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Scary Lunar Eclipse II

November 18, 2021

Sandwiched between the Storm of Sign Changes 14-21 November 2021 (previous post) and the Gonggong-Nessus Abuse Review 20-25 November, all of which tickle the Sign Cusps, the 19 November (12:58 am PST) Dang-Near Total Lunar Eclipse Full Moon chart does a good job of summarizing the whole Pickle1

💥 The first thing to notice is the Moon-Sedna Merger. Sedna is the Star of a complex Inuit story, Goddess of the Sea and of the marine Critters that have always fed the Inuit. The dwarf planet Sedna has an orbit of over eleven thousand years, compared to Pluto’s two hundred fifty years. It takes eight minutes for Light to travel from the Sun to Earth. In the far reaches of Sedna’s orbit, it takes five and a half years for the Sun’s Light to arrive. It’s quite cold out there, and our anthem that Fear is Cold and Hard while Love is Soft and Warm fits here.

A powerful Shaman disguised himself as an everyday Inuit guy, and asked Her father for Sedna’s hand in marriage. But once her father realized that Her suitor was really a Giant Bird, the father tried to rescue Her from his nest. Enraged, the Bird-Shaman rose a storm and attacked their fleeing boat. In his Terror, the father threw Sedna overboard, and when She clung to the side of the boat, cut off Her fingers. Her fingers became the Seals, and She sank to the bottom, where She still Lives, commanding the Sea Critters. Before each hunt, a Shaman is sent into the Sea to comb Her hair, placating Her rage so She’ll send some of Her Critters to be hunted. A Mermaid representing Feminine Rage and Masculine Terror.

We interpret Sedna as Converting Fear to Power, and we could equally consider it Converting Rage to Power. We usually advise Kegels as a mechanical process that will Convert Fear to Power. Kegels slow down Time, and that could also Convert Rate to Power.

💥 The second thing to notice (though it’s not in the chart) is that the Eclipsed Moon is also Merged with the Fixed Star Algol, in the Constellation Perseus. Algol is the Eye of the Gorgon, in Perseus’s hand after he has cut off Her head, as part of the destruction perpetrated by Zeus of the symbols of the Matriarchy so he can replace them with the Patriarchy. Bernadette says (Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars, p.188), “All writers agree that this is the most malefic star in the heavens and causes hangings, death by the loss of one’s head, and any other foul, demonic deed that could befall the human race.” The Chinese referred to Algol as “Piled Up Corpses.” Algol too represents Feminine Rage and Masculine Terror.

💥 The third thing to notice is the Major Challenge2 that asteroid Damocles presents to our management of these immense Energies. Damocles was a courtier to King Dionysius who flattered the opulence of the King’s Life so much that Dionysius offered to trade places with Damocles for a day. But to emphasize to Damocles that a King’s opulence comes at the price of constant danger from the King’s enemies, Dioysius hung a sword over the throne by a single horsehair. Damocles withdrew in Fear. Damocles in the chart is Larger than Life (Conjunct Jupiter).

Damocles is in the Gonggong corner of the chart, indicating that the Threat of Danger arrives through our Intrusive Memories which in the larger picture3 may well be Intrusive Memories of Abuse. However, between Damocles and Gonggong we have a Boon, in the form of asteroid Sappho, representing Self-Love. When we have our head on backwards, Sappho can also mean Self-Doubt, but Self-Doubt is never Real, it’s always just Thoughts about our Feelings.

When we Feel Self-Doubt about our Behavior or Goals, we can easily rectify that, deciding whether the Relationship merits making Amends for untoward Behavior, or running our Goals through our Heart to verify that they’re really Ours and not Someone Else’s. Self-Doubt about Our Self is Self-Abandonment. We probably need an Ego Death, but we know we can do that, don’t we, so No Worries. Usually when we Doubt Our Self, it’s because we’re trying to Judge ourself by someone else’s standards. We need to Ask ourself Who? and Why? and When did we start that? but beyond that, this is a strategy with no Winners, only Abuse.

