Quaoar and Sappho

Quaoar and Sappho have closed down their shop.  Went straight ’round the corner, and never came back.

Anybody recognize that?  You’d think that the Star today would be dwarf planet Quaoar, but tiny 50-mile-wide asteroid Sappho rules!  They’re both Stationary – at their peak of Influence – today.  Seven hundred-mile-wide Quaoar turns Retrograde, while Sappho turns Direct.  

The Moon (Instinct) is crossing Quaoar (Rules for Survival) as we “speak,” and it’s Conjunct Pholus (Responsibility) and beginning to make a Waxing Square to Makemake (Manifestation).

Quaoar Stationary will urge us to Speak our Truth, particularly around issues where we believe our Survival is at stake.  We’re actually likely to Feel a Responsibiliy to Speak out, and to Pay Attention to what it is we’re Creating and whether or not it has Survival Value.

Tiny Sappho (Singing the Praises of Love) on the other hand, is Trioctile (Insight) to Quaoar-Pholus, and sits at the head of a Diamond Star (Profound Ease), T-Squaring (Mastery through Challenge) the Opposition from Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) to Vesta (Unconscious Beliegs) while being the focus of a Finger of God (Pay Attention!) from Chariklo (Walking in Beauty) and Neptune (our Relationship with God/Goddess)!  Whoo!  It also Trines the Sun and Sextiles Asbolus (Intuition).  In other words…

This is a unique opportunity to Erase – through Embrace – our Limiting Beliefs.  Whatever it is you see yourself doing today that is not being done out of Love, stop, Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade, and reset your Intentions.  It feels so righteous to be Right and make someone else Wrong, and there are times when that is absolutely necessary (such as when folks are deliberately destroying your Planet for their personal gain), but that’s not today’s program.  

It’s not about Forgiveness – Forgiveness is a Discovery (when you Discover that you’re no longer upset with someone for what they’ve done or what they’re doing), not a Decision.  Forgiveness as a Decision is often Self-Abandonment, when rather than protecting yourself against continuing Abuse you Intend to be magnanimous.  It’s a Truce, a few days of Peace.  It may well evolve into Forgiveness, if Truce leads to Communication between folks who are open, capable, and willing to strive for Win-Win.

Speak your mind, firmly, without holding back, but without Blame or rancor.  Holding or wearing a Crystalline Mineral called Manganotantalite can help immensely with this task.    It’s difficult to find, but gazing at photos of it can convey some of the same Energy…

http://www.jbuss.com/rockindex2.htm#manganotantalite

Tantalite can be either Mangano- (Manganese) or Ferro- (Iron), the Mangano- form being more scarce.  Tantalum is used to control the flows of electricity in cellphones, and most of the planet’s Tantalum comes, with controversy, from mid-Africa…

http://www.cellular-news.com/coltan/

Perhaps why people find their cellphones so mesmerizing, or tantalizing.  Most Manganotantalite Crystals hail from Brazil or the “Stans” of south-central Asia. 

In the Spirit of Singing the Praises of Love, you could also find your Libido running at a high pitch this week.  By itself, Sappho-Love is more inclusive than Competitive, but there will be exceptions.  If you get caught up in Competition for Love, Change the Subject and put it on hold for a week, till the Energy recedes.  There are no winners in that game.

Pholus, and therefore Quaoar by extension, heads a Finger of God from Sedna (Actions Taken out of Fear) and Varuna (Energy so Ancient it’s barely even Biological).  Remember that Sex and Libido predate Hupersonhood by at least millions of years.  It’s incredibly naive and regressive for individual Hufolk to get stuck on Ego-Identifying with these Archetypes.  Granted that the manipulation of these Patterns in one another is a – or the – primary method for controlling or attempting to control the behavior of others (advertising, for instance!), do we really want to walk into that tarpit?  For fun, absolutely.  For Ego-Identification and Addiction, Revert!

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn VI

More comments around Privilege…

“I’ve done so much mirroring over the last few years; I even carry a small mirror in my purse for those ‘special occasions’  and finger it discreetly when the need arises.  I also have a mirror set up in the library that I can angle towards the direction of whichever person isn’t respecting my boundaries at any given moment.”

Fantastic!  Keep up the Good Work!!  Persist till it becomes completely automatic.

“Not sure I have the expertise to close holes in my aura on my own but will ask around about people who might be able to help with that.”

You ARE closing the holes in your Aura.  Think about how many years it took the significant adults (and older siblings if any) in your childhood to get you programmed to be Vulnerable to their Needs and Whims – and how many Lifetimes before that.  Self-Sovereignty isn’t a single Decision, it’s a Lifestyle, which impacts the Choices you make every moment.  Slavery is still quite legal in many places on this Planet.  Most of us may have more Lifetimes as Slaves and Masters than as Freepersons.  

