Archive for the ‘Fear’ Category

“Dark Days” 5

April 22, 2019

Here’s another Teaching about how to Lighten Up.  It will be online till about 9am PDT 24 April.  It’s Dr. Sue Morter speaking about Energy Flows in the Body, how the Unconscious interacts with the Body, how to Ground and Stabilize the Body and bring it back into Balance (including Kegels), and many other very Integrative Perspectives…

https://energymedicinesummit.com/program/20

Kegels 5

February 7, 2019

I see that more folks than usual are up late looking for answers.  At the risk of sounding oversimple, it probably wouldn’t hurt to review the equations in Einstein’s famous Theory of Relativity…

  • Fear + Courage = Perspective
  • Fear + Breathing = Excitement
  • Fear + Tapping = Grounding
  • Fear + Kegels = Power
  • Anxiety + Poor-Sweethearting = Detachment

I often write late at night, and I used to live in a basement apartment.  While writing I would sometimes feel the hairs on the back of my neck rising, as if someone was just outside my curtained windows looking for an opening.  One night I gathered up my courage and flung open the door – to find a Glorious Full Moon staring at me from the Darkness!

Another time I lived in a creaky old house, and I was alone in the house, in my bedroom with the door shut, when a series of creaks and groans sounded for all the world like someone sneaking up to my door.  Again I flung open the door – and found myself staring at a wardrobe mirror leaning against the wall in the hall, just outside my door.  Now that was scary!  “We have found the Enemy…” as Pogo used to say.

Fear + Breathing is an old equation, which I’ve heard from many reliable sources, and which works well.  Dr. Kim has dozens of excellent variations at…

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=dr+kim+d%27eramo+anxiety

Many of the videos that are less than two minutes long are pitches for her longer sessions, but most of the longer ones share Powerful Mind-Body techniques, like this one…

Dr. Kim includes Tapping in many of these videos.  One of the first things we do in serious Fear is Leave Our Body.  Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) can bring us back in.  In some sense, Leaving our Body is an effective strategy – if someone is about to kill us, we’re already gone, so there isn’t much else they can do to hurt us.  But it may help create a lousy next Lifetime, if we re-enter as a Terrified, Implacable Child.  We have more tools at our disposal when we stay in our Body, or get back In.

I’ve mentioned my Kegels story before, so humor me while I repeat it.  I Learned about Fear and Kegels in a workshop with Jack Schwarz (http://holisticu.org/).  Quite innocently, I went to see the movie Aliens after the workshop.  If you haven’t seen it, the Fear level goes off the charts after a few minutes, and never comes back down till a few minutes before the end of the movie.  Having just Learned it, I was doing Kegels like mad all through the movie – two hours of solid Kegeling!

Jack taught that Kegels Slow Down Time.  If Fear is coming at you at 2mph, it’s a lot easier to handle than at 60mph.  Between the movie theater and where I lived was a mile-long bridge, and after the movie it took me absolutely Forever to cross that bridge!  In that mile I looked at my speedometer maybe ten times, and it kept saying 40mph, but the bridge wouldn’t go away.  It was like being in the Twilight Zone.  I’ve never heard anyone mention Kegels in connection with sports, but I now understand how someone can hit an 80mph curveball.  Sports often refers to it as being “In the Zone.”

And once we’ve determined that our Fear or Agitation is not Present-Moment, or that we aren’t in Imminent Danger, we can say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxious, aren’t you.”  Or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Worried about that deadline, aren’t you.”  As Quilless testified in her Comment to Kegels 4, she “experienced notable Shifts” when she Poor-Sweethearted herself.  It’s a remarkably simple and Powerful technique.

We don’t Leave our Body when we Poor-Sweetheart, but we certainly Leave our Ego, or rather, switch Horses to a different Ego.  It’s basically a Shift into Self-Love.  It’s particularly effective with Anxiety and Worry, because those are markers for being Out Of Self-Love and Questioning our own Competence.  Every Experience is an Opportunity to Learn something Life-Changing.  What if we started every morning with “I Wonder What Wonderful Life-Changing Things I’ll Learn Today.”

One thing I Learned today is that I can afford to be even more Assertive about shunting my Shoulds to the side to make more room for my Wannas.  I tried to work on a big project that’s due next week, and got nowhere, wasting several unproductive hours in the process.  Even when I Noticed how much more Anxiety was involved in having to do everything myself, and PIAVAed help from the Great Spirit and Her Designees, I got nowhere!  So I got the message, Gave It Over, and dove Joyfully into my Wannas.

Considering that Sedna (Fear/Power) is Stationary (Strong) within an eighth of a Degree of the Fixed Star Algol (the Eye of Medusa), we need to review the status of Gender Balance in the World this week.  I think this sums it up fairly well…

…with Speaker Pelosi giving the Antichrist a Celebratory Stinkeye for soundbiting compromise while offering none.  Not exactly a Perseus Moment for the Alpha.

Kegels 3

February 1, 2019

The other elements of Big Grace in the Juno-Sedna chart, and the upcoming Sedna Station chart, are two Diamond Stars.

A T-Square (drawn as a red triangle) is made up of two planets Opposite one another, with a third at their Midpoint (ie, three Signs from each).  It means a Challenge.  The ultimate aim is to become Adept at this Challenge, but it’s via the School of Hard Knocks.  If we haven’t Figured Out what we’re supposed to be Learning, we usually Experience a T-Square as Long-Suffering Frustration.

