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“Dark Days” 7

April 25, 2019

Okay, the Pluto Station has passed under the bridge and moved on down the River, though as I said earlier, it may linger because the three Stations (Pluto, Chariklo, Saturn) are only a few Degrees apart.  I used to Experience Pluto Stations as though I was “swimming through Jello,” but lately, while there’s a good deal of momentary Confusion, it’s been Feeling fairly ordinary.  Anyone finding Differently?

So to the extent that Pluto has moved on, we’re left in the Thick of Chariklo-Saturn-South Node, or Confidence-Attention-Karma.  Or, The Most Important Thing is to Stay in the Present Moment, or to Distinguish between the Present Moment and our Regressions.  One downside I’d not be Surprised to see is that our Karma will shake up our Confidence, and we’d be swimming in Self-Doubt instead of Jello, or worse, in Self-Recrimination.  Whenever the South Node is lit up – or asteroid Karma, or our Karma for any reason, astrological or otherwise, most of what we Experience will be Illusion.

We could easily be imagining the worst Outcome possible, then when something appears to move in that direction, we jump to the conclusion that it already, indeed, has.  For instance, if we’re thinking about how a friend might Abandon us, or thinking about Abandoning them, and they make a comment that might be interpreted as Criticism, even if it wasn’t meant that way, we could Receive their comment as the very Abandonment we’d been Expecting, and React accordingly, leaving our former friend wondering what happened.

That’s a good example, as it Illustrates how we grasp our Karma rather than the other way ’round.  Of course the critical element is the Depth of our Karmic Trance – that’s what Karma is after all, a Trance, one that Separates us from the Present Moment.

Pluto of course is all about Trance – we usually express it as a Transformation, or Formation of a New Trance.  The key to Karma is Awareness that we’ve Left the Present Moment.  Back in the 1980s we would ask ourselves, “What color is the wallpaper?” because if it was not the same as the wallpaper in the room where we were Abused, just that had the potential to jolt us out of our Unconscious Surrender to our Regression.

So with Pluto Involved (it’s still Involved even as its Influence lessens), our odds of Transforming our Karmic Trance into Awareness are actually greater.

The Karmic Trance can be very all-consuming Emotionally.  If we Hear someone Criticizing us or otherwise Shaking our Confidence, it may not matter what their Intentions are, it may Light a Fire in us that’s not easily extinguishable.

Everyone has some degree of Karmic Abandonment, and everyone has some degree of Karmic “Suffocation” – the Feeling that someone is watching us too closely, waiting for us to slip up, eager to label us Wrong, or itching Limit our Freedom.  The Libertarians carry their Suffocation to Extremes, and are proud of it.  Often, for each of us, either Abandonment or Suffocation dominates, but we can be Strong in both.  By Distinguishing when we’re Feeling Abandoned and when we’re feeling Suffocated, we up the odds that we’ll be able to recognize that it’s Our Abandonment and Our Suffocation.

When we Own these two Emotions, we can more easily Differentiate situations where we’re Being Abandoned or Suffocated, from situations where we’re Feeling Abandoned or Suffocated.  If we can do that, we up the odds that we can retract our Projections – rather than Feel Criticized and clam up, we might ask what the other person meant when they said that.  Of course, just because we’re Feeling Abandoned or Suffocated, doesn’t mean we aren’t also Being Abandoned or Suffocated – “Just because I’m Paranoid doesn’t mean they aren’t out to get me,” as we used to say.

But Recognizing these Feelings will help you decipher whether the Emotion and the Experience match in Intensity.  When they don’t, we’re either Tranced into our Karma, (when the Emotion is much more Intense than the Experience) and need to Wake Up, or we’re looking into the open jaws of a Held Emotion – that is, Tranced into Avoiding our Karma (when the Emotion is much less Intense than the Experience).  While Avoiding Karma may feel like Success, it’s not.  It means that our Karma is hiding in the Unconscious, where it’s pulling our puppet-strings.

One of the hardest things about Held Emotions is that they’re undercover.  Since we’d rather Die than Feel them, we’re highly Skilled at Avoiding them.  The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive, and if the Ego thinks we’ll Die, it’s going to Excel at Avoiding that situation.  So if we can Detect a clue to a Held Emotion by Arbitraging our Experiences and our Emotions instead of just Freaking Out, then thinking in terms of Abandonment and Suffocation will have done you a solid.

In a way it’s like your Study of Anxiety – where you’re Learning to distinguish between your fast-moving Emotions (a la Goofy) and your drudging thoughts about them (aka Anxiety).

And don’t forget Poor-Sweetheart.  Poor-Sweethearting a Real Emotion or a fake one can Feel like Avoidance, but it’s not.  Once you Empathize with what you’re really Experiencing or Feeling, you’ve already Changed the Trance.  When you then Successfully Change the Subject, you Step Out of your Karmic Trance, and every time you Step Out you build your Antikarmic Muscles.  Pretty soon you have a whole new set of Patterns.

“Dark Days” 3

April 21, 2019

My two primary heroes growing up were the Lone Ranger from the movies they showed Saturday mornings in the church basement, and Jesus from the stories that they told in Sunday School the next day.  It didn’t take long for me to figure out that most folks who called themselves “Christians” actually followed the Olde Testament more than what Jesus actually taught, except when they were preaching to someone else.  So it didn’t dawn on me that our “Dark Days” and Easter happen to coincide this year.  Marilyn Raffaele did pick up on that in her Channeling today…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

Dear ones, we greet you on this religious holiday of Easter being celebrated in Christian communities the world over in remembrance of the suffering, death, and resurrection of the master teacher Jeshua.  However, just as with the Christmas story, Easter also holds much deeper meaning and every human is living the Easter story at some level.

“Every individual throughout their many lifetimes has experienced the death of old beliefs and the integration of new ones but always within the third dimensional belief system.  This is how evolution happens.  At some point a spiritual completion of sorts is reached and the death of what has become one’s outgrown state of consciousness begins.  The soul has reached a place of readiness for new and higher dimensional awareness although usually not consciously aware of it.

