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Earth Repair 2 and Karma Repair 1

May 12, 2019

The Global Earth Repair Conference is YouTubing its sessions so we can watch them free.  Since there were about 200 sessions in seven or eight time slots, there are lot of sessions I wasn’t able to attend either, even when I hopped from one session to another in one time slot, which I did whenever I wasn’t Learning a lot.  Not that the sessions lacked quality – I just read a lot and Earth Repair is one of my favorite topics.  I’m much more Optimistic after the Conference than I was before – many of the presenters are already Living in 5D.

Here are a couple of samples…

“When it comes to survival and sustainability, there’s only one story for the human species, and we’re all in this together…  We know when we see a forest, a lake, the ocean, a natural river system, the atmosphere, that it’s more valuable than computers, cars, airplanes, which are valuable for a short time, then become trash and pollution…  If we truly value natural systems, then Nature would truly become the basis of our money and our economy.  To protect Nature then would not be a luxury, but a necessity.”  –John D. Liu, in…

“We’re extremely conflicted and I think it has something to do with two levels of development – our brains are wired for survival, which means anger, jealousy, fear, territoriality, self-esteem, all the things that cause trouble.  And our brains are also wired for beauty and connection and spirituality, and I think it’s a crisis time for us to begin to overcome this hardcore biological survival wiring and begin to activate our spiritual wiring – the forebrain.

“Buddhism does that well with mindfulness and meditation, and the other traditions that do this.  It’s almost like we’re at a crisis point, not just of the Earth, but of our own human journey.  Are we going to give in and basically dissolve?  Will we be a failed experiment?  Or, are we at the beginning of an incredibly exciting part of our journey as we begin to become more human in the sense of truly connected to loving and nurturing all life?”  –Susan Eirich in…

Find out more about Susan at https://earthfireinstitute.org/our-story/, and about John at https://www.commonland.com/en and https://www.ecosystemrestorationcamps.org/foundation/john-d-liu/.  The Conference sessions that have been YouTubed so far are listed at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNPSTkjWIrl7FD31xbJ5STg/videos.  Planning is underway for followup Earth Repair Conferences in Chile, Africa, and India.

Meanwhile, in another galaxy far far away…

https://danielscranton.com/galactic-energies-within-you-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“We are very excited about the progress that we see you all making in regards to the accessing of more of your galactic energies.  You are all receiving activations all the time to awaken within you those parts of yourselves that are not from Earth, or your solar system.  And we can see how these activations are affecting all of you in a positive way.  Much of what you are attempting to resolve there on planet Earth at this time is related to those journeys that you have taken through all the different star systems in our galaxy.

“And so, by becoming more of the whole you, you are better equipped to handle the challenges you face right now on planet Earth.  We see you getting activated and then taking what energies you are accessing from within to the different challenges that you face in your lives.  Even though you still have much to resolve there on planet Earth, you are also bringing a lot to the party because of all that you have already experienced in your lifetimes in other parts of the galaxy.

“You draw from those Sirian, Andromedan, Pleiadian, Arcturian, and other lifetimes, and when you bring those energies forward, you make it easier for yourselves to reconcile the differences that you have there on your planet.  For example, most people are split politically.  They either go in all into one political party or all into another, and they see the others who are putting all of their energy into a different political party as the enemy.  This is a much more toned down version of the battles that have existed throughout our galaxy for millions and millions of years.

“When you recognize that you contain all of those energies inside of you, and you make it your mission to be integrated, then you can be a walking example of what it is like to bring different energies, different beliefs, different star systems, together.  And if you can do that, you certainly can resolve the differences between you and the others there on Earth who have very different beliefs.

“This is why you often find that you are the [sheep of color] in your family.  Those of you who are awake are often the only ones who have the beliefs that you do, and it then falls upon you to make peace with the fact that everyone else that you are related to by blood thinks differently.  And when you can do that, and you can make peace with the differences between you, then you know that you are becoming more integrating with all of the galactic energies that you have inside of you, and you are moving closer and closer to that fifth dimensional reality where all beings co-exist harmoniously.  So keep up the good work.”

And on a galaxy much closer to Home, our Cosmic Recess window is beginning to close, as we’re now only seven days from the planetary equivalent of The Most Important Thing Is Your Karma (Saturn Conjunct the Mean South Node).  “Mean” here means Average, not Cruel, though from the Ego’s Perspective, Cruel wouldn’t be far off the mark.

John Liu reminds us that when our Ecosystem Collapses, nothing is more Important or Valuable than some degree of Restoration.  Jack Rosenberg (in Body, Self, & Soul) points out that when the Ego shatters, nothing is more Important and Valuable than Restoring a functioning Ego, because you’ll just make a big mess of anything else you try to do.  And I (among others) aver that when we’re trying to Manifest something Difficult for us, nothing is more Important and Valuable than Examining our Karma.

There isn’t a lot of astrological Interaction between the 19 May Saturn-South Node Conjunction (Karma demanding Attention) and the 23 May Station of Orcus (Breaking Oaths), but in addition to their Temporal Proximity, the Topical Connections are many and Intense.  We’ll take the chart apart soon, but in the interim we’ll give you some homework.  Make a list of the places in your Life where you don’t Believe that you have Choice.  That’ll likely turn out to be critical.  And, Think about all of the Abuse Stories you’ve heard in your Life; which one had the most Emotional Impact on you?

Earth Repair 1

May 9, 2019

http://dyarrow.org/BlueLightWater/

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May 7, 2019

I’m back from the Global Earth Repair Conference, https://earthrepair.friendsofthetrees.net/.  I expect to be saying a lot more about this for a while, as it represents a paradigm shift for me.  Here’s a central download…

https://www.ecosystemrestorationcamps.org/

(there’s a major Ecosystem Restoration Camp just outside of Paradise, CA) and a second one…

http://www.dyarrow.org/gateway.htm

…click on “Return of the Dragon.”  We’re in a short window here without major Stations, though a quick scan of the Angles shows that there’s a lot going on; we’ll try to find time to summarize that in the next few days.  The biggest is the 19 May Merger (Conjunction) of our Karma (South Node – aka Dragon) with The Most Important Thing (Saturn), which will seriously Challenge (T-Square) our Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta).  At the Conference David gave us a quick primer on Dragon Paths, sort of the adult version of Ley Lines.

One of the things I realized during the Conference is that the Pholus-Quaoar-et al Dance on the Cusp of Capricorn isn’t just “interesting,” it’s crucial.  The Cusp of Capricorn after all is where the Harmonic Convergence began in 1988 – when this blog’s predecessors began – and where the Mayan Calendar “Ended” in 2012.

