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Busy August V

August 7, 2019

“Just when we begin to feel expert and comfortable, that is exactly when the nature of life’s restless heart forces us to move completely out of that previously comfortable era into one in which we are hopelessly inexpert.  In every stage it is as if we have to learn how to live all over again.  Though normal and unavoidable, often these natural life changes can be experienced as deep losses…

“The grief of raising children who are golden original mind-boggling beautiful sprites who become teenagers who hate us and want to get as far away from us as possible, or the grief of watching those same kids become adults as limited, afraid, and rigid as we are… are just a few of the stages of living filled with grief that are totally expected.

“For this reason, though natural, common, and anticipated, it is also just as right that we should deeply express these changes as losses through grief.  For this reason, in most of the world’s natural cultures, these changes are understood and experienced tribally as lines that must be crossed ritually with the help of the entire village…

“Natural culture doesn’t need to address life changes with therapy because they anticipate these changes and have a place for the grief.  These rituals of life changes are the major parts of their tribal everyday spiritual existence.  In this way grief is not left hanging but is converted into ritual beauty and culture-supporting continuity, which is not only experienced by the people in a massive communal way, but in a massive communal way these rituals also have the people giving life back to the Divine that gives life to them and the world.”

–Martín Prechtel, The Smell of Rain on Dust, pp.9-10.

Folks of our ilk may so Celebrate the Solstices and Equinoxes, and maybe even the Cross-Quarter Days.  But the sort of Celebrations that Martín describes are less common, and more important.  And it reminds us that one Loss we often Fear but seldom Grieve is Ego Death.  Astrology schedules Ego Deaths for us frequently – such as this week.

The symbol for our Soul (Uranus) and the symbol for Expansion (Jupiter) are both Strong (Stationary) on 11 August, and the impact of the Expansion part is greatly amplified (Jupiter Stations in front of the mid-Sagittarius “Great Attractor” and the “Shapley Supercluster,” two Galaxy Clusters, one behind the other, both mostly behind the Milky Way, and each stronger than the previous, that pull all of us toward them with a Gravitational Force thousands of times that of the Milky Way itself).

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In other words, you can say, “Oh, No Thanks!” but it won’t much help.

With our Uranian Soul symbol in the Sign of Matter (Taurus), we’ve recently begun a seven-year period that we can safely call The Descent of Soul into Matter.  Soul is Asking us to Expand a great deal beyond our usual day-to-day Limitations and Habits.  Just as an example, Soul is immortal, so while it may be Compassionate, it doesn’t have the Fear of Death that “we” – our Egos – have.  So we have to Expect that it will show us pictures of Death, in a “gentle” attempt to help us move closer to Recognizing our Immortality as Souls.

Energy precedes Matter, so if we continue to Project Demise and Fear of it out in front of us, more Death is what we’ll Create.

No question that it’s usually inconvenient to have to Surrender a Lifetime where we undoubtedly have Unfinished Business, but even in that circumstance we can reframe the Ego’s Intention as helping us to move closer to Recognizing what’s Really Important – our Ego’s education! That’s a lot more important than any Unfinished Business.  It’s the inept Political notion of Karma as Retribution that leads to the conclusion that Unfinished Business weighs us down.  Sure, we can rue Unfinished Business and thus make Karma out of it, but that’s just a different Curriculum we can Choose.

But Martín is right that All Losses Must Be Grieved, and every Ego Death is a Loss.  Rather than Respectfully and Gratefully Grieve our Ego Deaths after the fact, we usually Burn Up the same Energy in Fear before the fact.  We can Feel it coming on, and the Ego starts pedaling backwards as fast as it can.  We Expect a huge Soul Download over the next several days.  Open to it.  Invite it.

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Invite your Transition to be Loving and Gentle, and Ask your Current Ego to Respond to it with Respect, Gratitude, Surrender, and Relief.  Remind your Current Ego that it’s done a fabulous job of Keeping You Alive (its job description) so far, remind it that it can Trust the Soul to do a great job of selecting a bright-eyed Happy New You for the next assignment, and give it one last Hug.

In fact, Trusting the Soul is the biggest Challenge this week (asteroid Eurydike [Trust] Square Stationary Uranus).  And the basic process is all about Manifesting Miracles into Form by Following our Inner Voices (dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation] Opposite Chiron [Despair/Miracles] and at the Focus of a Finger of God from the Sextile between Uranus itself and dwarf planet OR10 [Intrusive Memories])

We may have to be tricky to Hear the Voices (OR10) – Sitting Silently with our Eyes closed and Shushing the mind, for instance, or Clearing our Current-Moment Thoughts and Paying Attention to Random Memories or Stories that cross our mind – maybe a plot from last week’s TV show, a Stranger you passed today who reminded you of someone, a Strange but somehow familiar Smell, or a sudden Memory of a tale your favorite Aunt told you when you were but a golden original mind-boggling beautiful sprite yourself.

Don’t Strain – the Stories and Voices are meant to Trigger your Intuition, so making it Stressful will just clamp the tubing.  You Want only Joy and Fun here; certainly your Soul wound Want it that way.  Be continually Mindful for Bummers, and Poor-Sweetheart them or Tap them Out.  When Bummers arise, know that they’re Up so you can Let Go of them (Chiron)

If no Bummers arise, Look for them!  We all have Beliefs that we Accept as Just the Way It Is (Chiron), and those are the fences that keep us as limited, afraid, and rigid as we are.  But we Accept them as Just the Way It Is, so we aren’t Aware that they keep us Limited, Afraid, and Rigid.  When we Open those Windows, Miracles await just beyond the Pane.

