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Busy August III

August 1, 2019

Scorpio is Fearless, Relentless, and won’t stop till it gets to the Bottom of Things.  When you try to Bullshit or Obfuscate or Avoid Scorpio’s penetrating Investigations, Scorpio can get very Icy.  You can tell when you’re dealing with someone who has an emphasis in Scorpio, because they Hold your Gaze.  That Intimidates many.  You can certainly tell Scorpio that it’s None of their Business, but good luck trying to Divert its Attention.  This is the nature of Scorpio as an Energy, not as a Huper.  Note that Pluto Energy is very similar.

So, correcting our brainfart of Busy August I, we are starting a Nemesis New Moon.  You can think of your Nemesis as an Enemy who’s eventually going to Whup Yer Ass, and there isn’t much you can do about it.  I think that’s not far from the use of the term in everyday language.  And yes, if you’re thinking about Getting Yer Ass Whupped, then yes, I’d say you were Guilty – of something.  Feelings are – or are supposed to be – Energy in Motion, or E-Motion for short.  So if you’re Stuck mulling on some kind of Guilt, as with any other Feeling, the Energy needs to Move.

So how do we Move Guilt?  Well, it isn’t usually quite that Clear-Cut, is it.  When we was Kids the Rules were probably pretty Clear, and we were perhaps Punished for Transgressions.  So we had to Hide (Guilt ain’t Moving, is it), or Confess.  If as Adults we Break a Promise, and the Relationship is a Keeper, we of course need to Make Amends.  Breaking Laws can be a bit more complex, because we may Resent rather than Respect the Law we Break.  Being Stuck on Resentment isn’t any Better than being Stuck on Guilt.  In fact, many people Wear their Resentments as if they were Merit Badges.  That’s Ego doing the Wearing.

Guilt is actually similar.  You Transgressed somehow, and your Obedience – or the Continuity of your Consciousness about your Desire to Obey – to whatever Rule or Promise you Broke, becomes a Demerit Badge stuck to your Ego.  You don’t Feel Good about yourself, or you feel like you need to make Excuses for yourself.  But, Amends may not be appropriate.  Someone may be Angry at you for not keeping an Agreement you actually didn’t make.  They just Expected you to Behave a certain way, but you didn’t.  You aren’t Wrong, but you Feel a bit Guilty anyway.  Like, Maybe I Shoulda.  Or If only I’da Known!  Or even, My Moon must be in Klutz!

If you pick up on the Thread, you’ve already noticed that Guilt, Resentment, and Nemesis are about Ego.  They’re neon signs that tell us our Ego needs to Grow.  Egos are nothing if not Tenacious, kind of like Scorpio.  So Egos don’t usually Shift, even if it’s a Shift into Growth, without a fight.  Consequently, we interpret asteroid Nemesis as Ego Death.  The hallmark of Ego Death is the sense that I’d rather Die than do that.  Well, Ego Deaths are seldom fatal to the Body, so, even though we thought we were Experiencing something about Dying, we were really Experiencing something about EgoI would rather Die than…

After we Feel Terrible for a while, we finally Accept what’s going on, bite the bullet, Decide what we have to Do about it, if anything, and Move Forward with a New Ego, vs. 815.9.  We can save ourselves a Shitload of Grief by Learning to Recognize the Signs of Ego Death, and instead of Suffering through the Purgatory of it, just Let Go and Let the Shift happen, quickly and easily.  Beside the I’d rather Die business, other signs of incipient Ego Death are Confusion, Forgetting what we know by Heart, Getting Lost a block from Home, and Major Lackawanna.

So this is what’s likely to be going on for the next few weeks.  Use it as the Learning Opportunity that it is.

Busy August II

July 28, 2019

I’ve made enough silly errors to know that they aren’t accidents, they’re Intuitions.  Shortly after I hit the Publish button I noticed that Nemesis wasn’t Conjunct Chiron at all, it was Conjunct the New Moon itself!  So that’s a whole ‘nother kettle of Fish, anticipating a bundle of Ego Death for us this month.  Fortunately, we know how to handle that, right?  Rather than correct the error-Intuition, I’ll leave it stand and reinterpret the “correct” Angles tomorrow.

Leo II

July 22, 2019

Natalie Glasson’s Channels the rest of Lord Melchizedek’s comments on 1D to 9D, this time 6D to 9D…

https://www.omna.org/exploration-of-dimensions-6-9-by-lord-melchizedek/

6th Dimension

“The 6th dimension reinforces your connection and communication with your soul, allowing powerful soul discovery journeys and deepening expressions of your soul through all levels of your being.  If you are finding it challenging to connect with your soul, wish to enhance your communication with your soul or receive guidance from your soul, it is ideal to request the 6th dimension to download into your being at the appropriate vibrations to support you.

“If you wish to connect on a deeper or soul level with other people in your reality you can request this from the 6th dimension.  There are many other requests which can be made, such as the balancing of your spiritual body, clarity in order to remember divine information, wisdom and knowledge to support your ascension or synthesising with your Ascended Master self in order to discover your ascension pathway to completion of your ascension mastery upon the Earth.

“If you find your intuition is blocked or you are unable to gain inner guidance the 6th dimension can support you by aligning you with your soul…  It is so filled with inspiration and tremendous support, it is worthwhile downloading and anchoring into your being and reality, even if you are uncertain of the purpose of your anchoring.”

Handy as we’re Anchoring Soul into Matter with Uranus in Taurus.  (For 1D-5D see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/13/leo/.)

7th Dimension

“The process of detachment is the key focus of the 7th dimension, much emphasis is placed upon understanding the method and benefits of detachment, which can be applied to all levels of your being.  Detachment isn’t to disconnect or disregard, it is to let go of bonds that cause you separation with the Creator and recreate bonds of love, trust, and truth.  It is this process which instigates new learning and even a reassessment of your spiritual pathway, to accept a pathway which is meaningful for your current transitions of ascension…”

“The 9th dimension truly fuels your spiritual evolution by supporting you in accessing an abundance of inspiration, enlightenment, and divine truth, while enhancing your ability to surrender and connect with the Creator…  The 9th dimension also aids your conscious awareness of your Soul Group and your Soul Groups spiritual evolution of working with and integrating with other Soul Groups in order to aid the divine will of the Creator.”

