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Sedna and Fear

November 12, 2018

Sedna is the first Sednoid.  The Discovery of Sedna required a whole new class of minor planets.  Plutoids are dwarf planets that are similar to Pluto in scale, distance, and orbit.  Sedna is an order of magnitude further away than Pluto, having an orbit 45 times as long as Pluto’s.  They’re so distant that we can count on one hand the number of Sednoids discovered so far.

We’ve been interpreting Sedna as Fear because Action Committed under the Influence of Terror is the predominant Energy in the Sedna myth.  The dawn of television brought us Mutual of Omaha’s Wild Kingdom, belaboring how Nature was “red in tooth and claw.”  If you remember black and white TV you probably remember Marlin Perkins…

Young and impressionable, we didn’t make the connection until decades later between Insurance and Fear.  Other voices have since demonstrated how Nature is more accurately characterized as remarkably Collaborative and Synergistic.  Mutual of Omaha hasn’t been the only agent that Feeds on our Fear.  Politicians and color TV have since elevated Fear to a high art.  It’s a central pillar of the Healing Crisis that is the creeping Fascism that’s been trying to spread like a dark shadow across our Home Planet. 

A look at Sedna’s Discovery chart makes it obvious that its Emergence into Huper Consciousness, like Wild Kingdom ultimately was, is about Becoming Aware of our Unconscious Fear.  Here’s the chart…

Sedna sits on the North Node, meaning that Sedna’s Emergence into our Consciousness Serves our Mission directly. 

Sedna is one member of a Grand Sextile, the most favorable of all astrological Configurations, which avers that Grace will follow all of our Self-Initiated Actions.  We gain Leverage by Noticing when we’re Feeling Fear so we can Act Consciously rather than Habitually.  We Convert Fear to Power by doing Kegels, because Kegels slow down Time, giving us Time to Consider our Actions.  Remembering to Breathe is always useful too.

The other five corners of the Grand Sextile are…

  • Moira … Awareness Allows Choice to Replace Fate; Moira is Stationary as we speak
  • Nessus-Veritas-Aletheia … Revelation of the Truth about Abuse and Privilege; Nessus is Exactly Stationary a week from now, so probably already Present in our Energy Field
  • Sun-South Node … Illumination of our Self-Sabotaging Habits
  • Jupiter-Lachesis-Makemake … Changing Timelines Consciously to Expand our Ability to Create What We Want
  • The Moon – Authenticity

The Grand Sextile means that these six Principles all reinforce one another positively.

The other major element is a Diamond Star or Self-Resolving Challenge, focused on Pluto-Sappho, which implies Transformation of the Nature of our Self-Love.  It’s a lot Easier to Love ourself when we can be Authentic, Call Out Abuse when we see it, Support ourself Unconditionally, Choose to Create What We Really Want, and Know that we’re in step with our Lifetime Mission.  What can possibly go wrong?

Well, we can Allow Unconscious Fear to creep into our Attitudes and Motivate our Actions without our Becoming Aware of it.  We would be shocked if we knew how much of our Lives are Motivated by Fear – everything that’s preceded by Judgment, for instance.  Actually, feeling like “something isn’t right” is a good Indicator here in the Age of Sedna, that we’re on the Cusp of Noticing a shard of Unconscious Fear that we haven’t yet Detected and Identified as Self-Sabotaging.

I was Feeling that way last week, and I didn’t know why.  Now I understand – I have a dozen deadlines in the last half of November, and until yesterday I wasn’t sure I could meet them all.  Yesterday I didn’t finish one of the bigger ones, but I finished enough that I’m now confident that finishing it will be just a matter of walking through several well-known steps, which I expect to have ample time for.  So I was Feeling Anxiety and not recognizing it.  Anxiety is Fear in a cheap suit.

I did, today, Tap Out Anxiety, before (not instead of!) reaching for a Walnut Shortbread Cookie (it was delicious), but that was only a prelude to my Realizing, just now, that Anxiety was the source of my Feeling a Disturbance in the Force last week.  So many things have been Climaxing lately, that it won’t Surprise me at all to see Anxiety finally becoming a Trigger for Consciousness instead of a Trigger for Soul-Devouring Thoughts. 

Sedna Stands Still during the first week of the coming February.  If we take every Opportunity to be Alert to any upwelling of Anxiety between now and then, we may be able to put a checkmark next to it on our Karmic To-Do List!  That would be a Life-Changer.

Half-Marathon

November 10, 2018

The next few weeks will be a bit like a half-marathon, as we run through three gauntlets and nine astroevents in rapid succession.

 

First up, on 11 November (1:30pm PST) Ceres moves into Scorpio until almost the end of January.  Ceres is about Sustainability, and Scorpio is about Getting To The Bottom of Things.  We’ve been trying to isolate Sustainable Relationships (Libra) since early September.  Now we just Want a Sustainably Lifestyle.  Well, the Easiest way to Achieve Sustainability is to think in terms of Sustenance. 

Sustenance – What Can We Do Without? – is the flip side of the Sustainability Coin.  You may be considering it already.  Turning off lights when you leave the room?  Thinking about how to get along without something instead of how to get it?  The payoff will Surprise you.  With Sign Changes, the Zeitgeist just Changes.  The more Sensitive you are to the planet and Signs, the sooner you’ll Notice it – if you’re looking, of course.

 

There are three Stations on 15-16 November, so those will keep us occupied till then.  Station Energy is most intense before the Exact Station, building as we approach the Station, then dropping off sharply.  Usually.  There are exceptions, and we need to talk about those.  Remind me.  And asteroid Karma enters Capricorn on the 16th (8pm PST).

Karma’s been in Sagittarius since the Ides of January.  Sagittarius of course is about Letting Go, so we’ve had a good run – haven’t we.  Remember how much more Limited your Life was last winter?  Karma even went Retrograde in Sagittarius, so it hung out there longer, just for us.  It only takes about ten weeks to cross Capricorn instead of ten months.  That’s just as well, because Capricorn, which stands for “Just Do It,” can get us in trouble when it comes to Karma.  Till the end of January, if it’s Habitual, we should “Just Do It For The Last Time.”  Ok?