Jupiter will be Lighting Up our natal planets in the neighborhood of 15 Degrees, and Uranus those in the vicinity of 7 Degrees.

Trust III

June 24, 2019

Here’s the Eurydike Station chart…

First thing we notice is the red triangle (T-Square), symbolic of Challenge.  Its focus is an astrological symbol for Codependence (dwarf planet Hylonome, the Y-on-a-unicycle), which means that our Identity is Entangled with another Entity.  The basic difference between Empathy and Codependence is that an Empath Knows that the Experienced Emotions are not their own; a Codependent does not.  Many Empaths are Unable, Unwilling, or Untrained to shake off the Emotions of others, but that’s a separate – and complex – issue.

The base of the triangle contradistinguishes (Opposes) the symbol for Boundaries (asteroid Pallas, a diamond on a cross) with the symbol for Ending TimeLines (asteroid Atropos).  A TimeLine can be a Lifetime, any episode of one’s Life, a particular Habit that plays a prominent role in one’s Life for a period of time, or any other interaction between Time and Life.  So this T-Square comes down to a Challenge to Consciously Create New Kinds of Boundaries that Eliminate Unproductive Codependence.

Classic examples – Learning to Love while Acknowledging and Celebrating Difference; Holding a Job without Identifying with its Role or Allowing it to Define our Security; Trusting our Resilience to Survive in almost any Circumstances; The Ability to stick to a Budget when our Expenditures Define Who We Are.

When we Believe that we’re someone that we aren’t, we’re usually Confused about our Values, because we are trying to Live from two different Hearts.  We can’t really Trust ourself, because we aren’t always Acting to our own Benefit.  In Supporting someone else’s Values, we can Betray our own, Abandoning ourself.  We have to Remediate this Consciously, because if we do it Unconsciously (by Blaming the Other and Leaving the Relationship for instance), we Learn nothing and will Repeat the Self-Abandonment.

This interlude of focus on Trust provides an Opportunity for becoming Conscious of our Codependence and taking steps to Remedy it.  Notice that the Stationary Eurydike connects the two ends of the base of the T-Square, but with blue lines (a Trine Bridge).  Blue lines symbolize Grace, indicating that Trust is an alternative to Codependence here.  Trusting that the Person or Job or other Entity or Object that we’re Codependent with has our own interests at heart?  I don’t think so.  I think it would be more about Trusting that we can Survive on our own, without Sacrificing our Identity to an Outside Object, or at least to the Outside Object that’s Lit Up for you now.

Codependence/Hylonome also connects the two ends of the long red line that is a Contradistinction (Opposition) between the symbol for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus, the N-on-a-Unicycle) and Making or Breaking Oaths (dwarf planet Orcus).  We can read this as Forgiving our Codependence when it Protects us from Abuse, and that may be relevant in some cases.  But in the context of Growing Consciousness, it’s more likely to be about Becoming Aware of situations, through our Codependence, that Allow us to identify a source of Oaths we’ve made in the past which Limit us today.

For instance, if I have a Codependent Relationship with Money, did I make a Decision sometime in the past never to appear Poor?  If so, was that Decision based on Pride?  On the obvious correlation between Poverty and Powerlessness?  How old was I when I made such a Decision?  What else was going on at the time in my Family of Origin?  Was a Past or Parallel Life involved?

The long green lines (Quincunxes, connecting planets five Signs apart) are all about Curiosity, especially Curiosity of the sort that Inspires genuine Interest, not to “Figure It Out,” but to Fully Appreciate its apparent Uniqueness and Difference.  There are three such Questions, each relating to a short green line signifying Pattern-Breaking (Unxes, connecting planets one Sign apart)

  • I Wonder (Quincunx) which Oaths (Orcus) I can Trust (Eurydike) to Reveal (Unx) the sources of my Codependence (Hylonome) so I can Let it Go.
  • I Wonder how I might modify my Boundaries (Pallas) in order to Break my Habit (Unx) of Trusting (Eurydike) my Privilege (Nessus).
  • I Wonder what Oaths (Orcus) I can Revert (Atropos) to curtail (Unx) Abuse (Nessus).

Lots to Wonder about, and a few days off to Indulge in Wondering, as our next major astroevent isn’t till the 2 July New Moon.  However, the New Moon is in the same 11th Degree as the Eurydike Station, so these same planets are involved, and many of the same Angles.  So we’ll be continuing to work with these issues.

For instance, the New Moon Opposes Hylonome/Codependence and T-Squares Pallas/Boundaries.  Moira/Choice has moved into position to create a Yin Gate with its Opposition to Eurydike/Trust, indicating a Mysterious Non-Dual Relationship between Choice and Trust.  We’ll map all this out soon.

Trust II

June 24, 2019

Before we look at the Eurydike Station chart, let’s look at a possible strategy you can use if and when Scarcity rears up.  Our tools are described in…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/11/02/piavac/

in case you need to read or re-read about Tapping and Theta.

We’ll start with Tapping…

“Even though I’m in Scarcity about … , I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”

You might be in Scarcity about anything that you Desire.  If you feel Panicked about it (it is after all Scare-City), add some Kegels.  You may need to repeat the Tapping with the same or a different intro phrase, if your Emotions are Lit Up.  Once you’re Grounded and relatively Composed, switch to Theta…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command Abundance about … .  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess!”  (Breathe)  “Show me!”

