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Abuse Flushbacks

November 22, 2020

Flashbacks if we get sucked under by Invasive Memories of our historical or Karmic Abuse, and Flushbacks if we discern the difference between then and now, and Celebrate another win in the contest with our Demons (dwarf planets Gonggong [Intrusive Memories] and Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Stationary [Exaggerated] 20 November 2020 8:10 pm PST and 22 November 9:20 pm PST respectively). It’s a long game, and each win counts.

So often our Flashbacks are beneath our Awareness, and we don’t know why we just need another hit on the Chocolate or the Baileys or the Ganja or the Caffiend. Back in the 1980s, Pluto was in Scorpio and The Way Out Was Through, and when we Noticed that we were starting to Feel That Way again, one Teacher suggested that we Ask ourself, “What color is the Wallpaper?” Not that we necessarily remembered how it was then, but at least we’d be Reminding ourself to Observe the Present Moment to some degree. And not that folks use much wallpaper these days, but we can think up a working alternative. “What color is my Coffee Cup?” for instance, or “What brand is my Chocolate?”

The Energy’s been pretty bleak hereabouts. Hope it’s better in your ‘hood. It doesn’t help that the two events occur in Pisces, which is about Letting Go of Emotional Baggage, so Pisces will be doing its darnedest to get us to shift from Flashback to Flushback. Unfortunately, Pisces’s modus operandi is to tighten our Emotional thumbscrews in the hope that we’ll Notice that we need to Flush.

The two Stations are seven Degrees and two days apart, so we’ve charted them on the same graph…

The salient feature is the two red (T-Square) and blue (Grand Trine) triangle combinations pointing to Capricorn and Sagittarius at the top of the chart. These are very Powerful combinations of Challenge (red) and Blessing (blue), further Graced by the lighter blue lines, as we’ll delineate later.

The most important of the two pairs of triangles points to “Bee-Zed” in Sagittarius. Bee-Zed is a nickname for an asteroid (recently given the official name Ka’epaoka’awela – you can see why we still call it “Bee-Zed”) that orbits backwards (almost all the other planets go the other way ’round the Sun) out near Jupiter. We interpret Bee-Zed as Transcendence. It’s the more important of the two because Gonggong and Nessus are Standing Still in the base of the red triangle. And what are we Transcending?

We read that in the base (Opposition) of the T-Square, which has on one side Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) and Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus), and on the other side Intrusive Memories of Abuse and Privilege (Gonggong and Nessus). The Abuse side is aided and abetted (from Pisces’s somewhat perverse Perspective) by Intensified Instincts (the Moon passing by) and a Need to Create Sustainability (asteroid Ceres). So it’s not so much that we’re Learning to Flush as we’re Learning to Flush Repeatedly and Plunge if Necessary, to make our Liberation from our Abuse Karma Permanent by Perfecting the Automatic Habit of Flushing it.

We’ve talked about Vesta and Orcus before (they meet on 29 November), and about how Vows and Decisions we made and Forgot we made (Orcus) are a common, if not the only, way that Karma is Created. Abuse and Privilege involve a ton of Vows and Oaths, like “I’ll never tell anyone because he said he’d kill Mom if I do!” or “I’ll get even with you if it’s the Last Thing I Do!” or “I Demand thirty-five Recounts!” By Forgetting that it was our own Choice to Vow or Decide, we eliminate second-guessing by making it non-negotiable, so it becomes Just the Way Things Are.

So the Potential is here to Transcend our Abuse Karma, if we’re willing to Let Go of our Resistance to Healing it. A good place to Alternate Thetas and Tapping, Commanding that we Let Go, Noticing any Resistance, and Tapping it Out before we Theta again. I’ve been working on an Intrusive Memory of being Distraught at not being able to Heal a favorite Kitten of Distemper when I was in College, and how that still facilitates Self-Doubt around Healing. I probably had to Vow to Give Up Magic to Survive one of the many Purges of Natural Law in the European Middle Ages.

The blue lines point to Allies in our Transcendence. In this case Victimhood and Power (Chiron) and Surrendering our Distrust in the Life Force (Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna) are here to help. Chiron is in charge of the Shift from Despair to Liberation. We recommend Poor-Sweethearting as a quick way to make that Transition. When we’re Discouraged by our Karmic Limitations (which we often consider to be Just the Way Things Are) – by our Lack of Success at something we Want to Accomplish, we say to ourself, out loud or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Discouraged about… [ eg Being Able to Heal ], aren’t you.”

It’s not a Declaration (no “!”), just a simple, Neutral acknowledgment (“.”) of Present-Moment Reality. Then we Change the Subject, or put our mind on other things, as Completely as we can. Sometimes when we do this, the Transformation is so complete that we never remember that we used to be Discouraged. This sounds like a Word Game, but it works because it Shifts our Identity. We become a different person. Before Poor-Sweethearting ourself, we were Discouraged. That’s very Different from Feeling Discouraged, in which case we are an Observer reviewing our Current-Moment Emotions. In the earlier case, our Identity was, literally, Discouragement. The verb “to be” is a verb of Identification, of Equality, Discouragement R Us.

The Unconscious interprets our thoughts at this level. Once we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, Compassion R Us. We’re Being Compassionate with ourself. If we can manage to Change the Subject, we’re Transformed. As Compassion, we can Change many things, and often Easily. From the Perspective of who we were before, we can now do Miracles. Without Changing the Subject Completely, our old mental Habits will reconstruct our Previous (Discouraged) Identity. So we may need to Poor-Sweetheart ourself about not being able to Change the Subject, Theta it, or Tap it Out. Keep at it till you find something that absorbs your Attention.

