More Timely Wisdom

More timely wisdom from Elder Mountain…

https://eldermountain.wordpress.com/2016/01/11/chaos-magik/

As the Nodes (with Jupiter on the North Node) are backing into a Grand Cross with the dwarf planets Chaos and Ixion, and Neptune Opposes the dwarf planet Orcus, on 13 January, a few days hence.

A Grand Cross is formed when four planets are equally spaced around the Zodiac.  It’s like four T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge), except it’s Balanced, so it ends up being “just” Busy – lots of little Fires to put out, so we don’t have the luxury or the time to dwell on how imperfect it all Feels, like we do with a T-Square.  We’re so Busy multitasking that we get to Feel some degree of temporary Satisfaction from finding a series of adequate solutions that suffice for the short term.

The Nodes of course indicate what we’re doing here; the South Node where we came from, and the North Node where we’d like to go.  Of course All There Is Is Now, so the Nodes flip a lot…

Turns out we need to Let Go of the Held Emotions or Past-Life PTSD that our South Node represents, in order to Recover the Past Life Skills that are necessary to resolve the issues that stand between us and our destination, and realize our Mission for the Lifetime.

And as our CAO (Chief Asteroid Officer) points out, the asteroid Karma (the Inertia Created by Our Held Emotions) is approaching the dwarf planet Eris (Revelation of What’s Being Denied), crossing it on 18 January.  However, this is a Confidence-Builder crossing.  The Can-Opener occurred 8 October 2015, and the Exposition 30 December.

With Jupiter on the North Node, we’re hearing a Siren Song from our Mission…  

Our intuitive grasp of our “Real” Mission changes as we raise our Frequency to encompass more of the Universe.  Seeing as we do through a glass darkly, it really is a Siren Song that we’re hearing, tempting us to toss ourself into the morass of our Current Desires, rather than lose our current Ego in prayer that we may Embrace more of its True Meaning.

Which dilemma is also being lit up by an impending Initiation of Mars (Self-Assertion) by Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) that’s complete on 24 January.  

The dwarf planet Chaos represents Unlimited Potential – it’s the Zero Point Field or “Vacuum” that existed before Zeus and the Patriarchy “Created” “Order.”  In the Quantum World, “Reality” is indeterminate till it’s not.  (Or as they say, indeterminate till it’s Witnessed, but that’s incredibly anthropomorphic.)  Chaos is what you haven’t Manifested yet.

Ironically, the Greek version of Vesta was the Goddess of the Hearth, Hestia, and the ancient Greeks toasted Hestia before they toasted Zeus, and after they toasted Zeus.  They were smart enough to honor what really mattered while propping up the male Ego.  Vesta – Unconscious Belief – guards the Edges of Chaos, to keep too many Demons and Daemons and Diamonds from breaking through the Veil.  

This week’s Neptune-Orcas Opposition chart includes a Vesta Yod based on the Sextile between Mars-Juno and Orcas.

The dwarf planet Ixion represents our Pathological Genius.  Ixion was the male figure that ignored Zeus’s Rules of Order, and pursued his Desires without thought of Consequences.  Ixion is our feral unprogrammed Inner Child.  

Underneath our Programming we are all Mozarts and Einsteins and Jeannes d’Arc and Queen Victorias – we have an irrepressible Destiny that was not crushed by our Programming, only driven into the Unconscious.  Our Programming relegated our Genius to the realm of the Pathological – we were Punished and Shamed for it.  

No Blame here; this is how Consciousness grows.  As we Create Security we also Create boredom, so we seek the Light by venturing forth into the Wilderness.  Soon we’re Lost, and have to find our way back “Home.”  Then we rinse and repeat.  On the scale of a Lifetime, our Programmers are chosen to set up ways for us to get Lost that will cause us eventually to remember our Mission.  We are each puzzle pieces in a multibillion-piece puzzle, and like one of Gollum’s riddles, the puzzle will be “solved” when we all Embrace our Pathological Genii.

Putting all this together, we can expect that for most of January we’ll be rushing about putting out Karmic Fires.  If these take the form of rescuing anyone from their Pain, don’t waste the Mirror.  External hardcopy “Reality” is no different from our Dreams.  It all has something to do with what we’re bringing into Consciousness, though seldom in a straightforward manner.  