I understand that this is can be a Dilemma if you’re trying to keep up with Amazon’s Performance Metrics and Fearing that you and/or your Family will starve if you don’t, or if Long COVID confines you to bed most of the day, but Recognize that this is about Behavior, not Self-Worth, and probably also Abusive. After a Lifetime of Abuse from others in our environs, it’s no wonder we’ve developed Habits of Self-Abuse, without even Realizing it. We feel like it’s just the Way the World Works. Many of us Bounce around from one attempt to another for the better part of our Life before we Find the place in the World where we Fit, if we ever do. Better to Bounce again than to Self-Abandon.

When we come to what feels like a Dead End, where we feel like we’re out of Bounces, we’re in the same situation as an Addict “hitting bottom.” A good way to cope with any Dead End, is to Poor-Sweetheart ourself for feeling like we’re at a Dead End. It’s a concise way to Surrender Control, to Let Go and Let God. Keep in mind that it’s not about how often we Fall Down, but how often we Get Up. If you have trouble Changing the Subject after Poor-Sweethearting yourself, Poor-Sweetheart yourself for having trouble Changing the Subject. Rinse and repeat as often as you need to. As your high-school coach used to say, “Sticktoitedness is Important.”

💥 The other two corners of the Famous Red Triangle also have their Boons. On the Moon-Sedna corner, the Moon’s North Node is nearby.4 That symbolizes our Lifetime Mission. It’s no Surprise that we’d encounter our “Upper Limits” (Gay Hendricks, The Big Leap) when we’re making major advances toward our Lifetime Mission.

💥 On the Sun corner, the Moon’s South Node5 (our Held Emotions, the ones we’d rather Die than Feel, aka our Karma) is Merged with asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious Limitations. That’s a tremendous Blessing, as it represents an Opportunity to Clear Out the Deepest of our Unconscious Limitations, the one’s that feel like Life or Death to us. If you Feel Deathly Ill or like Death would be a Relief, Celebrate it! That’s what it will feel like when you’re successfully Confronting Unconscious Limitations.

But the Big Boon on this corner is the asteroid Klotho, which symbolizes New Beginnings. In the midst of your Worst Feelings, you may find surges of Ecstasy climbing up your Spine – that’s what happens when you’re Willing to actually Feel those Feelings, though it’s always a Surprising “What the Devil is That about?” when it occurs. Honor it, it means Success! It means you can stop obsessing about those Bummers.

  • 1 The 25 November Station of Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is at 12 Degrees, so it’s not Cuspal, and we’ll consider it separately later. But taking the 21 November Gonggong (Intrusive Memories) Station as an introduction is warranted because Gonggong and Nessus have been traveling together for several years, so we’re accustomed to Enduring Intrusive Memories about Abuse and Privilege, so the Intrusive Memories on their own may well feel like Abuse Memories.
  • The major impact of Stations (when a planet Stands Still in the Sky) is usually felt over the week or so prior to the Station, so we’re highly likely to notice the Exaggeration (Station) of Nessus entangled with the Exaggeration of Intrusive Memories, beginning as soon as now. I’m already (on 17 November) noticing Strong Trances of Intrusive Memories, not about what I would usually consider Abuse per se, but now that I’m thinking about it, they’re revealing to me how Abusive some everyday Behaviors actually are.
  • 2 The red triangle or T-Square that Damocles and Jupiter make to the Full Moon Opposition.
  • 3 Gonggong and Nessus Stationary in the same week – see previous post and note 1 above.
  • 4 That’s the “headphones” or “earmuffs” symbol, in early Gemini. The Nodes move backwards, so from their Perspective it’s actually Late Gemini, but few Degrees.
  • 5 The “stethoscope” symbol.

