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Walls and Sieves

May 17, 2015

A reader Wonders about the apparent contradiction in…

“That’s the Ego’s psychological function, to Defend, to keep the Vehicle alive and functioning.  And that’s exactly what needs to happen if Consciousness is to Expand – the Ego must Stand Down.  So anywhere you’re threatened or affronted or offended or angry or outraged or abused or disrespected or invisible or tempted to Act in Defense – that’s exactly where you need to be, because Choosing not to Act, not to mentally reinforce those Feelings, that’s precisely how you Choose to step off the Wheel.  Emotions arise from the Unconscious, the Ego does not Choose them.  But the mind has tremendous Power to reinforce them or not. 

“While a few thoughts of ‘Those Bastards’ will always slip through before we catch ourself, sooner or later we shift to ‘Oh, there’s that Irritation again!  I Wonder how I can get that thorn pulled out?’  Once we shift, we begin to Expand Consciousness, Grow the Ego, and change the Vicious Spiral of Karma into the Virtuous Spiral of Discernment and Grace… 

“In a.Karma’s “Discovery” chart, it’s Pallas that sits at the Midpoint of Leo: Boundaries.  As in Good Fences make Good Neighbors.  And as in, “You know, worst case these neighbors will probably end up doing less damage than the Sluggs, so maybe I can loosen that Boundary a little and see if it helps lighten things up.  Betternotbroken gives us some Perspective on Boundaries…

http://betternotbroken.com/2015/04/26/four-reasons-you-are-controlled-by-others/

“Karma is about Repetition.  My Reactions stream from the Unconscious, so I can’t Choose not to have them.  But I can Choose to be Curious about what Universal or Cultural Archetype I might be in the grip of here, or Curious about when I first encountered this Energy.”

In other words, am I advocating that this is a good time to set better Boundaries, or as our reader says, “Am I supposed to just ‘suck it up’ and not say anything?  Is my inner resistance … making the situation persist?  Will the [situation resolve] if I just try not to let it bother me?  If so, fine, I can work with it that way.  I really do want to ‘get it,’ because I sense a big opportunity for growth here.”

Which is an excellent question. 

Boundaries are always tricky.  One good approach is to move our Boundaries in 5% increments rather than 80% increments – when we can.  But Boundary issues are always so situational, that “rules” or even suggestions (other than “Pay Attention” to them) are never an easy Choice for the person setting or loosening the Boundary, and never something that a third party can Judge.  Also, Addictions and Abuse situations are special cases with their own parameters.

But aside from all this, and moving from Pallas back to the topic of a.Karma and Archetypes, we can say this…

When we’re in the grip of an Archetype, we’re unlikely to have access to all of our Present Moment Competence.  If we’re in the Present Moment, we have the Freedom to evaluate how to Act to best support ourself, and often “What other people think of us is none of our business.”  If I’m operating to please other people, then Who is home playing the role of Me?  I’m Supporting others, but who is Supporting me?  Yes, in a very sticky situation where we’re playing very complex Politics, we may have a Conscious strategy or tactic to please specific people.  But if we’re just Dancing with the Pleaser Archetype, then other people aren’t even involved – the only issue we need to work with is our own Insecurity.

And yes, I do suggest that our Discomfort and Confusion about when and how to Act to support ourself is more or less proportionate to the degree to which we’ve surrendered our Ego to an Archetype, which means in turn, the degree to which our Emotions erupt.  We are, in most cases, competent adults.  We have the Skills to handle most any circumstances, and the Skills to experiment with new ways of handling new situations as they arise.  It’s new ways of handling old situations that we want to Pay Attention to here, as this is how we Choose to Let Go of our own grip on the Archetype.  It’s never that simple, as after a while we may discover that our “new ways” are just minor revisions of our old Archetypal ways. 

But with a difference.  We did two things.  First, we Discerned or Noticed that we were on the Archetypal treadmill.  And second, we Chose what we believed was a new and different approach.  We’ve planted a new seed, and with a little Water and Nurturance, we can grow it into Expanded Consciousness.  The more we Notice, the sooner we Notice, and the sooner we Notice, the easier it is to Choose something different.  Archetypes and Karma cement themselves in place through Repetition.  The more we follow the Archetype, the more it swallows us.  Liberation is also Created through Repetition, but with Liberation, the more we Choose a new approach, the easier it is to Choose.  We just need to recognize that Karma is way ahead of us in reps, and be patient with ourself while we catch up.

