Asbolus 3

Brenda Hoffman’s Channeling for today nails the Yintegrity part of the Asbolus Discover chart that we described in the previous post – here are excerpts…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2018/02/26/your-crowd-pleasing-days-are-over/

“We are amazed at your tenacity and yes, strength.  For throughout your 3D eons of earth lives, you forced yourself to follow society rules instead of daring to be you.  So it is that you did physical, emotional, and spiritual harm to your being to be part of the group.

“Now that you are of 5D, you are beginning to proclaim your individuality.  Something not necessarily easy.  Not because it is wrong, but because it is so foreign to the 3D society with which you are familiar.

“Even though you continue to remain within that society via your daily activities, your voice is changing from that of passive acquiesce to an almost strident rightness to be.  Something that frightens you as much as others…

“Where you once said, “yes” even though you did not want to deep within your being, you are now loudly proclaiming, “NO.”  Surprising both you and those comfortable with the old you.

“You are claiming your power, one ‘no’ at a time.  Of course, doing so is disturbing to both you and the entities experiencing it for all of you are trained to be nice.

“You have even been taught ways to proclaim your rightness with hidden means.  Such as talking about someone when they are not there.  Or responding to what you label a “catty” answer.  Or acquiescing to a request only to neglect to follow through.  Or ignoring your needs, so someone else is comfortable.  But nowhere in that litany of acceptable behaviors is your ability to quietly and calmly state your needs without some sort of 3D repercussion.

“For 3D is group-think and 5D and beyond is the uniqueness of being…

“This 5D experience is extremely different. Instead of following someone you fear or respect, you are following your path.  So it is that even those who seem to be of like-mind are not entirely of your mind – just as it should be.  For each of you is a powerful entity who does not require a leader nor anyone to proclaim your rightness…

“Instead, it is you and only you.  There are so many functions of this New Earth to complete that while you might meet fellow travelers here and there at certain junctions, it is your path, not the path of anyone else.”

Asbolus 2

As we might Imagine or Intuit (speaking of Asbolus), Mind/Mercury Opposed Intuition/Asbolus when Asbolus was Discovered.  But it’s not as simple as the Mind would like to make it out to be – the Opposition is the central axis of a Yin Gate – a Mystery School here to Teach us about Paradox.  It’s a complex-looking chart, but it’s actually pretty well-Organized…

A Yin Gate is formed when three Oppositions are one Sign apart, here Intuition-Logic (Asbolus-Mercury) flanked by Values-Manifestation (Venus-Makemake), and our Mission in the Lifetime versus the Karma that Resists it (the Nodal Axis).  That’s the red triple-X inside the blue rectangle in the center of the chart, and the accompanying green dos equis.

Paradox just means that Either/Or doesn’t work.  It never actually does, it usually just makes us feel smug, but in Paradox we can’t even get away with that.  We have to figure out how to finesse Both/And instead, which is never easy because the possibilities are endless.  Intuition Informs Mind?  Logic Trumps Intuition?  Hunches Beat Analysis, my Dear Elementary Watson?  We could put almost any transitive verb between them; how do we know what to Choose?

The answer, such as it is, lies in the Oppositions to the corners of the blue rectangle – Values-Manifestation and Mission-Karma.  So, for instance, our Karma might determine our Values (rather than our Heart), which would interfere with Manifesting our Mission.  So Asbolus is likely Ask us to Examine our Values for Self-Sabotage. 

For instance, will today’s Propagandists and Liars perpetuate their apparent Advantage over Truthspeakers and Yintegrists, or will they eventually be held Responsible for their Lies?  Will the folks who Sell their Soul for Greed or Popularity eventually Fall from Privilege?  Those are big issues that aren’t really relevant to us from the Personal Perspective, but they point us to possible chapters in our Fearless and Searching Inventory – When and Why do we fall out of Yintegrity?  Do we ever Sell our Souls for Security or Approval?

It’s even trickier; each of the diagonal Oppositions in the blue rectangle are the platform for a Challenge to Mastery (T-Square, the red triangles).  The Values-Manifestation Opposition is Challenged by Boundaries and Self-Sovereignty (Pallas-Lilith, on the left edge of the chart).  That makes it pretty Clear – when do I Betray my Self-Sovereignty in the name of either Security or Desire (too much debt for instance), or in the name of misplaced Morality (Choosing “Nice” instead of “No” for instance)? 

This is about Paradox, though, so what’s “Clear” is probably more of a clue than a conclusion.

The Mission-Karma Opposition is Challenged by Sustainability (asteroid Ceres, the cuphook symbol in the lower left), seemingly implying that we’ll be better off if we aim for the Long Haul.  As economists say though, in the Long Run we’re all Dead.  Which may not matter if we’ve been Programmed to shoot for Pie in the Sky.  That would seriously interact with our Values-Manifestation Question.  Is “next time’s” Karma more important than “this time’s” Comfort?  What about Self-Love?  What if there isn’t a “next time”?

Lotsa Fun, these Paradoxes, eh?  If the Mind is pleased we’re probably Wrong.  On the other hand, Intuition often leads us into Trouble, because rather than the Answer we seek, it often presents us with the course material we need if we want to gain the Multidimensional Experience from which we will earn Wisdom, rather than Dualistic Knowledge or Certainty.  And we want to be somewhere in between anyway.  Can we Sustain Curiosity?  That’s what the green equis (crossed Quincunxes) suggest anyway.

And we haven’t covered any of the Stellia yet, and only one of the Conjunctions we spoke of in the prior post.  Busy busy, this Asbolus.

