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Changes

January 15, 2020

This week we’re diving expeditiously into the many Changes we’ll be making as we adapt to this Brave New Zeitgeist (Saturn-Pluto), New Integration with Soul (Uranus in Taurus), and New Vulnerability (dwarf planet Eris).

Imagine that your Ego is like a suit of clothes.  You use some of your clothes for Self-Expression, some for Comfort, some for specific Tasks.  You usually Change them when your Objective Changes, though sometimes you can’t, or just don’t.  But can you really Relax in your Work clothes?  How much contrast is there between your Self-Expression clothes, your Lolling-About costumes, your Work outfits, and your Sunday-Go-To-Meeting clothes?  How inconvenient, or embarrassing – or even maybe dangerous to your reputation – is it to get caught in the wrong circumstances with the wrong outfit?

That’s the way we wear our Egos.  Ego is a Tool, like clothes.  We have and use different Roles for different circumstances, we Change them like clothes, and sometimes we get caught wearing the wrong Ego for the job we’re called to do.  We even come up against places where we Wonder if we even have a suitable Ego for some New situation at all, or for some Old one that’s always given us trouble (Pluto-Chariklo).  It felt like that for me last week, while everything was so topsy-turvy.  It Feels more Comfortable this week so far, but that may be Temporary.

As we get close to 17 January 2020, we could run into what we usually refer to as Ego Death – a place where the Ego outfit that we’ve always worn for some job, clearly doesn’t fit at all.  Or worse, a place where we’re face-to-face with one of those Emotions that We’d Rather Die Than Feel.  Where whatever Confidence we had dissolves, and we’re Overcome by Inadequacy, Grief, Anger, Guilt, Fear, Doubt, and Shame, all at once, and we’d crawl in a hole if one was handy.  It feels like we’ve met our “Nemesis.”  If we’re really lucky, when it happens we’ll be somewhere where we can curl up in the fetal position and hide under the covers.

We really should practice with these Feelings, so we get more Comfortable with them, Savor them even, because they’re Portals into Growth of Consciousness.  Maybe you can practice receiving them as an Opportunity this week.  At 4:30 am PST on 17 January, the Influence peaks of the asteroid that’s in charge of these Transitions, from Comfortably in Denial to Horribly Discomfortable in Realization (asteroid Nemesis Stationary, in 27 Virgo, the Sign of Ego Death; the chart is complex, and closely tied to last weekend’s Saturn-Pluto-Chariklo – we’ll try to find time to take it apart soon).

With the Zeitgeist  and our own Energy Body so drastically New, we need to Expect a lot of these kinds of Changes, as we Adjust to the Changes.

A Roadmap to 5D

November 20, 2019

I don’t know how long this will be available for free, but several days at least, I believe, maybe till about November 25, 2019?  At any rate, it’s worthwhile, four very concise fifteen-minute talks by Joe Dispenza, highly recommended…

https://experience.hayhouseu.com/redesigningyourdestiny-video1-whereyourattentiongoes/

 

Expanding into Truth 2

September 26, 2019

As we’ve been pointing out repeatedly since July’s Truthiness post (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/25/truthiness/), both asteroids Aletheia (Truth of the Heart) and Veritas (Truth of the mind) are in Scorpio (Getting to the Bottom of Things, Relentlessly) and moving rapidly toward Merger (Conjunction).  So the ubiquitous news about Habitual Prevaricators getting caught standing in their own you-know-what is no Surprise.  These two Merge on 3 October 2019, about eight hours after Pluto (No Exit) Stands Still (is at Max Power).  They don’t leave Scorpio till early November.

If you haven’t been following this Thread, you’d do well to skim from Truthiness forward till now, as Truthiness has been entwined with our Karma and several other Heavy Threads – including getting Truthy about our own Karma.  Particularly notice how the hooligans are dressed in the first video of the Ixion, Forbidden Genius 3 post.

Our first 27 September astroevent (5:30 am PDT) is asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) moving into Virgo (Ego Death).  Nemesis symbolizes Guilt and Punishment, and we Transcend that with Ego Death – we either Accept that we’re a Bad Person, or Decide that the Rules we’ve broken are Bad, that we’re being Blamed Unfairly. or that we’re being Blamed Fairly, and Intend to Reform.  Any of which Requires an Ego Adjustment, some bigger than others.

Virgo meanwhile is the rope Bridge between Leo and Libra, between the Pinnacle of Individual Development, and the First Meeting of Other, where we’re basically Infantile.  I mean, in Leo we barely knew Other existed.  We thought those disembodied clapping hands were part of our scenery.  Maybe a zip line, or a rappel with no belay, would be a better metaphor than a rope Bridge.  If we don’t go through a tonne of Ego Adjustment in Virgo as the hands stop clapping, we’ll be in big Trouble when we get to Libra.  Maybe you remember situations where you’ve Felt at the top of your game, and Believe you were meeting someone pretty much as Equals, only to very quickly Discover they were waaay ahead of you.

