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Paranoid Thoughts?

June 5, 2018

We’re approaching 9 June’s Station of Nessus (3am PDT).  As most of you know, a planet’s Energy is Strongest at, and leading up to, its Station, and Nessus is about Healing Abuse and Privilege.  It’s in Pisces, which is all about Finishing Business and Letting Go of Excess Baggage, especially Heavy Emotions, so we can begin the next leg of our next Journey with a Light load.

Of course the quickest way to Heal anything is to Embrace it with Unconditional Love and Empathy, and to do that, we sometimes have to Re-Experience it in some form.  So all manner of Guilt, Veiled (or otherwise) Fear or Terror, and other Ugliness may arise between now and 9 June, including otherwise-unexplained unpleasant Experiences with other people that are Unconsciously Standing In as bit players in our Karmic Dramas.

Yes, they could be Reincarnations of our former Perps, but why not give them the Benefit of the Doubt and let them be Innocent, as in their Present Incarnation they’re likely to be.  After all, they could as likely be Reincarnations of former Victims or your own Abuse and Privilege, just with the roles switched for variety.

It’s important to be Aware that this is happening, so we can Respond positively.  It’s very easy to attribute such Flushbacks to the Present Moment, even though our daily Dramas are probably dime-novel Re-Enactments of our Karmic Traumas and all of Their previous attempts at Re-Enacting themselves, some of which could have Been or Felt very Real.

Remember that Consciousness pervades Everything, including our Karmic Traumas, and if we’re still in Separation (which to some extent we All are if we’re still Incarnate), then these Traumas are virtually “Entities” with a Life of Their own.  Until we Merge with Them, which can Be and Feel quite Horrible while we’re Transitioning into Their Experience. 

And once we’re Inside of Their Experience, we may need some or all of our Enlightened Consciousness (we All have at least some) to be Unconditionally Loving with Them.  Considering how many Lifetimes we’ve probably Lived (likely approaching Infinity), we have Seen It All Before, so it’s more about Being Loving and Gentle with all the Ickiness, once we get past being Horrified.  Maybe we should practice with Slugs.

When we mis-identify Karmic Flushbacks as Present Moment events, we’re very likely to make Decisions or Oaths like “I’ll never do that again” or “I’ll never talk to them again,” or far worse.  Decisions like this rapidly become Unconscious Limitations, and inhibit our Liberation.

We’ll draw up the chart soon, but suffice it to say for now that Orcus, the planet of Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking, Opposes the Stationary Nessus, forming the base of a T-Square to asteroid Moira.  Moira is about Fate.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; Choice is what we Choose to exercise when we’re Conscious.  So we’re Taking Our Power and Breaking an Ancient Contract with our Fate, potentially the one that equates Life with Suffering.

We tend to think of such Contracts as “Facts of Life,” but in fact they’re just Political Choices we made so long ago that we’ve forgotten that it was our Choice.  While the Resistance may be substantial, and the Implications may be complex, we can actually Choose Whatever We Want.  And if we Consider it carefully and boldly, we can actually also Choose trivial Resistance and simple Implications.  That’s on of the reasons why we recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently” to our PIAVAs.

There is also a T-Square to asteroids Nemesis and Lachesis in the Nessus-Station chart.  Nemesis is about Ego Death, while Lachesis is about Choosing to Shift a Karmic or Fated Timeline before it would Shift on its own.  So what we’re really doing here, should we Choose to Accept it, is Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance. The base of this second T-Square is the Nodal Axis, with Mars (Anger or Action) on the South Node (Held Emotions) and Aletheia (Truth) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime).

Here’s Daniel Scranton’s Channeling for today…

http://danielscranton.com/join-team-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We are taking nothing for granted when it comes to our participation in the shift in consciousness.  There are so many beings in this universe who are working to ensure that the shift not only occurs, but that it occurs in the way that serves the most.  We invite any and all of you who want to be a part of this conscious creation to move beyond waiting for something to happen.

“We invite you to join us in ushering in the shift and bringing about an expanded consciousness throughout the entire universe.  You don’t have to wait for any major event to occur in order to participate.

“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen.  It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team.  You have opportunities every single day. They come to you in the choices that you are being given.

“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive.  You can help by processing your emotions.  You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters.  You can be kind instead of being right.  You can forgive.  You can send transmissions of love and compassion.  You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.

“As you make a commitment now to joining the team that spans the entire galaxy and all dimensions, you are helping to usher in the best possible shift that we can all experience.  We are inviting you to join us, and we know many of you already have, but as you make the declaration, you are automatically accepted onto our little team.

Snakes and Ladders I

May 20, 2018

With a huge Reset going on here, it makes more sense to use Birth-chart Sensitivity or “Orb” – 6-8 Degrees, rather than our usual 3-Degree Current-Moment or “Transit”-chart Sensitivity, so we’ve Compromised to a degree.  All of this month’s Stations occur in the same 0-to-9-Degree Zone, and the early-June Nessus Station is at 10 Degrees.  ‘Tis a busy chart.

We should start with the “biggest” Configuration, which is a Grand Cross (Hassles Galore, but they’re often Mutually Complementary) and a Grand Trine (Blessings Galore) with common corners.  This is traditionally considered an “ideal” chart, as it combines great Energy and Motivation (the Grand Cross) with ample Grace (the Grand Trine). 

That is, however, a Colonialist Perspective, where the most Celebrated Traits are Effort and Successful Exploitation of Others.  The current Western Patriarchal and Hierarchical Cultural model, in other words, where the Strong win over the “Weak” (including those with different Life Goals, which are by definition Weak).  The Prize is Ego Inflation, Confidence, and Privilege.  Aka Corruption and Abuse, when seen from underneath. 

