matter of Life and Death.

Like Curiosity, one of our highest Priorities should be Allowing Confusion to be an Emotion that Stands on its own.  A Real Emotion doesn’t have a direct or indirect Object.  It’s “I Feel Angry,” not “I Feel Angry about…” or “-at.”  Feelings are Intransitive, if you know your grammar rules.  The modifiers we so often put on our Feeling-words take them out of the realm of Emotion and put them in the realm of Thought.  The “-about” and “-at” and other Object-like additions are Thoughts, not Feelings.

In Truth, because we’re so seldom in the Present Moment, and because we aren’t Omniscient, we never actually know the Sources of our Emotions.  We Feel Angry.  Period.  We don’t know Why.  We can know what Triggered our Anger, maybe, if we’re Aware of what transpired just before we Felt it.  But even that just tells us what the Trigger was, not the Cause.  We might be Angry because an Unconscious Abuse Memory was just Triggered, and maybe the actual Triggering was a brown coat. 

Sure, we can make up Stories about the person who was wearing the brown coat, to Imagine that they were doing all manner of awful things to us, because our Unconscious Memory is about all manner of awful things.  But they’re Innocent.  Even the Antichrist is Innocent.  We have no idea who in our Personal or Cultural or Karmic History he reminds us of.  Pontius Pilate perhaps, or Brad the Impaler, or Adolf Hitler.  For many of us, those Concentration Camps and Death Chambers are a very recent Memory, even in Linear Time.

I was born nine months to the day after the Firebombing of Hamburg.  I didn’t even know Hamburg was Firebombed until I looked up when Dresden was Firebombed because I was wondering why my teachers always said that my German accent sounded so authentic and because I used to paint pictures of cities on fire and because I used to have so many Memories and Experiences of No Way Out.  And then there was the Firebombing of Tokyo – look that one up.  Not to mention Vietnam. 

See, what’d I tell you, Abuse Memories already.

Ends and Means IV

In her Cosmic News, Kelley Hunter also contributes valuable Insights on the New Moon and especially on the 16 November (when the Mean Nodes catch up and reach Cancer) Venus Station.  Find Kelley’s Wisdom at…

https://www.mynewsletterbuilder.com/email/newsletter/1413709324

Her Insight suggests that, if the results of voting in the US are delayed, the news will favor “that which nurtures and protects Life.”  Of course a Racist or Nationalist would claim they are doing just that, and in a narrow sense they are, but it would be rooted in Fear, and when we Manifest from Fear, Fear is what we Manifest.  Fear doesn’t “nurture and protect Life” except in a very superficial and temporary way.

We need to stay Mindful of a fundamental astrological “fact” – the 21st Century was born under a Pluto-Chiron Initiation at 12 Sagittarius, “A flag turning into an Eagle, the Eagle turning into a Chanticleer saluting the Dawn.” 

The flag represents folks who Identify with their Nationality, Ethnicity, or Race more than they Identify with their Individuality or their Huperity or their Soul or their Species or their Planet.  They’re being replaced in this Century by far-seeing Eagle, Who sees the World through a larger Perspective.  Eagle is subsequently replaced as the logo of the Century by the Dawn, Enlightenment. 

The 18th Century “Age of Enlightenment” is also, and more appropriately, called the Age of Reason, and most of the Death Drive on the Planet today results from too much Reason.  The 21st Century Enlightenment is not about Reason, but about Ascension, or Merging and Collaborating with the Natural Flow of Co-Creation and Empathy with All of Mother Gaia’s Children – Animal, Vegetable, and Mineral, whether bigger or smaller than a breadbox.  Saint Francis of Assisi rather than Saint Augustine of Hippo.

We also discovered something interesting when we noticed our indirect reference to The Tower in the previous post, and investigated the 16th Harmonic (a “Semi-Octile” or 22½ Degrees).  The Tower represents “the principle of Restoration, renovation, and de-structuring of old forms” (Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook, p.82). 