The three 15-16 November Stations are…

  • Asteroid Moira on 15 November (4am PST).  Moira is about Choice.
  • Venus on 16 November (3am PST), which is about our Values.
  • Mercury on 16 November (5:30 pm PST) – Communication, Awareness, Mentality.

So we’re likely to Experience it as we might Experience a Moira-Venus-Mercury Initiation, meaning we’re becoming Aware that we have Choices around our own Values.  Our Betters make a big deal about Living Up To Our Values, but when you think about it, what they really want you to do is Live Up to Their Values.  You gain a lot of Self-Sovereignty when you see through that Farce.

This isn’t a real Initiation, but if it was, again depending on how Sensitive we are to it, the Energy would be very Strong on both sides of the Exact Intiation, but there would be a Shift in your Attitude.  Beforehand you’d be glib about it as if no one was watching you critically.  Then after the Exact Initiation you’d feel increasingly censured, till you took the Energy Underground.  Which is what you’ll probably do.  For a while.  Unless it’s your Mission.

We should Review Moira a bit.  Moira means Fate.  But Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we become Conscious, we Realize we don’t have to do that any more.  Fate + Consciousness = Choice.  So we Interpret Fate as Choice.  Astrology, at least the kind that we do, is about Growing our Consciousness.  So as astrologers we always Ask first and Ask last, “Are you Conscious of this?”  Right?  With an open mind. 

Sure, they teach traditional astrology as if it was as reliable as Engineering.  When I take a course in astrology and assume it’s a seminar, and start contributing the Insights I’ve Learned from astrology, I’m usually “corrected.”  But in Real Life we’re all Different, and you’ll never know when you’re going to meet someone who’s Different from anyone you or the astroelders ever met.  Especially when more of the Others come ashore.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equals.  That’s why we’re advised never to use Negation when we PIAVA, and that’s why we often get the Opposite of what we Asked for when we PIAVA (which is a sign of Success).  The Unconscious has Dimensions, but it’s not Dualistic; its Directions are Circular.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with PIAVA, it’s a bottom-line concept to bring into Consciousness for the current Eon – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

 

The Big Challenge arrives in earnest before 19-20 November.  We’ll Feel this one well before that, because it’s a Biggie, and the three days between the 16th and the 19th aren’t long enough for it to run its course.  So we’ll have to go back and modify the previous Interpretation later.

The Biggie is about Nessus and OR10. Nessus Stands Still on 19 November (7am PST), and OR10 does the same on 20 November (9pm PST).

We’ve done this before recently, many times, as the two were fellow travelers for several years.  They’re no longer fellow travelers (in the sense of being Merged), but when they have Stations together it Feels like they’re Merged again.  Nessus represents Abuse and Privilege, OR10 Invasive Memories.  So this is mostly about Recovering Abuse Memories.  Recovering is the good part, because it’s not possible to Let Them Go while they’re still Unconscious.

Now, while Nessus and OR10 were Merged, we Merged with these not-so-pleasant Memories, usually Feeling Shame or/and Rage in the process.  So we’re likely to Re-Experience that, and being Creatures of Habit (er, Karma, ie Inertia), we’ll be Expecting to Merge with them again.  But we won’t, unless we make that Unconscious Choice.  We don’t need to. 

We can make the Conscious Choice to Dislodge our Identity from them this time, because now the Energies themselves are no longer Merged.  As time goes on they’ll be less and less Merged, so start now or you’ll find yourself Out of Synch with the Universe later.  Whatever sort of Ascension, 5D, Enlightenment, Bliss, Collaboration, Community, Ease, or other kind of Grace you Want to characterize your Future, being Out of Synch with the Universe won’t help at all.

This is Subtle, so Pay Attention.  When someone Abuses us and we Remember, once we get past the Shame, we Want Revenge.  We’ll Forgive eventually (even though that Feels Impossible most of the time), but we Want some kind of Compensation for having Endured that.  It Ruined our Life after all.  But here’s the Secret – Revenge will be so much more Successful if you’re no longer Attached or Identified with your Rage.  Sure, Living Well is the Best Revenge, and that may be the Choice you make.  But even if you Decide that you do want Payback, you’ll be able to exact a finer torture if you’re Neutral.

Remember, Karma is Inertia, not Retribution.  It’s Force of Habit, continuing to Choose an old Habit because it’s the Easiest thing to do – Automatic, in fact.  That’s why we need Consciousness to Abandon our Karma, because we have to Notice it before we can Change it.  Hard to Notice what’s Automatic.  So we aren’t talking about accumulating “Bad Karma” for exacting Revenge.  We’re talking about Teaching someone a Lesson they won’t Forget. 

So what if they’re Old now; we take our Karma with us to Other Lifetimes, so they’ll continue to Abuse if they don’t Learn their Lesson.  They need to be able to Notice what it feels like to be Abused, and they need to Realize that Other People aren’t their Property to be used as toys.  Once you’ve Let Go of your Rage, you’ll be able to plan an exquisite curriculum for them.  Dull blades are Harder to Ignore.  As they say, Forgive the Person, not the Behavior.  But first you have to show them that the two are Different.  As long as they’re Unconscious, the Behavior is the Person.

Now, about Forgiveness.  Like any other sort of Consciousness, Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery.  One day we just Notice that we don’t hold ill will against them any more.  Yes, we can make a Choice to Forgive – it’s just a PIAVA, but that’s really a Choice to enter into the process of Forgiving.  It’s unlikely to take you to Forgiveness straightaway, unless you were ready anyway. 

We always need to “Be Careful What We Ask For,” or better yet, “Be Mindful of What We’ve Asked For,” so we can monitor and Interpret the Funhouse-Mirror events that PIAVAs can Create when we aren’t quite ready to Receive them.  Like getting sicker initially after we Ask for Healing – we Feel sicker, so we take more of the Toxins that were making us sick.  Or finding Abuse Memories arising after we Ask for Healing of our Abuse.  No, it don’t Feel good, but we have to get them into Consciousness in order to Change them.  If we aren’t Aware of the way Consciousness arrives, we can easily tie ourself in knots.

