Santa’s Elf 3 and Self-Hugs

There were a couple of things happening on 24 December 2022. The most potentially troublesome is about our Orientation toward Abuse and Privilege, though it was a Self-Resolving Challenge. The most Full of Grace was a strong emphasis on Unconditional Self-Love. Give yourself lots of Self-Hugs this week.

Both dwarf planet Thereus, the Tough Teacher who arm-wrestles with Bears for entertainment, and asteroid Sappho, who symbolizes Unconditional Self-Love, were Stationary on the 24th.¹ With slight differences, the Self-Love Station in 3 Degrees shares the same chart with the 23-24 December New Moon (2 Degrees), the 21-22 Solstice (0 Degrees), and the 20-21 Artesian Station (29 Degrees). This makes Self-Love prominent for the next several weeks (New Moon), and the next 6 or so months (Solstice).

Make a note to yourself (inside of your eyelid would be a good place to make it) to Notice every time you start to Judge yourself, and as soon as you Notice, Stop the Habit. A Judgment is just a Thought, and by now we know that Thoughts are always 2D, which means that every Thought is easily Cancelled by its Opposite. How could something so ephemeral be considered “True”? For every Thought you have that Underestimates yourself, you have another that Overestimates yourself. At any given moment, one of them will be louder than the other, and one of them may even be barely audible most of the time.

Seek Balance. Unconditional Self-Love is not “I’m Better than Anyone Else!” It’s “I’m Okay, You’re Okay!” Put that inside your eyelid too – “Me OK U OK!” No need for extra letters, Just The Facts. The second Self-Resolving Challenge in the Artesian Station chart was about Being Reborn into Respect for All Things.² Since most people define themselves by their Judgments, getting to Unconditional Self-Love will require us to Lovingly Embrace our Codependence, Find and Feel our Gratitude for its Service, and then Let Go of it, because Codependence tends to Agree with Strong Judgments in order to Avoid Confrontation.

Contemplating Wollastonite Crystals, sometimes called Angelwings, can help us stay Balanced, Attuning our Root Chakra to our Crown Chakra. Wollastonite is a Calcium Inosilicate, where the Silicate Units form long chains.

In the New Moon chart, both Challenges are Fully Self-Resolving. However, the New Moon is Merged with dwarf planet Ixion, which is Out of Bounds, or Strong. Ixion reminds us that Promoting Change Requires that we Betray Social Convention. Between Observing our Codependence, our Obedience to Convention, our Judgments, our Guilt, and our SuperPowers,³ we’ll be busy. Our SuperPowers look to the Future. The other things on that list look to the Past.

When Choosing between those two, Choose the Future. Better yet, Choose the Present Moment. In the Present Moment you can Intend (or another PIAVA) to Gently Let Go of Codependence, Obedience, Judgment, and Guilt, after Thanking them for their Service to your Past. And then you can spend some time Focusing on How You’ll Feel when you Embrace your SuperPowers. You don’t need to catalog them, just Focus on how Competence will Feel in your Body.

Being careful to Let Go of your Thoughts about those Feelings, and your Expectations of what your SuperPowers will look like, Focus on Memorizing those Feelings, as Sensations. Where is your Chin when you Feel Competent. Pointing straight ahead, not Up or Down? Your Neck pretty Vertical? Your Back fairly Straight? Your Shoulders? Not Pridefully back, but not slumped Forward either? Play with those Postures, till you can Combine them into Sensations that Feel Good. Practice this several times a day, till you get good enough that you can Shift your own Moods with slight Shifts in your Posture.

¹ Thereus Stationary 24 December 2022 in 18 Virgo (PST 2:42 am, GMT 10:42 am, IST 4:12 pm, AEDT Qld 8:42 pm). Sappho Stationary 24-25 December 2022 in 3 Virgo (PST 1:51 pm 24th, GMT 9:51 pm 24th, IST 3:21 am 25th, AEDT Qld 8:42 pm 25th).

² Hopi Out of Bounds (Profound Respect for All Things) in 26 Libra Merged with Haumea (Rebirth) in 1 Scorpio T-Square Black Moon Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) Opposite Pluto Merged with Icarus Out of Bounds (Compulsion to Follow a Thread Beyond its Usefulness). The Hopi-Haumea Merger occurs across the Scorpio Cusp, so we’re moving from Creative Air to Fixed Water, or from Thinking About Other People to Feeling Deeply about them. The flip side of Self-Sovereignty is Codependence, and Codependence can easily lead to violating our own Values, which can Generate Strong Feelings. Upper Limits (Gay Hendricks, The Big Leap, chapters 1-3) is too big a Concept to describe in a few sentences, but it’s an important Concept that will help us a great deal to escape from Compulsions to Follow Threads Beyond their Usefulness.

³ New Moon-Ixion OOB is one corner of a Grand Cross, which is also Self-Resolving. The other three corners, any one of which could introduce Temporary Hassles which will eventually Resolve if we Let It Be, include Jupiter Merged with Nemesis (Confronting our Guilt Paper Tiger); Aletheia OOB Merged with Asbolus OOB and Chaos OOB (Full Acceptance of Our Intuitions about Our SuperPowers); and Ceres (Sustainability).

We’re seeing some important Sign Changes hereabouts.

Pluto (Compulsion) Initiated Icarus (Overexcitement) on 16 December and Began a New 2-year Cycle, in 28 Capricorn (Letting Go of a Lifetime of Negativity), and on 21-22 December, Icarus moved into Aquarius (PST 4pm 21st, GMT 4am 22nd, IST 9:30 am 22nd, AEDT Qld 2 pm 22nd). A couple of years of Compulsive Overexcitement can be hard on the Adrenals, and could move your posture from Neutral Competence to Star Power, which can lead to Expectations that will Pop your Bubble, so I highly recommend you do study up on Gay Hendricks’s Upper Limits Concept.³

On 23-24 December asteroid Arachne (Grandmother Spider Who Weaves the Web of Life) moved into Pisces (PST 3:19 pm 23rd, GMT 11:19 pm 23rd, IST 4:49 am 24th, AEDT Qld 9:19 am 24th) for the next two months. Our Relationship with Nature should be moving away from Detached Idealism, toward Compassion. I’ve already read that having discovered that Crabs and Lobsters shy away from Pain, several places on Earth now require them to be euthanized by Freezing before being boiled. They even taste better that way.

The Moon is In Bounds (Panic is less likely) from 25-26 December (PST 10:19 am 25th, GMT 6:19 pm 25th, IST 11:49 pm 25th, AEDT Qld 4:19 am 26th) until 3-4 January 2023 (PST 7:03 am 3rd, GMT 3:03 pm 3rd, IST 8:33 pm 3rd, AEDT Qld 1:03 am 4th).

On 26 December (PST 2:06 am, GMT 10:06 am, IST 3:36 pm, AEDT Qld 8:06 pm) Moira (Fate and Choice) backs into Taurus until the Ides of February. Fate becomes Choice when we bring our Karma into Consciousness to we can Change our Expectations and Manifest something else. I Imagine that our Karma will seem a little more Tenacious while Moira is in Taurus, but that could be a Good thing, as it may bring More Attention to our Untoward Habits, and it’s a much shorter step from More Attention to Becoming Conscious, than it is from Hidden or Disguised to More Attention.

