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1 December and the Angels

December 1, 2016

Today’s chart looks a lot like the New Moon chart from a couple of days ago.  The

  • (1) Big Learning-to-Embrace-Fear Opportunity (Grand Quintile), the
  • (2) Abandoned-Genius-Recovery Mystery School (Yin Gate), and the
  • (3) Great Grace around Trust (Grand Sextile)

Configurations all remain, with their flood of Ten Thousand Vignettes and no shortage of Ego Deaths.  It’s a busy month.  

In the first week or so…

  • (4) Expect the Ten Thousand Vignettes to continue to Expand greatly, in service of the continuing Removal of our Masks.
  • (5) Our Opportunity/Challenge to Let Go of obsolete Oaths, Promises, stuck Patterns, and Limiting Beliefs is much enhanced by the Station of dwarf planet Orcus.
  • (6) Our Trust issues become more obvious; if we Remember that we’re immortal Souls taking a vacation in a physical Body, it might make Trust easier – the Soul is invulnerable, though if We-as-a-Body Forget our Soul-Self too much we can miss the Cmail* requesting that we check in for our return flight, extending our vacation more than we’ll Enjoy.         (*Channeled message) 
  • (7) We’re working on our article on Lunar Emotional Energy as the glue that holds Matter together.  The theme runs a lot like this:  It’s Passion that drives Manifestation, but it’s the combination of Conscious Passion and Unconscious Passion that does the work.  As we Unify these two, Manifestation becomes more Effortless.  In early December there’s a big push toward making our Mask Removal Permanent, an essential step toward Integrating our Passions and eliminating Self-Sabotage.
  • (8) Think about how the last week or two have been very different in your Life.  Seeing more Mysterious movements out of the corner of your eye?  Obvious signs of Ego Rebirth (such as feeling lost on a route you’ve traveled often)?  Long deep Sleeps?  Unusually sharp Intuitions?  Unexplainable surges of Excitement?  Angels are becoming more Present; keep your eye out for evidence of them.  The more you Acknowledge their Presence, the more they can work their Magic.
  • (9) If you’re thinking hard about Survival under difficult circumstances, you aren’t alone.  These are Instincts.  However, see (6), (7), and (8).
  • (10) Some of those Ten Thousand Vignettes and Survival scenarios may seem intolerable, like You’d rather Die than go through that again.  It’s an Invitation to Ego Death; do RSVP; if you Embrace the Sensation (“You poor Sweetheart, you’d rather Die than do that again, wouldn’t you”) you’re less likely to have to endure it again. 
  • (11) Remember that the basic assignment is the Deepening of Self-Love.

Oh, and Italy votes to leave the EU on 4 December, or rather, Italy votes on whether or not to leave the EU on 4 December – the next shoe dropping in the Collapse of Cultures as we know them.  

In astrologuese…

(1) The Sedna (Embracing Fear) Grand Quintile with Vesta (Limiting Unconscious Beliefs), Jupiter (Expansion), Moon-Mercury-Quaoar (Survival Issues; see also (9)) and Neptune-South Node (Embracing Emerging Held Emotions, Loss of the Veil, Collapse of Cultures; Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity).

(2) The Ixion Mystery School – the Golden Rectangle formed by Ixion-Pholus (Being Fully Responsible to our Abandoned Genius), Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Haumea (Rebirth), and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Identifying with our Soul Self).  Embedded in the Golden Rectangle is a Yin Gate between Sedna (Embracing Fear) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty).

(3) The Eurydike Grand Sextile, formed by the Golden Rectangle (2) and an Opposition between Pallas (Boundaries) and Eurydike (Trust); Pallas-Eurydike forms a Grand Cross with Sedna-Lilith.

(4) Mnemosyne (Memories) Stationary Direct 6 December (Strong; we don’t usually give asteroids more than 3-4 days of Sensitivity, but it’s been within one Degree of its Station since 18 November, and could be one of the major Triggers for our Ten Thousand Vignettes) at 7pm PST at 20 Aries (“A young girl feeding birds in winter; overcoming crises through compassion“) and of course still very much Conjunct Uranus-Eris-Ceres (Making our True Self or Yintegrity Permanent).

(5) Orcus (Making and Breaking of Oaths) Stationary Retrograde 7 December (very Strong for at least a week prior; it’s been within one Degree of its Station since about 22 September) at noon PST on the South Node (Karma, Held Emotions, Archetypes we’ve Merged with, Hidden Skills).

