Big Solstice Full Moon

(1)  The 20 June Full Moon precedes the Solstice by a little less than half a day, so we can see this Moon as impacting the next half-year.  And I’ll venture a prognostication that the next half-year, and even the next month, will have a big impact on how long our species continues to dominate this Planet – to the extent that it does.  Our species is a much bigger legend in it’s own mind, than it is the Planet’s natural herstory.

(2)  This should be no surprise, as we’ve been working up to it since mid-May, but a very prominent feature of this Full Moon, and of the span of its influence, will be setting Boundaries against the Abuses of the Patriarchy.

(3)  It should be obvious how closely all this is Related to our recent adventures in Removing our Masks.  This represents a Major Shift in our Consciousness, as we begin to realize how much we’ve (been) Changed, and as we begin the hard work of rebuilding our Cultures to reflect our new Awareness.

(4)  As our Consciousness Shifts, so will our Values, very Powerfully – so you can be liberal with your Yes-Ands about letting your Values Grow along with the rest of you and your sphere of influence.  

Methinks we’ll see some very profound Changes in the near Future, even perhaps our long-awaited Tripping Point.

(1)  The asteroid Lachesis, the dwarf planet Quaoar, and the Galactic Center all stand behind this Full Moon.  That’s a heavy lineup.  Lachesis measures the thread that determines the length of a Lifetime.  Quaoar provides Guidance that permits Survival.  And the Galactic Center is the Source of our Bottom-Line Energy, the Sun’s Sun’s Sun so to speak.  In a word, Headquarters.  

The Quaoar-Lachesis Initiation occurred 18 March in 30 Sagittarius, which reflects the Power of Ritual.

(2)  In addition, the asteroid Klotho (she who cuts the cloth for the Lifeline that Lachesis measures) begins a gauntlet on Solstice Day, as it Opposes dwarf planet 2007 OR10 (potentially disruptive material erupting from deep within the Unconscious). It Opposes Centaur and dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) on 26 June, and is Initiated by dwarf planet Orcus (Dismantling of Obsolete Oaths) on 28 June.

The Klotho-OR10 Cycle (An Assignment from the Deeps) that’s now Blooming was Initiated at the Northern Winter Solstice in 2014 in 2 Pisces, which is about  Removing ourself from Unsafe Situations.

The Klotho-Nessus Cycle (Letting Go of Abuse and Privilege) that’s Flowering as we speak began earlier in December 2014 at 28 Aquarius, which concerns Maintaining our Safety.

The 28 June  Klotho-Orcus Initiation (Learning to Discern Living Vows from Dead ones) is at  7 Virgo, which is about Patriarchal Privilege and Enslavement of Females.

Mercury (Awareness and Communication) ran the same Gauntlet (but in Gemini, T-Squaring the lot) from 13-18 June.  

The asteroid Atropos (she who cuts the Chord when a Lifeline has run out of thread) will also be T-Squaring everyone from Gemini, for the rest of June.

Pallas (Boundaries) ran this Gauntlet (but in Pisces) during the last half of May, being Initiated by the Three Dwarfs in the same Degrees as Klotho.  Pallas is Stationary (Strong) and turning Retrograde on 21 June at 8 Pisces, so she’ll be retracing her steps across this minefield in an Exposition between now and August.

Pallas Initiated Klotho (Starting over with new Boundaries) on New Years Day 1980 at 28 Aquarius (Maintaining our Safety).  This was the year that the 1% resumed their Control over the US government for the first time since the early 1930s.  The Klotho-Pallas Opposition (Flowering) occurs on 30 June.  

Because Klotho’s orbit is less than three months shorter than Pallas’s, their Cycles are very long and irregular, and their speeds are so similar that it’s difficult to identify their Angles with certainty.  A previous Opposition occurred in 1934.  If this Cycle proves to be correlated with the tug of war between the People and the Lizards, then we could see a return to relative Democracy by 2020.  

We’ll need it, because with current trends by the time the Digital Age begins in 2020, there will be four very distinct classes of people in the “developed” World: the Owners, the Engineers and Coders, the Servants, and the Indigent.

(3)  The Full-Moon Opposition is Bridged by a Trine from the Sun to the asteroid Juno (the Edges of Consciousness), which is Stationary (Strong) and turning Direct on 22 June.

The dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation), still Stationary (Strong) from its 13 June turnabout, T-Squares the Full Moon.

(4)  Venus (Values, Walking in Beauty) Quintiles (Learning) Uranus-Eris-Ceres (Making our new Honesty with Ourself a Permanent part of our Psyche and Personality) and Jupiter-North Node (Expanding into our Mission) from 18 June till 22 June, wrapping itself around the Solstice Moon, as Uranus-Eris-Ceres and Jupiter-North Node Biquintile (Learning – Cementing – new Patterns) one another.

Eris and Uranus both Initiate Ceres on 21 and 23 June at the familiar 24 Aries, the Picture of Abundance.

Jupiter Initiates the North Node on 24 June in 17 Virgo, which concerns “The explosive energy of long-repressed contents of the Unconscious.“

The Biquintile between Uranus-Eris-Ceres and Jupiter-North Node persists in one subset or another from 6 May till 22 July, so this has been an integral part of our Mask-Replacement endeavors as well.

Venus, Mars, and Yintegrity

Venus is dancing with the 4 June New Moon, Mars is very busy, and of course Yintegrity is the bottom line here as we approach the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation.  If you haven’t been dancing with Rebirth of your Sexuality and Sensuality (Venus and Mars) yet, to bring it more in line with your Yintegrity, you’re probably overdue.  The Royal Star Regulus is still lit up, so be mindful that Revenge (Mars) may backfire.

Mars, after turning Retrograde at the Ides of April, reached it’s astrological Opposition to the Sun on 22 May, backed into Scorpio on 27 May, reached it’s cosmological Opposition to the Sun (closest approach to Earth in a decade) on 29 May, and turns Direct again on 29 June.  If you’re feeling or encountering a lot of bitchiness (as one reader calls it) or lack of Satisfaction (as Mick would call it), you can probably blame Mars.  Of course, if you’re being Victimized by Mars, we’d interpret that as a Denial of ______ [you’ll have to PIAVA how to fill in the blank; it’d be different for everyone].

Mars’s Shadow Period (span of Retrogradation) covers 24 Scorpio to 9 Sagittarius, the last two and-a-half Duads of Scorpio (adjustments to the Ego to Balance new Learnings) and the first three and-a-half Duads of Sagittarius (testing our New Ego in social settings).  Scorpio is about Fearlessly Digging Deep, and Sagittarius is about Letting  Go.  Mars entered its Shadow Period February 18.  So…

Whatever business it is that we haven’t finished and which we danced with in the last half of February, after we tried and failed to Let It Go over the last three months, it’s back.  YooHoo.  So now we have to immerse ourselves in it.  Locate it in our Body and just Be in that spot for a month.  Dr. Kim must have a good astrologer or good Intuition, because as it often is, her current message is right on…

http://drkimderamo.com/ever-feel-like-youre-going-backwards/

The New Moon is very busy…

It’s in Gemini, Conjunct Venus, and it’s one corner of a Grand Cross with Saturn, Jupiter-North Node, and Neptune-South Node.  It’s also the head of a Kite, on a Saturn-Hopi-Mnemosyne Fire Grand Trine.  The Neptune-South Node corner of the Grand Cross is the head of a second Kite, on a Pluto-Jupiter/North Node-Aletheia Earth Grand Trine.  The Kites are connected by two Yods, to Hopi/Leo from Pluto-Neptune, and to Pluto/Capricorn from Hopi and the New Moon.

