Ancestors Full Moon 3 (Boundaries VII)

A reader asks…

“Now how to come upon that ego death, what is that – and what does that look like?  I know it’s in the ‘literature’; the fine print!  And am I reading between the lines, perhaps, that seem to be about moving up and beyond karmic entanglement?  …it feels so weighted now.”

Yes, I realized last night that I should say more about Ego Death, but I’d already written so much that I didn’t want to stretch it out more.  So I appreciate the Question.

And yes, Ego Death is “in the literature,” at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/identity/ego-death/.  The essence is Noticing that you’re feeling like “I’d rather die than go through that again,” and a key to becoming Adept with this “ED” is to reframe the Experience from “I’d rather Die than…” to “I would rather die than…”  Making that a PIAVA would also be a boon.  There’s much more “in the literature,” for instance, when you get lost in your own ‘hood or can’t remember your own phone number, those are signs that you’re Newly Reborn.

Ego Death is a Psychological Molt that needs to occur whenever we feel Overwhelmed and Recognize that we have to Change something in order to Enjoy going on with our Life, but we also feel Trapped by our Commitments (or lack thereof if we’re Feeling Isolated) and don’t know what we even can Change.  Making our Ego Death a PIAVA Surrenders all that Change mishmash about What and Why and How and Who to our Intuition, which Knows well What needs to be Changed, and How to do it.

We might PIAVA an Ego Death with something like “I Wonder what I need to be Happy” or “Great Spirit, Please Make My Life Enjoyable (Again)” or Asking yourself “What Do I Really Want?” and then spending some time with the Feeling you would have in your Body if you had the Luxury of Allowing Yourself to Receive Exactly That.  And certainly “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel at your Wit’s End, don’t you” or “… you feel Anxious, don’t you” would be a quick way to Change the wallpaper.  Of course you’d Change the Subject after each PIAVA.

Folks say that all this “New Agey” stuff is just another excuse for putting off the Action that we need to take, but I differ adamantly about that.  Taking Action from our Dynamic Planning-Doing mindset Changes nothing, as our Inner Male can only perpetuate His Limitations.  We have to Appeal to our Inner Female to Change anything.  She Knows what must be done, and She Knows how to Motivate your Inner Male to Enjoy getting to Work when it’s Time and when it’s Right.

The whole idea behind PIAVA is that, sometime after you Change the Subject, you Wake Up and Notice that You Are Doing What It Takes to Solve the Problem, without even Noticing that you’re Doing it, because once you Changed the Subject you Changed your Perspective, and now the World is running on a whole New engine and transmission, and the words you used to use to describe your Frustration (if you even remember them, which often you won’t) aren’t even Relevant anymore.

Your Inner Lady IS your Heart, She Knows What You Want Intimately, and She Knows How to Get It, because She Knows the World Intuitively.  Your “Head” (really we’re talking about the Third Chakra, not the Sixth, so “Head” is a misnomer – your Inner Male comes out of your Solar Plexus) only Knows What You Think, and you’re Thinking that What You Want is Unreachable, and since He only Knows the World Empirically, He can only Act to Keep On Doing What He’s Been Doing, which Aint Working, or you wouldn’t be in need of an Ego Death.

And yes, Karma has been Dead for a long time now, except for our own Grasping of it.  As for the Weight,

there’s probably an Ego Death in there, and probably a Held Emotion (aka Karmic PTSD).  The quickest way to find out is to make yourself Comfortable, Locate the Heaviness in your Body, Warm It, Soften around It (Fear is Hard and Cold, Love is Soft and Warm), put your Full Attention into the Center of It, and Hold It there until the Heaviness Moves. Then Change the Subject.

Of course it will help to Give your Inner Child Permission to Blubber unashamedly and uncontrollably, and to Complain to friends – but only those who will understand that your Intention is to Let Go rather than to Bitch (a la RC – see https://www.rc.org/) or to Accuse anyone of anything.

By the way, do you know how to Complain without putting the load right on your Listeners?  You speak in I statements rather than You or They Statements, and you use Feeling verbs rather than Thinking verbs (“Feel Like” is a Thinking verb – a Feeling verb is always followed by an Emotion word such as Angry or Excited or Bummed).  This way your Listeners can Enjoy your Story, and to the extent they’re able, Empathize, without having to Take Responsibility for your Process.  If you want to study how to do this, see https://www.cnvc.org/.

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The three prominent Conjunctions in today’s Neptune Station chart…

♥ Nemesis-Lachesis – Altering Ego Death Timelines.  If we’re Conscious, we can do this.  If we operate primarily from the Unconscious (as all but a very few of us do), then our Ego Deaths arrive on their own Karmic Timelines.  Of course, we can still Recognize their imminent arrival and Respond to them Constructively (mostly by Enjoying the Feeling of Confusion or Anticipation that we get by focusing our Attention on the Unknown beyond the Ego Death, while Avoiding Expectations).

And if we are Conscious, to the extent that we’re Conscious around the Content-Field of our Ego Death (ie, it could be triggered by, say, Relationship, Scarcity, etc etc), Altering the Timelines may not be Easy.  Since it’s an Ego Transition, the mind (whose Concept-Set and Limiting Beliefs anchor the Ego) may not be much help.  Since we’re Dancing with the Unconscious (otherwise we’d just Experience it as a Shift rather than an Ego Death), PIAVAs are your tool of Choice.

Basically, the more you…

• Have “Owned” your issues
• Regard them as Education You have (on one level or several) Chosen when they Act Out, rather than Torture that Victimizes your Innocence
• Are in the Habit of Actively Responding to their recurrence rather than Reacting to them
• Have replaced Frustration and Analysis with Curiosity

…the Easier it will be for you to Alter the Timelines.  Consider the Issue or Issues that arose for you over the last week.  How do you stand relative to these criteria?

Of course our first Choice for Altering the Timelines of our Issues will be to Accelerate the Arrival of What We’ve Always Wanted and Pined for All Our Life.  That’s called Attachment, and actually Discourages such Arrivals – you’re more likely to Alter your Timeline by slowing it down.  It’s Neutrality that will Accelerate your Desires.  I know, that’s Crazy-Making till we get there, but so be it.  Till we do get there, Desire is a cousin to Addiction. 

