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Boundaries III

February 11, 2019

A we mentioned in Boundaries, “Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.”  We’ve been writing about Libra and Pallas for several days without realizing till now that Other and Boundary are really the same concept or word, just seen from different Perspectives.  Without a Boundary there wouldn’t be an Other, and without Other we’d never have the notion of Boundary.  It’s all about Identity, which is a lot more Fluid than we usually think.  And about Duality, which is a lot more Limiting than we usually think.

We Hupers usually think of the Veil between us and the Other Side as more of a Limitation than a Boundary, but Boundary it is, and the Other Side is as much an element of Libra as your paramour.

“He was not wakened again by Alder, but he had a bad dream of his own.

“He was standing by a wall of stone near the top of a long hillside of dry grey grass that ran down from dimness into the dark.  He knew he had been there before, had stood there before, but he did not know when, or what place it was.  Someone was standing on the other side of the wall, the downhill side, not far away.  He could not see the face, only that it was a tall man, cloaked.  He knew that he knew him.  The man spoke to him, using his true name.  He said, ‘You will soon be here, Ged.’

“Cold to the bone, he sat up, staring to see the space of the house about him, to draw its reality about him like a blanket.  He looked out the window at the stars.  The cold came into his heart then.  They were not the stars of summer, beloved, familiar, the Cart, the Falcon, the Dancers, the Heart of the Swan.  They were the Other stars, the small, still stars of the dry land, that never rise or set.  He had known their names once, when he knew the names of things.

” ‘Avert!’ he said aloud and made the gesture to turn away misfortune that he had learned when he was ten years old.”  (Ursula Le Guin, The Other Wind, pp.12-13)

“We who have true names keep them when we die, it’s our use-name that is forgotten… This is a mystery to the learned, I can tell you, but as well as we understand it, a true name is a word in the True Speech. … When my master Aihal died, my wife was there with him; and as he was dying he said to her, ‘It is changed, all changed.‘  He was looking across that wall.  From which side I do not know.”  (ibid, p.45)

“Kalessin said: ‘Long ago we chose.  We chose freedom.  Men chose the yoke.  We chose fire and the wind.  They chose water and the earth.  We chose the west,  and they chose the east.’

“And Kalessin said: ‘But always among us some envy them their wealth, and always among them some envy us our liberty.  So it was that evil came into us and will come into us again, until we choose again, and forever, to be free.  Soon I am going beyond the west to fly on the Other Wind.  I will lead you there, or wait for you, if you will come.’ …

“Then Kalessin said, ‘Once we were one people.  And in sign of that, in every generation of men, one or two are born who are dragons also.  And in every generation of our people, longer than the quick lives of men, one of us is born who is also human.  Of these one is now living in the Inner Isles.  And there is one of them living there now who is a dragon.  These two are the messengers, the bringers of choice.  There will be no more such born to us or to them.  For the balance changes.’ ”  (Ibid, pp.167-68)

We can also compare our day-to-day Experience with that of Daphne Charters and her friends (Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.260-61)…

“This work, in which we all assist, is known as a transformation.  We seek and find a lost soul whose astral body, as well as the physical, has died, leaving no trace to normal Astral eyes.  However, because we cannot see a ‘dead’ person, owing to his faster rate of vibration, it does not follow that he has no body.  So it is with those whose vibrations have sunk through the years until only the Great Ones know where they lie.

“We find these people by their vibration, however slow and, although we are unable to see them when we reach them, we mark the spot and direct rays of power and love upon them until their vibrations are sufficiently raised for the bodies to become visible to us.  This is the first stage in the rehabilitation of ‘lost souls,’ as much power has to be directed to them over sometimes long periods before consciousness returns.

“In order to achieve even the first part of the transformation, it is necessary for many hundreds of people from the Astral to gather together.  By passing power through their bodies, it becomes sufficiently coarsened to be effective amidst very slow vibrating matter.  This is where Daphne is of use to us, for her physical body vibrates slower than those of us who live on the Astral, a higher plane, thus power which is passed through her coarsens the whole.

“Unless you are clairvoyant, you will not have seen a display of power so you cannot know the magnitude of the volume, or the intensity of light.  Fairies can naturally see this power for it is their life’s work to distribute it, but normally they know only the quantity which they can collectively produce in their own group.  Our own fairies, who always help us, are ever amused at the never-ending supply so we were interested to see how the delegates would be affected…”

“How different is the power which we witnessed today to that which is known by the same name on Earth.  Man ever seeks for power to overcome his neighbors, to add to his possessions, or to acquire authority over more people.  Today we were privileged to see the essence from which all these petty misnomers have their being.

“But this true-power, in its purity of purpose, performed a deed so wondrous that if men were told of it, they would not believe.  If only those who sought to misuse it understood the condition in which they will find themselves when their ridiculous, puffed-up physical bodies and accompanying personalities are no more, perhaps they would then use it to lift up instead of to crush, to comfort rather than exploit, and, in the happiness which they would at last know, they would find the key to a better world.”

So, I was Wondering about the Other planet in Libra, Makemake.  And it turns out that, at least for now, the Bottom Line of Makemake in Libra is that If we Want to Manifest What We Want, we have to Seek Out and Revert our Victim Postures.  Drawing up the Makemake chart for the moment when Juno enters Gemini – ie, when we are likely to be due for substantial Consciousness Expansion (8:30 pm PST 10 February)…

…Reveals two big Challenges (T-Squares)…

A Challenge to Manifestation itself (Makemake) between Making it a Value of ours to be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Venus-Pholus-Quaoar) and Choosing Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).

Fate is what happens To Us when we’re not Conscious of what’s going on.  It’s not about Why but rather about What.  What’s the Pattern?  When our Repeating Bummers happen, what Precedes them?  When “bad luck” befalls us, there’s a sequence of events that leads up to it.  We aren’t talking Cause & Effect – that’s a left-brain dead end.  Useful if you’re Stuck in the 3D Dynamic Masculine Creative process, but Obfuscating if you want to use 5D Magnetic Feminine Manifestation methods.

PIAVA that you become aware of What Precedes your Self-Sabotage.  If you already knew what it was you’d have fixed it long ago.  It’s behind your Blinders, and you won’t see it without enlisting the Cooperation of the Unconscious – that is, using PIAVA.  For instance, “Lord Ganesh, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Realizing How I Stumble into Self-Sabotage.”  Once you get Conscious about these Patterns, you can Choose otherwise.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

We’ve been working with Responding Fully (Pholus) to our Survival Instincts (Quaoar) – ie, Disallowing our Yes-Buts that try to Protect our Routines – for a long time.  We’re running out of Excuses.  It’s past time to Accept this as a basic Value.

The second Challenge is about Reframing the Beliefs Created by our Victim Postures (Vesta-OR10-Nessus) between Ego Death (Nemesis) and Sustainability (Ceres).

Like our Survival Instincts, we’ve also been working with our Abuse Memories for a long time now.  First we have to Retrieve them – or Allow them to Retrieve us (OR10), and Acknowledge their Reality.  Then we have to Empathize with our Real Victim, Revert any Blaming-the-Victim behavior we indulged or encountered, and Deal with our Real Emotions.  That usually takes a lot more than a few hundred Poor-Sweethearts, though they can be useful.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/.