You may be able to find a Psychic Healer to help you, but the way you close the hole in your Aura is with Discernment (Noticing when Violation is occurring, at more and more subtle levels; Witnessing; and Empathy if or when there’s Time and Safety for it) and Persistence (making the Decision to Support your own Sovereignty and Doing it, over and over again until it’s second nature, like riding a bicycle).  You might find that experience with a Psychic Healer just gives you (to your chagrin) more opportunity to Discern and Persist!

“Response-ability, right?”

Absolutely!  Developing the Ability to Respond rather than React.  Responding from Choice, or from an Archetype (Pattern, Habit) that we’ve Chosen to Self-Install, rather than from an Archetype that someone else Programmed us to React from.  

The ancient Command… 

“Revert!”

is an excellent one to use when someone threatens us with a curse.  Feel bad about sending a curse back to the one who curses you?  That’s exactly the Programmed Self-Abuse you can use as your unfailingly reliable signal that it’s time to Discern and Persist.  When you get stuck on an Edge between Compassion and Sovereignty, recognize the Confusion – the first sign of Growth – and Surrender to a PIAVA.

When our own “negative” Programming threatens us with an untoward thought or Feeling… 

“Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade”

is a good mantra – Cancel the thought, Neutralize the Energy already manifested, and Upgrade the thinking unit.

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn V

Yet another reader writes (a hot topic, eh?)…

“A former ‘bestie’ who has (after my inner enlightenment) shown herself to actually be a ‘frienemy,’ posted a pic of her hand in a splint, held in the position of an ‘F-you’ finger, which seems synchronous enough on its own, but when I send a friendly note of commiseration, she replied, ‘There needs to be someone incapacitated at all times — your turn next!’ 

“It felt as close to a curse as I’ve experienced.

Definitely!  Sad that someone has an Unconscious Belief in Suffering, but not I suppose unusual.

“My husband, a lovely practical man who is able to shed others’ energies like a duck, laughed and asked why I even engaged her.  Good question.  I suppose I am still looking to heal something there. 

“But my larger query is about dealing with a situation stronger than ‘taunts’ — what appears to be active desire to wish ill on me.

“Seems very Ixion, no?  Wasn’t he the one who gave something poisoned to Hercules’ wife that she then unwittingly gave him and caused his death?”

That was Nessus, while he was dying after Hercules wounded him to revenge Nessus’s attempted rape of Hercules’ wife.  What tangled webs we weave, eh?

“My current strategy is to imagine a beautiful mesh dome of healing light and mirrors to bounce any negative energies back at the sender, but I’m left feeling so sad.  Why this waste?  But there are likely themes of envy and competition and narcissism that I avoided seeing, out of wanting to “see the best” in her.

“So I am working hard to keep remembering that ‘I Walk in Light.’ 

“My inner Innocent wants to focus on the Good in the World, but there is a rising Inner Warrior who is sharpening her blades — standing ready to cut all ties.  Or at least polishing my shield to reflect back Medusa’s image to her.

“Also interesting how subtle threads can be plucked to create a resonance or tone that others cannot hear, but feel clear to me.

“In any case, I responded with lightness and humor that ‘no thanks — my card’s already been punched, but I was sure she had a full card that could be redeemed for perhaps a free lightning healing!’

As Alan Watts said, “It’s harder to Let Go of our Good Karma, than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.  Bear in mind that the Greek Myths were stories of how the Patriarchs defeated Nature, allowing the Illusion that She can be controlled, which Illusion has been busy destroying the Planet ever since.  You can see Medusa acting through the Superstorms that have been plaguing the Planet since Global Warming started to become extreme – and the Patriarchy’s impotence in its Reactions.  The appropriate Response is to Empathize with Medusa.

Yes, by all means

“a beautiful mesh dome of healing light and mirrors to bounce any negative energies back at the sender,”

though it’s useful to remember that “negative” only has meaning with regard to the Receiver, as “positive” and “negative” only exist operationally.  That means that they aren’t absolutes, but relative to the purpose and context at hand.  Maybe you could instead think in terms of Energies that don’t Serve the Highest Good of All, or the like, rather than “negative” Energies.  That’s nit-picking, but it might be useful.

“But I’m left feeling so sad.  Why this waste?”  

Yes, that’s your Resistance to having to do the Work which you Believe others should be doing – and in a Healed World they would be.  But this World needs Healing, and we’re self-appointed.  This is why we above all need Persistence, because we were programmed to Resist healing the holes in our Auras.  That’s how the significant adults in our childhood controlled us.  So that Feeling of Sadness is your key to knowing you’re on the right track.  Shift your Attention from the Sadness in your Emotional Body to the Fullness you Feel in your Energy Body when you have your Mesh Dome of Mirrors in place.  Adjust your MirrorMesh till you Feel the Fullness.

Your Sadness needs a “You poor Sweetheart, you believe it’s Sad to have to Protect yourself, don’t you” and some hugs, as you fill your Energy Space with Light.  Attend to the Edge between Sad and Safe.  I think the two of you will prefer Safe.  Natally, you have a Finger of God (Pay Attention!) pointing at Nessus, with Ixion (Orphaned Genius), Lilith (Self-Sovereignty), and the North Node (Mission) closely involved.  Nessus represents Power-Over.  

