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Consciousness Expansion II

December 23, 2018

The 23 December (7pm PST) Juno Station (21 Taurus) chart looks like this…

Its main feature is a Grand Cross (the red square), which occurs when four planets are more or less evenly spaced around the Zodiac.  While a Grand Cross is made up of four T-Squares (the four overlapping big red triangles), and a T-Square Challenges us to become Adept at something, a Grand Cross is usually a little easier because, being Balanced, the Lessons usually aren’t as Difficult.  Also, the Challenges are frequent and interrelated, so with additional and more varied practice, we’re likely to become Adept sooner – and particularly Adept at Multi-Tasking.

The four T-Squares here focus on…

  • Eris (Emerging from Denial)
  • Moon-Moira (Learning to Choose our Emotions)
  • Aletheia-Pallas (Accepting the Truth about how well our Boundaries serve us)
  • Pluto-Chariklo (Having to Confront our lack of Self-Confidence)

I’m sure every one of you could write a short play about someone Getting Their Consciousness Expanded (that’s Juno after all) by having to deal with the likes of…

Realizing (Eris) that their Life is being Sabotaged by lack of Self-Confidence (Pluto-Chariklo), Learning to Recognize the Emotions that Trigger their Self-Doubt (Moon-Moira), and Setting Boundaries to Prevent these Emotions from Fragmenting their Personality (Aletheia-Pallas)

…or something like that.  I’m sure most of us could write a short story about when we’ve gone through this process ourselves, which we’ve probably done many times.  Like when the school bully called us names that hurt, and our Mentors encouraged us to find alternatives to running home in tears or taking a swing and getting our ass kicked.

Sticks and stones and all that, pretty fundamental stuff, but I’m sure you can think of far more subtle parallels.  It would Behoove us to think up current situations where Certain Emotions Challenge our Ability to Keep our Act Together, as every astrological adventure is an Opportunity to make Life flow more smoothly, and this one is no exception.  If we could become Conscious of those Emotions and Learn new Responses to them, chances are we wouldn’t just be Expanding our Consciousness, but also Letting Go of our Karma.

For instance, what Triggers Anxiety for us?  Nothing is Manifested into Hardcopy Reality without first being Broadcast as Energy – this is the Power of PIAVAing.  What Anxiety does is Broadcast Fear and Failure.  Without our Conscious Intervention, Fear and Failure could then be Manifest into Form.  We could recast our reading as…

Realizing (Eris) that our Life is being Sabotaged by Anxiety (Pluto-Chariklo), Learning to Recognize the Emotions that Facilitate it (Moon-Moira), and Resolving to Prevent it from Creating our Reality (Aletheia-Pallas)

…by for example, by first Tapping on it (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) to Acknowledge it Honestly, and then Focusing on What We Want instead of What We Don’t Want.

Another example…

Suppose we don’t Trust our Instincts (Moon-Moira) to tell us what to Eat, so we set Boundaries against the Truth (Alethiea-Pallas) of our own Instincts (Moon) in order to continue to base our Self-Confidence on our Shoulds (Pluto-Chariklo) – till we Realize (Eris) that it’s not Working

So what would we do next?  We Respond to our Realization and Expand our Consciousness to include new Possibilities.  For instance, if we Lovingly Embrace our Desires when they arise, might we have less Difficulty Moderating them, and perhaps in the process Discover what our Soul Intended to Teach our Ego in the Current Lifetime?

A Trine Bridge (blue lines) shows an Easy Path toward becoming Adept and a Quincunx Bridge (green lines) outlines a Path of Curiosity.  Both are alternatives to following the more-Challenging paths of the Squares (red lines), without abdicating the invaluable Lessons to be Learned from the Challenges.  Same Destination, very Different Routes.

The position of Stationary Juno itself makes a Trine Bridge across the Confidence/Emotion-Choice axis (Pluto/Chariklo-Moon/Moira), and a Quincunx Bridge across the Realizations/Boundaries axis (Eris-(Aletheia/Pallas).  We can Learn faster…

However, most of us are used to thinking of Curiosity as something to Resolve.  “I Wonder What…” or “I Wonder How…” is often an invitation or imperative to do research or to think about what sort of Answer we’d get if it was a Question.  True Curiosity does not seek Satisfaction; it is more than content to remain Curiosity.  Think of it like Awe or Amazement.  Like watching a Bird peck its way out of an Egg, or a Butterfly crawling out of a Chrysalis – literally a Miracle.

You’re wide-eyed and your mouth hangs open, but you don’t try to explain what’s happening or why, or to Generalize it into a Judgment, whether Good or Bad.  What if we Responded with wide eyes and a slack jaw the next time we heard someone insult us.  If they continued to insult us – if we were Safe, of course – we might even have to Laugh.  A friend used to say, “Don’t get Even, get Odd.”

Stationary Juno is also Merged with (Conjunct) asteroid Lachesis, which symbolizes Consciously Changing our Timelines.  For instance, if we were Living a Timeline of being Bullied, and we succeeded in Changing our Response to it, we would be Consciously Ending that Timeline, or at least Beginning to Consciously End it.

There’s another Configuration in the Juno-Station chart, another Mjölnir Kite like we had at the 22 December Full Moon (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/20/dumpster-fires/)…

When a planet sits at the Far Midpoint between two other planets that are three Signs apart, a Mjōlnir is formed.  Mjōlnir is Norwegian for “Thor’s Hammer,” the usual name for this Configuration.  We changed it because Thor’s Hammer is often confused with Ultimate Destruction, when actually it’s more about Indestructibility and Instantaneous Precision – not a sledgehammer but Lightning, or Sudden Illumination.  So we associate a Mjōlnir with Epiphanies.  When there’s also a fourth planet at the Near Midpoint, the Mjōlnir becomes a Mjōlnir Kite.

The Mjōlnir Kite reinforces our earlier interpretations of the Juno Station – Epiphanies about our Mission and our Held Emotions (North and South Nodes).  We would normally rather Die than Feel our Held Emotions, as our Experiences in Parallel Lives cause us to strongly associate them with Dying.  But we can’t proceed toward our Mission in the current Lifetime without first Learning to Embrace our Held Emotions.  So the Aletheia-Pallas Conjunction in the Juno-Station Grand Cross is also about Relaxing the Boundaries which keep our Held Emotions at bay.

The Square (red line) in the Mjōlnir is between Neptune (Confusion) and Mercury-Jupiter (Precociousness).  The Juno Station is about Growth in Consciousness, and this Square Illuminates the classic impediment to Growth – regarding Confusion as a sign that we need to struggle mightily to Understand!  Actually, when we Believe we’ve Understood why we’re Confused, we’ve just Quashed our Growth!

Our Concepts about What Is and What Isn’t Possible form a Cage that we’re trapped inside of.  Confusion arises when one of our Limiting Beliefs becomes Open for Questioning.  But if we Intellectualize it (Jupiter-Mercury), we’ll invariably Reinforce our Limiting Concepts, because those are the raw material for our thoughts.  Like Curiosity, we need to Let Confusion Be.  If we regard Confusion as an Emotion, and just Feel it, Embrace it, Enjoy it, our Consciousness will Grow on its own, naturally, without Effort.

Sedna and Fear

November 12, 2018

Sedna is the first Sednoid.  The Discovery of Sedna required a whole new class of minor planets.  Plutoids are dwarf planets that are similar to Pluto in scale, distance, and orbit.  Sedna is an order of magnitude further away than Pluto, having an orbit 45 times as long as Pluto’s.  They’re so distant that we can count on one hand the number of Sednoids discovered so far.

We’ve been interpreting Sedna as Fear because Action Committed under the Influence of Terror is the predominant Energy in the Sedna myth.  The dawn of television brought us Mutual of Omaha’s Wild Kingdom, belaboring how Nature was “red in tooth and claw.”  If you remember black and white TV you probably remember Marlin Perkins…

Young and impressionable, we didn’t make the connection until decades later between Insurance and Fear.  Other voices have since demonstrated how Nature is more accurately characterized as remarkably Collaborative and Synergistic.  Mutual of Omaha hasn’t been the only agent that Feeds on our Fear.  Politicians and color TV have since elevated Fear to a high art.  It’s a central pillar of the Healing Crisis that is the creeping Fascism that’s been trying to spread like a dark shadow across our Home Planet. 