Such as our Arcturian friends.

A reader and friend – in fact, the friend who introduced me to the Arcturians a couple of decades ago – writes…

“Information is content, or a product.  However, why wouldn’t we need to question whether the information or data is useful or inaccurate?  The problem within the digital information age is that is too easily manipulated (see deep fakes on YouTube and altered news and images that Reuters and other news outlets have been caught out pushing on an unsuspecting populace).

“My concern is that spiritual insight and wisdom, organic connection and collective community, may be shown the back seat in a robotically controlled economy and society.  Unless human beings change drastically (i.e., evolve exponentially and quickly at that) the premise and promise inferred in Mason’s vision (or Karl Marx’s) becomes as 2D as the 1’s and 0’s in the source code of the Digital Age.  Pristine and lifeless, anesthetized and sterile.

“One of tenets of non-Dualist perspectives that Eckert Tolle and others offer is that content alone will not provide liberation from suffering or our current global challenges.  Emphasis on content and information may be the last illusion that needs to be shattered.”

Yes, one of many Last Illusions, I’m sure.  It’s very tempting to Extrapolate current trends into their worst Science Fiction nightmares, whether we’re playing with our Digits, or drowning in sweat or flood from this week’s Faux News about Global Warming.  But Seth made it clear a long time ago, in The Nature of Personal Reality, that our Personal History is an excellent Mirror of our Karma, aka our Habitual Patterns of Belief.

And likewise, the content of our Intellectual and Emotional Imaginings about the Future are a perfect Mirror for the detritus that gums up our Personal Relationship to the Unconscious.  The Unconscious is anything and everything that isn’t encompassed by our Ego at the Moment.  Energy is our True Nature, till we fall through one of the slits and become Particular, which is fine as a Snapshot, but this isn’t even a Moving Picture, because those are only 2D.  What happen to the Waves and Bits after they’re photographed?  They don’t just End there.

As Energy we are all Holographic Fragments of Source.  We only Choose to Separate ourself from the Whole for Fun or Profit.  When we Meditate on Being the Whole, what else is left to Interact with?  (The State of Wholeness is an excellent place to Manifest from, BTW, if we’re into Manifesting Partness, which of course we all are.)  Imagination is our Projection of Energy into the Future, where it will Manifest as Form.  So why would we Project something we don’t Want, except for Fun or Profit?  Why don’t we Project What We Want instead?

Well, the answer is because this is a Mirror for our Relationship with the Unconscious, with everything that isn’t Embraced by our Ego at the Moment.  This is why people talk about their “Shadow” – their Belief that Darkness is a Thing rather than a 2D Projection on the wall of the cave.

Leo

July 13, 2019

Ever attend a Concert or Speech and leave Enlivened or Inspired?  That’s the Up Side of Leo, Alive people Sharing a Contact High.  And ever attend a Speech or Concert and leave Drained or Angry?  That’s the Down Side of Leo, Performers Sucking your Energy.  On 13 July (6am PDT) the astrological symbol for Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis) begins an eleven-week sojourn in Leo.

We think of a Nemesis as an Enemy or a Punishment or a Downfall.  But those are Victim Postures, which we Revert as much as we can.  If an Enemy or a Punishment or a Downfall was a Mirror for some Internal State of ours, what might it be?  Would Guilt be a candidate?  Being mired in Guilt might be the Energy-Sucking Down Side of Nemesis in Leo.  Maybe we can use Guilt as a Flag that reminds us to Reframe.

We Feel Guilt when we Fear that we have done something “Wrong.”  Religions milk that Feeling to Suck our Energy, by equating the Moral with the Spiritual.  Wrong is an Either/Or, so we know it’s Political.  Politics – and Yangtegrity – are important Socially, but Spirituality is a different Animal.  When we actually have done something Socially or Politically Wrong, gotten out of Integrity, then we need to Make Amends, if the Relationships involved are important to us or to our Goals.

But because of our Religious Programming we often Feel something akin to Guilt when we aren’t Manifesting What We Want.  “What am I doing Wrong?”  In this situation it’s not about Making Amends, it’s about Locating our own Resistance and Negotiating with it.  Leo and Ego are very Close – that scenario where Alive People are Sharing a Contact High is the Plus side of Ego, the grease in Community.  Since Ego is just about the most Addictive substance around, it’s a knife edge.  It’s so Easy to shift from Sharing to Sucking.

So Nemesis in Leo may Ask us for a pretty big Ego Death.  It may Ask us to Go Deeper than we’ve been Going, to make Bigger Changes in the way we Live or Give or Take or Think or Feel or Act.  On September 27, Nemesis will move into Virgo.  Virgo’s job is to Manage the Transition from Leo/Ego to Libra/Other.  There’s a big Loss of Control involved in that Transition.  It’s so Easy to do Libra Codependently rather than Collaboratively.  If we dodge and weave our way through Nemesis in Leo, Nemesis in Virgo is likely to Stop us Cold.  It’s probably a good idea to Befriend our Ego while Nemesis is still in Leo.

Natalie Glasson’s Channeling for this Transition reminds us why we Want to do this work, as Lord Melchizedek helps us understand 1D to 5D…

https://www.omna.org/exploration-of-dimensions-1-5-by-lord-melchizedek/

“I, Lord Melchizedek, come forth to share some information with you regarding the dimensions of the Creator’s Universe.  My purpose in doing so is to support your further integration and experience of the Creator’s qualities, vibrations, and frequencies that are available to you.  Each dimension of the Creator’s Universe is akin to an insight into an aspect and an expression of the Creator.

“Each dimension is a source of support and guidance for your own spiritual evolution while instigating initiations and learning to further your relationship with the Creator.  You can call upon a certain dimension to ground into your being and reality to support an activation, action or the creation of an experience within your reality.  We can recognise the dimensions as a source of healing and self-awakening as well as a source of inspiration and enlightenment.

