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The Most Important Thing 2

May 11, 2020

Yay!  Kristin Metcalfe has directed us to https://serennu.com/astrology/ephemeris.php as a place to get lists of asteroids and dwarf planets sorted by Degree, so we can find Heavenly Bodies that we don’t normally use, which will fill out an Almost-Big-Configuration!  Hooray!  Thanks a million, Kristin!  For example, our 7 May 2020 Full Moon 19 Virgo Vacancy in the Potential-Grand-Sextile, is occupied by an asteroid (Asclepius) named after the Greek God of Healing.  Goddess knows we can use that!

Meanwhile, let’s take the most intense Challenge (T-Square) in today’s 10 May (9:09 pm PDT) Priorities astroevent (Station of Saturn in 2 Aquarius – Yay Again!  I discovered how to use this color without having to post-process the whole post), and see what happens if we consider it an Almost-Complete-Configuration.

I’ll start with our traditional interpretation process, where the planet at the focus of the Challenge (in this case asteroid Sappho [Self-Love] at 30 Virgo) is Worried by a False Dichotomy (Opposition or Duality, False because the Universe isn’t Dual; here the Nodal Axis [our Life Path], with a Big Party on the South Node – dwarf planets Ixion, Pholus, and Quaoar [Climate Change and how our Unique Genius will handle it]).  The Challenge is basically then, How are we going to Love Ourselves Unconditionally when we know that our Culture and most of our Species is on a Suicidal trajectory and people just Glaze Over when we point out that the Sky is Falling? 

But of course we have to Take Responsibility for our own Unique Genius, “Save Ourself,” let our Tribe find us, and Let Go of the folks that the Sky will Fall upon.  They have their own Free Will, whether they Recognize it or not.  They who Fart in Church sit in their own Pew.  We can have Empathy and Compassion for them, but do we really want to Follow them to their Self-Genocide.  You can Martyr yourself in front of their bulldozers if you want, but that’ll just Bloody things up.

I know, we Fear that they will Destroy our Planet and leave us without a decent Home, but the Planet we Live on is a Mirror for our own Inner Peace or Lack thereof.  The notion that our Planet is Only Physical, and therefore unable to Manifest Differently to each Observer, is a 3D Trance that we need to be willing to shed.  Life is an Interaction between the Consciousness Constellated around our Identity (ie, “Me”) and the Rest of the Universe (from our Viewpoint, “the Unconscious”).  In Energy terms, it’s a complex Diffraction Pattern (Hologram) Created when these two complex Energy Waves cross one another.

So then, can we find a planet that Opposes the symbol for Self-Love and Completes the Grand Cross, which would then be Balanced?  Yes we can.  It’s the symbol for The Lord of the Wind (Trans-Neptunian Object Manwë, aka 385446, aka 2003QW [Tolkien’s Lord of Wind, Air, and Birds] at 29 Pisces).  Wind is Uranian, the Higher Manifestation of Mentality.

In its Discovery chart (25 August 2003 in Chile), 150km-wide Manwë is Conjoined by a Retrograde Mars [Action Behind the Scenes] and Opposed by asteroid Arachne [Grandmother Spider, who Weaves the Web of Life that we Live in] and Worried (T-Squared) by dwarf planet Chaos [Unlimited Potential] on one side and Ixion-Quaoar [Survival of our Unique Genius] on the other, making a Grand Cross.  Which is to say that the Actions of our Unique Genius (Ixion) will Open Doors that will never again be Closed (Chaos) – if we Allow our Genius out of its Cage.

The Mars-Manwë T-Square in the Manwë Discovery chart is also Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star) that will Resolve the Issues that it Opens.  The Path which the Resolution follows will Lead through (the feet of the Manwë Finger of the Goddess, namely) Rebirth (dwarf planet Haumea) and Trust (asteroid Eurydike).  That is, we need to be Willing to Abandon Ourself (Eurydike) to the Dark Unknown in the Rabbit Hole of Ego Death (Haumea) in order to Coax our Genius out of Their Closet.

So to give this symbol for the Lord of the Wind (Manwë) a one-breath phrase or keyword to use should we encounter it again, we might use Stepping Off into the Unknown, also a reminder that this Lord Lives on a Mountaintop.

So then, How are we going to Love Ourselves Unconditionally when we know that our Culture and most of our Species is on a Suicidal trajectory and people just Glaze Over when we point out that the Sky is Falling?  We’re going to Trust that our Hidden, probably Forbidden, Unique Genius will plot an Effective Course for us, if we Give ourselves Permission to Break the Rules that imprison Her, or Him, or Them.

Thus Emboldened, let’s Risk going a step further.  There’s one planet five Signs away (a Quincunx) from the Focus of the Challenge (the Sappho T-Square).  If there was a second planet also five Signs away in the other direction (making a Finger of the Goddess), we’d have a Self-Resolving Challenge (a Diamond Star)!  Why not make it Easy on ourself?

Well, turns out there is a planet there, an asteroid.  The symbol for the Goddess of the Soul Completes this Major Configuration (asteroid Psyche at 1 Taurus).  We’ve met this lady before, though it’s been a while.

So now, Where will we Look to see How Unconditional Love Heals our Culture and our Species from its Suicidal trajectory so we don’t have to Run Around shouting that the Sky is Falling?  We’re going to Trust that as the Goddess of the Soul (asteroid Psyche) Merges with Our Own Soul as it Descends into Matter (Uranus in Taurus), our Forbidden Unique Genius (Ixion) will Break Free from its Hiding and Find its True Effortless Role in Creating a Safe Place for Us and Others on Earth.

