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4 July IV – Embracing Paradox

June 26, 2017

We’ll talk a lot more about that complex Sedna-Square-Nodes chart (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/06/25/4-july-iii/) between now and 4 July.  But there are two simultaneous charts that are also important .  One is the chart of the Sappho and Klotho Stations… 

  • The Sappho (Self-Love) Station is Exact at 2pm PDT 3 July in 15 Scorpio
  • The Klotho (Initiating a New Timeline) Station at 9am PDT 4 July at 11 Scorpio 
  • The Sedna-Nodes Square is Exact late morning 4 July, and the Moon completes the Grand Cross at 3pm PDT 4 July, in 27 of the Fixed Signs 

And the other chart, which we’ll also talk about later, is the Station of Haumea (Rebirth) at 9pm PDT 6 July, in 23 Libra.

While the Stations may not seem simultaneous, in the three-day span between 2pm PDT 3 July and 9pm PDT 6 July, Sappho, Klotho, and Haumea move less than two Arcminutes.  The Full Moon as seen from your house appears to be more than fifteen times as wide as that distance.  In other words, while the Exact Stations may be several hours apart, the planets are all simultaneously Standing Still, or very close to it.

Given this collection of simultaneous Stations, another Big Rebirth is the obvious Order of the Day, and it seems that we’re likely to be Choosing to be Reborn into another Life of Fear, or one where we’ve Let Go of Fear, replacing it with Love or Curiosity.  The Stations deserve, and will get, their own posts, but it’s very relevant in the context of this Rebirth to consider the two Yin Gates that appear on the graph in the previous post.  They’re…

  • Sedna Opposite Moon, splitting the Golden Rectangle composed of Ceres, which is Out of Bounds (Strong Sustainability), Pandora (who deserves her own paragraph), Uranus-Eris (Yintegrity), and the Saturn-Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar-Galactic Center Stellium (The Most Important Thing here is to Follow the Command from Headquarters to Take Charge of Recovering our Forbidden Genius)
  • Pandora Opposite Uranus-Eris, splitting the Golden Rectangle of Sedna (Fear), Hopi (Respect for All Things), Moon (Manifestation), and Chiron-Lachesis (Choosing between Enduring or Transforming Pain)

The Sedna-Moon Yin Gate is drawn with heavy lines, and the remainder of the overlapping Pandora-Uranus/Eris Yin Gate in lighter lines. 

A Yin Gate is formed when an Opposition splits the short side of a Golden Rectangle.  The Golden Rectangle is drawn in blue; blue because it represents Grace, and Golden because the ratio between the lengths of the two sides is the Golden Angle of Sacred Geometry.  The Oppositions are shown in red (symbolizing Energy or Motivation).  The green lines represent Curiosity.  Curiosity, like Love, eschews Judgment, so we regard it as paramount.  The centerpiece of the Yin Gate is the pair of side-by-side green Xs or interlocking Curiosities.

The Moon moves quickly, so it will be within three Degrees of Sensitivity from its Sedna Opposition for only about twelve hours.  However, we’re talking about a major Rebirth, ie, a Birth, so eight Degrees of Sensitivity is more relevant; that’s more like 32 hours, or the majority of a day on either side of 3pm PDT 4 July.  The Exact Haumea Station falls outside that span, but the important thing is that during the span, Haumea is Stationary.  It means we get a day and a half to check for and correct Birth Defects between the Sedna-Moon Yin Gate and the Haumea Rebirth.

A Yin Gate is a Mystery School, the Objective of which is to Teach us that Paradox demonstrates to us the Inadequacy of our Dualistic orientation toward Life.  Real Life is replete with Contradictions, because Real Life is Unitary and Multifarious (the ultimate Paradox, so to speak), not Dual.  So Contradiction is a sandwich-board painted in big red letters, that says “Here Lies One of Your Limiting Beliefs.” 

However, we’re wearing the sandwich-board, so we can’t see what it says without a Mirror, and of course then it’s backwards.  Hence Blame and Judgment are born; since we can’t read our Limiting Belief, we accuse Other of hypocrisy, since they’re obviously Living a Contradiction.  A Yin Gate is simply a second Mirror that we can use, if we Choose, to view the backwards writing and Witness our Limiting Belief directly.