Tantalus (That Karma which Stays Just Out of Our Reach, Seemingly Repeating Forever) moves into Sagittarius 27-28 December (PST 9:58 am 27th, GMT 5:58 pm 27th, IST 11:28 pm 27th, AEDT Qld 3:58 am 28th), which should make our most Elusive Self-Sabotaging Patterns a little Easier to catch with their pants down.

Dropping Self-Sabotage

As we’ve said many times, Karma died in 2012, when Linear Time became Obsolete. But our Karma doesn’t cling to us, we cling to it, because like Dinner and Dessert, it’s what we’re accustomed to. Without it there’s a Big (w)Hole to fill – disconcerting at best, often crazy-making. It’s very Addictive, very difficult to break the habit without Support and Commitment.

Like Alan Watts pointed out, it’s harder to break our Good Karma than it is to break our Bad Karma. That should be fairly obvious – Bad Karma often involves Punishment on one level or another, and Good Karma gets constant positive social Reinforcement, so there’s Motivation for the Bad, quite the Opposite for the Good. Without Motivation, from whence will the Commitment arise? Yet if we want to get to Yintegrity and 5D, we need to Break our Good Karma as well.

Remember that all Karmic Patterns are Profound Skills – simply because we’ve had so much Practice and so many Repetitions with them, in so many different situations. Karma isn’t Good or Bad on the surface, it’s Undesirable because we have no Choice about when to use the Skill – it Operates beneath the level of our Consciousness, whether or not it’s Appropriate and Effective for what we want to Accomplish. In fact, once we break free of the Unconscious Compulsion, we need these Skills, used Intentionally, to Accomplish our Life Mission.

We Believe that Karma is created when we make an Oath or Vow or Promise, or even a Decision, that has Life-or-Death or other serious consequences. Conscious of these consequences, we work hard to forget that we made the Choice, instead Reframing it as Just The Way Things Are. If we can make it a Fact of Life, we’re less likely to Violate it. Through Repetition, we convince ourself that it really is The Way Things Are, and that ends up as an Unconscious – Karmic – Belief in subsequent Lifetimes.

All Karma is Personal. Sure, there are Cultural Patterns and Prescriptions that Act Out like Karma. Like the almost-Universal Practice of scapegoating other Cultures. Once in a while, a Cultural Karmic Pattern can shift on its own. But does that actually Change the World, when all of the folks who Practice it are still Addicted to it? Not until at least a hundred of the “Monkeys,” and probably a lot more, who Practice it have brought it into Consciousness and converted it to a Purposive Skill. Or until (seven?) previous generations move on to their next Adventures.

When asteroid Karma is Lit Up, our Karma is usually in our face. The South Node is similar but different. It includes our Held Emotions, the ones we’d rather Die than Feel. Much Cultural Karma is the result of Cultural or Racial Trauma. We can think of the South Node as Individual or Collective PTSD. The South Node harbors Behaviors that Got Us Dead in other Lifetimes. Those Behaviors were probably Karmic – if they weren’t, we might have Chosen other Skills instead.

We still need those Skills, and there may be a bundle of other Skills that we collected or emphasized in that Lifetime, that we Repressed along with the one(s) that Got Us Dead. This collection of Skills, used Intentionally, is particularly Critical to Accomplishing our Life Mission (the North Node).

Dwarf planet Orcus is in charge of Punishing Oath-Breakers, which would include Karma-Changers. As a fearsome Beast, Orcus helped Enforce our Oaths during Karma-gestating Lifetimes, and that Memory of Terror that’s attached to the Karma may be added to our Fear of what might happen to us if we skip Dinner and Dessert. Asteroid Vesta represents our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, which are highly correlated with our Karma.

Meanwhile, is our Fate different from our Karma? In many ways, not so much. And there are four asteroids that are named after the Greek Goddesses who were in charge of our Fate. Greek Drama (or at least, our Cultural Projections into Greek Drama) was particularly adept at dramatizing Fate. While it’s easy to view Greek Drama as implying that The Devil Made Me Do It, we can also view it as Information about What We Need to Bring into Consciousness so that we can make Choices that save us from being Victims of our own Fate.

Asteroid Moira is in charge of the whole Process of Unconscious Fate and Conscious Choice. Asteroid Klotho “cuts the cloth” (that’s where our word “cloth” comes from) on which the Tapestry of our Fate is woven. Asteroid Lachesis “measures the cloth,” or determines the Duration of a particular Karmic “Gift.” And Asteroid Atropos is in charge of Endings – literally Death, but we generalize to include the Death of an individual thread of Karma, which is appropriate because the Termination of any significant Karmic Pattern usually requires an Ego Death.

Our Held Emotions are the poster child for this, as they are the Emotions which We would rather Die than Feel. But here we don’t interpret that as We would rather Die than Feel, we interpret it as We would rather Die than Feel – that is, an Ego Death, the equivalent of a Rebirth without an intervening Physical Death.

This has been a significant week from the Perspective of Fate and Karma, as asteroid Atropos (Endings) was very Strong (Stationary) on 10 March 2021 (2:04 pm PST in 20 Cancer), asteroid Lachesis (Karmic Duration) was very Strong (Stationary) on 13 March (7:12 am PST in 18 Scorpio), and asteroid Vesta (Unconscious Limiting Beliefs) crossed dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) on 13 March (2:18 pm PST in 13 Virgo).

In addition (Busy, Busy, Busy), the Lachesis Station, supercharged because it’s Out of Bounds, Complicates (T-Squares) an Argument (Opposition) between asteroid Karma and an Expanded asteroid Moira (Conjunct Jupiter). “Wait! Are you saying that I can Change my Fate? ” Lachesis Measured the Duration of a thread of our Fate, but there’s nothing to prevent us from cheating Fate by bringing that thread into Consciousness Early.

The Vesta-Orcus Merger (Conjunction) makes a major Challenge to (T-Squares) the North Node and the Brightly Lit Up South Node (Conjunct the Great Attractor, an unknown Massive Object or Field pulling the whole Milky Way toward the Midpoint of Sagittarius). “Wait! Are you saying that it was ‘my’ Choices that ultimately created my Limitations? Can I unmake those Choices?“

And the Atropos Station not only gets very Tied Up in issues around Trust (Conjunct Out-of-Bounds asteroid Eurydike), but also issues around Self-Love and Self-Authority (Opposite asteroid Sappho and dwarf planet Hylonome). “Wait! Can I really Trust that Fear of Emptiness is the only thing that inhibits my Freedom, not Dragons? That’s not what my mother and the preacherman told me!“

In addition to Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty and Codependence), Lilith (ditto) is also Activated (Opposing the Lachesis Station and also T-Squaring the Jupiter-Moira to Karma Opposition) – remember what we said earlier about Good Karma and Yintegrity?

Dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is also involved, as it Opposes Vesta-Orcus and also T-Squares the Nodes, including the South Node that’s glowing like Rudolph’s nose, meaning that it may be a particularly fortuitous time to Let Go of Abuse Karma. And a fortuitous time to jettison Privilege Karma.