Stressful, but the Rewards for Surrendering Control and PIAVAing what you lack should be fabulous.  If they aren’t, PIAVA the next step – you may also need something else, you may need to go Deeper, or your mind may just be leading you into one of those blind Either/Or alleys.  You may need to Wonder what to PIAVA.  It could just be Patience.  We’re in the Soup till 9 June.  That doesn’t mean we have to Suffer, but it also means that perfect Comfort is likely to escape us.

The second, Jupiter-Neptune axis of the Grand Cross is malformed, as Jupiter does not really Oppose Neptune.  Jupiter recently backed up to within a Degree and-a-half of completing the Opposition, then changed its mind and went back the other way.  The real Opposition took place last September.  That Opposition was the Blooming of the very momentous Neptune-Jupiter and simultaneous Chiron-Jupiter Initiation, in May 2009, a prelude to the 2010 Neptune-Chiron Initiation.  All three of these Initiations occurred in 27 Aquarius, “An ancient pottery bowl filled with fresh violets.”  If you have the time, you might want to review “Chiron-Neptune” in the list of Categories at right.

These Fresh Violets are a Symbol we recognize, as the theme for the initially-alternate economy that is being formed as the dregs of the Industrial-Age economy limp into the Digital Age.  And we recognize the Chironean Despair that surrounded the recent Derivative Crisis (advertised by the corporate media as a “Subprime Loan” Crisis; this theme of making the Victims into Criminals is a trend that’s just starting).  

The Industrial-Age economic infrastructure that died in 2010 isn’t fixable; it will have to be replaced with “Fresh Violets,” but the bankers are stretching it out as long as they can because they’re getting rich off if it and hoping to make it into the 1% before it’s too late, and because the 1% haven’t figured out yet how to checkmate China and the other contenders (including us) as they plan their own new infrastructure. 

Eventually the alternate economy will go mainstream as the seed of the first Digital Age Survival strategy for the Analog portion of the 99%.  It’s about growing our own Food, trying to protect ourselves from the political corruption and poisoned Earth that Predatory Capitalism leaves almost everywhere on the Planet, creating local Community, adapting the portions of new technology that are accessible to us (such as 3D printing), and growing Resilience.  

We can probably safely assume that for most of us the future will look more like present-day Libya or Syria or the Palestinian dilemma, than the Sound of Music or the Gatsby.  One of the best handbooks for the alternate economy is probably Permaculture Magazine, and its new Western-Hemisphere spinoff.  The ancient Popular Mechanics is also surprisingly useful.

The fact that the Jupiter-Neptune axis of the Grand Cross does not complete suggests that…

This New Moon and its Grand Cross may unleash a lot of Paper Tigers – bundles of Fear that look like Monsters from our Karmic past.  If this is true, then there will likely be an economic feint (or faint) in June – the long-promised demise of the current economic shell game will appear to be happening, while its actual demise may be delayed until after the US elections.  The appearance of demise will probably be enough to bring us all face to face with our Survival Fears.

Other than knowing that we’re in the Void phase of the final Jupiter-Saturn Cycle of the Industrial Age, and that there will most likely be a Cultural component to this Eris-Uranus Revelation of Denial business (think Global Balming, Poverty, Predatory Capitalism, for-profit medicine), I haven’t looked at the rest of the year and decade yet astrologically.  I will soon.

The unfortunate Truth is that the 1% have become expert at “Crisis Investing,” which means taking maximum advantage of the Victims of any Crisis, the way W and his cronies did after Hurricane Katrina or 9/11 (see Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine or John Perkins’s New Confessions of an Economic Hit Man if you want to learn how that’s done – or just watch The Donald).  So whatever occurs on the Cultural or Global scale, we need to PIAVA that Huperity has reached a Tripping Point, and that Miracles are available to the Planet.  There is ample potential for that.

The New Moon is also the head of a Kite, on a Saturn-Hopi-Mnemosyne Fire Grand Trine.  The Neptune-South Node corner of the Grand Cross is the head of a second Kite, on a Pluto-Jupiter/North Node-Aletheia Earth Grand Trine.  The Kites are connected by two Yods, to Hopi/Leo from Pluto-Neptune, Hopi meaning Respect for All Things, and to Pluto/Capricorn from Hopi and the New Moon.  Fire and Earth form a potent Alchemical combination.

The New Moon is also Trioctile (Rebalancing) to the recent Lilith-Juno Initiation (“Around a campfire a group of young people sit in spiritual communion” – bringing Yindependence to the Edges of our Consciousness), which Initiation is in turn at the head of a Quintile Yod from Vesta and Chiron.

Our Choice Points are really whether to be in Despair about how our Unconscious Beliefs in Limitation have us shackled, or to be Willing to move toward Miracles by PIAVAing what we don’t believe is attainable – or perhaps that we don’t believe it’s attainable – and by Empathizing with what’s really going on.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really swimming in Self-Rejection here, aren’t you” for instance.  PIAVAs about trying to Heal our Despair by Changing External Reality will probably not work as well here; it’s an inside job.

The mindstuff that forms the content of our Anxieties is what needs to be jettisoned as soon as possible, so we can instead use our scarce Attention Resources to either focus directly on our Anxiety itself (for instance Tapping Out “Even though I feel very Worried, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself”), or to go Deeper and begin to get Comfortable with the Real Feelings that our Anxiety is trying to hide from us (“I Wonder what Real Emotions are underneath my Anxiety, and how I might Heal their Source”).

This is the Gift of the Neptune-South Node Kite.

We’ll look at the Uranus-Eris portion of the New Moon chart in the next installment.

 

Yintegrity in Public

A reader comments… 

“We agree that the current astrology is encouraging us all to increasing Yintegrity (love that my spellcheck knows that word and to even capitalize it!).  However, I’ve been reading tons of Brian Browne Walker’s I Ching and the entire premise of that ancient book is all about control in dealing with the exterior world.  Perhaps it’s just what I’m asking about these days, but every answer seems to be about non-action, and it feels like the I Ching’s recommendation is to Hide Truth More. 

“Now that interpretation by me could just be my Inner Child – having moved from shy, scared five year old to angry ‘I will cut your head off’ seven year old – sadly protesting ‘What’s the use of knowing Inner Truth if I can’t express it?’ but the balancing of Inner Truth and Outer Power in the World feels nearly contradictory.  That’s Either/Or I suppose.  Maybe it’s knowing your Inner Truth and then acting skillfully to achieve the results you want in the Outer World?  Rather than the interpretation of Stuffing My True Self?

 

“I’d really like you to say more about the Virgoan ‘Who, Me?’  I’m guessing that any time I say ‘I’d never do that!’ it’s a clue.  And believe me, I’ve encountered some very angry, vengeful Inner bits lately.  I am working hard to send Major Love Streams when I recognize them (either as Voices or in the Body), and generally they then fade, but it must be grooved neural pathways that keep lighting them up.”

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Yintegrity and Expression

You bet.  The Yangtegrity Patriarchy is fading, but it’s still by far the dominant paradigm.  Yangtegrity, by the way, for newbies, means doing what you said you were going to do, while Yintegrity means doing what you Feel like doing, moment to moment – that is, Trusting your Instincts.  Yangtegrity does Plan-Execute, while Yintegrity does PIAVA-Change the Subject.  To Live Yintegrity in a Yangtegrity World, in general we need to minimize our Commitments, be willing to Renegotiate often, and to Make Amends when Renegotiation isn’t possible and the Relationship is Important.  

Scary, eh?  Stretching our Yintegrity is a huge Risk, and one we’ve been warned against since we were infants.  Many of us were programmed to control even our most basic bodily functions, and many of us are sick from doing it.  So yes, of course the Olde Ego is going to come up with every excuse it can – from ancient Fears to manifesting coaches and friends and books, to literally disease – to warn us away from Yintegrity.  

