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Gauntlet XII – More Con Games

April 24, 2018

Well, we get a couple of weeks without Stations, till the Ides of May.  That should be a relief.

In the interim, Action/Agitation meets Compulsion on 26 April (4am PDT) when Pluto Initiates Mars, beginning a new two-year Cycle at 22 Capricorn, “By accepting defeat gracefully, a general reveals nobility of character.”  As Alan Watts averred, it’s harder to Let Go of our “Good” Karma than our “Bad” Karma.  So we may be Asked to Let Go of our Attachment to Success over the next few days and the next couple of years.

Then on 28 April (12am PDT) Juno leaves Pisces and moves into Aries.  Since Juno represents the Edges of Consciousness, that should make Life a little Easier, as we’re likely to be Growing our Spiritual Consciousness more rather than our Emotional Consciousness.  While Held Emotions (the one we’d Rather Die than Feel) may not be so prominent, we’re still likely to be dealing with Death, as one of the more prominent elements of Spirit is its immutability.  If that’s an intellectual Concept for you rather than a Foundation of your Beliefs, you may be in for Surprises.

Chariklo is about Confidence, and we’ve just squirmed out of a fairly big Challenge to our Confidence, as Chariklo and Pluto shared their Stations over the last few days (Gauntlet IX to XI).  It turns out though that our Confidence Work isn’t quite done.  For the next week we’ll be Working on Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty, as Chariklo Initiates Lilith on 1 May, starting a new nine-year Cycle at 20 Capricorn – “A hidden choir singing during a religious service.”

The “hidden choir” could be our True Self telling us what we’d be Doing and Saying if we were Speaking and Acting from our Self-Sovereignty, or it could be the echos of the many Voices that, throughout our Life, have told us Who and How We Should Be and Do instead of Being and Doing Ourself.  As a Jungian I assume that the Unconscious is always trying to move us forward, even when it requires us to walk through the Swamp instead of around it. 

So I’m opting for the Hidden Choir being our Shoulds.  After all, would our True Self be Shoulding on us?  You know how it Feels when you ignore an Intuition, that “Still Small Voice”?  That’s more likely to be the Voice of our True Self.  Mine doesn’t come from over my Shoulder.  When we get talkback from over our Should-er, if we Notice and just Imagine turning our head to look, or listening for the tone of voice and accent, or just Asking, it will probably be pretty easy to Discern whose Shoulds we’ve Internalized as our own in the current case.

Then we can cycle through Anal-yzing, PIAVAing, and State-Changing (Tapping, Kegeling, Poor-Sweethearting, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrading, and the like) to examine the Agenda of that particular Control Freak, to see if their input is still useful in our Present Life.

Which is kind of the Other Side of the Coin here, or the Other Side of the Mirror – when our own Control Freak comes out of its cave and we Notice that we’re wanting someone else to Act or Speak differently than they are, it would be of great value to our Evolution for us to cycle through Anal-yzing, PIAVAing, and State-Changing to get to the Roots of our own Distaste for whatever it is that they’re up to. 

It may contribute more to Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty to Work with the times when we Should Other, than it does to Work with the Internalized Voices that Should us!

Be Mindful that Shame and Guilt are primary tools that Control Freaks use to manipulate our Behavior, so be Aware that these Emotions may be your first indication that you’re being Shoulded.  Nothing wipes out Confidence and Sovereignty faster and more completely than Shame, and it takes a huge Effort to get Present with Shame.  The first step is Noticing, and if you’re lucky enough to do that, then Poor-Sweethearting will be worth trying, as well as Tapping and Kegeling.

Gauntlet X – Ominous

April 18, 2018

Got that Ominous Feeling, Obsessing on something untoward that you may have little Control over, and that refuses to Heel despite your Tapping and Thetas and Poor-Sweethearts?  Well, that’s Pluto Stationary – Heavy, like Swimming through Jello.

Ominous also goes along with questions about our Self-Confidence, as Chariklo is Stationary less than 24 hours after Pluto’s Station and less than two Degrees away.  In addition, both Mars (Action – and possibly Agitation) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) are Merged in with the two Stations, and Chariklo Initiates Mars only a half hour before the Pluto Station.

Lots of astrolguese in there I know; what it means is that we’re likely to interpret the Heavy Pluto-Station Energy as a Threat to our Self-Sovereignty and Self-Confidence and possibly even our Survival.  And it’s most certainly a Threat to our Survival as we know it, because the Strongest elements in the chart (the T-Square that the Stations head and a Grand Quintile) converge on Rebirth (Haumea-Veritas).  Denial-Resistant Ego Death (Nemesis-Eris-Lachesis) is also prominent.

As far as how much of this will Manifest as Karmic Paper Tigers that Act Out mostly in Emotions, and how much will Manifest as Hardcopy Real-Time External events, well, as our Disrupter-in-Chief likes to say, “We’ll see what happens.”  Much probably depends on what you have going on natally in 17-25 of the Cardinal Signs (Capricorn, Cancer, Aries, Libra), and how much of that is remains Unconscious.  Bringing that into Consciousness is after all the Big Opportunity here.

In this Degree Zone of Capricorn we’re building Version 4.0 of some Project, we’re very proud of it, and we’re forced to Get Humble before we Let the Project out into the Public Eye. 

We might PIAVAC something like “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that this Material come into Consciousness Lovingly and Gently, and that any Disruption in my Life be Underwhelming.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  Show me.”

We’ll map all this out over the next several days, just wanted to let you know what’s waking me up in the middle of the night, in case it’s gnawing at you as well.

Gauntlet IX – Confidence

April 16, 2018

Once we get through Chiron’s passage into Aries (1am PDT 17 April) Saturn’s Most-Important-Thing Station (7pm PDF 17 April), the most prominent Energies will be the Station of Pluto (8:30am PDT 22 April) and Chariklo (6am PDT 23 April), and they’ll already be in full Force.  In fact, we could be Experiencing some flashforwards from them already.

Pluto is just Heavy.  “Swimming through Jello” is one way Pluto Stations have been described.  Pluto means Transformation, Trance Re-Formation, Big Changes, even Changes in the very Zeitgeist that we’ve long since come to accept as The Way It Is.  You’ll get Bruised up pretty good if you try to fight against Pluto.  You aren’t Helpless, you can steer to one bank or another to portage around the Falls, you just don’t want to try to paddle upstream because the current is a lot Stronger than you are.