“Many past lives were short and filled with suffering while others were long and fulfilling but all were necessary in order for the soul to experience and grow from every aspect of three dimensional living and then move on which begins with a growing sense of dissatisfaction with what has previously been comfortable and normal.

“Confusion and a sense of loss comes as a person gradually begins to shift out of alignment with some friends, traditional family values, religious doctrine, certain foods, entertainments, work, etc.  This is the period in which many make futile attempts to restore that which they feel they are losing, not realizing that their energy is no longer in alignment with these things.

“The death throes of one’s old state of consciousness can be painful on one or all levels but is short or long depending upon resistance.  This is the period known as the ‘Dark night of the soul’ — the part of the Master’s story where he was alone, confused, and praying in the desert with a sense of what was coming.

“Change is eventually embraced and understood as being necessary and [we begin] to seek, accept, and practice increasingly higher levels of truth.  The length of this phase varies with every individual and often extends through lifetimes.  However, there eventually comes the personal resurrection and ascension that births a new state of consciousness.  The Easter story is your story.

“You have all lived as both genders, all colors, warriors, rich and poor, good and bad, etc.  Every lifetime experience has served to develop your intelligence and wisdom so that over time you became a person wise and experienced regarding the best forms of three dimensional living and survival.  It was not meant for this to be the final goal, but rather a portion of your journey toward remembering — every experience a step along the way to higher awareness.

“Ascension is a process.  When a spiritually prepared person becomes comfortable in their three dimensional world believing that they have reached the pinnacle of success and that there is nothing more, this world will often collapse on one or more levels — physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually allowing the first stage of their personal Easter to begin.

“For those living fully in the the third dimensional belief system these types of experiences are usually the manifestation of their belief in duality and separation but for the spiritually evolved, they represent the dissolution of the person’s old illusory belief system.  Always remember that nothing real can ever be lost but rather only changes form.  That which seems to have disappeared will reappear in better and higher form if it is a part of one’s consciousness of wholeness.

“The crucifixion of one’s belief system can be an excruciating experience leaving the person with no foundation to depend upon or to look toward for answers and solutions.  Friends and family often try to assist during this period but are unable to because the three dimensional tools they offer are not in alignment with the higher frequency process taking place.

“After many ‘failures’ to recreate what has been lost with three dimensional solutions, [we begin] to give up and stop resisting which then allows [us] to open to the inner guidance that has always been present but ignored.  [We] begin to disengage from the false beliefs that created the pain and suffering, and enter the ‘tomb’ to rest and process what has taken place.

“A new and higher state of consciousness is born as the individual rises out of [their] personal death and darkness, a consciousness that only those at a similar level of awareness can recognize.  As [they begin] incorporating and living from their new awareness, more truth unfolds and they become increasingly enlightened until at a certain point they are ready for ascension out of their old state of consciousness.

“On earth at this time, ascension means the shift of consciousness out of the third dimension and into the fifth, a dimension governed by frequencies of unconditional love and Oneness.

“The Christ is already fully present within each and every person but can not be experienced until recognized.  Many continue to cry out, ‘How could a loving God allow this?’  God activity cannot be present in a vacuum but must flow through his expressions on earth.  It is the same as having a large bank account that one is totally unaware of and so lives ignorantly in poverty.

“Through unawakened ignorance, the third dimensional state of consciousness has created the world of pain, suffering, lack, and limitation that most have come to accept as normal.  A world that many continue begging God to change.  Divine Consciousness knows nothing about what three dimensional thinking is creating because illusion does not exist in Divine Consciousness.  This is why the changes you wish to see, you must create.

“The Easter experience is here for all who choose it.  Mankind is now in the midst of the suffering, pondering, and dying part in preparation for resurrecting out of the duality and separation that has ruled and governed over hundreds of lifetimes.

“Up to now individuals had to physically die in order to ascend to a higher dimension, but at this powerful time mankind is ascending while in physical body.  The integration of higher more refined Light energies cannot take place with the old still in place, which is why most of you are in the process of clearing old cellular energy and remaining karmic issues at this time.

“Arcturian Group wishes to speak of the energy changes taking place on earth.  As the frequencies of earth become increasingly refined, there comes increasing chaos because when Light flows to that which is dark and heavy, it causes a reaction.

“Those continuing to hold tightly to the illusions of old energy are experiencing resistance and fear as they struggle through means that no longer work, to keep the status quo.  Everyone, those awake and those who are not, is experiencing the higher frequency energies, but because many do not understand what is going on, they are acting out in ways that make sense to their unawakened consciousness.

“Negative and false beliefs are beginning to be recognized for what they are, in the awareness of an increasing number of people starting to realize that they no longer agree with many of the beliefs and laws they previously accepted.  People are waking up the world over and starting to question what they have been told which in turn is causing resistance and action on the part of those who thrive from everything remaining in old energy.

“Hold to your center dear ones, holding the Light of truth closely within you at all times.  [Avoid getting] overly involved in the negative appearances that confront your awareness every day.  Concern and worry over appearances only adds more energy to those very things.  Allow false creations to dissolve into the nothingness that they really are, which will happen if they are no longer fed.

“Much is yet to be revealed.  Let trust and truth be your shield and sword, always remembering that nothing can make you less than the Divine Being that you are.  If someone were to shoot you in the heart, you would continue simply watching the show but from a different seat.  You are Divine beings always have been and forever will be, for there is nothing else.

“This realization is your Easter.”

In her post today, katie agrees…

https://roseandcactusquartz.com/2019/04/21/what-are-you/

“Your worth is stable and everlasting no matter what.  By the way, this wasn’t an easy conclusion to come to.  I spent a long time alone without a lot of these things [job, family, money, house, ‘expressing myself a certain way, looking a certain way, etc..  You can fill in your own blanks’] because I needed to learn I was worthy without them.

“One day when I thought I had had enough of ‘learning,’ it dawned on me that without all of these things that I thought were so important – I am talking make-or-break, life-or-death – that I was still here.  It sounds incredibly simple, but I spent so much time believing that these external things (could be anything for you) were what validated and affirmed my life!  Then I had the epiphany that I still very much exist with or without them.  I am valid with or without them.  I am an amazing, abundant person with or without them.”