Now, how are we likely to Experience an OR10-Nessus-Moira-Venus-Mercury faux Initiation, because that’s probably what much of November 10-20 will Feel like?  Well, put all the terms in a sentence.  Invasive Memories, Abuse, Choice, Values, Awareness.  Maybe something like Becoming Aware that we have Choice around the Values that we Created for ourself as a result of early Abuse that we now Remember?  Or becoming Aware that we have Repressed Memories of Abuse, and Choosing to Alter our Values to make room for their Recovery?

 

The Full Moon on the Cusp of Gemini follows closely, on 22 November (9:30 pm PST), and Neptune Stands Still shortly after that, on 25 November (5pm PST) at the Midpoint of Pisces.  The Cusp of Gemini is the quintessential point of Letting Go.  Neptune is a Powerful planet, so we’re likely to begin to Feel some Neptune Energy before we’re done with our Big Challenge.  The most Important thing to Remember about Neptune is that it renders the Material World Confusing. 

It also adds Clarity to our view of the Spiritual World, but that Confusion is what we want to Pay Attention to here, because Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, and Growth is what we want.  But, we have to Avoid reacting to Confusion by trying to “Figure It Out.”  If we Intellectualize it, we will Restrict our Growth to Zero, because it’s our Intellectual Cage that Constrains our Limited World View and with it our Limited Reality. 

Confusion is one of the most Precious and Powerful Gifts we’ll ever be Given; don’t spoil it by Thinking it out of Existence.  Relish it.  Be Excited by it.  Breathe, do Kegels.  Don’t Tap Out your Confusion; Tap out your Need to Intellectualize your Confusion.

“Even though I’m really tempted to make up Stories that can Rescue me from Feeling Confused, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  We can’t Tolerate Confusion because it takes us back to when we weren’t Safe, when someone who was supposed to Love us was Abusing us, and it didn’t make sense, and we had to Figure Out how to Escape.  It was a matter of Life and Death.

Like Curiosity, one of our highest Priorities should be Allowing Confusion to be an Emotion that Stands on its own.  A Real Emotion doesn’t have a direct or indirect Object.  It’s “I Feel Angry,” not “I Feel Angry about…” or “-at.”  Feelings are Intransitive, if you know your grammar rules.  The modifiers we so often put on our Feeling-words take them out of the realm of Emotion and put them in the realm of Thought.  The “-about” and “-at” and other Object-like additions are Thoughts, not Feelings.

In Truth, because we’re so seldom in the Present Moment, and because we aren’t Omniscient, we never actually know the Sources of our Emotions.  We Feel Angry.  Period.  We don’t know Why.  We can know what Triggered our Anger, maybe, if we’re Aware of what transpired just before we Felt it.  But even that just tells us what the Trigger was, not the Cause.  We might be Angry because an Unconscious Abuse Memory was just Triggered, and maybe the actual Triggering was a brown coat. 

Sure, we can make up Stories about the person who was wearing the brown coat, to Imagine that they were doing all manner of awful things to us, because our Unconscious Memory is about all manner of awful things.  But they’re Innocent.  Even the Antichrist is Innocent.  We have no idea who in our Personal or Cultural or Karmic History he reminds us of.  Pontius Pilate perhaps, or Brad the Impaler, or Adolf Hitler.  For many of us, those Concentration Camps and Death Chambers are a very recent Memory, even in Linear Time.

I was born nine months to the day after the Firebombing of Hamburg.  I didn’t even know Hamburg was Firebombed until I looked up when Dresden was Firebombed because I was wondering why my teachers always said that my German accent sounded so authentic and because I used to paint pictures of cities on fire and because I used to have so many Memories and Experiences of No Way Out.  And then there was the Firebombing of Tokyo – look that one up.  Not to mention Vietnam. 

See, what’d I tell you, Abuse Memories already.

Ends and Means IV

November 6, 2018

In her Cosmic News, Kelley Hunter also contributes valuable Insights on the New Moon and especially on the 16 November (when the Mean Nodes catch up and reach Cancer) Venus Station.  Find Kelley’s Wisdom at…

https://www.mynewsletterbuilder.com/email/newsletter/1413709324

Her Insight suggests that, if the results of voting in the US are delayed, the news will favor “that which nurtures and protects Life.”  Of course a Racist or Nationalist would claim they are doing just that, and in a narrow sense they are, but it would be rooted in Fear, and when we Manifest from Fear, Fear is what we Manifest.  Fear doesn’t “nurture and protect Life” except in a very superficial and temporary way.

We need to stay Mindful of a fundamental astrological “fact” – the 21st Century was born under a Pluto-Chiron Initiation at 12 Sagittarius, “A flag turning into an Eagle, the Eagle turning into a Chanticleer saluting the Dawn.” 

The flag represents folks who Identify with their Nationality, Ethnicity, or Race more than they Identify with their Individuality or their Huperity or their Soul or their Species or their Planet.  They’re being replaced in this Century by far-seeing Eagle, Who sees the World through a larger Perspective.  Eagle is subsequently replaced as the logo of the Century by the Dawn, Enlightenment. 

The 18th Century “Age of Enlightenment” is also, and more appropriately, called the Age of Reason, and most of the Death Drive on the Planet today results from too much Reason.  The 21st Century Enlightenment is not about Reason, but about Ascension, or Merging and Collaborating with the Natural Flow of Co-Creation and Empathy with All of Mother Gaia’s Children – Animal, Vegetable, and Mineral, whether bigger or smaller than a breadbox.  Saint Francis of Assisi rather than Saint Augustine of Hippo.

We also discovered something interesting when we noticed our indirect reference to The Tower in the previous post, and investigated the 16th Harmonic (a “Semi-Octile” or 22½ Degrees).  The Tower represents “the principle of Restoration, renovation, and de-structuring of old forms” (Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook, p.82). 