That leaves out asteroid Klotho. Are we to endure the Emptiness without the Rebirth of a new Ego? Well, it’s a sleeper, but it’s there. It’s Merged with (Conjunct) dwarf planet Haumea (also symbolizing Rebirth), and at the focus of a Mjölner (Epiphanies) to the Square between Nessus and the North Node. If you look close in the chart below, and your monitor or printer is good enough at color separation, you may be able to distinguish the orange Mjölner lines, pointing to Klotho-Haumea, from the many red (Square and Opposition) lines.

Insights that shift Energies from a Belief that “It’s Just The Way It Is” to “Omigod! I can Change that too?!? ” can count double as Karma-Changers, if they’re followed up by the ongoing Work of substituting Constructive Thoughts and Behaviors for their Karmic forbears. Ultimately, it “Reps” – Repetitions – that shift Self-Sabotaging Karmic Patterns to Habits that we want to cultivate.

For instance, I read this earlier this week…

“Anthony Trewavas described plants as operating: ‘There is no unique separate response to each signal in this complex of informational inflows but merely a response issued from an integration of all environmental and internal information.’ In other words, the organism takes in all the incoming data simultaneously as it occurs and integrates it as one coherent whole, then crafts a response… The amount of incoming data includes trillions upon trillions of bits; when you are talking about Gaia the numbers are close enough to infinity as to make no difference. There is no way that linear processes could be used to generate the increasingly complex innovations on form and behavior that would stabilize homeodynamis. Top-down control here just doesn’t work.” –Stephen Harrod Buhner, Plant Intelligence and the Imaginal Realm, pp.152-3.

Within a few hours I read correlated ideas in three other books on different subjects (by Gay Hendricks, Timothy Hass, and Marko Pogačnik). The result was that I Realized that I’ve been relying too much on Intellect to move toward an important Manifestation that I’m working on, when I need to shift even more than I already am to Intuition and PIAVAs. I Realized that I had been Doubting my next interim Target because I couldn’t imagine what Mechanism would get me there.

Mechanisms are Logical, Known Steps. We can’t Manifest Territory beyond our Known World using Known or Logical Steps. If we could, we’d have done so long ago. We can’t Reach Beyond our Grasp with Dynamic Processes, only with Magnetic Processes.

We aren’t without Blessings to make this process Easier…

Vesta-Orcus and the two Fatefull Stations are all two Signs apart, and they’re joined by three other Sextiles to create a Grand Sextile in Water and Earth – the PIAVA Signs.

There are eight Unxes (two planets one Sign apart, indicated by the short green lines), including at least one Unx for each of the three Stars of this show. Atropos (Endings) gets two such Pattern-Breaking Gifts, one to asteroid Karma itself, and one to the North Node (MIssion) and dwarf planet Asbolus (Intuition, which we’re already Summoning). Asteroid Karma also Unxes Vesta-Orcus.

These three Unxes alone are enough to banish whatever Self-Sabotage you’ve been working on. If you still Feel Stuck on those, check to see if any of them Let Go while you weren’t looking. Try some Easy but Meaningful PIAVAs to see if they work now – that should Ease any Discouragement you have over the others.

The Lachesis-Station Unxes the South Node and Great Attractor, suggesting to me that your Held Emotions may be ready to be Eased into your stable of Permitted Emotions. Remember this fellow from Yellow Submarine? If you Ask him, he can just vacuum them up. So much for unknown Mechanisms.

Charts of the Portals II

Admit it – you had flashes of Genius yesterday or today, didn’t you!  You don’t think so?  Or rather, you didn’t Recognize them as Miracles?  No wonder, they’re fairly Routine for you, aren’t they.  Someone remark about them to you today, and you didn’t much Acknowledge their Compliment?  Because you don’t Ego-Associate with those Skills.  In fact, if you try to think about it too much, the Magic may slip away.  Spend a few minutes thinking about this.

Did you do anything that normal mortals can’t?  Probably.

Did you Pat yourself on the Back when you did?  Probably not.

Did someone else Recognize your Adeptness?  Maybe, or Not.

Were you Surprised by anything today?  Probably.

Anything go a lot more Easily than you Expected?  Probably.

Can you Identify these things?

…

We Learned these Ixionic Superpowers in other Lifetimes, and we Learned to be Adept at them.  We’ve all done a lot more than Bludgeon Tigers and Wring Juice from Melons in our multitude of Lifetimes.  Our Relationship to our Superpowers in this Lifetime is Complicated.  Once we’re past about eight years old we don’t talk about them any more.  Some people Ridiculed or Shamed us for “Putting on Airs” or “Fantasizing too much.”  Some people Actively Punished us for “Pretending” we could do that.  Our Culture says it’s not supposed to be Possible, and we can get in big trouble for Crossing our Culture.

What we Learned to do in this Lifetime is very different.  We had to Work At Learning it, and in the back of our mind we still have to review what we’ve Learned every time we do it.  They don’t jump into Action automatically, often even unbidden.  So we aren’t nearly as Conscious about our Superpowers as we are about our Powers.  Do we need to Bring them into Consciousness?  Will that Spoil them?  Often when we’ve Tried to Show Them Off they haven’t Worked.  Will that happen again?

But there’s a Difference between Being Conscious of something and Being Ego-Attached to it.  Robert Fritz (The Path of Least Resistance) pointed out a generation or so ago that the folks who Really Excelled, the Magic Johnsons and Mother Teresas and Thomas Edisons and William Shakespeares and Amadeus Mozarts and Martin Luther Kings and Stephen Levines and Edgar Cayces and Royal Rifes, took one of their Inborn Superpowers, and then devoted their Lifetime to Developing it further.  We can’t really do that if we aren’t very Conscious of our Superpower.

As we Approach the End Times here, though, we’re all going to Need our Superpowers.  Our Superpowers, in one way or another, are Law-Breakers, commonly Breaking Cultural or Moral Laws if not Physical Laws (as they were Understood or Agreed Upon).  We can’t Solve a Problem using the same Thinking (and Acting) that Created the Problem, and to Solve the End Times Problem for Hupers here on Earth, we All need to Collaborate, and we All need to bring our Superpowers to the Table.  In this sense it Behooves us to Break through our Denial or Shame or Fear or Whatever keeps your Superpowers in the Dark, and start Learning how to Practice and Improve them without getting in their way.

So  yesterday and today, 9 and 10 September 2020, was about Beginning this process, if you haven’t started on it Long Ago – dwarf Planet Ixion, which symbolizes our Superpowers, had its Power turned up to Max (it was Stationary in Sagittarius [Distributing Fire, or Letting Go of Constraints to Change]).  If you Live on the Left Coast of North America, you know what it feels like when Mother Gaia is Feeling Her Power.  She was demonstrating Ixion for us, Channeled through Fire (Mars [Spiritual Fire, Action] was also Stationary, on 9 September, in Aries [Creative Spirit, Creative Fire – not Destructive Fire]).

The message was very Clear as hundred of thousands of people were forced to Move/Evacuate – Get Your Butt In Gear!  You Hupers can’t Sit Around any more!  No more “Business as Usual” for you!  The astroEnergy that symbolizes Global Change is Being Turned Up to Max as we speak as well (dwarf planets Quaoar [Survival Instincts] and Pholus [Being Able and Willing to Respond] are both Stationary 15 September), and it’s no Coincidence that Ixion is Amped up at the same time.