The blue lines symbolize Grace, so Poor-Sweethearting (Chiron) and Surrendering our Distrust in the Life Force (Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna) and Transcendence (Bee-Zed) are all Collaborating Effortlessly at this time, so Effortlessly that we usually don’t even Notice. Dwarf planet Varuna represents Mother Nature, the Magic that underlies All of Life, the Energy that Separates Coyote from Dust Bunny and gives the former Sovereignty over their own Domain. Not that Dust Bunny doesn’t have Consciousness, but under what we consider to be “normal” circumstances, he seems to be at the whim of every breeze or broom.

If we Focused on it long enough, we could invite Dust Bunny to tell us the History and Herstory of the Universe. We may not need to Trust the Life Force that much to be able to Surrender into the Grace of the blue triangle (a “Grand Trine” or Dumb-Luck Blessings). But while we Hupers are Creator Beings, much of the time we aren’t the most Powerful Creator Being around. If we aren’t Ready to Transcend, we won’t. It’s that simple. But what the astrology tells us is that there’s a heck of a lot that we Can Transcend right now, so it’s a great time to Stretch into Expanding our Limits, and making it Sustainable.

Emotional Oxymoron

November 11, 2020

This is a relatively quiet week, compared to recent events. We probably wouldn’t be too far off to call it the Eye of the Hurricane, though I’m not sure that should he singular. The Moon is In Bounds all week, so we may be less Emotional than recently. On 9 November 2020 (6:30 am PST) dwarf planet Ceres (Sustainability) entered Pisces (Cleaning Up Emotional Baggage), so it will be nice to have Sustainable Emotions for once, since like the Moon Emotions don’t Stand Still for anybody for long. Except that Sustainable Emotions is an Oxymoron.

Trying to Sustain Emotions by Damping them is a lot like stepping on a Water Balloon. Trying to Sustain Emotions by Expressing them as they Arise works, but you’ll probably need Heroic friends. We’ve been trying to Sustain Emotions by “Holding” them since forever, and like trying to sew our Sphincter shut, what that buys us is Karmic and seemingly Permanent Limitations, where we’d Rather Die than Feel that again. Ultimately, we only have one Choice. To Embrace All of our Emotions, even – nay, Especially – the ones we’d Rather Die than Feel.

Fortunately, Emotions don’t exist in a Vacuum. We’re programmed to think of them as distinct from Thoughts, Physical Sensations, and Spiritual Adventures, but they definitely are Not. So one way to make our Emotions Sustainable is to train ourselves to Coordinate them with our Mental, Physical, and Spiritual Processes. We can Ask ourself where a Difficult Emotion sits in our Body, and be Loving and Gentle (Soft and Warm) with its Physical Echo there. We can train ourself to Recognize the Difference between Thoughts and Emotions, and short-circuit the Vicious Spiral that they Enjoy when Dancing together.

Try this on… Emotions exist outside of the rules of Cause and Effect.

We never Feel such-and-such Because of anything. We just Feel Emotions, the way we Feel the Wind. It’s impossible to Think our way out of an Emotion, and trying to do so will only make us Feel “worse.” Guaranteed.

It does help to Identify them, as in “I Feel Angry.” But “I Feel Angry about…” and “I Feel Angry at…” are always Bullshit, simply because we spend so little time in the Present Moment that we almost always have no idea whether our Emotions have Arisen as a result of some Recent Experience, or because the Recent Past Reminded us in some vague way of some Experience we had 47 Lifetimes ago, or some Experience that our Great Grandmother had in her Youth. She doesn’t even need to ever have told you about it – it’s encoded in your Genes.

Our Best Bet for making our Emotions Sustainable is probably to Cultivate Curiosity about them. “Isn’t that Curious – I seem to be Feeling Angry.” Then you can Ask Where and How you Experience that in your Body. You can be Curious about that. You can be Curious about what preceded your Emotion, but if you do, you’ll also have to be Curious about how Difficult it is to Avoid trying to Attribute Cause or Blame for your Emotions. Better yet, consider Curious to be an Emotion, and Avoid Thinking about Why you’re Curious. “Why” is a Poison Question, because it sticks you in your “Left Brain” and shuts down your Intuition and your Instincts, your two Best Guides.

That’s a tall order, and everyone around you will think you’re Really Weird. So Be it. Ceres will be in Pisces till late February. This isn’t new; Ceres entered Pisces in late April, but then turned Retrograde and backed into Aquarius in late September. Think about how much of our Life we all Wasted on Why between May 1 and October 1. Imagine what it would have been like if nobody had Bothered to get tied up in Blame during that time. Imagine thousands of people just Looking at the cops, instead of Shouting at them. Or at the boneheads.

It Is What It Is.

It’s not What It Is Because of anything. Hupers don’t have the bandwidth to get beyond that, so it’s counterproductive to even try. The rest is just Mental Masturbation. You’d have more Fun, better Health, and more time to actually Enjoy Life, with a different kind of Masturbation, even if you do go blind.

That was yesterday.

On 10 November (4pm PST), asteroid Eurydike (Trust) also Changed Signs, moving into Leo (Confidence). Since late July, we’ve been Trusting our Compassion. Well, at least those of us who are able to Feel Compassion have been Trusting it. Now we’ll be Trusting our Confidence instead, though if we’re in the Habit of Doubt, that’s what we’ll be Trusting. Doubt is Crippling, but it’s the flip side of Confidence. Of course, with Ceres in Pisces, we won’t be thinking about what we’re Confident or Doubting about, Right?

This won’t last long, as Eurydike turns Retrograde 18 November (1am PST) and revisits Cancer on 25 November (8am PST), till the end of May. The 18 November Eurydike Station is our next Station, so we can count on wrestling with our Doubt till then. But let’s talk about that in the next post.

Halloween

October 31, 2020

I always make a lot more sense when I’m answering a direct question. Tonight my wife asked me what was going on astrologically for Halloween…

The 2020 Halloween Blue Moon Full Moon is a Stand-In for the Big Event of next Tuesday, which is when dwarf planet Varuna is Max Strong. The Full Moon is Crossing Stationary Varuna as we speak. Varuna is the Life Force. Will we still have Health Care (even if it’s mostly Care for the Cartel’s wallets, alotta people depend on it) after the Election next week? Will we Survive the Carumbavirus? Will we be able to make rent and eat? Basic stuff, very First-Chakra. You’re Feeling it already.