People talk a lot about Forgiveness, but in a real sense what we need is the Opposite of Forgiveness, as our original Tolerance was a form of Forgiveness to begin with.  We don’t Forgive; we Discover that we’ve Forgiven.  It’s an Observation, not an Action.  As with Self-Sabotage, we need to Discover what Preceded our episodes of Abuse, so we can Learn to Recognize the Pattern before it turns Abusive, and Choose Otherwise.  While Sharing all this increases the Pain, it’s often very difficult to do alone.

Yes, just about every step in the process of Clearing Abuse – Recall, Acceptance, Self-Empathy, Embracing our Real, Explosive Emotions, Opening to the Patterns – requires an Ego Death (Nemesis).  Our Resistance to Ego Death must be Reframed, so we Recognize when it’s happening and Learn to Celebrate it as the fastest route to Living a Better Life.

And as we move through Abuse, we have to Recognize that we’re likely to be Abused in some ways every day.  Every “trivial” unkind remark, Intentional or otherwise, can make us Feel Less-Than.  So we have to get very good at Recognizing it, Owning and Healing our Reactions, and approaching Ego Death as we would a Latte, in order to make this whole process Sustainable (Ceres).

And Sustainability-Ceres is the kingpin of the whole chart, as it is the head of a Kite that connects the two T-Squares.  A Kite is a Grand Trine (three planets equally spaced around the Circle) with a fourth planet halfway between two of the three.  The fourth planet – Ceres – becomes the Focus of the substantial Dumb-Luck Blessings served up by the Grand Trine.

So we have a Golden Opportunity to bring these Challenges – Cleaning Up our Manifestations by Choosing to Support our Survival Instincts, and Rooting Out the Limiting Beliefs that our Abuse History has left us with – into Resolution, where they Serve our Deepest Desires rather than Sabotaging them.

The three corners of the Grand Trine, or Big Grace, are Manifestation (Makemake), Ego Death (Nemesis), and The End of Karma (asteroids Atropos and Karma).  We’ve actually been working on the Death of Karma for a lot longer than we’ve been working on Abuse Memories or Responding to Survival Instincts.  The Realization in the Western World that Karma is about Inertia rather than Retribution has been with us since Alan Watts’s books in the 1950s.

A corollary is that Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  Like our Other Challenges, Letting Go of Our Karma involves Noticing when it’s recurring, Reverting our Belief that it’s Inevitable, Discovering the Patterns that led up to it, Noticing when those Patterns Begin the next time, and Choosing an Alternative.  The Death of Karma is a Given in this Drama; it’s not something we’re being Scheduled to work on, it’s something that we can use as a model for the Abuse and Survival Issues we are working on.

Dragon, of course, is a synonym for Karma, and as we saw, Dragons have gone to fly on the Other Wind.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love II

January 15, 2019

Of course the “good news” of a Nemesis Station Square Nessus-OR10 (Ego Death from Embracing or Poor-Sweethearting our Intrusive Abuse Memories), is that it’s an Opportunity to Clear the very Held Emotions that constitute our Unconscious Resistance to migrating into 5D, aka What We Want.  It’s not as complicated as it sounds.  Originally, we set Boundaries against Memories that would Trigger Emotions that would Overwhelm us.

As we got good at this through Repetition, we pushed the Memories and their Emotions out of our Awareness and into Karma.  We made them Unconscious, which means they’re part of Not-Me.  In Real Life we’re Infinite Light Beings Fantasizing a Material Vehicle, and from this Light-Being Perspective nothing is Not-Me.  But when we Identify with our Fantasy Material (/Emotional/Intellectual) Vehicle, then from that Perspective our Not-Me can get Overwhelmingly large, large enough to Take Control of our Vehicle behind its back, without telling us, so to speak – Out of Our Awareness.

This is the Origin of all the Good-Versus-Evil stories you’ve been taught since Birth; “Good” is your Fantasy-Vehicle Identity, and “Bad” is the Not-Me which is the rest of your Light Being, which you don’t recognize as “Me.”  Hence the Classic Warfare Model of HisStory.  His many Stories become Religions or other Group-Thinks like Make-Rome-Great-Again aka Bring-Back-the-Slaves, which the pathologically clever among us exploit for their own Gain.

Moving into Identifying with our Light Body is not a process of Struggle, but a process of Surrender or Allowing or Vulnerability – HerStory.  The Lady Warrior Archetype misses the point, but it’s an intermediate step that might help with our Liberation, if we don’t get Stuck in it.

As we attempt to return our Identity to our Infinite Light Beingness, we find that our Fantasy-Vehicle Identity has to Break Out of a series of Shells, each one Opening us to a “new” (Revealed – Eris) segment of our Not-Me, which Manifests as an Introduction to a Held Emotion (South Node or Karma).  With each Broken Shell our Me Grows toward our 5D Light Being, and our Me Grows in Power – in the sense that we now have greater Healthy Control over our Life Circumstances.

Not the Power-Over which dominates HisStory, but the Power-With that works through Collaboration with the Unseen.  The more we can Delegate Power to the Unseen Energies that actually Carry it, the Easier our Life becomes.  Except of course for the potentially unpleasant “Ego Deaths,” or Molts, or Rebirths, or Embracing/Poor-Sweethearting of our Held Emotions, that occur when one of those Shells Break, because we Experienced those Shells as Security to our Fantasy Vehicle.  Like when Nemesis Acts Out, such as Now through 17 January.

Not to Lament, as Sappho (Self-Love) is also Stationary here, through 20 January.  Unconditional Self-Love is so Central to our Light-Being Self that we’re hardly Aware of it.  While Nemesis can suck out the Air that our Fantasy Vehicle likes to Breathe, nothing can suck out the Light that our Light-Being Self Breathes, though the Illusions of our Fantasy Vehicle like to blind us to that in its misguided attempts to Protect the next Shell.

When we can Experience the Breaking of a Shell as Liberation of a more Power-With-ful Me instead of the demise of a more Limited Power-Over-ful Me, our Growth into Full Collaboration with the Universe has Arrived.  Contrary to the usual Metaphor, there are no Destinations here; there are only More Shells to Break.  5D is not an event, it’s a process, and it’s the process of Enjoying Ego Death.

So let’s have a look at this Opportunity to Experience some serious Ego Deaths in the context of serious Self-Love…

For instance, there’s Marilyn Raffaele’s Channeling for 13 January…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

(If you don’t find the 13 January 2019 message there, check http://www.onenessofall.com/archives.html.)

“We are the Arcturian Group, a collective of ascended Arcturian beings from the eighth dimension here to assist Gaia and her people during these times of ascending consciousness.

“Know that these messages as well as others that may resonate with you are in reality your own state of consciousness manifesting as the particular message.  If this were not true, you would not be drawn to or be able to understand them.

“You, who are spiritually prepared to expand beyond the illusion and integrate truth are the forefront of the ascension process.  You chose to be on earth during these times of intense energetic chaos and change in order to complete your own third dimensional spiritual journey and become the first wave of ascension and example for those following.

“You are preparing the way for those of the second wave–individuals spiritually ready to awaken but who until now have resisted doing so.  Know that the Light of so many now awakening out of three dimensional sleep state, is shifting and dissolving the old paradigm, even when things appear to be getting worse.  Try not to give up hope but rather stand back as an observer for you are soon going to see much that will restore the hope you may have lost.