1st Dimension…”

Most folks that I encounter, with the possible exception of Joe Dispenza, speak of 3D and 5D without bothering to explain what they’re referring to.  Many folks who describe 3D and 5D at length, like Michael Roads, never use the terms.  That contrast makes Lord Melchizedek’s descriptions a very useful contribution.

Karma Repair 5

May 21, 2019

A friend of mine recently intended to say “I’m Hungry” and it came out as “I’m Angry” – that’s how Subtle these Energies are.  They’re Opportunities; often our Karma is a lot more In-Our-Face, and it will be again if we continue to pass on the Subtle Opportunities.

Here’s the chart for the 23 May (5pm PDT) Station of Orcus in 10 Virgo, drawn in the lighter lines.  The heavier lines show the closely related 19 May Merger of Saturn with the Mean South Node in 21 Capricorn (see the previous Karma Repair posts)…

You can see that the T-Square (red triangle) containing Orcus is focused on asteroid Ceres (which would be called “Cup-Hook” if we named planets after their glyphs).  In other words, the main issue here is Sustainability.  Not just Can We Let Go of Our Karma, but also Can We Continue to Choose Otherwise?

The third corner of this T-Square triangle is dwarf planet Nessus – Abuse and Privilege.  So it’s not just Letting Go of Our Karma, it’s Permanently Letting Go of Abuse, which means Naming it what it is, and Setting Firm Boundaries around it.  And yes, asteroid Pallas (Boundaries – the diamond on a cross) is involved, in a very positive way (a Quincunx Bridge – green lines – across the Orcus-Nessus Opposition; a Quincunx Bridge means it’s Grace unless we try to Anal-yze it).

But who is this Orcus fellow?  He was a pre-Roman Etruscan God-figure whose job was to Punish Oath-Breakers.  Strikes Terror, eh?  How many times have we been threatened with Dire Consequences if we Break an Oath?  The Yangtegrity Patriarchy made a big deal of Oaths, but hereabouts we lean more toward Yintegrity, as does our 5D future.  Oaths are spawn of Duality, and we prefer to Relate to the Universe as Unitary and Multifarious.  It’s the Limited mind that has great difficulty getting past Either/Or Duality.  When we aren’t In the Flow and Living Intuitively, then Yangtegrity is useful.  But it keeps us in 3D; Either/Or is Political, Both/And is Spiritual.

It turns out that our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs have their roots in forgotten Oaths that we made a long time ago, often in other Lifetimes.  The All-or-Nothing, Unconditional nature of Oaths is a side-effect of Duality.  The rest of Life is Situational.  We don’t Vow never to cross the street, we Vow to look both ways and cross only when it’s Safe – we use the “rule” if it fits the Situation; if it doesn’t fit, we look for Alternatives.  One way to interpret the impact of Ceres in this T-Square, is that it Invites us to Let Go of our Unconditional Oaths – the last thing we want to do is Sustain our Self-Sabotage!

With Nessus involved, we have to consider examples involving Abuse.  When Uncle Andy violated us and warned that they’d kill Mom if we told anyone, of course we Vowed never to tell.  And of course we Forgot it, because we worked our butt off to Forget the whole Trauma.  So how does that Vow impact our Lives now?  What if we PIAVAed to Open up that Wound so we could Let it Go?  Would this Vow prevent that Opening from happening?  It would probably do its best to try.  Meanwhile, what Experiences does the Vow prevent us from Indulging?

Unfortunately, the Unconscious often agitates for its own Clearing.  So we may be attracted to Abusers, or to the Abused, and we may have difficulty Breaking this “Habit” until we Clear the origin.  We may not Trust other people, or we may need to keep them at a Distance.  We may have to deal with Suffocation issues that aren’t really “ours.”  These Limits may interfere with What We Really Want out of Life – our Souls are more than clever enough to set up Life circumstances where the only way we can get what we Want most is to Confront our Limits.  That’s the nature of the Nodal Axis.

But, the Orcus-Nessus Opposition (Reverting Oaths involving Abuse or Privilege) is also Bridged by blue lines, or Grace (the Trine Bridge to asteroid Nemesis, which symbolizes Ego Death). Ego Death doesn’t need to be Traumatic, though it depends on our Beliefs about how much of our Life is critically Dependent on that particular Ego.  But Trust me, there are a thousand other potential Egos waiting in the wings to take over, and most of them will do a fine job.

The Egos that won’t do a fine job, will connect you to ancillary issues that you also need to Clear in order to Liberate yourself.  You can even Modulate the pace of your Ego-Clearing – all you need to do is Ask.  “God/Goddess, please lead me Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely through the process of Liberating myself from Abuse Memories and any resulting Oaths I (or a former Incarnation) may have made as a result,” for instance.  This is a Trine Bridge, it’s the Easy Path around the difficulty.  Asking for What You Want is a fabulous way to Accept Grace.

Boundaries III

February 11, 2019

A we mentioned in Boundaries, “Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.”  We’ve been writing about Libra and Pallas for several days without realizing till now that Other and Boundary are really the same concept or word, just seen from different Perspectives.  Without a Boundary there wouldn’t be an Other, and without Other we’d never have the notion of Boundary.  It’s all about Identity, which is a lot more Fluid than we usually think.  And about Duality, which is a lot more Limiting than we usually think.

We Hupers usually think of the Veil between us and the Other Side as more of a Limitation than a Boundary, but Boundary it is, and the Other Side is as much an element of Libra as your paramour.

“He was not wakened again by Alder, but he had a bad dream of his own.

“He was standing by a wall of stone near the top of a long hillside of dry grey grass that ran down from dimness into the dark.  He knew he had been there before, had stood there before, but he did not know when, or what place it was.  Someone was standing on the other side of the wall, the downhill side, not far away.  He could not see the face, only that it was a tall man, cloaked.  He knew that he knew him.  The man spoke to him, using his true name.  He said, ‘You will soon be here, Ged.’

“Cold to the bone, he sat up, staring to see the space of the house about him, to draw its reality about him like a blanket.  He looked out the window at the stars.  The cold came into his heart then.  They were not the stars of summer, beloved, familiar, the Cart, the Falcon, the Dancers, the Heart of the Swan.  They were the Other stars, the small, still stars of the dry land, that never rise or set.  He had known their names once, when he knew the names of things.

