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Fateful New Moon II

December 16, 2017

We’ve drawn in the Ego-Death component of this New Moon chart in lighter lines below…

Let’s digress a bit to discuss timing.  The Moira Station is Exact 16 December (3pm PST), the New Moon itself 17 December (10:30 pm PST), and the South Node-Nemesis Initiation 18 December (4am PST).  The Pluto-Sappho Initiation follows on 20 December (1pm PST).

In case you think that it hasn’t been insanely Busy in the Heavens lately, note that we aren’t even attempting to untangle the Initations in the New Moon Stellium or the Moira Station Stellium – there are at least fifteen of them, and they’re all Big Deals, many signifying Millennia-level Transformations.  We’re also not trying to untangle the six profound Initiations in the Jupiter-Vesta-Hopi-Karma Stellium at the focus of the Nemesis T-Square that we’re about to consider.

So, the red triangle we’ve drawn in lighter lines, is a “T-Square,” signifying Mastery through Challenge.  We’re Challenged to Master the group of planets at the “point” of the triangle, where the right angle is.  That group of planets essentially means Being Highly Motivated (Jupiter – Expansionto Let Go of Any and All Unconscious Limitations that follow us around (asteroid Vesta – Unconscious Beliefsby Changing All of Our Ancient Habit Patterns (asteroid Karmaso that We Come to Respect All Things Equally (asteroid Hopi).

Doesn’t that sound like something that’ll generate Lifetimes worth of Ego Death!  Well, turns out that one of the “roots” of the T-Square is Nemesis – Ego Death, being Initiated by the South Node  – our Karma!  So if anyone had a question about Ego Death, there’s our definitive answer.  Remember though that Karma is Dead.  Our Karma does not grasp us, we grasp our Karma.  Not because we’re preverts, but because it’s what we Know. 

It’s not even that we Fear the Unknown, really, it’s just Habit.  No different than Eggs or Porridge for breakfast, Soup-Salad-Sandwich for lunch, and Meat-Potatoes-Veggies-Desert for dinner, then TV and Popcorn.  Just what we’re used to doing, we don’t even think about it unless something rocks the boat, like maybe Nessie.  Well, that’s what the South Node is, the “Dragon’s Tail.”  In almost all ancient traditions around the World, our Karma is referred to as a Fire-Breathing Dragon.

The Golden Treasure that Bilbo sought to recover from Smaug was nothing but the 5D Treasures of Consciousness.  Better yet, if you haven’t read all six books in Ursula Le Guin’s Earthsea Trilogy, you need to get busy.  It paints a whole different – Respectful and Loving – Relationship between Human and Dragon.  Ursula’s a Genius.

Heavy stuff.  The other root of the Being Highly Motivated to Let Go of Any and All Unconscious Limitations by Changing All of Our Ancient Habit Patterns so that We Come to Respect All Things Equally T-Square is asteroid Ceres – Sustainability – on the North Node – our Mission.  Nothing will make our Mission Sustainable more than Letting Go of our Karma and Embracing the Held (Unacknowledged and Unexpressed) Emotions that lurk beneath our South Node.

I neglected to draw it in, but the asteroid Lachesis us also in this Ego-Death Configuration, at 17 Pisces, Trining Jupiter et al.  Lachesis is about Learning to short circuit our Fate by Choosing to end Karmic Patterns at the time of our own Choosing, rather than when they’re Fated to end.  That serves us well here.

So you see, everyone receives an enormous Gift this month, regardless of their “merit” or pedigree.  Letting go of Judgment and Separation is after all one of the steps on the Stairway to Heaven.

Here’s an excellent parallel track to our analysis…

https://lightlover1964.wordpress.com/2017/12/15/the-transition-between-symphonic-universes/

 

Nemesis Now

June 2, 2017

She’s one mean Lady in this neighborhood, though others don’t seem to be bothered.  The good news though, is that Nemesis was actually exact in her Station at 10pm PDT 2 June, rather than 3 June.  I for one am very glad it’s past.  Didn’t help me any that the Station Danced cheek to cheek with my natal OR10, Nessus, South Node, and Mnemosyne.  As Bruce Coburn would say, “All you can do is thank the razor for the fineness of the slash.”  So, the worse the Ego Death, the greater the Liberation, right?  I’ll spare you the Jimmy Morrison video.

“I walked through the door into the night air.  My head was clear.  I could see as though the sun was shining.  Someone was sitting on a rock off to the side.  I could not believe my eyes.  ‘Alice?’

 “She turned to me.  Her hand reached out.
” ‘You’re alive!’  Our hands connected.  Hers was warm.
” ‘Of course,’ she said.  ‘But I still haven’t vomited.’
“I threw my arms around her.  I felt ecstatic.
” ‘I thought you were dead.’

‘I’m very much alive.  I’ve been flying.’

” ‘I love you,’ I said.  I thought about the word, flying; it suddenly took on new meanings.  Then, feeling that she needed to be alone, I wandered away.  I felt so relieved, so grateful, so euphoric, that I kneeled in the mud and silently shouted my thanks to God, Jesus Christ, and the jungle.

“A leafy branch reached out to me.  It was phosphorescent.  I touched it and as I did so heard it speak.
” ‘Silly – you thought flying meant death.  You let the negative rule you.  It is a pattern in your life.  Let this experience with Alice teach you a lesson.  Purge the negatives.’ “

—John Perkins, The World Is as You Dream It, p.72.

Fortunately, the Coin has two sides…

http://danielscranton.com/help-each-other-to-the-new-earth-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“We have listened to the prayers that humanity has been offering for quite some time.  We are familiar with your desires.  You have allowed yourselves to experience a myriad of changes while you are awaiting this new Earth that you want to create and experience, and there is a great deal of effort on your part to bring about the changes to let in all that you’ve been asking for.

“What is most important at this time, however, is that you look to help each other.  When you give and receive help to and from other humans, you create a deepening of the unity that is so natural to the human race.  And that is how you are going to assist one another in the bringing about of the new Earth that you want to inhabit.  It is going to be an Earth of cooperation.  It is going to be an Earth of collaboration, and it is going to be an Earth of sharing.

