Anybody remember the Yin Gate Configuration? There’s a picture of one isolated in the chart in the Edges 5 post. Did you Recognize the Yin Gate in this week’s chart…
It’s the big blue rectangle in the middle of the chart (Uranus to Orcus to Moira to Gonggong and back to Uranus), with a big red asterisk through it, and a green “X” in each half. The Yin Gate symbolizes a Mystery School, informing us that the central Opposition (Juno-Makemake Opposite Chiron) is deeper than our Left Brain is capable of Grokking. The “Left-Brain” interpretation of this Opposition is that in order to Expand our Consciousness(Juno) of our Manifestation Skills (Makemake), we need to Balance the Relationship between Being Present with our Discouragement, and Creating Miracles (Chiron).
Remember Poor-Sweethearting? We move from Discouragement to Miracles by first, Empathizing with our Discouragement, and second, Changing the Subject. After we Acknowledge our Emotions, if we don’t Divert our Attention from the Discouragement, we’ll continually Cycle Through the Thoughts that led to Discouragement, and nothing will Change. We could also Tap Out our Discouragement. To Tap Out an Emotion, we Acknowledge it – “Even though I Feel Discouraged, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself…” If we’re successful at Tapping it Out, then we’ll be left Feeling Neutral or “Better,” but it’s still Important to then Divert our Attention from the Content of what Discouraged us. We won’t Encounter Miracles until our Left Brain has forgotten completely about the Issue that Discouraged us.
That’s the Logical (Left-Brain) Process involved in using the Power of Discouragement or Despair to help us Manifest our Goals. As with any PIAVA, it’s critical to Avoid Thinking about Elephants, er,Mechanism. When you’re trying to PIAVA something you’ve never Created before, you’ve probably already imagined All Possible Mechanisms to make it happen, and rejected them as unworkable. In fact you’ve probably already tried many of them! To PIAVA something we’ve never Manifested in the Current Lifetime, we need to have 100% of our Attention on the Outcome we Want, and 0% of our Attention on Mechanisms that might make it Happen. Successful PIAVAs will always arrive via Unknown Mechanisms.
That’s the interpretation of the Contradistinction (Opposition) between Expanding our Consciousnessaround Manifestation, and Creating Miracles (Juno-Makemake Opposite Chiron). Remember that Oppositions are Dualisms, while the Universe is Multifarious and Unitary. Oppositions can never describe Reality, they can only describe our Thinking about Reality. The Map versus the Territory sort of thing. Language traps us into Confusing the two. However, Confusion is the First Step in Expansion of Consciousness, so image how we could Expand if we Learned to use Language in that way!!
Even though some of those notions may Open Doors for you, we’re basically still talking Logic – if this then that. The nature of a Yin Gate Mystery School is that it Transcends Logic. To Engage a Yin Gate we have to be Open to Paradox. We have to Embrace Cognitive Dissonance. Cognitive Dissonance is when we have two Beliefs that Conflict with one another. Take our Addiction to Sugar, for instance, or to anything else that we Believe isn’t particularly “Good For Us.” If you never Indulge in anything that isn’t Good For You, you need to Loosen Up – you aren’t even Living in two dimensions, you’re Living in one. Remember that Field that Rumi wanted to meet us in?
We have an Identity that really Enjoys our “Vice,” and an Separate Identity that Strives to keep it under Control, and we Alternate between wearing those two Identities because, unless we’re Enlightened or Catholic, we can’t maintain both Identities at the same time – it just puts us on a Helicopter Trip, where we’re going ’round and ’round, ceaselessly arguing with ourself. “It can’t be so Bad if it’s so tasty!” “Have I told you about Diabetes?” We’re in trouble before we start, because we’re Postulating that Joy isn’t Good For Us, which is ridiculous. We’re probably also swimming in Guilt, which isn’t Good For Us. We have to Introduce those two Identities to each other, so they can talk. Not so one can Win the “Battle,” but so they can both see what the Other Wants.
But we’re still talking about what the Left Brain can Understand. The Yin Gate Asks us to go Beyond that. Can we even conceive that such a Space Exists? We have to PIAVA it. Here’s part of Larry Korn’s attempt to describe one possibility (One-Straw Revolutionary: the Philosophy and Work of Masanobu Fukuoka, pp.22-23)…
“Natural farming sees the world as a seamless, indivisible whole. This perception arises without conscious effort when the world is experienced without intellectual interpretation. Mr. Fukuoka referred to this as non-discriminating awareness. Conventional perception, or discriminating understanding, sees the world as a collection of discrete parts. The individual is the observer, and the world is that which is being observed. It is a willful, intellectual process, which results in a fragmented and incomplete perspective.