” ‘Avert!’ he said aloud and made the gesture to turn away misfortune that he had learned when he was ten years old.”  (Ursula Le Guin, The Other Wind, pp.12-13)

“We who have true names keep them when we die, it’s our use-name that is forgotten… This is a mystery to the learned, I can tell you, but as well as we understand it, a true name is a word in the True Speech. … When my master Aihal died, my wife was there with him; and as he was dying he said to her, ‘It is changed, all changed.‘  He was looking across that wall.  From which side I do not know.”  (ibid, p.45)

“Kalessin said: ‘Long ago we chose.  We chose freedom.  Men chose the yoke.  We chose fire and the wind.  They chose water and the earth.  We chose the west,  and they chose the east.’

“And Kalessin said: ‘But always among us some envy them their wealth, and always among them some envy us our liberty.  So it was that evil came into us and will come into us again, until we choose again, and forever, to be free.  Soon I am going beyond the west to fly on the Other Wind.  I will lead you there, or wait for you, if you will come.’ …

“Then Kalessin said, ‘Once we were one people.  And in sign of that, in every generation of men, one or two are born who are dragons also.  And in every generation of our people, longer than the quick lives of men, one of us is born who is also human.  Of these one is now living in the Inner Isles.  And there is one of them living there now who is a dragon.  These two are the messengers, the bringers of choice.  There will be no more such born to us or to them.  For the balance changes.’ ”  (Ibid, pp.167-68)

We can also compare our day-to-day Experience with that of Daphne Charters and her friends (Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.260-61)…

“This work, in which we all assist, is known as a transformation.  We seek and find a lost soul whose astral body, as well as the physical, has died, leaving no trace to normal Astral eyes.  However, because we cannot see a ‘dead’ person, owing to his faster rate of vibration, it does not follow that he has no body.  So it is with those whose vibrations have sunk through the years until only the Great Ones know where they lie.

“We find these people by their vibration, however slow and, although we are unable to see them when we reach them, we mark the spot and direct rays of power and love upon them until their vibrations are sufficiently raised for the bodies to become visible to us.  This is the first stage in the rehabilitation of ‘lost souls,’ as much power has to be directed to them over sometimes long periods before consciousness returns.

“In order to achieve even the first part of the transformation, it is necessary for many hundreds of people from the Astral to gather together.  By passing power through their bodies, it becomes sufficiently coarsened to be effective amidst very slow vibrating matter.  This is where Daphne is of use to us, for her physical body vibrates slower than those of us who live on the Astral, a higher plane, thus power which is passed through her coarsens the whole.

“Unless you are clairvoyant, you will not have seen a display of power so you cannot know the magnitude of the volume, or the intensity of light.  Fairies can naturally see this power for it is their life’s work to distribute it, but normally they know only the quantity which they can collectively produce in their own group.  Our own fairies, who always help us, are ever amused at the never-ending supply so we were interested to see how the delegates would be affected…”

“How different is the power which we witnessed today to that which is known by the same name on Earth.  Man ever seeks for power to overcome his neighbors, to add to his possessions, or to acquire authority over more people.  Today we were privileged to see the essence from which all these petty misnomers have their being.

“But this true-power, in its purity of purpose, performed a deed so wondrous that if men were told of it, they would not believe.  If only those who sought to misuse it understood the condition in which they will find themselves when their ridiculous, puffed-up physical bodies and accompanying personalities are no more, perhaps they would then use it to lift up instead of to crush, to comfort rather than exploit, and, in the happiness which they would at last know, they would find the key to a better world.”

So, I was Wondering about the Other planet in Libra, Makemake.  And it turns out that, at least for now, the Bottom Line of Makemake in Libra is that If we Want to Manifest What We Want, we have to Seek Out and Revert our Victim Postures.  Drawing up the Makemake chart for the moment when Juno enters Gemini – ie, when we are likely to be due for substantial Consciousness Expansion (8:30 pm PST 10 February)…

…Reveals two big Challenges (T-Squares)…

A Challenge to Manifestation itself (Makemake) between Making it a Value of ours to be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Venus-Pholus-Quaoar) and Choosing Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).

Fate is what happens To Us when we’re not Conscious of what’s going on.  It’s not about Why but rather about What.  What’s the Pattern?  When our Repeating Bummers happen, what Precedes them?  When “bad luck” befalls us, there’s a sequence of events that leads up to it.  We aren’t talking Cause & Effect – that’s a left-brain dead end.  Useful if you’re Stuck in the 3D Dynamic Masculine Creative process, but Obfuscating if you want to use 5D Magnetic Feminine Manifestation methods.

PIAVA that you become aware of What Precedes your Self-Sabotage.  If you already knew what it was you’d have fixed it long ago.  It’s behind your Blinders, and you won’t see it without enlisting the Cooperation of the Unconscious – that is, using PIAVA.  For instance, “Lord Ganesh, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Realizing How I Stumble into Self-Sabotage.”  Once you get Conscious about these Patterns, you can Choose otherwise.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

We’ve been working with Responding Fully (Pholus) to our Survival Instincts (Quaoar) – ie, Disallowing our Yes-Buts that try to Protect our Routines – for a long time.  We’re running out of Excuses.  It’s past time to Accept this as a basic Value.

The second Challenge is about Reframing the Beliefs Created by our Victim Postures (Vesta-OR10-Nessus) between Ego Death (Nemesis) and Sustainability (Ceres).

Like our Survival Instincts, we’ve also been working with our Abuse Memories for a long time now.  First we have to Retrieve them – or Allow them to Retrieve us (OR10), and Acknowledge their Reality.  Then we have to Empathize with our Real Victim, Revert any Blaming-the-Victim behavior we indulged or encountered, and Deal with our Real Emotions.  That usually takes a lot more than a few hundred Poor-Sweethearts, though they can be useful.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/.