“You serve as living breathing examples of unconditional love for those around you when you realize and begin to live out from a consciousness that knows unconditional love is the only reality and that anything else simply represents conditioned beliefs about love.”

“Unconditional love can only ever be all there is because there is only ONE–one substance, one life, one reality, one law.  Love is the energetic glue connecting everything within this Infinite ONE and those who [naively] continue to believe in and live out from a consciousness of separation and duality create for themselves the illusory forms of these beliefs.

“You can ignore, but never change the reality of Oneness by judging from outer appearances as proof of its nonexistence.  Continuing to hold to the third dimensional belief system after outgrowing it only delays a person’s spiritual evolution because Oneness is the foundation of all reality and must be acknowledged at some point.  For some it may be in a future life, for you it is now.

“There are some who present a very religious face to the public, preaching ideas of love, but who do not practice them when confronted with experiences or opportunities that may result in personal inconvenience or lifestyle discomfort.  Unconditional love cannot continue being flowery words spoken or written, but must become an attained state of consciousness.

“Because Love/oneness is the only reality, all false concepts about love must be allowed to fade away and be replaced by a deeper realization of what love really is.  The third dimensional belief system has created and promoted hundreds of concepts of love, the grandest of them being romantic love.

“Romantic love is based in the belief that everyone is half of a couple.  This concept would be true if humans were simply physical, but they are not and never have been.  Although appearing to be just physical, the reality is that everyone is a whole and complete expression of Divine consciousness having the experience of being in physical form.

“Many, even the very evolved are reluctant to move past their favorite three dimensional concepts of love but as long as an individual continues to seek wholeness, happiness, and fulfillment from another, they remain just that– half of a couple.”

“Let go of concepts proclaiming that things need, should, or must be a certain way in order to be correct.  Most of the world’s ‘shoulds and shouldn’ts’ have been carried in collective consciousness from earlier times when they may have actually made sense for personal safety.  Others are nothing more than rules and regulations given by third dimensional thinkers, governments, and religious leaders often to promote their own agendas.

“You are ready to come out from under the bondage of three dimensional thinking because you have evolved beyond the need for someone to tell you what is right and what is wrong–you already know what is right and wrong.

“Allow yourselves to be who and what you are.  If family or friends think you have become a ‘weirdo’, simply laugh, bless them, and move on.  Does God need outer validation?  Where could it come from since IT is all there is?  …

“For some it takes a great deal of courage to live truth when it begins to unfold from within.  A person may be afraid to speak of these things to those of his old mindset be they family, friends, or church elders.  Living truth is not for the faint hearted especially in the beginning, but continuing to align with some organization or individual out of fear of criticism serves only to keep the person in energy he has outgrown and where he will continue to create experiences reflective of that energy.

“The choice is yours, dear ones.  Do you choose to be what you already are or do you wish to continue with the illusion of being a poor human constantly suffering third dimensional problems and continually seeking a savior, human or Divine, to save you?.

“Stop waiting for someone or something to change the world for you.  Only the awakened consciousness of the collective can and is shifting the three dimensional world out of illusion.

“Allow the real YOU to create your experiences.  You are your own Light should you choose to accept this fact.

“You are Divine Consciousness in expression.  Claim it.”

Or Dan Scranton’s Channeling for 14 January…

https://danielscranton.com/defeating-others-is-not-a-part-of-the-shift-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are more than satisfied with the progress of humanity, and furthermore, we are certain that your progress will continue to impress us.  Now, we know that it is easy to find the faults with where you are as a collective and to focus on them because they are right there in your face, very loud and somewhat destructive.

“So your approach now to helping humanity as the lightworkers you are has to be aimed at changing the way you perceive those noisy, low frequency aspects of the human collective.  We invite you to see that humanity is getting all of this out of its system in preparation for the shift in consciousness.  There are very old disputes that you have on planet Earth, and they actually extend back even further than when human life on Earth began.

“You are there settling very old scores, and you have needed to try the old way of going about it for quite some time.  Again, you need to realize what works by first realizing what does not work.  Seeking to defeat the so-called enemy, no matter how bad they appear to be, will never work for humanity, and there’s a reason for that.  The reason is that you are there to bring together all aspects of you so that you can become your higher selves.

“You cannot bring together all of the parts if any of the parts are eliminated or destroyed.  Again, we invite you to see the attempts to destroy one group of humans by another as the last gasp, the last ditch effort for certain aspects of humanity to cling to the third dimensional ways.

“If you are receiving this transmission, you are not among those who wish to do this.  And so again, we urge you all to be the peace, and the sanity, be the calm at the center of the storm.  And in so doing, you will integrate yourselves, your human collective, and this beautiful galaxy of ours.”

Self-Judgment and Self-Love

January 13, 2019

Well, my apologies.  I finally see why many folks are checking the blog’s home page – when I was cataloging the “first half of 2019” (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/24/2019-first-half/) I just plain missed a couple of Stations.  I thought we were getting a short break between the 12 January Lachesis Station and the 20 January Full Moon Eclipse, but no such luck!

We have to add…

Self-Judgment and Self-Love, 11-20 January

  • Nemesis (Guilt, Ego Death) Station, 6 Gemini, 17 January (2:30 pm PST)
  • Sappho (Self-Love) Station, 12 Gemini, 20 January (9:30 pm PST)

I’ll amend that earlier post.

In other words, asteroid Nemesis – Ego Death – is Stationary as we speak.  There’s at least one positive about it – it could mean that US federal employees will start getting paid again by 18-20 January, but we’ll get to that.  The other big positive may not Feel so good, but it’s a big Opportunity.  The Nemesis Station Squares (Challenges) our old “friends” OR10 and Nessus, respectively Intrusive Memories and Abuse and Privilege.  Two things to Remember…

  1. A Square seems to be about Repeated and Possibly Infinite Torture, while in fact a Square is about Complete Mastery of a Subject.  We – our Current-Moment Ego – didn’t sign up for Repeated and Possibly Infinite Torture, but actually it’s the quickest and most effective path to Complete Mastery.  Because Master can imply Slave, we’ve abandoned Mastery as a description of the Impact of a Square, however, and substituted AdeptnessA Square is the quickest and most effective path to Becoming Completely Adept at something.
  2. Karma is Dead.  When we Re-Experience a Trauma, our natural Reaction is to Push it Away.  But unfortunately that doesn’t work.  The only way to prevent it from returning Again (and Again and Again) is to Move Into it.  Recovery from Trauma was a major theme in the 1980s when Pluto was in Scorpio (fittingly), and the Anthem we used then was The Way Out Is Through.

Now that isn’t always True.  Once Pluto entered Sagittarius, The Way Out Was Letting Go.  Now Pluto is in Capricorn, so now The Way Out Is to Just Fix It.  So how to do that?  Well, one way is to toggle between Moving Into It and Letting It Go

We apologize for using a song sung by a Barbie-Doll mimic, because that’s just another thing that we need to Let Go of.  No wonder Lasseter’s in trouble with #MeToo…

https://msmonotone.wordpress.com/2017/09/08/hour-glass-figure/

We’ve all Suffered Abuse in some form; if you aren’t Aware of how you’ve been Abused, Ask for Awareness.  This is an Opportunity to increase your Healthy Control over your own Life.

