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Living in the Heart

December 29, 2020

Brenda Hoffman channels some wonderful Wisdom today…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2020/12/28/adding-your-puzzle-pieces/

“You are likely no longer comfortable being the source of others’ jokes or the instigator of downplaying others’ importance. You are discovering an inner voice that often stops you in mid-message or sentence. A voice that invalidates what you once thought or said. For you are beginning to lead with your heart instead of social norms.

“Perhaps there was a time when you made fun of a certain person or action. But doing so now does not provide you with the same feeling of conquest. It merely makes you sad. For you are a different being with a different focus, and most importantly for this topic, different needs.

“Your needs before your transition and the energies of this December were often to be better than others. And to project that difference, you needed to make fun of their mistakes, their being. You needed to talk down to them and about them.

“You are discovering that doing so no longer gives you the same high, the same feeling of satisfaction. Instead, doing so makes you feel different, a difference you are beginning to explore. Some of you will display those unpleasant feelings physically. Others of you will merely lose your sparkle, your sense of fun. For in the past, ‘getting one over someone’ was fun, but it is no longer.

“You are a different being. It does not matter if your former targets have changed. For you feel bad even if they have not. You express fewer negative, hurtful comments, for you no longer wish to live in that world.

“Such will not happen in a few minutes or even a few days. Instead, you are shifting in that direction daily. You might still enjoy teasing someone – until you do not. We are merely informing you that new you will have different feelings and actions – from the heart instead of the mind.

“Conversations will likely be confusing for a bit because one of you will speak from your heart and the other from his or her mind. And perhaps those of you speaking from your heart will be hurt until you build your strength in that area. Similar to building your physical body at a gym, your heart instincts will become stronger the more you use them.

“You will find less need to tease, to pretend something is, that is not, to spread ‘little white lies,’ to try to be better than someone. 

“In 3D, better than someone was a key survival element. Beyond 3D, following your heart is the key. You will discover interests and people that speak to your heart regardless of the panache such interests or people might have in the greater society. It will no longer matter if you are the best at something. Interest, not dominance, is new you. Something you will learn throughout 2021.

“You are building your structure on the 2020 foundation you created – a structure right for you and no one else. You are beyond living for others in whatever form that takes. 

“That is not to say you will be isolated for the opposite is true. As you develop and explore numerous interests, you will tap into larger and larger groups of like-minded people. The difference between doing so in 3D and dimensions beyond is you will connect with like-minded and like-hearted others.

“You will have little need to compete, to outshine, to be better than. For your new interactions will be like a giant puzzle in which the pieces lock together easily and effortlessly. You might wish to explore one area of the puzzle for a bit and then move to another, only to return to the first area – or not. And doing so will not reduce your interactions or your love.

“This is a new world dominated by the heart instead of the mind. Your interests will be heart-based instead of mind directed. Eliminating the need for competition, greed, or self-compensation.

“Instead of a tall building of have and have-nots based on greed and better-than as was true in 3D society, your new world is a flat puzzle in which every puzzle piece is equally important and beautiful. So be it. Amen.”

I couldn’t agree more. The 29 December 2020 Full Moon is Bridged (Doubly Trine-Sextiled) by two Energies. One of them can be read as Obedience to Our Own Soul (Lilith [Self-Sovereignty] Conjunct Uranus [the Individual Soul]). The other is quite fascinating – it has to do with Making Abuse and Privilege Sustainable (Conjunction of dwarf planets Ceres [Sustainability] and Nessus [Abuse and Privilege]). Well, how would we do that without yielding the Planet to the Antichrist’s goons? I’ve been thinking of Abuse as the Other Side of Privilege. But the Other Side of Abuse-and-Privilege would be Respect-and-Equality, wouldn’t it! With a Namaste to Brenda for the Insight!