I mean, how would we know, if we didn’t have our chart drawn up?  And even then, an Ego astrologer would concur that we were screwed.  We’d just think it was horrible Karma!

That’s what I thought about my own T-Squares until I Realized that the Fourth Harmonic (a Square goes one Fourth of the way around the Zodiac) is about Dominion – Healthy Control, Mastery!  (Or, without the possible hidden implication of Slavery as the inverse of Mastery, Adeptness.)  Dominion is the Fourth Principle in the Tarot’s Major Arcana.

A natal T-Square is a Life-Long graduate seminar, where there are no real Answers, only better Questions, better because they lead to a fuller understanding of the Depth and Breadth of the Issue that the T-Square presents.  So when we Reframe it thus, each Bummer in our Life-Long series of Bummers, has taught us a new Principle, Subtlety, Corollary, Insight, or Breakthrough about the subject of our seminar.

Each time we thought we were going to get it “Right” this time!  We thought we could make External Reality match our Perfect Pictures.  And every time we Failed.  But each time we Learned more about it.  Each time we got a little closer to What We Want, though many times we’ve taken wide Detours into places we didn’t know were Related until we went there.  Truth is, we’ll never Achieve our Perfect Pictures, because Perfect Pictures are 2D Snapshots, while Real Life is a Hologram in an Infinite number of Dimensions.

Achieving our Perfect Pictures would be like trying to Grok the nature of a Butterfly by pinning it to a board.  The hardest thing about a T-Square is that we can’t give it up.  Dropping the class is not an Option, because What We Want is an Irrevocable Compulsion.  It’s What We’re Here For.  We often settle for an Addiction – we get so Frustrated by our Lack of Success, which we take as a Personal Failure, that we divert ourself with the small but Satisfying Pleasure that we can get from Sugar, Alcohol, MJ, Sex, or worse.  It’s Temporary, but by the time we Indulge, we forget our Frustration.

Let’s take an Example.  For instance, suppose we hypothesize someone who has a Life-Long Challenge (T-Square) to Figure Out how to set up Effective Boundaries (Haumea-Pallas-Aletheia) between their Soul (Uranus) and their Ego so they can Approach their LifeTime Mission (North Node).  Oh, gosh, that’s one of the T-Squares in the Juno-Sedna chart, isn’t it.  What a coincidence…

The North Node is symbolized by those earphones in the lower right.  The red triangle that points to the earphones is the T-Square.  Well, we know already that our Mission is like Differential Equations or Calculus – we never really get there, we just keep cutting the distance in half between us and it…

If What We Want is Water and it’s always just out of Reach, that’s the Picture of Frustration.  We need to Reframe it – we may never get any Water in this Lifetime, but we’re sure going to Learn everything there is to Learn about Striving for it.  And probably, literally, Die trying.  Which is Cool – we was gonna Die anyway, so why not Die for a Cause.  And there aren’t any Causes more important to us than What We Want.

So, this particular “Challenge to Figure Out how to set up Effective Boundaries between our Soul and our Ego so we can Approach our LifeTime Mission” isn’t Life-Long, it’s only temporary.  We’re using the Mean Nodes, and they move about a Degree-and-a-half per month, so this Uranus-Haumea-North Node T-Square will only be with us for a few months.  But meanwhile, here in the context of wresting Power out of Fear (Sedna Stationary), finding a Boundary  between Soul and Rebirth that Serves our Mission is a Challenge that Confronts us.

For instance, the best Boundary here between Soul and Mission might be no Boundary, and Surrendering our Sovereignty to that Degree might Scare the Living Daylights out of our Ego, not to mention how it could Frighten our Dependents, as we might be Compelled to Abandon them for some abstruse Project like Saving Antarctica for the Penguins.  Or it could Drive us to Drink.  Here’s how some folks might do these Boundary Games…

“Full of anticipation, we set off and when we had adjusted our consciousness to the high vibration, we found ourselves in the Fairy sector.  However serious the reason for our visit may be, first we must play.  This is a necessity and not a frivolity because, until we have rushed about as fast as we can, there remain clinging to us, Earth ideas, and until we are rid of them, we are unable to concentrate.  What fun this period is.

“We burst and reform only to disintegrate again almost immediately.  In this destruction, the atoms of our bodies change their positions and one of our amusements is to stop them from rejoining those of the person to whom they rightfully belong.  Of course we can never prevent them from doing this for long, but sometimes we keep them poised between the two of us, they look so funny that we begin laughing, our concentration vanishes until we are once more complete and ready to burst again.”

–Normus, “Travels,” in Daphne Charters, Forty Years with the Fairies, p.209.

So, that’s a T-Square.  But weren’t we supposed to be talking about Diamond Stars?  Oh, ok, I remember now.

See the two green lines rising from the North Node?  That’s called a Finger of God, and it means Pay Attention to this!!  Some folks also call it a “Yod.”  In these charts, red lines represent Challenge, green Curiosity, and blue Grace.  Notice that when we connect the Yod to the T-Square, a web of blue lines is created on the other side of the central Opposition – literally, a Bowl of Grace.

