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2020 B

October 20, 2016

By 2020 we’re still working on these 22-25 Degrees!  Good idea to put extra effort into our very busy and demanding homework on these Degrees now; the more we do now, the easier it will be later!  The Universe isn’t Random – this long span of working with these Degrees is a primer for the 2020 Saturn-Pluto.  When we’re speaking of Huperity at large, Saturn-Pluto makes the Lizards jump for Joy, creating some of the bleakest times for Huperity.  Like the massive earthquakes in Haiti and Chile, or “9/11,” or NAFTA and the WTO, or AIDS – correlates to our last four Saturn-Pluto adventures.

The 2020 Saturn-Pluto occurs at 23 Capricorn, “Bravery in Combat” – which it is likely to feel like if it turns out to be a showdown between the Patriarchy and its successor, or between the Lizards and the Mammals – we’ll bring this up later.

It draws a big crowd – it’s a Stellium of six planets between 22 and 26 Degrees of Capricorn – Sun, Ceres, Saturn, Pluto, Mercury, and Hopi.

 That combination has the potential to Change Huper Herstory significantly.

The Stellium Squares Eris, which is Stationary, and makes a Minor Tricolor to Chaos-Asbolus: Eris Square Stellium Quincunx Chaos-Asbolus Sextile Eris…

“I Wonder how the Infinite Nature (Chaos) of my Intuition (Asbolus) will influence the Stress between my Unconscious Trance (Pluto) and my Conscious Will (Saturn) and help me Accept the Truth (Eris)?”

We’ll go into the Moon’s deeper meaning of Instinct and Authenticity – which should totally Change our Attitude toward Pluto-Moon, in a little while.

The biggest Configuration in the 2020 Pluto-Saturn Initiation chart is a Diamond Star (a T-Square and a Yod pointing at the same planet) to a Stationary Nemesis.  Pallas-Veritas and Chaos-Asbolus form the base of the T-Square.  Hopi-Venus and Eris form the base of the Yod.  As part of this Configuration…

Nemesis Square Chaos-Asbolus Quincunx Stellium Trine Nemesis forms a Major Tricolor…

“I Wonder how the Infinite Nature (Chaos) of my Intuition (Asbolus) will influence the Stress between my Unconscious Trance (Pluto) and my Conscious Will (Saturn) and help me Understand how I sabotage myself (Nemesis)?”

Which brings us directly back to the Moon.  In mundane 3D Reality, the Moon symbolizes our “Random” Emotions.  Someone cuts us off in traffic, and one day we’re shaking our fist at them, the next day we slow down and make space for them, assuming they have a good reason to hurry, maybe even say a quick Prayer for their Safety.  Venus on the other hand represents our Consistent Emotions – our Values.  Unless there are extenuating circumstances or superior Values, we seldom Feel Enthused when someone commits murder.  The third level of the Emotional panoply is Vesta, which stands for our Unconscious Beliefs.  It takes Experience to figure out which of our Values arise from our Heart (Venus) and which arise from our Karma or Programming or Archetypes (Vesta).

Now, let’s look at those Random Emotions.  Chances are, the fellow (it probably was a male) whom you got mad at for cutting you off was probably himself Angry, maybe he thought you were slowing him down, or maybe he was just having a bad day, or maybe all of his days were bad ones.  The person you didn’t get mad at, probably did have a good reason to be in a hurry, rushing to the hospital or pick up their kid from school on time.  Feelings don’t exist in a vacuum, they’re a Field, and we have to be very careful to distinguish our own from other peoples’.

What does that tell us about the Moon?  It represents our Instincts!

How often do we Trust our Instincts?  When we’re cut off in traffic, we don’t need to invest a lot of intellectual firepower in figuring out why it happened, so we just back off the throttle, either out of consideration or out of caution.  When someone gives us a very subtle insult, the issue is a lot different.  Do we allow ourself to React Honestly?  Do we consider who it was that insulted us?  Do we take a time out and investigate whether it’s really just an old Unconscious wound of our own that was triggered by an innocent comment, and not an insult at all?  

If we were living in Yintegrity, and it was Safe to do so (it wouldn’t cost us our livelihood or our Life), we might React Honestly, watch where the chips fell, and iron out the complications accordingly – readjust our Relationship if it really was an undeserved insult, or make amends if their defense was credible.  Then examine our own wounds later, in the privacy of our own Psyche (if we didn’t have a bruise already, the insult wouldn’t have hurt).  If we really Trusted our Instincts, we might not even care if our Livelihood or Life was threatened – we might take it as an indication that Change was on the schedule, and follow the thread with Curiosity.

Astrology always gives us plenty of Opportunity to practice.  The Moon crosses or Squares or Opposes Pluto once a week!  It won’t be as intense, but Moon over Pluto will have a lot of core similarity to Pluto over Moon.  This will be excellent practice for all of us – when the Moon crosses Pluto, how do we Relate to our Instincts?  Do we Learn anything about how we Relate to our Instincts?  Here’s our schedule for the next month…

  • 21 October, noon PDT (plus or minus an hour or two)
  • 26 October, 1am PDT
  • 5 November, 2am PDT
  • 12 November, 8pm PDT

Let me know how this turns out – do you Observe anything useful?  Learn anything useful?

Honesty and Trust (and Discernment) around our Instincts is a big part of our Authenticity – we could think of the Moon as the local surrogate for Eris.  We routinely discount her because we’re programmed to “be Nice.”  Authenticity is represented by the Eighteenth Harmonic – planets that are separated by Angles that are multiples of twenty Degrees, half a Novile.  We can Learn a lot about our Relationship to our Authenticity by looking at which planets in our natality (birth chart) are separated by multiples of twenty Degrees.

Next we need to look at what else is going on in 2020; it’s actually more significant than the Pluto-Saturn Initiation.  The Pluto-Saturn Cycle spans thirty-some years (Pluto moves faster at some times than others), while the more important Cycle we’ll talk about spans two centuries, and will have a big impact on our Lives.  We hint at it strongly in Reasons for Optimism below.

Yintegrity in Public

May 29, 2016

A reader comments… 

“We agree that the current astrology is encouraging us all to increasing Yintegrity (love that my spellcheck knows that word and to even capitalize it!).  However, I’ve been reading tons of Brian Browne Walker’s I Ching and the entire premise of that ancient book is all about control in dealing with the exterior world.  Perhaps it’s just what I’m asking about these days, but every answer seems to be about non-action, and it feels like the I Ching’s recommendation is to Hide Truth More. 

“Now that interpretation by me could just be my Inner Child – having moved from shy, scared five year old to angry ‘I will cut your head off’ seven year old – sadly protesting ‘What’s the use of knowing Inner Truth if I can’t express it?’ but the balancing of Inner Truth and Outer Power in the World feels nearly contradictory.  That’s Either/Or I suppose.  Maybe it’s knowing your Inner Truth and then acting skillfully to achieve the results you want in the Outer World?  Rather than the interpretation of Stuffing My True Self?
 