If needed you can add a Time-Line, such as “…Abundance about… Before …”

If your Insight, in whatever way it usually works, Shows you that all is well, Fantastic!  You may See it, Feel it, Hear it, just get a Gut Feel, etc.  Now your best plan would be to Change the Subject.

If you don’t get a Clear Picture that What You Want is on the truck heading your way, then Ask what’s holding it back.  You may get a sense of Hesitation while you’re It-Is-Doneing, or you may have to Ask for Clarity if you aren’t Sure what the holdup is.

Then you would go back to Tapping…

“Even though I’m in Resistance about … , I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”

or…

“Even though I’m Unsure why I seem to be in Resistance to … , I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”

If you get any Resolution through Tapping, you can return to Theta to again Command What You Want.  The Command itself may or may not Change as you Explore it.  You could also Tap and Theta about Trust, and what Inhibits you from Trusting.

Trust I

June 24, 2019

It’s been an Intense week, and now we’re waking up with a bit of a hangover.  You may be facing a Pack of Yes-Buts, or just Ruing Mondays.  We’ve seen Abundance and Confusion modeled for us, and now we may be Confused about all of it.

Know that the Abundance that’s been suggested may be preceded by a Need to Let Go of any Blocks that have Prevented you from Enjoying Abundance in the Past.  So if you Encounter Scarcity, know that it’s Temporary unless you Grasp It again.  I’ll flesh out a Recommendation later today for dealing with Scarcity in the current environment.  Remember that Karma is Dead, but in many cases it’s all we know, so when it docks we’re more than happy to jump aboard because we unknowingly Prefer Familiarity to Liberation – especially when Confusion Is Afoot.

For now though, the Dominant Theme is Trust, as the astrological symbol for Assurance (asteroid Eurydike) is at peak Strength (Stationary until 9:30 pm PDT 24 June).  While the symbols for Abundance were Strong and Beneficial last week, they also signified that your Resistance could be Tested.  What, Resistance?  Who would Resist Abundance?  Well, how much consistent Abundance have you Enjoyed thus far in this Lifetime?  If it hasn’t been Overwhelmingly Fabulous, then you have Resistance, and you may well have Opportunities to Experience it or even Re-Experience its Origins.

If you do, Recognize that no one else is to Blame for it.  Someone else might be Blameworthy for its Origin, but now it’s completely up to you to Reframe it as your Resistance, and Acknowledge and Embrace your Emotions around it.  I have to run an errand, but when I return we’ll Explore this Trust thing more fully.

Whaddawe Make of That?

June 12, 2019

‘Twould be great if we could kick off our shoes and lean back after the last week of hard work around Abuse and Privilege, but, no dice.  Solstices are about Starting Over on something.  At the Equinoxes we Begin New Projects, and for the last couple of weeks we’ve been critiquing the Projects we began at the Ides of March.  What worked?  What didn’t?  What could be improved?  Next week we start Version 2.0, but the only thing we have to keep is What We Learned.  So Version 2 might not look anything like Version 1, but if you tease out the major Goals and Projects you’ve been working on for the last three months, you’ll probably be working on the same topics for the next three.

Northern Summer and Southern Winter will present two major Challenges, and most of us will be forced to multitask and work on both of them at once.  First of all, whatever Projects in the Material World that we’ve been working on, will get very Confusing.  It’s up to us to Recognize that Confusion is the first stage of Growth, stay Present with the Confusion, Avoid trying to Figure It Out, Focus our Attention on What We Want and NOT what we don’t Want, and then Let It Be.  If we can spend time Feeling what we Expect to Feel when we get What We Want, that’ll be like rocket fuel.  The more the better.

Second, whatever Projects in the Spiritual World that we’ve been working on, our Progress is likely to be so accelerated that we’re constantly amazed.  Go for it!  The Portal will be wide Open.  Be Mindful that we move to 5D on our own.  Some folks will come with us, some won’t.  We just have to Let Go of the ones who won’t.  By all means give them Big Blessings, but if they aren’t ready they aren’t ready.  You don’t have to Abandon them.  You just have to be Willing to Hold your 5D Space even when they don’t understand.  Give yourself advance Permission to do that.  It’s good Practice anyway.

We’ll be getting much Clearer on What We Want, even as we’re Confused about the Material implications of it.  By the end of June we’ll Trust it.

Here’s the outline; details to follow…

  • Full Moon 17 June (1:30 am PDT), 26 Sagittarius, quite close to the Galactic Center, which will strengthen your Inner Female for the several weeks to follow; if your Inner Male freaks out, be Compassionate with Him, but don’t back down If you Abandon your Inner Female here you’ll be in trouble.  Hint: She Knows What She Wants and you can’t talk Her out of it.  We aren’t talking about your partner; we’re talking about your INNER Female and Male.  Like it or not, you have both, even though you usually Project one or the other or both on Other People.
  • Until 17 June, The Truth of What You Want will be right in your face.  The astrosymbols for Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake) and for Truth (asteroid Veritas) will both be very Strong (Stationary)(Makemake Station 2am PDT 18 June at 4 Libra; Veritas Station 1pm PDT 18 June at 27 Libra)
  • Until the Solstice, the Material World will be very Confusing.  Celebrate it, and Focus on the Spiritual Perspective.  The symbol for Material Confusion (Neptune) will be very Strong (Stationary) an hour and a half before the Solstice.  (Neptune Station 7:30 am PDT 21 June in 19 Pisces; Sun enters Cancer 9am PDT 21 June)
  • This Confusion will remain through September and beyond (Cancer Solstice Merged with Neptune).  We’ll be Challenged to Trust the Confusion and not try to override it with Cause-and-Effect thinking, because C&E thinking will be way off, it’ll divert our Attention from What’s Important, and it’ll totally screw up our Version 2.0 Projects.  Surrender to your Intuition instead.  (asteroid Eurydike Station 10pm PDT June 24 in 11 Aquarius)