People talk a lot about Forgiveness, but in a real sense what we need is the Opposite of Forgiveness, as our original Tolerance was a form of Forgiveness to begin with.  We don’t Forgive; we Discover that we’ve Forgiven.  It’s an Observation, not an Action.  As with Self-Sabotage, we need to Discover what Preceded our episodes of Abuse, so we can Learn to Recognize the Pattern before it turns Abusive, and Choose Otherwise.  While Sharing all this increases the Pain, it’s often very difficult to do alone.

Yes, just about every step in the process of Clearing Abuse – Recall, Acceptance, Self-Empathy, Embracing our Real, Explosive Emotions, Opening to the Patterns – requires an Ego Death (Nemesis).  Our Resistance to Ego Death must be Reframed, so we Recognize when it’s happening and Learn to Celebrate it as the fastest route to Living a Better Life.

And as we move through Abuse, we have to Recognize that we’re likely to be Abused in some ways every day.  Every “trivial” unkind remark, Intentional or otherwise, can make us Feel Less-Than.  So we have to get very good at Recognizing it, Owning and Healing our Reactions, and approaching Ego Death as we would a Latte, in order to make this whole process Sustainable (Ceres).

And Sustainability-Ceres is the kingpin of the whole chart, as it is the head of a Kite that connects the two T-Squares.  A Kite is a Grand Trine (three planets equally spaced around the Circle) with a fourth planet halfway between two of the three.  The fourth planet – Ceres – becomes the Focus of the substantial Dumb-Luck Blessings served up by the Grand Trine.

So we have a Golden Opportunity to bring these Challenges – Cleaning Up our Manifestations by Choosing to Support our Survival Instincts, and Rooting Out the Limiting Beliefs that our Abuse History has left us with – into Resolution, where they Serve our Deepest Desires rather than Sabotaging them.

The three corners of the Grand Trine, or Big Grace, are Manifestation (Makemake), Ego Death (Nemesis), and The End of Karma (asteroids Atropos and Karma).  We’ve actually been working on the Death of Karma for a lot longer than we’ve been working on Abuse Memories or Responding to Survival Instincts.  The Realization in the Western World that Karma is about Inertia rather than Retribution has been with us since Alan Watts’s books in the 1950s.

A corollary is that Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  Like our Other Challenges, Letting Go of Our Karma involves Noticing when it’s recurring, Reverting our Belief that it’s Inevitable, Discovering the Patterns that led up to it, Noticing when those Patterns Begin the next time, and Choosing an Alternative.  The Death of Karma is a Given in this Drama; it’s not something we’re being Scheduled to work on, it’s something that we can use as a model for the Abuse and Survival Issues we are working on.

Dragon, of course, is a synonym for Karma, and as we saw, Dragons have gone to fly on the Other Wind.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love II

January 15, 2019

Of course the “good news” of a Nemesis Station Square Nessus-OR10 (Ego Death from Embracing or Poor-Sweethearting our Intrusive Abuse Memories), is that it’s an Opportunity to Clear the very Held Emotions that constitute our Unconscious Resistance to migrating into 5D, aka What We Want.  It’s not as complicated as it sounds.  Originally, we set Boundaries against Memories that would Trigger Emotions that would Overwhelm us.

As we got good at this through Repetition, we pushed the Memories and their Emotions out of our Awareness and into Karma.  We made them Unconscious, which means they’re part of Not-Me.  In Real Life we’re Infinite Light Beings Fantasizing a Material Vehicle, and from this Light-Being Perspective nothing is Not-Me.  But when we Identify with our Fantasy Material (/Emotional/Intellectual) Vehicle, then from that Perspective our Not-Me can get Overwhelmingly large, large enough to Take Control of our Vehicle behind its back, without telling us, so to speak – Out of Our Awareness.

This is the Origin of all the Good-Versus-Evil stories you’ve been taught since Birth; “Good” is your Fantasy-Vehicle Identity, and “Bad” is the Not-Me which is the rest of your Light Being, which you don’t recognize as “Me.”  Hence the Classic Warfare Model of HisStory.  His many Stories become Religions or other Group-Thinks like Make-Rome-Great-Again aka Bring-Back-the-Slaves, which the pathologically clever among us exploit for their own Gain.

Moving into Identifying with our Light Body is not a process of Struggle, but a process of Surrender or Allowing or Vulnerability – HerStory.  The Lady Warrior Archetype misses the point, but it’s an intermediate step that might help with our Liberation, if we don’t get Stuck in it.

As we attempt to return our Identity to our Infinite Light Beingness, we find that our Fantasy-Vehicle Identity has to Break Out of a series of Shells, each one Opening us to a “new” (Revealed – Eris) segment of our Not-Me, which Manifests as an Introduction to a Held Emotion (South Node or Karma).  With each Broken Shell our Me Grows toward our 5D Light Being, and our Me Grows in Power – in the sense that we now have greater Healthy Control over our Life Circumstances.

Not the Power-Over which dominates HisStory, but the Power-With that works through Collaboration with the Unseen.  The more we can Delegate Power to the Unseen Energies that actually Carry it, the Easier our Life becomes.  Except of course for the potentially unpleasant “Ego Deaths,” or Molts, or Rebirths, or Embracing/Poor-Sweethearting of our Held Emotions, that occur when one of those Shells Break, because we Experienced those Shells as Security to our Fantasy Vehicle.  Like when Nemesis Acts Out, such as Now through 17 January.

Not to Lament, as Sappho (Self-Love) is also Stationary here, through 20 January.  Unconditional Self-Love is so Central to our Light-Being Self that we’re hardly Aware of it.  While Nemesis can suck out the Air that our Fantasy Vehicle likes to Breathe, nothing can suck out the Light that our Light-Being Self Breathes, though the Illusions of our Fantasy Vehicle like to blind us to that in its misguided attempts to Protect the next Shell.

When we can Experience the Breaking of a Shell as Liberation of a more Power-With-ful Me instead of the demise of a more Limited Power-Over-ful Me, our Growth into Full Collaboration with the Universe has Arrived.  Contrary to the usual Metaphor, there are no Destinations here; there are only More Shells to Break.  5D is not an event, it’s a process, and it’s the process of Enjoying Ego Death.