There’s more – a second Famous Red Triangle T-Square Challenge that also symbolizes rising from the Ashes of your Karma, and a very Strong naked Opposition that’s actually the primary access of a Yin Gate Mystery School. After the Misery Schools we’ve been working with, that’ll be Delightful, though also not without its Frictions. We’ll deal with those in our next installment. It’s a Daunting Time, but if it doesn’t Kill us, it’ll catapult us to a much Higher level, one that we need to Aspire to if we want to Survive, and want our Species to survive, these End Times.

Scary Lunar Eclipse I

November 16, 2021

This week is all about Sign Changes…

  • Asteroid Juno entered Capricorn Sunday 14 November 2021. Juno is about Growth in Consciousness. Since late December 2020 we’ve been Growing our Awareness of What We Needed to Let Go Of (Juno in Sagittarius). Now, till early March 2022, we get to Plug in Candidates for Refilling those Holes in Our Lives (Juno in Capricorn) that Have Been Created by All That Letting Go. Voids are seldom comfortable, so I suspect that, like me, you’ve been working overtime trying to Fix the Holes Where The Rain Gets In, with less success than you would have liked, because it wasn’t time yet. That should be Changing. Yay!
  • Asteroid Karma entered Scorpio Monday 15 November. Boo! Like Frank said to Ernest, I just get my budget in order, and along comes a big surprise, like rent, or a weekend. So as they so often do, our killjoy Ancient Habits (asteroid Karma) are already pushing and shoving their way into the Holes. But this is not without Purpose. Scorpio is Relentless about Getting to the Bottom of Things. So while Juno in Sadge went home with our marbles, now we get to deal with our Addiction to our Routines. Joe Dispenza’s free series of four short workshops (still available at https://experience.hayhouseu.com/redesigningyourdestiny-video1-whereyourattentiongoes/) is about exactly that, and it’s Right On. It’s also an excellent time to reread Gay Hendricks’s The Big Leap. Asteroid Karma (“a.Karma”) has been in Libra – I hope you Deepened your most important Relationships rather than Fleeing them – since only the last few days of August, so at least the torture was short-lived. a.Karma will be done unearthing skeletons by February 20221.
  • Asteroid Vesta enters Sagittarius Tuesday 16 November. Make up yer mind, Universe! Are we Building or Dismantling? It’s always Both/And, isn’t it. If we didn’t have Apoptosis, we’d get even fatter every day than we already do. Vesta is about Our Limiting Beliefs. These days it’s only spending about two months in each Sign. So the last two months we’ve been furiously hammering away at the Beliefs that Most Limit us (Vesta in Scorpio), and we’re probably Frustrated that they seem to still be there! We did Identify them, however, and that will be a great Boon as we Let Them Go over the next few months (Vesta in Sadge). Bear in mind that Life is a lot more complicated than our Dualistic mind can comprehend, so if you think you can actually Name your Limitations, be sure to add …or something like that… to any Descriptions of them.
  • Asteroid Sappho enters Pisces Wednesday 17 November. Sappho (Self-Love and Self-Doubt) has been in Aquarius (Social Idealism) since April, seven months, but it’ll only spend two months in Pisces. I suspect we’ll be glad about that, as we could be spending a lot of time blubbering about the Barrage of Regrets we could be inundated with, as Pisces is about Finishing Unfinished Emotional Business. Whatever you Do or Feel between now and the Ides of February, be hypervigilant about Blame. Blame, whether Self- or Other-, is a total Dead End. No better way to squelch your Growth and stop your Progress toward any Goal, than to hang yourself with the Noose of Blame. Gay Hendricks advises, “that if I could consider, even for a moment, that I was not upset for the reason I thought I was [Thoughts about our Feelings again!], then I could break out of the Trance I was in. Then, I could begin to see what the real reasons were” (op.cit. p.102).
  • Asteroid Nemesis enters Capricorn Sunday 21 November. Nemesis spent three months in Sagittarius (Letting Go Of Guilt) but it’ll only spend two months in Capricorn (Putting Guilt to Work Productively). This Sign Change will be much complicated by its concurrence with the 18-21 November Exaggeration of Intrusive Memories (21 November Station of dwarf planet Gonggong2), and by concurrent Exaggeration of our Instincts (Moon Out of Bounds 20-24 November3). Not to mention the 19 November Scary Lunar Eclipse.4
  • 1 Well, not quite. a.Karma turns Retrograde in March 2022 and backs into Scorpio again in April. It finally moves into Sagittarius “for good” in September 2022. Meanwhile, a.Karma is Out of Bounds (Exaggerated) from late December 2021 in mid-Scorpio, all through 2022, till March 2023 in early Aquarius.
  • 2 Formerly known as “OR10” or “2007 OR10” (or in some ephemerides minor planet number “225088”), the dwarf planet named after the ne’er-do-well Chinese Dragon Gonggong is about Intrusive Memories. It Stands Still at 7:28 am PST November 21, in 4 Pisces. While the connection is fading, Gonggong has been hanging out near dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) for the last several years. This year their Stations are four days and eight Degrees apart, but with Nemesis, an Out-of-Bounds Moon, and a Scary Full Moon Eclipse involved, they’re very likely to Test the progress we’ve been making on Clearing our Abuse Issues. Two key strategies to Remember: (1) That was Then and This is Now and (2) Don’t Trust Your Thoughts about Your Feelings – Keep Coming Back to the Emotion Itself, as a Sensation in Your Body. Sink your Breath and your Attention Deeply into that Sensation, and Persistently Reject the Temptation to Trust Your Ideas and Thoughts More Than You Trust the Sensations in Your Body. If you succeed at quieting the Noise in your Mind, the Sensations will eventually talk to you, but they’ll speak through your Unitary and Multidimensional Intuition, not through your Dualistic Mind. Truth and Healing Reside in Our Bodies, Not in Our Minds. The Nessus Station occurs at 2am PST November 25, in 12 Pisces.
  • 3 Moon Out of Bounds from 9:24 am PST 20 November in 13:14 Gemini till 7:28 pm PST 24 November in 5:49 Leo, Peaking (Stationary) 2:45 pm PST 22 November at 26:21 North Declination and 9:28 Cancer.
  • 4 Virtually (about 95%) Total Eclipse (Illumination) of the Moon 12:58 am PST 19 November in 27:15 Taurus, Conjunct dwarf planet Sedna (Converting Fear to Power) and T-Square to Jupiter and asteroid Damocles (Swords about to Fall, Amplified). More about this in the next installment. The Eclipse is at 28 Degrees, the Sign Changes at 30 = 0 Degrees, and the Gonggong Station at 4 Degrees, all on or near the Cusps, which are the equivalent of the I Ching’s Changing or Moving Lines. We’ll use the Eclipse chart to represent all three.