Meanwhile, Mercury – Mental Noise – is Lit Up on Tuesday as well. So most people are paying more Attention to the Brainrattling than the real Survival Issue, and the Antichrist is a Master at Brainrattling. Then Tuesday evening the Moon goes Outabounds, till Friday, so everybody’s gonna be Freaking Out. As soon as Varuna calms down early Wednesday afternoon, asteroid Hopi takes over (Standing Still early Saturday Morning). Hopi means Respect for All Things. So the Minorities who really take the Brunt of the American Compete-Or-Die Ethic as the Poster Children for Varuna will be Lit Up because the Cops will stand behind the AK47-toting White Supremacists as they giddily shoot anybody with a BLM sign.

Then early in the week after the Election, Ceres = Sustainability enters Pisces. You can already hear the Gnashing of Teeth as Pisces over-emotionalizes Predatory Capitalism’s total lack of Sustainability. And it’s about time somebody did, because it’s Killing All of Us and the Planet too. But the Tuesday after the Big Day, Eurydike = Trust enters Leo= Confidence, making for a huge Contrast. That’s probably when we’ll get the first hint of whether there was any legitimacy to the Election, or at least a few numbers. It’s not till the 18th that Eurydike Stands Still though, so Confusion will continue to Reign until then as Teeth-Gnashing and Confidence Compete for the Dewey headlines.

But just because Eurydike in Leo is Strong, doesn’t mean that Trust rules the day, as the Moon goes Outabounds again from November 16th to the 19th, so everyone’s Emotions are End-of-the-World riled. The 19th is kind of a watershed day, as asteroid Moira moves into Capricorn. Moira is about Fate and Choice. When our Karma is Unconscious, it’s our Fate, we just sleepwalk it. Once we bring it in Consciousness, we have Choice and we can do anything we want. “What, Karma? Don’t be silly – Been there Done that! I’m Outa Here.”

If there’s Civil War to any extent, Remember that you don’t have to Play. You can Choose to be Separate from it.

Moira will separate the Teeth-Gnashers from the AK47-Egos from the folks who will just be Pragmatically (Capricorn) Choosing (Conscious Moira) to make the Best of Whatever’s Going Down. Except…

On the 22nd, dwarf planet Nessus, which is about Abuse and Privilege, is Max Strong (Stationary), and on the 20th dwarf planet Gonggong (no kidding, there really is a dwarf planet Gonggong!), which is about Intrusive Memories, is Max Strong. So everyone’s going to be Regressing into their best Halloween Victim Disguises, Projecting all of the Abuse they’ve ever Received into whatever’s going on in the Present Moment. Meanwhile the Privileged 1% will inhabit their own Paranoid They’re going to take my Money (and probably my Guns unless I shoot first) Victim Acts. The Privileged 1% of course own all of the Supreme Court now, so we can’t expect Daddy to Rescue us.

But then on (actually, until) the 28th, Neptune goes Max Strong. Neptune means Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, so Confusion will Reign in the fourth week of November. But mid-week, Eurydike=Trust backs out of Leo, leaving the strutting Confidence-Gamers with their pants around their ankles and their day-of-the-week underwear exposed. A few hours later on the 25th, asteroid Sappho finally leaves Scorpio for Sagittarius, and we get to stop hunting that mouse in the garage (our Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love = Sappho) with the shotgun (Scorpio) and just Begin to Surrender into it (Sadge).

Giving us a possibility of a reasonably Peaceful Thanksgiving (in the US). The day after Thanksgiving, though, asteroid Atropos goes Max Strong, and Atropos is about Letting Go of Karmic Patterns. If we’re Aware that this is going on, we can Thank Them for Their Service and Wish Them Success in Crippling Other People’s Futures as they saunter off down the road, and then Celebrate our newfound Liberation!

How many of us will actually be doing that though? Letting Go of Karma is Scary, because it’s all we know, it’s what we’ve been Living All of Our Life. We don’t know what to do with the Blank Space that’s left behind, and with Neptune Max Strong, the only thing we’ll be able to Celebrate is Confusion. Which is a fabulous Habit to make, because Confusion is the first stage of Growth. And of course we could Celebrate the Spiritual Clarity, if we’re willing to seek it or let it find us.

Kind of a Blockbuster month, wasn’t it.

Before we dive into it, you might want to Resolve to Avoid Ego-Identifying with all the Sturm und Drang und Drama, and spend November Passively Observing Who You Actually Are. Not just What am I Thinking and Feeling about all this Intense Drama, but also, WHO IS IT that’s doing this Thinking and Feeling? Forget all the Adjectives that come to mind – that’s just more Thinking. What if you were a very small Entity hanging out somewhere Inside your Body? Where would that Be? Would “It” move around to different places, or would “It” have a favorite hangout? (At this level it may not be a She or a He.) Or what if It was a very large Energy Field Surrounding your Body? How Big would that be? How is It Connected to your Body?

But it ain’t over yet. There are two more oh-so-relevant astroevents on November 29th. First asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious Limitations, Merges with dwarf planet Orcus, which is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking. It turns out that our Unconscious Limitations are the result of Oaths or Vows or Promises or even Decisions that we made in Other Lifetimes. As we discussed at length in the previous post, our Self-Limiting Beliefs will be Lit Up for several months so we can Recognize that That Ain’t Really Us and Choose to be Someone Else.

So on the 29th, and in the week or so leading up to it, our Limited Beliefs will Meet Their Makers. If we Forget that It’s about Letting Go, it’ll be really Easy to instead Grab them, because they’ll be so Familiar and therefore so Comfortable. We just need to Remember that any time Limitation or Bummers arise, Let Them Go. You don’t need to Understand anything, you can just Let It Go. If you can’t Remember what it was a few minutes later, that’s fabulous, you’ve indeed Let It Go.