So let’s have a look at this Opportunity to Experience some serious Ego Deaths in the context of serious Self-Love…

For instance, there’s Marilyn Raffaele’s Channeling for 13 January…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

(If you don’t find the 13 January 2019 message there, check http://www.onenessofall.com/archives.html.)

“We are the Arcturian Group, a collective of ascended Arcturian beings from the eighth dimension here to assist Gaia and her people during these times of ascending consciousness.

“Know that these messages as well as others that may resonate with you are in reality your own state of consciousness manifesting as the particular message.  If this were not true, you would not be drawn to or be able to understand them.

“You, who are spiritually prepared to expand beyond the illusion and integrate truth are the forefront of the ascension process.  You chose to be on earth during these times of intense energetic chaos and change in order to complete your own third dimensional spiritual journey and become the first wave of ascension and example for those following.

“You are preparing the way for those of the second wave–individuals spiritually ready to awaken but who until now have resisted doing so.  Know that the Light of so many now awakening out of three dimensional sleep state, is shifting and dissolving the old paradigm, even when things appear to be getting worse.  Try not to give up hope but rather stand back as an observer for you are soon going to see much that will restore the hope you may have lost.

“You serve as living breathing examples of unconditional love for those around you when you realize and begin to live out from a consciousness that knows unconditional love is the only reality and that anything else simply represents conditioned beliefs about love.”

“Unconditional love can only ever be all there is because there is only ONE–one substance, one life, one reality, one law.  Love is the energetic glue connecting everything within this Infinite ONE and those who [naively] continue to believe in and live out from a consciousness of separation and duality create for themselves the illusory forms of these beliefs.

“You can ignore, but never change the reality of Oneness by judging from outer appearances as proof of its nonexistence.  Continuing to hold to the third dimensional belief system after outgrowing it only delays a person’s spiritual evolution because Oneness is the foundation of all reality and must be acknowledged at some point.  For some it may be in a future life, for you it is now.

“There are some who present a very religious face to the public, preaching ideas of love, but who do not practice them when confronted with experiences or opportunities that may result in personal inconvenience or lifestyle discomfort.  Unconditional love cannot continue being flowery words spoken or written, but must become an attained state of consciousness.

“Because Love/oneness is the only reality, all false concepts about love must be allowed to fade away and be replaced by a deeper realization of what love really is.  The third dimensional belief system has created and promoted hundreds of concepts of love, the grandest of them being romantic love.

“Romantic love is based in the belief that everyone is half of a couple.  This concept would be true if humans were simply physical, but they are not and never have been.  Although appearing to be just physical, the reality is that everyone is a whole and complete expression of Divine consciousness having the experience of being in physical form.

“Many, even the very evolved are reluctant to move past their favorite three dimensional concepts of love but as long as an individual continues to seek wholeness, happiness, and fulfillment from another, they remain just that– half of a couple.”

“Let go of concepts proclaiming that things need, should, or must be a certain way in order to be correct.  Most of the world’s ‘shoulds and shouldn’ts’ have been carried in collective consciousness from earlier times when they may have actually made sense for personal safety.  Others are nothing more than rules and regulations given by third dimensional thinkers, governments, and religious leaders often to promote their own agendas.

“You are ready to come out from under the bondage of three dimensional thinking because you have evolved beyond the need for someone to tell you what is right and what is wrong–you already know what is right and wrong.

“Allow yourselves to be who and what you are.  If family or friends think you have become a ‘weirdo’, simply laugh, bless them, and move on.  Does God need outer validation?  Where could it come from since IT is all there is?  …

“For some it takes a great deal of courage to live truth when it begins to unfold from within.  A person may be afraid to speak of these things to those of his old mindset be they family, friends, or church elders.  Living truth is not for the faint hearted especially in the beginning, but continuing to align with some organization or individual out of fear of criticism serves only to keep the person in energy he has outgrown and where he will continue to create experiences reflective of that energy.

“The choice is yours, dear ones.  Do you choose to be what you already are or do you wish to continue with the illusion of being a poor human constantly suffering third dimensional problems and continually seeking a savior, human or Divine, to save you?.

“Stop waiting for someone or something to change the world for you.  Only the awakened consciousness of the collective can and is shifting the three dimensional world out of illusion.

“Allow the real YOU to create your experiences.  You are your own Light should you choose to accept this fact.

“You are Divine Consciousness in expression.  Claim it.”

Or Dan Scranton’s Channeling for 14 January…

https://danielscranton.com/defeating-others-is-not-a-part-of-the-shift-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are more than satisfied with the progress of humanity, and furthermore, we are certain that your progress will continue to impress us.  Now, we know that it is easy to find the faults with where you are as a collective and to focus on them because they are right there in your face, very loud and somewhat destructive.

“So your approach now to helping humanity as the lightworkers you are has to be aimed at changing the way you perceive those noisy, low frequency aspects of the human collective.  We invite you to see that humanity is getting all of this out of its system in preparation for the shift in consciousness.  There are very old disputes that you have on planet Earth, and they actually extend back even further than when human life on Earth began.

“You are there settling very old scores, and you have needed to try the old way of going about it for quite some time.  Again, you need to realize what works by first realizing what does not work.  Seeking to defeat the so-called enemy, no matter how bad they appear to be, will never work for humanity, and there’s a reason for that.  The reason is that you are there to bring together all aspects of you so that you can become your higher selves.

“You cannot bring together all of the parts if any of the parts are eliminated or destroyed.  Again, we invite you to see the attempts to destroy one group of humans by another as the last gasp, the last ditch effort for certain aspects of humanity to cling to the third dimensional ways.

“If you are receiving this transmission, you are not among those who wish to do this.  And so again, we urge you all to be the peace, and the sanity, be the calm at the center of the storm.  And in so doing, you will integrate yourselves, your human collective, and this beautiful galaxy of ours.”

Self-Judgment and Self-Love

January 13, 2019

Well, my apologies.  I finally see why many folks are checking the blog’s home page – when I was cataloging the “first half of 2019” (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/24/2019-first-half/) I just plain missed a couple of Stations.  I thought we were getting a short break between the 12 January Lachesis Station and the 20 January Full Moon Eclipse, but no such luck!