Okay, Pandora.  Remember that the primary purpose of the Greek Mythologizers was to refute the Matriarchy that was their Heritage, and replace it with the foundations of the Patriarchy.  No Blame, that kind of ping-pong is just what happens when we Live in Duality.  Having awoken one morning with the shocking Realization that they were all spawned by Women, they needed a Story to counteract that horrific Reality.  Hence, Pandora, the alleged first woman in their Mythos, and, appropriately for a Patriarchal if not downright Misogynistic Story line, she introduced Evil into the World, mostly in the form of Seduction.

It’s quite easy to find training in the Plan-Do-Study-Act Masculine or Dynamic Creation process.  Except as an adjunct to Power-Over Religions, it hasn’t been nearly as easy, till recently, to find training in the Feminine or Magnetic Creation process, or PIAVA and its variations.  It’s considered Magic, and to many, Magic is always Black.  That is, even without Patriarchal Intimidation and Bullying, we still labor under the Limiting Belief that the Feminine is “Evil.”  So we see asteroid Pandora as symbolizing the Choice to maintain or Clear that Belief.

The Moon, meanwhile, boasts three levels of Symbolism.  At the lowest level it represents variability, or our “Random” Emotions.  Once we stop including Intuition in the Evil category (as “inferior” to Logic, Heaven Forbid), however, those “Random” Emotions become Instincts, the second level.  If we’re attempting to Power-Over someone, we definitely see their Instincts toward Survival and Sovereignty as Evil.  The third level of the Moon is Manifestation.  Lunar Emotions are the Glue that holds Energy together into Matter and recognizable Form.  It’s not necessarily that the Moon Creates; the Moon symbolizes Creation, and specifically Magnetic Creation. 

So we have a training in the Paradoxical Relationships between Manifestation (Moon) and Fear (Sedna) and a cross-training (symbolized by the overlap between the two Yin Gates) in the Paradoxical Relationships between Yintegrity (Uranus-Eris) and Magnetism (Pandora).

For instance, if we’re in Yintegrity, we have no need for Manipulation and Guile, right?  Bullshit.  We were trained by the Patriarchs never to lie about chopping down Cherry Trees, but in fact, Truth is always on a Need-to-Know basis.  For one thing, we don’t owe them our Time, and most of all, we don’t want to cast our Pearls before Pink Animals (or any other color).  Quite simply, we demean ourself when we do that.  You don’t Teach children what’s not age-appropriate, and the same goes for Teaching adults what’s not maturity-appropriate or Spiritually-appropriate.  People need to earn your Trust.

And everyone knows that we can’t Manifest when we’re in Fear; we need to deal with the Fear before we can fuel our Manifestation Engine with the necessary Passion.  Again, Bullshit.  Fear is one of the more Passionate Emotions we can Feel, and what do we Create when in Fear?  More Fear.  It’s exponential.  Two units of unprocessed Fear Create four, and four units Create sixteen.

Are any of our Judgments not based on Fear?  Maybe “What Am I Afraid Of?” should be our Mantra, or “Who am I afraid of?”  Followed by  “How does that Mirror my Limiting Beliefs” or better yet, “I Wonder how that Mirrors my Limiting Beliefs” followed by Changing the Subject then Paying Attention (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).  Once we Locate the Emotion of Fear in our Body, that’s behind the Fearsome or Anxious thoughts, several iterations of Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) usually resolves the Emotional Overload.  From there we can move toward Love or Curiosity, or simply move on to our next Fear.

There are two very special Fears that encompass a great deal of our Limiting Beliefs, and which especially hinder our Relationships.  These are Fear of Abandonment and Fear of Suffocation.  Most of us emphasize one or the other, though most commonly we have both.  These are both so ancient that they’re barely Personal, though we all have Personal Experience in our backgrounds to reinforce the Karma

No Huper Survives without Community.  To Fear that our Community (or our Partner, or our employer, or our family, or …) is Rejecting us, is to fall under the grip of the ancient Archetype of Abandonment.  We need to Learn where we Feel that in our Body, Lovingly and Gently Embrace it there, and become Ferociously Mindful for any thought that reinforces it, replacing it with a PIAVA that we find our Tribe, with its Unconditional Acceptance and Unfailing Protection.  Yes, no Protection is totally Unfailing, but we can PIAVA it – maybe that’s just a Limiting Belief.

