Kegels 3

The other elements of Big Grace in the Juno-Sedna chart, and the upcoming Sedna Station chart, are two Diamond Stars.

A T-Square (drawn as a red triangle) is made up of two planets Opposite one another, with a third at their Midpoint (ie, three Signs from each).  It means a Challenge.  The ultimate aim is to become Adept at this Challenge, but it’s via the School of Hard Knocks.  If we haven’t Figured Out what we’re supposed to be Learning, we usually Experience a T-Square as Long-Suffering Frustration.

I mean, how would we know, if we didn’t have our chart drawn up?  And even then, an Ego astrologer would concur that we were screwed.  We’d just think it was horrible Karma!

That’s what I thought about my own T-Squares until I Realized that the Fourth Harmonic (a Square goes one Fourth of the way around the Zodiac) is about Dominion – Healthy Control, Mastery!  (Or, without the possible hidden implication of Slavery as the inverse of Mastery, Adeptness.)  Dominion is the Fourth Principle in the Tarot’s Major Arcana.

A natal T-Square is a Life-Long graduate seminar, where there are no real Answers, only better Questions, better because they lead to a fuller understanding of the Depth and Breadth of the Issue that the T-Square presents.  So when we Reframe it thus, each Bummer in our Life-Long series of Bummers, has taught us a new Principle, Subtlety, Corollary, Insight, or Breakthrough about the subject of our seminar.

Each time we thought we were going to get it “Right” this time!  We thought we could make External Reality match our Perfect Pictures.  And every time we Failed.  But each time we Learned more about it.  Each time we got a little closer to What We Want, though many times we’ve taken wide Detours into places we didn’t know were Related until we went there.  Truth is, we’ll never Achieve our Perfect Pictures, because Perfect Pictures are 2D Snapshots, while Real Life is a Hologram in an Infinite number of Dimensions.

Achieving our Perfect Pictures would be like trying to Grok the nature of a Butterfly by pinning it to a board.  The hardest thing about a T-Square is that we can’t give it up.  Dropping the class is not an Option, because What We Want is an Irrevocable Compulsion.  It’s What We’re Here For.  We often settle for an Addiction – we get so Frustrated by our Lack of Success, which we take as a Personal Failure, that we divert ourself with the small but Satisfying Pleasure that we can get from Sugar, Alcohol, MJ, Sex, or worse.  It’s Temporary, but by the time we Indulge, we forget our Frustration.

Let’s take an Example.  For instance, suppose we hypothesize someone who has a Life-Long Challenge (T-Square) to Figure Out how to set up Effective Boundaries (Haumea-Pallas-Aletheia) between their Soul (Uranus) and their Ego so they can Approach their LifeTime Mission (North Node).  Oh, gosh, that’s one of the T-Squares in the Juno-Sedna chart, isn’t it.  What a coincidence…

The North Node is symbolized by those earphones in the lower right.  The red triangle that points to the earphones is the T-Square.  Well, we know already that our Mission is like Differential Equations or Calculus – we never really get there, we just keep cutting the distance in half between us and it…

If What We Want is Water and it’s always just out of Reach, that’s the Picture of Frustration.  We need to Reframe it – we may never get any Water in this Lifetime, but we’re sure going to Learn everything there is to Learn about Striving for it.  And probably, literally, Die trying.  Which is Cool – we was gonna Die anyway, so why not Die for a Cause.  And there aren’t any Causes more important to us than What We Want.

So, this particular “Challenge to Figure Out how to set up Effective Boundaries between our Soul and our Ego so we can Approach our LifeTime Mission” isn’t Life-Long, it’s only temporary.  We’re using the Mean Nodes, and they move about a Degree-and-a-half per month, so this Uranus-Haumea-North Node T-Square will only be with us for a few months.  But meanwhile, here in the context of wresting Power out of Fear (Sedna Stationary), finding a Boundary  between Soul and Rebirth that Serves our Mission is a Challenge that Confronts us.

For instance, the best Boundary here between Soul and Mission might be no Boundary, and Surrendering our Sovereignty to that Degree might Scare the Living Daylights out of our Ego, not to mention how it could Frighten our Dependents, as we might be Compelled to Abandon them for some abstruse Project like Saving Antarctica for the Penguins.  Or it could Drive us to Drink.  Here’s how some folks might do these Boundary Games…

“Full of anticipation, we set off and when we had adjusted our consciousness to the high vibration, we found ourselves in the Fairy sector.  However serious the reason for our visit may be, first we must play.  This is a necessity and not a frivolity because, until we have rushed about as fast as we can, there remain clinging to us, Earth ideas, and until we are rid of them, we are unable to concentrate.  What fun this period is.