“You all chose different skill sets so that you would need each other, so that you would each complete a piece of the puzzle, and so that you would connect with one another.”

Jupiter’s Station comes next, 7am PDT 9 June, just an hour after the Full Moon.

Fear, Disconnection, Shame

May 30, 2017

Much Gratitude to a reader who has advised us that Attachment Parenting International has published an interview with Dr. Daniela Sieff on Fear, Disconnection, and Shame, at…

http://theattachedfamily.com/membersonly/?article=understanding-and-healing-emotional-trauma-interview-with-daniela-sieff-phd

Dr. Sieff calls the Lived Reality that results from literally Internalizing Childhood Trauma our “Trauma-World,” characterized by “Perceiving the World through a veil of Fear,” “Disconnecting from aspects of Ourself,” and  an “Identity that becomes interwoven with Shame.”  This Trauma-World is embedded in the “muscles, hormones, nervous system, and brain structure that underlie our Feelings and our ways of Perceiving and Engaging with the World.”  It Lives in our Cells.  In this article and in her book Understanding and Healing Emotional Trauma she nails much of what we usually refer to as Karmic Archetypes, Held Emotions, Abandoned Genius, Limiting Beliefs, and Self-Sabotage.

That’s the view from where we Are, looking backward.  There’s a good chance this view still holds homework for us.

The view looking forward is quite different…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2017/05/threshold-to-fifth-dimensions.html

” ‘Where are you?’ you ask in a frustrated manner.  ‘If you are my fifth dimensional guide, why don’t I see you?’

“ ‘You cannot see me anymore than I can see you.  WE are ONE!  Can you see your heart beat?  Can you see your stomach digest, or your nervous system jumping from synapse to synapse?  I, your fifth dimensional self live within you.  In the same manner that I shine out from you.

“Take this sentence into your sleep.  Take this message into your daily life.  Take this message into your meditations and reflections.”

Time for more pirouettes.  Not really pirouettes, nor Semazen, but turning.  When you come out of a room and are about to turn right, instead stop, then turn in place counterclockwise (toward the left) three quarters of a full circle before you step forward.  To turn left, stop, then turn in place clockwise 270 Degrees before you step forward.  You’ll be just a tiny bit dizzy, not uncomfortable, but just a bit Detached from your usual “Reality.” 

When Pluto was in Scorpio, in the late 1980s and early 1990s, “The Way Out Was Through” – that is, we had to jump into the deep end of whatever we were Resisting.  From the mid-nineties to the mid-oughts, Pluto was in Sagittarius, and “The Way Out Was Through Letting Go.”  Now, until 2023, Pluto is in Capricorn – “The Way Out is to Just Do It.”  When we’re Stuck, sure, we’ll Need to go back and Retrieve the part of our Self that we Left Behind. 

Dan Scranton’s Channel today suggests…

“This is a moment for you to look at how far you’ve come, because the experience of your expansion depends upon your acknowledgement of yourself.  If you continue to see only the things that you need to work on, then you’re not going to enjoy the experience.  If you look for areas that need improvement because you think you must in order to make the shift, you’re not going to enjoy the experience.

“If instead you look at yourselves and you recognize how powerful the experience of awakening is, you will take yourselves to the next level joyously.  And this journey that you are on is all about finding the opportunities for joy within it.  It is inevitable that you will make the journey, but how you do it, whether you will go with ease and with joy in your hearts, or whether you struggle and strive and are hard on yourselves, these are the choices that are in front of you.

“Make the choice that supports what it is that you want to experience, both on the remainder of your journey here to the fifth dimension, and also, once you arrive.  Once you arrive, you will still have expanding to do.  So you might as well start enjoying this journey now.”

http://danielscranton.com/how-far-you-have-come-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

Bottom line: as usual, it’s Both/And.

Red Rutile (Titanium Dioxide) Crystals clustered like a fasces, going Both ways on a Matrix of Muscovite (Sodium Aluminum Fluoride) Mica Books going every which way, pirouetting, as is their wont.  Muscovite invites your Higher Self to join “you,” while Rutile sharpens your Attention.

Nemesis Next II

May 30, 2017

A reader contributes a Dream…

I was with my first lover (we had a very sweet relationship, but I got married to someone else and though we tried to keep our friendship, it went sour towards the end)… in the dream we held each other and it was very sweet and intimate and a feeling of pure joy and happiness being there in their arms.  And in my dream I said to my daughter… I have never loved anyone as much as I loved them… if my parents were not completely against me marrying them we would have been together.

“I don’t think I have any regrets of not marrying them… I would not have been where I am, and my parents may have been right as to stereotype what my life would have been like with them… but who can tell what anything coulda/woulda been right?”

Yes, Dreams, Vignettes, both often “Unbidden Intrusions,” as the OR10 Station may bring.  As Robert Moss points out in The Three Only Things, the dismissal of Dreams as “only a Dream” is a major mistake.  To many cultures, notably the First Peoples of Australia, “the Dreamtime” is very Real, often referred to as our access to the Fourth Dimension.  One of the more productive Perspectives is to regard Dreams as a visit to one of our own Parallel Lives.  One branch of Quantum Physics postulates Multiple Universes, and an interesting extrapolation is that every time we make a Decision, we split off into a Separate Universe, while our Previous Universe continues, carrying the consequences of the Opposite Decision.

So our reader could be visiting one of their own Alternate Universes, the one where they Decided to stay with their first lover.  Which raises a number of fascinating Possibilities, foremost of which is probably the notion of just hanging out in that Alternative Universe.  Yes, that would be a Fantasy – another of Robert’s Three Only Things.  Psychological health, as defined by the Pharmaceutical industry and its DSM5-toting sales force, requires a Dominating Ego that can consistently recite the Perspective of the Dominant Paradigm.

Which leaves all of our other Egos to play on their own without adult supervision, as long as we don’t get Confused about Who’s In Charge (Um, yes, first sign of Growth in Consciousness).  We can immediately see possible complications.  What about our reader’s current “Current-Lifetime” Lover?  Will they notice our reader’s relative Absence and find their Abandonment triggered?  (If Suffocation is their primary modus, they might be Relieved.)  Will our reader’s first lover have others competing for their Attention?  The Requirement (for respectable women anyway, if not for men with big hands or big heads) that Relationship be Dualistic is a strong Enforcer for the Dominant Paradigm.

