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Cause an Defect Full Moon IV

August 9, 2017

Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…

As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively.  Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality. 

(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious.  Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)

You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after.  That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly.  Abundance is having enough to Share, After all. 

This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force)Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while.  As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd?  And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?

Expressing our Anger (Mars) can Create Community, and it can drive folks away.  While Communing with Everyone is a fabulous Aquarian goal (http://danielscranton.com/your-universal-family-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/), we may not actually be ready for such Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.  And that’s all right.  We Are Who We Are, moment to moment (http://danielscranton.com/creating-experiences-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/).

We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness.  While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.

This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality.  Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community.  Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form.  Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form.  Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence.  To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain. 

The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege.  Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions.  Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal.  To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes.  Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions.  As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.

While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional.  Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs).  Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality.  Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.

The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love.  That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time.  And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger.  The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.

Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy.  Dan and the Arcfolk concur – http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ .  The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.”  Hmmm.  I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis.  But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.  

There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda.  Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power.  Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm.  In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood.  If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.

Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us.  Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it.  It’s a foundation for our Ego.  So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping.  We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger.  While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.

To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it.  Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort.  “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.”  It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation.  If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t.  “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.”  Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.”  Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.

The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4).  If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations.  Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress.  Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.

We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul. 

We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession.  Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?

If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death.  That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort.  Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong.  But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.

So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart?  What would we look for?

Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus.  These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair.  Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?

Well, yes. seven of them.  We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets.  So seven is a whole bunch.

We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…

Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things.  We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us.  This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.

It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion.  It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that.  We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.

Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth.  Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio.  Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with.  Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.

Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures.  Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.

These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them.  Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.

That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.

So, which planets are we talking about?  Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.

Whoa, this is Big.  The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack).  Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot.  All very strongly Lit Up this week.  So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts.  Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?

Oops, have to interrupt again.  A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy.  What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?

Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture.  For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet.  What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged!  The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.

So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference.  Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all!  So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.

And that’s just two planets.  With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times.  To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40.  However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?

Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true.  You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium.  You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.

And now you’re going to run into another problem.  Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio.  When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon.  I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates.  That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.

So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while.  Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating.  There should be a reasonable number of those folks around.  You won’t be their Onliest…

Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you

as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.

Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho).  So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children.  That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.

So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings.  We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.

Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio?  So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!

Did someone say Obsession?  Damn Right!  Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!!  It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime!  So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is!  Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.

Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue.  Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle).  That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly.  To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.”  Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.

So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above).  “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero.  If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different.  This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?

Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it.  Are we done?  Not a chance.  Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron.  Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…

A T-Square is like a graduate seminar.  We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent.  But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.”  In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions.  No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.

It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily.  You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.

So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.

That’s what T-Squares are all about.  Now, what about this Mercury T-Square?  Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you.  Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk.  So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.

If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it.  You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk.  You could write best-sellers about it.  You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first.  I guarantee you, it is True.

Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed.  With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are.  You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.

Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…

Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled).  Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules.  To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.

But you’ll always be condemned for it.  So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others.  And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you.  Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).

In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand.  That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project.  It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you.  Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.

But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone.  So you’ll have to Learn to Notice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness

Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.

What’s that?  Oh, we aren’t quite done?  Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio?  Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong).  All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.

We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample.  The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway.  This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.

Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.

And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both.  We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.

Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too.  It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it.  Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself

Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.

That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.

Cause an Defect

August 5, 2017

A friend asks, “What do your Arcturian friends say about us creating our own reality?

Same thing Seth said in The Nature of Personal Reality.  If we want to know our Karma (the Beliefs and Habit Patterns we came into the Lifetime with, whether Productive or Self-Sabotaging in each stage of the current Life), just look at our Lifetime so far.  What we’ve Created, and are Creating, is Who We Are, Karmically.  We have the Power to Change it, sometimes quite simply, other times with impossible difficulty.  First step is to Notice what we’re Creating and have Created, and Recognize that We have Created it. 

At this point we have to stop and Examine whether we’re In Blame.  Blame is about assigning Cause to something.  It’s about the Past.  Responsibility is about Recognizing that, one way or another, we have the Power to Change Future Outcomes.  People who are unable to step out of Blame will never be able to Recognize that they Create their own Reality.  Their Reality is stuck in circular finger-pointing, and it won’t Change till they figure out how to step off of the Blame treadmill.