This is a Diamond Star, and it means that the T-Square is a Self-Resolving Challenge because of the Grace in the blue lines, which make a double Trine Bridge, or two Easy Alternative Paths, across the T-Square.  Like an escalator up the side of the Cliff we Expected to have to climb.  So our two escalators in this Diamond Star are Suspending Disbelief or Allowing our Beliefs to Shift (Klotho-Vesta), and Trusting our Forbidden Genius (Eurydike-Ixion), which will require a Shift in our Values (Venus).

If we are to Trust the Genius of our True Self, we’re probably going to have to Give Up some Obedience to the Values of our former Masters or Programmers.  Recognizing that they were Doing the Best They Knew How at the Time, we just know that this is the time when we have to substitute Self-Trust for the relative Security of their Truth.

This is a Diamond Square, so this just happens, it’s not something we have to work hard at, though we may have to work a bit at Surrendering our Resistance to it – at least enough to enable us to Notice the Difference.  After all, the overall Work this week is Growth of Consciousness – Juno-Sedna.

So the Bottom Line of this Diamond Star is that both our Beliefs and our Values will Shift, or have already Shifted.  Have you Noticed any of that in your own Experience yet?  This is a big Change in our Identity, since Values and Beliefs are the Foundations of Who We Are.  And an Effortless Shift.  We haven’t mentioned Nemesis or Ego Death once, and they aren’t involved.

Well, not in an obvious way anyway.  Nemesis is Octile (Adjustment) to Mars (Action) and Trioctile (Rebalancing) to Pluto (the Underlying Energy).  Without the Diamond Star that would be enough to create some Ego Death, and at any rate no Change of Identity takes place without some Ego Death.  Death doesn’t have to be Unpleasant, however, if we Take Ourselves Lightly, like the Angels do.  That Mars-Pluto Square is about An Angel with a Harp, recall.

If you’ve Noticed your Beliefs, Values, Identity Shifting in the last several days, have you Noticed any signs of Ego Death? Getting Lost in a familiar place, for instance, where it feels like part of you knows exactly where you are, but another part is Experiencing it as Brand New.  That’s an important kind of Shift to Notice as we Grow our Consciousness.

The second Diamond Star (notice the double green lines emanating from the point of the T-Square) is focused on the Stellium in Libra – Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas, or Rebirth of True Boundaries.  If our Boundaries are Out of Balance with our Soul or our Goals or our Mission, we won’t know Who to Trust, or what to eat for breakfast, or when to Meditate and when to Act.  So this is a Big Deal.

The roots of this Yod are Chiron (Despair/Miracles) and Juno-Sedna itself (Bringing our Fears into Consciousness).  As we’ve said, when our Fears are Unconscious, they Control our Life.  In order to Overcome them (or rather, Love them into becoming the Power that they really are) we need first to Bring them into Consciousness.  Despair is totally appropriate when our Unconscious Fears rule our Lives, because we’re Powerless against them.

But fortunately, Chironean Despair is easy to fix – alls we gotta do is Poor-Sweetheart ourself.  We say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Overwhelmed, aren’t you.”  That statement Shifts our Identity from Despair to Compassion.  If we don’t Change the Subject afterwards though, we may get sucked back into Despair (though we could always Poor-Sweetheart ourself again).

Once we slip out of our stiff, scratchy Despair shirt and pull on our soft, warm Compassion hoodie, we can Change the Subject – do something else entirely, and divert our Attention.  That will allow the Overwhelming Challenges that Triggered our Despair to Resolve themselves on their own, without the Interference of our Anxiety.  After all, We are now Compassion, not Worry.

All Prayers are Answered, and a “You Poor Sweetheart…” is a Prayer of sorts, a Surrendering of the Overwhelm to your Higher Power.  It’s also a Loving Moment like Gary Craig talks about in his Unseen Therapist process (https://www.emofree.com/), which is a very Powerful Healing technique to Learn.  It’s also Easy to Learn if you’ve been PIAVAing for a while (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).

We don’t talk about them often, but the seven short green lines are also important, and you can take advantage of them in any chart you find them in.  They’re called “Unxes” because an “Unx” is one twelfth of something.  The Twelfth Harmonic is about Pattern-Breaking.  That’s one of the most Powerful Skills we can develop.  After all, Karma is just Patterns, so if we can Break those Patterns, we’re Golden.

In fact, the South Node (Karma itself!) has two Unxes, one to Trusting our Forbidden Genius (Aletheia-Ixion-Venus), and the other to Suspending Disbelief (Klotho-Vesta).  The implication is that these two Intentional Acts will shake a good deal of our Karma and Self-Sabotage Loose.  We won’t turn that down.

