Full Moon Blessings II

There is a third Diamond Star in the Full Moon chart, this one to the Venus T-Square.  The Bowl of Grace in it consists of the Moon and Saturn-Hylonome.

This is a tightly Integrated series of Gifts, where each Reinforces the Others.

The Vacancy that would create a more-Balanced Grand Cross out of the Venus T-Square is 8 Sagittarius, “Within the depths of the Earth new elements are being formed: The Alchemical Fire that both purifies and transforms the Inner Life.”

Vacancies typically are Energies that we have to provide Consciously, but in this case Goddess Gaia/Pi is doing it for us.  We reinforce the Energy by Paying Attention to it.  In Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian Channeling yesterday…

http://danielscranton.com/conscious-evolution-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“You are putting an emphasis on the evolution of your consciousness.  Now, this is something that happens naturally, without any intervention on your part.  But when you put an emphasis on it, you are doing more good than you know. 

“You are choosing to live in a reality where the emphasis on the evolution of consciousness is something that is an invitation that is being offered to all beings.  You can live in whatever reality you want to live in, and where you put your emphasis determines which reality you will find yourselves in…

“We just want you all to recognize yourselves as being the creators of the experience that you are having.  It is a much better experience than most of the alternatives that you are faced with, but because you chose to put an emphasis on raising your vibration, being more of who you are, and being of service, that is the reality that you are going to experience as you continue on in this journey.”

And from today’s…

http://danielscranton.com/breaking-free-from-programming-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“You are breaking free from the chains that you placed upon yourselves before incarnating in this lifetime.  You had to have these chains in place until you were ready to bring yourselves to the fifth dimensional frequency range.

“You knew that there were certain experiences that you had to have this lifetime to set yourselves up for the full integration of all aspects of who you are and who you have been, and now that you have lived those experiences you have much more freedom than you have ever had in any Earthly lifetime.

“The chains are no longer there, but the programming still is…

“The easiest way for you to release yourselves from the programming is to turn off your TVs, your computers, your phones, and all of your devices, get out into nature, and feel for the truth of the high frequency energies that have been competing with that programming for quite some time.  Just as you are free from those chains, you have made yourselves available to these energies, and they have made themselves available to you.

“But the lower frequency vibrations of the social programming has been the interference.  It has been keeping you divided.  It has been telling you that you have reason to be afraid, and it has you striving for a level of success that has nothing to do with becoming more of who you are.“

The Blessings continue…

Including the Full Moon but not the Nodal Axis, dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking), Saturn-Hylonome, and Nessus comprise five of the six points that would Complete a Magnetic Grand Sextile.  The Vacancy that would Complete it is 10 Cancer, “A large Diamond in the first stages of the cutting process.”

Again, our Task is to Pay Attention to the World We Are Creating rather than the one that we want to leave.  As Jewel put it…

“Lend your voices only to sounds of Freedom
No longer lend your strength to that which you wish to be free from”…

Which includes Paying Attention to the fact that we’re still in the “first stages” of Shaping our Diamond.

Not that we aren’t Spectacular and Gorgeous just the way we are, but getting smug when we aren’t finished with our Mission just sets ourself up for unnecessary future Ego Deaths.

While we’re on the subject of Oath-Making and -Breaking (Orcus), we need to point out something that we seldom mention – the short green lines in any chart.  These are the “Unxes” – the seldom-used word Unx means one twelfth of something, and an Unx is a Twelfth-Harmonic Angle, or two planets that are one Sign apart. 

The Twelfth Harmonic is the “Hanging Man,” but he isn’t Hanging by his Fingernails or Neck, rather by his Heels – in order to get a new Perspective on the World and Break Old Patterns.  There are usually a number of Unxes in each chart, and each one Creates an Opportunity to Break Free of our Programming and of the places to which we No Longer want to Lend our Strength.

Let’s look at a few examples…

In addition to the Diamond-Star Trine Bridges, the Full Moon is also Bridged by a Quincunx to asteroid Sappho.  We’d usually focus on PIAVAs that would attempt to preserve the Curiosity inherent in the Quincunx (two planets five Signs apart), because that Natural Curiosity is a red flag indicating a Pattern that we have a current Opportunity to Explore more deeply.

For instance, Moon in Scorpio Quincunx Sappho in Aries.  Marko Pogačnik (Sacred Geography, p.104) suggests…

“To perceive Water Beings [Scorpio] one can use the language of traditional symbols attributed to them.  Standing in front of a water body, imagine that your buttocks are covered with fish scales and your legs are shaped like a movable fish tail.  Then quickly detach yourself from your imagination and open yourself instantly to perception.”

and (p.107)…

“To get a good perception of Fire Beings [Aries], one should concentrate on the warmth and pulsation of the blood within one’s veins – which represents the Fire Element within our body.  Open your perception from there.”

These would both be great PIAVAs.  We could start each of these exercises by briefly calling to mind a current Emotional (Water/Scorpio) or Spiritual (Fire/Aries) Difficulty or Question we have.   Then we could follow with a PIAVA about how they are Related. 

If you’ve ever had a gas stove and flicked water into the flame, you see the flame turn from blue to orange briefly, as the heat cleaves the highly flammable Hydrogen from the other Element in the Water, the Oxygen that Ignition requires.  Water and Fire are not so far apart as one would think.

Emotion can quench Spirit (Water extinguishing Fire), Held Emotions by cutting part of ourself off from the rest of ourself, and Intense Emotion just by demanding our Full Attention and blotting out Spiritual Perspective.  In the former case we’d like to Strive for Wholeness; in the latter we have to Surrender to the Overwhelm for a while in order for the Emotions not to become Held. 

But in appropriate proportions, Spiritual Fire can Break Up the Persistence of Emotions.  In the Wild, we often either processed Emotion quickly, or became someone else’s dinner.  No Blame there, we’re just returning the favor, as so many times Other Beings have become our dinner, and we’re just Giving Back.  Many tuned-in Cultures “bury” their Dead on platforms, so the Nutrients can be directly Recycled by the Critters that the Culture Co-Exists with and Cooperates with to maintain Sustenance.

This is a Waning Quincunx, so beginning to think about Recycling is appropriate.

But let’s look at the Unx half of the Quincunx Bridge – Sun Unx Sappho, Breaking Patterns around, or Gaining New Perspective on, how our Essence and our Self-Love Relate to one another.