 (6) Eurydike (Trust) Stationary Retrograde 9 December (Strong for at least 3-4 days prior; within one Degree since 20 November) at 9am PST in 24 Leo (“Totally concentrated upon inner spiritual attainment, a person is sitting in a state of complete neglect of bodily appearance and cleanliness“); does 24 Degrees sound familiar?  How about…

  • Eurydike Opposite Pallas (Boundaries) and Square the Lilith-Sedna Opposition (Fear of Misogyny), making a Grand Cross (Busy Busy Busy); of course the Lilith-Sedna Opposition is the core of the Mystery School (see (2) above).
  • Eurydike Trine to Ixion-Pholus (Being Fully Responsible to Recover our Abandoned Genius, Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulosity) and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (see (4) above), making a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace).
  • Eurydike Sextile to Haumea (Rebirth) and Chaos (Unlimited Potential), completing the Grand Sextile (Great Grace – after We take the first step).  The first step is Self-Love; in (4) above You are the Bird and the Young Girl both – “You poor Sweetheart…” – see (10) below.

(7) Ceres (Sustainability) Stationary Direct 9 December (Strong for at least 3-4 days prior; within one Degree since 22 November) at 4pm PST in 22 Aries (“The gate to the garden of all fulfilled desires“); see (4) above.

(8) on 5 December at about 3am, Hylonome (Detaching from Archetypes) Waxing Squares (Challenge) Makemake (Manifestation).  The Hylonome-Makemake Cycle in general is about Letting Go of Self-Sabotage.  The Energy of a Cycle is strong around its Initiation, then goes underground till the Waxing Square, then reaches the mainstream.  The current Cycle was Initiated in June 1989 (think Harmonic Convergence) at 3 Virgo, “Two Guardian Angels“!

(9) Quaoar (Survival) Initiates Mercury (Mentality, Communication) 2 December at 2pm PST in 30 Sagittarius (“The Pope blessing the faithful”).

(10) Nemesis (Ego Death) Initiates the Sun (our Essence) 2 December at noon PST in 12 Sagittarius (“A flag turns into an Eagle, turning into a Chanticleer [Rooster] saluting the Dawn”); again, this is the Degree of the Pluto-Chiron Initiation at the turn of the Century, suggesting our Journey from Separation to Unity, Nationalism to a broader, sharper Perspective and from there to the Return of the Light.  The Sun-Nemesis Cycle is about the Evolution of the Self.

(11) Asteroid Sappho (Self-Love) entered Scorpio (Relentlessness) a few days before the New Moon.  We’re warming up to an Initiation of Sappho by Klotho (Designing a new Ego-Lifetime) near the end of January.

Sedna

August 26, 2016

(1) If you, like me, have been wondering why there seems to be such a Disturbance in the Force lately, I just noticed – Sedna is Stationary!

Sedna is about regrettable Actions taken – or not taken – out of Fear of Anger.  This could take the form of Hesitation to accept and Act Out our own Anger because we Fear we won’t be able to do it Responsibly, or Fear of Other People’s Anger.  

That would include the Oaths we made to ourself in order to avoid the Anger of our historical parents, and the resulting Unconscious Limitations we face daily.  And the Karmic roots or Esoteric Purpose underlying our Soul’s Choice of those parents and programming.

It’s obvious that someone seems to have had a Purpose in mind when a birth time was chosen for – or by – us.  While some folks say that we as a Soul had been burdened with Inertia from Habits (enforced by avoidance of certain “Held” Emotions) in Previous or Parallel Lives, others say that our Free Soul Chose to come to this planet to help shift a particular facet of the Planet’s Inertia.

The latter folks suggest that our Free Souls then used a Simulator to set the equivalent of our Karma in place.  I’m not sure that step is necessary, as our Birth chart provides plenty of raw material, and Resonance with extant Earth Energies provides the rest.  

It’s all Metaphor anyway, so it doesn’t really matter.  However, having more Perspectives gives us greater Resilience.  The six blind men all had different notions about the Elephant, but we approach “Reality” itself more closely when we see through the hands of all six blind men.  You can easily imagine that Relating to the Elephant will be a lot more effective than Relating to the Snake, the pillar, the fan, the spear, the rope, or the wall.