Ixion represents the Huper Superpowers that will – or Not – Live Up to the Challenge of Huper Survival (Quaoar) Initiating Huper Response (Pholus).  Think of an Initiation as a Knighting or a Shakipat, the Passing of a Torch, or a Gift of Power accompanied by a solemn Responsibility.  The Impediment that’s been causing a Rejection of the Initiation so far is Huper Laws – the Law of Obedience most especially.  If an Authority Figure tells you to do the opposite of what your own Survival Instincts tell you to do, how do you Respond?  Whom do you Obey?  Your Inner Goddess, or your Outer Antichrist?

It’s not a trivial Question for many people, and it’s a Rite of Passage for Huperity, obviously a Challenging one.  So Challenging that we aren’t at all sure Huperity is going to make it over the hump, even after Creating an Eon-Scale Mass Extinction.  It’s also no Coincidence that in the Ixion-and-Mars-et al-Stations chart…

…the symbol for Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) stands beside the symbol for Action (Stationary Mars) in the Sign of Impulsive Action (Aries) in a Relationship of Great Blessings and Automatic Collaboration (the long blue line or Trine) to the Ixion Station itself.  The three charts we’ve mentioned are so closely tied together by their Timing that we can’t consider them Separately, even though we’ll need to examine each of them by itself.

Which we’ll do more of next.

No. III

To No. II a reader responds…

“This feels like a personal horoscope.”

Alas, that’s the way it is for so many of us!  For anyone unfamiliar with Nessus, these articles would probably be valuable…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/03/nessus/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/04/nessus-two/

It should be no surprise, given the way astrology has been so explicit lately, that Lilith, Goddess of Self-Sovereignty Herself, is Lit Up while Hylonome is Standing Still.  And Lilith is Merged in the 17 September Hylonome-Station chart with the South Node, repository of our Held Emotions, aka Karma, Mirroring the Grand Cross of No. II…

Our Held Emotions are the ones we’ve Repressed because we’d rather Die than Feel them.  Because they require an Ego Death in other words.  I mean, who would be crazy enough to go into an Ego Death voluntarily!?!? 

Well, I hope that I convince you to do exactly that if you read this blog long enough, because Ego Death is the fastest road to Growth in Consciousness, Liberation, Ascension, Spiritual Progress, Manifesting What You Really Want, Achieving your Lifetime Mission, ending the Heartbreak of Psoriasis, and all the other Good Things I hope you Aspire to.

You can see that Lilith-South Node anchors one end of the base of a Venus T-Square (red triangle – it’s called a “T-Square” because when you draw lines from the center of the Zodiac to each planet, it makes a “T”).  A T-Square is a Challenge to become Adept at something, in this case, Adept at adapting your Values (Venus) to Embrace your Self-Sovereignty in spite of Cultural Pressure to do otherwise.

That includes Cultural Pressure embedded in our own Programming, as we’re taught that Comfort is Good and Discomfort is Bad.  Imagine if you had been taught that Tolerating Discomfort is the pathway to Grace.  Not as the PieInTheSky religions have done, but as the esoteric branches of many religions have done, in teaching techniques to make Tolerating Discomfort more Comfortable and Productive at Liberating us from our Birdcages.

Every day I’m encountering people who are still trapped in the Fear and Anger and Potentially Rough Week series that we dealt with in late August (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/21st-century/the-teens-2010-2019/2018/august-2018/).  If we don’t “do our work” when it’s timely, we carry it with us, and Life gets more and more complicated as the Old and New Energies Confuse one another.  We Create new Held Emotions. 

When we do “do our work when it’s timely,” we’re less Compromised when we Encounter the New Energy, and better able to deal with it as a Main Effect, rather than having to deal with it as Interaction with all of our other Unfinished Business.  We enter a constantly-improving Virtuous Spiral rather than a “downward” Vicious-Cycle Whirlpool.

There’s a chart and some discussion of the December 2017 Lilith-Venus Initiation (and hence the current Venus-Lilith Cycle) at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/12/30/new-province-iii/.  “Coincidentally,” the Lilith-Venus Initiation Conjoined Hylonome!  It was at 6 Capricorn, “Ten logs lie under an archway leading to darker woods.”  Ten means Abundance, though the logs are still raw material.  The suggestion is that a Portal into the Wilderness (or, “doing our work while it is timely”) offers great Potential.

Bottom Line: if our Values seem to Conflict with our Urge toward Self-Sovereignty (which we can define as Making Choices that Lead us to Manifesting What We Really Want in the Lifetime), it’s our Values that need to be Examined and possibly Adjusted. 

The Self-Congratulation we use to support our Current Ego is based on our Values, but our Values are seriously Contaminated by our Programming, and may be very different from – and frequently the Opposite of – our Soul’s Desire.  Because we Live in Duality, our Soul is clever enough to Challenge our Ego to Grow by presenting the Ego with the Opposite of what the Soul Really Wants.  Like a parent using reverse psychology on their two-year-old.

Quantum Jump 2

Here’s what the 8 July (7:30 am PDT) Haumea Station looks like…

Here’s what we wrote in July I (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/06/28/july-i/)…

“Stationary Haumea (Rebirth) Opposes Eris (Revelation of what was Denied), T-Squared by Pluto (Compulsion), Lilith (Self-Sovereignty), Klotho (Start of a New Timeline), and BZ509 (Transcendence).”

We had a senior moment and omitted Lilith from the version in July I (since corrected).  So we’re Reborn (thrice really, with Haumea, BZ509, and Klotho all Lit Up) into a World where we’re Compelled to Express Who We Really Are, Following no one’s advice except the Wisdom of our own Soul, and encouraging Others to Follow theirs as well (Lilith).  Of course that could be Difficult (T-Square), as Lilith was considered a Pariah and a Demon by the Patriarchy.

Consider though that this Energy will effect Everyone.  If the Generals of the Patriarchy Follow their own Empathy-Less and Compassion-Less Souls, they’ll drift further from everyone else, whose Souls are likely to Lead them into greater Compassion and Empathy.  The Sergeants of the Patriarchy, who Follow because they Fear not to, or because they Believe they Should, may turn away from the Generals.  Continuing our July I extract…

“There are Trine Bridges (Easy Paths around the T-Square’s Difficulty) from Moira-Chaos (Choosing to Let Go of our Limitations) and from Vesta-Ixion (Letting Go of the Limiting Beliefs we’ve used to squelch our Hidden Genius).”

These are Trines – Dumb-Luck Blessings.  But they also involve Difficult tasks – Allowing Ourself to Let Go of our Limitations and Allowing Ourself to Let Go of the Limiting Beliefs we’ve been using to squelch our Hidden Genius.  Some people will wake up tomorrow and without giving it a second thought, they’ll just Let Go of their Limitations and Let Go of the Limiting Beliefs they’ve been using to keep their Genius Hidden.  When enough of us do that, the rest of us will find the Courage to do the same.

Remember that Jupiter (Expanson) is also Stationary (Strong), turning about on 10 July (10 am PDT).  That will embolden many.

It should be obvious to veteran readers that there will be Ego Deaths involved in all this, as we will definitely have Ego Attachments to many of those Limitations and Limiting Beliefs.  For some (those associated with Held Emotions) it will feel like “I’d rather Die,” and for others (those installed by our programmers) it will feel like “They’ll Kill me” – either are trademarks of impending Ego Death. 