The purple lines already drawn on the Cuspal chart in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/11/05/ends-and-means-ii/ Illuminate an Exact Septile Yod to the North Node from Mars and Saturn.  A Septile Yod occurs when two planets are both Triseptile (154½ Degrees) to a third planet, and Asks us to Pay Attention to Timing.  In 5D, when we’re In the Flow, Timing is Everything.  (We won’t notice it, because we’ll be in the Flow, but while we’re still in 3D it behooves us to Pay Attention to Timing, as practice for 5D.) And the Mars-Saturn Cycle says that The Most Important Thing is Action.

This Waxing Mars-Saturn Septile tells us that Action at this point in Linear Time will be very Powerful and Germinal.  The results may not be immediately obvious – as Energies usually do, they may wait for the Waxing Square before they reveal themselves fully.  This Mars-Saturn Cycle was Initiated last April at 9 Capricorn, “An Angel Carrying a Harp” – we’re beginning to see what Dan Scranton’s Channel meant when they said that Adeptness “comes when you are so certain that what you desire is on its way to you that you bask in the present moment and in whatever energy that you do have access to.”

So even if the results of the current election allows the Corporate-owned Media to continue to fuel itself on Fear, the cohort of Women entering Politics in the US here will bear Fruit at the Mars-Saturn Square – which happens just as they’re being sworn in, in January 2019.

The South Node in the New Moon chart is Exactly at the Midpoint between Saturn and Mars, 24½ Degrees from each.  24½ Degrees is actually closer to the 15th Harmonic than the 16th.  The 15th Harmonic (24 Degrees) or The Devil represents Levity toward that which ” ‘bedevils’ us” (Arrien, p.78).  As we pointed out earlier, we couldn’t find a more perfect Metaphor for the South Node.

So what about the New Moon itself?  Anything near the 16th Harmonic from it?  It turns out to be near the Midpoint between Venus and Mercury, which both happen to be Standing Still when the Mean Node retrogrades into Cancer at the Ides of November and also begins to help promote “that which nurtures and protects life.”  Mercury forms a Waxing Novile to Venus, which advises that Meditation and Prayer is a most Powerful Action this month.

The Mercury-Venus Cycle is about Becoming and Being Aware of our own Values.  The current one began in early March at 28 Pisces, “A fertile Garden under the Full Moon reveals a variety of full-grown Vegetables.”  That, and all of its Implications of Abundance and Well-Being, is our Image to PIAVA in our Meditations – the Arcturians remind us that “if we Want to Receive something that we’ve been Asking for,” we’ll probably have to access it Energetically before we can access it Physically.

The Venus-Mercury Initiation was also in the same Degree as Chiron, which puts us in a position where we can Choose between Despair and Miracles about our Connection to our Values – or about our Values themselves if they’re Obsolete.  Choose Miracles by Poor-Sweethearting yourself whenever you aren’t “so certain that what you desire is on its way to you that you bask in the present moment and in the energy that you do have access to.”

Since the position of the New Moon is refracted by its Conjunction with asteroid Eurydike (Trust), the Venus-Mercury Midpoint is less than 2 Degrees from the New Moon, making 17th-Harmonic Angles between the Moon and each planet. 

The 17th Harmonic is represented by The Star, which signifies Self-Sovereignty (Arrien p.85).  With Self-Sovereignty, we don’t really care what seeps out of the election; we just Manifest the Reality we Want to Live in, by Becoming and Being Authentic, and being Neutral to any Patriarchal or other Resistance we meet while we Persist in working around and beyond it.

Self-Doubt 5

October 24, 2018

When we Deny something it’s often because we don’t like it, and often it’s something about ourself on one level or another.  Denial is Repression by another name, or Banishment into the Unconscious.  Unfortunately, the Unconscious has more Power over us than our Consciousness or Ego.  So Denial always comes with a cost, and almost always a cost that we become Victim to, Projecting it onto Others or onto “Fate.”  We eliminate these Self-Sabotages by bringing them into Consciousness.

Which isn’t always Easy, but at times the Astrology gives us a hand – or an ultimatum.  That usually involves dwarf planet Eris.  We spoke about Eris’s involvement in the 26 October Sappho-Station chart in Self-Doubt 3, at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/10/21/self-doubt-3/.  Given the critical role of Denial in Self-Love, we believe that the Eris-Haumea Yin Gate, that we described therein, is the most important part of the Sappho-Station chart.

However, Sappho herself wan’t involved in that Yin Gate.  So, what of Sappho herself while she’s Front and Center?  She’s no shrinking Violet here.  First and foremost, she is Merged with (Conjoins) dwarf planet Chaos, which we’ll abbreviate “dp Chaos” here in order to make it clear when we’re referring to the actual planet.  Dp Chaos doesn’t symbolize Disorder.  “Chaos” was the condition of Reality that the Greek Gods found and brought Order to.  In fact though, much of Greek Mythology is about murdering the previous, or Matriarchal, Order.  So we could Easily equate dp Chaos with the Demise of the Patriarchy.

We give the Greeks some backhanded credit, though, by focusing on their notion of Disorder, and considering dp Chaos to symbolize Unlimited Potential.  What to any given agenda is Disorder, is actually not only Order of another Dimension, but also the Potential for Unlimited Change, since we have no shortage of Dimensions.

Of course a given Huper Lifetime has Potential somewhat Limited by its Soul’s Mission.  But if you consider our many Detours on this path toward our Mission, Variation is more prominent than Limitation.  And, when we become Aware of the Parallel Lives of our Soul, our Variation becomes almost Infinite, if not truly so.  Then add the fact that We Are All One, and you multiply our Potential Diversity by an additionally infinite number of infinities.  And we haven’t even considered non-Huper Entities.  Thus, Unlimited Potential.

So, when you think about asteroid Sappho, symbol of Self-Love, Standing Still only a Degree from dp Chaos, symbol of Unlimited Potential, I would hope you will find yourself among the Stars.  Back in the Olde Days we would have called it “mind-blowing,” as the birdcage of our everyday Ego and Conceptual Matrix and Emotional Limits Exploded into Cosmic confetti. 

Watch for this.  Don’t turn away from it in Fear or Horror.  It may be subtle, or it may Feel like a sword to the belly, like it may have been for some Wall Street traders today.  Remember that the Duality of Self-Love is Self-Doubt, so when Self-Doubt arises, know that its purely a graphic illustration of a corner of your Life where you’re not in Self-Love, a corner that needs correcting ASAP.  Without Self-Love, you’re condemned to repeat the soap opera without end.