Chariklo is about Confidence, especially Self-Confidence.  Confidence is the most Charismatic characteristic that a person can have, whether we think it’s warranted or not.  Wonder why the Antichrist is so Teflon?  So our Confidence is being Transformed.  Our Confidence, unless we’re a Grifter, is almost always a Trance, below the level of our Consciousness.

Having Chiron in Aries will help a lot, as we’ll be less assailed by the Emotional Bleeding from our Lifelong “Unhealable” Wounds.  Unless you’re Faithless, in which case your Spiritual Lymph might be spilling everywhere.  Faith and Trust are both Important in Confidence – while the Saturn and Hylonome Stations (Trust, Priority, Boundaries, Codependence) will weaken after they’re Exact, they won’t disappear instantaneously.

So if your Confidence crumbles, know it’s “just” a Wound being re-Triggered, and Respond accordingly (Poor-Sweetheart, Soft-and-Warm, Mirrors, everything that Chiron in Pisces has taught us).  It’s just an Ego Death, not a “real” Arrow.  Trust that it will be better in the New Trance on the Other Side.

The Pluto and Chariklo Stations are also only two Degrees apart, with Chariklo on the Waning side of Pluto, which means that we’re laying the Groundwork for a major Letting Go of the Sources of Confidence that we’ve been using since 1931’s “Young woman awaiting a sailboat” Pluto-Chariklo Initiation.  Not embarking on her own journey, but waiting for someone else to give her a ride.

Pluto Initiates Chariklo into a brand-new 90-year Cycle next February, in the same 23 Capricorn as the Pluto-Saturn Initiation we discussed earlier – “A soldier in combat boots receiving two awards for bravery.”  If we Imagine them to be high-heeled combat boots, we could easily Give these awards to the #MeToo troops.

Gauntlet VII – Saturn

April 16, 2018

We wrote quite a bit about the Saturn Station in Gauntlet II and Gauntlet III, though there are a few thing to add.  Probably most important is that you get to Witness Saturn as a Malefic or not.  Saturn has a big reputation as a Downer, but to us it simply means The Most Important Thing.  Saturn asks us to suspend secondary Priorities and Pay Attention to The Most Important Thing.  That seems like a Downer if we’re depending for one reason or another on The Less Than Most Important Things. 

So if you’re Feeling Stressed by Saturn’s Station (7pm PDT 17 April), stop and Ask yourself what you’re Resisting.  Maybe your Child is sick and you went to work anyway, and you’re Feeling Guilty about it.  There you have it – go home and look after your Kid.  Maybe you stayed home and you’re Scared that the meeting you’re missing will set your career back.  Better stop and Meditate on that one.  The one thing I’ve found about Saturn over the years, is that our secondary Priorities will be just fine if we ignore them for a while.

Once we’re done with Saturn, or Saturn is done with us, the other real issues and apparent issues will jump right back into the foreground.  That’s one of Saturn’s Most Important tasks – to help us Separate the Apparent Issues that are Karmic Paper Tigers, from the Real Issues that we need to Attend To in the Present Moment.  Our Unconscious Beliefs tint our Perceived Reality so that some Imposter issues look a lot more Present-Moment than they Really are, and if we let it, Saturn will help us get Clear about the Edges.

One thing that’s important – four and a half days after Saturn’s Station, Pluto has a Station (8:30 am PDT 22 April), so this week will likely have an ominous Saturn-Pluto Feel to it. 

Saturn-Pluto events are associated with all manner of nasty manipulation and fake news.  The most recent example is 9/11/2001.  The Waning Saturn-Pluto Square occurred a month prior, so the Energy was well on its way out. 

Yet the perps who planned or scammed 9/11 took advantage of another shift (the Moon going Out of Bounds, which occurred at 9am on 9/11) to carry the Saturn-Pluto Energy forward into their Patriot Act travesty.  Given the time involved and the length of the law, it’s obvious that the Patriot Act was written long before 9/11.  Whether or not its authors conspired with the 9/11 actors, they certainly used the events of 9/11 to promote their anti-democratic agenda.  We’re still dealing with the dregs of the Patriot Act.

The actual upcoming Pluto-Saturn Initiation doesn’t occur until mid-January 2020.  Those who choose to stay in 3D can expect a major Fear-promoting Trauma thereabouts – possibly involving Syria, if this preview is prescient – to make sure the Shoeple are cowed properly for the beginning of the Digital Age in early 2021 at the Saturn-Jupiter Initiation.

The January 2020 Pluto-Saturn Initiation occurs in 23 Capricorn, “A soldier receiving two awards for bravery in combat.”  Fun.  Even if the soldier was on “the right side,” it’s the wrong approach, as Dan Scranton’s Arcturian friends point out today…

http://danielscranton.com/the-rest-of-the-journey-to-the-5th-dimension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“You have placed yourselves in the position that you wanted to be in at this time.  You knew before you incarnated that after December 21st, 2012, you would have a window of opportunity in front of you to make decisions as a collective that would either guide you to the fifth dimension or to the destruction of your planet.

“You made the decision to ascend.  The potential was always there, but what was needed in order for the journey to continue to the fifth dimension was enough awakened beings to hold the vibration for the rest of planet Earth and the rest of humanity.

“You are not overpopulated.  Your planet can handle the billions of you that are currently incarnate, and there is power, of course, in numbers.  As we have said, the star children volunteered to come forth to be that final piece of the puzzle to hold space for the collective.

“And those of you who have been awake and living through these past several years have also been doing the work that was necessary to continue the journey.  Now, at this time, you can relax.  You can celebrate the knowing that you are making the journey, and you can feel the significance of this accomplishment.  You can also let yourselves off the hook.

“Many of you who came forth with the knowing that you had a mission did not realize that the mission would be something much bigger than writing a book or opening a healing center.  It would be much bigger than delivering channeled messages.  Your mission has been to hold the vibration for the rest of humanity, and you have done so.

“And for many of you it has been a very tumultuous ride, but there is no turning back now.  Now you can hold space for yourself.  You can shift into creation mode, and you can create the remainder of the journey to be exactly as you want it to be.  You will take the rest of humanity, those who choose to come, with you.”

