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Cause an Defect Full Moon IV

August 9, 2017

Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…

As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively.  Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality. 

(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious.  Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)

You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after.  That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly.  Abundance is having enough to Share, After all. 

This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force)Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while.  As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd?  And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?

Expressing our Anger (Mars) can Create Community, and it can drive folks away.  While Communing with Everyone is a fabulous Aquarian goal (http://danielscranton.com/your-universal-family-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/), we may not actually be ready for such Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.  And that’s all right.  We Are Who We Are, moment to moment (http://danielscranton.com/creating-experiences-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/).

We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness.  While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.

This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality.  Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community.  Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form.  Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form.  Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence.  To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain. 

The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege.  Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions.  Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal.  To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes.  Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions.  As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.

While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional.  Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs).  Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality.  Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.

The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love.  That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time.  And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger.  The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.

Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy.  Dan and the Arcfolk concur – http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ .  The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.”  Hmmm.  I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis.  But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.  

There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda.  Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power.  Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm.  In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood.  If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.

Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us.  Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it.  It’s a foundation for our Ego.  So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping.  We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger.  While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.

To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it.  Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort.  “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.”  It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation.  If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t.  “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.”  Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.”  Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.

The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4).  If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations.  Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress.  Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.

We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul. 

We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession.  Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?

If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death.  That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort.  Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong.  But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.

So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart?  What would we look for?

Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus.  These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair.  Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?

Well, yes. seven of them.  We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets.  So seven is a whole bunch.

We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…

Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things.  We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us.  This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.

It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion.  It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that.  We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.

Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth.  Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio.  Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with.  Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.

Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures.  Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.

These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them.  Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.

That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.

So, which planets are we talking about?  Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.

Whoa, this is Big.  The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack).  Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot.  All very strongly Lit Up this week.  So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts.  Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?

Oops, have to interrupt again.  A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy.  What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?

Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture.  For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet.  What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged!  The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.

So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference.  Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all!  So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.

And that’s just two planets.  With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times.  To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40.  However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?

Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true.  You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium.  You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.

And now you’re going to run into another problem.  Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio.  When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon.  I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates.  That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.

So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while.  Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating.  There should be a reasonable number of those folks around.  You won’t be their Onliest…

Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you

as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.

Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho).  So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children.  That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.

So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings.  We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.

Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio?  So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!

Did someone say Obsession?  Damn Right!  Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!!  It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime!  So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is!  Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.

Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue.  Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle).  That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly.  To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.”  Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.

So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above).  “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero.  If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different.  This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?

Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it.  Are we done?  Not a chance.  Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron.  Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…

A T-Square is like a graduate seminar.  We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent.  But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.”  In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions.  No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.

It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily.  You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.

So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.

That’s what T-Squares are all about.  Now, what about this Mercury T-Square?  Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you.  Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk.  So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.

If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it.  You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk.  You could write best-sellers about it.  You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first.  I guarantee you, it is True.

Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed.  With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are.  You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.

Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…

Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled).  Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules.  To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.

But you’ll always be condemned for it.  So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others.  And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you.  Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).

In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand.  That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project.  It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you.  Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.

But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone.  So you’ll have to Learn to Notice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness

Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.

What’s that?  Oh, we aren’t quite done?  Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio?  Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong).  All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.

We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample.  The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway.  This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.

Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.

And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both.  We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.

Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too.  It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it.  Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself

Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.

That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.

Fear and Love

January 11, 2017

One of the fundamental principles of our Relationship to the Universe is that Fear is Cold and Hard, while Love is Warm and Soft.  Fear creates scar tissue, walling off Physical and Emotional Trauma into pockets that become Unconscious, or Denied.  Again, Denial is a healthy Response to Overwhelm, it’s just not the most Healing Response possible if we have options.  

Next time you scratch or cut or bruise yourself, watch closely how you React.  My “natural” (ie, Habituated) Reaction is to Psychically “seal off” the wound; is yours?  When I Consciously Choose to Open to it, Warm it (in my Imagination or Physically, putting my hand or a wrap on it), and Soften around it, I can Feel the Healing Energy start to flow.  Putting your hand on a wound, or if it reaches putting the wound to your Heart, adds Healing Energy directly.

In Relationship, including our Relationship with ourself, Fear Manifests as either Abandonment or Suffocation.  Some of us React primarily from Abandonment (our Hungry Ghost can’t get enough), some of us primarily from Suffocation (we back away from Love, we have difficulty Receiving), and most of us manage to React from our Abandonment at some times and from our Suffocation at other times.  It’s particularly Frustrating to Experience both at once.

Recognizing Abandonment and Suffocation day-to-day is a good way to Depersonalize the Heavy Emotions that arise in Relationships.  We can replace “Oh my God, they don’t Love me!”  with “Oh, there’s my Abandonment again.”  With a little practice it almost becomes “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling your Abandonment again, aren’t you.”  And when someone is clinging to our coattails a little too tightly for our comfort, we can Recognize that they’re in their Abandonment and, recalling our own, we can be Kind to them without having to React or Pretend or call them a disfavored Body part.

Or, if someone is clinging to our coattails a little too tightly for our comfort, we can Recognize that we’re in our Suffocation, and loosen up a little.  Instead of snapping at them or being snitty, we can take a brief Time-Out and give ourself a quick “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Suffocated again, aren’t you” or even just a “Oh, there’s my Suffocation again.”  In a Relationship we want to keep and develop, this can make all the difference between their Experiencing us as Cold and Hard, or Experiencing us as Soft and Warm.