“I’d really like you to say more about the Virgoan ‘Who, Me?’  I’m guessing that any time I say ‘I’d never do that!’ it’s a clue.  And believe me, I’ve encountered some very angry, vengeful Inner bits lately.  I am working hard to send Major Love Streams when I recognize them (either as Voices or in the Body), and generally they then fade, but it must be grooved neural pathways that keep lighting them up.”

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Yintegrity and Expression

You bet.  The Yangtegrity Patriarchy is fading, but it’s still by far the dominant paradigm.  Yangtegrity, by the way, for newbies, means doing what you said you were going to do, while Yintegrity means doing what you Feel like doing, moment to moment – that is, Trusting your Instincts.  Yangtegrity does Plan-Execute, while Yintegrity does PIAVA-Change the Subject.  To Live Yintegrity in a Yangtegrity World, in general we need to minimize our Commitments, be willing to Renegotiate often, and to Make Amends when Renegotiation isn’t possible and the Relationship is Important.  

Scary, eh?  Stretching our Yintegrity is a huge Risk, and one we’ve been warned against since we were infants.  Many of us were programmed to control even our most basic bodily functions, and many of us are sick from doing it.  So yes, of course the Olde Ego is going to come up with every excuse it can – from ancient Fears to manifesting coaches and friends and books, to literally disease – to warn us away from Yintegrity.  

In my limited experience the I Ching is oriented toward “success,” which is an important term in the Competition playbook, so the I Ching may be, like Greek Mythology, a handbook for enlisting in the then-new Patriarchy.  It sounds like you have a lot more experience with it than I – do you think that may be relevant?  If so, then yes, it would not encourage Yintegrity, it would more likely encourage social and economic success over Self-Trust.  Even its covert emphasis on morality is an Idealism, a spinoff of the Patriarchal mindset.

I’m definitely not advocating that we alienate a lot of people with our version of “Radical Honesty,” by any means.  The bottom line about removing our Masks is about getting Honest with Ourself.  So, for instance, if there’s a particular element of Pleasing that we’re programmed to perform for “success,” which creates a Reaction within our own Psyche – for instance, one of our Epiphanies might be to connect those headaches or indigestion that we get, with choosing to overlook the behavior of a particular client or co-worker or partner, which behavior we’d never tolerate in a close friend – then we might “Wonder how we can Change our Response to that person to eliminate the negative personal consequences, without losing an account or a job or a partnership.”

That’s a very complex sentence, but it says what I want it to say, so let me re-say it.  Suppose we get headaches or indigestion once in while.  And suppose we have a client or co-worker or partner whose behavior we tolerate in order not to rock the boat, but whose behavior we would never tolerate from a close friend.  And suppose one day we notice that there’s a connection here – our headaches or indigestion are often preceded by interactions with this client or co-worker or partner, or initiated by thoughts about these interactions.  

That would be the sort of Epiphany that wouldn’t surprise us here in this astrological province.  In Response to our Epiphany we might “Wonder how we can Change our Response to that person to eliminate the negative personal consequences, without alienating the person.”  Our interactions with people, or rather, the interactions between our Archetypes or Masks and their Archetypes or Masks, can literally make us sick.  But if we can step outside the Archetype we can immediately see that there are a million ways to Change the dynamics of any relationship that are a lot easier than “Just get on the bus, Gus.”

Before we can step outside the Mask, we need to become Conscious that we’re under the Spell (or Curse) of the Archetype.  A Pluto Mjolnir under an Eris-Uranus Initiation sets up very fertile conditions for that sort of Insight, especially with Nessus (Abuse/Privilege) and OR10 (Upwellings from the Deeps) Initiating Pallas (Boundaries).  Wherever in our Lives we don’t Live in constant Ecstasy, that’s an neon candidate for a PIAVA like “I Wonder what sort of Archetype or Mask I’m not Conscious of here,” or “Ganeshi, please remove all Obstacles to complete Freedom of Action for me around this.”  

I don’t expect to wake up in a Yintegrity World in mid-June.  I’ll be delighted if I’m living my own Yintegrity ten percent more of the time, and that my close relationships have increased in Yintegrity.  Once we replace Money with Community again (which the next four years of hard times may promote, and which the end of the Industrial Age may permit), then we’ll find that Yintegrity has begun to spread into what under Yangtegrity we consider “Livelihood.”  Working on a Community task because it promotes the “wealth” of the whole Community may Feel a lot more Yintegrous than working for Money.

The breaking up of Society into opposing rhetorical armies, and the Internet’s role in it, which we usually see as a product of the Polarization in the 1/1/2000 chart, is actually a step toward social Yintegrity.  We just haven’t done it long enough yet to notice that while someone might share my Reaction to The Donald, they definitely don’t share my Reactions to Freedom of Speech or Infidelity or Broccoli or Freedom to Exploit or Immigration or Uncle Milty or Abhortion or Capitalism or Glyphosate or the Color Puce or the Patriarchy.  

Once we figure out that we actually have no control over other people’s Reactions to us, we suddenly get Permission to just be Effortlessly Honest.  We’re able to maintain the illusion that we can successfully manipulate other people’s Reactions only because they were programmed in the same language that we were programmed in.  When we move beyond Rhetoric to Communication, the World Changes.  Much of our Lives will still run on Rhetoric, because it’s so much more efficient, but without the Masks we can be a lot more flexible.

The I Ching dates from the first several centuries of the third Millennium behind us, in the last half of the Age of Aries – the Age of Heroes.   I doubt that we can date the Patriarchy to this era; more likely we can date the advent of written justifications for the Patriarchy to this era.  Some folks assume the Patriarchy arose as a result of Agriculture, because it allowed the accumulation of surpluses and hence Greed and Inequality.  That would date it as far back as the Age of Leo or before, though it may have taken a millennium or two to develop.  Following Icke and Sitchin, we could make a case for the Anunnaki fostering the birth of the Patriarchy in its current form at the beginning of the Age of Aries.

The Age of Heroes would certainly have been a fertile time for Patriarchy to bloom.  The quarter-millennium around the development of the I Ching was a very busy time.  It would have been between the Phitile and the Waning Square of the Age of Aries, the time of its culmination.  Confucius, Lao Tzu, Zarathustra, Gautama Buddha, and Homer (author or transcriber of the most germinal of the Greek Myths about the defeat of the Matriarchy) all lived in this era, and the earliest version of the Old Testament was written.  

Between 575 and 577 BCE, a Triple Initiation occurred, between Pluto, Neptune, and Uranus.  That would have symbolized a huge shift in the Unconscious Psyche of Huperity, hence the birth of all the Patriarchal heroes.  

The three Initiations occurred in 10-15 Taurus…

  • Pluto Initiated Neptune in 577 BCE at 10 Taurus, “A Red Cross nurse.”
  • Pluto Initiated Uranus in 576 BCE at 12 Taurus, “A young couple window-shopping.
  • Neptune Initiated Uranus in 575 BCE at 15 Taurus, “Head covered with a rakish silk hat, muffled against the cold, a man braves a storm: The courage needed to meet the crises precipitated by social ambition.