This Merger (Uranus Initiating / Conjunct Psyche) occurs on 26 May at 3pm PDT (in 9 Taurus, “A fully decorated Christmas Tree“) and Begins a New 5-year Cycle where we may Learn to Celebrate Ego Death as a Rainbow of Light Penetrating the Darkness of our Unfulfilled Desires.  Each time we Lovingly Embrace an Ego Death we get closer to EnLightenment.

This is more Indirect than I prefer to go, but it verifies that the process works.  Next time I will probably go directly to Filling a Vacancy in a Self-Resolving Challenge rather than Filling a Grand Cross Vacancy, if there’s already one five-Sign connection.

Over the course of writing these blogs we’ve tried to make a Big Deal out of our Reaction to Confusion, hoping to Learn and Teach us to Embrace Confusion Directly as an Emotion, without trying to Fix it or Change it or Trying to Figure It Out.  When we succeed in Eliminating Confusion we Eliminate personal Growth, and it we have a Goal of EnLightenment or Ascension or any other form of Growth, we Sabotage ourself.

And separately, over the course of writing these blogs we’ve tried to make a Big Deal out of how we deal with Curiosity.  Many or most of us have been trained to Believe that Curiosity should Inspire us toward Knowledge, that Curiosity automatically seeks Understanding, that it’s a Question seeking an Answer.  We’ve tried to Shift that to Curiosity in the Infantile sense of Wonder or Awe.  More “Wow, isn’t that Amazing!” than “I need to Figure Out how that works.”  More “I Wonder at that!” than “I Wonder How That Works.”

Curiosity is the primary keyword assigned to the five-Sign Angle (Quincunx), in both Ego astrology and Growth astrology.  But in Growth astrology we want you to replace the Question Mark that follows Curiosity in Ego astrology, with a period.  With PIAVA, if we don’t Change the Subject after our Prayer, Thinking rapidly removes the Opportunity for Change by reinstating our old Limiting Belief System, fencing out what we’ve PIAVAed.  It’s Thinking that considers Curiosity to be a Question and does the dirtywork of reinstating our old Limiting Belief System and blocking what we could have Learned.

The other Major Angles connect Signs that are Related…

  • Three-Sign Angles (Squares) connect planets in the same Quality – Creative (Cardinal), Stabilizing (Fixed), Changing (Mutable).
  • Four-Sign Angles (Trines) connect planets in the same Element – Spirit (Fire), Matter (Earth), Emotion (Water), Mind (Air).
  • Two-Sign Angles (Sextiles) connect planets in the same Polarity – Dynamic (Masculine) or Magnetic (Feminine).

But Five-Sign Angles (Quincunxes) Connect planets in Different Elements and Different Qualities.  Categories and Judgments are useful, but they are also Arbitrary, and Inhibit us from Recognizing the Unity and Infinite Variety of Reality.  They are products of Thought and its need to reduce everything to Duality.

The Five-Sign Quincunx Angle offers us Opportunities to Look at the World a little Differently, subtly slipping out of our Habit of Naming and Constraining and Limiting everything we Encounter.  When we Ask a Biomancer to Teach us how to Listen to Plants, the first thing they tell us is to Let Go of any Names we’ve associated with the Plant.  Try it – unless you’re having Senior Moments (which have their advantages), that’s not easy to do.  But when we consider Curiosity to be a Question seeking an Answer, we blithely Discard that Opportunity to Learn and Grow in Consciousness.

Is your Life absolutely Perfect the way it is?  Then don’t Change your Habits of dealing with Confusion and Curiosity as Invitations to Research.  Otherwise, PIAVA to Disrupt them, post-haste.

The current Priority astroevent (Saturn Station at 2 Aquarius) happens close to a Sign Cusp.  We usually use three Degrees of Sensitivity (“Orb” in astrologuese).  That means that we may have Major Angles between planets in Different Qualities or Elements.  For instance,

  • The Self-Love symbol (Sappho) at the End of the Ego-Death Sign (30 Virgo)

makes a Major Angle (Trine) to

  • The Top-Priority symbol (Stationary Saturn) Early in the Group Relationships Sign (2 Aquarius).

There’s less than three Degrees Difference between them, but they Connect Changing Matter (Mutable Earth) to Stabilized Thought (Fixed Air) – Different Qualities and Different Elements.  Another Opportunity to see the World through Different Eyes and Potentially Crack Open our Ossified Perspective on “Reality.”

Since Four-Sign Angles (Trines) are considered Benefic precisely because they Connect Signs in the same Element, there’s even a legitimate Question whether Cuspal Trines are Trines at all.  All six Angles that the Self-Love symbol (Sappho) makes include Cross-Cuspal Angles.

Here, by the way, is the chart for the Saturn Station – a Flying Squirrel with one ear missing…

It’s a bit crude, but you’ll have to bear with me.  It’s been more than 50 years since my Cartography degree – I looked for my tools but couldn’t find them, so I had to draw it by hand.  My Canon printer turned ink-cartridge up, and thanks to the Spumonivirus the same brand wasn’t available, so I had to buy an HP printer.  Of course it wouldn’t talk to the ancient HP laptop that makes my charts.  So we’ll have to make do for a while.

Changes IV

January 29, 2020

Just a quick note to say that, while we may or may not be Adjusted to the Changes of the last three weeks (which are not at all routine or minor), this week is relatively quiet, in terms of new hurdles and portals.  We’re soon back into a couple of major new Adjustments, though, as we continue to Adapt to the Big Changes of 10-12 January 2020.