A few folks have expressed that these “Dark Days” posts have Frightened them.  But how can anyone be Frightened by their own Karma, which they’ve so Intimately Lived With their whole Lives?  Well, actually, it’s easy – we’ve all painted a False Ego over our True Selves, and over our Karma, and it’s that False Ego that’s Frightened, because it Fears (Ego) Death.  But we’ve gone through Ego Death before, many times, haven’t we, and guess what – we’re still here!  With Uranus now in Taurus (Descent of Soul into Flesh), what an excellent Opportunity to Notice the Difference between Ego and Soul!

And as always, the Emergence of Fear is itself a fabulous Opportunity to Remember that Fear + Breathing = Excitement and Fear + Kegels = Power.  That’s especially relevant now, because Power and Chariklo’s primary characteristic, Self-Confidence, go hand in hand.  With seven-day Sensitivity, Chariklo’s Strengthening of Influence (Station) begins today.  And it’s not a huge leap to go from Pluto’s Compulsion, to Motivation, to Excitement (Pluto’s Station is Exact in only three days).  So Fear is Right On here, we just need to Respond to it Lovingly and Powerfully.

Remember the Lesson that Pluto taught us – that when Emotions are operating properly, they “go right through us,” and move on in a few moments?

If any Emotion befalls you and lasts more than five minutes, it’s no longer an Emotion that you’re Experiencing, it’s your Thoughts about your Emotion.  Those Thoughts are 99.9% Bullshit.  You’ve just gone from whatever Emotion you originally Encountered, to the Emotion of Anxiety.  When you try to Live your Life from the Bullshit Contents of the Stories that your Anxious Thoughts tell you, Failure is guaranteed.

The most Life-Changing thing we can Learn from these “Dark Days” (Pluto-Chariklo-Saturn-South Node) Dramas is to Notice that we’re in Anxiety and Deal With it as Anxiety.  That means Embracing it as the Emotion that it is, Poor-Sweethearting ourself (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxiety, aren’t you”), and Changing the Subject.  When Anxious Thoughts Bully their way back in, Rinse and Repeat, as often as necessary.  It’s not how many times we Fall Down that counts, it’s how many times we Get Up.

“Dark Days” 2

April 19, 2019

Here’s an excellent way to Lighten Up these “Dark Days” – Donna Eden’s free Energy Medicine & Healing Summit that lasts all week, 22-26 April, led by her daughter Dondi Dahlin, at…

https://energymedicinesummit.com/

I’m told that each session will be available for 48 hours after it plays live.  I’m looking forward to…

  • Donna herself speaking about The Assemblage Point (“The Power of this extraordinary Energy and how to Align with it; How it works with the Aura and the Heart Chakra; How figure eights keep it shining bright”) and
  • Judith Orloff on Balance as an Empath (“Identify if you’re an Empath and/or highly Sensitive person; Discover why you feel exhausted, anxious, and physically ill; Learn how to Set Boundaries and Trust your Intuition),

…both Tuesday morning.  While I think of an Ego Death as a Shift in our “Assemblage Point,” I don’t really Know what Castaneda’s Don Juan meant by that term.  I expect Donna, Seeing Energy as she does, will Know though, so I’m Excited to hear what she has to say about it.

Here’s our “Dark Days” Itinerary…

17-24 April (more or less) – Strong Compulsions, best not Resisted, though they can be Modified if necessary to Avoid Untoward Consequences, or “Surfed” for a Gravity Boost to your Orbit.  If lack of Alignment with your Self-Image or Social Mask seems like a problem, Allow your Image or Mask to Evolve, Gently.  (Pluto Stationary in 24 Capricorn, 11:30 am 24 April)

19 April to 3 May – Soulful Full Moon (see previous and future posts)

21-28 April – Watch closely for any sign of Self-Doubt, and rather than giving it any Credence, regard it as a Regression into the most Self-Sabotaging parts of your Childhood Programming.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’ve been Programmed into Doubting yourself, haven’t you.”  If your Inner Child doesn’t Show Up for a Hug and maybe a Chat, Pretend that they have.  (Chariklo Station in 25 Capricorn, 3pm 28 April)

22-29 April – We need to Stay Focused on One Thing here, and it needs to be The Most Important Thing.  For you in this context (ie, everything else that’s going on), that may feel like Rescuing Your Partner or Someone Else who’s Important to you, or Saving Your Relationship or Your Income or Your Domicile or some other Materially or Emotionally Important issue.  Which is Fine, but do Recognize that you’ll be Abandoning your True Self if whoever you’re Rescuing, or whatever you’re Saving, is Contrary to your Liberation or to your Soul’s Truth.

No Worries, you may just be Learning the last few Lessons that you need to Learn in order to be Truly Ready to Transcend.  This isn’t our only Opportunity to Ascend, after all, just our Most Powerful One, one where we’re Jet-Propelled.  Before we’re Jet-Propelled into our Liberation, we’re likely to be Jet-Propelled into our “Shit,” so Awareness is key here.  We Want to stay Conscious of the Difference between What We Want and What We Don’t Want, and focus on the former as much as we can.  (Saturn Stationary in 21 Capricorn, 5pm PST 29 April)

23-30 April – Yes, it may well Feel Awful, because you may be Face to Face with your Held Emotions, the ones you’d rather Die than Feel.  There are literally No Greater Opportunities to Liberate yourself from your Limitations and your Self-Sabotage – from your Karma.  Remember the story of Sisiutl, a two-headed Monster so Scary that It turns to Stone whomever Sees It.  But, if you Stand Still for It as It approaches you, Its two heads will See Each Other – and Sisiutl will turn to Stone!  (Saturn Merges with True South Node, Exact at noon PDT 30 April)

Which leaves us with a Pattern that looks like this…

In other words, it’s pretty much All At Once.  We might Feel greater Compulsion early, and greater Focus later, or we might just feel Heavy, or like Shit, for the whole two weeks – the Pluto, Chariklo, Saturn, and Saturn-South Node events are also all within a few Degrees of one another, increasing the likelihood of Merger.  When the Energies Merge, our Unconscious Reaction will likely be something like The Most Important Thing is to Stop This Persistent Feeling that I’m Dying, Compulsively using Food, Alcohol, Drugs, Sex, or whatever Crutches we’re accustomed to using.