We can see this playing out in the news all over the Planet, as this Game is the stock and trade of the Declining Patriarchy.  There’s nothing Abusive or Colonialist or Patriarchal about a Grand Cross-Grand Trine (“GC-GT”) chart itself; it’s the notion that it’s an ideal chart that’s Patriarchal.  There’s a sense in which being born with such a chart “condemns” one to a Life of Effort and Achievement.  But Effort and Achievement can readily be directed toward non-Patriarchal Goals like Community, Collaboration, Balance, Flow, Attunement, and the like.

Here’s the Grand Cross-Grand Trine version of the chart…

We’ve drawn the chart for the time when the Moon reaches the Midpoint between the 18 May Atropos Station (Endings) at Degree 1 and the 21 May Klotho Station (Beginnings) at Degree 0.  You can see that the other two Fate asteroids, Lachesis (the Length of a Timeline) and Moira (Fate or Choice) are close by at 6 and 5 Degrees respectively.  [In case you’ve forgotten, we always round Degrees up – 29 becomes 30 or 0, 0 becomes 1, etc.]

The Grand Trine is extended into a Kite by Chiron, but if we focus first on the primary GC-GT elements, it’s the Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake (Endings-Trusting-Creating) Stellium (a group of 3 or more planets) that’s the overwhelming Star of the chart, as the corner where the GC and the GT converge, as well as the location of the Atropos Station.

So the first thing we need to do is talk about the Cusp of Libra, which is as important as the Aries Point (Cusp of Aries).  At the Aries Point a Seed of Spirit is planted into the fertile soil of our Soul.  At the Libra Cusp we meet Other for the first time.  Aries-to-Virgo is about our Personal Development, Libra-to-Pisces our Social Development.

We are, All of us, as Individuals and as Members of Groups of all sizes, entering a whole new phase in our Relationship to Other Individuals, and a whole new phase in our Relationship to Community.  In a nutshell, we’re now Creating our own Social and Relationship Realities (Makemake), Dropping our Olde Obsolete Patterns around Relationship and Culture (Atropos), and Trusting that we’re going in the right direction (Eurydike) even though we seem to be Betraying Mom’s admonition that “You cannot do that, it breaks all the rules you learned in school.”

Keep that in mind when you’re tempted to be Motivated by Guilt or a Need to Please Others at the Expense of your own Values and Needs.  Expect your Self-Sovereignty to be Tested as we approach 27 May (the Eurydike/Trust Station), when we’re likely to be Tempted to turn back to our Olde Codependent Ways when our old playmates complain that they are being Betrayed by the Shift in our Values and Behaviors.

Which is where Chiron comes in.  The Kite shifts the focus of the GC-GT to Chiron, at the top of the Kite.  Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake (Trusting-that-We-Can-End-Impediments-to-Manifesting-What-We-Want) becomes the Tail that Wags the Dog, and the Dog is Chiron or Despair, Despair that we “can’t win” – we get little Support for trying to Go Our Own Way, but the rewards for running our old Patterns are diminishing rapidly.

Until of course we Empathize with our Despair – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling like you can’t Win, aren’t you.”

The other two corners of the Grand Trine, from which our Blessings flow, are

  • Taking an Active Part in our New Beginnings (Mars-Klotho), which will probably seem Confusing and Difficult until 21 May, when Klotho Completes its Station.  Confusion is the first stage of Growth.
  • Following our Essence (Sun), our Heart, or our Guidance, which in the midst of Rapid and Big Change, can also be Confusing.  We may be in the Habit of Resisting our Fate in favor of Choice, but in this case we’re Asked to Choose to Accept our Fate, because our Fate is Transformation (Moira Conjunct Sun).

A final Caveat.  If you have Expectations about What-It-Will-Look-Like-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way, rest assured that they’re Dead Wrong, no matter how Psychic you’ve proven to be in the past.  This is a New Game.  Yes, if you’re Intuitive you’ll Recognize Home when you see it, but it’s the Vibration you’ll Recognize, not the Form. 

If you’re eager to Play It Forward, focus on How-It-Will-Feel-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way instead.  And make the Effort to Revert to a Blank Slate before noon PDT on 21 May, so you can be Surprised and Delighted when it Feels Even Better once Klotho Completes its Station.

Another Complication – at 11 am PDT on 22 May, Orcus Completes its Station.  Orcus is about Pattern-Breaking.  So even after noon on 21 May you might still be a prisoner to  your Olde Archetypes.  So feel free to focus on How-It-Will-Feel-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way, but you also want to PIAVA that you can Gently and Lovingly and Rapidly and Completely Let Go of All Patterns and Habits that Inhibit your Soul’s Destiny and your Ego’s Transformation to Supporting it Fully.

Close your Eyes and Look around for any Cables, Chains, or Dark Spots, particularly behind you.  One at a time, Gently remove the Barbed Hooks at your end of each Cable or Chain, and hand it back to its Source.  If its Source won’t take it, feed it to an Alligator.  Alligators are very Skilled at this Work.  One at a time, put a Mirror between you and any Dark Spots, facing the Dark Spot, then switch on the Bright Light that aims into the Darkness from the top of the Mirror.

Scan your Body for any Foreign Feelings – crawling or goosebumps or raised hackles (but not just your neck).  Put your Attention into that Hole in your Aura, and PIAVA that your Self-Sovereignty and your Essence Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely patch the Hole, Permanently, with your own Energy. 

You’re likely to feel Vulnerable there for a couple of days; consider the fact that you can now Feel your Vulnerability as evidence that you’re Healing – till now you were Unconscious of the Wound.  Like a Tick or Mosquito, your Programmers distracted your Attention before they installed the Hooks.  Whenever you’re Conscious of Feeling the Vulnerability, Fill it with your own Heart Energy.

More to follow.

Gauntlet VIII – Chiron

April 16, 2018

Anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that Chiron can be a Bear. 

It’s about Getting Conscious of our Wounds.  Like Saturn helping to Educate us about which Traumas are Really Going On in the Moment and which are Flushbacks, if we’re Conscious of our Wounds we can Differentiate them from new Arrows.  For Present-Moment Traumas we want to improve our Boundaries to stop or dodge the Arrows and Prevent further Harm, and for Flushbacks we want to be very Loving with ourself in order to Heal the Wounds. These are very Different Responses.