Next week we’ll cover several additional Lessons, mostly about Self-Love, Fear, Power, and Karma (5 February Station of asteroid Sappho/ Self-Love-and-its-Dark-Mirror, 7 February Stations of dwarf planet Sedna/Conversion-of-Fear-to-Power and asteroid Juno/Growth-in-Consciousness, 8 February Extinguishment-of-Karma Full Moon, and Mars/Action-and-Anger moving Out-of-Bounds 9 February through 2 March; Stations emphasize the Energy of a planet in the week or so prior, and the Energy of a planet is also emphasized while it is Out of Bounds).

To review, the Big Changes of 10-12 January were centered on the start of a New 35-year Cycle that forms the Zeitgeist that we Live In (12 January Pluto-Saturn/Transformation-Priority Initiation and related 10 January Lunar Eclipse), shaped by Descent of Soul and Insight into What Limits us (simultaneous 10 January Stations of Uranus/Soul into Matter/Taurus and dwarf planet Eris/Revelation-of-What’s-Been-Denied).

Since then we’ve Felt a Gauntlet of ancillary Changes, in Identity (14 January Station of asteroid Nemesis/Ego Death), Creative Power (24 January Manifestation New Moon and Lunar New Year), and a Whole New Rebirth (26 January Station of Haumea/Rebirth).

By way of preparation for the Big Changes, we Reviewed and Revised how we use our Creative Energy (4 January Station of dwarf planet Makemake/Manifestation), and began a major New TimeLine that will Change our Relationship to our Karma (6 January Station of asteroid Klotho/New Beginnings and Initiation of a New 7-year South Node-Jupiter Cycle/Expanded Attention to our Held Emotions).

We also started the Year and Decade with a Major Challenge to How We Deal with Our Karma (1 January Initiation of a New 5-year Cycle of asteroid Karma with Chiron/The-Edge-between-Being-Victimized-by-our-Karma-and-Becoming-Adept-with-It).  As a primary (or even The Most Prominent) feature of the birth chart for the Year and Decade, this Drama will characterize our experience of 2020 and 2020-2029.

Find more details about these Shifts in the posts we’ve published since the beginning of the year.

Along the way we’ve ignored a number of minor astroevents, simply because they were overshadowed by the Biggies.   These include…

  • Becoming more Practical about how we deal with the Absolutes that we harbor in our Hearts, which should be Beacons that Guide our Actions, but which we often instead use as Judgments to cudgel Other Folks who have Different Absolutes in their own Hearts (10 January Egress of asteroid Aletheia/Truth-of-the-Heart into Capricorn/Just-Fix-It).
  • Becoming more Practical about the Boundaries we set with these Other Folks (18 January Egress of asteroid Pallas/ Boundaries into Capricorn/Solution-Orientation).
  • Becoming more Heartfelt about our Respect for Other Beings and Things (19 January Egress of asteroid Hopi/ Judgment into Pisces/Compassion).
  • Becoming more Trustful of our Guides (26 January Egress of asteroid Eurydike/Trust into Aries/Spiritual-Creativity).
  • Becoming less Ruled by Self-Doubt (26 January end of a fourteen-year Out-of-Bounds episode by dwarf planet Chariklo/Self-Confidence-and-Self-Doubt, since November 2004).

If you Experience the Opposite of any of these Energies, Recognize that the Energy is prompting you to Let Go Of precisely that Habitual Reaction to events and entities, so you can replace the Reaction with a more Positive and Enjoyable Response.  We are creatures of Habit – Imagine how Unmanageable (and Awesome!) Life would be without Habits.  But the result of our Programming is that we are often slow to Respond to Changes in the Energy Fields that Embrace us, and sometimes we make Life a lot harder by Resisting these Changes entirely.

I Guess We’re Here

January 13, 2020

Brenda Hoffman has an intriguing message for today…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2020/01/13/your-co-creators-have-arrived/

“January 12, 2020, is a watershed date in your lives and that of all inhabiting earth at this time. For it is as if something clicked inside your hearts, your beings that shifted you from fear to love.

“This shift will not be displayed immediately because many, perhaps including you, have to adjust to the new sensations this shift created. Even though you might have been prepared for something before January 12, this something has never been experienced by you or any earth being. It is as if a shaft of light pierced your tough earth shell.

“Perhaps you think that such comments are a fairytale for how is it possible that one day can create such upheaval?

“This shift will cause many to feel that what was up is now down, and what was down is now up. Because these new sensations will feel unnatural, frightening, it is likely something most will not discuss them. For they will believe that doing so makes them seem odd.

“Those of you in the know will merely adjust as you have to every other burst of energy throughout your earth life. Others, feeling as if their life has been turned upside down, will be the most frightened.

“Even though humans are familiar with the fear of change, this energy event is a tsunami of change. It will be as if someone woke up one night with a new emotional body and must do everything in the dark without understanding how to do so. There will be fear and anger. Not because this shift is bad or damaging, but because it will seem so foreign. So it is many will test these new feelings by doing the exact opposite of their intuitive directives. A confusing time for most.

“You, the forerunners, will slip into your new being easily and effortlessly for you have prepared to do so since you began this transition.

“Those not as open to transitioning beyond 3D as you will be confused and attempt to return to their former feelings only to discover they can not.

“This is a mass transition of proportions you can not begin to envision. For anyone who has dreamt of moving beyond fear and angst will shift rapidly. Such does not mean that in two days all of the earth will be like you, but instead that everyone who wishes to will have their heart opened.