The purple lines already drawn on the Cuspal chart in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/11/05/ends-and-means-ii/ Illuminate an Exact Septile Yod to the North Node from Mars and Saturn.  A Septile Yod occurs when two planets are both Triseptile (154½ Degrees) to a third planet, and Asks us to Pay Attention to Timing.  In 5D, when we’re In the Flow, Timing is Everything.  (We won’t notice it, because we’ll be in the Flow, but while we’re still in 3D it behooves us to Pay Attention to Timing, as practice for 5D.) And the Mars-Saturn Cycle says that The Most Important Thing is Action.

This Waxing Mars-Saturn Septile tells us that Action at this point in Linear Time will be very Powerful and Germinal.  The results may not be immediately obvious – as Energies usually do, they may wait for the Waxing Square before they reveal themselves fully.  This Mars-Saturn Cycle was Initiated last April at 9 Capricorn, “An Angel Carrying a Harp” – we’re beginning to see what Dan Scranton’s Channel meant when they said that Adeptness “comes when you are so certain that what you desire is on its way to you that you bask in the present moment and in whatever energy that you do have access to.”

So even if the results of the current election allows the Corporate-owned Media to continue to fuel itself on Fear, the cohort of Women entering Politics in the US here will bear Fruit at the Mars-Saturn Square – which happens just as they’re being sworn in, in January 2019.

The South Node in the New Moon chart is Exactly at the Midpoint between Saturn and Mars, 24½ Degrees from each.  24½ Degrees is actually closer to the 15th Harmonic than the 16th.  The 15th Harmonic (24 Degrees) or The Devil represents Levity toward that which ” ‘bedevils’ us” (Arrien, p.78).  As we pointed out earlier, we couldn’t find a more perfect Metaphor for the South Node.

So what about the New Moon itself?  Anything near the 16th Harmonic from it?  It turns out to be near the Midpoint between Venus and Mercury, which both happen to be Standing Still when the Mean Node retrogrades into Cancer at the Ides of November and also begins to help promote “that which nurtures and protects life.”  Mercury forms a Waxing Novile to Venus, which advises that Meditation and Prayer is a most Powerful Action this month.

The Mercury-Venus Cycle is about Becoming and Being Aware of our own Values.  The current one began in early March at 28 Pisces, “A fertile Garden under the Full Moon reveals a variety of full-grown Vegetables.”  That, and all of its Implications of Abundance and Well-Being, is our Image to PIAVA in our Meditations – the Arcturians remind us that “if we Want to Receive something that we’ve been Asking for,” we’ll probably have to access it Energetically before we can access it Physically.

The Venus-Mercury Initiation was also in the same Degree as Chiron, which puts us in a position where we can Choose between Despair and Miracles about our Connection to our Values – or about our Values themselves if they’re Obsolete.  Choose Miracles by Poor-Sweethearting yourself whenever you aren’t “so certain that what you desire is on its way to you that you bask in the present moment and in the energy that you do have access to.”

Since the position of the New Moon is refracted by its Conjunction with asteroid Eurydike (Trust), the Venus-Mercury Midpoint is less than 2 Degrees from the New Moon, making 17th-Harmonic Angles between the Moon and each planet. 

The 17th Harmonic is represented by The Star, which signifies Self-Sovereignty (Arrien p.85).  With Self-Sovereignty, we don’t really care what seeps out of the election; we just Manifest the Reality we Want to Live in, by Becoming and Being Authentic, and being Neutral to any Patriarchal or other Resistance we meet while we Persist in working around and beyond it.

Ends and Means III

We Forgot to mention that the Balsamic Moon signifies whatever Endings are necessary to Make Space for the New Beginnings that are about to be proposed by the New Moon that follows it.  It’s about Getting Ready to Become.  It symbolizes the Void – Clearing ourself so our Vessel is Empty for the New Energy to pour into us. 