The actual Saturn-Station chart has one additional term that the Hylonome Station (Gauntlet II-III) didn’t have, namely a Challenge (Square) to Trust (to asteroid Eurydike) that converts the Trine Fez of the Hylonome Station into a Square Fez, with the additional information that it’s Important to PIAVA “I Wonder what there is to Trust about Abuse” (Eurydike Quincunx Nessus; the diagonal Quincunxes are the levers of Power in a Fez). 

While each of us needs to Avoid an intellectual Answer to the Curiosity in the Quincunx (lest we pour wet cement into our Evolution), I’m going to be rash enough to suggest that an alternate version might be “I Wonder if the Abuse that I Feel occurring, or that I Fear will be Repeated, is actually ‘just’ a Flushback from my Karma catalog,” one of those Apparent Issues that Saturn is wont to Differentiate from Hardcopy Reality for us.

The addition of Eurydike Completes the Air Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings, the blue triangle) and a major movement toward Mission-Sustainability (North Node-Ceres Kite), embedding the whole complex into a Flying Squirrel Configuration that suggests we’re now Coasting into our Mission with Trust and Boundaries (Eurydike and Pallas) as our Wings, and Karma as our Rudder or Tail (South Node).

Gauntlet VI – Mercury

April 14, 2018

The Direct Station of Mercury is fairly straightforward…

It wouldn’t hurt us to interpret Mercury as Insight, if we can Differentiate In-sight from Anal-ysis.  It’s tempting, to those of us with proclivities or training or Programming to be “left-brained,” to think that Analysis is a critical Skill, but when we look at it closely we find that Observation is the heart of it; the rest is Conclusion, which is the equivalent of gassing and pinning the Butterfly, Ossifying the World.

The Star of the show is (Insight into) Letting Go of Impediments to Trusting our Ability to Manifest what we Need (Atropos/Endings-Eurydike/Trust-Makemake/Manifestation Stellium), even if/as the World as we know it falls apart. 

A note on Interpretation – we could certainly Interpret Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake as Ending our Trust in (our Ability to) Manifest rather than Ending Impediments to same.  But why would we want to?  I suppose we could wish that sort of curse on our Competition, but that would be so Patriarchal, wouldn’t it.

In this context we’re Challenged to Master (T-Square) carving Survival-Sabotaging Unconscious Beliefs out of the collection of Perception-Inhibiting Blinders that Limit our Insights (Vesta-Quaoar).  If you Notice the light purple lines, the “Quintangle” that we spoke of at the end of Gauntlet III remains in effect; Learning to Differentiate Survival-Limiting Beliefs is a core part of our April curriculum.

Detoxing our Survival-Manifestation machine is aided by Respect for All Things (Hopi Trine Bridge across the T-Square); hint: ferret out your Judgments – they’re Mirrors for your Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  Intrusive Memories will also play a role, but a more subtle one, as we’ll have to PIAVA how they’re Related to the price of Insight in Loompaland (2007 OR10 Quincunx Bridge).  Like that heavy flushback I had this morning – “I Wonder how that’s Related to Beliefs that Limit my Ability to Manifest Survival.”

There’s a Challenge of some sort between Respect for All Things and the kinds of Flashbacks we’re likely to Encounter (Waning Square from asteroid Hopi to dwarf planet OR10).  The Hopi-OR10 Cycle is about excavating the Memories that caused us to Ossify a Judgment into our Belief Collection.  I almost wrote “Belief System,” but there’s nothing Systematic about our Beliefs, they’re really more of a motley collection.

The current six-year Hopi-OR10 Cycle began in March 2014 at 3 of Pisces, “Petrified tree trunks lie broken on desert sand.”  How appropriate.  At the Waning Square our Assignment is to Let Go of all the Work we’ve been doing for the last four years to promote Respect for Disparity.  Not that either Respect or Disparity will be declining, it’s just that the methodology we’ve been using to promote them is obsolete, and it’s time for us to Let the whole Issue Go so the Work we’ve done can Integrate with the rest of Reality. 

In other words it’s time to Change the Subject around our Memories of Discrimination.  For now, que sera, seraI wouldn’t regard it as an accident that Letting Go of Memories of Discrimination is Lit Up at the same time as the Edgy Love and Denial Timing issues that we discussed in Gauntlet V.  One they’ve served as Insights into our Impediments to Manifesting Survival, they need to be Let Go.  We don’t need any of the lingering grudges that we could easily Create around them.

Some Insights that Dan Scranton’s Arcturian friends suggest for us…

http://danielscranton.com/accessing-fifth-dimensional-abilities-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

You have awakened within you the abilities that are associated with the fifth dimension, but you do not know how to access them yet.  It is like buying a new technological gadget that you’ve never seen before and not having any instructions available to you.  So as you feel for the abilities within you, please recognize that your acknowledgement of them is the first step in gaining full access.

“You won’t be able access these abilities by lamenting the fact that you haven’t accessed them yet.  That is counterproductive.  So what you want to do is focus.  You want to focus on how these fifth dimensional abilities feel as you contemplate them.  We are talking about telekinesis, telepathy, and teleportation, specifically.  There are others as well that you will become aware of as you continue on in your journeys.

“Feel for the power that is within you.  Feel for it vibrationally.  Do not wait until you have full access to these abilities before you feel how powerful you are.  Many of you have already taken sneak peeks at these abilities.  You know that at times you access them, if only for an instant.  You also know that you are becoming your higher selves, and with that means greater access to so much more than these abilities.

“We recommend that you don’t get fixated on them or on any one of them.  Instead we want you to continue to feel for your power and feel for the consciousness and the vibration of your higher self.  Your higher self has the instruction manual.  When you act, speak, and think as your higher self would, you bring yourself into harmony with that which you most desire.  And in so doing, you help others gain access to their higher self and to their fifth dimensional abilities.

You are about to have a lot more fun than you’ve been having.”

It’s PIAVA that’s the gateway to these Abilities.