A look at Sedna’s Discovery chart makes it obvious that its Emergence into Huper Consciousness, like Wild Kingdom ultimately was, is about Becoming Aware of our Unconscious Fear.  Here’s the chart…

Sedna sits on the North Node, meaning that Sedna’s Emergence into our Consciousness Serves our Mission directly. 

Sedna is one member of a Grand Sextile, the most favorable of all astrological Configurations, which avers that Grace will follow all of our Self-Initiated Actions.  We gain Leverage by Noticing when we’re Feeling Fear so we can Act Consciously rather than Habitually.  We Convert Fear to Power by doing Kegels, because Kegels slow down Time, giving us Time to Consider our Actions.  Remembering to Breathe is always useful too.

The other five corners of the Grand Sextile are…

  • Moira … Awareness Allows Choice to Replace Fate; Moira is Stationary as we speak
  • Nessus-Veritas-Aletheia … Revelation of the Truth about Abuse and Privilege; Nessus is Exactly Stationary a week from now, so probably already Present in our Energy Field
  • Sun-South Node … Illumination of our Self-Sabotaging Habits
  • Jupiter-Lachesis-Makemake … Changing Timelines Consciously to Expand our Ability to Create What We Want
  • The Moon – Authenticity

The Grand Sextile means that these six Principles all reinforce one another positively.

The other major element is a Diamond Star or Self-Resolving Challenge, focused on Pluto-Sappho, which implies Transformation of the Nature of our Self-Love.  It’s a lot Easier to Love ourself when we can be Authentic, Call Out Abuse when we see it, Support ourself Unconditionally, Choose to Create What We Really Want, and Know that we’re in step with our Lifetime Mission.  What can possibly go wrong?

Well, we can Allow Unconscious Fear to creep into our Attitudes and Motivate our Actions without our Becoming Aware of it.  We would be shocked if we knew how much of our Lives are Motivated by Fear – everything that’s preceded by Judgment, for instance.  Actually, feeling like “something isn’t right” is a good Indicator here in the Age of Sedna, that we’re on the Cusp of Noticing a shard of Unconscious Fear that we haven’t yet Detected and Identified as Self-Sabotaging.

I was Feeling that way last week, and I didn’t know why.  Now I understand – I have a dozen deadlines in the last half of November, and until yesterday I wasn’t sure I could meet them all.  Yesterday I didn’t finish one of the bigger ones, but I finished enough that I’m now confident that finishing it will be just a matter of walking through several well-known steps, which I expect to have ample time for.  So I was Feeling Anxiety and not recognizing it.  Anxiety is Fear in a cheap suit.

I did, today, Tap Out Anxiety, before (not instead of!) reaching for a Walnut Shortbread Cookie (it was delicious), but that was only a prelude to my Realizing, just now, that Anxiety was the source of my Feeling a Disturbance in the Force last week.  So many things have been Climaxing lately, that it won’t Surprise me at all to see Anxiety finally becoming a Trigger for Consciousness instead of a Trigger for Soul-Devouring Thoughts. 

Sedna Stands Still during the first week of the coming February.  If we take every Opportunity to be Alert to any upwelling of Anxiety between now and then, we may be able to put a checkmark next to it on our Karmic To-Do List!  That would be a Life-Changer.

New Province III

December 30, 2017

Here’s a fabulous theme for starting our new Rebirth Year, from Master Kuthumi, channeled by Natalie Glasson…

https://www.omna.org/the-next-period-of-ascension-2018/

Magnificence

“Take a moment to imagine your magnificence, how would your magnificence appear?  Imagine your magnificence as the brightest spark of light within you.  Observe the spark of light expanding and recognise how your magnificence influences and transforms your entire being, even your thoughts, emotions and actions.  You are connecting with the most amazing, awe-inspiring aspect of yourself, you are connecting with the brilliance and radiance of the Creator.

“It is a focus upon your magnificence, its radiance and influence upon your being that we encourage now and throughout 2018.  This focus enables an awakening to take place throughout your entire being and systems, downloading more light into your being.  It encourages you to connect with the magic, synchronicities, wonderous opportunities and the supportive nature of the Creator.  Connecting with these sacred qualities allows you to become a natural and organic part of the divine flow of the Creator. 

“Many souls upon the Earth have reached a stage of having released a great volume of baggage and old wounds and so have the freedom to connect into the sacred qualities and abilities of their soul.  With an openness and awakening of your energy so you will be able to recognize wondrous opportunities within your spiritual talents and abilities, which are beyond your current imagination.  The more you connect with your inner magnificence, the more you will discover within your being, recognizing abilities you have always wished for and more.”

Makes me sit up straighter just reading the first sentence.  Master Kuthumi goes on to provide several other Magnificent invocations. 

There’s waaay too much going on to be able to write about it all.  Just today we have two Initiations that under quieter Skies we’d want to write about quite a bit – our Values Receiving Shaktipat from Self-Sovereignty (Lilith Initiating Venus at 9am PST), and the New Timeline That We’re Birthing Receiving Shaktipat from our Hidden Genius (Ixion Initiating Klotho at 8pm PST).

The Lilith-Venus Sovereignty-Values Initiation, which Begins a 14-month Cycle, takes place in the same Degree zone as yesterday’s Veritas Station (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/12/27/new-province-ii-veritas/), so the Energies share the same elements.  The Adjustments to our Values will help us further Negotiate the profound but tricky Waters between our Ego’s Desires and our Soul’s Mission in the Lifetime (the Venus-Lilith-Sun-Hylonome [Letting Go of Blocks to our Commitment to Self-Sovereignty] Mjölner [Epiphany] across the Square [Challenge to Mastery] from the Moon [Passion] to Ceres-North Node [Consistent Dedication to our Mission], drawn below in metallic lines)…

The Birth of a Timeline Especially for our Hidden Genius to Dance Free (Ixion-Klotho Initiation) starts in 27 Sagittarius, therefore sharing much with the 17 December New Moon on the Galactic Center  (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/12/16/fateful-new-moon-ii/)…

The loudest Configuration in this Ingenue-Genius chart is our Challenge to Master (T-Square, red triangle) Self-Love (Sappho) while Witnessing the Birth of our Soul (Haumea Opposite Uranus-Pallas-Moira) into our Everyday Life.  That’s a Challenge because our Egos will fight Change tooth and nail.  Nothing Personal, it’s just that their Raison d’Etre is to Keep us Safe – which to them means Preservation of Self (ie, Ego) and Status Quo.  The Ixion-Klotho Initiation itself is a Blessing (Trine Bridge) in this Effort.

Hiding behind the T-Square is another Fez, this one a Sextile Fez.  Like before, the key is the diagonal Quincunxes (green lines), symbolizing Curiosity.  These are…

  • The Birth of our Resolve to Embrace All of our Emotions and other Pain (Haumea Quincunx Chiron).
  • The Use of our Fear as the cookie-crumbs that will lead us directly to our Hidden Genius (Moon-Sedna Quincunx Klotho-Ixion-Pholus)

While it may seem like these can be Dynamically Resolved (for instance, by Poor-Sweethearting and Tapping on Emotional Overwhelm or other Pain), they’re about Curiosity, so we’ll be ahead to PIAVA them first, to Open our Intuition to new information from the Unconscious.  If we rely totally on the Dynamic, we’re likely to Re-Create the Reality we already know.  Our PIAVAs might look something like…

  • “Ganeshi, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Noticing whenever Fear arises, and to my Dealing with it as the Experience of Fear in my Body, rather than as my thoughts about it.”

Your thoughts will always lead you to More of the Same.  The mind is the Ego’s Chief Enforcer.  The mind guards all those Limiting Beliefs that form the bars of the Birdcage that we Live in.  So how to Escape, without being nabbed by Sylvester while Granny is away?  Bypass the thoughts (which may sound like “What am I Afraid Of?” or “Why do I Hurt?”) and go directly to “I Feel Scared” or “Ouch, that hurts.” 

