One of my favorite Frank and Ernest cartoons is the one where the tall one says “I just get my budget balanced, and along comes a big surprise, like rent or a weekend.” These days we don’t have time to get Grounded and get our Mind-Body back to Balance before another Big Portal comes along. While we’re barely – if at all – done with the 12 May 2022 Doubt/Confidence Portal,1 the next one, the 15 May Triple–Karmic Total Lunar Eclipse “Blood” Full Super Moon2 is upon us.
We interpret an Eclipse as Illumination, because any Constant that we usually Take For Granted or Deny or just plain Don’t Notice, suddenly becomes Obvious by its Absence when it’s Eclipsed or Occulted, or newly Hidden. Like driving on a busy 2-lane road at night with lots of blinding oncoming headlights when suddenly that white line on the right-hand edge of your lane disappears, and it feels like you may have just reached the Edge of the Earth, but you aren’t certain! All that’s left is Hope till that line reappears.
Then at 8:21 pm PDT 16 May (1:21 pm AEST 17 May), the Moon goes Out of Bounds, wherein what we feel is likely to derive more from our Karmic Experiences than from the Present Moment, and wherein we may allow Our Thoughts About Our Emotions to lead us away from the Inherent Meaning of the Emotion itself. Moon OOB lasts till 4:36 pm PDT 20 May (9:36 am AEST 21 May) and spans 10 Scorpio through 8 Aquarius. It’s OOB over the Southern Hemisphere. The OOB Moon crosses the Locus of our Climate Change et al issues around 4:20 pm PDT 18 May (9:20 am AEST 19 May).3
- 1 Station of dwarf planet Chariklo in 9 Aquarius; see previous posts. That portal would have peaked at 11:44 am on the 12th, unless we Experienced it as a Victim, in which case it will take longer.
- 2 The Total Eclipse of the Moon occurs at 9:14 pm PDT 15 May 2022 (2:14 pm AEST 16 May) in 26 Scorpio Conjunct both the South Node (Held Emotions, the most entrenched form of Karma), and asteroid Karma (Inertial Patterns), which is Out of Bounds (Exaggerated ) and Retrograde. It’s a Super Moon because the Moon, in its Elliptical Orbit, is at its closest approach to Earth, thus appearing larger than usual. It’s called a Blood Moon because the Moon typically turns Blood Red when it’s totally Eclipsed, because some of the Sun’s Light makes it around the edge of the Earth, in the process getting bent toward the Infrared. The impact of New and Full Moons and Eclipses is generally felt during the following two or more weeks.
- 3 Pholus and Quaoar still in 8 Capricorn, where the et al includes at least War, Oil, Climate, Old Men Groping around in our Wombs, Inflation, Recession, our Food Supply, the Bees, and the End Times in general. See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2022/05/06/more-climate-change-et-al/.
Confusion is the first stage of Growth in Consciousness, but most of us have been trained by Patriarchal Culture to Rush to try to understand Why we’re Confused so we can Fix it and get back to Certainty. For most of us, this attempted Rush to Certainty immediately Cancels our Potential Growth, because it’s a Mental exercise, and it’s our Mental Concepts that form the Cage within which our Current Consciousness exists. So it’s impossible, or rather, Forbidden, for us to reach beyond the bars of this Cage to Grow in Consciousness. To do so we need to use Intuition or Guidance or PIAVA rather than Intellect or Logic.
One of our foremost sources of Confusion occurs when two Energies Merge. An excellent example is the Reaction of Conservatives to Gender Fluidity. Male and Female are strictly Separate Energies in their Minds – their Old-Testament Worldview is wrapped around Adam’s Suzereignty over Eve. Their Story usually Eliminates, or Banishes as Evil, Adam’s original partner Lilith, who Chose to be his Equal or be Gone. He was incapable of Equality, so she was Went. Our Stories construct our Mental Prisons. Since the various planets and asteroids represent different Energies, when two or more planets Merge, or Conjoin, our Reaction is usually Confusion.