Most folks have encountered John Sebastian’s dilemma in one form or another…

Which puts us squarely on the Edge of our Dualistic Worldview, the general observation that Both/And is Spiritual while Either/Or is Political.  Now everyone is Free to make their own Choices, no one is mandating that Both/And must rule in every part of everyone’s Life, and Preference trumps both Ambiguity and Judgment all day.  But when Fear is our Motive for Choosing Either/Or, we have a lot to gain by Confronting it.

So, looking beyond issues of Fidelity and Security and Preference (even though they’re major Guardians on the Threshold), how comfortable are we with the notion that Parallel Lives might be Intruding on our Monolithic Ego?  Well, one of our first Yes-Buts is that it’s really egotistical to think that a whole Parallel Universe can be spawned just because we made a Decision.  But Infinity is a Big Number.  And we’ve Opened several cans of Worms about whether We Are All One or Separate, not to mention the whole Fantasy of Linear Time.  If neither Time nor Separation are “Real,” them where does that leave our daily Priorities?  Suddenly we’re back to being Rats on a treadmill.  No offense to our long-suffering Rodent Friends.

So let’s leave the intellectualizations aside for a moment, and return to the “feeling of pure joy and happiness.”  Isn’t that what Self-Love and Enlightenment are all about?  No, of course, not exclusively, because to get to Real Self-Love and Enlightenment, don’t we have to Value all of our Emotions equally (even as we Prefer some more than others)?  Well, what if we did Value all of our Emotions equally.  Wouldn’t the Freedom from Held or Resisted or Denied Emotions itself engender a “feeling of pure joy and happiness.”  How would it Change our Lives and daily Priorities,  DSM-5 aside, if we went about our Life “lost” in pure joy and happiness? 

If we made a catalog of all the Yes-Buts triggered by that notion, and all the Changes that would be Required, we’d probably have a good start at a list of our Limiting and Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  Maybe if we’re Brave enough we can gain from some variation on a PIAVA like “Nemesis, please Lovingly and Gently Remove the Limiting and Self-Sabotaging Beliefs that Most Prevent Me from Living in Pure Joy and Happiness Most of the Time.”  Ego Death requires Change, but it’s only Resistance that creates Pain.

The most Powerful way to Manifest anything is to spend time with the Feeling you will have in your Body when you have successfully Manifested it.  So the Gift of Pure Joy and Happiness, from whatever source, is Great Grace, no matter how we spin it.

Nemesis Next

May 28, 2017

Once we get past our 4 Pisces 30 May OR10 Station, our next hurdle is the Station of Nemesis on 3 June at 5 Aquarius, followed by a 14 Libra Jupiter Station on 9 June.  Slow-moving dwarf planet that it is (at 550 years, it takes OR10 almost twice as much time to do a full loop as Pluto, which laps in 250 years), I don’t expect much bleedthrough from lowly asteroid Nemesis (which whips around every four and a half years); OR10 and its Vignettes are more likely to dominate center stage.

Orbital speed cuts both ways.  The slower a planet moves, the less often we get to Experience its Dances.  With less Experience comes less Competence, and we’re more often caught off guard.  The essence of a newly discovered planet is that its Influence is Emerging from the undifferentiated Unconscious.  When something Emerges into Consciousness, it isn’t Discovered, it’s Differentiated.  It’s not like we’re just Discovering these Vignettes – I can’t step into the shower without encountering at least one “Random” Memory of some Shameful or Guilty or Regretted Experience or event, and it’s been that way as long as I can remember.

What’s new about these Vignettes in the Age of OR10 (which was Discovered a decade ago and is the third largest Plutoid – but which still lacks a name!) is the Recognition of the Opportunity these Vignettes give us to Reorganize our Identity.  Shame is one of the most Difficult Emotions to Love to Death, but that’s exactly what we have to do with it.  And, being one of the most Difficult, it’s one of the most Rewarding.  Recovering the Identities hidden beneath our Shame is phenomenally Liberating.  Loving our Guilt to Death can also be a Powerful antidote to Self-Sabotage.  Regret, having a poignancy of its own, is Easier to be Loving with, but it’s what we Regret that we have to Recover in order to step toward Wholeness.

Now whenever we Expand our Identity to include parts that previously hid behind Shame or Guilt or Regret or Fear or any other Held (Avoided) Emotion, an Ego Death is likely.  Anytime we change the list of adjectives that we use to describe ourself, and especially when we neuter a Judgment about ourself and move from a Duality to the Coin that includes both sides, we hatch a new Ego, which means molting the old one.  So (when we use it to reorganize our Identity rather than just gossiping with ourself) there’s a strong Connection between OR10 and Nemesis anyway, even when they aren’t simultaneously Strong.

Even if we assign only one Degree to the Sensitivity of a Station, the Nemesis Station would still Light Up two and a half weeks, as it slows to Stand Still (Nemesis, like most asteroids, averages about one Degree every four days).  So there’s no question that Nemesis really is Stationary even though it’s like trying to find Saturn in daylight; the influence of the far-rarer, less-familiar, and closer-to-its-Station (hence Stronger) OR10 will drown it out.  Asteroid Nemesis was Discovered 145 years ago, so we’ve had five generations to get familiar with Ego Death.

With OR10 much Stronger just now, why don’t we see if we can Expand our Identity without the Pain we usually associate with Ego Death.  Just to take a “random” example, one of my more recent Vignettes was about the Regret I felt about, some fifty or so years ago, not Feeling (Emotional) Love for a perfectly Beautiful and Gracious young potential partner who was hungry to be Loved.  Unless you’re fully into Yintegrity around Relationship, Emotional Love is supposed to be an Either/Or, and the alternatives are socially risky.  So how might I Expand my Identity around this Vignette?