If we can step out of Blame then…

Is What we’re Creating What We Want?  If not then we need to Change it.  99% percent of ourself is Unconscious, and the Unconscious is non-Dual, so the Dualistic Mind can’t do the job.  The Mind is a screwdriver, the Unconscious is put together with bolts.  Cause and Effect is a Linear process, quite relevant to the realm of the Ego, but the Unconscious operates by different rules.  Time isn’t even Linear in the Unconscious – are your Dreams Linear?

Best tools for influencing the Unconscious that I’ve found so far are the PIAVAs.  Think about Intention, for instance – you’re starting with Effect and then producing Cause!  So much for Linear Time.

Yes, our Childhood Programming is overlain on top of our Karma.  But who Created our Childhood Programming?  We did.  Not We/Ego, but We/Soul.  No Judgment here; We/Soul just decided We Wanted to have more Experience in a certain arena or several.  In that sense We/Soul Chose our parents and the propaganda mills that would Program us – to Reinforce our Karma so we’d Notice it and be inspired to Change it

It is my opinion that at least some of us came to this Planet at this time in order to Assist the Planet to finish business with the Age of Pisces.  Pisces must Eschew Blame if it is to find the elevator to the next level and “get out of going through all this twice” as Dylan put it.  In that context We/Soul have adopted for We/Ego (prior to Enlightenment) a set of Karma as if it were a set of underwear; it isn’t even really “ours,” we’ve just picked it out at Goodwill because it reflects how We/Soul have Chosen to Assist the Planet.

Which is a fine way to look at it regardless – Karma is Inertia, not Retribution, so it actually has no Value (as in good or bad), it’s Neutral, just as we need to be Neutral in order not to get sucked into the Drama that the Age of Pisces gets stuck in.  Neutrality means that we don’t have any investment in any of the Outcomes, other than, optionally, those we’ve Chosen to Change.  And in fact, one of the best way to Change anything is through Acceptance.  To go one step further, we could say, unequivocally, that Nothing Changes until we Accept it Exactly As It Is.

Which simply means that we’ve Noticed that we’ve Created it, and since we Realize that, as John (and Michael Roads) says, All There Is (That’s Real) Is Love, then we have no Choice but to figure out how to Love what we’ve Created.  For instance, consider our Genius Project.  Of course we’re frustrated because it hasn’t paid off on the first try.  Duh.  How many Lifetimes have we (or the Planet) been working on this Project?  Do we Expect to Change it with one PIAVA?  (Of course it might; we might just be ready.)

What has happened so far with our Genius Project, and how do we Feel about it?  Have we figured out how to Embrace those Feelings Lovingly, so we can Lovingly Embrace what’s happened so far, so we can get on to the next step?  We need at least to Poor-Sweetheart them.  This is the Pay Attention stage of the PIAVA process.  How is what has happened related to What We Want? 

Have we appeared to move in the wrong direction?  That’s where I’m at.  That’s very common, because the Unconscious is Asking and Telling We/Ego, “Do you Trust us?  If you won’t Hold the Intention, we can’t Hold it for you.” It’s Ego that has Focus, not the Unconscious.  It takes a Partnership to Manifest.  Even a Village.

If it feels like Nothing has happened, or something unexpected has indeed happened, but it doesn’t appear to be Related to our Genius Project, then we might have to PIAVA that we come to grok (as opposed to “understand”) the Relationship well enough that we know what to do next to bring our Forbidden Genius out of Hiding.  Or better yet, just PIAVA that we take the appropriate next step, period, and just bypass the Linear Mind, and the Controlling Status-Quo-Loving Ego, entirely.

Are we making any sense?

Things haven’t felt very satisfying or stable the last several days, as Jupiter Squares Pluto, amplified by the impending 7 August Full-Moon Partial Eclipse, prelude to the 21 August Big One.  We’ll write about that next.

Forbidden Genius and Responsibility

April 28, 2017

Here’s a great tale from reader and Artiste Extraordinaire Mahasweta Mitra (http://creationsfromstillness.com/)…

“Things have been going downhill at work for almost a year now… and I did get into my mental loop of how do I make more money to make ends meet… but then I came to a point where I saw, I may not have money to splurge, but any time I need extra money, it somehow shows up…

“I have been leading a ladies dance group (its free, we all meet up and dance for an hour) for almost a year now…and on March 26th
(ie, the 25 March Ixion Station, the 26 March Sappho Station,
New Moon 27th March, discovering the roots of our Forbidden Genius,
            and amping up our Self-Love)
I had the inspiration to ask my dance group if they would like to start an art group… and the interest was phenomenal…