But we also said in July I …

“There is also a Quincunx Bridge (another Easy Path if we can Hold our Curiosity as Curiosity and not try to ‘Figure It Out’) from Lachesis-Nemesis-Sedna (Letting Go of our Fear of Ego Death).”

Letting Go of our Fear of Ego Death.  Great!  But that complex isn’t Complete yet…

“Lachesis (Choosing to Alter Timelines) Initiated Nemesis (Ego Deaths) on 3 July (11pm PDT) at 21 Taurus, “A finger pointing to a line in an open book.”  Lachesis is about the Length of Timelines – Fated when we’re Unconscious, and Chosen when we’re Conscious.  Point at the line (Timeline) that you Want to Change, and you’ll write your own Autobio book.”

So far so good.  We’re five days into that 27-year Cycle, so we still have plenty of time to Point at the Timeline we Want – such as…

I Choose to Quickly Become Effortlessly Adept at Sailing through Ego Deaths with aplomb. 

That should serve us well for the Initiation, and should be more than enough to Get us through these Stations.  To assist with the Lilith T-Square though, we need to maintain our Curiosity (Quincunx) about it, so let’s add…

“I wonder what will happen around my Self-Sovereignty when I Sail through my Ego Deaths Effortlessly.”

Feels Powerful.

The other two Initiations haven’t occurred yet, so we can plan for them…

“Sedna (Embracing Fear as Power) Initiates Nemesis 21 July (5am PDT).  Embrace Fear as Power by training yourself to Respond to Fear with Breathing, Kegels, Tapping, and Thetas.

“Sedna Initiates Lachesis 30 July (1:30 pm PDT).  Both Sedna Initiations occur at 28 Taurus, ‘A post-menopausal woman experiences a new love.’  Once you’ve Befriended Fear and Learned to maneuver your own Life by pointing at the Timelines you Want, your only Limits are the ones you Choose.”

And from the sound of all that, we can Look Forward to them.  Meanwhile we can Enjoy using our new-found Self-Determination and Freedom from Limitations to Let Go of Judgments (15 July Hopi Station) and Sterilize any remaining Karmic Impediments (20 July Station of asteroid Karma).

Then we have the Eclipses woven into this Tapestry of Liberation, a Partial Solar Eclipse at 21 Cancer (there’s that number again) on 12 July just after the Jupiter Station, and a Total Lunar Eclipse at 5 Aquarius on 27 July.  Eclipses represent Illumination, because they cast that-which-we’ve-Taken-for-Granted into Darkness, and we Suddenly Become Aware of it through its Absence.  We can Expect Epiphanies around our natal planets near 21 and 5 Degrees.

Gauntlet XII – More Con Games

Well, we get a couple of weeks without Stations, till the Ides of May.  That should be a relief.

In the interim, Action/Agitation meets Compulsion on 26 April (4am PDT) when Pluto Initiates Mars, beginning a new two-year Cycle at 22 Capricorn, “By accepting defeat gracefully, a general reveals nobility of character.”  As Alan Watts averred, it’s harder to Let Go of our “Good” Karma than our “Bad” Karma.  So we may be Asked to Let Go of our Attachment to Success over the next few days and the next couple of years.

Then on 28 April (12am PDT) Juno leaves Pisces and moves into Aries.  Since Juno represents the Edges of Consciousness, that should make Life a little Easier, as we’re likely to be Growing our Spiritual Consciousness more rather than our Emotional Consciousness.  While Held Emotions (the one we’d Rather Die than Feel) may not be so prominent, we’re still likely to be dealing with Death, as one of the more prominent elements of Spirit is its immutability.  If that’s an intellectual Concept for you rather than a Foundation of your Beliefs, you may be in for Surprises.

Chariklo is about Confidence, and we’ve just squirmed out of a fairly big Challenge to our Confidence, as Chariklo and Pluto shared their Stations over the last few days (Gauntlet IX to XI).  It turns out though that our Confidence Work isn’t quite done.  For the next week we’ll be Working on Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty, as Chariklo Initiates Lilith on 1 May, starting a new nine-year Cycle at 20 Capricorn – “A hidden choir singing during a religious service.”

The “hidden choir” could be our True Self telling us what we’d be Doing and Saying if we were Speaking and Acting from our Self-Sovereignty, or it could be the echos of the many Voices that, throughout our Life, have told us Who and How We Should Be and Do instead of Being and Doing Ourself.  As a Jungian I assume that the Unconscious is always trying to move us forward, even when it requires us to walk through the Swamp instead of around it. 

So I’m opting for the Hidden Choir being our Shoulds.  After all, would our True Self be Shoulding on us?  You know how it Feels when you ignore an Intuition, that “Still Small Voice”?  That’s more likely to be the Voice of our True Self.  Mine doesn’t come from over my Shoulder.  When we get talkback from over our Should-er, if we Notice and just Imagine turning our head to look, or listening for the tone of voice and accent, or just Asking, it will probably be pretty easy to Discern whose Shoulds we’ve Internalized as our own in the current case.

Then we can cycle through Anal-yzing, PIAVAing, and State-Changing (Tapping, Kegeling, Poor-Sweethearting, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrading, and the like) to examine the Agenda of that particular Control Freak, to see if their input is still useful in our Present Life.

Which is kind of the Other Side of the Coin here, or the Other Side of the Mirror – when our own Control Freak comes out of its cave and we Notice that we’re wanting someone else to Act or Speak differently than they are, it would be of great value to our Evolution for us to cycle through Anal-yzing, PIAVAing, and State-Changing to get to the Roots of our own Distaste for whatever it is that they’re up to. 

It may contribute more to Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty to Work with the times when we Should Other, than it does to Work with the Internalized Voices that Should us!

Be Mindful that Shame and Guilt are primary tools that Control Freaks use to manipulate our Behavior, so be Aware that these Emotions may be your first indication that you’re being Shoulded.  Nothing wipes out Confidence and Sovereignty faster and more completely than Shame, and it takes a huge Effort to get Present with Shame.  The first step is Noticing, and if you’re lucky enough to do that, then Poor-Sweethearting will be worth trying, as well as Tapping and Kegeling.

4 July VII – Sedna in Real Time II

Reader alchemist0310 responds…

“yes, so none of these ‘white dudes’ are separate from us… that is what d.scranton is saying (see post below)… actually some of my absolute favorite peoples even subscribe to the fact that we all had a collective role in naming and claiming the current ‘administration’ … and i use that term very loosely… hard not to choke on my pretzels over here… but i’m really going to try to work this out in my 5d world… which as i write this is the point i suppose… voilà”

Yes, Naomi Klein’s book No Is Not Enough details the cultural trends that created the current misadministration, and points out that it’s not the “white dudes” per se that are the problem, but the trends – those are what’s in need of reversing.  But from the Perspective of the transition from Patriarchy to Yang Feminine, it is by and large the white dudes.  Not that more colorful dudes can’t be just as autocratic and Abusive; they just haven’t in recent history achieved the rank of World-Class Colonialists.

Of course it’s Both/And; remember that Sedna-Moon is making a Yin Gate – Paradox School – around Fear and Manifestation.