“Here’s another way to look at it. The world is completely interconnected, flowing and unfolding within the present moment. It has no intrinsic qualities, it simply is. People, in their attempt to organize experience into a logical framework, break up this unity by seeing the trees as distinct from the shrubs, insects, minerals, and other things. These elements are further subdivided into types of trees, shrubs, insects, minerals, and other things, and they are all given names.
“Then concepts such as up and down, east and west, large and small, fast and slow, and self and other are added. Finally, values such as strong and weak, good and bad, beautiful and ugly, and primitive and civilized are also included. Before you know it, people have created an entirely new reality known only to them. In nature, none of these things exists. The is the way people have set themselves apart from and in opposition to the natural world. Today almost everyone relies on intellectual understanding to interpret and get along in the world. Before modern culture arose, no one did.”
This interview with Alberto Villoldo will be online free till 4pm PDT 27 October 2019. It is also comprehensive, and as well introduces a couple of different and valuable Perspectives…
For instance, one of things that Alberto points out is that the Bliss molecule DMT, which promotes Healing, is built from Serotonin, which is mostly produced by our Gut Bacteria – if you haven’t killed them by taking antibiotics and not Restored them with Probiotics. What he doesn’t say is that Glyphosate is an FDA-certified antibiotic and virtually all non-Organic Grains and Sugars are laced with Glyphosate because it’s also a desiccant that non-Organic agriculture typically sprays onto the plants just before harvest, in order to kill the foliage and make it easier to harvest the Grains and Sugars. So every time you eat non-Organic Grain or Sugar, you Risk Closing yourself to Healing.
We’re down to the last day of the April Gauntlet. The Pluto Station (Changing the Water in the Aquarium we’re immersed in) and the Chariklo Station (Transforming our Concept of Walking in Beauty) are a day and two Degrees apart, so they basically share a chart…
The Stations are complicated by issues of Self-Sovereignty and Action, not to mention a big Challengeto Acknowledge the Truth that our previous Timeline has run its course and, should we Choose to Accept it, our Life will be very Different from now on – or at least from tomorrow on, once the Chariklo Station (6am PDT 23 April) finishes with us.
Once again with astrologuese…
The Stations are complicated by issues of Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) and Action (Mars), not to mention a big Challenge (T-Square, the red triangle) to Acknowledge the Truth that our previous Timeline has run its course and, should we Choose to Accept it, our Life will be very Different from now on (the base of the T-Square is Rebirth/Haumea and Truth/Veritas Opposing Ego Death/Nemesis, Revelation/Eris, and Choice of Timelines/Lachesis) – or at least from tomorrow on, once the Chariklo Station (6am PDT 23 April) finishes with us.
We’ve highlighted should we Choose to Accept it because that’s a key to the whole complex. Asteroid Lachesis is the “Fate” or Goddess that “measures the length” of a Lifetime or a Timeline (a thematic segment of a Lifetime). Fate is what happens to us when we Live from the Unconscious. When we Live from Consciousness, we substitute Choice for Fate.
Pluto is the Big River of Time, the personification of Irresistible Power. Planets exercise their Strongest Impact when they’re Stationary. So we can read the Stationary Pluto-Stationary Chariklo-Mars-Lilith Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) as Having the Supreme Confidence (Stationary Chariklo) to Use the Momentum Created by the Current Big Shift in the Flow of Time (Stationary Pluto), to Act (Mars) in Support of Our Willingness to Create Our Own Reality (Lilith).
Remember that our aim here is Consciousness, so we regard Interpretation as much more important than Prediction. So if you’re thinking, “Shit, I wish I’d have known that ahead of time,” see if you can reframe that to “Oh, okay, I see where I might have Responded Differently.” However we didn’t Live our Brutus Moment, that’s the Experience that is leading us to Wisdom, to where we might see it as a Mandela Moment instead.
The part about Truth (Veritas)-Rebirth (Haumea) is pretty straightforward. The Ego Death/Nemesis-Revelation/Eris-Lachesis/Choice Stellium is more complex. Eris is about Accepting the Revelation of what’s been hitherto Denied. Nemesis is the Revelation that a Timeline, and the Value System that supported it, has reached a Dead-End. In the Unconscious, it’s Ended by Punishment. In Consciousness it’s Ended by Choosing a better Path into the Future.
So when we Face the parts of our Life that are no longer Working and Accept that we have to Let them Go, we’re Liberated into Birthing a New Reality for ourself.