So absolutely sharpen your Inner Warrior’s blades.  You are a highly tuned Sensor for Power-Over, but your Vertex (Intuition) Squares your Nessus.  Our Squares represent Mastery through Challenge, and we of course focus on the Challenge, since it’s always demanding our Attention.  Only by carefully comparing Who We Are to Who Others Are can we see the Mastery.  Power-Over is how the Patriarchy operates, how it’s destroying the Planet.  

It’s not necessarily your duty to blow the whistle on Power-Over publicly, but in settings where the clients were Open, you could be an effective business consultant helping organizations overcome Power-Over problems in their internal Relationship Dynamics.  There are actually businesses out there that are trying to figure out how to Survive AND adapt to greater principles than Exploitation and Quarterly Profits.

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn IV

Another reader writes that during this Saturn Station and T-Square…

“As I was leaving a coffee shop near here, I had some difficulty backing my car out of a fairly small space because someone had parked their pickup truck at an angle straddling the line between the spaces, with the back end of the truck intruded into the space where my car was parked and prevented me from backing my car out easily.  He and his buddy, it turned out, were having a smoke on the other side of the truck and they basically heaped abuse on me, saying I was going to damage the truck.
“So I invited them to try to get my car out, politely pointing out that the truck was parked obliquely across the line dividing the two spaces.  Then my car got scratched due to a pipe sticking out from above the front wheel of the truck that caught my car as the fellow backed it out.  Still, they continued with their demeaning comments, repeatedly referring to me in the third person as ‘she,’ and saying things like ‘she better have insurance.’
“While they weren’t quite as scary as the characters in the movie Deliverance, I’m sure you’re conjuring an accurate image of these ‘cowboys.’  Instinctively, I didn’t argue with their (il)logic, instead apologizing and thanking them for backing my car out of the tight spot.  When I gently pointed out that it was my car that got scratched in the end, they said “Good!”
“Afterwards I felt a bit of anger and frustration (which I processed pretty easily), but mostly jubilation that I had been able to stay present enough not to get baited into the proverbial Show-Down at the OK Corral.  I realized there is no point in trying to reason with people of that level of (un)consciousness, and that it’s really not a problem simply letting go of the need to prove my point, much less seek justice in the form of reparations, or, Goddess Forbid, an apology for their crude and vaguely threatening behavior.

“Any thoughts on where this experience fits in with the various planetary ‘assignments’ we’re facing currently?  Since I have a tight Venus-Saturn Angle natally, I figured the T-square triggered the incident, but perhaps it’s one of the other current configurations that this incident better exemplifies…?”

Well this nightmare reeks of Nessus – folks so used to Privilege that they don’t hesitate to Abuse whenever they think they can get away with it.

Stretching Values?  Well, I honor deeply your Masterful Attention to the Value of Safety.  You and I agree that there is no Learning without Safety, and it’s not unusual that when we attempt to Grow beyond what’s Safe, we often set ourselves back.  What about the Value of Self-Sovereignty?  That was blatantly violated.  But I don’t see any other Response that wouldn’t threaten your Safety even more than it was.  

So there may be a suggestion here that you could gain from PIAVAing to Lovingly and Gently increase your Self-Sovereignty AND Safety.  We might say “Self-Sovereignty without compromising Safety,” but will the Unconscious interpret “without” as a negation and therefore ignore it?  You’re good on Safety here, but I don’t think it’ll hurt to “increase Self-Sovereignty AND Safety.”

In the Saturn-Stationary T-Square chart there are 78 Degrees between Saturn and Nessus – 78 isn’t a particularly strong Angle.  What about in your natal chart?  Well, yes, a strong Angle between your natal Saturn and your natal Nessus, and the Angle is triggered by the ‘Transiting’ (in the sky now) Saturn T-Square.  Plus, Pallas (Boundaries) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) are involved.  Where does this lead us?  There’s a suggestion that you may have an Unconscious Belief that Respect for your Right to Sovereignty over your own Space is not available to you – which, under the Patriarchy, wouldn’t be unusual.

How would we transcend the Patriarchy?  Each time we do that as individuals, we build the Archetype that will allow the Planet as a whole to transcend the Patriarchy.  The problem with Unconscious Beliefs is that they have correlates.  For instance, an Unconscious Belief that Respect is unavailable will correlate with a hole in the Aura, a hole that will be unconsciously seen by a Bully as an invitation to manipulate.  Or with a change of posture that telegraphs Vulnerability.  We don’t intend to Blame the person who is Bullied, but to Learn how to avoid being Bullied.