So if we’re All One then, how can we condemn these white dudes for Screwing all American Women politically because they don’t have the cojones to Screw them the way they prefer?  It’s like this.  We’ve Internalized these white dudes as our jailers.  We have Unconscious Limiting Karmic Beliefs that we are victims of their Abuse, that they have some Control over our Life.  Power-Over is a Hypnotic Trance, and our Personal Colonialists don’t even have to Hypnotize us any more; their Ancestors did that for them, and for us.

So yes, we can forgive these poor Dildos with dead batteries, but will that help?  It would be a lot more Powerful to look to the places in our own Life where we Act Out the role of Dildos with dead batteries, and then take out our Frustration on Others.  Hmmm.  Well, gosh, as a Political Entity, I am Acting like a Dildo with dead batteries when I Feel subjected to their Power-Over, aren’t I.  And then I take out my Frustration by calling them names.  What we Judge is never more than a Funhouse Mirror for our Limiting Beliefs.

So I can start by Poor-Sweethearting my Feelings of Helplessness in the face of their Hubris.  Then after Changing the Subject and Paying Attention, I could exercise my Real Power in any number of ways, hopefully by PIAVAing.

I’ll fall off my chair if anyone here has seen the movie The Apple War.  At least Netflix and Wikipedia now admit to having heard of it, even if no one seems to have access to a copy.  It’s even better than Over the Hedge.  In it the People call on the Old Powers to counter an attempted invasion of their Sacred Land by Big Industry.  Among many marvelous scenes where Industry is humiliated by the Old Powers, in one scene Industry tries to sabotage the People’s Resistance by setting Fire to their church.  The People simply Ask the local Giant to come and piss on the Fire.

So if I really hear Marianne when she says “Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure,” what might I do next?  Ah, maybe Visualize (the V in PIAVA, right?) myself as a Giant pissing on their parade?  Horrifying?  Piss never killed anybody; these white dudes will kill a lot of people if they have their way with us.  Imagine these Dildos running to their secret meetings through a golden shower from a hundred Giants and Giantesses.  They won’t even get electrocuted; their batteries are dead.

That’s not even Revenge, just Political Theater, like the Yes Men or Pussy Riot.  No harm done, just the remote possibility that someone (a spectator, probably not the white dudes) might get their mind pried open a little wider.  Uranus and Eris, while now five Degrees apart (still plenty close for Projects such as our Rebirth), are both part of the Grand Unx, in cahoots with Sedna-Moon-Nodes.  If we stretch our Sensitivity we could even say that Uranus still Squares Pluto – that’s all about Reliving the 1960’s, right?

Seriously, remember that Expansion is one of the silent members of the PIAVA team.  We’ve probably all done Meditations where we Imagine ourself as big as the house, the neighborhood, the town, the riding, the shire, the island, the kingdom, the continent, the Planet, the Solar System, the Galaxy, to Infinity and Beyond.  There’s enormous Power in PIAVAing from that Expanded state.  As a Giant with a full bladder, what Land would you like to Irrigate?

As Naomi says, No Is Not Enough.  As Dr. Kim says, we need to change our Yes-Buts to Yes-Ands.  While What We Don’t Want might lead us to our Abandoned Orphans the way the white dudes led us to our Powerful Giant, we need to Focus on What We Do Want, and more particularly How We’ll Feel when we Receive or Achieve exactly that, because these are Precisely the Lunar Emotions that with enough Inertia will cement that Reality into Form.  So in your Personal Utopia, who would you have replace those white dudes in their pee-soaked suits and Royal-Class Lifetime healthcare, and what would they be selling us?  Maybe it would even be You that replaces them.

It’s Dynamic Creativity that focuses on Mechanism, on How we might Receive our Freedom from Oppression.  That works great when we’re copying something we already have and Know how to Make.  Magnetic Creativity, like Responsibility, focuses on Outcomes.  Unless we’re a World-Class inventor, Mechanisms are always Limited by what we Already Know.  Outcomes are only Limited by Imagination.  Failures of Imagination are caused by our Limiting Beliefs. 

Michael Roads’s Story for today is about Doubt…

“Doubt attempts to destroy trust, but trust is the killer of doubt.

“Any situation you are in that holds any doubt at all, simply trust.  If you doubt yourself, then look on it as an opportunity to learn to trust.  No matter how much doubt attempts to destroy trust, it cannot win.  Trust is the killer of doubt.  Trust, and keep on trusting.  If it all goes wrong,  you can rejuvenate doubt, or you can keep on with the power of trusting!

“No matter what it takes, trust, trust, and trust.  In what or whom do you trust?  You trust in the magnificent, metaphysical, multidimensional, immortal Being of Love and Light . . . your Self!  Never doubt this; you are capable, worthwhile, and powerful.  Your power is in your positive action.  Truly, positive action does not get more positive or powerful than when living your trust in Self. “

The Goddess of Trust Eurydike Conjoins the North Node (our Destination) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) on one corner of the Sedna-Moon-Nodes Grand Cross (Powerful Motivation) and Grand Unx (Powerfully Breaking Patterns).

The Midpoint of Sagittarius is the home of the “Great Attractor.”  No one knows what it is, but we and our neighbor Galaxies are all pouring toward it at Galactic speed.  Lilith is sitting in front of the Great Attractor, Channeling its Power into her Insatiable Lust for Self-Sovereignty.  She happens to be at the Focus of a Mjölnir (Epiphany), from Uranus-Eris (Yintegrity) and Mercury-Varuna (Awareness of the Life Force).  We’ll get to that soon, when we talk about the Klotho (Initiation of a New Timeline) and Sappho (Self-Love) Stations that are simultaneous with our Sedna-Moon-Nodes event.  The Stations are one Sign away (Breaking Patterns) from Lilith.

So it’s Clearly Time to find our Giantess of Power lurking back there in the Shadows of our Wholeness.  Don’t worry about Gender; We Be All One, remember?  If we could get five people all Feeling their Giantess of Power at once, we’d have a Movement.  Who knows what sort of Reality we might Manifest.

January Week 3 End – Big Doin’s

Whew, made it through the Ixion-Juno Initiation last night, but not without Tapping and Thetaing and Poor-Sweethearting for most of the night.  Our next Big Event is a Station of dwarf planet Haumea, 4am PST 22 January.  Haumea is Pele’s daughter, symbolizing Rebirth – by Fire!  It’s been within one Degree of Sensitivity to this Station since early November, so it’s a big part of what we’ve been Experiencing, as we’ve been trying to get as many of our Unconscious Masters (Archetypes, Karma, and Unfinished Business, O My) wrestled to the Ground so we can get Reborn as Cleanly as possible.

Now that “everything else” Big has gone under the bridge, the Rebirth part takes Center Stage.  Well, almost.  The Reality Show is still about

Bringing our Unconscious Fears Up Into Our Awareness in Order to Reclaim our Self-Sovereignty

for another week or so.  So this Rebirth is kind of a Mid-term in some ways.

By 1 February we’re firmly engaged in Rebuilding a New Timeline or Ego-Lifetime that’s based on Self-Love.

So a Laser Focus on Noticing any Self-Judgment for the next 7-10 days will pay big dividends.

Self-Judgment includes any Values you have that are Moral, or based on Either/Ors.  As Alan Watts informed us,

It’s Harder to Let Go of Good Karma than it is to Let Go of Bad Karma.

And we need to jettison both if we’re going to be able to approximate Self-Love.