For a Scorpio New Moon, it’s about Clarifying our Libran Relationships.  It’s about us and Other.  For the Xenophobes, it’s about failing to Own the Mirror and attempting to Banish Other.  As Rinpoche Pogo averred fifty years ago, this never actually works.  The Moon will leave Libra at 8pm EST, just as voting on the US East Coast finishes up.

Not sure whether Walt meant “us” or “U.S.”

The New Moon’s Midpoint of Scorpio is associated with the great Star Antares, and its Downfall of Obsession with Means rather than Ends, by our Cultural History rather than by astronomy.  Antares has actually moved on to 10 Sagittarius in our Era.  Mercury (Awareness), Hopi (Respect for All Things), and Atropos (Endings) are in or near 10 Sagittarius, so the days of Obsession with Racial “Purity” may be numbered.

The Balsamic phase of the Moon always has the concave side of the crescent to the right and the convex side to the left, like a “C.”  In the Crescent phase, which occurs a few days after the New Moon, the concave side is always to the left, like a “D.”  The Balsamic Moon doesn’t always lie on Her back like that – compare it to July’s Balsamic Moon at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/07/08/quantum-jump-4/.

I also neglected to mention in the last post that in addition to Uranus and Jupiter, the Nodes are also Changing Signs.  As much weight as we lend to the Nodes, this is an important Transition.  Because she does a far better job than I would, I’ll let Stephanie Austin interpret this new Province in Time for us…

http://ecoastrology.com/forecast.html

“November 6, the Lunar Nodes shift from Leo-Aquarius to Cancer-Capricorn, where they remain for the next 18 months, emphasizing the need to deepen our connection with our emotions, with all our relations, and with the divine feminine. 

“The North Node symbolizes our spiritual frontier; an area which is often quite challenging, but also extremely growthful; the South Node represents karmic patterns and core beliefs which hold us back. 

“The Lunar Nodes are where the Moon crosses the ecliptic (the path of the Earth around the Sun), symbolizing the interrelationship between the Sun (Spirit), Moon (Soul) and Earth (Matter). 

“Besides encoding a tremendous amount of information about our spiritual journey, both personally and collectively, the zodiacal position of the Lunar Nodes also determines the archetypal impact of solar and lunar eclipses.”

“This nodal shift urges us to evolve towards the positive expressions of Cancer, which represents the feminine, yin, receptive principle – that which nurtures and protects life.  Cancer is also concerned with feelings, food, and family; becoming emotionally literate and empathic, able to discern what is healthy and what it toxic, and having a sense of roots, of belonging, and an inseparable bond with Mother Earth.

“The transiting South Node in Capricorn urges us to release the negative expressions of that sign – the avoidance of responsibility, blind obedience to tradition, and the misuse of authority, power, and resources. 

“The Lunar Nodes… will be in Cancer-Capricorn until May 2020; the last time was October 1998 to April 2000.  What was important for you during that period?  What are you being drawn towards now?“

2020 is also the Beginning of the Digital Age in earnest, with its threat that the only jobs left will be Mogul, Engineer, Coder, Server, and Call-Center Operator, if there any of those haven’t been roboticized yet.  And 2020 is when the Moon begins its ten-year Out of Bounds Cycle, which tends to make folks more Emotional and more Easily Manipulated by the Power-Mongers and Fear-Mongers.  The last time the Moon began its Out of Bounds Cycle was September 11, 2001.  Remember September 11, 2001?

Stephanie continues…

“This new moon falls on the midpoint between the last equinox and the next solstice.  To the ancient Celts and modern pagans, this is Samhain, where the veils between the worlds are thinnest, facilitating communication with both human and nature spirits.  It marks a time to go within, seek guidance from our ancestors, and reflect on the never ending cycle of death and rebirth. 