My Regret was for an Opportunity Lost, not because I was Rejected, but because my Heart “forced” me to Reject.  The other person’s Pain was and is acute for me because it is my Pain.  As a Weirdo like many of us ( http://danielscranton.com/you-are-the-leaders-of-the-future-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ ), Rejection was my bane too.  So it hurt, and still hurts, to Reject.  When I say to myself, “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you,” there is a Softening in my chest and an Opening in part of my Heart, toward the back.  I can feel an energetic “muscle” between my navel and my neck (the Central Meridian perhaps) strengthening, and a whole panoply of seemingly unrelated thoughts and memories arise.  Which is just fine; we expect Paradox around Real Life.

On the other side of the coin, in another recent Vignette deriving from a few years later, a Perfectly Beautiful and Gracious potential partner who was firmly attached to someone else, showed me Exceptional Kindness, leaving me utterly Confused about how to Respond or show my Gratitude.  That Delicious Experience triggered my own Longing in a way that created Regret that I didn’t have that sort of Experience in my Life routinely.  When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you” on this Vignette, it Opens to a black space. 

When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to Possess Love, didn’t you,” my third Chakra softens into Sadness.  When I now try “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Sad about your Isolation, aren’t you,” my Yes-Buts arise – “You can’t do Either/Or, it doesn’t work” says a disembodied telepathic “voice.”  When I then try – after a couple of false starts that don’t lead to Satisfying places – a Theta Healing,

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Accept this Paradox and Let Go of All Anxiety around it;
Thank you, God/Goddess, It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done;
Show me,”

I’m left in a space that’s very Neutral, and my chest is pleasantly Expanded.

Okay, so we seem to have Expanded our Consciousness (while seeming to Silence some intellectual Noise) without having to Endure any grueling Ego Deaths.  Nemesis is not inherently about Pain.  It’s our Resistance to Change that creates Pain.  The Ego by its nature is Tenacious, and that’s a good thing.  We need to Negotiate Win-Win with it and with the Unconscious that runs the Show most of the time.  Michael Roads has some nice ideas for us (Through the Eyes of Love: Book Three, pp.176-7)…

“If, living in New York City, you decide to fly to Sydney, Australia, you are not going to just wander into the airport and get on the first plane going anywhere.  You are going to determine your destination and buy tickets accordingly, making sure you get on the correct aircraft.

“On that basis, if, when you wake up in the morning, you get out of bed and mindlessly go about your day … as you have every other day … it is going to be a day, a year, a life of endless repeats of all your yesterdays.  Literally, lifetimes of repetitions.

“If, however, you wake up in the morning, and placing your hands over your heart, you murmur, ‘Today, I choose Love.  Today, I am going to focus on loving myself, on loving other people, and loving my life.’  This is a prime, life-changing choice.  With this beginning to your day, you consciously revisit that choice, living it, feeling it, and reaffirming it as often as you can throughout the day.”

“It has to be a conscious choice.  Conscious choices are rare.  Most choices are subconscious, following an already predetermined pattern of which most people are unaware [which is ‘fate’].  So, another morning, hand over heart, ‘Today I choose appreciation.  Today I will appreciate myself, other people, and my life.’  Choices like this are life-changing.

“Another day, ‘Today I choose respect.  Today I am going to respect myself, other people, and my life.  And so on.  Day-after-day you make the choices that remodel and renovate your life.  But, it all has to be conscious choices, and those choices must be consciously lived.”

Purgative New Moon

May 23, 2017

One of my favorite Crystals, Scheelite, spawn of Calcium and Tungsten…

Tungsten is heavy, ~85% as heavy as Lead, and this Stone has heft to it.  From Collen Marquist (p.133), “ability to infiltrate a lie or obfuscation… to determine if someone is dishonest with you, and to delve into personal issues of denial and falsehood… brave like a scout and will provide courage to those who are intimidated by a falsehood… activates the third and second chakras to empower the gut to not only sense danger, but to do something about it.”

Which is the Main Effect of the 25 May (1pm PDT in 5 Gemini) New Moon.  An excellent way to approach it would be to ask yourself, “What is my Nemesis?” or “What am I most frightened of?”  There’s a good chance that some of these issues may be up in your Life this week anyway.  Fear of Loss, Fear of Change, Fear of Risk, Fear of Failure, Fear of Self.  Your “Higher Self” does know exactly what it’s doing.  But do we Trust it?  Doubt is one thing we might be able to Clear Away this week, if we’re Honest with ourself about what we Fear and what Limits us.

The two Archetypes most emphasized at this New Moon (which means they’ll be Lit Up for several weeks thereafter) are Nemesis and Vesta. 

Nemesis Punishes Hubris.  Hubris needs two components – Self-Confidence, and Illusion; we’re Confident that we can Live a Lie (whether we know it’s a Lie or not).  It’s kind of the inverse of “Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway.”  We’ve been told all our Life (and many before that) that we have to be this and do that or we won’t Survive.  In our Obedient phases, we tried, and if being and doing this or that wasn’t compatible with our Soul or our Mission, of course we Doubted ourself, and probably developed the Habit of Doubting ourself.  In our Rebellious phases, we may have been or done things that our Obedient Self still Regrets or Feels Guilty about, and we may have developed those Habits too.

Since acculturation is pretty much one-size-fits-all (and if you were that “size” you wouldn’t be reading this) we spend much of our time adrift in this Doubt, Regret, Guilt, and Fear – likely with Anxiety for frosting.  And that won’t Change until we develop the Habit of Noticing that we’re Feeling Doubt, Regret, Guilt, Fear, Anxiety, or All of the Above, and then Acting to Shift it.  Dr. Kim suggests that Breathing is very useful when we Notice these things, and I agree.  Personally, what I find effective, is Poor-Sweethearting, but you knew that…

  • “You Poor Sweetheart, You’re Feeling Doubt, aren’t you.”
  • “You Poor Sweetheart, You’re Feeling Regret, aren’t you.”
  • “You Poor Sweetheart, You’re Feeling Guilt, aren’t you.”
  • “You Poor Sweetheart, You’re Feeling Scared, aren’t you.”
  • “You Poor Sweetheart, You’re Feeling Anxious, aren’t you.”

Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) can also help Ground a heavy dose of Emotions – when you’re Shaking Inside, for instance. 