The Big Challenge (T-Square) reveals an Easy Way Out (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) through our Recognition of Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos). In other words, we’ll jump forward by thinking in terms of “What Do I Really Want in this Lifetime“ rather than “How Can I Weasel my way out of this Pickle.”
The second Opposition (long red line) in the chart is closely related conceptually as well as astrologically – Fate Herself (asteroid Moira) Opposing Expansion (Jupiter). As if there’s a simple Dualistic Choice between Unconsciousness (Moira) and Growth (Jupiter). The fact that the Stations and their Baggage form the Easy Way Out (Trine Bridge) to this Opposition belies that simplicity.
Unconsciousness is an Addiction, and while Choice is a critical step in Confronting Addiction, it’s only one step of many – ten by one common measure. We have to Choose Consciousness over and over again until it’s Second Nature to do so (and then we have to Confront that Habit as an Archetype). We have to Sustain Choice, and we’ll talk about that in a moment.
Then we notice that the Stations are involved in another important, if subtle, Configuration – a “Sextile Fez” (trapezoid). In any Fez, we want to Pay Attention to the diagonals, in this case…
Unlimited Potential (Chaos) Quincunx (Curiosity) to the Stations and their Baggage (Pluto-Chariklo-Mars-Lilith)
Growth (Jupiter) Quincunx to Choosing Ego Death (Nemesis-Eris-Lachesis)
The important thing is to Allow the Curiosity to stay Curiosity, and not try to “Figure It Out.” Figuring It Out creates Knowledge, which may be useful but is never complete or accurate. Letting it sit as is creates instead Awe and Wonder, which is where we need to be, Awestruck by the unfathomable Miracles that surround us every day, rather than Powerhungry with the Egobound Illusion that we have Dominion here. So we might PIAVA something like…
“I Wonder just how much Power I could Contain if I had the Confidence to Assert Who I Am” – notice we’re “Containing” Power, not “Asserting” it. Reread Castaneda if you don’t understand how this works.
“I Wonder how Growth and Ego Death are Related – like a Crab or a Butterfly perhaps?”
Notice that these are this week’s Quincunxes, therefore this week’s Curiosities. We’re blessed that astrology isn’t all Quincunxes, leaving us Stoned out of our minds with Awe all the time. Curiosity and Confusion are twin Feeling States that Western “left-brain” don’t allow to be the Emotions that they actually are, instead co-opting them as Challenges to the Intellect and shutting down their pathways to Intuition and Wisdom.
Then we notice that there is a lovely perfect Five-Pointed Star in the chart, drawn in light purple lines. That’s called a “Grand Quintile,” as it divides the Zodiac into five equal parts. Five is the number of Learning and Teaching – we could even refer to it as Curiosity!
The Quincunx after all if Five Unxes, or five twelfths of the way round the Zodiacal Loop. The Twelfth Harmonic is Pattern-Breaking. So Learning to be Present with Curiosity as an Emotion in its own right is a Powerful Pattern-Breaker and a Powerful tool for breaking free of Unconsciousness and our Limiting, Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.
So this time is shown to be a humongous Learning Opportunity. We’re Learning about the Relationships between the five planets that make up the Grand Quintile. Remember that while all Learning leaves a permanent Impact, it’s important that we Recognize that this chart is about the Present Moment, not about Eternity. It’s the Wisdom we gain from Experience that can Work in Time Provinces other than the current one. The Conclusions we draw in the Present Moment are only as good as they increment our Stash of Wisdom.
The five corners of this Grand Quintile are…
Rebirth-Truth (Haumea-Veritas) – This is the most important corner because it cohabits with the Configuration that holds the Stations. The most valuable Lesson is that Ego Death is just a reboot, not a hard disk crash. Rebirth is actually a tremendous Gift, because without if we’re stuck in Limbo, in the Void, for a while. If you think Resisting the Temptation to pigeonhole Curiosity and Confusion is hard, what till you get to spend time in the Void!
Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta) – Being Unconscious, these are not generally subject to Choice, so we usually have to approach them through PIAVA. In this case, the chart will be Exposing many of our Unconscious Beliefs for the ancient scams that they are, perpetrated by the historical equivalent of the St. Petersburg Internet Research Agency
Confusion (Neptune) – Ah, there She is. She should be in here somewhere.
Values (Venus) – As our Unconscious Beliefs evolve, so must our Values, though we may not realize it for a while, till all the Contradictions work their way through.
Sustaining Commitment to our Mission – To the extent that we can generalize our Individual Missions, it’s fair to say that it’s about Growing our Consciousness, since it’s next to impossible to execute any nontrivial Mission without Growing in Consciousness. We hinted at this while we were discussing Addiction earlier, and here it is.