If anyone needs a primer on what the Capricorn Cusp means, just reread Dorothy Bryant’s The Kin of Ata Are Waiting for You.  Of course that’s a Northern Perspective; in the South at the Capricorn Cusp, Strawberries and Marionberries and Raspberries are ripening – a very sweet time.  Probably why both Dane Rudhyar and John D. Liu focus on the South as the next carrier of the “civilization” baton, though my bets are still on the Chinese, as they already have vast Experience with Overpopulation, and they’ve only recently come upon Profit Über Alles, and may thus be able to more easily exchange it for We’re All In This Together.

I haven’t had a chance to catch up yet on what Dan Scranton’s been writing about, but we know that lately he’s been talking more about “Contact,” which makes these mainstream articles interesting…

https://www.newsweek.com/ufo-sightings-2019-us-military-tic-tac-pentagon-navy-unidentified-aerial-1412272

https://www.washingtonpost.com/national-security/2019/04/24/how-angry-pilots-got-navy-stop-dismissing-ufo-sightings/

Our next Station, which we should start Feeling by about 16 May, will be Orcus, which symbolizes Making and Breaking Oaths.  On this Free-Will Planet, our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs pretty much all began as Oaths to Protect our Then-Present-Moment Egos.  So when Orcus is Lit Up we have the Opportunity to Become Conscious of and Recant our Ancient Karmic Oaths and Liberate ourself from our Limitations.  Remind me that we’ll need to talk about Yangtegrity and Yintegrity again in that context.

This upcoming Orcus Station makes a T-Square to the symbols for Sustainability (Ceres) and Abuse (Nessus).  So if Dolores Cannon’s work hasn’t Liberated you from Abduction Abuse issues, you may get another Opportunity this month.

Uh Oh 3

March 30, 2019

Okay, we’re technically past Pluto-South Node, though if you’re still Refusing or Unable to Embrace any particular Emotions, it may drag on for you.  No Blame – we have all the Time in the World, and for many people, specific Emotions, or the Memories that Invoke them, can literally Feel worse than Death.  If you’re in that situation, EFT may help Liberate you (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B4hhMm8qsCs).

We’re now already deep into the Survival-Issue Stations (Strong Energies) that follow it.  They’re three separate Stations, but because they coincide in Time and are close in astrological longitude, we have to consider them as One Energy…

  • 29 March (8:30 am PDT) – Our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) reaches Peak Strength (Stationary).  Hopefully this means your Genius will Break Through its Chains.  If you’re Struggling with Runaway Emotions, these are the Chains that you’re Throwing Off.  Persist.  You may not be able to Dissolve the Discomfort right away, but you can make the Decision to Stop Judging those Emotions, which is a Critical Step.  29 Sagittarius.
  • 31 March (5pm PDT) – Our Willingness to Respond (dwarf planet Pholus) is Severely Tested (Stationary).  For instance, it’s Imperative that we Respond to those Uncomfortable Emotions with Love and Peace rather than Reacting to them with the Shame and Loathing that we’re accustomed to.  This Response is how we find the Keys to the Kingdom.  3 Capricorn.
  • 3 April (5:30 am PDT) – Our Survival Instincts (dwarf planet Quaoar) are Lit Up very Strongly (Stationary).  If this means Fear for you, Tap and Kegel it Out.  Our Instincts should just be calmly and quietly Telling Us What To Do and When To Do It, not Scaring the pants off us.  Fear may be one of those Forbidden Emotions that are being Lit Up.  4 Capricorn.

You may recall that we’re also Learning how to Consciously Shift our “Fate” around our Survival – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/03/23/lachesis-pholus-quaoar-1/.  Our Manifestation Skills are critical to our Survival, and we’re also Learning how to Consciously Shift our “Fate” around our Manifestation…

  • 28 March (5pm PDT) – Lachesis Waning Trine Makemake.  5 Gemini-Libra.  More to follow.

And while we’re at it, we’re also Learning how to Consciously Shift our “Fate” around those Intrusive Memories we spoke of…

  • 26 March ( PDT) – Lachesis Waxing Square OR10.  5 Gemini-Pisces.  More to follow.

The Equinox Full Moon was also Cuspal, so the chart of the Three Stations is similar…

…but more complex, partly because we’re including everyone from 27 to 6 Degrees, to include our usual three-Degrees of Sensitivity from Ixion and Quaoar, which are five Degrees apart.  If we think of this as a Rebirth rather than a garden-variety astroevent, this is totally appropriate astrologically.  And is we consider how much is happening, including Pluto-South Node, considering this a Rebirth is totally appropriate Existentially!

It would take a long while to Interpret this chart from the bottom up, so we’ll look at it from the top down.

First, note that our Willingness to Respond Fully to our Forbidden Genius’s Need to Come Out of the Closet in order to Ensure our Survival is a Self-Resolving Challenge (Diamond Star).  That’s fabulous news!  It means that the Planet is nearer to its Tipping Point into 5D than we Imagine.  The would-be Impediments (Squares) to this are our Manifestation Skills (Makemake) and our need to Heal our Self-Sabotaging Beliefs (Chiron-Vesta).  The Shift is Driven by Self-Love (Sappho Opposite the Stations).

Second, there are three more Self-Resolving Challenges (Diamond Stars) – Manifestation (Makemake), Rebirth (Haumea), and Vitality (Varuna)!

Third, notice that there are two Almost-Grand Sextiles, which Symbolize Blessings on Efforts where we take the First Step.  Completing the Grand Sextiles are two well-known Fixed Stars…

  • One of the Almost-Grand Sextiles Grace-Fully joins Self-Love (Sappho), Soul (Uranus), Ending our Habit of Identifying with Karmic Intrusive Memories (Atropos-Lilith-Karma-OR10), Enlisting our Hidden Genius to Help Us Attend to our Survival (Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Stations), and Rebirth (Haumea).  The Star that Fills Out the Sextuplet is Regulus, the Royal Star that promises Great Success as long as one avoids the Temptation to Seek Revenge.

I don’t know if you’ve noticed that the Antichrist is currently Seeking Revenge on the “Traitors” who dared to have him investigated.  He has Mars on his Ascendant, which points right at Regulus.  Downfall here we come.  (Using the 11am chart –  https://skywriter.wordpress.com/2011/04/16/see-donald-trump%E2%80%99s-official-birth-certificate-and-chart/; in the 10am chart, Mars is still Conjunct Regulus in the First House.)