Vesta – Hestia in Greece – was Goddess of the Hearth: Food, Family, Friends, winter Warmth, Mom, Nature and Nurture both.  The Greeks toasted Hestia before they toasted Zeus, and they toasted Hestia after they toasted Zeus.  Yes, Celebrate the Big Honcho, but better keep your Real Bets hedged while you’re at it.  The Romans thought that this was such a good idea that they made Vesta the Goddess of the State.

So in the Western Psyche, Vesta represents the Centerpoint of our Survival.  Being Separated from Vesta is like being Banished from our Tribe; we’re back to eating Bugs and Leaves (and in the winter sucking Bark), struggling to keep warm and dry, and in grave danger of becoming someone else’s lunch. 

While Nemesis symbolizes Judgment of our Nonconformity, Vesta stands for what we (would) gain by Conforming, aka what we Fear of Losing if we drop the Lies.  Since most of our acculturation was lavished upon us before we “knew better” than to be Discerning, much of it is (purposely) Unconscious.  And since these things are so closely associated with Survival and Fear, we develop big Ego Attachments to the “rules” which we most Fear, that will keep us from getting Banished.

So we interpret Nemesis as Ego Death (if you do that it – or they – will kill you!), and Vesta as our Unconscious Beliefs, particularly our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  This week is primarily about the Paradoxical Relationships between Unconscious Beliefs and Ego Death.  To Let Go of our Self-Sabotaging Limiting Beliefs (such as We Can’t Have What We Want, Money Doesn’t Grow on Trees, Good Girls Don’t Do That, etc, etc) usually requires an Ego Death.  So far that doesn’t seem so Paradoxical.  So watch for things that don’t make sense this week – those will be the clues that lead us to What We Need to Let Go Of.

The New Moon is T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) to the Opposition between Orcus (Oaths and Vows) and asteroid Karma (Habits) on the left, and Nessus (Abuse) and 2007 OR10 (Unbidden Memories) on the right.  That Opposition is one of two in a Golden Rectangle (the blue box); the other is between Veritas (Truth) and Hylonome (Prying Ourselves Free from an Archetype).  Splitting the Golden Rectangle is the Vesta-Nemesis Opposition Yin Gate

All this happens between 4 and 8 Degrees; the Yin Gate in the Fixed Signs, the Golden Rectangle in the Magnetic Signs, and the T-Square in the Mutable Signs – but it’ll pretty much Light Up anything you have in 4-8 Degrees of any Sign.  Whatever planets and Angles you have in that zone will likely provide clues to which Archetypes you may be blowing away this week.  In 4-8 Degrees of any Sign we’re basically Letting Go of our Original Plan for whatever it is we’re Creating.  Not Letting Go of what we’re Creating, but Letting Go of preconceptions about it, so we can Let It Flow of its own accord, without our pushing and shoving it into molds in doesn’t fit well in, while Learning to Trust.

Kind of like this…

http://danielscranton.com/the-gentle-nudgings-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

March IVb – Venus-Envy

March 3, 2017

Anxious?  The Retrogradation of Venus “is” (as without, so within) the Descent of Inanna, where the Goddess is systematically stripped of Her Olde Ego.  If you haven’t read Starhawk’s Truth or Dare, her wonderful Manifesto of Power-With, now is the time to do it.  Whatever you’re Anxious about today, probably identifies the Ego/Beliefs/Limitations that are about to be rinsed away over the next six weeks.

Tapping this morning on “I am scared about…” I realized that I was strongly emphasizing the first word, the “I” part.  So I Tapped on “I am that I am” instead, which quelled the mental noise and left the Apprehension in the Body – which is at least closer to Truth, and Feels that way.  Tapping on just “I’m Scared” several times reduces the intensity of that.  

I’m reminded of a snippet of an old Mel Gibson film I saw once.  Some monster of a guy was threatening to beat the krap out of him and he says, “Are you going to kill me?”  And the monster says “Whazzamatta, you scared?”  And Gibson says “No, I’m just trying to plan my day.”

So yes, given the state of the World and an imminent Descent into Ego Death, a measure of enduring vague Fear is probably appropriate.  It might be a good time to try out the Violet Fire…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.co.uk/2017/02/blazing-violet-fire-through-suzanne-lie.html

I’m lost without the Anxiety, because if I don’t know what ills may befall me I don’t know what to Do to protect myself from them.  Which is actually good, since Anxiety seldom makes accurate predictions, excepting self-fulfilling prophesies.  As is so often the case, Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian Channeling for today addresses the issue succinctly…

http://danielscranton.com/go-beyond-thought-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

Of course he doesn’t call it that, or even refer directly to it, but he’s basically talking about PIAVAing.  In case you’re new here, that means…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/09/02/piava-review/

Rather than What To Do to Protect myself from What I Fear, PIAVA suggests I focus on What I Want.  I mean, if I’m Anxious about those things, it means I’m not fully prepared for them, so Ego Death around them is a great Outcome, as it may well Liberate me from my Limiting Beliefs around them, which would be a huge boon.  An imminent Ego Death is cause for Celebration, though I haven’t Breathed enough yet to get to Excitement.  So I can try PIAVAs on the order of “May I be relieved of cause for Anxiety around…”

And it helps to recall that my Anxieties were around issues I’ve previously PIAVAed about – that’s a call to Pay Attention.  When I do Pay Attention I understand immediately that these Anxieties are Up so I can Let Go of them.  The Archetype, the Karmic Pattern to be Broken, is Worry, intellectualizing the Emotional and Physical.  As for the vague Apprehension – just an exercise in Soft Belly.

Whenever Ego Death lurks, we should Ask, Where is Nemesis?  In ten days she crosses Pluto.  A Pluto Ego Death should be a big one.  Turns out that today is the day when Nemesis comes within our usual standard of three Degrees of Sensitivity to Pluto.  Nemesis-Pluto is a five-year Cycle, taking us up to – haven’t we seen this number recently? – 2022.  The Initiation is 13 March at 4am in 20 Capricorn – “A hidden choir singing,” invoking Heaven.  So perhaps just PIAVAing Heaven on Earth would be appropriate, though it’s Scary to contemplate the potential Healing Crises from that!  What the Hell, though, we’re already Scared.