A Conscious Response might be The Most Important Thing is to Take Advantage of this Incredible Opportunity to Liberate myself from these Karmic Chains that have become so Graphically Clear.  So how might we go about that Liberation?  Lots of Tapping.  Lots of Alternating Theta and Tapping to Distinguish our Anxiety from Reality (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/).  Lots of Poor-Sweethearting.  There’s Grace in the Full Moon chart that will Help; we’ll talk more about that soon.

It’ll help to have Buddies who understand what we Want and what’s likely to Block us from it, so they can Remind us at strategic moments what’s The Most Important Thing.  We can score the Chocolate or the Tequila after we ditch them, but meanwhile they will have slowed down our Self-Destruction.

A friend once said, “I know that This Too will Change.  But you, as an astrologer, know When it will Change!”  No matter how Crummy you Feel, know that your Work will bring an Abundance of May Flowers, and it’s not far away.

“Dark Days” 1

April 18, 2019

Sorry to be AWOL for the last week – I’ve been waaay too busy with Necessities.  As you know from earlier posts, the theme of the last week has been Health and Self-Sovereignty – Hope you’ve improved on both counts, or you can use any Untoward Experience to help define for future reference how NOT to improve.

By now we’re working up to a Soulful Full Moon (Sun Conjunct Uranus) that aims to Teach us all about Transitions (Cusps).  We Enjoy Changes for the Better, but other Changes, not so much.  Not that we’re Transitioning into “Worse,” but we are Transitioning into More Intense.  For example…

  • The Full Moon itself sits on the Cusp of Scorpio, which is about getting our Fill of Meeting People, and beginning to try to Discover why the Experience hasn’t been as Fabulous as we’d hoped.  If you deal with this as your own Anxiety (ie, Tap It Out) rather than Judging other people for their “Faults,” you’ll be waaay ahead.
  • The Full-Moon Sun sits at the end of Aries (Raw Creativity), along with Uranus (Soul) in early Taurus (having to make our Creativity Pay Off).  That can be a lot less Fun than just Playing.  However, it’s not about “Paying Off” Materially, it’s about Paying Off in terms of Learning to Accept Who We Really Are.  While that will likely require Letting Go of Who We Thought We Were, the Rewards will be Immense.  “katie” has a whole essay on this for us, and it’s a good one…

https://roseandcactusquartz.com/2019/02/28/know-your-worth/

  • The Full-Moon Axis is Challenged (Squared) by another Contrast (Opposition), between on one hand Realizing that our Health doesn’t Happen To Us, it’s actually Created by our own Beliefs (Varuna on the Cusp of Leo), and on the other hand…
  • Our Trust in Other People, especially People Who Aren’t Like Us (Eurydike-Hopi on the Cusp of Aquarius).  Sounds Oxymoronic, or just Moronic, that we’d Contrast Health with Trust in Others, kind of an Apples-and-Oil-Changes sort of Comparison.  But astrology does that frequently, to keep us from Preferring our Dualistic mind-Map to Multifarious Reality.  In this case we might, just to dream up an example, Realize that Feeling a Need for Support from Others could be a Motivation for Feeling Poorly.
  • Worse (because it’s a T-Square rather than a Grand Cross), we do have some Major Ego Deaths scheduled, as we’ll be Finishing Up a Whole Catalog of Emotions, and Starting out on a Whole New Way of Thinking (the focus of the T-Square is Mercury-Venus-Klotho on the Cusp of Aries).
  • The first Challenge (Square) to this is some potentially Painful Shifts in our Consciousness (Nemesis-Juno on the Cusp of Cancer).  Deal with these using Self-Empathy will pay dividends – eg, Poor-Sweethearts… “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling [Ungrounded][Out of Sorts][Confused][Hurt][…], aren’t you.”  Remember to Change the Subject afterwards, repeatedly if necessary.  And Remember to Banish Blame.
  • The second Challenge (Square) to our now-Obsolete Feeling and Thinking Patterns is a Renewed Sense of Responsibility to our Unique but Latent Genius (Ixion-Pholus on the Cusp of Capricorn).  Give your Emotions and Thoughts the Assignment of coming up with Practical Baby Steps toward Expressing and Using your Unique Genius.  You don’t need the “Violence” of Coming Out All At Once, you can just take One Small Step every day, so there’s some Continuity between your old PC Self that Others are Comfortable with, and your new True Self that may be Shocking to some of them (the T-Square creates a Vacancy on the Cusp of Libra).
  • Finally, Change is Scary (Sedna on the Cusp of Gemini), especially when the Change is aimed toward Increasing our Self-Sovereignty (Sedna Squared by Lilith on the Cusp of Pisces).  Folks who base their Security on our Meeting their Expectations will need to go through all sorts of Changes themselves as we start to Affirm Who We Really Are.  They could easily Express that through Anger.  What if they’re our employer or customers?  Trust that you’ll get more mileage out of Self-Worth than you ever would out of Giving Away Your Power, even if the Transition is rough.
  • That’s ten of the twelve Cusps.  The other two are about the Enormous Grace available to us if we simply Accept That Big Changes Are Happening (the Cusp of Virgo completes a Grand Sextile) and if we Surrender into Letting Go of What’s Become Obsolete (the Cusp of Sagittarius Completes a Grand Unx).

Remember the “Grand Unx”?  That’s when twelve planets are more or less evenly spaced around the whole Zodiacal Loop.  We only have nine of the twelve here, but we’ve made credible cases for including the other three.  (Well, okay, they aren’t all planets per se, but they’re all strong Symbolic Points.)  An “Unx” is one twelfth of something, and the Twelfth Harmonic is about Pattern-Breaking.  That means that if we Look Forward, with Gratitude and even Excitement, to Who We’re Going to Become on the Other Side of the Changes, we can Thrive in what might otherwise be Difficult Circumstances.