Our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.  But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

If we betray our own Standards of Behavior, or fail to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect, we Make Amends and move on.  If we’re in the Habit of indulging Guilt or Remorse or the like (or having a big Reaction when others fail to treat us with Respect, which is just a Mirror for our own Lack of Self-Love), then we need to Change that Habit to Tapping it Out asap so we can get on with the Critically Important Work we’re doing Rebirthing the Planet one Psyche at a time (our own).  What was that Meditation threshold that squelched Crime?  One Percent of the Neighbors Meditating?

There’s a Catch here.  Two days after Haumea’s Station, asteroid Hopi Stations.  Hopi is about Respect for all Things.  Those Sentient Beings we have to Respect?  They don’t just include folks who look like you (regardless of Color).  They include Critters and Plants and Rocks and Dirt and Planets and Stars and anything that your mind is able to Separate from the Background Noise and assign a word to.  Oh, and the Background Noise is Sentient too, especially the Background Noise.  That’s the Unconscious, Master over most of our Behavior, thought, Emotion, and even our Physiology.

So we can say that again now, with the context more clear: It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.

But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.  How will we every Learn to Love our Pathological Genius otherwise?

Saturn, The Most Important Thing, is only three weeks and less than two Degrees away from being Initiated by Ixion, our Forbidden Genius.  

Meanwhile, the Great Amplifier Jupiter is only two weeks and a third of a Degree shy of its Station, and less than two Degrees from Haumea.  In other words this isn’t any ordinary Molt of our Identity exoskeleton (Haumea is Stationary twice a year after all), but a Big Rebirth.  And you might notice that Sedna, our Emissary of Fear as a Gift Reminder to Embrace ourself, is Stationary along with Jupiter.

So we have a Choice here.  We can be Reborn into Big Fear, or we can be Reborn into Big Love.  We Choose the latter by hunting down our Unconscious Fear with a Searching and Fearless Inventory, then Loving our Fear into Submission.

It’s a safe bet that most or all of our Judgments have their roots embedded deep in Fear.  So if you aren’t Scared this week and next, start Examining your Judgments.  What Unconscious Fears stand behind those?  That includes our “positive” Moral Judgments – “I’m Good because I…” – what Fears stand behind those?  What would happen if you chose Yintegrity  or Self-Trust instead of “Good”?

This is what we took Birth for, and why the Planet is so overpopulated with Beings wanting in on the Action.

In case you’ve lost the bigger plot, Jupiter-Haumea is one corner of the Forbidden-Genius-Recovery Golden Rectangle that encloses our Sedna-Lilith Recovering-Self-Sovereignty-by-Embracing-our-Fear Yin Gate, which is about to morph into a Building-a-New-Lifetime-Based-on-Self-Love Yin Gate.  And of course the huge Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since Time As We Know It Ended in 2012, is another corner of the Golden Rectangle.

19 January 1am PST Ixion Initiates Juno Sadge 26
      2am PST Mars WAxing Square Saturn Pisces-Sagittarius 24

22 January 4am PST Haumea Stationary Retrograde Libra 25

24 January noon PST Hopi Stationary Retrograde Libra 13
      11pm PST Chiron Initiates Venus Pisces 22-3

25 January 2am PST Veritas Stationary Direct Gemini 10

26 January: Moon on Pluto T-Squaring Jupiter and Uranus, 1am-11am PST (Moon on Pluto 1am PST, Moon Square Uranus 7am PST, Moon Square Jupiter 11am PST)

27 January: Sappho Conjunct Klotho Scorpio 22 Opposite Sedna-Aletheia in the Yin Gate, with Sedna Stationary
      Quaoar Enters Capricorn
      New Moon 4pm Aquarius 9

30 January: Venus Enters Shadow Period Pisces 27

1 February: Neptune Initiates Pallas Pisces 11

6 February: Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea Libra 24
      Sedna Stationary Direct Taurus 26

15 February: Ixion Initiates Saturn Sagittarius 26

Blind Cats Flying

A reader asks…

“You talked in one of your blogs of Mars initiating something which you described as “flying blind” and I had a dream about this.  It was the second dream about forgetting and I wondered if you could talk more about the memory asteroid.

“In the first dream I saw my beloved and long dead cat – he was thin and incontinent and being looked after by my cousin – I had forgotten about him and I felt bad – how could I have forgotten him when I had loved him so much?  This was clearly about my abandoned genius.

“The flying blind dream was about me flying a plane, a biplane or small plane with other people in it, but I wasn’t there, I was somewhere else at the time and I was aware the plane took off.  I felt confident I could go back to the plane, but when I tried to I realised I had forgotten how and by the end of the dream I had forgotten about the plane as I got involved with what was going on around me.

“Two powerful dreams for the beginning of the year with memory as the theme.  I would be grateful for any comments.”

Cats are potent symbols.  They make good Genii.  What happens when you imagine yourself Being your Cat?  Your cousin?

The “Flying Blind” Initiation was Mars-Neptune, something about the Relationship between the Physical and the Spiritual, between Effort and Magic, between Matter and Energy.  Close to the South Node as it is, this Initiation also can’t help being about the Loss of the Veil.  The Flying Blind part is like the Lilith-Sedna Mystery School – Accepting Paradox, reverting to “Beginner’s Mind.”   It may be as if the Veil is ripped off, but we can’t “see” what’s behind the Glass Darkly because we can’t assemble the Revealed into anything we Understand.

That’s the Paradox of Growth in Consciousness – because any Interpretation we make freezes us back into Duality, we have to be willing and able to leave the symbols behind the Veil Uninterpreted, and Allow ourself to stay in Perpetual Curiosity.  “I Wonder if there’s anything in these Dreams that I need to Understand Consciously, or if the Dream has already done its Work” would be a good PIAVA with the potential to bypass our pre-existing Birdcage.

Is there anything about the Physical that Frightens you?  Anything about the Metaphysical that elicits Fear?  A Searching and Fearless Inventory about Fear would be useful. with “You poor Sweetheart…”s and Tapping on whatever you find.  The Deep Energy is about getting Honest with ourselves about Fear.  With our Fears calmed by Compassion and Truth, we can Manifest directly…

http://danielscranton.com/contentment-creation-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

I’ve often been in half-awake state thinking about some affliction I or someone else has, and spontaneously started imagining making a herbal potion, with absolute certainty about what Herbs to use.  Then poof I “wake up” and have no idea what Herbs might work, if any.  That tells me that I’ve a Curandera or Curandero among my Parallels (corroborated by other parts of my Life), I’m just not ready to Identify fully with her or him yet.

What happens when you Imagine yourself Being the plane?  Imagining yourself Being one of the other folks in the plane might also provide Insight.

Your knowing you could return to the plane then Forgetting how sounds very similar; you have a Metaphysical-Traveler Shaman in your Parallels whom you can utilize as a Guide till you’re ready to Transcend All of your Parallels so you can freely access all of their Skills as you wish.  Have you read any of Robert Moss’s books on Dreams?  

After Eugene Gendlin’s Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams, I always try to leave my Dreams as Open as I can, so they don’t get trapped inside my a priori mental Dualities.  One way he recommends for that, is to append “…or something like that” to the end of every statement you would make about any possible meaning of the Dream.

