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Chiron-Nemesis New Moon

March 15, 2018

Unfortunately, our title isn’t chosen to be sensational; it’s chosen to be accurate.  Translation: 17 March New Moon (6am PST) about Empathizing with Pain and Ego Death.  Are we having Fun yet? 

Word-picture highlights – and translations…

  • New Moon 27 Pisces, Chiron and Nemesis 29 Pisces – “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel wrung out, don’t you.”  Folks may be Contracting with the Flu just to have an excuse.  Hint: you can Feel plenty lousy without adding the Flu.
  • New Moon in Pisces, Square (Challenge) to Vesta-Ixion (Negative Beliefs about your Forbidden Genius) in 26-28 Sagittarius – “You Poor Sweetheart, this is an awful time to have to deal with your Self-Hate, isn’t it.”  That (Ixion) part of yourself that you’ve been taught to Reject Really needs your Compassion.  Like him or not, he’s got the keys to your new 5D digs.
  • New Moon in Pisces (and Chiron and Nemesis) Trine (Blessing) to Stationary Aletheia (Truth) in Cancer – Well, we’ve done our Fearless and Searching Moral Inventory, now it’s time to Face Up to the Truth, right?  No, I don’t think so, not quite that way.  We do need to Face Up to the Truth, but the Truth isn’t that you’re Despicable, the Truth is more likely to be that you’ve been Taught to Reject your own Genius.  We need to Lighten Up on the Self-Rejection, not clamp it down.
  • Aletheia (Truth) is Stationary (Strong) 16 March (3pm PST); it’s also Conjunct Mnemosyne (Memory), which in turn is Stationary 15 March (9pm PST), and Varuna (the Life Force), all at the end of Cancer – “You Poor Sweetheart, you still Feel Guilty about that, don’t you.”  It’s Lit Up so you can Let It Go; it has Constrained your Life Force long enough.
  • Stationary (Strong) Aletheia (Truth), with Stationary Mnemosyne and Varuna, are the focus of a T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) across the Opposition between Uranus (Soul) in Aries and Haumea (Rebirth) in Libra – Your Soul is ready to move into those vacant rooms that your Ego has been Dying in.  Welcome Her or Him; they’re a pro at cleaning up the detritus of shattered Ego-carcasses.
  • The New Moon, with its pals Chiron and Nemesis, are at the pointy end of a Finger of God (Pay Attention!) from a base of Haumea (Rebirth) in Libra Sextile (Blessing) Veritas (Truth) in Leo – “You Poor Sweetheart, you can’t get away with anything, can you.”
  • Like it or not, it turns out that our Forbidden Genius Ixion is the one being Reborn here, as Vesta-Ixion in Sagittarius makes a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings) with Uranus (Soul) in Aries and Veritas (Truth) in Leo, and a Kite (Directed Blessings) with Haumea (Rebirth) in Libra at the top.  Tough Labor, eh?  Forget it, you’ve a Newborn to Celebrate.

Thanks to Dan Scranton, we have Wisdom from the Arcturians to help us out…

“You will discover that the more time you spend focusing on a problem, the more time you take away from your ability to receive a solution.  You all have a tendency to overtax your minds and to underutilize your ability to receive that which is already coming to you.  We invite you to focus more on letting go of thoughts, letting go of problems, and opening up to the energies that are swirling around you at all times.

“We are talking about changing your habits, changing the way that you approach life.  As you shift from the third dimension to the fifth dimension, you have the ability to receive more.  And you get to do so by thinking less and doing less.

“The generations that have come before you have taken a great deal of pride in intelligence and hard work.  Most of you have been raised with these values in your homes, and we see many of you attempting to think your way through problems in your lives and attempting to act your way into the life that you desire.

“But if you were to calculate how much time you spend using the third-dimensional operating systems, and how much time you relax, open yourselves up and receive, you would be astonished by the numbers.  You might say that there just isn’t enough time in the day, but you would find that there is plenty of time.  You just need to shift your priorities.

“You also need to embrace the Divine Feminine within you.  As you are in a feminine cycle, life is going to get easier.  You are going to want to control those minds of yours, and you will be able to finally use action as a means of expressing the joy within you, rather than as a tool to accomplish something that could always be accomplished through vibration.  This is what you are learning in the fourth dimension, and this is what will carry you into the fifth.”

“You have the beautiful opportunity in every moment that you are alive to appreciate something about what you are experiencing.  You are having an experience of polarity, and there will always be the side of the spectrum that is pleasing to you and the side of the spectrum that is not so pleasing at all.  So it is up to you to decide for yourselves how you want to experience life.

“It is up to you to determine which end of the spectrum you want to be on.  When you are focusing on what does not please you, or what downright disgusts you, you are always going to be able to find more.  When you listen instead to your heart, you will notice that there is always more beauty, always more love, always more opportunity for laughter.  Laughter gives you relief from the other side of the spectrum.

“You have that ability to stand in a moment where things have gone horribly wrong and make light of the situation.  Think about that expression for a moment – make light of the situation.  You have the ability to bring more light to every situation and to focus on the light that is within.

“Every possible moment that you take that approach, you are deciding for yourselves what type you want to lead, what type of future you want to create.  Most importantly, however, you will be focused in the now moment when you are allowing yourself to appreciate something, or when you are making light and bringing light to an otherwise dark scenario.

“We encourage you to find that which is worth celebrating and appreciating in your lives, and we want you to recognize that every moment has some kind of beauty within it.  And every moment that you are present and grounded in your physical bodies is an opportunity to experience more joy, more peace, and more harmony with the world as it is now.

“That’s the way you ascend to an even better one, not by finding fault with the world as it is and rallying the troops to try to fix it.  Enjoy your lives as best you can and enjoy the journey to that which is going to be so much better than what you can even imagine.”

And Natalie Glasson contributes a Channeling from the Angel of the Planet…

“You are greeted by the Angel of the Earth whose purpose is to oversee the evolution and ascension of the Earth and Mother Earth.  The Angel of the Earth holds the consciousness of every aspect of the Earth’s ascension and wishes to merge with you to co-create the New Earth. 

“The Angel of the Earth speaks of the different dimensions of the Earth’s ascension, how each is sacred and can be accessed by you to ground into the current dimension of the Earth.  The Angel shares inspiration that the New Earth is created and manifests from within your being as well as describing how every being connects with a different dimension of the Earth.

“A meditation is shared where you are invited to merge with the Angel of the Earth and activate the essence of your unified being to form a new energetic foundation for the Earth and all upon her.  You will be guided to observe the Earth transform and realign with a new higher vibration of the Earth’s dimensions and evolution.  Thus, your perspective of the Earth will transform and shift.  Your co-creation with the Angel of the Earth will support Mother Earth and all beings present on the Earth now.”