It’s as if how we Chose to Act differently doesn’t matter – “Don’t get even, get odd.”  What matters is that we Chose to Act differently.  By following this thread we regain – or gain (since many of these Archetypes are embedded in our Culture and part of our programming since childhood) – access to more and more of our adult competence.  Acting “irrationally” is always a good Choice, since if someone is trying to Control you and you Confuse them, you’re ahead.  Being Honest and telling it like it is – including stepping the conversation up a notch or two, such as “I Feel Discounted” can be useful.  If the Contact is Valuable to you, this is probably your best bet, as it will rapidly inform you whether or not this person is capable of Honesty in return.

Portal 13.5

May 12, 2015

celes4760bpWouldn’t hurt a bit to have another super-high-vibration Crystal to work with here, this time Celestite, sometimes called Celestine.  It’s Strontium Sulfate.

Chiron’s Initiation of Vesta is complete around noon PDT on 13 May (http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt12.htm), so with luck things may lighten up a bit after that.  Asteroid Karma is already sailing away, and I wouldn’t expect asteroids Ask (crossing 15 May) or Amor (crossing 19 May) to be as nervous, though they might offer breakthroughs of their own.  We still have Jupiter Initiating Juno on 16 May ( 7pm PDT, http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt19.htm ), but that’s about Expanding our Consciousness, so while it may evoke Fear of our own Power, at least we should be past the most potentially Despair-producing part of these adventures.

Initiations like Chiron-Vesta are events that, when experienced “properly,” build up to the event, then drop off quickly.  They linger when experienced “improperly.”  The “proper” way to experience them is Consciously – “Oh, there’s that Trickster Chiron messing with my Limiting Beliefs!  No wonder I’m Anxious!”  If we instead allow our Anxious mind to have its way with our Anxiety and start attributing Causes to our Discomfort, Acting to Protect ourself against it, and making Decisions to Protect ourself from it (“I’ll never say that to the boss again!”) – in other words if we give our Paper Tigers teeth and claws – then we can make the Discomfort last for lifetimes. 

That’s how we Create Karma – by not Attending to what’s really going on, and instead Reacting to what we think might be Causes for what’s really going on.  Of course we’ve been feeling Anxious!  Our Limiting Beliefs are the source of our Security.  If they get pulled down by Mr. Despair himself, you bet we’re going to be nervous.  But even that is an attribution of Cause.  What’s really going on is that we’re feeling Anxious (or Scared or Discomfort or …), and all we need to do is Empathize with ourself feeling that Discomfort – “You poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling a little off Balance, aren’t you.”  While Self-Empathy is how Chiron shifts from Despair to Miracle, Self-Empathy works for any Discomfort, Chironean or not.

a.Karma Chapter Two

May 11, 2015

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Well, the plot thickens.  In Chapter One we described the Grand Cross  (Skill at Multitasking) and the Diamond Star (Orientation toward Liberation) rooted at the third Decanate of the Cardinal Signs (Liberation through Letting Go) in the Discovery chart for asteroid Karma (a.Karma for short).  The chart pretty much defines how our Species will be evolving over the next Century.  Some of the key points:
  • Learning to be Loving with Fear without Abandoning ourself
  • Locating and Accepting Forbidden Emotions
  • Opening up to the Skills hidden within Strong Emotions
  • Accepting Confusion as The Most Important Thing in our Evolution

But we also discovered an almost-Grand Sextile – five out of six points equally spaced around the Zodiac – which makes the sixth (missing or Vacant) point a very important place for our Evolution.

Turns our the Vacancy is none other than 27 Aquarius, “An ancient pottery bowl filled with fresh violets: The importance of traditional skills and artistic values deeply rooted in our instinctive feelings as frames of reference for our most authentic emotions.”  Where do we recognize this symbol from?  From the February 2010 Neptune-Chiron Initiation.

So our approach to Karma, and in particular our Response to this Chiron-Vesta Initiation, is intertwined with the New Economic Paradigm that the 2007 Financial Derivative Crash (sold to us by the corporate media as a “Subprime Mortgage Crash”) set up for us.  The methodology for this Crash is clearly exposed in Naomi Klein’s book The Shock Doctrine.  Part of the process lies in the Elite manipulating the Culture into crises (and manipulating endogenous crises) in order to use them as excuses to “rescue” us – by putting us into indebtedness we can never repay. 