“We burst and reform only to disintegrate again almost immediately.  In this destruction, the atoms of our bodies change their positions and one of our amusements is to stop them from rejoining those of the person to whom they rightfully belong.  Of course we can never prevent them from doing this for long, but sometimes we keep them poised between the two of us, they look so funny that we begin laughing, our concentration vanishes until we are once more complete and ready to burst again.”

–Normus, “Travels,” in Daphne Charters, Forty Years with the Fairies, p.209.

♥ So, that’s a T-Square.  But weren’t we supposed to be talking about Diamond Stars?  Oh, ok, I remember now.

See the two green lines rising from the North Node?  That’s called a Finger of God, and it means Pay Attention to this!!  Some folks also call it a “Yod.”  In these charts, red lines represent Challenge, green Curiosity, and blue Grace.  Notice that when we connect the Yod to the T-Square, a web of blue lines is created on the other side of the central Opposition – literally, a Bowl of Grace.

This is a Diamond Star, and it means that the T-Square is a Self-Resolving Challenge because of the Grace in the blue lines, which make a double Trine Bridge, or two Easy Alternative Paths, across the T-Square.  Like an escalator up the side of the Cliff we Expected to have to climb.  So our two escalators in this Diamond Star are Suspending Disbelief or Allowing our Beliefs to Shift (Klotho-Vesta), and Trusting our Forbidden Genius (Eurydike-Ixion), which will require a Shift in our Values (Venus).

If we are to Trust the Genius of our True Self, we’re probably going to have to Give Up some Obedience to the Values of our former Masters or Programmers.  Recognizing that they were Doing the Best They Knew How at the Time, we just know that this is the time when we have to substitute Self-Trust for the relative Security of their Truth.

This is a Diamond Square, so this just happens, it’s not something we have to work hard at, though we may have to work a bit at Surrendering our Resistance to it – at least enough to enable us to Notice the Difference.  After all, the overall Work this week is Growth of Consciousness – Juno-Sedna.

So the Bottom Line of this Diamond Star is that both our Beliefs and our Values will Shift, or have already Shifted.  Have you Noticed any of that in your own Experience yet?  This is a big Change in our Identity, since Values and Beliefs are the Foundations of Who We Are.  And an Effortless Shift.  We haven’t mentioned Nemesis or Ego Death once, and they aren’t involved.

Well, not in an obvious way anyway.  Nemesis is Octile (Adjustment) to Mars (Action) and Trioctile (Rebalancing) to Pluto (the Underlying Energy).  Without the Diamond Star that would be enough to create some Ego Death, and at any rate no Change of Identity takes place without some Ego Death.  Death doesn’t have to be Unpleasant, however, if we Take Ourselves Lightly, like the Angels do.  That Mars-Pluto Square is about An Angel with a Harp, recall.

If you’ve Noticed your Beliefs, Values, Identity Shifting in the last several days, have you Noticed any signs of Ego Death? Getting Lost in a familiar place, for instance, where it feels like part of you knows exactly where you are, but another part is Experiencing it as Brand New.  That’s an important kind of Shift to Notice as we Grow our Consciousness.

♥ The second Diamond Star (notice the double green lines emanating from the point of the T-Square) is focused on the Stellium in Libra – Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas, or Rebirth of True Boundaries.  If our Boundaries are Out of Balance with our Soul or our Goals or our Mission, we won’t know Who to Trust, or what to eat for breakfast, or when to Meditate and when to Act.  So this is a Big Deal.

The roots of this Yod are Chiron (Despair/Miracles) and Juno-Sedna itself (Bringing our Fears into Consciousness).  As we’ve said, when our Fears are Unconscious, they Control our Life.  In order to Overcome them (or rather, Love them into becoming the Power that they really are) we need first to Bring them into Consciousness.  Despair is totally appropriate when our Unconscious Fears rule our Lives, because we’re Powerless against them.

But fortunately, Chironean Despair is easy to fix – alls we gotta do is Poor-Sweetheart ourself.  We say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Overwhelmed, aren’t you.”  That statement Shifts our Identity from Despair to Compassion.  If we don’t Change the Subject afterwards though, we may get sucked back into Despair (though we could always Poor-Sweetheart ourself again).