The other Unxes and Opportunities for some relatively Easy Pattern-Breaking are…

  • Suspending Disbelief to Despair/Miracles (Chiron).  An excellent Example of that – when you encounter what feels like a familiar Bummer about to repeat, Suspend your Belief that it’s Inevitable.  It AintJust don’t Grab it.  Just slip out the back, Jack; just get off the bus, Gus – there must be fifty ways to Leave your Karma.  And don’t for a moment think that your Kinship with your Karma isn’t a Love Relationship – how long have the two of you been Joined at the Hip after all?
  • Despair/Miracles to your Soul (Uranus).  What keeps you from Uniting your Soul and your Ego?  You don’t even need to know it, you can just say to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, You aren’t Identifying with your Soul as much as you could be, are you.”  Then just Change the Subject and Enjoy!
  • Soul to Consciousness of Fear (Juno-Sedna).  I mean, what would your Soul have to Fear, anyway?  Certainly not Annihilation, it’s Immortal by definition.  Abandonment might Sadden Her, but even that’s Doubtful, as She surely knows that Getting Lost is the first stage of Getting Found.  We may have already Resolved all of our Sedna Station Issues with that last Poor Sweetheart.  Wouldn’t that be great!
  • Consciousness of Fear to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).  Of course we’ve already Kegeled our Fear into Power, but even then, Unlimited is pretty Scary.  Reminds us of when we used to Imagine walking off the Edge of the Flat Earth, or those Nightmares we used to have about the Grand Canyon.  Better to PIAVA our Unlimited Potential.  How else will we shake it free from our existing Limiting Beliefs?
  • Unlimited Potential to our Mission (North Node).  How does that Feel – Exciting?  If it doesn’t, Breathe.  Better?  You should be Feeling a Surge of Energy up your Spine.  We may even be Wondering, what the Hell is my Mission, anyway?  If so, great – Wonder is a hidden PIAVA (don’t try to Figure It Out though – that will Limit it).  You could make it PIVAWA if you want, or even WIPAVA.

It’s really pretty Simple math – Fear Plus Breathing Equals Excitement, Fear Plus Kegels Equals Power.  We’ll probably get lots of Opportunities to practice both over the next week.

Wow IX

December 10, 2018

The other Yin Gate in the Chiron-Station chart centers on the Opposition between Mercury (Awareness) and Sedna-Lachesis (Reframing Fear).  This is important for many of us because Sedna is Stationary soon (first week of February) at 27 Taurus.  The Star Algol, generally considered the most malign of Stars, sits at 27 Taurus, so a casual reading would likely warn of Catastrophe – and given the state of Humanity’s Relationship to its Home Planet, Catastrophe wouldn’t be a big surprise.

Catastrophe for the Patriarchy, that is.  Algol symbolizes Female Power, Anger, and Sexuality.  Lachesis is about scheduling Timelines, and in the context of Consciousness (Awareness), it represents Choosing to End a Self-Sabotaging Timeline.  This obsolete Timeline could be about Women Living in Fear and subjugation.

The Paradox is that we don’t really Believe that we have the Power to just End our Timelines unilaterally.  As long we perceive ourselves as Victims or potential Victims of large-scale processes and events such as Global Warming or rising Fascism, and we understandably don’t believe we can turn those around by ourselves, we’re stuck.  What we don’t Realize is that we do have the Power to Change how these Patterns impact us Personally – by PIAVAing just that.

See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ if you don’t grok PIAVAing.

We might feel Selfish to Protect ourself from global Bummers from which many others Suffer greatly.  But the more people refuse to accept those Patterns as “just the way it is,” the faster the Global Energy will Change.  Our Self-Protection is one of the Strongest ways we have to End the Timelines.  And just because we are Protected, doesn’t mean we can’t take Actions to facilitate Ending the Patterns on the Global scale.

We’ve said before that Passion and Neutrality are not mutually exclusive, though they appear to be just that to the Victim Ego.  In fact, when we Act from Neutrality we can be much more Effective than when we Act purely from unbridled Passion.  That may be the primary Paradox that we’re Learning here.

This second Yin Gate is about Awareness that Timelines of Fear can be Ended Consciously.  If we Fear what we don’t Understand, and if we don’t Believe we can Change what we don’t Understand – both common characteristics of the Dualistic mind – then we have no Power over Fear.  But we have demonstrated to ourselves (or can do so right now if we so choose) that…

  • Fear + Breathing = Excitement
  • Fear + Kegels = Power
  • Fear + Vision = Equanimity

…and other similar equations that Convert Fear to Power.  We wnat to be very familiar, even Habitual, with these Practices before February.

Sedna and Fear

November 12, 2018

Sedna is the first Sednoid.  The Discovery of Sedna required a whole new class of minor planets.  Plutoids are dwarf planets that are similar to Pluto in scale, distance, and orbit.  Sedna is an order of magnitude further away than Pluto, having an orbit 45 times as long as Pluto’s.  They’re so distant that we can count on one hand the number of Sednoids discovered so far.

We’ve been interpreting Sedna as Fear because Action Committed under the Influence of Terror is the predominant Energy in the Sedna myth.  The dawn of television brought us Mutual of Omaha’s Wild Kingdom, belaboring how Nature was “red in tooth and claw.”  If you remember black and white TV you probably remember Marlin Perkins…

Young and impressionable, we didn’t make the connection until decades later between Insurance and Fear.  Other voices have since demonstrated how Nature is more accurately characterized as remarkably Collaborative and Synergistic.  Mutual of Omaha hasn’t been the only agent that Feeds on our Fear.  Politicians and color TV have since elevated Fear to a high art.  It’s a central pillar of the Healing Crisis that is the creeping Fascism that’s been trying to spread like a dark shadow across our Home Planet. 

A look at Sedna’s Discovery chart makes it obvious that its Emergence into Huper Consciousness, like Wild Kingdom ultimately was, is about Becoming Aware of our Unconscious Fear.  Here’s the chart…

Sedna sits on the North Node, meaning that Sedna’s Emergence into our Consciousness Serves our Mission directly. 