We have to add…

Self-Judgment and Self-Love, 11-20 January

  • Nemesis (Guilt, Ego Death) Station, 6 Gemini, 17 January (2:30 pm PST)
  • Sappho (Self-Love) Station, 12 Gemini, 20 January (9:30 pm PST)

I’ll amend that earlier post.

In other words, asteroid Nemesis – Ego Death – is Stationary as we speak.  There’s at least one positive about it – it could mean that US federal employees will start getting paid again by 18-20 January, but we’ll get to that.  The other big positive may not Feel so good, but it’s a big Opportunity.  The Nemesis Station Squares (Challenges) our old “friends” OR10 and Nessus, respectively Intrusive Memories and Abuse and Privilege.  Two things to Remember…

  1. A Square seems to be about Repeated and Possibly Infinite Torture, while in fact a Square is about Complete Mastery of a Subject.  We – our Current-Moment Ego – didn’t sign up for Repeated and Possibly Infinite Torture, but actually it’s the quickest and most effective path to Complete Mastery.  Because Master can imply Slave, we’ve abandoned Mastery as a description of the Impact of a Square, however, and substituted AdeptnessA Square is the quickest and most effective path to Becoming Completely Adept at something.
  2. Karma is Dead.  When we Re-Experience a Trauma, our natural Reaction is to Push it Away.  But unfortunately that doesn’t work.  The only way to prevent it from returning Again (and Again and Again) is to Move Into it.  Recovery from Trauma was a major theme in the 1980s when Pluto was in Scorpio (fittingly), and the Anthem we used then was The Way Out Is Through.

Now that isn’t always True.  Once Pluto entered Sagittarius, The Way Out Was Letting Go.  Now Pluto is in Capricorn, so now The Way Out Is to Just Fix It.  So how to do that?  Well, one way is to toggle between Moving Into It and Letting It Go

We apologize for using a song sung by a Barbie-Doll mimic, because that’s just another thing that we need to Let Go of.  No wonder Lasseter’s in trouble with #MeToo…

https://msmonotone.wordpress.com/2017/09/08/hour-glass-figure/

We’ve all Suffered Abuse in some form; if you aren’t Aware of how you’ve been Abused, Ask for Awareness.  This is an Opportunity to increase your Healthy Control over your own Life.

The Key is that Karma is just Habit, and Habit is Built and Replaced by Repetition.  Every time you Re-Experience Trauma as its Victim you add cement.  But Every time you Let It Go as an Adept, you chip away the mortar.  That’s As An Adept.  That means you first have to dip your toe into it.  You can no longer Run Away from it.  It’s subtle and tricky, to Touch your old Trauma without getting sucked in and drowning in it.  If you have a friend, or a mnemonic, to remind you that it’s no longer Present Moment, that’ll help.

In the 1980s we used “What Color is the Wallpaper?” as our mnemonic, because the walls of the room we’re in now are probably a different color than the walls of the room where our Trauma occurred.  But that may suck you in too deep, if you even remember.  You need to keep at least one hand on the railing so you can pull yourself back out into Now.  Maybe a big

2019

sign?  Or a placard or poster that says something like

Karma is Dead!
(As long as I continue to Let My Bummers Go and Let My Hurting Self into my Own Heart Unconditionally!)”

Let your Inner Artist work on that one.

Poor-Sweethearting yourself can be Powerful too (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/).

Don’t neglect Tapping.  Gary Craig had great success leading Vietnam PTSD Victims through Re-Experiencing the Edges of their Trauma and Tapping with them.  This is heavy…

In order to Move Through and Let Go of Deep Trauma you may need an EFT professional who’s familiar with PTSD.  A workable approach might be to locate one near you (or within telephone distance), connect with them, tell them you want to try EFT on your Trauma first by yourself, and ask them if they’re willing to take your call if you get in over your head.  They may have useful information for you.  The basic EFT technique I use is this one…

Finally, if it’s Painful between now and 17 January, Recognize that the 20 January Sappho Station that follows, which is all about Self-Love, occurs within a few minutes of the Total Lunar Eclipse, which will make Self-Love very Powerful and more Long-Lasting.

The major Configuration of the Nemesis Station chart…

…is a Square Fez – the Moroccan hat with red sides and blue top and bottom.  The red sides (Squares) are…

  • Nemesis Square OR10-Nessus (Abuse/Privilege).  This is a Challenge – consider it an Invitation – to Let Go of our Beliefs that Abuse and Privilege follow us around like a Lost Puppy.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equal.  So one way to Approach our Beliefs that we attract or deserve or allowed Abuse (if we don’t bring these Beliefs into Consciousness they’ll Control our Life), is to Examine the ways we are Privileged.  Privilege is actually useful – as long as it doesn’t leave someone else without Privilege.  If you have a friend who likes to buy you lunch, Enjoy it!  And pay it forward, pass it around.  Save half to give to the homeless person on the corner.

But we want to Strive for Balance.  We want to Grant as much Privilege as we Receive.  And we want to Give as little Abuse as possible, and Receive even less.  Having Received Abuse it’s inevitable that we will Give it, Unconsciously if not Consciously.  Stay Safe, but try to steer it toward Abusers…

https://msmonotone.wordpress.com/2017/10/06/pigs-in-politics/

The Keys to any Fez are the green Diagonals (called “Quincunxes” because they connect planets that are five [Quin] Signs [Unx = 1/12] apart).  They’re part of two interlocking Major Tricolors or red-green-blue triangles, indicating Challenge/red, Question/green, Blessing/blue; the green Question Liberates the blue Blessing to resolve the red Challenge.  By Question we mean Curiosity, of the kind that eschews “Figuring It Out.”

Aka PIAVA – Praying, Intending, Asking, Visualizing or Pre-Feeling, Affirming, Commanding, Expanding, or any other Magnetic approach to Creating; see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.  We don’t want Answers, we want to Express our Curiosity about How the Result we Want will Manifest – then we want to Let It Be so the Universe can Surprise us.  Resist the Desire to know ahead of time; if you don’t get Surprised, you aren’t Growing.  If we already knew the Answer, we’d have already Manifested it.