Once we slip out of our stiff, scratchy Despair shirt and pull on our soft, warm Compassion hoodie, we can Change the Subject – do something else entirely, and divert our Attention.  That will allow the Overwhelming Challenges that Triggered our Despair to Resolve themselves on their own, without the Interference of our Anxiety.  After all, We are now Compassion, not Worry.

All Prayers are Answered, and a “You Poor Sweetheart…” is a Prayer of sorts, a Surrendering of the Overwhelm to your Higher Power.  It’s also a Loving Moment like Gary Craig talks about in his Unseen Therapist process (https://www.emofree.com/), which is a very Powerful Healing technique to Learn.  It’s also Easy to Learn if you’ve been PIAVAing for a while (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).

♥ We don’t talk about them often, but the seven short green lines are also important, and you can take advantage of them in any chart you find them in.  They’re called “Unxes” because an “Unx” is one twelfth of something.  The Twelfth Harmonic is about Pattern-Breaking.  That’s one of the most Powerful Skills we can develop.  After all, Karma is just Patterns, so if we can Break those Patterns, we’re Golden.

In fact, the South Node (Karma itself!) has two Unxes, one to Trusting our Forbidden Genius (Aletheia-Ixion-Venus), and the other to Suspending Disbelief (Klotho-Vesta).  The implication is that these two Intentional Acts will shake a good deal of our Karma and Self-Sabotage Loose.  We won’t turn that down.

The other Unxes and Opportunities for some relatively Easy Pattern-Breaking are…

• Suspending Disbelief to Despair/Miracles (Chiron).  An excellent Example of that – when you encounter what feels like a familiar Bummer about to repeat, Suspend your Belief that it’s Inevitable.  It Aint.  Just don’t Grab it.  Just slip out the back, Jack; just get off the bus, Gus – there must be fifty ways to Leave your Karma.  And don’t for a moment think that your Kinship with your Karma isn’t a Love Relationship – how long have the two of you been Joined at the Hip after all?

• Despair/Miracles to your Soul (Uranus).  What keeps you from Uniting your Soul and your Ego?  You don’t even need to know it, you can just say to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, You aren’t Identifying with your Soul as much as you could be, are you.”  Then just Change the Subject and Enjoy!

• Soul to Consciousness of Fear (Juno-Sedna).  I mean, what would your Soul have to Fear, anyway?  Certainly not Annihilation, it’s Immortal by definition.  Abandonment might Sadden Her, but even that’s Doubtful, as She surely knows that Getting Lost is the first stage of Getting Found.  We may have already Resolved all of our Sedna Station Issues with that last Poor Sweetheart.  Wouldn’t that be great!

• Consciousness of Fear to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).  Of course we’ve already Kegeled our Fear into Power, but even then, Unlimited is pretty Scary.  Reminds us of when we used to Imagine walking off the Edge of the Flat Earth, or those Nightmares we used to have about the Grand Canyon.  Better to PIAVA our Unlimited Potential.  How else will we shake it free from our existing Limiting Beliefs?

• Unlimited Potential to our Mission (North Node).  How does that Feel – Exciting?  If it doesn’t, Breathe.  Better?  You should be Feeling a Surge of Energy up your Spine.  We may even be Wondering, what the Hell is my Mission, anyway?  If so, great – Wonder is a hidden PIAVA (don’t try to Figure It Out though – that will Limit it).  You could make it PIVAWA if you want, or even WIPAVA.

It’s really pretty Simple math – Fear Plus Breathing Equals Excitement, Fear Plus Kegels Equals Power.  We’ll probably get lots of Opportunities to practice both over the next week.

Kegels 1

One of these days I’ll learn better.  Here again I thought we were getting a few quiet days, when Lo, another Biggie.  As Frank or Earnest (I never knew which was which), “I just get my budget in order, and along comes a big Surprise, like rent, or a weekend!”  So, on 8 February, Sedna (Converting Fear into Power) is Stationary (Strong), but gosh, that’s nine days away.  Not that nine days isn’t too long for a buildup to a Station, especially if it’s a Big Station, or we’re more Sensitive than the average Bear – or if there isn’t much else going on.

Buuut, I just Noticed that asteroid Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) crosses Sedna this morning (30 January, 9:30 am PST), so that’ll be giving us an early preview of the Sedna Station.  This should be a good test of our Misogyny – the crossing, and the Station, occur within a few arcminutes of Algol, the Star most associated with Catastrophe – Catastrophe from the Male Perspective, as to them it symbolizes Female Rage – Algol is the eye in Medusa’s severed head.  From the Female Perspective, it’s a whole different Story.  I mean, gee, what do women have to Rage about, anyway?