“This new moon, and all the other alignments described above remind us that: ‘Civilization may be unraveling in a lot of areas; some of its structures may be collapsing; but it is also in the midst of a tremendous upheaval of creativity – a flood of innovation and genius and love pouring out of millions upon millions of people – a Great Awakening that is far louder and stronger and more interesting than the sleepy resignation and corrosive maliciousness and ignominious decline that the media loves to obsess on’ — Rob Brezsny.”

Of course our own natal Nodes, primary indicators of our own Lifetime Mission and Held Emotions/Hidden Skills, are fixed by our birth.  It’s the contemporary “True” Node that Changes Sign on 6 November (10am PST); the “Mean” Node, which is the one we usually use here in Astrobuss, moves into Cancer on 15 November (5:30 pm PST).  The Mean Node is always Retrograde; the True Node can be either Retrograde or Direct.

The True Node zigs and zags a lot, so many folks smooth it’s path into a “Mean” location.  Mean as in average, not sadistic, though the South Node’s Self-Sabotage and In-Your-Face tendencies can feel Abusive at times.  But the South Node’s Motive is to Teach, not torture.  It only tortures when we refuse to Own our Held Emotions.  If we Feel tortured by our South Node, we need to take the Rebel chip off our shoulder and Listen Up.  It’s our own Habits that are being Lit Up.

What’s the Difference between the True Node and the Mean?  Most sources don’t bother to tell us which one they’re using.  Since they’re never more than 2 Degrees apart, it doesn’t usually matter a lot.  When I read the Sabian Symbols for my own natal Nodes, both Symbols, though quite Different, make sense.  However, this means that True and Mean Nodes can be in Different Signs, which may cause Disharmony because in 3D, adjacent Signs are always in Reaction to one another. 

Just as an example, the True Node will be in Cancer, but the Mean Node still in Leo, between 10am PST on 6 November and 5pm PST on 15 November.  Will the US election results be in limbo during that time?  I’ve never explored this Difference in Node types, so I have no idea.  But considering the Big Transition we’re in, the Desperation of the laggard Fear-Mongers, and the gilded and forked tongue of the Antichrist and His goons, I wouldn’t be Surprised.

If we use the notion from the previous post that…

“5D is about Directing our Imagination toward What We Want to Co-Create, and then Letting it Happen.  What actually happens Teaches us about what we still have to Learn.”

Or, as Dan Scranton’s Arcturian friends put it…

https://danielscranton.com/mastery-over-the-physical-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council-2/

“If you want to change your experience of reality, you can do that much more quickly than you can change reality.  If you want to receive something that you’ve been asking for, you will be able to access it energetically before you will be able to access it physically.

“When you can be at peace with the process and the unfolding, that means you have mastered the physical reality.  Mastery over the physical reality doesn’t come because you have figured out how to instantly manifest what you desire.  Mastery comes when you are so certain that what you desire is on its way to you that you bask in the present moment and in the energy that you do have access to.“

Then this may be a good test of how far the budding but still-Hidden Enlightenment has progressed in the USofA.  Except at the Beginning when the Heralds are trumpeting the news from the Towers, New Energies always Hide until there’s enough Inertia that it’s Safe for them to come out of the closet.  We’ll get to see how long it takes for the visible US to move into “that which nurtures and protects life.”

You can investigate your own natal True and Mean Nodes, or day-by-day Changes, by entering “true node,mean node” in the “Comma-Delimited List of Names” field, and typing in the relevant date and time ranges, at http://www.true-node.com/eph1/.  Remember to convert your times to “UT.”   You can find the difference between your local time and UT at https://time.is/UTC.

Ends and Means II

Asteroid Eurydike is the easy one – she’s sitting right behind the New Moon.  So this Moon has something about Trust to teach us.  What might it be?  Well, this triumvirate is one foot of a Yod (the green wedge, meaning Pay Attention!) to Nemesis (Ego Death).  The other foot is Chariklo (Confidence).  The green lines are Quincunxes, symbolizing Curiosity.  So our Lesson is about not Figuring It Out, but waiting to see what we Learn.  “I Wonder,” without an object – our assignment is to Wonder.