A reader today writes…

“The work now becomes ‘growing’ those skills of boundaries, healthy anger, putting True Mission first, finding Right Community and all the rest.  Certainly work of a lifetime!  Plus continual Loving of the parts that still feel Betrayed, Abandoned and Shamed.  I kept wanting Justice, but now I’m just aiming to become aware of, and Love, those sad, angry, and hopeless parts, without changing them into something more ‘acceptable.’ “

Our Essence often Values Justice, but we always need to remind ourself that Nothing Changes Until We Accept It Fully Just As It Is.  It’s not like the Urge for Justice then goes away; it’s that without the Emotional Load (which is usually runoff from some distantly-related Held Emotion) we’re much more Able to Act Effectively to Change the World in (usually small but) Measurable ways.

Our reader continues…

“There is still some difficulty, in that you and many others talk about the thoughts we have as shaping our timelines.  And so I feel uncertain as to how I can welcome these… less pleasant?… manifestations while not having them rule any capability I have to set new directions.”

We don’t talk enough about Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade, but it’s a very important tool for dealing with unwelcome Thoughts.  The Statement Asks the Universe to Cancel the “Negative” thought we just had, Neutralize the Vibration it has Projected into the Ethers, and Upgrade the Thinker (that be us).  With practice we can build the Habit of issuing this Directive quickly after thoughts that could potentially Create Realities we don’t Want. 

While we’re working to develop that Habit, we can follow the Invitation that the Unconscious has offered through the “Negative” thought – Gestalt immediately springs to mind.  We would not have had that Negative thought (says the Jungian) if it did not have a Positive purpose for our Enlightenment.  So there is a part of us that regards this as Negative, and a part of us for which this is evidently some form of Truth.

We could Tap Out the “Even though I sometimes think [this Negative thought] [Negative Thoughts (in general)], I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself…”  That could help squelch the thought.  But the Gestalt process could help us Get To The Bottom Of It (which is what Scorpio is all about).  The Negative thought is an Expression of something we actually Want, we’re just in the Habit of Expressing it in Negative terms, probably because someone once told us that What We Want wasn’t Politically Correct.

Fritz (Perls) had us Imagine two chairs.  In one chair would sit the part of us that is in the Habit of reciting this Negative thought, and in the other chair was the part of us that is in the Habit of Judging this particular thought as Negative.  The first assignment is to Discover What the part of us in the Negative chair Wants that will make a Positive contribution to our Lives.

For instance, maybe the part of us in the Negative chair is in the Habit of thinking about Fear of Scarcity.  Well, an obvious possibility could be that what the part of us in the Negative chair really Wants, is Abundance, and it’s trying to urge us to work on Strategies for same.  Maybe.  This is always an “…or something like that” game as Eugene Gendlin would say.  Conclusions are Killers.  Possibilities are Life-Enhancers. 

Or maybe our Negative thought is an Intuition that some element is flawed in the Abundance Strategy that we already have.  Or maybe it’s an Intuition that since our Abundance Strategy is an attempt to Control an Uncertain Future, we should perhaps consider switching to PIAVAs about Future Abundance, where we specify What We Want (Katherine Ponder reminds us that Abundance means Having Enough to Share), Trust that the Universe will Provide that in its own way, and Tap Out the Anxiety underlying our Negativity.

Now of course in the other chair sits our Judgments.  Which is worse relative to the Evolution of our Consciousness – Judgment, or a poorly worded Desire for Abundance (if that’s what it was)?  Do we Judge Judgment?  This may be an Opportunity to Differentiate Blame (assignment of Past Causation) from Response-Ability (attempting to improve Future Outcomes).

You can see the Vast Field of Opportunity Opening up here!  Remember that Growth in Consciousness is not about Discovery; it’s about Differentiation.  The Complete Universe has always been here; there are just parts of it that we haven’t been in the Habit of Differentiating from background “Noise.”  That Bird was in the Bush all along; we just didn’t See it till it moved.  If it was could have been our Dinner and it just flew out of range, Growth in Consciousness – and Survival, might mean Upgrading our Attention and Sensitivity to Shapes and Colors.

For instance, in moment of writer’s block I often play a game of Solitaire on an ancient laptop.  It’s recently gone crazy with its colors, so I now have the Shape of the suits, but not the Colors.  It demands an additional layer of thought, where Habit no longer works, which is a real Pain in the Scales.  It’s Exhausting rather than Relaxing, as Learning often is.  The Universe is trying to tell me something, I have no idea what, but it obviously has to do with Recognizing Shapes.

Some of the Angles in this chart I’ve drawn in with light lines, in order to emphasize the many primary Configurations, but please don’t regard the light lines as less important.

For instance, there are six Fingers of God in the Full Moon chart, each one Asking us to Pay Attention To This!  We’ve already talked about Ceres-North Node, Venus, the Moon, and Saturn-Hylonome.  Hidden in the light lines are additional Fingers of God to Sappho and Orcus.  We’ve talked about both of those, but in the process we haven’t noted the Importance that the Fingers of God add to their Impact.  You might want to reread about them in that Light.

Which leaves the Grand Quintile and it’s other celebrity (in addition to the North Node-Ceres Initiation), the Sedna-Moira Initiation (5:30 pm PDT 27 April).  We’ll write about that soon, but if you want homework, we’ve written about the interaction between Moira and Sedna at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/08/27/eclipsalypse-iv/.

Full Moon Blessings I

At first glance this Full Moon (6pm PDT 29 April) looks like a mess…

But it’s actually full of Blessings.  Let us count the ways…

The Full Moon itself illuminates our Mission, just as we’re in the process of opening up to Easily Learning (without irksome “Learning Opportunities”) new ways to Sustain our Priority Attention to it, Playfully Worshiping the way Mother Nature and Goddess Gaia/Pi Support us.

The Full Moon (Illumination) Squares (Challenges) the Nodal Axis (Mission and Karma), with North Node (Mission) Conjunct (Merged With) asteroid Ceres (Sustainability).  The North Node Initiates Ceres on 30 April (8pm PDT), starting a new 3-year 9-month Cycle at 11 Leo, “Children playing on a swing hanging from the branches of a huge Oak tree.”

This corner of the Grand Cross is the corner of the major Configurations (Grand Cross, T-Square) that intersects the Grand Quintile (light purple lines) which signifies the Gift of Important Wisdom about Sustaining our Mission.  More on this later.

North Node-Ceres is also one of two that are Diamond Stars (a T-Square and a Finger of God pointing to the same place).  A Diamond Star is the Gift of a Key to Resolving a Dilemma. 

The Gift of Easy Learning flows from our new but growing Realization that The Most Important Thing is Letting Go of our Attachment to Abuse and Privilege. 

The “Bowl of Grace” under the North Node-Ceres T-Square consists of Trine Bridges (the Easy Way) by Saturn-Hylonome (The Most Important Thing is Letting Go of Codependence) and dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege).