AsBolus 1

Not that many folks checking the blog home page yesterday, so maybe the Station of dwarf planet Asbolus felt more like it had a double-ess here than it did elsewhere.  It is pretty Strong in my natal chart.  It’s still Lit Up in the upcoming Full Moon chart, however, so I’ll share my further investigations into why it felt a lot more serious than just being about our Intuition.  The Mythology about it’s namesake is pretty skimpy, other than to say that she was a Fortune-Teller.

The more often we Experience an Energy, the more familiar it is to us.  When two planets Conjoin, their Energies Merge, yielding an Energy that we aren’t prepared for.  When three or more planets converge (a “Stellium”), it gets downright Strange, because it gets less likely that we’ve ever Experienced the Energy.  Let’s look at a couple of the Stellia in the 5 April 1995 Asbolus Discovery chart.

For instance, Abuse, Forbidden Genius, Compulsion, and Survival (respectively Nessus, Ixion, Pluto, and Quaoar) make up one Stellium in the Discovery Chart.  That sounds like it could be a pretty toxic combination.  The latter three planets all have about the same orbital period as Pluto (250 or so years), and Nessus about half that.  A quick back-of-the-envelope calculation of how often all four of these folks might hang out in the same time zone gives us once in over 2,160 million years. 

That means, if we believe the cosmologists’ current guesses about the age of our Solar System, that 1995 would have been only the second time ever that these four converged.  Since our Solar System may not have been Created in one instant on a Saturday afternoon, the planets may not have been in the same orbits 2,000 million years before 1995, and even if they were, who knows what sort of Form our Consciousness may have occupied then.

So for all intents and purposes, given current conjectures about our cosmology, 1995 was really the first time we’ve Experienced this Energy ever.  Ever.  Did we Discover in 1995 that it may have been Abuse that caused our Genius to get Compulsive about going Underground to assure our Survival?  Or perhaps we Discovered that all these years we mistakenly Believed that other People thought that our Genius was Compulsively Abusive, so we thought it best for our Survival to Suppress it. 

This Energy in the Asbolus Discovery chart tells us that this is part of the nature of the impact of Asbolus upon the Huper Psyche – that the cross-contamination of Abuse, Forbidden Genius (Forbidding Genius is itself Abuse), Compulsion, and Survival is becoming Conscious on the Planet. 

We’re seeing that in the Abuse and Shaming that the assault-rifle-toting “adults” have been attempting to heap upon the Traumatized Third Wave kids (who were born a few years after Asbolus was Discovered) in Florida , and whose Bullying is being called out by the Forces That Be, namely the Corporations that actually run the US.  The government is too corrupt to respond to the People, but many of the Corporations know better than to blow off their customers in public too many times, and the Media is beginning to follow, in the effort to keep the few advertisers that haven’t been captured by Facebook and Google.

Of course there may be other Solar Systems where we’ve hung out that have faster planets which symbolize Abuse, Compulsion, Survival, and Dangerous Genius, if those concepts exist beyond our own home planetarium.  In those Realms we’d have more Experience with this mix of Energies.  Maybe some of those 1995 babies will recall some of their Lifetimes in those Galaxies.  Or maybe the Lizards we already know and “Love” are from there.  It’s probably a coincidence, but Trump Hotels and Casino Resorts was founded in 1995.

Or maybe we should look at Nessus in this context not as the Abuse suffered by the Victims, but as the Privilege enjoyed by the Perps.  Many of them appear to be quite Compulsive about it, and the events of the last week show them to be shaky about their Survival, and more transparent about their perverted Genius.  The NRA has been Acting Out in a very Ixionic manner.  Or Idiotic, either one.  Probably time to do a review of Ixion’s Discovery chart as well.

At any rate, this Stellium helps to explain how Asbolus has seemed to influence our Planet for the last week or two.  Briefly, other Stellia in the Asbolus Discovery chart…

• Chaos-Eris-Sun, Revelation of our Unlimitedness
• Lilith-Pallas-Mnemosyne, Remembering the Boundaries necessary for our Self-Sovereignty
• Veritas-Sappho-Eurydike, Trusting the Truth of our Self-Love

And there are some pretty hot Conjunctions as well…

• Saturn-Nemesis, The Most Important Thing is our Ego Deaths
• Karma-Moira, The Fate of our Ancient Habits is that we’ll replace them with Choice
• Moon-Aletheia, Our Authenticity Revealed
• Varuna-Vesta, The Life Force must become our most Revered Belief
• Mars-Orcus, Tearing up our Obsolete Contracts
• Chiron-Hopi, Embracing the Pain in All Things
• Haumea-Hylonome, Rebirth of Recovery from Codependence
• Uranus-Neptune, Merging of the Individual and Group Souls

Many of these concepts are consistent with the demise of the Patriarchy and the rise of the Yang Feminine, where Individual and Group are equally Respected.  Neptune Initiated Uranus in 1993 for instance, at 20 Capricorn, “A hidden choir sings during a religious service” – Obsolete Rituals co-opted by secret undercurrents.

Each of the Stellia and Conjunctions would likely have indicated recent or incipient Initiations of a lot of new Cycles, indicating major shifts in the Zeitgeist in preparation for a new Century focused on replacing Nationalism and Competition (Flag) with broad Vision (Eagle) and Enlightenment (Chanticleer Heralding the Dawn) – the Pluto-Chiron Initiation at the Cusp of the new Century.

 

Intuition Olympics 3

There’s another interesting Asbolus-Station chart, looking in on the Fifth-Harmonic Angles – a Grand Quintile…

And 85% of a Grand Decile.  The Fifth Harmonic is about what we’re Learning.  It may Amplify or Extend what the rest of the chart shows, or it may indicate something entirely different.  A Grand Quintile is five planets equally spaced around the Zodiac – a graduate degree in one map. 