Sedna turns Retrograde around 8pm PST on 26 August, so now that we know what’s going on, the Energy should Lighten Up after that.  

With all the Blessings in the recent Full Moon chart, I assumed that the Disturbance was “just” Upper Limits.

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(2) And now that I look at the rest of the Sedna-Station chart, hmmm, I guess it is Upper Limits!

Of course now that we know the Timing, between now and 8pm PST 26 August we’ll be taking full Advantage of this Opportunity to Learn more about how we Sabotage ourself, right?  It’s easier to Transcend our Unconscious Limits if we can manage to bring them into Consciousness.

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(3) I’ll skip right to the Bottom Line.  You know those “random” ancient but oh-so crystal clear and emotionally loaded Memories you’ve been having?  Well, this is a direct Challenge for you to Manifest a different Outcome this time, one more in keeping with what you Want.

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(4) It’s actually bigger than that, but that’s your Microscopic view of the Macrocosm – like the six blind men and the elephant, we all see the Universe through our own particular lens.  Chances are, the Memories you’ve been encountering have a lot to do with your Deepest Desire, hence with your Mission.  And of course your Mission is all about the Macrocosm, because the Macrocosm is a humongous jigsaw puzzle in Time and your Mission is one of the pieces.

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(5) And it’s about how our place in the World will evolve over the next four hard years, as the old social and economic order falls away and is replaced (or not) by a wide range of new Opportunities – Opportunities which we ourselves ultimately Create.

Among the 1%, “Crisis Investing” is a popular trend.  The idea is to take any given Crisis – especially including the ones they helped to Create – and figure out how to make a fortune from it.  Imagine for instance if you’d cornered the market for Soup Kettles in 1929.  Or Epi Pens in 2008.  Or bombs in 1937.  We can translate this into taking any given Crisis, and figuring out how to use it to Transform the Planet and Her Denizens.

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(1) Sedna is Stationary at 27 Taurus, Square (Mastery through Challenge) to Pallas (Boundaries).  

Also, Saturn Initiated Mars yesterday, at 10 Sagittarius, which represents the Symbols of Opportunity and Privilege – for females.  That should bode well for our PIAVAs over the next 19 months.  Mars-Saturn is about Focusing our Energy into The Most Important Thing, which can involve temporarily giving up what we Want to Focus on.

And, Mars went Out of Bounds (Strong) in early August, till the end of October.

Sedna’s Station makes a Trine Bridge across the Opposition between a Mercury-Venus-Jupiter Stellium and Chiron, which Opposition is T-Squared by Pholus-Quaoar and Lachesis-Ixion.  

That deserves a separate post.  

What it basically means is that the easiest way to Thrive over the next four years is to Lovingly Embrace your Fear and Anger now.

Along with the Mercury-Venus-Jupiter Stellium, the Sedna Station anchors the base of a Square Fez with Pallas and Pholus-Quaoar-Galactic Center (a Clear Dictate from HQ to Take Full Responsibility for the Survival of the Planet).  Meaning that the two primary Quincunxes are Sedna to Pholus-Quaoar (I Wonder if I’m ready to Surrender what’s not Necessary) and Pallas to Mercury-Venus-Jupiter (I Wonder if I’m prepared to Set Boundaries against my old Ego?) in Virgo (Ego Death).

(2) This isn’t the only reason, but the Saturn-Mars Initiation and a Mercury-Venus-Jupiter Stellium form the base of a Ceres (Sustainability) Quintile Yod (big Learning Opportunity).  If we expand our Sensitivity a little and add Pallas and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs), we approach a Grand Quintile (Openness to Learning).  The Waning Jupiter-Saturn Quintile invites us to Learn about the Jupiter-Saturn Cycle (see #5 below).

(3) Mnemosyne (Memory) is also Stationary, turning Retrograde at 11am PDT on 30 August.  It’s Sextile to the ongoing Nessus-OR10 Conjunction (Eruption of Memories of Privilege or Abuse), which Sextile forms the base of a Makemake (Manifestation) Finger of God (Pay Attention!).

Mnemosyne also forms a Trine Bridge (the Easy Way) across the Opposition between the Sun and Nessus-OR10.  In other words the Memories will probably be a relatively easy way to Let Go of our PTSD, if we remember to Let them Go instead of Grasping them again.  Hint – Empathize with your Victim.  