Go back the the list above.  Or PIAVA.  This would be an excellent place for our Theta-Tapping Strategy.  Desire is Good, yes?  But it can start to look like Expectation, which can cause us to jump at what looks like What We Want before we vet it thoroughly.  If you’re good at saying “Oops” and “No,” you can dip your toe in a lot of different waters, then back out.  That might be what you need to Learn.  But the Theta-Tapping Process…

Start with either.  Suppose that What You’ve Always Wanted is a Consistent Income Stream that’s Ample Enough to Share Generously.  Theta that (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/)…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that a Consistent and Joyful Income Stream that’s Ample Enough to Share Generously Be Manifested for me.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess… (Deep Breath or two)… Show Me.”

Usually, if you have Conflicting Goals or Beliefs, you’ll start to feel a bit “off” long before you get to Show me, so you can stop and Tap anytime (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4)…

“Even though I’ve never enjoyed a Consistent and Joyful Income Stream that’s Big Enough to Share Generously, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept myself…” etc.

You could always say “Enough Money” as a shortcut, but since that’s an Oxymoron, according to a friend at least, you want to spell it out more carefully at first, till God/Goddess and your Meridians get the full idea of What You Really Want before you get glib.

Tap till you feel more Clear and Neutral about it, then go back and redo your Theta, stirring occasionally.  Iterate as necessary.

Lachesis will Initiate Nemesis on 3 July at 11pm PDT in 21 Taurus, “A finger pointing to a line in an open book.”  Interesting theme.  It’s a 28-year Cycle, so it’s not trivial.  My first thought is that the Open Book is our Authenticity, and the finger pointing to a line could be for now What We Really Want.  That’ll Change often in 28 years of course, as it Evolves.  With a 28-year Cycle we’re likely to spend the first seven years Clearing out old detritus that blocks our access to the Treasure.

But, even though the Essence of any Cycle goes underground after the Initiation, it’s very much Live at the Initiation, ie, Now.  Especially with Makemake and Neptune Stationary and your Consciousness Wide Open to What’s Been Previously Denied.  Makemake Stationary is a Magic Wand, and Neptune Stationary means that the Door to Heaven is Open if you can find it.  So don’t waste any Energy on Doubt this week, especially with Thursday’s Solstice (at 0 Degrees of course) close enough to Makemake’s 3-Degree Station to keep it well Lit Up.

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Because they’re so close in Time, we really have to consider the 16 June Makemake Station and the 17 June Eris-Juno Initiation and the 18 June Neptune Station as all one astroevent.  They cover most of the Zodiac – with our minimal three-Degree Sensitivity they together span 0-6 and 14-27 Degrees, leaving only 7-13 and 28-29 bare.  With six Degrees of Sensitivity (or “Orb” if you speak astologuese), which we’d normally use for reviewing any new Project, including any Personal Rebirth, we cover all but a few Degrees of the Zodiacal Loop.

That means “Nobody Gets Out Alive,” if we’re talking about Egos – everyone gets Transformed to some degree this weekend.  So we’ve summarized the Makemake Station as The End of Self-Sabotage.  Let’s look at the 17 June Eris-Juno Initiation (9:30 pm PDT) before we try to combine the three events. 

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Our favorite astroevents are Stations and Initiations, Stations because they Infuse our Planet with the Energy of the Stationary planet.  They’re when the Stationary planet is at its Strongest, and our best Opportunity to Learn about that planet.  Of course, when several big events Converge, we Learn more about the Convergence than about the Planet – this weekend we’re Learning more about Neptune-Makemake, with a big dash of Juno-Eris, than about either Neptune or Makemake.

We would Expect Neptune-Makemake to be slippery, as Neptune is slippery.  Most Important, Confusion is the first Stage of Growth.  Neptune represents Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity.  Now, since Makemake is about Manifesting into Matter and Form, Material Confusion isn’t going to help us Learn much about Makemake – unless we have a very Open mind, a Cosmic sense of Humor, and use PIAVAs a lot.  Using PIAVAs a lot, we’re accustomed to Funhouse Mirrors (in the Pay Attention phase), where Distortions are our Teachers.

Let’s take an example.  We have our Lifelong Unsatisfied Longing.  We toggle, as we have all our Life, from “God I Want That” to “It’s Not Possible” and back again.  If you’re like me, you’ve been through that Fish-outa-Water flip-flop a couple of times already this weekend.  To be “jerked around by Reality” so frequently and violently would normally be Devastating.  But not this weekend, right?

First of all, we’ve gotten hip to our Chironean Victim that Believes itself to be “Jerked around by Reality,” and we’ve started to Take some Responsibility for it, Realizing that it’s our own Conflicting Unconscious or Semi-Conscious Desires and Goals that make it feel like we’re being Jerked around.  Which means that instead of Despairing about our Hopelessness, we’re instead a bit Dazed – Confused – by the Topsy-Turvy-ness of it all. 

Which is Exactly where we need to be, as in order to Grow, we need to regard Confusion as an Emotion to be Felt and Embraced exactly as it is, rather than as a Problem to be Solved.  We’ll Learn more about that, and about how it Relates to Curiosity, when we discuss the Yods and Fezzes in the Eris-Juno Initiation chart.  Curiosity, if we Enjoy it as an Emotion to be Felt and Embraced exactly as it is, rather than as a Problem to be Solved, is akin to Love, as both Eschew Judgment.  We all know that “the greatest of these is Love” – and Curiosity is only a step behind.

And second, we’ve gotten some Insight into the fact that our Lifelong Unsatisfied Longing isn’t just a Conundrum of our own making; it’s a nanoscale Reflection of a Millennia-Scale Shift that’s happening on this Planet.  The Frustration and Confusion aren’t just Yours – they’re Planetary.  As Below, So Above.  The Consciousness of the Planet, and of every Entity on it, is Evolving, and your Confusion and resulting Growth (if you can Avoid the Problem-to-be-Solved Reaction) are a tiny tiny but oh-so-Essential part of that Evolution.

And you may well have, at least on occasion, make the leap from Victim-of-Circumstances to Victim-of-Your-Own-Conflicting-Choices and on to “Oh Right, I Remember, That’s What I Came Here For!”  If you’ve read this far, you’re an “Old Soul” and a Healer.  The very Conundrum that has been so Confounding your Ego, is the very Planetary Issue that your Soul Chose to Take this Lifetime for, so you could Help the Planet Evolve.  You only need to “Unbecome everything that isn’t you so you can Become who you were meant to Be in the first place.“

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Which brings us to Initiations.  The Energies that bathe us Dance in Cycles.  If we use four planets, we have six Cycles.  Say we use Moon, Mars, Juno, and Pluto.  Then our Cycles are Moon-Mars, Moon-Juno, Moon-Pluto, Mars-Juno, Mars-Pluto, and Juno-Pluto.  Every time we start a new Cycle, we Change the Water – the Zeitgeist of the Energy that bathes us Changes.  Many people pay attention to Changes of Sign, when for example Sun leaves Gemini and enters Cancer.  That’s a similar kind of Change.