Here’s the chart…

You can see that Self-Love and Unlimited Potential are Challenged (T-Square) by Truth (Aletheia) and Suffering/Miracles (Chiron).  What’s the lever that converts Suffering to Miracles?  Self-Empathy, a particularly precious form of Self-Love.  The Challenge is to Remember Self-Empathy every time we encounter Suffering.

And you can see that it’s Opposed by our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) and our Willingness to Respond to Support it (dwarf planet Pholus).  Rudhyar’s advice that “When we don’t follow our nature there is a hole in the universe where we were supposed to be” points directly at our Forbidden Genius – the places where our Programmers shut us down. 

No Blame (except in the beginning when you’re Letting Go of your pent-up Anger about it), your Soul hired them to give you something to push against so you wouldn’t blow the Lifetime posting selfies on your Facebook page.  Do we know who our Forbidden Genius is?  Notice that Eris and Haumea are both Pathfinders (Trine Bridges) for Sappho-Chaos Opposing Ixion-Pholus.  In other words, it would be a fine time to stumble into a Rebirth of your Forbidden Genius through Reclaiming what’s been Denied.

Of course since Denial is all about the Unconscious, and the Unconscious, since it’s Unconscious, isn’t accessible to us through everyday Actions.  We might be able to Notice parts of it by analyzing everyday Actions, but that a very slow way to get Conscious. So we PIAVA.  I’m guessing that most of us actually know our Forbidden Genius, we just don’t know how to Integrate it into the rest of our Lives.

When we put all these elements together, we might come up with something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that my Forbidden Genius be Reborn into Polite Company and that the Resulting Integration Convert Suffering to Miracles and Open Up Unexpected Vistas of Opportunity and Ease for me.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you God/Goddess! … Show Me.”

Oh.  Did I mention Daniel Scranton’s recent Channeling from the Arcturians? …

We are putting forth an invitation to anyone and everyone who wants to experience the up-leveling of your vibration.  We are offering this service because we know that there is nothing better for you than to put out a higher frequency of vibration, and we love so much to give to all of you in whatever way that we can.  In order to receive our up-leveling, all you need to do is state your intention to receive it as you are drifting off to sleep.

“The delivery system will be through a meeting that will take place in the astral realm.  That is where you are able to meet ninth dimensional beings at this time.  And so we are happy to meet up with you and to provide you with this service.  Now, you are going to experience some changes once you receive this vibrational upgrade.  You are going to heal more quickly.  You will receive more inspired ideas.  You will feel more joy, and love will flow easily to you and through you.

“We have seen the results of these vibrational upgrades in those who have accepted them from us in the past, and we are very pleased with how you all shift your vibrations so easily when you are open to receive.  We also want you to recognize that we are really just the facilitators here.  You are the ones who will accept our invitation, and you are the ones who will meet us in the astral plane so that you can receive what was always yours for the taking.

“A higher vibration is your birthright, and as many factors as there are on your world that keep your vibrations in the lower frequency range, there are as many of us in the higher realms looking to support you in holding a higher vibration.  We always have and we always will.”

Self-Doubt 3

October 21, 2018

Here’s the picture of the Sappho-Station chart that stars Eris…

We’re actually getting a little ahead of ourself, as we haven’t discussed the role of Sappho in Her own Station chart yet, but this is important too.  The Configuration is called a Yin Gate.  You won’t find much information about the Yin Gate in the astrological literature, because I made it up.  But you can read all about it at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/12/02/the-yin-gate-and-piavas/.  In a nutshell, a Yin Gate is a Mystery School, where we’re forced to Accept Paradox as primary.  In order to do that, we need to reject Dualism and Contradiction, ie, get out of the mindbone.

These days, because there are so many charts and so little time, I usually just read the central axis, which is, after all, what distinguishes a Yin Gate from an “ordinary” Golden Rectangle.  But feel free to read the four Quincunxes (long green lines) yourself – the link above tells how, as they’re always instructive…

  • Fear/Power (Sedna) and Rebirth (Haumea)
  • Denial (Eris) and Expansion (Jupiter)
  • Truth (Aletheia) and Denial (Eris)
  • Rebirth (Haumea) and Despair/Miracles (Chiron)

And you can read the two diagonal Oppositions (long red lines) that Describe the Golden Rectangle itself…

  • Fear (Sedna) and Expansion (Jupiter) – what’s Mysterious about Expanding into Fear?
  • Truth (Aletheia) and Despair/Miracles (Chiron) – which is actually closer to Truth, the Despair or the Miracle?

The central axis here is Eris Opposite Haumea.  To the Left Brain this represents a Contradiction between Denial and Rebirth.  That might suggest to us that by Opening Up To What We’ve Been Denying, we can be Reborn.  That’s common in religions, where Opening Up to the Denial that the Great Spirit (usually in one of Her Fraudulent Disguises) is In Charge Allows us to be Born Again. 

And that’s Great, because Denial of a Higher Power is one of the worst Self-Sabotages we can Perpetrate – it’s exactly how Science is Destroying the Planet.  Of course the religions, with their Fake-News Godheads, are doing Gaia no favors either.  Both tend to be Fundamentalist, which means that they take their Metaphors Literally – they Believe their own Propaganda.  And that’s exactly how they Sabotage themselves, because they aren’t Open to the Multidimensionality of Real Life.  Their strategies work until they don’t.

The crux is that we can’t Open Up To What We’ve Been Denying, because it’s in the Unconscious, which by definition is not accessible to our Consciousness.  By Dynamic or Plan-Execute means.  But that’s exactly what PIAVA does, it Allows the Ego and the Unconscious to Communicate and Co-Create Constructively.

So in a Yin Gate, an Eris-Haumea Opposition suggests that we need to Open Up to the Paradoxes about how Denial and Rebirth Interact.  What are those?  Well, they’re Unknowable, because in a Yin Gate they cross the Conscious-Unconscious Barrier.  So we have to PIAVA – Pray or Intend or Ask or Visualize or Affirm (or Command or Feel Into or Go Meta or…) that these Paradoxes be Revealed to us – and that we don’t instantly murder them by stuffing them into the closed box of Understanding.