A Grand Decile is ten planets equally spaced around the Loop.  The Tenth Harmonic is about Fortune.  Not always Good Fortune, but you can Choose that if you’re so inclined and Conscious.

The Grand Quintile of Learning includes…

• Manifestation – dwarf planet Makemake
• Truth – asteroid Aletheia
• Boundaries – asteroid Pallas
• The Edges of Consciousness – asteroid Juno
• Active Defense of, or Attack on, our Beliefs – Mars and asteroid Vesta

How many Stories can we make using those terms (or their Opposites) plus some riff on the concept of Learning?  For instance…

• When we Notice that our Beliefs have been Challenged and we find ourself Defending them, we know that we’re on one of the Boundaries that we use to Protect ourself from Growth in Consciousness.  By Learning to step across that Boundary we can begin to Manifest the Truth about Who We Are and What We Want.

Okay, your turn.  Make several.  Find at least one that’s a Bummer, such as…

• Our own Beliefs will Attack us when we try to cross the Hard Boundary between the Ego and the Unconscious.  I’m Scared to be Truthful with myself and Confront the Ogre that guards the gate.  In the Fairy Tales there’s usually a Treasure on the other side, hoarded by the Ogre.  It’s probably what I’ve always Wanted but never been able to Manifest.  Sad.
  

Now turn it around so it’s a Blessing.  The World just Is, whether you Define it as Bummer or Blessing is your Choice.  Choose Blessing.  Remember that Power is never Given, it’s Taken.  Power is the opposite of Victim.

The three extant points on what would be the second Grand Quintile that’s Decile to the first are…

• The Life Force – dwarf planet Varuna
• The Authenticity we need to Manifest our Unlimited Potential – the Moon and dwarf planet Chaos
• The Ability to Interrupt an Archetype – asteroid Lachesis

And Trance Reformation – Pluto, is close to making a fourth.  Pluto actually makes the necessary Biquintile Angle to the Moon.  The Moon symbolizes Authenticity, so we gladly let Pluto be the handle on the Lunar umbrella, and let it Restructure the Programming that causes us to constantly betray our Real Self. 

The missing sixth point in the second Grand Quintile would be around 11 Degrees of Scorpio, “A drowning person is being rescued.”  That fits very well – this Vacancy isn’t in the planetary Configuration, so in order to Complete the Grand Decile (Great Fortune) we need to rescue ourself from drowning in the Undifferentiated Sea of the Unconscious. 

We do that by Noticing the Archetypes that Sabotage us, and Noticing that we have the Power to Choose a Different Action than what our Programming would have Chosen for us.  It’s never too late to start.

Pluto, which also represents Compulsion, is also almost exactly Biquintile to the Intuition Olympics – the Asbolus Station that’s the reason we’re looking at this chart in the first place.  So our Power here lies in Accepting our Intuitions when they tell us that we’re Betraying our Real Self.  If we feel like we’re sleep-walking or stoned or Guilty here, we’re on the right track; we need to be operating from the Artistic and Musical “right brain,” not the Logical and Obedient “left brain.”

Intuition Olympics 2

The second Diamond Star Challenges us to redeploy our Boundaries (Pallas) so they Protect us from Abuse, while they’re Open to facilitating What We Want to Manifest, and in particular Open to Fulfilling our Deepest Desires…

The base of the T-Square is the Nodal Axis.  When the Nodal Axis works properly, the South Node points out our Held Emotions, we Embrace them, and another important Skill that we Mastered in a Past Life (but which was obscured by the Held Emotions) is made available to us so we can apply it toward our North-Node Mission.  “Held” Emotions are those which we Consciously or Unconsciously Avoid “at all costs” because they Trigger an Ego Death that feels like a “Real” Death because that’s probably just what it was in the Past Life (if not several).

Since Physical Death is the only thing that’s Certain on this Planet, it’s beyond me why everyone doesn’t study it from K-12 on, so they’re ready to Actively carry what they’ve Learned in the current Lifetime on to the next one.  Evidently it’s because their churches banned the discussion of Reincarnation and convinced them that they have no Soul to carry on their Essence.  Even where Reincarnation is discussed, it’s in terms of retaliation rather than inertia.

It’s not True that “you can’t take it with you” – what you take with you is What You’ve Learned.  You may not take your Spiritually Worthless (except Heuristically) Shekels with you to the next Life, but if you’ve Learned how to Manifest Abundance, that’s what you’ll take with you.  Give someone a Fish and they’ll eat; Teach them to Fish and they’ll spend all day in a boat drinking Beer, as the saying goes.

Our Belief-Inspired Actions (Mars-Vesta), which were an Inhibition to Mastering our first Diamond Star, are to this one a Boon, being as they are part of the “Bowl of Grace” for this Diamond Star.  The implication is that in order to modify our Boundaries so they Serve us better, we need to Act to Align our Beliefs with our Desires.  Or rather, since it’s Trine to the North Node, that we’ll be Inspired to do so, without having to think about it.  Same for summarily Jettisoning the Timelines/Patterns/Habits/Karma (Atropos-Eurydike) and even Held Emotions (Trine to South Node) because we Trust that there is Light beyond Letting Go.

If we put these two Diamond Stars together, we see how complex the chart becomes…

But it also illustrates some additional features, most of which are quite Beneficial.  For instance the Air Grand Trine (big blue triangle, implying Dumb-Luck Grace), signifying that our Intuition will be Complementing our mind here rather than Arguing with it like it usually does. 

And notice that the chart fills five of the six points necessary to turn the Grand Trine into a Grand Sextile, which is even better since it means that our Actions are likely to have their Intended Effect.  The missing sixth point is occupied by the Star Alpheratz, signifying joie de vivre.