(4) Mars and Saturn are just coming within Sensitivity for Squaring the Nodes.  Mars exactly Squares the Nodes on 29 August; Saturn crosses into 3-Degree Sensitivity on 27 August.

(5) We’ll get into the nitty-gritty of this soon.  It’s about Mercury Retrograding over Jupiter at the end of Virgo Opposing Chiron at the end of Pisces.  The Jupiter-Chiron Cycle is another Fresh Violets in an Ancient Pottery Bowl Cycle, like the Chiron-Neptune Cycle, as their respective Initiations Danced together.  So the Jupiter-Chiron Cycle serves the Chiron-Neptune Cycle, and the latter is about New Economic Paradigms.

We’ve talked about that a lot – see Chiron-Neptune in the list of Categories at right.  The Jupiter-Saturn Cycle puts us at the end of the Debriefing of the Industrial Era, where we’re descending into Disorder so the cauldron can be stirred and the New Social and Economic Order can emerge.

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Several embellishments:

On 22 August Sappho (Self-Love) Initiated Venus (Heart, Values) at 22 Virgo, which is about Claiming One’s Royalty and Wealth.

On 26 August (3pm PDT) Orcus (Oath-Breaking and Guilt) Initiates Hopi (Respect for All Things) in 8 Virgo, which is about Opening to Learning/Remembering New Skills.

On 27 August Lachesis crosses Ixion (Changing the Timetable for the Liberation of our Repressed Genius); it’s a Confidence-Builder.  The Initiation occurred in February 2016 at 25 Sagittarius, which is about Playing at Competence.

On 16 September Jupiter (Expansion) Initiates Sappho (Self-Love) at 2 Libra, which is about Wisdom.  On 18 September Makemake Initiates Sappho, and on 19 September Makemake Initiates Jupiter, both at 3 Libra, which is about A New Day Dawning, with Everything Changed.  The Harvest Full Moon Lunar Eclipse on Chiron in Pisces will be held on 16 September.  On that day Varuna (the Life Force) moves into Leo, meaning perhaps the end of 23 years of concern about Health, and the beginning of 23 years of Playful Self-Love.

This Week (8-14 May)

May 12, 2016

On Monday 9 May (5am PDT) Jupiter turned Direct and started its final ascent into its 23-June Initiation of the North Node, which signifies a big emphasis on our Mission in the Lifetime, and in the process on our Deepest Desires.  Our Mission is larger by many orders of magnitude than our Intellect can grasp, so our Deepest Desires represent a peepshow of our Mission, presented to our Ego in a form it can understand.  As Consciousness grows, our Deepest Desires metamorphose into our Mission.

The Jupiter-North Node Initiation is about A Volcanic Eruption, so on some levels it could be a bigger event than our 9-June Eris-Uranus Initiation.  Or at least, a more Conscious event.  Eris-Uranus will blow the gaskets off of the Masks that we use to pretend that we have socially redeeming value in spite of our Original Sins – which of course are nothing but programmed Self-Judgments.  If we have any Masks left after 2012-15.  At the very least we have to get Honest with ourself about our Deepest Desires and their addictive qualities, even if they’re not ready to dance on the World Stage.  You could call them our Hungry Ghosts.  Addiction can prevent metamorphosis.

We didn’t mention in our New Moon post that the New Moon forms a Major Tricolor with Stationary Jupiter/North Node and Saturn: Jupiter/NN-Square-Saturn-Quincunx-NewMoon-Trine-Jupiter/NN.  Which is to say that you can effectively address any Conflicts over how to Both Expand and Focus by Wondering what’s being Reborn here.

On 13 May we have an interesting Conjunction between two asteroids, Aletheia and Veritas – respectively Greek and Latin for Truth.  The Conjunction is Unx (one Sign) from the asteroid Mnemosyne – Memory.  The Unx is about

  • Breaking Patterns,
  • Letting Go of Karma,
  • Changing Habits, and
  • Untangling ourself from Archetypes.  

So this week is likely to have a lot of information for us about how our June will unfold.  

Watch your Thoughts and Emotions closely.  We all have Patterns of quickly shifting our Attention away from issues we don’t like to contemplate.  Many of these Patterns operate below the level of Consciousness, but even some of those may surface here.  If you catch yourself shifting your Attention away from your Fears, after you do your Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade, stop and examine the Fear.  You may have access this week to its roots, and if you can pull out the roots, the weed can’t regrow, as of course it will if you just keep cutting it off at ground level.