Another place where we get very Confused about Boundaries, is the Edge between Ego and Soul. Most people I meet have a very hard time imagining anything except a solid, opaque wall between themselves and their Soul, and they don’t even expect Mexico to pay for it. Daniel Scranton Channels some Pleiadian Wisdom about this…
“Before you ever set foot on planet Earth for the very first time, you understood that this was a mission. You understood that Earth had a very special place in the galaxy and that you were embarking upon a very specific mission for all of consciousness.
“You all saw this experience as the greatest possible challenge that you could embark upon. And while you knew that there would be some very dark times, quite a bit of pain, and a little too much suffering, you stepped right up to it and decided that this was the only place for you to be.
“Now as you began your cycle of lifetimes on planet Earth, you also understood how far you would be able to expand. You understood that the reward for being on planet Earth was like none other in the galaxy. And so you feel that the pain and suffering was worth it. You may not feel it now, from where you stand, but we guarantee you that you feel it on the level of your higher self and your oversoul.
“Your next mission on this journey will be to create a brand new Earthly experience for yourselves and for all future generations, and those experiences will not be about challenges. The next mission is about experiencing joy and unbridled, unconditional love. You have come this far in order to feel what it is like to move from the depths of darkness to the heights of ecstasy.
“Now when you decide to embark upon the new mission is up to you. It is up to you how much longer you play with the third-dimensional rules and when you fully embrace the fifth-dimensional perspective, the fifth-dimensional frequency, the fifth-dimensional experience of reality. We know that many of you feel ready, and we say to you that you are. It is all just a matter of opening your heart, letting that be your guide, and forgetting everything that you think you have learned up until this point.”
The chart of the Atropos Station is relatively simple. Atropos Conjoins – meaning that it’s Merged With (speaking of Boundaries) Eurydike, or Trust – still barely moving after it’s 4 February Station, and precisely Conjunct Atropos when the latter Stands Still. Are we Scared to Let Go of What We Know So Well, this Karma, and Accept what lies beyond Endings, the Unknown? That would be natural. If you considered it carefully, you might well find you’d much rather Step Out of your Karmic Self-Sabotage Patterns than Stay In them. But considering it carefully would mean you’d have to recognize that your Karma is your own Creation. Most of the time most of us just Feel Victimized by our Archetypes, as if they were woven by Someone Else.
The ignorati refer to this as “New Age Guilt,” the idea that somehow I Chose to Manifest the Reality I Live in. Why would I Choose Suffering? They see it that way simply because they are unable to refer to their Soul as “I” – they see their Soul as Someone Else. So this Adventure is about Trusting that we can End Habits that no longer serve us, and still Live Well afterwards. If it was Someone Else who installed those Habits, do we Fear that they will Punish us if we End them? If we still Live our Life as a Child subject to our Programmers’ rules, of course we do. But we as a Soul Chose those Programmers, to set up situations that Mirror our Karma, so we can Recognize it and End it. Part of our Mission.
Eurydike-Atropos Station in fact makes a Trine Bridge, defining the Easy Path, across the Nodal Axis. The Nodal Axis is nothing if it’s not our map for getting from our Karma to our Mission. Asteroid Sappho – Self-Love – sits on our South Node, which symbolizes the Karma that we’ve sown, the Patterns and Archetypes we took this Lifetime to Let Go of. Do we Love Ourself in spite of our Karma?
Our Mission is not Letting Go of our Karma. It’s just that the Hidden Skills which we need in order to Achieve our Mission, are hidden beneath our Held Emotions. Held Emotions are the Emotions we cannot face because it would be too Scary, our cosmic PTSD. Letting Go of our Karma, Letting Go of those Archetypes, those seemingly unshakeable Habits that Sabotage us over and over again, requires that we Feel those Forbidden Emotions, requires an Ego Death. Yet the Ego’s job is to keep us Alive. Which is the same error we all make – the Ego is supposed to keep us Alive, not to keep itself Alive. How can it keep us Alive though, if it Dies? Another Paradox.
Our Karmic Archetypes are Compulsive, or we’d be able to Let them Go easily. In the map of the Station, Pluto, symbolizing Compulsion, makes a Quincunx Bridge to the Nodal Axis. A Quincunx Bridge is like meeting Gollum. But rather than Solve the constant stream of Riddles, we need to Zen them – leave them as Riddles, unanswered. Anything that the Dualistic mind can conjure to Respond to them, will be a knife in the Heart of Mystery.