The Key is that Karma is just Habit, and Habit is Built and Replaced by Repetition.  Every time you Re-Experience Trauma as its Victim you add cement.  But Every time you Let It Go as an Adept, you chip away the mortar.  That’s As An Adept.  That means you first have to dip your toe into it.  You can no longer Run Away from it.  It’s subtle and tricky, to Touch your old Trauma without getting sucked in and drowning in it.  If you have a friend, or a mnemonic, to remind you that it’s no longer Present Moment, that’ll help.

In the 1980s we used “What Color is the Wallpaper?” as our mnemonic, because the walls of the room we’re in now are probably a different color than the walls of the room where our Trauma occurred.  But that may suck you in too deep, if you even remember.  You need to keep at least one hand on the railing so you can pull yourself back out into Now.  Maybe a big

2019

sign?  Or a placard or poster that says something like

Karma is Dead!
(As long as I continue to Let My Bummers Go and Let My Hurting Self into my Own Heart Unconditionally!)”

Let your Inner Artist work on that one.

Poor-Sweethearting yourself can be Powerful too (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/).

Don’t neglect Tapping.  Gary Craig had great success leading Vietnam PTSD Victims through Re-Experiencing the Edges of their Trauma and Tapping with them.  This is heavy…

In order to Move Through and Let Go of Deep Trauma you may need an EFT professional who’s familiar with PTSD.  A workable approach might be to locate one near you (or within telephone distance), connect with them, tell them you want to try EFT on your Trauma first by yourself, and ask them if they’re willing to take your call if you get in over your head.  They may have useful information for you.  The basic EFT technique I use is this one…

Finally, if it’s Painful between now and 17 January, Recognize that the 20 January Sappho Station that follows, which is all about Self-Love, occurs within a few minutes of the Total Lunar Eclipse, which will make Self-Love very Powerful and more Long-Lasting.

The major Configuration of the Nemesis Station chart…

…is a Square Fez – the Moroccan hat with red sides and blue top and bottom.  The red sides (Squares) are…

  • Nemesis Square OR10-Nessus (Abuse/Privilege).  This is a Challenge – consider it an Invitation – to Let Go of our Beliefs that Abuse and Privilege follow us around like a Lost Puppy.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equal.  So one way to Approach our Beliefs that we attract or deserve or allowed Abuse (if we don’t bring these Beliefs into Consciousness they’ll Control our Life), is to Examine the ways we are Privileged.  Privilege is actually useful – as long as it doesn’t leave someone else without Privilege.  If you have a friend who likes to buy you lunch, Enjoy it!  And pay it forward, pass it around.  Save half to give to the homeless person on the corner.

But we want to Strive for Balance.  We want to Grant as much Privilege as we Receive.  And we want to Give as little Abuse as possible, and Receive even less.  Having Received Abuse it’s inevitable that we will Give it, Unconsciously if not Consciously.  Stay Safe, but try to steer it toward Abusers…

https://msmonotone.wordpress.com/2017/10/06/pigs-in-politics/

The Keys to any Fez are the green Diagonals (called “Quincunxes” because they connect planets that are five [Quin] Signs [Unx = 1/12] apart).  They’re part of two interlocking Major Tricolors or red-green-blue triangles, indicating Challenge/red, Question/green, Blessing/blue; the green Question Liberates the blue Blessing to resolve the red Challenge.  By Question we mean Curiosity, of the kind that eschews “Figuring It Out.”

Aka PIAVA – Praying, Intending, Asking, Visualizing or Pre-Feeling, Affirming, Commanding, Expanding, or any other Magnetic approach to Creating; see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.  We don’t want Answers, we want to Express our Curiosity about How the Result we Want will Manifest – then we want to Let It Be so the Universe can Surprise us.  Resist the Desire to know ahead of time; if you don’t get Surprised, you aren’t Growing.  If we already knew the Answer, we’d have already Manifested it.

The two Major Tricolors are…

  • Nemesis Square OR10/Nessus (the Challenge to gently assist the Molt of our Abused Ego),
    • OR10/Nessus Quincunx Makemake (“I Wonder what that’ll look like when it Manifests!“),
    • Makemake Trine Nemesis (Ego Death is the Open Door to Creating).
  • Makemake Square Hopi/Quaoar (the Challenge to Recognize and Relax our Judgments in order to Allow What We Want to Manifest),
    • Hopi/Quaoar Quincunx to Nemesis (“Ganeshi, Please Remove All Obstacles to Letting Go of my Attachments to my Judgments“),
    • Nemesis Trine Makemake (I’ll be better able to Manifest What I Want once I Let Go of my Inner Blocks to Receiving it).

Many thanks to MSMonotone, https://msmonotone.wordpress.com/about/home-art-work-titled-nathan-original-works-by-msmonotone-jayanti-maloney/, for the art!

Another Molt III

October 18, 2018

I can usually tell when folks are having hard times, by the number of folks calling up the blog as a whole, rather than a specific article.  Not so many this week, so I’m assuming folks are doing fine, which is great!  You’re Transcending Ego Death Transparently, Congratulations!

It’s been a busy week for me, so I’ve just interpreted the astrology directly.  Let’s catch up a little – here’s the 18 October Nemesis Station chart…

Our fundamental Challenge (T-Square) is to make Sustainable (Ceres) the Powerful Rebirth (Pluto-Klotho) of our Choice of Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).  That Challenge is compounded by the Duality (Opposition) between Ego Death (Nemesis-Asbolus) and our Limiting Beliefs and Self-Destructive Habits (asteroid Karma), creating quite an Opportunity. 

The process is Eased and made almost Automatic by the Air Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings around thought and Communication) connecting Nemesis, Ceres, and the Moon (Authenticity).  Traditional astrology tells us that the focus of a T-Square which is also a corner of a Grand Trine, is a Challenge we may be able to walk through Transparently, without even noticing. 

But the downside of a Grand Trine is Arrogance – if we’re born with one we tend to think everybody else must be pretty dumb because they can’t do what we do Effortlessly.  Until we Discover that everyone has their own Adeptness, and this just happens to be ours.  This is one reason why sports is emphasized in education – teamwork doesn’t work worth beans when the 150-pound sprinters are protecting the quarterback and the 300-pound brick walls are trundling downfield to catch passes.

In other words, by Enjoying Effortlessness this last week, we could be missing the Lesson.  By all means Enjoy all the Effortlessness you can find!  But to really accelerate our Consciousness, we be ahead to spend an hour or so contemplating why it was an Easy week.  What were we doing differently than we usually do? 

For instance, my natal Saturn is in Gemini, so Disciple and me are from different planets.  But I just finished several weeks of intense workload and deadlines, and did it Easily.  How?  I did something I’ve never done before – I used a calendar to schedule things.  Pretty primitive Discipline, but radical for the likes of Saturn in Gemini.

I did it without ever having to Choose to do what I didn’t Want to do at any time, which is a Protocol I follow as much as I can.  After many years of Living Saturn in Gemini I do know that what’s Most Important does get done on time, somehow.  And it gets done a lot more Efficiently, let alone more Enjoyably, than when I ignore my Moment-to-Moment Wants and Force it.