That’s a hidden benefit of using our Mirrors to fend off apparent negative Energy coming at us.  Using a Mirror is very Powerful for any situation where you’re having Difficulty being Present with yourself (or Others) and staying Grounded… 

  • When you’re talking to someone and feel insulted for instance.  Is that your Wound, or are you being Attacked?  Or both?  It takes a bit of Practice to Imagine a big Mirror, facing them, while you’re talking to someone, but once you get the hang of it, it’s not too hard.  If the Mirror Changes your Feeling State almost immediately, you were being Attacked. If it doesn’t Change your Feeling State, then it may be “just” your Wound. 

Using Mirrors might seem like a silly game, but your Wound is a Hole in your Aura.  It was installed by your Programmers so they could Control you.  Being Persistent about using Mirrors like this will eventually become a Habit; you’ll start to do the Energetic Equivalent of using a Mirror, but without the Mirror, and without thinking about it.  And that’s just another way of saying that  you’ve Healed the Hole in your Aura and taken a big step toward Self-Sovereignty.

  • Another excellent Mirror situation is when you’re mind is stuck in a Helicopter Trip.  You keep going ’round and ’round, either about some Duality you can’t Decide about, or when you’re Imagining arguing with someone or justifying yourself to them.  Take the first person you think of (it may not be the same person you’re arguing with), and Imagine Mirroring them.  If the Cycling stops, you’re Golden.  If it doesn’t, try the second person that comes to mind.

For instance, one of my Programmers wanted very much for me to be a certain way.  It wasn’t a way I wanted to be.  I Mirrored them fairly often for months, maybe years.  They would “come around to the back door” when I set up the Mirror, and to find Peace I would have to use a miniature domed stadium lined with Mirrors on the outside.  Eventually it became a Habit. 

Often this is your only path toward improving your Relationship with someone who isn’t very Conscious – talking with them about it just isn’t in the realm of possibility.  My Programmer was certainly not Conscious that they were drilling a Hole in my Aura, and in the off chance that they were, would they admit it?  Unlikely.

  • Emotions are supposed to visit for a little while, then move on.  We think of Emotions as “ours,” but they aren’t really, they’re like weather, they blow in and then they blow away.  Sometimes they Resonate and we can use them; other times they feel like they came uninvited out of “left field.”  When an Emotion blows through and sticks to you like Velcro, it may be an imitation of one of your Held Emotions.

One of the principles of Emotional Healing is that it’s Impossible to Let Go of Other Peoples’ Feelings.  So if an unwelcome Emotion moves in and unpacks, use your Mirror on the first person who comes to mind, to see if you’re carrying someone else’s Emotions.  If you get almost-immediate Relief, just bring back the Mirror whenever you start to go back into that closet.  Some people are very accomplished at getting Other people to carry their Held Emotions for them.

In fact, it’s highly likely that you and I do the same.  We’re Scared Shitless of Power, so we Project our Anger (Envy really) on folks who throw Power around like it was a Frisbee.  Death of any sort is such a big Threat to our Ego that we wrap ourself in Grief whenever anyone Transitions to a New Lifetime instead of helping them Celebrate and get Grounded into their new Surroundings.  If their next Life is anything like this one, they’ll be pretty Helpless for a while, and can use all the Support we can Give them.

The Mirror will help you Distinguish your own Held Emotions from Other people’s Held Emotions.  If an unfriendly Emotion moves in to stay, and you Mirror everyone who you suspect might be Projecting it your way, all to no effect, then it’s probably one of your own Held Emotions.  Feels like a Bummer, but in fact it’s a tremendous Opportunity – our Held Emotions are Unconscious, aka Invisible to us.  When one becomes opaque, we can take steps to Heal it.

How?  Own it.  Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure.  You might well get Images of what caused the Emotion to get stuck in the first place, but you don’t need them, and in fact if they appear they may put you in your Anal-ytical mind and distract you from Softening and Warming.

Guess what.  This is what Illness is about.  If you’re very good at Denying your Held Emotions on every other Level, they’ll come to visit on the Physical Level.  Besides, they aren’t Levels, they’re Perspectives.  It’s All One Thing, we just think it’s Different because we’re seeing it from a Different Angle.  So you may not begin with a Held Emotion, you may begin with a Toothache or any Pain or Physical Discomfort, or even Diagnosis if you’re in the Habit of Delegating care and feeding of your Physical Vehicle to the Medical Cartel.

Deal with Physical Pain and Discomfort the same way – Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure. 

And anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that we always recommend “Poor-Sweethearting” ourself whenever Chiron is Lit Up, and at any other time when you aren’t totally Pleased with your internal or external Circumstances.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling [Insulted] [Invaded] [Confused] [Sick] [Pain], aren’t you.”

We bring all this up because after seven years in Pisces, Chiron is moving into Aries (1am PDT 17 April).  Emotions don’t go away when Pisces goes away, though they get less Prominent.  And there are plenty of other planets still in Pisces; for instance Confusion/Neptune will be there till 2026, and Abuse/Nessus till 2034.  So you’ll have plenty of Opportunities yet to Practice your Mirroring and Poor-Sweethearting Skills.

As for Chiron, rather than the Emotional Crises we’ve been Enduring since 2011, we’ll be Experiencing Spiritual Crises till Chiron moves into Taurus in 2027, then we’ll be Enjoying Material Crises for a while.  So our Practice with Emotions will serve us well while we’re doing “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like God has Abandoned you, aren’t you” or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like the Planet is Failing, don’t you.”

If course, long before then we’ll have enfolded all these Healing techniques into automatic Habits, and firing them off so fast we won’t even be Aware that we’re doing it.  Right?

