Charts of the Portals III

Today, 12 September 2020, it’s all about Jupiter, which is Strong (Stationary) till at least 5:40 pm PDT…

Jupiter usually Feels pretty good, but with everything else going on, it’s just making me Scattered.  It took me an hour to get focused enough to get through a Tapping while imagining the Tapping Points – my mind would wander before I was halfway done.  Once I Tapped physically (on “Even though I’m sooo Scattered…”), it was much easier.

The Big Topics in the Jupiter Station are…

1. Boundaries! (Jupiter Station Conjunct Pallas).
2. Guilt! (Jupiter et al one foot of a T-Square to asteroid Nemesis).
3. Codependence! (while the Hylonome [Self-Sovereignty] Station in the same chart doesn’t occur till 23 September, the Jupiter Station is very much Conjunct to the already-Stationary dwarf planet Hylonome).
4. Trust!  Especially Trusting those whom you usually Judge (the Jupiter Station Opposes asteroids Eurydike [Trust] and Hopi [Respect for All Things]).  See also #6ff.
5. Pride.  Don’t be Surprised if some Authority figure accuses you of being too Prideful today (a second T-Square to asteroid Hybris [Hubris] which Conjoins the Great Attractor [Source of Profound Gravity]).
6. Confusion about Abuse, Privilege, and Pride (Neptune [Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity] loosely Conjoins dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] in one foot of the Hybris T-Square).
7. However you Express the Opposite of Pride – Shame, Reticence, Shyness, Self-Judgment, or ?.  Astrology defines Dimension (Pride <==> Shame), not Direction (not Pride OR Shame – we’re much more likely Experience Both).  It’s Ego that Defines Direction.  Note though that Ego is Neutral, it’s simply how we Relate to the World.  It’s usually used as an insult, but that sullies the word unnecessarily.  See #5-6.
8. Resolution! …

No matter how much you have Suffered Under or Surrendered To Abuse or Privilege or Pride or Shame in the Past, including Giving Away Your Power and Letting Others Define your Priorities, today is an Opportunity to Begin to Turn That Around (asteroid Klotho [Beginning New TimeLines] Conjunct Sun [Essence] and dwarf planet Orcus [Making and Breaking Patterns and Habits] in the other foot of the Hybris T-Square).  This is very subtle Work.

It’s Klotho that Initiates New Habits, like Self-Care for instance, or Letting Go of Judgment.  The number of people who Actually Take Conscious Responsibility for Initiating their Habits, excepting our famous chronic failures at New Years, is small.  We don’t think of it as “Eating Well” or “Acting in My Own Best Interests,” we think of it as “Dieting” or “Refusing to Give Away My Power Any More” – we Express our Resolve in the Negative, which Dooms it from the start.  We also Express it in the Absolute, which is Counter-Productive.

We Begin any New Habit with a Decision (Orcus).  But making an Absolute Decision Changes Nothing – it could Change us from a total Push-Over to a total Hard-Ass, and we want Neither.  We Want the Flexibility to be a Push-Over when it Serves us and to be a Hard-Ass when that Serves us, and to be a Pleasant Companion or Colleague when neither is necessary.  And especially we want to Learn the Skill of saying NO Politely but Definitely and Incontrovertibly when we Choose to do so.  We want to Have Our Cake, Eat It Too, and Keep Our Bridges Intact.

What we really Want To Do, is to Become More Conscious around whatever we’re Intending to Change.  We want to Notice whenever an old Self-Sabotaging Habit begins to Operate.  We want to Notice whenever someone makes a Request that would Violate our Intentions – including Requests from our Inner Selves who Gain from our Self-Sabotage.  For instance if we Eat more than is Best for us, we may well be doing it to make ourself Feel Better because we were starting to recall Abuse and we want to Stop those Feelings before they fully emerge and Hijack our Identity.

Give yourself a Thousand Points for Learning that Skill, because it’s Saved Your Life many times, before you Condemn it to the Habit Dustbin!  It’s a Skill you want to keep, you just want to Learn other Effective Skills that you can use more often in its place, so you can save that one for when you Absolutely Need It.  In fact, All of our Skills are Skills we want to keep, and use to an appropriate degree in situations where using them is Appropriate and Constructive and Self-Serving.

So the first Decision we want to make, is that We Notice when we’re at the top of any Slippery Slope.  The second Decision we want to make, is that We Have Ways to Rescue Ourself if we start to Slip.  We don’t need to worry about Mechanisms for Rescuing ourself yet, because we can Trust ourself to eventually develop as many of those as there are situations.  For Now (while Orcus [Decision-Making] and Klotho [New-Habit-Developing] are Dancing with our Sun [our Essence]) we’re just looking for a few Critical Decisions that will Change our Life.

Today I Decide to Be Conscious Enough to Notice When I’m in Danger of Slipping into Self-Sabotage. 

Today I Decide to be Resourceful Enough to Be Able to Pull Myself Back When I Make an Initial Mistake.

We can cast those into any form of PIAVA we like.  I’ve cast them as Intentions here, but they would be Powerful as Thetas.  You could even toggle between Thetas and Tappings to locate any Hesitations you have and Accommodate them in your Thetas.  These Decisions might be general enough to cover most situations – see if they Work for you.

We all have Wants that Appear to Conflict with one another, like the example of Eating Well and Modulating our Emotions when Necessary.  So which then is the Self-Sabotage, the Eating or the Modulating?  That’s why it’s so important to Avoid Analysis.  Which of our Conflicting Wants is Self-Sabotaging will depend on the Circumstances.  We want to Trust Ourself to know which is which in each Moment of each Circumstance.

We may even find ourself in a Situation where this one bite will be an Appropriate and Successful Modulation, while this next bite will be a Self-Sabotage.  Two minutes later we may be back to one more bite to Modulate.  But in the process we’re meeting both of our Wants, being more Conscious about both, and probably Sabotaging ourself less.  We may find ourself Eating to Modulate, but in the process Eating Well, eating Food that’s Constructive to our Mood and Constructive to our Body.  This is how Habits are Developed, one iteration at a time.

It’s not in the PIAVA acronym, but Expansion is actually a PIAVA (Magnetic Manifestation Technique) as well, so this would be an excellent time to use Expansion as the PIAVA Vehicle for our Decisions.  Just get Bigger.  Fill the room with your Consciousness.  Then fill the building.  Then fill your block, then your neighborhood, then your town, your county, your state or province or shire or borough – take it as far as you’re Comfortable.  Then, from that Expanded Space, Declare your Intention or Theta or whatever other form you want to use to give your Decisions maximum Pull in the Unconscious.