So I need to pause and Celebrate the Unique way my Saturn operates.  Hail Saturn in Gemini!  Turns out that in the Nemesis-Station charts, Saturn sits on the Near Midpoint between Klotho-Pluto and Karma, and the Far Midpoint between Nemesis-Asbolus and Moira.  So Saturn is a Powerful Sleeper here.  For me, at least part of the Gift was about using Discipline Effortlessly.

We should also point out that the Grand Trine was a Kite, focusing the Grace of the Grand Trine itself on the fourth planet at the head of the Kite, asteroid Karma.  So we were also Gifted by Ease at Transcending our Self-Sabotaging Patterns and Habits.  That also illuminates my Saturn “Lesson.”  What do you suppose your own Lesson about Sustaining Consciousness was?

Another Molt II

October 14, 2018

Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian friends contribute this today…

https://danielscranton.com/have-faith-in-yourselves-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have sent all of you the energy that you have been requesting, the energy that will support you through the time that you have remaining in the fourth dimension.  We know that you often feel stranded there, as though all you can do is wait for something big to happen so that you can start living your lives as fifth dimensional beings.  We also know that you have more power, more creativity, and more access to higher frequency energy than you ever had as third-dimensional beings.

“But you are still under the impression that you have to live out the rest of this time of transition in a third-dimensional way.  You do not.  You are not trapped, and you can begin to enjoy what you have access to as fourth dimensional beings.  You can still create a beautiful life for yourself, as you await the shift.  Your journeys are not limited energetically in any way, but they are still limited by your minds.

“The more you look at life through a logical and reasonable lens, the more it is going to continue to show up as the same life you’ve been living.  Now, we can grant you access to all of the energy that you summon, but you still need to have enough faith in yourselves to do something with it.  We want you to know how significant it is that you are open to receiving that energy, and we also want you to understand how much power you have as creator beings in the here and now.

“You don’t need to wait for your light bodies and your fifth dimensional abilities to be able to create a wonderful reality for yourselves and the rest of humanity.  This doesn’t have to be a holding pattern for you.  It can be the beautiful and wonderful experience of growth that you have always wanted to experience, and you can live without limitations.  You can live the best of what life has to offer right now.”

Alls we gots to do, is just Embrace the Ego Death that Allows us to Let Go of our Self-Sabotaging Limits.  We do always need to be careful what we Ask for, so rather than…

“Ganeshi My Love, Please Remove All Obstacles to My Living the Best of What Life Has to Offer Right Now”

You might try something along the lines of…

“Ganeshi My Love, Please Gently, Lovingly, Rapidly, and Completely Remove All Obstacles to My Living the Best of What Life Has to Offer Right Now.  Thank you, Ganeshi!”

Another Molt I

October 14, 2018

A story that marine biologists tell is that when Crabs Molt, a male wriggles out of his old shell, then holds the shell of a female, to help her to wriggle out of hers, back end first…

Whether this is Chivalry or Grounds for #MeToo, I’m not in a position to Judge.  Here while the Patriarchy winds down, this approach may not be the most recommended way for Hupers to Molt, but since Molt we must, whatever works is good.  As Con Ed may have once said, “Molt we must, for a Growing New Consciousness.”  We usually refer to it as Ego Death.

Newly Molted Crabs are undefended against predators, as their new shells don’t calcify and harden for a couple of weeks.  The same and more is probably true for those of us who wear our Protective Ego-shell on the inside rather than on the outside.  In the next picture, the new shell is at the upper right, the old shell at the lower left…

Which is what an Ego Death often feels like – like being “Eaten Alive.”  Ego Death may dominate our Experience until about 18 October, as asteroid Nemesis slows down and Stands Still.  A few signs of Ego Death include…

  • Self-Doubt
  • Anxiety
  • Confusion
  • Guilt
  • Shame
  • Getting Lost in your own neighborhood (or your own house)
  • Feeling like you’re out of Options or at a dead end
  • Discouragement
  • Feeling like you don’t know who you are or what you’re doing or why
  • Waking up and not being sure where you are
  • Noticing when an Existing Habit or Addiction is being Triggered

These Experiences often Inspire Fear that “something is wrong” (which, from the Ego’s Perspective, is quite true).  On the Contrary, something is very much “right.”

When we Learn to Recognize these signs…

  • As Not-Wrong (Fear plus Thinking)
  • As Curious or Wondrous (Fear plus Delegation to a Higher Power)
  • As Exciting (Fear plus Breathing)
  • As Power (Fear plus Kegels)
  • As the Threshold to Liberation (Fear plus Vision beyond the Drama)

It’s dramatically Life-Changing, as we’re now on the road to eliminating Self-Sabotage.

Some of us are used to Experiencing these signs most of the Time, most of our Lives.  If we’ve somehow avoided medicating them out of our Life, we can simply Recognize that we’ve (on the Soul Level) Chosen a Lifetime on the High Road to Enlightenment.  Your birth chart will usually show this.  As the Transformation Game says, “The most difficult tasks are only given to the best people.” 

But Ego Death is Miserable till we make that Transition from Fear to Excitement or Power or Liberation or Surrender to God/Goddess, and begin to Look beyond the current Drama and Wonder how our Life will be Levitated by the Elimination of whatever Limits this particular Ego Death is Removing – and to Awe about how Miraculous is the Process.  It’s counterproductive to try to Understand what’s being Transformed, as it Limits the natural course of the Process by drowning the Miracle in your old, Limiting Grid. 

Instead, Wait and Enjoy the Gift of Surprise.  You’ve made it this far, you can hold on for another few days.  Besides, once you Detach from immersion in the Drama, the sticks and stones and lances and bullets go right through you, so it’s not even a matter of holding on or holding out!  After you laugh at how Overwhelming it was when you were immersed in it, you can dust yourself off and Enjoy what you Really Want to do with your time.

We get a huge boost by Developing a Relationship with an Entity or Energy (Guide, Angel, God/Goddess, Channel, or Whomever) that can Assist from the “Other Side” or the Unconscious.  And then Developing the Habit of Giving Over our Difficulties to their Assistance, rather than having to Do everything “ourself” by Force of Ego.  If you don’t now have this Relationship or Habit, we often Recommend Theta, Ganeshi, and other forms of PIAVA, but these Suggestions are by no means intended as a Limit.  If you already have a Process that works, don’t fix it.

See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/, and/or https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/.  Ganesh is the “Remover of Obstacles,” often Prayed to Ritually as “Ganesh My Love, Please Remove All Obstacles to…”

We are of course All One, so while we Personalize these Entities as External to “ourself,” we Recognize that our Ego thrives on Separation.  So if we Identify with Soul, these Entities are just Specialists we can call upon.  When we Identify with Ego, these Entities are indeed Separate from “us.”   By definition, Ego is how Hupers naturally Operate, and we may never actually fully Transcend Ego while Embedded in Matter – and that’s Okay.

We want to hold both Perspectives (“I” am Soul and “I” am Ego, or, as it’s often Expressed, “I Am That I Am”), at the same time, as often as we can – “our” Helpers be Separate in the sense that they can make Easy what is Difficult for “us,” and they be part of “us” in the sense that we’re all on the same Team.

While asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) is Stationary till 18 October (2pm PDT), another Helper, asteroid BZ509, is also Stationary till 17 October (4am PDT).  BZ509 (look for “514107” or “2015 BZ509” in ephemerides) is a recently discovered Jupiter-scale (in orbit length) asteroid that orbits backwards relative to most of the rest of our Solar System.  It symbolizes Transcendence, so the Opportunity for us this week is to Transcend Ego Death.

Wants, Mission, Compromise 7

June 18, 2018

The three prominent Conjunctions in today’s Neptune Station chart…

Nemesis-Lachesis – Altering Ego Death Timelines.  If we’re Conscious, we can do this.  If we operate primarily from the Unconscious (as all but a very few of us do), then our Ego Deaths arrive on their own Karmic Timelines.  Of course, we can still Recognize their imminent arrival and Respond to them Constructively (mostly by Enjoying the Feeling of Confusion or Anticipation that we get by focusing our Attention on the Unknown beyond the Ego Death, while Avoiding Expectations).

And if we are Conscious, to the extent that we’re Conscious around the Content-Field of our Ego Death (ie, it could be triggered by, say, Relationship, Scarcity, etc etc), Altering the Timelines may not be Easy.  Since it’s an Ego Transition, the mind (whose Concept-Set and Limiting Beliefs anchor the Ego) may not be much help.  Since we’re Dancing with the Unconscious (otherwise we’d just Experience it as a Shift rather than an Ego Death), PIAVAs are your tool of Choice.

Basically, the more you…

  • Have “Owned” your issues
  • Regard them as Education You have (on one level or several) Chosen when they Act Out, rather than Torture that Victimizes your Innocence
  • Are in the Habit of Actively Responding to their recurrence rather than Reacting to them
  • Have replaced Frustration and Analysis with Curiosity

…the Easier it will be for you to Alter the Timelines.  Consider the Issue or Issues that arose for you over the last week.  How do you stand relative to these criteria?

Of course our first Choice for Altering the Timelines of our Issues will be to Accelerate the Arrival of What We’ve Always Wanted and Pined for All Our Life.  That’s called Attachment, and actually Discourages such Arrivals – you’re more likely to Alter your Timeline by slowing it down.  It’s Neutrality that will Accelerate your Desires.  I know, that’s Crazy-Making till we get there, but so be it.  Till we do get there, Desire is a cousin to Addiction. 

Go back the the list above.  Or PIAVA.  This would be an excellent place for our Theta-Tapping Strategy.  Desire is Good, yes?  But it can start to look like Expectation, which can cause us to jump at what looks like What We Want before we vet it thoroughly.  If you’re good at saying “Oops” and “No,” you can dip your toe in a lot of different waters, then back out.  That might be what you need to Learn.  But the Theta-Tapping Process…

Start with either.  Suppose that What You’ve Always Wanted is a Consistent Income Stream that’s Ample Enough to Share Generously.  Theta that (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/)

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that a Consistent and Joyful Income Stream that’s Ample Enough to Share Generously Be Manifested for me.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess… (Deep Breath or two)… Show Me.”

Usually, if you have Conflicting Goals or Beliefs, you’ll start to feel a bit “off” long before you get to Show me, so you can stop and Tap anytime (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4)…

“Even though I’ve never enjoyed a Consistent and Joyful Income Stream that’s Big Enough to Share Generously, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept myself…” etc.

You could always say “Enough Money” as a shortcut, but since that’s an Oxymoron, according to a friend at least, you want to spell it out more carefully at first, till God/Goddess and your Meridians get the full idea of What You Really Want before you get glib.

Tap till you feel more Clear and Neutral about it, then go back and redo your Theta, stirring occasionally.  Iterate as necessary.

Lachesis will Initiate Nemesis on 3 July at 11pm PDT in 21 Taurus, “A finger pointing to a line in an open book.”  Interesting theme.  It’s a 28-year Cycle, so it’s not trivial.  My first thought is that the Open Book is our Authenticity, and the finger pointing to a line could be for now What We Really Want.  That’ll Change often in 28 years of course, as it Evolves.  With a 28-year Cycle we’re likely to spend the first seven years Clearing out old detritus that blocks our access to the Treasure.

But, even though the Essence of any Cycle goes underground after the Initiation, it’s very much Live at the Initiation, ie, Now.  Especially with Makemake and Neptune Stationary and your Consciousness Wide Open to What’s Been Previously Denied.  Makemake Stationary is a Magic Wand, and Neptune Stationary means that the Door to Heaven is Open if you can find it.  So don’t waste any Energy on Doubt this week, especially with Thursday’s Solstice (at 0 Degrees of course) close enough to Makemake’s 3-Degree Station to keep it well Lit Up.

Chiron-Nemesis New Moon

March 15, 2018

Unfortunately, our title isn’t chosen to be sensational; it’s chosen to be accurate.  Translation: 17 March New Moon (6am PST) about Empathizing with Pain and Ego Death.  Are we having Fun yet? 

Word-picture highlights – and translations…

  • New Moon 27 Pisces, Chiron and Nemesis 29 Pisces – “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel wrung out, don’t you.”  Folks may be Contracting with the Flu just to have an excuse.  Hint: you can Feel plenty lousy without adding the Flu.
  • New Moon in Pisces, Square (Challenge) to Vesta-Ixion (Negative Beliefs about your Forbidden Genius) in 26-28 Sagittarius – “You Poor Sweetheart, this is an awful time to have to deal with your Self-Hate, isn’t it.”  That (Ixion) part of yourself that you’ve been taught to Reject Really needs your Compassion.  Like him or not, he’s got the keys to your new 5D digs.
  • New Moon in Pisces (and Chiron and Nemesis) Trine (Blessing) to Stationary Aletheia (Truth) in Cancer – Well, we’ve done our Fearless and Searching Moral Inventory, now it’s time to Face Up to the Truth, right?  No, I don’t think so, not quite that way.  We do need to Face Up to the Truth, but the Truth isn’t that you’re Despicable, the Truth is more likely to be that you’ve been Taught to Reject your own Genius.  We need to Lighten Up on the Self-Rejection, not clamp it down.
  • Aletheia (Truth) is Stationary (Strong) 16 March (3pm PST); it’s also Conjunct Mnemosyne (Memory), which in turn is Stationary 15 March (9pm PST), and Varuna (the Life Force), all at the end of Cancer – “You Poor Sweetheart, you still Feel Guilty about that, don’t you.”  It’s Lit Up so you can Let It Go; it has Constrained your Life Force long enough.
  • Stationary (Strong) Aletheia (Truth), with Stationary Mnemosyne and Varuna, are the focus of a T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) across the Opposition between Uranus (Soul) in Aries and Haumea (Rebirth) in Libra – Your Soul is ready to move into those vacant rooms that your Ego has been Dying in.  Welcome Her or Him; they’re a pro at cleaning up the detritus of shattered Ego-carcasses.
  • The New Moon, with its pals Chiron and Nemesis, are at the pointy end of a Finger of God (Pay Attention!) from a base of Haumea (Rebirth) in Libra Sextile (Blessing) Veritas (Truth) in Leo – “You Poor Sweetheart, you can’t get away with anything, can you.”
  • Like it or not, it turns out that our Forbidden Genius Ixion is the one being Reborn here, as Vesta-Ixion in Sagittarius makes a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings) with Uranus (Soul) in Aries and Veritas (Truth) in Leo, and a Kite (Directed Blessings) with Haumea (Rebirth) in Libra at the top.  Tough Labor, eh?  Forget it, you’ve a Newborn to Celebrate.