Mission and Healing

January 26, 2018

Just in time for a Sustainable-Self-Love Ceres-Sappho Lunar Eclipse, Natalie Glasson has channeled some very useful suggestions for us from Saint Germain…

https://www.omna.org/meaning-life-saint-germain/

I recommend the whole download, but here are a few excerpts…

“I, Saint Germain, send forth my energy and light of a violet and golden clarity and purification to penetrate each of your chakras.  Please receive my light into your being allowing each chakra to harmonise and unify creating a beautiful surge and upgrade of light within your being.  As clarity and purification fill your being, emanating in all directions, allow your own inner clarity to awaken and rise into your conscious awareness.  You are a being of divine clarity.

“I, Saint Germain, invite you to recite this to yourself as you experience the light surging throughout your being,

‘I am divine clarity in manifestation.’ 

When you feel as if you are embodying the statement, feeling and acknowledging its meaning, then simply sit peacefully observing all that you are; the divine presence of clarity.  Enjoy the sensation even if you cannot understand or explain the experience.

As we begin our communication together today, with the awakened and acknowledged presence of your inner clarity, we discuss a profound subject matter; the meaning of life.  It is only with the presence of inner clarity that this subject can begin to be comprehended.  It is important for me to state that I am speaking of the meaning of earthly life and soul missions.  The meaning of life is personal to every being upon the Earth.  We cannot dictate to another being what the meaning, purpose or value of their life is…”

To discover the meaning of your life, you can begin by asking, in turn, your emotional body, mental body, physical body, spiritual body and soul, ‘What is your greatest goal in this current existence?  What do you wish to overcome or heal and what do you wish to embody fully?’  Taking time to connect with these five aspects of your being will allow you to build and form a picture of clarity, direction and encouragement within your conscious awareness that will allow you to flow deeper into your truth. 

“As a larger picture, vision, understanding or knowingness awakens within your being, so you understand the divine plan for your existence.  This will ignite greater comprehension of how you can be of service, how you can heal yourself, how you can experience fulfillment and so much more.  Letting go of your ego’s demand for separation, fear and drama, brings you to a space of peace within your being…”

“When your ego is focused on survival, this influences your entire being and reality in powerful ways promoting experiences of challenge, pain and suffering.  As well as negative and destructive thinking and feelings of being unworthy, unloved and undeserving.  When you are experiencing the ego’s perception and focus on survival each day you are distracting yourself from the true meaning of your life…  You can call upon my energies and presence, Saint Germain, to heal and dissolve the energies of fear, separation and drama you may be holding onto and embodying as well as inviting me to realign your ego to its original purpose of supporting you in experiencing fully the meaning of your life.

Saint Germain, I call you forth to work with me during my sleep state from now on until your presence and service is no longer required.  Please share the most appropriate healing with me to support me in the release of any energies of fear, separation and drama.  With ease and perfection support me in making this energetic shift within my being. 

” ‘Saint Germain, I additionally invite you to dissolve the alignment of my ego to any negative aspects of survival and realign my ego to contentment, happiness and supporting me in knowing, experiencing and embodying the meaning of my life.  I thank you in advance for the work you achieve with me.’

“This request only needs to be made once to me, and I will begin the process during your sleep state, continuing until a greater sense of your meaning of your life manifests in your conscious awareness…”

The birth of the Creator within me was far greater than any experience of connection with the Creator I had previously experienced.  I discovered my self as a true expression of the Creator, feeling myself adopting the power to inspire the awakening of the Creator within others.  My journey continued to deepen into the depths of the Creator within me, and so my pathways before me became an expression of the Creator, filled with clarity, direction, peace and meaning. 

“Invite me forth to walk beside you and direct your attention to what inspires you within and around your being.”

It’s important to remember that the first stages of Growth are Noticing and Confusion.  So when the Alignment of our Ego to any Negative Aspects of Survival begins to Dissolve, the first thing we may Notice is that we’re Aligned with a negative Aspect of Survival.  We may React negatively to this Noticing, which can work as a Resistance to our Liberation.  If we Remember what we’ve Invited St. Germain to help us with (a PIAVA really) and Respond positively instead, it will accelerate our Growth.

It’s the difference between “Oh Shit, they’re raising the rent!” and Aha, there’s another Temptation to Feed the Negativity in the Universe – Thank God I’m Letting Go of Negativity!  I Congratulate myself for Noticing the Temptation.  I don’t know where the money will come from, but I’m going to Tap Out my Fear and Trust that it will come from somewhere!”  You may need to Tap on that many times to dissolve the Doubt, which may arise many times.  But that’s the path, and it’s your Persistence that will win the day.

Regression is a constant Barrier – when we Regress to the age or Lifetime where we first Learned Negativity, we often Forget the Skills we’ve Learned since.  If we get in the Habit of “Trying It [Tapping] on Everything,” like Nick Ortner and Gary Craig suggest (https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=92&v=YjjI3HioqJk), then it will increase the odds that we’ll Remember it when we’re Regressed.

St. Germain invites us to include “with ease and perfection support me” in our Invocation, which is fabulous, as an inclusion like this can reduce our Debilitation from Regression.  Similarly, we often suggest including “Lovingly and Gently” as part of our PIAVAs.  Nevertheless, until we Learn to Notice that we’ve left the Present Moment and Celebrate the Noticing, Regression remains the greatest Inhibition to Letting Go of our Limiting Beliefs.  Fortunately, the sooner we Notice, the Easier it is to stay in the Present Moment, and the Easier that is, the quicker we Notice – it’s a Self-Reinforcing Virtuous Cycle.

Timelines IIa

January 21, 2018

With much appreciation, a rich trove of excellent Perspectives from Undeniably Sara…

 https://undeniablysara.com/author/undeniablysara/

“Draining boiled pasta water into the sink is a trigger for me – every time.  Chopping onions, doing laundry, mopping the floor, planting a garden and driving – these are just some of the mundane everyday activities that start a movie playing in my head.  I hear every word, see each expression, smell the scents, and experience all the fear as if it were happening again right now.  Even after all these years the memories still give me pause, and I must consciously stop the movie playing and add a narrative that explains these events are in the past.  Remembering past events is not my choice but my reaction to them is, and I choose to see the ridiculousness of the people who hurt me.  It makes them seem small and less threatening which helps me keep moving forward.”