As I’ve done many times, I recommend Eugene Gendlin’s excellent book, Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams.  It’s a collection of clever techniques for coaxing Meaning from your Dreams non-intellectually, and can very productively be used to coax Meaning from your daily adventures in the “Real” Hologram as well.  As an example, he recommends avoiding polarity flip-flops – when you Decide that a Change is necessary, don’t jump from Black to White; instead, shift to a 90%-saturated grey.  Our Symbols are road signs, not airports.

There are directions in our Life that have Unlimited Potential, and Embracing – Witnessing – our Shame and Fear of Punishment, can Create major leaps in that direction.  “You poor Sweetheart, they really Shamed you for that, didn’t they.”  By noticing that we’re in Shame or Fear and Lovingly Witnessing it, we stop being Shame or Fear, and instead become Compassion.

So our January will include glimpses of the Unlimited – like a billion-dollar lottery.  Then we’ll recall our humdrum daily life and how seldom we’ve Created real Miracles, dismiss the Dream, and fade back into worrying about the mortgage.  Then our Desires will rise up, and we’ll Fantasize doing what will Really make us come Alive, till our Held Emotions make us realize how incredibly uncomfortable we’d be if we actually came close to indulging that Fantasy.  

This is January’s Grand Cross.  We’re there already, aren’t we.  Celebrate it!  Embrace each glimpse of the Unlimited.  PIAVA it!  Make it BIG.  If we all had to split that lottery, we’d still have more money than we’ve ever dreamed of having.  We could all win!  

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?  Actually, who are you not to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.

“There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.  We are all meant to shine, as children do.  We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”  (Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love, pp.190-191)

Notice when you return to worrying about the mortgage, or cancer, or whether Aunt Charlene was insulted, or anything else, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade, and Tap it out.  Tap on it till you’re Neutral about it.  

When your Forbidden Desire wells up, Celebrate the Excitement trapped in it.  A secret to Manifesting anything is to practice having the Feeling in your Body, that you’ll have when you Manifest it.  That’s what you really want!  You’ll get bored with a red Lamborghini, or scared by a trip around the World; you’ll never be bored or scared by Excitement.  Get Conscious of the Discomfort you’d feel if your Fantasy Materialized.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’d really Feel uncomfortable, wouldn’t you.  Do you want to talk about it?”  Ask yourself how old you are.

Neptune represents everything bigger than our Individual Soul – the Collective Culture, and its many Shadows.  When we try to look at Neptune through Material eyes, the result is Confusion – which of course is the first stage of Growth in Consciousness.  Shifting to Spiritual eyes, we find Clarity.  Unfinished Business, and all of our Emotional Baggage around it.

Orcus is the Punisher of Broken Oaths.  

Your Held Emotions are Held by vows never to put yourself into that position again.  As with Ixion, where you may have Amends to make over Unintended Consequences of Impulsive Actions, with Orcus you may have Yangtegrity Contracts that need to be Renegotiated.  If your counterparties are long since dead or otherwise gone from your Life, no worries.  If you can feel the Weight of the Contract, you can feel the counterparty, and you can Renegotiate with them exactly where they are in your “mind’s eye” or your bellyvision.

This Renegotiation might take the form of noticing the cable or garden hose that connects you with them in the Energy Realm.  It’s connected to your belly by a fishhook.  Gently twist it out with one hand, then use your other hand to seal the wound with Golden Light.  With grace, hand the hook and the cable back to your counterparty.  If they accept it with equal Grace, you’re Golden, though you don’t want to turn your back until they withdraw.  Make a note to scan your Body in a few days to make sure the cable hasn’t been replaced while you weren’t looking.  If so, rinse and repeat.

If they don’t accept it Gracefully, you may need to take more decisive Action.  Enlist the aid of a Carnivore, then reach out with your imaginary Bowie Knife, slice their end of the cable, and feed the cable to your helper.  An Alligator works great for this purpose.  Give your new friend the assignment to stand guard here, and eat any new attempts to re-cable you.  They may also plead for Mercy; don’t buy it, it’s a ploy.  You want your Energetic Contracts to be Equal-to-Equal.  In these realms, keep your spine straight and your shoulders lifted.  There can be no hindrance to your Energetic Self-Sovereignty.