It’s no Help that dwarf planet Chariklo (Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence) is also Strong (Stationary), its Energy peaking a few minutes after midnight PDT on 28 September.  Or maybe it’s Helpful, if Self-Doubt leads us to Self-Examination and Change, or we Respond to getting caught in Over-Confidence by Adjusting our Attitude.

The Nemesis Sign-Change chart is like so…

Just a Big Tricolor (Mystery; the red-green-blue triangle) and a Mjölnir (Epiphany – the lighter yellow lines).  With a Tricolor we unlock the Grace in the blue line by Refusing to Let the mind Believe that it Understands the Confusion inherent in the green line.  Said another way, there’s an Easy Relationship (Trine) between the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar) and our Ego Death (Nemesis).  But the Ease is locked out of our Awareness when we Allow the Challenge (Square) that Unconscious Fear (Vesta-Sedna) makes to our Ego (Nemesis) to Dominate our Attention.  We’re referring to Pholus-Quaoar as the Climate Emergency, but it includes the Political and Economic Uncertainty that’s Afoot.

We Restore the Ease by Surrendering to our Higher Power the Relationship between our Fear (Vesta-Sedna) and the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar), by Allowing it to remain a Mystery (Quincunx).  But that doesn’t mean we defer the Opportunity to bring the Fear up into Consciousness!  For instance, I’ve been gnawing on a Problem for several months now, without coming up with a decent suggestion to Solve it.  This morning I realized that It was Fear that I was Unconsciously focusing on, while I tried to “Solve” it by Strategizing.  That’s a Dead End, obviously.  We Resolve Fear by Embracing it.

So I did just that – laid down, located the Fear in my Body, Softened and Warmed it while Poor-Sweethearting myself (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Scared, aren’t you”), then followed the Sensation when it Moved in my Body, and the Emotional Memories Triggered as it did.  If a Problem can’t be Resolved in a couple of months of Plotting, it’s not a Problem that will ever be Solved by Analysis, Planning, and Executing.  Declare an Intention, Command What You Want, and be Mindful to Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade Thoughts to the Contrary.  Which I did.  Didn’t immediately Solve the Problem, but it certainly Changed my Frame of Reference, so I’m more often broadcasting What I Want to the Universe instead of What I Don’t Want.

Which leads us right to the Mjölnir (Trioctiles reaching from each end of a Square), that focuses on the Saturn-South Node that plagued us last week – namely, our Karma.  Those Emotional Memories Triggered by the Movement of Energy after I Allowed the Fear to become Conscious as a Physical Sensation in my Body and Invited it to Express itself however it Chose.

Asteroid Hopi, joining Saturn and the Dragon’s Tail, is about Respect for All Things.  A great time to go through our…

“_____, whatever I may have done or not done, or said or not said, Consciously or Unconsciously, that hurt you, I Ask your Forgiveness.  _____, whatever you may have done or not done, or said or not said, Consciously or Unconsciously, that hurt me, I forgive you.”

Be careful with this; it can easily Create Powerful Ego Deaths that you don’t notice until you Discover that you’ve Forgotten how to Drive!

A few hours later, around 8:30 am PDT 27 September, asteroid Bee-Zed (or BZ509, indicating Transendence) Stands Still.  Its chart…

…is more complicated, but the core is two T-Squares (red triangles), one to Stationary Bee-Zed itself, Expanded by Jupiter (Growth), and the other to Chariklo (Self-Doubt/Confidence), Stationary less than a day later (just after midnight PDT 28 September).  Chariklo is Lit up by Pluto (Obsession), which itself is Stationary until 2 October, and our busy friend Hopi again.  This is a hell of a lot of Power.  Make sure you’re swimming downstream.

Expanding Transcendence (Jupiter and Bee-Zed) is Challenged by (Squares) the Dance (Opposition) between Choosing to Become Aware and Trust our Instincts (Moira-Juno-Moon) and Sacred Confusion about our Identity (Neptune-Lilith).  Lilith is about Bringing our Identity back Home to our Self and our Soul, rather than Investing it in someone or something External to us, such as a spouse or a job.  Confusion is always the first stage of Growth, as the Mental Cage we normally trap the Universe in, starts to warp and lead.  Sacred Confusion (Neptune) all the more.

Compulsive Attention to Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence, in the context of our Judgments (Pluto-Chariklo-Hopi) is Challenged by the Dance between our Values (Venus) and our Endings (Atropos).  In other words this is about Letting Go of Obsolete Values that Inhibit our Self-Confidence.  The Greek Atropos was the Goddess who determined the Ending of a TimeLine – a Lifetime or a Habit or a Relationship or any other Thread in your Young Life.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; we replace it with Choice when we become Conscious.  Here we practice Choosing to Let Go of Values that no longer Serve us.

There is a seventh fencepost here – the budding (3 October) Conjunction between Truth of the Heart Aletheia, and Truth of the mind Veritas.  It Bridges both Oppositions – we’ll make everything a lot Easier if we steer toward Truth.