Practice this enough, and pretty soon we’re making Conscious Choices moment by moment about how permeable or impenetrable we want our Boundaries to be, tuning our Safety and Vulnerability to the situation at hand, rather than Reacting from the Unconscious Karmic Archetypes and Programmed Trances that previously ran our Life and Relationships.  

This is only one aspect of the Mystery School we’re all enrolled in.  It’s about earning our Self-Sovereignty through becoming Conscious of what we hadn’t Realized was Behavior Motivated by Fear.  Abandonment is Fear that we won’t get what we need.  Suffocation is Fear that we won’t have the space to be who we Really Are.  I’ll wager it won’t take you more than half a minute to see where Abandonment and Suffocation fit into your Relationship Patterns.

We can extend this to Abundance.  When we’re Feeling Scarcity, or Anxious about Survival, what happens when we say to ourself, “Oh, there’s my Abandonment again”?  The Patriarchal Culture programs us to think our Abundance is All Me, completely the result of my own Work or Smarts or Schmoozing.  It’s not.  Before the Lizards invented money, it was all about Community.  You could freeze to death, or starve all on your own, but you couldn’t do much else without your Community.  Outside the propaganda storm, it’s still that way.

Next time you catch yourself hating what you have to do to make money, tell yourself “Oh, there’s my Suffocation again.”  Very few of our Emotions are “Caused” by what the acculturated Mind thinks they’re Triggered by.  If it’s “I hate this job” your Projecting your Suffocation on your job, and you’re in a Cold and Hard place besides.  You could even tap on “Even though I Feel Suffocated doing this, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  You’d be withdrawing the Projection and moving to Soft and Warm in a few sequences.

That alone could shift you into Gratitude and help you Realize that you already are in Community, even if it’s not exactly the Community you ultimately Want to Manifest.  The next step would be Realizing that you’ve Proven to yourself that you do know how to Create Community.  Then you can PIAVA whatever Improvements you’d like to see in your Community, and sooner or later you’d find yourself Planning and Executing steps in that direction.

Owning your Abandonment and Suffocation as your own endogenous Emotional processes – Emotions that arise without Clear External Triggers, even though, sure, your Mind can easily find a hundred faux current-moment rationalizations – will put you in a position of Neutrality.  Neutrality is necessary to be Fully Present in the Moment so you can Manifest directly without having to make it into a Struggle.  

Griz doesn’t Struggle to find Huckleberries to add pudge to see Her through Her long winter’s nap, she just Sniffs the Air, senses the Changing Light, hears the Hucklebushes calling her name, and knows it’s time to go up the Mountain for her sweet and savory Autumn feast.  Yes, sometimes the Huckleberry crop fails and She wakes us hungry mid-winter and has to raid Huper cabins to get through, but that’s not much of a Struggle either, since Hupers make their doors so flimsy.  We only Struggle because we get Attached to our Beliefs and Project our unpleasant Feelings into our surroundings.

Shedding

December 30, 2016

Snagged on a poignant Vignette this morning, I caught myself beginning to indulge my Pain.  So I Shed – which feels somewhere between Opening my Angelwings and pouring a quart of (dry) water over my head – and in the process Realized that Stephen Levine’s writings would be particularly Powerful for us in this phase of our Transition.  My copies of his books aren’t handy, but I believe it was Healing into Life and Death or Guided Meditations, Explorations, and Healings that I was thinking of, probably the latter, the one full of incredibly Heart-Opening Guided Meditations.

There is a big difference between Forgiveness and Boundaries.  Forgiveness is a Discovery, not a Decision – you wake up one day and Discover that you aren’t Angry at them any more.  Which doesn’t mean you can’t Invite Forgiveness into your Life, as Stephen often does in these Meditations.  This is a Memory, not a quote…

“Whatever you may have done to Hurt me, Consciously or otherwise, I Forgive you.

“Whatever I may have done to Hurt you, Consciously or otherwise, I Ask that you Forgive me.”

I don’t think Stephen would mind if I misquoted him or borrowed his Work; he had an Ego as Inclusive as the Galaxy.  We’re approaching the first anniversary of his Transition out of his Incarnation…  

https://www.ramdass.org/remembering-stephen-levine-1937-2016/

Hurt is complicated – it can be a Commission or an Omission, or something else entirely, often “just” a Misalignment, where you’re trying to relate but you’re on different tracks.  But where there’s Pain, Inviting Forgiveness is useful.  This one is a quote, from http://levinetalks.com/Writings/single_post/ego-death 

“In the course of breaking the narrow confines of the self-image, a whole new world becomes available when you find out who you aren’t, including your suffering, which wipes out most of your precious/painful identity.  This can be a little disconcerting.

“Just before my face fell off, I looked back at my life as though it were my own.  I was possessed by memory.
“But as I passed behind the well-woven tapestry of appearances, history was undone.  The knots and snags that hold the illusion in place unraveling.
“The suffering defended so long dissolved like the Cheshire smile as a karmic wind caught a loose end and pulled . . .
“In transit beyond the known.”

And if you haven’t yet, and you can spare a week where you can’t do anything else but read (because it’s so compelling), Stephen’s Who Dies? is required reading for anyone.  Actually there’s a good chance you’ll find it to be The Most Important Thing you’ve ever done, so “sparing” a week might not be the right verb.