And on the 29th, asteroid Karma (you can imagine what it symbolizes) moves into Virgo till 23 January. We don’t Let Go of Karma without an Ego Death, because if we weren’t Ego-Attached to it, it wouldn’t be Karma. And the Essence of Virgo is Ego Death. So this will be a Nightmare of Struggles if we Resist it. Don’t. You go to visit a friend and you don’t recognize their street. You wake up and you can’t Remember your Passwords. You Forget people’s names, even your friends and colleagues. You can’t recall how to hold a fork, for God’s sake! Those are Signs of Ego Death. Celebrate them.

Those are gentle Ego Deaths, the kind that arise after you’ve Realized you’re up against your own Limitations, and you’ve Prayed to Let Them Go in some way or another. The not-so-gentle Ego Deaths are times like when you get really Angry when someone Insults you, even inadvertently (I’m being kinda flippant in this post, a lot less careful with my Language than usual – I may have Insulted you several times already!). Or you get really Embarrassed when you Forget your boss’s name, and there’s no way your boss is every going to know what an Ego Death is, and you go away in Shame.

Unpleasant Emotions like Anger and Shame and Grief and Sorrow are clues that you’re approaching an Ego Death, and you have the Option of Choosing it – by Lovingly Embracing the Unpleasant Emotion in your Body, or Rejecting it – by Thinking yourself more Deeply into the Anger or Shame or Grief or Sorrow. No Self-Blame though – we need to Think ourself Deep enough into the Unpleasant Emotion to be able to Know what we’re Embracing. Embracing the name of an Emotion is Just Thinking, not an Ego Death at all, though using that as a Mantra might invoke the Emotion.

Asteroid Karma returns to Virgo in June, July, and August for the real Work, the December-January Teaser is just an introduction. Between February and May it’s Dodging back deep into Leo, to gather up more Limitations that you can Ego-Death into Has-Beens.

Charts of the Portals XIV

September 27, 2020

As we Descend in earnest into Saturn-Chaos Stations (The Most Important Thing is That We Recognize Our Unlimited Potential in Response to Any Victim Feelings We May Have – for Instance, When We Feel Sick or Get Injured, Do We Recall that It’s Possible to Heal in an Instant, We’ve Just Forgotten How?  We Can PIAVA that We Remember, though!), there are a couple of Sign Changes that we’re experiencing.

On 26 September 2020 (11am PDT) asteroid Lachesis (Ending a Timeline, Unconsciously or Consciously) moves from Virgo (Ego Death) into Libra (Meeting Other).  A “TimeLine” can be any relatively coherent activity occurring in a time period – a Habit, a Relationship, a Chunk of Karma, a Preference, a Judgment, you name it.  The Mythical Lachesis was the Goddess who Measured the Length of your Fate, or a segment thereof.  When our Karma becomes Conscious, it moves from Fate to Choice.  Since we know that Karma is Dead, we can Choose to Excise a Chunk of it anytime we Recognize it and Choose to Respond Differently.

So for the last ten weeks, while Lachesis was in Virgo, we may have been Criticizing ourself, which is what we do when we’re in Judgment or Blame and Forget that we need to do an Ego Death to Escape it.  Or we may have been Feeling like we’re Dying, which is what we do when we’re trying to procrastinate on an Ego Death.  Or we may have been Feeling like “We’d Rather Die than go through That again,” which is what we Feel when one of our Karmic Held Emotions are up in our face so we can Remember that we can just Choose to Let Go Of them and be done with it.

And for the next eleven or so weeks, while Lachesis will be in Libra, the TimeLines that we Let Go Of, or Modify, or Renew, will be about Other – most likely Other People, but possibly Anything we don’t Ego-Identify with.  For instance, we might find ourself feeling like it’s time to make Changes in our Profession or Job, or a Relationship.  We may feel like getting or giving away a Pet.  We may Feel a need to Explore different ways of Relating to the World – becoming less or more Emotional, for instance, or Paying more Attention to our Body, or Meditating instead of Thinking, or Praying more.

On 27 September (12:30 am PDT), Ceres (Sustainability, Sustenance, Resilience, or the Opposite of same) moves from Pisces (Letting Go of Obsolete Emotional Patterns, or Avoiding same) back into Aquarius (Fixed Ways of Thinking, or Letting Go of same).  Ceres has been Adventuring into Pisces since late April, but has now decided it has remedial work to do with Aquarius till 10 November.  Since Ideology is one of the ways that Aquarius likes to Manifest, folks may be more Resistant to Change the Trances they Ego-Identify with.  Since Sympathy is one of the ways that Pisces likes to Manifest, folks may be more Hard-ass.

Should be interesting how the Glomonyavirus evolves, as the Covidiots may get more determined to celebrate their allegedly god-given constitutional right to go naked from the neck up in public just as the Autumn Surge in Viruses arrives.  And even more interesting to see if that shifts anyone’s Political Perspective, or just deepens their Trance.

Charts of the Portals IX

September 21, 2020

When our Responsiveness to our Survival Instincts finally Reboots “for good” (for far longer than our Lifetimes anyway) in 2022 (Quaoar Initiates Pholus, 21 February 2022, in 7 Capricorn), the event is not Cuspal.  The “Stinkbug chart”…

…occurs on the Cusps between Signs, which is astrological important, particularly for Blessings (Trines).  Trines represent Dumb-Luck Blessings because they usually connect Signs of the same Element (Fire, Air, Earth, or Water).

For instance, considering Emotions or Water Signs, Cancer (Cardinal Water) Generates Emotions, Scorpio (Fixed Water) Consolidates them, and Pisces (Mutable Water) Changes them.  So there is a Natural Flow of Energy between the three Signs, which Allows us to potentially be Complete with a Transaction.