The Neptune-Uranus (relationship of collective to individual) symbol reeks of Inequality; Pluto-Neptune’s (transformation of culture) nurse, while having perhaps some autonomy working for the Red Cross, would in general be constrained by their hierarchical superior, the doctor; Pluto-Uranus (transformation of the individual) is about material acquisitiveness that probably serves the Individuals more than their Community. 

A Triple Initiation of Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto will occurs every 4,000 years or so, the next one occurring around 3370, in Gemini, in the Age of Aquarius.  Pluto has an eliptical orbit, so the span would vary.

 

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Yintegrity and “Who, Me?”

Yes, any comment with an “I” or “me” in it is a doorway to Consciousness of our Masks.  

  • I’d never do that!
  • I’m one of those people who…
  • I hate it when…
  • How could they do that to me!
  • I’d do anything for Love, but I won’t do that!

The only exception might be “I Feel <adverb>, or other statements about the present moment.  And of course any “I sometimes…” statements.  Anytime you’re labeling or implying that you or someone else is always a certain way, you’re looking at a Mask.

Remember though that Patterns – Habits – make Life possible.  If we had to stop and think about which muscle to contract and which one to extend every time we needed to raise a hand to scratch our nose, we wouldn’t get much done.  Some of us may have experienced something on that order while stoned – it makes you appreciate programming.  It’s when one program always fires, or a program fires inappropriately, that we get in trouble.  

Like that co-worker or client or partner that “makes us sick.”  We always have an infinite number of options in the Present Moment; it’s when we aren’t in the Present Moment that we know we’re stuck in an Archetype.  How can we recognize this?  Well, any time we don’t have an infinite number of options, we’re not Present.  So if we’re stewing about something, without imagining a hundred different alternative ways we could have responded, we just PIAVA, “I Wonder why I feel Limited here.”  

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn VI

March 28, 2016

More comments around Privilege…

“I’ve done so much mirroring over the last few years; I even carry a small mirror in my purse for those ‘special occasions’  and finger it discreetly when the need arises.  I also have a mirror set up in the library that I can angle towards the direction of whichever person isn’t respecting my boundaries at any given moment.”
Fantastic!  Keep up the Good Work!!  Persist till it becomes completely automatic.
“Not sure I have the expertise to close holes in my aura on my own but will ask around about people who might be able to help with that.”

You ARE closing the holes in your Aura.  Think about how many years it took the significant adults (and older siblings if any) in your childhood to get you programmed to be Vulnerable to their Needs and Whims – and how many Lifetimes before that.  Self-Sovereignty isn’t a single Decision, it’s a Lifestyle, which impacts the Choices you make every moment.  Slavery is still quite legal in many places on this Planet.  Most of us may have more Lifetimes as Slaves and Masters than as Freepersons.  

You may be able to find a Psychic Healer to help you, but the way you close the hole in your Aura is with Discernment (Noticing when Violation is occurring, at more and more subtle levels; Witnessing; and Empathy if or when there’s Time and Safety for it) and Persistence (making the Decision to Support your own Sovereignty and Doing it, over and over again until it’s second nature, like riding a bicycle).  You might find that experience with a Psychic Healer just gives you (to your chagrin) more opportunity to Discern and Persist!

Response-ability, right?”

Absolutely!  Developing the Ability to Respond rather than React.  Responding from Choice, or from an Archetype (Pattern, Habit) that we’ve Chosen to Self-Install, rather than from an Archetype that someone else Programmed us to React from.  

The ancient Command… 

“Revert!”

is an excellent one to use when someone threatens us with a curse.  Feel bad about sending a curse back to the one who curses you?  That’s exactly the Programmed Self-Abuse you can use as your unfailingly reliable signal that it’s time to Discern and Persist.  When you get stuck on an Edge between Compassion and Sovereignty, recognize the Confusion – the first sign of Growth – and Surrender to a PIAVA.

When our own “negative” Programming threatens us with an untoward thought or Feeling… 

“Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade”

is a good mantra – Cancel the thought, Neutralize the Energy already manifested, and Upgrade the thinking unit.

The 23.3 Maker Eclipse II

March 22, 2016

The second Configuration in the Penumbral Lunar Eclipse chart is more complex.  It looks like one of those Sextants that sailors use for navigation, which is good, because in our Confusion we may need help navigating.  We can Trust that our Guides will take us where we need to go, but we don’t want Confusion to lead us astray while our Guides are waving their arms and shouting “Over Here!”  The Sextant has two foci and two components.  Shall we start with the Strongest, or the Trickiest?

Let’s take the Strongest component.  That would be a Diamond Star focused on the North Node, complemented by a Kite focused on the South Node.  That in itself is very intense, even without Chiron and Ceres Conjunct the South Node.  Of course a Diamond Star focused on a Node will form a Grand Cross, and the arms are Chaos (Unlimited Potential) and a Stationary Ixion (Abandoned Genius).  Familiar names, eh?  The arms of the Kite are Sedna (Actions Taken out of Anger and Fear) and Moirai (Fate).  Lucky that’s a Grand Trine.  The formal etymology doesn’t reflect it, but I don’t think it’s a coincidence that Moirai and Moi are pretty similar.  Kind of like “The Devil made me do it!”

The base of the Finger of God in the Diamond Star is a Sextile from Pallas (Boundaries) to Uranus-Eris-Atropos.  Atropos wields the scissors to terminate a Lifetime – or an Ego – when its time is up – more Fate.  Uranus-Eris is the prelude to their June Conjunction where our last Masks will be ripped off.  Not only that, but we have five Rays of a Grand Sextile, with the missing Ray being 22 Leo, “A carrier pigeon fulfills its mission.”  Maybe so we don’t have to?  Or maybe so we can ride along?  Lots of Energy drawing us into the North Node, or Mission.  

The bottom line here in the first component of the second Configuration is that the Currents of Grace and “Fate” are Stronger than the Challenges are Challenging.  No Shame in being swept along by Fate, since the Real World is Both/And.  Only the intellectual Cliff’s Notes version of the Real World is Either/Or, and Fate/Free Will is an Either/Or.  In Real Life, Fate and Free Will are merely different lenses for viewing the One World.  

The second component is the Tricky one.  It looks just like the first one, but it lacks the Grand Cross, substituting a T-Square instead, a T-Square focused on Moi, er, Moirai.  The Central Axis of the second Configuration – and the base of the T-Square – is the Opposition between Lilith-Haumea (Rebirth of our Yindependence) and Uranus-Eris-Atropos.  The arms of the Kite are Pallas and Chaos.  The base of the Yod is the Sextile between Sedna and Ceres-South Node-Chiron.  Like in Permaculture, no segment fills only a single function!  