If your counterparties are still Alive, use your wardrobe Mirrors – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/10/21/boundaries-forgiveness-mirrors/.  And remember to persevere.

So a Challenging Neptune-Orcus Angle would be about renegotiating our Social Contracts.

Our Social Contracts stretch a lot farther than we usually imagine.  For instance, if we’re chronically underfunded, we have a Social Contract to Give Away too much of what we need to Survive.  If our Relationships don’t Delight us, then we have a Social Contract of Mistrust or Unworthiness.  When we Renegotiate our Contracts, our counterparties may not be individuals, but Archetypes.  You may need to Renegotiate with Slavery, or Gender Inequality.

There’s an excellent reason why Primary Cultures personified their “Gods.”  If you personify an Archetype, you can Negotiate with it one-on-one.  You can shrink it from a Global Monolith to a Cocker Spaniel.  What if Gender Inequality was a Hamster, and Slavery was a Squirrel; you can personify them however you like, as long as your Vigilance prevents them from nesting in your petticoats.  Use your Mirror and Cable techniques till you stand Tall and Clear and Powerful Beyond Measure, and we can Enjoy the billion-dollar lottery payout together.

Who Are We? Part Three

“Who Are We? Part Two” covered the background; here’s our homework for the Energies in the Foreground…

1. The Uranus-Eris Grand Quintile; see Part Two.
2. The Eris Grand Quintile will endure till around 23 August, with some carryover after that, depending on how well you’re open to new Perspectives on yourself and your World.
3. Eris Initiates asteroid Karma on 13 August at 24 Aries, the same Cornucopia Degree as the June 2016 Eris-Uranus Initiation.
4. Vesta is Stationary today, 11 August.  It’s turning Retrograde, and will back over the first half of Aries till mid-November.  It’s already crossed this span once, and if you look closely you can see that your Beliefs about Individuality and Creativity have shifted.  We’ll be exploring this more thoroughly over the next three months.
5. Pallas was Stationary on 2 August, turning Direct.  It’s crossed the last two thirds of Sagittarius twice already, and it’s about to cross it for a third time.  Pallas is about setting and loosening Boundaries, Sagittarius is about Letting Go of Pain, and the last two thirds of Sagittarius are about Initiating and Developing new approaches to Letting Go of Pain.  What Boundaries have you Changed since late January of this year?  Those Changes will be facilitating the further development of your Yintegrity.  Do you Feel good about them?
6. The Moon crosses Juno on 16 August.
7. Mercury crosses Juno on 19 August.
8. Also on 19 August, the Moon Opposes Uranus, Eris, and a.Karma.
9. The Moon crosses Saturn on 22 August.

We’ll spend much of August working on bringing elements of our Shadow (ie, that which we prefer not to see in ourSelf) into the Self-Integration project we’re in the middle of.  We’re likely to see a peak in our Insight (or, if we’re in Resistance, in our Pain) around 19 August.

August II – Big Integration Gets Bigger

 A wave-carved Nephrite Jade sculpture from Jade Cove on the Big Sur Coast.  On the one hand it’s shameful that there is no longer any Jade in Jade Cove, as it’s all been collected.  On the other hand, what a gift that it’s Integrative Magic has been distributed across the Globe.

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Our next Big Integration episode will be 9 August, around noon PDT (http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt12.htm), plus or minus six hours.  We should get a hint, probably scary, about our Unlimited Potential.  Like Marianne says…

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? 

Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.  There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.  We are all meant to shine, as children do. 

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

–Marianne Williamson, A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles, Pg.190-191.

Breathe, Feel it in your Body, Embrace it there, Lovingly.  It’s your Gift, prepare yourself for Receiving it.

The Moon crosses the dwarf planet Chaos, which symbolizes Unlimited Potential, not Disorder.  Chaos is both one corner of the base of the T-Square, and one corner of the Mystic Rectangle, Opposite Pholus-Ixion, Square Chiron, Trine to Haumea, and Sextile Uranus-Eris.  Grace, Difficult to Receive.

By the way, all this action occurs in 21-24 Degrees, so will excite any natal planet you have in these Degrees.