Our Fear of Abandonment is one of the weaknesses that the Patriarchy uses, quite skillfully, to keep us under their thumbs.  And that’s our Fear of Suffocation, our Fear that someone will Control us and Prevent us from Exercising our True Self.  Fear of Suffocation is an Archetype as old as the Individual Soul.  I don’t encounter it as often as I encounter Fear of Abandonment, but it’s there, and it’s important to bring into Consciousness where it can be Transmogrified.

When we can replace “Don’t tell me what to do, you Bastard!” with “Oh, there’s my Suffocation Archetype again!” and replace “Shit, what if I get laid off?” with “Oh, there’s my Abandonment Archetype again!” we will regain a great deal of the Power we’ve been allowing our thoughts to drain out of us.  Next time you’re watching the News, or dealing with a difficult person who’s important in your Life, watch to see how many times these Archetypes arise.  That difficult person may not be draining your Power on purpose, but I can guarantee you that the News is.

Marilyn Raffaele has Channeled an Arcturian Teaching for us around Fear…

The original, which will move a few weeks from now: http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html
A copy, which hopefully will not move: https://rainbowwaveoflight.wordpress.com/2017/06/25/arcturian-group-message-june-25-2017-marilyn-raffaele-onenessofall-com/

Excerpts follow…

“Dear ones, be not afraid of what you are seeing and hearing, for these are the symbols of a changing universe, the dying throes of old energy that is soon to become part of another world in which [those of] you who have chosen to awaken need not take part.  All have been given the choice to ascend.  Most are unaware of this, but on the deeper levels, everyone is choosing.

“[Do not] fear for or be concerned about family and friends who may be choosing not to awaken at this time.  Their Higher Self in its infinite wisdom may know that they need more three dimensional type experiences before they will be ready to leave them behind.  Every person will ascend into higher levels of awareness at some point in their journey, it is inevitable.  [Humanity’s] true nature is Divine and [it] is not meant to spend forever living the experiences of illusory beliefs.”

“True peace is a peace that the three dimensional state of consciousness knows nothing about and thus can never successfully create through treaties, wars, dominance, and punishment – ideas based in the sense of separation.  Because ‘peace’ created through these methods is based in duality and separation, sooner or later the ‘good side’ will flip to the ‘bad side,’ for the belief in duality always manifests as pairs of opposites.  Real peace can only manifest when the substance from which it is formed is present–consciousness.

“Peace is the natural expression of Love, the realization that all is ONE within the ONE.  Why would anyone want to hate, hurt, deceive, lie, kill, and make to suffer, itself?  It is only the dense energies of personal and collective unevolved states of consciousness that see power over others as an appropriate action to bring about peace.  Peace is the birthright of every person because it is the reality – globally and individually.”

“At this time there are many very evolved souls on earth, here to be examples to others as well as to add their Light to the collective.  They did not need to come in order to resolve karma or learn lessons of love, because they have already done this work on earth or on other planets.

“Seeing the need of humans for help at this powerful time of change, these souls lovingly chose to assist. You can see them in all walks of life doing seemingly ordinary things and will recognize them by a loving but often intense energy as they work to bring deeper awareness into situations where it is needed.  They are often intuitively felt as being powerful, but to human eyes look ordinary.

“Actions of love occur daily, but you are primarily served the negative from most news sites.  This is why it is important to limit your involvement in the news because it can easily pull you back into old energy.  It is fine to be aware of what is going on around you, but do not align with it.  It is the same idea as when you align with the energy of some low resonating person and then find yourself drained of energy, which is how the term ‘energy vampires’ came about.

“In all situations, and with all people, places, things, and events keep your energy field clear, filled with light, and not in alignment with any lower resonating energy that may be present.  Lower resonating energies have a sense of ‘heaviness’ about them which is easily felt in some places and with certain people.  Do not fear it for it has no power other than what you give it, but be aware of not aligning or identifying with it.  You may just choose to leave.”

“Up to this point, serious seekers have been allowed to continue in some of their old energy ways without much repercussion, but because the resonance of earth has become so much more rarified, everyone’s corners of belief are being swept out and the spiritual leash has become very short.

“Remember this when small events and actions once considered unimportant, start to feel very important and may even bring in a sense of guilt which you don’t understand.  This is because your energy field has become increasingly more attuned to the higher frequencies of Light, causing you to easily sense when you are out of alignment.”