It’s for the Planet that we Surrender Controlling, Doing, Worrying, and Overthinking, and instead, just Let What We Need Flow toward us.

Women and Chaos 2

March 12, 2018

The next Station – Aletheia on 16 March (3pm PST) – will occur in the same Degree Zone as the Jupiter and Chaos Stations, so we’re essentially looking at one, very busy, chart for most of the month of March…

If you have natal planets in this 21-26 Degree Zone, especially in Virgo, Leo, or Aquarius, you’re a Player this month; make it count for the Resurrection of the Planet.  And for yourself – in the New 5D Earth it’s up to each of us to Act unabashedly.  The difference between this and Libertarianism is that 5D adds a Hippocratic twist – Above All Do No Harm.  Without that it’s just more Gordon Gekko.

We omitted from our list of major Configurations in the previous post, what will for many be the most profound version of the March chart, namely the Ego Death Challenge, aka Nemesis T-Square…

A T-Square isn’t quite about Making Lemonade.  It’s more about Noticing what’s Right about today’s snafu.  Is it better or Easier than yesterday’s?  Does it cover slightly different territory, maybe a new angle that you haven’t snafued before?  Is it something, like that hole in the roof, that you’ve needed to attend to for a long time, but now it’s Raining?  T-Square’s aren’t about “morals” to stories either.  You’d have poked a second hole and not noticed if you’d fixed it when it was Sunny.

We “signed up” for our T-Squares because we got so tired of running into Difficulty that we Vowed to “once and for all” Learn how to do that, whatever that is.  So we’ll be running into new Lessons on that from every possible angle until we Disavow the Curse we put on ourself.  Duality is like that.  We’d do well to replace our original Vow with an Intention to “Learn more” about that or Learn how to do that “better,” something a little less vague, and a little less black and white.

In this case, Learning how to do Ego Death from every possible angle will run us ragged, since, like anything with an exoskeleton, Egos need to Molt frequently to do their job.  Going into Resistance at every Molt will only raise our blood pressure.  But of course that’s exactly what trying to Align Consciousness with Physical Form is all about – Physical Form is nothing but an exoskeleton.  Remember that Past Life where you were a Rock?  Them was Fun Times.

The Base of a T-Square gives us clues about the Dualities we’ve been trying to Freeze ourself into.  In this case it’s the apparent Contradiction between our Beliefs, the Obsolete ones in particular (Mars-Vesta), and our Infinite Improbability as Light Beings (dwarf planet Chaos).  Since our Beliefs serve our Ego, Infinite Improbability is their Arch Enemy.  More Fun Times.

Figuring it out will never work.  We just need to Accept What Is, and PIAVA What We Want.  All Prayers are Answered, just not All of them right away in ways that we Expect, so we may not get everything right away.  We may have more to Learn, more Mazes to walk, more Portals to crawl through.  Here in our household of two, for instance, Flu aside, one car has died, and the other is dying.  If there was usable public transportation, we wouldn’t be able to afford to live here.

In our generation in this place, car is spelled e-g-o.  Not as a status symbol, but because of the Freedom it Creates.  Like most of the US, but for the Garden we’re in the middle of a Food Desert.  There are World-Class Food resources within an hour’s drive, but within Safe walking distance, without shoulders or sidewalks, we’re Blessed that the Dandelions are very Fresh.  Even if we could catch and were willing to Eat the local Bunny, someone – Cat or Coyote – beat us to her, as her lovely down is decorating the lawn.  And that’s just the most practical part of it.

So, what to do?  I’ll start with “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really in a bind, aren’t you.”  Makes me yawn, a good sign.  Sleep is Step #2 in Richard Brautigan’s Karma Repair Kit Steps 1-4, and an excellent Flu-Recovery Strategy.  How’s the Terror level that usually arises with car troubles?  Hmmm, absent.  Another good sign.  We’d be Tapping it Out otherwise.  I’m sure we’ll be Tapping plenty later.

So What Is It that we need then?  A capacious, inexpensive, practical, thrifty, reliable vehicle or two.  On to Theta.  We love Theta because it gives us instant Feedback.  We don’t need to wait around a week to Pay Attention to What Happened instead of What We Wanted. 

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that we Easily, Quickly, and Affordably somehow obtain at least one Capacious, Inexpensive, Practical, Thrifty, Reliable, and Safe Motor Vehicle.

“It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you God/Goddess!

“Show me.”

Well, I can See a car in the driveway, so I’m not going to question how it got there; I’ll get some shuteye and see how things look tomorrow.  Supposed to be 70°F and Sunny.

In case you need them for review…


Asbolus et al Full Moon III

March 4, 2018

Well, here are a couple of clues to better interpret the puzzle we spoke of in the previous post…

The upcoming (16 March) Stations of Aletheia/Truth and Mnemosyne/Memory make a Trioctile Bridge across the Full Moon and the Asbolus T-Square (Challenge to our Intuition) in the Full Moon chart.  A Trioctile Bridge means that a third planet is Trioctile from one end of an Opposition, and Octile from the other end.  Since Octiles are about Adjustments to bring ourself Back Into Balance, and the Trioctile injects Love with Wisdom into that Adjustment, this is a boon.

However, if we Focus on What’s Out of Balance, which is almost inevitable at first, we could find ourselves in the middle of a Bummer or one sort or another.  We need to Focus instead on Bringing It Back Into Balance.  Bringing What Back Into Balance?  We may not know that.  So we use PIAVAs.  “I Wonder What I’m Being Asked to Rebalance.”  “Ganeshi, please Remove all Obstacles to my Returning to Balance on all Dimensions.”  And the like.

Many astrologers see the Trioctile as a mini-Square (“Sesquisquare” they call it), and focus on the Challenge part of the equation.  But of course if they come from Fate rather than Choice, they don’t present the Challenge as a slalom to navigate, but rather as a Bummer to Accept.  Of course Nothing Changes until it is Accepted Exactly As It Is, so this isn’t the worst approach, but suggesting a path or two out of the Wilderness might also be useful at times.

The Presence of Angular Relationships between Sun-Neptune, Moon-Orcus, and Aletheia-Mnemosyne does tell us that the Full Moon and upcoming Stations are intimately connected.  Aletheia and Mnemosyne were moving only five arcminutes a day at the Full Moon.  I wouldn’t generally use the word “Stationary” till they were traveling one or two arcminutes a day (which starts about 10 March) or less.