The second component of the second Configuration of the Penumbral Eclipse tells us that Self-Trust is necessary.  If it feels like you’re being swept over the rapids to certain (Ego) Death, you’re on the right track.  We don’t step into our Truth the way John Wayne or Mel Gibson or The Donald or any of the Patriarchy’s swaggering Heroes do.  That’s not Self-Transformation, that’s Ego Glorification.  We step into our Truth with hesitation and trepidation, choosing our path because it feels 10% righter than the alternatives, and not sure just what the consequences will be.

Will the next stage of our Yindependence eliminate our Support System?  Will the next step in our Journey to Yintegrity bring us more Shame rather than its Transformation?  Moving into Self-Trance-Reformation feels incredibly Risky, but it also feels like we have no Choice.  As if it was Fate.  Or it may feel like we have no Choice but to step back from the brink.  No Shame in that.  We’re just rehearsing here; the real Breakthrough occurs in June, so feel free to dance around your Edges without making a final Commitment.  We’re just practicing.  

Remember that Ego is an essential part of the Psyche, the part whose job it is to keep us Alive.  We don’t Transcend Ego (except perhaps in a moment of Satori or Samadhi), we Transform Ego.  We reformulate Ego at a “higher” or “more-encompassing” place.  “Egolessness” just means we no longer waste Energy on getting Defensive.  It doesn’t mean we get careless about our belay.  The ultimate Ego Transformation is Surrender to the Truth that Lives in the Heart.

Portal 25.1.16

January 24, 2016

Well, we’ve left behind that gorgeous Full Moon, but six rays of our seven-pointed Fairy Star remain, as well as the Potential for Insights that have the Power to Rebirth us.  We’re also Opening up to vigorous Expansion of our Consciousness (or vigorous Resistance thereto, your Choice – if you encounter vigorous Resistance to anything this week, you know you’ve come home to your Shadow), we’ll be Learning a great deal about Instincts and Manifestation, and by Wednesday we could put all these Energies together into a whole new level of Grace.  Let’s go through that again, one process at a time…

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  • Six rays of our seven-pointed Fairy Star remain; in other words, Magic is still afoot.  Enjoy it!

The six rays are Jupiter-North Node (Leaping forward toward our Mission), Asbolus (Intuition), Uranus-Vesta (Breaking through Archetypes), Ceres (Sustainability), Chariklo-Venus (Walking in Beauty), and Mars-Juno (Active Exploration of the Edges of our Consciousness).  It’s particularly lit up

  • Around 12:30 am PST (and a day or two before and after) on 25 January when Juno Initiates Mars
  • At 2am PST on 27 January plus or minus a couple of days, when Chariklo Initiates Venus
  • From 11am till 9pm PST on 27 February, when the Moon crosses Jupiter-North Node
  • From 5pm PST 30 January till 5am 1 February, when the Moon crosses Mars-Juno

If this isn’t Fun for you, Change your Attitude.  If you aren’t sure how, leave a Comment anonymously below and I’ll see if I can help.  To leave an anonymous comment, just add “Anonymous please!”  Without that addition, I might write about “a reader.”  

Use the incredible Power here to Manifest whatever you Want.  Do that by Confronting and Embracing all Resistance you have to it.  Usually that just involves eliminating negative thoughts.  “Yes, I Want Abundance, But no, I don’t Want to endure Slavery to get it!”  Or, “Yes, I want to be Healed, But I want some money left afterwards!”  Borrowing a trick from Dr. Kim, we can make our YesButs into YesAnds.  That might look like “Yes, I want Abundance, And I want Freedom and Integrity too!”  Or, “Yes, I want to be Healed, Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, Completely, and Inexpensively!”  

It will take some Mirror work to find all the hidden Buts.  Ask yourself, “If I did get what I Want, what would be the downside or unpleasant consequences?”

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  • The Potential for Insights with the Power to Rebirth us also remains.

Dwarf Plutoid Haumea (Rebirth) is no longer standing completely still, but it’s still moving so slowly that we still consider it to be Stationary (Strong).  And its still the focus of a Mjolnir (Epiphany) on the Neptune-Asbolus Square (Opening up to your Guides and Guardian Angels).

It’s not about Doing, it’s about Allowing.  Go over your ToDo List and take each item and turn it into a Permission.  Rather than “I have to go to work” or “I have to get another job,” you might make it “I Allow myself to Receive [some reasonable number] dollars per week.”  You’ll have a thousand YesButs to that.  What you Want is to Receive the rewards.  Chances are you Do things you Love to Do, and you Do things because you get paid to Do them.  If the ‘twain meet, you’re one of the “Lucky” few.  Can you Conceive of getting paid without Doing anything, and without beating yourself up?

I know that’s a Stretch for most of us.  But it’s a Magical time to Stretch!  See how close you can get.  Monitor the Feelings in your Body to see what YesButs are still hiding in there.

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  • We’re Opening up to vigorous Expansion of our Consciousness.

Or vigorous Resistance thereto, your Choice.  If you encounter vigorous Resistance to anything this week, you know you’ve come home to your Shadow.  If the Resistance is in someone else, bring it home anyway.  You may need a Funhouse Mirror for the latter.  Suppose they’re Resisting what you Want.  Does that indicate a lack of Commitment on your part?  In some form, probably so, because if you were fully invested in your Intention, obstacles would fall away.  

So it’s likely that some part of yourself doesn’t Believe you’re ready yet, and the form of their Resistance may be a clue to what part of you is trying to keep you Safe.  

Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) Initiates Mars (Action) at half past midnight PST on 25 January, at 12 Scorpio, “An official embassy ball,” beginning a new two-year Cycle.  Rudhyar exposes his European roots by interpreting this Degree as “Group-consciousness as it flowers at the highest level in cultural exchanges between representatives of the elite of the ruling class.”  Wow.  

I went with a New Yorker friend to the opera once, and I was amazed at how the only reason folks seemed to be there was to Show Up and Show Off.  I guess if you admire Wealth and Power above all else, and you Believe that selling your Soul for it is what’s required, that’s probably appropriate.  My own interpretation of an official embassy ball would be more like “The opportunity to Witness the places where we Abandon ourself in favor of Other Peoples’ Expectations.”  And Heal them.

Mars-Juno is one ray of the Fairy Star.  It’s particularly lit up from 5pm PST 30 January till 5am PST 1 February, when the Moon crosses it.

We expand Consciousness through Differentiation or Discernment, not through Discovery.  So we Notice that we Do certain things because we think Other People Expect us to.  Having Noticed, we can look to see if we really Love to Do those things, if they’re a True part of our Deeper Self.  And if not, then how much does it cost us to Betray our Deeper Self in that way.  Is the tradeoff worth it?  What if it doesn’t seem like a Big Deal, but it Creates Stress that could threaten our Health.  Scan your Body to see.

Remember, if you’ve Created something once, you can Create it again.  If you’ve Created Abundance by Doing something that also Creates Stress, you’re likely to Believe that the Stress is a necessary part of the Abundance.  It’s not.  You just need to PIAVA Creating Abundance without Stress rather than Creating Abundance and Stress.  The Magic is here; use it!