Sedna is one member of a Grand Sextile, the most favorable of all astrological Configurations, which avers that Grace will follow all of our Self-Initiated Actions.  We gain Leverage by Noticing when we’re Feeling Fear so we can Act Consciously rather than Habitually.  We Convert Fear to Power by doing Kegels, because Kegels slow down Time, giving us Time to Consider our Actions.  Remembering to Breathe is always useful too.

The other five corners of the Grand Sextile are…

  • Moira … Awareness Allows Choice to Replace Fate; Moira is Stationary as we speak
  • Nessus-Veritas-Aletheia … Revelation of the Truth about Abuse and Privilege; Nessus is Exactly Stationary a week from now, so probably already Present in our Energy Field
  • Sun-South Node … Illumination of our Self-Sabotaging Habits
  • Jupiter-Lachesis-Makemake … Changing Timelines Consciously to Expand our Ability to Create What We Want
  • The Moon – Authenticity

The Grand Sextile means that these six Principles all reinforce one another positively.

The other major element is a Diamond Star or Self-Resolving Challenge, focused on Pluto-Sappho, which implies Transformation of the Nature of our Self-Love.  It’s a lot Easier to Love ourself when we can be Authentic, Call Out Abuse when we see it, Support ourself Unconditionally, Choose to Create What We Really Want, and Know that we’re in step with our Lifetime Mission.  What can possibly go wrong?

Well, we can Allow Unconscious Fear to creep into our Attitudes and Motivate our Actions without our Becoming Aware of it.  We would be shocked if we knew how much of our Lives are Motivated by Fear – everything that’s preceded by Judgment, for instance.  Actually, feeling like “something isn’t right” is a good Indicator here in the Age of Sedna, that we’re on the Cusp of Noticing a shard of Unconscious Fear that we haven’t yet Detected and Identified as Self-Sabotaging.

I was Feeling that way last week, and I didn’t know why.  Now I understand – I have a dozen deadlines in the last half of November, and until yesterday I wasn’t sure I could meet them all.  Yesterday I didn’t finish one of the bigger ones, but I finished enough that I’m now confident that finishing it will be just a matter of walking through several well-known steps, which I expect to have ample time for.  So I was Feeling Anxiety and not recognizing it.  Anxiety is Fear in a cheap suit.

I did, today, Tap Out Anxiety, before (not instead of!) reaching for a Walnut Shortbread Cookie (it was delicious), but that was only a prelude to my Realizing, just now, that Anxiety was the source of my Feeling a Disturbance in the Force last week.  So many things have been Climaxing lately, that it won’t Surprise me at all to see Anxiety finally becoming a Trigger for Consciousness instead of a Trigger for Soul-Devouring Thoughts. 

Sedna Stands Still during the first week of the coming February.  If we take every Opportunity to be Alert to any upwelling of Anxiety between now and then, we may be able to put a checkmark next to it on our Karmic To-Do List!  That would be a Life-Changer.

Fear and Loathing

October 8, 2018

If, like me, you woke up Remembering Scary Episodes in your Young Life, what did you do about it?  My Habit of Tapping kicked in before I had a chance to even think about it, which is fabulous.  And my Body contributed a couple of Kegels before I finished Tapping my karate chop point.  I didn’t even finish a Tapping sequence; instead I just Realized, “Wait a minute, this isn’t Present Moment stuff!”, checked in with the people I’m Merged with to be sure they are Safe, and thought about what I might do differently if a similar situation arose again.  Surprisingly, the alternative approach seemed like it might work.  Then I got up, Energized, got some food, and got to work. 

Tapping?  See https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4

Kegels?  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/03/20/aries-equinox-molt/.

Fear is really Power in disguise; like all Emotions, it just needs to be Loved into submission.  My Fear Memories were tied to Prejudice – situations with people I don’t have reason not to Mistrust.  Which is remarkably close to the astrology in the 11 October Juno-Station chart which is calling the shots this week.

The primary feature of the chart is a T-Square or Challenge focused on as-yet-unnamed dwarf planet “2007 OR10,” which symbolizes Intrusive Memories.  The base of the T-Square is the Stationary (Strong) Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) Conjunct (Merged with) Sedna (Fear and Power) Opposing (Highlighted by) asteroid Hopi, which stands for Respect for All Things.  Right out of the textbook I haven’t written yet.  Suspicious, eh?

The T-Square is Truss-Bridged by Trines (Grace) to Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and the South Node (Karmic Held Emotions and the Essential Skills they Obscure), which probably helped to accelerate my Realization that I was out of the Present Moment.  The T-Square  is also Wonder-Bridged by Quincunxes (Curiosity) to Uranus (Soul), Mercury (Awareness), and Saturn-Quaoar-Pholus (the Most Important Thing is to Be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts).  How might we translate these Complexities out of astrologuese?

We actually get plenty of Cosmic Hand-Holding along with this Fear Homework.  I could easily have not Noticed that in Real Time I was actually quite Safe in bed, and easily fallen into Despair about my Security.  It’s not like there’s a shortage of Potential Threats to our Safety these days.  If I had, would I have Remembered to Poor-Sweetheart myself?  Hope so.