#MeToo is a step in this direction, as Reactions to Abuse that are Held Inside are not likely to Heal, and Unconscious Attachment to Privilege is not likely to Change without Exogenous Wake-Up Calls.  As Alan said, it’s harder to Let Go of our “Good” Karma (the Patriarchy considers Privilege to be Good Karma) than our “Bad.”  And one reason for Holding Abuse Inside is Fear of Losing Privilege.

The new Saturn-Hylonome Cycle doesn’t Initiate till 25 December of this year (10:30 am PDT), at 11 Capricorn, “A large group of Pheasant on a private estate,” invoking the Enclosure of the Commons. 

In 18th-Century England the Privileged Aristocracy took lands that had been dedicated to the Sustenance of All (the “Commons”), and declared them to be Private Property where all of their Resources belonged to the new “owner,” while the People lost their right to hunt and forage.   Have you thought much about how your concept of private property jibes with 5D?  As the measure of individual Success at the Expense of Others, private property is a foundation of the modern Patriarchy.

The second Diamond Star in the Grand Cross focuses on the Moon – Authenticity, Instinct, Yintegrity.  It’s Bowl of Grace is comprised of Trine Bridges by Venus (Values) and asteroid Sappho (Self-Love).

The Full Moon will also Illuminate Values which we continue to hold but which Sabotage our Authenticity, Instinct, Yintegrity, and Self-Love.

Gauntlet XII – More Con Games

Well, we get a couple of weeks without Stations, till the Ides of May.  That should be a relief.

In the interim, Action/Agitation meets Compulsion on 26 April (4am PDT) when Pluto Initiates Mars, beginning a new two-year Cycle at 22 Capricorn, “By accepting defeat gracefully, a general reveals nobility of character.”  As Alan Watts averred, it’s harder to Let Go of our “Good” Karma than our “Bad” Karma.  So we may be Asked to Let Go of our Attachment to Success over the next few days and the next couple of years.

Then on 28 April (12am PDT) Juno leaves Pisces and moves into Aries.  Since Juno represents the Edges of Consciousness, that should make Life a little Easier, as we’re likely to be Growing our Spiritual Consciousness more rather than our Emotional Consciousness.  While Held Emotions (the one we’d Rather Die than Feel) may not be so prominent, we’re still likely to be dealing with Death, as one of the more prominent elements of Spirit is its immutability.  If that’s an intellectual Concept for you rather than a Foundation of your Beliefs, you may be in for Surprises.

Chariklo is about Confidence, and we’ve just squirmed out of a fairly big Challenge to our Confidence, as Chariklo and Pluto shared their Stations over the last few days (Gauntlet IX to XI).  It turns out though that our Confidence Work isn’t quite done.  For the next week we’ll be Working on Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty, as Chariklo Initiates Lilith on 1 May, starting a new nine-year Cycle at 20 Capricorn – “A hidden choir singing during a religious service.”

The “hidden choir” could be our True Self telling us what we’d be Doing and Saying if we were Speaking and Acting from our Self-Sovereignty, or it could be the echos of the many Voices that, throughout our Life, have told us Who and How We Should Be and Do instead of Being and Doing Ourself.  As a Jungian I assume that the Unconscious is always trying to move us forward, even when it requires us to walk through the Swamp instead of around it. 

So I’m opting for the Hidden Choir being our Shoulds.  After all, would our True Self be Shoulding on us?  You know how it Feels when you ignore an Intuition, that “Still Small Voice”?  That’s more likely to be the Voice of our True Self.  Mine doesn’t come from over my Shoulder.  When we get talkback from over our Should-er, if we Notice and just Imagine turning our head to look, or listening for the tone of voice and accent, or just Asking, it will probably be pretty easy to Discern whose Shoulds we’ve Internalized as our own in the current case.

Then we can cycle through Anal-yzing, PIAVAing, and State-Changing (Tapping, Kegeling, Poor-Sweethearting, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrading, and the like) to examine the Agenda of that particular Control Freak, to see if their input is still useful in our Present Life.

Which is kind of the Other Side of the Coin here, or the Other Side of the Mirror – when our own Control Freak comes out of its cave and we Notice that we’re wanting someone else to Act or Speak differently than they are, it would be of great value to our Evolution for us to cycle through Anal-yzing, PIAVAing, and State-Changing to get to the Roots of our own Distaste for whatever it is that they’re up to. 

It may contribute more to Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty to Work with the times when we Should Other, than it does to Work with the Internalized Voices that Should us!

Be Mindful that Shame and Guilt are primary tools that Control Freaks use to manipulate our Behavior, so be Aware that these Emotions may be your first indication that you’re being Shoulded.  Nothing wipes out Confidence and Sovereignty faster and more completely than Shame, and it takes a huge Effort to get Present with Shame.  The first step is Noticing, and if you’re lucky enough to do that, then Poor-Sweethearting will be worth trying, as well as Tapping and Kegeling.

Gauntlet XI – Winding Down

We’re down to the last day of the April Gauntlet.  The Pluto Station (Changing the Water in the Aquarium we’re immersed in) and the Chariklo Station (Transforming our Concept of Walking in Beauty) are a day and two Degrees apart, so they basically share a chart…

The Stations are complicated by issues of Self-Sovereignty and Action, not to mention a big Challengeto Acknowledge the Truth that our previous Timeline has run its course and, should we Choose to Accept it, our Life will be very Different from now on – or at least from tomorrow on, once the Chariklo Station (6am PDT 23 April) finishes with us.

Once again with astrologuese…

The Stations are complicated by issues of Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) and Action (Mars), not to mention a big Challenge (T-Square, the red triangle) to Acknowledge the Truth that our previous Timeline has run its course and, should we Choose to Accept it, our Life will be very Different from now on (the base of the T-Square is Rebirth/Haumea and Truth/Veritas Opposing Ego Death/Nemesis, Revelation/Eris, and Choice of Timelines/Lachesis) – or at least from tomorrow on, once the Chariklo Station (6am PDT 23 April) finishes with us.

We’ve highlighted should we Choose to Accept it because that’s a key to the whole complex.  Asteroid Lachesis is the “Fate” or Goddess that “measures the length” of a Lifetime or a Timeline (a thematic segment of a Lifetime).  Fate is what happens to us when we Live from the Unconscious.  When we Live from Consciousness, we substitute Choice for Fate.

Pluto is the Big River of Time, the personification of Irresistible Power.  Planets exercise their Strongest Impact when they’re Stationary.  So we can read the Stationary Pluto-Stationary Chariklo-Mars-Lilith Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) as Having the Supreme Confidence (Stationary Chariklo) to Use the Momentum Created by the Current Big Shift in the Flow of Time (Stationary Pluto), to Act (Mars) in Support of Our Willingness to Create Our Own Reality (Lilith).