Back in the 1980s, when Pluto was in Scorpio (“The Way Out is Through”), before it crossed Sagittarius (“The Way Out is Letting Go”) into Capricorn (“Just Fix It Already”), a wonderful body of Literature was produced by the
“Recovery Movement.”  One of my favorites was Susan Forward’s Toxic Parents.  Nothing against parents, and mine were by no means the worst, but this book just does a great job of differentiating Forgiveness from Boundaries, and we need to understand this.

That Big River in Egypt

April 29, 2016

Many thanks to a reader for asking the provocative question…

“Any way you could share what you yourself feel you need to let go of that you’ve been clinging to so I can see whether I’m on the right track?” 

Eris is about Denial – namely, that which has been pushed into the Unconscious in order not to Overwhelm Consciousness or shatter the Ego.  So as Uranus approaches Eris it’s not about “what we feel we need to let go of that we’ve been clinging to,” it’s about what we will discover in the way of unknown Beliefs, or long-standing Limits that we’ve misinterpreted as Irritations or social norms, and which are likely to come into Focus as Self-Sabotage.  These aren’t just the Masks we put on to meet others, but the Masks we wear to Protect our Ego from the sometimes-brutal Honesty of the Self.

Denial is a healthy process, helping to keeping the Ego functioning in order to keep the Vehicle Safe.  However, the Revelation of Denial, when it’s Gentle and Loving, is also a very healthy process – to everything there is a Season.  The theory, true or otherwise, is that when we persistently ignore Gentle and Loving hints about what’s being ignored, and the Soul feels that Expanded Consciousness has become more important than the Safety provided by the Denial, the Unconscious will resort to more serious tactics than the Gentle and Loving,

Note that when anyone else accuses you of being “in Denial,” it’s always a Manipulation, an attempt to Intimidate and Control you.  They know nothing about the relationship between your Soul and Ego, and never will.  A gifted Psychic may have some information about that, but no Psychic worth listening to would ever accuse anyone of being “in Denial.”  I know Gurus who use a shock method for communicating, but in my experience they’re shocking you into listening to the Inner Voices that you already know of, but which you’ve been discounting for years.  Taking “the answer you’ve already rejected” is a Gentle way of moving in that direction.

Our reader continues…

Something came up yesterday where in retrospect I can see I felt a powerful need for attention or validation or appreciation or recognition, or something along those lines, from sources from which it’s just not going to come.  This theme is so ancient that it has become exhausting.  I felt sharp pain and anger for a brief moment, but recovered nicely, if not altogether tidily, and the moment passed pretty quickly, all things considered.  I’m left feeling a little…silly, infantile and embarrassed, though not really ashamed because I seem to have already forgiven myself for the temporary lapse in sanity.  Does that qualify?  And if so does it mean I need to provide those things for myself?”

There’s a strong correlation between our Masks and our unmet Childhood needs.  For instance, as a child many of us had “a powerful need for Attention or Validation or Appreciation or Recognition from a source from which it never came.”  So we put on a Mask that protected our Vulnerability to what we were inappropriately led to believe was a weakness.  We all need Attention or Validation or Appreciation or Recognition, and some sources are critical.  For instance, anyone who doesn’t expect that from a spouse or employer or friend is probably in an Abusive Relationship.  A Codependent Relationship is one where the Validation of the Other is more important to us than our own Values.

The part about “I’m left feeling a little…Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed, though not really Ashamed because I seem to have already forgiven myself for the temporary lapse in Sanity” needs to be reversed.  It was the feeling of  “Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed” (or Pain and Anger, as the case may be) that IS the Sanity.  Just not necessarily age-appropriate Sanity, although it would be perfectly age-appropriate in a close Relationship.  “Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed” and “Pain and Anger” were age-appropriate at the age when you were striving for Validation and learned that it was never to be forthcoming.  

It’s not the Emotions that are ever age-inappropriate, it’s their Expression.  When we regress to a Childhood circumstance, which you likely did, our Skillset regresses with us.  So we’re trying to deal with a Current-Moment situation with the Social Skills of a four-year-old or two-year-old, or sometimes even a preverbal child whose primary Social Skills are Awe and an obsession to hunt for Mirrors.  So of course we’re going to feel Silly, Infantile, and Embarrassed.  When we begin to Recover these Lost parts of our Self, we have to endure this for a while, as we give ourself the Space to Practice.  We come up to Current-Moment speed very quickly. however, once we can discern the difference between Present Moment and Regression.

The “brief” part of your Pain and Anger is important.  The faster we “correct,” edit, or Control our True Emotions, the deeper is our Unconscious Devotion to the Archetype (in this case, Vulnerability is Not Safe) rather than to the Self and Soul.  So all three of the “Pain and Anger,” the “Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed,” and the Judgment about “Lapse in Sanity” are doorways to whatever it is that you’re Masking from yourself.  You may already be well aware of it intellectually, but this is not an intellectual process, it’s a deep Emotional one.  To intellectually understand a chronic or acute Trauma is very useful for everyday Control, but it’s far different from the Re-Experience of the original Emotions which is necessary for Healing.

The Cultural idea that “Maturity” means having Control over your Emotions is part of the Patriarchical propaganda that we need to overcome.  “Maturity” certainly includes the ability to avoid Harm to Self and Other through Skillful Expression, but Emotions are the stock and trade of True Relationships, so Controlling them is a serious Self-Abandonment.  Exactly as the Patriarchy desires, because a Self-Abandoned Ego is easily Controlled from the outside.