The next Question that pops to mind, Where is Eurydike – Trust?  The Eurydice Myth was all about Trusting that Escape from Pluto’s Realm was possible!  This deserves an essay all its own…

Asteroid Eurydike is one foot of another Flying Squirrel Configuration that features three Fingers of God, pointing at 

  • Eurydike (Trust) itself, from the Sextile between Mercury-Neptune (Confusion) and Hylonome-Juno-Chariklo (Becoming Conscious of Charismatic Archetypes
  • Hopi (Respect for All Things), across the Sextile from Mnemosyne-Ceres (Remembering How to Create Sustainability) to Mercury-Neptune
  • Mercury-Neptune at the head of the Kite Opposite Karma-Orcus (Breaking Archetypal Oaths) at the Midpoint between Hopi and Eurydike

Mercury-Neptune – Blessed Confusion – is in charge of the whole Eurydike Configuration.  Neptune Initiates Mercury at 4am PST on 4 March at 12 Pisces, being “tested” as we are Initiated into a new phase of our Spiritual Evolution.  Okay.

1 December and the Angels

December 1, 2016

Today’s chart looks a lot like the New Moon chart from a couple of days ago.  The

  • (1) Big Learning-to-Embrace-Fear Opportunity (Grand Quintile), the
  • (2) Abandoned-Genius-Recovery Mystery School (Yin Gate), and the
  • (3) Great Grace around Trust (Grand Sextile)

Configurations all remain, with their flood of Ten Thousand Vignettes and no shortage of Ego Deaths.  It’s a busy month.  

In the first week or so…

  • (4) Expect the Ten Thousand Vignettes to continue to Expand greatly, in service of the continuing Removal of our Masks.
  • (5) Our Opportunity/Challenge to Let Go of obsolete Oaths, Promises, stuck Patterns, and Limiting Beliefs is much enhanced by the Station of dwarf planet Orcus.
  • (6) Our Trust issues become more obvious; if we Remember that we’re immortal Souls taking a vacation in a physical Body, it might make Trust easier – the Soul is invulnerable, though if We-as-a-Body Forget our Soul-Self too much we can miss the Cmail* requesting that we check in for our return flight, extending our vacation more than we’ll Enjoy.         (*Channeled message) 
  • (7) We’re working on our article on Lunar Emotional Energy as the glue that holds Matter together.  The theme runs a lot like this:  It’s Passion that drives Manifestation, but it’s the combination of Conscious Passion and Unconscious Passion that does the work.  As we Unify these two, Manifestation becomes more Effortless.  In early December there’s a big push toward making our Mask Removal Permanent, an essential step toward Integrating our Passions and eliminating Self-Sabotage.
  • (8) Think about how the last week or two have been very different in your Life.  Seeing more Mysterious movements out of the corner of your eye?  Obvious signs of Ego Rebirth (such as feeling lost on a route you’ve traveled often)?  Long deep Sleeps?  Unusually sharp Intuitions?  Unexplainable surges of Excitement?  Angels are becoming more Present; keep your eye out for evidence of them.  The more you Acknowledge their Presence, the more they can work their Magic.
  • (9) If you’re thinking hard about Survival under difficult circumstances, you aren’t alone.  These are Instincts.  However, see (6), (7), and (8).
  • (10) Some of those Ten Thousand Vignettes and Survival scenarios may seem intolerable, like You’d rather Die than go through that again.  It’s an Invitation to Ego Death; do RSVP; if you Embrace the Sensation (“You poor Sweetheart, you’d rather Die than do that again, wouldn’t you”) you’re less likely to have to endure it again. 
  • (11) Remember that the basic assignment is the Deepening of Self-Love.

Oh, and Italy votes to leave the EU on 4 December, or rather, Italy votes on whether or not to leave the EU on 4 December – the next shoe dropping in the Collapse of Cultures as we know them.  

In astrologuese…

(1) The Sedna (Embracing Fear) Grand Quintile with Vesta (Limiting Unconscious Beliefs), Jupiter (Expansion), Moon-Mercury-Quaoar (Survival Issues; see also (9)) and Neptune-South Node (Embracing Emerging Held Emotions, Loss of the Veil, Collapse of Cultures; Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity).

(2) The Ixion Mystery School – the Golden Rectangle formed by Ixion-Pholus (Being Fully Responsible to our Abandoned Genius), Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Haumea (Rebirth), and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Identifying with our Soul Self).  Embedded in the Golden Rectangle is a Yin Gate between Sedna (Embracing Fear) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty).

(3) The Eurydike Grand Sextile, formed by the Golden Rectangle (2) and an Opposition between Pallas (Boundaries) and Eurydike (Trust); Pallas-Eurydike forms a Grand Cross with Sedna-Lilith.

(4) Mnemosyne (Memories) Stationary Direct 6 December (Strong; we don’t usually give asteroids more than 3-4 days of Sensitivity, but it’s been within one Degree of its Station since 18 November, and could be one of the major Triggers for our Ten Thousand Vignettes) at 7pm PST at 20 Aries (“A young girl feeding birds in winter; overcoming crises through compassion“) and of course still very much Conjunct Uranus-Eris-Ceres (Making our True Self or Yintegrity Permanent).

(5) Orcus (Making and Breaking of Oaths) Stationary Retrograde 7 December (very Strong for at least a week prior; it’s been within one Degree of its Station since about 22 September) at noon PST on the South Node (Karma, Held Emotions, Archetypes we’ve Merged with, Hidden Skills).

 (6) Eurydike (Trust) Stationary Retrograde 9 December (Strong for at least 3-4 days prior; within one Degree since 20 November) at 9am PST in 24 Leo (“Totally concentrated upon inner spiritual attainment, a person is sitting in a state of complete neglect of bodily appearance and cleanliness“); does 24 Degrees sound familiar?  How about…

  • Eurydike Opposite Pallas (Boundaries) and Square the Lilith-Sedna Opposition (Fear of Misogyny), making a Grand Cross (Busy Busy Busy); of course the Lilith-Sedna Opposition is the core of the Mystery School (see (2) above).
  • Eurydike Trine to Ixion-Pholus (Being Fully Responsible to Recover our Abandoned Genius, Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulosity) and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (see (4) above), making a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace).
  • Eurydike Sextile to Haumea (Rebirth) and Chaos (Unlimited Potential), completing the Grand Sextile (Great Grace – after We take the first step).  The first step is Self-Love; in (4) above You are the Bird and the Young Girl both – “You poor Sweetheart…” – see (10) below.