Another Molt IV

October 18, 2018

And the week wasn’t just about Ego Death, it was also about Transcendence, as asteroid BZ509 was also Stationary, on 17 October.  Pairing their Stations in time is like having BZ509 Initiate a new Cycle with Nemesis – we have to read them as if they were Merged.  BZ509 is a recently-discovered asteroid with a somewhat Jupiter-like orbit, which would give it some of the Power of Jupiter.  But its orbit is Backward relative to most everyone else.  It symbolizes Transcendence.

Here’s the chart of its Station…

A lot more going on here than in the Nemesis-Station chart.  Just for starters, we notice that the BZ509 Station is Merged with (Conjoins) both our friend Saturn, whom we’ve just discussed, and dwarf planet Hylonome.  Hylonome is about Stepping Out of Relationships where we’ve been Merged with Other.

Of course that only applies to college freshpersons without dependencies and other complications.  Real Life is a lot more complicated.  But the “Leaving” isn’t really about Physical Separation, it’s about Egoic Separation, about becoming your own person, directed by your own Mission, and not someone else’s.  When we Change, the World Changes to reflect our Change.  Many of the repercussions we Fear don’t actually evolve, and/or they’re Compensated by other Changes we didn’t foresee.

So in this case I was probably Merged with Rebellion, possibly as an Unconscious (and probably Karmic, given the Nemesis-Station chart) Reaction to having been Judged all my Life for “Lacking” Discipline.  Everybody’s got a Saturn, so nobody Lacks Discipline – we just don’t understand how their Protocols differ from ours.

So to complete my homework I need to spend some time Wondering how Rebellion and Self-Sabotage have complemented one another in my Karmic history.  If I don’t do that, I’ll likely be less Conscious the next time Saturn and Mars are in a Challenging Angle to one another. 

A seldom-mentioned subtext of PIAVA is Expansion.  Like that old Meditation where you become as big as your house, then your yard, etc etc till you’re as big as the Galaxy.  Or the one where you Ascend to larger and larger Geophysical Perspectives.  These are good ways to Explore your Karmic history, while Remembering that All There Is Is Now.

Mars is Waxing Novile to Saturn these days.  The Novile is about Meditation.  The current Mars-Saturn Cycle Initiated early April of this year in 9 Capricorn, “An Angel carrying a harp.”  That’s pretty cool.  The Mars-Saturn Cycle is about how our Energy interacts with our Attention to The Most Important Thing.

This chart has two Big Challenges (T-Squares)…

  • Can we stop Projecting those Memories of Abuse onto everyone who reminds us of our historical Abusers?  Or Get more Neutral about the Memories themselves, so we can Respond instead of Reacting in the many situations where they arise, especially when they’re Unconscious?  (Nessus-OR10 T-Square on Hopi-Lachesis Opposition)
  • Do we Trust our own Values?  Do they Deserve to be Trusted, or do they need to be Updated, particularly the Values that came to us from our Karma?   Or from our Abuse?  (Eurydike-Venus T-Square on Lilith-South Node to Varuna-North Node Opposition)

And the most prominent planets in the chart are the two outliers that aren’t knitted into the bottom of the chart like everyone else is – Lachesis (Changing TimeLines by Choice) and Varuna-North Node (achieving Good Health by Cleaning Up our Karma and Attending to our Mission).

There’s a potentially interesting free series of webinars this weekend called “Finding the Life You Were Born to Live: Astrology, Life Purpose & Destiny,” https://www.astrologyuniversity.com/astrology-destiny-and-life-purpose-summit/, put on by Astrology University (which I’ve never heard of, but their faculty is reputable).  They include a Wonderful quote from Dane Rudhyar…

“When you don’t follow your nature there is a hole in the universe where you were supposed to be.”

Notice that these two form the base of a Yod (Pay Attention to…) focused on Saturn-BZ509-Hylonome (Transcending our Patterns of Giving Away Our Power).  Touchè.

That Was a Trick Question

October 7, 2018

Of course it wasn’t, since on so many levels so many of us will be Choosing our Karma, because it’s so Comfortable.  Think about your Least-Favorite recurring circumstances, especially your recurring Bummers.  Now reframe your Experience so you see yourself as Comfortable in those circumstances.  That’s what Karma is all about.  Least-Favorite, Bummer, and “Comfortable” seem like strange bedfellows.  But think about why those circumstances are your Least-Favorite.  Maybe you don’t like the Emotions involved, or maybe they make you Doubt yourself (I think of Doubt, like Confusion, as an Emotion).  But if they recur, you’re Familiar with them, and maybe Familiar isn’t so far from Comfortable.

But the sense that it actually was a Trick Question, is that we’ve dropped into a Station of asteroid Juno, and Juno is about the Edgs of our Consciousness.  Station means “Strong,” so we’ll actually have to work to not Grow our Consciousness between now and 11 October, when Juno actually Stands Still.  We say a planet is “Stationary” whenever it’s moving so slowly that we can hardly tell it’s moving at all, because that’s when we Feel the impact of the planet most strongly.  Usually we Feel this intensity for about a week before the planet actually Stands Still, depending on what else is going on, and how Sensitive we are to it.

We’re suggesting that you Assertively Choose Consciousness because the Portal is Open here – sure, we’ll all get a hit without trying, but while the Door is Open, let’s get Greedy.  As Gordon said, “Greed [about Consciousness] is Good!”   The Juno-Station chart is more complex than the New-Moon chart…

So we won’t get through it all tonight, but at the risk of sounding like a broken record, it’s really more of the same.  Well, maybe I should sound like a broken record, because this stuff – about Identity, Ego, Soul, Karma, Held Emotions, etc – is so Subtle and so Profound that we have to have it pounded into us.  We can hear or read the same thing a thousand times, and then on the next pass it coincides with some other goings-on and a Light goes on, and we suddenly “get” it.  “Oh, That’s what you meant!”  So as the Priestess may have said, “Repetition is Good!”