Thanks to Dan Scranton, we have Wisdom from the Arcturians to help us out…

http://danielscranton.com/living-in-the-fourth-dimension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“You will discover that the more time you spend focusing on a problem, the more time you take away from your ability to receive a solution.  You all have a tendency to overtax your minds and to underutilize your ability to receive that which is already coming to you.  We invite you to focus more on letting go of thoughts, letting go of problems, and opening up to the energies that are swirling around you at all times.

“We are talking about changing your habits, changing the way that you approach life.  As you shift from the third dimension to the fifth dimension, you have the ability to receive more.  And you get to do so by thinking less and doing less.

“The generations that have come before you have taken a great deal of pride in intelligence and hard work.  Most of you have been raised with these values in your homes, and we see many of you attempting to think your way through problems in your lives and attempting to act your way into the life that you desire.

“But if you were to calculate how much time you spend using the third-dimensional operating systems, and how much time you relax, open yourselves up and receive, you would be astonished by the numbers.  You might say that there just isn’t enough time in the day, but you would find that there is plenty of time.  You just need to shift your priorities.

“You also need to embrace the Divine Feminine within you.  As you are in a feminine cycle, life is going to get easier.  You are going to want to control those minds of yours, and you will be able to finally use action as a means of expressing the joy within you, rather than as a tool to accomplish something that could always be accomplished through vibration.  This is what you are learning in the fourth dimension, and this is what will carry you into the fifth.”

http://danielscranton.com/appreciate-celebrate-your-now-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“You have the beautiful opportunity in every moment that you are alive to appreciate something about what you are experiencing.  You are having an experience of polarity, and there will always be the side of the spectrum that is pleasing to you and the side of the spectrum that is not so pleasing at all.  So it is up to you to decide for yourselves how you want to experience life.

“It is up to you to determine which end of the spectrum you want to be on.  When you are focusing on what does not please you, or what downright disgusts you, you are always going to be able to find more.  When you listen instead to your heart, you will notice that there is always more beauty, always more love, always more opportunity for laughter.  Laughter gives you relief from the other side of the spectrum.

“You have that ability to stand in a moment where things have gone horribly wrong and make light of the situation.  Think about that expression for a moment – make light of the situation.  You have the ability to bring more light to every situation and to focus on the light that is within.

“Every possible moment that you take that approach, you are deciding for yourselves what type you want to lead, what type of future you want to create.  Most importantly, however, you will be focused in the now moment when you are allowing yourself to appreciate something, or when you are making light and bringing light to an otherwise dark scenario.

“We encourage you to find that which is worth celebrating and appreciating in your lives, and we want you to recognize that every moment has some kind of beauty within it.  And every moment that you are present and grounded in your physical bodies is an opportunity to experience more joy, more peace, and more harmony with the world as it is now.

“That’s the way you ascend to an even better one, not by finding fault with the world as it is and rallying the troops to try to fix it.  Enjoy your lives as best you can and enjoy the journey to that which is going to be so much better than what you can even imagine.”

And Natalie Glasson contributes a Channeling from the Angel of the Planet…

https://www.omna.org/

“You are greeted by the Angel of the Earth whose purpose is to oversee the evolution and ascension of the Earth and Mother Earth.  The Angel of the Earth holds the consciousness of every aspect of the Earth’s ascension and wishes to merge with you to co-create the New Earth. 

“The Angel of the Earth speaks of the different dimensions of the Earth’s ascension, how each is sacred and can be accessed by you to ground into the current dimension of the Earth.  The Angel shares inspiration that the New Earth is created and manifests from within your being as well as describing how every being connects with a different dimension of the Earth.

“A meditation is shared where you are invited to merge with the Angel of the Earth and activate the essence of your unified being to form a new energetic foundation for the Earth and all upon her.  You will be guided to observe the Earth transform and realign with a new higher vibration of the Earth’s dimensions and evolution.  Thus, your perspective of the Earth will transform and shift.  Your co-creation with the Angel of the Earth will support Mother Earth and all beings present on the Earth now.”

It’s for the Planet that we Surrender Controlling, Doing, Worrying, and Overthinking, and instead, just Let What We Need Flow toward us.

Women and Chaos 2

March 12, 2018

The next Station – Aletheia on 16 March (3pm PST) – will occur in the same Degree Zone as the Jupiter and Chaos Stations, so we’re essentially looking at one, very busy, chart for most of the month of March…

If you have natal planets in this 21-26 Degree Zone, especially in Virgo, Leo, or Aquarius, you’re a Player this month; make it count for the Resurrection of the Planet.  And for yourself – in the New 5D Earth it’s up to each of us to Act unabashedly.  The difference between this and Libertarianism is that 5D adds a Hippocratic twist – Above All Do No Harm.  Without that it’s just more Gordon Gekko.

We omitted from our list of major Configurations in the previous post, what will for many be the most profound version of the March chart, namely the Ego Death Challenge, aka Nemesis T-Square…

A T-Square isn’t quite about Making Lemonade.  It’s more about Noticing what’s Right about today’s snafu.  Is it better or Easier than yesterday’s?  Does it cover slightly different territory, maybe a new angle that you haven’t snafued before?  Is it something, like that hole in the roof, that you’ve needed to attend to for a long time, but now it’s Raining?  T-Square’s aren’t about “morals” to stories either.  You’d have poked a second hole and not noticed if you’d fixed it when it was Sunny.

We “signed up” for our T-Squares because we got so tired of running into Difficulty that we Vowed to “once and for all” Learn how to do that, whatever that is.  So we’ll be running into new Lessons on that from every possible angle until we Disavow the Curse we put on ourself.  Duality is like that.  We’d do well to replace our original Vow with an Intention to “Learn more” about that or Learn how to do that “better,” something a little less vague, and a little less black and white.

In this case, Learning how to do Ego Death from every possible angle will run us ragged, since, like anything with an exoskeleton, Egos need to Molt frequently to do their job.  Going into Resistance at every Molt will only raise our blood pressure.  But of course that’s exactly what trying to Align Consciousness with Physical Form is all about – Physical Form is nothing but an exoskeleton.  Remember that Past Life where you were a Rock?  Them was Fun Times.

The Base of a T-Square gives us clues about the Dualities we’ve been trying to Freeze ourself into.  In this case it’s the apparent Contradiction between our Beliefs, the Obsolete ones in particular (Mars-Vesta), and our Infinite Improbability as Light Beings (dwarf planet Chaos).  Since our Beliefs serve our Ego, Infinite Improbability is their Arch Enemy.  More Fun Times.

Figuring it out will never work.  We just need to Accept What Is, and PIAVA What We Want.  All Prayers are Answered, just not All of them right away in ways that we Expect, so we may not get everything right away.  We may have more to Learn, more Mazes to walk, more Portals to crawl through.  Here in our household of two, for instance, Flu aside, one car has died, and the other is dying.  If there was usable public transportation, we wouldn’t be able to afford to live here.

