Charts of the Portals IX

When our Responsiveness to our Survival Instincts finally Reboots “for good” (for far longer than our Lifetimes anyway) in 2022 (Quaoar Initiates Pholus, 21 February 2022, in 7 Capricorn), the event is not Cuspal.  The “Stinkbug chart”…

…occurs on the Cusps between Signs, which is astrological important, particularly for Blessings (Trines).  Trines represent Dumb-Luck Blessings because they usually connect Signs of the same Element (Fire, Air, Earth, or Water).

For instance, considering Emotions or Water Signs, Cancer (Cardinal Water) Generates Emotions, Scorpio (Fixed Water) Consolidates them, and Pisces (Mutable Water) Changes them.  So there is a Natural Flow of Energy between the three Signs, which Allows us to potentially be Complete with a Transaction.

The Grand Trine in the Stinkbug chart, however, includes two Mind (Air) Signs – Chaos in Gemini (Mutable Air) and Sappho-Juno in Libra (Cardinal Air), and one Emotion (Water) Sign – Aletheia-Ceres-Gonggong in Pisces (Mutable Water).  So the Energy of the Stinkbug Grand Trine starts by Generating Dualities (Libra), then Changing the Emotions (Pisces) that evolve from these Thoughts, and then Changing the Thoughts (Gemini) that arise from the New Emotions.  Rather than Flowing Smoothly to Completion, this Pattern is more likely to Increase Complications and Confusion.

Of course Confusion is the first Stage of Growth, to it’s not to be rued, but it may not be as obviously Dumb-Luck as the average Trine.  It’s still a Grand Trine, so the Grace is definitely there, it’s just likely to be disguised.  Prepare to be Surprised when Apparent Difficulties become Unexpected Blessings.

Now if we factor the planets into this equation…  The Energy of the Stinkbug Grand Trine starts by Generating Dualities around Self-Love and Consciousness (Sappho-Juno), then Changing our Emotions around Truth, Sustainability, and our Personal and Karmic History (Aletheia-Ceres-Gonggong) that evolve from these Thoughts about Self-Love and Consciousness, and then Changing Thoughts that arise from these New Emotions into Expansive Fantasies about How It Could Be (Chaos).

In other words, we could be Experiencing Glimpses of the World In Which We Really Want to Live while Dreaming for once that they might be Possible – which will Feel Complicated and Confusing.  All our Life, with a lot of help from Others, we’ve been Discounting the Possibility of Achieving our Dreams, so that will be the first Pattern that arises.

But this is dwarf planet Chaos.  It’s not about Possibility, it’s about Potential.  So don’t Discount your “Expansive Fantasies” here, instead use them as the ground for your Focus on The World You Want to Live In, whenever you catch yourself thinking about The World you Don’t Want to Live In.  Remember that we’re at a Crossroads here, and we’re wasting the Fruits of a Hard-Fought Lifetime if we Decide to be Victimized by all of the Changes that are Going On and will increasingly be Going On.

Another Caveat…  We Create the Dynamic way by Discounting the Improbable and Planning all of the intermediate steps to Building what we want to Bring into Form.  Dynamic Manifestation requires that we know What We Want, What It Will Look Like, and How to Build It.  It’s not Possible to Change Our World with those Constraints.  We need Magnetic Manifestation – PIAVA – to Create What We’ve Never Created, only Craved.

So besides indulging your Karmic Habits of Discounting What You Want, the second-best way to Kill it is to Believe that you have to know How to Create it.  Magnetic Creativity works by Focusing on What You Want and assiduously avoiding Focusing on the Mechanisms that might Create it.  You’re in Design here, not Engineering.  You Build the Energy, and let the Form come to you – that’s the Magnetic part!

So, if you get Confused here, Let It Be.  We need to be able to Sit with Confusion as an Emotion, without trying to “Fix” or Change it, if we are going to use it as our Engine for Growing Consciousness.  And if things get Complicated, Laugh it Off.  The Complications are part of the Engineering.  Your job is to Hold your Single-Minded Focus on What You Want.

Now, as of today, Self-Love (Sappho) and Consciousness Growth (Juno) have moved out of Creative Thought (Libra), and into Consolidating Emotion, aka Passion (Scorpio).  So our Process has Changed.  Our Dumb-Luck Grace no longer has a Motivator (Cardinal Sign).  Chaos won’t get to Cancer (Cardinal Water) till 2023, so we’re going to have to look elsewhere for a Starter.  In other cases, we’d have to Generate the Motivation ourself, but in this case we’re in luck, we have a Kite (a fourth planet midway between two of the Grand Trine planets) and the top of the Kite is in Capricorn (Cardinal Earth)!