The asteroid Mnemosyne is correlated with Memory, and it’s been traveling with the Uranus-Eris-Ceres Stellium.  So the “Ten Thousand Vignettes” of Memory that many of us have been having, is about Letting Go of our Masks and finding our Yintegrity.  Embracing our Fears and Recovering our Abandoned Genius are critically important parts of this.  Your Dream Stories sound very similar to our waking Vignettes.

13.12 Full Moon I

Everything we’ve just said about Portal 14.12 applies as well to the 13 December Full Moon – which also occurs at 4pm PST.  Plus a lot more.  The Bottom Line is that the Full Moon is about the Unlimited Potential that awaits us when we Fully Embrace our Abandoned Genius – and the Pain we’ll have to Endure to get there!

The Moon Conjoins dwarf planet Chaos, while the Sun Conjoins Ixion, both T-Squared by Chiron.

The Pain, though, is optional.  We can circumvent it by Embracing ourself with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really feeling Despair (or Confused, or Lost, or Scared), aren’t you” or the equivalent.  

A Chiron T-Square is about Mastering – through Challenge – the art of Changing Perspectives.  This is one of the reasons we keep preaching about “Cognitive Dissonance” or the Ability to hold two “Contradictory” Perspectives at the same time, often shortened to Both/And.  The Observing mind is Dual, and so recognizes Contradiction.  Reality is Multifarious and Unitary (Both/And) and so contains a lot of apparent Contradictions.  Call them Paradoxes if you don’t grok Both/And yet.  

News flash – Observed Reality is bigger than Observing mind, not the other way around!

End of sermon.  At any rate, Chiron represents Unhealable Wounds, Unsolvable Problems, Hopeless Cases, Impossible Causes.  We recommend “You poor Sweetheart…” Self-Empathy because Empathy Heals, and being non-Dual, Empathy doesn’t really much care if something appears Unhealable to the intellect.  Despair is, after all, an intellectual Problem.  Also, “You poor Sweetheart…”, like other PIAVAs, is Effortless and, if we succeed in Changing the Subject, fast.  So fast we often don’t notice that it worked!

Einstein himself informed us that we can’t solve a Problem using the same thinking that postulated the Problem – ie, if you want to solve the Problem, or rather, make the Problem go away, we need to Change our Perspective.  “You poor Sweetheart…” is an automatic Change of Perspective, because we’re no longer Identified with Despair, we’re now standing apart from ourself and Empathizing back to ourself, now Identifying with Compassion instead of Despair.

While Despair is an intellectual – Yang – Problem, Compassion is a Yin Response.  Response, not Solution.  A Solution to an intellectual Problem would be an intellectual Solution – not a Change of Perspective.  Sure, there’s an Emotional or Yin side to Despair, but there’s nothing Unhealable about Emotion (Empathy works Miracles); it’s only the intellectual cage that Despair traps our Emotions into that’s a circular maze.

We know from using PIAVA that Yin Responses to Problems or other Unpleasantries don’t work unless we get the mind out of the way, especially with Despair, because by definition there’s No Exit from Despair, no way to think your way out of it.  So we have to Change the Subject, somehow take our Attention and our intellectual grinder away from the intractable Problem that’s so compulsively attractive to us, and find something else to occupy them.

That’s not always easy to do, especially since most of us have at least one Lifetime Unsolvable Problem.  So even if our Present Problem isn’t an exact Mirror for our Lifetime Hassle or Karma, we can’t help but borrow the format from our Lifetime Hassle, because we’re so “good” at the methodology of grinding.  Or non-methodology.  Einstein also supposedly said that Responding (or more appropriately, Reacting) the same way and expecting different results would be a good definition for insanity.

So the basic Problem becomes unhooking the mind from the Object of its Fixation and Frustration.  That’s actually something we can PIAVA, or even “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Fixated here, aren’t you.”  Alternate that with Tapping – “Even though I’m really Fixated here, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  Even a Chocolate bar is likely to Change the Subject, if you “You poor Sweetheart…” yourself first.

End of sermon, again.  Didn’t intend to get into all that, but it’s one of the most important things about the Full Moon, and we haven’t gone through it ad naseum recently, and really, can we say it too much?  What else about the Full Moon?

Oh yeah, there’s the part about the Embracing our Abandoned Genius without getting Lost in the Unlimitedness.  This is the Golden Rectangle we’ve been talking about for a while now, and the Moon sits right on one of its Oppositions, the one we’ve considered the more important one, because it’s the most Challenging – dwarf planet Chaos (the Zero Point Field) Opposite dwarf planet Ixion (Rejected or Pathological Genius).  

In fact, for many of us, the Chironean Despair we face is rooted in the fact that someone else is Acting Out a Bigger-Than-Life Mirror for Pathological Genius in plain sight, even while he makes an even better Mirror for the Bullying Parents or Teachers that originally forced us to Repress our own Pathological Genii.  Or more deeply, for the Tyrant that Repressed us in that other Lifetime where we were Powerless.  Oh yeah, that Lifetime.  Dass vergangen Leben.  Oh, there were many like that, Massa Sir?  Well, small Wonder we’re in Despair.

Double Mirrors.  Coyote is the ultimate Trickster; we shouldn’t expect otherwise when we’re prying Open Pandora’s Box, er, I mean, the Unconscious.

Speaking of Pandora, she just happens to be sitting on the Haumea corner of the Golden Rectangle.  What a Coincidence!

The other Opposition in the Golden Rectangle is Haumea-Pandora (Rebirth into the “Naughty” Feminine) Opposite Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Tolerating the Horrible Memories of all the times when we were forced to Suppress our True Self, in order to make our Yintegrity Permanent).

And by the way, the Sedna-Lilith Yin Gate (Becoming Aware of our Fear around our own Self-Sovereignty and PIAVAing to Heal It) is still well within our Sensitivity.

Which brings us to a need for a note about some of the players here, particularly Chaos, Pandora, and Lilith, not to mention Eris.  All four of these Lasses have been cast as questionable characters in the development of the Patriarchy.  

• Dwarf planet Chaos is named for the Confusing Powerlessness that came before the Greek Gods straightened things up – that is, for the Matriarchy and Communion and Union with Nature.
• Pandora was Blamed for unleashing all manner of difficulty and torture on the hapless males of the Greek world.
• Lilith goes back even further as a miscreant for refusing to kneel to Adam’s self-proclaimed Superiority.
• And Eris of course, She of the Golden Apple, was Blamed for all manner of difficulty, including the Trojan War, when she was only illuminating the Vanity of Ego and its Contrast to the True Beauty of Walking in our own Heart’s Truth.  And of course that Vanity of Ego was just another Greek slap in the face of Women.

So we aren’t going to get any support from the dominant Western Cultures for any of what we’re doing.  In fact, both internally and externally, we’ll be facing a lot of Guilt for wanting to Transgress any number of Oaths we have made to “Behave” and never do that again, not to mention the Twittered Projected Guilt from others over Oaths that they Believe we should have made, even if we didn’t. 

We’ll talk more about the role of Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) in the 13.12 Full Moon chart, and the 14.12 Pallas-Mars Initiation chart, in Full Moon II.

Support from Wise Women we know, yes, for sure, seek it out, wallow in it, Embrace it, Pay it Forward.  Wise Woman Susun Weed was where I first learned about Both/And, after all.