We need to remind that this is all just warmup for the 2 October (11:30 pm PDT) Station of Pluto (Compulsive Change of Trance) and 3 October (8am PDT) Aletheia-Veritas Conjunction (Truth Squared).

And that 28 September is even busier than the 27th,  starting just after midnight PDT with the Station of Chariklo (Self-Doubt/Self-Confidence) which Conjoins the Stations of Pluto and Bee-Zed, and continuing at 9am PDT with the Station of dwarf planet Chaos.  Chaos is a Big Deal; if it weren’t for all these other themes going on and Pluto waving its arms, Chaos would be the Big Topic!  Here it just means that however we React and Respond to these Lit-Up Issues of Karma, Survival, Ego Death, Confidence, Truth, Growth, Ascension (into 5D), and Descension (of Soul into Matter) the Gate to the Universe is Open.  The World is our Oyster; all we need to do is Intend it.

Then, at 11:30 am PDT 28 September, the Moon is New within one arcminute of dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  The primary theme of the New Moon, other than Manifesting What We Want, is Descent of Soul into Matter, not just “our own” Soul into our own Body, but the Reanimation of the Planet, the Wild, and Everything In It, return to the Indigenous World where All Things Are Alive.

If anyone is watching the Degrees and comparing them to their natal chart – which we should all be doing – they’re these…

  • Equinox 0 Libra 23 September
  • Nemesis Ingress 0 Virgo 27 September
  • New Moon 6 Libra 28 September
  • Aletheia-Veritas Conjunction 17 Virgo 3 October
  • Bee-Zed Station 18 Sagittarius 27 September
  • Chariklo Station 20 Capricorn 28 September
  • Pluto Station 21 Capricorn 2 October
  • Asbolus Station 24 Gemini 23 September
  • Chaos Staion 27 Gemini 28 September
  • Vesta Station 28 Taurus 23 September

Expanding into Truth 1

September 25, 2019

A quick Summary of the fireworks we listed in the previous post…

  • 27 September 2019 – Ego Death Squared (Nemesis enters Virgo).
  • – Transcending Untruth (Bee-Zed Stationary Conjunct Aletheia-Veritas).
  • 28 September – Dancing with Self-Doubt (Chariklo Stationary Conjunct Pluto).
  •  – Wandering in Paradise (Chaos Stationary Conjunct Asbolus).
  •  – Making New Friends (New Moon Conjunct Makemake).
  • 2 October – No U Turn (Pluto Stationary).
  • 3 October – Truth Reigns (Aletheia Conjunct Veritas).

The overarching Energy is Pluto.  We usually describe Pluto Energy  as floating down a large river – when we hear the waterfall coming up, we can steer to one bank or the other to portage around it.  So we do have the flexibility to Manipulate the Energy to our advantage, if we have the Skills.  But it’s a big river – if we try to paddle upstream, we’ll just get swept over the falls backward.  When Pluto Energy Shifts, Going Back takes great Effort, and if you get there it’s not the same anyway.

This Pluto Station is about Revising our Values to account for New Information we’ve gotten (Pluto Stationary T-Square Venus and Eris).  Except for minor differences, the 27 September Bee-Zed Station and 28 September Chariklo Stations make the same basic chart, as all three of these Stations occur within the same 3-Degree window.

Pluto is often read as Transformation, or Formation of a New Trance, Bee-Zed as Transcendence, and Chariklo as Self-Confidence or its evil twin Self-Doubt.  So this week we wouldn’t be Surprised to find ourself Doubting our Old Values, as we Transcend previously Unconscious Limitations.  By next week we should be ready to have Confidence in a whole set of New Values.

Lingering beneath this Pluto Energy is a Station of dwarf planet Chaos, which, if we Allow it, can blow our Limitations to smithereens.  With our Values in Flux here, the odds are improved.  Dwarf planet Chaos implies, rather than Disorder, a Blank Slate on which we can draw anything we can Imagine that draws out our Passion.  We’re only Limited by our Imagination and our Manifestation Skills – which are much Enhanced by the 28 September New Moon only one arcminute from dwarf planet Makemake.

Chaos has been Dancing with our Intuition (Asbolus) and our Forbidden Genius (Ixion).  As we’ve seen, our Genius is tied up with the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar), so it’s Important that we Receive and Embrace Her.  Greta is a great Model for our Hidden Genius – when the trolls attack her for being “mentally ill,” she points out that she regards her Asperger’s Syndrome as her Superpower.  We all have a Superpower that’s been Shamed by the Status Quo Culture.

As you Doubt your own Values this week, you’ll see first hand why others would much rather ridicule their superiors than Allow their Ego-draped Values to be Threatened.  The 27 September Ingress of asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) into Virgo (Ego Death) will Amplify all that.  Leo is the apex of the Individual, and in Libra we Meet Other.  In between – in Virgo – we Discover, like we did as infants, that we aren’t the Center of the Universe.