Do note that the Re-Experience of the original Emotions need not be Re-Traumatizing, as has been shown by Gary Craig, David Feinstein, and Dawson Church in the case of Vietnam Veterans, and by the latter two in many international situations such as the Genocide in Bosnia.  Bessel van der Kolk’s amazing book, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma very readably covers his journey from rookie to Master of these regions.  He believes that buried Trauma is the greatest danger facing Huperity today.  And I would agree that it’s buried Trauma – aka Limiting Beliefs – that create and perpetrate the other greatest dangers that the Planet faces.

Your Reaction to the Pain and Anger was immediately suppression – that is the sort of information that Eris is revealing to us.  The Goddesses who fought one another over Eris’s Golden Apple never realized that Eris was revealing their Vanity, nor did the Gods who presided name it, and the rest of Greek history reflects that lack of Consciousness.  The ending to that story can be attributed to the idea that Greek Mythology is the chronicle of the Patriarchy overcoming the Matriarchy – the Golden Apples story demeans women as irretrievably Devoted to the Archetype of Vanity, and the “superiority” of male Devotion to the Archetype of Warriorship in its defense.  Substitute Vanity for Vulnerability and Warriorship for Maskmaking, and Eris’s story is the same as yours.

You’ve “forgiven yourself” for the Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed.  And you refer to your True Emotions as a “temporary lapse in Sanity.”  More information gifted from Eris.  We’re speculating, as I have no business butting into the Relationship between your Ego and your Soul, but here are some possibilities…

You may have a Limiting Belief that your Childish Joy (Silly, Infantile, Embarrassed) is not valid.  If so, that would be likely to be a strong inhibition on your Spontaneity and Creativity.

You may have a Limiting Belief that Pain and Anger are not suitable for polite company.  If so, that could seriously inhibit your ability to rapidly and effectively set good Boundaries.

You may have a Limiting Belief that your True Emotions are not “Sane.”  If so, that would be a tight collar on your Relationships and your Ability to share your ample Wisdom to Lead others.

You can explore these doorways if you wish, by first making sure you’re Safe, and then recalling as best you can, in turn, the moment when you felt Infantile, the moment when you judged your feelings as not Sane, and the moment when you felt the Pain and Anger.  I’d recommend approaching each in its own session (repeated as useful).  Set a firm Anchor before you start – for instance, some incontrovertible evidence of your current age, so you can return at will to the Present Moment if you begin to get lost in the Past.  Carkeys in hand is a possibility.  Your objective for all three sessions is Wonder

“I Wonder what if anything this has to do with Expanding my Consciousness to include the portions of my Soul that have been missing.”  Or – 

“I Wonder how this might translate into a Limiting Belief that sabotages my ability to Manifest my Heart’s Desire.”  Or even –

“I Wonder if I’m really Living my own Truth around these issues, and if not, how I might move Gently and Lovingly in that direction.”

Or something like these.  Your “sessions” could be as brief as that, if you then Changed the Subject and let your Intuition work on the question.  If Memories start to flow (the asteroid Mnemosyme – Memory – entered Aries a few days ago, and it won’t be far from the Eris-Uranus Initiation in early June), let them come, as long as you still feel Safe.  If you start to feel Unsafe, Revert to your Anchor, and resume later after you’ve Grounded yourself (Food often works).

Be Mindful of Conclusions; you want to Open windows, not close doors.  Remember that Confusion is good, as it indicates that the Consciousness-Expansion has begun.  You want small incremental Ahas, not big Decisions.  Suffix everything with “… or something like that.”  We have time yet, we don’t need to push ourselves, and this is very delicate territory, this Edge between Consciousness and the Unconscious.  

Besides Eris, the major planets dealing with this Edge include…

  • Juno, whose modus operandi was to turn threats to her Ego into Stone
  • Hylonome, who killed herself when confronted with alienation from her favorite Archetype
  • Vesta, symbolizing (for good or ill – we’d be long lost without Habits!) Unquestioned Archetypes

Compared to these, Eris is a Gentle and Loving partner in our urgent need to escape from Archetypes which encode the End of Civilization.  It’s also useful to remember that the Eris-Uranus Initiation is occurring in Aries – that which hasn’t happened before, that which we’re beginning to Create from Scratch (out of Spirit actually), that which we will have no hope of actually understanding for a long time – probably till Uranus gets to its Waxing Square with Eris.  “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia,” suggesting rich rewards for those willing to be Open to the inscrutable Winds of Spirit.

Your original question about “what I myself feel I need to let go of, that I’ve been clinging to”?  If I rephrase that as “where does Eris seem to be leading me next?” then I have no shortage of Stories, which I intend to tell.

Mindbody

November 19, 2015

Here’s a great introduction to Dr. Kim D’Eramo’s highly recommended work…

http://www.drkimderamo.com/small-changes-big-shifts-interview/

As fabulous as this work is, you can tell by the name that “Mindbody” concepts come out of the “Left Brain,” and tend to put the Emotional Body in a sort of secondary position.  Yes, Presence and Witnessing are important parts of the “Mindbody Connection,” but the Feelbody and Feelmind connections are equally important.  The astrological Square is a Challenge to Hupers because we must integrate three Energies, not just two, and in cultures that emphasizes the “rational” and “logical,” we don’t have much Experience at dealing with non-Dual Energies.  Even if we try to rephrase into the Mindfeelbody or Feelbodymind or Bodyfeelmind Connection, we get stuck on the order, and ordinals are just more linear thinking.

The underlying fundamental is that Physical, Intellectual, Emotional, and Spiritual; Energetic and Material; Dynamic and Magnetic; Feminine and Masculine; Creative, Stabilizing, and Changing are not different Realms or Levels of Reality, they’re different Perspectives on the same Underlying Reality.  