I was lucky enough this morning to catch what I seldom get to see – the Balsamic Moon lying on Her back…

The red stripes are limbs of the intervening Tree.  I’m more likely to work late and sleep late – folks say we’re at our peak during the time of day at which we were born, and I was born late in the day – and this phase of the Moon only occurs during the early hours.  Plus, for the first time in my Life, I’m now Living in a place where the Sky is Clear often enough to be able to follow Ms. Moon.

The New Moon chart (previous post) features two “Fezzes” – trapezoids – a Square Fez (with the nonparallel sides red) and a Trine Fez (nonparallel sides blue).  More Wondering, as Fezzes are best approached through their diagonal Quincunxes.  We can see what our Challenges might be, though, as the two Squares are…

• Truth (Veritas) Challenging (Square) Confidence (Chariklo) – are we Faking It somewhere in our Life?  Nothing wrong with Faking It, sometimes we have to Fake It till we Make it.  But the Real Thing is a lot better.  How to get there?  Maybe by Wondering where the need to Fake It arises, and Tapping that out?

• Our Comfort with Ego Death (Nemesis) Challenges our Relationship with God/Goddess (Neptune).  If we still Resist our natural Ego Deaths (it’s how we Grow), is that a sign that we don’t Trust God/Goddess?  If we aren’t Comfortable Delegating our Growth to a Higher Power, is that Hubris?  Nobody gets to 5D by Doing everything themself.  5D is about Directing our Imagination toward What We Want to Co-Create, and then Letting it Happen.  What actually happens Teaches us about what we still have to Learn.

The one Quincunx that’s in both Fezzes is between asteroid Truth (Veritas) and our Relationship to God/Goddess (Neptune).  We don’t want an Answer here, especially a “yes or no” Answer.  We just want to keep an eye out for anything that happens in our Life that implies we might be Faking It.  For instance, do I always need to predict what will happen, or get things “my way”?  Or am I willing to Publish my Request (that is, to Imagine my Wants Manifesting), then wait to see what God/Goddess Co-Creates to complement my Effort?

The 7 November (8am PST) New Moon chart itself is a lot simpler than our Effort to Avoid Conclusions will be. 

The New Moon Action happens in the Midpoint of the Signs.  But, as we mentioned, there are a couple of big Sign Changes going on too – Uranus backing into Aries on 6 November (11am PST), and Jupiter entering Sagittarius on 8 November (4:30 am PST).  These are the other poles of the Signs – their Cusps.  Lots of Action here…

Our Mission (North Node) is the Clear Leader here, standing out on one side and knitting the rest of the chart together like Spider Grandmother.  Soul (Uranus) and Sustenance (Ceres) Challenge (Square) the Nodes.  Are we Willing to Let Soul Sustain us instead of Ego? 

It’s not easy to pick out – look for the two green Xs –  but Ceres-Uranus is the focus of a Yin Gate here.  So we can Expect Paradox to be involved.  We know Confusion is the first sign of Growth, so all this looks great, right?

We’re also likely to be granted Epiphanies about our Relationship to God/Goddess (Mjölnir to Neptune – the orange lines, though they may look red to you). 

And we’re Challenged (T-Square) to Take Responsibility for our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar).  This Challenge has something to do with Pain, Miracles, and Boundaries (Chiron Opposite Pallas).  Do we Dwell in our Pain, or do we Poor-Sweetheart ourself about it?

What do our Survival Instincts say about the US elections?  Do we know for sure if those are Intuitions, or just Fear that our ancient Karma will repeat?  It’s going to be really Easy to Forget that We’re Co-Creators and Imagine What We Fear.  Imagination though is one of the most Powerful ways to Manifest.  It’s the V in PIAVA.  By all means stay with your Image of your Karma long enough to Recognize that you’ve seen it before.  But then you want to bomb it back to the Stone Age where it belongs.