In addition to the special emphasis a Station always grants (here to Moon-Asbolus), there are five Fingers of God, putting special emphasis on…

• Trusting that Ending Archetypes will Serve us (Atropos-Eurydike),
• Our Mission (North Node),
• Our Boundary Revisions (Pallas),
• Our Integration of Thought, Spirit, Values, and Evolved Identity (Mercury-Neptune-Venus-Nemesis), and
• Another complex that we haven’t discussed yet…

which is the Merging (Conjunction) of Self-Sovereignty (Lilith), Self-Confidence (Chariklo), and Beginning a New Timeline (Klotho).  In the Unconscious World, New Timelines are established by Fate or our Karma, but since we Strive to become Conscious, it is We who Choose New Timelines and when to Begin them.  So we can think of Klotho as Choice.

So unless we work hard at Resisting it (which of course some of us will, if we also Resist the Integration, Boundary Revisions, and Belief Revisions that the rest of the chart implies), we’re likely to be Choosing to have New Self-Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty.  Self-Sovereignty being an important section of the admission exam for the 5D theme park of Harmony, Mutual Understanding, Sympathy, Trust, and Universal Collaboration, this is good.

Intuition Olympics 1

The 23 February (8pm PST) Station of dwarf planet Asbolus, which symbolizes Intuition, is a busy one even without considering its chronological coincidence with our PTSD Gauntlet (see two previous posts).  It takes four charts to sketch out just the strongest outlines of the Station. 

A Station is when the impact of a planet is Strongest.  In general, we’ll feel the influence of a Station for about a week prior to the actual event, with the Energy increasing as the event approaches.  Then it should drop off quite suddenly, though there are exceptions, mostly dealing with Decisions.

Suppose for instance there’s a particular Intuition that’s been nagging at you, but you haven’t been able to follow up on it because it conflicts too much with Beliefs that you haven’t been able to Let Go of.  Maybe you haven’t figured out how to Communicate it and still see yourself as “Nice,” and it’s really bugging you.  So, with…

“Your mother’s ghost stands at your shoulder
Eyes like ice, a little bit colder
Saying to you, ‘you cannot do that, it breaks
All the rules you learned in school’ “

you rededicate yourself to your Vows to Obey Authority.

That’ll set you Against the Natural Flow of Energy, and drive your Intuition further into the Unconscious.  Suppose your Intuition was that you need to tell someone to stop Disrespecting you.  Well, the more we stash that in the dungeon, the more Abuse we’ll attract to ourself, because our External World is a Mirror for our Internal World.  That’ll carry the Energy of the Station well past the time of the event.

The Asbolus Station itself, busy as it is, has some very beneficial features.  Diamond Stars occur when a Finger of God (Pay Attention!) complements a T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) and creates a “bowl of Grace” under the T-Square, greatly Easing the Challenge.  Diamond Stars aren’t that common, yet we’ve seen a couple of them recently.  And there are two of them in the Asbolus Station chart!

The first one is a Challenge to Integrate our Values, our Emotions, our Thoughts, and our Relationship to the Universe, into one coherent package, enduring whatever Ego Deaths are required along the way, to become Aware of and Let Go of any Conflicts between these important components of our Identity (T-Square to Mercury-Neptune-Venus-Nemesis)…

Add to that the process of also Integrating our Gender Balance, our Beliefs, our Skill at Honoring and Manifesting What We Want, and our Intuition (Moon-Asbolus Opposite Mars-Vesta in the base of the T-Square).  The “Bowl of Grace,” or Gifts to make this Rebalancing Easier, are Our Mission (North Node), and Trust that we can Let Go of Self-Sabotaging Patterns in our Life without suffering eternal damnation (Atropos-Eurydike).

The base of the T-Square is an Indictment of Western Culture’s Patriarchal Habit of Preferring Logic to Intuition.  Logic has no basis in Fact, because it’s totally dependent on the Assumptions that underlie its house of cards.  Because the Assumptions are usually unspoken, and the Logic is often expressed in Moralistic terms, it’s a prime tool for Manipulating and Controlling us. 

The Mars-Vesta end of the Opposition represents our Beliefs that Action is Required to Change the World.  The Moon-Asbolus end is quite the Opposite.  A case could be made that “what we Resist, Persists.”  The Moon symbolizes the Passion that glues Energy into specific Forms of Matter.  Matter is a Willing Slave to our Conscious Desires, but when the Unconscious is a mess of Conflicting Unfulfilled Needs and Wants that are Prohibited by our Beliefs, Matter is understandably a muddled mess.

The Asbolus Station Conjoining the Moon Opens our Intuition to the places where we tend to Act to Sabotage ourself because of our Limiting Beliefs (Mars-Vesta).  The Diamond Star as a whole is a huge Celebration of Liberation.

PTSD Gauntlet II

For convenience I’m using the Intuition/Asbolus-Station chart to illustrate the Memories-Mind, Abuse-Mind, Memories-Essence, and Abuse-Essence Initiations we talked about in the previous post.  These four are one-year Cycles.  If we have time next week, we’ll do the Memories/Abuse-Edges of Consciousness Initiations separately.  In the chart the heavy lines are the Memories/OR10 Angles, and the lighter lines are the Abuse/Nessus Angles.

Starting with the Memories Angles, the Challenge (heavy red triangle or T-Square) for processing our Memories (OR10) has to do with Truth (asteroid Veritas) and Respect for All Things (asteroid Hopi).

As is often the case, Dan Scranton Channeled a post on this topic recently…

http://danielscranton.com/respecting-different-points-of-view-and-the-people-who-hold-them-%e2%88%9ethe-creators/

“What is a wonderful thing to us is to see two people who have very different points of view on very many topics still being able to relate to one another as human beings and as beings of love and light, existing at the same time and same place, allowing one another to have different points of view and respecting each other.  That is what we want most for you.  It is harmony.  It is releasing judgment of others for being in the opposing viewpoint camp and knowing that ultimately that these differences in opinion that you have are what make this world so special.”