Gauntlet V – Revelation New Moon

April 14, 2018

I must be Denying some element of Truth, because it’s been kind of a hard day for me.  Probably my sugar Addiction.  As for the Strong elements of the Truth/Veritas-Stationary chart…

  • Choosing to Expose our Essence (Lachesis-Eris-Sun) probably wins this lottery, as it’s a corner of both the Grand Cross (red square and cross) and the Grand Trine (blue Triangle)

There’s an additional vote for this Stellium (group of planets) being the Strong point of the Veritas Station chart – tomorrow’s New Moon (7pm PDT 15 April) is in the same place, extending the impact of the Station chart for another several weeks. 

Dwarf planet Eris is all about Revealing what’s been Denied, often with Ego-Death consequences – hence Eris’s Reputation for Dischord among the Stuck-in-the-Mud set.  And Lachesis is about Measuring the length of a Timeline.  When we’re dealing with Consciousness – aka Choice – then, it’s about Choosing to prematurely End or posthumously Extend a Timeline (which is a temporary or characteristic theme in a Lifetime) relative to its “Fated” Expiration.

The new Lachesis-Eris Cycle began at 2pm PDT today, 14 April, at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia.”  Remember that Denial is a Healthy Response to Ego-breakthroughs that we aren’t ready to deal with yet.  Trying to break an Ego prematurely usually leads to backlash and Ego entrenchment.  Look at what happens when you try to break someone else’s Ego with insults – you trigger the other person’s Ego Defenses.  The five-year Lachesis-Eris Cycle is about being Able to Choose if, when, and How to make significant Changes to our Ego.

So then, do I Choose to End my sugar Addiction?  Well, it’s not that Easy to squelch an Addiction, is it.  But Notice that it is in my Consciousness, which is one of the first steps.  So I can PIAVA to end or modify it to make it Life-Affirming, if it isn’t already – Self-Love/Sappho is Merged with Edges of Consciousness/Juno after all. 

Maybe I’ll have an All Organic Go Raw Sprouted Pumpkin Seed Bar with 5g of sugar instead of a Cascadian Farm Organic Honey Roasted Nut Protein Chewy Bar with 10g.  I know, they’re both Prefab Food, but I just had a big bowl of homemade Soup of Wildcrafted Fresh Nettles, organic Shiitakes, organic Farmers-Market Rhubarb, organic Onion, organic Bone Broth, and homegrown Garlic, Oregano, and Thyme, so I may survive.

Speaking of which…

  • Loving the Edges of our Consciousness as alternative to Ego Death (Sappho-Juno) also heads a Diamond Star

Now this one could be a Life-Changer if we take advantage of it.  A Diamond Star is an Emphatic (Finger of God) Challenge to Mastery (T-Square) made Easy by Grace (the Trine-Sextile Lace connecting the bases of the T-Square and Yod).  What if we broke the Karmic Dread-Reaction that most of have to Ego Death, and replaced it with a surge of Excitement and Love about the Liberation from Limitation that we’re about to Receive!  That would definitely be Life-Changing.

The 17-year Sappho-Juno Cycle began on 13 March at 9 Pisces, “A jockey spurs his horse, intent on outdistancing his rivals.”  Whoa, Competitive Love!  Well, if we’re Competing with ourself to see if we can Embrace the next Ego Death better than we Embraced the last one, that’s probably a fine use of Competition, which is after all a normal Huper Urge, even if we sneer at it as the Fundament of the Patriarchy.  And there’s no reason Competition can’t be Friendly, and even coexist with Collaboration.

The apparent Contradistinction that Powers the Challenge to Mastering such Edgy Self-Love involves our Forbidden Genius (Ixion) and our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos), with our Forbidden Genius Channeling (Conjunct) the Galactic Center.  We could easily interpret this as Galactic HQ giving us orders to Open Up our Forbidden Genius.  The Grace is provided by Easy Relationships between Unlimited Potential, Stationary Truth/Veritas, Rebirth/Haumea, and Hidden Genius.

  • New Beginnings (Klotho) are Important because they head a Diamond Star (T-Square and Yod pointing to same planet)

This one is tightly Integrated with the previous two Configurations, as the base of the New Beginnings Challenge to Mastery involves Rebirth/Haumea and Choosing to Expose our Essence (Lachesis-Eris-New Moon), and the Lace of Grace involves Unlimited Potential/Chaos and Truth/Stationary Veritas.

The Unx Angle (the short green lines) reflects the Twelfth Harmonic, Pattern-Breaking.  They’re drawn lightly in the Truth-Station chart in the previous post, but they’re an important key to our success as Self-Transformation, since without them we Change not at all.  They connect Loving our Edges (Sappho-Juno) with Choosing Insights (Lachesis-Eris-New Moon), Embracing Fear as Power (Sedna and Kegels), Unlimited Potential (Chaos), and Truth Squared (Aletheia and Stationary Veritas).

Finally, we neglected to include what might be the most immediate Challenge of this Truth Station, the Challenge between Truth/Veritas and Embracing Fear as Power/Sedna.  If you’re having trouble seeing Fear as Power, look at what it does to the Body – it can give you extraordinary Powers of Flight, Fight, or Freeze that arise directly from the Unconscious, without your Volition.  Have you Experienced the equation “Fear Plus Breathing Equals Excitement”?  And next time you’re watching a Scary movie, try Fear Plus Kegels to see how they Change your Experience of your Body and your Surroundings.

This is the Waxing Square in the six-year Veritas-Sedna Cycle that began in June 2016 at 26 Taurus, “A Spanish gallant serenades his beloved,” which is to say, at least during this Cycle, Fear Enchants Truth.  Certainly being Honest with ourself about our Fears (which after all are highly correlated with our Held Emotions) is a requirement for Authenticity and Yintegrity and all things Fifth-Dimensional.

At the Waxing Square, the Energy of a Cycle Emerges from Underground and enters the Mainstream.  Veritas, now moving forward again, is working toward it’s third Waxing Square to Sedna; the first occurred mid-October 2017 (when the Emergence from the Unconscious of a “new” Fear may have Shocked us), the second late March 2018 (when we would have Learned more about this new-to-our-Ego Fear), and this third one will Complete 13 May.  At this third event we’re scheduled to gain Confidence in our command of the Truth about our Fears.

Gauntlet III

April 12, 2018

A reader writes…

I’m really trying to sit back and remind myself that it’s only yet another layer of karma.  But oh my goodness, how am I going to get through this alive and in one piece? 