This seems to be difficult for people to grasp.  The Underlying Reality is Unitary and Indivisible.  It’s only the intellect that dissects it in order to try to understand it better.  Unfortunately, dissection kills what’s being dissected.  “Reductionism,” it’s called by its critics.  The positive thing about intellectual dissection, is that it’s possible to leave the dissected entity alive.  Possible, but given our Habituated way of thinking, very rare.  We need to start practicing Reintegration.  One way to do that is what Castaneda called “Cognitive Dissonance,” the ability to hold multiple mutually-contradictory Perspectives in mind at once.  

Contradiction is a Duality, Either/Or, and we know that Reality is on the other hand Both/And, multifarious and multidimensional.  So,”logically,” “cognitively,” we know that holding Contradictions is a perfectly reasonable thing to do.  And in fact, if we ask our friends to be honest with us, they can point out how each of us lives in a wilderness of Contradiction – we all condemn in Others what we most dislike about ourselves, at the same time that we’re compelled to Act just that same way.  We give it another name when they do it, to keep ourself Safe from Cognitive Dissonance.  “We” – our Conscious Ego – can’t Control our Unconscious Shadow, so if we admit that the Shadow is ours, we either have to quit condemning Others, or endure Cognitive Dissonance.

So I say, Celebrate Cognitive Dissonance.  Start small.  Next time you squash a Bug, think “All Life Is Sacred” while you’re squashing.  Next time you start to Experience Anxiety, think “Life Always Unfolds in Perfect Harmony” while fully accepting your Anxiety – in fact, amplify your Anxiety.  Alternately scream “O My God We’re All Going to Die!” and “Thank God We’ll Finally be Relieved of All This Anxiety!”  If Hupers ever hope to get in Synch with the World of Nature – which is probably necessary for our Survival as a species – we’re going to have to Live and Breathe Contradiction and Cognitive Dissonance.

21st Century II – Boundaries, Forgiveness, Mirrors

October 21, 2015

A reader asked what I meant in the previous post by “Expanding Boundaries,” whether that meant “Loosening Boundaries.”  I responded…

“Could go either way – Boundaries are tricky.  Expanding them might mean for instance less generalization or ‘profiling’ but fattening them against an individual.  It could mean moving the fence closer to the sidewalk.  Or it could mean ‘Loosening’ but in specific circumstances.  How’s that for Waffling?  Got any Maple Syrup? 

“Forgiveness isn’t a Choice, it’s a Discovery; one day we notice that we seem to have Forgiven someone.  Safety First.  And Trust Instinct.  Then (when Safe) examine Judgment to see if it has merit or is an obsolete Pattern.  If somebody keeps Sliming you, Expand the Diatomaceous Earth zone.”

They wrote back to describe an encounter with a local Bully, summarizing with…

“Luckily I had my mirror with me and discreetly maneuvered it into position to face them, trying to breathe while staying present and grounded.  I’ve really never encountered anything quite so nasty, even in my years in politics.  It’s weird, but clearly it seems to be what’s on my plate, for now at least.”

The problem with Intimidation, from the Victim side, is that when the significant adults in our childhood Bullied us traumatically or chronically (“for our own good” or “because they loved us”), they didn’t just leave a cognitive scar that we can “talk ourselves out of,” they carved a Hole in our Aura.  As we get closer to the Yintegrity Finale in June 2016, our Guidance may well put us in positions of “never having encountered anything quite so nasty,” simply because when we don’t get the Golden Apples the first several times, our Guidance has to escalate.

It was never fair to begin with, and we still Resent having to Claim our Space “by hand” rather than automatically.  In addition, while we were being programmed, we were punished and threatened and shamed when we did try to Claim our Space.  And, not wanting to focus on the bummer, and punished when we did (“straighten up or I’ll really give you something to cry about”), we forced it into the Unconscious, so now all we remember is that we can’t do that, it’ll be worse if we do.  And there are probably ample mostly-Unconscious reinforcements from Parallel or Past Lives.

So it’s not easy to push ourselves to do this.  But we have to do it, and we have to persist at it, because that’s how we develop new Habits.  When we were Bullied or worse by those who had Power Over us, we Opened that Robot-Control Hole in our Aura in order to make our then-Life easier.  Current-Moment Bullies can “see” the Hole, probably Unconsciously, and enjoy the Power Over when they reach through it to pull our puppetstrings.  We have to see the Bullies as Guidance.  We aren’t “Blaming the Victim” here (another popular Defense against Claiming our Power), we’re helping the Victim to begin paving a new Life Path.

One way to plug to Hole is simply to fill it with our own Energy.  Holes like this are often in the back of our Third Chakra, behind the Solar Plexus (Power).  Bring Starlight from your favorite Star down your back, and Earthlight from the center of the Earth up through your feet and legs, and allow them to tumble together once or twice in the bowl of your pelvis.  Then bring the combined Energy up over your Belly and right through your Solar Plexus, booming out the back like a jet engine.  Practice this when you aren’t being Bullied, so you don’t have to think much about it when you are Bullied.  Some Energy Schools would rather you ran the Energy back to front.  Try it both ways and see which one makes you feel more Solid.