Since we usually pay attention to 44 planets, that’s a heck of a lot of Cycles – almost 2,000 of them I think, way too many to keep track of.  But the End of one Cycle and the Beginning of the Next is an important milestone, and fortunately some of the 2,000 Cycles only Change their Water at long intervals – for instance, the Neptune-Makemake Cycle lasts 51,000 years or so. 

So while we’ve had an unusually large number of New Cycles lately (as we’d Expect with the Planet Shifting so), there’s only one New Cycle starting this weekend.  Not counting the Moon Cycles, which we usually ignore because they last only a month – there’s a new Moon-Ceres Cycle starting this weekend too.  Since Moon symbolizes Authenticity and Ceres Sustainability, that’s actually important.

Ceres Initiates the Moon on 17 June at 7pm PDT in 26 Leo – “After the heavy storm, a rainbow.”  Sounds like the next month holds the Potential for a Pot O’Gold.

We refer to the Beginning of a New Cycle as an Initiation, because it’s as if the slower (more Powerful, from the Soul’s Perspective) planet delivers Shaktipat or an assignment to the faster (more Powerful, from the Ego’s Perspective) planet.  We interpret the nature of the Cycle from two sources – the Degree of the Initiation and its Sabian Symbol, and the chart of the Initiation.

So in our Moon-Ceres example, the Consciousness of Sustainability says to the Consciousness of Authenticity, “You’ve been working very hard, why don’t you take a month off and Enjoy the Beauty of what you’ve Created.”  Of course each of us shares a shard of the Consciousness of Sustainability and a shard of the Consciousness of Authenticity, so we Feel this Change through those Channels. 

As for the chart of the Initiation, it features Makemake and Neptune Stationary, and Eris Initiating Juno.  That’s a bit heavier, more like “Wow, this Cycle’s going to be a doozy.  By focusing on the Beauty of what you’ve Created, you’ll Manifest the Vibration that you Want.  It’s better to do this without direct Conscious Intention, so the Ego interferes less, as your Consciousness is due for Revelations that may feel like a Shock, and you don’t want to Resist.”

In the case of the more Profound (it spans eight years rather than one month) Eris-Juno Initiation at 9:30 pm PDT 17 June in 24 Aries, the Sabian Symbol is “Blown inward by the Wind, the curtains of an Open window take the shape of a Cornucopia.”  Which says to me that, if we can Avoid the Problem-to-Be-Solved Reaction to our Neptunian Confusion, we will be opening up to great Abundance around our Lifelong Unsatisfied Longing.  If you contemplate that for a few minutes, I’ll wager you’ll find that you already have.

By the way, when we’re referring to the Cycle, we put the faster (Ego) planet first, because it’s zipping ahead of the slower planet and in the process Acting Out the Cycle.  When we’re referring to the Initiation, we put the slower (Soul) planet first, because it’s the one providing the Shaktipat or assignment.  Of course which planet is Ego (faster) and which one Soul (slower) is relative; in the Moon-Ceres Cycle, Moon/Autheticity is Ego and Ceres/Sustainability is Soul, but in the Ceres-Jupiter Cycle, Sustainability represents Ego while Expansion/Jupiter plays the role of Soul.

Snakes and Ladders I

With a huge Reset going on here, it makes more sense to use Birth-chart Sensitivity or “Orb” – 6-8 Degrees, rather than our usual 3-Degree Current-Moment or “Transit”-chart Sensitivity, so we’ve Compromised to a degree.  All of this month’s Stations occur in the same 0-to-9-Degree Zone, and the early-June Nessus Station is at 10 Degrees.  ‘Tis a busy chart.

We should start with the “biggest” Configuration, which is a Grand Cross (Hassles Galore, but they’re often Mutually Complementary) and a Grand Trine (Blessings Galore) with common corners.  This is traditionally considered an “ideal” chart, as it combines great Energy and Motivation (the Grand Cross) with ample Grace (the Grand Trine). 

That is, however, a Colonialist Perspective, where the most Celebrated Traits are Effort and Successful Exploitation of Others.  The current Western Patriarchal and Hierarchical Cultural model, in other words, where the Strong win over the “Weak” (including those with different Life Goals, which are by definition Weak).  The Prize is Ego Inflation, Confidence, and Privilege.  Aka Corruption and Abuse, when seen from underneath. 

We can see this playing out in the news all over the Planet, as this Game is the stock and trade of the Declining Patriarchy.  There’s nothing Abusive or Colonialist or Patriarchal about a Grand Cross-Grand Trine (“GC-GT”) chart itself; it’s the notion that it’s an ideal chart that’s Patriarchal.  There’s a sense in which being born with such a chart “condemns” one to a Life of Effort and Achievement.  But Effort and Achievement can readily be directed toward non-Patriarchal Goals like Community, Collaboration, Balance, Flow, Attunement, and the like.

Here’s the Grand Cross-Grand Trine version of the chart…

We’ve drawn the chart for the time when the Moon reaches the Midpoint between the 18 May Atropos Station (Endings) at Degree 1 and the 21 May Klotho Station (Beginnings) at Degree 0.  You can see that the other two Fate asteroids, Lachesis (the Length of a Timeline) and Moira (Fate or Choice) are close by at 6 and 5 Degrees respectively.  [In case you’ve forgotten, we always round Degrees up – 29 becomes 30 or 0, 0 becomes 1, etc.]

The Grand Trine is extended into a Kite by Chiron, but if we focus first on the primary GC-GT elements, it’s the Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake (Endings-Trusting-Creating) Stellium (a group of 3 or more planets) that’s the overwhelming Star of the chart, as the corner where the GC and the GT converge, as well as the location of the Atropos Station.

So the first thing we need to do is talk about the Cusp of Libra, which is as important as the Aries Point (Cusp of Aries).  At the Aries Point a Seed of Spirit is planted into the fertile soil of our Soul.  At the Libra Cusp we meet Other for the first time.  Aries-to-Virgo is about our Personal Development, Libra-to-Pisces our Social Development.