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  • We’ll be Learning a great deal about Instincts and Manifestation.

Mercury (Mentality) is Stationary turning Direct at 2pm PST on 25 January, Conjunct Pluto (Transformation, ie, Trance Re-Formation).  Mercury-Pluto (Inspiration) Quintiles the South Node (our Hidden Skills), forming the base of a Lunar Quintile Yod (Learning how to Trust our Instincts and their Role in Manifestation).  

We consider our Response to the Moon to have three levels.  First, we see the Moon as Random Emotions, not Emotions consistently triggered by our Values, but variable Responses to the same Stimulus – someone cuts us off in traffic, and at times we’re Angry, but other times we just ease off the gas.  Second, the Moon represents our Instincts.  There’s a good chance that when we’re Angry, it’s in response to the Anger of the guy (undoubtedly a guy) who cut us off, and when we just ease off, the other driver is probably just rushing someone to the hospital.  

The Third level is Manifestation.  It’s Lunar Energy that keeps Matter from spontaneously returning to Energy.  When we have no Resistance in our Body, we Manifest at will.  As Dr. Kim says, there are no “negative Emotions,” there are only habitual Reactions to some Emotions that create unhealthy Stress in our Bods.  Many of these are Cultural (like the Emotional residue of the Crusades that we’re still dealing with), but many are individualized based on our personal inertial Karma.  If we Pay Attention, there’s a good chance we can become Conscious of some of our Unconscious self-sabotaging Patterns here.

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  • By Wednesday we could put all these Energies together into a whole new level of Integrity.

At 2am PST on 27 January, Chariklo Initiates Venus, at 6 Capricorn, “Ten logs lie under an archway leading to darker woods.”  We probably wouldn’t notice an inner-planet astroevent like this one, since, occurring annually we have plenty of Experience with it, but Venus-Chariklo is one of the rays of the Fairy Star.  Centaur Chariklo represents our Charm and Beauty, and Venus our Values, so if we align these two we’ll be Walking in more Beauty than is our usual custom.  However, ten logs block the way.

In spite of all the Magic and Grace and Dedication and Insight that we’ve described above, the path to Healing our Self-Sabotage is blocked by our addiction to Matter.  Grace is fabulous, but there is nothing like a Challenge to increase the probability of Discernment and the probability that we won’t just be Grateful for what befalls us, we’ll also be more Conscious of how and what we Manifest.  Our Belief that Matter is Primary, and Energy Secondary, is the Challenge for the next few weeks.  Note that Emotion is Energy.

With consummate assistance from the Medical Cartel, we bemoan – we become Victim to – a medical diagnosis, for instance, Believing that this “disease” has fallen from the sky like a Safe, while we just happened to be walking by.  We don’t connect it to our diet, our Belief that Stress is the requisite for Survival, to the poisons that the Chemical and Petrochemical Industries surround us with, to suppression of True Emotions, to the Childhood or Past-Life Abuse that’s demanding Healing but we’ve ignored all our Lives.

So our assignment is to put the Magic and Grace and Insight and available Energy to work.  Whenever we encounter a perceived roadblock or a speedbump, PIAVA that is be removed.  If it is, then it’s an affliction we were ready to Let Go of.  We don’t say “release it,” because we don’t want to renew our lease on it.  Remember, Karma does not grasp us, we grasp it – every time our “favorite” untoward events occur, we curse our fate, rather than Celebrating the opportunity to Respond differently this time and begin building a different Inertial Habit Pattern.  

If the obstruction doesn’t dissolve immediately, we have to Take Responsibility for it.  That’s Responsibility, not Blame.  Blame looks backward to assign cause to an effect.  Responsibility looks forward to start Creating a new Pattern that results in more desirable outcomes.  We PIAVA, Oh, if I Create my own Reality, then how did I contribute to that?  If we succeed in Changing the Subject and Paying Attention ( https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/ ) and maintaining our Curiosity, our role will become obvious.

Usually we Create what we don’t Want because two different parts of us – of varying degrees of Consciousness and lack thereof – Want two different things, and we have a Karmic Belief that they’re incompatible.  We want Success, for instance, but our Health interferes, perhaps because Dad always told us that Big Stress is necessary for Big Success, while the Body Wants the sort of Health that less Stress provides.  So the Body warns us that Big Success without Health is kind of empty, enlisting our Belief that our Health is in the hands of the Medical Cartel, not in our own hands, to do so.

So for persistent roadblocks we need to find out what part of ourSelf Wants to protect us from the downside of what we’re Consciously trying to achieve, and appreciate that Want.  It’s not about Success versus Disease, it’s about Success and Good Health.  There’s no conflict in Reality, only in our Beliefs.  We can Choose to have Success and Good Health, usually by intending and discovering how to Compromise our True Self less.

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The Energy will feel a bit less friendly by early February, but if we’ve maintained our focus on the opportunities to Let Go of Bummers rather than Grasping them, we’ll recognize that this Cleansing is just rinsing a little deeper.

By the end of January we’re moving into the field of the 6 February Sedna (Actions instigated by Fear) Station, and the Initiation of Ceres (Sustainability) by Nessus (Undeserved but Claimed Privilege) on 2 February and by 2007 OR10 (Irruption of Material from the Deep Unconscious) on 4 February.

Holiday Shopping

December 19, 2015

Format reminder…

For Everyone.

Still for Everyone.

For folks who know some astrology, or who want to Learn some by osmosis.

Definitions for folks who are more serious about Learning astrology.

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Lots coming up here, with the Solstice only a few days away and a Full Moon to guide St. Nicholas on his rounds.  Let’s have a look using December 22 as an anchor, as dwarf planet Haumea – Rebirth – Initiates Mars (Action) that day…

the Initiation takes place at 24 Libra, “A butterfly with a third wing on its left side” – the Yin side…

a Rebirth of Mars as Consort to the Goddess.  Mars Opposes his sister Eris, Revealer of the Denied, who is strongly illuminated.

Eris is the focus of both a Finger of God based on Venus Sextile Jupiter, and a Mjolnir based on Saturn Square Orcus.  Mars is also the focus of a Quintile Yod from the Moon and Chiron.

Mjolnir -Thor’s Hammer in English – symbolizes Lightning, or sudden and irreversible Illumination of the Darkness.   It’s a third planet at the far Midpoint of a Square, so there’s a Trioctile to the third planet from each end of the Square.  The “Tri” is Love with Wisdom; the “Octile” is Adjustment, Rebalancing.  The Square may be Frustrating, but the Mjolnir‘s Epiphany suddenly makes it Miraculously Easy.

It’s about our Discovering the Roots of our Limiting Oaths.  Gently and Lovingly, but Solidly.