Or is the whole point of this to get broken into pieces and remould myself later…”
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I hear ya!  There are a lot of Issues Lit Up, they’re all Heavy, and – fortunately – they all Complement one another, so if we can Hang On, there will be immense Healing going on.  One of The Most Important Things is not to try to Think It or Figure It Out. 
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Modulate the Heavy Emotions as best you can with Tapping, Kegels, Breathing, Poor-Sweethearting, and PIAVAs, especially PIAVAs that include some equivalent to “Loving and Gentle.”  Modulate the Regressions to other Timelines as best you can by repeatedly bringing yourself back to the Present Moment. 
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Whatever is Dominating your Experience, shift to a Different Modality.  For instance, if your Emotions or your Interpersonal Circumstances are barely (or even Not) tolerable, Ask yourself “What’s going on in my Body Physically?” and Focus there.  If you’re in Physical Pain, Ask yourself, “What Emotion would I be Feeling if I could do Emotions right now?”  If you Feel like the Goddess has Abandoned you, put your Attention on something Beautiful.
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If you’re stuck in a Solutionless Hyperloop in your Mindbone, who’s the primary Other in the Drama?  Imagine holding a wardrobe Mirror up between you and them, facing them.  Hold it for a few minutes, to see if you Feel more Grounded, while you watch to see if they try to stretch tentacles around the Mirror (expand the Mirror), or try to “come around to the back” (use a Dome-shaped Mirror if you need to; Intend that it Allows Air in).  If the Mirror doesn’t help, try the second candidate for primary antagonist – living or dead.
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If it’s a Arbitrary Authority that has you in its grasp, hold your Mirror up to whomever taught you to Obey that Authority more than your Own Instincts, Intuitions, and Intelligence.  If you’ve Personalized the Authority, Dare to hold the Mirror up to the vaunted Personage.  I mean, what would Jesus Do?  He Melts my Mirror and floods me with Love and Mirth.  What does your Air-Hero do?
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Here’s the chart we’re in…
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As you can see, the Hylonome (Becoming Conscious of Codependence) Station (Strong Energy thereof) and the Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Station are in the same Zodiacal location and only a few days apart.  So The Most Important Thing is Becoming Conscious of our Codependence.  Codependence just means that we let someone else, or some Thing else (such as an Unconscious Archetype or Belief, or an Abstract Authority) make our Decisions for us, leaving us without Choice.  As we’ve seen Choice and Consciousness are pretty much synonymous.
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We face three main tightly-coordianted Challenges here, in addition to Untangling The Most Important Thing from our Codependence (which is a Challenge, but not one we’re likely to Master here, as the two Energies are hopelessly Merged)…
  • Facing Codependence as The Most Important Thing involves Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis Squaring the Hynonome-Saturn Stations – heavy lines)
  • Healing Abuse involves Setting New Boundaries that Keep us Safe (Pallas T-Square on Orcus-Nessus Opposition – light lines)
  • Making our Dedication to our Mission Sustainable involves Facing our Held Emotions (Nodal Axis with Ceres on the North Node – light lines)

As John Muir says, “The minute we try to pick out anything by itself, we find it hitched to everything else in the Universe.”  I mean, these are really all the same Issue, just seen from Different Angles, and it’s an incredible Gift from the Universe to be able to Let them Heal One Another.  If we can stay out of their way.

So let’s look at the ways they Heal one another…

  • The Ego Death-Codependence Conundrum is Embraced by two PIAVAs (the Nemesis-Hylonome/Saturn Square is part of a Trine Fez, and we deal with a Fez by attending to the diagonal Quincunxes)…
    • “I wonder about the Relationship between my Codependence and the Sustainability of my Mission” – Not Think about but Wonder about (Ceres-North Node Quincunx to Stations).  Sort of the way you Wonder about how in the devil that gorgeous, brilliantly colored Butterfly just crawled out of that brown turd-like valise!  (If you’re a biologist, Wonder instead about the Night Sky instead.)
    • Ganishi, Please Remove All Obstacles to Reverting my Limiting Oaths with Loving and Gentle Ego Deaths” – our Oaths (such as “I can never tell anyone or he’ll Kill Mom”), if they are Limiting, are protected by Integration with Ego (Orcus Quincunx Nemesis)
  • Our Like-It-or-Not Focus on Healing our Codependence (see above) AND our Attention to our Mission (see below) both represent Easy ways to Master our Boundary Challenges (Both Hylonome-Saturn, and the Nodal Axis, Trine-Bridge the Pallas T-Square on the Orcus-Nessus Opposition)
  • Our Ego Deaths facilitate Movement toward Sustaining our Mission (Nemesis Trine-Bridges the Nodal Axis)

So being Loving and Gentle with our Ego Deaths turns out to be one of the Levers of Power.  PIAVAing that will help, because Ego Deaths aren’t an intellectual process, nor a Power-Over process – we’re attempting to Manipulate the Unconscious.  One of the most Powerful ways to soften an Ego Death is to recognize that “I’d rather Die!” and “I feel like I’m Dying!” are literally untrue as we usually interpret them.  We naturally put our emphasis on the Die/Dying part, whereas what’s really happening is that the accent is actually on the “I” part.

“I’d rather Die” means yes, an Ego Death would be preferable to Re-experiencing our Held Emotions and Traumas, which is great.  When we’re Conscious that an Ego Death is occurring, they’re Easy.  We just recognize that Confusion is the first sign of Growth, Accept the Confusion as an Emotion in its own right, without trying to Fix it, and bang, we’ve mid-wifed our New Identity.  It has some re-orienting to do, so a little Confusion will remain for a while, but we’re basically done.

“I feel like I’m Dying!” is just code for “Oh, there’s my Held Emotion!  Aren’t I Delighted to finally get that out in the Open where I can be Present and Loving with it, because hiding in the cave like it’s been, it Sabotages my Entire Life!”  Make that Reframe and you’re likely to feel tremendous Excitement instead, as you watch the detritus falling off of your Future Timeline.

Bon Voyage!