We are, All of us, as Individuals and as Members of Groups of all sizes, entering a whole new phase in our Relationship to Other Individuals, and a whole new phase in our Relationship to Community.  In a nutshell, we’re now Creating our own Social and Relationship Realities (Makemake), Dropping our Olde Obsolete Patterns around Relationship and Culture (Atropos), and Trusting that we’re going in the right direction (Eurydike) even though we seem to be Betraying Mom’s admonition that “You cannot do that, it breaks all the rules you learned in school.”

Keep that in mind when you’re tempted to be Motivated by Guilt or a Need to Please Others at the Expense of your own Values and Needs.  Expect your Self-Sovereignty to be Tested as we approach 27 May (the Eurydike/Trust Station), when we’re likely to be Tempted to turn back to our Olde Codependent Ways when our old playmates complain that they are being Betrayed by the Shift in our Values and Behaviors.

Which is where Chiron comes in.  The Kite shifts the focus of the GC-GT to Chiron, at the top of the Kite.  Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake (Trusting-that-We-Can-End-Impediments-to-Manifesting-What-We-Want) becomes the Tail that Wags the Dog, and the Dog is Chiron or Despair, Despair that we “can’t win” – we get little Support for trying to Go Our Own Way, but the rewards for running our old Patterns are diminishing rapidly.

Until of course we Empathize with our Despair – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling like you can’t Win, aren’t you.”

The other two corners of the Grand Trine, from which our Blessings flow, are

• Taking an Active Part in our New Beginnings (Mars-Klotho), which will probably seem Confusing and Difficult until 21 May, when Klotho Completes its Station.  Confusion is the first stage of Growth.

• Following our Essence (Sun), our Heart, or our Guidance, which in the midst of Rapid and Big Change, can also be Confusing.  We may be in the Habit of Resisting our Fate in favor of Choice, but in this case we’re Asked to Choose to Accept our Fate, because our Fate is Transformation (Moira Conjunct Sun).

A final Caveat.  If you have Expectations about What-It-Will-Look-Like-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way, rest assured that they’re Dead Wrong, no matter how Psychic you’ve proven to be in the past.  This is a New Game.  Yes, if you’re Intuitive you’ll Recognize Home when you see it, but it’s the Vibration you’ll Recognize, not the Form. 

If you’re eager to Play It Forward, focus on How-It-Will-Feel-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way instead.  And make the Effort to Revert to a Blank Slate before noon PDT on 21 May, so you can be Surprised and Delighted when it Feels Even Better once Klotho Completes its Station.

Another Complication – at 11 am PDT on 22 May, Orcus Completes its Station.  Orcus is about Pattern-Breaking.  So even after noon on 21 May you might still be a prisoner to  your Olde Archetypes.  So feel free to focus on How-It-Will-Feel-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way, but you also want to PIAVA that you can Gently and Lovingly and Rapidly and Completely Let Go of All Patterns and Habits that Inhibit your Soul’s Destiny and your Ego’s Transformation to Supporting it Fully.

Close your Eyes and Look around for any Cables, Chains, or Dark Spots, particularly behind you.  One at a time, Gently remove the Barbed Hooks at your end of each Cable or Chain, and hand it back to its Source.  If its Source won’t take it, feed it to an Alligator.  Alligators are very Skilled at this Work.  One at a time, put a Mirror between you and any Dark Spots, facing the Dark Spot, then switch on the Bright Light that aims into the Darkness from the top of the Mirror.

Scan your Body for any Foreign Feelings – crawling or goosebumps or raised hackles (but not just your neck).  Put your Attention into that Hole in your Aura, and PIAVA that your Self-Sovereignty and your Essence Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely patch the Hole, Permanently, with your own Energy. 

You’re likely to feel Vulnerable there for a couple of days; consider the fact that you can now Feel your Vulnerability as evidence that you’re Healing – till now you were Unconscious of the Wound.  Like a Tick or Mosquito, your Programmers distracted your Attention before they installed the Hooks.  Whenever you’re Conscious of Feeling the Vulnerability, Fill it with your own Heart Energy.

More to follow.

Identity and Perspective

Here’s a great short video essay on Identity, Yintegrity, Yindependence, and Perspective…

http://www.karmatube.org/videos.php?id=7626

My considerable distractions are starting to wind down, so we should be able to return to our “regularly scheduled programming” shortly.

Gauntlet III

A reader writes…

“I’m really trying to sit back and remind myself that it’s only yet another layer of karma.  But oh my goodness, how am I going to get through this alive and in one piece? 

Or is the whole point of this to get broken into pieces and remould myself later…”

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I hear ya!  There are a lot of Issues Lit Up, they’re all Heavy, and – fortunately – they all Complement one another, so if we can Hang On, there will be immense Healing going on.  One of The Most Important Things is not to try to Think It or Figure It Out. 

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Modulate the Heavy Emotions as best you can with Tapping, Kegels, Breathing, Poor-Sweethearting, and PIAVAs, especially PIAVAs that include some equivalent to “Loving and Gentle.”  Modulate the Regressions to other Timelines as best you can by repeatedly bringing yourself back to the Present Moment. 

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Whatever is Dominating your Experience, shift to a Different Modality.  For instance, if your Emotions or your Interpersonal Circumstances are barely (or even Not) tolerable, Ask yourself “What’s going on in my Body Physically?” and Focus there.  If you’re in Physical Pain, Ask yourself, “What Emotion would I be Feeling if I could do Emotions right now?”  If you Feel like the Goddess has Abandoned you, put your Attention on something Beautiful.

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If you’re stuck in a Solutionless Hyperloop in your Mindbone, who’s the primary Other in the Drama?  Imagine holding a wardrobe Mirror up between you and them, facing them.  Hold it for a few minutes, to see if you Feel more Grounded, while you watch to see if they try to stretch tentacles around the Mirror (expand the Mirror), or try to “come around to the back” (use a Dome-shaped Mirror if you need to; Intend that it Allows Air in).  If the Mirror doesn’t help, try the second candidate for primary antagonist – living or dead.

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If it’s a Arbitrary Authority that has you in its grasp, hold your Mirror up to whomever taught you to Obey that Authority more than your Own Instincts, Intuitions, and Intelligence.  If you’ve Personalized the Authority, Dare to hold the Mirror up to the vaunted Personage.  I mean, what would Jesus Do?  He Melts my Mirror and floods me with Love and Mirth.  What does your Air-Hero do?