Then we go back to Eclipse Season with the 2 July (noon PDT) Total Solar Eclipse at 11 Cancer in South America.  Have Fun!

Gordy’s Merit Badge for Knots #1

May 27, 2019

Now that we’re past the Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Station, we’re well into a Gordian Knot of Energies, starting with the Station of asteroid Hopi on 26 May (3am PDT) in 5 Aquarius.  Hopi is the symbol for Respect for All Things, and by Inversion, Letting Go of Judgment, or at least, Examining our Judgments.  Earlier in May, Hopi Initiated asteroid Eurydike, symbol of Trust, in the same 5 Aquarius, which Degree is about seeking the Guidance of the Ancestors.

The 18-year Eurydike-Hopi Cycle is about Examining our Prejudices, especially the places where we don’t know that our Respect is Lacking.  I’m lucky enough to be able to Live in a place where Respect for the Planet, and Nature, and all of her Constituents, including the Ancestors, is widespread – but by no means universal.  A few days ago I had a vision where this typical view of our Bay…

was replaced with one like this…

Was I just seeing an Earth with eleven billion people instead of seven?  While the county I Live in, or rather the local Land Trust, has done a good job of protecting Farmland and Forests from development, that’s not so in the urban areas nearby, where four feet of gravel has been shoveled onto the best Farmland, and miles-long single-story “Fulfillment Centers” built on top of it.  That was after damning the Rivers so they could no longer refresh the valleys every spring with sediments fertile enough to Feed us.  Only 3% of the Planet is arable.  If we “solve” Climate Change and find viable alternatives to Farms, will that rocket us to eleven billion all the faster?

Can we Trust that the Future Earth will Look or Feel or Be anything like someplace where we would like to Live?  Or are we just Once-Borns who are here to milk the Planet for all we can get out of Her, and leave our children and our own Future Incarnations to fend for themselves in what, if anything, is left?  Of course, if we make it to 5D we won’t have this Lebensraum problem, because our Universe will have many other Dimensions in addition to the three or four that we already know and Love.

Here’s a lovely map of how we can get to 5D from here (Marko Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.242)…

The chart of the recent Hopi-Eurydike Initiation and Hopi Station – and hence of the 18-year Cycle that we’re Beginning – makes several suggestions about this…

First, we notice that Hopi-Eurydike makes a Challenging Angle (Square) to the symbol for Our Soul (Uranus).  If our Ego and Body can Live in an eleven-billion Future, can our Soul Survive in it?

Second, the chart contains a Compounded Challenge (T-Square) focused on the symbols for Holding our Reality Stable (Moon), Self-Sovereignty (Lilith), and Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet OR10).  The base of the T-Square is an Opposition between the symbols for Sustainability (asteroid Ceres) and our Essence (Sun).  Sounds like more of the same – what’s the Challenge to Sustaining our Essence?  It’s maintaining our Identity as a Soul in a Physical Vehicle while Reality becomes so Virtual that we can’t keep track of which Emotions are our own.

And third, how exactly will we Manifest (dwarf planet Makemake as the Isolated Stand-Out in the chart) this Future?  Will we Co-Create it in the Image of our Despair (Makemake Opposite Chiron’s Unhealable Wound)?  Or will we Co-Create it as a Picture of the Miracles we can Imagine (Makemake Opposite Chiron’s Wound Healed by Empathy)?

Look at all the Options…

  • Through the Hard Work (Mars) of Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar, Square to Chiron-Makemake – thin red lines).
  • Through the Dumb-Luck Grace (Grand Trine – thin and thick blue lines) that will flow from Respect for All Things, especially Respect for our own Essence (Hopi-Eurydike Trine Sun and Makemake).
  • By Surrendering (Finger of God – thin green lines) to the Mysteries (Quincunxes) of our Soul (Uranus) and Holding our Reality Stable through our Attention to our Self-Sovereignty and to our Memories of what 5D Looks and Feels Like (Moon-Lilith-OR10).

Intrusive Memories are not intrinsically Negative.  They can be Memories of our Source.  And actually, these three major Options are not Either/Or; they’re Both/And, ie, All At Once.

The Timeline for this Knot unfolds like this…

13 May – Hopi Initiates Eurydike (Trusting Diversity) in 5 Aquarius

18 May – Sedna Full Moon (Mastering Fear) in 28 Scorpio-Taurus

19 May – Saturn Initiates South Node (The Most Important Thing Is Our Karma) in 21 Capricorn

23 May – Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Stationary in 10 Virgo

See the Karma Repair series of previous posts.