Do this a lot, and you’ll get in a lot of fights.  So move the Energy through some of your other Chakras as well, especially the Fourth or Heart Chakra (Compassion) and First or Root Chakra (base of the Spine, Worthiness).  If you want to continue to have a Relationship with anyone who seems to purposely make you feel “bad,” including your partner, lover, boss, kids, employer, parents, friends, etc. – Heart Shaped Eyes tells the story…

https://heartshapedeyes.wordpress.com/2015/10/21/passive-aggressive/ 

– then fill your Second (Belly, Emotion) and Fifth Chakra (Neck, Communication) as well.  You don’t want Analysis and Empathy yet, you want Protection, so leave out the Sixth (Third Eye, Intuition) and Seventh (top of the Head, Spirit) Chakras for now.

Once when I was on the phone with a Bully to whom I was very vulnerable and with whom I didn’t want to argue (a losing proposition with Bullies, and boring), I carefully and persistently ran jet engines through both my Third and Fourth Chakras.  The Bully kept stammering, not getting the reactions they were looking for, and didn’t know how to proceed.  Meanwhile, I was sweating like a pig, not because I was alarmed or scared, just from the Energy.  It’s not their fault – they were raised that way.  It may be their Responsibility to eventually notice how it impacts their Life, if that fits into their plans for the Lifetime – maybe their Soul’s Plan is to Change the World by expressing their Pathological Genius, like Steve Jobs, and they need their Bully to pull it off.  

Our reader mentioned having their Mirror handy.  This is another Powerful technique.  Imagine a wardrobe Mirror, and imagine holding it up between you and the Bully, facing them.  Their Energy bounces off and goes right back to them.  I’ve had people tell me they can’t do that because it will hurt the Bully!  Excuses abound!  Many Bullies are so used to this that they’ll just go around, so be prepared to Expand your Mirror if need be.  Many will just “come around to the back door.”  For some Bullies you’ll need an Igloo or Superdome of Mirrors.  

You’ll Feel Guilty.  Ground yourself, and send the Guilt down your Grounding Cable, back to the Earth where it can be used for compost.  You can’t Choose Forgiveness, but you can Choose between being Bullied and Feeling Guilty, and I hope you’ll Choose the latter, because it’s easier to slough off.  You may have any number of other Feelings arise.  If your Bully says “Whatsamatta, why you sweating so?  Scared?”  just say it’s a fever.  The less you say the better, as Bullies use conversation to trap you into the Language part of your brain, where you’ll forget to hold your Mirror.

There’s a lot more to say about Mirrors, which we’ll get to later.  For instance, when you’ve tapped bruises into yourself and you still can’t Let Go of a nagging bummer, the Emotion may not be yours.  Take the first person you think of, imagine Mirroring them for a few minutes, and see if your Feelings Change.  If they don’t, take the second person.  Or the person you’re telling yourself “It can’t be them!” – spun sugar tongue.  Or too much Dependence.

No one knows you’re doing this except you.  So there’s no reason this has to alter the rest of your relationship with the person – if it’s your boss, say.  You won’t Change them, you’ll only stop Dancing to their fiddle.  What you’re Changing is the way you React.  If they’re addicted to Bullying they may get bored with your non-Reaction and turn their Attention elsewhere, which might frighten you, and you’ll have to sit with that Fear, or Tap it out (Remember Tapping works just as well when you Imagine it, so you still won’t have to blow your cover).  Most likely they’ll just turn to others for their Bullying and direct a more civil part of their Personality toward you.  If they don’t have a more civil part, and/or your own Pathological Genius isn’t on the same jetway as theirs, you probably need a change of venue anyway.

Another friend had an experience yesterday that was similar to our reader’s, dealing with a local Bully.  They did a Theta Healing on themself, and it worked like a charm; the Bully happened to have a more civil Personality part, and they flipped into it.  You could surround yourself in Light, surround them in Light, Tap on your Feeling of Intimidation, or any number of other “tricks” – whatever works for you.  

Of course the critical juncture, in addition to finding the Motivation to actually Claim your Space, is the part about noticing.  For the first several tries you may be too deep into being Bullied before you remember the Mirror.  Try it anyway.  Even if it’s too late this time, every time you do remember, you’re building a new Habit, and making it easier the next time.  Every time you use the Mirror, it builds the Pattern, and makes it easier next time.  The easier it gets to remember and do, the sooner you’ll remember next time.  It’s a Virtuous Cycle, and it builds on itself quickly.

 These are the Cycles involved with the Pallas  corner of the 1/1/2000 Grand Cross:

  • Moon Waxing Square Pallas (Challenge to Trust Instincts around Judgment – “The storm ended, all Nature rejoices in brilliant sunshine“)
  • Pallas Waxing Square Saturn (Challenge to Change Boundaries around Discipline – “A fully decorated Christmas Tree“)
  • Pallas Opposite Uranus (Apparent dichotomy between Safety and Yintegrity – “A Child is seen being born out of an Egg“)
We can see the root of much of the Fear and Hesitation that we’ve been Experiencing over the last three years around dropping our Masks, and we can see how it’s not just the Uranus-Pluto Cycle, but also an integral part of the Century’s Evolutionary process.  The Christmas Tree may represent the idealized positive Images from our childhood that we Chose to remember over the less savory memories.  Pallas will Square (Mastery through Challenge) the Nodes (Life Path) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) next week (28-30 October, but it makes a Grand Cross with the Moon on 31 October at 2am PDT – http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt2.htm ), so this is an excellent time to practice these Skills.

August-September VI

August 23, 2015

ruby6124bpRuby, the Essence of Courage, here the Courage to Claim Sovereignty over the Self.