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Here’s the chart we’re in…

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As you can see, the Hylonome (Becoming Conscious of Codependence) Station (Strong Energy thereof) and the Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Station are in the same Zodiacal location and only a few days apart.  So The Most Important Thing is Becoming Conscious of our Codependence.  Codependence just means that we let someone else, or some Thing else (such as an Unconscious Archetype or Belief, or an Abstract Authority) make our Decisions for us, leaving us without Choice.  As we’ve seen Choice and Consciousness are pretty much synonymous.

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We face three main tightly-coordianted Challenges here, in addition to Untangling The Most Important Thing from our Codependence (which is a Challenge, but not one we’re likely to Master here, as the two Energies are hopelessly Merged)…

• Facing Codependence as The Most Important Thing involves Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis Squaring the Hynonome-Saturn Stations – heavy lines)
• Healing Abuse involves Setting New Boundaries that Keep us Safe (Pallas T-Square on Orcus-Nessus Opposition – light lines)
• Making our Dedication to our Mission Sustainable involves Facing our Held Emotions (Nodal Axis with Ceres on the North Node – light lines)

As John Muir says, “The minute we try to pick out anything by itself, we find it hitched to everything else in the Universe.”  I mean, these are really all the same Issue, just seen from Different Angles, and it’s an incredible Gift from the Universe to be able to Let them Heal One Another.  If we can stay out of their way.

So let’s look at the ways they Heal one another…

• The Ego Death-Codependence Conundrum is Embraced by two PIAVAs (the Nemesis-Hylonome/Saturn Square is part of a Trine Fez, and we deal with a Fez by attending to the diagonal Quincunxes)…
  • “I wonder about the Relationship between my Codependence and the Sustainability of my Mission” – Not Think about but Wonder about (Ceres-North Node Quincunx to Stations).  Sort of the way you Wonder about how in the devil that gorgeous, brilliantly colored Butterfly just crawled out of that brown turd-like valise!  (If you’re a biologist, Wonder instead about the Night Sky instead.)
  • “Ganishi, Please Remove All Obstacles to Reverting my Limiting Oaths with Loving and Gentle Ego Deaths” – our Oaths (such as “I can never tell anyone or he’ll Kill Mom”), if they are Limiting, are protected by Integration with Ego (Orcus Quincunx Nemesis)

• Our Like-It-or-Not Focus on Healing our Codependence (see above) AND our Attention to our Mission (see below) both represent Easy ways to Master our Boundary Challenges (Both Hylonome-Saturn, and the Nodal Axis, Trine-Bridge the Pallas T-Square on the Orcus-Nessus Opposition)

• Our Ego Deaths facilitate Movement toward Sustaining our Mission (Nemesis Trine-Bridges the Nodal Axis)

So being Loving and Gentle with our Ego Deaths turns out to be one of the Levers of Power.  PIAVAing that will help, because Ego Deaths aren’t an intellectual process, nor a Power-Over process – we’re attempting to Manipulate the Unconscious.  One of the most Powerful ways to soften an Ego Death is to recognize that “I’d rather Die!” and “I feel like I’m Dying!” are literally untrue as we usually interpret them.  We naturally put our emphasis on the Die/Dying part, whereas what’s really happening is that the accent is actually on the “I” part.

“I’d rather Die” means yes, an Ego Death would be preferable to Re-experiencing our Held Emotions and Traumas, which is great.  When we’re Conscious that an Ego Death is occurring, they’re Easy.  We just recognize that Confusion is the first sign of Growth, Accept the Confusion as an Emotion in its own right, without trying to Fix it, and bang, we’ve mid-wifed our New Identity.  It has some re-orienting to do, so a little Confusion will remain for a while, but we’re basically done.

“I feel like I’m Dying!” is just code for “Oh, there’s my Held Emotion!  Aren’t I Delighted to finally get that out in the Open where I can be Present and Loving with it, because hiding in the cave like it’s been, it Sabotages my Entire Life!”  Make that Reframe and you’re likely to feel tremendous Excitement instead, as you watch the detritus falling off of your Future Timeline.

Bon Voyage!

Oh, one more thing.  Hidden in the chart are several light purple lines that make a wedge pointing at Vesta-North Node.  This is a “Quintangle,” a wedge make up of two Biquintiles (Learning to Break out of Dogma) and a Quintile (Learning and Teaching).  The object of the Lesson Plan is Sustaining our Dedication to our Mission, and the curriculum involves Beliefs (Vesta) and Confusion (Neptune).  Learn to regard the Emotion of Confusion as one of the Greatest Gifts you can Receive, as long as you Celebrate it without trying to “Figure it out.”

Karma Station I

The Karma Station chart, in 15-19 Degrees, is pretty straightforward…

Asteroid Karma sets up a Dialog (Opposition) with dwarf planet Asbolus.  We learned last month that Asbolus signified those Intuition which, by putting us into “Learning Opportunities,” lead us into the sorts of Experience which result in Wisdom, if not a good time.  So our Dialog is likely to run something like…

Karma: “Well, are we going to confront our Held Emotions this week, or run the same tired Archetypes that we’re Conscious of only because they’re so Boring?”

Asbolus: “Uh, I was just about to Pray for Peace.”

And actually, while those two journeys will be very different, they both may lead us to where we want to go. 

Whichever way we Chose, our helpmate (Trine Bridge or blue lines) was our Essence (Sun).  What’s really most Powerful in each Moment – Standing Firm against a Challenge, or Leaning into Surrender?  Each moment is likely to be a little different.  As Jewel says, more or less, “If Praying was Enough, we’d be there already.”  But she’s referring to the Collective.  If we’re Praying for a Peaceful Experience of our own Life – Loving and Gentle Surrender of our Resistance, for instance –  we may be able to simply Melt Away our ancient Held Emotions.

On the other hand if we’re about to Pray for Peace because we’re in a Panic about what we Fear, dealing with our Fear first will be a lot more Powerful, because Praying while IN Fear is a lot like Praying FOR Fear.  Noticing, Breathing, Tapping, Kegeling till we’re more Grounded and Centered, and then Praying for Peace would probably Create Improved Outcomes.

The Curiosity Strategy (Quincunx Bridge or green lines) takes a very different path, through Commitment to Authenticity and Self-Sovereignty (Moon-Lilith).  While a good word for Asbolus is “Intuition,” a good word for the Moon is “Instinct.”  There’s a subtle difference there.  An Intuition is a Suggestion from our Higher Self.  Sometimes a very Strong Suggestion, but a Suggestion nonetheless, a Recommendation.  An Instinct on the other hand is more like an Order.