The Duality between Safety and Danger is even more basic than that between Male and Female. Gender Differences can sometimes Trigger profound Changes in our Physiology (such as Lust, or Fear, or Homophobia – the Old-Testament Story is big on Banishing Homophilia, which may have been good advice before Hot Water and Soap became readily available), but Safety and Danger always Trigger profound Changes in our Physiology, even if we Deny it.
This 15 May Blood Moon Total Eclipse is replete with Potentially Confusing Mergers…
- Our Instincts (Moon) Merge with our Karma (asteroid Karma), which takes us directly out of the Present Moment, as we Review, mostly Unconsciously, all of our Past Experiences with what we’re Feeling or Experiencing. We end up Reacting to Ancient History rather than Responding to Present Moment Reality, and mostly we have no idea we’re doing it, because our Concept of our Personal History (Karma) has Merged with our Concept of Present Moment (Moon). If we can wrench ourself out of this Conundrum, we may be able to Ask ourself, Are the Strength of my Emotional Reactions appropriate for the Concrete Present-Moment Threats that I’m Encountering?
- Our Instincts Merge with our Held Emotions (South Node). Our Held Emotions are the ones we’d rather Die than Feel. We usually interpret this as I’d rather DIE than Feel that, but it’s really I’D have to die before I could Feel that, namely that our Present-Moment sense of Who We Are, our Identity or Ego, will have to Molt in order to Allow ourselves to acknowledge that Feeling in our Body. Our Held Emotions are the Deepest of our Karmic Patterns. In Past or Parallel Lives they probably got us Dead, or worse. Ego Deaths are usually No Fun, but Ego Death is a synonym for Portal on the road to 5D.
Our Instincts Merge with Every Concept once a month, as the Moon circles the Earth, so these Mergers aren’t really rare. However, our Held Emotions and our Karma Merge only every seven years or so, and having the Moon Merge with both while Karma is Exaggerated or Amplified, which should make it more Obvious, is remarkable, especially since the Moon is Eclipsed, or Illuminating it! Our goal in 5D-seeking is to Notice, to bring our Karma up into Consciousness, because when our usually-Unconscious multi-Lifetime Inertial Patterns become Conscious, we can Choose to Break the Pattern and do something Different. Doesn’t even matter as much what we do instead, because like Muscles, every Repetition of our Inertial Patterns cements them more in place even more, while every Repetition of a New Response weakens the Karmic Pattern.
- Our Essence (Sun) Merges with Fear (dwarf planet Sedna). We interpret Sedna as Converting Fear to Power, but the Fear comes first, and Fear is usually pretty physiological, attention-grabbing, and often prevents us from even being Present, let alone Capable. We can Spin this many ways. Fear plus Breathing Equals Excitement. Fear plus Tapping Equals Grounding. Fear plus Kegels Slows Time enough that we can Convert Fear to Power. You’ve seen sports heroes accomplish amazing feats when they’re “in the Zone,” like swinging at exactly the right time in exactly the right place to knock a 100-mph fastball out of the ballpark. They have to swing before the ball gets to them, so it’s not at all like hitting off a Tee. They may not have been purposely doing Kegels, but they’ve not only Slowed Down Time, but also correctly Intuited the trajectory of the pitch. Remember too that Fear is the Absence of Love, and Love is the Ultimate Power.
- Our Essence (Sun) also Merges with Our Mission in the Lifetime (North Node). Now that’s Scary – Failing at our Lifetime Mission is a lot different than losing a ballgame or being sent back a grade. At least, that’s what it feels like. Of course the only one Judging us is ourself,4 so this is another case of our Emotions being out of proportion to the Present Moment. But it’s a huge Opportunity, since our Life Mission is Multidimensional and generally available to the Dualistic Mind only as a Metaphor. So if we can set aside the Judgment, we can simply Attune to the fact that we’re Identified with our Lifetime Mission! This doesn’t always happen! Sit with that. Roll your current Conscious and Semi-Conscious Values and Goals over it, to see how well they Align. And look to see where you Fear your Mission, or Fear Failure. You know what FDR said about Fear. If we can escape Self-Doubt (which we just practiced last week!), it’s incredible Grace!