Self-Love New Moon 2

November 14, 2020

In the 14 November 2020 New Moon chart, the planets in the “Basket of Grace” (blue upside-down Truss Bridge) under the red triangle are an interesting pair. They tell us How the Nasty Challenge (T-Square red triangle) will Self-Resolve. First there’s dwarf planet Eris, which is about Revelation of What’s Been Denied, and second there’s dwarf planet Asbolus, meaning Intuition, Merged With (Conjunct) the North Node, which indicates our Lifetime Mission.

Our Life Mission is way too multidimensional for the Dualistic Mind to be able to do more than get an occasional glimpse of it from one angle, so if our Life Mission were an Elephant, we’d be the seven Blind Men trying to figure out what it is. Our Intuition, though, is able to handle many more Dimensions, as long as we don’t constantly Diminish it by squeezing it into Words. So our Intuition has been giving us Videos of our Life Mission in the form of Skits from our Childhood and Past Lives (Eris).

Asbolus and the North Node are three and a half Degrees apart and separating, so the Connection is weakening, but both of them are well within three Degrees of the New Moon, so they’re Reconnected and Re-Energized by the New Moon. (Three Degrees is the Limit of Connection that we use in this blog; it and one Degree are the most common Limits of Connection that astrologers use. The less Difference between the Locations, the Stronger the Connection.) The Asbolus-North Node Connection was Exact at the end of August, within one Degree between mid-August and mid-September, and within three Degrees between late July and late September, so we’ve been Experiencing this Connection for a while.