“My upbringing encouraged me to hold in my emotions and deny my secrets.  While this muting was not malicious, it resulted in devastating consequences for my life.  A strong person, I was taught, was one who did not react to emotional situations.  Only strong people restrain themselves and their feelings.  Love was one of the emotions kept under wraps encompassing the physical and verbal expressions.  In the end, hiding the abuse my children and I suffered at the hands of their father/my ex-husband resulted in physical and emotional illness, job loss and financial ruin.  I can’t help but wonder how different things would be if I was encouraged to share my thoughts and feelings.  It is difficult and many times uncomfortable to share my story or ‘sing my song’ but I know the process is healing and I am determined to prevail.”

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“I have repeated many things I was too ignorant to repair.  At one point I merely thought I just had bad luck with relationships.  Many times I was told relationship failures were solely my responsibility.  In truth, healthy boundaries were nonexistent in my life, and it took lots of pain and loss for me to see that.  Now I understand that because I did not respect myself, I allowed others to disrespect me.  So, there is some validity to the statement that my failed relationships were my fault.  I failed to repair my broken pieces and that invited manipulative, abusive people into my life.  The process of repairing is well underway but still incomplete making me fear any new relationship.  I am hopeful that someday I will be well enough to have a healthy relationship.  Until then being single and focusing on raising my children is more than enough to fill my days while the repairs continue.”

Healing Flame

From https://alexhousemn.wordpress.com/2014/02/13/letting-your-light-shine-teens-healing-from-abuse/ via Undeniably Sara.

Timelines II

January 20, 2018

Before I go on to the Saturn-Klotho Initiation and the Haumea Station charts, let me annotate the previous post a bit more; I had to hurry it out the door because of engagements otherwise…

As Dan & Friends, and others including us, have frequently pointed out that we Feel our way into New Timelines…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/01/17/having-it-all/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/10/09/piafa-ii/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/01/02/world-peace-timeline-ii/

The Saturn-Klotho 4-Capricorn Initiation (“Capricorn 4 is ‘A group of people prepare a large canoe for a journey by water’ – starting another Timeline, an Emotional one,” 5pm PST 21 January), points us in that direction…

The chart isn’t as messy as it looks.  Put your thumb over OR10-Nessus-Nemesis at the upper right, and what we have left is a Diamond Star Enhanced by a Grand Trine…

That’s a pretty Exalted chart!  It’s all about Boundaries (Pallas).  The would-be Challenge (the T-Square) is about whether your Boundaries Enhance your Life Force or Drain it (Varuna-Aletheia), and whether your Values Serve your Self-Love or Diminish it (Venus-Sappho).  Which are pretty Fundamental, and Serious, Challenges. 

But it’s a Diamond Star – the “Bowl of Grace” under the T-Square includes What We’re Manifesting (Makemake), and Which Among Our Beliefs are Archaic (Vesta-Karma).  These are “free clues” that, if we’re Open to the Information they provide, will Facilitate our Letting Go of Values that Diminish our Self-Love and Boundaries that Drain our Life Force. 

By PIAVAing Clarity about the Disconnect between What We Want and What Actually Is (Makemake), we can see where we need to go next with our Tapping and Poor-Sweethearting.  And by PIAVAing Loving Awareness of our Archetypes, we can see where we need to Learn new Responses to the World (Vesta-Karma).

Then we have that fat Earth Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace) in the center, promising Great Blessings between our Boundaries (Pallas), our Truth (Veritas), and our New Timeline (Saturn-Klotho-Quaoar).

But where are the promised Emotions?  None of these twelve planets are in Water Signs.  They’re under your thumb – OR10-Nessus-Nemesis in Pisces.  OR10 signifies Intrusive Memories, Nessus represents Abuse, Nemesis symbolizes Ego Death, and Pisces is about Finishing Business with Emotional Baggage.  Yes, that’s all very Threatening, but it’s a zit on the side of a well-organized chart full of incredible Grace. 

So yes, by all means Feel and Embrace any Fear that the Threat of Revisiting your PTSD evokes.  That step is critical, as without it you may have to Re-Experience the Trauma rather than Revisit it.  What to do with Fear?  Certainly Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4), Breathe (Fear + Breathing = Excitement), and do your Kegels (which in combination with Fear cause Time to slow down so it’s more manageable). 

You may want to enlist an Ally to help keep part of you in the Present Moment.  We Heal first by first Holding our Traumatic Regression and our Present-Moment Safety in our Awareness at the same time – which is why we’ve been practicing Cognitive Dissonance (Holding Contradictory Beliefs without Competition between them) all these years.  And second, by enlisting our Present-Moment Self to Poor-Sweetheart our Regressed Self as a start toward Loving Her Unconditionally and Lovingly Reparenting Her.  Or Him.

We’re describing this as if it’s an easy mechanical process when in fact it’s an Overwhelmingly Emotional process.  But maybe not as Overwhelming as we Fear.  Karma is Dead.  We know that Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp our Karma, only because it’s a Habit we have.  Our Present-Moment Self and/or our Ally need to Give us Permission to Let Go of the Habit.  Yes, we drop into the Void when we drop that Habit, but Emptiness is the Womb that precedes Rebirth – another important reminder for our Guides to Give us.

And the chart is full of Grace.  Healing our Emotional Baggage is only the Rider; the Enhanced Diamond Star is the Horse.  The Horse can carry you much farther, and with much greater Ease, than you can travel on your own.  And the Timing is Gloriously Right.  Grand Septiles are rare, and if we can use this one to Let Go of Emotional Baggage that stands between us and our Liberation, it’s a phenomenal Blessing.  You know from Experience how Effortless something is when the Time Is Right, and how Impossible the same task can be when the Time Isn’t Right.