If we follow the standard Politics of Karma – and our traditional Limiting Beliefs – we’d placidly accept our resulting Victimhood as “Bad Karma” rather than as a failure of Community.  If we transcend our Limiting Beliefs around Abandonment, instead of being Abandoned then we’ll Abandon the Multinationals and establish a new approach to Community based around Collaboration and Cooperation (hence Lilith’s involvement in the current T-Square), Sustainability, and local Self-Sufficiency.  We’ll vote with our local currency for local control over our local Resources. 

We’ll talk about the other two Grand Crosses in Chapter Three.

Chiron-Vesta and a.Karma

May 11, 2015

ceru5930bpFor these events we’d best choose one of the highest vibrations we can find.  One of those would be Cerussite, Lead Carbonate – hard to imagine how a combination of Lead and Carbon could be almost transparent, till we remember that Matter is Illusion and in the “atom” model almost all “empty” space.  Which just illustrates how woefully inadequate the Material Perspective is, relative to the Energy Perspective.  In this picture a necklace of Cicada-like Cerussite Crystals embrace, like a Chorus of Angels, a block of white blady Barite (Barium Sulfate, symbolizing the Heaviness of Matter) dusted with tiny Crystals of Hematite (Iron Oxide, symbolizing Blood, or Life).  The Cicada symbolizes being “in it” for the long term.

Not to lose sight of the Big Picture, we’re looking at a.Karma (asteroid Karma) because…

It’s dancing with Chiron, which is Initiating Vesta on 13 May and being Opposed by Lilith (complete 6 June), both of which are T-Squaring dp.Chaos (dwarf planet Chaos), which symbolizes Unlimited Potential rather than Disorder.  The Moon blesses the Chiron-Vesta Initiation, crossing them a few hours before their consummation.   Elizabeth points out the a couple of other asteroids – Ask and Amor – are also clamoring to get in on the party, each about to be Initiated by Chiron.  a.Karma was Initiated 1 May, a.Ask will get Shaktipat 15 May, and a.Amor 19 May (while the Moon is on dp.Chaos).

So in addition to Karma, we can look forward to not just Magnetism (Feminine Manifestation processes or PIAVA, Ask being one of the A’s in PIAVA), but also Desire and Relationship (Amor) moving from Despair or Discouragement to Miracles, since that’s what Chiron does for a Living. 

It would be appropriate to ask here, aren’t we confusing the map with the territory, as Ralph Metzner once phrased it?  The answer is Yes, quite purposefully, as one of our Limiting Beliefs is that the Unconscious perceives no difference between our Symbols and  their Referents.  That’s why they work as Symbols.  Or maybe that’s an Unlimiting Belief – who can say?

But meanwhile, a reader writes,

“This Vesta-Chiron etc. seems powerful out of proportion, I find – or is there something else going on?  Do you really feel it’s this big?  I’ve been spending a lot of time Tapping!”

To which we replied,

“Yes.  There is no “Reality,” only Belief – as amply demonstrated by the Placebo Effect that confounds the World’s best statisticians and manipulators of biochemistry.  So yes, going from Beliefs based on Despair to Beliefs based on Miracles is indeed one of the larger Life Changes we can ever experience.  Remember, the Greeks toasted Hestia/Vesta before they toasted Zeus, and toasted Her again after they toasted Zeus.  She was the Hearth – Food, Survival, Home, not-Abandonment, everything of utmost importance and meaning.”

Just to remind, the mechanism Chiron uses – via our intervention – to make this alchemical Transformation, is Empathy.  By Empathizing with Despair, we shift from being IN Despair to being IN Compassion, and that shift all by itself is enough to Create Miracles. 

Miracles happen because Limiting Beliefs dissolve.  As Einstein averred, we cannot solve a problem by using the same thinking that postulated the problem.  We need a new Perspective.  The most Powerful Perspective there is, is Belief, because Belief is all-encompassing.  We aren’t talking about what you think you Believe, or what you were taught to think you Believe, we’re talking about what you really Believe, as demonstrated by what you Manifest in your Life.