And at the Full Moon, Aletheia and Mnemosyne were five Degrees apart.  That’s too far to consider them technically Conjunct for purposes of Describing the Current Moment, but it’s more than close enough to consider them Conjunct for purposes of interpreting the Future of Projects begun under their Watch.

Bottom Line, we may be Feeling Unease because we’re Beginning new Projects using the same Processes that have failed us in the Past.  The Challenges in the Full Moon include Confusion (Neptune), Fixed Habits (asteroid Karma), possibly Self-Sabotaging but Heuristic Intuitions (Asbolus), and Patterns that have become Stuck because of Vows we once made and since forgot (Orcus).

Hylonome (Letting Go of Codependent Relationships), the third impending Station (19 March), is on Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) in the Full Moon Chart, and the two form a Trine Bridge (Easy Path) across the Full-Moon Opposition.  So a Lower Bottom Line might be to look for any Attachments that might Limit the Success of our Projects.  So When In Doubt, Let Go might be a useful anthem for us here.

There’s another Challenge (T-Square) in the Full Moon chart that’s likely to be relevant – Ego Death, Mind or Communication, and Values (respectively Nemesis, Mercury, Venus) are all T-Square to the Opposition between Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) and Well-Defended Beliefs (Mars and asteroid Vesta).  So there is some serious Personal Growth going on for all of us.  If you run into a streak of “Is This Worth the Trouble?” or “Maybe I’d rather just lay down and Die” then you know you’re on the right track.

That’s the nature of an Ego Death/Nemesis event, and this is a very busy one.  We’re being Asked to Give Up our Way of Thinking/Mercury, our Values/Venus, the Beliefs we Defend most vigorously (Mars-Vesta), all for the sake of Pie in the Sky or our Unlimited Potential (Chaos). 

Notice that we’ve picked one Winner (Potential) and three Obstacles (Thinking, Values, Beliefs) to Winning.  For many people it will be the other way around – even if we’re willing to undergo an Ego Death, is this Unlimited Potential really going to Make Us Great Again?  Are we willing to Give Up so much for it?  Are we about to walk off a psychospiritual cliff?

Our only Response to this Possibility is to Ask, How Strong is our Belief in and Commitment to “Ascension,” as this all pretty clearly maps out an “Ascension Symptom.”  There’s a lot of undefined hype around “Ascension.”  We can rephrase the question as how Strong is our Belief in and Commitment to “Growth in Consciousness,” as this also clearly maps out a typical “Growth-in-Consciousness Process.”

To me, the real Question is “Do we have a Choice?” and its correlary, “Why did we undertake this Lifetime on this Planet at this time?”  In the current Planetary trajectory there are very few Winners, and what they’ll Win appears to have very questionable Value.  Golfing in their own Eco-Bubble to keep them Safe from a Toxic Planet, or from Mars’s lack of Livable Atmosphere (though I’ve never heard that Musk or Bezos are Golfers) and eating The Best GMO Neoquasifood?

(Thanks to the LA Times).

At any rate, it does seem like a Crossroad.  What exactly is our Intention for ourself and for the Planet?  Perhaps that’s the Issue.  Daniel Scranton’s recent Channelings seem to agree…

“When you are focusing very intensely on something that is happening in your world, or in your life, and you lose sight of the truth of who you really are, it is easy for you to get off track and to live your lives as much smaller beings than who you really are.

“It is easy to get lost in the details of life and to forget the biggest possible picture, and we are talking about a picture that is bigger than your shift in consciousness.  This picture is the picture of who you are and who you came to Earth to be.  It’s more important than what you do. It’s more important than what you believe in.

“The truth of who you are is something that you can live in every moment.  As you become the living, breathing embodiment of Source Energy and unconditional love, everything else seems miniscule by comparison.  You will not be knocked off of that track that you want to be on as you hold that truth close to your heart.”

The “Easy Button”

February 5, 2018

Brenda Hoffman nails it today…

Many of you are stalling now because the knowledge that you are powerful enough to create anything is too frightening for you to contemplate.

“We are not chiding you, merely reminding you that you are much more powerful than you yet dare display.

“Many of you have past life traumas associated with displaying your skills in 3D.  So it is you are suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome (PTSD) as are many who serve in the military or observe violent scenes.

“Such is neither good nor bad, merely how you evaluate your current phase.  Even though you wish to move through this phase rapidly, your reality is like that of a military veteran who fears gunshots whenever a loud noise disrupts his or her being.  Similar to the PTSD experienced by many, your need is beyond someone telling you that all is well.

“You have to discover you are well even though whispers of past fears float by and through your being when you feel the need to actualize your current skillset.

“For many, it is easier to ignore that skillset, for by doing so you are not forced to acknowledge how fearful those past lives were.  A bit like those terrified of 3D water activities discovering, in what you label a past life, one of their segments was forcibly drowned.  Even though that fear is no longer logical, the fear lingers.

“The result is that you are attempting to dislodge those fears from your being, for you feel you must move forward immediately.  Forcing you to be at odds with yourself by encouraging ailments and other means to slow you down.

“Of course, reading this information creates deeper feelings of loss, fear, and internal anger.  ‘Why can’t I just move on?  What’s stopping me?’  As always, the answer is you.  The difference this time is an acknowledgment of that fact.  For clearing issues is different and easier in 5D even though you have not yet grasped that concept.

“Request help from your segments, your council, your guides, or whoever feels most right to you as you read this piece.  You no longer have to live with fears for years or even days.

“Yet, you continue to clear frightening memories with the 3D format that used to be most beneficial for you.

“You merely need to request help in acknowledging and clearing your deeply hidden fears.  You need not rest, stay home, vent, or whatever you think you should do.  All that is required is to ask for help and then allow that help to smooth out your fearful rough edges.

“You no longer are of 3D.  So you do not need to fear others or more importantly, yourself.  For many of you remain concerned that you will say something wrong, react incorrectly, or stand out in some way that encourages others to punish you for your beliefs.

“You have transitioned to personal freedom including your inner voice of rightness.  So you no longer need to sift your words and actions through your cultural sense of rightness.

“You will not be punished for being yourself as you have been in the past.

“But then, you will not believe this until you allow your PTSD to float away, as it will once you ask for assistance.  This clearing consists of two actions.  First, allow yourself to experience and express your PTSD.  Then ask for help in clearing your PTSD easily and effortlessly.  You do not need to be in your home or sanctuary, nor do you need to create illness or exhaustion as you clear this.

“Many of you are so afraid of cultural shame or ostracism that it is easier to hide your true being from even yourself.  A need that is an extension of eons of living in 3D obscurity.