I Wonder…  I’ve Wanted so badly to have or be or do THIS, and I’ve been trying forever but I just can’t Create it.  What if I’m Stopping myself.  I Wonder if I swore some sort of Oath a long time ago, that’s still Blocking me.  Something happened, and I reacted by Swearing never to let that happen again.  It’s like trying to remember a Dream – it’s right there, I can taste it, I can almost see it.  What was it?  It’s not about THIS, but it must be related.  There must be a connection between THIS and that, so my Oath against that stymies THIS.  Ganeshi, would you be willing to Lovingly and Gently remove any obstacles to this Revelation and Rebirth?

Orcus Opposes Neptune, with Saturn T-Squaring them both.  That means Mars-Haumea and Eris each make Trioctile Bridges across the T-Square, and together form a Trioctile Rectangle or Box.  

Boxes are driven by the Oppositions between their corners.

Our Oath seems murky because it was an integral part of our Social Programming; if we had or were or did that, we would be ostracized.  And at that age we had no Survival Skills; it would be certain Death, or on earlier Timelines slavery to a rival Tribe.  This is not Child’s Play, we’ve lived many variations of this Pattern on many Timelines, in many Lives.  With the fate of the Planet in our hands, we all need to Let Go of these Limiting Patterns so we can find our Voice to have and be and do what WE need to have and be and do in order to fulfill our Mission.  It seems small, but one missing piece in a thousand-piece jigsaw puzzle makes a glaring hole.  It may be Child’s Play, as your Oath may have resulted from Games that are Innocent to Children, but Impermissible to adults.

Mars-Haumea is also Sextile to Ixion-Pholus, and this Sextile is the base of a Sedna Finger of God.

Actions taken out of Fear often have Unintended Consequences, because we don’t have time, or a clear head, to think through the outcomes.  And the same is true of Actions NOT taken out of Fear.  While our Oath may have prevented “sins” of Commission, it has almost Certainly been Creating “sins” of Omission.  There are important roles in your Community that you shy away from because you Unconsciously Fear Punishment if you defy your ancient Oath.  Roles meant for you, and Communities with missing pieces.  Our Rebirth can allow us to Take Full Responsibility for our Unique Genius that we’ve been hiding because we Fear it will appear Pathological.  We may have to Tap out some Fear along the way.

Which makes a Trine Fez: Jupiter Trine Sedna Unx Eris Trine Pholus-Ixion Square Jupiter.  

Fezes are driven by the Quincunxes between their corners.

So we have two assignments, both requiring Permanent Curiosity.  There are no Answers here, only Questions.  Where there are Insights, they should introduce more Questions.  It’s not an intellectual exercise, where an Answer eases our Anxiety and we can relax.  We want to Surrender to Wonder, and be Awed by how incredible the Universe works when we Witness our Ego and Act from Ongoing Curiosity instead.

Great Spirit, how can I Safely navigate my Fear about Living my Unique Genius?  I Wonder what I will need to discover in order to Grow into my rightful place in my Community and on the Planet.

Mars-Haumea is also the focus of a Quintile Yod from the Moon and Chiron.  Pluto is the focus of a Quintangle from Juno and the South Node.  The Moon and Juno form the base of a Septangle focused on Ceres.

A Quintile Yod is formed when a third planet is at the far Midpoint between two planets that form a Quintile; the third planet is the focus.  A Quintangle is a third planet at the near Midpoint between two planets forming a Biquintile; again, the third planet is the focus.  A Septangle is a third planet at the far Midpoint between two planets that make a Triseptile, with the third planet as the focus.

We’re Learning here to Trust our Instincts, and to recognize Despair as the sign that Miracles await; we need only Witness our Despair.  “You poor Sweetheart, you really feel Discouraged, don’t you.”  It’s not a Choice; we’re Learning how to Choose Growth in the Edges of our Consciousness instead of continuing to Fear the Edges of our Held Emotions.  Business as Usual is not Sustainable.  We have Instincts that tell us where and how we need to Grow.  We need only to stop ignoring them.

Here’s another way to look at it all...

http://www.starchildglobal.com/channels-and-articles/the-galactic-alignment/

With thanks to Soulspeak for the introduction to Celia.

Maker Moon

October 25, 2015

Tuesday’s Full Moon is unusual.  A Full Moon is a comment on the Zeitgeist of the following several weeks.  There’s little Grace, good Curiosity, and big Insights involved in this one.  Your doorway into Epiphany is your Instincts – Trust them.  Your password is Discouragement.  Pay close (and Loving) Attention to any Discouragement you encounter…  

“You poor Sweetheart, you think that’s impossible, don’t you.  I Wonder what it would take to make it possible.  What if it was such a subtle difference that we’d hardly notice the change”

would be a good icebreaker.

The Configuration looks so much like a Crossbow that I think we’ll call it that.

A Crossbow Configuration is a Finger of God pointing at the focus of a Mjolnir Kite.  I’d draw it out for you, but I’m technologically challenged at the moment, so I’ll have to describe it.

Mjolnir Kite is formed when two planets make opposing Trioctile Bridges across an Opposition.  Said another way, a third planet at the far Midpoint of two planets that are Square forms a Mjolnir (Hammer of Thor in the vernacular), pointing at the third planet.  So the third planet is Trioctile to each end of the Square.  Mjolnir means Lightning, or Epiphany.  Add a fourth planet Opposite the third planet (at the near Midpoint of the two Square planets), and you have a Mjolnir Kite, shifting the focus to the fourth planet (the “top” of the kite).

Now, add two more planets, one Sign away from the third planet, on either side.  Since these will both be Quincunx to the fourth planet, they’ll form a Finger of God (meaning Pay Attention!) focused on the fourth planet.  No pressure, but the combination sure lights up the fourth planet!

The Full Moon is at the apex of the Finger of God and the Mjolnir Kite, hence the emphasis on Instinct.

We consider the Moon to have three levels of operation.  First it is you variable Emotions – the way you react with anger some times and don’t care other times, when confronted with the same phenomenon.  The second level is Instinct.  Even though the stimuli are superficially similar, you react with anger when behind the stimulus is an invisible threat to your Safety, and you don’t care when there is no threat.  I always use the example of someone cutting you off in traffic, because we know it so well; in the one case they’re cutting you off because they’re angry (and possibly armed), and in the other case because they’re legitimately in a hurry.  The third level is that Lunar Energy is the glue that keeps matter from flying apart into MC-squared Energy.

But that’s not why we refer to this Full Moon as a “Maker” Moon; that’s because, other than the Mjolnir Kite, the only other Angles formed by this Full Moon are Makemake and Saturn Quintile Bridges (together creating the Finger of God).

Makemake was the God who saved the Easter Islanders from starvation after their environment was degraded, teaching them tricks like planting Seeds in the lee of rocks, where Water would condense out of the fog.  Makemake’s “Discovery” chart reeks of Manifestation.  While the name is a “coincidence,” it came into Huper Awareness at about the same time as the Maker Movement began.  If you aren’t familiar with the Maker Movement, Bing the phrase plus the name of your town, or the nearest college town.  Everywhere in the US now there are shops set up, for sharing, usually for a small membership fee, that include 3-D printers, milling machines, other fabrication tools, and folks who know how to use them and are willing to share their knowledge, so you can combine $20 computer controllers with circuitry and machinery to Manifest your inventions into hard copy.