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Then comes 14-17 August, and this Window really stretches out to something like 11-24 August, and it’s HUGE.  Enormous Grace available here.  Watch out for “Upper Limits,” where we’re overwhelmed by how fabulous it all seems, and have to discount it to make it fit into our small Ego.  And watch out as well for Inflation, where we attribute all the fabulousity to our Inflated Ego.  This is the Stars Dancing; if you can follow along in step, you’re Golden.  But one of the best ways to get out of step is to figure that your Lifetime of Hard Work is finally paying off!  Well, okay, it is, but not in the way you imagine.  The glass is still pretty darkly.

On 14 August the New Moon occurs right in the 21-Leo point that completes the Diamond Star again.  It’s like the Sun coming out again after a Storm – all this Confusion and Difficulty and Stress, and then suddenly everything falls into place and it becomes effortless.  This Window should be open for about three days on either side.

Then on 15-17 August Venus backs over the same point.  Venus is moving slowly here, near its Inferior Conjunction, so its three-Degree span of Sensitivity runs from around 11 August to 24 August.

It’s a narrow passage between Deflation and Inflation of the Ego.  Watch the angle of your chin – when you take a deep Breath and straighten your spine, it should be pretty much straight out, not pointing either up or down.  Experiment with that; the Body doesn’t lie (except when resting).  Another trick is to look to see if you’re enying or resenting anyone.  That means you’re comparing yourself to them, and you’re incomparable.  As are they.  Breathe again, and imagine having equal stature to theirs.

Get together with a good friend or two, and practice putting each other down – and up.  See if you can trigger each others’ Shame or Pet Peeves or Righteous Anger.  Make sure you all understand the Game first, of course, and when you succeed, shift immediately to Loving Embrace.  Before you start, determine each persons Suffocation/Abandonment threshold.  Too much Love Suffocates some people, not enough leaves other Abandoned.  As you play the Game, Pay Attention to whether you’re using the right threshold for each person and moment.

You want to help shift each person from Shame to Self-Love.  An Introvert may need some space away from the others to Embrace their Shame.  When you encounter Righteous Anger (not “I hate it when they do that” but “I hate them when they do that”) or Abandonment (“No one has ever appreciated me for that”), work with it until the person understands that they’re working with their Held Emotions, not with the Outside World.

Self-Love is neither Inflated nor Deflated, but Juusstt Right.  This is an excellent opportunity to attune ourselves to it, so we can recognize when we’re out of it, and bring ourselves back into it.

Oh, and the asteroid Karma is Initiated by Eris on 13 August, at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia.”  Alan Watts said that it’s harder to Let Go of our “good” Karma than it is to Let Go of our “bad” Karma.  Our “good” Karma Inflates us.  On the other hand, Eris’s expertise is popping balloons.

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By 24 August, we’re studying Responsibility instead. 

By the time Venus has moved three Degrees away from the point that completes the Diamond Star, the Moon has moved around to cross Pholus-Ixion.  That occurs around 7am PDT (http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt7.htm) plus or minus 4-5 hours.

The Challenge here is to be Fully, Disgracefully, Distastefully, Disgustingly, Blasphemously our True Self.  We were Programmed to Judge ourselves for certain Behaviors, even if those Behaviors were natural, beneficial, and useful.  Some of those were just social conventions, for which you can just excuse yourself and move on.  Others are Shameful, Horrible, making you worthy only of crawling into a hole and starving to death.  So these are all things we must learn to Love if we want to crawl into a Whole.  And it’s not optional.  Time for a farting contest, at best, and at worst, the most disgusting depravity you can imagine.

But that’s Ixion.  Pholus is here too, and Pholus is about Taking Full Responsibility.  So you Challenge each other to a farting contest, and then you wash each others’ undies.  Remember that Blame looks to the Past for Cause, while Responsibility looks to the Future for Leverage to Change what we Want Changed.  So it’s not enough to just fart and belch and worse; how do we Take Full Responsibility for farting and belching and worse? 

Well, we could perform our heinous Acts in private and only with other consenting adults, but that’s a shallow interpretation of Responsibility.  To be Fully Responsible we have to have a Goal, even if it’s Change for the sake of Change.  Farting and belching might provide temporary relief from bloating – so we may be Taking Full Responsibility for relieving bloating, that’s admirable.  We may want temporary relief from bloating and social behavior in accordance with local custom.  Or relief from bloating and affront to someone we Want to loosen up, though there would be more Responsible ways to approach the latter.  To be Responsible we have to know our Goals, all of them.