The Grand Trine in the Stinkbug chart, however, includes two Mind (Air) Signs – Chaos in Gemini (Mutable Air) and Sappho-Juno in Libra (Cardinal Air), and one Emotion (Water) Sign – Aletheia-Ceres-Gonggong in Pisces (Mutable Water).  So the Energy of the Stinkbug Grand Trine starts by Generating Dualities (Libra), then Changing the Emotions (Pisces) that evolve from these Thoughts, and then Changing the Thoughts (Gemini) that arise from the New Emotions.  Rather than Flowing Smoothly to Completion, this Pattern is more likely to Increase Complications and Confusion.

Of course Confusion is the first Stage of Growth, to it’s not to be rued, but it may not be as obviously Dumb-Luck as the average Trine.  It’s still a Grand Trine, so the Grace is definitely there, it’s just likely to be disguised.  Prepare to be Surprised when Apparent Difficulties become Unexpected Blessings.

Now if we factor the planets into this equation…  The Energy of the Stinkbug Grand Trine starts by Generating Dualities around Self-Love and Consciousness (Sappho-Juno), then Changing our Emotions around Truth, Sustainability, and our Personal and Karmic History (Aletheia-Ceres-Gonggong) that evolve from these Thoughts about Self-Love and Consciousness, and then Changing Thoughts that arise from these New Emotions into Expansive Fantasies about How It Could Be (Chaos).

In other words, we could be Experiencing Glimpses of the World In Which We Really Want to Live while Dreaming for once that they might be Possible – which will Feel Complicated and Confusing.  All our Life, with a lot of help from Others, we’ve been Discounting the Possibility of Achieving our Dreams, so that will be the first Pattern that arises.

But this is dwarf planet Chaos.  It’s not about Possibility, it’s about Potential.  So don’t Discount your “Expansive Fantasies” here, instead use them as the ground for your Focus on The World You Want to Live In, whenever you catch yourself thinking about The World you Don’t Want to Live In.  Remember that we’re at a Crossroads here, and we’re wasting the Fruits of a Hard-Fought Lifetime if we Decide to be Victimized by all of the Changes that are Going On and will increasingly be Going On.

Another Caveat…  We Create the Dynamic way by Discounting the Improbable and Planning all of the intermediate steps to Building what we want to Bring into Form.  Dynamic Manifestation requires that we know What We Want, What It Will Look Like, and How to Build It.  It’s not Possible to Change Our World with those Constraints.  We need Magnetic Manifestation – PIAVA – to Create What We’ve Never Created, only Craved.

So besides indulging your Karmic Habits of Discounting What You Want, the second-best way to Kill it is to Believe that you have to know How to Create it.  Magnetic Creativity works by Focusing on What You Want and assiduously avoiding Focusing on the Mechanisms that might Create it.  You’re in Design here, not Engineering.  You Build the Energy, and let the Form come to you – that’s the Magnetic part!

So, if you get Confused here, Let It Be.  We need to be able to Sit with Confusion as an Emotion, without trying to “Fix” or Change it, if we are going to use it as our Engine for Growing Consciousness.  And if things get Complicated, Laugh it Off.  The Complications are part of the Engineering.  Your job is to Hold your Single-Minded Focus on What You Want.

Now, as of today, Self-Love (Sappho) and Consciousness Growth (Juno) have moved out of Creative Thought (Libra), and into Consolidating Emotion, aka Passion (Scorpio).  So our Process has Changed.  Our Dumb-Luck Grace no longer has a Motivator (Cardinal Sign).  Chaos won’t get to Cancer (Cardinal Water) till 2023, so we’re going to have to look elsewhere for a Starter.  In other cases, we’d have to Generate the Motivation ourself, but in this case we’re in luck, we have a Kite (a fourth planet midway between two of the Grand Trine planets) and the top of the Kite is in Capricorn (Cardinal Earth)!

So now the Energy begins with How We Want to Respond to Our Physical Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar in Capricorn).  Praying for a Planetary Healing is Noble, and every bit helps.  But Praying (PIAVAing, Meditating) for the World that WE Want to Live In, for the World that Supports Our Own Personal Survival and Bliss, adds a whole ‘nother Dimension, namely our Personal Passion, without violating anyone else’s Freedom to Manifest their own Reality – on their own World, not ours.

To move the Energy from Creation to Stabilization to Change (Cardinal-Fixed-Mutable), we need to run the Kite backwards (Capricorn-Scorpio-Gemini-Pisces).  So we use the Energy in our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar in Capricorn), which run about as Deep as any Energy, to Excite our Passion for Growing our Unconditional Self-Love (Sappho-Juno in Scorpio) to Allow our Karmic Limitations to Shift and Open Up our Boundless Potential (Chaos in Gemini) so it Changes our Emotional History (Gonggong/OR10 in Pisces) and Creates an Internal Reality (Emotion<->Thought) that Sustains the Truth of our Heart (Ceres-Aletheia)which will Change (Pisces) as we bring it out of our Hope Chest and wipe away the Spiderwebs.

Full House Lunar Eclipse

July 3, 2020

Finally, in the 10pm PDT 4 July 2020 Full Moon Penumbral Lunar Eclipse in 14 Capricorn – and the Emphasis we Experience on Sustainability we’ll Feel till at least 9pm PDT 6 July (dwarf planet Ceres [Sustainability and Sustenance] Stationary in 13 Pisces) – we find an astroConfiguration we have to call a Full House, though it’s really a “Grand Unx,” an Unx being the Angle created when two planets are one sign apart, the word Unx meaning one twelfth.  And “Grand” meaning they dance all the way ’round the Mulberry bush…

Ain’t she gorgeous?  Downright Kaleidoscopic.