“So on April 11th
(Mercury Stationary 9 April, Hylonome Stationary 10 April,
Varuna Stationary 10 April, Full Moon 10 April: huge Potential
         for Letting Go of Karmic Chains that have inhibited our Life Force.)
we started our art group. I did not plan to take any money for this, just told them we would pool in some money to buy art supplies.
 “So many ladies showed interest that I have had to split the group into two batches.. and now two evenings I have our art group meeting up, one evening dance and one evening volunteering at prison to teach computers (this I have been doing for many years now).  I have never felt so good.. it feels like being that school kid again, leading many groups into creative things… something I lost after life happened, as a kid nothing could stop me… but then life happened and I lost my confidence and it’s like I am finding it all again…
“Last evening as I worked with the art group, I actually felt like I was back in touch with that child I remember I was… it’s a lot of work but the joy of doing it all gives me this unexplainable energy that I can keep going and not feel tired.  I also feel like I am giving back for all I have received for years now… and a knowing… it will all be OK financially… to have faith.  Not that worries don’t show up every now and then, but I am finding that I can chose to go with faith and allow the financial stress to subside.”

Pretty neat!  I’ve been seeing myself Letting Go of Anxiety around Money on multiple levels as well, and I’m frequently shocked at how Relaxed I feel even while I’m very Busy.  Previously, being Busy and being Relaxed seldom if ever Shared the same space.

Just looking at what the Moon Lights Up, this weekend should be Globally and Personally noteworthy, especially from around 9am PDT to 9pm PDT or so on 29 April.  The Moon first Tickles our Forbidden Genius (Ixion), then The Most Important Thing (Saturn), which, as it’s on the Galactic Center, is Channeling instructions from Headquarters that we eschew Despair (Venus-Chiron).  Then the Moon crosses The Truth (asteroid Veritas), before it Dances with Full Responsibility (Pholus) and our Survival Instincts (Quaoar).  Remember Responsibility ain’t Blame.  We listed that sequentially, but we’re likely to Experience it as All One Energy.  This is 26-2 Degrees.

Then on 30 April, roughly from 8am PDT to 8pm PDT, it Tickles our Grief about Letting Go of Archetypes that have kept us Safe (Hylonome) then facilitates Letting Go of Karmic Attachments (asteroids Atropos and Moira, and Pallas), and finally Dances with our Expanding Self-Confidence (Chariklo and Jupiter).  8-16 Degrees.  There is nothing so Attractive to Hupers as Self-Confidence – that’s why they refer to swindling as a “Con” Game.  If you know someone whose only marked attribute is Self-Confidence, they don’t serve to make us Doubt Self-Confidence, but to remind us that we aren’t empty suits inflated with hot air.  

What make us feel Phony is Abandoning our Forbidden Genius and being Adopted by Archetypes, not our Self-Confidence.  We’ve been faking it, but as we Allow ourself to be Adopted by our Genius, and to Abandon our Archetypes, we “make” it instead – Self-Love and Self-Confidence without any underlying Self-Doubt and Fear. 

Whatever we Learn this weekend, we follow it on May Day with two different Energies…

  • Early on (around 7am-2pm PDT) the Moon Encourages another step toward our Rebirth into Yintegrity with our Soul Self (Haumea and Eris-Uranus-Mercury)  24-26 Degrees
  • Toward early evening PDT, the Moon Triggers a new Influx of Life Force (Varuna) as we recognize that the Edges of our Consciousness have Grown (Vesta)  29-30 Degrees

Busy Busy Busy as Kurt would say.

Big Weeks III

March 24, 2017

So often right on cue, Dan and the Arcturians describe an excellent process for discovering the roots of our Forbidden Genius (ie, the 25 March Ixion Station) and amping up our Self-Love (which is to say, the 26 March Sappho Station)… 

http://danielscranton.com/all-aspects-of-you-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

Greetings.  We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“When you are ready to explore your consciousness to the greatest extent that you possibly can, you are going to uncover a litany of aspects of who you are.  You are almost ready to experience your whole selves and to become your whole selves.  What blocks you from doing so is the fear that you will uncover something about yourself that you cannot reconcile, that you cannot forgive, and that you cannot love.

“To be a whole being means that you must accept all aspects of you, and that means uncovering the parts of you who are lingering around because they have not yet been forgiven, accepted, and loved.  You hold the power to do this, and it’s easier than you might think.

“When you see someone in the outside world doing something that you find abhorrent, you can rest assured that there is an aspect of you that has done the exact same thing in another lifetime.  So in order for you to move forward with the integration of all aspects of self, you must be able to forgive the person that you have become aware of, and their actions.  It is not easy.