This 19 April (4am PDT) Full Moon sets us up for two weeks that Ego-Fluffing, Materialistic, and Victim-Oriented astrologers will refer to as Dark Days, as they’re Dominated by Dances between Pluto (Ego Death / Trance Re-Formation), Saturn (Limitation / Prioritization), and the South Node (Karma / Recovering Lost Skills).  Chariklo (Threats to / Enhancement of, Self-Confidence) joins in.

While we might Experience all this as Deaths and Doubts caused by Limitations and Karma, we have the Option to Reframe it as a Nascent State of Consciousness filled with Enhanced Self-Worth, brought about by Attention to our Highest Priorities and by Letting Go of our Habitual Self-Sabotage.  The 19 April Scorpio Cusp Full Moon, if we Listen Carefully to Her Lessons, will set us up to “Win” this Portal, which is important because…

The following 4 May New Moon at the Midpoint of Taurus adjoins the Fixed Star Aldebaran, Harbinger of Spring (Dawn, Rebirth, Change, Revolution) and one of the four Royal Stars of Persia, symbolic of the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse.  Each of these four Great Stars Promise “Great Success” as long as we Avoid one Vulnerability that is the Downfall of each…

“In the case of Aldebaran, this challenge is one of integrity and honor.  Greatness can be achieved but the individual will be challenged on issues of integrity and purity of their thoughts and dealings.  If they fail this test they will lose everything.”  — (Bernadette) Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars, p.233

Expanding Self-Sovereignty

April 10, 2019

Dan Scranton’s Arcturian Channel is very fitting for a Jupiter Stationary Day…

https://danielscranton.com/a-new-way-to-co-create-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“It is an opportune time for you all to be arranging your day by the order of what is most important to you.  We see many of you trying to get things accomplished, and we also notice how you feel when you do not cross off enough items on your to-do lists.  So now would be an excellent time for you to prioritize what is actually most important to you, and then to let go of the responsibility that you often take on for getting it done yourselves.  You don’t need to get the credit for having put in the hours and the blood, sweat, and tears, at this point in your spiritual evolution.  You are beyond all of that.

“You are beyond justifying all of the things that come to you.  It is time for you to let go of that idea that you have to earn what comes your way, and it is much better for all of you to work with the energies that are coming in to serve.  The energies that are coming in at this time want to co-create with you, but they cannot do so if you are tense and if you are running around all day, trying to get things done.  They work best with those who believe in magic.  They work best with those who are relaxed and at ease, and of course, they work best with those who are unattached to outcomes.

“If you need to not only get what you want, but also get the credit for having worked for it, then the energies coming in are not for you.  They are for those who dare to dream and then let go of that dream, and they certainly are for those who have given up the struggle, who have stopped playing the game that most of society is playing.  These energies are more likely to co-create with you when you are sitting or lying down comfortably and offering a vibration that comes somewhere close to their neighborhood.

“This is not even about positive thinking.  This is more about letting go of limited thinking, limited beliefs, and embracing the power of this time that you are in.  And of course, we also want to see you embracing the power within you as a Source Energy Creator Being.  And there is no need for any of you to prove yourselves to anyone or anything outside of you at this point.  You’ve all done that before.  It’s been done to death, and it’s time for a new way of co-creating your reality.”

Turns out today’s 10 April (10am PDT), 25 Sagittarius Jupiter Station doesn’t just Oppose the Moon, it Opposes Moon-Juno-Chaos-Nemesis.  That’s a Merger of Instinct, the Edges of Consciousness, Unlimited Potential, and Ego Death.  Contrast that to the concept of Expansion (Jupiter).  If that’s Incomprehensible – many astroevents aren’t Comprehensible – it’s because our version of astrology deals with the Multifarious Unity that is Reality rather than the Dualistic Cage that is the mind.

If we bottom-up speculate, Combining Instinct and the Edges of Consciousness might give us something like Becoming More Aware of our Instincts.  Adding Unlimited Potential (and Expansion) might make Becoming Aware of the Vast Universe that our Instincts can Reveal, that wasn’t Available to our mind.  And of course, to add Ego Death, It’s Critical that we are Open to Believing when we see the Vast Universe that our Instincts Reveal, rather than Dismiss it out of hand because it doesn’t fit into our previous picture of the Universe.

Oh, did I mention that all this Challenges (T-Squares) Analysis (Mercury).  The first two syllables of that word aren’t arbitrary.

And speaking of Sovereignty, there’s another Challenge (Square) in the Jupiter-Station chart, between Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) and Sedna (Converting Fear to Power).  Sounds familiar, eh?

And finally, Rebirth (Haumea) and Truth (Aletheia) Dance with (Oppose) Revelation of what’s been Denied (Eris) and (Square to) our Karmic Journey (the Nodal Axis, still with Compulsion/Pluto and Response-Ability/Pholus and Trust/Eurydike Merged With/Conjunct Karma/South Node).

Not to worry – two of these Challenges are Self-Resolving (Diamond Stars), echoing Dan’s Channeling.  The two are Rebirth-Truth, and Our Lifetime Mission (North Node).

Self-Sovereignty

April 8, 2019

Though the 5 April Sovereignty New Moon (see previous post) remains in full effect, we’re also well into a new Time Province, the astrohighlights of which are…

  • 4-8 April brings an Emphasis on Sustainability, which includes our Ability and Willingness to drop that which is Unnecessary, since Sustenance is the other side of the Resilience Coin.  (Ceres Station in 15 Sagittarius, 8 April 9:30 pm PDT.)  Sagittarius 15 is the location of the “Great Attractor,” which is an unknown Source of Cosmic Suction that’s pulling our Galaxy and many others toward itself.
  • 3-10 April Challenges us to Let Go of the Limitations that Inhibit us from Expanding in all Directions – our Horizons, our Perspectives, our Relationships, our Life, and in particular, Limitations on our Loving Attention to the Guidance provided by our Emotions and Instincts.  (Jupiter Station in 25 Sagittarius, 10 April, 10am PDT, Opposed by the Moon.)
  • 6-13 April is likely to see issues of Vitality becoming prominent.  An excellent time to Expand our notions about Healing.  What Inhibits or Prevents our own Healing?  Who taught us that there were Limits to Healing?  Have we begun to Realize how wrong they were?  (Varuna Station in 1 Leo, 13 April, 10:30 am PDT.)
  • 9-16 April will find us Exploring Practical issues around our Sovereignty.  If we Respond with Obedience to those who want us to follow Their Rules, how does that make us Feel?  How often do we get Practice Responding Differently?  Do we even Notice when we’re Obeying our own Programming, our Shoulds?  Maybe it’s time to Practice shaking things up a little, starting with places where the Impact won’t be too Consequential.  Self-Sovereignty is already Critically important, and it will only become more so.  (Hylonome Station in 15 Capricorn, 16 April, 4:30 pm PDT.)