One more boon.  Nessus-Nemesis (Letting Go of Trauma) is part of a second T-Square, with Vesta-Karma (Archaic Self-Sabotage) and Veritas (Present-Moment Truth).  This T-Square is Trine-Bridged by Pallas/Boundaries – the primary Benefactor of the original Enhanced Diamond Star…

So, what would happen if there was an additional planet Opposing Saturn-Klotho, at 4 Cancer?  We’d have another Diamond Star, which would greatly Ease the whole Letting-Go-of-Emotional-Baggage process.  A Vacancy in an almost-Major-Configuration becomes the Power Point of the chart, because if we can Consciously provide that Energy, we Complete the Configuration and Balance the Energy – the astrological equivalent of Tapping. 

Cancer 4 is “A cat arguing with a mouse.”  That’s our Doubt, Anxiety, and Lack of Trust.  Arguments are Either/Or contests, Energy-wasting Diversions.  So we need to be Hypervigilant for these Mental Noises, Poor-Sweetheart them, Tap Out the Anxiety, thank them for attempting to contribute, Chuckle at them Tenderly, and send them away with instructions to return when they’ve Negotiated Win-Win.  They’re likely to come back with the password to Smaug’s hoard.

Opportunities to Expand

June 4, 2017

This week, Jupiter Invites us to Expand…

Around Allowing the Body to Heal Itself…

http://expandedconsciousness.com/2015/09/10/your-cells-are-listening-how-talking-to-your-body-helps-you-heal/

“ ‘Every part of your body has its own consciousness or its own soul.’   These transformative words, spoken by indigenous medicine women, began my journey within to discover the extraordinary healing capacity of the human body.

“When this perspective was introduced to me, I was suffering from a severe chronic pain disorder.  I suddenly imagined incorporating this concept into my meditation routine.  I thought, Can my body hear me…can I talk to it to gain its cooperation in healing this condition?

“That night, after reaching a state of deep calm through meditation, I inwardly engaged my body in a heartfelt conversation, with hope, but having no idea what to expect.  After about one hour of this focused communication, something amazing happened.  My tissues began to respond.  Connective tissue pulled and stretched apart layers of scar tissue.  Nerves fired and my calf muscles began to perform flexion and extension exercises independently of my conscious control.  As this response continued, one of my calf muscles that had become paralyzed by the neuropathic condition — diagnosed as Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy — came back to life as electric-like jolts shot through the area…”

Of course you can apply this at any level.  For instance,

  • “Every part of our Garden has its own consciousness or its own soul” that we can Invite to Thrive or Stand Down. 
  • Every part of our Communities have their own consciousness or their own soul” that can be Invited to Coordinate and Cooperate and Respect Itself and Others, and Heal and Thrive. 
  • Every part of our Nations have their own consciousness or their own soul” that we can Invite to Embrace Itself and Others with Loving Kindness. 
  • “Every part of our Planet has its own consciousness or its own soul” that can be Invited to Outperform its previous best attempt to Collaborate rather than Competing with Other parts of Itself.

Around Identity…

http://danielscranton.com/you-are-arcturian-and-so-much-more-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“We have awakened within you a piece of your galactic history.  At some point in your cycle of incarnations you have incarnated in our star system, not just once, many times.  For some of you, Arcturus feels like home, and for others of you another star system feels like where you are from.  You ability to reconcile the fact that you have incarnated all over this galaxy and this universe in every imaginable form connects you more deeply to your Source Energy origins.

“You cannot claim to be one thing and not another if you are going to align yourself with that which is All That Is.  Now, you can feel an affinity for certain aspects of yourself and feel that they are more powerful or stronger than other aspects, but you cannot deny any part of yourself if you are going to know yourself as Source Energy, if you are going to acknowledge your Divinity.

“We invite you to feel for that which is Arcturian within you, that which is Pleiadian within you, that which is Sirian within you, that which is Andromedan within you.  Imagine that you are capable of holding all of these different energies, all of these different forces, and all of these difference vibrations within you at once, and imagine that you can be in harmony and at peace with so many different perspectives coexisting, and then know that if you can imagine that it can be so.

“And if you can imagine that, then you can have peace of Earth, peace in the galaxy, peace in the universe.  You restore peace and harmony by acknowledging that you are absolutely a part of everyone, everything, and all that is.  And you grant yourselves the Divinity that you have often sought outside of yourselves by recognizing that all exists within you as well.

“It is tempting to want to claim one aspect of Source as who you are and to define yourself by it, but instead, see it as a choice.  See it as a choice you are making in the moment, and know that you can make other choices at other times.  You can activate other parts of yourself to know yourself more fully and to experience oneness within you, an individual.”

Around Vignettes of Regret or Shame…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

(Look for 4 June 2017 in her Archives once Marilyn has posted a new download, which she does every two weeks or so.)

“It is our loving work to advise and assist everyone awakening into a new and truer state of consciousness.  You are doing a fine job of it, in spite of the confusion often resulting from the discovery that many tried and true beliefs were nothing more than concepts accepted as reality.  The first step of all change is awareness.
“Gaia and all her people are experiencing the energies of a massive shift into higher and truer ways of understanding.  The blinders are coming off and this can be traumatic for the un-prepared  because everyone has lived hundreds of lifetimes in the dense three dimensional belief system, embracing it as reality.  Opening to and accepting that it was formed from illusory concepts of duality and separation can be very difficult to accept.
“The early stages of awakening often bring about emotions of guilt and shame.  This is because when certain past actions are remembered with new awareness, they are recognized as having been negative and selfish.  When and if this happens, lovingly accept that that you were acting from your highest sense of right at that time which is all anyone is required to do, and call to mind that guilt and regret are emotions based in identification with a false sense of self.
“At the same time, be aware that many of those past experiences now causing shame or regret were actually pre-planned interactions, opportunities important for the spiritual growth of all involved.  Be alert to emotions as they arise, not resisting them but seeing them as perfect signs pointing to lingering false beliefs — ‘What am I believing that is making me feel this way?’
“It is time to begin thinking of, believing in, and accepting yourselves as Divine Beings, as I AM instead of the personal sense of self as Mary or Jim.  Yes, the world will continue to see you as human and you will continue to go about your human activities, but until you can accept and know yourself as I AM, you will forever be on a journey of seeking.  Journeys are meant to lead somewhere, not meant to go on indefinitely…”

There’s a tradition around that whole “I AM” business that I’m not totally familiar with, but I Believe the point is that rather than “I AM such-and-such [or] so-and-do” you want to just stop at “I AM,” sort of the Egoic equivalent of “It Is What It Is.”