“January 12, 2020, is not a day to take lightly. Allow yourself to move as you wish. And allow the same for all others. For their fear will be displayed long before their heart actions. Just as was true for you when you initiated your transition. The difference is, you have likely been in transition for decades or years. Those now at the beginning stages will shift within days or months.

“You are their beacon – allowing those frightened to know that all is well.

“You will also shift. But your shift will be polishing more facets of your diamond being. Those beginning their transition are discovering their diamond self in the rough.

“Your role and only role is to continue a joy focus. For if you allow yourself to be in fear with those just beginning to transition, they will become more frightened, perhaps not even able to function.

“You are the beacons of the world. Allow yourself to know and accept that.

“All who wish are transitioning or beginning their transition as of January 12th, 2020. You have little to do other than to inform those who wish to know that all is well.”

Well, as they say, “Trust but Verify.”

But then, according to our own previous post, aside from the main effect of 12 January’s Big astroevent about Transforming (Pluto) our Priorities (Saturn) to accommodate (Squared by) What’s Been Denied (dwarf planet Eris) – along with its embellishments (Mercury/Awareness, dwarf planet Chariklo/Confidence-and-Doubt) – the Big Challenge (T-Square) was about Trust (asteroid Eurydike), wasn’t it.  The Challenge to Trust was from the Veracity of the Shift (asteroids Veritas/Facts and Bee-Zed/Transcendence) and our Insights about the Incredible Scope of the Change (dwarf planets Asbolus/Intuition and Chaos/Unlimited-Potential)!

And that doesn’t even include what we Believe to define the context for the 12 January event (namely the 10 January Stations/Strength of Uranus/Soul-or-Consciousness which in Taurus is Descending into Matter, and of Eris/Revelation itself, along with the Eclipse/Illumination), which we might summarize as Huperity Becoming Aware that Matter has been Conscious all along.  Which is the Missing Core Belief in the Western Worldview that is Messing Up the Planet for Huperity and Everyone Else.

So unless Brenda has been reading this blog, which I very much doubt, her post is a remarkable “Coincidence.”  What I’ve been Feeling, myself, is quite a lot of Fear.  I’ve been working with it, Tapping and PIAVAing to get Grounded, but even then I’ve Lacked Clarity on a couple of Issues that seem Important.  Till this morning.  Then I remembered to Poor-Sweetheart myself –

“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Scared, aren’t you.”

And Wham, suddenly there’s Excitement, tonnes of it!  Now I even Remember to Breathe, and to Kegel if necessary!

Busy August V

August 7, 2019

“Just when we begin to feel expert and comfortable, that is exactly when the nature of life’s restless heart forces us to move completely out of that previously comfortable era into one in which we are hopelessly inexpert.  In every stage it is as if we have to learn how to live all over again.  Though normal and unavoidable, often these natural life changes can be experienced as deep losses…

“The grief of raising children who are golden original mind-boggling beautiful sprites who become teenagers who hate us and want to get as far away from us as possible, or the grief of watching those same kids become adults as limited, afraid, and rigid as we are… are just a few of the stages of living filled with grief that are totally expected.

“For this reason, though natural, common, and anticipated, it is also just as right that we should deeply express these changes as losses through grief.  For this reason, in most of the world’s natural cultures, these changes are understood and experienced tribally as lines that must be crossed ritually with the help of the entire village…

“Natural culture doesn’t need to address life changes with therapy because they anticipate these changes and have a place for the grief.  These rituals of life changes are the major parts of their tribal everyday spiritual existence.  In this way grief is not left hanging but is converted into ritual beauty and culture-supporting continuity, which is not only experienced by the people in a massive communal way, but in a massive communal way these rituals also have the people giving life back to the Divine that gives life to them and the world.”

–Martín Prechtel, The Smell of Rain on Dust, pp.9-10.

Folks of our ilk may so Celebrate the Solstices and Equinoxes, and maybe even the Cross-Quarter Days.  But the sort of Celebrations that Martín describes are less common, and more important.  And it reminds us that one Loss we often Fear but seldom Grieve is Ego Death.  Astrology schedules Ego Deaths for us frequently – such as this week.

The symbol for our Soul (Uranus) and the symbol for Expansion (Jupiter) are both Strong (Stationary) on 11 August, and the impact of the Expansion part is greatly amplified (Jupiter Stations in front of the mid-Sagittarius “Great Attractor” and the “Shapley Supercluster,” two Galaxy Clusters, one behind the other, both mostly behind the Milky Way, and each stronger than the previous, that pull all of us toward them with a Gravitational Force thousands of times that of the Milky Way itself).

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In other words, you can say, “Oh, No Thanks!” but it won’t much help.

With our Uranian Soul symbol in the Sign of Matter (Taurus), we’ve recently begun a seven-year period that we can safely call The Descent of Soul into Matter.  Soul is Asking us to Expand a great deal beyond our usual day-to-day Limitations and Habits.  Just as an example, Soul is immortal, so while it may be Compassionate, it doesn’t have the Fear of Death that “we” – our Egos – have.  So we have to Expect that it will show us pictures of Death, in a “gentle” attempt to help us move closer to Recognizing our Immortality as Souls.

Energy precedes Matter, so if we continue to Project Demise and Fear of it out in front of us, more Death is what we’ll Create.