Definitely Tap out the Fears you become Conscious of, but with a twist this week.  Instead of “Even though I’m afraid of that I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself,” use “Even though I don’t know why I’m afraid of that I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself.”  Put what you do know about the Fear in place of “that.”  Confusion is good, it’s the first stage of Growth.  Be Curious about it.

Jupiter will now cross for the third time the Pisces through Gemini Duads of Virgo – the last half of the Capricorn Decanate and the first half of the Taurus Decanate.  As Jupiter dismantles our Olde Ego (that’s what Virgo does for a Living), it goes through the process of

  1. Looking to see what’s socially unacceptable (Libra),
  2. Rooting out why we do that (Scorpio),
  3. Letting Go of that (Sagittarius),
  4. Replacing it with something more useful (Capricorn),
  5. Testing it to see how it flies socially (Aquarius),
  6. Rueing our Inadequacy (Pisces), 
  7. Surrendering Control (Aries),
  8. Observing what evolves (Taurus),
  9. Adapting it to our Liking (Gemini),
  10. Nurturing it (Cancer), and finally,
  11. Wearing it as our New Ego (Leo).

We’re reviewing stages 6 through 9 here.  Be Gentle with yourself.

Fateful Full Moon

April 20, 2016

There are three big themes to the 21 April Full Moon (10:30pm PDT) – Transitions, Fate, and Truth.

  • Transitions because the Full Moon occurs on a Cusp between two Signs – a place of Change, Transformation, often Contradistinction.
  • Fate because the asteroid Moira – Fate – Motivates (T-Squares) it.  Fate and Free Will are of course a Duality, an Either/Or, an Intellectualization.  Real Life is Both/And.  How can anything be Both/And when they’re Opposites? Well, if that’s upsetting to you, the answer is in your hand – you’ve shifted into Emotion – Cusps again, the Cusps between modalities of Perception.  You could also have shifted into Body or Spirit.  Either/Or is a characteristic of mind, and though we’re trained to Believe that mind is bigger than the Universe, in Real Life the Universe is much bigger than mind.
  • Truth because both of the Truth asteroids – Aletheia (Greek) and Veritas (Roman) adjoin the Sun.  Which brings us back to the larger theme of Removing our Masks.

Let’s focus on the Cusps…

  • The Moon itself is on the Cusp of Scorpio.  Here we Change from intellectually and Creatively contemplating the new-found concept of Other (Not-I, including Other People), to intense Emotional Curiosity about Other.  Does Other really exist, or is that just a Mirror?  Does the Other Side really exist, or is it just a Projection?
  • The Sun is on the Cusp of Taurus, along with the asteroids Aletheia, Veritas, and Atropos.  Atropos is Responsible for enforcing the measure of length of Life – another form of Truth.  At the Cusp of Taurus we shift from Making Things Up, to Casting them in Stone.  The Edge between what may or may not be Fantasy, and what the Muggles would consider “Real.”  Natural-born Chemists think it’s Matter that’s Real, while natural-born Physicists know that it’s Energy that’s Real.  Yes, I do take sides, though of course it’s Both/And.
  • The asteroid Moira – Fate – sits on the Cusp of Aquarius, as do we.  Sit on the Cusp of the Age of Aquarius I mean.  Here we move from hard-nosed down-to-Earth Pragmatism, to Idealism, or Idolatry.  Notice anybody worshipping Sacred Cows or Golden Calfs?  Such as Power, or Profit?

All together eight of the twelve Cusps are involved in the Full Moon.  If we’re worried that our Fate is to contemplate Truth and Compassion (if Other is a Mirror, we better find Compassion!), the other five Cusps each provide alternate paths that are easier than that one.

  • Our first Escape Route is the Cusp of Capricorn (where reside the dwarf planets Quaoar and Hylonome), where we Change from Letting Go of difficulties, to actually having to try to Resolve them.  (Quaoar-Hylonome tells us that if we want to Survive, we need to Molt, shed our old Ego and Open Up to the new.)
  • The Cusp of Pisces is our second path to higher ground.  Here we’re fairly rudely dumped from drinking beer and discussing grand schemes for solving the problems created by the existence of Other, to having to Feel the Realities that arise because of the existence of Other.  (On this Cusp we find the asteroids Pallas and Lachesis, and the dwarf planets OR10 and Nessus, reminders that a Life in the realm of Matter is a Privilege and a Deep Mystery, and one which has well-defined Boundaries.)