So now the Energy begins with How We Want to Respond to Our Physical Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar in Capricorn).  Praying for a Planetary Healing is Noble, and every bit helps.  But Praying (PIAVAing, Meditating) for the World that WE Want to Live In, for the World that Supports Our Own Personal Survival and Bliss, adds a whole ‘nother Dimension, namely our Personal Passion, without violating anyone else’s Freedom to Manifest their own Reality – on their own World, not ours.

To move the Energy from Creation to Stabilization to Change (Cardinal-Fixed-Mutable), we need to run the Kite backwards (Capricorn-Scorpio-Gemini-Pisces).  So we use the Energy in our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar in Capricorn), which run about as Deep as any Energy, to Excite our Passion for Growing our Unconditional Self-Love (Sappho-Juno in Scorpio) to Allow our Karmic Limitations to Shift and Open Up our Boundless Potential (Chaos in Gemini) so it Changes our Emotional History (Gonggong/OR10 in Pisces) and Creates an Internal Reality (Emotion<->Thought) that Sustains the Truth of our Heart (Ceres-Aletheia) – which will Change (Pisces) as we bring it out of our Hope Chest and wipe away the Spiderwebs.

Nessus Two

 That dull surface is a characteristic of Arsenic minerals.  But note the barely-hidden Passion.  This one is Proustite, Silver Arsenic Sulfide, the Feminine half of Kundalini.

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Soulspeak resonates with our Nessus Energy…

https://soulspeak2013.wordpress.com/2015/06/04/at-the-table-devils-song/

The Zodiac is fractal.  The Wheel is divided by two, by three, by four, by twelve, by 36, by 144, and by 360, and that doesn’t count the Harmonics.  The 144ths are called “Dwads” or “Duads,” and the 133rd Duad is where Emotion overwhelms us.  It’s the first two-and-a-half Degrees of Pisces, and it’s Pure Pisces, all Emotion, all Mutable Emotion.  “Mutable” is the name astrologers give to the Recycling parts of the Zodiac, the Deconstruction, the Breaking Down into raw material so something new can be Created.  The Spiritual Function of Pisces is to Let Go of specific Emotions, and the first Duad shows us what it is that we need to Let Go of.

Nessus in Pisces, in general, would be about the Emotions that arise around PowerOver, around Privilege and its Abuse.  Remember that Power is never Given, only Taken.  When we appear to “Give our Power away” it’s only because it was Taken by our earlier Programming. 

We were washed with these Emotions in April through July of 2014.  Our second Opportunity for this sort of baptism was 7 February through 10 April of this year.  Were those periods unusually Emotional for you?  We’ll get our third and last immersion between August 2015 and mid-February 2016.  This opportunity to Clear the negative aftereffects of PowerOver comes around only once every 120 years.  For most of us it’s a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. 

If we’re taking maximum advantage of it, we’ll let the Emotions have their way with us during these time periods.  Our ultimate objective is to Lovingly Witness these Emotions from the outside, but in order to get there we need first to Experience them.  We hide from our unpleasant Emotions, memories of Abuse most of all.  So we need to make ourselves available, invite them, make space for them, or they’ll stay in hiding.  It takes Courage, but you have Courage aplenty, or you wouldn’t have signed on to this Lifetime.

 In the 134th Duad we begin to burn off what we’re ready to Let Go.  Yesterday’s Nessus Station was in the 134th Duad.  Nessus has already danced in the 133rd Duad twice, and it will dance there once more before it moves on.  If we review our journals and mark our calendars, we can be prepared to move through the process with greater ease, though it won’t be effortless, because Pisces is about Finishing Business and Letting Go.  All Losses must be Grieved, and you’d seldom use Grief and Fun in the same sentence – though of course it’s never too late to start.

So the stage we’re in now, is the Letting Go stage.  We’ve bathed twice, now we’re drying off.  We entered this phase on April 10, and we’ll be here till the end of July.  Then we go back into the pool for a final rinse, till mid-February.  If you’re still wrestling with dark Shadows from your earlier immersions, you may want to imagine one of those super-bright LED flashlights on the end of your middle finger, and just annihilate the Shadow as soon as it enters your mind or Heart.  The bright Light won’t hurt your Heart, She’ll Love it.  Shadows are sort of Magical that way; Light disappears them without a trace.

This stage is the Creative Fire section of Pisces.  In it we begin to convert the Energy locked in those Shadows into Passion.  It often feels like a Passion for Revenge, or a Passion to make sure that never happens to anyone again.  But it needn’t be.  It can simply be a Passion for Living that was previously blocked by the PowerUnder cage we were put in, so the Passion can just be our Heart’s Desire, having nothing to do with the nature of our Abuse.  This is the early stage, so there’s nothing organized or final – or even explainable to anyone – it’s just an urge to experiment with New toys.