But that’s not all…

The whole 21-Pisces Chiron-plus Dance occurs Biquintile to the 16 May Initiation by Jupiter of Juno.

Which means that this is a huge Learning Opportunity around Expanding our Consciousness, and for many of us, Consciousness is more important than even Shopping.  We Manifest what we Believe, and we don’t have direct access to, or influence over, Beliefs that are Unconscious.  While it’s a little more complicated than simply Witnessing them (that’s Step One), bringing our Limiting Beliefs up into Consciousness is mandatory if we want to Liberate ourselves from their need to Sabotage us.  They Sabotage us because they’re shouting at us to Pay Attention!! so they can be Liberated.  Our Limiting Beliefs are Entities that we have in chains in our dungeon, and they want out!

The 21-Pisces business is about “Under the watchful and kind eye of a Chinese servant, a child fondles a little white lamb,” which is a loaded metaphor if there ever was one!

How does this relate to the ascendancy of China on the World Stage, for example?  Vesta-Chiron is a four-year Cycle, easily long enough for China to move into World Suzerainty, in spite of Obama’s best efforts to sell the rest of the World to the Multinationals before the Empire collapses.  While the rest of the World is run by lawyers and economists and psychopaths, China is run by engineers.  That’s a radically different Worldview, and one through which we might all be far better off.  Pluto in Capricorn means “Just Fix It” after all, and Pluto symbolizes the Zeitgeist.

The subsequent Vesta-Chiron Cycle begins at 3 Aries in April 2019, “The cameo profile of a person, suggesting the shape of their country.

In other words, by the end of this decade our Beliefs Manifest directly in our Culture, so the more we purge them of Despair now, the better will be our Future. 

It’s too big a topic to drop into now, but in early August of this year Jupiter reaches its Waning Square with Saturn.  This is the Jupiter-Saturn Cycle that corresponded with the “Dot-Com Crash” of 2000, at 23 Taurus, “A jewelry shop filled with valuable gems.”  Because of the longer-term relationship between Jupiter and Saturn…

The years 2000-2020 will see the Industrial Revolution picked apart, to choose those parts of it that “we” want to keep and those parts we want to Abandon, before two centuries of the Digital Revolution begin.  So far it’s clear that one of the defining elements of the Digital Revolution may (it’s not Co-Created yet) be the Abandonment of the Individual.  One of my own Limiting Beliefs is that you cannot rise to the top of the stack without stepping on those “below” you.  Ronnie Reagan and Margie Thatcher took Power in 1980, just as the 20-year Digital Revolution Preview began.  They both epitomize the Liberation of the Individual to step on whomever they want.  So far, Ruthlessness appears to be one of the most sterling qualities of the Industrial Revolution that “we” as a species choose to keep.

Remind us later to look into the role of dp.Ixion in this.

In other words, the next five year is a critical period in defining the Edges of the next two centuries.

The Digital Revolution is 200 years of Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions in Air Signs, just as the Industrial Revolution was two centuries of Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions in Earth Signs.  We’re dropping into the Void phase of the last Earth Jupiter-Saturn Cycle, between the Waning Square and the Conjunction.  Jupiter-Saturn is about the Social and Economic Order, and the Void phase is about deconstruction.

So it’s not just the decade, but the next 200 years that are being cast into concrete during this event, and our Beliefs and Consciousness are the forms that the concrete will be poured into.  Your own Beliefs and Consciousness could be the final mote that tips the Balance.

Oh, and by the way, Mercury turns Retrograde from 18 May through 11 June.  It Retrogrades across 5-14 degrees of Gemini (which Mercury has been introducing since 4 May), which is the Leo through Scorpio Duads of Gemini.  In this phase of Gemini we’ve tried out a new group of Ideas (possibly Ideas around how our new Yintegrity will impact our Relationships) and are in the process of taking them apart to see how they can be improved.  We test a revised version here, debrief it, and set up a second revision.  We can think of it as Beta 2.1 and 2.2 of our Ideas around how to exercise Yintegrity in our Relationships.

Then, on May 21-25, Venus crosses Pluto and Squares Uranus, adding another layer of finesse to our Yintegrity.

The Moon crosses Lilith and Opposes our Chiron Stellium on May 25-26, then completes the Grand Cross on June 2.