  • The second Almost-Grand Sextile Grace-Fully joins Manifestation (Makemake), Vitality (Varuna), Learning how to Consciously Change our Relationship to Fear and Violence (Lachesis-Sedna-Mars), Healing our Self-Sabotaging Beliefs (Chiron-Vesta), and Respect for All Things (Hopi).  The Vacancy that Completes this Grace is the Star Toliman, well-known to anyone who follows exoplanet-hunting as Alpha Centauri, the closest Star to our Sun!

And Alpha Centauri is Chiron’s Foot, in Ovid’s version the location of his famous Wound!

And beyond two Grand Sextiles, we now, with the two Stars added, have a Grand Unx, or twelve planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac.  The Unx (Twelfth Harmonic) is about Pattern-Breaking, so our Chains here are up for the bolt cutter.  The twelve specific Patterns we can Break here include…

  • Healing our Resistance to our Forbidden Genius (Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar to Toliman)
  • Recognizing our Immortality (Toliman to Haumea)
  • Reorganizing our Life Mission to cover multiple Lifetimes, or Learning to Utilize Bleedthrough from our Parallels (Haumea to Makemake)
  • Manifesting Generosity of Spirit (Makemake to Regulus)
  • Liberating our Vitality from Analysis (Regulus to Varuna)
  • Loving Impediments to our Vitality into non-Existence (Varuna to Sappho)
  • Loving Fear and Violence into non-Existence (Sappho to Lachesis-Mars-Sedna)
  • Recognizing Fear and Violence as Teaching from the Soul (Lachesis-Mars-Sedna to Uranus)
  • Healing Beliefs that Inhibit Identification with our Soul (Uranus to Vesta-Chiron)
  • No Longer Believing that we Have to Identify with Traumatic Memories (Vesta-Chiron to OR10-Atropos-Karma-Lilith)
  • Relaxing our Judgments of the Sources of our Traumatic Memories (OR10-Atropos-Karma-Lilith to Hopi)
  • Replacing Competetion with Collaboration (Hopi to Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar)

Chiron-Equinox-Survival Full Moon I

March 18, 2019

The 20 March (7pm PST) Full Moon is Impressive from several points of view…

  • The Sun is Merged with (Conjoins) a symbol for Despair and Miracles (dwarf planet Chiron); as we’ve averred many times, we Recommend Poor-Sweethearting any Disappointment that arises.

See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/ if you’re new here.

  • The Full Moon occurs just four hours after the Spring Equinox, which is traditionally considered to be an important milestone, when the World Begins Anew.  That interpretation of course has its roots in the Northern Hemisphere, as Spring begins in Libra in the Other Half.

If we extend this a bit, we could say that the World (or at least the Plants) Beginning Anew is a matter of Solitary Creativity (Aries) in the North, and a matter of Relating to Other (Libra) in the South.  In the South, Solitary Creativity is Required to Survive Autumn and Winter, whereas in the North, it’s Relationships.  Not being much of a World Traveler, I can’t say whether this is Relevant to the Actual World, but I’d be interested in your Perspective.

  • The major Configuration in the Full Moon chart is the Reiteration of a Warning that our Survival, while likely, is not Assured (Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Diamond Star) unless we start Paying Closer Attention to it.

So let’s start with the latter, the Diamond Star or Self-Resolving Challenge.  If the Challenge is Self-Resolving, why is our Survival not Assured?  Because about five years ago, two dwarf planets started Dancing cheek-to-cheek.  Dwarf planet Quaoar (Kwou’-are) symbolizes our Survival Instincts.  The God Quaoar taught the pre-Spanish Natives of what was to become California how to Manage their Not-Quite-Wild Landscape to Assure their Survival.  Since then, Know-It-All Colonialists in California have ignored Quaoar’s Advice to their peril.

Quaoar’s Dance partner Pholus symbolizes Full Response.  Pholus’s namesake in Greek Myth failed to take all of the Precautions he Could Have Taken, and the results Changed the World.  We can’t say Should Have Taken, because there was no recent Precedent to forewarn him.  It’s only in Hindsight that we can clearly see how he could have easily Prevented the Catastrophe.

Responsibility does not mean Blame.  Responsibility means Being Able to Respond.  If there is no recent Precedent, then, shy of Intuition or “Luck,” how are we to know What to be Prepared to Respond to?  Once an untoward event has occurred, though, or Chicken Little has Warned us, we may be able to Figure Out how to Prevent it from recurring.  So we Interpret Pholus as Being Fully Responsive.  We might have to brainstorm to think of everything that could go wrong, but if we are to be Fully Responsive, that may be Required.

So the two dwarf planets that have been Intimate for the last five or so years, were Quaoar and Pholus – Becoming Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts.  As Greta Thunberg said at Davos, “Some people, some companies, some decision-makers in particular, have known exactly what priceless values they have been sacrificing to continue making unimaginable amounts of money.  And I think many of you here today belong to that group of people.”

This requires a division between the “Us Versus them” Darwinian folks, who will Respond to their Survival Instincts by Hoarding, and the “We’re All In This Together” Rest of Us, who will Respond by Sharing.  The Problem for us is that these two dwarf planets continue to be Intimate until the mid-2060s.  We may be replaced by Robots long before then, so the few of us who are left may end up Struggling with the Robots for Control more than we Struggle with 1000-Year Floods.  “Open the pod bay doors, HAL,” as Kubrick foretold half a century ago.

The Full Moon is the base of the T-Square (Challenge) that’s embedded in the Diamond Square, which means that Chiron Squaring Pholus is a big part of the Challenge, which is quite Curious, as it was Pholus’s failure to foresee all possibilities that led to Chiron’s famous Wound, which made him supposedly Unhealable.  So this is very Ancient Karma that we’re dealing with.

Boundaries III

February 11, 2019

A we mentioned in Boundaries, “Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.”  We’ve been writing about Libra and Pallas for several days without realizing till now that Other and Boundary are really the same concept or word, just seen from different Perspectives.  Without a Boundary there wouldn’t be an Other, and without Other we’d never have the notion of Boundary.  It’s all about Identity, which is a lot more Fluid than we usually think.  And about Duality, which is a lot more Limiting than we usually think.

We Hupers usually think of the Veil between us and the Other Side as more of a Limitation than a Boundary, but Boundary it is, and the Other Side is as much an element of Libra as your paramour.

“He was not wakened again by Alder, but he had a bad dream of his own.