“To discover if you are afraid to let down your personalized PTSD fear barrier, merely ask yourself if you are fully ready to be yourself or if you wish to be of both 3D and 5D.  If you answer that you wish to hide behind 3D convention, it is time for you to reassess how much you wish to live in freedom.

“Most of you had extremely traumatic past life experiences when you attempted to display your true self with true power.  But that was then.  Do you wish to clear those fears or to continue them so you are no longer part of this transition?

“Many of you are quite upset with that last statement for in your mind you have proved over and over again that you wish to be an instrumental part of this transition.  That even though you have a definite role to play and you wish to play that role, those memories are too painful to ignore.  Which is little different from those of you who experienced physical, sexual, and emotional violence in this lifetime.  You have the choice of continuing to slow or stop your development because of that violence or to forge ahead knowing that such is part of your history but not a stopping point.

“You were almost certainly abused in many lifetimes for displaying your Universal powers in a 3D world.  But that was then.  So are you willing to receive help easily and effortlessly by merely requesting it, or do you wish to simmer in your internal fears for a bit longer?  That is your choice.  One that you have always had even though never before has clearing such a dramatic piece been this easy.

“You are in a different place with different skills and a different physical body.  Allow that to be part of your knowingness.  And then, know that fears from the past are no longer required because this is a different time with different needs.

You are not of 3D, you are a 5D god or goddess who can easily clear that which stops you from being part of this New Earth/Universal tapestry if you so desire.

“But for many that desire is not yet there.  Allow yourself to move at the pace right for you, but know that when you are ready, that piece is easily cleared.

“Compared to your clearings while of 3D, this is a ‘piece of cake.’  The only part stopping you is fear of yourself and how you were treated by others generations, eons, or decades ago.”

Which sounds a lot like an Ego Death, Surrendering our Attachment to Struggling – that would feel like an Easy Button!  So, where is our favorite Ego-Death asteroid, Nemesis?  Remember it’s just finished crossing OR10-Nessus and dredging up our Abuse Histories and Herstories.  Well, looky here…

Neptune (Confusion) is about to Initiate Nemesis; it’ll get there on 12 February (8am PST), just in time for the Atropos Station.  Won’t that be Fun – Ego Death Dancing with Confusion!  Remember though that Confusion is the first stage of Growth, because in order to Grow we need to bust out of the Cage created by our current Concept Set, and our current Concept Set is what makes us Feel Safe, like we’re reasonably certain that the Tigers will be in their cages tonight when we go for our evening constitutional in Watermelon Sugar.

Their Union will be at 14 Pisces, “A Lady wrapped in a large stole of Fox fur: the use of intelligence and mental subtlety as a protection against storms and trials.”  Doesn’t that hit the target – just when we need our “intelligence and mental subtlety for protection,” it’s scheduled to fail.  Which is precisely the point – we’re shifting from intellectual and mental protection to Spiritual Protection, or rather, the Realization that Spirit needs no Protection, it Just Is, Indestructible and infinitely malleable Essence.

A good time to quote Frank Ostaseski…

“I had a difficult upbringing as a child. I always held up the hope that someday, someone would rescue me. I imagined that I would be saved by love coming toward me, but it was just the opposite.  I was rescued when love came through me.”

“When my son died in a motorcycle accident, I learned what being sick to death actually means.  I cried non-stop for weeks.  On one of those occasions I was outside in my garden.  I couldn’t take a deep breath and felt as if I was having a heart attack.  In a flash I felt something that I can only describe as a crack in my chest.  I could feel the earth moan and sob with me, and for a moment I thought I had lost my mind.  I could feel what all mothers who’ve lost a child feel, and I knew I was not alone in my suffering. 

“Shortly after I read a quote: ‘The heart that is open never breaks.’  In that instant, I believe, my heart was split wide open.  The loss of my son opened me to the suffering of all beings and I felt a strange peace.”

Neptune is a particular kind of Confusion, Confusion about the nature of the 3D World.  Conversely, it also signifies Clarity about the Realm of Spirit.  The Physical, Mental, Spiritual, and Emotional Realms aren’t Realms at all, they’re Perspectives.  Reality is Unitary and Multifarious.  You can use any one of those filters to view it – Physical, Mental, Spiritual, Emotional, and many many others.  Because Reality is All One, we can Heal “Emotional” issues using a Physical frame, and Change the “Physical” World using a Spiritual Perspective.  It’s what Allows Instantaneous Healing – of our Ancient Karmic PTSD, for instance.  The Easy Button!

Neptune also symbolizes Confusion because it represents the Edge between the Personal and the Transpersonal, our Relationship with Everything Larger than Ourself.  If we live in a Hostile World, then Anything Larger than Ourself is a threat.  But Hostility isn’t a property of the World, it’s a property of the Observer.  Another of those many many Perspectives, another filter that we can Choose to see the World through.  Or not.  A good time to re-read Watermelon Sugar.

How does Nemesis-Neptune relate to this week’s Main Effect, the Sedna Station?  Well, obviously Fear and Ego Death go hand in hand.  Otherwise we’d probably just call it Ego Growth.  Which wouldn’t be a bad synonym for Nemesis, actually.  But it’s more direct, as you can see in the gold lines on the chart; Nemesis-Neptune Trioctiles the ends of the Square between Aletheia/Truth and Haumea/Rebirth.  Trioctiles to the ends of a Square form a Mjōlnir or “Hammer of Thor,” signfying Epiphany.  Thor’s Hammer is actually more like Lightning than a Sledge.

We commonly refer to Sedna as representing Fear, but actually she symbolizes our Relationship to FearIf you Breathe or do Kegels while Fear is about, you see how Energizing it actually is.  And if you Tap Out your Archetypal Habitual Reactions to it and get Neutral, you see what sort of Response is actually appropriate in the Present Moment, divorced from our Karma.  Even if it’s only Relief, I often find that to be very Joyful.  Excitement, Energy, Joy – Fear is a Sheep in Wolf’s clothing.  Finding the Easy Button would be quite an Epiphany indeed!

Fateful New Moon II

December 16, 2017

We’ve drawn in the Ego-Death component of this New Moon chart in lighter lines below…

Let’s digress a bit to discuss timing.  The Moira Station is Exact 16 December (3pm PST), the New Moon itself 17 December (10:30 pm PST), and the South Node-Nemesis Initiation 18 December (4am PST).  The Pluto-Sappho Initiation follows on 20 December (1pm PST).