Where do you Feel the Pain or Fear in your Body?  Put All of your Attention squarely into the center of it, and keep it there till it moves.  When your Attention wanders, gently bring it back.  As the Fear or Pain Changes, follow it.  Where does it lead?  When the Pain or Fear gets too boring, or disappears (which could take days – so be it), go on with your Life.

  • “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Notice immediately whenever I Encounter Pain, or Emotions that I Identify with rather than Feel.”

You’d add the rest of the Theta Healing Ritual structure of course – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/, and then Change the Subject (see below ).  Striving for Consciousness, we want to Notice whenever we step out of the Present Moment (which for most of us is almost all of the time).  We do that when we stop Observing what’s happening in “Real” Time and focus on the Past or the Future, or let any of our many Archetypes take over.

Art by Catherine Lepange from
Thin Slices of Anxiety: Observations and Advice to Ease a Worried Mind

We might Ask ourself, for instance, “How old am I?”  The answer I got when I asked that question was six.  Yes, kindergarten for an Introvert was a time of high anxiety.  So I seem to have an Archetype who Believes that Avoidance (for Safety) and Worry (for Problem-Solving) will help me Survive.  Where does it Live in my Body?  Where my Buttocks meet the chair.  When I follow it, it leads me to age 25, negotiating to escape the draft.  I end up with a remarkable burst of Energy.

When I’m Anxious and not Conscious that I’m Anxious, I’m in the grip of an Archeype.  The grammar is profound.  I am Anxious means very simply that I am Identified with the Emotion of Anxiety – it is I.  As a Conscious Observer Asking what’s going on in my Emotional Body, I Feel Anxious is in a totally different Universe.  Now instead of Anxious is I, it’s Observing is I.  I could go a step further and Poor-Sweetheart myself – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxious, aren’t you.”  Now, as long as I’m not saying it mechanically, Compassion is I instead.

There’s nothing wrong with Archetypes; they’re Survival mechanisms.  Like Learning to drive can make your Life easier or more Satisfying or more Productive.  An Archetype is any Habit that we do without being fully Present to it.  When I was six, Anxiety was Overwhelming to me.  I couldn’t function, I couldn’t keep myself Safe.  So I Learned how to sublimate it, to turn it down, so I could have free Attention for whatever else there was.  It was not Authenticity, it was Efficiency, it was Survival.  That’s a lot more Important when you’re six. 

Now I’d like to be more Present, more Authentic with myself, more Conscious.  I want to Feel my Anxiety rather than Being it.  I want to be able to Choose which Archetype to use in each situation, or Choose not to use any, and just be Vulnerable.  Most of our Archetypes operate below the level of Consciousness – that’s the way we wanted them to work, so we could operate a Timeline and still have some Free Attention.  That makes them hard to detect, so when we want to Change them we have to call them out somehow – with a PIAVA for instance.

Anxiety of course is just another name for Fear.  So I PIAVA to become an Observer of Anxiety.  It no longer Overwhelms me when I Observe it.  When I am Anxiety without being Conscious of it, I’m Regressed to age 6.  The Regression is complete – I have none of the Skills I’ve Learned since then.  I may not be Overwhelmed, but I’m a captive, tied to the ground by tiny men with ropes.  Once I Realize – Notice – “Oh, I’m Feeling Anxiety,” I Disidentify, and it dissipates.

A recent timely Pleiadian Channeling from Dan Scranton…

http://danielscranton.com/accessing-higher-frequencies-%e2%88%9ethe-pleiadian-high-council-of-seven-2/

“It is a matter of frequency.  It is a placing of attention upon a particular frequency that is the answer to most questions.  That is your journey now.  This is an energetic journey through frequency states, you see.  Everything else that plays out in your reality is a reflection of the frequency that you hold.  It really is not any more complicated than that.  Therefore, give more of your attention to the frequency that you are holding.

“How do you that, you might wonder.  Well, the more in tune you are with your feeling state, the easier it is for you then to measure the frequency that you are holding.  The higher frequencies feel better in your physical bodies than the lower ones, and there is no reason for you to fear or judge the lower frequency states.  There is no reason for you to judge yourselves for having activated those lower frequency states.  That is the first place for you to start.

“Let go of any notion that you have that a frequency you are holding is somehow inappropriate, that you should fear it, or that you should feel bad about yourself for accessing it.  It’s just there to be experienced and also to give you a point of relativity.  You cannot really know that you have moved from a lower frequency to a higher frequency without first becoming aware of the lower frequency and what it feels like in your body.

“So start by celebrating that you are aware of the frequency that you are holding.  And if you are holding a higher frequency, then simply amplify it, ride the wave of it, enjoy the feeling to the greatest extent possible.  Let go of your desires to understand where the frequencies come from, how you got to where you are, and just embrace it all.

“Activating a frequency is as easy as modifying your breath.  You know that when you pay attention to your breathing, you can shift how deeply, how slowly or quickly you are breathing, and the same is true of your frequency state.  If you put your attention on it, with the intention of raising it, it does not have to be more complicated than modifying your breath.  In fact, you could say that the two go hand-in-hand.

“So utilize your breath and your ability to consciously breathe in order to tune yourself to your frequency state, in order to amplify your frequency state, and in order to enjoy those higher frequency states to the greatest extent possible.  And then, it is our recommendation that you do not look around your world for immediate results.

“Instead, continue to enjoy your ability to modify your frequency, because in doing so you change the way you feel.  And then the reality around you doesn’t have to change in order for you to feel good.”

 

 When we PIAVA (Pray, Intend, Ask, Visualize, or Affirm, or any of the many other methods of inviting Magnetic Creativity to emerge from the Unconscious), we need a way to keep our Habitual thought Patterns from interfering and Creating Just More of the Same.  Our Limiting Beliefs are embedded in our thought Patterns, and one of their Projects is to keep us Unconscious to our Archetypes.  So we have to send our thought Patterns off on Vacation.  We do that by Changing the Subject.

That means Attending to something else, with as much Focus as we can muster.  The prototype is finding our car keys.  They aren’t where we usually keep them, so where the Hell are they?  We look where we last used them, we look everywhere we’ve been.  No luck.  We get bored looking, so we Change the Subject.  We pick up the newspaper instead (we’re old-fashioned), and forget about the car keys (that last part’s important).  A random article mentions Popcorn, and we suddenly remember we were using the keys in the garage to pry a stuck kernel out of the popper.

Now, we were Psychically Ready to Receive our car keys.  If we weren’t, if our Guides were trying to keep us off that patch of black ice, then it might be a while before we “stumble” onto them.  When we’re dealing with Opening the Unconscious, or with Manifesting something into hardcopy Form, we may well not be Ready.  If we’re Ready to Receive, the Universe simply delivers.  All Prayers are Answered.  If we aren’t Ready to Receive, our Prayers are still Answered, but in a different way.

What the Universe, or our Guides, or Whomever you want to call “them,” will Give us a Lesson in why we haven’t been Receiving  all along what we’re having to Ask for.  So our third step, after PIAVAing and Changing the Subject, is to Pay Attention to what the Universe actually Delivered.  We want to wait a day or two after Changing the Subject, to allow time for the Delivery.  Then we look to see what, if aything, happened that was unusual after we Changed the Subject. 

Maybe we Asked for Enough Money (an oxymoron, as a friend used to say), and the Universe made us work overtime.  We wanted More Money, not More Work – but that’s not what we Asked for.  So the Universe handed us More Money in the most efficient way it could, using our own pre-existing Patterns.  Next time we’ll know to Ask for More Money and More Free Time to Enjoy it.

Often it’s not so Clear.  We maybe Ask for a New Friend, and all of our Old Friends are suddenly filling all of our time.  What happened there?  We could guess, but would that apply to you?  You’re the one who has to guess.  Sometimes all we can do is PIAVA to understand the Riddle.  Sometimes we don’t seem to get anything.  A lump of coal in our shoe.  We can put our analytical mind to work on this end of the puzzle, but don’t make Conclusions without testing to see if they actually fit the circumstances.