“Poor-Sweetheart?”  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/.

That South Node is also one corner of the Varuna Grand Cross that we wrote about yesterday in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/10/07/that-was-a-trick-question/.  More on this later.

And the chart advises that we’ll get plenty of mileage out of having an Open Mind and Being Present with Wonder rather than Responding to Curiosity by “trying to Figure It Out.”  Such as…

“I Wonder what else I might Learn by Imagining those situations again and, for instance, looking more closely at my Feelings as the situations developed.”

“I Wonder what my Soul’s Purpose might have been in this morning’s Dance with Fear.”

“I Wonder to what extent my Fear this morning was an Intuition about the Future.”

To be continued.  Now I’m yawning my head off – maybe back to bed to finish snoozing!

But speaking of Xenophobia, here’s Dan Scranton’s Channeling for today…

https://danielscranton.com/e-t-s-meeting-with-spiritual-leaders-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have been the biggest supporters of sending a group of extra-terrestrial beings to meet with the spiritual leaders that you have on your world, and we know that this is going to happen at some point to further the full open contact agenda.  We recognize the significance of certain individuals, who we will not name, in terms of their ability to share their experiences with all of you and to help those who are still on the fence about the whole extra-terrestrial thing.

“We know that there will be more and more people waking up, even after an event like this would take place with the spiritual leaders on Earth.  And those newly awakened people then would be told of this experience, and they would be able then to open themselves up more to having an experience with e.t.s themselves.

“We are always looking for ways to ease humanity into the experience of full open contact, and so are the physical extra-terrestrials that you have monitoring you and watching for your progress and readiness for that inevitable day.

“We will continue to express that we feel your readiness for an event like this, and we know that you as individuals also feel ready for your experience of physical contact.  We are aware of that readiness, and again we are expressing on your behalf to the e.t.s that could easily walk through a portal and into your home.  We are excited to witness those personal events as well.”

Quantum Jump 25: 3D and Ecstasy

August 5, 2018

Well, did you try Tapping while Affirming your Deepest Desires?  Or Affirming your Deepest Desires and Maintaining the Love and Respect of those you Love?  Respect for those you Love may be a part of your Resistance to your Deepest Desires, if you Fear that they wouldn’t Understand and Approve.  It’s certainly a Dilemma that Brenda Hoffman’s Channel is thinking about…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2018/08/05/should-you-go-or-should-you-stay/

“Those of you reading this message no longer need to believe in doom and gloom. For you, en masse, have transitioned beyond fear.

“You are no longer of 3D no matter how diligently you try to be.

“Some of you are laughing because who would wish to remain in fear given the opportunity of a life of joy?  Who indeed?  So it is you have cleared entire lifetimes of fear, as well as fear dust pockets.  Resulting in your accurate proclamation that you are no longer of 3D.

“If you are angry or fearful, you are merely playing at being of 3D.  A somewhat difficult concept to grasp for who would wish to play with fear and anger?  You or you would not be asking about fear.

“So it is you are learning you no longer wish to feel or play with fear.  The fear that was is no longer fun, interesting, or practical.  For when you become fearful or angry, you halt the flow of love and joy that is now rightfully yours.

“What are you to do if someone in your inner circle is projecting fear or anger?  The answer is always your choice.  But the choice you are discovering as the most uncomfortable internally is to join them in their fear or anger.  For doing so merely enhances their anger, their fear…”

She goes on, at great length…

Wants, Mission, Compromise 4

June 17, 2018

So, in addition to the Cornucopia (or the Illusion of a Cornucopia) in the Sabian Symbol, what does the chart of the Eris-Juno Initiation tell us?  Because the three major events that dominate this weekend all occur in different Degrees, they each have Different Stories to tell.

The first Story told is that the Most Important Thing is our Self-Sovereignty…

Which is to say, the Eris-Juno Initiation chart features a T-Square to Lilith.  A T-Square (the red triangle) is a Challenge, a Temptation to yield to Frustration, and an Invitation to become Adept at dealing with the subtleties of the Challenge.  Lilith is about Self-Sovereignty.  If that’s not self-Explanatory, it “just” means you take your Orders from yourself, not from Others.  Even if it’s your Ego issuing the Orders, rather than your Soul or other element of your Higher Self, that can still be good practice.

Of course the Patriarchy marks Lilith’s Rebellion as Egoic, since Competition is what the Patriarchy Understands, and Female Self-Sovereignty was and is a criminal Betrayal to the Patriarchy.

We’ve included Pluto and Klotho with Lilith, even though they’re a bit more than three Degrees from the Degree of the Initiation; they’re more than close enough to have a strong influence on any Project that we’d Begin this weekend, and as we’ll see, this chart strongly suggests we’ll be Reborn.

Pluto adds the element of Compulsion to Self-Sovereignty.  The New Lilith-Pluto Cycle began in mid-May at 22 Capricorn, “By accepting defeat gracefully, a general reveals nobility of character.”  Lilith-Pluto is a nine-year Cycle, and the Patriarchy is unlikely to accept defeat, gracefully or otherwise, by 2027, though of course we needn’t exclude the possibility. 