In case you think that it hasn’t been insanely Busy in the Heavens lately, note that we aren’t even attempting to untangle the Initations in the New Moon Stellium or the Moira Station Stellium – there are at least fifteen of them, and they’re all Big Deals, many signifying Millennia-level Transformations.  We’re also not trying to untangle the six profound Initiations in the Jupiter-Vesta-Hopi-Karma Stellium at the focus of the Nemesis T-Square that we’re about to consider.

So, the red triangle we’ve drawn in lighter lines, is a “T-Square,” signifying Mastery through Challenge.  We’re Challenged to Master the group of planets at the “point” of the triangle, where the right angle is.  That group of planets essentially means Being Highly Motivated (Jupiter – Expansionto Let Go of Any and All Unconscious Limitations that follow us around (asteroid Vesta – Unconscious Beliefsby Changing All of Our Ancient Habit Patterns (asteroid Karmaso that We Come to Respect All Things Equally (asteroid Hopi).

Doesn’t that sound like something that’ll generate Lifetimes worth of Ego Death!  Well, turns out that one of the “roots” of the T-Square is Nemesis – Ego Death, being Initiated by the South Node  – our Karma!  So if anyone had a question about Ego Death, there’s our definitive answer.  Remember though that Karma is Dead.  Our Karma does not grasp us, we grasp our Karma.  Not because we’re preverts, but because it’s what we Know. 

It’s not even that we Fear the Unknown, really, it’s just Habit.  No different than Eggs or Porridge for breakfast, Soup-Salad-Sandwich for lunch, and Meat-Potatoes-Veggies-Desert for dinner, then TV and Popcorn.  Just what we’re used to doing, we don’t even think about it unless something rocks the boat, like maybe Nessie.  Well, that’s what the South Node is, the “Dragon’s Tail.”  In almost all ancient traditions around the World, our Karma is referred to as a Fire-Breathing Dragon.

The Golden Treasure that Bilbo sought to recover from Smaug was nothing but the 5D Treasures of Consciousness.  Better yet, if you haven’t read all six books in Ursula Le Guin’s Earthsea Trilogy, you need to get busy.  It paints a whole different – Respectful and Loving – Relationship between Human and Dragon.  Ursula’s a Genius.

Heavy stuff.  The other root of the Being Highly Motivated to Let Go of Any and All Unconscious Limitations by Changing All of Our Ancient Habit Patterns so that We Come to Respect All Things Equally T-Square is asteroid Ceres – Sustainability – on the North Node – our Mission.  Nothing will make our Mission Sustainable more than Letting Go of our Karma and Embracing the Held (Unacknowledged and Unexpressed) Emotions that lurk beneath our South Node.

I neglected to draw it in, but the asteroid Lachesis us also in this Ego-Death Configuration, at 17 Pisces, Trining Jupiter et al.  Lachesis is about Learning to short circuit our Fate by Choosing to end Karmic Patterns at the time of our own Choosing, rather than when they’re Fated to end.  That serves us well here.

So you see, everyone receives an enormous Gift this month, regardless of their “merit” or pedigree.  Letting go of Judgment and Separation is after all one of the steps on the Stairway to Heaven.

Here’s an excellent parallel track to our analysis…


Nemesis Now

June 2, 2017

She’s one mean Lady in this neighborhood, though others don’t seem to be bothered.  The good news though, is that Nemesis was actually exact in her Station at 10pm PDT 2 June, rather than 3 June.  I for one am very glad it’s past.  Didn’t help me any that the Station Danced cheek to cheek with my natal OR10, Nessus, South Node, and Mnemosyne.  As Bruce Coburn would say, “All you can do is thank the razor for the fineness of the slash.”  So, the worse the Ego Death, the greater the Liberation, right?  I’ll spare you the Jimmy Morrison video.

“I walked through the door into the night air.  My head was clear.  I could see as though the sun was shining.  Someone was sitting on a rock off to the side.  I could not believe my eyes.  ‘Alice?’

 “She turned to me.  Her hand reached out.
” ‘You’re alive!’  Our hands connected.  Hers was warm.
” ‘Of course,’ she said.  ‘But I still haven’t vomited.’
“I threw my arms around her.  I felt ecstatic.
” ‘I thought you were dead.’

‘I’m very much alive.  I’ve been flying.’

” ‘I love you,’ I said.  I thought about the word, flying; it suddenly took on new meanings.  Then, feeling that she needed to be alone, I wandered away.  I felt so relieved, so grateful, so euphoric, that I kneeled in the mud and silently shouted my thanks to God, Jesus Christ, and the jungle.

“A leafy branch reached out to me.  It was phosphorescent.  I touched it and as I did so heard it speak.
” ‘Silly – you thought flying meant death.  You let the negative rule you.  It is a pattern in your life.  Let this experience with Alice teach you a lesson.  Purge the negatives.’ “

—John Perkins, The World Is as You Dream It, p.72.

Fortunately, the Coin has two sides…

“We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“We have listened to the prayers that humanity has been offering for quite some time.  We are familiar with your desires.  You have allowed yourselves to experience a myriad of changes while you are awaiting this new Earth that you want to create and experience, and there is a great deal of effort on your part to bring about the changes to let in all that you’ve been asking for.

“What is most important at this time, however, is that you look to help each other.  When you give and receive help to and from other humans, you create a deepening of the unity that is so natural to the human race.  And that is how you are going to assist one another in the bringing about of the new Earth that you want to inhabit.  It is going to be an Earth of cooperation.  It is going to be an Earth of collaboration, and it is going to be an Earth of sharing.

“You all chose different skill sets so that you would need each other, so that you would each complete a piece of the puzzle, and so that you would connect with one another.”

Jupiter’s Station comes next, 7am PDT 9 June, just an hour after the Full Moon.

Fear, Disconnection, Shame

May 30, 2017

Much Gratitude to a reader who has advised us that Attachment Parenting International has published an interview with Dr. Daniela Sieff on Fear, Disconnection, and Shame, at…

Dr. Sieff calls the Lived Reality that results from literally Internalizing Childhood Trauma our “Trauma-World,” characterized by “Perceiving the World through a veil of Fear,” “Disconnecting from aspects of Ourself,” and  an “Identity that becomes interwoven with Shame.”  This Trauma-World is embedded in the “muscles, hormones, nervous system, and brain structure that underlie our Feelings and our ways of Perceiving and Engaging with the World.”  It Lives in our Cells.  In this article and in her book Understanding and Healing Emotional Trauma she nails much of what we usually refer to as Karmic Archetypes, Held Emotions, Abandoned Genius, Limiting Beliefs, and Self-Sabotage.

That’s the view from where we Are, looking backward.  There’s a good chance this view still holds homework for us.