“You often determine your goodness by how you are capable of refraining from doing such things.  That makes it easier to look down upon someone who is doing the thing, or who has done the thing, that you would never do.  But this is your mission.  This is what it means to be unconditional love.  This is what it means to be compassion in action.

“There must be something, some condition, some action that you find reprehensible in order for you to make the shift.  We are not talking about the big shift here.  We are talking about making the shift from judgment and condemnation to compassion and unconditional love.

“That is in essence what the big shift is all about.  It is an opportunity for you to leave all the baggage behind, the baggage of the third dimension, the baggage that contains your judgments, your condemnations, whether they be of yourself or others.  Recognize this, however.  When you experience a judgment, or a condemnation, or both, of someone else, you might as well be experiencing it of yourself, because you cannot become aware of something that you are not already in some way, shape, or form yourself.

“When we ask you to love yourselves, we are asking you to love all aspects of yourselves, and we know it is not always easy.  But it is always worth it.

“We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.

Big Weeks

March 22, 2017

This week and next week are “Big Weeks.”  For the next several days we’re engaged in what will for many of us Feel like Heroic Struggles between Self-Love and the most Rejected and Abandoned portions of ourselves- namely the almost simultaneous Stations (Strengthenings) of Sappho (Self-Love – peaking 4pm PDT 26 March) and Ixion (Our Forbidden Genius, peaking 9pm PDT 25 March).  But of course it’s not Either/Or; our Task is to Embrace All of us.

Since Suppressing our Genius requires a lot of Consistent Effort, and since most of us were Programmed to do this from an early age, we may well encounter an Ego Death or two, where it Feels like “I’m Dying!” or “I’d rather Die than go through this again!”  This is True, but we usually misinterpret it.  It’s not “I’m Dying!”; it’s “I’m Dying” – Rebirth of the Ego, which, since Egos are nothing if not tenacious, usually Feels like a Death en route to Rebirth.

Here’s a wonderful Expression of just what we’re likely to be Experiencing – not at all that the Experience is wonderful, but the Expression is exquisitely crafted…

https://meganmintoblog.wordpress.com/2016/12/08/a-big-life/

Megan’s title – A Big Li(f)e – is especially delicious, as she makes it so clear so surreptitiously that the whole Ego game is a Sham – Ego’s job is to protect our Physical Vehicle, but what’s Real about us is not Matter but Energy – Consciousness – and Energy cannot be Destroyed, only Transformed.  What’s the Matter is that Transformation alters Form, and Ego invests heavily in Form.

Of course if we’re new to the Shift Game, since Suppression of both our Innate Genius and our Self-Love was likely through Programming by our Significant Others starting at a very early age, we may not Experience Ego Death per se, but instead Exhaustion, or Panic, or Compulsive DoingDoing, or “just” an irresistible urge to “Get Out.”  We could also be Regressed to a “previous” Lifetime, and “just” be terminally Confused.

If you’re tempted to resort to Blame here, making the Tension someone else’s fault, don’t waste your Energy.  If you both understand though that it’s just more Cat on a Hot Tin Roof and that nobody’s going to get offended, and you want to have a big cathartic screaming match, Go For It.  This Chanelling by Daniel Scranton addresses Blame, Victimhood, and the Outside World…

http://danielscranton.com/politics-and-the-shift-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“Greetings.  We are the Arcturian Council. We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“We have arrived at several conclusions about humanity and how you are going to progress forward in your shift.  First of all, we have noticed that there is a great deal of attention being given to the politicians, and what they are doing, and how they are doing it.  This is more relevant to your shift than you realize.

“It is necessary for you all to accept yourselves as the creators of your reality in order for you to empower yourselves enough to make the shift in consciousness.  It is therefore necessary for each and every individual who is working towards assisting humanity in the shift to let go of any ideas about being victims.  You are not victims, and you are not powerless to those who hold positions of power.

“When you act on your reactions to what is being done out there in political and international realm, you take your attention off of yourselves.  Therefore, it is necessary and important for all of you to let go of your obsessions with what’s happening on the national and global scale.  It is far more important for you to see and feel what is going on inside of you.

“If you use the politicians to assist you by triggering you in the ways that you need to be triggered, then you can move forward with your personal journey and your personal evolution.  And that is how you create a new world.  That is how you create a world where those in positions of power actually care about you.

“You as individuals must first demonstrate that you care more about yourselves than you do about what someone out there is doing, even if it affects you on a personal level.  Letting go of your attachments to the world behaving in a way that is appropriate by your standards is a necessary step in your evolution.