To get from Leo to Libra requires a Gauntlet of Ego Deaths.  Virgo’s bad rap follows from Maladjustment to and Judgment of Ego Death.  For all the (Lack of) Attention that Ego-Worshiping Western Culture gives to Ego Death, it’s a Wonder anyone is Well-Adjusted to it – if anyone is.  I felt it today in the form of missing two turns on a 2-mile trip that I drive almost every day.

Nuclear Winter 2

September 24, 2019

As we mentioned, 23 September 2019 is a busy day…

At the Equinox, both asteroid Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and dwarf planet Asbolus (Intuition) are Stationary, or Strong, both peaking at 9pm PDT.  In other words, like Greta says, more or less, You Know in your Heart what’s Wrong with your Beliefs that your Priorities are so Screwed Up, so get to Work Allowing your Beliefs to Change!  This is True for All of us, we aren’t just Preaching to the Choir.  If we Feel Satisfied with the Work that’s being done to Restore the Planet, we’re obviously missing the whole point.

The Libra Equinox symbolizes the Shocks to the Individual Ego that Meeting Other Creates, on its way to Re-Initiating 5D-like Collaboration and Cooperation and Mutual Interdependence at the Capricorn Solstice.  The Station of Asbolus tells us that the “Left-Brain” mind will be doing more harm than good for the next half-year, while the Heart takes charge.  Changing Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta) can only be done by the “Right Brain,” with Insight and Intention, Affirmation, Visualization and Prayer (PIAVA).  The “Left Brain” can certainly contribute, mostly by managing the details of Habit Change (see e.g. https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/09/15/held-emotions-aura-holes/), but Analysis won’t get us where we need to go.

Both of the Station charts supply the necessary Insight, as the Vesta Station sits at the focus of a Mjölnir (Epiphany) from Venus (Values) and Saturn-South Node (The Most Important Thing Is To Clear Our Karma).

The three 23 September charts are separated by 2½ and 4 Degrees, so using our traditional 3-Degree Sensitivity, we’ve drawn them as three separate charts.  However, since an Equinox is a Rebirth, when we look at any Projects we’re Initiating in the next few months, it’s totally appropriate to combine the three charts into one by using a wider 8-Degree Sensitivity.

The most prominent element of the Vesta-Station chart…

…is of course it’s Merger with dwarf planet Sedna (Converting Fear to Power; see e.g. https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/02/07/kegels-5/), which we mentioned in the previous post.  The Vesta Station also highlights likely Ego Deaths (Square to asteroid Nemesis), but that’s not a Surprise, as most any Challenge To or Shift In our Beliefs requires an Ego Death, simply because our Ego is always deeply Invested in our Beliefs.

Vesta recoils in Fear (turns Retrograde) just before She gets to Sedna, so She doesn’t get Initiated by Sedna till mid-March 2020 (12 March 8am PDT), at 28 Taurus.  That’s perilously close to the Fixed Star Algol, whose Chinese name can be translated as “Piled-Up Corpses.”  In the West it’s thought of as the Eye of Medusa.  The Vesta-Sedna Cycle is a little over three years long, which gives us a potential TimeLine for the possible Atrocities that our Planet could witness starting in March.

For eleven years the Moon stays within the Tropics, ie, between 23:27 North and 23:27 South of the Equator.  Then for the following eleven years the Moon goes “Out of Bounds” – beyond 23:27 N or S – for several days every two weeks.  During these Moon Out-of-Bounds Decades, people are more Emotional.  The last time the Moon started an Out-of-Bounds Decade was 11 September 2001.  Remember that day?  The Moon starts its next “OOB” Decade on 16 March 2020, a few days after Sedna Initiates Vesta on Algol.  A good week to stay in bed, if you’re confident your roof won’t fall on you.

However, Perseus’s slaughter of Medusa was part of the budding Greek Patriarchy’s Suppression of the “Terrors” of Feminine Power, Algol being the most “Terrible” and Snake-Haired of them all.  When we Reframe Algol as an Orgasm of Feminine Power, rather than a typical Patriarchal Pussy-Grabbing and Pecker-Waving, we could see a Rebellion led by Females against an attempt of the Patriarchs to use another Rabid-Patriotism-Evoking War to divert Attention from the Climate Emergency and the US Election, and the Travails of Brexit.

The Greeks Saluted Hestia – their version of the Roman Vesta – before they Saluted Zeus, and Saluted Hestia again after Zeus.  So sure, Zeus was granted the Attention He wanted, but guess who the people gave the real Power to?  Hestia/Vesta, Goddess of the Hearth – Food and Warmth.  Ego came second.  The Romans recognized a good thing, and made Vesta their Goddess of the State.  We know Her mostly from Her Vestal Virgins, which intended to symbolize the inviolability of the Roman State.

But the biggest Configuration in the Vesta-Station chart is a Self-Resolving Challenge to our Karma, or the Demise thereof (Diamond Star to asteroid Karma).  The source of the Challenge is the Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) Available if we Respond to our own Hidden Genius (Pholus-Ixion) – that is, in order to access that Potential, we need to Let Go of our Karma.  The Grace that leads to the Self-Resolution is our Willingness to undergo Ego Death and Rebirth (asteroid Nemesis and dwarf planet Haumea).  The Self-Resolution implies that we may not have a Choice.