The Big Highlights of the chart include Juno itself Dancing with Fear and Power (Sedna) – remember your Kegels (Fear + Kegel = Power).  Juno in Gemini should be an Open Portal for Consciousness to Grow already, because Gemini is to flibbertigibbet.  No offense to your Gemini planets, but Gemini is probably the most loosy-goosy Sign in the Zodiac.  That’s Freedom par excellence, but it can also be Spacey and sometimes Scarily so.  Sedna Initiated Juno, which would have introduced us to our Fear in a whole new way, on 14 September.

Juno only stays in Gemini for a month, before it backs into Taurus.  Taurus is the Rock of the Zodiac.  Taurus and Change are not at all Comfortable together.  Stability is Good, but if we’re talking about Stable Self-Sabotage, which is what Taurus and Karma would do together, Shaking things up would be Good too, if not very Comfortable.  Juno doesn’t get back to Gemini for good till 24 December.  So our Window where it will be Easier to Change what needs Changing, will be Open till 24 October – take Advantage of it!  Changing our Relationship with Fear, so we Grok it’s Power, will be an option for us again in the second week of November.

The other Big Highlight of the Juno Station is that our Health and Vitality (Varuna) is the Star of the Show.  While the rest of the chart is packed in like a lunchbox, Varuna and the North Node look like the gondola under the balloon, where “everything” happens.  So a particular theme in this Station is our Opportunity to see how our Karmic Patterns Sabotage our own Vitality.  We’ll talk more about this over the next few days.

No. III

September 16, 2018

To No. II a reader responds…

“This feels like a personal horoscope.”

Alas, that’s the way it is for so many of us!  For anyone unfamiliar with Nessus, these articles would probably be valuable…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/03/nessus/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/04/nessus-two/

It should be no surprise, given the way astrology has been so explicit lately, that Lilith, Goddess of Self-Sovereignty Herself, is Lit Up while Hylonome is Standing Still.  And Lilith is Merged in the 17 September Hylonome-Station chart with the South Node, repository of our Held Emotions, aka Karma, Mirroring the Grand Cross of No. II

Our Held Emotions are the ones we’ve Repressed because we’d rather Die than Feel them.  Because they require an Ego Death in other words.  I mean, who would be crazy enough to go into an Ego Death voluntarily!?!? 

Well, I hope that I convince you to do exactly that if you read this blog long enough, because Ego Death is the fastest road to Growth in Consciousness, Liberation, Ascension, Spiritual Progress, Manifesting What You Really Want, Achieving your Lifetime Mission, ending the Heartbreak of Psoriasis, and all the other Good Things I hope you Aspire to.

You can see that Lilith-South Node anchors one end of the base of a Venus T-Square (red triangle – it’s called a “T-Square” because when you draw lines from the center of the Zodiac to each planet, it makes a “T”).  A T-Square is a Challenge to become Adept at something, in this case, Adept at adapting your Values (Venus) to Embrace your Self-Sovereignty in spite of Cultural Pressure to do otherwise.

That includes Cultural Pressure embedded in our own Programming, as we’re taught that Comfort is Good and Discomfort is Bad.  Imagine if you had been taught that Tolerating Discomfort is the pathway to Grace.  Not as the PieInTheSky religions have done, but as the esoteric branches of many religions have done, in teaching techniques to make Tolerating Discomfort more Comfortable and Productive at Liberating us from our Birdcages.

Every day I’m encountering people who are still trapped in the Fear and Anger and Potentially Rough Week series that we dealt with in late August (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/21st-century/the-teens-2010-2019/2018/august-2018/).  If we don’t “do our work” when it’s timely, we carry it with us, and Life gets more and more complicated as the Old and New Energies Confuse one another.  We Create new Held Emotions. 

When we do “do our work when it’s timely,” we’re less Compromised when we Encounter the New Energy, and better able to deal with it as a Main Effect, rather than having to deal with it as Interaction with all of our other Unfinished Business.  We enter a constantly-improving Virtuous Spiral rather than a “downward” Vicious-Cycle Whirlpool.

There’s a chart and some discussion of the December 2017 Lilith-Venus Initiation (and hence the current Venus-Lilith Cycle) at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/12/30/new-province-iii/.  “Coincidentally,” the Lilith-Venus Initiation Conjoined Hylonome!  It was at 6 Capricorn, “Ten logs lie under an archway leading to darker woods.”  Ten means Abundance, though the logs are still raw material.  The suggestion is that a Portal into the Wilderness (or, “doing our work while it is timely”) offers great Potential.

Bottom Line: if our Values seem to Conflict with our Urge toward Self-Sovereignty (which we can define as Making Choices that Lead us to Manifesting What We Really Want in the Lifetime), it’s our Values that need to be Examined and possibly Adjusted

The Self-Congratulation we use to support our Current Ego is based on our Values, but our Values are seriously Contaminated by our Programming, and may be very different from – and frequently the Opposite of – our Soul’s Desire.  Because we Live in Duality, our Soul is clever enough to Challenge our Ego to Grow by presenting the Ego with the Opposite of what the Soul Really Wants.  Like a parent using reverse psychology on their two-year-old.

Hope You’re Rested IX

September 11, 2018

Scared about your Survival?  Respond to it.  How?  Well, the first thing you need to do is find out whether your Fear is an Instinct about actual Likely Futures, or a Regression to Past Events or Lifetimes.  How?  Here’s the Strategy I use to differentiate…

Pholus (Ability to Respond) and Quaoar (Survival Instincts) are both Stationary on 12 September, Pbholus at 9am PDT in 28 Sagittarius on the Galactic Center, and Quaoar at 0:00 (!) Capricorn and 11pm PDT.

Of course Futures aren’t Determined yet, and if we Indulge our Karmic Fears overmuch, we can bend the Future in that Direction.  Every recurrence of a Karmic Pattern is an Opportunity to Let It Go or Grasp it a little tighter.  Karma doesn’t Grasp Us, We Grasp It.  That usually happens because we Confuse thoughts and Feelings.  We Feel Fear, which could be someone else’s Fear, an ambient astroevent, an Instinct, a Memory, a Regression, or an Alien landing on your head.