See if you can feel the Difference in your Body.  On the one hand, for a few moments move your Attention into your Essence…

Now for a few moments move your Attention into your Authenticity…

And now for a few moments move your Attention into your Self-Sovereignty…

No Conclusions, just Notice the Differences.  My Feeling Sense, Attention Span, and Quality of Attention of each was very Different, in ways that I wouldn’t have Expected.  Not better or worse, but Different.  Try the same exercise with Intuition and Instinct if you like.

The 24-28 Degree Zone in the Karma Station chart is a lot busier than the 15-19 Degree Zone…

The Grand Cross (heavy red lines, or Big Motivation) meets the Grand Trine (blue symmetrical triangle, or Great Blessings) in Eris-Uranus – Revelation of our Own Soul.  The Grand Trine, though, is stretched into a Kite by Haumea – Rebirth.  This, plus the fact that the Haumea T-Square, with Sedna and Sappho, makes the only Diamond Star in the Grand Cross, means that Rebirth is the Captain of this chart.  We’ll talk more about that in the next post.

Capricorn I

If we hold the March for Our Lives in one hand, and the Antichrist-Bolton-Pompeo crowd in the other, it’s no contest.  The Future wins, no matter how much damage these Three Stodges and their brown-tongued flunkies can inflict upon the Planet in the interim.  While the Zodiac begins with Aries, most of the Ancients began their year by Praying for Return of the Light, which occurs, when our Prayers are Effective, on the Cusp of Capricorn.

Cusps in astrology are tricky.  Essence switches to its Opposite at Sign changes – Unpredictability to Stability to Change, for instance (Aries-Taurus-Gemini…).  And both Element (Earth, Air, Water, Fire) and Quality (Creative, Stabilizing, Mutating) Change in a consistent but illogical way.  In the Roman Empire, for instance, Winter Solstice was celebrated with Saturnalia, when all of the social rules were turned on their heads.  Quite the opposite of the Saturn we know and love – turned on its head again.

So for instance when we move from Sagittarius to Capricorn, which only takes an instant, we move from Actively Letting Go through Spiritual Fire, to Building with Pragmatic Material Creativity.  A Dizzying Change.  If you were designing a sequence of stages, is this a Transition you would include?  The implication of the Capricorn Cusp is that when you run your Calendar forwards, Spiritual Cleansing is a prerequisite for Manifestation.

We turn our Calendars backwards all the time, whenever we Regress, as we’ve been doing a lot lately – that’s why March has been so Difficult, because we’ve lost many of our Adult Skills as we’ve Regressed to earlier ages without Recognizing it and Adapting to it.  When we run the Calendar backward, Building a Practical Material Nest is a prerequisite for Spiritual Cleansing.

Mars made the Quantum Sagittarius-to-Capricorn Leap a few hours after the 17 March New Moon.  Did you notice that you suddenly went from running around with your blowtorch canceling the Unnecessary, to donning your carpenter’s apron and starting to Build a new Reality from Scratch?

In Dorothy Bryant’s incredible Kin-of-Ata depiction of Winter, the Essence of Capricorn is what we usually call “Buddhist Heaven” – in Buddhist Heaven we’re all seated around a table piled high with a sumptuous feast, but our Elbows are locked.  We can’t reach our mouths with our hands.  We could Pig out directly with our snouts, but the more elegant solution is to Feed One Another.

The Exposure of Facebook as just another Ripoff disguised as a Gift to you is a good example of the Capricorn Cusp – now can we Build something useful to the Planet and its inhabitants, instead of just another 0.0001% scam?  Google won’t be far behind, followed by the GOP.  A ton of Energies are on the Cusp from Sagittarius to Capricorn, including…

• Focus and Concentration (Saturn) Transitioned near the end of 2017
• Responsibility (Pholus) made the leap on 20 January
• Survival (Quaoar) jumped over in early December
• Energy and Action (Mars) took the plunge a week ago
• Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) will do the deed next week
• Forbidden Genius won’t get there till February 2020, but it’s knocking on the door already
• Beginnings (Klotho), Self-Confidence (Chariklo), and Shedding Codependence (Hylonome) are already there
• Ego Death (Nemesis) crossed the Capricorn Cusp in January 2017, and Self-Love (Sappho) crossed this threshold in November 2017

This is a lot of Power Getting Clear and Coming into the Light, and the three Heaviest of the bunch will Stand Still together next week…

• Forbidden Genius/Ixion on 27 March (2pm PDT) at 28 Sagittarius
• Responsibility/Pholus on 29 March (9pm PDT) at 2 Capricorn
• Survival/Quaoar on 1 April (3pm PDT) at 3 Capricorn

In the middle of this giant Shift comes a Full Moon, on 31 March (5:30 am PDT).  It’s at 11 Degrees of Aries-Libra, so it doesn’t make a Big Angle to the Capricorn Cusp, but it makes a T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) to three Energies that are already in Capricorn: Action (Mars), Focus (Saturn), and Letting Go of Codependence (Hylonome).  Moons often Create the Trigger for more Profound Energy Shifts.

Before we look at those charts, let’s look at what’s probably the most consequential of Capricorn Cusp events of recent Herstory – the Harmonic Convergence.  The most common astroevent to flag the Harmonic Convergence is the Initiation of Saturn by Uranus on 12 February 1988 at 30 Sagittarius.  That’s the birth of the first predecessor to this blog. 

Sagittarius 30 means “The Pope blessing the faithful.”  It was fine in 1988 to look to Outside Authority for Guidance, as many Outside Authorities have been-there-done-that and may offer useful suggestions.  But as we get closer to 5D the only valid Authority is your own Soul.  Expansion (Jupiter), Respect for Diversity (asteroid Hopi), and Investigating Self-Sabotaging Patterns (asteroid Karma) have yet to finish crossing Sagittarius, so they can help us Burn Off any remaining Obeisance that we haven’t Banished yet.

Most of our Codependence was Cleansed by Fire during the passage of Self-Confidence (Chariklo) and Codependence itself (Hylonome) through Sagittarius, the former 2011-2015, and the latter 2007-2015.  If you think about the Major Changes you went through during those years, you can probably find clues about any Authorititis you still need to Heal.  As Conservatives Live and Die by Authority, your Conservative friends may never get to Self-Sovereignty, so don’t waste your Energy trying to convert them, until they come to you asking for help.