4 July IV – Embracing Paradox

June 26, 2017

We’ll talk a lot more about that complex Sedna-Square-Nodes chart (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/06/25/4-july-iii/) between now and 4 July.  But there are two simultaneous charts that are also important .  One is the chart of the Sappho and Klotho Stations… 

  • The Sappho (Self-Love) Station is Exact at 2pm PDT 3 July in 15 Scorpio
  • The Klotho (Initiating a New Timeline) Station at 9am PDT 4 July at 11 Scorpio 
  • The Sedna-Nodes Square is Exact late morning 4 July, and the Moon completes the Grand Cross at 3pm PDT 4 July, in 27 of the Fixed Signs 

And the other chart, which we’ll also talk about later, is the Station of Haumea (Rebirth) at 9pm PDT 6 July, in 23 Libra.

While the Stations may not seem simultaneous, in the three-day span between 2pm PDT 3 July and 9pm PDT 6 July, Sappho, Klotho, and Haumea move less than two Arcminutes.  The Full Moon as seen from your house appears to be more than fifteen times as wide as that distance.  In other words, while the Exact Stations may be several hours apart, the planets are all simultaneously Standing Still, or very close to it.

Given this collection of simultaneous Stations, another Big Rebirth is the obvious Order of the Day, and it seems that we’re likely to be Choosing to be Reborn into another Life of Fear, or one where we’ve Let Go of Fear, replacing it with Love or Curiosity.  The Stations deserve, and will get, their own posts, but it’s very relevant in the context of this Rebirth to consider the two Yin Gates that appear on the graph in the previous post.  They’re…

  • Sedna Opposite Moon, splitting the Golden Rectangle composed of Ceres, which is Out of Bounds (Strong Sustainability), Pandora (who deserves her own paragraph), Uranus-Eris (Yintegrity), and the Saturn-Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar-Galactic Center Stellium (The Most Important Thing here is to Follow the Command from Headquarters to Take Charge of Recovering our Forbidden Genius)
  • Pandora Opposite Uranus-Eris, splitting the Golden Rectangle of Sedna (Fear), Hopi (Respect for All Things), Moon (Manifestation), and Chiron-Lachesis (Choosing between Enduring or Transforming Pain)

The Sedna-Moon Yin Gate is drawn with heavy lines, and the remainder of the overlapping Pandora-Uranus/Eris Yin Gate in lighter lines. 

A Yin Gate is formed when an Opposition splits the short side of a Golden Rectangle.  The Golden Rectangle is drawn in blue; blue because it represents Grace, and Golden because the ratio between the lengths of the two sides is the Golden Angle of Sacred Geometry.  The Oppositions are shown in red (symbolizing Energy or Motivation).  The green lines represent Curiosity.  Curiosity, like Love, eschews Judgment, so we regard it as paramount.  The centerpiece of the Yin Gate is the pair of side-by-side green Xs or interlocking Curiosities.

The Moon moves quickly, so it will be within three Degrees of Sensitivity from its Sedna Opposition for only about twelve hours.  However, we’re talking about a major Rebirth, ie, a Birth, so eight Degrees of Sensitivity is more relevant; that’s more like 32 hours, or the majority of a day on either side of 3pm PDT 4 July.  The Exact Haumea Station falls outside that span, but the important thing is that during the span, Haumea is Stationary.  It means we get a day and a half to check for and correct Birth Defects between the Sedna-Moon Yin Gate and the Haumea Rebirth.

A Yin Gate is a Mystery School, the Objective of which is to Teach us that Paradox demonstrates to us the Inadequacy of our Dualistic orientation toward Life.  Real Life is replete with Contradictions, because Real Life is Unitary and Multifarious (the ultimate Paradox, so to speak), not Dual.  So Contradiction is a sandwich-board painted in big red letters, that says “Here Lies One of Your Limiting Beliefs.” 

However, we’re wearing the sandwich-board, so we can’t see what it says without a Mirror, and of course then it’s backwards.  Hence Blame and Judgment are born; since we can’t read our Limiting Belief, we accuse Other of hypocrisy, since they’re obviously Living a Contradiction.  A Yin Gate is simply a second Mirror that we can use, if we Choose, to view the backwards writing and Witness our Limiting Belief directly.

Okay, Pandora.  Remember that the primary purpose of the Greek Mythologizers was to refute the Matriarchy that was their Heritage, and replace it with the foundations of the Patriarchy.  No Blame, that kind of ping-pong is just what happens when we Live in Duality.  Having awoken one morning with the shocking Realization that they were all spawned by Women, they needed a Story to counteract that horrific Reality.  Hence, Pandora, the alleged first woman in their Mythos, and, appropriately for a Patriarchal if not downright Misogynistic Story line, she introduced Evil into the World, mostly in the form of Seduction.

It’s quite easy to find training in the Plan-Do-Study-Act Masculine or Dynamic Creation process.  Except as an adjunct to Power-Over Religions, it hasn’t been nearly as easy, till recently, to find training in the Feminine or Magnetic Creation process, or PIAVA and its variations.  It’s considered Magic, and to many, Magic is always Black.  That is, even without Patriarchal Intimidation and Bullying, we still labor under the Limiting Belief that the Feminine is “Evil.”  So we see asteroid Pandora as symbolizing the Choice to maintain or Clear that Belief.

The Moon, meanwhile, boasts three levels of Symbolism.  At the lowest level it represents variability, or our “Random” Emotions.  Once we stop including Intuition in the Evil category (as “inferior” to Logic, Heaven Forbid), however, those “Random” Emotions become Instincts, the second level.  If we’re attempting to Power-Over someone, we definitely see their Instincts toward Survival and Sovereignty as Evil.  The third level of the Moon is Manifestation.  Lunar Emotions are the Glue that holds Energy together into Matter and recognizable Form.  It’s not necessarily that the Moon Creates; the Moon symbolizes Creation, and specifically Magnetic Creation. 

So we have a training in the Paradoxical Relationships between Manifestation (Moon) and Fear (Sedna) and a cross-training (symbolized by the overlap between the two Yin Gates) in the Paradoxical Relationships between Yintegrity (Uranus-Eris) and Magnetism (Pandora).

For instance, if we’re in Yintegrity, we have no need for Manipulation and Guile, right?  Bullshit.  We were trained by the Patriarchs never to lie about chopping down Cherry Trees, but in fact, Truth is always on a Need-to-Know basis.  For one thing, we don’t owe them our Time, and most of all, we don’t want to cast our Pearls before Pink Animals (or any other color).  Quite simply, we demean ourself when we do that.  You don’t Teach children what’s not age-appropriate, and the same goes for Teaching adults what’s not maturity-appropriate or Spiritually-appropriate.  People need to earn your Trust.

And everyone knows that we can’t Manifest when we’re in Fear; we need to deal with the Fear before we can fuel our Manifestation Engine with the necessary Passion.  Again, Bullshit.  Fear is one of the more Passionate Emotions we can Feel, and what do we Create when in Fear?  More Fear.  It’s exponential.  Two units of unprocessed Fear Create four, and four units Create sixteen.

Are any of our Judgments not based on Fear?  Maybe “What Am I Afraid Of?” should be our Mantra, or “Who am I afraid of?”  Followed by  “How does that Mirror my Limiting Beliefs” or better yet, “I Wonder how that Mirrors my Limiting Beliefs” followed by Changing the Subject then Paying Attention (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).  Once we Locate the Emotion of Fear in our Body, that’s behind the Fearsome or Anxious thoughts, several iterations of Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) usually resolves the Emotional Overload.  From there we can move toward Love or Curiosity, or simply move on to our next Fear.

There are two very special Fears that encompass a great deal of our Limiting Beliefs, and which especially hinder our Relationships.  These are Fear of Abandonment and Fear of Suffocation.  Most of us emphasize one or the other, though most commonly we have both.  These are both so ancient that they’re barely Personal, though we all have Personal Experience in our backgrounds to reinforce the Karma

No Huper Survives without Community.  To Fear that our Community (or our Partner, or our employer, or our family, or …) is Rejecting us, is to fall under the grip of the ancient Archetype of Abandonment.  We need to Learn where we Feel that in our Body, Lovingly and Gently Embrace it there, and become Ferociously Mindful for any thought that reinforces it, replacing it with a PIAVA that we find our Tribe, with its Unconditional Acceptance and Unfailing Protection.  Yes, no Protection is totally Unfailing, but we can PIAVA it – maybe that’s just a Limiting Belief.