The view looking forward is quite different…

” ‘Where are you?’ you ask in a frustrated manner.  ‘If you are my fifth dimensional guide, why don’t I see you?’

“ ‘You cannot see me anymore than I can see you.  WE are ONE!  Can you see your heart beat?  Can you see your stomach digest, or your nervous system jumping from synapse to synapse?  I, your fifth dimensional self live within you.  In the same manner that I shine out from you.

“Take this sentence into your sleep.  Take this message into your daily life.  Take this message into your meditations and reflections.”

Time for more pirouettes.  Not really pirouettes, nor Semazen, but turning.  When you come out of a room and are about to turn right, instead stop, then turn in place counterclockwise (toward the left) three quarters of a full circle before you step forward.  To turn left, stop, then turn in place clockwise 270 Degrees before you step forward.  You’ll be just a tiny bit dizzy, not uncomfortable, but just a bit Detached from your usual “Reality.” 

When Pluto was in Scorpio, in the late 1980s and early 1990s, “The Way Out Was Through” – that is, we had to jump into the deep end of whatever we were Resisting.  From the mid-nineties to the mid-oughts, Pluto was in Sagittarius, and “The Way Out Was Through Letting Go.”  Now, until 2023, Pluto is in Capricorn – “The Way Out is to Just Do It.”  When we’re Stuck, sure, we’ll Need to go back and Retrieve the part of our Self that we Left Behind. 

Dan Scranton’s Channel today suggests…

“This is a moment for you to look at how far you’ve come, because the experience of your expansion depends upon your acknowledgement of yourself.  If you continue to see only the things that you need to work on, then you’re not going to enjoy the experience.  If you look for areas that need improvement because you think you must in order to make the shift, you’re not going to enjoy the experience.

“If instead you look at yourselves and you recognize how powerful the experience of awakening is, you will take yourselves to the next level joyously.  And this journey that you are on is all about finding the opportunities for joy within it.  It is inevitable that you will make the journey, but how you do it, whether you will go with ease and with joy in your hearts, or whether you struggle and strive and are hard on yourselves, these are the choices that are in front of you.

“Make the choice that supports what it is that you want to experience, both on the remainder of your journey here to the fifth dimension, and also, once you arrive.  Once you arrive, you will still have expanding to do.  So you might as well start enjoying this journey now.”

Bottom line: as usual, it’s Both/And.

Red Rutile (Titanium Dioxide) Crystals clustered like a fasces, going Both ways on a Matrix of Muscovite (Sodium Aluminum Fluoride) Mica Books going every which way, pirouetting, as is their wont.  Muscovite invites your Higher Self to join “you,” while Rutile sharpens your Attention.

Nemesis Next II

May 30, 2017

A reader contributes a Dream…

I was with my first lover (we had a very sweet relationship, but I got married to someone else and though we tried to keep our friendship, it went sour towards the end)… in the dream we held each other and it was very sweet and intimate and a feeling of pure joy and happiness being there in their arms.  And in my dream I said to my daughter… I have never loved anyone as much as I loved them… if my parents were not completely against me marrying them we would have been together.

“I don’t think I have any regrets of not marrying them… I would not have been where I am, and my parents may have been right as to stereotype what my life would have been like with them… but who can tell what anything coulda/woulda been right?”

Yes, Dreams, Vignettes, both often “Unbidden Intrusions,” as the OR10 Station may bring.  As Robert Moss points out in The Three Only Things, the dismissal of Dreams as “only a Dream” is a major mistake.  To many cultures, notably the First Peoples of Australia, “the Dreamtime” is very Real, often referred to as our access to the Fourth Dimension.  One of the more productive Perspectives is to regard Dreams as a visit to one of our own Parallel Lives.  One branch of Quantum Physics postulates Multiple Universes, and an interesting extrapolation is that every time we make a Decision, we split off into a Separate Universe, while our Previous Universe continues, carrying the consequences of the Opposite Decision.

So our reader could be visiting one of their own Alternate Universes, the one where they Decided to stay with their first lover.  Which raises a number of fascinating Possibilities, foremost of which is probably the notion of just hanging out in that Alternative Universe.  Yes, that would be a Fantasy – another of Robert’s Three Only Things.  Psychological health, as defined by the Pharmaceutical industry and its DSM5-toting sales force, requires a Dominating Ego that can consistently recite the Perspective of the Dominant Paradigm.

Which leaves all of our other Egos to play on their own without adult supervision, as long as we don’t get Confused about Who’s In Charge (Um, yes, first sign of Growth in Consciousness).  We can immediately see possible complications.  What about our reader’s current “Current-Lifetime” Lover?  Will they notice our reader’s relative Absence and find their Abandonment triggered?  (If Suffocation is their primary modus, they might be Relieved.)  Will our reader’s first lover have others competing for their Attention?  The Requirement (for respectable women anyway, if not for men with big hands or big heads) that Relationship be Dualistic is a strong Enforcer for the Dominant Paradigm.

Most folks have encountered John Sebastian’s dilemma in one form or another…

Which puts us squarely on the Edge of our Dualistic Worldview, the general observation that Both/And is Spiritual while Either/Or is Political.  Now everyone is Free to make their own Choices, no one is mandating that Both/And must rule in every part of everyone’s Life, and Preference trumps both Ambiguity and Judgment all day.  But when Fear is our Motive for Choosing Either/Or, we have a lot to gain by Confronting it.

So, looking beyond issues of Fidelity and Security and Preference (even though they’re major Guardians on the Threshold), how comfortable are we with the notion that Parallel Lives might be Intruding on our Monolithic Ego?  Well, one of our first Yes-Buts is that it’s really egotistical to think that a whole Parallel Universe can be spawned just because we made a Decision.  But Infinity is a Big Number.  And we’ve Opened several cans of Worms about whether We Are All One or Separate, not to mention the whole Fantasy of Linear Time.  If neither Time nor Separation are “Real,” them where does that leave our daily Priorities?  Suddenly we’re back to being Rats on a treadmill.  No offense to our long-suffering Rodent Friends.

So let’s leave the intellectualizations aside for a moment, and return to the “feeling of pure joy and happiness.”  Isn’t that what Self-Love and Enlightenment are all about?  No, of course, not exclusively, because to get to Real Self-Love and Enlightenment, don’t we have to Value all of our Emotions equally (even as we Prefer some more than others)?  Well, what if we did Value all of our Emotions equally.  Wouldn’t the Freedom from Held or Resisted or Denied Emotions itself engender a “feeling of pure joy and happiness.”  How would it Change our Lives and daily Priorities,  DSM-5 aside, if we went about our Life “lost” in pure joy and happiness? 