Saturn and Fear

April 7, 2017

While Saturn (The Most Important Thing) is past it’s Exact Station, it’s Still Stationary.  It remains within one Degree of its Exact Station till 11 May.  One Degree is a fairly conservative measure of Sensitivity.  The impact of an event like a Saturn Station will fade because other astroevents become more prominent before it fades because it loses Sensitivity.  And we have many astroevents in the queue.

However, even though an astroevent like a Saturn Station can fade into background noise, that doesn’t mean it goes away.  We’ve often said, though I don’t think we have lately, that the impact of an astroevent builds in Power till the moment it’s Exact, then falls off rapidly.  So once we passed 10pm PDT on 5 April, The Most Important Thing began to seem less important.

However, that rapid falloff after an astroevent is Conditional.  It depends on what we’re thinking and doing.  If we are Conscious and Paying Attention to the event, an astroevent will indeed disappear after its Climax.  

But if we Focused (Focus is another way to interpret Saturn) on our Fears instead, we could have made Decisions or initiated Actions that cemented those Fears in place.  That will extend the impact of the astroevent, potentially for Lifetimes.  This is how Karma is created.

We associate Saturn with Fear because Saturn demands that we Focus on The Most Important Thing.  Well, if we “fail” at The Most Important Thing, that can be Felt as a big hit to the Ego.  So we try to keep up our secondary priorities, as fallbacks, should #1 not do so well.  When Saturn is Lit Up, all secondary priorities will take care of themselves, and can be safely ignored.  They’ll be waiting for us after Saturn cools off.  But we may not Trust that.

Suppose our Most Important Thing is Healing, but we’re scared that we’ll run out of Money.  So while Saturn is Stationary we accept a job that will – as many jobs do – retard our Healing instead.  Not only have we missed the Opportunities for Healing that Saturn’s Focus would have Gifted to us, but we’ve backtracked and increased the Healing we’ll need in the Future.

I believe that’s why Michael Roads emphasized Fear in a recent “365 Steps” email…

http://int.michaelroads.org/

“For most people, various fears are part of our everyday life.  Some fears we can live with, some we can laugh at, some we can bypass, but our more powerful fears crack the whip that ruthlessly controls our lives.  Living with courage means acknowledging our fears, even accepting them, but not allowing the fears to limit, restrict, or contain our life.  It is a Truth that every fear is false.  If you face your fear, totally confronting it, you will find it is without any power.  Fear is an impostor.  Do not let fear indefinitely impose its false illusions over you.  Choose Love!”

Daniel Scranton also Channeled related material…

http://danielscranton.com/giant-leaps-forward-in-your-evolution-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“When you have an experience in your life that takes you to the edge of your ability to process, that is when you know you are making a giant leap forward in your evolution. It is often through the most painful experiences, the most challenging circumstances, and the most heart wrenching moments that you take your biggest steps forward.

“Now, as you consider these moments in your lives, you often feel like you are drowning in them, like you have mis-created, or like you are a victim of some sort. But if you were to take yourselves out of the details of the experience you are having and shift your perspective on it, seeing it as an opportunity to make a giant leap forward, you would transform the experience, and you would transform the circumstances immediately.

“You don’t have to change anything about what you are experiencing in order for you to move through it with ease and grace. You just need to see it for what it is. It is an opportunity, an opportunity to grow, an opportunity to become more of who you are. And it is always your creation, which means you have given yourself the perfect opportunity, the perfect catalyst to springboard you to the next level of your evolution.”

And by the way, I’ve had many people tell me that they aren’t interested in “Ascension,” either because they “Love this Planet” or because they “Want to Stay and Help,” Boddhisattvas that they are.

Suzanne Lie has an interesting comment in her latest Channeling…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2017/04/the-golden-ones-talk-about-leaving-time.html

“We begin our communication by asking you to remember that ascension is ‘leaving time.’  So if we try to put a ‘time marker’ on moving beyond time, we are limiting our consciousness to third/fourth dimensional thinking.” 

When she says “leaving time” she doesn’t mean “time to leave” the Planet.  She means that one of the hallmarks of Ascension is that we are no longer hypnotized by Linear Time, but we are Able and Willing to fully Live in the Infinite Now.  When we do that we can be anywhere and everywhere; it’s not about Leaving the Planet.

I understand your Confusion; until I read Michael Roads’s recent books I had no idea what anyone meant when the talked about “Ascension” – to my knowledge it was all rhetoric.  And I read a lot.  