In my limited experience the I Ching is oriented toward “success,” which is an important term in the Competition playbook, so the I Ching may be, like Greek Mythology, a handbook for enlisting in the then-new Patriarchy.  It sounds like you have a lot more experience with it than I – do you think that may be relevant?  If so, then yes, it would not encourage Yintegrity, it would more likely encourage social and economic success over Self-Trust.  Even its covert emphasis on morality is an Idealism, a spinoff of the Patriarchal mindset.

I’m definitely not advocating that we alienate a lot of people with our version of “Radical Honesty,” by any means.  The bottom line about removing our Masks is about getting Honest with Ourself.  So, for instance, if there’s a particular element of Pleasing that we’re programmed to perform for “success,” which creates a Reaction within our own Psyche – for instance, one of our Epiphanies might be to connect those headaches or indigestion that we get, with choosing to overlook the behavior of a particular client or co-worker or partner, which behavior we’d never tolerate in a close friend – then we might “Wonder how we can Change our Response to that person to eliminate the negative personal consequences, without losing an account or a job or a partnership.”

That’s a very complex sentence, but it says what I want it to say, so let me re-say it.  Suppose we get headaches or indigestion once in while.  And suppose we have a client or co-worker or partner whose behavior we tolerate in order not to rock the boat, but whose behavior we would never tolerate from a close friend.  And suppose one day we notice that there’s a connection here – our headaches or indigestion are often preceded by interactions with this client or co-worker or partner, or initiated by thoughts about these interactions.  

That would be the sort of Epiphany that wouldn’t surprise us here in this astrological province.  In Response to our Epiphany we might “Wonder how we can Change our Response to that person to eliminate the negative personal consequences, without alienating the person.”  Our interactions with people, or rather, the interactions between our Archetypes or Masks and their Archetypes or Masks, can literally make us sick.  But if we can step outside the Archetype we can immediately see that there are a million ways to Change the dynamics of any relationship that are a lot easier than “Just get on the bus, Gus.”

Before we can step outside the Mask, we need to become Conscious that we’re under the Spell (or Curse) of the Archetype.  A Pluto Mjolnir under an Eris-Uranus Initiation sets up very fertile conditions for that sort of Insight, especially with Nessus (Abuse/Privilege) and OR10 (Upwellings from the Deeps) Initiating Pallas (Boundaries).  Wherever in our Lives we don’t Live in constant Ecstasy, that’s an neon candidate for a PIAVA like “I Wonder what sort of Archetype or Mask I’m not Conscious of here,” or “Ganeshi, please remove all Obstacles to complete Freedom of Action for me around this.”  

I don’t expect to wake up in a Yintegrity World in mid-June.  I’ll be delighted if I’m living my own Yintegrity ten percent more of the time, and that my close relationships have increased in Yintegrity.  Once we replace Money with Community again (which the next four years of hard times may promote, and which the end of the Industrial Age may permit), then we’ll find that Yintegrity has begun to spread into what under Yangtegrity we consider “Livelihood.”  Working on a Community task because it promotes the “wealth” of the whole Community may Feel a lot more Yintegrous than working for Money.

The breaking up of Society into opposing rhetorical armies, and the Internet’s role in it, which we usually see as a product of the Polarization in the 1/1/2000 chart, is actually a step toward social Yintegrity.  We just haven’t done it long enough yet to notice that while someone might share my Reaction to The Donald, they definitely don’t share my Reactions to Freedom of Speech or Infidelity or Broccoli or Freedom to Exploit or Immigration or Uncle Milty or Abhortion or Capitalism or Glyphosate or the Color Puce or the Patriarchy.  

Once we figure out that we actually have no control over other people’s Reactions to us, we suddenly get Permission to just be Effortlessly Honest.  We’re able to maintain the illusion that we can successfully manipulate other people’s Reactions only because they were programmed in the same language that we were programmed in.  When we move beyond Rhetoric to Communication, the World Changes.  Much of our Lives will still run on Rhetoric, because it’s so much more efficient, but without the Masks we can be a lot more flexible.

The I Ching dates from the first several centuries of the third Millennium behind us, in the last half of the Age of Aries – the Age of Heroes.   I doubt that we can date the Patriarchy to this era; more likely we can date the advent of written justifications for the Patriarchy to this era.  Some folks assume the Patriarchy arose as a result of Agriculture, because it allowed the accumulation of surpluses and hence Greed and Inequality.  That would date it as far back as the Age of Leo or before, though it may have taken a millennium or two to develop.  Following Icke and Sitchin, we could make a case for the Anunnaki fostering the birth of the Patriarchy in its current form at the beginning of the Age of Aries.

The Age of Heroes would certainly have been a fertile time for Patriarchy to bloom.  The quarter-millennium around the development of the I Ching was a very busy time.  It would have been between the Phitile and the Waning Square of the Age of Aries, the time of its culmination.  Confucius, Lao Tzu, Zarathustra, Gautama Buddha, and Homer (author or transcriber of the most germinal of the Greek Myths about the defeat of the Matriarchy) all lived in this era, and the earliest version of the Old Testament was written.  

Between 575 and 577 BCE, a Triple Initiation occurred, between Pluto, Neptune, and Uranus.  That would have symbolized a huge shift in the Unconscious Psyche of Huperity, hence the birth of all the Patriarchal heroes.  

The three Initiations occurred in 10-15 Taurus…

• Pluto Initiated Neptune in 577 BCE at 10 Taurus, “A Red Cross nurse.”
• Pluto Initiated Uranus in 576 BCE at 12 Taurus, “A young couple window-shopping.“
• Neptune Initiated Uranus in 575 BCE at 15 Taurus, “Head covered with a rakish silk hat, muffled against the cold, a man braves a storm: The courage needed to meet the crises precipitated by social ambition.“

The Neptune-Uranus (relationship of collective to individual) symbol reeks of Inequality; Pluto-Neptune’s (transformation of culture) nurse, while having perhaps some autonomy working for the Red Cross, would in general be constrained by their hierarchical superior, the doctor; Pluto-Uranus (transformation of the individual) is about material acquisitiveness that probably serves the Individuals more than their Community. 

A Triple Initiation of Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto will occurs every 4,000 years or so, the next one occurring around 3370, in Gemini, in the Age of Aquarius.  Pluto has an eliptical orbit, so the span would vary.

 

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Yintegrity and “Who, Me?”

Yes, any comment with an “I” or “me” in it is a doorway to Consciousness of our Masks.  

• I’d never do that!
• I’m one of those people who…
• I hate it when…
• How could they do that to me!
• I’d do anything for Love, but I won’t do that!

The only exception might be “I Feel <adverb>, or other statements about the present moment.  And of course any “I sometimes…” statements.  Anytime you’re labeling or implying that you or someone else is always a certain way, you’re looking at a Mask.

Remember though that Patterns – Habits – make Life possible.  If we had to stop and think about which muscle to contract and which one to extend every time we needed to raise a hand to scratch our nose, we wouldn’t get much done.  Some of us may have experienced something on that order while stoned – it makes you appreciate programming.  It’s when one program always fires, or a program fires inappropriately, that we get in trouble.  

Like that co-worker or client or partner that “makes us sick.”  We always have an infinite number of options in the Present Moment; it’s when we aren’t in the Present Moment that we know we’re stuck in an Archetype.  How can we recognize this?  Well, any time we don’t have an infinite number of options, we’re not Present.  So if we’re stewing about something, without imagining a hundred different alternative ways we could have responded, we just PIAVA, “I Wonder why I feel Limited here.”  

Waning II

Our Chief Asteroid Officer noticed a couple of additional things going on in the 26 May Jupiter-Saturn Square chart that we missed.

Not only has OR10 recently Initiated Pallas, but today Nessus does the same, at 6 Pisces, “A parade of army officers in full dress.”  And, Lilith is Conjunct Juno at the head of the Quintile Yod from Chiron and the Venus-Vesta-Sun Stellium.  The Lilith-Juno Initiation occurred last September, in 4 Libra, “Around a campfire a group of young people sit in spiritual communion.”  The current Juno-Lilith Conjunction, complete 29 May, is an Exposition.