Saturn-Uranus is a 44-year Cycle, and we’re now at the 252° point, which is the Waning Tridecile.  That’s a little over half a Sign and three years shy of the Waning Square.  At the Waning Square of any Cycle, the Task at Hand is to Let Go any Attachment we have to the Cycle, as we’re about to Descend into the Void around that Energy.  So we only have about three more years to Cleanse our Self-Sovereignty.

At the Waning Tridecile, we’re Called to Let Go of any Material Advantage that we’ve gained during the Cycle, or since 1988.  Given our position in the “Business Cycle” and the other trends afoot, converting our Material Advantage to Physical Possession of Divisible Hard Assets may be a good direction to move towards.  Hard because you don’t want others to be able to easily claim them, and Divisible because at the very least the taxman and the greengrocer will want some of it.  If you aren’t already growing some of your own Food, it’s past time to start.

When the current historically unprecedented and monstrous Debt Bubble pops (2018?  2019?  2020?), it will make the “Great” Depression look like child’s play.  They’ve already renamed the first “Great” Depression so they could apply the name to the second one, since the first one wasn’t nearly so debilitating as the 1930s.  The older one is now the “Long” Depression, 1873-1896.  

Your “Deposits” with financial institutions are legally Loans to them by you.  Just as you can default on your Loans, so can they.  It’s perfectly legal for them to just confiscate what you mistakenly believe is “your” money that you entrusted to their care.  If you’re lucky they may give you worthless stock in exchange, but only if they’re in a generous mood.  More likely, that will go only to the folks with very expensive lawyers.

It’s late in the Cycle to be studying the Harmonic Convergence chart, but may be worthwhile anyway…

We can call that a “Sailboat” Configuration… 

• The Bow is Truth (asteroid Alethia) – that’s the general Objective of the Cycle.  It’s on the Cusp of Aries, which is about Beginning a New Journey.
  

• Self-Sovereignty (the Uranus-Saturn Initiation itself) is the Rudder; we adjust our course by Letting Go of our Codependence.  It’s on the Cusp of Capricorn; folks in the know were moving from Spiritual Cleansing to Material Construction.  This was S&L Failure days.  It helped a lot if you were already in the 1%.

• Memories (Mnemosyne) form the Keel; we keep the ship upright by Paying Attention to Recognizing and Embracing our Held Emotions.  This is on the Cusp of Pisces – the Essence of this Cycle is Emotional, as we would expect of any Cycle about Letting Go of Codependence.

• The crow’s nest, which enables our navigation, is a Stellium (group of three or more planets) composed of Letting Go of Codependence (Hylonome), Endings (asteroid Atropos), and Manifestation (Makemake).  Stellia are complex because they take three or more Energies that we’re accustomed to, and combine them into New Energies that we’re unlikely to Recognize.  So Navigation hasn’t been particularly straightforward since 1988. 

We could interpret the Stellium as Enabling our Creativity by Ending our Reliance on External Authority.  That should allow an increasingly Clear view of the Horizon and the Stars – or an increasingly Clear view of the Truth of our own Self-Sovereignty.  On the Cusp of Virgo, there promises to be a good deal of Ego Death.

While it’s nigh time to Let all this Go so we can Descend Cleanly into the Void, knowing where we’ve been and where we’ve been headed may help us understand where we are and where we’re headed next.  The Big Initiations we’ve recently been through, which will tell us where we’re heading, include…

• Ixion-Saturn (February 2017); see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/saturn-ixion/

• Pholus-Saturn (December 2017); see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/saturn-pholus/

• Quaoar-Saturn (December 2017); see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/saturn-quaoar/ and https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/quaoar-saturn/

Bear in mind that after an Initiation the Cycle goes Underground, so don’t expect to hear about these New Energies on Weasel News.  But you can Trust that these Energies are building beneath the surface.  It’s too soon to start a new business that serves the World, but it’s not to0 soon to locate co-conspirators to join to plan new endeavors that aid the other Initiates who are ready to move forward ahead of the pack.  You might even catch up to the teenagers.

For instance, what if you were a lawyer, and starting in the 1970s you developed a secondary specialty in sexual harassment cases.  Gloria Allred did that, and even though the big breakthrough around #MeToo didn’t arrive until recently, she kept up a thriving business keeping the matter in the public eye while it continued to be a very Underground issue.  It takes a lot of Self-Sovereignty to follow a thread through the Underground, but it pays off.  The Demand will be there, just not on Weasel News.

Intuition Olympics 3

There’s another interesting Asbolus-Station chart, looking in on the Fifth-Harmonic Angles – a Grand Quintile…

And 85% of a Grand Decile.  The Fifth Harmonic is about what we’re Learning.  It may Amplify or Extend what the rest of the chart shows, or it may indicate something entirely different.  A Grand Quintile is five planets equally spaced around the Zodiac – a graduate degree in one map. 

A Grand Decile is ten planets equally spaced around the Loop.  The Tenth Harmonic is about Fortune.  Not always Good Fortune, but you can Choose that if you’re so inclined and Conscious.

The Grand Quintile of Learning includes…

• Manifestation – dwarf planet Makemake
• Truth – asteroid Aletheia
• Boundaries – asteroid Pallas
• The Edges of Consciousness – asteroid Juno
• Active Defense of, or Attack on, our Beliefs – Mars and asteroid Vesta

How many Stories can we make using those terms (or their Opposites) plus some riff on the concept of Learning?  For instance…

• When we Notice that our Beliefs have been Challenged and we find ourself Defending them, we know that we’re on one of the Boundaries that we use to Protect ourself from Growth in Consciousness.  By Learning to step across that Boundary we can begin to Manifest the Truth about Who We Are and What We Want.

Okay, your turn.  Make several.  Find at least one that’s a Bummer, such as…

• Our own Beliefs will Attack us when we try to cross the Hard Boundary between the Ego and the Unconscious.  I’m Scared to be Truthful with myself and Confront the Ogre that guards the gate.  In the Fairy Tales there’s usually a Treasure on the other side, hoarded by the Ogre.  It’s probably what I’ve always Wanted but never been able to Manifest.  Sad.
  

Now turn it around so it’s a Blessing.  The World just Is, whether you Define it as Bummer or Blessing is your Choice.  Choose Blessing.  Remember that Power is never Given, it’s Taken.  Power is the opposite of Victim.