There is a lot more to PowerOver and Abuse than overt sexual and physical Abuse, and PowerUnder can be either Acute or Chronic.  For instance, if as a child you were never recognized for who you really are, as everyone just tried to Program you to be who they wanted you to be – that’s a serious case of Abuse.  Without Drama you may not recognize it as Abuse.  Sometimes there was a “cookie lady,” someone who, even if they didn’t recognize your Genius, they recognized your right to be You and didn’t try to change you.  If there was someone like that in your young Life, they would be an excellent memory for you to keep handy during this Creative Fire stage. 

Don’t be intimidated by the term “Genius” – everyone has Genius of some sort.  The people you perceive as having Genius are people who probably had the opportunity to develop it because they were raised in PowerWith.  It’s never too late to start, and it’s not about recognition, it’s about Living your Passion and Following your Bliss.

Our Asteroid-Goddess reader Elizabeth points out that the Station of Nessus was also an Initiation of the 4-year asteroid Atropos, at 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts.”  Among the three Fates, Atropos was the one who cut the chord when the time was ripe.

With a literal interpretation, we could imagine that many more of our fellow Entities will be finishing their Work or for some other reason  bailing out, and leaving the Planet.  But our perspective is not that astrology can symbolize the negative, but that astrology can symbolize the Healing of the negative.  So yes, by all means, celebrate your Ego Deaths!!  Do you remember the signs? 

• Confusion as your old milestones and millstones crumble
  
• Fear as the bars on your Birdcage loosen
  
• Very familiar circumstances suddenly seeming a little strange, like the color is off or the accent’s on the wrong syllable or something. 
• Habitual Judgment being replaced by Curiosity
  
• Unexplained and unexplainable physical surges of Excitement as you start to Breathe and experience what it’s like to be Living Free without your usual narrator

This is the Aries portion of Pisces.  Pisces is all about Emotion – both Wallowing and Letting Go – but Aries is about Trusting Instincts you don’t even recognize as Instincts.  It’s about doing “crazy” things, things that won’t start to make sense until five years from now.  Things your Spirit wants to try out, that it probably hasn’t even informed your mind about, since your mind is likely to just YesBut it away.  When you notice that you’re Feeling or Doing something unexpected on a whim, be Curious about who is Feeling or Doing that! 

• Patient Curiosity, waiting for Clarity from outside
• Not intellectual Curiosity, searching for an answer

We’re still used to being mired in Grief of some sort as we navigate the Wake for our Ego Death.  But that’s your New Identity out there Feeling and Doing those spontaneous things that don’t make any sense yet.  Welcome them…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=idWguVzQRWs

Ten to Fourteen

Vanadinite, symbol of Abundance.

Let’s look at where the “action” is these days and how it might be dancing into our own lives.

The Uranus T-Square

The Main Effect – the Uranus T-Square with Pluto and Jupiter – is occurring at 10-14 degrees of the Cardinal Signs (Aries, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn).

As you go around the Zodiac, Signs have these qualities…

• Aries – Cardinal Fire
• Taurus – Fixed Earth
• Gemini – Mutable Air
• Cancer – Cardinal Water
• Leo – Fixed Air
• Virgo – Mutable Earth
• Libra – Cardinal Air
• Scorpio – Fixed Water
• Sagittarius – Mutable Fire
• Capricorn – Cardinal Earth
• Aquarius – Fixed Air
• Pisces – Mutable Water

The three-series, Cardinal-Fixed-Mutable (called “Modalities”) repeats and so does the four-series , Fire-Earth-Air-Water (called “Elements”), making the twelve Signs.  So the above list gives…

• Sign – Modality Element

Their Meanings are…

• Cardinal – Creating
• Fixed – Stabilizing
• Mutable – Changing (as in mutation)
• Fire – Spirit
• Earth – Matter
• Air – Mind
• Water – Emotion

So we’re dealing with Creating things here.  What sort of things?  Well, we’d look first to Uranus, sitting as it does on the focus of the T-Square.  We’d be Creating Disruption for anything that’s out of alignment with where the Soul wants us to go at this time.  And we’d be Creating the first hesitant pieces of the new Identity that is more in alignment.  Uranus is in Aries – you know the phrase, in the beginning there was the Word?

In Sanskrit, each character of the alphabet has a sound that reflects it’s role in the Creation of the Universe.  So sure, if you’re speaking Sanskrit then you can say that the Universe started with a Word.  The rest of our languages don’t have such deep roots, and to aver that a Word came first is to suggest that there was language and intellect prior to Creation – which is just silly.  In the beginning there was a Sound would be more accurate, but then, you know the old if a tree falls in the woods… homily.

We could say in the beginning there was an Idea but again, that presumes the pre-existence of intellect.  Words and Ideas just reflect the overintellectualization of Western culture.  So what was it, there in the beginning?  I suggest is was more like a germplasm or seed or kernel.  The essence which Word tries to capture, never fully.  Astrology puts Aries – Fire or Spirit – first.  So maybe we should say in the beginning there was a Spark.