Earlier we said, about the Juno QYod, that “it’s time to Learn to bring our Bummers up into Consciousness and deal with them as Masks rather than bottom-line Truths.  Seeing it now as a Juno-Lilith QYod, we can also say, it’s time to Learn to bring our Yangtegrity – our own collaboration with the Patriarchy – up into Consciousness and deal with it as a Mask rather than as a bottom-line Truth.

The asteroid Astraea, Innocence, was with Venus one foot of the Pluto Mjolnir.  We discovered that it was being Initiated by Orcus, who Punished Oath-Breakers for a living, and being Opposed by Pallas (Boundaries).  It turns out that Pallas is also being Initiated, as we speak, by dwarf planet Nessus.  Nessus symbolizes Privilege and Abuse, so a new Pallas-Nessus Cycle will always be welcome if it strengthens our Boundaries against Abuse.  

This new Cycle will be about army officers in dress uniform.  Armies don’t have the best reputation for controlling abuse, but at least the dress uniforms imply that they aren’t in killing mode.  I’m not sure there’s anything on the planet more strictly hierarchical than an army.  So the Patriarchy theme comes up again, this time suggesting Lightning-like Insights about our Boundaries around Yintegrity-killing Discipline.  

How might we sum up all this information?  Let’s start with a tally…

• Overlighting theme is Dropping more Masks (impending Eris-Uranus Configuration, Eris-Uranus Quintile Yod)
• Strong foreground is about Challenge and Mastery over Introversion and Extroversion (Jupiter-Saturn)
• Preparation for Change in the economic structure is also prominent (Jupiter-Saturn, Chiron-Neptune)
• Consciousness about Gender Balance grows (Juno-Lilith Quintile Yod)
• Grace is available for Changing our Karma (South Node Kite)
• Don’t be surprised by Sudden Big Epiphanies around your Transformation (Pluto Mjolnir)
• Boundary issues are Lit Up (Pallas Initiations by OR10 and Nessus)
• In this Transformation we may be able to Recover access to our Abandoned Genius (Ixion Grand Trine)

I guess if we had to put it in one sentence, it might be that we’re seeing another sledgehammer blow (or Lightning strike) to the foundation that holds up the Patriarchy.

Waning Jupiter-Saturn Square: Confidence-Builder

GrandTrines has a nice graphic analysis of the 26 May Jupiter-Saturn Square, at …

https://grandtrines.wordpress.com/2016/05/23/jupiter-square-saturn-2016-05-26/

I’ll add some commentary.  In general, Jupiter-Saturn Squares are about tension between Extroversion and Introversion.  During duress, our Inner Extrovert gets Centered by hanging out with other people, while our Inner Introvert gets Grounded by hanging out with Ourself.  A couple of you have written about how your Guides seem to be recommending playing your cards close to the chest, apparently contrary to our preaching about Dropping Our Masks and Letting It All Hang Out.  This Extro-Intro-Vert Confusion may be part of that; see if it Changes after 26 May.  

In general, we like Safety First, and don’t recommend throwing your Pearls before Pink Animals, unless you really don’t care.  A Jupiter-Saturn Square in another sense suggests that staying Present with The Most Important Thing is more Expansively Important than usual, and the Most Important Thing for the next few weeks is to get Honest with yourself.  Getting Honest with other people is very Important if it’s an Important Relationship.  Of course we’d all be better off if we were all completely Honest with one another, but Idealism is not a game you can win.

We’ve mentioned that this particular Jupiter-Saturn Square is likely to kick off an economic decline, but that’s another story – see, for instance, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/08/19/august-september-iii/ .  This is the third occurrence of this Square, so it’s a Confidence-Builder.  The Changes it heralds will serve us in good stead as we endure the next four years of relative Scarcity.  What do you suppose it means that it coincides with a major shift in our Yintegrity?

GrandTrines mentions a couple of interesting Quintile Yods in the Jupiter-Saturn chart, one focused on Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) and the other on Uranus (Yintegrity).  

• The Juno QYod is from a base of Sun and Chiron: it’s time to Learn to bring our Bummers up into Consciousness and deal with them as Masks rather than bottom-line Truths.  As Bill Plotkin puts it (Wild Mind p.138-9)…

“When an Inner Critic is operating outside our awareness, we notice only how bad we feel about ourselves, which we probably attribute to the fact that we must objectively be deplorable or inadequate.  We passively accept our deficiencies or even our contemptibility.”

“When we know what we’re doing, we consciously choose to royally perform a degradation ceremony upon our very own poor selves.  We know we’re doing it and we feel we deserve it.”

“In contrast, our Nurturing Generative Adult protects and nurtures us by encouraging adequate preparation and conditioning, offering helpful suggestions and guidelines, self-care when things go adversely, and skills for improving less-than-optimal circumstances for both self and others.”

Our Nurturing Generative Adult would start by Tapping it Out.

• The Uranus QYod is based on Mars and the North Node: it’s time to Learn to Assertively pursue the missing pieces in our Yintegrity, and our Mission and Deepest Desires.  Uranus and Eris are only half a Degree apart here, and Eris is as much a part of the focus of this QYod as Uranus: we need to also assertively pursue any inconsistencies in our Storyline.  Exactly Why is it, again, that we can’t Live in Yintegrity, Honor our Deepest Desires, and move toward our Mission?  Well, what if we Could?  What if we asked Ganesh to Remove All Obstacles to doing exactly that?  Scary, eh?

The Kite that GrandTrines delineates points to the South Node, even though Jupiter Amplifies the North Node.  Pluto and Mercury sit on the crossbar.  This brings a lot of Grace (Grand Trine) into our Reconsideration of whether or not we’re Victim to our Karma, or just a willing participant in our repetitive Patterns (South Node), a good deal of Persistence in disallowing backpedaling (Pluto), and alert Awareness for bringing the degree of our Commitment into Consciousness (Mercury).

And of course we have a very different interpretation of the Mjolnir, or Thor’s Hammer.  Thor’s Hammer, like Ganesh, overcame Obstacles, it didn’t necessarily obliterate them.  If you examine the parallel between the Norse Mjolnir and the Hindu Vajra – the Nordic languages derive from Sanskrit – we see that one of the strongest commonalities is the theme of Lightning.  Thor’s Hammer overcomes Obstacles through Illumination, not Violence, though it may be shocking – and dangerous to an Olde Ego that’s Identified with Darkness.  

So we interpret a Mjolnir as Epiphany or Insight.  What others call a “Sesquisquare” (the arms of a Mjolnir) we call a Trioctile.  The Eighth Harmonic is about bringing things back into Balance, and the Third Harmonic is about Compassion.  An intelligent view of Health considers Disease to be one of the Body’s ways to restore Balance.  So yes, a Thor’s Hammer could feel uncomfortable, as it brings Imbalance into our Awareness.

The focus of this week’s Mjolnir is Pluto – Transformation, and the base comprises Venus and Astraea – Values and Innocence.  With Pluto we don’t get to choose whether to be Transformed, but we get to influence how we get our Trance Reformed.  Venus is in Gemini (finding our Values to be Flexible, especially Values based on Experiences that we’ve outgrown) and Astraea is in Virgo (Who, Me?).  We summarize Pluto in Capricorn as “Just Fix It.”  Behind Astraea stands the Royal Star Regulus.  Regulus promises success but warns us to eschew Revenge.