The Quintile Bridge adds the Wondering, as the nature of a Quintile is constant Surprise, as long as we don’t freeze the Action by pretending that our Question needs an Answer.

The other two planets in the Mjolnir are Chiron and dwarf planet Chaos.  

Chiron symbolizes Despair/Discouragement (the “Unhealable Healer”) changing to Miracles when Empathy (Neutrality and Presence) is applied to the Despair (“You poor Sweetheart, you’re really bummed, aren’t you.” – it’s not a question).  How?  By Empathizing with your own Discouragement, you are no longer Identified with Discouragement, you’re now Identified with Empathy.  This is the equivalent of Changing the Subject in PIAVA – it opens up space for new information to innoculate your “stuck” space, allowing what would have been seen from the Perspective of Discouragement as Miracles.  

Rather than Disorder, dwarf planet Chaos represents Unlimited Opportunity.  Chaos is what existed before the Greek Gods came into existence.  Of course they considered themselves, like all Gods, to be the First and Only Gods.  But actually, prior to the Greek Gods there were plenty of other Gods, including many apparently-Miraculous Pyramid-Makers, most of whom were Maternally oriented.  So if Unlimited Opportunity (the infinitely deep Zero Point Field) is a bit scary for you, you can think of Chaos as the constantly shifting evolutionary realm of Mother Nature.  I know, She frightens a lot of people, with her Snakes for hair and all.  In my neighborhood, where all the kids are on Ritalin, they allow only plastic shrubbery, so She doesn’t get unruly.  If She scares you a bit, remember that you are an integral part of Nature, and since according to General Relativity the Universe has no center except for Everywhere, you are the Center of your Universe.  You can Manifest whatever you Want.  If you Believe you can.  Go easy.  Expand your Want Universe by two or three percent at a time; double or nothing will often leave you with nothing.

So you can see, this is a pretty big deal.  That leaves Saturn, the other corner of the Finger of God.  Saturn means The Most Important Thing.  

So here at the Full Moon the basic message is that The Most Important Thing is Owning more of your Power as the Master Co-Creator that you actually are.  As Marianne says…

“It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.  Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?  Actually, who are you not to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.  There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.  We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”  —Marianne Williamson, Return to Love

One other indication – the Venus-Mars Conjunction Opposes Chiron and completes a Chaos T-Square.  The Conjunction is not an Initiation; the Initiation occurred last February at 2 Aries, “What a joke, those Hupers.”  This is the Confidence-Builder phase of the triple Conjunction.

In order to avoid Overwhelm by the vastness of the Possibilities, we need to use All of our Skills.  It’s not enough to PIAVA and hope for the best, and it’s not enough to Plan and Execute.  We need to do both.  We PIAVA what we Want, Change the Subject, Pay Attention, and then Respond to the information we receive, either with a mores new PIAVA that accounts for the new information, or an Action based on the new information that moves us toward our Wants.  It won’t always work that way, but alternating PIAVA and Action will probably produce the best results here.  It’s a good opportunity to compare the scope of your PIAVAs and Actions.  If you’re PIAVAing the World but Acting only in your own back yard, or PIAVAing a small goal while Planning and Executing Globally, you may want to consider Rebalancing them.  If you’re new to PIAVA, see the “PIAVA” entry in the “Categories” list to the right.

You may not have noticed, but at least in the US, Big Ag is poisoning us for profit.  Many folks saying that we’re winning the struggle against them.  Here’s a surprise vote in that direction…

https://www.organicconsumers.org/blog/game-super-bowl-quarterback-goes-offensive-against-junk-food 

Yintegrity in an Ancient Pottery Bowl

September 5, 2015

An intriguing video…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8mqL7dMgIBc

Another view…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=37Dvt2EqXF4

And the blow-by-blow account…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVsB07CcSNw

Nessus Two

June 4, 2015

proustite2067bp That dull surface is a characteristic of Arsenic minerals.  But note the barely-hidden Passion.  This one is Proustite, Silver Arsenic Sulfide, the Feminine half of Kundalini.

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Soulspeak resonates with our Nessus Energy…

https://soulspeak2013.wordpress.com/2015/06/04/at-the-table-devils-song/

The Zodiac is fractal.  The Wheel is divided by two, by three, by four, by twelve, by 36, by 144, and by 360, and that doesn’t count the Harmonics.  The 144ths are called “Dwads” or “Duads,” and the 133rd Duad is where Emotion overwhelms us.  It’s the first two-and-a-half Degrees of Pisces, and it’s Pure Pisces, all Emotion, all Mutable Emotion.  “Mutable” is the name astrologers give to the Recycling parts of the Zodiac, the Deconstruction, the Breaking Down into raw material so something new can be Created.  The Spiritual Function of Pisces is to Let Go of specific Emotions, and the first Duad shows us what it is that we need to Let Go of.

Nessus in Pisces, in general, would be about the Emotions that arise around PowerOver, around Privilege and its Abuse.  Remember that Power is never Given, only Taken.  When we appear to “Give our Power away” it’s only because it was Taken by our earlier Programming. 

We were washed with these Emotions in April through July of 2014.  Our second Opportunity for this sort of baptism was 7 February through 10 April of this year.  Were those periods unusually Emotional for you?  We’ll get our third and last immersion between August 2015 and mid-February 2016.  This opportunity to Clear the negative aftereffects of PowerOver comes around only once every 120 years.  For most of us it’s a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. 

If we’re taking maximum advantage of it, we’ll let the Emotions have their way with us during these time periods.  Our ultimate objective is to Lovingly Witness these Emotions from the outside, but in order to get there we need first to Experience them.  We hide from our unpleasant Emotions, memories of Abuse most of all.  So we need to make ourselves available, invite them, make space for them, or they’ll stay in hiding.  It takes Courage, but you have Courage aplenty, or you wouldn’t have signed on to this Lifetime.

 In the 134th Duad we begin to burn off what we’re ready to Let Go.  Yesterday’s Nessus Station was in the 134th Duad.  Nessus has already danced in the 133rd Duad twice, and it will dance there once more before it moves on.  If we review our journals and mark our calendars, we can be prepared to move through the process with greater ease, though it won’t be effortless, because Pisces is about Finishing Business and Letting Go.  All Losses must be Grieved, and you’d seldom use Grief and Fun in the same sentence – though of course it’s never too late to start.

So the stage we’re in now, is the Letting Go stage.  We’ve bathed twice, now we’re drying off.  We entered this phase on April 10, and we’ll be here till the end of July.  Then we go back into the pool for a final rinse, till mid-February.  If you’re still wrestling with dark Shadows from your earlier immersions, you may want to imagine one of those super-bright LED flashlights on the end of your middle finger, and just annihilate the Shadow as soon as it enters your mind or Heart.  The bright Light won’t hurt your Heart, She’ll Love it.  Shadows are sort of Magical that way; Light disappears them without a trace.