(7) Ceres (Sustainability) Stationary Direct 9 December (Strong for at least 3-4 days prior; within one Degree since 22 November) at 4pm PST in 22 Aries (“The gate to the garden of all fulfilled desires“); see (4) above.

(8) on 5 December at about 3am, Hylonome (Detaching from Archetypes) Waxing Squares (Challenge) Makemake (Manifestation).  The Hylonome-Makemake Cycle in general is about Letting Go of Self-Sabotage.  The Energy of a Cycle is strong around its Initiation, then goes underground till the Waxing Square, then reaches the mainstream.  The current Cycle was Initiated in June 1989 (think Harmonic Convergence) at 3 Virgo, “Two Guardian Angels“!

(9) Quaoar (Survival) Initiates Mercury (Mentality, Communication) 2 December at 2pm PST in 30 Sagittarius (“The Pope blessing the faithful”).

(10) Nemesis (Ego Death) Initiates the Sun (our Essence) 2 December at noon PST in 12 Sagittarius (“A flag turns into an Eagle, turning into a Chanticleer [Rooster] saluting the Dawn”); again, this is the Degree of the Pluto-Chiron Initiation at the turn of the Century, suggesting our Journey from Separation to Unity, Nationalism to a broader, sharper Perspective and from there to the Return of the Light.  The Sun-Nemesis Cycle is about the Evolution of the Self.

(11) Asteroid Sappho (Self-Love) entered Scorpio (Relentlessness) a few days before the New Moon.  We’re warming up to an Initiation of Sappho by Klotho (Designing a new Ego-Lifetime) near the end of January.

Full Moon 29.11c Timing

November 27, 2016

Should anyone want to Learn or Interpret their Experience relative to the “Stars” or Time anything, the specific event runs something like this…

  • 29 November…
    • 4am PST – New Moon at 8 Sagittarius, “Within the depths of the Earth new elements are being formed: The alchemical fire which both purifies and transforms the very substance of huper inner life.
    • 5am PST – Juno Initiates Moon at 8 Sagittarius.
    • 9am PST – Nemesis Initiates Moon at 10 Sagittarius, “A theatrical representation of a golden-haired Goddess of Opportunity.
    • noon PST – Juno Initiates Sun at 8 Sagittarius.
  • 2 December 1pm – Nemesis Initiates Sun at 12 Sagittarius, A flag turns into an Eagle which turns into a Rooster saluting the Dawn.

Sagittarius 12 is the Degree of the Pluto-Chiron Initiation at the dawn of the current Century.  We can interpret Pluto-Chiron as “There Is No Other Option But Love,” the flag as nationalism and other group-Identification Archetypes (including Race and Patriarchy), the Eagle as being Forced to adopt a wider viewpoint, and the Rooster as Herald of the Light.  

You could Interpret the Eagle/Rooster trigger as a nucular holocaust (which would make a very bright Light) or you could Intend that the triggers are a lot more peaceful.  I’m reminded of the sudden and sharp transition from flag to Eagle/Banty Rooster created by the Kent State murders, a four-Person Human Sacrifice.  Noble and Skillful Souls.

The Chiron-Pluto Cycle is currently two elevenths of the way around the Loop.  The Eleventh Harmonic is about Self-Confidence – “the beauty that we all possess  in our gifts, talents, and resources which can quell the beasts or demons within our nature” – Angeles Arrien, Tarot Handbook, p.66.  A hint about the Recovery of our Abandoned Genius.  We won’t get to the Waxing Square, when the Energy breaks out into the Open – or into the Light, until 2028.  

The second step in the eleven-step march around the Zodiac is about Ritual – the Power of Repetition.  We could effectively tag it as “Fake it (Self-Confidence) till you Make it.”  If we’re Paying Attention Lovingly, each time we Fake it we’ll receive important Information about the Obstacles between us and True Self-Trust.  With Karma Dead, this could lead very rapidly to True Self-Trust, a solid corollary to our recently-Reborn and about-to-Deepen Self-Love.

The Energy of a New Cycle is evident around its Initiation, then goes Underground till the Waxing Square, at which point it begins to pervade the mainstream.  Notice that Equal Rights for Minorities and Women was prominent around the Pluto-Uranus Initiation in the 1960s, and now that we’re past the 2012-2015 Uranus-Pluto Waxing Square, Equal Rights are very much under attack, just when they should be breaking out into the Light.  

In my neighborhood it was the High School students who spontaneously and vigorously marched to object to the apparent return to institutionalized Racism and Misogyny.  How the Reaction and Response to this evolves will be telling. 

We should be able to detect the Energy of the Juno-Moon/Sun and Nemesis-Moon/Sun Cycles over the next few days.  The Juno Cycles are about Emergence of the Unrecognized, and the Nemesis Cycles about the Appearance of Opportunity, with an emphasis on Appearance; it’s interesting that the Goddess was blond.  Remember that the Underlying December Energy is about Learning by Observing without Judgment or Conclusion.

The Appearance of Opportunity suggests that we take advantage of it while remaining skeptical, without putting all of our eggs in the basket.  Saturn (which would suggest Concentration on the Best Option) is not Strongly Lit Up here, so we can safely Hedge.  Over the next week, keep an eye out for anything you don’t Recognize, particularly an Opportunity that you wouldn’t otherwise Recognize.  Invest in it, but don’t bet the ranch.

The Moon-Juno and Moon-Nemesis Cycles will be about the immediate Emotional Impact of these Circumstances.  The Cycles hit their Waxing Squares on 7 December.  Dip a toe into your Unexpected Opportunity this week, then stay alert next week for Confirmation that your hunch was right, or Suggestion that it needs adjustment.  Invest more into the Trend, with or without adjustment, next week.