The last three Cusps are about Curiosity (Quincunxes to the Sun or Moon).

  • The asteroids Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) decorate the Cusp of Aries.  Buddhists say that if you immerse yourself in the Water (Emotion), you’ll come out in the Fire (Spirit), and this is the place where you’ll come out.  I Wonder where these Memories will lead me.
  • The asteroid Karma is parked on the Cusp of Gemini.  On this Cusp we go from being Trapped in Stone, to being Liberated, free to walk around and Be whomever we want to Be.  I Wonder how we could ever find a more perfect place for Karma.
  • Finally, the Cusp of Libra is where we find the dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  At the Cusp of Libra we’ve just finished an unpleasant-feeling period of Ego Transformations, and we’re ready to test our new Selves out on Other People.  I Wonder how I’ll be received.

Adventures in Consciousness!

Another Busy Weekend

April 14, 2016

We have dedicated our Lives to suppressing certain Emotions and Memories and even Thoughts, and for good reason.  They would Overwhelm us, and we have More Important things to do.  Till now.

Thing is, those Emotions and Memories and Thoughts are the doorways to Healing our Limiting Beliefs, making it Safe to Remove our remaining Masks, eliminating Self-Sabotage, uncorking our Forbidden Genius, and to painlessly achieving the Yintegrity and Self-Sovereignty that we so crave, but which we hold back from because we fear it would so Disrupt our Lives and the Lives of those we Love and Depend upon.  That sentence was not approved by the FDA, but I believe it’s True.  And it may even positively impact our Physical Health.

The Universe will bring these Emotions and Memories and Thoughts to us in early June, and the Universe has been, and continues to, give us Opportunities to get a head start.  And every early Opportunity we take advantage of will make June less painful.  If we’re still in Resistance to these Emotions and Memories and Thoughts in June, the process could well be painful.  The Universe is our friend, if we Learn to listen to Her.

As you probably know by now, Eris (Truthtelling) Initiates Uranus (Our Connection to Our Individual Soul) in early June.   We expect this to do a pretty good job of finishing up the Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since 2012.  Well, let’s put it this way – late May and early June will be the Can-Opener phase of this Initiation.  The Initiation occurs at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia: Openness to the influx of spiritual energies.

When an Angle between two planets repeats, as is usually the case with outer planets, the first event always catches us off guard.  The last time this event occurred was in 1926, so very few of us have Experienced it in our current Lifetime.  If you know someone in their 90s who’s freaking out, this is probably why.  The less Experience we have with an Energy, the more likely it is to catch us off guard.  Forewarned is forearmed, however, so even if we’re off guard, knowing in general what the Energy is about can help us make sense out of what’s happening, and can help us step out of the Victim Modality we’d otherwise be in.

Let’s take what we hope will be an extreme example – suppose we were sexually abused as a child.  We don’t remember it, we only notice that in some situations we feel Unsafe or Angry or Scared, or maybe we’re uncomfortable with Intimacy.  If those Memories pop up in late May or early June, we’re going to Regress to the age when the abuse occurred, and to the Skillset and Boundaries that we had – or more accurately didn’t have – at that age.  Victim Modality is a foregone conclusion, most especially if those Memories arise as a result of some similar-feeling Unsafety in the then-Present Moment.

If we are somehow reminded that there is likely to be a “100-year” Regression (a Regression on such a scale that it occurs only once in a century) going on, we’re still going to be caught off guard, but we’re likely to be able to Recover our Present-Moment Skillsets much sooner than if we didn’t get the memo, or as the case may be, the blog post.

We’ve talked before about “Sensitivity” – how Sensitive we are to an astrological event, something astrologers can “Orb,” and I sometimes call “Slop.”  When an event is pending, most folks can certainly begin feeling it when it comes within one Degree of being exact.  Of course the Muggles will be in Denial, finding all manner of excuses, thinking it’s Heartburn.  The more Sensitive among us will begin feeling an event when it comes within three Degrees.  The most Sensitive of us will feel it sooner than that.