“He was standing by a wall of stone near the top of a long hillside of dry grey grass that ran down from dimness into the dark.  He knew he had been there before, had stood there before, but he did not know when, or what place it was.  Someone was standing on the other side of the wall, the downhill side, not far away.  He could not see the face, only that it was a tall man, cloaked.  He knew that he knew him.  The man spoke to him, using his true name.  He said, ‘You will soon be here, Ged.’

“Cold to the bone, he sat up, staring to see the space of the house about him, to draw its reality about him like a blanket.  He looked out the window at the stars.  The cold came into his heart then.  They were not the stars of summer, beloved, familiar, the Cart, the Falcon, the Dancers, the Heart of the Swan.  They were the Other stars, the small, still stars of the dry land, that never rise or set.  He had known their names once, when he knew the names of things.

” ‘Avert!’ he said aloud and made the gesture to turn away misfortune that he had learned when he was ten years old.”  (Ursula Le Guin, The Other Wind, pp.12-13)

“We who have true names keep them when we die, it’s our use-name that is forgotten… This is a mystery to the learned, I can tell you, but as well as we understand it, a true name is a word in the True Speech. … When my master Aihal died, my wife was there with him; and as he was dying he said to her, ‘It is changed, all changed.‘  He was looking across that wall.  From which side I do not know.”  (ibid, p.45)

“Kalessin said: ‘Long ago we chose.  We chose freedom.  Men chose the yoke.  We chose fire and the wind.  They chose water and the earth.  We chose the west,  and they chose the east.’

“And Kalessin said: ‘But always among us some envy them their wealth, and always among them some envy us our liberty.  So it was that evil came into us and will come into us again, until we choose again, and forever, to be free.  Soon I am going beyond the west to fly on the Other Wind.  I will lead you there, or wait for you, if you will come.’ …

“Then Kalessin said, ‘Once we were one people.  And in sign of that, in every generation of men, one or two are born who are dragons also.  And in every generation of our people, longer than the quick lives of men, one of us is born who is also human.  Of these one is now living in the Inner Isles.  And there is one of them living there now who is a dragon.  These two are the messengers, the bringers of choice.  There will be no more such born to us or to them.  For the balance changes.’ ”  (Ibid, pp.167-68)

We can also compare our day-to-day Experience with that of Daphne Charters and her friends (Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.260-61)…

“This work, in which we all assist, is known as a transformation.  We seek and find a lost soul whose astral body, as well as the physical, has died, leaving no trace to normal Astral eyes.  However, because we cannot see a ‘dead’ person, owing to his faster rate of vibration, it does not follow that he has no body.  So it is with those whose vibrations have sunk through the years until only the Great Ones know where they lie.

“We find these people by their vibration, however slow and, although we are unable to see them when we reach them, we mark the spot and direct rays of power and love upon them until their vibrations are sufficiently raised for the bodies to become visible to us.  This is the first stage in the rehabilitation of ‘lost souls,’ as much power has to be directed to them over sometimes long periods before consciousness returns.

“In order to achieve even the first part of the transformation, it is necessary for many hundreds of people from the Astral to gather together.  By passing power through their bodies, it becomes sufficiently coarsened to be effective amidst very slow vibrating matter.  This is where Daphne is of use to us, for her physical body vibrates slower than those of us who live on the Astral, a higher plane, thus power which is passed through her coarsens the whole.

“Unless you are clairvoyant, you will not have seen a display of power so you cannot know the magnitude of the volume, or the intensity of light.  Fairies can naturally see this power for it is their life’s work to distribute it, but normally they know only the quantity which they can collectively produce in their own group.  Our own fairies, who always help us, are ever amused at the never-ending supply so we were interested to see how the delegates would be affected…”

“How different is the power which we witnessed today to that which is known by the same name on Earth.  Man ever seeks for power to overcome his neighbors, to add to his possessions, or to acquire authority over more people.  Today we were privileged to see the essence from which all these petty misnomers have their being.

“But this true-power, in its purity of purpose, performed a deed so wondrous that if men were told of it, they would not believe.  If only those who sought to misuse it understood the condition in which they will find themselves when their ridiculous, puffed-up physical bodies and accompanying personalities are no more, perhaps they would then use it to lift up instead of to crush, to comfort rather than exploit, and, in the happiness which they would at last know, they would find the key to a better world.”

So, I was Wondering about the Other planet in Libra, Makemake.  And it turns out that, at least for now, the Bottom Line of Makemake in Libra is that If we Want to Manifest What We Want, we have to Seek Out and Revert our Victim Postures.  Drawing up the Makemake chart for the moment when Juno enters Gemini – ie, when we are likely to be due for substantial Consciousness Expansion (8:30 pm PST 10 February)…

…Reveals two big Challenges (T-Squares)…

A Challenge to Manifestation itself (Makemake) between Making it a Value of ours to be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Venus-Pholus-Quaoar) and Choosing Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).

Fate is what happens To Us when we’re not Conscious of what’s going on.  It’s not about Why but rather about What.  What’s the Pattern?  When our Repeating Bummers happen, what Precedes them?  When “bad luck” befalls us, there’s a sequence of events that leads up to it.  We aren’t talking Cause & Effect – that’s a left-brain dead end.  Useful if you’re Stuck in the 3D Dynamic Masculine Creative process, but Obfuscating if you want to use 5D Magnetic Feminine Manifestation methods.

PIAVA that you become aware of What Precedes your Self-Sabotage.  If you already knew what it was you’d have fixed it long ago.  It’s behind your Blinders, and you won’t see it without enlisting the Cooperation of the Unconscious – that is, using PIAVA.  For instance, “Lord Ganesh, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Realizing How I Stumble into Self-Sabotage.”  Once you get Conscious about these Patterns, you can Choose otherwise.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

We’ve been working with Responding Fully (Pholus) to our Survival Instincts (Quaoar) – ie, Disallowing our Yes-Buts that try to Protect our Routines – for a long time.  We’re running out of Excuses.  It’s past time to Accept this as a basic Value.

The second Challenge is about Reframing the Beliefs Created by our Victim Postures (Vesta-OR10-Nessus) between Ego Death (Nemesis) and Sustainability (Ceres).

Like our Survival Instincts, we’ve also been working with our Abuse Memories for a long time now.  First we have to Retrieve them – or Allow them to Retrieve us (OR10), and Acknowledge their Reality.  Then we have to Empathize with our Real Victim, Revert any Blaming-the-Victim behavior we indulged or encountered, and Deal with our Real Emotions.  That usually takes a lot more than a few hundred Poor-Sweethearts, though they can be useful.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/.