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However, by 24 August we’re in a different province, one that spans about 20-26 August.  In this province we’re studying Fear, particularly Actions performed out of Fear.  While we’ll certainly be looking back into the Past and probably experiencing Regret, we want to shift that into What would we do differently next time?  to be more Responsible.

Sedna turns Retrograde at 26 Taurus on 26 August.

It’s fascinating that these two events are occurring together, because it gives us a fabulous opportunity to practice Responsibility using examples from places where we’d usually go into Shame or Blame or both.  Instead we can focus on the Positive Result of our Fearful Acts, and brainstorm about how we might manifest even better Results by Breathing into our Fear and operating instead out of Love.

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On 28 August it’s very important to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself, particularly with any parts of yourself that aren’t age-appropriate.  By 30 August, the Moon has come back around to where it was at the beginning of August, but without the Grace.  This will be confounded on 31 August by the beginning of a new era in our Emotional Relationships, including our Relationship with ourSelf, and specifically the Relationship between our Inner Male and Inner Female.

The Moon crosses the “Nursery rug” Vacancy on 28 August and Chiron again on 30 August, but on 31 August Mars Initiates Venus, at the Midpoint of Leo, “A pageant, with its spectacular floats, moves along a street crowded with cheering people.”  This will govern our Relationships for a couple of years; lets hope we don’t fall into Codependence, as that’s anything but Responsible.

We could easily encounter our Discouragement about Relationship here.  If you review all of the Romantic movies you’ve seen, most of them come to a happy ending because against all odds the couple ends up together.  Now recall the ones where the couple discovers that they don’t really inspire one another’s brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous Selves to Shine brightly, and choose not to end up together.  Which kind of movies end up with crowds of people cheering them on?  While we may not need to Change whom we’re in Relationship with between now and June 2016, we’ll certainly find our Relationships Changing.

Focus on what you Want from Relationship, and begin talking about it as if it were completely possible.  Acknowledge any Discouragement that arises and be Loving and Gentle with it.

We get another layer of complexity added on 1 September, when the World reveals more hidden but important issues that we haven’t noticed before.

By 1 September the Moon is back over Uranus-Eris.

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Karma the Asteroid

Paraphrasing Bob Dylan…

“Everybody’s in despair, Every girl and boy
But when Karma the Asteroid gets here
Everybody’s gonna jump for joy”

With thanks to Elizabeth for the tip, the asteroid Karma acts up Bigtime this summer.  Here’s the program…

• May 24, 2015 – Asteroid Karma leaves Pisces and enters Aries.
• June 10, 2015 – South Node (Limiting Beliefs) Initiates asteroid Karma (Held Emotions) at 7 Aries, “A person succeeds in expressing themself simultaneously in two realms.“
• July 27, 2015 – Uranus (Self-Love) Initiates asteroid Karma (Limiting Beliefs) just as Uranus is Stationary, at 21 Aries, “A pugilist enters the ring.”  Put your money on Uranus.
• August 13, 2015 – Eris (Exposing Denial) Initiates asteroid Karma (Self-Sabotage) at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia.“
• Three-degree Sensitivity for the South Node begins around June 3, and around July 17 for Uranus-Eris.

And while we’re on the subject, just so we won’t be completely blindsided…

• March 17, 2017 – Eris (Pressure to Face Reality) Initiates Uranus (Pressure to Express the True Self) at 23 Aries, “A pregnant woman in light summer dress.”  Three-degree Sensitivity starts a full year before.

In other words, we’re just getting warmed up, with regard to being confronted by our Limiting Beliefs.  We can expect several big Ego Deaths in the process – situations where we Feel like “We’d rather Die.”  The more work we can do now to Embrace our Held, Denied, Resisted, or Rejected Emotions and Personal History, the easier the next several months will be for us.  And by the way, when we keep running into other people that express an Emotion that makes us uncomfortable, that’s a good sign that we’re probably Denying just that Emotion.  When we Lovingly Empathize with Feelings that we’re used to suppressing, especially in situations where we Feel like We’d rather Die than surrender to it, significant Rewards await us.  Here’s a good way to start…

https://tappingsolution.s3.amazonaws.com/2printout-tapping-tree.pdf

from Nick Ortner’s great new book, The Tapping Solution for Pain Relief (pp.27-34), which is useful for a lot more than literal Pain.  Goddess knows our Karma is a Pain!