And it turns out to be Fundamental – in order to “graduate” from 3D Duality to 5D Multidimensionality, we need to Accept the apparent Paradox of “Cognitive Dissonance,” or Holding Contradictory Perspectives in the Mind at the same time, without letting either one diminish the other.  In the context of Perp and Victim of Abuse, this is Trial by Fire, a big assignment for someone just starting their Healing from Abuse, and probably more than anyone has a right to expect.

Can we Forgive and Respect a Perp while Honestly facing the Truth of their Transgressions?  That’s a very sophisticated position to Live Out Fully, and Living it Out Fully is important to Recovery.  On the other hand, both the Psycho-Spiritual quality of the Newer Earthlings and the Intensity of the New Energies are greatly enhanced, so we don’t want to sell anyone short.  I suppose we’re seeing all this in flaming color in the news with Dr. Nasser and the Parkland Florida Disaster.

Basically, it’s about Fully Feeling our Anger, which is necessary for our Healing and necessary for Learning to Avoid Future Abuse, while Avoiding Blame and Focusing on Improving Outcomes.  I haven’t heard the amazing youngsters in Parkland Blaming the Perp, but rather putting their Anger into Changing the “adult” political dysfunction that keeps allowing mass shootings to happen.  Which is exactly how it should work – putting our Anger into Informed Boundaries to prevent it from happening again.

There are two Bridges, or Easier pathways for “resolving” the Challenge of the Hopi T-Square – a Trine Bridge (just plain Grace) through Responsibility (dwarf planet Pholus) and our Survival Instincts (dwarf planet Quaoar), and a Quincunx Bridge (Prescribing Curiosity) through the Life Force (dwarf planet Varuna) and Memory (asteroid Mnemosyne).  The Parkland youngsters perfectly illustrate the Trine Bridge through Responsibility (Responding so as to Improve Future Outcomes) and promoting Survival.

The Quincunx Bridge is more Curious (pun intended).  Asteroid Mnemosyne symbolizes the Memory Process in general, as a subcategory of the Illusion of Time, while dwarf planet OR10 is more about Intrusive Memories and Content rather than Process.  OR10, just by nature of being Intrusive, hints that it’s a timer for our Held Emotions.  The Quincunx between Mnemosyne and OR10 asks us be Curious about how Process and Content relate to one another. 

Perhaps we’re back to Hamerof’s Microtubules.  Since it’s the Edges of Consciousness, Juno, that’s Conjunct OR10 and Quincunx Mnemosyne-Varuna, that actually makes sense.  It’s like we’re being Asked to Remember the Life Force – which again aligns with the notion of a timer for Intruding Held Emotions, as Held Emotions certainly Limit our Life Force. 

What’s that got to do with Respect for All Things, the onus of the T-Square that’s Quincunx-Bridged by Mnemosyne-Varuna?  Well, that’s the Question, and the Quincunx Asks that we leave it hanging without an Answer, like an open mailbox waiting patiently for a letter from the Universe.

The Abuse/Nessus Initiation of Essence/Sun is an annual event that suggests what sort of Healing we’ll be pursuing deeply for the year to come.  As we mentioned in the previous post, the Degree symbol is “Illuminated by a Shaft of Light, a large Cross lies on rocks surrounded by Sea Mist.”  That sounds to me like for the coming year we’re going to be Letting Go of the Abuse caused by the Either/Or Religious Programming that we grew up under.

The Angles in the Abuse half of this chart are the ones drawn in lighter lines.  The major Configuration is a “Sextile Fez” – the trapezoid connecting Nessus, dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation), and asteroids Ceres (Sustainability) and Moira (Choice).  Fez Energy is driven by the diagonal Quincunxes – Manifestation/Makemake to Choice/Moira, and Abuse/Nessus to Sustainability/Ceres.

Well we don’t want to Sustain Abuse, we want to Sustain Healing.  The Quincunx tells us to keep the Question unanswered, which we can do with a PIAVA – such as “I Wonder how Healing from Abuse can be Sustained this year.”  Then of course we have to Change the Subject, and let the “how” unfold as the year progresses.

We want to do the same with Manifesting Choice or Choosing to Manifest, though of course Healing Abuse means Letting Go of Limiting Beliefs, which in turn means Having Choice and Liberating Life Force to Manifest.  But that’s an Answer, not a Question.  We can be Curious about how that might unfold, but better yet, we can Accept that as a Given, and PIAVA the Universe to Surprise us with deeper Truths.  Perhaps something like “I Wonder what I’ll Choose to Manifest this year.”

The Fez has a tassel on one side – asteroid Lachesis.  Relative to the Unconscious, Lachesis is about enduring the Fated Timeline of a thread in the tapestry of our Lives.  But since we’re rooting for Consciousness, it becomes Choosing to end a Timeline that doesn’t serve us, especially one that Sabotages us.  The Opposition to Makemake Asks us “What Is It that We’ve Always Wanted, but our Limiting Beliefs Made it appear to be Impossible?”

You may want to Stretch a little, as your Deepest Desire may be so far from Possible in your view that you gave up on it so long ago that you’ve Forgotten it.  Or rather, almost Forgotten it.  It’s there.  You may need to PIAVA it – “I Wonder if I even know what my Deepest Desire Is.” 