If we use our 3-Degree window to examine the Asbolus-Station chart…

…the Self-Resolving Challenge to asteroid Karma disappears, and devolves into a Grand Cross, a chorus of small Challenges that Balance one another.  Asbolus/Intuition is Merged with Chaos/Unlimited Potential and Contrasted with (Opposite) Ixion/Hidden Genius, proposing that like Bilbo Baggins, we will be led to this Karma-free Treasure by Intuition, not Logic.

More problematic is the Challenge (T-Square) to our Instincts (the Moon) presented by a Contrast between Revelation of Denial (dwarf planet Eris) and Rebirth (Haumea).  Contrast implies Duality, that we may be invited to Choose between keeping the Comfort of our Denial, and Accepting Rebirth.  But Instinct, like Intuition, is non-Dual.  So the Real Choice will be between Trusting our Instincts, or Avoiding Ego Death.  Spiritual is always Both/And.  Either/Or is always Politics.

As we Dance here with Intuition and Instinct, we are reminded that both symbols for Truth – both the Truth of the Heart (asteroid Aletheia) and the Truth of the mind (asteroid Veritas), are in Scorpio.  As we’ve said, we expect people who live by the Lie to encounter Trouble here, because Scorpio is Relentless about Getting to the Bottom of Things.  We’ll see this Lit Up very strongly between now and early October…

As we’ve pointed out, 23 September was a very busy day.  But it’s only a prelude for the larger Dramas that we’ll encounter between now and October 3.  We’ve interpreted the 23 September events as if they were isolated events, but they’re only the first act.  The real fireworks will be…

  • 27 September…
    • Asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) enters Virgo (Ego Death) (5:30 am PDT).  Ego Death Squared.
    • Asteroid Bee-Zed (Transcendence) Stationary Conjunct Aletheia and Veritas (Truth) (8:30 am PDT) in 18 Sagittarius.
  • 28 September…
    • Dwarf planet Chariklo (Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt) Stationary Conjunct Pluto (Compulsion) (12am PDT) in 20 Capricorn.
    • Dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) Stationary Conjunct Asbolus (Intuition) (9am PDT) in 27 Gemini.
    • New Moon Conjunct Makemake (Manifestation) in 6 Libra (11:30 am PDT).
  • 2 October… Pluto Stationary (11:30 pm PDT) in 21 Capricorn.
  • 3 October… Aletheia (Truth of the Heart) Merges with Veritas (Truth of the mind) (8am PDT) in 17 Virgo.

As busy as 23 September was, it’s going to get a lot busier.  It’s a good thing we were able to sweat through all that Deep Letting Go of Karma last week, so we can Endure this Gauntlet with less Baggage!

Busy August III

August 1, 2019

Scorpio is Fearless, Relentless, and won’t stop till it gets to the Bottom of Things.  When you try to Bullshit or Obfuscate or Avoid Scorpio’s penetrating Investigations, Scorpio can get very Icy.  You can tell when you’re dealing with someone who has an emphasis in Scorpio, because they Hold your Gaze.  That Intimidates many.  You can certainly tell Scorpio that it’s None of their Business, but good luck trying to Divert its Attention.  This is the nature of Scorpio as an Energy, not as a Huper.  Note that Pluto Energy is very similar.

So, correcting our brainfart of Busy August I, we are starting a Nemesis New Moon.  You can think of your Nemesis as an Enemy who’s eventually going to Whup Yer Ass, and there isn’t much you can do about it.  I think that’s not far from the use of the term in everyday language.  And yes, if you’re thinking about Getting Yer Ass Whupped, then yes, I’d say you were Guilty – of something.  Feelings are – or are supposed to be – Energy in Motion, or E-Motion for short.  So if you’re Stuck mulling on some kind of Guilt, as with any other Feeling, the Energy needs to Move.

So how do we Move Guilt?  Well, it isn’t usually quite that Clear-Cut, is it.  When we was Kids the Rules were probably pretty Clear, and we were perhaps Punished for Transgressions.  So we had to Hide (Guilt ain’t Moving, is it), or Confess.  If as Adults we Break a Promise, and the Relationship is a Keeper, we of course need to Make Amends.  Breaking Laws can be a bit more complex, because we may Resent rather than Respect the Law we Break.  Being Stuck on Resentment isn’t any Better than being Stuck on Guilt.  In fact, many people Wear their Resentments as if they were Merit Badges.  That’s Ego doing the Wearing.

Guilt is actually similar.  You Transgressed somehow, and your Obedience – or the Continuity of your Consciousness about your Desire to Obey – to whatever Rule or Promise you Broke, becomes a Demerit Badge stuck to your Ego.  You don’t Feel Good about yourself, or you feel like you need to make Excuses for yourself.  But, Amends may not be appropriate.  Someone may be Angry at you for not keeping an Agreement you actually didn’t make.  They just Expected you to Behave a certain way, but you didn’t.  You aren’t Wrong, but you Feel a bit Guilty anyway.  Like, Maybe I Shoulda.  Or If only I’da Known!  Or even, My Moon must be in Klutz!