However, the Sabian Symbol suggests continued major progress.  Bear in mind though that during the first quarter of any Cycle, the Resistance of the Olde Order dominates the airwaves, so to find evidence of the New during this period, we need to Look For It.  #MeToo may encounter some defeats of its own here.  We can expect the Apparent Tide to shift at the Lilith-Pluto Waxing Square, around the time that the two-century Digital Age begins in earnest, in 2020-2021. 

Our job in the interim is to continue to Conspire to promote the New Cycle, for instance by Acting and Speaking as though the Patriarchy has already Surrendered.  The folks who are on the fence gain the Courage to step up when they hear enough Voices and see enough Commitment to know that they won’t be Alone when they do, so at this stage our Voices and Actions are even more influential than usual, even though the media will repeatedly emphasize our minority or ignore us entirely.

Klotho, of course, represents New Beginnings.  The latest 4-year Klotho-Pluto Cycle (Realizing that our old methods don’t work, and starting over) began at the March Equinox in the same 22 Capricorn, reinforcing the same Energy as the New Lilith-Pluto Cycle.

The New Klotho-Lilith Cycle (Initiating New Patterns of Self-Sovereignty) began in mid-February at 11 Capricorn, “A large group of pheasant on a private estate.”  This is a picture of the Closure of the Commons.  In the Patriarchy, Greed is Good.  We can easily envision a wall of hungry immigrants just beyond the fence of the estate, adding an Overpopulation picture to the Greed picture, and challenging our Beliefs about WeAreAllOne. 

The whole “what if everyone did that?” pseudo-argument that was used to try to Manipulate and Control many of us by our Programmers, comes to mind.  Lots of Fears to be Let Go Of in this nine-year Cycle.

The base of the Lilith T-Square is the Opposition between the Eris-Juno Initiation itself (the Coming into Consciousness of that which Has Previously Been Denied) and Haumea (Rebirth) – so you can see why we stretched our Sensitivity to Birth proportions and included Klotho.  Bear in mind that Denial is a healthy psychological Response to that which would Overwhelm our Ego and threaten to reverse our Growth in Consciousness.

But the Big Deal here is that this isn’t a usual T-Square, it’s a Diamond Star, which is formed when the focus of the T-Square (Lilith) is also the focus of a Yod (the green wedge).  This creates the “bowl of Grace” (blue lines) under the T-Square, as it’s Bridged by Sun-Chaos (Unlimited Potential is our Essence) and Moon-Ceres (Sustainable Authenticity).

A Diamond Star is interpreted as a Challenge that Resolves itself, as the bowl of Grace Acts to Mediate the Challenge.  Not only that, but this T-Square has two additional Bridges, a Trine (Grace) Bridge through dwarf planet Ixion (our Abandoned Genius), and a Quincunx (Curiosity) Bridge through Sedna (Facing and Embracing Fear as Power)…

Ixion, the Cosmic Bad Boy, represents your Best Qualities and Strongest Skills, which your Programmers, through Competition or their own Programming, Suppressed.  It’s been Opposing, and continues to Oppose, dwarf planet Chaos, symbolizing the Unlimited Potential that will be available to us when we Recover our Abandoned Genius.

And Sedna doesn’t just form a Quincunx Bridge, it’s the apex of a Yod from the Sextile between Ixion and Haumea – Pay Attention to your Fears in order to midwife the Rebirth of your Hidden Genius.  Fear is Power Rejected, Power we Fear.  Meet it with Breathing, Tapping, Kegels, Poor-Sweethearts, and PIAVAs.  Practice till you automatically and instantly shift from Fear to Excitement.  Fear is the Absence of Love, and Love Is All There Is.  When you’re in Fear, you aren’t in Is, you’re in Aren’t.

But, this is a Quincunx Bridge – it’s about Curiosity, as is the Yod.  So we’ll have to avoid drawing any Conclusions about our Fear, or about The Fear.  We Want it to be more like “I’m Scared, I Wonder How I’ll Feel and What Will Happen when I do Kegels.”  Rather than “Great, those Kegels replaced my Fear with Excitement,” try “Wow, I Wonder where this Excitement will Lead me.” 

You want to Wonder about “What Will Happen” when you Embrace your Fear because it will Change your Beliefs, potentially your Core Beliefs (especially with Ixion and Chaos involved in the Dance), and when your Beliefs Change, the World Changes.

More to say about the Eris-Juno Initiation, so to be continued…

Paranoid Thoughts?

June 5, 2018

We’re approaching 9 June’s Station of Nessus (3am PDT).  As most of you know, a planet’s Energy is Strongest at, and leading up to, its Station, and Nessus is about Healing Abuse and Privilege.  It’s in Pisces, which is all about Finishing Business and Letting Go of Excess Baggage, especially Heavy Emotions, so we can begin the next leg of our next Journey with a Light load.

Of course the quickest way to Heal anything is to Embrace it with Unconditional Love and Empathy, and to do that, we sometimes have to Re-Experience it in some form.  So all manner of Guilt, Veiled (or otherwise) Fear or Terror, and other Ugliness may arise between now and 9 June, including otherwise-unexplained unpleasant Experiences with other people that are Unconsciously Standing In as bit players in our Karmic Dramas.

Yes, they could be Reincarnations of our former Perps, but why not give them the Benefit of the Doubt and let them be Innocent, as in their Present Incarnation they’re likely to be.  After all, they could as likely be Reincarnations of former Victims or your own Abuse and Privilege, just with the roles switched for variety.