26 May – Hopi (Respect for All Things) Stationary in 5 Aquarius

30 May (11pm PDT) – asteroid Pallas (Boundaries) Stationary in 11 Libra

31 May (3am PDT) – dwarf planet OR10 (Intrusive Memories) Stationary in 5 Pisces

31 May (6:30 am) – asteroid Aletheia (Truth) Stationary in 16 Libra

3 June (3am PDT) – Sovereignty New Moon in 13 Gemini

Then we go back to dealing with Abuse (Nessus Station in 12 Pisces, 11 June), though not as the same Person we were last month.

Boundaries

February 9, 2019

Boundaries were prominent during the Sedna Station, as the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia (Boundaries-Rebirth-Truth) Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) Squared the Nodes – which means that it is Important to our Life Path, and Opposed Uranus-Mars-Eris (Soul-Action-Revelation) – implying that we’d be Learning enough about what we’ve been Denying that we’d be Feeling Reborn with Boundaries that are less Defensive of the Ego, and more Welcoming to the Soul.

That Specific Ambient Energy has moved on now that the Sedna Station is Complete, but once we stopped Screaming and started Noticing what was happening, we probably Learned enough from its Passing, that as we move away from it we’ll be Noticing that our Resistance to Self-Love has Softened.

What hasn’t “gone away” is the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia Stellium, as our next serious astroevent is an 18 February (9am PST) Pallas Station in the last Degree of Libra.  So whatever it was that we Learned, and whatever Introduced itself uninvited, around Boundaries during the Sedna Station and the Juno-Sedna Conjunction that preceded it, we’ll be Developing and Extending it for the next ten days.

Pallas is turning Retrograde, so it won’t move into Scorpio till the end of August, and it backs up over the last twenty Degrees of Libra.  It takes about four years for Pallas to run the Zodiac once, so divide your age by four and you’ll know how many times you’ve Iterated your Experience with Boundaries on the Spiral of Growth that is your current Lifetime.

Every four years when Pallas moves into Libra, we first Meet Other Anew, and after two years in the Personal half of the Zodiac, I’m sure it’s always a Shock.  In the second ten Degrees of Libra, we’re reinventing our Boundaries with Groups of Other, and in the third we get Confused about where we End and Other Begins – we’ve been here in this Confusion of Boundaries since New Years, and we’ll be here through early April.

Confusion of course is the first stage of Growth, so it’s a Positive thing if we can drop our Resistance to it.  We’re basically Debriefing what we’ve Learned about Other in this four-year Pallas Zodiacaloop, so we can be ready for Pallas in Scorpio, where we Deeply Fathom what this whole Me-Other business is all about.  We could be moving out of Codependence, or moving into Unity, and most likely Both, in different arenas of our Lives.  Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.

Stationing as it is on a Cusp, Pallas joins several other planets Dancing on Cusps.  Juno Enters Gemini on 10 February (8:30 pm PST), Eurydike Enters Capricorn on 13 February (am PST), and Chiron finally Re-Enters Aries on 18 February (1am PST).

Juno barely dipped her toe into Gemini during October (she never got beyond the first Degree), but now she Dances all the way across it, until mid-April.  Juno in Taurus (since last July) has probably made Growth in Consciousness slower and stickier; in Gemini we’re likely to be Experimenting with all manner of Weird Notions, as we eagerly Explore the Edges of our Limitations.  We’ll be Growing by leaps and bounds, though we may not know it, because it will all Feel so Strange at first.

Juno will Dance with asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) in mid-March, cross dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) in early April, and chase Sappho (Self-Love), catching up in early June.  Chaos Initiating Juno should be Life-Changing.

Snakes and Ladders I

May 20, 2018

With a huge Reset going on here, it makes more sense to use Birth-chart Sensitivity or “Orb” – 6-8 Degrees, rather than our usual 3-Degree Current-Moment or “Transit”-chart Sensitivity, so we’ve Compromised to a degree.  All of this month’s Stations occur in the same 0-to-9-Degree Zone, and the early-June Nessus Station is at 10 Degrees.  ‘Tis a busy chart.

We should start with the “biggest” Configuration, which is a Grand Cross (Hassles Galore, but they’re often Mutually Complementary) and a Grand Trine (Blessings Galore) with common corners.  This is traditionally considered an “ideal” chart, as it combines great Energy and Motivation (the Grand Cross) with ample Grace (the Grand Trine). 

That is, however, a Colonialist Perspective, where the most Celebrated Traits are Effort and Successful Exploitation of Others.  The current Western Patriarchal and Hierarchical Cultural model, in other words, where the Strong win over the “Weak” (including those with different Life Goals, which are by definition Weak).  The Prize is Ego Inflation, Confidence, and Privilege.  Aka Corruption and Abuse, when seen from underneath. 

We can see this playing out in the news all over the Planet, as this Game is the stock and trade of the Declining Patriarchy.  There’s nothing Abusive or Colonialist or Patriarchal about a Grand Cross-Grand Trine (“GC-GT”) chart itself; it’s the notion that it’s an ideal chart that’s Patriarchal.  There’s a sense in which being born with such a chart “condemns” one to a Life of Effort and Achievement.  But Effort and Achievement can readily be directed toward non-Patriarchal Goals like Community, Collaboration, Balance, Flow, Attunement, and the like.