Oh, one more thing.  Hidden in the chart are several light purple lines that make a wedge pointing at Vesta-North Node.  This is a “Quintangle,” a wedge make up of two Biquintiles (Learning to Break out of Dogma) and a Quintile (Learning and Teaching).  The object of the Lesson Plan is Sustaining our Dedication to our Mission, and the curriculum involves Beliefs (Vesta) and Confusion (Neptune).  Learn to regard the Emotion of Confusion as one of the Greatest Gifts you can Receive, as long as you Celebrate it without trying to “Figure it out.”

Gauntlet II

April 10, 2018

The Life Force (Varuna) Station chart is very straightforward – the Life Force is Merged with (Conjoins) Memories (asteroid Mnemosyne), and is Related through Curiosity (Quincunx) to Being Fully Responsive about Examining any shortage of Survival Value in our Unconscious Beliefs (Pholus-Quaoar-Vesta).  Wondering how the Beliefs that tint our Perception, but that we haven’t Noticed or Differentiated yet (that is, we haven’t Realized that they’re Beliefs rather than facets of Reality), Self-Sabotage us.

Getting Conscious is not a matter of Discovery, it’s a matter of Differentiation – like looking right at a Bird sitting in a Tree but seeing only the Tree till the Bird moves and flies away.  The Bird was there all along, we just failed to Differentiate it from the background information.  This is how our Archetypes work.  They direct our Actions and words, but we don’t Notice that they’re Beliefs because we think they’re Reality.  If we don’t Trust People, for instance, then we’ll be surrounded by People who Betray us.  If we don’t Love Ourself then the Love that comes to us from Others will be Conditional.

As Seth said a long time ago (Jane Roberts, The Nature of Personal Reality), our Karma is right there in front of our face as our Personal History.  Chronic Disappointments and Difficulties in our Personal History are red flags for Self-Sabotaging Beliefs; we just need to look in the Mirror and PIAVA to Become Fully Responsive about Examining any shortage of Survival Value in our Self-Sabotaging Beliefs about “Reality.”

Let’s take Trust of People (our Abandonment) as an example.  Lord Knows it’s easy enough to find People who will Betray us!  The question is, Why do we Choose to make ourself Vulnerable to them, Why don’t we Intuit that they’re Unreliable, and Why don’t we Trust our Intuition till we’ve been Betrayed.  Once we Realize that Trust is a Self-Sabotaging Issue in our Life, we could start our Becoming-Conscious process by PIAVAing something like “Great Spirit, Please Lovingly and Gently give me Immediate and Complete Clarity around my Intuitions about People who will Betray me, and about People who won’t Betray me, and Please Help me to Act upon those Intuitions to Avoid Betrayal.”

Once we get past Varuna’s Station and into Hylonome’s and eventually Saturn’s, it gets trickier.  Both of these Stations Light Up a Challenge to Master (T-Square) Boundaries (Pallas) that will Allow us to Avoid Oaths (Orcus) that will Expose us to Abuse or Privilege (Nessus)

Since the World we Witness is a Mirror for our Personal Relationship to the Unconscious (“As Without So Within” as they say), Oaths that would Grant us Privilege and therefore Abuse Others, are really the same as Oaths that would Expose us to Abuse. 

If he’s lucky, Tony Robbins might pick that up, after his story about “Powerful” and “Important” men.  Tony has done great work with many people, but in spite of the way he names his seminars, he Teaches Hypercompetitive Power-Over, not Collaborative Power-With (see Starhawk’s Truth or Dare for comparisons).  If he accepts the Opportunity that Nanine McCool has offered him, more Power-With to him.  It’ll take a whole lot of Self-Examination, and so far he’s Expressed no Respect at all for Ms McCool.  His apologies sound as self-serving as The Zuck’s.

Hylonome itself is about Choosing to Let Go of Codependence.  Or not, as was Hylonome’s own Choice, to Kill herself with the lance that Killed her Lover.  Since we Strive toward Consciousness, we can Choose whatever we want, or at least fake it till we make it.  We don’t have to follow the mythical Hylonome’s example, we can instead read her Story as an example of a Mirror for our Personal History.  While Codependence is commonly applied to a Relationship with another person, it applies just as well to our Relationships with our Archetypes.  We Delegate to the Other our own Power to Respond . 

While the Hylonome and Saturn Stations Light Up a Challenge to Master Boundaries that will Allow us to Avert Oaths that will Expose us to Abuse or Privilege, their charts are also a very tight-knit Healing of same, involving the Stations (The Most Important Thing is Becoming Conscious of our Codependence), Ego Death (Nemesis), our Held Emotions (South Node), and Sustaining our Mission (Ceres-North Node).  We’ll say more about all this in the next post.

Karma Station II

April 9, 2018

Well, as we said (more or less) at the end of the previous post, at the Karma Station, Rebirth (Haumea) was flying high and pointing Heavenward at the top of a Kite while Challenged (T-Squared) by the Dilemma (Opposition) of How Much Truth (Aletheia) can we stand to Integrate into our New Beginning (Klotho), while Grounded (the tail of the Kite) by Revelation of our Soul’s Purpose (Eris-Uranus).  Resolution of the Challenge is much aided (Diamond Star) by Cooperation (Sextile) between Fear (Sedna) and Self-Love (Sappho).

In the chart Haumea doesn’t look like it’s soaring much; it’s in the lower left.  The orientation of the chart is determined by the time zone and time of day.  On the Left Coast of North America, Haumea was overhead at 11:30pm PDT on 7 April, while the chart is for the moment of Karma’s Station at 6pm.  We focus on Energy, as embodied by the Angles and Configurations.  In this regard, Energy is Exalting Haumea, no matter where She is in the circle.

That’s an interesting concept, Fear Cooperating with Self-Love to midwife a Rebirth of our Soul’s Purpose into the Ego.  In fact, Fear Cooperating with Self-Love by itself is an interesting concept.  Remember though that it’s not any part of the Cosmos that’s Negative or Positive, it’s our Perception that can make that part seem one or the other.  And of course the Dualistic mind dearly Loves to Separate, Evaluate, and Pronounce, whereas in Real Life it’s just It Is As It Is, the Judgments are our own, almost always having to do with our Held Emotions.  We’ve been Learning lately how Fear is just Power, and a lot of it – as our Kegels have been demonstrating, eh? 