Our Fear of Abandonment is one of the weaknesses that the Patriarchy uses, quite skillfully, to keep us under their thumbs.  And that’s our Fear of Suffocation, our Fear that someone will Control us and Prevent us from Exercising our True Self.  Fear of Suffocation is an Archetype as old as the Individual Soul.  I don’t encounter it as often as I encounter Fear of Abandonment, but it’s there, and it’s important to bring into Consciousness where it can be Transmogrified.

When we can replace “Don’t tell me what to do, you Bastard!” with “Oh, there’s my Suffocation Archetype again!” and replace “Shit, what if I get laid off?” with “Oh, there’s my Abandonment Archetype again!” we will regain a great deal of the Power we’ve been allowing our thoughts to drain out of us.  Next time you’re watching the News, or dealing with a difficult person who’s important in your Life, watch to see how many times these Archetypes arise.  That difficult person may not be draining your Power on purpose, but I can guarantee you that the News is.

Marilyn Raffaele has Channeled an Arcturian Teaching for us around Fear…

The original, which will move a few weeks from now: http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html
A copy, which hopefully will not move: https://rainbowwaveoflight.wordpress.com/2017/06/25/arcturian-group-message-june-25-2017-marilyn-raffaele-onenessofall-com/

Excerpts follow…

“Dear ones, be not afraid of what you are seeing and hearing, for these are the symbols of a changing universe, the dying throes of old energy that is soon to become part of another world in which [those of] you who have chosen to awaken need not take part.  All have been given the choice to ascend.  Most are unaware of this, but on the deeper levels, everyone is choosing.

“[Do not] fear for or be concerned about family and friends who may be choosing not to awaken at this time.  Their Higher Self in its infinite wisdom may know that they need more three dimensional type experiences before they will be ready to leave them behind.  Every person will ascend into higher levels of awareness at some point in their journey, it is inevitable.  [Humanity’s] true nature is Divine and [it] is not meant to spend forever living the experiences of illusory beliefs.”

“True peace is a peace that the three dimensional state of consciousness knows nothing about and thus can never successfully create through treaties, wars, dominance, and punishment – ideas based in the sense of separation.  Because ‘peace’ created through these methods is based in duality and separation, sooner or later the ‘good side’ will flip to the ‘bad side,’ for the belief in duality always manifests as pairs of opposites.  Real peace can only manifest when the substance from which it is formed is present–consciousness.

“Peace is the natural expression of Love, the realization that all is ONE within the ONE.  Why would anyone want to hate, hurt, deceive, lie, kill, and make to suffer, itself?  It is only the dense energies of personal and collective unevolved states of consciousness that see power over others as an appropriate action to bring about peace.  Peace is the birthright of every person because it is the reality – globally and individually.”

“At this time there are many very evolved souls on earth, here to be examples to others as well as to add their Light to the collective.  They did not need to come in order to resolve karma or learn lessons of love, because they have already done this work on earth or on other planets.

“Seeing the need of humans for help at this powerful time of change, these souls lovingly chose to assist. You can see them in all walks of life doing seemingly ordinary things and will recognize them by a loving but often intense energy as they work to bring deeper awareness into situations where it is needed.  They are often intuitively felt as being powerful, but to human eyes look ordinary.

“Actions of love occur daily, but you are primarily served the negative from most news sites.  This is why it is important to limit your involvement in the news because it can easily pull you back into old energy.  It is fine to be aware of what is going on around you, but do not align with it.  It is the same idea as when you align with the energy of some low resonating person and then find yourself drained of energy, which is how the term ‘energy vampires’ came about.

“In all situations, and with all people, places, things, and events keep your energy field clear, filled with light, and not in alignment with any lower resonating energy that may be present.  Lower resonating energies have a sense of ‘heaviness’ about them which is easily felt in some places and with certain people.  Do not fear it for it has no power other than what you give it, but be aware of not aligning or identifying with it.  You may just choose to leave.”

“Up to this point, serious seekers have been allowed to continue in some of their old energy ways without much repercussion, but because the resonance of earth has become so much more rarified, everyone’s corners of belief are being swept out and the spiritual leash has become very short.

“Remember this when small events and actions once considered unimportant, start to feel very important and may even bring in a sense of guilt which you don’t understand.  This is because your energy field has become increasingly more attuned to the higher frequencies of Light, causing you to easily sense when you are out of alignment.”

4 July II

June 24, 2017

If there is any one thing that I would recommend over the next ten days before our Big Event, it would be to Separate your Thoughts from your Emotions.  They feed one another, so when you start on a downward spiral, confusing them accelerates the descent.  By far the greatest proportion of our Emotion comes not from Present Moment Experience, but from our Karmic Memory banks.  So we do ourself no Service when we reinforce them – and Strengthen our grasp on our Karma in the process – with Anxious thoughts about the largely-irrelevant Present Moment.

By Separating them we increase our likelihood of Connecting with our Parallel Lives, the source of most of the Archetypes, Habits, Patterns, and Karma that we Experience as Emotion and Limiting Beliefs – the “Anchor” that Suzanne Lie will speak of in our next post, and the Walls in our “Reality” that prevent us from even seeing what’s Possible.  Connecting directly with our Parallels is a big step toward connecting with our 5D Soul Self.

How to Separate Emotion and thought? 

The easiest way I know is to Locate your Emotion or Pain in your Body.  You don’t have to be precise, or even accurate.  If you aren’t sure where it might reside in your body, Ask yourself, “What if I did know,” then take the first answer (which you may already have rejected).  The task is to Embrace the Emotion as Emotion, stripped of contamination by thought.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Hard and Cold.  Put your hand on that place in your Body, or a towel, to Warm it.  Imagine it Softening.

Your mind will wander, many times.  Just keep Lovingly and Gently bringing it back to the place you’ve identified in your Body.  If the Pain or Emotion moves, follow it.  It’s actually Success when it moves, because you’ve Softened your Emotional Scar Tissue and allowed Healing to move in with the increased blood flow.  If you start to get bored, take a break, and when your thoughts starts to Dance cheek-to-cheek with your Emotion again, come back to this practice.  You’ll be amazed at what you can Heal with this process.

(We introduced the 4 July Big Event in the “Solstice New Moon I” post,  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/06/22/solstice-new-moon-i/ , so we’re calling this “4 July II” – there is no post titled “4 July” or “4 July I.”)

Confusion and Leavia

June 25, 2016

This is very timely…

https://alchemicalastrology.wordpress.com/2016/06/25/pluto-teachings-on-impermanence/

Confusion is the first stage of Growth.

As Saturn Wanes toward Neptune over the next several years, we need to expect a Breakdown in the Definition (Saturn) of our Cultures (Neptune) that will require (Saturn) us all to shift our primary Perspective away from Matter and toward Spirit (Neptune). 

Someone on the BBC referred to Britain as being divided into two countries, Leavia and Remainia.  It’s amazing how much Fear-based propaganda is being thrown at Leavia – which I guess shouldn’t be surprising, since Remainia was a project of the Corporate Elites and their Fellow Travelers.  London was all Remainia – London is Britain’s “Wall Street.”  When do we get NAFTexit?

The Future hasn’t been Co-Created yet.  Our corner of it will be influenced greatly by what we PIAVA – including all those Unconscious and Semi-Conscious PIAVAs that we put out there under the guise of Anxiety.  Though it should help to Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade those, and replace them as quickly as we can with PIAVAs for What We Do Want for ourself and for our role in the World.

“My power is over myself, is over how I learn to master myself.  Not about how I suppress my emotions but, more perhaps, about how I can work with these powerful energies.  CONSCIOUSLY.”

Yes, Power With ourself, not Power Over.  The difference is subtle and Powerful, critical for Co-Creating a desirable Future, and well described by Starhawk’s amazing and Life-Changing book Truth or Dare.  

Empathy with Self is fundamental.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling uncomfortable Emotions, aren’t you.  I Wonder what it would be like to Embrace them, to Locate them in my Body and put all of my Attention there, Lovingly and Gently.”  My own Response to doing this – when I remember to do it (Ay, there’s the rub, eh?!?), is a feeling of Ecstasy, though not always right away.  Maybe I can PIAVA to remember more often.