While the Moon Cycles are short enough that it makes sense to combine the two, the Solar Cycles are longer.  By the time they get to their Waxing Squares next April, they’ll be two weeks apart, the Sun-Juno Emergence Cycle Opening in the first week, and the Sun-Nemesis Opportunity Cycle Leafing Out in the third week of April.  The Solar Cycles are more substantial, so you’ll want more evidence than your Instincts will deliver.  Plan to carefully review your Investments in April, and bail out if the Trends aren’t bending your way.

Full Moon 29.11b

November 25, 2016

The New Moon itself will be a Big Challenge to the Ego and the status quo.  It occurs within a few arcminutes (ie, very little – one eighteen-hundredth of the Zodiac) from Juno, which symbolizes the Edges of Consciousness.  In other words, over the next three weeks we’re going to have to work like Hell to keep from Learning and Growing.  Don’t forget that this is in the context of the previous post.

In addition, it’s also Conjunct asteroid Nemesis.  The mythic Nemesis is about Punishment for Hubris.  If you’re Manifesting your True Self, and you’re not saddled with a Punishing God Image, you won’t demonstrate Hubris; you’ll be Enjoying Power-With “the Gods” rather than Power-Over.  So what then constitutes Hubris?  Trying to operate from the Ego rather than the True Self.  This is kind of like a “pop quiz” – we’ve been studying Mask Removal for almost five years now, and “Reality” is about to deliver to us homework on anything we’ve skimmed over.

If we ever wonder what we’re doing here and why, all we need to do is look at the Moon’s Nodes.  The South Node shows us the Emotions and Inertial Patterns that Limit us, and the North Node shows us what we need to do to Liberate our Self.  Hidden behind the Emotions and Inertial Patterns represented by the South Node are the Unclaimed Skills we need to achieve our Liberation.  We can’t do it without both.

Well, this New Moon also T-Squares – Mastery through Challenge – the Nodes.  So whatever Crisis the Ego undergoes will be an incredible Teaching about why we came here and what Unfinished Business we still have.  But a big sign on your bathroom Mirror –

??    VICTIM?    ??

 

 

and on your smartphone screen, and every time you see it,  check yourself.  Are you in any sense Feeling Victimized, by anything?  Is there anything in your Life that isn’t completely your own Choice?  This is what we’re working on for the rest of 2016.  If we do this homework, it doesn’t need to be difficult – other than the Ego Death, but we’re used to that, right?

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like a Victim around that, aren’t you.”

“Great Spirit, please help me to Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely Embrace all traces of Victimhood within my Energy Field, and Let It Go for good.  Thank you, Great Spirit!”

Look to see if there’s any Residual Emotion around it, and Tap it Out.  Go through the PIAVA list and pick out the one or two Choices that seem to fit best in the moment.

It’s not just the Nodes – Neptune is on the South Node, meaning that the Veil is very thin here.  This is good, because it gives us direct access to what would usually be hidden from us.  It may Feel horrible, but that’s just Ego Death, you’ve been through that so many times before, you’re no stranger to it.  Embrace it, look beyond it and Imagine how much better your Life will be without those Limitations.  Of course it’s Scary; keep Tapping on that till you’re shaking less and Feeling a little more in Control.  Then do your PIAVAs.

Ganeshi, please Remove All Obstacles to my Being Fully and Effortlessly Responsible to Everything in my Life that I have Chosen.  Thank you, Ganeshi!”

If you’re Responsible (able to Respond) to what you’ve Chosen, you won’t even have to think about it, you’ll just Act in your own Interests.  If your Choices aren’t the right ones, it should rapidly become obvious, and you can make different Choices.  If you’re being Responsible to things that you haven’t Chosen, that will fall away.  Don’t Hesitate to PIAVA these Changes if you Feel the Need.

And dwarf planet Orcus is on the North Node.  Orcus’s job is to Punish Oath-Breakers.  Nemesis’s big brother, the Bully.  You don’t need Oaths to Commit to your True Self.  Most Oaths are Self-Betrayals, and most of them have been outside of our Consciousness – till now.  At the Time, we needed them for our Safety, then we forgot we made them.  Now they’re just chains around our ankles and we can Let Them Go.  Orcus’s Punishment is Guilt, and you need to Stand Still for it.  Expect it, Locate it in your Body, be Loving with it there, “poor Sweetheart” it, PIAVA your Freedom.

So this is a Big Deal, kind of a Culmination of all the Work we’ve been doing all our Life.  Bigtime Learning Opportunity, Bigtime Mystery School, Bigtime Recovery of our Genius, Bigtime Karma-Buster, Bigtime Consciousness Goose, Bigtime Life Progress Review.  And that ain’t all.  The New Moon T-Squares the Nodes.  So what lies at the Vacancy Opposite to it, that would make it a more Balanced Grand Cross?  Vacancies represent what we need to provide, Consciously, to complete the circuit so the Energy can flow.

Aldebaran.  The Emperor of Stars, King of the Four Horsepeople of the Apocalypse.  Meaning Integrity.  From what I read about Aldebaran, they don’t mean Yangtegrity, they mean Yintegrity.  It’s not about keeping your Commitments to Other, it’s about Committing to the True Self.  Intense.  If you find yourself starting to Act to “Save Face,” stop yourself in mid-sentence and change course.

Above all, this is about Learning.  Look and Learn, Observe, eschew Judgment, eschew Conclusions.  Be Present and Loving with All of your Emotions, but don’t Identify with them.  Watch them, Embrace them, Feel them, don’t Be them.  Tap them Out if they’re Strong.  Be quick with your Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrades when you spot negative or compulsive thoughts.  

Sappho – Self-Love, recently Reborn, enters Scorpio on 27 November.  Scorpio is Relentless.  We’ll be extending Self-Love deeply into the Self, ferreting out any Obstacles to it, and taking no prisoners.  When you find an Obstacle to Self-Love, Avoid Judgment.  Self-Judgment is the antithesis of Self-Love.  Tender it a thousand Blessings, and Let It Go.  If you need to do that a hundred times before you’re able to Let Go of It, do it a hundred times.  Feel the Grief, the Regret, the Pain, but Let It Go.