People talk a lot about Forgiveness, but in a real sense what we need is the Opposite of Forgiveness, as our original Tolerance was a form of Forgiveness to begin with.  We don’t Forgive; we Discover that we’ve Forgiven.  It’s an Observation, not an Action.  As with Self-Sabotage, we need to Discover what Preceded our episodes of Abuse, so we can Learn to Recognize the Pattern before it turns Abusive, and Choose Otherwise.  While Sharing all this increases the Pain, it’s often very difficult to do alone.

Yes, just about every step in the process of Clearing Abuse – Recall, Acceptance, Self-Empathy, Embracing our Real, Explosive Emotions, Opening to the Patterns – requires an Ego Death (Nemesis).  Our Resistance to Ego Death must be Reframed, so we Recognize when it’s happening and Learn to Celebrate it as the fastest route to Living a Better Life.

And as we move through Abuse, we have to Recognize that we’re likely to be Abused in some ways every day.  Every “trivial” unkind remark, Intentional or otherwise, can make us Feel Less-Than.  So we have to get very good at Recognizing it, Owning and Healing our Reactions, and approaching Ego Death as we would a Latte, in order to make this whole process Sustainable (Ceres).

And Sustainability-Ceres is the kingpin of the whole chart, as it is the head of a Kite that connects the two T-Squares.  A Kite is a Grand Trine (three planets equally spaced around the Circle) with a fourth planet halfway between two of the three.  The fourth planet – Ceres – becomes the Focus of the substantial Dumb-Luck Blessings served up by the Grand Trine.

So we have a Golden Opportunity to bring these Challenges – Cleaning Up our Manifestations by Choosing to Support our Survival Instincts, and Rooting Out the Limiting Beliefs that our Abuse History has left us with – into Resolution, where they Serve our Deepest Desires rather than Sabotaging them.

The three corners of the Grand Trine, or Big Grace, are Manifestation (Makemake), Ego Death (Nemesis), and The End of Karma (asteroids Atropos and Karma).  We’ve actually been working on the Death of Karma for a lot longer than we’ve been working on Abuse Memories or Responding to Survival Instincts.  The Realization in the Western World that Karma is about Inertia rather than Retribution has been with us since Alan Watts’s books in the 1950s.

A corollary is that Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  Like our Other Challenges, Letting Go of Our Karma involves Noticing when it’s recurring, Reverting our Belief that it’s Inevitable, Discovering the Patterns that led up to it, Noticing when those Patterns Begin the next time, and Choosing an Alternative.  The Death of Karma is a Given in this Drama; it’s not something we’re being Scheduled to work on, it’s something that we can use as a model for the Abuse and Survival Issues we are working on.

Dragon, of course, is a synonym for Karma, and as we saw, Dragons have gone to fly on the Other Wind.

Dumpster Fires

December 20, 2018

Pholus and Quaoar (Responding to our Survival Instincts) have been parked on the cusp of Capricorn (Just Fix It) for a while now, and of course the Sun’s annual passage into Capricorn defines the December Solstice, which is widely understood to be the Beginning of the New Year.  So while the Pholus-Quaoar combo isn’t new, we might expect threats to our Survival to increase again as we move into 2019.  Not a big surprise considering the news.

With our usual three Degrees of Sensitivity, Pholus-Quaoar has been prominent in Solstice charts since December 2016, and will continue to be through December 2019 – including the October 2020 US election, but not the 2020 December Solstice.  If we’re optimistic, we might propose that everyone will be scared enough to rekindle their common sense by October 2020, allowing 2021 to be a bit more stable.

Buuutttt, a number of other major Energies shift by the 2020 Solstice, such as Trump’s War-to-Prevent-US-Regime-Change (Saturn Conjunct Pluto, 12 January 2020 in 23 Capricorn, “A soldier receiving two awards for bravery in combat”) and the Beginning of the Digital Age in earnest (Jupiter Conjunct Saturn in Air, 21 December 2020 in 1 Aquarius, “An old adobe mission in California”Mission Santa Clara de Asis no doubt).

It’s an interesting “coincidence” that it was these very Spanish Missions that disrupted the well-managed Sustainable Landscapes that the original Quaoar hisself provided the template for.  Last month at the airport we met a barely-survived Marine veteran of Reagan’s War-to-Prevent-US-Regime-Change, against that Perennial Global Threat Grenada.  Thirty-five years later his war wounds were foremost in his introduction to strangers, and given their extent, that’s not surprising.  Maybe the next Trumped-Up War will be against Andorra or San Marino or Uruguay or some other dastardly threat to Global Peace.

The Guardian Brexit Briefing recently put it this way…

“Certain parts of American society now feel a sort of exhausted solidarity with the UK, a relief that they are not the only ones whose country is a raging dumpster fire.  A new sort of special relationship has been forged between the UK and the US; we are united by the fact that we have become global jokes.”

Beginnings and Endings often occur together.  In the case of the December Solstice chart, the dominant Configuration is a Nodal Grand Cross in 29-30 Degrees of the Cardinal Signs – we’re Finishing Up a Creative phase (Cardinal Signs), and about to Begin a Stabilizing phase (Fixed Signs).  We can productively read this as Finishing Up a Creative Destruction phase, and Beginning to Stabilize what we plan to Build upon the Ruins.  Ms. May and Mr. Antichrist, and their respective MPs and lackeys, have done a bang-up job of Creative Destruction, but their Fun may be coming to an End.

The Solstice chart is shown by the lighter-weight lines below…

Most of the Cusps (Endings/Beginnings) from Scorpio to Aries are occupied, while only one of the other six Cusps is inhabited, which clearly makes Varuna-North Node (Merging of our Mission and our Life Force) at the end of Cancer the Standout Pole.  Thus many other, less Central, segments of our Lives may be Falling Away, as we focus on what’s Most Important.  Varuna-North Node heads a Diamond Star, a Self-Resolving Challenge, so we can sort of Let That Take Care of Itself – where “That” is Allowing the Life Force to Lead our Life rather than our Shoulds and Gottas.

The other corners of the Grand Cross include Uranus, which turns Direct 6 January and returns to Taurus “for good” (for seven years that is) at the Ides of May.  Our Soul will return to the task of Descending into our Physical Vehicle.  If we’re hanging by our heels so we can see the World more clearly, this will look a lot like Ascension.

And Veritas (Truth) enters Scorpio (Fearlessness) just an hour before the Solstice.  This is potentially a Big Deal, as Scorpio is compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things.  Some Fearless Truthiness wouldn’t hurt the Planet at all, though Veritas is only in Scorpio till May, then again from July through November.  But it could start a trend.  And on 3 October next year Veritas Initiates Aletheia (Truth) at 18 Scorpio, “A path through woods brilliant with multicolored splendor.”  So there may be hope.