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Thanks to Heart Shaped Eyes ( https://heartshapedeyes.wordpress.com/2015/08/21/women-and-emotional-labor-putting-down-the-weight/ ) for pointing us to Bethany Webster’s illuminating blog post on Emotional Labor

http://womboflight.com/2015/08/21/women-and-emotional-labor-putting-down-the-weight/

In addition to the Exposition of our “Comedy of Human Nature” Relationship Initiation, we’re also at a major turning point around our Yindependence, and Bethany’s post does an excellent job of exploring the implications of Yindependence, Yintegrity, and the Responsibility issues we’ve been writing about and which will be increasingly prominent as we move into September.

I’m seeing lots of Attention devoted to Jupiter moving into Virgo, Saturn moving into Sagittarius, Eclipses, and the Stations of the Inner Planets, and while those astroevents have important meanings, I haven’t seen anyone writing about the Makemake-North Node-Lilith triple Initiation that’s coming up in September…

  • Makemake Initiates Lilith, 1 September
  • North Node Initiates Lilith, 8 September
  • Makemake Initiates North Node, 16 September

All of which occurs at 2 Libra, “The transmutation of the fruits of past experiences into the seed-realizations of the forever creative spirit.”  The Cusp of Libra is also about moving from Self-Focus to Other-Focus.  The Lilith Cycles run seven to nine years, the North Node-Makemake Cycle about 19 years.

The dwarf planet Makemake was named after the Rapa Nui God who rescued the people of Easter Island after their island lost its Trees.  Makemake taught them, for instance, to plant on the lee side of Rocks, as the Rock would harvest Water from Fog.  Makemake’s discovery chart is all about Creative Manifestation.  The North Node represents the direction of our travel.  Not the destination, but the direction.  And Lilith represents Self-Sovereignty.

The Lilith-Makemake Cycle that we’re completing began in late November 2008 at 26 Virgo, “A boy with a censer serves the priest near the altar.

Significant Change does not occur while we are in Judgment about the processes we would like to see Changed.  Change occurs rapidly after we Acknowledge our old Patterns for the Value they provided.  It’s worth repeating.

Significant Change does not occur while we are in Judgment about the processes we would like to see Changed.  Change occurs rapidly after we Acknowledge the old Patterns for the Value they provided. 

What Value might our Self-Sovereignty have claimed from Learning obeisance to rigidly defined and rigidly hierarchical protocols? 

Yes, there’s the notion of getting very clear about what we don’t Want.  And the notion that, now that we clearly understand, from the inside, how the old obeisance works, we are much better prepared to reject the seductive practices of those who would steal our Power. 

Can you think of – or Feel – other Values your Self-Sovereignty may have claimed over the last seven years?

Whatever the shape of that intelligence, we’ve now harvested it, and the next decade is about putting it to work.

More September to follow…

Nessus Three

June 5, 2015

mime3808bpMimetite, another compelling toxin – Lead Arsenate Chloride.  It’s usually safer to make a tincture with toxic Crystals and Minerals – put the Crystal in a glass bowl inside of a larger bowl, and add Water to the larger bowl so no Water gets into the smaller bowl and touches the Crystal.  Leave it in the Sunlight or Moonlight for a couple of days, then use the Water as you would a Safer Stone.  Or, just Meditate on the picture.  Mimetite helps us come back to ourSelf and our True Purpose.

  Ω    Ω    Ω    Ω    Ω 

Nessus is no longer Stationary, and no longer in the first few Degrees of Pisces, so if echos of Abuse of any kind assault us now, they should be easier to Let Go than might otherwise be the case.  Nevertheless, there is no shortage of PowerUnder in the Patriarchal World (we’re not implying that Ladies can’t do PowerOver), and since the Emotional scars from Abuse can light up at any time, and spontaneously, it never hurts to know the signs so we can increase our chances of Empathizing with our historical Self.  And Nessus will be back in the most Vulnerable Degrees of Pisces in the second half of 2015.  So it’s worth a few more words.

And one sign we forgot to mention in Nessus Two is “I’d rather Die than go through that again!”  At the moment Nessus is in the second Duad (two and a half Degrees) of Pisces, so that Emotion is less likely to arise, than when it’s in the first Duad.  But if and when it does ever arise for you, the key thing to remember is that you’re probably putting the emphasis on the wrong place.  It’s not

“I’d rather Die than go through that again!”

it’s

I’d rather Die than go through that again!”

because this Emotion arises at the quintessential moment of Ego Death.  And if you can succeed in making that shift in emphasis while you’re Feeling it, it’s jumping-up-and-down YOO HOO! Celebration time, because you’ll only have to make that shift once!!

Of course, the difficult part is having the Presence to step outside of that Feeling once you’re in it, because you aren’t home, you’ve been replaced by your historical/Karmic Self.  But, once you do bridge that gap between then and now, and can make that shift from Die to I, that’s YOO HOO time!

The other thing we didn’t mention in Nessus Two, is Chiron.  We’re talking about transcending Discouragement and Despair and moving into the Miracle of Rebirth instead, and that’s Chiron’s middle name.

Chiron (orbit 50 years) is at a Waxing Duodecile to Nessus’s (orbit 120 years) Station – in the Twentieth Harmonic.

The Twentieth Harmonic (18 Degrees) is the Aeon, or the principle and Wisdom of a Broad Perspective, particularly with regard to Time; the Power to give birth to new Forms; and the integration of the various segments of our Lives which are usually separate.  Most of the multiples of 18 Degrees are absorbed by the Tenth, Fifth, and Fourth Harmonic (and Second).  The exceptions are the Triduodecile (54 Degrees), Sepduodecile (126 Degrees), and Ennea- or Nonaduodecile (162 degrees).