“No longer lend your Strength to that which you wish to be Free From,” is Jewel’s way of putting this, and I don’t know any better way of saying it…

Ends and Means

Now that the Life Force has finished “Attacking” us, we can move on to the next Province in Linear Time.  Uranus and Jupiter are Changing Signs, which is a Big Deal we’ll discuss.  But the more obvious astroevent is the 7 November New Moon (8am PST) at the Midpoint of Scorpio.  The Midpoints of the Fixed Signs are often referred to as the “Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse,” symbolized by the four Royal Stars of Persia. 

The Royal Star associated with the Midpoint of Scorpio is Antares.  Each Royal Star promises Great Success, but each has a major Caveat.  The downfall of Antares is Triggered by getting stuck on the Means and losing sight of the Ends.  The Ends of course are our Missions.  Since our minds are Dual and our Missions multidimensional, we always have a difficult time grokking them.  So we Approximate, aim our Efforts in the closest Direction we can perceive – Consciously or Unconsciously.

If we are True to our Mission, we’ll keep one eye on when our Approximation is Trending away from our Sacred Mission.  If we fail at this, we fall Victim to the Antarean Caveat.  This Attention to the Trend of our Energies and Actions takes a significant amount of Awareness and Sensitivity.  For the next month (till the next New Moon) we need to make this Attention and Sensitivity Priority Number One.

For instance, this blog, which I’ve been doing in one form or another for thirty years, is my Seva.  My Mission has something to do with Transformation and Trance-Re-Formation (North Node Conjunct Pluto), with helping Mother Gaia throw off the yoke of modern Huperity’s failure to Recognize that the rest of Gaia’s Children are Huperity’s Relations.  Or something like that.  My Seva serves that Mission or its Approximation.

For a long time – more than thirty years – I’ve wondered why I’ve never gotten more Recognition for my work using (and, to my mind, improving) astrology.  But today I Realize that astrology is not among my Ends; it’s my Means.  It’s a vehicle through which I pursue my Mission.  Ego wants to be Acknowledged, but if I allowed that to divert my Attention, that would well illustrate the Antarean Caveat.  Today I see how my prenatal contract with my father required him to Program me to Distrust Ego.  Namaste to his Soul.

Invariably, when I see Progress toward Respecting and Reanimating Nature and Mother Gaia and Her Other Children, I’m inspired to Tears of Gratitude.  That’s a pretty reliable signpost pointing toward Mission.  Feeling Good about what I’m doing toward that is Important, because Confidence might Allow me to pursue my Mission more effectively.  But I have to Remember that Confidence is a Means, not an End.  I have to be Alert for situations where Confidence and Feeling Good aren’t Dedicated Fully to my Mission, but pursued for their own sake.

Hmmm, Confidence; where’s Chariklo?  Distrust; where’s Eurydike?  Ego; where’s Nemesis?  These things are actually in the New Moon chart, now that I look at it…

Let’s talk more about this soon.

Fire, Earth & Air 4

Whoa, speaking of the Life Force and Freud’s Death Drive, did I ever get hit today with a slab of the latter!  It wasn’t about “I’d rather Die than Feel that!” but “I’d rather Die than go through that again – Just Shoot Me Now.”  Maybe that’s Depression.  It certainly leaned toward Rage, with Powerlessness added.  The sense that the situation is Intolerable, all Exits are blocked, and just bailing out is the best course, that the Negative Rewards of the current path far outweigh the Positive Possibilities of all of the rest of the Lifetime.

While I’ve thankfully mostly Forgotten, this was a very familiar Emotion from my Childhood, and certainly historically Related to Abuse.  What Triggered the episode was a vivid picture in my Imagination of what the Digital Age will be like if the Present Trends aren’t reversed – Government and Business united with the purpose of harvesting every scrap of joie de vivre from “Commoners” and every scrap of Wealth left in the Commons.  The way ICE has been treating Children, and the Department of Education has been treating Student Loans.