And around Changing your Vibration…

http://danielscranton.com/shifting-is-easy-to-do-%e2%88%9earchangel-michael/

“Blinking in and out of the physical reality is something that you do without realizing that you are doing it.  You are not physical for exactly as long as you are physical.  And this blinking gives you an opportunity to blink in to another reality.  It is easier for you to shift to a parallel universe than you might think…”

“This is not something that you can do in order to escape a problem because as long as you are focused on a problem, you are incapable of keeping up with the very fast rate at which you are blinking in and out.  This is something you can do when you are in a very high-vibrational state, when you are feeling light, carefree, and joyous…”

Poor-Sweethearting

May 11, 2017

We often talk about the Chironean process, whereby we take something that we Reject – often accompanied by Pain or even Severe Pain – Despair for instance, and convert it to Miracles.  When we’re Feeling great Pain such as Despair, it’s very difficult to Detach our Identity from the Pain.  But Pain is always much more manageable when we Feel it rather than Being it.

We often abbreviate this process by calling it “Poor-Sweethearting,” because the easiest way to put it to work is to say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you.”  That simple statement is Magic, because by saying it we’re stepping out of our previous Identity – Despair – and stepping into a New Identity, as a Compassionate Witness.

Eugene Gendlin, the creator of the Focusing process, wrote his PhD dissertation on what actually worked in psychotherapy.  He observed a large number of counseling sessions that used different methods and theories of Healing, and concluded that it didn’t much matter what method or theory was used; counselors that were successful were those that Empathized with their clients.  Those that didn’t Empathize didn’t have successful outcomes with their clients.

Which is exactly what we’re doing by Poor-Sweethearting, Empathizing with ourself.  Tapping uses the same principle, when we begin the process with “Even though I’m in Despair, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself. 

When we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, we shift our Perspective.  We’re no longer looking out from the Perspective of Despair, we’re now looking in from the Perspective of Compassion.  Einstein supposedly said that you can’t solve a problem using the same thinking that postulated it, and that’s exactly what we’re doing, were changing our thinking, our Perspective.  And Poor-Sweethearting ourself is literally all we need to do because the next step is to Change the Subject, like we do when we’re PIAVAing.

If we don’t Change the Subject, our old Perspective takes back over, and we’re stuck with the same unfunctional Perspective on the same problem.  So we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, and then we just go about our business.  We may not even notice it when Miracles happen.  Miracles are simply things which are beyond the range of Possibility from our old Perspective.  Once we Change Perspectives, the range of Possibilities Changes, and Voila, Miracles.

Alternatively, before we Change the Subject we can sit with ourself for a little while after we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, because often we can hear or Feel a Child’s small voice answering us from within.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Helpless, aren’t you.”  “Well, there’s nothing I can do!” she might reply.  If we can develop a dialog with these Inner Kids of ours, that’s a goldmine.  They have untold information about how our Limiting Beliefs formed in our current Lifetime, and that information can help Liberate us from Self-Sabotage.

I certainly don’t claim to have invented Self-Empathy, but the Poor-Sweethearting process came to me after I had refused induction to Vietnam, and I was waiting for the FBI to come and arrest me.  I spent a lot of time working over many different possible actions and possible consequences in my head in those days, and Despair was never far away.  Of course it was not my first Experience with Despair, but it was a Powerful and Extended Recurrence.

I was impressed today when Daniel Scranton Channeled a more-Neutral version of the same process…

 http://danielscranton.com/the-power-of-acceptance-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“Greetings.  We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“We have always been willing to accept where you are in any moment, as a collective and as individuals.  It has been this acceptance that has allowed us to see beyond where you were in the moment, and this has given us the insights that we knew you would be able to receive at some point.

“Your willingness to accept your current circumstances in your lives will enable you to shift.  Acceptance will enable you to loosen your grip on your current set of circumstances, and that will assist you in creating something new, something more to your liking, something that you will more readily be able to enjoy.  The process of acceptance is like anything else. It doesn’t happen all at once.  It happens in stages or steps.

“First, you must be aware of something, and then you must allow yourself the reaction to it.  In other words, you’re still going to feel your emotions, even though your goal will be to find a place of acceptance within you.  After you have processed whatever emotions come up within you regarding your circumstances, you can open yourself up to the possibility that what you are experiencing in the present moment is actually serving you in some way.

“And once you come to that conclusion, it becomes easier for you then to accept the circumstances you are in.  And when you see how something serves you, you also see how it is temporary and anything that you need to do in order to move past it on the physical level.  The change becomes clearer to you, and the steps that are required to make those changes become evident.

“Most importantly, when you are in acceptance, you are not in a state of judgment.  You are not criticizing yourself for being where you are, and you are not in resistance.  Therefore, you enable yourselves to find some comfort in your current situation, some relief, and you give yourselves the necessary ingredients to catapult you into a better future.