If you pick up on the Thread, you’ve already noticed that Guilt, Resentment, and Nemesis are about Ego.  They’re neon signs that tell us our Ego needs to Grow.  Egos are nothing if not Tenacious, kind of like Scorpio.  So Egos don’t usually Shift, even if it’s a Shift into Growth, without a fight.  Consequently, we interpret asteroid Nemesis as Ego Death.  The hallmark of Ego Death is the sense that I’d rather Die than do that.  Well, Ego Deaths are seldom fatal to the Body, so, even though we thought we were Experiencing something about Dying, we were really Experiencing something about EgoI would rather Die than…

After we Feel Terrible for a while, we finally Accept what’s going on, bite the bullet, Decide what we have to Do about it, if anything, and Move Forward with a New Ego, vs. 815.9.  We can save ourselves a Shitload of Grief by Learning to Recognize the Signs of Ego Death, and instead of Suffering through the Purgatory of it, just Let Go and Let the Shift happen, quickly and easily.  Beside the I’d rather Die business, other signs of incipient Ego Death are Confusion, Forgetting what we know by Heart, Getting Lost a block from Home, and Major Lackawanna.

So this is what’s likely to be going on for the next few weeks.  Use it as the Learning Opportunity that it is.

Busy August II

July 28, 2019

I’ve made enough silly errors to know that they aren’t accidents, they’re Intuitions.  Shortly after I hit the Publish button I noticed that Nemesis wasn’t Conjunct Chiron at all, it was Conjunct the New Moon itself!  So that’s a whole ‘nother kettle of Fish, anticipating a bundle of Ego Death for us this month.  Fortunately, we know how to handle that, right?  Rather than correct the error-Intuition, I’ll leave it stand and reinterpret the “correct” Angles tomorrow.

Leo II

July 22, 2019

Natalie Glasson’s Channels the rest of Lord Melchizedek’s comments on 1D to 9D, this time 6D to 9D…

https://www.omna.org/exploration-of-dimensions-6-9-by-lord-melchizedek/

6th Dimension

“The 6th dimension reinforces your connection and communication with your soul, allowing powerful soul discovery journeys and deepening expressions of your soul through all levels of your being.  If you are finding it challenging to connect with your soul, wish to enhance your communication with your soul or receive guidance from your soul, it is ideal to request the 6th dimension to download into your being at the appropriate vibrations to support you.

“If you wish to connect on a deeper or soul level with other people in your reality you can request this from the 6th dimension.  There are many other requests which can be made, such as the balancing of your spiritual body, clarity in order to remember divine information, wisdom and knowledge to support your ascension or synthesising with your Ascended Master self in order to discover your ascension pathway to completion of your ascension mastery upon the Earth.

“If you find your intuition is blocked or you are unable to gain inner guidance the 6th dimension can support you by aligning you with your soul…  It is so filled with inspiration and tremendous support, it is worthwhile downloading and anchoring into your being and reality, even if you are uncertain of the purpose of your anchoring.”

Handy as we’re Anchoring Soul into Matter with Uranus in Taurus.  (For 1D-5D see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/13/leo/.)

7th Dimension

“The process of detachment is the key focus of the 7th dimension, much emphasis is placed upon understanding the method and benefits of detachment, which can be applied to all levels of your being.  Detachment isn’t to disconnect or disregard, it is to let go of bonds that cause you separation with the Creator and recreate bonds of love, trust, and truth.  It is this process which instigates new learning and even a reassessment of your spiritual pathway, to accept a pathway which is meaningful for your current transitions of ascension…”

“The 9th dimension truly fuels your spiritual evolution by supporting you in accessing an abundance of inspiration, enlightenment, and divine truth, while enhancing your ability to surrender and connect with the Creator…  The 9th dimension also aids your conscious awareness of your Soul Group and your Soul Groups spiritual evolution of working with and integrating with other Soul Groups in order to aid the divine will of the Creator.”

Such as our Arcturian friends.

A reader and friend – in fact, the friend who introduced me to the Arcturians a couple of decades ago – writes…

“Information is content, or a product.  However, why wouldn’t we need to question whether the information or data is useful or inaccurate?  The problem within the digital information age is that is too easily manipulated (see deep fakes on YouTube and altered news and images that Reuters and other news outlets have been caught out pushing on an unsuspecting populace).

“My concern is that spiritual insight and wisdom, organic connection and collective community, may be shown the back seat in a robotically controlled economy and society.  Unless human beings change drastically (i.e., evolve exponentially and quickly at that) the premise and promise inferred in Mason’s vision (or Karl Marx’s) becomes as 2D as the 1’s and 0’s in the source code of the Digital Age.  Pristine and lifeless, anesthetized and sterile.