Speaking of Lucy, I had no idea this had happened…

https://www.theguardian.com/sport/2020/jun/30/dock-ellis-lsd-no-hitter-pittsburgh-pirates-baseball

For those of us who Strive (Wer immer Strebend…, as Goethe put it) for Beginner’s Mind and 5D, this is the Ideal chart, because the Unx is about Pattern-BreakingKarma = Inertia = Patterns, ergo, Letting Go of Karma = Pattern-Breaking = the Unx And it’s not about something we have to do, it’s something we just have to Let HappenIts so Easy!

Which is actually the hard part!  We’re so Habituated to our Karma that when it threatens to Break, we Leap to Save It!  We Expect it, and anything Different Feels Unnatural.  Much of the time, our Unconscious Limitations are running our Show, and we don’t even Realize that Anything Else is Possible!  We Believe that it’s Just the Way It Is.  The rest of the time we Actively Defend our Karma.  What could possibly go wrong?  Well, now’s our Chance!  We have the Goddess on our Side here!

I guess we should start with the Moon (our Instincts), since She’s the Star of the Show.  She’s Merged with (Conjunct) Her Codependence (dwarf planet Hylonome [Self-Sovereignty]) but She’s getting Suspicious [asteroid Veritas [Analytical Truth]) that Her Codependence isn’t really Serving Her.  Especially since Her Heart’s Truth (asteroid Aletheia) and Her Boss’s Boss’s Boss (the Great Attractor [A Heavy Authority that our Galaxy Follows, which is in turn A Heavy Authority that our Sun Follows]) are both jawing at Her (Moon-Hylonome-Veritas Unx to both Aletheia and the Great Attractor).

The Co-Star of the Show, Sustainability (Stationary Ceres), like everyone else in the chart, has two sets of Patterns that are up for Reverting (two Unxes).  The fastest way to get to Sustainability is to move toward Sustenance by Removing the Unnecessary, but that word has some baggage because the Condor people (the Indigenous People in John Perkins’s Touching the Jaguar pp.98-100), who have the Wisdom to save us from Self-Genocide, have had their Attunement to the Earth mislabeled as “Subsistence,” as if it’s a lower level of Existence.  Sustenance also sounds like “barely Existing.”  So we’ll choose the currently PC term Resilience instead.

Before we get to the Sustainability-and-Resilience Unxes though, we have to deal with Abuse and Privilege (Stationary Ceres Conjunct dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege]).  As Victims of Abuse, we always need to find a way to make our Response Sustainable – Let Go of Cause and Blame, own our Anger as the Pure Motivating Emotion that it is, Avoid Projecting it into places where it will inhibit What We Want, and Strive for Neutrality.  Neutrality doesn’t mean Abandoning our Passion.  It means being able to direct our Passion in ways, and into the places, where it will Manifest What We Want.  We’re certainly being Asked, by the immense Surge in Awareness about Racism, to make our Privilege Resilient.  We do that by Removing the Unnecessary and redefining Privilege from Wealth and Power to AbundanceHaving Enough to Share.

Bear in mind that not everyone Strives for Beginner’s Mind and 5D and a Collaborative World.  Many People still Strive for Wealth and Power in a Competitive World.  Make the Choice to Leave those People Behind in 3D.  3D is a lower level of Existence, and it’s Addictive.  Give them the Choice, but don’t stay in 3D to protect them from their Karmic Work.

One of Sustainability’s Unxes is to Truth of the Heart (Aletheia).  Most of us have a quiver full of Programmed Skills for Blocking the Heart’s Truth when it Conflicts with the Mind’s Logic, and worse, with our Limiting Beliefs and our Programming.  The Door is Open for Letting Go of some of those Habitual Skills and Welcoming the Unknown as a Gateway to Peace and Fulfillment.

Sustainability’s other Unx is to Despair and Miracles (Chiron).  We need to make Discouragement a Red Flag for us, and as soon as we see it waving, we need to give ourself an Opportunity to Explore what we’re Feeling without Contaminating it with what we’re Thinking about What we’re Feeling, while knowing full well that Cause and Blame are Thoughts, not Emotions.  Wouldn’t hurt to set a timer, so we wouldn’t “Trip Out so far that we never get back to know that we left,” aka Get Lost in the maze that always Spawns when we Allow Emotion and Thought to Confuse one another.  After this exercise, we need to Poor-Sweetheart ourself, or Tap it Out and PIAVA What We Want.

Uranus (Soul) has its own two Unxes, with Despair and Miracles (Chiron) and with Respect for All Things (Hopi).  Can you see how we’ve Examined the Moon and Ceres, and take your own stab at doing the same for Uranus?  I don’t expect yours and mine to look the same (Vive le Différence), because we’re Different People with Different natal charts, Different Karmic Patterns, Different Languaging, Different Cultural and Ancestral Histories and Herstories, and Different Life Experiences, at the very least.  But as I get time I’ll go on around the loop, so you can see how our Interpretations agree and differ.  Not to Compare Content, though Exploring Differences in Content can be eye-opening.  But to see if we’re using the same Method, and if we’re Happy with the Result.  You might end up using a Method that works better for you – if so I’d love to hear about it!

Then do the same for Sun-Vesta (Letting Go of Limiting Beliefs), Orcus (Breaking Obsolete Patterns), and Poseidon.  Oops, you caught me cheating.  I plugged a new asteroid into what would otherwise have been a Vacancy.  I plugged it in thinking it was just another spelling for Neptune.  But I think, like Veritas and Aletheia it’s not just that.  I’ll Explore Poseidon more, to see how it differs from Neptune.

Note that the Unx is in the same Angle family as the Quincunx – it’s about Curiosity.  So don’t hesitate to Suffix your Interpretations with “…or something like that.”  And do the same with mine as you’re reading them.

Fate/Choice/Action New Moon

August 31, 2019

The 30 August 2019 (3:30 am PDT) 7 Virgo New Moon holds Suzerainty over the first two weeks of September.  It’s Merged with (Conjoins) the planet symbolizing Action (Mars) and the asteroid symbolizing Fate and Choice (Moira).  If you still Believe that Fate and Free Will are a matter of Debate, think again.  Like every other Either/Or, we know that this resides only in the mind, not in External Reality, because only the mind is Dualistic.