We don’t believe it’s a coincidence that Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) Initiates Venus two days after the Jupiter-Saturn Square, and Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Initiates Astraea a week after.  We can easily consider the Mjolnir to be Pluto to Venus-Vesta-Sun and Astraea-Orcus.  Orcus is about Punishing Oath-Breakers – the Guilt we feel when we betray an ancient Trust such as our promise to Mom that we’d never do that.  Once we realize that we’ve outgrown that Oath/Mask, our Values Change.  And while our initial reaction may be “Who, Me?” as we’re shocked to find our Identity bound up to such ancient Trusts, the result is Liberation and greater Yintegrity.

The Vesta-Venus Initiation occurs 28 May at 6 Gemini, “Workers drilling for oil: The avidity for that knowledge which insures wealth and power.”  The Orcus-Astraea Initiation is 3 June at 7 Virgo, “A harem: A fateful subservience to the vagaries or desires of the emotional nature.”  While Rudhyar’s Spiritual (and Patriarchal) orientation gives secondary priority to the “emotional nature,” our Integrative orientation regards it as the Ground of our Intuition and Guidance, though of course it can overwhelm us at times, as can any other of our Channels.  So we interpret Orcus-Astraea as Liberation of our Innocence so we’re more able to pursue our Deepest Desires.

The two Initiations of course Square one another – Mastery through Challenge.  Liberation of our Innocence so we’re more able to pursue our Deepest Desires Challenges our Values, especially those still tied to Unconscious Beliefs.  If we see the Vesta-Venus Initiation as part of what Jung read as an Innate Unconscious Drive toward Wholeness (which increases real wealth and power, not just material wealth and power), then yes, there is enormous opportunity here for “violent” inner turmoil, as our Reality is twisted to embrace what “breaks all the rules you learned in school,” as Gracie put it.  

With Regulus involved, it’s important to remember that those who bound us to Limiting Oaths – including our historical children and Parallel Selves – were doing the best they could to keep us Safe.  Sarcasm and bitterness will not serve us.

So, we would expect Irruptions from the Deeps in circumstances like this – where is OR10?  “Coincidentally,” it’s busy Initiating Pallas (Boundaries), Opposite the Orcus-Astraea Initiation and Regulus – creating a T-Square focused on the Vesta-Venus Initiation.  So yes, sharply and possibly shockingly shifting Boundaries would accompany big Changes in our Values and our Loyalties.  The OR10-Pallas Initiation occurred on 14 May at 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts: The mobility and intensity of interchanges which make possible and characterize complex social processes.“

Oh, and by the way, OR10 is Stationary, turning Retrograde on 29 May.  So we probably won’t feel “the end of this” once the Jupiter-Saturn Square is over on 26 May.  Just more explication of the transition to the new Eris-Uranus Cycle. 

Now, our Deepest Desires would have been explored long ago if they weren’t shrouded with some sort of prohibition.  Which brings us to the question, Where’s Ixion here? as our Forbidden Genius seems likely to be involved somehow, with Orcus Liberating our Innocence, Pluto Transforming our Values, OR10 haranguing our Boundaries, Regulus promising success, and the South Node heading up a Kite based on a Pluto-Mercury-Jupiter/North Node Grand Trine in the Earth (Manifestation into Form) Signs.  

Ixion’s making a Grand Trine with the imminent Eris-Uranus Initiation and with the asteroid Sappho – Self-Love.  It’s also being Squared by Chiron, making an Ixion-Square-Chiron-Quincunx-Sappho-Trine-Ixion Major Tricolor.  In other words, the key to this whole complex may be to sit with the likes of 

I Wonder what sort of Changes in my Worldview might Liberate my Orphaned Genius and Effortless success in all my endeavors. 

Not a Question seeking an Answer, but a Koan inviting Intuitions.  Inviting Epiphanies, in fact, shocking bolts of Lightning that obliterate Obstacles and turn our World upside down for the better.  If the mind drops into analysis, Change the Subject.

21.5.16 Full Moon II

 

Our Chief Asteroid Officer points out that Astraea (the fifth asteroid discovered after Ceres, Pallas, Juno, and Vesta) completes the Grand Cross with the Full Moon.  Astraea is about Innocence, and she’s right at home in early Virgo.  

We can think of Virgoan innocence as “Who, me?” in the sense that when your best friend Lovingly accuses you of hiding behind a Mask (when you actually are), and you naturally and innocently reply “Who, me?”  Not that your friend would ever be dumb enough to try to label someone else’s Masks; it’s just a metaphor to explain Virgo’s function.  

Leo is where the Ego’s Self-Confidence peaks, Libra is where it meets Other, which means that all bets on Self-Confidence are up for grabs.  Virgo is in charge of the Transition.  If Virgo is the palm, Pisces is the back of the hand.  Aquarius is where the Ego’s Confidence in Community peaks, Aries is where it meets brand new territory so success will only follow from “Don’t-Know” mind.  Pisces is in charge of that Transition.

At the Full Moon we have dwarf planets Opposite one another that are both Stationary (Strong) early in this Virgo-Pisces Ego-Transition, from having a fair degree of Certainty and Comfort, to becoming a complete newbie again.  With Astraea asking, “Who, Me?”  Or as a reader says…

“Kaboom, JUST connected.  I’m wiggin’ out because I hold this perspective & perception that EVERYTHING IS A TRADE OFF.  OMG – THAT belief?  I was completely indoctrinated into THAT.  Hugo mungo either/or thinking.  I never saw the depth of this trade-off perspective and never connected it to The Grand Either/Or that permeates so much.  That they are one and the same.”

I could tell similar stories about my own Epiphanies, but this stuff moves so fast, and the nature of this Edge between Consciousness and the Unconscious is so ephemeral, that I can’t keep track from day to day of what my Psyche is doing.  I just know it’s moving through Heavy territory and making it’s own connections.  

How old was I when they had to sew my tongue back on because I bit it almost off jumping off a couch while horseplaying with my sibs?  Three?  Of course that wouldn’t have triggered my Abandonment because my father had to spend money he didn’t have.  And of course that wouldn’t have anything to do with my allergy to hospitals and my recent experience of them.  

Without knowing what but knowing it was Heavy, I used to literally paint that picture when I was in high school, the scene from the neighbor’s car, looking out over the river in the darkness.  I obviously wasn’t in my Body.  Shortly after that we moved to the downriver side of the hospital, and it took me a long time to figure out why in this picture I was looking down river.

Another reader, born during the height of the original Ouija-Board Pluto-Uranus Initiation, recommended Bill Plotkin’s Wild Mind to me.  Here are some excerpts about our Masks…

“The grave problem with having made such a pact in childhood is that, once adopted, it becomes a bedrock layer of our personalities.  Achieving liberation from our Loyal Soldier survival strategies is one of the most challenging and long-lasting tasks of the individuation process, requiring a good deal of courage, discernment, and endurance even into genuine adulthood and elderhood.” (p.133)

His pact, or Oath, is our response to our need to protect our child self from likely-fatal Abandonment by our Family or Community.  The dwarf planet Orcus, which symbolizes these Oaths, is Stationary only a few degrees from Astraea.  It’s handy, having Astraea’s Innocence there, allowing us more Empathy for the pickle that our historical tykes found themselves in.  That allows us to slap our forehead with an OMG, instead of the “How stupid can we be?” that we might otherwise greet ourself with while opening these doors.

The Pisces side of this equation features the dwarf planet OR10 – also Stationary – and the Centaur Nessus.  OR10 is about irruption of material from the Unconscious – including sudden Epiphanies.  Nessus is about Privilege and Abuse.  And all this is in the context of having Mars (Action, Anger) Oppose Vesta (Limiting Unconscious Beliefs) less than a Degree from the Full Moon axis.  All preparation for June’s Eris-Uranus (Embracing the Previously Denied) – the cosmic choreography is quite amazing.

Plotkin continues…

“Our juvenile survival strategies of self-diminishment form the core of our most self-defeating patterns: those that disparage our dreams, our potentials, and our healthy wildness, or that aggravate low self-esteem and troubles with intimacy.  And, most irksome, these strategies are often on autopilot, launched outside our awareness and without our consent or control.”