Unlimited Potential

May 5, 2015

girl_with_elves-large Vision of Freedom: “Girl with Elves” by Maxfield Parrish.  Notice how she’s not looking directly at the Elves.  We have a tendency to jerk our head toward anything that moves, but we’ll see better if we use our peripheral vision and sidelong glances.

Feeling a little nervous about how we’re going to Balance our newfound Yintegrity‘s need to Trust Ourself moment to moment, with our Belief that if we don’t do what we’re told we won’t survive?  Well, those Feelings are right on time.

The dwarf planet Chaos (Potential, not Disorder) is T-Squaring the developing Opposition between Lilith (Yindependence) and the impending Chiron-Vesta Initiation (Miraculous Transformation of Limiting Beliefs).  Which is to say…

Our Limiting Beliefs are up in our face because they’re bring threatened Bigtime by a Vision of Unlimited Self-Autonomy.  The contrast is painful.  All of our CAN’T messages are flashing red.  That’s Discouraging at best and at worst touches our Despair.  Well, that’s not quite worst – we could be failing to understand why we’re Feeling Discouraged because we’ve really never had any concept of Unlimited Potential.  So we’re just Scared and we don’t know why.

But what’s really Changing here, if we’re willing to accept the Gift, is our Limiting Beliefs.  There’s a Vision of Freedom just outside your window, but there are bars on the window!  Our habitual Reaction is to focus on the bars and rue the impossibility of Freedom.  Our non-habitual Response will be to melt the bars, because that’s exactly what the Universe is doing – melting the bars.  Our Habituation sees the bars as being still there, so we need to erase them manually.  It’ll be one of those over-and-over-again things, as the bars keep reforming.  That’s the nature of Habit – it takes “reps” to break down the old Pattern.

The concept of Freedom in a Patriarchal Culture is different from the concept of Freedom in a Matriarchal Culture.  In the latter it’s more about Freedom to Be who you really Are, rather than Freedom to Do whatever you Want.  Matriarchal Cultures have rules of Behavior, but except in extreme cases, not Judgment of the person who’s ignoring the rules.  The Vision is one of Community, Collaboration, and Unconditional Love, not Competition and Winning.

Nobody in this T-Square is moving very fast, so except for Vesta moving out of Orb in a few weeks, this T-Square stays with us for a couple of months.

The Lilith-Chiron Cycle that’s reaching Opposition began in July 2010 at 1 Pisces, “In a crowded marketplace farmers and middlemen display a great variety of products.”  A Lilith-Chiron Cycle would be about creating Miracles by Trusting one’s Instincts.   The Eat Local movement and the proliferation of farmer’s markets comes to mind.

The Chiron-Chaos Cycle that’s reaching its Waning Square was Initiated in April 1976 at 28 Aries, “A large audience confronts the performer who disappointed its expectations.”  Chiron-Chaos Cycles would be about reaching into the Zero Point Field to pull out Miracle Rabbits that make insoluble problems dissolve.  The desmise of the Middle Class fits this Cycle perfectly.  The confrontation has been lacking because the audience is so frightened of losing its privilege and because the fascist performers control the media propaganda flow, convincing the audience that it’s their own damn fault.

The Lilith-Chaos Cycle that’s reaching its Waxing Square had its beginning in January 2013 at 15 Gemini, “Two Dutch children talking to each other, exchanging their knowledge.”  This is an interesting Cycle – pulling Yindependence out of the tophat when it’s least expected.  Since long ago the Dutch have made markets, and they’re still making the Political market in Europe.  Children implies some sort of innocence, or relative freedom from the established paradigm.  It’s Danish rather than Dutch, but I can’t help think of Peter Høeg’s novel Borderliners.

If we indeed focus our Attention on Letting Go of our Limiting Beliefs, a good deal of Grace awaits us this coming week.

Pluto makes a Trine-Sextile Bridge across the Lillith-to-Vesta-Chiron Opposition, and for the next week or so the Sun mirrors it, forming a Kite focused on Vesta-Chiron.  The Chiron-Vesta Initiation recall is Biquintile to the Jupiter-Juno Initiation – that is, the Expansion of our Consciousness arises through examining our Limiting Beliefs.

The Chiron-Vesta Initiation occurs May 13, the Jupiter-Juno Initiation May 16, and Lilith Opposes Chiron June 8.