Of course the Nodes move Retrograde, so they’re really just Beginning their butt-first sashay through Cancer and Capricorn, rather than Ending it.  That’s okay, Degrees in Tropical astrology don’t represent arcminutes in the sky, they represent Days in the Year, Days after the March Equinox that defines the Cusp of Aries.  And most of us most of the time live Time forwards, or at least we think we do.  So 29 Cancer is still the End of Cancer, even if Time in this case is butt-first.

The heavier lines in the chart show the Full Moon that follows the Solstice by less than a Day/Degree.  The orange lines show the Mjōlnir Kite (Epiphanies) that dominates this chart.  Like Varuna-North Node, the Moon is an outlier that focuses the Energy of the crowd on the other side of the Zodiac.  So we can expect from it Significant Insights into how we might Respond to our Survival Instinct most productively.

A strong hint about that resides in the Square (red line) that like a bow holds the Tension for the arrow.  That’s Venus (Values) Square Lilith (Self-Sovereignty).  Our Values are often slanted toward our Heart’s Truth, but usually heavily overlain with Programming from someone else, which was likely to be more their own Programming than their own Heart’s Truth.  In other words our Values can get pretty stilted.  So we’re likely to Discover places where our own Values are Sabotaging our Self-Sovereignty.

It may require some Adjustments to your Lifestyle, but in the long run you won’t regret Letting your Values Change instead of continuing to Compromise your Sovereignty.  Doing that is also very likely to guide you toward the Life Force, help you Respond to your Survival Instincts, and lay the groundwork for your New Life in 5D!

Hope You’re Rested IX

September 11, 2018

Scared about your Survival?  Respond to it.  How?  Well, the first thing you need to do is find out whether your Fear is an Instinct about actual Likely Futures, or a Regression to Past Events or Lifetimes.  How?  Here’s the Strategy I use to differentiate…

Pholus (Ability to Respond) and Quaoar (Survival Instincts) are both Stationary on 12 September, Pbholus at 9am PDT in 28 Sagittarius on the Galactic Center, and Quaoar at 0:00 (!) Capricorn and 11pm PDT.

Of course Futures aren’t Determined yet, and if we Indulge our Karmic Fears overmuch, we can bend the Future in that Direction.  Every recurrence of a Karmic Pattern is an Opportunity to Let It Go or Grasp it a little tighter.  Karma doesn’t Grasp Us, We Grasp It.  That usually happens because we Confuse thoughts and Feelings.  We Feel Fear, which could be someone else’s Fear, an ambient astroevent, an Instinct, a Memory, a Regression, or an Alien landing on your head.

And then we start Thinking.  Omigod, what’s happening?  Am I gonna lose my job or my lover or my house or my Life?  It’s the Thinking that dooms us.  We Experience Emotions in the Body.  Fear, usually in the Belly or Bowels or the back of the Neck, sometimes the follicles, or we could Shake all over or Feel Cold.  Thinking doesn’t happen in the Body, it happens in that little Bubble over your head.

That’s the first step – Focus on what’s going on in your Body and Banish the Bubble.  What is it you’re Feeling, in your Body, and where is it?  Put your hand on it and Warm it – Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Soften it.  Send Energy to it from your Heart.  Keep Warming and Softening it till it Changes or Moves.  When you Notice that you’ve started to Think instead of Feel, Gently and Lovingly bring your Attention back to your Body.  Over and Over again. 

I know, you Think you have to Figure It Out, but that’s Bad Karma that you’re Grasping.  If you Figure It Out while you’re in Fear, you’re going to Manifest more Fear.  FIRST, Love your Fear into Submission, THEN when you Figure It Out it’ll be much Easier, Incredibly So.  In fact, you’ll probably find that Love has made most of the Difficulty disappear.

Give yourself a Poor Sweetheart if you want.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you can’t stop Thinking, can you.”   Or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Really Scared, aren’t you.”

Now that whole process can take a while.  For something like an abscessed Tooth for instance, it might take you a couple of weeks of Focused Meditation.  I can tell you that moving from Fear to Love is the Most Important Thing you can ever do anytime anywhere in any Circumstance, but you may Think you don’t have the time.  There’s that Thinking again, eh?  I’ll tell you again that Thinking while you’re in Fear will help What-You-Fear Manifest.

But let’s add a quicker process anyway.  The first step in this process is to Tap on your Fear – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4.  “Even though I’m scared of [Whatever], I deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself” etc etc usw.  Or “Even though I can’t Stop Thinking and Making Up such Horrible Stories about What I’m Scared Of that I’ll probably Create it, I deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself.”  That may help immediately, but often we have to Tap several times till we get Clear.

The Sensation of Getting Out of a Fear Trance Feels much like Grounding – you Get Back Into your Body.  You may no longer be Making Up Horror Stories, but you still may be Curious about what made you so Scared.  So we can test whether our Fears are likely to come True, using Theta – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/11/02/piavac/.  It’s a Ritual, so we recommend using the same wording every time…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command that [What I Want, rather than What I Fear].  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess. [Pause] Show Me.”

If you’ve been Fearing that you’ll Lose your Job, for instance, you might use something like “I Command that I’m Able to Keep my Job.”  Or better yet, something like “I Command that I Keep this Job or Effortlessly Stumble Into a better one with better pay and more fun.”

Then when you say “Show Me,” look to See what Picture you’ve Received.  If you don’t easily See Pictures when you close your Eyes, Command that you Are Able to do that.  Be Mindful when you’re Thinking a Picture instead of Seeing one.  If you See a Picture of yourself Doing your Job, you’re Golden.  If you don’t, then we need to Tap some more.  Your Fear about your Job has probably evolved since you’ve been Working with it.  Maybe now you Fear you’ll be Demoted instead of Fired.

So we’d Tap on something like “Even though I Fear I may be Demoted, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself.”  And maybe Theta with something like “I Command that I Get a Raise.”  We cycle back and forth between Tapping and Commanding till we get a result we like.  If we don’t get one, go back to Differentiating Feeling from Thinking and Loving your Feelings In Your Body for a while.

Tap on only Negative Outcomes, and Theta on only Positive Outcomes.  Tapping is about Recognizing the Truth of what’s going on in your Energy Field (it Feels Negative or you wouldn’t be Tapping), and Letting your Meridians Readjust themselves so you’re back in Balance.  You’d Tap on the likes of “I’m Scared I’ll Get Fired.” 