Here’s the Grand Cross-Grand Trine version of the chart…

We’ve drawn the chart for the time when the Moon reaches the Midpoint between the 18 May Atropos Station (Endings) at Degree 1 and the 21 May Klotho Station (Beginnings) at Degree 0.  You can see that the other two Fate asteroids, Lachesis (the Length of a Timeline) and Moira (Fate or Choice) are close by at 6 and 5 Degrees respectively.  [In case you’ve forgotten, we always round Degrees up – 29 becomes 30 or 0, 0 becomes 1, etc.]

The Grand Trine is extended into a Kite by Chiron, but if we focus first on the primary GC-GT elements, it’s the Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake (Endings-Trusting-Creating) Stellium (a group of 3 or more planets) that’s the overwhelming Star of the chart, as the corner where the GC and the GT converge, as well as the location of the Atropos Station.

So the first thing we need to do is talk about the Cusp of Libra, which is as important as the Aries Point (Cusp of Aries).  At the Aries Point a Seed of Spirit is planted into the fertile soil of our Soul.  At the Libra Cusp we meet Other for the first time.  Aries-to-Virgo is about our Personal Development, Libra-to-Pisces our Social Development.

We are, All of us, as Individuals and as Members of Groups of all sizes, entering a whole new phase in our Relationship to Other Individuals, and a whole new phase in our Relationship to Community.  In a nutshell, we’re now Creating our own Social and Relationship Realities (Makemake), Dropping our Olde Obsolete Patterns around Relationship and Culture (Atropos), and Trusting that we’re going in the right direction (Eurydike) even though we seem to be Betraying Mom’s admonition that “You cannot do that, it breaks all the rules you learned in school.”

Keep that in mind when you’re tempted to be Motivated by Guilt or a Need to Please Others at the Expense of your own Values and Needs.  Expect your Self-Sovereignty to be Tested as we approach 27 May (the Eurydike/Trust Station), when we’re likely to be Tempted to turn back to our Olde Codependent Ways when our old playmates complain that they are being Betrayed by the Shift in our Values and Behaviors.

Which is where Chiron comes in.  The Kite shifts the focus of the GC-GT to Chiron, at the top of the Kite.  Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake (Trusting-that-We-Can-End-Impediments-to-Manifesting-What-We-Want) becomes the Tail that Wags the Dog, and the Dog is Chiron or Despair, Despair that we “can’t win” – we get little Support for trying to Go Our Own Way, but the rewards for running our old Patterns are diminishing rapidly.

Until of course we Empathize with our Despair – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling like you can’t Win, aren’t you.”

The other two corners of the Grand Trine, from which our Blessings flow, are

  • Taking an Active Part in our New Beginnings (Mars-Klotho), which will probably seem Confusing and Difficult until 21 May, when Klotho Completes its Station.  Confusion is the first stage of Growth.
  • Following our Essence (Sun), our Heart, or our Guidance, which in the midst of Rapid and Big Change, can also be Confusing.  We may be in the Habit of Resisting our Fate in favor of Choice, but in this case we’re Asked to Choose to Accept our Fate, because our Fate is Transformation (Moira Conjunct Sun).

A final Caveat.  If you have Expectations about What-It-Will-Look-Like-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way, rest assured that they’re Dead Wrong, no matter how Psychic you’ve proven to be in the past.  This is a New Game.  Yes, if you’re Intuitive you’ll Recognize Home when you see it, but it’s the Vibration you’ll Recognize, not the Form. 

If you’re eager to Play It Forward, focus on How-It-Will-Feel-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way instead.  And make the Effort to Revert to a Blank Slate before noon PDT on 21 May, so you can be Surprised and Delighted when it Feels Even Better once Klotho Completes its Station.

Another Complication – at 11 am PDT on 22 May, Orcus Completes its Station.  Orcus is about Pattern-Breaking.  So even after noon on 21 May you might still be a prisoner to  your Olde Archetypes.  So feel free to focus on How-It-Will-Feel-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way, but you also want to PIAVA that you can Gently and Lovingly and Rapidly and Completely Let Go of All Patterns and Habits that Inhibit your Soul’s Destiny and your Ego’s Transformation to Supporting it Fully.

Close your Eyes and Look around for any Cables, Chains, or Dark Spots, particularly behind you.  One at a time, Gently remove the Barbed Hooks at your end of each Cable or Chain, and hand it back to its Source.  If its Source won’t take it, feed it to an Alligator.  Alligators are very Skilled at this Work.  One at a time, put a Mirror between you and any Dark Spots, facing the Dark Spot, then switch on the Bright Light that aims into the Darkness from the top of the Mirror.

Scan your Body for any Foreign Feelings – crawling or goosebumps or raised hackles (but not just your neck).  Put your Attention into that Hole in your Aura, and PIAVA that your Self-Sovereignty and your Essence Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely patch the Hole, Permanently, with your own Energy. 

You’re likely to feel Vulnerable there for a couple of days; consider the fact that you can now Feel your Vulnerability as evidence that you’re Healing – till now you were Unconscious of the Wound.  Like a Tick or Mosquito, your Programmers distracted your Attention before they installed the Hooks.  Whenever you’re Conscious of Feeling the Vulnerability, Fill it with your own Heart Energy.

More to follow.

Intuition Olympics 4

March 15, 2018

You probably remember how we identified dwarf planet Asbolus, which was prominent at the end of February, as not just Intuition, but the sort of Intuition that Leads us into Experiences of the sort that will yield Wisdom.  You know, the kind that Kills you if it doesn’t make you Stronger, or something like that.  Well, Asbolus is back.