Remember that our aim here is Consciousness, so we regard Interpretation as much more important than Prediction.  So if you’re thinking, “Shit, I wish I’d have known that ahead of time,” see if you can reframe that to “Oh, okay, I see where I might have Responded Differently.”  However we didn’t Live our Brutus Moment, that’s the Experience that is leading us to Wisdom, to where we might see it as a Mandela Moment instead.

The part about Truth (Veritas)-Rebirth (Haumea) is pretty straightforward.  The Ego Death/Nemesis-Revelation/Eris-Lachesis/Choice Stellium is more complex.  Eris is about Accepting the Revelation of what’s been hitherto Denied.  Nemesis is the Revelation that a Timeline, and the Value System that supported it, has reached a Dead-End.  In the Unconscious, it’s Ended by Punishment.  In Consciousness it’s Ended by Choosing a better Path into the Future.

So when we Face the parts of our Life that are no longer Working and Accept that we have to Let them Go, we’re Liberated into Birthing a New Reality for ourself.

The Big Challenge (T-Square) reveals an Easy Way Out (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) through our Recognition of Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).  In other words, we’ll jump forward by thinking in terms of “What Do I Really Want in this Lifetime“ rather than “How Can I Weasel my way out of this Pickle.”

The second Opposition (long red line) in the chart is closely related conceptually as well as astrologically – Fate Herself (asteroid Moira) Opposing Expansion (Jupiter).  As if there’s a simple Dualistic Choice between Unconsciousness (Moira) and Growth (Jupiter).  The fact that the Stations and their Baggage form the Easy Way Out (Trine Bridge) to this Opposition belies that simplicity. 

Unconsciousness is an Addiction, and while Choice is a critical step in Confronting Addiction, it’s only one step of many – ten by one common measure.  We have to Choose Consciousness over and over again until it’s Second Nature to do so (and then we have to Confront that Habit as an Archetype).  We have to Sustain Choice, and we’ll talk about that in a moment.

Then we notice that the Stations are involved in another important, if subtle, Configuration – a “Sextile Fez” (trapezoid).  In any Fez, we want to Pay Attention to the diagonals, in this case…

• Unlimited Potential (Chaos) Quincunx (Curiosity) to the Stations and their Baggage (Pluto-Chariklo-Mars-Lilith)
• Growth (Jupiter) Quincunx to Choosing Ego Death (Nemesis-Eris-Lachesis)

The important thing is to Allow the Curiosity to stay Curiosity, and not try to “Figure It Out.”  Figuring It Out creates Knowledge, which may be useful but is never complete or accurate.  Letting it sit as is creates instead Awe and Wonder, which is where we need to be, Awestruck by the unfathomable Miracles that surround us every day, rather than Powerhungry with the Egobound Illusion that we have Dominion here.  So we might PIAVA something like…

• “I Wonder just how much Power I could Contain if I had the Confidence to Assert Who I Am” – notice we’re “Containing” Power, not “Asserting” it.  Reread Castaneda if you don’t understand how this works.
• “I Wonder how Growth and Ego Death are Related – like a Crab or a Butterfly perhaps?”

Notice that these are this week’s Quincunxes, therefore this week’s Curiosities.  We’re blessed that astrology isn’t all Quincunxes, leaving us Stoned out of our minds with Awe all the time.  Curiosity and Confusion are twin Feeling States that Western “left-brain” don’t allow to be the Emotions that they actually are, instead co-opting them as Challenges to the Intellect and shutting down their pathways to Intuition and Wisdom.

Then we notice that there is a lovely perfect Five-Pointed Star in the chart, drawn in light purple lines.  That’s called a “Grand Quintile,” as it divides the Zodiac into five equal parts.  Five is the number of Learning and Teaching – we could even refer to it as Curiosity! 

The Quincunx after all if Five Unxes, or five twelfths of the way round the Zodiacal Loop.  The Twelfth Harmonic is Pattern-Breaking.  So Learning to be Present with Curiosity as an Emotion in its own right is a Powerful Pattern-Breaker and a Powerful tool for breaking free of Unconsciousness and our Limiting, Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.

So this time is shown to be a humongous Learning Opportunity.  We’re Learning about the Relationships between the five planets that make up the Grand Quintile.  Remember that while all Learning leaves a permanent Impact, it’s important that we Recognize that this chart is about the Present Moment, not about Eternity.  It’s the Wisdom we gain from Experience that can Work in Time Provinces other than the current one.  The Conclusions we draw in the Present Moment are only as good as they increment our Stash of Wisdom.

The five corners of this Grand Quintile are…

• Rebirth-Truth (Haumea-Veritas) – This is the most important corner because it cohabits with the Configuration that holds the Stations.  The most valuable Lesson is that Ego Death is just a reboot, not a hard disk crash.  Rebirth is actually a tremendous Gift, because without if we’re stuck in Limbo, in the Void, for a while.  If you think Resisting the Temptation to pigeonhole Curiosity and Confusion is hard, what till you get to spend time in the Void!

• Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta) – Being Unconscious, these are not generally subject to Choice, so we usually have to approach them through PIAVA.  In this case, the chart will be Exposing many of our Unconscious Beliefs for the ancient scams that they are, perpetrated by the historical equivalent of the St. Petersburg Internet Research Agency

• Confusion (Neptune) – Ah, there She is.  She should be in here somewhere.

• Values (Venus) – As our Unconscious Beliefs evolve, so must our Values, though we may not realize it for a while, till all the Contradictions work their way through.

• Sustaining Commitment to our Mission – To the extent that we can generalize our Individual Missions, it’s fair to say that it’s about Growing our Consciousness, since it’s next to impossible to execute any nontrivial Mission without Growing in Consciousness.  We hinted at this while we were discussing Addiction earlier, and here it is.

Gauntlet X – Ominous

Got that Ominous Feeling, Obsessing on something untoward that you may have little Control over, and that refuses to Heel despite your Tapping and Thetas and Poor-Sweethearts?  Well, that’s Pluto Stationary – Heavy, like Swimming through Jello.

Ominous also goes along with questions about our Self-Confidence, as Chariklo is Stationary less than 24 hours after Pluto’s Station and less than two Degrees away.  In addition, both Mars (Action – and possibly Agitation) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) are Merged in with the two Stations, and Chariklo Initiates Mars only a half hour before the Pluto Station.