The Eris-Uranus Initiation reaches one Degree of Sensitivity in Mid-May.  It reached three Degrees of Sensitivity in late March.  Most folks who read this are likely to be at least three-Degrees Sensitive, so most of us are already Feeling it.  We Feel it through pressure to stop hiding or covering up parts of ourself that we’ve thought were less attractive or less Skillful.  Through Vulnerability.  Through Epiphanies about where we’ve been seeing through a glass darkly.  Through old Identities and Ego-Masks and Archetypes that we’re outgrowing.  Through a Desire to stop “Playing Games.”

An Initiation is a Conjunction.  When Angles repeat three times, as the Uranus-Eris Conjunction does, the first occurrence is a Can-Opener.  It opens a “Can of Worms” that we didn’t know was waiting for us.  The second and third occurrences are also Conjunctions, but they aren’t Initiations – only the first event is an Initiation.  We’re almost always in Victim Mode during a Can-Opener.

The second occurrence is an Exposition – the same Energy recurs front and center, but this time it seems to occur in slow motion (Retrograde), so we have a far better chance of understanding what’s happening “to us,” and consequently a far better chance of moving from Victim Mode to Master Mode.  In Victim Mode things happen to us, we have no Control over them.  In Master Mode, even if things happen to us, we have Skills to deal with them adequately.  

If we Master an Energy during the Exposition, then the third occurrence is a Confidence-Builder.  The Energy and Process recurs, but this time we’re ready and able to deal with it using our now-Present-Moment Skillsets, including those we learned in the previous two events, and we sail through it, feeling great about our new Expertise.  If we didn’t Master the Energy during the Exposition, then the third occurrence becomes another Opportunity, another Exposition.

The Uranus-Pluto Square recurred six times after the Can-Opener, giving us an indication of how Important the Universe thought it was for us to Recover our Yintegrity.  As if Pluto didn’t already symbolize what is Mandatory (Adaptable but not Avoidable).  The Can-Opener (June 2012) was followed by five Expositions (October 2012, May and November 2013, May and December 2014) before the Confidence-Builder (March 2015).  

The Uranus-Eris Exposition peaks in late September, while the Confidence-Builder occurs at the Ides of March next year.

In other words, as Uranus approaches Eris, that section of the Zodiac (now 21-23 Aries) gets very Hot.  The Sun (our Essence) crossed that section last weekend (April 9-11), while Varuna (Cellular Wisdom) and Chariklo (Beauty and Charm) were Stationary.  Venus (our Values) crosses that section two weekends hence, April 22-24.  In between, this coming weekend (April 16-17), Mars (Action) and Pluto (Inevitability) are Stationary (Strong).

There’s a joke about two Olde-Boy psychologists trading stories about “Freudian slips.”  One says his attention was drawn to the bosom of a ticket-seller on a recent trip to Pittsburgh, and he accidentally asked for a picket to his destination instead of a ticket.  The other says, “That’s nothing.  The other day I was having dinner with my mother and when I meant to ask her to pass the butter, what came out instead was ‘Mother, you’ve ruined my Life and I hate you!’ ”  

It would be really appropriate to Mars-Pluto – and fortuitous – if such Freudian slips came out this weekend, because they would constitute bright flashing lights pointing us toward clues about what hasn’t come to the surface of Consciousness yet.  Let your tongue be your Guide this weekend.  Same with “slip-ups” of any sort.  Make a wrong turn on the way to the store?  Where did you end up?  Drop a jar of Honey on a hard floor?  What do you suppose that might mean?  PIAVA the question.  Run into someone you haven’t seen in a long time?  A stranger strikes up an interesting conversation?  Pay Attention this weekend.

In particular, in addition to the Retrograde Stations of Pluto (5am PDT 17 April at 18 Capricorn) and Mars (1am PDT 18 April at 9 Sagittarius), Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) Initiates Mercury (Communication) at 3pm PDT 16 April, in 17 Taurus, “A symbolic battle between ‘swords’ and ‘torches’.”  Fascinating Symbol, as Swords symbolize mentality, as does Mercury.  That leaves Vesta standing in for Torches, indicating that…

Our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs are Burning their way out of Denial now, and will be for the next fifteen months, while this Mercury-Vesta Cycle moves through.  Just long enough to cover the Eris-Uranus Confidence-Builder.

We’ll talk more about the Vesta-Mercury Initiation – with its two Tricolors and Grand Trine – in the next installment, but note that while it’s occurring, the Sun is crossing the asteroid Mnemosyne – Memory.  What a jokester, this Universe!