The two Major Tricolors are…

  • Nemesis Square OR10/Nessus (the Challenge to gently assist the Molt of our Abused Ego),
    • OR10/Nessus Quincunx Makemake (“I Wonder what that’ll look like when it Manifests!“),
    • Makemake Trine Nemesis (Ego Death is the Open Door to Creating).
  • Makemake Square Hopi/Quaoar (the Challenge to Recognize and Relax our Judgments in order to Allow What We Want to Manifest),
    • Hopi/Quaoar Quincunx to Nemesis (“Ganeshi, Please Remove All Obstacles to Letting Go of my Attachments to my Judgments“),
    • Nemesis Trine Makemake (I’ll be better able to Manifest What I Want once I Let Go of my Inner Blocks to Receiving it).

Many thanks to MSMonotone, https://msmonotone.wordpress.com/about/home-art-work-titled-nathan-original-works-by-msmonotone-jayanti-maloney/, for the art!

Another Molt III

October 18, 2018

I can usually tell when folks are having hard times, by the number of folks calling up the blog as a whole, rather than a specific article.  Not so many this week, so I’m assuming folks are doing fine, which is great!  You’re Transcending Ego Death Transparently, Congratulations!

It’s been a busy week for me, so I’ve just interpreted the astrology directly.  Let’s catch up a little – here’s the 18 October Nemesis Station chart…

Our fundamental Challenge (T-Square) is to make Sustainable (Ceres) the Powerful Rebirth (Pluto-Klotho) of our Choice of Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).  That Challenge is compounded by the Duality (Opposition) between Ego Death (Nemesis-Asbolus) and our Limiting Beliefs and Self-Destructive Habits (asteroid Karma), creating quite an Opportunity. 

The process is Eased and made almost Automatic by the Air Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings around thought and Communication) connecting Nemesis, Ceres, and the Moon (Authenticity).  Traditional astrology tells us that the focus of a T-Square which is also a corner of a Grand Trine, is a Challenge we may be able to walk through Transparently, without even noticing. 

But the downside of a Grand Trine is Arrogance – if we’re born with one we tend to think everybody else must be pretty dumb because they can’t do what we do Effortlessly.  Until we Discover that everyone has their own Adeptness, and this just happens to be ours.  This is one reason why sports is emphasized in education – teamwork doesn’t work worth beans when the 150-pound sprinters are protecting the quarterback and the 300-pound brick walls are trundling downfield to catch passes.

In other words, by Enjoying Effortlessness this last week, we could be missing the Lesson.  By all means Enjoy all the Effortlessness you can find!  But to really accelerate our Consciousness, we be ahead to spend an hour or so contemplating why it was an Easy week.  What were we doing differently than we usually do? 

For instance, my natal Saturn is in Gemini, so Disciple and me are from different planets.  But I just finished several weeks of intense workload and deadlines, and did it Easily.  How?  I did something I’ve never done before – I used a calendar to schedule things.  Pretty primitive Discipline, but radical for the likes of Saturn in Gemini.

I did it without ever having to Choose to do what I didn’t Want to do at any time, which is a Protocol I follow as much as I can.  After many years of Living Saturn in Gemini I do know that what’s Most Important does get done on time, somehow.  And it gets done a lot more Efficiently, let alone more Enjoyably, than when I ignore my Moment-to-Moment Wants and Force it.

So I need to pause and Celebrate the Unique way my Saturn operates.  Hail Saturn in Gemini!  Turns out that in the Nemesis-Station charts, Saturn sits on the Near Midpoint between Klotho-Pluto and Karma, and the Far Midpoint between Nemesis-Asbolus and Moira.  So Saturn is a Powerful Sleeper here.  For me, at least part of the Gift was about using Discipline Effortlessly.

We should also point out that the Grand Trine was a Kite, focusing the Grace of the Grand Trine itself on the fourth planet at the head of the Kite, asteroid Karma.  So we were also Gifted by Ease at Transcending our Self-Sabotaging Patterns and Habits.  That also illuminates my Saturn “Lesson.”  What do you suppose your own Lesson about Sustaining Consciousness was?

Another Molt II

October 14, 2018

Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian friends contribute this today…

https://danielscranton.com/have-faith-in-yourselves-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have sent all of you the energy that you have been requesting, the energy that will support you through the time that you have remaining in the fourth dimension.  We know that you often feel stranded there, as though all you can do is wait for something big to happen so that you can start living your lives as fifth dimensional beings.  We also know that you have more power, more creativity, and more access to higher frequency energy than you ever had as third-dimensional beings.

“But you are still under the impression that you have to live out the rest of this time of transition in a third-dimensional way.  You do not.  You are not trapped, and you can begin to enjoy what you have access to as fourth dimensional beings.  You can still create a beautiful life for yourself, as you await the shift.  Your journeys are not limited energetically in any way, but they are still limited by your minds.

“The more you look at life through a logical and reasonable lens, the more it is going to continue to show up as the same life you’ve been living.  Now, we can grant you access to all of the energy that you summon, but you still need to have enough faith in yourselves to do something with it.  We want you to know how significant it is that you are open to receiving that energy, and we also want you to understand how much power you have as creator beings in the here and now.

“You don’t need to wait for your light bodies and your fifth dimensional abilities to be able to create a wonderful reality for yourselves and the rest of humanity.  This doesn’t have to be a holding pattern for you.  It can be the beautiful and wonderful experience of growth that you have always wanted to experience, and you can live without limitations.  You can live the best of what life has to offer right now.”

Alls we gots to do, is just Embrace the Ego Death that Allows us to Let Go of our Self-Sabotaging Limits.  We do always need to be careful what we Ask for, so rather than…

“Ganeshi My Love, Please Remove All Obstacles to My Living the Best of What Life Has to Offer Right Now”

You might try something along the lines of…

“Ganeshi My Love, Please Gently, Lovingly, Rapidly, and Completely Remove All Obstacles to My Living the Best of What Life Has to Offer Right Now.  Thank you, Ganeshi!”