Lots of astrolguese in there I know; what it means is that we’re likely to interpret the Heavy Pluto-Station Energy as a Threat to our Self-Sovereignty and Self-Confidence and possibly even our Survival.  And it’s most certainly a Threat to our Survival as we know it, because the Strongest elements in the chart (the T-Square that the Stations head and a Grand Quintile) converge on Rebirth (Haumea-Veritas).  Denial-Resistant Ego Death (Nemesis-Eris-Lachesis) is also prominent.

As far as how much of this will Manifest as Karmic Paper Tigers that Act Out mostly in Emotions, and how much will Manifest as Hardcopy Real-Time External events, well, as our Disrupter-in-Chief likes to say, “We’ll see what happens.”  Much probably depends on what you have going on natally in 17-25 of the Cardinal Signs (Capricorn, Cancer, Aries, Libra), and how much of that is remains Unconscious.  Bringing that into Consciousness is after all the Big Opportunity here.

In this Degree Zone of Capricorn we’re building Version 4.0 of some Project, we’re very proud of it, and we’re forced to Get Humble before we Let the Project out into the Public Eye. 

We might PIAVAC something like “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that this Material come into Consciousness Lovingly and Gently, and that any Disruption in my Life be Underwhelming.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  Show me.”

We’ll map all this out over the next several days, just wanted to let you know what’s waking me up in the middle of the night, in case it’s gnawing at you as well.

Gauntlet IX – Confidence

Once we get through Chiron’s passage into Aries (1am PDT 17 April) Saturn’s Most-Important-Thing Station (7pm PDF 17 April), the most prominent Energies will be the Station of Pluto (8:30am PDT 22 April) and Chariklo (6am PDT 23 April), and they’ll already be in full Force.  In fact, we could be Experiencing some flashforwards from them already.

Pluto is just Heavy.  “Swimming through Jello” is one way Pluto Stations have been described.  Pluto means Transformation, Trance Re-Formation, Big Changes, even Changes in the very Zeitgeist that we’ve long since come to accept as The Way It Is.  You’ll get Bruised up pretty good if you try to fight against Pluto.  You aren’t Helpless, you can steer to one bank or another to portage around the Falls, you just don’t want to try to paddle upstream because the current is a lot Stronger than you are.

Chariklo is about Confidence, especially Self-Confidence.  Confidence is the most Charismatic characteristic that a person can have, whether we think it’s warranted or not.  Wonder why the Antichrist is so Teflon?  So our Confidence is being Transformed.  Our Confidence, unless we’re a Grifter, is almost always a Trance, below the level of our Consciousness.

Having Chiron in Aries will help a lot, as we’ll be less assailed by the Emotional Bleeding from our Lifelong “Unhealable” Wounds.  Unless you’re Faithless, in which case your Spiritual Lymph might be spilling everywhere.  Faith and Trust are both Important in Confidence – while the Saturn and Hylonome Stations (Trust, Priority, Boundaries, Codependence) will weaken after they’re Exact, they won’t disappear instantaneously.

So if your Confidence crumbles, know it’s “just” a Wound being re-Triggered, and Respond accordingly (Poor-Sweetheart, Soft-and-Warm, Mirrors, everything that Chiron in Pisces has taught us).  It’s just an Ego Death, not a “real” Arrow.  Trust that it will be better in the New Trance on the Other Side.

The Pluto and Chariklo Stations are also only two Degrees apart, with Chariklo on the Waning side of Pluto, which means that we’re laying the Groundwork for a major Letting Go of the Sources of Confidence that we’ve been using since 1931’s “Young woman awaiting a sailboat” Pluto-Chariklo Initiation.  Not embarking on her own journey, but waiting for someone else to give her a ride.

Pluto Initiates Chariklo into a brand-new 90-year Cycle next February, in the same 23 Capricorn as the Pluto-Saturn Initiation we discussed earlier – “A soldier in combat boots receiving two awards for bravery.”  If we Imagine them to be high-heeled combat boots, we could easily Give these awards to the #MeToo troops.

Gauntlet VIII – Chiron

Anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that Chiron can be a Bear. 

It’s about Getting Conscious of our Wounds.  Like Saturn helping to Educate us about which Traumas are Really Going On in the Moment and which are Flushbacks, if we’re Conscious of our Wounds we can Differentiate them from new Arrows.  For Present-Moment Traumas we want to improve our Boundaries to stop or dodge the Arrows and Prevent further Harm, and for Flushbacks we want to be very Loving with ourself in order to Heal the Wounds. These are very Different Responses.

That’s a hidden benefit of using our Mirrors to fend off apparent negative Energy coming at us.  Using a Mirror is very Powerful for any situation where you’re having Difficulty being Present with yourself (or Others) and staying Grounded… 

• When you’re talking to someone and feel insulted for instance.  Is that your Wound, or are you being Attacked?  Or both?  It takes a bit of Practice to Imagine a big Mirror, facing them, while you’re talking to someone, but once you get the hang of it, it’s not too hard.  If the Mirror Changes your Feeling State almost immediately, you were being Attacked. If it doesn’t Change your Feeling State, then it may be “just” your Wound. 

Using Mirrors might seem like a silly game, but your Wound is a Hole in your Aura.  It was installed by your Programmers so they could Control you.  Being Persistent about using Mirrors like this will eventually become a Habit; you’ll start to do the Energetic Equivalent of using a Mirror, but without the Mirror, and without thinking about it.  And that’s just another way of saying that  you’ve Healed the Hole in your Aura and taken a big step toward Self-Sovereignty.

• Another excellent Mirror situation is when you’re mind is stuck in a Helicopter Trip.  You keep going ’round and ’round, either about some Duality you can’t Decide about, or when you’re Imagining arguing with someone or justifying yourself to them.  Take the first person you think of (it may not be the same person you’re arguing with), and Imagine Mirroring them.  If the Cycling stops, you’re Golden.  If it doesn’t, try the second person that comes to mind.

For instance, one of my Programmers wanted very much for me to be a certain way.  It wasn’t a way I wanted to be.  I Mirrored them fairly often for months, maybe years.  They would “come around to the back door” when I set up the Mirror, and to find Peace I would have to use a miniature domed stadium lined with Mirrors on the outside.  Eventually it became a Habit. 

Often this is your only path toward improving your Relationship with someone who isn’t very Conscious – talking with them about it just isn’t in the realm of possibility.  My Programmer was certainly not Conscious that they were drilling a Hole in my Aura, and in the off chance that they were, would they admit it?  Unlikely.

• Emotions are supposed to visit for a little while, then move on.  We think of Emotions as “ours,” but they aren’t really, they’re like weather, they blow in and then they blow away.  Sometimes they Resonate and we can use them; other times they feel like they came uninvited out of “left field.”  When an Emotion blows through and sticks to you like Velcro, it may be an imitation of one of your Held Emotions.