“One of tenets of non-Dualist perspectives that Eckert Tolle and others offer is that content alone will not provide liberation from suffering or our current global challenges.  Emphasis on content and information may be the last illusion that needs to be shattered.”

Yes, one of many Last Illusions, I’m sure.  It’s very tempting to Extrapolate current trends into their worst Science Fiction nightmares, whether we’re playing with our Digits, or drowning in sweat or flood from this week’s Faux News about Global Warming.  But Seth made it clear a long time ago, in The Nature of Personal Reality, that our Personal History is an excellent Mirror of our Karma, aka our Habitual Patterns of Belief.

And likewise, the content of our Intellectual and Emotional Imaginings about the Future are a perfect Mirror for the detritus that gums up our Personal Relationship to the Unconscious.  The Unconscious is anything and everything that isn’t encompassed by our Ego at the Moment.  Energy is our True Nature, till we fall through one of the slits and become Particular, which is fine as a Snapshot, but this isn’t even a Moving Picture, because those are only 2D.  What happen to the Waves and Bits after they’re photographed?  They don’t just End there.

As Energy we are all Holographic Fragments of Source.  We only Choose to Separate ourself from the Whole for Fun or Profit.  When we Meditate on Being the Whole, what else is left to Interact with?  (The State of Wholeness is an excellent place to Manifest from, BTW, if we’re into Manifesting Partness, which of course we all are.)  Imagination is our Projection of Energy into the Future, where it will Manifest as Form.  So why would we Project something we don’t Want, except for Fun or Profit?  Why don’t we Project What We Want instead?

Well, the answer is because this is a Mirror for our Relationship with the Unconscious, with everything that isn’t Embraced by our Ego at the Moment.  This is why people talk about their “Shadow” – their Belief that Darkness is a Thing rather than a 2D Projection on the wall of the cave.

Leo

July 13, 2019

Ever attend a Concert or Speech and leave Enlivened or Inspired?  That’s the Up Side of Leo, Alive people Sharing a Contact High.  And ever attend a Speech or Concert and leave Drained or Angry?  That’s the Down Side of Leo, Performers Sucking your Energy.  On 13 July (6am PDT) the astrological symbol for Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis) begins an eleven-week sojourn in Leo.

We think of a Nemesis as an Enemy or a Punishment or a Downfall.  But those are Victim Postures, which we Revert as much as we can.  If an Enemy or a Punishment or a Downfall was a Mirror for some Internal State of ours, what might it be?  Would Guilt be a candidate?  Being mired in Guilt might be the Energy-Sucking Down Side of Nemesis in Leo.  Maybe we can use Guilt as a Flag that reminds us to Reframe.

We Feel Guilt when we Fear that we have done something “Wrong.”  Religions milk that Feeling to Suck our Energy, by equating the Moral with the Spiritual.  Wrong is an Either/Or, so we know it’s Political.  Politics – and Yangtegrity – are important Socially, but Spirituality is a different Animal.  When we actually have done something Socially or Politically Wrong, gotten out of Integrity, then we need to Make Amends, if the Relationships involved are important to us or to our Goals.

But because of our Religious Programming we often Feel something akin to Guilt when we aren’t Manifesting What We Want.  “What am I doing Wrong?”  In this situation it’s not about Making Amends, it’s about Locating our own Resistance and Negotiating with it.  Leo and Ego are very Close – that scenario where Alive People are Sharing a Contact High is the Plus side of Ego, the grease in Community.  Since Ego is just about the most Addictive substance around, it’s a knife edge.  It’s so Easy to shift from Sharing to Sucking.

So Nemesis in Leo may Ask us for a pretty big Ego Death.  It may Ask us to Go Deeper than we’ve been Going, to make Bigger Changes in the way we Live or Give or Take or Think or Feel or Act.  On September 27, Nemesis will move into Virgo.  Virgo’s job is to Manage the Transition from Leo/Ego to Libra/Other.  There’s a big Loss of Control involved in that Transition.  It’s so Easy to do Libra Codependently rather than Collaboratively.  If we dodge and weave our way through Nemesis in Leo, Nemesis in Virgo is likely to Stop us Cold.  It’s probably a good idea to Befriend our Ego while Nemesis is still in Leo.

Natalie Glasson’s Channeling for this Transition reminds us why we Want to do this work, as Lord Melchizedek helps us understand 1D to 5D…

https://www.omna.org/exploration-of-dimensions-1-5-by-lord-melchizedek/

“I, Lord Melchizedek, come forth to share some information with you regarding the dimensions of the Creator’s Universe.  My purpose in doing so is to support your further integration and experience of the Creator’s qualities, vibrations, and frequencies that are available to you.  Each dimension of the Creator’s Universe is akin to an insight into an aspect and an expression of the Creator.

“Each dimension is a source of support and guidance for your own spiritual evolution while instigating initiations and learning to further your relationship with the Creator.  You can call upon a certain dimension to ground into your being and reality to support an activation, action or the creation of an experience within your reality.  We can recognise the dimensions as a source of healing and self-awakening as well as a source of inspiration and enlightenment.