A note about Conjunctions and Initiations.  If we have two planets “Tortoise” and “Hare” that rotate at different speeds, Tortoise more or less sits around waiting for Hare to catch up, since their track is circular.  So when we speak of their Conjunction, it’s a Hare-Tortoise Conjunction, as Hare catches up and passes Tortoise.  However, in a relative sense, Slow planets connote Wisdom, and Fast planets suggest Messengers.  A Conjunction Initiates a Cycle. 

At an Initiation, Tortoise represents the Guru, Hare the Initiate, and the Conjunction Shaktipat.  During the Cycle, the Initiate carries the Guru’s Teaching to the People.  So an Initiation is called a Tortoise-Hare Initiation, as Tortoise Initiates Hare.  So we refer to Faster-Slower Conjunctions and Slower-Faster Initiations, but they’re the same event.  The Conjunction sees the event as a moment, while the Initiation sees the event as the essence of a Cycle.  Think of the Conjunction as a noun and the Initiation as a verb.

Of course, Letting Go of our Limiting Beliefs is not normally a cognitive exercise, as our Limiting Beliefs have roots deep in both the Personal and Cultural Realms of the Unconscious.  So the Grace would lie in opportunities to become Conscious of our Limiting Beliefs.  Once a Belief arises into Consciousness, we can work to establish new Habits that counter the Belief.

For example, while researching material for the Error as Intuition post, I came across the Star Zosma, which sits behind a major planet at the top of a client’s chart.  In Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars, Bernadette says…

“Zosma … belongs to those whom the establishment, either directly or indirectly, makes powerless…  It is present in the chart of victims, of people who are abused by the system.”

Zosma symbolizes the place in Linear Time where the Patriarchy usurped Power from the Matriarchy, and hence the condition of those who are out of Power and vulnerable to persecution by the Powerful.

When I shared this information with my client, they were surprised by how relevant this was to their Life, and how the conceptualization had not risen into their Consciousness before.  They were initially bummed, Feeling it as a sort of Fate or Destiny.  When I spoke with them later, they had thought to Empathize with their perennial Victim, and had come to realize that it was part of their Mission to evolve through this Portal.

Have you had any surprise flashes of Insight in the last several days, that might be revealing Portals of your own Limiting Beliefs?  Visions of Heaven beyond the Gate, and/or Awareness of the bars on the Gate?  Repeating Patterns of Frustration in your Life?  If your Reaction to these was Discouragement, Empathize with your own perceived Limits.  Empathy works as its own device.  Once you Empathize, you can forget the whole Drama.  Later you’ll be inspired to PIAVA a new Pattern or two, but there’s nothing else to Do once you Empathize.  The Unconscious does the Transformation work for you.  When it’s ready for you to take the next step, it’ll tap you on the shoulder.

Here’s a Vision of Heaven, from Bonnie, at  https://dancinginthetao.wordpress.com/2015/05/05/

“Connection

“I’m spending just about every available moment these days in my garden. Not working, just being … being with the bunnies and the birds and the breezes, the sunlight and the stars, and all the slow dancing Green Folk.  I’ve felt for many months now that I access much more intelligence in these Presences, and in recent weeks have felt and leaned into my emotional Connection to them, and through them to All That Is.

“Insights from the Green Folk are beyond words.  Every day there is deepening and strengthening of feeling and relaxing into Relationship, a security and support I’ve longed for all my life at levels I didn’t even know I had levels.

“When I wander in my mind away from Connection, I feel fear and confusion; when I turn back from those Dark Paths I feel steady and knowing once again: not certain about anything, not knowing how even the next moment is going to unfold, but a deepening felt experience of what I’ve known intellectually for years: I’m not abandoned, have never been alone: I’m held (as is everyone) in the Very Heart of Being.  And no One expects me to know anything in advance: all that’s required is that I Participate with my Whole Being, that I bring All of Me to the Moment, and Respond.

“I’m learning not to walk down the Dark Paths in my mind anymore.  I know where they all lead: always the same places full of Paper Tigers and Bad Guesses about The Future.  So partly I’m bored with them finally; and partly they don’t scare me as much as they used to … daily their power weakens; and partly I’m becoming less and less willing to Entertain the Darkness.

“The Choice is becoming clearer and clearer, emotionally.  And it’s getting easier and easier to choose Connection … almost, almost to the point of why on this marvelous, beautiful Earth would I ever choose anything else?