No question that it’s usually inconvenient to have to Surrender a Lifetime where we undoubtedly have Unfinished Business, but even in that circumstance we can reframe the Ego’s Intention as helping us to move closer to Recognizing what’s Really Important – our Ego’s education! That’s a lot more important than any Unfinished Business.  It’s the inept Political notion of Karma as Retribution that leads to the conclusion that Unfinished Business weighs us down.  Sure, we can rue Unfinished Business and thus make Karma out of it, but that’s just a different Curriculum we can Choose.

But Martín is right that All Losses Must Be Grieved, and every Ego Death is a Loss.  Rather than Respectfully and Gratefully Grieve our Ego Deaths after the fact, we usually Burn Up the same Energy in Fear before the fact.  We can Feel it coming on, and the Ego starts pedaling backwards as fast as it can.  We Expect a huge Soul Download over the next several days.  Open to it.  Invite it.

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Invite your Transition to be Loving and Gentle, and Ask your Current Ego to Respond to it with Respect, Gratitude, Surrender, and Relief.  Remind your Current Ego that it’s done a fabulous job of Keeping You Alive (its job description) so far, remind it that it can Trust the Soul to do a great job of selecting a bright-eyed Happy New You for the next assignment, and give it one last Hug.

In fact, Trusting the Soul is the biggest Challenge this week (asteroid Eurydike [Trust] Square Stationary Uranus).  And the basic process is all about Manifesting Miracles into Form by Following our Inner Voices (dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation] Opposite Chiron [Despair/Miracles] and at the Focus of a Finger of God from the Sextile between Uranus itself and dwarf planet OR10 [Intrusive Memories])

We may have to be tricky to Hear the Voices (OR10) – Sitting Silently with our Eyes closed and Shushing the mind, for instance, or Clearing our Current-Moment Thoughts and Paying Attention to Random Memories or Stories that cross our mind – maybe a plot from last week’s TV show, a Stranger you passed today who reminded you of someone, a Strange but somehow familiar Smell, or a sudden Memory of a tale your favorite Aunt told you when you were but a golden original mind-boggling beautiful sprite yourself.

Don’t Strain – the Stories and Voices are meant to Trigger your Intuition, so making it Stressful will just clamp the tubing.  You Want only Joy and Fun here; certainly your Soul wound Want it that way.  Be continually Mindful for Bummers, and Poor-Sweetheart them or Tap them Out.  When Bummers arise, know that they’re Up so you can Let Go of them (Chiron)

If no Bummers arise, Look for them!  We all have Beliefs that we Accept as Just the Way It Is (Chiron), and those are the fences that keep us as limited, afraid, and rigid as we are.  But we Accept them as Just the Way It Is, so we aren’t Aware that they keep us Limited, Afraid, and Rigid.  When we Open those Windows, Miracles await just beyond the Pane.

Jupiter will be Lighting Up our natal planets in the neighborhood of 15 Degrees, and Uranus those in the vicinity of 7 Degrees.

Trust III

June 24, 2019

Here’s the Eurydike Station chart…

First thing we notice is the red triangle (T-Square), symbolic of Challenge.  Its focus is an astrological symbol for Codependence (dwarf planet Hylonome, the Y-on-a-unicycle), which means that our Identity is Entangled with another Entity.  The basic difference between Empathy and Codependence is that an Empath Knows that the Experienced Emotions are not their own; a Codependent does not.  Many Empaths are Unable, Unwilling, or Untrained to shake off the Emotions of others, but that’s a separate – and complex – issue.

The base of the triangle contradistinguishes (Opposes) the symbol for Boundaries (asteroid Pallas, a diamond on a cross) with the symbol for Ending TimeLines (asteroid Atropos).  A TimeLine can be a Lifetime, any episode of one’s Life, a particular Habit that plays a prominent role in one’s Life for a period of time, or any other interaction between Time and Life.  So this T-Square comes down to a Challenge to Consciously Create New Kinds of Boundaries that Eliminate Unproductive Codependence.

Classic examples – Learning to Love while Acknowledging and Celebrating Difference; Holding a Job without Identifying with its Role or Allowing it to Define our Security; Trusting our Resilience to Survive in almost any Circumstances; The Ability to stick to a Budget when our Expenditures Define Who We Are.

When we Believe that we’re someone that we aren’t, we’re usually Confused about our Values, because we are trying to Live from two different Hearts.  We can’t really Trust ourself, because we aren’t always Acting to our own Benefit.  In Supporting someone else’s Values, we can Betray our own, Abandoning ourself.  We have to Remediate this Consciously, because if we do it Unconsciously (by Blaming the Other and Leaving the Relationship for instance), we Learn nothing and will Repeat the Self-Abandonment.

This interlude of focus on Trust provides an Opportunity for becoming Conscious of our Codependence and taking steps to Remedy it.  Notice that the Stationary Eurydike connects the two ends of the base of the T-Square, but with blue lines (a Trine Bridge).  Blue lines symbolize Grace, indicating that Trust is an alternative to Codependence here.  Trusting that the Person or Job or other Entity or Object that we’re Codependent with has our own interests at heart?  I don’t think so.  I think it would be more about Trusting that we can Survive on our own, without Sacrificing our Identity to an Outside Object, or at least to the Outside Object that’s Lit Up for you now.

Codependence/Hylonome also connects the two ends of the long red line that is a Contradistinction (Opposition) between the symbol for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus, the N-on-a-Unicycle) and Making or Breaking Oaths (dwarf planet Orcus).  We can read this as Forgiving our Codependence when it Protects us from Abuse, and that may be relevant in some cases.  But in the context of Growing Consciousness, it’s more likely to be about Becoming Aware of situations, through our Codependence, that Allow us to identify a source of Oaths we’ve made in the past which Limit us today.