Fortunately, these Varuna-Station Energies are Self-Resolving Challenges, and while the Experience was vivid, it wasn’t all-consuming, and faded in Intensity fairly quickly, especially after I Recovered enough to Remember that the Patriarchy is Dying, and to Poor-Sweetheart my Inner Child.  So it was clearly a Rooting-Out of the dregs of that colossal Victimization Energy that has characterized Colonialism since at least 1492, and other forms of Abuse since Forever.

As we’ve said many times, Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp Karma.  Every time we Re-Experience our Traumas it is an Opportunity to Let Go of our Attachment to them.  For the first few zillion recurrences, we have so little Chance to Realize and Act.  But eventually comes the Dawn.  And every time any one of us makes the Transition from Victim to Choice, and from Self to Whole, we reinforce the Global Transformation.

Stretching our Sensitivity to five Degrees is perfectly legitimate if we shift our Perspective from What We’re Experiencing to What We’re Initiating, and this is probably never a bad idea.  If we make this shift with the Varuna-Station chart, it includes a Grand Sextile, one of the most Blessed of astrological Configurations…

We add Chiron – Pain and Miracles, certainly Who visited me today.  The Trine (long blue lines) is about “dumb-luck” Blessings, they happen to us, without Invitation.  The Grand Sextile includes two Grand Trines.  But the Sextile (shorter blue lines) is a Blessing that keeps on Giving, once we kick-start it with our own Personal Effort.  A Grand Sextile Energizes a Virtuous Spiral, where one Effort supports all the Others.

The Spokes in this one are…

• Varuna-North Node… our Mission Energizing and Energized by the Life Force
• Lachesis… Choosing when to Change Timelines, and Juno, the Meristem of Consciousness
• Chiron… Self-Empathy
• South Node… Held Emotions and Hidden Skills
• Mercury… Intellect/Communication, and Jupiter… Expansion
• Makemake/Manifestation… Aletheia/Truth… and Pallas/Boundaries

The Meristem is the growing tip of a Plant tissue, comprising the botanical equivalent of Stem Cells.  Imagine these six Energies all Operating Collaboratively and Synergistically in your Life.  While this Configuration will last only several days, nothing prevents us from capturing the Energy and Embedding it into our Life.  Do that with your Intention and Imagination.  It might help spur your Imagination to start with one facet of your Life (such as Health, Freedom, Abundance, whatever you’re working on), but you can do the same with many different facets, and then with your Life As A Whole.

If we don’t “borrow” Chiron by stretching our Sensitivity, the Vacancy in the Almost-Grand-Sextile is 2 Aries, “A comedian reveals human nature.”  Rudhyar’s take is “The capacity to look objectively at oneself and others.”  We need to add “with Levity” – Angels can Fly because they take themselves Lightly.

A final Configuration that we should consider in the Varuna-Station chart is one that we might call a “Cat’s Cradle”…

It consists of four Interlocking Yods (“Pay Attention!”) that Emphasize four of its corners, but more importantly, it’s a nest of four Interlocking Quincunxes.  A Quincunx is the Angle formed when two planets are five (“Quin”) Signs (“unx,” because there are twelve of them) apart.  The Quincunx embodies Curiosity, preferably “Permanent” Curiosity, as in Awe and Wonder.  “Left-brain” Curiosity, the sort that is compelled to Solve the Puzzle, encages the World and Freezes it.  It is Anti-Life.

“Right-brain” Curiosity on the other hand – Awe and Wonder – evokes Spirit.  It Recognizes the Living Mystery and is Humbled before it.  Among Faith, Hope, and Love, the greatest of these is Love.  Why?  Because it eschews Judgment.  Right-brain Curiosity also eschews Judgment.  Love fades when Conclusions replace Curiosity – even when the Conclusions are Positive.