In our generation in this place, car is spelled e-g-o.  Not as a status symbol, but because of the Freedom it Creates.  Like most of the US, but for the Garden we’re in the middle of a Food Desert.  There are World-Class Food resources within an hour’s drive, but within Safe walking distance, without shoulders or sidewalks, we’re Blessed that the Dandelions are very Fresh.  Even if we could catch and were willing to Eat the local Bunny, someone – Cat or Coyote – beat us to her, as her lovely down is decorating the lawn.  And that’s just the most practical part of it.

So, what to do?  I’ll start with “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really in a bind, aren’t you.”  Makes me yawn, a good sign.  Sleep is Step #2 in Richard Brautigan’s Karma Repair Kit Steps 1-4, and an excellent Flu-Recovery Strategy.  How’s the Terror level that usually arises with car troubles?  Hmmm, absent.  Another good sign.  We’d be Tapping it Out otherwise.  I’m sure we’ll be Tapping plenty later.

So What Is It that we need then?  A capacious, inexpensive, practical, thrifty, reliable vehicle or two.  On to Theta.  We love Theta because it gives us instant Feedback.  We don’t need to wait around a week to Pay Attention to What Happened instead of What We Wanted. 

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that we Easily, Quickly, and Affordably somehow obtain at least one Capacious, Inexpensive, Practical, Thrifty, Reliable, and Safe Motor Vehicle.

“It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you God/Goddess!

“Show me.”

Well, I can See a car in the driveway, so I’m not going to question how it got there; I’ll get some shuteye and see how things look tomorrow.  Supposed to be 70°F and Sunny.

In case you need them for review…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/

 

Asbolus et al Full Moon III

March 4, 2018

Well, here are a couple of clues to better interpret the puzzle we spoke of in the previous post…

The upcoming (16 March) Stations of Aletheia/Truth and Mnemosyne/Memory make a Trioctile Bridge across the Full Moon and the Asbolus T-Square (Challenge to our Intuition) in the Full Moon chart.  A Trioctile Bridge means that a third planet is Trioctile from one end of an Opposition, and Octile from the other end.  Since Octiles are about Adjustments to bring ourself Back Into Balance, and the Trioctile injects Love with Wisdom into that Adjustment, this is a boon.

However, if we Focus on What’s Out of Balance, which is almost inevitable at first, we could find ourselves in the middle of a Bummer or one sort or another.  We need to Focus instead on Bringing It Back Into Balance.  Bringing What Back Into Balance?  We may not know that.  So we use PIAVAs.  “I Wonder What I’m Being Asked to Rebalance.”  “Ganeshi, please Remove all Obstacles to my Returning to Balance on all Dimensions.”  And the like.

Many astrologers see the Trioctile as a mini-Square (“Sesquisquare” they call it), and focus on the Challenge part of the equation.  But of course if they come from Fate rather than Choice, they don’t present the Challenge as a slalom to navigate, but rather as a Bummer to Accept.  Of course Nothing Changes until it is Accepted Exactly As It Is, so this isn’t the worst approach, but suggesting a path or two out of the Wilderness might also be useful at times.

The Presence of Angular Relationships between Sun-Neptune, Moon-Orcus, and Aletheia-Mnemosyne does tell us that the Full Moon and upcoming Stations are intimately connected.  Aletheia and Mnemosyne were moving only five arcminutes a day at the Full Moon.  I wouldn’t generally use the word “Stationary” till they were traveling one or two arcminutes a day (which starts about 10 March) or less.

And at the Full Moon, Aletheia and Mnemosyne were five Degrees apart.  That’s too far to consider them technically Conjunct for purposes of Describing the Current Moment, but it’s more than close enough to consider them Conjunct for purposes of interpreting the Future of Projects begun under their Watch.

Bottom Line, we may be Feeling Unease because we’re Beginning new Projects using the same Processes that have failed us in the Past.  The Challenges in the Full Moon include Confusion (Neptune), Fixed Habits (asteroid Karma), possibly Self-Sabotaging but Heuristic Intuitions (Asbolus), and Patterns that have become Stuck because of Vows we once made and since forgot (Orcus).

Hylonome (Letting Go of Codependent Relationships), the third impending Station (19 March), is on Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) in the Full Moon Chart, and the two form a Trine Bridge (Easy Path) across the Full-Moon Opposition.  So a Lower Bottom Line might be to look for any Attachments that might Limit the Success of our Projects.  So When In Doubt, Let Go might be a useful anthem for us here.

There’s another Challenge (T-Square) in the Full Moon chart that’s likely to be relevant – Ego Death, Mind or Communication, and Values (respectively Nemesis, Mercury, Venus) are all T-Square to the Opposition between Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) and Well-Defended Beliefs (Mars and asteroid Vesta).  So there is some serious Personal Growth going on for all of us.  If you run into a streak of “Is This Worth the Trouble?” or “Maybe I’d rather just lay down and Die” then you know you’re on the right track.

That’s the nature of an Ego Death/Nemesis event, and this is a very busy one.  We’re being Asked to Give Up our Way of Thinking/Mercury, our Values/Venus, the Beliefs we Defend most vigorously (Mars-Vesta), all for the sake of Pie in the Sky or our Unlimited Potential (Chaos). 

Notice that we’ve picked one Winner (Potential) and three Obstacles (Thinking, Values, Beliefs) to Winning.  For many people it will be the other way around – even if we’re willing to undergo an Ego Death, is this Unlimited Potential really going to Make Us Great Again?  Are we willing to Give Up so much for it?  Are we about to walk off a psychospiritual cliff?

Our only Response to this Possibility is to Ask, How Strong is our Belief in and Commitment to “Ascension,” as this all pretty clearly maps out an “Ascension Symptom.”  There’s a lot of undefined hype around “Ascension.”  We can rephrase the question as how Strong is our Belief in and Commitment to “Growth in Consciousness,” as this also clearly maps out a typical “Growth-in-Consciousness Process.”

To me, the real Question is “Do we have a Choice?” and its correlary, “Why did we undertake this Lifetime on this Planet at this time?”  In the current Planetary trajectory there are very few Winners, and what they’ll Win appears to have very questionable Value.  Golfing in their own Eco-Bubble to keep them Safe from a Toxic Planet, or from Mars’s lack of Livable Atmosphere (though I’ve never heard that Musk or Bezos are Golfers) and eating The Best GMO Neoquasifood?

(Thanks to the LA Times).

At any rate, it does seem like a Crossroad.  What exactly is our Intention for ourself and for the Planet?  Perhaps that’s the Issue.  Daniel Scranton’s recent Channelings seem to agree…

http://danielscranton.com/the-truth-of-who-you-are-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“When you are focusing very intensely on something that is happening in your world, or in your life, and you lose sight of the truth of who you really are, it is easy for you to get off track and to live your lives as much smaller beings than who you really are.

“It is easy to get lost in the details of life and to forget the biggest possible picture, and we are talking about a picture that is bigger than your shift in consciousness.  This picture is the picture of who you are and who you came to Earth to be.  It’s more important than what you do. It’s more important than what you believe in.

“The truth of who you are is something that you can live in every moment.  As you become the living, breathing embodiment of Source Energy and unconditional love, everything else seems miniscule by comparison.  You will not be knocked off of that track that you want to be on as you hold that truth close to your heart.”