For instance, if I have a Codependent Relationship with Money, did I make a Decision sometime in the past never to appear Poor?  If so, was that Decision based on Pride?  On the obvious correlation between Poverty and Powerlessness?  How old was I when I made such a Decision?  What else was going on at the time in my Family of Origin?  Was a Past or Parallel Life involved?

The long green lines (Quincunxes, connecting planets five Signs apart) are all about Curiosity, especially Curiosity of the sort that Inspires genuine Interest, not to “Figure It Out,” but to Fully Appreciate its apparent Uniqueness and Difference.  There are three such Questions, each relating to a short green line signifying Pattern-Breaking (Unxes, connecting planets one Sign apart)

  • I Wonder (Quincunx) which Oaths (Orcus) I can Trust (Eurydike) to Reveal (Unx) the sources of my Codependence (Hylonome) so I can Let it Go.
  • I Wonder how I might modify my Boundaries (Pallas) in order to Break my Habit (Unx) of Trusting (Eurydike) my Privilege (Nessus).
  • I Wonder what Oaths (Orcus) I can Revert (Atropos) to curtail (Unx) Abuse (Nessus).

Lots to Wonder about, and a few days off to Indulge in Wondering, as our next major astroevent isn’t till the 2 July New Moon.  However, the New Moon is in the same 11th Degree as the Eurydike Station, so these same planets are involved, and many of the same Angles.  So we’ll be continuing to work with these issues.

For instance, the New Moon Opposes Hylonome/Codependence and T-Squares Pallas/Boundaries.  Moira/Choice has moved into position to create a Yin Gate with its Opposition to Eurydike/Trust, indicating a Mysterious Non-Dual Relationship between Choice and Trust.  We’ll map all this out soon.

Trust II

June 24, 2019

Before we look at the Eurydike Station chart, let’s look at a possible strategy you can use if and when Scarcity rears up.  Our tools are described in…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/11/02/piavac/

in case you need to read or re-read about Tapping and Theta.

We’ll start with Tapping…

“Even though I’m in Scarcity about … , I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”

You might be in Scarcity about anything that you Desire.  If you feel Panicked about it (it is after all Scare-City), add some Kegels.  You may need to repeat the Tapping with the same or a different intro phrase, if your Emotions are Lit Up.  Once you’re Grounded and relatively Composed, switch to Theta…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command Abundance about … .  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess!”  (Breathe)  “Show me!”

If needed you can add a Time-Line, such as “…Abundance about… Before …”

If your Insight, in whatever way it usually works, Shows you that all is well, Fantastic!  You may See it, Feel it, Hear it, just get a Gut Feel, etc.  Now your best plan would be to Change the Subject.

If you don’t get a Clear Picture that What You Want is on the truck heading your way, then Ask what’s holding it back.  You may get a sense of Hesitation while you’re It-Is-Doneing, or you may have to Ask for Clarity if you aren’t Sure what the holdup is.

Then you would go back to Tapping…

“Even though I’m in Resistance about … , I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”

or…

“Even though I’m Unsure why I seem to be in Resistance to … , I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”

If you get any Resolution through Tapping, you can return to Theta to again Command What You Want.  The Command itself may or may not Change as you Explore it.  You could also Tap and Theta about Trust, and what Inhibits you from Trusting.

Trust I

June 24, 2019

It’s been an Intense week, and now we’re waking up with a bit of a hangover.  You may be facing a Pack of Yes-Buts, or just Ruing Mondays.  We’ve seen Abundance and Confusion modeled for us, and now we may be Confused about all of it.

Know that the Abundance that’s been suggested may be preceded by a Need to Let Go of any Blocks that have Prevented you from Enjoying Abundance in the Past.  So if you Encounter Scarcity, know that it’s Temporary unless you Grasp It again.  I’ll flesh out a Recommendation later today for dealing with Scarcity in the current environment.  Remember that Karma is Dead, but in many cases it’s all we know, so when it docks we’re more than happy to jump aboard because we unknowingly Prefer Familiarity to Liberation – especially when Confusion Is Afoot.

For now though, the Dominant Theme is Trust, as the astrological symbol for Assurance (asteroid Eurydike) is at peak Strength (Stationary until 9:30 pm PDT 24 June).  While the symbols for Abundance were Strong and Beneficial last week, they also signified that your Resistance could be Tested.  What, Resistance?  Who would Resist Abundance?  Well, how much consistent Abundance have you Enjoyed thus far in this Lifetime?  If it hasn’t been Overwhelmingly Fabulous, then you have Resistance, and you may well have Opportunities to Experience it or even Re-Experience its Origins.

If you do, Recognize that no one else is to Blame for it.  Someone else might be Blameworthy for its Origin, but now it’s completely up to you to Reframe it as your Resistance, and Acknowledge and Embrace your Emotions around it.  I have to run an errand, but when I return we’ll Explore this Trust thing more fully.

Whaddawe Make of That?

June 12, 2019

‘Twould be great if we could kick off our shoes and lean back after the last week of hard work around Abuse and Privilege, but, no dice.  Solstices are about Starting Over on something.  At the Equinoxes we Begin New Projects, and for the last couple of weeks we’ve been critiquing the Projects we began at the Ides of March.  What worked?  What didn’t?  What could be improved?  Next week we start Version 2.0, but the only thing we have to keep is What We Learned.  So Version 2 might not look anything like Version 1, but if you tease out the major Goals and Projects you’ve been working on for the last three months, you’ll probably be working on the same topics for the next three.