Intuition can be illusive. My Intuition Teacher advised me to Ask myself “What If I Did Know?” and tentatively Believe the Answer I got. Translating an Intuition into Words is like pinning a Butterfly to a block of styrofoam – it might look good, but you’ve just Killed it. So Word Pictures of Intuitions are always tentatively or “…Or Something Like That,” as Eugene Gendlin liked to say. But the point is that the Information is Available. We can try retrieving it with a Theta such as “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Grok the Intuitions about my Life Mission that I Received over the Summer (North) or Winter (South) so they will Help Me Let Go of Karmic Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You God/Goddess. Show Me!

In case you haven’t read Heinlein, Grok means “to drink in all available aspects of reality or to become one with the observed,” the multidimensional equivalent of “Understanding,” which is what the Limited Dualistic Mind does. You may or may not Notice any lightbulbs over your head, but it may be better if you don’t, because then you’ll be less Tempted to Wordify it. Just Trust that you’ve Received and Grokked the Download, and that it has Changed you accordingly.

We need this because the next week plus will be Challenging. Our Ability to Trust, and to Grok what’s Trustable so we can Trust it, is Lit Up through 17 November, as asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust, is increasingly Exaggerated until 1am PST on 18 November. As usual with astrology, that’s for Good or Ill, as our Trust will be Challenged so we can Witness the places where we OverTrust and UnderTrust and Adjust accordingly.

In the New Moon chart asteroid Veritas, the Truth of the Mind, is Merged with Pluto, Compulsion. We may or may not Believe Facts, depending on whether or not they Align with our current Concept Set. For instance, many people Reject the Fact that the Earth is Flat (when seen from the center of a plain, for instance) because they’ve been Hypnotized by “Science” to Believe that it’s Round. It might Look Round from the Moon, but we don’t Live on the Moon. It might Look Curved from an airplane, but there are lots of Curves that aren’t Round. The Dualistic Mind will always Delude you unless you always specify the conditions under which each “Fact” is “True” – and what a Headache that would be.

It’s a lot Easier if we just recognize that like Loki or Coyote, the Mind is a Trickster, simply because it usually thinks in Either/Or, while the Universe is Both/And. “Figures don’t Lie, but Liars sure can Figure,” is a general rule that Statisticians use, if they know what they’re doing. The Truth of the Mind is always Relative to usually-unspecified and often-unknown Assumptions and Conditions, and it’s Dual, so it usually Flips rather than Adjusts. Goddess Knows we’re getting a graduate seminar in Exactly This in our Political Dramas these days. This is Grade-School Bullshit, and we need to see through it so we can instead Focus on The Most Important Thing – Climate Change, as the Dali Lama reminds us. If we don’t, Death by COVID might turn out to be the more Merciful Choice.

In the New Moon chart, Pluto-Veritas (Compulsive Belief in “Facts”) is Challenged (Squared) by Eris, or Revelation of What’s Been Denied. Compulsive Belief in “Facts” is also Contrasted (Opposed) to Respect for All Things (asteroid Hopi) – we will never see Peace and Collaboration and 5D and Sustainability as long as we invest our Trust in Either/Or. Reality is always Both/And.

Besides Compulsive Belief in “Facts” (Pluto-Veritas), Revelation of What’s Been Denied (Eris) and Respect for All Things (Hopi), the fourth corner of the big red square (a “Grand Cross” in astrologuese) in the New Moon chart is The Heart (Venus). It’s the Heart that Groks. The Truth of the Heart is symbolized by asteroid Aletheia. For any given Person, the Truth of the Heart is not Relative like “Facts” are, but Absolute. What we have to Remember about the Heart is that Everyone’s Truth of the Heart is Different. You can, if you’re clever, convince someone to Believe in the “Truth” of your “Facts.” Shame on you, but you can do it.