That Fearless Child, in Awe at the marvelous things around Her, completely unprepared to try to make Sense of them, and, apart from trying to Understand the Abuse she so unfairly Received, having no need to make Sense of them. That Child, pre-Abuse, is the one we need to Recover. She holds the Ring. The Abuse is the re-enactment of our Karma. Who were we before we stumbled into these Patterns of Sabotage? We’d need to go back to Lilith, to our Self-Sovereignty. It’s a Mystery, but if you let “I” be your Soul for a few moments, you’ll Know Exactly what it is and Who You Are.
In the Station chart, Pluto is Conjoined by Chariklo, representing our Self-Confidence. The two of them Square Atropos-Eurydike, symbolizing Mastery through Challenge. Mastering the subtle Art of having Confidence that our Compulsions will lead us back to Awe, the subtle Art of Trusting that Ending our 3D Timeline will Liberate us to a Greater Mastery. It’s the same as Sappho-South Node; Loving Ourself as our Karma. Can you let “I” be your Karma for a few moments?
When we drop all Self-Judgment then it doesn’t matter Who We Are, does it. We are simply Unconditional Love, Personified. If we are “just” Love, then what do Patterns and Habits and Archetypes matter? They don’t even exist. We can’t be “just” Love without being in the Present Moment, and in the Present Moment our Karma is undefined. Habits by definition Remove us from the Present Moment.
Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…
As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively. Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality.
(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious. Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)
You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after. That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly. Abundance is having enough to Share, After all.
This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force). Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while. As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd? And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?
We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness. While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.
This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality. Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community. Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form. Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form. Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence. To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain.
The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege. Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions. Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal. To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes. Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions. As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.
While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional. Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs). Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality. Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.
The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love. That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time. And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger. The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.
Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy. Dan and the Arcfolk concur –http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/. The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.” Hmmm. I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis. But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.
There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda. Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power. Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm. In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood. If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.
Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us. Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it. It’s a foundation for our Ego. So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping. We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger. While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.
To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it. Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort. “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.” It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation. If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t. “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.” Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.” Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.
The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4). If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations. Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress. Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.
We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul.
We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession. Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?
If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death. That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort. Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong. But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.
So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart? What would we look for?
Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus. These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair. Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?
Well, yes. seven of them. We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets. So seven is a whole bunch.
We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…
Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things. We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us. This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.
It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion. It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that. We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.
Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth. Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio. Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with. Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.
Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures. Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.
These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them. Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.
That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.
So, which planets are we talking about? Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.
Whoa, this is Big. The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack). Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot. All very strongly Lit Up this week. So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts. Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?
Oops, have to interrupt again. A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy. What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?
Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture. For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet. What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged! The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.
So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference. Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all! So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.
And that’s just two planets. With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times. To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40. However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?
Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true. You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium. You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.
And now you’re going to run into another problem. Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio. When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon. I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates. That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.
So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while. Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating. There should be a reasonable number of those folks around. You won’t be their Onliest…
Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you
as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.
Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho). So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children. That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.
So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings. We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.
Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio? So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!
Did someone say Obsession? Damn Right! Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!! It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime! So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is! Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.
Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue. Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle). That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly. To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair. “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.” Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.
So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above). “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.” Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero. If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different. This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?
Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it. Are we done? Not a chance. Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron. Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…
A T-Square is like a graduate seminar. We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent. But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.” In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions. No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.
It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily. You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.
So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.
That’s what T-Squares are all about. Now, what about this Mercury T-Square? Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you. Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk. So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.
If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it. You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk. You could write best-sellers about it. You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first. I guarantee you, it is True.
Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed. With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are. You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.
Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…
Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled). Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules. To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.
But you’ll always be condemned for it. So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others. And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you. Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).
In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand. That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project. It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you. Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.
But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone. So you’ll have to Learn toNotice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness.
Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.
What’s that? Oh, we aren’t quite done? Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio? Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong). All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.
We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample. The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway. This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.
Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.
And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both. We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.
Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too. It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it. Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself.
Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.
That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.
It’s the big blue rectangle in the middle of the chart (Uranus to Orcus to Moira to Gonggong and back to Uranus), with a big red asterisk through it, and a green “X” in each half. The Yin Gate symbolizes a Mystery School, informing us that the central Opposition (Juno-Makemake Opposite Chiron) is deeper than our Left Brain is capable of Grokking. The “Left-Brain” interpretation of this Opposition is that in order to Expand our Consciousness (Juno) of our Manifestation Skills (Makemake), we need to Balance the Relationship between Being Present with our Discouragement, and Creating Miracles (Chiron).
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