Here’s an excerpt from Dan Scranton’s recent Channeling on this…

https://danielscranton.com/self-expression-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“So many humans are afraid to express themselves as they truly are, because of a fear of backlash, whether from parents, friends, co-workers, teachers, or even government officials.  There are so many beings on your world that you give your power away to.  There are so many other humans that have positions of authority and so many humans who feel afraid to be who they really are because of what could happen as a result.

“And those fears really are about what has happened already in other lifetimes, but you all don’t know that.  And so, there are many awakened individuals now who are the trailblazers in terms of their willingness to be unique and different and in terms of their willingness to express themselves in spite of what might happen if the wrong person or people were to find out.  That’s the type of courage humanity needs right now.”

Very much an underscore on the 5 April New Moon.

Once we get past the Ides of April, we enter what we’ve referred to as “Dark Days.”  That of course is Optional, but many astrologers – those prefer to stoke Egos and Fear, will label it so and many people – those who cower before Growth, will Experience it so.  Simply put, the theme of the last half of April is The Most Important Thing is the Transformation of our Self-Confidence.  Really all we have to do, is Remember to Refuse to Believe the content of our Doubts.  We’ll talk more about this as the month proceeds.

Sovereignty New Moon

April 3, 2019

The chart for the 5 April (2am PDT) 16 Aries New Moon itself is pretty straightforward…

It Challenges us (Square, the red line) to Transcend (asteroid Bee-Zed) our Tendencies to Give Away our Power (dwarf planet Hylonome).  The second Challenge (T-Square, the red triangle) is more subtle.  It advises us to Pay More Attention (dwarf planet Ceres) to our Intuition (dwarf planet Asbolus) in order to Maintain Contact with Source (Neptune).

More important though is what it intends to Teach us (Fifth Harmonic) about Abundance (Tenth Harmonic), our Mission (North Node), and Self-Sovereignty (Fixed Star Hamal)…

The dark purple lines connect planets that are one or two fifths of the way ’round the zodiac from one another.  Astrologers call these Angles Quintiles, and they symbolize Learning and Teaching.  One of the Quintile Configurations is the “Quintangle” (dark purple triangle, meaning Big Lesson) connecting Truth (asteroid Veritas), Miraculous Rebirth of our Beliefs (Chiron-asteroid Vesta on the Aries Cusp), and the remarkable Congregation of five planets (Stellium) representing something like The Most Important Thing is Trusting that our Karma is being Transformed and Transcended (Saturn/asteroid Eurydike/South Node/Pluto/Bee-Zed).

Finally coming the Understand that our Karma is dead meat is Bigger than Life-Changing.  It means that we Realize that we no longer need to be Victimized by untoward events and emotions and ideas.  We can instead Make Choices that turn our Lives in new directions.  Yes, we need some Awareness, in order to Reframe the Patterns so we can Identify the Levers that will Shift Reality so it Operates in our favor.  The Boons described in the first paragraph of this post will move us in that Direction.

But there are even Bigger Fish to Learn to Fry here.  There’s the dark-purple wedge (Quintile Yod) Illuminating (pointing to) our Mission (North Node).  In fact, the whole left-hand side of the chart points to the North Node, like a reflecting telescope…

Virtually everything in the chart has Devoted itself to Lighting Up our Mission for us!

Then if you trace the path from the North Node/Mission to Makemake/Manifestation to Ceres/Sustainability to Lilith/Self-Sovereignty, you can see that they comprise four corners of a Grand Quintile.  A Grand Quintile is five planets all more or less equally spaced around the Zodiacal Loop, symbolizing Major Epiphany.  Even the four are profound by themselves – Learning to Sustainably Manifest Self-Sovereignty in Support of our Mission.

But if we could find or supply a fifth corner, in order to Complete the Grand Quintile Configuration, we’d be Leaping Ahead.  This Vacancy is 10 Taurus, “A Red Cross nurse.”  So by Exercising whatever Compassionate Skills we could muster, we could supply the Missing Energy ourself.  Or we could look for a Fixed Star near 10 Taurus, and it turns out that the Star Hamal, the head of Aries the Ram, is at 8 Taurus.  What means Hamal?  It means Independence, Strength of Will, Focus, and Honoring Truth over Authority.

In a word, Self-Sovereignty, Directed with Compassion and without Compromise.  Truth, recall, resides in the Heart, and is Unique to each of us.  Truth has nothing to do with “Facts,” which as the current Political Climate so Clearly Illustrates, are nothing but Rationalizations for what you already Believe, or what you’re trying to make everyone else Believe.  As Hitler’s Minister of Propaganda Joseph Goebbles famously said, if you tell the same lie enough times, folks will Believe it.  But you won’t, if you’re in touch with your own Heart’s Truth.

Uh Oh 3

March 30, 2019

Okay, we’re technically past Pluto-South Node, though if you’re still Refusing or Unable to Embrace any particular Emotions, it may drag on for you.  No Blame – we have all the Time in the World, and for many people, specific Emotions, or the Memories that Invoke them, can literally Feel worse than Death.  If you’re in that situation, EFT may help Liberate you (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B4hhMm8qsCs).