The Full Moon chart also includes Epiphany about our Limiting Beliefs – a Configuration of planets that we interpret as Epiphany (and which we call a Mjölner) because it features the convergence of two Angles (Trioctiles) that combine Adjustment toward Balance (Eighth Harmonic) and Love with Wisdom (Third Harmonic). These Angles converge on the symbol for Unconscious Limiting Beliefs (asteroid Vesta), giving us Insight into a Wise and Loving Rebalancing of our Limitations.

(Mjölner is Norwegian for Thor’s Hammer, which is the usual astroname for this Configuration of two converging “Sesquisquares.” We prefer the Norwegian name because, being a new term, we hope to escape the baggage of Destruction, as Norse Myth often pictures Thor’s Hammer as a Sledgehammer. Shades of Neal Cassady (a parallel story in itself). Hindu Myth includes the same weapon, the Vajra, but it symbolizes Lightning – Illumination – Destruction, yes, of the Ego’s former Limitations. “A vajra [or dorje in Tibetan] is a ritual weapon symbolizing the properties of a diamond [indestructibility] and a thunderbolt [irresistible force] and is the Sanskrit word having both meanings” – Wikipedia.)

Whether it’s a Mjölner, a Vajra, a Dorje. or a Hammer of Thor, the two Trioctiles or Sesquisquares begin at each end of a Challenge, or Square. In the Full Moon chart the Challenge is between the Soul’s Sovereignty (Lilith-Uranus) and Setting Truthful Boundaries (Conjunction of asteroids Veritas [our True Unvarnished Thoughts] and Pallas [Boundaries]). In other words, our Transition from 3D to 5D, from Competition to Cooperation, from Head to Heart, will include getting Clear and Honest about our Boundaries, which could require some possibly-Challenging Rebalancing of our Relationships.

In the chart below, the Trioctiles are drawn in the thinner orange lines…

Note that the asteroid Vesta is Opposed by Neptune, which symbolizes our Relationship to anything larger than our Self, including our Relationship to God/Goddess. Which adds Octiles (Semi-Squares, Eighth Harmonic, symbolizing Adjustment, Rebalancing) between Neptune and the shoulders of what becomes a Mjölner Kite, with Neptune at the Top. Neptune also symbolizes Confusion, but in fact it’s Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity. So our Spirituality is also being Rebalanced by this process.

It’s important to Remember to Experience Confusion as an Emotion, devoid of grammatical objects and prepositional phrases – it’s not You Confuse me… or I’m Confused by…, it’s I Feel Confused. Period. Locate Confusion in your Body, not in your Thoughts. Be Loving and Gentle with it there in your Body, and don’t let anyone talk you into Attributing it to anything other than a Vibe your Limbic antenna picked up from the Airwaves.

Abuse Flushbacks IV

November 27, 2020

As we said in the previous post, “We aren’t done with our Abuse Flushbacks yet, as the 30 November 2020 Full Moon (1:30 am PST, in 9 Gemini) is Challenged (T-Squared) by Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus).”

What we didn’t mention is that it’s a Self-Resolving Challenge (a Diamond Star, indicated by the green wedge or Finger of the Goddess that creates the “Bowl of Grace” blue lines below the T-Square’s red triangle)…

Our Allies in the Self-Resolution are What we Choose to Manifest (dwarf planet Makemake) and the Gift of Eliminating Habits that Impede our Vitality (asteroid Atropos Stationary 27 November 12:50 pm PST in 8 Leo, Conjunct dwarf planet Varuna) – these are the two folks on the base of the green wedge.

Eliminating Habits that Impede our Vitality (Atropos-Varuna) is the Focus of a second potential difficulty in the Full Moon chart, as it Challenges (T-Squares) the Dance (Opposition) between Our Soul’s Demand for Self-Sovereignty (Uranus Conjunct Lilith) and Our Ability to Recast Ego Death in a Loving Light (minor planet Zhulong [the Red Dragon of Enlightenment] Conjunct Venus [Heart] and asteroid Nemesis [Ego Death])…

But this Challenge is more complicated than that, as the Dance between Our Soul’s Demand for Self-Sovereignty and Our Ability to Reframe Ego Death in a Loving Light is actually a Mystery School (the central Opposition in a Yin Gate, indicated by the two green Xs surrounding it). A Mystery School aims to Teach us that this Dance is a Paradox, a Relationship that Operates above and beyond the realm of Cause and Effect. That means we have to Learn to rely on a methodology that’s more multidimensional than the 2D Mind, such as our Intuition and Guidance, and our Heart’s Truth. Rote Learning won’t work, as that’s also 2D by nature.