You’ll never convince anyone to Believe in the Truth of your Heart, if their Heart has a Different Truth. They might pretend to Believe to get you off their back, but our Heart-Truths are Permanent and Inviolable. We Recognize them Intuitively, not Intellectually. Heart-Truths are multidimensional, and suffer Wordification poorly. As long as Hupers fail to Recognize the Difference between Mind-“Facts” and Heart-Truths, and fail to Realize that Everyone’s Heart-Truths are Different, there will never be Peace on the Planet.

How does asteroid Aletheia relate to the New Moon chart? Like so…

That’s a “Grand Quintile,” Grand because it fills the whole chart, and Quintile because it features five planets more or less equally space around the Zodiac. Quintiles are about Teaching and Learning, and a Grand Quintile is about Multidimensional Teaching and Learning. There are twenty-six Relationships we’re being Taught to Grok

  • Truth of the Heart (Aletheia) to Self-Love (Sappho-New Moon)
  • Heart-Truth to Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus)
  • Heart-Truth to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos)
  • Heart-Truth to Freedom (Fixed Star Alpheratz)
  • Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking
  • Self-Love to Unlimited Potential
  • Self-Love to Freedom
  • Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential
  • Pattern-Breaking to Freedom
  • Unlimited Potential to Freedom

Then there are the sixteen Interaction terms…

  • Heart-Truth to Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking etc (10)
  • Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom etc (5)
  • Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom to Heart-Truth to Self-Love (1)

That’s a lot to Learn. It’s a good thing it’s Intuitive, as it’d boggle the Mind. These apply to the New Moon chart, ie, the next two weeks. Meanwhile we’re Dealing with Trust until 18 November, as Eurydike Stands Still. So we’ll be Learning how Trust Relates to each of those twenty-six Relationships. Busy Busy Busy.

Then the Real Teaching takes center stage, as Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet Gonggong) are Lit Up till 20 November and Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) are Lit Up till 22 November. The Poster Child for Abuse and Privilege is the Antagonist of the Big Political Drama, and it’s our own Intrusive Memories of all of our own Karmic Abuse and Privilege Experiences and Patterns that will be Triggered. How many of us will be able to Differentiate the Present Moment from our Regressions?

And the Mind-Truths of Privilege for the White Supremacists? The Heart-Truths of Privilege for the Narcissists? I doubt that many of them will Know the Difference between Reality and their Projections, but we can always pray for Miracles. There are Intriguing Possibilities in the Angle between the New Moon and each of the three Stations – Eurydike, Gonggong, Nessus. We’ll talk about those in the next post.

Original Blessing 7

July 9, 2020

Oops, forgot to mention those lighter lines in the Rebirth (9 July Haumea Station) chart…

I put them in as lighter lines because they’re Angles to new asteroids that we don’t usually use, though they’re easily interpreted.  Damocles is just that “Other Shoe” that’s waiting to drop, and Panacea is “just” a Heal-All.  Note that they very tidily Complete the Grand Sextile (Fabulous Grace, as long as we Take the First Step).  No harm in that!  And they also Challenge (T-Square) our Ability to Convert Fear into Power (Sedna).  Isn’t that Informative (probably that colorful Energy Ball that the Adromedans dropped into my Fifth Chakra)!  The Wisdom arises from the Other Shoe.

What’s the Worst Case?  The Payolavirus maybe?  Well, How will you Feel if that happens?  I know, you’ll Feel Sicker’n you’ve ever Felt, according to the reports I’ve heard.  But, What Is It about That, that’s needling you Now, when you don’t have it?  What Does it Remind you of?  If you can Get Present with that Feeling, it will take you to the Heal-All you need, and probably Close whatever Hole in your Aura that the Garudavirus might have used to get past your Immune System.

Here’s a Reply to our Quest…

https://carolineoceanaryan.com/2020/06/12/a-message-to-lightworkers-june-12-2020/