Theta on the other hand Reaches into the Unconscious, and the Unconscious does not Recognize Negation.  So if you Theta on “Not Getting Fired” you’re actually upping the odds that you’ll Get Fired.  So you’d Theta on Keeping your Job, or Getting a Raise or the like.

Empath and Empathy III

July 1, 2018

The Karma-Ceres Cycle spans about 42 years, so we’ll only Live through two or three of them in an average Lifespan.  The Cycle is about finding a way to deal with Karma that’s Workable for the Long Term.  This particular Cycle began June 2007 in 6 Taurus, “A cantilever bridge across a deep gorge,” which is so very appropriate for finding a way to deal with Karma that’s Workable for the Long Term!  But look at it this way – there IS a Bridge!  We just have to find it.

The Energy of a Cycle is Strong shortly before and during Initiation, but then goes Underground, as those who profit from the previous Cycle Resist Change.  The new Cycle gradually gains the upper hand, and at the Waxing Square, the Energy of the Cycle emerges and becomes prominent in the Cultural Mainstream.  These two asteroids travel at similar speeds (Karma about 4.2 years per orbit, Ceres 4.6 years), so they can Dance together for a while; their Waxing Square repeats seven times between 2017 and 2020.

In other words, we’ve found the Bridge, and we’re drawing maps to it.  The Deep Gorge is the chasm between our knee-jerk Karmic Archetypes and Judgments, and our Authentic Neutrality and Compassion.  Or between 3D and 5D.

We’ve slipped a partial Solar Eclipse into the July calendar, on the 12th (8pm PDT) in 21 Cancer – does that Degree Zone sound familiar to anyone?

The second T-Square in the Chiron Station chart is focused on Saturn (The Most Important Thing), Quaoar (our Survival Instincts), and Pholus (Being fully Responsive rather than Reactive), indicating – wait for it – that The Most Important Thing is to Fully Respond to our Survival Instincts. 

The base of the T-Square hints Strongly that we’re entering a New Time Province, and we’ll have the Choice of either Suffering over the Loss of what’s Comfortable or even Authentic for us (Chiron-Moon), or Trusting that we will have no trouble Manifesting What We Need in the New Province (Eurydike-Makemake).  All Losses must be Grieved, so we won’t be skipping that step, though if the Changes are sudden we may have to process it quickly to avoid accumulating Karma.  There’s a Difference between Grieving and Suffering.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Grief, aren’t you” will go a long way toward reducing or eliminating Suffering.

Our ultimate Mission as Huper Light Workers is to have Compassion for All Things, including All of “our own” Emotions.  As we’ve said before, we don’t “own” our Emotions, any more than today’s Weather is “ours.”  Emotional Microclimates are more complex than Weather Microclimates, but the principle is the same, except that while Weather Microclimates are relatively stable over Time and Space (Climate Change excepted), Emotional Microclimates are incredibly fickle. 

At various Times we Relate more Intensely to some Emotions than to others, so they certainly Feel like they’re “ours,” especially when we Ego-Identify with them.  When our Self-Talk is along the lines of “I Am Grieving” rather than “I Feel Grief,” that’s not just a grammatical difference, it’s unambiguous Ego-Identification.  When we’re Feeling Emotions rather than Merging with them, there’s room for us to Realize that like modern computing, we’re borrowing them from the Cloud. 

The Sensations in your Body are not Emotions, they’re Sensations.  Like Thoughts, Sensations can be closely Related to Emotions, and they can Feed one another.  But they aren’t the same.  Like Thoughts and Emotions, for instance, Sensations can be Intuitions. “My Pain” is different from “The Pain in my Heart.”  The Heart is yours, the Pain is a visitor, a separate Entity.  It’s useful to think of Emotions as Entities, as many Primary Cultures do because they know that Personalizing them is a good way to avoid Identifying with them.

These ideas are not original, but they are radical.  In fact, it was Steven Levine who first taught me that Emotions are not Personal.  It’s been a while since we spoke of what Castaneda called “Cognitive Dissonance,” the Ability to hold Mutually Contradictory ideas at the same time.  I don’t Ask you to Surrender your own Natural Understanding of Emotions and Sensations.  I don’t hold it out as Truth, but as Useful.  I do Ask you to hold this Alternative as a Possibility. 

As we move through these Transitions, this Alternative may turn out to be more Useful to us than our Natural Understanding, which is irretrievably tainted with our pre-Transition Limiting Beliefs.  And we need to be Open to several to many Other Alternative Perspectives, because as the World Pixelates and Reconstitutes, we may need many of them.  We need to be more Engineers than Scientists – in Engineering, Utility is always Situational, and many different Situations are recognized.  Science like Religion tends to be more Fundamentalist, Believing that its Metaphors are literally True.

Bottom Line – The more Perspectives we can carry around with us, the more Skills we’ll be able to bring to many different Situations.  Ego-Identifying with Emotions is as dangerous as Ego-Identifying with Thoughts.  Can you think of Situations where you tend to Ego-Identify with Sensations in your Body?  Identifying is dangerous because it’s Self-Limiting.  If you Are Scared, you’re very unlikely to also Be Happy.  If you Feel Fear, nothing prevents you from also Feeling Joy, even perhaps at the same time – like when you Respond to Fear with Kegels. 

We traditionally Ego-Identify with our Physical Body.  “I’m going to the store,” rather than “I’m taking my Body to the store.”  But what if you Ego-Identified with your Soul instead of your Body.  Then taking your Body to the store doesn’t sound so weird, does it. 

In the Chiron-Station chart, the Saturn-Quaoar-Pholus T-Square looks very similar to the Karma T-Square…

And in fact they’re closely Related.  For example, the Juno-Uranus Conjunction (our Soul Coming into Consciousness) makes a Trine Bridge to the Karma T-Square – Allowing Awareness of our Soul makes it Easier (Trine) to Transcend our Limiting Habit Patterns and Beliefs (Karma).  But Juno-Uranus makes a Quincunx Bridge to the Saturn-et al T-Square.  In the process of meeting the Challenge to Respond to our Survival Instincts, Awareness of our Soul triggers our Curiosity instead, and it’s important to hold that Curiosity as the Emotion that it is rather than regarding it as a puzzle to be Solved.  Mary Oliver expresses this exquisitely…

Curiosity should be Astonishing.  If it’s not, we’re Stuck.  How will we help Mother Earth Reanimate Herself if we aren’t Astonished?  Can we Reanimate the Faerie Realms without being Astonished?  What happens when we Ego-Identify with Astonishment?  Is that kind of like Identifying with our Soul?  Or with Mother Earth herself?  Or with Dragonflies, or Fireflies?