What might Our Soul’s Demand for Self-Sovereignty look like in “Real” Life? You may have a sense that Your Time is not Your Own – you have Obligations that aren’t Unconditionally Loving, or People in your Life who have Expectations that you have to Compromise yourself to Fulfill. You have those Obligations for a reason (for instance, they may provide you with shelter and food!), and for any number of reasons you may not want to Confront your People’s Expectations, or it may just not be Practical to do so (for instance, their Expectations may be Unconscious, and if you brought the subject up they’d just say it was your fault – or one of their Expectations might be that you’ll never Confront them!).

This is the Lilith-Uranus Conjunction, which we’ll actually be dealing with for another several weeks, so this is a good Opportunity to start working with it. Yintegrity is an important part of the Descent of Soul (Uranus in Taurus) and of 5D, and this Opportunity might help us Finesse the Transition, rather than having to make a Sudden Break.

As for Our Ability to Reframe Ego Death in a Loving Light (Zhulong-Venus-Nemesis), we may have Sovereignty issues like the above, or any number of other issues with Others, where we need to make Changes to our Boundaries, but we don’t know how, and our mind frequently Helicopters around the Arguments – “You need to Change that” – “No, I can’t Change it” – “Yes, you need to Change it,” around and around ad infintum. You don’t Believe you can Change it because it seems like it would take a huge Ego Death to do so, and we see Ego Death as something We’d rather Die than do.

What if it wasn’t? What if Ego Death became as routine as commuting to or from Work – after all, every time we do that we Transition from one Identity to another. Or Falling Asleep – now that’s a Big Ego Death, and may have a lot to do with our Insomnia! If you Love your Work and you Love your Home Life, and they’re In Balance, then you’d be swapping Identities twice every Workday, and you’d be Loving every minute of it. Like your Puppy with a tennis ball – Oh Boy Oh Boy, we get to go to Work now! Oh Boy, Oh Boy, we get to go Home now! Wag, Wag. Focus on the Yintegrity of the New Self waiting for you on the other side of your Molt, and you may be Able to easily Reframe Ego Death in a Loving Light.

As this is a Mystery School, you don’t want to try to Decide anything or Pin anything Down. You want to just Ponder, with Curiosity. “I Wonder what would happen if [this or that Miracle occurred].” The Challenge is to Heal whatever these Unresolved Issues might be doing to your Health and Vitality. If we Need to but Can’t, that can have a nasty impact on our Stress Level and the Hormones that are supposed to keep everything in our Body Running Smoothly. It can also easily create Lackawanna, which can have all manner of Negative Consequences.

The Bottom Line is that we Don’t Want to try to Solve these Issues. We Want to Get Clear on What We Want from them, and then Get to Work Imagining it Happening. A Mystery School should get us out of Male Doing Mind and into Female Magnetizing Mind. Once you’re Clear about What You Want and Imagining How You’ll Feel when you’ve Manifested it, you won’t have to Do anything – it’ll take care of itself. Even if you have to Do it, it’ll Feel more like Fun than Work, because the Positive Outcome will be in your Mind.

Heavy I

February 21, 2016

With so many planet clustering near the Midpoints of their Signs, the Full Moon features a couple of very large-scale  Configurations.  Let’s call the first one a Butterfly, in 17-20 Degrees.

To make a Butterfly, take a Quincunx Box – two Oppositions one Sign apart – and add a T-Square to each Opposition.  A Quincunx Box is driven by the Oppositions, but the foci of the T-Squares would obviously be dominating points as well, since they overlight the Oppositions.  Once we interpreted the T-Squares, we could say that the Quincunx between the two T-Square foci is the crux of the Butterfly Configuration.