PTSD Gauntlet I

Our next general Big Deal is the 23 February (8pm PST) Station of Asbolus, which means a strengthening of our Intuition between now and the 23rd.  That event turns out to be pretty complex, and we’ll get to that soon.  But first, between 20 February and 25 February, and extending until 11 March, we endure a Gauntlet of events that are likely to Trigger our Abuse Herstories.  (History is the story that the Abuser tells, at least during the reign of the Patriarchy.)

Before we even move into that, though, lets talk about how Abuse and Intuition interact.  Bottom Line, Abuse really screws up our Intuition.  It makes us Hyperaware, which is actually Beneficial for the Development of Consciousness, but it also makes us Paranoid.  So one of our greatest Opportunities here will be Learning to better Differentiate what’s an Intuition and what’s a Fear.

Let me start by quickly describing how I Differentiate Fear from Intuition.  I’ll be brief here; we can go into this more later if anyone wants, but you can dig further yourself by looking up Theta Healing, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/, and Tapping, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4.  If you haven’t tried them yet, I recommend practicing with each of them separately before you try them as Differentiators. 

And if anyone has other methods that you use for Differentiating Intuitions from Fears, we’d Love to hear about them!

When Fear Overwhelms me, I Tap it Out.  You know what I mean, you’re sort of “beside yourself,” you Leave your Body, things tingle, you can almost feel your follicles shifting.  You’re definitely not in the Present Moment, you’re lost in the Future/Past Re- or Pre-Living the Fearsome version of the event you’re imagining.  Do you recognize what I’m referring to? 

Like getting awakened from sleep or half-sleep by a threatening sound and you can’t tell if it came from outside yourself or from a Dream, or just your ears tricking you.  When I get to this place it usually takes two or three rounds of Tapping to get myself back into my Body and into the Present Moment.  Once I get back, I can make a quiet assessment of the potential threat, and either dismiss it or get up and check.

Now suppose I’m planning a trip tomorrow, and having images of getting into a wreck.  Or someone I’m Attached to is taking a trip.  When you think about how ridiculous it is, even masochistic, to get into a sheet-metal box and get it whipping around at 100kph only a foot or two from other metal boxes whipping around at 100kph, at night, in the rain, with nothing but the Attention of two Hupers keeping your boxes from annihilating each other, there’s no shame in getting paranoid about it!  There’s nothing Reliable about the Attention of two Hupers.

So I start by Thetaing/Commanding a Safe Trip and a Safe Return.  If I can See myself or my Attachee sitting at home reading peacefully after the trip, and See that their vehicle is in the driveway undamaged, then we’re Golden.  Often Fear intercedes before I even get halfway through my Theta.  Then we’re back to the sound-in-the-night scenario, and I have to Tap our whatever I’m Feeling.  Then I Theta again, and if the ShowMe come out fine, we’re Good again.

It could take several iterations to get to Golden, or it could require a Renegotiation of my original Theta.  Maybe I want to Imagine taking a different route.  Maybe I want to Imagine doing this on a different day.  Maybe I want to Imagine ordering a delivery instead of shopping.  Maybe I want to Imagine calling instead of visiting.  Maybe there’s a much Easier way that I haven’t thought of yet.  This could take a while, this Theta-Tap-Theta-Tap-usw Iteration, possibly with other PIAVA variations thrown in where relevant.  But I don’t leave until I See a Safe Return.

I’m guessing that this is what Dan Scranton’s Channeled friends mean when they suggest that we “let [our] frequency pave the way” (http://danielscranton.com/open-yourselves-to-an-infinite-array-of-possibilities-%e2%88%9ethe-creators/) or “If you begin by accessing vibrations…, you will recognize that you create your experience in the now moment.  You create an experience of the now moment, and that now moment expands out.  It becomes what you call the future.  And when you walk in your power, you can access any future experience you desire” (http://danielscranton.com/how-powerful-you-are-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council-2/).

The great thing about Theta Healing is that we get instant feedback about whether our Command will Manifest the Vibration we Want to Manifest.

Before we get to the Timeline, let me give you a couple of Resources.  UndeniablySara, https://undeniablysara.com/2018/02/17/1347/, is a daily short blog with wonderful tips for dealing with Abuse or Discomfort.  Like this one…

The short text (link above) is even better.  Or this one (from https://undeniablysara.com/2018/02/15/1339/)…

Enduring and Healing from Chronic or Acute Disease or Injury, Mental Illness, Addiction, and the debilitating effects of Abuse, have a lot in common.  Cultural Attitudes, and our resulting introjected Guilt/Shame/Anger will differ, but these all require a lot of Self-Empathy and Gentleness.  We’d like to say that they require Self-Love, but the source of Dis-Ease can make us Unconsciously Despairing (we don’t even know it’s Possible) about that.  Poor-Sweethearting is a place to start.

Swan Waters, http://swanwaters.com/, is another valuable resource, that UndeniablySara has led me to.  It even has a post on how to tell the Difference between Intuition and Fear, http://swanwaters.com/difference-intuition-fear/… 

“Who are we to say that this person is bad news?  Who are we to say there is something fishy about this new business opportunity?  Well, the flipside of that is the following question: who will we be when we’re suffering the consequences of being too scared to trust [our Intuition that the person or proposition was not in our best interests].”

Here’s another good UndeniablySara that she borrowed from Swan Waters, https://undeniablysara.com/2018/02/09/hurt-but-not-broken/…

As usual, the text is even better.

Now, our upcoming Timeline.  We’ve been dealing with Intrusive Memories (symbolized by dwarf planet OR10) of Abuse (symbolized by dwarf planet Nessus) for a while now, as these two dwarf planets have been traveling together.  We’re beginning to get some Relief, as Abuse/Nessus has pulled away from Memories/OR10.  However, a crowd of faster interlopers is moving through the territory they’re in.