Let’s look at that Grounding Chord, Uranus-Eris.  This is a new Cycle that lasts almost a century.  The Initiation was 8 June 2016 (around 10pm PDT) at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia: Openness to the influx of spiritual energies.”  With less than five Degrees of Separation, this Cycle is just beginning to burrow Underground.  It won’t emerge into mainstream Culture until 2039 (the Waxing Square), another two decades.

This illustrates one of the most important elements of Self-Sovereignty.  If we’re mirroring our Culture or copying our betters instead of following our Heart, we’ll be deep in Denial about the ongoing Influx of Spiritual Energies.  Like the sign on the wall where I used to work, “If you’re not part of the Solution, you’re part of the Problem.”  This first quarter of a Cycle is where Foundations are built – by those who Respect the Energy whether Weasel News promotes it or not. 

Which takes us back to the first chart in the previous post, the 15-19 Degree chart.  The Initiation of the Moon by Lilith occurred two hours after the Karma Station, only a Degree and a half from being exactly one Sign away.  Moon Cycles only last a month, but they’re very much In-Your-Face, as any woman can aver.  The Cycle was born at 17 Capricorn, “A repressed woman finds a psychological release in nudism: The escape from bondage to social inhibitions and a reliance upon the wisdom of the body.”  This symbol is about the Degree, not the Moon or Lilith – the reiteration of theme is as serendipitous as it is remarkable.

This foretells a major Letting Go of Unconscious Codependent Patterns over the next month, perhaps at the price of having to confront Held Emotions.  Held, or Forbidden, Emotions are those which guard the sanctity of our Karma.  They’re almost always Unconscious, since unless we’re one of those people who’s fond of saying “I’m not one of those people who…” then we repeat those Patterns without even noticing that we’re doing it; it’s just the Way the World Is to us.

The Angle between Karma and the Initiation, an Unx (one Sign – “Unx” means one twelfth), tells us that we’re peering into the doorway to the Unconscious.  As such, our most Powerful tool is probably PIAVA (Prayer, Intention, Asking, Vizualising, Affirming, plus several extensions – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).  When we’re dealing with the Unconscious, Dynamic or Masculine methods of Creativity just create the sort of messes Shakespeare and Homer loved to write about.  We need Magnetic or Feminine methods.

The Unconscious is in many many ways a Wild Animal, and we don’t tame a Wild Animal with a leghold trap.  We patiently Offer Her Food at a neutral location, and sit patiently quite a distance away, with our gaze perpendicular to the Critter, keeping our Expectations low.   Every several days we try moving a half-inch closer, while watching out of our corner-eye to see if our Intended is nervous.  If She is, we back off a little the next day. 

She knows we’re there, and our presence is a counterpoint to our Gift, a condition so to speak.  She knows that this is a Negotiation, and that She has the upper hand.  She makes these kinds of Negotiations every day, for Survival, with other Critters big and small, and She’s an Expert at the Art of the Deal.  So we follow the PIAVA recipe – Ask (Offer), Change the Subject (at least pretend to look the other way), and Pay Attention (did She accept my moving closer?).  Maybe something like…

“I Wonder What I might do to Prepare myself for meeting my Karma head-on.”

Or, using the more audacious Command version (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/) because it has the advantage of instant feedback, so we can work in many iterations in a short amount of time…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I meet my Held Emotions Bravely, Lovingly, and Gently.  It Is Done, It is Done, It is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  …(deep Breath)…  Show me.”

The other end of the Opposition to the Stationary asteroid Karma is Asbolus – the sort of Intuition that leads us to Experiences which Create Wisdom.  That’s actually Perfect for dealing with Held Emotions, but remember that our Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  And, being Conscious, we have Choice.  So we can Choose to Encounter Wisdom Bravely, Lovingly, and Gently, even if – or especially if – we don’t know yet what it is we’re about to Encounter.

Using Theta Commands will give us clues so we can be better Prepared, though when we’re dealing with the Unconscious we always need to Expect Surprises.  Having our Surprises served with sides of Love and Gentleness, and Bravery, will be a boon.  When Theta gives us clues that trigger Emotion (as is likely in this case), don’t forget Tapping and Kegels, and of course Breathing. 

The Sabian Symbol suggests that Shame may be involved, as that’s a frequent Reaction to Nudity.  Shame is one of the most Difficult Emotions, if not the most Difficult Emotion, to stay Present for.  It’s highly skilled at totally overwhelming the Present Moment and the Ego.  We can be Hypnotized just by hearing the name that our Shamers called us.  It would probably behoove to Meditate on every recollection we have of Shame, and maybe include…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Bravely, Lovingly, and Gently stay Present, Grounded, and Strong when Shame threatens to Arise, and even more so when it actually does Arise.  It Is Done, It is Done, It is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  …(deep Breath)…  Show me.”

Practice it, so you Recognize it instantly and Respond Lovingly to your Self and to the Stress in your Body.  It’s your Karma, it’s not something you haven’t Experienced before.  And you know in advance, if you remember, that this is a Flushback, not a re-enactment.  Karma is a movie.  You’re either in the audience, or sucked into the screen.  Let the Emotions wash over you, but stay in the audience this time, K?  The more you Practice, the Easier it gets.

New Province

April 2, 2018

We’re in a new Time Province.  There are still Flushbacks, for sure, but they’re different now, not as Grasping.  Saturn is Initiating Mars (2 April 9am PDT) as I write this; I’ll quote from the recent Survival post…

“The Saturn-Mars Initiation occurs on 2 April (9am PDT) at 9 Capricorn, “An Angel carrying a harp.”   This begins a two-year Cycle where this Angel will facilitate our Actions when our Actions Align with Being Responsive to our Survival and to the Survival of our Unique Genius.

And yesterday (1 April 6pm PST) our Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) joined the crowd in Capricorn.  The Mutable Signs (Sagittarius, Pisces, Gemini, Virgo) are about Change, which is often quite uncomfortable.  The Cardinal Signs (Capricorn, Aries, Cancer, Libra) are about Creating, which is usually more Fun. 