The current Chiron-Nessus Cycle began January 10, 2006 in 3 Aquarius, “A deserter from the Navy: The individual’s self-realization through a crucial repudiation of a collective status which has become unbearable.”  The subtext is Rudhyar’s, and unusual; Rudhyar is usually more supportive of the status quo and Community standards than he is of Liberation of the individual.

But the idea of Abandoning a prior Commitment – the Commitment we made to PowerUnder in order to secure our own relative Safety in earlier  trying circumstances – is completely appropriate!  So we can consider the next several weeks to be a particularly fabulous time to Let Go of our PowerUnder Programming.

The major impact of a Station usually precedes the Station, but this Nessus Station, and its simultaneous Initiation of Atropos, is close enough to be considered an important part of the June 2 Full Moon chart, giving it (partial) Sovereignty over the several weeks following the Full Moon.  The Chiron-Nessus Waxing Duodecile is exact on June 6.

That immediately sounds scary to me, as it would seem to expose us to extreme Vulnerability.  Yet wouldn’t it be great to be out from under the Limiting Beliefs that have separated us from our Dreams?  So we probably want to Pray or Intend or Ask or Vizualise or Imagine Feeling or Affirm or Command or Expand Into (or any other variation of PIAVA) Safety and Grace as we make the Transition.  And Tap Out any real Fear that does arise.  It’s actually completely possible to graduate from PowerUnder into PowerWith.  Once we leave our own PowerUnder, the Bullies lose their Magnetic Attraction to us.

Peruvian Shamanism

May 4, 2015

On April 6 the Shift Network will sponsor a free presentation by Peruvian Shaman don Oscar Miro-Quesada on Condor Medicine: Shamanic Wisdom, Healing & Ritual Magic from the Spirit World.  Registering (first name and eddress only) at…

http://theshiftnetwork.com/CondorMedicine

will get you a compelling introductory talk by don Oscar.  In this introduction he gives five propositions that as far as I can tell agree with the “Traditional Wisdom” that I use as my standard benchmark of the Value of ideas…

  • Consciousness Begets Matter
  • Language Begets Reality
  • Ritual Begets Relationship
  • Nature Begets Purpose
  • Love Begets Life

The Traditional Wisdom is what’s left after you take all of the non-Political (Both/And rather than Either/Or) Esoteric Spiritual Teachings from all of the Planet’s historical cultures, mix well, and simmer slowly.  Using a roux like this as the foundation, we can rebuild all of our concepts about Reality, then compare our Thoughts, Feelings, and Behaviors to our Concepts to see where our programming has perverted our relationship to the Unconscious, and where our Culture is screwing up Consciousness, Language, Ritual, Nature, and Love – not to mention Matter, Reality, Relationship, Purpose, and Life.

Shift Happens

February 27, 2015

Ceres-dual-bright-spotsDon’t know if you knew that the Hupersons have sent a spaceship to visit the dwarf planet Ceres (recently Initiated by Pluto – “In a hospital, the children’s ward is filled with toys), out in the asteroid belt between Mars and Jupiter.  The spaceship now is 29,000 miles (the circumference of the Earth is 25,000) from Ceres and snapping photos like the tourist that it is.  No one in recent memory has been there, after all.  Evidently no one called ahead to notify the Cereans that the Earthlings were coming, so they haven’t turned out the lights.  The headlights are literally Mysteries, not Photoshopped.  Best guesses from the Muggles are reflections from exposed Ice or fresh vanilla Lava, but till the official propaganda is handed down by the Commision, you’re free to make up whatever story pleases you.

A reader recently asked where I stand on “The Shift.”  There’s a great book on the history of the 1960s – which as you should know by now we’re reliving, for at least another two weeks – called Time it Was: American Stories from the Sixties,

“As for the complex social and racial equality issues I covered and reported on in the mid-1960s, change has been slower than I would ever have imagined when I was in my 20s.  I still think we are moving in the right direction.  It’s just that sometimes and in some places the program can only be measured in millimeters rather than the miles I would have expected 40 years ago.”

It’s a great book, whether you were there or not.  It’s a “textbook,” so the price is usurious, but Amazoo has good used copies for reasonable prices.  I mean, how much damage can a student do in three or four months.

I don’t Believe The Shift is a three-dimensional issue.  It has to be viewed from a larger Perspective.  It’s happening, but we don’t hear about it on the Nightmarely News.  There will be Tipping Points, but they’ll probably be single-issue Tipping Points.  Since everything is related though, each one will push the others.  It may take centuries before we get to where we’d like to be.  The species will probably survive Global Balming, though it may be by regressing to the Stone Age – the Diet’s already gone there! 

Here’s a very concise summary of the current American Fascism (the definition of Fascism that I learned in high school civics class is government and business in bed together) and our attempts to Tip it into the dustbin…

http://billmoyers.com/2015/02/25/end-big-moneys-chokehold-democracy-amend-constitution/

From a completely different Perspective but on the identical issue (Change), here’s an interesting coaching from Pat Carrington, who has adapted Tapping to include positive statements as well as negative…

http://masteringeft.com/masteringblog/pat-carringtons-choices-method-for-the-thought-im-right-and-youre-wrong/

“All-negative” Tapping works for me, as it’s just Empathy for what’s really going on, and as such has the Power to Create Miracles.  But by all means try Pat’s technique.  Who ever had too many tools, anyway?