And then we start Thinking.  Omigod, what’s happening?  Am I gonna lose my job or my lover or my house or my Life?  It’s the Thinking that dooms us.  We Experience Emotions in the Body.  Fear, usually in the Belly or Bowels or the back of the Neck, sometimes the follicles, or we could Shake all over or Feel Cold.  Thinking doesn’t happen in the Body, it happens in that little Bubble over your head.

That’s the first step – Focus on what’s going on in your Body and Banish the Bubble.  What is it you’re Feeling, in your Body, and where is it?  Put your hand on it and Warm it – Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Soften it.  Send Energy to it from your Heart.  Keep Warming and Softening it till it Changes or Moves.  When you Notice that you’ve started to Think instead of Feel, Gently and Lovingly bring your Attention back to your Body.  Over and Over again. 

I know, you Think you have to Figure It Out, but that’s Bad Karma that you’re Grasping.  If you Figure It Out while you’re in Fear, you’re going to Manifest more Fear.  FIRST, Love your Fear into Submission, THEN when you Figure It Out it’ll be much Easier, Incredibly So.  In fact, you’ll probably find that Love has made most of the Difficulty disappear.

Give yourself a Poor Sweetheart if you want.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you can’t stop Thinking, can you.”   Or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Really Scared, aren’t you.”

Now that whole process can take a while.  For something like an abscessed Tooth for instance, it might take you a couple of weeks of Focused Meditation.  I can tell you that moving from Fear to Love is the Most Important Thing you can ever do anytime anywhere in any Circumstance, but you may Think you don’t have the time.  There’s that Thinking again, eh?  I’ll tell you again that Thinking while you’re in Fear will help What-You-Fear Manifest.

But let’s add a quicker process anyway.  The first step in this process is to Tap on your Fear – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4.  “Even though I’m scared of [Whatever], I deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself” etc etc usw.  Or “Even though I can’t Stop Thinking and Making Up such Horrible Stories about What I’m Scared Of that I’ll probably Create it, I deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself.”  That may help immediately, but often we have to Tap several times till we get Clear.

The Sensation of Getting Out of a Fear Trance Feels much like Grounding – you Get Back Into your Body.  You may no longer be Making Up Horror Stories, but you still may be Curious about what made you so Scared.  So we can test whether our Fears are likely to come True, using Theta – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/11/02/piavac/.  It’s a Ritual, so we recommend using the same wording every time…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command that [What I Want, rather than What I Fear].  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess. [Pause] Show Me.”

If you’ve been Fearing that you’ll Lose your Job, for instance, you might use something like “I Command that I’m Able to Keep my Job.”  Or better yet, something like “I Command that I Keep this Job or Effortlessly Stumble Into a better one with better pay and more fun.”

Then when you say “Show Me,” look to See what Picture you’ve Received.  If you don’t easily See Pictures when you close your Eyes, Command that you Are Able to do that.  Be Mindful when you’re Thinking a Picture instead of Seeing one.  If you See a Picture of yourself Doing your Job, you’re Golden.  If you don’t, then we need to Tap some more.  Your Fear about your Job has probably evolved since you’ve been Working with it.  Maybe now you Fear you’ll be Demoted instead of Fired.

So we’d Tap on something like “Even though I Fear I may be Demoted, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself.”  And maybe Theta with something like “I Command that I Get a Raise.”  We cycle back and forth between Tapping and Commanding till we get a result we like.  If we don’t get one, go back to Differentiating Feeling from Thinking and Loving your Feelings In Your Body for a while.

Tap on only Negative Outcomes, and Theta on only Positive Outcomes.  Tapping is about Recognizing the Truth of what’s going on in your Energy Field (it Feels Negative or you wouldn’t be Tapping), and Letting your Meridians Readjust themselves so you’re back in Balance.  You’d Tap on the likes of “I’m Scared I’ll Get Fired.” 

Theta on the other hand Reaches into the Unconscious, and the Unconscious does not Recognize Negation.  So if you Theta on “Not Getting Fired” you’re actually upping the odds that you’ll Get Fired.  So you’d Theta on Keeping your Job, or Getting a Raise or the like.

Hope You’re Rested III

September 6, 2018

Phase 2 of our Adventures about The Most Important Thing Is Rebirthing Our Forbidden Genius is here, and it emphasizes the Rebirthing part, namely, the 7 September (3pm PDT) Klotho Station at 15 Degrees of – you guessed it – Capricorn.  Any Rebirth worth its salt involves an Ego Death, including this one…

Which includes Curiousness (Quincunx) between our Rebirth (the Stationary Klotho) and both Ego Death (Nemesis) and Self-Love (Sappho), which itself might be considered a Curious combination.  A new Cycle between these two began in early August (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/sappho-nemesis/), with an image about Little Kids being Excited about getting the Materialistic Gifts that they believed they Really Wanted.

True Curiosity Asks Big Questions without really expecting an Answer.  The Answer is eventually delivered by the Universe in mysterious ways, through Events and Occurrences.  But if we think we Know the Answer to the Question, we don’t get to Receive the Insightful Wisdom that the Real Answer holds.  The Questions are something like…

  • I Wonder what sort of Ego Death I’ll have to Endure to Rebirth my Forbidden Genius.
  • I Wonder what Unconscious parts of Myself I’m not Loving.
  • I Wonder what it would be like to Love my Ego Deaths.

There is one thing that’s fairly clear.  This adventure in Rebirthing Our Forbidden Genius as The Most Important Thing isn’t about Self-Judgment or Intention to Change.  It’s about Accepting, not Judging.  About Expanding to make room for the Previously Unknown, and Rebalancing everything to Integrate it all. 

What, you say, Saturn about Expanding?  That’s supposed to be Jupiter.  You forget that in the Unconscious, Opposites are Equals.  The Unconscious is Circular, not Linear.  If we try to make the Circular Unconscious Linear in order to make it Conscious, the only thing we’ve done is pour cement into Duality and Separation.  Instead, we have to make Consciousness Circular, even Spherical.