If we made a catalog of all the Yes-Buts triggered by that notion, and all the Changes that would be Required, we’d probably have a good start at a list of our Limiting and Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  Maybe if we’re Brave enough we can gain from some variation on a PIAVA like “Nemesis, please Lovingly and Gently Remove the Limiting and Self-Sabotaging Beliefs that Most Prevent Me from Living in Pure Joy and Happiness Most of the Time.”  Ego Death requires Change, but it’s only Resistance that creates Pain.

The most Powerful way to Manifest anything is to spend time with the Feeling you will have in your Body when you have successfully Manifested it.  So the Gift of Pure Joy and Happiness, from whatever source, is Great Grace, no matter how we spin it.

Nemesis Next

May 28, 2017

Once we get past our 4 Pisces 30 May OR10 Station, our next hurdle is the Station of Nemesis on 3 June at 5 Aquarius, followed by a 14 Libra Jupiter Station on 9 June.  Slow-moving dwarf planet that it is (at 550 years, it takes OR10 almost twice as much time to do a full loop as Pluto, which laps in 250 years), I don’t expect much bleedthrough from lowly asteroid Nemesis (which whips around every four and a half years); OR10 and its Vignettes are more likely to dominate center stage.

Orbital speed cuts both ways.  The slower a planet moves, the less often we get to Experience its Dances.  With less Experience comes less Competence, and we’re more often caught off guard.  The essence of a newly discovered planet is that its Influence is Emerging from the undifferentiated Unconscious.  When something Emerges into Consciousness, it isn’t Discovered, it’s Differentiated.  It’s not like we’re just Discovering these Vignettes – I can’t step into the shower without encountering at least one “Random” Memory of some Shameful or Guilty or Regretted Experience or event, and it’s been that way as long as I can remember.

What’s new about these Vignettes in the Age of OR10 (which was Discovered a decade ago and is the third largest Plutoid – but which still lacks a name!) is the Recognition of the Opportunity these Vignettes give us to Reorganize our Identity.  Shame is one of the most Difficult Emotions to Love to Death, but that’s exactly what we have to do with it.  And, being one of the most Difficult, it’s one of the most Rewarding.  Recovering the Identities hidden beneath our Shame is phenomenally Liberating.  Loving our Guilt to Death can also be a Powerful antidote to Self-Sabotage.  Regret, having a poignancy of its own, is Easier to be Loving with, but it’s what we Regret that we have to Recover in order to step toward Wholeness.

Now whenever we Expand our Identity to include parts that previously hid behind Shame or Guilt or Regret or Fear or any other Held (Avoided) Emotion, an Ego Death is likely.  Anytime we change the list of adjectives that we use to describe ourself, and especially when we neuter a Judgment about ourself and move from a Duality to the Coin that includes both sides, we hatch a new Ego, which means molting the old one.  So (when we use it to reorganize our Identity rather than just gossiping with ourself) there’s a strong Connection between OR10 and Nemesis anyway, even when they aren’t simultaneously Strong.

Even if we assign only one Degree to the Sensitivity of a Station, the Nemesis Station would still Light Up two and a half weeks, as it slows to Stand Still (Nemesis, like most asteroids, averages about one Degree every four days).  So there’s no question that Nemesis really is Stationary even though it’s like trying to find Saturn in daylight; the influence of the far-rarer, less-familiar, and closer-to-its-Station (hence Stronger) OR10 will drown it out.  Asteroid Nemesis was Discovered 145 years ago, so we’ve had five generations to get familiar with Ego Death.

With OR10 much Stronger just now, why don’t we see if we can Expand our Identity without the Pain we usually associate with Ego Death.  Just to take a “random” example, one of my more recent Vignettes was about the Regret I felt about, some fifty or so years ago, not Feeling (Emotional) Love for a perfectly Beautiful and Gracious young potential partner who was hungry to be Loved.  Unless you’re fully into Yintegrity around Relationship, Emotional Love is supposed to be an Either/Or, and the alternatives are socially risky.  So how might I Expand my Identity around this Vignette?

My Regret was for an Opportunity Lost, not because I was Rejected, but because my Heart “forced” me to Reject.  The other person’s Pain was and is acute for me because it is my Pain.  As a Weirdo like many of us ( ), Rejection was my bane too.  So it hurt, and still hurts, to Reject.  When I say to myself, “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you,” there is a Softening in my chest and an Opening in part of my Heart, toward the back.  I can feel an energetic “muscle” between my navel and my neck (the Central Meridian perhaps) strengthening, and a whole panoply of seemingly unrelated thoughts and memories arise.  Which is just fine; we expect Paradox around Real Life.

On the other side of the coin, in another recent Vignette deriving from a few years later, a Perfectly Beautiful and Gracious potential partner who was firmly attached to someone else, showed me Exceptional Kindness, leaving me utterly Confused about how to Respond or show my Gratitude.  That Delicious Experience triggered my own Longing in a way that created Regret that I didn’t have that sort of Experience in my Life routinely.  When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you” on this Vignette, it Opens to a black space. 

When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to Possess Love, didn’t you,” my third Chakra softens into Sadness.  When I now try “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Sad about your Isolation, aren’t you,” my Yes-Buts arise – “You can’t do Either/Or, it doesn’t work” says a disembodied telepathic “voice.”  When I then try – after a couple of false starts that don’t lead to Satisfying places – a Theta Healing,

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Accept this Paradox and Let Go of All Anxiety around it;
Thank you, God/Goddess, It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done;
Show me,”

I’m left in a space that’s very Neutral, and my chest is pleasantly Expanded.

Okay, so we seem to have Expanded our Consciousness (while seeming to Silence some intellectual Noise) without having to Endure any grueling Ego Deaths.  Nemesis is not inherently about Pain.  It’s our Resistance to Change that creates Pain.  The Ego by its nature is Tenacious, and that’s a good thing.  We need to Negotiate Win-Win with it and with the Unconscious that runs the Show most of the time.  Michael Roads has some nice ideas for us (Through the Eyes of Love: Book Three, pp.176-7)…

“If, living in New York City, you decide to fly to Sydney, Australia, you are not going to just wander into the airport and get on the first plane going anywhere.  You are going to determine your destination and buy tickets accordingly, making sure you get on the correct aircraft.

“On that basis, if, when you wake up in the morning, you get out of bed and mindlessly go about your day … as you have every other day … it is going to be a day, a year, a life of endless repeats of all your yesterdays.  Literally, lifetimes of repetitions.