Aries

Well, if it’s not a Word but a Spark, then it’s not obvious where it will lead.  It could light a fire.  It could heat a home, or burn it down.  It could become an Idea, or even a Word.  It could become a run to the dump, or a fine Thanksgiving dinner, an Experience, an Organization, or even a Movement.  Which is the Main Thing about Aries.

Aries has no idea what it’s doing. 

It’s following a Spark that hasn’t become a Fire yet, or a Movement, or an Organization, or even an Idea.  If you ever want to know what Aries is up to, wait five years, and then ask.  By then you’ll probably have at least a Fire.

When we speak of Signs, we aren’t talking about People – though we could be.  It’s not that “Aries People” don’t have any idea what they’re doing.  It’s that the Aries part of us doesn’t have any idea what they’re doing.  Aries People aren’t just people who were born in March and April, they’re anybody with strong Aries in their chart.  For instance, anyone born now would have their Uranus in Aries.  Uranus is pretty strong – it’s the Soul’s Urge after all, so everybody born all year these days would be “Aries People.”  And their Uranus would have no idea what it was doing.

That doesn’t mean it’s without purpose, not at all!  It means it’s without intellectualized purpose.  Aries knows exactly what it’s doing; it just can’t explain it to you, because it’s a Spiritual thing, not an intellectual thing.  So Aries is always very busy and purposeful.  You just have to wait five years to figure out what the purpose was.

Aries is three, or six, or nine Signs from the other Cardinal Signs.  So any planets in those Signs will make Second-Harmonic (halfway ’round the Zodiac) or Fourth-Harmonic (a fourth of the way) Angles to Aries, if they’re near the same degree of their Signs.  By and large, those are Challenging Angles.  So whenever you have three planets near the same degree of the Cardinal Signs, you have a T-Square.  Four planets, and you have a Grand Cross.  The same is true for the Fixed and Mutable Signs.

Ten to Fourteen Cardinal Degrees

Ten to fourteen degrees of Aries is the stage in its evolution where the artist has made and critiqued one sketch and, having some notion of where it might go from there, has finished the second version, with colors blocked in, and critiqued it.  Thus armed with a degree of understanding and experience, the artist is almost ready to dive into the final version.  Your soul is the artist here, and your Ego – you – are the painting.  In other words, at this stage…

You have a pretty fair understanding and a good degree of experience with who you really need to be at this stage of this Lifetime.  It’s not a total mystery.  But it’s a T-Square, so you’re Challenged to Master the neighborhood of who you need to be.  There are no right answers – this is a graduate seminar, and you’re being graded on how well you explore the issue, not on feigned Certainty.

The process in the other three Cardinal Signs is similar, but in Cancer rather than a Spark, you start with a Feeling, and by 10-14 degrees you’re well into the process of owning that Feeling, knowing how to respond to it, how to invoke it when you want it, how to start building a Community with it.  That’s where Jupiter is…

So you are inspired to start communicating your Vision of this Feeling and Expand it into Community.  Maybe you started wanting to know what Mutual Respect would Feel like.  Maybe Peace, or being part of a Team, or Random Acts of Kindness.  Or maybe you wanted to develop a theme of War, but with a difference this time.  Maybe you want to be a Devil’s Advocate to help some other group improve.  At this stage pragmatic achievability is important.  This is no longer pie in the sky.  The next step is joining and recruiting, finding others who want to play your game.

Jupiter’s been here before, in August 2013, and your recollection of that practice run will serve you here.

With Capricorn the process unfolds from a physical Seed.  You’ve worked through two generations of selective breeding, and now you’re about to select the final version for planting.  This is Pluto, so your task is not to Create or Control, but to Respond.  The Form is pretty well established, but it’s your job to make sure your version of it provides the right functionality.  As above, so below.  That is…

This is not your Creation.  It’s way bigger than either your Ego or your Soul.  If feels like your own because it is, but only in the sense that this is one job in an enormously large project.  It’s okay if you “fail,” because there is redundancy, and because we’ve never been here before, we’re playing it by ear, and the process is Trial and Success.  More important that it embodies the overarching goals than that it be right or perfect.  Your recipe will be one of many entries, and if you find one you like better, you’ll adapt yours to resemble it – while someone else might find they like yours better than theirs and adopt it.  No pressure except that your recipe needs to be yours, made to please you and no one else.

To sum all that up…

We aren’t rookies here; we do have an understanding of the kind of Community we’re building, and how it has to fit into the emerging Pattern of cumulative Co-Creation that the World is shifting into.  If you think you don’t know, ask yourself, “What if I did know?” and take the first answer you get – especially if it was the one you were about to reject as impossible or inappropriate.

Look at that Superbowl and the improbable gang of youngsters that made it look like just another day at the office.  Someone needs to do it, Why not you?