“It’s about finding ways to keep yourself centered so nothing (am I deluding myself?!) can throw you off balance.  Nothing!

Alas, we do need to be Vulnerable, and Embrace Confusion for itself, without trying to Change it.  Resistance to Vulnerability and Confusion is a serious Growth-preventing Limiting Belief.  Maybe we can resolve the apparent Contradiction by counting Both “Centered” And “Uncentered” as two distinct Emotions, and PIAVAing “how to work with these powerful energies Consciously” so we can build new Patterns that will allow us to Embrace them both automatically, before they throw us off Balance enough that we can’t Recover our Grounding in a short time.

“Feeling fearful or anxious won’t make any situation better.”

No, but we do need to Embrace our Fear as a valid Emotion (and Tap it out when it Feels Overwhelming – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 ).  And Learn to quickly recognize Anxiety as mental noise that keeps us from Feeling uncomfortable Emotions, so we can get right to work Learning how to Lovingly and Gently Embrace those Emotions, Rapidly and Completely.

Venus, Mars, and Yintegrity

June 1, 2016

Venus is dancing with the 4 June New Moon, Mars is very busy, and of course Yintegrity is the bottom line here as we approach the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation.  If you haven’t been dancing with Rebirth of your Sexuality and Sensuality (Venus and Mars) yet, to bring it more in line with your Yintegrity, you’re probably overdue.  The Royal Star Regulus is still lit up, so be mindful that Revenge (Mars) may backfire.

Mars, after turning Retrograde at the Ides of April, reached it’s astrological Opposition to the Sun on 22 May, backed into Scorpio on 27 May, reached it’s cosmological Opposition to the Sun (closest approach to Earth in a decade) on 29 May, and turns Direct again on 29 June.  If you’re feeling or encountering a lot of bitchiness (as one reader calls it) or lack of Satisfaction (as Mick would call it), you can probably blame Mars.  Of course, if you’re being Victimized by Mars, we’d interpret that as a Denial of ______ [you’ll have to PIAVA how to fill in the blank; it’d be different for everyone].

Mars’s Shadow Period (span of Retrogradation) covers 24 Scorpio to 9 Sagittarius, the last two and-a-half Duads of Scorpio (adjustments to the Ego to Balance new Learnings) and the first three and-a-half Duads of Sagittarius (testing our New Ego in social settings).  Scorpio is about Fearlessly Digging Deep, and Sagittarius is about Letting  Go.  Mars entered its Shadow Period February 18.  So…

Whatever business it is that we haven’t finished and which we danced with in the last half of February, after we tried and failed to Let It Go over the last three months, it’s back.  YooHoo.  So now we have to immerse ourselves in it.  Locate it in our Body and just Be in that spot for a month.  Dr. Kim must have a good astrologer or good Intuition, because as it often is, her current message is right on…

http://drkimderamo.com/ever-feel-like-youre-going-backwards/

The New Moon is very busy…

It’s in Gemini, Conjunct Venus, and it’s one corner of a Grand Cross with Saturn, Jupiter-North Node, and Neptune-South Node.  It’s also the head of a Kite, on a Saturn-Hopi-Mnemosyne Fire Grand Trine.  The Neptune-South Node corner of the Grand Cross is the head of a second Kite, on a Pluto-Jupiter/North Node-Aletheia Earth Grand Trine.  The Kites are connected by two Yods, to Hopi/Leo from Pluto-Neptune, and to Pluto/Capricorn from Hopi and the New Moon.

Stressful, but the Rewards for Surrendering Control and PIAVAing what you lack should be fabulous.  If they aren’t, PIAVA the next step – you may also need something else, you may need to go Deeper, or your mind may just be leading you into one of those blind Either/Or alleys.  You may need to Wonder what to PIAVA.  It could just be Patience.  We’re in the Soup till 9 June.  That doesn’t mean we have to Suffer, but it also means that perfect Comfort is likely to escape us.

The second, Jupiter-Neptune axis of the Grand Cross is malformed, as Jupiter does not really Oppose Neptune.  Jupiter recently backed up to within a Degree and-a-half of completing the Opposition, then changed its mind and went back the other way.  The real Opposition took place last September.  That Opposition was the Blooming of the very momentous Neptune-Jupiter and simultaneous Chiron-Jupiter Initiation, in May 2009, a prelude to the 2010 Neptune-Chiron Initiation.  All three of these Initiations occurred in 27 Aquarius, “An ancient pottery bowl filled with fresh violets.”  If you have the time, you might want to review “Chiron-Neptune” in the list of Categories at right.

These Fresh Violets are a Symbol we recognize, as the theme for the initially-alternate economy that is being formed as the dregs of the Industrial-Age economy limp into the Digital Age.  And we recognize the Chironean Despair that surrounded the recent Derivative Crisis (advertised by the corporate media as a “Subprime Loan” Crisis; this theme of making the Victims into Criminals is a trend that’s just starting).  

The Industrial-Age economic infrastructure that died in 2010 isn’t fixable; it will have to be replaced with “Fresh Violets,” but the bankers are stretching it out as long as they can because they’re getting rich off if it and hoping to make it into the 1% before it’s too late, and because the 1% haven’t figured out yet how to checkmate China and the other contenders (including us) as they plan their own new infrastructure. 

Eventually the alternate economy will go mainstream as the seed of the first Digital Age Survival strategy for the Analog portion of the 99%.  It’s about growing our own Food, trying to protect ourselves from the political corruption and poisoned Earth that Predatory Capitalism leaves almost everywhere on the Planet, creating local Community, adapting the portions of new technology that are accessible to us (such as 3D printing), and growing Resilience.  

We can probably safely assume that for most of us the future will look more like present-day Libya or Syria or the Palestinian dilemma, than the Sound of Music or the Gatsby.  One of the best handbooks for the alternate economy is probably Permaculture Magazine, and its new Western-Hemisphere spinoff.  The ancient Popular Mechanics is also surprisingly useful.

The fact that the Jupiter-Neptune axis of the Grand Cross does not complete suggests that…

This New Moon and its Grand Cross may unleash a lot of Paper Tigers – bundles of Fear that look like Monsters from our Karmic past.  If this is true, then there will likely be an economic feint (or faint) in June – the long-promised demise of the current economic shell game will appear to be happening, while its actual demise may be delayed until after the US elections.  The appearance of demise will probably be enough to bring us all face to face with our Survival Fears.

Other than knowing that we’re in the Void phase of the final Jupiter-Saturn Cycle of the Industrial Age, and that there will most likely be a Cultural component to this Eris-Uranus Revelation of Denial business (think Global Balming, Poverty, Predatory Capitalism, for-profit medicine), I haven’t looked at the rest of the year and decade yet astrologically.  I will soon.

The unfortunate Truth is that the 1% have become expert at “Crisis Investing,” which means taking maximum advantage of the Victims of any Crisis, the way W and his cronies did after Hurricane Katrina or 9/11 (see Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine or John Perkins’s New Confessions of an Economic Hit Man if you want to learn how that’s done – or just watch The Donald).  So whatever occurs on the Cultural or Global scale, we need to PIAVA that Huperity has reached a Tripping Point, and that Miracles are available to the Planet.  There is ample potential for that.

The New Moon is also the head of a Kite, on a Saturn-Hopi-Mnemosyne Fire Grand Trine.  The Neptune-South Node corner of the Grand Cross is the head of a second Kite, on a Pluto-Jupiter/North Node-Aletheia Earth Grand Trine.  The Kites are connected by two Yods, to Hopi/Leo from Pluto-Neptune, Hopi meaning Respect for All Things, and to Pluto/Capricorn from Hopi and the New Moon.  Fire and Earth form a potent Alchemical combination.

The New Moon is also Trioctile (Rebalancing) to the recent Lilith-Juno Initiation (Around a campfire a group of young people sit in spiritual communion” – bringing Yindependence to the Edges of our Consciousness), which Initiation is in turn at the head of a Quintile Yod from Vesta and Chiron.