The three extant points on what would be the second Grand Quintile that’s Decile to the first are…

• The Life Force – dwarf planet Varuna
• The Authenticity we need to Manifest our Unlimited Potential – the Moon and dwarf planet Chaos
• The Ability to Interrupt an Archetype – asteroid Lachesis

And Trance Reformation – Pluto, is close to making a fourth.  Pluto actually makes the necessary Biquintile Angle to the Moon.  The Moon symbolizes Authenticity, so we gladly let Pluto be the handle on the Lunar umbrella, and let it Restructure the Programming that causes us to constantly betray our Real Self. 

The missing sixth point in the second Grand Quintile would be around 11 Degrees of Scorpio, “A drowning person is being rescued.”  That fits very well – this Vacancy isn’t in the planetary Configuration, so in order to Complete the Grand Decile (Great Fortune) we need to rescue ourself from drowning in the Undifferentiated Sea of the Unconscious. 

We do that by Noticing the Archetypes that Sabotage us, and Noticing that we have the Power to Choose a Different Action than what our Programming would have Chosen for us.  It’s never too late to start.

Pluto, which also represents Compulsion, is also almost exactly Biquintile to the Intuition Olympics – the Asbolus Station that’s the reason we’re looking at this chart in the first place.  So our Power here lies in Accepting our Intuitions when they tell us that we’re Betraying our Real Self.  If we feel like we’re sleep-walking or stoned or Guilty here, we’re on the right track; we need to be operating from the Artistic and Musical “right brain,” not the Logical and Obedient “left brain.”

New Province VI-2 Yintegrity (World Peace IV)

We haven’t talked about Yintegrity much lately, and it’s very important when we’re dealing with Uranus, which dominates the 1 January chart and hence the Year 2018.  We’ve mentioned that Authenticity is Important to Manifestation.  When we’re “Congruent” – our Emotional, Energic, Physical, and intellectual postures all paint the same picture and we aren’t trying to fake anything – then the only reason someone has for not Trusting us is their own Distrust. 

Traditional astrologers refer to Uranus as the higher octave of Mercury, and if like them you regard Uranus as synonymous with Disruption, then certainly Mercury can be Destructively Disruptive.  We look at Uranus as the higher octave of the Moon, as both reflect Authenticity.  Uranus, as Agent of the Soul, Disrupts whatever the Ego is Attached to that no longer Serves the Soul’s Purpose.  Uranus only Disrupts that which you should have jettisoned already.  If you’re Proactive about your own Growth Edges, there’s no need for Disruption; the Spiderwebs and Mouseturds have already been swept out.

When you’re in Yintegrity, you say and do exactly what you Feel like saying and doing, moment to moment.  The old concept of Integrity, under the Patriarchy, was Yangtegrity.  When you’re in Yangtegrity, you say and do what you said you were going to say and do, more or less when you said you would say or do it.

Worse, when you’re in Codependence, you say and do what others Expect you to say and do, or worse yet, what you Believe others Expect you to say and do.  Emotions are not as Personal as they Feel.  Emotions form into Fields, like Magnetic Fields.  If you’ve ever felt bad and couldn’t figure out why, then discovered that a neighbor had died that day, you understand what I mean.  One of the “symptoms of Ascension” is sudden surges of Joy that have no obvious Trigger and no associated thoughts.  Just an Ecstasy Field floating by; your neighbor’s probably Meditating.

I was once walking in a local park, and there was a Feeling in the air that was so remarkably ill that I couldn’t go on; I had to go back to the car and leave.  It didn’t follow me.  It wasn’t a smell or anything like that, it was unquestionably a Feeling in the air.  I found out from the next day’s newspaper that at that time someone was being murdered a half-mile ahead, on the trail I was planning to take. 

That’s an extreme example, but other Feelings exist in Fields as well, we just Personalize them and attribute them to the thoughts they evoke, so we don’t think of them as Fields.  We all have Velcro for any of the common Feelings, so when their Field floats by it sticks to us, and Triggers our Personal and Karmic Memories of similar Emotions.  So we think the Emotion is “ours.”

This is very difficult for folks to grasp, because it’s so different from what we learned from our Programmers, but it’s a very Powerful Perspective, one that can be Liberating.  Try it out for a few days – for every Emotion you Experience, ask yourself, Is this an Impersonal Field that’s Triggering my own Archetypes or Emotional Habit Patterns?  You know those times when you’re thinking about someone, and just then they call?  Same idea.

This is a very Powerful part of the whole Manifestation process, of…

“Whether the rest of your human cohorts know it or not, there is a best possible timeline for ascension, and they are in favor of that at the level of their highest selves.  That means they are contributing energy and desire to being on that timeline.  You can tap into that.  You can feel for the best possible timeline for ascension, and with the collective energy of humanity you can bring it about.  The more of you who do this, of course, the better.”

Yes, we are Velcroed Victims of these passing Fields (it’s better to be an Observer of them), but we are also Generators!  TM has shown that by putting a small percentage of the people in a neighborhood into a Peaceful Meditation, crime rates can be reduced.  The process we described in the last several World Peace Timeline posts is not just a Passive Personal process, it’s also an Active step toward World Peace.

We go into this long “diversion” about Emotion Fields to illustrate what Expectation Fields are like.  Expectation Fields are embedded in Cultures and reinforced millions of times daily, so they’re very Strong.  In the US, the Midwest and South are smothered in a Field of Nice, while New York simmers in its own Field of Snide.  The Antichrist’s behavior horrifies many of us, yet it’s pretty routine for New York.  England has its Field of Please, Italy its Field of Grope, and the Middle East its Field of Anger.  Expectation Fields.

Every Family has a Culture all its own.  When you were growing up, there were Culture clashes to one degree or another between your Family and your neighborhood.  Think of an example.  You would behave one way at home, and quite a different way at school.  Those were Expectation Fields.  They are Archetypes, mostly Unconscious, and hence they inhibit our Self-Soverignty.  If you spend time in Multicultural settings, you’ve gotten Conscious of some of them.

When it comes to Yintegrity, your Personal Internalized Expectation Archetypes can be no more than the way you color your comments and Actions when you say and do Exactly what you Feel like saying and doing moment to moment.  But more often these Fields are exerting Unconscious Control over our Sovereignty.  When they do, they put us out of Authenticity, and affect our Ability to Manifest.

Expectations feel like Promises, because they once were.  There was a point in our Childhood when we Vowed to ourself (quite possibly to avoid further punishment, or to avoid displeasing others) that we would follow that Expectation rather than follow our own Yintegrity.  An example of how Vows become Limiting Beliefs as Repetition pushes them into the Unconscious.  Those are the Habits that are up for Disruption.