We’re now already deep into the Survival-Issue Stations (Strong Energies) that follow it.  They’re three separate Stations, but because they coincide in Time and are close in astrological longitude, we have to consider them as One Energy…

  • 29 March (8:30 am PDT) – Our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) reaches Peak Strength (Stationary).  Hopefully this means your Genius will Break Through its Chains.  If you’re Struggling with Runaway Emotions, these are the Chains that you’re Throwing Off.  Persist.  You may not be able to Dissolve the Discomfort right away, but you can make the Decision to Stop Judging those Emotions, which is a Critical Step.  29 Sagittarius.
  • 31 March (5pm PDT) – Our Willingness to Respond (dwarf planet Pholus) is Severely Tested (Stationary).  For instance, it’s Imperative that we Respond to those Uncomfortable Emotions with Love and Peace rather than Reacting to them with the Shame and Loathing that we’re accustomed to.  This Response is how we find the Keys to the Kingdom.  3 Capricorn.
  • 3 April (5:30 am PDT) – Our Survival Instincts (dwarf planet Quaoar) are Lit Up very Strongly (Stationary).  If this means Fear for you, Tap and Kegel it Out.  Our Instincts should just be calmly and quietly Telling Us What To Do and When To Do It, not Scaring the pants off us.  Fear may be one of those Forbidden Emotions that are being Lit Up.  4 Capricorn.

You may recall that we’re also Learning how to Consciously Shift our “Fate” around our Survival – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/03/23/lachesis-pholus-quaoar-1/.  Our Manifestation Skills are critical to our Survival, and we’re also Learning how to Consciously Shift our “Fate” around our Manifestation…

  • 28 March (5pm PDT) – Lachesis Waning Trine Makemake.  5 Gemini-Libra.  More to follow.

And while we’re at it, we’re also Learning how to Consciously Shift our “Fate” around those Intrusive Memories we spoke of…

  • 26 March ( PDT) – Lachesis Waxing Square OR10.  5 Gemini-Pisces.  More to follow.

The Equinox Full Moon was also Cuspal, so the chart of the Three Stations is similar…

…but more complex, partly because we’re including everyone from 27 to 6 Degrees, to include our usual three-Degrees of Sensitivity from Ixion and Quaoar, which are five Degrees apart.  If we think of this as a Rebirth rather than a garden-variety astroevent, this is totally appropriate astrologically.  And is we consider how much is happening, including Pluto-South Node, considering this a Rebirth is totally appropriate Existentially!

It would take a long while to Interpret this chart from the bottom up, so we’ll look at it from the top down.

First, note that our Willingness to Respond Fully to our Forbidden Genius’s Need to Come Out of the Closet in order to Ensure our Survival is a Self-Resolving Challenge (Diamond Star).  That’s fabulous news!  It means that the Planet is nearer to its Tipping Point into 5D than we Imagine.  The would-be Impediments (Squares) to this are our Manifestation Skills (Makemake) and our need to Heal our Self-Sabotaging Beliefs (Chiron-Vesta).  The Shift is Driven by Self-Love (Sappho Opposite the Stations).

Second, there are three more Self-Resolving Challenges (Diamond Stars) – Manifestation (Makemake), Rebirth (Haumea), and Vitality (Varuna)!

Third, notice that there are two Almost-Grand Sextiles, which Symbolize Blessings on Efforts where we take the First Step.  Completing the Grand Sextiles are two well-known Fixed Stars…

  • One of the Almost-Grand Sextiles Grace-Fully joins Self-Love (Sappho), Soul (Uranus), Ending our Habit of Identifying with Karmic Intrusive Memories (Atropos-Lilith-Karma-OR10), Enlisting our Hidden Genius to Help Us Attend to our Survival (Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Stations), and Rebirth (Haumea).  The Star that Fills Out the Sextuplet is Regulus, the Royal Star that promises Great Success as long as one avoids the Temptation to Seek Revenge.

I don’t know if you’ve noticed that the Antichrist is currently Seeking Revenge on the “Traitors” who dared to have him investigated.  He has Mars on his Ascendant, which points right at Regulus.  Downfall here we come.  (Using the 11am chart –  https://skywriter.wordpress.com/2011/04/16/see-donald-trump%E2%80%99s-official-birth-certificate-and-chart/; in the 10am chart, Mars is still Conjunct Regulus in the First House.)

  • The second Almost-Grand Sextile Grace-Fully joins Manifestation (Makemake), Vitality (Varuna), Learning how to Consciously Change our Relationship to Fear and Violence (Lachesis-Sedna-Mars), Healing our Self-Sabotaging Beliefs (Chiron-Vesta), and Respect for All Things (Hopi).  The Vacancy that Completes this Grace is the Star Toliman, well-known to anyone who follows exoplanet-hunting as Alpha Centauri, the closest Star to our Sun!

And Alpha Centauri is Chiron’s Foot, in Ovid’s version the location of his famous Wound!

And beyond two Grand Sextiles, we now, with the two Stars added, have a Grand Unx, or twelve planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac.  The Unx (Twelfth Harmonic) is about Pattern-Breaking, so our Chains here are up for the bolt cutter.  The twelve specific Patterns we can Break here include…

  • Healing our Resistance to our Forbidden Genius (Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar to Toliman)
  • Recognizing our Immortality (Toliman to Haumea)
  • Reorganizing our Life Mission to cover multiple Lifetimes, or Learning to Utilize Bleedthrough from our Parallels (Haumea to Makemake)
  • Manifesting Generosity of Spirit (Makemake to Regulus)
  • Liberating our Vitality from Analysis (Regulus to Varuna)
  • Loving Impediments to our Vitality into non-Existence (Varuna to Sappho)
  • Loving Fear and Violence into non-Existence (Sappho to Lachesis-Mars-Sedna)
  • Recognizing Fear and Violence as Teaching from the Soul (Lachesis-Mars-Sedna to Uranus)
  • Healing Beliefs that Inhibit Identification with our Soul (Uranus to Vesta-Chiron)
  • No Longer Believing that we Have to Identify with Traumatic Memories (Vesta-Chiron to OR10-Atropos-Karma-Lilith)
  • Relaxing our Judgments of the Sources of our Traumatic Memories (OR10-Atropos-Karma-Lilith to Hopi)
  • Replacing Competetion with Collaboration (Hopi to Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar)

Hitting the Fan

March 26, 2019

I hope you’ve been studying the previous post on asteroid Lachesis (Letting Go of Karma) and its foils Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Pholus (Fully Reponsive), and Quaoar (Survival Instincts), because we’re about to step in it.  Here’s our Gauntlet for the coming week.