It’s pretty Clear from the havoc that the March Stations chart has been wreaking upon our Lives, that the Bottom Line issue here is Trust.  If I didn’t know what was going on, I’d assume that my Life is in shambles.  Since I’ve got 3D==>5D and a Nemesis T-Square to pin it on, I’m somehow, usually, able to Trust that it’s “just” the Obsolete, the Dysfunctional, and the Unnecessary that’s being Jettisoned.

Which raises a couple of Questions.  What is asteroid Eurydike (Trust) up to?  And how about asteroid Ceres (Sustainability)?  Turns out they’re good questions, especially the former.

Unfortunately, Apple has once again screwed up my ability to import photos (after Regressing into extreme Frustration I’ve finally Noticed that I’m Regressed, and yes, now I’m Tapping, Asking Ganeshi to Remove Obstacles, and Thetaing Insights, but it’s still a work in progress), so I’ll have to draw a word picture of the March Eurydike chart…

  • Asteroids Eurydike (Trust) and Atropos (Endings) are both in 14 Libra, giving us a Major Objective of Ending our Resistance to Trust
  • They’re part of a complete Dynamic Grand Sextile (a Great Blessing in situations where we’re able to take the Initiative and the first step); the other five corners are…
  • Asteroid Karma (Ancient Habits, especially the Self-Sabotaging ones) in 14 Sagittarius
  • South Node (the Emotions we haven’t Learned to Embrace Lovingly yet, such as Frustration) in 13 Aquarius
  • Venus, Mercury, and asteroid Lachesis (Choosing Timelines) all in 13-15 Aries
  • Our friend dwarf planet Asbolus (Intuition of the sort we’ve discussed) in 14 Gemini
  • North Node (our Spiritual Direction in the Lifetime) in 13 Leo

This is a very tight complete Grand Sextile, where none of the members are more than a Degree from Eurydike.  There are also three additional planets within a Degree and a half of Eurydike, assisting from the Magnetic side…

  • Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) at 15 Capricorn
  • Neptune (Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity) at 15 Pisces
  • Asteroid Moira (Choice) in 12 Taurus

Leaving only the 12-15 Degree Zones of Scorpio, Cancer, and Virgo vacant.  If you have natal planets in any of those places, you’re here to help the rest of us stay Aligned with our Trust.  I’ve a natal planet in 14 Cancer and one in 11 Virgo, but none in mid-Scorpio.

Notice that all of the “Fates” except Klotho (Beginnings) are involved.  The Mythology is that these have Control over us and not Vice Versa.  However, Striving as we do for Consciousness, we interpret these asteroids as Choice rather than Fate – these are the Choices that Erase our Karma. 

Klotho, by the way, is only a Degree from Pluto, and we could have legitimately included it in the Pluto Kite of Women and Chaos 3.  We didn’t because it was slightly more than three Degrees from Jupiter, the Pole planet in that subchart.  The Clear impact however is that We Are Compulsively Beginning a New Detox Timeline (Pluto as Detox); we can consider this to be the portion of the Unconscious from whence our Self-Sabotage is derived.

The “Lesson” of that information is that We are Addicted to Struggle, and we can Reform that Trance by Disavowing our Ancient Vow to Strive Against All Odds.  From Now On We Want to Choose the Easy Way.  Look to see if you have Resistance to that idea.  When I Theta Choosing the Easy Way I get a picture of myself taking a Deep Breath and Letting Go of Tension.

Now of course Striving to Achieve Consciousness is always going to be Against All Odds; Consciousness is no walk in the park, it’s a walk in the park facing into one of those Nor’Easters that have been battering New England relentlessly.  Well, take a Deep Breath, turn around, and Walk Backwards.  Lean In, as Sheryl would advise.  This is what Pluto would do.

Can’t see where you’re going?  No Worries.  Here’s a practice for developing your 360-Degree vision.  Walk very slowly, and each time you move your right foot backwards, imagine that your Inner Alternate-Gender Self is riding your feet, facing you, so that the step moves His or Her left foot forward.  When your left arm swings forward, Her or His right arm swings backwards.

The image is that your Alter-Ego (Anima for Boys, Animus for Girls) actually occupies the same space as you do, but faces backwards.  So they step forward when you step backward.  Since you occupy the same space, you don’t need to operate their muscles separately; you just need to become aware that their Body Experience is the Mirror-image of yours.  These are your “eyes in the back of your head,” you just need to tune into them.

With Moira (Choosing to Break Self-Sabotaging Habits) in Taurus (Deep Commitment), the Time is ripe for this!  Lachesis in Aries with Venus and Mercury (Choosing to Begin New Timelines that Support our Values) Opposes Atropos (Choosing when to End a Pattern), further improving the Opportunity to Let Go of Self-Abuse.

Endings II

February 11, 2018

Another place where we get very Confused about Boundaries, is the Edge between Ego and Soul.  Most people I meet have a very hard time imagining anything except a solid, opaque wall between themselves and their Soul, and they don’t even expect Mexico to pay for it.  Daniel Scranton Channels some Pleiadian Wisdom about this…

http://danielscranton.com/mission-earth-%e2%88%9ethe-pleiadian-high-council-of-seven-3/

“Before you ever set foot on planet Earth for the very first time, you understood that this was a mission.  You understood that Earth had a very special place in the galaxy and that you were embarking upon a very specific mission for all of consciousness.