Northern Summer and Southern Winter will present two major Challenges, and most of us will be forced to multitask and work on both of them at once.  First of all, whatever Projects in the Material World that we’ve been working on, will get very Confusing.  It’s up to us to Recognize that Confusion is the first stage of Growth, stay Present with the Confusion, Avoid trying to Figure It Out, Focus our Attention on What We Want and NOT what we don’t Want, and then Let It Be.  If we can spend time Feeling what we Expect to Feel when we get What We Want, that’ll be like rocket fuel.  The more the better.

Second, whatever Projects in the Spiritual World that we’ve been working on, our Progress is likely to be so accelerated that we’re constantly amazed.  Go for it!  The Portal will be wide Open.  Be Mindful that we move to 5D on our own.  Some folks will come with us, some won’t.  We just have to Let Go of the ones who won’t.  By all means give them Big Blessings, but if they aren’t ready they aren’t ready.  You don’t have to Abandon them.  You just have to be Willing to Hold your 5D Space even when they don’t understand.  Give yourself advance Permission to do that.  It’s good Practice anyway.

We’ll be getting much Clearer on What We Want, even as we’re Confused about the Material implications of it.  By the end of June we’ll Trust it.

Here’s the outline; details to follow…

  • Full Moon 17 June (1:30 am PDT), 26 Sagittarius, quite close to the Galactic Center, which will strengthen your Inner Female for the several weeks to follow; if your Inner Male freaks out, be Compassionate with Him, but don’t back down If you Abandon your Inner Female here you’ll be in trouble.  Hint: She Knows What She Wants and you can’t talk Her out of it.  We aren’t talking about your partner; we’re talking about your INNER Female and Male.  Like it or not, you have both, even though you usually Project one or the other or both on Other People.
  • Until 17 June, The Truth of What You Want will be right in your face.  The astrosymbols for Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake) and for Truth (asteroid Veritas) will both be very Strong (Stationary)(Makemake Station 2am PDT 18 June at 4 Libra; Veritas Station 1pm PDT 18 June at 27 Libra)
  • Until the Solstice, the Material World will be very Confusing.  Celebrate it, and Focus on the Spiritual Perspective.  The symbol for Material Confusion (Neptune) will be very Strong (Stationary) an hour and a half before the Solstice.  (Neptune Station 7:30 am PDT 21 June in 19 Pisces; Sun enters Cancer 9am PDT 21 June)
  • This Confusion will remain through September and beyond (Cancer Solstice Merged with Neptune).  We’ll be Challenged to Trust the Confusion and not try to override it with Cause-and-Effect thinking, because C&E thinking will be way off, it’ll divert our Attention from What’s Important, and it’ll totally screw up our Version 2.0 Projects.  Surrender to your Intuition instead.  (asteroid Eurydike Station 10pm PDT June 24 in 11 Aquarius)

Then we go back to Eclipse Season with the 2 July (noon PDT) Total Solar Eclipse at 11 Cancer in South America.  Have Fun!

Gordy’s Merit Badge for Knots #1

May 27, 2019

Now that we’re past the Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Station, we’re well into a Gordian Knot of Energies, starting with the Station of asteroid Hopi on 26 May (3am PDT) in 5 Aquarius.  Hopi is the symbol for Respect for All Things, and by Inversion, Letting Go of Judgment, or at least, Examining our Judgments.  Earlier in May, Hopi Initiated asteroid Eurydike, symbol of Trust, in the same 5 Aquarius, which Degree is about seeking the Guidance of the Ancestors.

The 18-year Eurydike-Hopi Cycle is about Examining our Prejudices, especially the places where we don’t know that our Respect is Lacking.  I’m lucky enough to be able to Live in a place where Respect for the Planet, and Nature, and all of her Constituents, including the Ancestors, is widespread – but by no means universal.  A few days ago I had a vision where this typical view of our Bay…

was replaced with one like this…

Was I just seeing an Earth with eleven billion people instead of seven?  While the county I Live in, or rather the local Land Trust, has done a good job of protecting Farmland and Forests from development, that’s not so in the urban areas nearby, where four feet of gravel has been shoveled onto the best Farmland, and miles-long single-story “Fulfillment Centers” built on top of it.  That was after damning the Rivers so they could no longer refresh the valleys every spring with sediments fertile enough to Feed us.  Only 3% of the Planet is arable.  If we “solve” Climate Change and find viable alternatives to Farms, will that rocket us to eleven billion all the faster?

Can we Trust that the Future Earth will Look or Feel or Be anything like someplace where we would like to Live?  Or are we just Once-Borns who are here to milk the Planet for all we can get out of Her, and leave our children and our own Future Incarnations to fend for themselves in what, if anything, is left?  Of course, if we make it to 5D we won’t have this Lebensraum problem, because our Universe will have many other Dimensions in addition to the three or four that we already know and Love.

Here’s a lovely map of how we can get to 5D from here (Marko Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.242)…

The chart of the recent Hopi-Eurydike Initiation and Hopi Station – and hence of the 18-year Cycle that we’re Beginning – makes several suggestions about this…

First, we notice that Hopi-Eurydike makes a Challenging Angle (Square) to the symbol for Our Soul (Uranus).  If our Ego and Body can Live in an eleven-billion Future, can our Soul Survive in it?