The Oppositions are Jupiter-Chiron (Be Mindful that Discouragement doesn’t get Blown Up here; Witness and Embrace it, and it will be the Miracles that Explode instead) and Lilith-Uranus (How does your Olde Ego prevent your True Self from having Sovereignty over “You”?).  They’re joined by Unxes (Pattern-Breaking) and Quincunxes (Curiosity).  So we might see the Box as…

The Emotions may not seem straightforward here, but this Feels a lot more complicated than it really is.  What is it that your True Self wants, that You aren’t Allowing it to pursue?  The last thing we need is Confrontation between the Ego and the True Self – and at this time…

Because the Full Moon Opposing the OR10-Nessus Initiation will give anything Repressed a great deal of Power.  Even though it’s the True Self, it could easily arrive in the guise of a threatening intruder, if the Olde Ego isn’t willing to Grow on it’s own.  Remember that we’re rehearsing for an Eris-Uranus Initiation, where unflattering secrets will be thrown onto the table, in the effort to get us to clean up any unfinished Uranus-Pluto Yintegrity business.  Jupiter and Chiron are both about to Initiate the Nodes as well, so this is all about Karma and Mission – and Deepest Desires.

…this could easily be what occurs, if we don’t take steps to avoid it.  What steps?

Move to the Quincunxes – Lilith-Chiron and Jupiter-Uranus…

We don’t deal with the Unconscious using the same methodology we’d use to build a Fire or plant a Tree.  We don’t Act, we Allow.  We need PIAVA.  We need Questions on the order of…

Great Spirit, how might I Surrender Gracefully to my Higher Self, without being hijacked by my Fears and Discouragements?

I know, you were Programmed as a child to Believe that your Deepest Desires were Unholy, rather than urges from your Higher Self.  That’s the Programming we’re working with here, our Fears of Unholiness.  It’s called Karma.  Most of us also Learned that Karma can’t be Changed – hence our Discouragement.  That’s what we’re overcoming.

With dwarf planet Orcus Opposite the Neptune-Ceres Opposition, all of our Beliefs that our Deepest Desires are socially unacceptable are lit up.  With Asbolus T-Squaring this Opposition, however, Intuitions are available about how we can turn this around.  

It’s not a Question we’re seeking to Answer; it’s a Question we want to Forget for a while.  If our Ego or True Self don’t let us Forget, we need to patiently and persistently keep Changing the Subject.  Your Ego honestly doesn’t Know how to Answer it, and the mind can only screw things up more than they are; if the mind could Answer this Question, it would have done so a loooong time ago.  After a week or so, we can look back to see if the Great Spirit has provided any Insights.

T-Squaring the Lilith-Uranus Opposition is Pluto.  Transformation awaits us, and it’s not optional.  We will be operating more from our Self-Sovereignty in the Future.  What’s optional is how we handle the Egoic Disruption.  It might behoove to add a qualifier…

Great Spirit, how might I Surrender Gracefully to my Higher Self, Lovingly and Gently, without being hijacked by my Fears and Discouragements?

T-Squaring the Jupiter-Chiron Opposition is the dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential, not Disorder)…

The danger here is that we’ll be thinking waaay too small.  In fact, we shouldn’t be thinking at all – about solutions.  This would be an excellent time to fantasize.  Pull out all the stops.  What if anything you Want was easily within your grasp?  How would that Feel in your Body?  I know, you’d be bored to tears very quickly.  But how would it Feel for the first several years, while you were busy putting your Deepest Desires into motion, before you got jaded.  

And what about the belt, that big Pluto-Chaos Quincunx from wingtip to wingtip?  

We’re almost guaranteed to get Out of Control here.  When we do, we have to go with it.  Like turning into a skid on an icy road.  If our Actions or Words are Out of Control, once we realize it, we don’t need to keep “making it worse.”  But if our Emotions get Out of Control, it’s all the more important that we Witness and Embrace them.  Once we Witness them we can step back into them and Experience what it’s like to go Beyond ourself.  Not while operating machinery of course.  In meditation.