If you haven’t noticed any Disturbances in a Force near you, you may want to look more closely at the Gender Dynamics – you might be overlooking something.  And if you’re really Brave, you might want to bring up the subject with members of the Other Gender.  “Is there anything you’d like to talk about, Dear?  How do you think we’re doing on the Male-Female Equality thing?  Anything we could Improve upon?”  If there’s anything a Juno Angle begs for, it’s Expansion of Consciousness.

This isn’t the Initiation of a new Cycle; that was last mid-September, at 28 Taurus, “A woman, past her ‘change of life,’ experiences a new love.”  As if Love was reserved for Youth, or defined by Hormones alone.  This is what we call a “Confidence-Builder,” the third and last Conjunction in a series.  So we’ve already had practice with this Energy, in the first half of September and November last year, and now it’s time to Integrate what we’ve Learned.  A reminder in case you’ve forgotten – Kavanaugh’s Confirmation Hearing spanned 4 September to 6 October.

The chart of this third Juno-Sedna crossing is pretty busy…

The main feature of the Juno-Sedna Conjunction itself, though not the main feature of the whole chart, is our Challenge (Square, or red line) to Receive a New Timeline (Klotho) that will turn our Beliefs (Vesta) upside down and inside out…

“You live on Earth as a human being, not as a transcendent, Angelic being or a mythical Sidhe.  However, you can unite your humanity with the Angelic and Sidhe part within you in a rooted and yet heavenly way.  This is your potential, no matter what kind of human you are. 

“How you do this is for you to discover as your journey to revelations opens to the adventure called reality.  The Angel and Sidhe in you speak to your inner core about the most gentle and magical power you are destined to be.  Unfold your wings and walk Mother Earth with tenderness and creativity so heaven can land in the world of manifested creation.” 

— Søren Hauge, The Wild Alliance: Awakening Your Inner Angel & Sidhe, p.7.

♥ The most Exciting (Excitement Less Breathing Equals Fear) feature of the chart as a whole is the Challenge (T-Square, the red triangle pointing left) to see All Apparent Setbacks as the Opportunities that they really are (Chiron = Despair and Miracles).  One of the most important parts of 5D Manifestation is Trust (Eurydike).  We are actually already Manifesting in 5D, but we don’t Trust it.  Whenever our Plans and Expectations and other Intellectualizations about Mechanisms lead us away from our Intentions, Intuitions, and Visualizations about Results, our 5D Guides are likely to spill our paint pot or poke a hole in a tire.

When we see these Gifts as setbacks and Gremlins, and Persist with our preference for Method over Result, we revert to 3D.  If instead we, chuckling, Appreciate the Interruptions as Guidance, then we can lean back, close our eyes, Meditate on What We Want rather than How We’re Planning to Get It, and rejoin the Collaborative Co-Creation that we really Want.  Why struggle against the Unseen Energies when we can Cooperate with them.  We have seen the Enemy, and it ain’t them.

Their Objective is to follow our Lead, but they’re mapping out the Effortless path to Manifesting What We Want, not the Tiresome path of How we Planned to Claim it as Our Own Creation.  The Unseen Energies are taking their cues from our Soul, not from our Ego, and that’s an incredible Gift to us if we’re Open to Looking for it.

Did you notice that this is a Gender-Balance problem?  The intellectual Focus on Method is the Dynamic Male process of Creating; the PIAVAed (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/) Focus on Desired Results is the Magnetic Female way of Manifesting.

Regardless of our external Gender, our Inner Female (Heart, Intuition) knows Where We’re Going and What We Want.  Our Inner Male (Intellect, Engineering) might know How To Get There or How to Get It, but he isn’t hip to Where or What or Why.  They need to Partner Up if we’re going to get to 5D.

The Deeper part of this Challenge/T-Square is the Gateway to our Forbidden Genius and our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planets Ixion and Chaos, in the Opposition at the base of the T-Square).  Both of these lie far beyond our Expectations and Understandings, and will Deliver Rewards that are as Exceedingly Surprising and Delightful.  This Gate is Open in this chart (ie, at this time), and the Treasures that lie beyond the Gate are Glorious.  All we have to do to Open to them, is to see Interruptions as Gifts, as hints that we were veering off course.

♥ The big red square is a Grand Cross – four planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiacal Loop.  It’s actually more Impactful than the T-Square we’ve been talking about, but the T-Square will give us more hassles, so we’ll probably Notice it sooner.  Not only is a Grand Cross a Big Deal (because it spans the entire chart), but this one includes the Nodal Axis, meaning that it’s all about our Journey from Karma to Grace, making it Foundational.