Conspiring to hold our Unique Genius in its Orphanage – or as we bring them into Consciousness, to Set it Free, as Ixion (Genius) Trines (Grace) Eris-Uranus.

More Masks from Plotkin (p.157)…

Not all of our Wounded Children are trying to help us survive.  Some are simply casualties of our other [Masks] or of the unkind actions of others.  These are our Outcasts, elements of our psyches we rejected in order to survive, in order to be accepted by others.

“These are the versions of ourselves of which we are ashamed – perhaps our gentleness or our fierceness, our sexuality, our anger or sadness, our fear or embarrassment, our love of dance or poetry, our joy or vivaciousness, or our need for touch or compassion.  Once we reject these Wounded Children and label them bad or worthless, they exist in a marginal, banished state within our psyches.  Nonetheless, we live every day with some awareness of their pain and heartache.

“For children, conscious self-rejection is less harmful than being rejected by others, even if it’s no less painful.  By restraining ourselves from acting in ways that lead to being shamed, we’re less likely to be abandoned.  The price we pay is self-shaming, resulting in Outcasts within us we’re not willing to love, who we’ve neglected and exiled.  

“Although our Outcasts persist as pockets of pain within us, they embody great gifts – strengths and sensibilities not deemed worthy by others in our early lives, but gifts we can reclaim when we’re psychologically ready to do so.  The reclamation process usually begins with grief.  We must mourn our psychological woundings by others, our consequent self-woundings, and the loss of joy, aliveness, and relationships that resulted from all our self-diminishments.”

And again (pp.186-7)…

“We’re all in recovery from Western civilization.  Sooner or later, we each must address the paramount addiction in the Western and Westernized worlds: our psychological dependence on the worldview and lifestyle of Western civilization itself.  The Western worldview says, in essence, that technological progress is the highest value, and that we were born to consume, to endlessly use and discard natural resources, other species, techno-gadgets, toys, and often, other people, especially if they’re poor or from the global South.

“It’s a world of commodities, not entities, of consumers, not human beings, and economic expansion is the primary measure of progress.  Profits are valued over people, money over meaning, our national entitlement over global peace and justice, ‘us’ over ‘them.’  This addiction to Western civilization – especially now that the Chinese, too, are hooked – is by far the most dangerous one in the world because of how rapidly and extensively it’s undermining the natural systems of the Earth.

“Addiction to Western civilization keeps us from seeing and feeling the staggering price all Earthly life pays for our consumer habit.  And it protects us from having to make any radical changes in lifestyle, or from having to grow up, leave the ‘home’ of our adolescent comforts, and embark on the hazardous journey of initiation that leads to an existence that’s life enhancing, meaningful. and fulfilling.”

Pp.208-210…

“The Shadow, one of the archetypes identified by psychologist Carl Jung, is composed of those elements of our own psyches that are unknown to us … the Shadow is not what we know about ourselves, don’t like, and keep hidden.  Rather, the Shadow is what is true about us that we don’t know – don’t know at all – and, if accused of it, would adamantly and sincerely deny.”

“Who, Me?”

“The purpose of the Shadow is to protect us from enacting personal characteristics that, if expressed, might land us in big trouble with others or ourselves.  We stuff these forbidden parts of ourselves in a corner of our psyches where we can’t find them, where we can ‘fail to notice’ them.”

“The Shadow is what our psyches repress (render unconscious), not what our Egos suppress (consciously hide from others). … This is difficult to accept and digest – that there are aspects or parts of ourselves we really don’t know and that are completely at odds with who we think we are.  

“Even when our other [Masks] act unconsciously (independently of our Egos), we know them by how they affect our lives, thoughts, and deeds.  Perhaps we don’t acknowledge them to others, but we do know them.  Not so for the elements of the Shadow.  The Shadow is always unconscious.”

Ah yes, dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sextile (Grace after we initiate) to Eris-Uranus.  Thank goodness there’s always More.

21.5.16 Full Moon

The Full Moon is bang on Mars, and the Opposing Sun Conjoins Vesta.

Keep an eye out over the next several weeks for anything that makes you Angry.  It’s a doorway into Letting Go of a Limiting Belief.

The Full Moon is Squared by a Stationary OR10, which Conjoins Pallas and Nessus.  Nessus Initiates Pallas on 26 May at 6 Pisces, “A parade of army officers in full dress.”  Stationary Orcus, which turns Direct on 19 May, completes the Grand Cross, though it’s five Degrees off the Full Moon.  Orcus Opposes Nessus by less than a Degree.

One of the things likely to Anger you is War, or any other form of Abuse or Privilege.  The key is to connect with your own historical or Past-Life experiences of War or Abuse – they’re likely to be “in your face,” even if you don’t recognize them as yours.  Whatever you encounter – in your own Emotional bank, in movies, in the news, in other people – pretend that the experience was yours.

You made an Oath never to do that again over your own equivalent of that experience.  The Oath still Limits your current Life, in ways you may not suspect.  Be Loving and Gentle with yourself, but Let Go of that Oath.  You can “Revert!” (taking an Oath is really the equivalent of putting a Curse on yourself), Tap it Out, or just Ask Ganeshi to Lovingly and Gently Remove All Obstacles between you and Letting Go of the Oath, whatever it was (you don’t need to know the details; it’s enough to know that you have upsetting memories).

Sun-Vesta is the focus of a Finger of God from the Sextile between Juno-Lilith and Lachesis-Hylonome.

There is a Limit to Grief, and its beginning is reached by resolving to Let Go of the Archetype that binds us to Grief.  How many times in our Karmic history has War or other Violence taken our Soulmate, or our Children, or our Land from us?  Random Chance would probably “gift” us with this experience in more than half of our Lifetimes as Hupers.  

Looking back, we might find that we Cherish those as our “lucky” Lifetimes, when we were able to Enjoy Love or Family or Independence, at least till we lost it.  How many other Lives brought us none of those satisfactions?  We forget that Change comes to All things, good or bad, and we Vow not to Experience those Emotions ever again.  In vain; we can’t abandon Any Emotion without squeezing all of the others.  Each episode is an invitation to Take Our Power back.  We’re being Asked here to re-establish our Self-Sovereignty.

Makemake makes a Trine Bridge across the Full-Moon Opposition, forming a Sun/Vesta-Square-OR10-Quincunx-Makemake-Trine-Sun/Vesta Major Tricolor and a Moon/Mars-Square-OR10-Quincunx-Makemake-Sextile-Moon/Mars Minor Tricolor.

Permaculture looks beyond Sustainability towards Resilience – the ability to meet any Crisis with multiple Responses.  Our greatest tool for increasing Resilience is Curiosity.  “I Wonder how I can make Lemonade out of these Emotional intrusions.”  Don’t forget to Change the Subject; you want to get the mind and its YesButs and ThatWon’tWorks onto some other issue, so your natural Survival Instincts and Brilliant Intuitions have an Open Space to rise into.

Uranus inches ever closer to Eris; they’re now just over half a Degree apart.  Closely related, by Degrees, are Chiron (Unx), Sedna’s recent Initiation of Venus (Unx), Chaos’s impending Initiation of asteroid Karma (Sextile), Ixion (Trine), and Haumea (Opposition).

The Sedna-Venus Initiation occurs the day before the Full Moon, in 26 Taurus, “A Spanish galant serenades his beloved.”  The Chaos-Karma Initiation occurs 24 May, in 21 Gemini, “A tumultuous labor demonstration.”  

Whatever is happening in our Young Lives – and I know some of us are enduring torment – it’s roots probably lie in the Masks we retain.  There are still things we admit to no one, and still things we don’t admit to ourself.  No one is proposing that we expose ourselves to Shame, but it would behoove to Ask what triggers Shame for us, then Lovingly Embrace it.  We’ll never get to the bottom of these puzzles without Curiosity and Intuition – if we could get there by other means, we would have done so long ago.