Being Unitary and Multifarious, External Reality is replete with Paradox.   And the Paradox isn’t even a property of Reality, it’s just a word meaning that mind isn’t capable of getting beyond Duality.  No Blame there, the mind is very good at what it does well – Process Dualities.  Western Culture is just woefully overdue at realizing that the mind only works on B&W snapshots, not even B&W videos, let alone 3D Reality in all its Throbbing, Flittering Technicolor Complexity.  The mind has yet to Realize that by Projecting Duality onto Reality, Huperity is irreparably fouling its own Nest.

The Earth will Survive and do just fine.  If She can toss off an Ice Age with the (time-adjusted) Ease that you take off your jacket, and roast the Dinosaurs by calling in a passing friendly asteroid to Embrace (That was some Barbecue!), She won’t hesitate a bit to flick off an infestation of Huper-Fleas.  Which is excellent support for the jump to 5D.  First though we need to Recognize that Ego-Identifying with mind keeps us in 2D!

The Difference between Fate and Free Will is a Choice.  Belief in Fate is the equivalent of Acceptance that your Karma is unavoidable.  Don’t Blame yourself for that Limitation; it’s been Preached by Powermongers and Greedheads ever since at least the Greeks, in the all-too-often successful effort to encourage us to Give Away Our Power.  Instead of Blame, try saying to yourself, You Poor Sweetheart, you Believe in Fate, don’t you.”  Since we all have Unconscious Limitations, it wouldn’t hurt any of us to say that to ourself.

Then, of course, Change the Subject, and if you want, PIAVA to Lovingly and Gently but Rapidly and Completely, Reduce your Limitations.

If you run across any term here that you don’t understand, like PIAVA, look it up under the “Categories” in the right-hand column.  If you don’t have a right-hand column on your screen, open https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/.

Changing the Subject after any Invocation of our Feminine Power (such as PIAVA, Poor-Sweetheart, etc.) is necessary because if we continue to think about what we’re PIAVAing or Poor-Sweethearting, we’ll trap ourself in our Old 2D Paradigm, because the mind is incapable of reaching beyond its current Limitations.  We have to Solicit our Intuition to stretch beyond our current Limitations.

I’m sure you’ve Noticed that our Evolution has sped up markedly, and the Changes have deepened.  Ego Death has become a daily Adventure that we can barely keep up with.  The next one hits us while we’re still in Infancy from the last one, sending us Reeling.  The Sign Virgo is the Bridge from Leo the Pinnacle of Individuality (for better or worse) and Libra the Introduction to Other.  This New Moon is in the Virgo third (Decanate) of the Virgo Sign!  Ego Death galore!

The New Moon chart is pretty easy to interpret…

That blue box with the red asterisk and the green dos equis inside is a Configuration (Yin Gate) that means we’re in a Mystery School.  A Mystery School means that we’re being taken beyond 2D.  The mind is very persistent; it will Resist mightily if we let it.  The red line in the middle of the blue box is the place where 2D breaks, the place where we need to replace Understanding with Wonder and (Permanent) Curiosity.  It appears to be a Contradistinction (Opposition), but we know Contradistinctions and Contradictions exist only in the Dualistic mind.  So we have to PIAVA to Grok the Mystery embedded in it.

This red line connects the astrological symbol for Despair and Miracles (Chiron) to the symbol for Creative Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake).  That’s pretty straightforward – to maximize our Creative Manifestation we need only Replace our Despair with Miracles.  We can do that easily enough with “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you.” and then Changing the Subject.  Difficulty arises because we’ve Felt our Despair – our Unconscious Limitations – so long that we just think of it as The Way It Is.  So we may not even know we’re in Despair, Despair being any Belief that something is not Possible.

We might be better off with the likes of “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Limited, aren’t you.”  I mean, who among us doesn’t Feel Limited about something, most of the time.  If you believe those Limitations reside outside yourself, you haven’t read enough “Science Fiction”…

You can even say to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Limited about …, aren’t you.”

There’s one addendum to the Yin Gate; notice how the lighter lines connect the question mark or inverted cuphook at the bottom of the chart (dwarf planet Ceres) to the planets in the blue box.  The question mark signifies Sustainability and it’s inverse, Sustenance.  This addendum means that it’s not enough to just Grok the Mystery of Creative Manifestation of Miracles here; we need to Adopt it so we can put it in our Toolkit for daily use.

The question mark symbolizes a Challenge (focus of a  T-Square) to the apparent Contradistinction (Opposition) between our Grasp of Active Choice as the preferred alternative to Fate and Karma (Mars-Moira New Moon) on the one hand, and Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet OR10) on the other.  Some of our Intrusive Memories are Intuitions.  Some of them are Guidance from the Other Side.  Most of the rest are Karmic krap.  The Challenge is Sorting Out which is which, Trusting the Intuitions, Evaluating the Guidance, and rejecting the Karma. 

We get our first big Test between now and 3 September, when the whole issue of Trust is Lit Up Bigtime (asteroid Eurydike Stationary), culminating at 3:30 pm PDT 3 September).  It’s a very complex-looking chart, which we’ll try to sort out in our next post.

2020 Part 4 and Revelation Full Moon II

July 17, 2019

I don’t remember where I read it, but in the last week or so someone was writing that the Creed of Greed in the “Developed” World was depressing the Living standards of the 99% so quickly that, on their way down, they’d be meeting the folks from the “Developing” World on their way up.

That conclusion seemed obvious as soon as Lester Brown pointed out that the “Developed” World was using 22 times as many Finite Resources per capita as the rest of the World, and that the Planet did not hold nearly enough Resources to bring the others up to the “Developed” standard, even if Huper population wasn’t mushrooming.  When was that – the 1990s?