Bringing our Fear up into Consciousness where we can Breathe it into Excitement or Kegel it into Power, is an Easy Path (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) across the Chasm between our Karma (South Node, upper left) and our Mission (North node, lower right).  Our Helpers in Disguise (remember now, Disruptions are Gifts informing us that we’re getting off course) are our own Soul (Uranus, lower left), and our Rebirth (Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas, upper right).

Allowing the Rebirth (Haumea) of our Boundaries (Pallas) between Truth (Aletheia) and Fiction, aka Suspending Disbelief, is a big part of Reframing our Setbacks and Surrendering our Ego into Service to our Soul.  Uranus is on its way back into Taurus (Solid Materiality), after spending seven years in Aries (Creative Spirit).

♥ There is also much Grace in the chart (Grand Trines and Kites, Diamond Stars), but we’ll talk about that in Kegels 2.

That Was a Trick Question

Of course it wasn’t, since on so many levels so many of us will be Choosing our Karma, because it’s so Comfortable.  Think about your Least-Favorite recurring circumstances, especially your recurring Bummers.  Now reframe your Experience so you see yourself as Comfortable in those circumstances.  That’s what Karma is all about.  Least-Favorite, Bummer, and “Comfortable” seem like strange bedfellows.  But think about why those circumstances are your Least-Favorite.  Maybe you don’t like the Emotions involved, or maybe they make you Doubt yourself (I think of Doubt, like Confusion, as an Emotion).  But if they recur, you’re Familiar with them, and maybe Familiar isn’t so far from Comfortable.

But the sense that it actually was a Trick Question, is that we’ve dropped into a Station of asteroid Juno, and Juno is about the Edgs of our Consciousness.  Station means “Strong,” so we’ll actually have to work to not Grow our Consciousness between now and 11 October, when Juno actually Stands Still.  We say a planet is “Stationary” whenever it’s moving so slowly that we can hardly tell it’s moving at all, because that’s when we Feel the impact of the planet most strongly.  Usually we Feel this intensity for about a week before the planet actually Stands Still, depending on what else is going on, and how Sensitive we are to it.

We’re suggesting that you Assertively Choose Consciousness because the Portal is Open here – sure, we’ll all get a hit without trying, but while the Door is Open, let’s get Greedy.  As Gordon said, “Greed [about Consciousness] is Good!”   The Juno-Station chart is more complex than the New-Moon chart…

So we won’t get through it all tonight, but at the risk of sounding like a broken record, it’s really more of the same.  Well, maybe I should sound like a broken record, because this stuff – about Identity, Ego, Soul, Karma, Held Emotions, etc – is so Subtle and so Profound that we have to have it pounded into us.  We can hear or read the same thing a thousand times, and then on the next pass it coincides with some other goings-on and a Light goes on, and we suddenly “get” it.  “Oh, That’s what you meant!”  So as the Priestess may have said, “Repetition is Good!”

The Big Highlights of the chart include Juno itself Dancing with Fear and Power (Sedna) – remember your Kegels (Fear + Kegel = Power).  Juno in Gemini should be an Open Portal for Consciousness to Grow already, because Gemini is to flibbertigibbet.  No offense to your Gemini planets, but Gemini is probably the most loosy-goosy Sign in the Zodiac.  That’s Freedom par excellence, but it can also be Spacey and sometimes Scarily so.  Sedna Initiated Juno, which would have introduced us to our Fear in a whole new way, on 14 September.

Juno only stays in Gemini for a month, before it backs into Taurus.  Taurus is the Rock of the Zodiac.  Taurus and Change are not at all Comfortable together.  Stability is Good, but if we’re talking about Stable Self-Sabotage, which is what Taurus and Karma would do together, Shaking things up would be Good too, if not very Comfortable.  Juno doesn’t get back to Gemini for good till 24 December.  So our Window where it will be Easier to Change what needs Changing, will be Open till 24 October – take Advantage of it!  Changing our Relationship with Fear, so we Grok it’s Power, will be an option for us again in the second week of November.

The other Big Highlight of the Juno Station is that our Health and Vitality (Varuna) is the Star of the Show.  While the rest of the chart is packed in like a lunchbox, Varuna and the North Node look like the gondola under the balloon, where “everything” happens.  So a particular theme in this Station is our Opportunity to see how our Karmic Patterns Sabotage our own Vitality.  We’ll talk more about this over the next few days.