While we might be able to work Consciously on posture, we could easily overcorrect and invite Competition.  It’s Safer to fix the hole in our Aura.  We could do that by manipulating our own Energy field, but if we don’t routinely see Energy, or hang out with a Skilled coach who does, it’s probably easier to use our Wardrobe Mirrors…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/10/21/boundaries-forgiveness-mirrors/

The most important part of this work is Persistence.  It’s easy to say, “Why should we have to be the one to do this! Why don’t we just get Respect in the first place?”  We could Respond that if this is an issue for me, then it’s one I came into this Lifetime to Learn how to Heal.  Healing Vulnerability to Intimidation is also a critical part of the shift from the Patriarchy to a more Equitable social structure, so it would be appropriate for many of us to come onto the Planet at this Time to Learn – and hence Teach – how to command Respect without having to Work at it.  It won’t be that easy to begin with, but it will get easier as we Practice, till eventually it becomes Habitual.

Quiz

How many times has this happened to you?  How many times have you seen it happen to anyone?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gi7AaO1v0QU

http://www.newsday.com/news/nation/bernie-sanders-little-bird-that-visited-podium-a-dove-asking-for-world-peace-1.11619986

http://www.wweek.com/2016/03/25/bernie-sanders-greeted-in-portland-by-a-friendly-bird/

How do you explain it?  Does it stretch your Values?

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn et al Stationary III

Another reader speaks up…

“Yes, Bummers indeed… At least it’s getting easier…!  And yes, there have been weird physical symptoms.
“A couple of questions for you:
“Any way you could give an example of ‘challenges to expand our values,’ perhaps from your personal experience or the experience of someone you’ve heard from?  I sense it’s important and that something may have come into my awareness along these lines, but it escapes me.”

A few examples of Values that might require Expanding for some of us…

“One of the defining characteristics of the shaman is a close relationship with animal and bird companions that includes the ability to borrow their forms.  These relationships are part of a broader connectedness with all nature – with the spirit of trees and plants, of stone and mountains – that flows from the awareness that everything is alive, everything is ensouled, everything is related.”  — Robert Moss, Dreamgates, p. 72

Anyone being “victimized” by one of these violent Spring storms crossing the US?  What Value do you place on your Relationship to the Weather, or to Climate?  How Active are you in the campaign against Global Warming?  How often do you commune with the Gods and Goddesses of Weather?  Does that sound ridiculous to you?

I don’t know how the violence in Europe is being covered by the media there, but in the US, it’s all “How could those monsters do those things to us?”  The US builds some 60-or-so percent of all the bombs and killing machines in the World.  When we use those on the rest of the World, does the media ask “How could we be such monsters to do those things to those other people?”

” ‘It’s a difficult decision, the steady paycheck makes me feel secure and useful, and I expect it will be close to impossible to get health insurance because of my pre-existing condition.  But I’m impatient to be doing those things that were important to me before my career pushed everything aside.’  

“The outer journey for recognition became less and less important as I explored the inner terrain.  My feminine voice became stronger as I developed the courage to let go of my reliance on linear mind.  Then I was free to listen to dreams, images, and inner allies.  These became my guides.  When a woman reduces the emphasis on the outer heroic quest for self-definition, she is free to explore her images and her voice.”  –Maureen Murdock, The Heroine’s Journey, p.10.

“Part of the calling of women as we move into the 21st century is to revive a spirituality of creativity that is not afraid of the strange beauty of the underwater world of the subconscious, and to help men out of the restricted and narrow world of provable and limited fact in which society has imprisoned them.  My role as a feminist is not to compete with men in their world – that’s too easy, and ultimately unproductive.  My job is to live fully as a woman, enjoying the whole of myself and my place in the universe.”  –Madeleine L’Engle, “Shake the Universe,” Ms magazine, Summer 1987, pp.182-5, quoted in Murdock op cit p.11.

“Although ecological values and holistic ideas can be imagined and are being articulated now, actual implementation is uncommon because such values are at odds with the prevailing patriarchal pattern.  Ownership of natural resources by this or that individual, corporation, or state, and exploitation of the natural world are automatic corollaries of the patriarchal world view, which is still the norm for us.”  –Genia Haddon, Body Metaphors, p.109.

“This comes from the illusion that if others knew our hearts – who we truly are – they would not choose us.  We must choose ourselves, and by that strength live our lives…  In the future the word ‘healing’ … will not be related to this strange attachment we have to inertia, whereby we attempt to hold ourselves on one point lest we lose control and expand.  Healing must go deeper.  Healing will one day refer to the actual energetic process of transmutation, transformation, transcendence.”  –Chris Griscom, Ecstasy Is a New Frequency, pp.76-7.

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I’d Do Anything for Love, but I Won’t Do That!

Our reader continues…

“Then when your reader quotes you with reference to taunts they have received, you write: ‘An excellent test of how your very subtle growth is progressing will be your sense of Being Violated.  Certainly not physically, but if you encounter Insults, Pay Attention.’ 
“Again, wondering if you could expand upon this, as in, Pay Attention to What?  I appear to have been ‘slighted’ a few times recently, in ways that make it hard for me to know whether the person really meant to offend, whether is was my imagination or just my own defensiveness and/or projection of my own insecurities about myself onto what was said to me about me by others.  So are the ‘bad’ qualities they are pointing out in me clues as to my rejected inner genius as you describe?”