“You all saw this experience as the greatest possible challenge that you could embark upon.  And while you knew that there would be some very dark times, quite a bit of pain, and a little too much suffering, you stepped right up to it and decided that this was the only place for you to be.

“Now as you began your cycle of lifetimes on planet Earth, you also understood how far you would be able to expand.  You understood that the reward for being on planet Earth was like none other in the galaxy.  And so you feel that the pain and suffering was worth it.  You may not feel it now, from where you stand, but we guarantee you that you feel it on the level of your higher self and your oversoul.

“Your next mission on this journey will be to create a brand new Earthly experience for yourselves and for all future generations, and those experiences will not be about challenges.  The next mission is about experiencing joy and unbridled, unconditional love.  You have come this far in order to feel what it is like to move from the depths of darkness to the heights of ecstasy.

“Now when you decide to embark upon the new mission is up to you.  It is up to you how much longer you play with the third-dimensional rules and when you fully embrace the fifth-dimensional perspective, the fifth-dimensional frequency, the fifth-dimensional experience of reality.  We know that many of you feel ready, and we say to you that you are.  It is all just a matter of opening your heart, letting that be your guide, and forgetting everything that you think you have learned up until this point.”

The chart of the Atropos Station is relatively simple.  Atropos Conjoins – meaning that it’s Merged With (speaking of Boundaries) Eurydike, or Trust – still barely moving after it’s 4 February Station, and precisely Conjunct Atropos when the latter Stands Still.  Are we Scared to Let Go of What We Know So Well, this Karma, and Accept what lies beyond Endings, the Unknown?  That would be natural.  If you considered it carefully, you might well find you’d much rather Step Out of your Karmic Self-Sabotage Patterns than Stay In them.  But considering it carefully would mean you’d have to recognize that your Karma is your own Creation.  Most of the time most of us just Feel Victimized by our Archetypes, as if they were woven by Someone Else.

The ignorati refer to this as “New Age Guilt,” the idea that somehow I Chose to Manifest the Reality I Live in.  Why would I Choose Suffering?  They see it that way simply because they are unable to refer to their Soul as “I” – they see their Soul as Someone Else.  So this Adventure is about Trusting that we can End Habits that no longer serve us, and still Live Well afterwards.  If it was Someone Else who installed those Habits, do we Fear that they will Punish us if we End them?  If we still Live our Life as a Child subject to our Programmers’ rules, of course we do.  But we as a Soul Chose those Programmers, to set up situations that Mirror our Karma, so we can Recognize it and End it.  Part of our Mission.

Eurydike-Atropos Station in fact makes a Trine Bridge, defining the Easy Path, across the Nodal Axis.  The Nodal Axis is nothing if it’s not our map for getting from our Karma to our Mission.  Asteroid Sappho – Self-Love – sits on our South Node, which symbolizes the Karma that we’ve sown, the Patterns and Archetypes we took this Lifetime to Let Go of.  Do we Love Ourself in spite of our Karma?

Our Mission is not Letting Go of our Karma.  It’s just that the Hidden Skills which we need in order to Achieve our Mission, are hidden beneath our Held Emotions.  Held Emotions are the Emotions we cannot face because it would be too Scary, our cosmic PTSD.  Letting Go of our Karma, Letting Go of those Archetypes, those seemingly unshakeable Habits that Sabotage us over and over again, requires that we Feel those Forbidden Emotions, requires an Ego Death.  Yet the Ego’s job is to keep us Alive.  Which is the same error we all make – the Ego is supposed to keep us Alive, not to keep itself Alive.  How can it keep us Alive though, if it Dies?  Another Paradox.

Our Karmic Archetypes are Compulsive, or we’d be able to Let them Go easily.  In the map of the Station, Pluto, symbolizing Compulsion, makes a Quincunx Bridge to the Nodal Axis.  A Quincunx Bridge is like meeting Gollum.  But rather than Solve the constant stream of Riddles, we need to Zen them – leave them as Riddles, unanswered.  Anything that the Dualistic mind can conjure to Respond to them, will be a knife in the Heart of Mystery. 

That Fearless Child, in Awe at the marvelous things around Her, completely unprepared to try to make Sense of them, and, apart from trying to Understand the Abuse she so unfairly Received, having no need to make Sense of them.  That Child, pre-Abuse, is the one we need to Recover.  She holds the Ring.  The Abuse is the re-enactment of our Karma.  Who were we before we stumbled into these Patterns of Sabotage?  We’d need to go back to Lilith, to our Self-Sovereignty.  It’s a Mystery, but if you let “I” be your Soul for a few moments, you’ll Know Exactly what it is and Who You Are.

In the Station chart, Pluto is Conjoined by Chariklo, representing our Self-Confidence.  The two of them Square Atropos-Eurydike, symbolizing Mastery through Challenge.  Mastering the subtle Art of having Confidence that our Compulsions will lead us back to Awe, the subtle Art of Trusting that Ending our 3D Timeline will Liberate us to a Greater Mastery.  It’s the same as Sappho-South Node; Loving Ourself as our Karma.  Can you let “I” be your Karma for a few moments? 

When we drop all Self-Judgment then it doesn’t matter Who We Are, does it.  We are simply Unconditional Love, Personified.  If we are “just” Love, then what do Patterns and Habits and Archetypes matter?  They don’t even exist.  We can’t be “just” Love without being in the Present Moment, and in the Present Moment our Karma is undefined.  Habits by definition Remove us from the Present Moment.