One of the principles of Emotional Healing is that it’s Impossible to Let Go of Other Peoples’ Feelings.  So if an unwelcome Emotion moves in and unpacks, use your Mirror on the first person who comes to mind, to see if you’re carrying someone else’s Emotions.  If you get almost-immediate Relief, just bring back the Mirror whenever you start to go back into that closet.  Some people are very accomplished at getting Other people to carry their Held Emotions for them.

In fact, it’s highly likely that you and I do the same.  We’re Scared Shitless of Power, so we Project our Anger (Envy really) on folks who throw Power around like it was a Frisbee.  Death of any sort is such a big Threat to our Ego that we wrap ourself in Grief whenever anyone Transitions to a New Lifetime instead of helping them Celebrate and get Grounded into their new Surroundings.  If their next Life is anything like this one, they’ll be pretty Helpless for a while, and can use all the Support we can Give them.

The Mirror will help you Distinguish your own Held Emotions from Other people’s Held Emotions.  If an unfriendly Emotion moves in to stay, and you Mirror everyone who you suspect might be Projecting it your way, all to no effect, then it’s probably one of your own Held Emotions.  Feels like a Bummer, but in fact it’s a tremendous Opportunity – our Held Emotions are Unconscious, aka Invisible to us.  When one becomes opaque, we can take steps to Heal it.

How?  Own it.  Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure.  You might well get Images of what caused the Emotion to get stuck in the first place, but you don’t need them, and in fact if they appear they may put you in your Anal-ytical mind and distract you from Softening and Warming.

Guess what.  This is what Illness is about.  If you’re very good at Denying your Held Emotions on every other Level, they’ll come to visit on the Physical Level.  Besides, they aren’t Levels, they’re Perspectives.  It’s All One Thing, we just think it’s Different because we’re seeing it from a Different Angle.  So you may not begin with a Held Emotion, you may begin with a Toothache or any Pain or Physical Discomfort, or even Diagnosis if you’re in the Habit of Delegating care and feeding of your Physical Vehicle to the Medical Cartel.

Deal with Physical Pain and Discomfort the same way – Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure. 

And anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that we always recommend “Poor-Sweethearting” ourself whenever Chiron is Lit Up, and at any other time when you aren’t totally Pleased with your internal or external Circumstances.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling [Insulted] [Invaded] [Confused] [Sick] [Pain], aren’t you.”

We bring all this up because after seven years in Pisces, Chiron is moving into Aries (1am PDT 17 April).  Emotions don’t go away when Pisces goes away, though they get less Prominent.  And there are plenty of other planets still in Pisces; for instance Confusion/Neptune will be there till 2026, and Abuse/Nessus till 2034.  So you’ll have plenty of Opportunities yet to Practice your Mirroring and Poor-Sweethearting Skills.

As for Chiron, rather than the Emotional Crises we’ve been Enduring since 2011, we’ll be Experiencing Spiritual Crises till Chiron moves into Taurus in 2027, then we’ll be Enjoying Material Crises for a while.  So our Practice with Emotions will serve us well while we’re doing “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like God has Abandoned you, aren’t you” or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like the Planet is Failing, don’t you.”

If course, long before then we’ll have enfolded all these Healing techniques into automatic Habits, and firing them off so fast we won’t even be Aware that we’re doing it.  Right?

Gauntlet VII – Saturn

We wrote quite a bit about the Saturn Station in Gauntlet II and Gauntlet III, though there are a few thing to add.  Probably most important is that you get to Witness Saturn as a Malefic or not.  Saturn has a big reputation as a Downer, but to us it simply means The Most Important Thing.  Saturn asks us to suspend secondary Priorities and Pay Attention to The Most Important Thing.  That seems like a Downer if we’re depending for one reason or another on The Less Than Most Important Things. 

So if you’re Feeling Stressed by Saturn’s Station (7pm PDT 17 April), stop and Ask yourself what you’re Resisting.  Maybe your Child is sick and you went to work anyway, and you’re Feeling Guilty about it.  There you have it – go home and look after your Kid.  Maybe you stayed home and you’re Scared that the meeting you’re missing will set your career back.  Better stop and Meditate on that one.  The one thing I’ve found about Saturn over the years, is that our secondary Priorities will be just fine if we ignore them for a while.

Once we’re done with Saturn, or Saturn is done with us, the other real issues and apparent issues will jump right back into the foreground.  That’s one of Saturn’s Most Important tasks – to help us Separate the Apparent Issues that are Karmic Paper Tigers, from the Real Issues that we need to Attend To in the Present Moment.  Our Unconscious Beliefs tint our Perceived Reality so that some Imposter issues look a lot more Present-Moment than they Really are, and if we let it, Saturn will help us get Clear about the Edges.

One thing that’s important – four and a half days after Saturn’s Station, Pluto has a Station (8:30 am PDT 22 April), so this week will likely have an ominous Saturn-Pluto Feel to it. 

Saturn-Pluto events are associated with all manner of nasty manipulation and fake news.  The most recent example is 9/11/2001.  The Waning Saturn-Pluto Square occurred a month prior, so the Energy was well on its way out. 

Yet the perps who planned or scammed 9/11 took advantage of another shift (the Moon going Out of Bounds, which occurred at 9am on 9/11) to carry the Saturn-Pluto Energy forward into their Patriot Act travesty.  Given the time involved and the length of the law, it’s obvious that the Patriot Act was written long before 9/11.  Whether or not its authors conspired with the 9/11 actors, they certainly used the events of 9/11 to promote their anti-democratic agenda.  We’re still dealing with the dregs of the Patriot Act.

The actual upcoming Pluto-Saturn Initiation doesn’t occur until mid-January 2020.  Those who choose to stay in 3D can expect a major Fear-promoting Trauma thereabouts – possibly involving Syria, if this preview is prescient – to make sure the Shoeple are cowed properly for the beginning of the Digital Age in early 2021 at the Saturn-Jupiter Initiation.

The January 2020 Pluto-Saturn Initiation occurs in 23 Capricorn, “A soldier receiving two awards for bravery in combat.”  Fun.  Even if the soldier was on “the right side,” it’s the wrong approach, as Dan Scranton’s Arcturian friends point out today…

http://danielscranton.com/the-rest-of-the-journey-to-the-5th-dimension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“You have placed yourselves in the position that you wanted to be in at this time.  You knew before you incarnated that after December 21st, 2012, you would have a window of opportunity in front of you to make decisions as a collective that would either guide you to the fifth dimension or to the destruction of your planet.