The interlopers are Essence (the Sun), Mind (Mercury), and the Edges of Consciousness (asteroid Juno).  The Timeline looks like this.  The dates and times are when the Influence ends; Expect to Feel the Energy during the preceding several days…

• 19 February (6pm PST) – Mind/Mercury crosses Memory/OR10; Expect your Paranoid Mind to make up all manner of unpleasant Dances; Tap them out and Theta What You Want.

• These next two Energies will be interwoven…

• 21 February (noon PST) – Mind/Mercury crosses Abuse/Nessus; If you catch yourself enduring Abuse in the Present Moment, then Congratulations – you’re waking up!  I know, you still have some work to do extricating yourself, but at least you now know that you must.  More likely, these will be Flashbacks.  Tap out the Regression, and use the Information you’re getting to refine What You Want to Create.

• 21 February (8pm PST) – Essence/Sun crosses Memory/OR10; While the Mercury events were probably vividly imagined, these are more likely to tease out Body Memories.  No fun.  Keep Tapping.  It just Feels like Present Moment; you can be Grateful that it isn’t.  When you get back to yourself, focus on the Vibration you Want to Feel.

• 25 February (6am PST) – Essence/Sun crosses Abuse/Nessus; More Body Memories of the actual Abuse are likely.  Poor-Sweetheart yourself, a lot.  See previous event.

• These next two Energies will have a longer lead-in time, perhaps as much as a week…

• 3 March (6am PST) – Edges of Consciousness/Juno crosses Memories/OR10; Remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth, if you can stand to Let It Be Confusion, and not have to “figure it out.”  Growth of Consciousness usually requires an Ego Death, as the Ego’s legitimate role is to filter out threats to the status quo, and Growth in Consciousness is a threat to the status quo.  You may Feel like you’re Dying, but you aren’t, what’s happening is that You are Dying, that is, your Identity is Molting, casting off a shell it’s outgrown.  We’re very vulnerable when we Molt, till we’ve calcified our new shell.  Be very gentle with yourself, and avoid unnecessary risks.

• 11 March (2pm PST) – Edges of Consciousness/Juno crosses Abuse/Nessus; This could involve more detail than you really want to remember, but know that it will ultimately Serve you.  See the previous entry, only worse – or better, if you’re looking forward to your Healing even as you look backward into your Living Nightmares.  By the Ides, you’ll be soaring, having Let Go of a ton of dead weight.

Memories/OR10 is at 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seaside resorts.”  The heavy traffic is all of the Mental Activity that is triggered.  The narrow isthmus is the Constrained thinking that our Abuse has Created.  While those with Clear Microtubules Live in a World full of Possibilities, our Limiting Beliefs force us to Live in a World that’s narrowed by the Limits to Safety that our Experiences have Programmed for us.  The seaside resorts are where we get to watch the Clear folks having so much unbridled Fun.

Abuse/Nessus is at 7 Pisces, “Illuminated by a Shaft of Light, a large Cross lies on rocks surrounded by Sea Mist.”  The Sea Mist is Confusion.  The Cross is what we bear as we Struggle into Healing.  If we’re an Addict, we know what “on the rocks” means.  The picture doesn’t say the Cross is broken, but the implication is there to the paranoid mind.  Of course if we’re bearing it, broken is good.  Then there’s the Shaft of Light.  That’s very hopeful, but as a Shaft it’s also a very narrow exit tunnel for us, again reflecting our Limiting Beliefs.

Those are both very negative interpretations, right?  Did you notice?  This is the Energy we’re likely to be encountering.  If we’re Aware that a Shitstorm is approaching, we can get out our umbrella.  How can we improve the interpretations?

I’m an Introvert, so the last thing I want is heavy traffic and seaside resorts.  So I’d substitute walking on a deserted Beach with a carefully selected companion or two, if any.  Let the Extroverts burn themselves out however they like.  If I was an Extrovert, I’d just Imagine a wide spot in the road, park the car in it and walk up the Beach to the resort ahead.

And I can be Grateful for any source of Illumination.  If it’s Focused, more Power to it.  I can Choose to have the Cross represent Walking the Spiritual (vertical) Path with Practical (horizontal) Feet, as Angie used to say.  Rudolph Steiner, with his assertion that Spirit Descending into Matter wasn’t a lot different from Matter Ascending into Spirit, might agree.  The Sea Mist can by Mystery, Grace Unborn.

Next we’ll look at the chart, to see what it tells us.

Life Force Eclipse

The 15 February (1pm PST) Partial Solar Eclipse at 28 Aquarius Graces the Planet’s Root Chakra if you’re a Norther, and Her Crown Chakra if your Persuasion is more Southerly.

As we’ve said, we consider an Eclipse to be about Illumination, as there’s no better way to Illuminate what we take for granted, than to remove it.  This is how Consciousness evolves, not by Discovery, but by Discimination.

The Eclipse is about our Life Force.

• First, the Eclipse itself is Merged With (Conjunct) the Edges of our Consciousness (asteroid Juno) and our Attention (Mercury).
• Second, the major Configuration in the Eclipse chart signifies Challenge Made Easy (a Diamond Star – a T-Square and a Finger of God pointing to the same place).
• Third, the Challenge is Attending to the Truth of our Life Force (asteroid Aletheia Merged With dwarf planet Varuna).
• Fourth, the Eclipse itself is one foot of the “Bowl of Grace” (the double Trine Bridge) that underlies the Challenge (Bridging the Opposition in the base of the T-Square).
• Fifth, the other foot of the Bowl is about Taking Full Responsibility for our Forbidden Genius (the Merger between dwarf planets Pholus and Ixion).
• Sixth, the root of the Challenge is the Birth of our Soul into the Realm of our Ego (Uranus Opposing dwarf planet Haumea).