The Good News is that after May 24, asteroid Karma leaves Pisces, so the Emotional intensity should be reduced.  Any work you do before May 24 will be more complete, but after May 24 Spirit will be a lot more Present, even if you have no idea what She has in mind.  (Aries is all Intuitive and very Future-oriented, so to thrive in Aries you have to Trust a lot, follow your Guidance, and not try to Explain yourself to anyone.)

I know, Karma is dead, though in any situation where we aren’t fully Present with all of our Emotions, at even the most subtle level, rumors of its demise may seen exaggerated.  And the problem with Karma has always been that our Karma defines our Comfort Zone.  In order to Expand beyond our Limiting Beliefs, we need to be willing to step outside of our Comfort Zone.  It’s not that our Karma has us in its grip, it’s that we have our Karma in our grip.  Given the opportunity to Let Go of our Karma, we almost always turn it down! 

Next time we’re in a situation that we’ve seen before, which has always or almost always ended up badly, this time we can Create a different outcome.  But we have to be willing to do it – which isn’t easy, because it means thinking, feeling, and Acting contrary to our Habitual Reactions – and we actually have to do it!  The process of changing a Habit works like this.

We execute the Habit, then we realize that we’ve done it again, and we feel bad.  We might even have collaborators in making ourselves feel bad.  So this is the place where we intervene.  Noticing that we’re feeling bad, we Lovingly Embrace our bad-feeling self.  “You poor Doofus, you’re feeling bad about that again, aren’t you.”  Maybe we’ve already reached for the Chocolate.  “The Chocolate helps a little, doesn’t it Sweetheart.”  Once we give ourselves a Reward (and a tad of Self-Love is a great Reward, better even than Chocolate or Ice Cream) instead of an admonishment, the chemistry Changes.

Now, next time the Habit takes over and we fall into that Programmed behavior or thought pattern, we’ll Notice the Pattern a little sooner.  The sooner we Notice, the easier it is to shift from self-abandonment to Self-Love.  “Oh yes, that again – we recognize that Habit now, don’t we.  Congratulations!  Recognizing the Pattern is the first step toward Conscious Action!”  Each time the Habit arises, we’ll Notice it a little sooner, and each time it will be easier to Empathize with ourselves.  We really are Victims of our Programming, and we can rescue ourselves by Witnessing ourselves Lovingly.

This may take months of gradual Change, but the longer it takes, the deeper the Pattern, and the more Rewarding the Change will be in terms of our no longer sabotaging ourself.  So the longer it takes, the more Self-Love we deserve.  If we backslide, no worries, “You poor Sweetie, you backed up on that one, didn’t you.  Well, that’s inevitable.  We’ll make it up next time.”  After a while we start to learn what triggers the Pattern, what things happen before it starts.  Then we start to Notice the triggers, and be Loving with ourselves then.

Before long we’re vowing to ourselves that we’re going to Notice and shift before we even start the Habit.  A vow to ourselves is an Intention.  When we shift from self-hate to Self-Love, we create a reason to return there.  We’ve rewired our Unconscious Reward system.  When we shift to Intention, we’re enlisting the Unconscious as an ally, and from then on our Habit becomes something we used to do.  We might not even remember that we used to do that – it will seem like another Lifetime, another Persona.   You’ve just gone through an Ego Death Lovingly, and it’s sooo much easier than the alternative!  If we Create this new Habit now, by summer it’ll be ready, willing, and eager to tackle the worst krap our Karma can throw at us.

There’s one other clue to keep up your sleeve.  If you’ve seen it before, you know it’s a Paper Tiger.   Real Life doesn’t Repeat like that.  Our Projections Repeat like that.  In Real Life, every day is a new adventure.  In Archeypeland, it’s all just a treadmill.  Once we’ve Changed a couple of Life-long Patterns, we’ll start to know this, and when a Repeating Event starts to occur, we can just hold out a couple of fingers at odd angles, say “Revert!” and laugh at the onslaught.