“If, however, you wake up in the morning, and placing your hands over your heart, you murmur, ‘Today, I choose Love.  Today, I am going to focus on loving myself, on loving other people, and loving my life.’  This is a prime, life-changing choice.  With this beginning to your day, you consciously revisit that choice, living it, feeling it, and reaffirming it as often as you can throughout the day.”

“It has to be a conscious choice.  Conscious choices are rare.  Most choices are subconscious, following an already predetermined pattern of which most people are unaware [which is ‘fate’].  So, another morning, hand over heart, ‘Today I choose appreciation.  Today I will appreciate myself, other people, and my life.’  Choices like this are life-changing.

“Another day, ‘Today I choose respect.  Today I am going to respect myself, other people, and my life.  And so on.  Day-after-day you make the choices that remodel and renovate your life.  But, it all has to be conscious choices, and those choices must be consciously lived.”

Purgative New Moon

May 23, 2017

One of my favorite Crystals, Scheelite, spawn of Calcium and Tungsten…

Tungsten is heavy, ~85% as heavy as Lead, and this Stone has heft to it.  From Collen Marquist (p.133), “ability to infiltrate a lie or obfuscation… to determine if someone is dishonest with you, and to delve into personal issues of denial and falsehood… brave like a scout and will provide courage to those who are intimidated by a falsehood… activates the third and second chakras to empower the gut to not only sense danger, but to do something about it.”

Which is the Main Effect of the 25 May (1pm PDT in 5 Gemini) New Moon.  An excellent way to approach it would be to ask yourself, “What is my Nemesis?” or “What am I most frightened of?”  There’s a good chance that some of these issues may be up in your Life this week anyway.  Fear of Loss, Fear of Change, Fear of Risk, Fear of Failure, Fear of Self.  Your “Higher Self” does know exactly what it’s doing.  But do we Trust it?  Doubt is one thing we might be able to Clear Away this week, if we’re Honest with ourself about what we Fear and what Limits us.

The two Archetypes most emphasized at this New Moon (which means they’ll be Lit Up for several weeks thereafter) are Nemesis and Vesta. 

Nemesis Punishes Hubris.  Hubris needs two components – Self-Confidence, and Illusion; we’re Confident that we can Live a Lie (whether we know it’s a Lie or not).  It’s kind of the inverse of “Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway.”  We’ve been told all our Life (and many before that) that we have to be this and do that or we won’t Survive.  In our Obedient phases, we tried, and if being and doing this or that wasn’t compatible with our Soul or our Mission, of course we Doubted ourself, and probably developed the Habit of Doubting ourself.  In our Rebellious phases, we may have been or done things that our Obedient Self still Regrets or Feels Guilty about, and we may have developed those Habits too.

Since acculturation is pretty much one-size-fits-all (and if you were that “size” you wouldn’t be reading this) we spend much of our time adrift in this Doubt, Regret, Guilt, and Fear – likely with Anxiety for frosting.  And that won’t Change until we develop the Habit of Noticing that we’re Feeling Doubt, Regret, Guilt, Fear, Anxiety, or All of the Above, and then Acting to Shift it.  Dr. Kim suggests that Breathing is very useful when we Notice these things, and I agree.  Personally, what I find effective, is Poor-Sweethearting, but you knew that…

  • “You Poor Sweetheart, You’re Feeling Doubt, aren’t you.”
  • “You Poor Sweetheart, You’re Feeling Regret, aren’t you.”
  • “You Poor Sweetheart, You’re Feeling Guilt, aren’t you.”
  • “You Poor Sweetheart, You’re Feeling Scared, aren’t you.”
  • “You Poor Sweetheart, You’re Feeling Anxious, aren’t you.”

Tapping ( can also help Ground a heavy dose of Emotions – when you’re Shaking Inside, for instance. 

Vesta – Hestia in Greece – was Goddess of the Hearth: Food, Family, Friends, winter Warmth, Mom, Nature and Nurture both.  The Greeks toasted Hestia before they toasted Zeus, and they toasted Hestia after they toasted Zeus.  Yes, Celebrate the Big Honcho, but better keep your Real Bets hedged while you’re at it.  The Romans thought that this was such a good idea that they made Vesta the Goddess of the State.

So in the Western Psyche, Vesta represents the Centerpoint of our Survival.  Being Separated from Vesta is like being Banished from our Tribe; we’re back to eating Bugs and Leaves (and in the winter sucking Bark), struggling to keep warm and dry, and in grave danger of becoming someone else’s lunch. 

While Nemesis symbolizes Judgment of our Nonconformity, Vesta stands for what we (would) gain by Conforming, aka what we Fear of Losing if we drop the Lies.  Since most of our acculturation was lavished upon us before we “knew better” than to be Discerning, much of it is (purposely) Unconscious.  And since these things are so closely associated with Survival and Fear, we develop big Ego Attachments to the “rules” which we most Fear, that will keep us from getting Banished.

So we interpret Nemesis as Ego Death (if you do that it – or they – will kill you!), and Vesta as our Unconscious Beliefs, particularly our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  This week is primarily about the Paradoxical Relationships between Unconscious Beliefs and Ego Death.  To Let Go of our Self-Sabotaging Limiting Beliefs (such as We Can’t Have What We Want, Money Doesn’t Grow on Trees, Good Girls Don’t Do That, etc, etc) usually requires an Ego Death.  So far that doesn’t seem so Paradoxical.  So watch for things that don’t make sense this week – those will be the clues that lead us to What We Need to Let Go Of.

The New Moon is T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) to the Opposition between Orcus (Oaths and Vows) and asteroid Karma (Habits) on the left, and Nessus (Abuse) and 2007 OR10 (Unbidden Memories) on the right.  That Opposition is one of two in a Golden Rectangle (the blue box); the other is between Veritas (Truth) and Hylonome (Prying Ourselves Free from an Archetype).  Splitting the Golden Rectangle is the Vesta-Nemesis Opposition Yin Gate

All this happens between 4 and 8 Degrees; the Yin Gate in the Fixed Signs, the Golden Rectangle in the Magnetic Signs, and the T-Square in the Mutable Signs – but it’ll pretty much Light Up anything you have in 4-8 Degrees of any Sign.  Whatever planets and Angles you have in that zone will likely provide clues to which Archetypes you may be blowing away this week.  In 4-8 Degrees of any Sign we’re basically Letting Go of our Original Plan for whatever it is we’re Creating.  Not Letting Go of what we’re Creating, but Letting Go of preconceptions about it, so we can Let It Flow of its own accord, without our pushing and shoving it into molds in doesn’t fit well in, while Learning to Trust.

Kind of like this…