We’re giving exact dates and times below, but the specific Energy actually starts a week or so prior, and builds to a Peak around the times given.  The Energy should then taper off fairly rapidly, but since these Energies are so close in time, and many of them close in Zodiacal Location as well, it’s going to be very hard to tell one from the other…

  • 27 March (10:30 am PDT) – the Edge of Consciousness (asteroid Juno) Merges with (Conjoins) Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis).  Sounds Fun, eh?  More Practice as we Learn to Celebrate Ego Death – which is a synonym for Letting Go Of Self-Sabotage.  19 Gemini.
  • 28 March (7am PDT) – Communication (Mercury) Improves Greatly (Stationary Direct).  16 Pisces.
  • 28 March (11:30 am PDT) – An Unstoppable Force (Pluto) Meets (Initiates) an Otherwise Immovable Object (the South Node, our Forbidden Emotions and Self-Sabotaging Patterns aka Karma).  Fortunately, Lachesis is Teaching us how to Move Otherwise Immovable Objects, and we Know that Karma is Dead anyway.  23 Capricorn.
  • 29 March (8:30 am PDT) – Our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) reaches Peak Strength (Stationary).  Hopefully this means it will Break Through its Chains.  If you’re Struggling with Runaway Emotions, these are the Chains that you’re Throwing Off.  Persist.  You may not be able to Dissolve the Discomfort right away, but you can make the Decision to Stop Judging those Emotions, which is a Critical Step.  29 Sagittarius.
  • 31 March (5pm PDT) – Our Willingness to Respond (dwarf planet Pholus) is Severely Tested (Stationary).  For instance, it’s Imperative that we Respond to those Uncomfortable Emotions with Love and Peace rather than Reacting to them with the Shame and Loathing that we’re accustomed to.  This Response is how we find the Keys to the Kingdom.  3 Capricorn.
  • 3 April (5:30 am PDT) – Our Survival Instincts (dwarf planet Quaoar) are Lit Up very Strongly (Stationary).  If this means Fear for you, Tap and Kegel it Out.  Our Instincts should just be calmly and quietly Telling Us What To Do and When To Do It, not Scaring the pants off us.  Fear is likely to be one of those Forbidden Emotions that are being Lit Up.

After this we get into a whole New Time Province.

Chiron-Equinox-Survival Full Moon I

March 18, 2019

The 20 March (7pm PST) Full Moon is Impressive from several points of view…

  • The Sun is Merged with (Conjoins) a symbol for Despair and Miracles (dwarf planet Chiron); as we’ve averred many times, we Recommend Poor-Sweethearting any Disappointment that arises.

See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/ if you’re new here.

  • The Full Moon occurs just four hours after the Spring Equinox, which is traditionally considered to be an important milestone, when the World Begins Anew.  That interpretation of course has its roots in the Northern Hemisphere, as Spring begins in Libra in the Other Half.

If we extend this a bit, we could say that the World (or at least the Plants) Beginning Anew is a matter of Solitary Creativity (Aries) in the North, and a matter of Relating to Other (Libra) in the South.  In the South, Solitary Creativity is Required to Survive Autumn and Winter, whereas in the North, it’s Relationships.  Not being much of a World Traveler, I can’t say whether this is Relevant to the Actual World, but I’d be interested in your Perspective.

  • The major Configuration in the Full Moon chart is the Reiteration of a Warning that our Survival, while likely, is not Assured (Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Diamond Star) unless we start Paying Closer Attention to it.

So let’s start with the latter, the Diamond Star or Self-Resolving Challenge.  If the Challenge is Self-Resolving, why is our Survival not Assured?  Because about five years ago, two dwarf planets started Dancing cheek-to-cheek.  Dwarf planet Quaoar (Kwou’-are) symbolizes our Survival Instincts.  The God Quaoar taught the pre-Spanish Natives of what was to become California how to Manage their Not-Quite-Wild Landscape to Assure their Survival.  Since then, Know-It-All Colonialists in California have ignored Quaoar’s Advice to their peril.

Quaoar’s Dance partner Pholus symbolizes Full Response.  Pholus’s namesake in Greek Myth failed to take all of the Precautions he Could Have Taken, and the results Changed the World.  We can’t say Should Have Taken, because there was no recent Precedent to forewarn him.  It’s only in Hindsight that we can clearly see how he could have easily Prevented the Catastrophe.

Responsibility does not mean Blame.  Responsibility means Being Able to Respond.  If there is no recent Precedent, then, shy of Intuition or “Luck,” how are we to know What to be Prepared to Respond to?  Once an untoward event has occurred, though, or Chicken Little has Warned us, we may be able to Figure Out how to Prevent it from recurring.  So we Interpret Pholus as Being Fully Responsive.  We might have to brainstorm to think of everything that could go wrong, but if we are to be Fully Responsive, that may be Required.

So the two dwarf planets that have been Intimate for the last five or so years, were Quaoar and Pholus – Becoming Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts.  As Greta Thunberg said at Davos, “Some people, some companies, some decision-makers in particular, have known exactly what priceless values they have been sacrificing to continue making unimaginable amounts of money.  And I think many of you here today belong to that group of people.”

This requires a division between the “Us Versus them” Darwinian folks, who will Respond to their Survival Instincts by Hoarding, and the “We’re All In This Together” Rest of Us, who will Respond by Sharing.  The Problem for us is that these two dwarf planets continue to be Intimate until the mid-2060s.  We may be replaced by Robots long before then, so the few of us who are left may end up Struggling with the Robots for Control more than we Struggle with 1000-Year Floods.  “Open the pod bay doors, HAL,” as Kubrick foretold half a century ago.

The Full Moon is the base of the T-Square (Challenge) that’s embedded in the Diamond Square, which means that Chiron Squaring Pholus is a big part of the Challenge, which is quite Curious, as it was Pholus’s failure to foresee all possibilities that led to Chiron’s famous Wound, which made him supposedly Unhealable.  So this is very Ancient Karma that we’re dealing with.