“You made the decision to ascend.  The potential was always there, but what was needed in order for the journey to continue to the fifth dimension was enough awakened beings to hold the vibration for the rest of planet Earth and the rest of humanity.

“You are not overpopulated.  Your planet can handle the billions of you that are currently incarnate, and there is power, of course, in numbers.  As we have said, the star children volunteered to come forth to be that final piece of the puzzle to hold space for the collective.

“And those of you who have been awake and living through these past several years have also been doing the work that was necessary to continue the journey.  Now, at this time, you can relax.  You can celebrate the knowing that you are making the journey, and you can feel the significance of this accomplishment.  You can also let yourselves off the hook.

“Many of you who came forth with the knowing that you had a mission did not realize that the mission would be something much bigger than writing a book or opening a healing center.  It would be much bigger than delivering channeled messages.  Your mission has been to hold the vibration for the rest of humanity, and you have done so.

“And for many of you it has been a very tumultuous ride, but there is no turning back now.  Now you can hold space for yourself.  You can shift into creation mode, and you can create the remainder of the journey to be exactly as you want it to be.  You will take the rest of humanity, those who choose to come, with you.”

The actual Saturn-Station chart has one additional term that the Hylonome Station (Gauntlet II-III) didn’t have, namely a Challenge (Square) to Trust (to asteroid Eurydike) that converts the Trine Fez of the Hylonome Station into a Square Fez, with the additional information that it’s Important to PIAVA “I Wonder what there is to Trust about Abuse” (Eurydike Quincunx Nessus; the diagonal Quincunxes are the levers of Power in a Fez). 

While each of us needs to Avoid an intellectual Answer to the Curiosity in the Quincunx (lest we pour wet cement into our Evolution), I’m going to be rash enough to suggest that an alternate version might be “I Wonder if the Abuse that I Feel occurring, or that I Fear will be Repeated, is actually ‘just’ a Flushback from my Karma catalog,” one of those Apparent Issues that Saturn is wont to Differentiate from Hardcopy Reality for us.

The addition of Eurydike Completes the Air Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings, the blue triangle) and a major movement toward Mission-Sustainability (North Node-Ceres Kite), embedding the whole complex into a Flying Squirrel Configuration that suggests we’re now Coasting into our Mission with Trust and Boundaries (Eurydike and Pallas) as our Wings, and Karma as our Rudder or Tail (South Node).

Gauntlet VI – Mercury

The Direct Station of Mercury is fairly straightforward…

It wouldn’t hurt us to interpret Mercury as Insight, if we can Differentiate In-sight from Anal-ysis.  It’s tempting, to those of us with proclivities or training or Programming to be “left-brained,” to think that Analysis is a critical Skill, but when we look at it closely we find that Observation is the heart of it; the rest is Conclusion, which is the equivalent of gassing and pinning the Butterfly, Ossifying the World.

The Star of the show is (Insight into) Letting Go of Impediments to Trusting our Ability to Manifest what we Need (Atropos/Endings-Eurydike/Trust-Makemake/Manifestation Stellium), even if/as the World as we know it falls apart. 

A note on Interpretation – we could certainly Interpret Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake as Ending our Trust in (our Ability to) Manifest rather than Ending Impediments to same.  But why would we want to?  I suppose we could wish that sort of curse on our Competition, but that would be so Patriarchal, wouldn’t it.

In this context we’re Challenged to Master (T-Square) carving Survival-Sabotaging Unconscious Beliefs out of the collection of Perception-Inhibiting Blinders that Limit our Insights (Vesta-Quaoar).  If you Notice the light purple lines, the “Quintangle” that we spoke of at the end of Gauntlet III remains in effect; Learning to Differentiate Survival-Limiting Beliefs is a core part of our April curriculum.

Detoxing our Survival-Manifestation machine is aided by Respect for All Things (Hopi Trine Bridge across the T-Square); hint: ferret out your Judgments – they’re Mirrors for your Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  Intrusive Memories will also play a role, but a more subtle one, as we’ll have to PIAVA how they’re Related to the price of Insight in Loompaland (2007 OR10 Quincunx Bridge).  Like that heavy flushback I had this morning – “I Wonder how that’s Related to Beliefs that Limit my Ability to Manifest Survival.”

There’s a Challenge of some sort between Respect for All Things and the kinds of Flashbacks we’re likely to Encounter (Waning Square from asteroid Hopi to dwarf planet OR10).  The Hopi-OR10 Cycle is about excavating the Memories that caused us to Ossify a Judgment into our Belief Collection.  I almost wrote “Belief System,” but there’s nothing Systematic about our Beliefs, they’re really more of a motley collection.

The current six-year Hopi-OR10 Cycle began in March 2014 at 3 of Pisces, “Petrified tree trunks lie broken on desert sand.”  How appropriate.  At the Waning Square our Assignment is to Let Go of all the Work we’ve been doing for the last four years to promote Respect for Disparity.  Not that either Respect or Disparity will be declining, it’s just that the methodology we’ve been using to promote them is obsolete, and it’s time for us to Let the whole Issue Go so the Work we’ve done can Integrate with the rest of Reality. 

In other words it’s time to Change the Subject around our Memories of Discrimination.  For now, que sera, sera.  I wouldn’t regard it as an accident that Letting Go of Memories of Discrimination is Lit Up at the same time as the Edgy Love and Denial Timing issues that we discussed in Gauntlet V.  One they’ve served as Insights into our Impediments to Manifesting Survival, they need to be Let Go.  We don’t need any of the lingering grudges that we could easily Create around them.

Some Insights that Dan Scranton’s Arcturian friends suggest for us…

http://danielscranton.com/accessing-fifth-dimensional-abilities-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“You have awakened within you the abilities that are associated with the fifth dimension, but you do not know how to access them yet.  It is like buying a new technological gadget that you’ve never seen before and not having any instructions available to you.  So as you feel for the abilities within you, please recognize that your acknowledgement of them is the first step in gaining full access.

“You won’t be able access these abilities by lamenting the fact that you haven’t accessed them yet.  That is counterproductive.  So what you want to do is focus.  You want to focus on how these fifth dimensional abilities feel as you contemplate them.  We are talking about telekinesis, telepathy, and teleportation, specifically.  There are others as well that you will become aware of as you continue on in your journeys.

“Feel for the power that is within you.  Feel for it vibrationally.  Do not wait until you have full access to these abilities before you feel how powerful you are.  Many of you have already taken sneak peeks at these abilities.  You know that at times you access them, if only for an instant.  You also know that you are becoming your higher selves, and with that means greater access to so much more than these abilities.