1st Dimension…”

Most folks that I encounter, with the possible exception of Joe Dispenza, speak of 3D and 5D without bothering to explain what they’re referring to.  Many folks who describe 3D and 5D at length, like Michael Roads, never use the terms.  That contrast makes Lord Melchizedek’s descriptions a very useful contribution.

Karma Repair 5

May 21, 2019

A friend of mine recently intended to say “I’m Hungry” and it came out as “I’m Angry” – that’s how Subtle these Energies are.  They’re Opportunities; often our Karma is a lot more In-Our-Face, and it will be again if we continue to pass on the Subtle Opportunities.

Here’s the chart for the 23 May (5pm PDT) Station of Orcus in 10 Virgo, drawn in the lighter lines.  The heavier lines show the closely related 19 May Merger of Saturn with the Mean South Node in 21 Capricorn (see the previous Karma Repair posts)…

You can see that the T-Square (red triangle) containing Orcus is focused on asteroid Ceres (which would be called “Cup-Hook” if we named planets after their glyphs).  In other words, the main issue here is Sustainability.  Not just Can We Let Go of Our Karma, but also Can We Continue to Choose Otherwise?

The third corner of this T-Square triangle is dwarf planet Nessus – Abuse and Privilege.  So it’s not just Letting Go of Our Karma, it’s Permanently Letting Go of Abuse, which means Naming it what it is, and Setting Firm Boundaries around it.  And yes, asteroid Pallas (Boundaries – the diamond on a cross) is involved, in a very positive way (a Quincunx Bridge – green lines – across the Orcus-Nessus Opposition; a Quincunx Bridge means it’s Grace unless we try to Anal-yze it).

But who is this Orcus fellow?  He was a pre-Roman Etruscan God-figure whose job was to Punish Oath-Breakers.  Strikes Terror, eh?  How many times have we been threatened with Dire Consequences if we Break an Oath?  The Yangtegrity Patriarchy made a big deal of Oaths, but hereabouts we lean more toward Yintegrity, as does our 5D future.  Oaths are spawn of Duality, and we prefer to Relate to the Universe as Unitary and Multifarious.  It’s the Limited mind that has great difficulty getting past Either/Or Duality.  When we aren’t In the Flow and Living Intuitively, then Yangtegrity is useful.  But it keeps us in 3D; Either/Or is Political, Both/And is Spiritual.

It turns out that our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs have their roots in forgotten Oaths that we made a long time ago, often in other Lifetimes.  The All-or-Nothing, Unconditional nature of Oaths is a side-effect of Duality.  The rest of Life is Situational.  We don’t Vow never to cross the street, we Vow to look both ways and cross only when it’s Safe – we use the “rule” if it fits the Situation; if it doesn’t fit, we look for Alternatives.  One way to interpret the impact of Ceres in this T-Square, is that it Invites us to Let Go of our Unconditional Oaths – the last thing we want to do is Sustain our Self-Sabotage!

With Nessus involved, we have to consider examples involving Abuse.  When Uncle Andy violated us and warned that they’d kill Mom if we told anyone, of course we Vowed never to tell.  And of course we Forgot it, because we worked our butt off to Forget the whole Trauma.  So how does that Vow impact our Lives now?  What if we PIAVAed to Open up that Wound so we could Let it Go?  Would this Vow prevent that Opening from happening?  It would probably do its best to try.  Meanwhile, what Experiences does the Vow prevent us from Indulging?

Unfortunately, the Unconscious often agitates for its own Clearing.  So we may be attracted to Abusers, or to the Abused, and we may have difficulty Breaking this “Habit” until we Clear the origin.  We may not Trust other people, or we may need to keep them at a Distance.  We may have to deal with Suffocation issues that aren’t really “ours.”  These Limits may interfere with What We Really Want out of Life – our Souls are more than clever enough to set up Life circumstances where the only way we can get what we Want most is to Confront our Limits.  That’s the nature of the Nodal Axis.

But, the Orcus-Nessus Opposition (Reverting Oaths involving Abuse or Privilege) is also Bridged by blue lines, or Grace (the Trine Bridge to asteroid Nemesis, which symbolizes Ego Death). Ego Death doesn’t need to be Traumatic, though it depends on our Beliefs about how much of our Life is critically Dependent on that particular Ego.  But Trust me, there are a thousand other potential Egos waiting in the wings to take over, and most of them will do a fine job.

The Egos that won’t do a fine job, will connect you to ancillary issues that you also need to Clear in order to Liberate yourself.  You can even Modulate the pace of your Ego-Clearing – all you need to do is Ask.  “God/Goddess, please lead me Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely through the process of Liberating myself from Abuse Memories and any resulting Oaths I (or a former Incarnation) may have made as a result,” for instance.  This is a Trine Bridge, it’s the Easy Path around the difficulty.  Asking for What You Want is a fabulous way to Accept Grace.