Absolutely!  I recall in one of Gay Hendricks’s books he remarked that a participant in one of his workshops took every criticism he heard, and weighed it carefully to see if it was “useful” to him.  It’s handy that your attackers were ambiguous, because it doesn’t have anything to do with them anyway, it’s all between your Ego and your Genius, or at least between your Ego and your Self-Doubt.  You could actually take the dictionary, and run through all of the adjectives, to see which of them raise your hackles when paired with “I am.”

Aside from the fact that you should feel totally insulted to be called an adjective (I mean, how limiting! – you could at least be a verb, if you were going to limit your scope to conceiving of yourself as a part of speech), the greater your Resistance to any given adjective, the greater the likelihood that tracing that Resistance back to its origins (When was the first time that I can recall Resisting that appellation?  What was going on?  Why do you suppose I was in Resistance then?  Of course I need to be Loving and Gentle with that poor fellow, maybe even Empathetic) will be useful, leading either to your Rejected Genius (Ixion), or to the Skills hidden beneath your Held Emotions (South Node), or at least to other Limiting Beliefs (Vesta).

Of course you can always run through a list of the adjectives associated with the Signs and Houses and Angles of your Ixion and South Node and Vesta, and even Orcus – one of the few times when supposedly “negative” attributes, or the “negative” side of “positive” attributes will be useful.

Anyplace where we try to constrain ourself to some languagable characteristic, we know we’re stuck in an Archetype.  We are Infinite.  Of course, we’re also all Petty – Both/And.  But why dwell on our Pettiness, when we can dwell with our Infinitude.  Definitely spend enough time with your Pettiness, in all its forms, to Let Go of the Emotional Baggage constellated around it.  Fundamentalists, whether Religious or Scienterrific, want to Limit us to languagable Either/Or Wordings (not Beings) that don’t Frighten them.  Remember that a foundational tenet of their Beliefs is that Direct Communion with the Goddesshead – let alone identification with Her – is verboten; if it doesn’t pass muster with their User’s Guide, it’s insanity, and quite possibly actionable, at a minimum medicable.  

Those are dangerous people, you don’t want to hang out with them.  But wait.  If we eschew Self-Judgment, won’t we all be just clones of The Donald?  Well, I think we’ve proven to ourselves that we’re capable of Self-Judgment, even capable of Self-Examination.  And the bottom-line difference, capable of Compassion.  And capable of Curiosity.  It’s a good use for Curiosity – “I Wonder if I’m a poster child for that word that I have an unpleasant Reaction to?”  If we then Change the Subject, that might be a good way to induce Time-Travel back to our original unpleasantness, perhaps even to the time that we swore an Oath (Orcus) that “I’ll never be like that!”

It’s a fantastic time to Take Full Responsibility (Pholus, Stationary 6am 26 March) to Make Decisions that Have Survival Value (Quaoar, Stationary 1pm 29 March), such as Decisions that Celebrate Love, especially Self-Love (Sappho, Stationary 5pm 29 March).  I do believe that the denizens of this Planet are doomed until they figure out that they really need to Value above all the fact that “everything is alive, everything is ensouled, everything is related” (asteroid Hopi).

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn et al Stationary II

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Irrespective of the accoutrements that decorate the Saturn Station (discussed in the previous post), it makes a very tight T-Square with Jupiter and Venus.  A T-Square means Mastery through Challenge.  Jupiter and Venus mean Expanding our Values.  So in addition to Taking Full Responsibility for the Survival Value of our Abandoned Genius we want to also Pay Attention to Challenges that Ask us to Expand our Values.  We could even consider it to be The Most Important Thing.

Pluto forms a Trine Bridge across the T-Square.  A Trine Bridge is a Shortcut, showing the Easy way to address the Challenges and arrive at Mastery.  Pluto represents a Mandatory Transformation, usually of Who We Believe Ourselves to Be.  This means that when we move to Expand our Values, there is likely to be an obvious Path of Least Resistance.  It also means that Resistance is futile.

That all happens within one Degree of Sensitivity, so there’s no question that the above will impact all of us, even the Muggles.  What if we Expand our Sensitivity to three Degrees?  Three Degrees is a typical level of Sensitivity for assessing astroevents to see if they’re likely to have a measureable impact on current events.  

At three Degrees, our T-Square evolves into a Grand Cross, as the dwarf planet Chaos Opposes the Stationary Saturn.  Chaos represents Unlimited Potential.  We also gain two more Trine Bridges, to Juno and Uranus, and a Quincunx Bridge to Stationary Klotho.

It’ll behoove us to Allow our Values to Expand without Limit (Chaos), as much as we’re able.  If we do encounter Resistance to Expanding our Values, being Loving and Gentle with it will benefit us.   We have two other Easy Shortcuts (Trine Bridges), which entail Allowing the Edges of our Consciousness to Grow (Juno), and Allowing our True Self to step out from behind any remaining Masks that constrain it (Uranus).  