Our Choice Points are really whether to be in Despair about how our Unconscious Beliefs in Limitation have us shackled, or to be Willing to move toward Miracles by PIAVAing what we don’t believe is attainable – or perhaps that we don’t believe it’s attainable – and by Empathizing with what’s really going on.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really swimming in Self-Rejection here, aren’t you” for instance.  PIAVAs about trying to Heal our Despair by Changing External Reality will probably not work as well here; it’s an inside job.

The mindstuff that forms the content of our Anxieties is what needs to be jettisoned as soon as possible, so we can instead use our scarce Attention Resources to either focus directly on our Anxiety itself (for instance Tapping Out “Even though I feel very Worried, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself”), or to go Deeper and begin to get Comfortable with the Real Feelings that our Anxiety is trying to hide from us (“I Wonder what Real Emotions are underneath my Anxiety, and how I might Heal their Source”).

This is the Gift of the Neptune-South Node Kite.

We’ll look at the Uranus-Eris portion of the New Moon chart in the next installment.

 

Dr. Kim on Anxiety

January 20, 2016

The recording of Dr. Kim D’Eramo’s excellent webinar on Anxiety is at …

http://events.attendthisevent.com/Flyer/?eventid=78606075

Here’s a fabulous quote from her intro email…

“I’ve had some great questions about EFT Meridian Tapping and the video series I put out last week.  One of them:

” ‘Why do we tap on the ‘negative’ thoughts?  Doesn’t that cause more negativity?  Don’t I need to be positive?’

“My answer: Tapping (on the meridian points) neutralizes the disturbing thoughts or emotions in your brain.  There really are no negative thoughts or emotions; there are just those that trigger your body’s stress response and block you from health. 

“When you have resistance to something (whether it’s a person who gets on your nerves or resistance to feeling angry or sad), it generates toxic chemicals in your brain and body.  That’s what makes the thought FEEL negative.  When we believe things that are not true, our body responds to let us know! 

“Holding resistance not only ages you, increases pain and impairs healing…it limits your brain activity, so you continue to ‘stress’ about that thought again and again without seeing the solutions, even if they’re right in front of you!

“Tapping literally ‘changes your brain’ so you free your body to experience ease, joy and vitality.  It’s sooo much simpler than most people think.  That’s the miracle of your body!”

Scroll down to the “Tapping” Category in the right-hand column of this page to find her web page on the Tapping protocol she uses – it’s basically the same as Jessica Ortner’s, which you’ll also find there, along with Dr. Kim’s website.

Signing up for her email newsletter on her website will get you great ideas almost daily for Stress relief.

Emotion and Trauma

November 24, 2015

Emotions are not an Energy to be Controlled, they’re an Energy to be Respected and Listened to.  Without our Emotions we couldn’t keep ourself Safe, we couldn’t find Community, we couldn’t Transition from one Life phase to another.  Emotion becomes a problem when it Overwhelms all of our other Media.  We’re awakened in the middle of the night by a noise in the house, and our Body is overcome by Fear.  We become Ungrounded, and the mind is only useful for trying to figure out what the noise was and how much time we have to escape before being hacked to death by the neighborhood Samurai.  

Compared to our normal State of Being, and compared to being Grounded and Centered, our Experience of our Body is entirely different when Fear grips it.  In that kind of circumstance, we want to suppress our Fear Reaction just enough to Recover all of our other Senses, so we can be fully Present for attending to any danger that may actually befall us.  In other circumstances, Fear or Anger or Grief may grip us, but our Experience of our Body isn’t Overwhelmed.  Instead, our mind is Overwhelmed by Anxiety or Worry or Hypervigilance.  Actually, in many Experiences of that sort, our Sense of our Body may actually be very different – but our Anxiety is taking up so much bandwidth that we don’t even know what our Body Feels like.

Then there is Trauma and its aftereffects, situations where we are definitely not in the Present Moment, but reliving a segment of our Trauma.  We can’t Judge Trauma objectively; we can’t say whether we should or shouldn’t have been Traumatized when Ms. Grundy shamed us in front of the class, or we fell off that roof, or Uncle Fred slapped us for farting during Thanksgiving dinner, or the Nightly News comes on.  Or worse.  Trauma Reactions are subjective.  They depend on our State of Being as much as the exterior stimuli, and not in any predictable way.  The difficulty with Trauma is that it keeps on giving.

When a Present-Moment situation triggers a memory of part of our stored Trauma, we React as if we were in the middle of the Trauma, when it occurred.  And it occurs on the Unconscious level, so we don’t know that we’re not in the Present Moment.  Until we notice that the cars don’t have tail-fins, or that we aren’t in the jungle or the desert, or that the wallpaper is a different color.  Drunk drivers kill more people every week than were killed in Paris, and in the US allopathic medicine kills more people in two hours.  But we don’t notice that, because the Paris attacks trigger different stored Traumas.  Unless it was our own family or friends that were killed by drunk drivers or allopathic medicine.

Gilles gives us an interesting Perspective from stage right…

https://sailingondreams.wordpress.com/2015/11/22/slippery-ice/

And Donna taps Dawson Church for a thorough Tapping sequence that can probably be adapted for dealing with any resurrections of Trauma…

http://innersource.net/em/article/468-resources/1173-tapping-script-for-incomprehensible-tragedy.html

It’s an excellent example of the form Tapping can take when it’s taken seriously – as it deserves to be.  Many people say “Oh I tried Tapping and it didn’t work,” but I question whether they’ve tried it to this extent.

I remember lifting my head at the wrong time while crawling under a table, and after I Recovered my sense of Self, making an Oath never to let myself be unaware of my surroundings like that again.  I was probably about nine.  Some of our Traumas came with Oaths, and some didn’t.  When Mother Shamed us we may have Sworn never to let anyone see that we were Shamed, in hopes that they’d lose interest if they didn’t see a result.  Or maybe an Oath never to get caught doing that again.  We make Oaths like this fairly often, usually without considering the context and unintended consequences.  Each one becomes a Limiting Belief, mostly Unconscious, and constrains our Future.

You’d think that if I decided I wanted to, I could bang my head on the underside of a table all I wanted, and that’s probably true, though you’d also think I’d be old enough to know better.  But what about other situations where I don’t want to be hypervigilant about my surroundings.  Suppose I want to relax my Boundaries so the Birds in the Garden can come speak to me.  Or I want to avoid jerking my head when I see something move out of the corner of my eye, because when I do that I’ll never make contact with the Sylph there.  It’s much harder to downshift from the unintended consequences of our Oaths, and in fact often very difficult to connect our current Limiting Beliefs to our historical Oaths, because our vision doesn’t penetrate the Veil.

Oaths are declarations of Intention – PIAVAs, and to reverse them we need a reverse PIAVA – an AVIAP if you will.  If “I Intend to reverse the Oath that Separates me from connecting with the Critters and the Faeries,” then I’ll need to Change the Subject and Pay Attention this time.  I may need to Pay Attention not to hit my head, if indeed this is the Oath that applies here.  The adage, “Be Careful what you Ask For” very much applies here.  When we PIAVA or make an Oath, we’re calling Energy out of the Ethers and coaxing it into Form.  In some circles, all broken Oaths must be Punished.  If we’re dealing with an Oath that severely Limits us, we may want to Celebrate this Punishment!

Supposed for instance in our youth we Vowed not to Cause Trouble, however it was that our Significant Adults at the time defined “Cause” and “Trouble.”  We could easily have made such an Oath because we were tired of being Punished by them, even though their definition of Trouble never made sense in our own playbook.  Well, now that we’re compelled to Open up to our Pathological Genius, we may need to “Cause Trouble,” in many ways by many definitions.  Pathological Genii are Disrupters, and Disrupters Cause Trouble for the Status Quo.  When we make an Oath to accept the Trouble that our Pathological Genius will create, our Psyche will Punish us, because in making our original Oath we were Merged with our then-Significant Adults.  