I’ve often talked though about replacing Competition and Avarice with Collaboration and Abundance (the latter meaning “Having Enough to Share”).  Genia Haddon’s picture or the Yang Feminine that she expects will follow the demise of the Patriarchy echos this, and adds details (eg, her book Body Metaphors).  Michael Roads writes about just that as “Ascension,” and adds a lot more details (eg, Through the Eyes of Love Book Three).

As JFK would have put it, “Ich bin ein Arcturian.”  I’ll leave it up to you to Channel the appropriate pastry.

Big Blessing Full Moon – Cutting the Cloth IIIb

March 11, 2017

Okay…

  • We’re still in the “Now” portion of the New Moon chart (ie, the three-Degrees-of- Sensitivity part that pertains to this weekend, this coming week, and a few weeks thereafter), and
  • We’re about to look at the Grace and Curiosity segments of this chart.  
  • In the previous post we looked at the Challenges in this Now portion of the chart.  
  • In our next post we’ll start to look at the “New-Projects” portion of the New Moon chart (ie, the six-Degrees-of-Sensitivity part that pertains to any new projects we’re Beginning, including the New Ego Timeline we’re Birthing with the 13 March Station of Klotho.

So, the Grace in the Now portion of the New Moon chart…

First, paradoxically, Fear and Anger are our Friends here.  Remember that the purpose of a Yin Gate like the one we’ve been Enjoying, is to Teach us to Accept Paradox, and not try to Squeeze it into Either/Or boxes.  If we Strive to Eschew Judgment, which we need to do if we are to move “onward and upward,” then we have to Realize that Everything is at times our Ally and at times our Challenge.

In general, a Full Moon represents a reasonably-friendly Contest between our Paternal Programming and our Maternal Programming.  There may not be one-to-one relationships between Paternal Programming and Paters, and between Maternal Programming and Maters, as we could have gotten either sort of Programming from literally anyone.  In general, our Paternal Programming is Rules-based and Clear, while our Maternal Programming is Situational and Fuzzy.  The former is an intellectual interpretation of the Spiritual, and the latter is more Emotional and Grounded in the Body.

At a Virgo Full Moon like this one, the roles are Confused.  We’re looking at the Emotional side of the Paternal, and the Medusal, apparently-Destructive side of the Maternal.  Our Paternal Programming is especially Confused in this one, because it’s facing Despair, having to make Choices in unfamiliar territory, and Feels like it has very little wiggle-room.  In these circumstances, where our normally-Reliable Archetypes are failing us, Fear and Anger are natural Reactions to the Confusion and Disorder.  

So we have to follow Daniel Scranton’s advice around Fear and Anger…

http://danielscranton.com/explore-your-emotions-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

And then Choose to Relate TO our Fear and not FROM our Fear, and Relate TO our Anger and not FROM our Anger, to use Stephen Levine’s Guidance.  You can use Poor-Sweethearts if you want – “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Confused/Scared/Angry, aren’t you.”  Or any other method of Emotion-Bending and Mind-Bending that works for you.  

Yes, this is very Convoluted.  That’s the whole point.  And from the Perspective of Expanding (or even Exploding) our Perspectives, it’s one hell of a Teaching if we can stick it out and Avoid the Temptation to revert to Certainty.

Whoa, you’re thinking, “That’s Grace?”  Yes, incredible Grace.  In this Rebirth we’re turning ourselves Inside-Out, moving our Vulnerabilities to the Outside, in the form of Openness to the Unexpected, and moving our Protections to the Inside, in the form of Trust that this process with which we have no Current-Lifetime Experience, is Safe for us.  And this Teaching is an excellent Lesson in exactly that.  Without that Trust, we don’t Grow.

Intense.  We’re looking at Sun (Paternal Programming) in Pisces (Exploring the Limits of Emotion) Conjunct (Merged With) Chiron (Despair and Miracle), Pallas (Boundaries), and Moira (Fate), Opposite (Dancing with Duality) Moon (Instinct and Manifestation via PIAVA) in Virgo (Deconstruction of the Ego), with the Opposition Trine-Bridged (Graced) by Sedna (Fear and Anger) in Taurus (Interpretation of Meaning).

I think that’s enough for one sitting, don’t you?  Especially if you actually do the homework,  We’ll continue tomorrow.

Fear + Breathing

January 19, 2017

By the way, don’t forget that Fear + Breathing = Excitement.