While the popular press lists Athleticism as one of Sagittarius’s main features, Sadge is really Spiritual Fire – Burning Away what is no longer necessary or optimal.  Exercise is the only way you get your Lymph moved, so its an important factor in Immunity.  Since Exercise can also mute Emotions, it can be Addictive to someone trying to Avoid them.  There is a correlation between Huper Males specializing in Physical Labor, and their dysfunction with Emotion, or as Dubya might have said, “to not even have one.”

The other big public keyword for Sagittarius is Travel, which has many implications for Letting Go of the Unnecessary, starting with Excess Baggage of all sorts.  Travel can easily raise Emotions and raise Opportunities for Letting them Go, teasing Held Emotions for instance.  While not as Emotionally Intense or Sticky as Pisces, which specializes in Waterboarding, all of the Mutable Signs are still hard work, whether you’re Letting Go or Avoiding.

Dwarf planet Ixion and asteroids Karma and Hopi are still in Sagittarius, and Jupiter will arrive in November to do a thorough Spring Cleaning.  The Flushbacks we’re feeling today are the early warning signs of the 7 April (6pm PST) Station of Karma, a Challenge to Let Go of all Obsolete Habit Patterns, especially those that are Self-Sabotaging.  It’s Heavied Up by sitting on the “Great Attractor,” an unknown Cosmic Entity at the Ides of Sagittarius that is pulling our region of the Universe toward itself hungrily.

Asteroid Karma has been crossing the first half of Sagittarius since mid-January, and will back over it until late July, then recross it till early October.  The first half of Sagittarius is about Letting Go of Other, Flushbacks of all the unsatisfying Scorpio Experiences we’ve had with Other People…

https://undeniablysara.com/2018/04/02/the-tangled-mind/

While I don’t expect the rest of April to be as Heavy as the last half of March, lots of things get Lit Up nonetheless…

  • 1-7 April (till 6pm PDT), Karma (asteroid Karma Stationary Retrograde, 16 Sagittarius).  Remember, Karma is dead; any old Difficulties that arise are Opportunities to Banish the Hassle Forever.  The only thing you really need is to be in the Present Moment.  Maybe pinching yourself will help.  When Karma is Lit Up there are two Realities – the Sticky one you’re in, and the Present Moment.  Ask someone what year it is.  How Old would you be in that year, and How Old do you Feel?  Just Step Into the Current Year.
  • 4-11 April (till 8pm PDT), The Life Force (Varuna Stationary Direct, 30 Cancer)
  • 6-13 April (till 9am PDT), Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome Stationary Retrograde, 12 Capricorn)
  • 7-14 April (till 7pm PDT), Truth (Veritas Stationary Direct, 25 Leo). 
  • 12-15 April (till 2am PDT), Communication (Mercury Stationary Direct, 5 Aries).  These are going to be almost impossible to Separate; basically, we’ll be Rediscovering our Life Force by Communicating the Truth about our Self-Sovereignty.  Or Not, and likely ruing it.  To a large extent this will be Realizing-that-The-Most-Important-Thing (Saturn; see below) is Communicating the Truth about our Self-Sovereignty.
  • 17 April (1am PDT), Pain Eases (Chiron moves into Aries).  This should be quite a Relief, as the Dilemmas we face for the next Decade will be more about How-to-Create than How-to-Endure-Painful-Emotions“You Poor Sweetheart, you don’t know How to do this, do you.  What if we could Make it Up as we go?”
  • 10-17 April (till 7pm PDT), Priorities (Saturn Stationary Retrograde, 10 Capricorn).  Saturn does not mean Limitation and Deprivation; it means Focus and Concentration.  It can feel like Limitation if you’re Focused on what you’re Giving Up (or Not) rather than what’s The Most Important Thing in this Moment.  Realize that your Giving Up is only Temporary, till Saturn is done.  Our Trance Reformation (Pluto, see below) will make it feel Heavier than it is.
  • 15-22 April (till 8:30 am PDT), Trance Reformation (Pluto Stationary Retrograde, 22 Capricorn)
  • 16-23 April (till 6am PDT), Self-Confidence (Chariklo Stationary Retrograde, 20 Capricorn).  We won’t be able to Distinguish these two from one another, especially since they occur in almost the same Degree.  The trick is to be Confident that the Unknown Timeline you’re adopting is Better than the Known Timeline you’re Surrendering.  The sooner you Surrender, the Easier it will be.  Pluto Stations can feel like Swimming in Jello.
  • 28 April (till 12am PDT), Emotional Processing Eases (Juno moves into Aries).  Our Challenges around Growth of Consciousness for the next two months will be more about Allowing Exciting New Vistas than about Letting Go of Attachment to Dreary Old Ones.

Unfortunately, we don’t get much of a break from the Pressure till late in the month.  But while it’s Busy, it should be Easier than the last few weeks have been…

 http://danielscranton.com/the-next-5-10-years-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“It is the perfect time for all of you to consider how you would like to be moving forward in this next phase of your evolution.  You are getting to decide how you move forward, in spite of what you might be told from others, others who make it seem as though the next five to ten years are set in stone for all of you.  Nothing could be further from the truth.

“You are the pioneers here.  You are the creators and co-creators, and it is your time to be the deciders, the ones who actualize your own evolution.  You can, of course, just wait and see what happens.  You can look for new predictions to tell you what’s going to happen next, or you can take the wheel and decide for yourselves what it’s going to take for you as individuals to evolve.

“Do you need drama and trauma in your life to be inspired, to feel your emotions?  Do you need hardship in order to create?  Do you need to see evidence of the rest of humanity lagging behind in order to do something about the evolution of your consciousness?  When we talk about the evolution of your consciousness, we want you to know that it is something that happens automatically, but it is also something that you can facilitate.

“You can put your foot on the gas pedal and bring yourselves to a heightened sense of awareness.  You can choose to love more, to meditate more, to connect more with nature and Mother Earth.  You can reach out to other aspects of yourself.  You can reach out to higher dimensional beings.  You can be an active participant in the evolution of your consciousness, and you can steer the rest of humanity in that direction as well.

“You don’t have to sit around and wait for something to happen.  You don’t even have to wait for some grand, inspired idea.  Just stop what you’re doing from time to time and check in with how you’re feeling, how you’re vibrating.  Do some conscious breathing.  Meditate if you have to.  But just be sure you’re taking care of the evolution of your consciousness.”