They’re no longer around, but a portion of our own Unconscious carries their Energy, and fills in for them.  If you think they no longer have Control over us because we’ve “grown up,” try going home to their house for a few days.  That self-administered Punishment may just take the form of Anxiety, or appear in the form of “Accidents,” like my bumping my head.  Or worse.  Remember how Confusion is good because it’s the first stage of Growth?  Well, maybe we need to adopt the same approach to Anxiety and Accidents.  Oh, there’s Anxiety!  I must be Breaking Through a Limiting Belief!  “I Wonder what Limiting Belief this Anxiety is connected to!” (that’s a PIAVAW).  Curiosity about these Realms will help us untangle ourselves from the Archetypes and Oaths that structure our Personal Unconscious.  The more we know about that, the better.

All that just to introduce a Full Moon.  Well, not just a Full Moon, because Wednesday’s Full Moon is intimately connected to Thursdays Saturn-Neptune Square.  And once we get beyond that, the predominant Energy is that of the dwarf planet Orcus.  Orcus is the Punisher of Broken Oaths.  But we’re Learning to Recognize this Punishment as an early stage in the process of Letting Go of Restraints, Celebrate it, and Study it to understand as many of its ramifications as we can.  So we can PIAVA that our Punishment be mild and relatively obvious in how it’s Connected to what Oath or Archetype that we’re betraying, and that we notice the Connections.  The Unconscious is our Ally here, and need never be otherwise.  Since it’s in Control of our Life 99% of the time, it behooves us to befriend it.

The Full Moon Sun is Conjunct Saturn, so Neptune, Square to Saturn, T-Squares the Full Moon.  But the Stationary Orcus Opposes Neptune, so the Full Moon makes a Grand Cross with the Neptune-Orcus Opposition and the Saturn-Neptune Square.

There is Powerful Medicine here to Manifest a Reality that’s more to our liking and closer to our Heart’s Desire, based on the Limiting Beliefs we’re Releasing and the Freedom that results.

The only Grace Blessing the Grand Cross is Mars Conjunct Makemake, which Trine-Bridges the Full Moon and Quincunx-Bridges the Neptune-Orcus Opposition,

There are also very strong Insights available over the next few weeks, about how to increase our Yintegrity, and how to Enjoy doing it. 

Venus and Uranus Oppose one another at the far midpoints of the Moon-Neptune Square and the Sun-Orcus Square, respectively.  The result is two interlocking Mjolnirs on the opposite sides of the Grand Cross.

There’s more.  The Saturn Square will shake loose additional Unconscious Contents, and they will irrupt to seriously Confuse and torture us with rampant Feelings that make no sense whatsoever in our current Concept of how Reality is assembled.  Confusion!  Wow, we’re about to make leaps and bounds in our understanding of how Reality works, and this Confusion is just the first step.  Time for Celebration!  It already Feels like we’re drunk, so we may as well make it so.  But not while we’re driving – driving is dangerous enough in our Confused State.

Dwarf planet 2007 OR10 (Revelation of Unconscious Contents) is close enough to Neptune to be considered Conjunct for many purposes, and thus Opposite the Stationary dwarf planet Orcus.

Rain Mixed with Showers

November 11, 2015

Or Fear mixed with Insecurity.  As we’ve been writing about, there are plenty of astrological reasons why we might make such a forecast.  Then there’s the 11/11 itself, which I don’t pretend to know much about.  But we can certainly talk about the natural Anxiety that arises whenever we enter the Unknown, which we certainly seem to be doing.

The Most Important Thing about Anxiety or Discouragement is Discernment, Witnessing, Consciousness – the name doesn’t matter, what matters is how soon you Recognize Anxiety and Discouragement for what they are – Emotions that will trigger your Negative Thoughts.  It doesn’t even need to be your Anxiety – it could be Discouragement floating in on the airwaves from the neighbors, or from the News Hour – anybody’s Fear will trigger your Negative Thoughts.  The sooner we Notice that we’re in Anxiety or Discouragement, the sooner we can stop the hyperloop of Negative Thoughts triggering more Emotion triggering more Negative Thoughts – ad infinitum.

We’ve talked about lots of ways to stop the hyperloop.  Yesterday’s link to Dr. Kim’s website will lead you to a treasure-chest of them.  Just a few of my favorites include…

  • “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade”
  • Grounding
  • Running your Energy
  • Tapping
  • PIAVA what you Want
  • (and Convert your Yes-Buts into Yes-Ands)

Anxiety Loves Yes-Buts.  

“I Want ample income!”  

Yes-But you’re an Introvert, so how’s that going to happen?  

Oh, okay.  

“I Want ample income AND the Freedom to be my natural self.”  

Wow, doesn’t that put Fear of the Unknown into the Belly.  Which is where it belongs.  In the Belly, not the Thoughts.  Where do your Thoughts happen?  Noticing where in your Body the Action is occurring is a powerful Habit to develop.  Once you’re in your Belly, you can krap, ground, and Tap.  Use the “Categories” list in the column to the right if you don’t recognize a term, like “Tapping” or “PIAVA.”  If you don’t find it, leave a Comment.

Confusion between Negative Thoughts and “negative” Emotions is probably the best place to go astray around what we Want to Manifest and what we do Manifest.  There are no “negative” Emotions, only uncomfortable Emotions.  “You poor Sweetheart, that Feels awful doesn’t it.”  All Emotions need a Gentle and Loving Response.  “You poor Sweetheart, it’s hard to hold that Joy for very long, isn’t it.”  Emotion, when it’s “raw” and not yet twisted out of proportion by Thoughts, is the doorway to your Instincts.  Emotion happens in your Body.  If you’re thinking that you’re Angry or Scared, you’re not in your Body.  “You poor Sweetheart, you aren’t in the Habit of checking in with your Body, are you.”

It’s 11/11 all day.

The New Moon occurs at 10am PST ( http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst10.htm ) on 11 November (today).  It will light up any natal planets you have close to 20 Degrees of the Fixed Signs – Scorpio, Leo, Aquarius, Taurus.

The Nessus Station is scheduled for 10am PST on 12 November.  It will trigger your natal planets near the Mutable Cusps – the last few Degrees of the Fixed Signs and the first few Degrees of Pisces, Gemini, Sagittarius, and Virgo, the Mutable Signs.

The Vesta Station happens at 10am PST on 13 November.  Your natal planets around the Cardinal Cusps – the last few degrees of the Mutable Signs and the first few degrees of Aries, Cancer, Capricorn, and Libra – the Cardinal Signs.

The Neptune Station (Confusion) isn’t at the top of the list, but only because it’s drowned out by the more prominent events.  It’ll get obvious as soon as we get past the Vesta Station, and increase in intensity till 9am PST ( http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst9.htm ) on 18 November.

Same for the 2007 OR10 Station (Bringing our Limiting Beliefs into Consciousness), which occurs at 5pm PST ( http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst17.htm ) on 19 November.

The Neptune Station will heat up any issues you have around your natal planets within a few Degrees of 8 Degrees of the Mutable Signs, and the OR10 Station will do the same for your natals near 3 Degrees of the Mutable Signs.

Putting all this together, the first Decanate of Pisces is pretty Lit Up this week and next.  The first Decanate of Pisces is about…

Any Unfinished Business or Emotional Baggage that we no longer need will be in our face.  If you aren’t Freaked Out, Congratulations, your Karma could be fairly clear, though you never know what yet more subtle levels will make themselves available for you to Embrace.  With Saturn in Sagittarius, our first approach should always be Letting Go.  If four or five iterations of Letting Go don’t work, then move into the center of the Pain.  “You poor Sweetheart, that feels awful, doesn’t it.”  

Take the Space you need to Heal.  Strong Emotions can shatter the Ego, and when the Ego is shattered, anything you try to do in the outside World will just mirror the shattering.  Go inside and Empathize with your shattered Self first.  There is a natural glue there – all you need to do is put your arms around ALL of yourself, gently squeeze, and hold on for long enough for the glue to cure.  You can rock yourself Gently if it helps, and whisper sweet nothings.

Today we can join a billion Hindus and help celebrate Lakshmi’s Birthday.  Lakshmi offers us Abundance – Having Enough to Share.  Her Dynamic Alter-Ego Ganeshi is the Remover of Obstacles.  Great sources of Support for us!  When you Let Go, Let Ganeshi remove any Obstacles between you and Bliss, and Let Lakshmi shower you with an Abundance of whatever you need.