It’s important to be Aware that this is happening, so we can Respond positively.  It’s very easy to attribute such Flushbacks to the Present Moment, even though our daily Dramas are probably dime-novel Re-Enactments of our Karmic Traumas and all of Their previous attempts at Re-Enacting themselves, some of which could have Been or Felt very Real.

Remember that Consciousness pervades Everything, including our Karmic Traumas, and if we’re still in Separation (which to some extent we All are if we’re still Incarnate), then these Traumas are virtually “Entities” with a Life of Their own.  Until we Merge with Them, which can Be and Feel quite Horrible while we’re Transitioning into Their Experience. 

And once we’re Inside of Their Experience, we may need some or all of our Enlightened Consciousness (we All have at least some) to be Unconditionally Loving with Them.  Considering how many Lifetimes we’ve probably Lived (likely approaching Infinity), we have Seen It All Before, so it’s more about Being Loving and Gentle with all the Ickiness, once we get past being Horrified.  Maybe we should practice with Slugs.

When we mis-identify Karmic Flushbacks as Present Moment events, we’re very likely to make Decisions or Oaths like “I’ll never do that again” or “I’ll never talk to them again,” or far worse.  Decisions like this rapidly become Unconscious Limitations, and inhibit our Liberation.

We’ll draw up the chart soon, but suffice it to say for now that Orcus, the planet of Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking, Opposes the Stationary Nessus, forming the base of a T-Square to asteroid Moira.  Moira is about Fate.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; Choice is what we Choose to exercise when we’re Conscious.  So we’re Taking Our Power and Breaking an Ancient Contract with our Fate, potentially the one that equates Life with Suffering.

We tend to think of such Contracts as “Facts of Life,” but in fact they’re just Political Choices we made so long ago that we’ve forgotten that it was our Choice.  While the Resistance may be substantial, and the Implications may be complex, we can actually Choose Whatever We Want.  And if we Consider it carefully and boldly, we can actually also Choose trivial Resistance and simple Implications.  That’s on of the reasons why we recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently” to our PIAVAs.

There is also a T-Square to asteroids Nemesis and Lachesis in the Nessus-Station chart.  Nemesis is about Ego Death, while Lachesis is about Choosing to Shift a Karmic or Fated Timeline before it would Shift on its own.  So what we’re really doing here, should we Choose to Accept it, is Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance. The base of this second T-Square is the Nodal Axis, with Mars (Anger or Action) on the South Node (Held Emotions) and Aletheia (Truth) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime).

Here’s Daniel Scranton’s Channeling for today…

http://danielscranton.com/join-team-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We are taking nothing for granted when it comes to our participation in the shift in consciousness.  There are so many beings in this universe who are working to ensure that the shift not only occurs, but that it occurs in the way that serves the most.  We invite any and all of you who want to be a part of this conscious creation to move beyond waiting for something to happen.

“We invite you to join us in ushering in the shift and bringing about an expanded consciousness throughout the entire universe.  You don’t have to wait for any major event to occur in order to participate.

“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen.  It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team.  You have opportunities every single day. They come to you in the choices that you are being given.

“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive.  You can help by processing your emotions.  You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters.  You can be kind instead of being right.  You can forgive.  You can send transmissions of love and compassion.  You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.

“As you make a commitment now to joining the team that spans the entire galaxy and all dimensions, you are helping to usher in the best possible shift that we can all experience.  We are inviting you to join us, and we know many of you already have, but as you make the declaration, you are automatically accepted onto our little team.

Like Butter on the Land

May 15, 2018

Here’s a great interview with Michael Pollan about Ego and Identity…

https://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2018/05/15/611225541/reluctant-psychonaut-michael-pollan-embraces-the-new-science-of-psychedelics

If you do nothing else, listen to the several minutes following the 29:50 mark.  After you click on “Listen,” click somewhere between the 0:00 on the left and the 42:26 on the right to see where you are (your current position will replace the 0:00).  They don’t show the usual progress bar, but it’s there near the top of the page hidden beneath the text ” ‘Reluctant Psychonaut’ Michael Pollan Embraces The ‘New Science’…”  29:50 is under the “The.

A few excerpts…

“If you get really scared… you see a monster, for example, don’t try to run away. Walk right up to it, plant your feet and say, “What do you have to teach me? What are you doing in my mind?” And if you do that, according to the flight instructions, your fear will morph into something much more positive very quickly.”

“One of the things our mind does is tell stories about ourselves. If you’re depressed, you’re being told a story perhaps that you’re worthless, that no one could possibly love you, you’re not worthy of love, that life will not get better. And these stories — which are enforced by our egos really — trap us in these ruminative loops that are very hard to get out of. They’re very destructive patterns of thought…

When this part of your brain bone “goes offline for a period of time… you experience this dissolution of self or ego, which can be a terrifying or liberating thing, depending on your mindset. This is what allows people, I think, to have those new perspectives on themselves, to realize that they needn’t be trapped in those stories and they might actually be able to write some new stories about themselves.”

“What I brought back from that experience was that I’m not identical to my ego, that there is another ground on which to plant our feet and that our ego is kind of this character that is chattering neurotically in our minds.”

The text and the audio are different from one another.