For some of us, Matter is bottom-line, for others of us, Energy.  Our Perspective on Life and Difficulty depends a lot on this Duality.  But it’s not Either/Or, it’s Both/And.  Spirit, Matter, Mind, Emotion, Soul – these aren’t discrete “levels” or compartments of Reality, they’re Perspectives on Reality.  Reality itself is Unitary and Multifarious.  There is Power in shifting Perspective.  

If you’re struggling with a Physical issue, try Asking the Universe to show you pictures of it in the languages of Emotion, Thought, Spirit, and/or Soul.  If you’re struggling with an Emotional issue, try Asking the Universe to show you pictures of it in the languages of Soul, Spirit, Thought, and Body.  If you’re in the middle of a Spiritual Crisis, Ask to be shown what it looks like from the Emotional or Physical point of view.

If the result is Confusion, you’ve arrived.  Your only task is to sit with the Confusion, without trying to “fix” it by seeking Certainty.  Certainty is a method, not a result.  You Ask, “What if I did Know?” when you’re stuck in Duality.  Then you examine the consequences of that Knowing.  But you don’t want to assume you have the “right” answer – the Universe is much too complex for that.  We might move in the “right” direction for a little while, but I guarantee that soon enough this direction will lead us astray.

Pluto Trine-Bridges the Nodes, and Jupiter makes a Waning Square to Saturn as Jupiter prepares to Initiate the North Node at the end of June.  The Can-Opener of the Jupiter-Saturn Waning Square occurred in early August of last year; this one (exact 26 May) is an Exposition.  This Waning Jupiter-Saturn Square marks the final Swan Song of the Industrial Age.  Expect economic malaise until the Digital Age reboots in 2020.

Even though it’s not pleasant, Trust that we’re moving in the direction we need to go.  Resilience will be particularly important for the next four years, and Trusting our own Truth increases Resilience markedly.  

This Week (8-14 May)

On Monday 9 May (5am PDT) Jupiter turned Direct and started its final ascent into its 23-June Initiation of the North Node, which signifies a big emphasis on our Mission in the Lifetime, and in the process on our Deepest Desires.  Our Mission is larger by many orders of magnitude than our Intellect can grasp, so our Deepest Desires represent a peepshow of our Mission, presented to our Ego in a form it can understand.  As Consciousness grows, our Deepest Desires metamorphose into our Mission.

The Jupiter-North Node Initiation is about A Volcanic Eruption, so on some levels it could be a bigger event than our 9-June Eris-Uranus Initiation.  Or at least, a more Conscious event.  Eris-Uranus will blow the gaskets off of the Masks that we use to pretend that we have socially redeeming value in spite of our Original Sins – which of course are nothing but programmed Self-Judgments.  If we have any Masks left after 2012-15.  At the very least we have to get Honest with ourself about our Deepest Desires and their addictive qualities, even if they’re not ready to dance on the World Stage.  You could call them our Hungry Ghosts.  Addiction can prevent metamorphosis.

We didn’t mention in our New Moon post that the New Moon forms a Major Tricolor with Stationary Jupiter/North Node and Saturn: Jupiter/NN-Square-Saturn-Quincunx-NewMoon-Trine-Jupiter/NN.  Which is to say that you can effectively address any Conflicts over how to Both Expand and Focus by Wondering what’s being Reborn here.

On 13 May we have an interesting Conjunction between two asteroids, Aletheia and Veritas – respectively Greek and Latin for Truth.  The Conjunction is Unx (one Sign) from the asteroid Mnemosyne – Memory.  The Unx is about

• Breaking Patterns,
• Letting Go of Karma,
• Changing Habits, and
• Untangling ourself from Archetypes.  

So this week is likely to have a lot of information for us about how our June will unfold.  

Watch your Thoughts and Emotions closely.  We all have Patterns of quickly shifting our Attention away from issues we don’t like to contemplate.  Many of these Patterns operate below the level of Consciousness, but even some of those may surface here.  If you catch yourself shifting your Attention away from your Fears, after you do your Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade, stop and examine the Fear.  You may have access this week to its roots, and if you can pull out the roots, the weed can’t regrow, as of course it will if you just keep cutting it off at ground level.

Definitely Tap out the Fears you become Conscious of, but with a twist this week.  Instead of “Even though I’m afraid of that I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself,” use “Even though I don’t know why I’m afraid of that I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself.”  Put what you do know about the Fear in place of “that.”  Confusion is good, it’s the first stage of Growth.  Be Curious about it.

Jupiter will now cross for the third time the Pisces through Gemini Duads of Virgo – the last half of the Capricorn Decanate and the first half of the Taurus Decanate.  As Jupiter dismantles our Olde Ego (that’s what Virgo does for a Living), it goes through the process of

1. Looking to see what’s socially unacceptable (Libra),
2. Rooting out why we do that (Scorpio),
3. Letting Go of that (Sagittarius),
4. Replacing it with something more useful (Capricorn),
5. Testing it to see how it flies socially (Aquarius),
6. Rueing our Inadequacy (Pisces), 
7. Surrendering Control (Aries),
8. Observing what evolves (Taurus),
9. Adapting it to our Liking (Gemini),
10. Nurturing it (Cancer), and finally,
11. Wearing it as our New Ego (Leo).

We’re reviewing stages 6 through 9 here.  Be Gentle with yourself.

New Moon 6 May

Let’s do some interpretation first, then fill in the astrology later, with [cross-links].  Maybe that’ll make it easier for mobile users…

We get a bit of a breather here [3,11,12,17], relative to the last few months (and the next one) – with caveats.  Foremost, we need to stay focused on our Path – Who We Are and Who We Are Becoming [5].  And actually, it’s Who We Are Becoming that turns out to be most important [12-13,15-16].

The Most Important Thing this month [7] is to be Enthusiastically Loving and Gentle [6,8] with what we’re Birthing [1,9,11-13,15-17].  No need this month to focus on what we’re Denying or Giving Up [10], plenty of time for that next month.  It’s time to make Lemonade out of what we’ve been considering our worst faults [4,8,12]!

There is one downside [14] that could bite us in the butt, producing angry reactions from the internalized voices of the significant adults in our childhood.  However, the purpose of this Energy is Insight.  If you hear angry self-talk, ask yourself whose voice that is.  If it’s yours, ask how old you are.  If it’s not yours, ask yourself how you would react.  This could lead to Epiphanies.

Just how do we know Who We Are Becoming, if we’re still a Work in Progress (which we are)?  You may have a Clear Intuition about it.  If not, go with Who You Want to Become.  Who would you Enjoy Being?  This is a Virgin Birth, so there’s no need to impose any Limits on yourself.  Give your Imagination free rein.  As we Visualize and Feelize this, yes-buts will almost certainly arise.  Change them to yes-ands.

“Yes-but, you can’t afford that” might become “Yes-and, we don’t know yet where the means will come from, but it will” – the means to afford it may not be monetary.  Let new doors Open, and let details and mechanisms remain unknown.  We aren’t Planning here, we’re Brainstorming – “No” and “But” are absent from the vocabulary.  We’re midwifing a Mutant version of ourself this month.  Embrace it as you would a newborn infant.  No Judgment, just Love.