We’re building the Foundation for a new Ego Identity (Klotho) here, and the appropriate approach to that Identity is Permanent Curiosity (Quincunx Bridge).  Not Curiosity as in seeking Answers, but Curiosity as in Avoiding Answers persistently, Curiosity as in Awe and Wonder.  This is New Territory, and any notions we have about what our New Identity may look like will constrain us to just more of the Old – which will be the wrong Frequency to fit into what the Planet is Becoming.

Pay Loving Attention to any strange Physical symptoms.  Avoid diagnosis if you can, as diagnosis will hypnotize you into a narrow niche in the Allopathic Medical model, a niche where something is Wrong.  What’s going on here is that something is Right, it’s just Right relative to who you’re Becoming (Klotho), not Right relative to who you’ve Been.  Your Foundational New Identity extends to your DNA and your cells, and your Physicality will seem strange until the rest of you catches up to the Changes.

The Stationary-Klotho Quincunx Bridge is also part of a Klotho Finger of God on the Venus-Pluto Sextile, which puts an additional Strong emphasis on the Transformation of the Foundations of our Identity and Biology.

This whole process will probably be much Easier than it could be, as if we stretch a bit beyond three Degrees, we can summarize the whole Configuration as a Chaos Diamond Star coinciding with a Chaos Kite – very auspicious.

From Robert Moss’s Dreamgates, pp.69-70…

“On a visit to Sydney more than two decades after I had left my native Australia, I wandered rapt among the painted worlds of the Aboriginal artists gathered at an extraordinary exhibit at the Museum of Contemporary Art.  The Rainbow Serpent coiled and stretched, shape-shifting into the prizefighter’s bulk of a bull kangaroo, sprouting horns of a water buffalo.  

“Yes, I remember you.  My mind went whirling back to a boyhood dream – a dream more real and more terrifying than anything in my waking life – in which something immense, with the horns of a bull, had ripped me apart, scattering the pieces of my dismembered body to the four quarters.  I was told:

” ‘You were born for this.  I put stakes through your body.  You did not die.  You did not even cry out.’

“In the face of the horned dragon, these thoughts, that had come to me from an intelligence beyond my normal mind, returned to me.

“I moved on around the gallery, and froze in front of a series of ghostly figures.  I seemed to know them too.  I looked at the personal statement by the artist.  He had depicted the lives of the mimi spirits because when he got sick, he went to live with them in the spirit world, and when he got well, he came back to his home in the surface world.  

“I felt giddy.  I was hurled back again into the serial medical emergencies and temporary deaths of my boyhood.  I remembered leaving my body in an operating theater and eventually plunging down through the earth, into a world of beautiful, pale, elongated beings, similar to these mimi spirits, who welcomed me as one of their own.  I grew up among them, forgetting the boy in the Melbourne hospital.  I knew the love of women and became a kind of shaman, a grandfather and an elder.

“When my body in this world-within-the-world was used up, I floated up on the smoke of a cremation fire – and was pulled back into the body of a nine-year-old Australian kid coming back from general anesthesia after an emergency appendectomy.  My mother told me later that the operating staff were worried that I wouldn’t come back, since I lost vital signs for a time.  ‘Poor bloody kid,’ a doctor told her, ‘He died and came back.’ “

Real Time is not Linear.  It’s Energy that’s Real, not Matter.  The Iriquois say that the Edge between Life and Death is exactly the thickness of a Maple Leaf.  So are the Edges between Matter, Emotion, Mind, Spirit, and Consciousness.  Stretch Time.

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn et al Stationary I

The influence of a planet is Strongest when it’s Stationary.  Being Stationary is much more significant than whether a planet is turning Retrograde or Direct.  There’s no shortage of Stationary planets over the next week…

• 24 March 5am PDT, dwarf planet Ixion Stationary Retrograde, 25 Sagittarius – our Abandoned Genius
• 25 March…
  • 2am PDT, asteroid Klotho Stationary Direct, 15 Leo ( Trine to Saturn) – Assembling the Foundation of a New Life
  • 3am PDT, Saturn Stationary Retrograde, 17 Sagittarius – Pay Attention to The Most Important Thing
• 26 March 6am PDT, Centaur Pholus Stationary Retrograde, on the Galactic Center at 28 Sagittarius – Taking Full Responsibility (NOT Blame)
• 29 March…
  • 1pm PDT, dwarf planet Quaoar Stationary Retrograde, 30 Sagittarius – Decisions with Survival Value (or NOT)
  • 5pm PDT, asteroid Sappho Stationary Direct, 12 Leo (Conjunct Klotho) – Celebrating Love

Depending on your Sensitivity, the influence of a Station will be prominent for about a week for the outer planets (Ixion, Saturn, Pholus, Quaoar), and several days for the asteroids (Klotho, Sappho), so the exact times may be less relevant, though you may feel a definite shift as each millstone is passed.