- Our Essence (Sun) also Merges with the Truth of our Mind (asteroid Veritas) AND the Truth of our Heart (asteroid Aletheia). Like watching CNN versus Faux News versus ESPN, our Essence will verify One or the Other of our Truths once a year, as the Sun goes around the Zodiac. But the Truth of the Mind and the Truth of the Heart will only Merge every several years.5 Each time that occurs we have the Opportunity to review them together relative to our Goals to see if either is leading us into dead ends. However, this time they’re Merging with one another at the same time they’re Merging with our Essence AND with our Lifetime Mission AND our Conversion of Fear to Power, AND being writ large across the Sky by an Illuminating Blood Moon! Talk about getting led around by the ring in our nose!!
- 4 Someone else may concur with our Self-Judgment, but if we Believe them, we’re looking at our Codependence – another possible Revelation from this Illuminating Blood Moon Eclipse.
- 5 The Orbits of Aletheia and Veritas are quite similar, so they chase one another around the Zodiac, getting behind or ahead of one another depending on the timing of their Retrograde periods. So their Cycles don’t follow the usual Pattern that develops between slower and faster Patterns. We can interpret that as a suggestion that neither is inherently Hierarchically “Superior” to the other, though given the Excessively Intellectual character of the Patriarchy, we give the Truth of the Heart many extra points at this phase of the Millennia. Carlos Castaneda’s The Power of Silence is an excellent assessment of their Respective Merits. If you Journal, you can check September 2019 to see if you were working with your two Truths then, the last time they Merged.
All that’s just the Eclipse itself and its Energy Mergers! In a Full Moon or a Lunar Eclipse, Our Instincts and Our Essence are Debating.6 So the Depths of Our Karma and Our Held Emotions – which, while keeping us in 3D, are also keeping us in Comfort – are Negotiating with Our Life Mission, Our Fear/Power, and our Truths that can presumably lead us to 5D. So we have the Ego (Karma et al ) Working out Win-Win with our Soul (Life Mission et al ). We were just working with a planet that meant exactly that last week – dwarf planet Salacia. No wonder Salacia has been Out of Bounds and showing up in all of the 8-9 Degree charts. I almost Expect to see the Sabian Symbol of a Cat arguing with a Mouse pop up!7
There’s much more. There are two more Mergers associated with the Full Moon itself, a Pluto Merger, and a Challenge about the Merger of The Most Important Thing and Our Unconscious Limitations. That’s almost a synonym for our Karma, but it’s tied up with yet more Mergers! But my “day” is burned out, so, next installment. It’s gonna be a busy fortnight!
- 6 A Full Moon is an Opposition, and an Opposition is the Second Harmonic, which symbolizes Tradition (the Priestess), introducing the Duality of Right and Wrong, Sacred and Profane, Praise and Blasphemy. Think of it as Negotiation. The Challenge is Argument; the Adept use is Listening
- 7 The Symbol for the 26-Scorpio Eclipse is “Native Americans making camp after moving into new Territory.” How appropriate, and suggesting that we’ll be “winning” this Debate! The Sun (Essence) is 48 Degrees from Salacia – that’s 2/15ths of the way ’round the Loop (a Waxing “Biquindecile” Angle). The 15th Harmonic is Pan, the Nature God, in 5D our best friend who will guide us in our Collaborations with Nature. R. Ogilvy Crombie’s Encounters with Nature Spirits: Co-creating with the Elemental Kingdom and Michael J. Roads’s Through the Eyes of Love trilogy are fabulous sources for working with Pan. The Second Harmonic is again, Tradition, so the Sun-Salacia Relationship here is about the Fairy Tradition.
- The Moon is 133 Degrees from Salacia (a Waning “Septnovundecile” Angle), seven 19ths of the Loop. The 19th Harmonic is The Sun, symbolizing Partnership, Teamwork, Collaboration (Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook, p.92); the 7th Harmonic is The Chariot, symbolizing Timing. It’s Time for 5D in other words.