https://omondiochuka.wordpress.com/2018/04/24/track-fireflies/

Busy Week and Weekend

March 30, 2018

Based on how many folks are checking the Astrobuss home page, it appears that everyone is either doing fine, super busy putting out fires, or enjoying their long weekend looking for lost Eggs.  Just in case anyone’s still looking to put their Experience of the past week into Perspective, let’s review the Timeline.  The greater your Sensitivity, the earlier you’ll start to Experience these astroevents…

  • Around 20 March to 27 March (till 2pm PST 27 March or thereabouts), Forbidden Genius is Strong (Station of dwarf planet Ixion on the Galactic Center at 28 Sagittarius); see the recent Genius Forbidden posts.
  • Around 22 March to 29 March (till 9pm PST 29 March or thereabouts), Our Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong is Lit Up (Station of dwarf planet Pholus at 2 Capricorn); see the recent Capricorn posts, and below.
  • Around 25 March to 1 April (till 3pm PST 1 April or thereabouts), Our Survival Instincts are Strong (Station of dwarf planet Quaoar at 3 Capricorn); see the recent Capricorn posts, and below.
  • About 29 March through 15 April and beyond (peak 4:30 am PST 31 March), Paradox (Yin Gate) Full Moon in 11 Libra; see previous post.

Strong Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong – Station of Dwarf Planet Pholus (a week or so prior to 9pm PST 29 March)…

The first thing we need to know about Responsibility is that it’s very Different from Blame.  Blame looks backward to Assign Fault, while Responsibility looks forward to Improve Outcomes; it means the Ability to Respond Constructively, rather than React Defensively.  The Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong is the Emotion that informs us that there is something which is not yet within our Conscious Span of Awareness, that we need to Respond to.

The Mythic Pholus got burned (got Dead, actually) because he was Unconscious of the full extent of his Responsibility to Protect Sacred Wine from his house guest Heracles, who assumed that Pholus’s cave was an open bar.  Heracles was on a Mission to decimate what was then the Olde Order, the Matriarchy and its Magic Protocols, and, apparently Unconsciously, he triggered the decimation of the Centaur population by helping himself to the Wine.  Pholus, Hylonome, and others were killed, and Chiron wounded in this debacle.

The Bottom Line is that we have Responsibilities (places where we need to Respond in order to improve Future Outcomes) of which we may not yet be fully Conscious.  That Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong tells us to Pay Attention to our Intuition, and PIAVA an effective interpretation for what we’re Feeling.  We can even try “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling Confused, aren’t you.”

For instance, I woke up in Anxiety on 29 March, and my usual sandwich of Theta and Tapping did not Resolve it.  I asked someone else what their Intuition was telling them, which did not validate how I was interpreting my Anxiety.  Finally, in the shower (running Water always facilitates Intuition), I realized that my Body was telling me to take it easy, as I had Worked my Muscles to failure the previous day, and if I Worked as hard that day I would Injure myself.

The Pholus Station chart features a Difficult Problem with an Easy Solution (a Diamond Star – a T-Square and a Finger of God pointing to the same planet).  The Difficult Problem here is how to Be More Responsive to Our Survival Instincts (Pholus and Quaoar Stationary at the same time, both on the Cusp of Capricorn).  The Difficulty is compounded by that Paradox, discussed below, between What-We-Want and What-We-Can-Manifest (Makemake Opposite Chiron).

The Graces coming to our Rescue (the “Bowl of Grace” or Trine-Sextiles under the T-Square in a Diamond Square) are Boundaries (Pallas) and Memories of the Life Force (Mnemosyne-Varuna).  We might have Memories of the Age of Aries, for instance, when the Creation of Physical Miracles by Heroes were routine.

There are also flies in the ointment, however, first in the form of Friction between our historical Oaths which have become Beliefs, and our Willingness to draw Appropriate Boundaries (Orcus Square Pallas).  Codependence may inhibit our Self-Sovereignty, for instance.  And second, Conflict between what we regard as our Soul’s Values (which may not be current to our Soul’s Evolution) and our Memories of the Life Force (Venus-Uranus Square Mnemosyne-Varuna).  “I’ll do Anything for Love, but I won’t do that!”

Strong Survival Instincts – Station of Dwarf Planet Quaoar (a week or so prior to 3pm PST 1 April)…

This is a very complex chart, but one of its major features is a Paradox School (Yin Gate) featuring the interplay between our Unhealed Held Emotions (Chiron) and our Ability to Manifest (Makemake; the central axis of the Yin Gate is the Opposition between these two).  Neither Healing Held Emotions nor Manifesting are straightforward objects that can be Analyzed Rationally.  We can make Progress on both fronts by PIAVAing, but not with Logic. 

Here our Power lies in recognizing that we Live in two very persistent and apparently incompatible Realities – on one hand We-Want-What-We-Want, and on the other hand It-Is-What-It-Is.  One way to deal with this Paradox is to extend your Arms out to your Sides with your Palms up.  Take a few minutes to assemble a good picture of What-You-Want in one Hand.  Then take a few minutes to assemble an honest picture of It-Is-What-It-Is in your other Hand.  Practice feeling both of them at once, and feeling how they’re Separate from each other and perhaps prohibit one another.

Now close your Eyes and very slowly bring your Hands closer together.  The instant you feel Resistance, stop and sit with the Resistance.  Feel how that feels.  No Analysis, no Conclusions, just Feel it.  If you get Insights, fine, but don’t get lost in them.  Just Hear or See them, then Let Them Go.  Then continue slowly bringing your Hands together.

When your Hands feel about halfway together, Recognize that in order for these two Realities to coexist, we must Allow Paradox.  If you’re able to do that, Resistance may Dissolve.  If Resistance doesn’t Melt Away, Reconsider what Paradox means to you.  You may need to study definitions of Paradox.  When your Hands come together, Notice which Hand ends up on top.

The four corners of the Golden Rectangle that holds the Yin Gate Paradox are Soul (Uranus) Dancing with (Opposite) Rebirth of the Goddess (Moon-Haumea), and Truth (Veritas) Arguing with (Opposite) your Committed Beliefs (Orcus).  Are you Willing to Allow your Soul to be Born into your Ego?  What will you have to Give Up to Allow that?  Can you Accept that some of your Committed Beliefs – some of the Oaths that you have Sworn – are Anti-Truth?  Are you Willing to endure the consequences of Recanting those Oaths?  (Hint: PIAVA that you Let Them Go Lovingly and Gently.)