Here are a few Perspectives…

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2019/jul/17/hes-a-gulf-war-vet-who-stepped-up-during-katrina-now-hes-an-environmental-crusader

” ‘Because all the plans we have now are stupid shit.  They’re all stacked the wrong way,’ said Honoré.  ‘They rely on people standing and waiting until hundreds of people start dying before we get moving.  We gotta get smarter.’ “

https://www.bloomberg.com/features/2019-workers-of-the-world/

A hint about all of the interactions no one is thinking through as everyone invents their own digital gadgets.  And how will 5G mess with all these things, and how long will this be Denied?

https://www.aboutlawsuits.com/hearing-aid-magnets-warning-158963/

 

Meanwhile, we’re in the Grip of the 16 July Revelation Full Moon.  As we mentioned, the Full Moon, which is a Partial Lunar Eclipse that’s visible from Rio to Helsinki to Perth and points between, signifies Illumination, though the Grace may be ambiguous because what becomes Visible is what we’ve been Denying (Full Moon Square dwarf planet Eris) for a long time and may prefer to continue to Deny.  If we Open to it, though, it will Change our Life for the better (Eris in Aries Opposite dwarf planet Haumea).  The Bottom Line will be more Self-Sovereignty (Mjōlnir to Lilith from Sun Square Haumea).  The chart…

Notice how Transcendence (asteroid Bee-Zed) of Resistance to our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) is so Gracefully (making a blue Golden Rectangle with Haumea-Eris) woven into the mix.

Here’s a cute simulation of the 25 Capricorn Partial Lunar Eclipse…

In my Experience though, the shaded part of the Moon doesn’t get nearly as dark.

Normally the impact of a Full Moon is Strongest for the following two weeks.  This one’s a bit different because one of its most Prominent planets, the one about Opening to Denial (Eris), is at it’s Strongest (Stationary) a few days later, on 20 July (7pm PDT).  The chart of this astroevent is basically similar to the Eclipse chart above.

Just to make sure we’re Paying Attention here, the symbol for Sustainability and Sustenance (dwarf planet Ceres) is at it’s Strongest (Stationary) on the Cusp of Sagittarius on 17 July (noon PDT)…

The Primary Focus (top of a Kite) of this chart is the symbol for Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna).  If you Notice yourself touching the Essence of what’s Holding you Back from Living Your Dreams this week, and Notice yourself backing off from it so you can stay in Denial, meet that Challenge with a couple of Kegels.

The Edges of Consciousness are always very Subtle, like an Intuition, and just as Easy to ignore.  Dive into it instead.  Surrender yourself into your Hesitation to leap forward and upward.  You know that your Old Patterns are Comfortable, but you also know that they don’t take you where you Want to Go.  Step into a New Pattern while the Opportunity is ripe.

Earth Repair 1

May 9, 2019

http://dyarrow.org/BlueLightWater/

Self-Sovereignty

April 8, 2019

Though the 5 April Sovereignty New Moon (see previous post) remains in full effect, we’re also well into a new Time Province, the astrohighlights of which are…

  • 4-8 April brings an Emphasis on Sustainability, which includes our Ability and Willingness to drop that which is Unnecessary, since Sustenance is the other side of the Resilience Coin.  (Ceres Station in 15 Sagittarius, 8 April 9:30 pm PDT.)  Sagittarius 15 is the location of the “Great Attractor,” which is an unknown Source of Cosmic Suction that’s pulling our Galaxy and many others toward itself.
  • 3-10 April Challenges us to Let Go of the Limitations that Inhibit us from Expanding in all Directions – our Horizons, our Perspectives, our Relationships, our Life, and in particular, Limitations on our Loving Attention to the Guidance provided by our Emotions and Instincts.  (Jupiter Station in 25 Sagittarius, 10 April, 10am PDT, Opposed by the Moon.)
  • 6-13 April is likely to see issues of Vitality becoming prominent.  An excellent time to Expand our notions about Healing.  What Inhibits or Prevents our own Healing?  Who taught us that there were Limits to Healing?  Have we begun to Realize how wrong they were?  (Varuna Station in 1 Leo, 13 April, 10:30 am PDT.)
  • 9-16 April will find us Exploring Practical issues around our Sovereignty.  If we Respond with Obedience to those who want us to follow Their Rules, how does that make us Feel?  How often do we get Practice Responding Differently?  Do we even Notice when we’re Obeying our own Programming, our Shoulds?  Maybe it’s time to Practice shaking things up a little, starting with places where the Impact won’t be too Consequential.  Self-Sovereignty is already Critically important, and it will only become more so.  (Hylonome Station in 15 Capricorn, 16 April, 4:30 pm PDT.)

Here’s an excerpt from Dan Scranton’s recent Channeling on this…

https://danielscranton.com/self-expression-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“So many humans are afraid to express themselves as they truly are, because of a fear of backlash, whether from parents, friends, co-workers, teachers, or even government officials.  There are so many beings on your world that you give your power away to.  There are so many other humans that have positions of authority and so many humans who feel afraid to be who they really are because of what could happen as a result.

“And those fears really are about what has happened already in other lifetimes, but you all don’t know that.  And so, there are many awakened individuals now who are the trailblazers in terms of their willingness to be unique and different and in terms of their willingness to express themselves in spite of what might happen if the wrong person or people were to find out.  That’s the type of courage humanity needs right now.”

Very much an underscore on the 5 April New Moon.

Once we get past the Ides of April, we enter what we’ve referred to as “Dark Days.”  That of course is Optional, but many astrologers – those prefer to stoke Egos and Fear, will label it so and many people – those who cower before Growth, will Experience it so.  Simply put, the theme of the last half of April is The Most Important Thing is the Transformation of our Self-Confidence.  Really all we have to do, is Remember to Refuse to Believe the content of our Doubts.  We’ll talk more about this as the month proceeds.