This stage is the Creative Fire section of Pisces.  In it we begin to convert the Energy locked in those Shadows into Passion.  It often feels like a Passion for Revenge, or a Passion to make sure that never happens to anyone again.  But it needn’t be.  It can simply be a Passion for Living that was previously blocked by the PowerUnder cage we were put in, so the Passion can just be our Heart’s Desire, having nothing to do with the nature of our Abuse.  This is the early stage, so there’s nothing organized or final – or even explainable to anyone – it’s just an urge to experiment with New toys.

There is a lot more to PowerOver and Abuse than overt sexual and physical Abuse, and PowerUnder can be either Acute or Chronic.  For instance, if as a child you were never recognized for who you really are, as everyone just tried to Program you to be who they wanted you to be – that’s a serious case of Abuse.  Without Drama you may not recognize it as Abuse.  Sometimes there was a “cookie lady,” someone who, even if they didn’t recognize your Genius, they recognized your right to be You and didn’t try to change you.  If there was someone like that in your young Life, they would be an excellent memory for you to keep handy during this Creative Fire stage. 

Don’t be intimidated by the term “Genius” – everyone has Genius of some sort.  The people you perceive as having Genius are people who probably had the opportunity to develop it because they were raised in PowerWith.  It’s never too late to start, and it’s not about recognition, it’s about Living your Passion and Following your Bliss.

Our Asteroid-Goddess reader Elizabeth points out that the Station of Nessus was also an Initiation of the 4-year asteroid Atropos, at 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts.”  Among the three Fates, Atropos was the one who cut the chord when the time was ripe.

With a literal interpretation, we could imagine that many more of our fellow Entities will be finishing their Work or for some other reason  bailing out, and leaving the Planet.  But our perspective is not that astrology can symbolize the negative, but that astrology can symbolize the Healing of the negative.  So yes, by all means, celebrate your Ego Deaths!!  Do you remember the signs? 

  • Confusion as your old milestones and millstones crumble
  • Fear as the bars on your Birdcage loosen
  • Very familiar circumstances suddenly seeming a little strange, like the color is off or the accent’s on the wrong syllable or something. 
  • Habitual Judgment being replaced by Curiosity
  • Unexplained and unexplainable physical surges of Excitement as you start to Breathe and experience what it’s like to be Living Free without your usual narrator

This is the Aries portion of Pisces.  Pisces is all about Emotion – both Wallowing and Letting Go – but Aries is about Trusting Instincts you don’t even recognize as Instincts.  It’s about doing “crazy” things, things that won’t start to make sense until five years from now.  Things your Spirit wants to try out, that it probably hasn’t even informed your mind about, since your mind is likely to just YesBut it away.  When you notice that you’re Feeling or Doing something unexpected on a whim, be Curious about who is Feeling or Doing that! 

  • Patient Curiosity, waiting for Clarity from outside
  • Not intellectual Curiosity, searching for an answer

We’re still used to being mired in Grief of some sort as we navigate the Wake for our Ego Death.  But that’s your New Identity out there Feeling and Doing those spontaneous things that don’t make any sense yet.  Welcome them…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=idWguVzQRWs

Mission and Duty

February 12, 2015

danb2440bp2Danburite, Calcium BoroSilicate.  Just as Angels can fly because they take themselves Lightly, it’s the lightest elements that are the most Healing – Beryllium, Lithium, Boron.  Danburite Channels Yin Lightning.

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Let’s excavate Mission and Desire a bit, starting by turning them around.  What if we felt our Desire as a Duty, and our Mission as a Joy. 

That’s not actually much of a stretch, as once Dissatisfaction and Frustration – natural reactions to Desire (and especially to T-Squares) – become burdensome to us, we start to think in terms of Liberation.  When Americans joined Europeans in the Slave trade, their first Slave ship was named Desire.  Beneath Desire‘s deck, each captive was alotted six feet by two feet by three feet – generous compared to some European boats – with chains at the ankles and neck.  Expectation constrains our own Birdcage in the same way.  Can we do Desire and Curiosity at the same time?

Seeking Liberation we become a Buddhist, whose basic belief is that Desire causes Suffering.  That doesn’t mean we have to retreat to a cave or renounce Desire.  We could become a Nicheren Buddhist.  Remember those orange-robed folks at the airport who used to dance around chanting Nam Myōhō Renge Kyō?  As I understand it, the basic idea is that it’s not Desire that hinders us, it’s our Attachment to Desire or its Objects.  To subvert our Attachment we Embrace our Desires and their Objects with Joy, and use Nam Myōhō Renge Kyō – while focusing intently on our Desires – as a constant PIAVA.  Intention is the “I” in PIAVA.

Following our Mission doesn’t necessarily make our Path easy.  Sure, there will be episodes of Serendipity and Synchronicity, where things fall into place Effortlessly.  But there will be many episodes of Confusion (the first stage of Growth) and Ineffective Efforts (while we Grow into a larger Entity), where we wonder what the devil we think we’re doing.  But each time we refocus and recommit.  We don’t hesitate to do that, because our Mission is Who We Are.  Think back over your Life and review the places where it was difficult but you wouldn’t for a moment wish that it was any other way.  Those sorts of places, where you might doubt your Methods but never your Purpose, those are Mission.  You wouldn’t have persevered if it wasn’t also on a very deep level your Joy.

I think of it as navigating through a city where the street grid runs north-south and east-west, but we’re in the southwest corner and we need to get to the northeast corner, and we don’t know in advance what our exact destination is, so we have to follow our Intuition in some guise, and take it one step at a time.  If we knew our destination and saw it on a map, we’d just alternate moving north and east in some combination.  Let’s say our Intuition comes through Vision, and when we’re moving in the right direction we see a dim Light up ahead.  There could be times when the Light appears to be taking us away from where we think we need to go, but we follow it anyway, and discover it was leading us to the only bridge across an obstacle.

Our Journey could be through a maze rather than through a grid, with many dead ends.  Lord of the Rings, Wizard of Earthsea, Star WarsNancy Drew, Buffy – this is just the Hero’s Journey, as described so well by Joseph Campbell.  We can’t forget the Heroine’s Journey, where the Challenge isn’t what to do and where to go, but to trust our Intuition.  If you read the Hero’s Journey through that lens, you see that it’s there all along and every bit as important as the Dynamic parts that take center stage – because they were written in an age of Masculine dominance.  Just the other side of the Coin.  And more important actually, since in those Dramas an error in trusting Intuition leads to annihilation.

Here’s a perfect example of Mission as Commitment to personal Truth…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tvYjMJrF2hQ

Bottom Line – Mission and Desire are the same Energy, both equally Joyous and equally burdensome.  We see them as different only because now we see through a glass darkly.