Second, the chart contains a Compounded Challenge (T-Square) focused on the symbols for Holding our Reality Stable (Moon), Self-Sovereignty (Lilith), and Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet OR10).  The base of the T-Square is an Opposition between the symbols for Sustainability (asteroid Ceres) and our Essence (Sun).  Sounds like more of the same – what’s the Challenge to Sustaining our Essence?  It’s maintaining our Identity as a Soul in a Physical Vehicle while Reality becomes so Virtual that we can’t keep track of which Emotions are our own.

And third, how exactly will we Manifest (dwarf planet Makemake as the Isolated Stand-Out in the chart) this Future?  Will we Co-Create it in the Image of our Despair (Makemake Opposite Chiron’s Unhealable Wound)?  Or will we Co-Create it as a Picture of the Miracles we can Imagine (Makemake Opposite Chiron’s Wound Healed by Empathy)?

Look at all the Options…

  • Through the Hard Work (Mars) of Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar, Square to Chiron-Makemake – thin red lines).
  • Through the Dumb-Luck Grace (Grand Trine – thin and thick blue lines) that will flow from Respect for All Things, especially Respect for our own Essence (Hopi-Eurydike Trine Sun and Makemake).
  • By Surrendering (Finger of God – thin green lines) to the Mysteries (Quincunxes) of our Soul (Uranus) and Holding our Reality Stable through our Attention to our Self-Sovereignty and to our Memories of what 5D Looks and Feels Like (Moon-Lilith-OR10).

Intrusive Memories are not intrinsically Negative.  They can be Memories of our Source.  And actually, these three major Options are not Either/Or; they’re Both/And, ie, All At Once.

The Timeline for this Knot unfolds like this…

13 May – Hopi Initiates Eurydike (Trusting Diversity) in 5 Aquarius

18 May – Sedna Full Moon (Mastering Fear) in 28 Scorpio-Taurus

19 May – Saturn Initiates South Node (The Most Important Thing Is Our Karma) in 21 Capricorn

23 May – Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Stationary in 10 Virgo

See the Karma Repair series of previous posts.

26 May – Hopi (Respect for All Things) Stationary in 5 Aquarius

30 May (11pm PDT) – asteroid Pallas (Boundaries) Stationary in 11 Libra

31 May (3am PDT) – dwarf planet OR10 (Intrusive Memories) Stationary in 5 Pisces

31 May (6:30 am) – asteroid Aletheia (Truth) Stationary in 16 Libra

3 June (3am PDT) – Sovereignty New Moon in 13 Gemini

Then we go back to dealing with Abuse (Nessus Station in 12 Pisces, 11 June), though not as the same Person we were last month.

Boundaries

February 9, 2019

Boundaries were prominent during the Sedna Station, as the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia (Boundaries-Rebirth-Truth) Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) Squared the Nodes – which means that it is Important to our Life Path, and Opposed Uranus-Mars-Eris (Soul-Action-Revelation) – implying that we’d be Learning enough about what we’ve been Denying that we’d be Feeling Reborn with Boundaries that are less Defensive of the Ego, and more Welcoming to the Soul.

That Specific Ambient Energy has moved on now that the Sedna Station is Complete, but once we stopped Screaming and started Noticing what was happening, we probably Learned enough from its Passing, that as we move away from it we’ll be Noticing that our Resistance to Self-Love has Softened.

What hasn’t “gone away” is the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia Stellium, as our next serious astroevent is an 18 February (9am PST) Pallas Station in the last Degree of Libra.  So whatever it was that we Learned, and whatever Introduced itself uninvited, around Boundaries during the Sedna Station and the Juno-Sedna Conjunction that preceded it, we’ll be Developing and Extending it for the next ten days.

Pallas is turning Retrograde, so it won’t move into Scorpio till the end of August, and it backs up over the last twenty Degrees of Libra.  It takes about four years for Pallas to run the Zodiac once, so divide your age by four and you’ll know how many times you’ve Iterated your Experience with Boundaries on the Spiral of Growth that is your current Lifetime.

Every four years when Pallas moves into Libra, we first Meet Other Anew, and after two years in the Personal half of the Zodiac, I’m sure it’s always a Shock.  In the second ten Degrees of Libra, we’re reinventing our Boundaries with Groups of Other, and in the third we get Confused about where we End and Other Begins – we’ve been here in this Confusion of Boundaries since New Years, and we’ll be here through early April.

Confusion of course is the first stage of Growth, so it’s a Positive thing if we can drop our Resistance to it.  We’re basically Debriefing what we’ve Learned about Other in this four-year Pallas Zodiacaloop, so we can be ready for Pallas in Scorpio, where we Deeply Fathom what this whole Me-Other business is all about.  We could be moving out of Codependence, or moving into Unity, and most likely Both, in different arenas of our Lives.  Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.

Stationing as it is on a Cusp, Pallas joins several other planets Dancing on Cusps.  Juno Enters Gemini on 10 February (8:30 pm PST), Eurydike Enters Capricorn on 13 February (am PST), and Chiron finally Re-Enters Aries on 18 February (1am PST).

Juno barely dipped her toe into Gemini during October (she never got beyond the first Degree), but now she Dances all the way across it, until mid-April.  Juno in Taurus (since last July) has probably made Growth in Consciousness slower and stickier; in Gemini we’re likely to be Experimenting with all manner of Weird Notions, as we eagerly Explore the Edges of our Limitations.  We’ll be Growing by leaps and bounds, though we may not know it, because it will all Feel so Strange at first.

Juno will Dance with asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) in mid-March, cross dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) in early April, and chase Sappho (Self-Love), catching up in early June.  Chaos Initiating Juno should be Life-Changing.