The Butterfly also features two Major Tricolors…

In this case Pluto-Square-Uranus-Quincunx-Jupiter-Trine-Pluto, for which our earlier Question about Surrendering Gracefully would work, and Chaos-Square-Chiron-Quincunx-Lilith-Square-Chaos…

If being Out of Control is Discouraging to us, we can PIAVA something like…

I wonder how I can Shift my Perspective to emphasize my Self-Sovereignty – if I had to please only Myself, I wonder how that would Change things.

Again, this is not a Wondering in search of an Answer; it’s an invitation for a Miracle to enter, once you’re looking the other way.  

The model for these PIAVAs is finding your car keys.  If you find them “where you last had them,” fine, no worries, no need for PIAVA.  If they went Walkabout, you need to Ask for them, then Change the Subject, put your mind and attention on something else entirely.  Next thing you know, you’ll find them in the Butter dish when you go to Butter your Happy Camper Organic Gluten-Free Toast.  If they aren’t there, keep Changing the Subject.

If they don’t eventually jump out at you, you’ll need to Pay Attention.  What did happen?  You had to call a colleague and ask for a ride to work?  How is that related to your car keys?  Does your job excite your True Self?  And how is it related to your Self-Sovereignty?  If you had to please only yourself, would this be the job you’d choose?  Some things aren’t easy to Change with Force; we may need Power instead.

This Pattern gets even more interesting if we drop down to include 16 Degrees.  We add Saturn, which Opposes Chaos and turns our Chaos T-Square into a Grand Cross.  Then we look at the Midpoint of Leo, and find the asteroids Klotho and Sappho, completing the Grand Trine with Saturn and Uranus, and making a Lilith Kite.  Klotho and Sappho together cut a new cloth for your Life, Singing the Praises of Love.  

There’s also a Klotho-Sappho Yod, on a base of the Chiron-Pluto Sextile.  Sextiles mean we need to take the first step, and it needs to be Witnessing any Discouragement that may arise.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Discouraged, aren’t you.”

We may also need to remember that Witnessing is Magic.  If “I’m Discouraged,” then I’ve Changed my name and Identity.  This is Identity Self-Theft, and it can be as difficult to Recover from.  If “I Feel Discouraged,” then I’m Experiencing an Emotion.  You’ll seldom be Out of Control under “I Feel”; you could easily be Out of Healthy Control under “I am.”  By itself, Witnessing is what Einstein was referring to when he said that we can never solve a problem using the same thinking that postulated the problem.

When we add Empathy to Witnessing – not just “I Feel,” but “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel,” we’ve shifted our Identity again, and our Identity is now Compassion, Compassion for ourself.  Eugene Gendlin wrote the ground-breaking book Focusing; in his PhD thesis he showed that it doesn’t so much matter what techniques you use for Healing, what matters is the presence or absence of Empathy.  Empathy Heals.

After shifting from I am to I Feel and adding You poor Sweetheart, it’s again time to Change the Subject, while we wait for Miracles.  As with PIAVA, if you don’t Change the Subject, you’ll keep looking at the same-old same-old, using the same thinking that created the problem.  At this point mind is not your helper, and it needs to be assigned elsewhere.  

While the realm of Possibility under I am and even I feel is Constrained, the realm of Possibility under You poor Sweetheart is Unlimited.  Once you Change the Subject, the Universe is a different place.  If you want you can look back later and see what happened that wasn’t originally possible, but you probably won’t.  You’ll be too busy Enjoying your new Universe.  No matter; the only important things are to Witness, Embrace, and Change the Subject.

By the way, Uranus will probably remain Lit Up through at least June, and when Uranus is Lit Up it’s folly to try to control your Sleep Patterns.  As much as you can, Sleep or Nap when you’re Sleepy, and do something Fun when you aren’t.  You’ll get a lot more done that way, and what Sleep you do get, even if it’s less than you Expect to get, will be enough.  Uranus and Expectations aren’t very good bed partners.