We celebrate Trine Bridges and Quincunx Bridges when they create Easy Paths across a T-Square.  The Diamond Star itself is a T-Square with two Trine Bridges.  Here we have just one Square, but what a Celebration of alternate Easy Paths, practically an inverted geodesic dome!  The Challenge (Square) is presented by the Relationship between…

The Most Important Thing is our Survival Instincts (Saturn-Quaoar)

and…

The Truth Is That We Have Encaged What We Are Capable of Creating (Aletheia-Pallas-Makemake).

My Depressive Life-Suppressing Colonial and Fascist Image of the Digital Age is what I will Manifest if I don’t substitute an Image that Supports Life and Freedom and Empathy and Compassion and Collaboration and Cooperation.  And my Manifestation, in whichever form, will be a tiny but critical piece of the Global Co-Creation.

The Digital Age – which begins in earnest in late 2020 and runs for a Century and a half – begins with the first of seven consecutive Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions in Air Signs.  Jupiter (Expansion) and Saturn (Contraction), both Social planets, govern Economic Activity.  For additional detail see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/02/19/winding-down-the-industrial-era/. 

Prior to the Digital Age, Earth-Sign Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions characterized the Industrial Age that ended in 1980.  Efforts to revive it, with its focus on the manipulation of Matter, are doomed to failure.  In Linear Time its Timeline has Expired. 

A series of 22nd-Century Conjunctions in Water Signs follows the Digital Age.  Like the Bugis, Huper culture may become Water-based, as sea levels rise.  And Economic Activity may revolve around the Scarcity of Fresh Water.

Some relevant perspective from the Sidhe Mariel, in conversation with Huper David Spangler, from Engaging with the Sidhe (p.87-88)…

“Mariel: Joy is part of who we are.  But do you understand and experience it as we do?  Joy for us is not an emotion of happiness but a relationship we have with what might be called the ‘energies of life.’  Joy enhances and at times even makes possible flow and connection…

“It is not something we feel in response to good things happening in our lives.  It is a quality we generate to add to life.  Where there is joy, all other energies flow more gracefully and powerfully.  Thought is enhanced.  Feeling is enhanced.  Presence is enhanced…

“We offer our joy so that you may take it into yourselves and act with greater connectedness and wisdom.  Your challenge is that your connections with the world and with each other are broken.  Joy can help you mend this.

“David: Most people, I think, would look at the state of humanity and of the world and not feel joyous.  In fact, people can get angry with those who feel joy, feeling they are not serious enough or grounded enough.  How can you be joyous, they ask, when there is so much suffering, so much pain, so much anger and evil in the world?

“Mariel: I understand.  But I would simply repeat that this is a mistaken understanding of what joy is.  You confuse it with happiness or pleasure, with things going as you want them to.  It is a reaction.  For us, it is an action.  It is a gift.  It is a flowing out of who we are.  It is a recognition that if we wish life to go smoothly and if we wish to be as connected as possible, we must do something to allow this.  What we do is joy.

“This is not just a Sidhe ability.  It is your ability, too.  It comes from a loving heart.  You need to change your thinking about the nature of joy, and perhaps my words will help in this regard.  We do not wish you to deny or overlook the darkness and brokenness in your world.  Joy isn’t a turning away of your vision to see only what is pleasing and beautiful.  Joy is a power, perhaps second only to love.

“Love defines and shapes the path forward, hope opens the gates to take that path, and joy strengthens and empowers your walking.  None of these things are emotions alone, certainly not in the simple way you define emotions.  They are powers.  They govern how things proceed, how things act.  They affect the probability of connection and the likelihood of graceful flow and exchange.  They make life possible.

“Do not underestimate joy nor deny it in the face of evil.  Joy is the fire of fiery hope; it is the power you need to confront the darkness coming to the surface of your world.  We are joy because we choose to be.  We choose to generate it.  This is a choice you can make, too.  It is a choice not of how you will see your world but of how you will see yourself and your own capabilities.”