Here’s the astrology for the 6 May (half-past noon PDT) New Moon itself…

• The New Moon is in 17 Taurus, which is about getting Clear around what Walking in Beauty means to you (Scorpio Duad), particularly around the issue of Idealism versus Self-Trust (Swords versus Torches) [1]
• It will especially trigger your natal planets in 15-19 of Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, and Aquarius [2]
• It’s one corner of a Grand Trine (dumb-luck Grace) with the North Node and Pluto [3]
• Which means that the resulting Kite is focused on the South Node [4]
• The Nodal Axis is half of a Grand Cross, with Saturn and Chaos Squaring it [5]
• The New Moon is Squared by Sappho in Leo [6]
• Yielding a Sappho-Square-New Moon-Quincunx-Saturn-Trine-Sappho Major Tricolor [7]
• Sappho in turn sits at the apex of a Finger of God, built on a base of the Pluto-South Node Sextile [8]
• Finally, the New Moon is Trioctile to dwarf planet Makemake [9]

And we can’t ignore the impending Big Picture, the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation, so we need to look at how Uranus is positioned in the New Moon chart…

• Uranus is one and one-quarter Degree from its Initiation by Eris at the time of the New Moon; the prior Cycle began in April 1927 at 2 Aries, “A comedian reveals human nature” [10]
• Uranus is fourteen arcminutes from a Can-Opener Opposition to Haumea at the time of the New Moon; the Opposition is complete on 10 May; the Initiation for this Uranus-Haumea Cycle was late September 1962 at 3 Virgo, “Two Guardian Angels” [11]
• Uranus-Eris makes a Grand Trine with Ixion and Klotho [12]
• Which creates a Kite focused on Haumea [13]
• Mars Squares Orcus, forming the base of a Mjolnir focused on Uranus-Eris [14]
• Which creates a Mjolnir Kite focused on Haumea [15]
• Mercury-Vesta Sextiles Chiron, which serves as the base of a Finger of God focused on Haumea [16]
• Add Chaos to the Haumea Kite and we have five rays of a Grand Sextile; the Vacancy is at 23 Aquarius, “A pregnant woman in light summer dress” [17]

 

No Medical History

Okay, so “where does Eris seem to be leading me next?”  What Masks are being pulled upon for me?  

Well, about 45 years ago I realized that dentistry was a treadmill that required more effort than payoff, and about 35 years ago I discovered that mainstream medicine wasn’t worth the money either.  Originally, I just didn’t want to devote my Life to buying someone else a new Mercedes every few years, without getting much in return.  As the years have gone by, I’ve seen many more reasons to eschew for-profit medicine and its master Big Pharma, particularly where it does more harm than good in the name of quarterly profits, inflated Lifestyles, and vested interests.

So a week ago, I woke up with a swollen face and neck from an infected tooth.  I’ve been through several abscesses, Healing them with other means, but never anything like this.  Plus, it freaked out my wife.  So we went to her dentist.  Turns out that sort of swelling can close the windpipe without much notice, so I ended up spending the weekend in the hospital getting a course of IV antibiotics and steroids.  After a third of a century of abstinence, stepping into the dental, mainstream medicine, and pharmaceutical worlds in one leap was certainly a huge Ego Death.

But it didn’t feel like it.  There was no clinging, no hesitation, no doubt.  My traditional self-Healing methods weren’t working, it felt like something I couldn’t just tolerate or adapt to, and, just one “easy” step after another, here I was in the hospital sucking up the drugs that destroy the first third of one’s immune system.  Of course I was hyperalert for the many unnecessary doctor visits and irrelevant tests that you read about hospitals using to exploit the unwary, and ready to be defensive about my choices if they tried to “diagnose” me.  Diagnosis is a label with enormous baggage attached to it.

But it didn’t happen.  The tests and docs all seemed pretty central to the issue at hand, the people were very nice, mostly genuine, educated, caring, and sharp.  So there’s the first piece of Eris intel – that our Eridean edification may arrive through witnessing that our accustomed Judgments aren’t valid.  Our Judgments are certainly Limiting Beliefs.  And mainstream medicine is powerfully good at dealing with emergencies.

Turns out I’m healthier than I thought I was.  Doc after doc, nurse after nurse, most of them said something like “70-plus, no medical history, no medications, relatively good health – how do you do it?  I’m on four meds already in my 50s.”  By the third time, I realized it was a serious question, so I started answering.  I told them to look up Functional Medicine, whose creed is from Aristotle – “Let Food be thy Medicine, and Medicine be thy Food” – and of course why and how to avoid Glyphosate.   Many of them were already partway there in their personal Lives.  Functional Medicine is new, but I’ve been following its precepts pretty faithfully for 35 years.

There’s the second piece of Eris intel – that the World is educable.  I’m sure it will take a looong time before hospital “food” gets up to snuff – there was nothing on the menu that I could eat, even after they dismissed surgery and allowed that it was Safe for me to eat.  Even the Broth – they had no list of ingredients for it, it just “came in a pouch.”  So I got my first-ever two-day Fast, which was easy and felt good.  More potential Ego Bullets dodged.

Once I got out of the hospital I had to start thinking about having the tooth pulled, and a friend inadvertently reminded me that Mercury was about to go Retrograde.  I don’t usually worry much about Retrogrades, but then, I don’t sign a lot of contracts.  The timeliness of the reminder gave me pause.  I didn’t think it would be possible to get it out before Mercury went Retrograde; could I wait till after it turned Direct again?  I didn’t want to revisit it again and again.

Differences of opinion among the docs – some said no way to wait, some said finish the antibiotics first (I’m still on followup oral antibiotics).  The oral surgeon’s office said he was booked for the next three weeks – maybe waiting was my answer.  But the surgeon offered his consulting services two days after I got out of the hospital.  At the consultation he proposed pulling the tooth at 9:30am on 28 April.  Mercury turned Retro at 10:20am – problem solved.

And with it another piece of Eris intel – don’t waste your time trying to Do and Plan – go straight to PIAVA instead.  That one’s BIG.

Of course, now that I’ve had the offending tooth extracted and had to go two more days at home with only liquid Foods, I see that fasting isn’t as easy when you’re feeling better and surrounded by all of those tasty treats that dance and sing and wave their tentacles every time you walk by.  So now we’re getting in a little deeper with this fourth piece of Eris intel – I’m intellectually Conscious that I eat to dispel Anxiety, but I haven’t scratched the surface of the Emotional Discernment that will be necessary to Change that Pattern.

As I’ve said many times, the Noticing is the hardest part, the Acting differently will be a Challenge, but once the effort begins, the process is self-reinforcing.  So it’ll probably be easier than I imagine.  But this use of Food for Emotional Control, rather than Nutrition or Celebration, certainly qualifies as one of those things that “we will discover in the way of unknown Beliefs, or long-standing Limits that we’ve misinterpreted as Irritations or social norms, and which are likely to come into Focus as Self-Sabotage.”  And that we’ll be clinging to, in an addictive sense.

Multiple personalities – the folks who have cancer in one personality and not in another, for instance – is a heavier situation than most of us are in.  But we all have multiple subpersonalities that may relate to each other only in passing.  In some mind-spaces I have no difficulty at all passing up a candy bar – why would I want to do that to myself?  In other spaces, it’s Sure, I can do that!  In yet others it’s Whoa, have you tried that new Ocho Dark Coffee organic-chocolate organic-coffee bar?  It’s incredible!  

These three people kinda know each other, but not well.  It’s almost as if they’re independent of the overall director of the Vehicle.  They kind of take turns running the show, and when one is in charge, the others may be distant witnesses, but it almost seems like they don’t care.  Of course tooth pain calls forth sub #1 (why would I do that to myself?) fairly reliably, because the negative feedback is immediate.

The fifth potential Ego hit will be around how to pay the hospital bills when they arrive.  And I can see another, sixth piece of Eris intel – once I’m back on my feet, will I withstand the pressure to give in to the dental treadmill?  I’ve yet to see dentistry really working – they wail on your mouth and checkbook, and the only result is that they want to see you again in three months, or sooner.  Or will I submit eagerly, if I can scrounge up the money, because it might seem easier than self-Healing?

Time will tell about this one.  The Eris-Uranus Initiation is still a month off.  We don’t know what will Change, or how we’ll Change.