This may be a basis for the warnings that we’ve been given by the Off-Planet Channelers lately, that we may soon need to Choose between remaining in 3D (Duality, Competition, Struggle, Suffering) and Transcending into 5D (Peace, Serenity, Collaboration with All Things, Support).

While the major emphasis is on the Truth of the Life Force, there are secondary emphases on our Hidden Genius and on Fear (Sedna).  As we’ve been Learning this month (with Sedna’s Station) already, the critical issue is our Relationship to Fear, and our Response to it.  Let me know if anyone still has questions about that, and I’ll reiterate.

We made pre-Birth Agreements with our Programmers that they would Suppress part of our Unique Genius (Ixion), so that we would never be able to Forget that its Recovery is what we’re here for.  We all have to Express our Full True Self, and Allow everyone else to Express theirs, if we are to Recover our Birthright and Ascend into Collaboration.

Also auxiliary to the central Diamond Star are two secondary Challenges – to bring Fear into the stable of Emotions that we deal with Consciously and Comfortably (Sedna Square Eclipse-Juno-Mercury), and to Poor-Sweetheart ourself into Lovingly Healing our Despair about our Childhood Abuse (Chiron Square Pholus-Ixion).  Let me know if anyone needs me to reiterate Poor-Sweethearting, Despair, and Miracles.

We probably also need a reminder about Responsibility, as we’re being Inspired to be Fully Responsive to our Forbidden Genius.  Responsibility and Blame are very different; Blame looks back to the Past to Assign Cause, while Responsibility looks into the Future to Improve Outcomes.  Responsibility means “How we Respond.”  Blame is a Reaction, not a Response.

If we need Blame to get Conscious of our Limitations, that’s appropriate.  Even if in 5D or higher we Contracted with our Abusers to mete out our Punishment, in 3D there’s no sense in which we are to Blame for what they did to us.  Without Power, we Deserved Protection.  It was their Power that they Abused.  A stage of Anger at our Perps is inevitable and necessary.  Without fully participating in that Anger, we’re unlikely to Transcend our Abuse.

If we don’t Transcend and become Fully Conscious of what Transpired, we’re likely to become a Perp ourself, and extend the Cycle.  These Parallel 3D and 5D processes of Abuse and Forgiveness are a Paradox.  They’re to be Accepted rather than Understood.  Anger and Forgiveness are not Either/Or, they’re Both/And. 

Imagine being really really Angry at someone we really really Love, someone whom we deep down know is at Heart actually Innocent, in the sense that it was not their Conscious Intention to Abuse us.  If we can Express our Anger and if they don’t try to Deny our Anger or it’s Trigger (they don’t actually need to Accept Blame for our Anger), then Deep Healing is possible.  

Healing from Abuse is not an Easy process; it’s deeply Emotional and often takes a long time (though with the Death of Karma and the Contraction of Time, we don’t want to assume it will remain that way).  But as within so without, so Healing is not something we can gloss over if we Want to Change our “External” Mirrored Reality. 

Remember that Instantaneous Healing is available, it just may not be Easy to find here in the Wilderness.

Endings III

Now the End of the Patriarchy is a pretty Big Ending.  See if you can figure out who said this…

“The top seven stories today are all guys getting blown up, and these are not small guys.  I think it’s going to unfold like the Tea Party, only bigger.  It’s not Me Too.  It’s not just sexual harassment.  It’s an anti-patriarchy movement.  Time’s up on 10,000 years of recorded history.  This is coming.  This is real.”

We’ll give you some time to think about it, and then later we’ll give you the answer. 

Here’s a story about Ending a Pattern and Choosing to Embrace an alternative…

With thanks to https://taniamarieartist.wordpress.com/2018/02/12/celebrate-whats-right-with-the-world/ for the suggestion.

The Arcturian Perspective on Choice, via Daniel Scranton…

http://danielscranton.com/how-powerful-you-are-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council-2/

“By the power that you access within yourselves, you are able to produce new timelines, new probabilities, and therefore, new experiences.  We are always going to encourage you to go within yourselves to discover the power that you possess.  Your power is in your ability to focus.  You are focusers of energy, and you are accessing vibrations all the time.

“When you realize how powerful you are, and when you recognize that your power lies within you and in the present moment, that is when you will truly begin to create your reality consciously.  By demonstrating to yourselves how powerful you are, and that you can be trusted with that power, you enable yourselves to experience the new timelines that you create.

“When you are focusing on the past, or projecting out into the future similar results that you’ve achieved previously, you disempower yourselves.  You become more reactionary than creation-oriented.  Creation is the name of the game.  It’s what you came here to do.  You create, and you experience.  You experience, get information, and make choices about what you want to create next.

“Now, there are ways in which you can access your power that you have not yet discovered.  These will be coming to you as downloads that you will unlock, but the power is there.  The power is already within you.  Accessing your power is as easy as acknowledging that you have it, focusing within yourself, and activating a vibration.

“If you begin by accessing vibrations for the sheer enjoyment of it, you will recognize that you create your experience in the now moment.  You create an experience of the now moment, and that now moment expands out.  It becomes what you call the future.  And when you walk in your power, you can access any future experience you desire.  And you are ready.  You are ready to experience just how powerful you are.”

Now, as for Ending the Patriarchy…

“The top seven stories today are all guys getting blown up, and these are not small guys.  I think it’s going to unfold like the Tea Party, only bigger.  It’s not Me Too.  It’s not just sexual harassment.  It’s an anti-patriarchy movement.  Time’s up on 10,000 years of recorded history.  This is coming.  This is real.”

Steven Bannon said that!  https://www.bloomberg.com/view/articles/2018-02-09/has-anyone-seen-the-president.