“We recommend that you don’t get fixated on them or on any one of them.  Instead we want you to continue to feel for your power and feel for the consciousness and the vibration of your higher self.  Your higher self has the instruction manual.  When you act, speak, and think as your higher self would, you bring yourself into harmony with that which you most desire.  And in so doing, you help others gain access to their higher self and to their fifth dimensional abilities.

You are about to have a lot more fun than you’ve been having.”

It’s PIAVA that’s the gateway to these Abilities.

Gauntlet V – Revelation New Moon

I must be Denying some element of Truth, because it’s been kind of a hard day for me.  Probably my sugar Addiction.  As for the Strong elements of the Truth/Veritas-Stationary chart…

• Choosing to Expose our Essence (Lachesis-Eris-Sun) probably wins this lottery, as it’s a corner of both the Grand Cross (red square and cross) and the Grand Trine (blue Triangle)

There’s an additional vote for this Stellium (group of planets) being the Strong point of the Veritas Station chart – tomorrow’s New Moon (7pm PDT 15 April) is in the same place, extending the impact of the Station chart for another several weeks. 

Dwarf planet Eris is all about Revealing what’s been Denied, often with Ego-Death consequences – hence Eris’s Reputation for Dischord among the Stuck-in-the-Mud set.  And Lachesis is about Measuring the length of a Timeline.  When we’re dealing with Consciousness – aka Choice – then, it’s about Choosing to prematurely End or posthumously Extend a Timeline (which is a temporary or characteristic theme in a Lifetime) relative to its “Fated” Expiration.

The new Lachesis-Eris Cycle began at 2pm PDT today, 14 April, at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia.”  Remember that Denial is a Healthy Response to Ego-breakthroughs that we aren’t ready to deal with yet.  Trying to break an Ego prematurely usually leads to backlash and Ego entrenchment.  Look at what happens when you try to break someone else’s Ego with insults – you trigger the other person’s Ego Defenses.  The five-year Lachesis-Eris Cycle is about being Able to Choose if, when, and How to make significant Changes to our Ego.

So then, do I Choose to End my sugar Addiction?  Well, it’s not that Easy to squelch an Addiction, is it.  But Notice that it is in my Consciousness, which is one of the first steps.  So I can PIAVA to end or modify it to make it Life-Affirming, if it isn’t already – Self-Love/Sappho is Merged with Edges of Consciousness/Juno after all. 

Maybe I’ll have an All Organic Go Raw Sprouted Pumpkin Seed Bar with 5g of sugar instead of a Cascadian Farm Organic Honey Roasted Nut Protein Chewy Bar with 10g.  I know, they’re both Prefab Food, but I just had a big bowl of homemade Soup of Wildcrafted Fresh Nettles, organic Shiitakes, organic Farmers-Market Rhubarb, organic Onion, organic Bone Broth, and homegrown Garlic, Oregano, and Thyme, so I may survive.

Speaking of which…

• Loving the Edges of our Consciousness as alternative to Ego Death (Sappho-Juno) also heads a Diamond Star

Now this one could be a Life-Changer if we take advantage of it.  A Diamond Star is an Emphatic (Finger of God) Challenge to Mastery (T-Square) made Easy by Grace (the Trine-Sextile Lace connecting the bases of the T-Square and Yod).  What if we broke the Karmic Dread-Reaction that most of have to Ego Death, and replaced it with a surge of Excitement and Love about the Liberation from Limitation that we’re about to Receive!  That would definitely be Life-Changing.

The 17-year Sappho-Juno Cycle began on 13 March at 9 Pisces, “A jockey spurs his horse, intent on outdistancing his rivals.”  Whoa, Competitive Love!  Well, if we’re Competing with ourself to see if we can Embrace the next Ego Death better than we Embraced the last one, that’s probably a fine use of Competition, which is after all a normal Huper Urge, even if we sneer at it as the Fundament of the Patriarchy.  And there’s no reason Competition can’t be Friendly, and even coexist with Collaboration.

The apparent Contradistinction that Powers the Challenge to Mastering such Edgy Self-Love involves our Forbidden Genius (Ixion) and our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos), with our Forbidden Genius Channeling (Conjunct) the Galactic Center.  We could easily interpret this as Galactic HQ giving us orders to Open Up our Forbidden Genius.  The Grace is provided by Easy Relationships between Unlimited Potential, Stationary Truth/Veritas, Rebirth/Haumea, and Hidden Genius.

• New Beginnings (Klotho) are Important because they head a Diamond Star (T-Square and Yod pointing to same planet)

This one is tightly Integrated with the previous two Configurations, as the base of the New Beginnings Challenge to Mastery involves Rebirth/Haumea and Choosing to Expose our Essence (Lachesis-Eris-New Moon), and the Lace of Grace involves Unlimited Potential/Chaos and Truth/Stationary Veritas.

The Unx Angle (the short green lines) reflects the Twelfth Harmonic, Pattern-Breaking.  They’re drawn lightly in the Truth-Station chart in the previous post, but they’re an important key to our success as Self-Transformation, since without them we Change not at all.  They connect Loving our Edges (Sappho-Juno) with Choosing Insights (Lachesis-Eris-New Moon), Embracing Fear as Power (Sedna and Kegels), Unlimited Potential (Chaos), and Truth Squared (Aletheia and Stationary Veritas).

Finally, we neglected to include what might be the most immediate Challenge of this Truth Station, the Challenge between Truth/Veritas and Embracing Fear as Power/Sedna.  If you’re having trouble seeing Fear as Power, look at what it does to the Body – it can give you extraordinary Powers of Flight, Fight, or Freeze that arise directly from the Unconscious, without your Volition.  Have you Experienced the equation “Fear Plus Breathing Equals Excitement”?  And next time you’re watching a Scary movie, try Fear Plus Kegels to see how they Change your Experience of your Body and your Surroundings.

This is the Waxing Square in the six-year Veritas-Sedna Cycle that began in June 2016 at 26 Taurus, “A Spanish gallant serenades his beloved,” which is to say, at least during this Cycle, Fear Enchants Truth.  Certainly being Honest with ourself about our Fears (which after all are highly correlated with our Held Emotions) is a requirement for Authenticity and Yintegrity and all things Fifth-Dimensional.

At the Waxing Square, the Energy of a Cycle Emerges from Underground and enters the Mainstream.  Veritas, now moving forward again, is working toward it’s third Waxing Square to Sedna; the first occurred mid-October 2017 (when the Emergence from the Unconscious of a “new” Fear may have Shocked us), the second late March 2018 (when we would have Learned more about this new-to-our-Ego Fear), and this third one will Complete 13 May.  At this third event we’re scheduled to gain Confidence in our command of the Truth about our Fears.