With this many planets rallying at once, expect Massive Confusion.  Multiplying the cacophony, this will light up all of your birth planets between 11 and 18 Degrees, and between 24 Degrees and the following Cusp.  Not many of us will have no planets in these ranges.

This is all Fire Energy, Sagittarius and Leo.  The Buddhists say, “into the Fire, out in the Water,” meaning that if you’re planning to Journey with Spirit – or if Spirit is planning to Journey with you, as is obviously the case here – expect to be Cleansed Emotionally.

We can build an overview by interpreting the equivalent of an Ixion-Saturn-Pholus-Quaoar Stellium: The Most Important Thing this week will be Taking Full Responsibility for the Survival Value of our Abandoned Genius.  Responsibility isn’t Blame, it’s Being Able to Respond rather than React.  It looks to the Future, not the Past (as Blame does).  With Pholus Stationary on the Galactic Center, the Responsibility element is Cosmic.

There’s a very high probability that your Abandoned Genius is socially unacceptable, and accordingly may well be hiding behind Shame or Guilt.  If Shame arises here, Pay Attention – what you’re Ashamed of is probably a (very primitive) version of your Unique Genius.  “Retarded” is a word that may fit, since we haven’t been able to Enjoy or Practice or Mature our Genius since it was Shamed into Abandonment.  

There may also be a shred of appropriate Guilt involved, as in rare cases we may have been Shamed for Abusive behavior on the part of our Unique Genius.  Many children develop their Social Values only with coaching.  Suppose for instance that your Unique Genius is Salesmanship.  As is prominently displayed in the US these days, some people never developed Social Values around Salesmanship, and will say anything to make a sale – Truth is no issue at all.  

If you were caught selling Magic Gravel to the neighbor kids at age four and Shamed for it, your Salesmanship may still be underground, and still at a four-year-old level of development.  As badly as the Planet needs people to sell the ideas of Community, Sustainability, Equality, Justice, and Ecological Responsibility, we can’t afford to keep your Salesmanship under wraps.  In order to pull off the blanket you’ll need to Lovingly Embrace your Shamed four-year-old, and have great Patience as you grow her retarded development into an adult Skill.

As Dr. Kim says, there are no negative Emotions, only negative Reactions to an Emotion.  Even Shame.  The Most Important Thing is to be Loving and Gentle with any and all Feelings which arise.  It’ll help to – “You poor Sweetheart…” – Empathize with your Self at the age when you were Overwhelmed by your original Feelings (a good example of how Overwhelm can stall Personal Growth for years – or decades).  

Children, new to Egos, are very easily Overwhelmed.  Good parenting involves protecting children from Overwhelm, not contributing or even creating it.  Unfortunately, most parents are simply mindlessly passing along the consequences of the Overwhelm that they suffered as Children, or the Overwhelm that their great great grandparents suffered.  It’s up to us to Heal this.

Bummers Rising III

Some folks objected to my referring to Bummers, but others, like this reader, thought otherwise…

“I loved one of your recents where you wrote…

‘An excellent test of how your very subtle Growth is progressing will be your sense of Being Violated.  Certainly not physically, but if you encounter Insults, Pay Attention.’

“It’s just schoolground taunts, but of course it’s a golden opportunity to revisit that sad little one on the playground of life.  And as you also wrote…

‘Take as much time as you need to start seeing the Humor in it.’

“So I’m smiling and waving adios as I move on down the road.  And I suppose I could also add Gratitude for the ones who are giving me a chance to remember that little one’s sadness enough to process it.

“I have to say the Confusion about new directions and The Whole Purpose of My Life is stunningly omnipresent, but I am working on The Most Important Thing, which I’m taking to be Deep Love for all my Inner Selves, especially those who were treated with indifference or cruelty by those I wanted to trust and receive love from.  Another one of my sources (Jonathan Zap) wrote…

‘Incarnation is not for sissies — not if you want to do it right.’

“And it’s clearer to me why so many refuse to revisit all that.  Even if you’re a cat, covered in scat, you would bite and claw the well-meaning human who wanted to bathe you.

“So the processing continues…  Huge emotional release this morning that I Tapped and Tapped through.  A croquembouche of tissues in front of me…  But that’s all krap that needed to be released up and out, right?  Deep gratitude for bathroom doors and ample paper products to clear it all out.”

Chiron and the South Node are both repositories for our Bummers, and when they convene, it’s literally Bummers Squared.  We can say that because Chiron Bummers are brightly lit flags pointing to places where our Limiting Beliefs are constraining our Lives, and because we know that Witnessing and Empathizing with Chiron Bummers will Tranform them into Grace.

And because South Node Bummers are dimly lit pointers to the places where we stashed some of our most Powerful Skills, hiding them behind Emotions that we’ll do almost anything to avoid Feeling – often “We’d rather die,” because that’s exactly what we have to do to reclaim those Skills, endure an Ego Death.