“We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”

May 3

May 2, 2017

Lots of Convergence in the Channeled material this week…

http://drkimderamo.com/working-hard-coaching-business/

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2017/05/01/pushing-the-easy-button/

http://danielscranton.com/doing-what-you-love-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

http://danielscranton.com/your-new-abilities-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

All about Making (or Taking) it Easy.  At first glance though the Mercury Station chart (3 May 10am PDT) looks pretty complicated…

We’ll deconstruct it in a minute; for now, notice the orange lines forming a “bowl.”  This is the beginnings of a Grand Quintile (Excellent Opportunity for Learning) that pretty much dominates the 10 May Full Moon chart as the Sun moves into the Vacant fifth position in the Configuration. 

We’ll talk more about that soon; for now, just be Alert that whatever Difficulty or Confusion you Encounter is really about Learning.  We can Learn all manner of “information” without encountering Discomfort, but Real Learning, as in Growth of Consciousness, is often accompanied by Difficulty or Confusion or both.  The Grand Quintile tells us not to try to Puzzle it Out, but to just be Open to Big Change.  Big Change always introduces the Unknown, and Puzzling it Out can only rearrange the deck chairs.

The rest of the chart is actually two Yin GatesBased on our recent Experience we probably think Yin Gates are pretty common, but they actually aren’t.  Two at once is fairly remarkableThe Spiritual Function of a Yin Gate is to give us the Opportunity to Embrace Paradox – that is, to escape the tyranny of the Patriarchal “left brain” and witness the World and the Mysteries more Wholistically.  Again, more admonitions not to try to make Logical Sense out of what we Experience, but rather to make Esoteric Sense out of it.

Let’s tease out the two Yin Gates

First, here’s the Rebirth into Yintegrity Yin Gate.  A Yin Gate is an Opposition (long red line) at the center of a Golden Rectangle (blue box).  Normally an Opposition represents a Duality; a Yin Gate Asks us to Pay Attention to the Coin rather than the heads or tails.  This one has Haumea (Rebirth) on one end and the Merger of Stationary Mercury (Paying Attention), Uranus (our Soul Self), and Eris (the Compulsion to Live our Truth) on the other.

The latter threesome represents YintegrityYangtegrity is Doing what we said we were going to do, no matter what.  Yintegrity is Doing what we darn well Feel like doing, moment to moment – this is, Trusting our Instincts and Intuitions more than we Trust our Commitments.  Of course in Yintegrity we’d Minimize our Commitments, Renegotiate often, and make quality Amends where Renegotiation wasn’t possible and the Relationship was worth keeping – we’d prefer both Yin- and Yang-tegrity to One or the Other (or neither), though we might emphasize One more than the Other while we Learn how they Differ and Practice each One.

Second there’s the Stealing Energy from Fear and Investing It in Self-Love Yin Gate, with Sedna (Fear) on one end and Sappho (Self-Love) on the other.  We’ve had Experience with this one, and discussed it at length, earlier this year.  Suddenly the Channelings – Pushing the Ease Button, Trusting Ourself – start to make Sense, eh?

In each picture we’ve drawn in the rest of the Configuration with lighter lines.  Notice that the two Yin Gates are connected by a Grand Cross (the tilted red square with the X in the center).  That just means that they’re tightly Integrated, giving us the Opportunity to Practice Yintegrity in the context of Self-Love and vice versa.

It’s worth Paying Attention to the other two Oppositions – Chaos (Unlimited Potential) Opposite Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is to Recover our Abandoned Genius), which is on the Galactic Center (Orders from HQ) and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things) Opposite Chiron (Healing the Unhealable). 

If you’re Estranged from anyone, this would be an excellent time to Clear the Conflict, even if it’s “just” to Finish Business and Move On.  And there’s an excellent chance that what you discovered you couldn’t stand about them, or the unacceptable critique they made of you, are big neon signs pointing to your Abandoned Genius.  You don’t need to discuss that with them if it’s not Safe to do so, but you do need to spend time Exploring it on your own or with Safe Friends, because your Abandoned Genius is part of the missing link that will Heal the Unhealable elements of our Huperity, of our misuse of the Home Planet, and of the Despair we can’t help but feel about it.

Re-listen or Re-read the Channelings we began the post with; with a little Effort you’ll see the footprints of your Abandoned Genius in them.

This week I was invited to Attend a Conference on Sustainability put on by Native Americans, but I had a very difficult time finding out the timing and the agenda, even after asking for help.  Rather than reading that as a Sign that it wasn’t my cup of Buffalo Water, it occurred to me that my current path may be leading me away from Reunification with Nature – especially around the Money issues we discussed a couple of posts ago in Forbidden Genius and Responsibility

It’s very easy to make a case that Money is an Artifact of the Industrial Revolution that is on its final Debriefing (till 2021).  Is relaxing about it a Sign that we’ve Transcended it, or a Sign that we’ve Surrendered to it?  Well, today I realized that of course it’s Both/And – how could it be otherwise! – just another Paradox!

Mine or Yours?

March 7, 2017

This will only be live till 5pm PST today, so if you can, catch it quick.  If it doesn’t play for you, you may have to first sign up for the Tapping World Summit (which is almost over), which you can do at http://www.thetappingsolution.com/ .  It’s Carole Tuttle Tapping on our Programming to take on other people’s Energy.  

As you listen to her discussion of your Herstorical Little Kid, remember this mind-bending quote from Michael Roads (From Illusion to Enlightenment, p.12)…

“In a greater reality all time occupies the same moment, meaning that the past and future are taking place simultaneously in the moment and thus the past can be changed as easily as the future…  Anything in the past that is unresolved is unresolved in this moment, an in the moment can be changed and resolved.”

The audio session lasts almost an hour.  It’s Excellent.  Her Superhero Skill as MirrorWoman is fantastic…

http://www.thetappingsolution.com/2017event/R00Ms/D8-RR-6812.php 

Carole’s website is https://my.liveyourtruth.com/dyt/home/ ; I’m sure you can find similar sessions (and maybe even this one, later) on her site if this one has expired.  If all else fails, talk to Nick or Jessica at http://www.thetappingsolution.com/ .