If you aren’t enduring any Bummers these days, that’s great!  I recommend two things…

• First, Celebrate your Gratitude that you’re already Liberated from the Trauma that many of your peers are working through.  It wouldn’t hurt to have a bit of Compassion for them while you’re at it, maybe send them a prayer, or at least wish them luck.
• And Second, seek out your own Bummers.  No one can say for sure what is Grace and what is Denial.  This is just practice; we’ll all be facing our Greatest Fears come June.  They’ll be Paper Tigers, but we won’t know that.  What does it matter that the Tiger is only Paper or Shadow, if we scare ourselves to Death Resisting it?  

I don’t normally recommend prying open locked dungeon doors, because Denial is a healthy psychological process, protecting our fragile Egos from Overwhelm, which can easily set Growth back for years if we don’t handle it right.  But in this case, where we’re being invited to Let Go of as much baggage as we can now, to make June easier, I think it would behoove us.  

Need a second opinion?  Here’s a good one…

http://bluedragonjournal.com/2014/04/12/archangel-ezekiel-greetings/

The 23.3 Maker Eclipse II

The second Configuration in the Penumbral Lunar Eclipse chart is more complex.  It looks like one of those Sextants that sailors use for navigation, which is good, because in our Confusion we may need help navigating.  We can Trust that our Guides will take us where we need to go, but we don’t want Confusion to lead us astray while our Guides are waving their arms and shouting “Over Here!”  The Sextant has two foci and two components.  Shall we start with the Strongest, or the Trickiest?

Let’s take the Strongest component.  That would be a Diamond Star focused on the North Node, complemented by a Kite focused on the South Node.  That in itself is very intense, even without Chiron and Ceres Conjunct the South Node.  Of course a Diamond Star focused on a Node will form a Grand Cross, and the arms are Chaos (Unlimited Potential) and a Stationary Ixion (Abandoned Genius).  Familiar names, eh?  The arms of the Kite are Sedna (Actions Taken out of Anger and Fear) and Moirai (Fate).  Lucky that’s a Grand Trine.  The formal etymology doesn’t reflect it, but I don’t think it’s a coincidence that Moirai and Moi are pretty similar.  Kind of like “The Devil made me do it!”

The base of the Finger of God in the Diamond Star is a Sextile from Pallas (Boundaries) to Uranus-Eris-Atropos.  Atropos wields the scissors to terminate a Lifetime – or an Ego – when its time is up – more Fate.  Uranus-Eris is the prelude to their June Conjunction where our last Masks will be ripped off.  Not only that, but we have five Rays of a Grand Sextile, with the missing Ray being 22 Leo, “A carrier pigeon fulfills its mission.”  Maybe so we don’t have to?  Or maybe so we can ride along?  Lots of Energy drawing us into the North Node, or Mission.  

The bottom line here in the first component of the second Configuration is that the Currents of Grace and “Fate” are Stronger than the Challenges are Challenging.  No Shame in being swept along by Fate, since the Real World is Both/And.  Only the intellectual Cliff’s Notes version of the Real World is Either/Or, and Fate/Free Will is an Either/Or.  In Real Life, Fate and Free Will are merely different lenses for viewing the One World.  

The second component is the Tricky one.  It looks just like the first one, but it lacks the Grand Cross, substituting a T-Square instead, a T-Square focused on Moi, er, Moirai.  The Central Axis of the second Configuration – and the base of the T-Square – is the Opposition between Lilith-Haumea (Rebirth of our Yindependence) and Uranus-Eris-Atropos.  The arms of the Kite are Pallas and Chaos.  The base of the Yod is the Sextile between Sedna and Ceres-South Node-Chiron.  Like in Permaculture, no segment fills only a single function!  

The second component of the second Configuration of the Penumbral Eclipse tells us that Self-Trust is necessary.  If it feels like you’re being swept over the rapids to certain (Ego) Death, you’re on the right track.  We don’t step into our Truth the way John Wayne or Mel Gibson or The Donald or any of the Patriarchy’s swaggering Heroes do.  That’s not Self-Transformation, that’s Ego Glorification.  We step into our Truth with hesitation and trepidation, choosing our path because it feels 10% righter than the alternatives, and not sure just what the consequences will be.

Will the next stage of our Yindependence eliminate our Support System?  Will the next step in our Journey to Yintegrity bring us more Shame rather than its Transformation?  Moving into Self-Trance-Reformation feels incredibly Risky, but it also feels like we have no Choice.  As if it was Fate.  Or it may feel like we have no Choice but to step back from the brink.  No Shame in that.  We’re just rehearsing here; the real Breakthrough occurs in June, so feel free to dance around your Edges without making a final Commitment.  We’re just practicing.  

Remember that Ego is an essential part of the Psyche, the part whose job it is to keep us Alive.  We don’t Transcend Ego (except perhaps in a moment of Satori or Samadhi), we Transform Ego.  We reformulate Ego at a “higher” or “more-encompassing” place.  “Egolessness” just means we no longer waste Energy on getting Defensive.  It doesn’t mean we get careless about our belay.  The ultimate Ego Transformation is Surrender to the Truth that Lives in the Heart.