“The shift is happening, and you are all part of it, no matter how insignificant you sometimes feel.  But our recommendation is for you to feel your significance and take your power back.  Demonstrate to yourselves how easy it is for you to manifest the reality that you want to experience.

“Do so by turning off your news and turning on your creativity, your focus, your imagination.  Be absolutely certain about what you want to create, and demonstrate to yourselves how easy it is in the current energies.  All you need is a bit more focus on yourselves and on your internal processes.  You will see much bigger changes when you focus within than when you attempt to make changes by looking at those in power and hoping that their agendas match your own.

“We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”

We may also be already Feeling the need to Take Full Responsibility for what we’re Creating, as Pholus is Stationary early next week (1am PDT 28 March).

 

Self-Love and Genius

March 17, 2017

As usual, Michael Roads is right in tune with the “Stars,” writing in his “365 steps to a happier more conscious life” email (http://int.michaelroads.org/) as if for the simultaneous Stations (Strengthenings) of Ixion (Forbidden Genius) and Sappho (Self-Love)…

“There is no higher-Self and lower-self; there is only Self

“As I have often written, Self is who you are.  When I refer to self, this is the aspect that relates to separation and identity.  Some people call this the ego-self.  The problem with this is that these people often indulge in attacking their ego, claiming that the ego must die before Self can be realised.  This is nonsense.

“It is Love that brings freedom from the illusion, and Love does not attack any aspect of who you are to achieve this.  Love and accept yourself for who you are, the way you are, right now.  Treat identity-self lovingly, gently, and with great care.  Always, always, always . . . choose Love!”

Ixion was the psychopath of the Greek Pantheon, creating all manner of cultural havoc until Zeus cornered him.  Rather than punish Ixion though, Zeus, liking Libertarian males as the Founder and Archetype of Patriarchy, gave Ixion a second chance.  With that second chance, Ixion set out to seduce Zeus’s wife Hera.  That Zeus didn’t tolerate, so Zeus bound Ixion to the Sun, to forever spin across the Sky in Fire.

Of course the behavior Zeus couldn’t tolerate in others, was exactly the behavior that Zeus perpetrated repeatedly on other women.  Some authors attribute upwards of 150 children to Zeus in the various versions of Greek Iconography.  This is a good example of the “Funhouse Mirror” through which we see our selves.  If it occurred to Zeus that Ixion was simply Mirroring Zeus’s own behavior, then Zeus becomes a bit of a tyrant, reserving those sorts of Adventures only for himself.

More likely, Zeus failed to recognize the Mirroring, as we are wont to do when we Judge others for the behaviors or attitudes that we are unable to Witness in our self because it would conflict with our Limiting Beliefs, or trigger the Held Emotions that we’re unwilling to tolerate.  An illustration of how our Judgments, when exposed to the Light, are doorways into our Stuck places.  Hence the punishment of being strapped to the Sun, to the Light, and hence the burning Pain of Ego Death from Spiritual Fire.

Here is some excellent Perspective on one of the greatest tricks of the Patriarchy and Power-Over in general, a behavior which for some weird reason people are naming “Gaslighting.”  In my day it would simply have been called a Mindfuck, but that may not be polite enough for the DSM… 

https://www.theguardian.com/science/2017/mar/16/gaslighting-manipulation-reality-coping-mechanisms-trump

A picture is worth a thousand words, and Gaslighting is illustrated here…

http://farts.typepad.com/photos/uncategorized/2007/11/30/turbofart_2.jpg

In the process of Zeus’s punishment of Ixion, Ixion grandfathered the Centaurs, Equine-Huper hybrids – Zeus fashioned a Cloud in the image of Hera, and the father of the Centaurs was the result of Ixion’s tryst with the Cloud.  We’ll let your own imagination play with any Atlantean metaphors about the Cloud that our Computers mate with today.  Of course our most famous Centaur is Chiron, master of Pain and Miracle, and metaphor for Separation.

An interesting and very useful Perspective on Chiron, from…

https://shiftingthroughlove.wordpress.com/2017/03/16/chapter-12-the-build-up/

“…a dream message from a guide who called himself The Hierophant.  His message was to ‘follow the 8 winds’ and he also said, ‘Within a moment you will be changed.’  My research indicated that the Hierophant was a typical part of the tarot deck often also known as the High Priest.  Further, he can also be known as Chiron, the wounded healer.  Further research showed the 8 winds as a reminder to avoid attachment to those things which are very desirous while also not avoiding things that are very painful.”

The Hierophant stands for the Fifth Harmonic – Learning and Teaching, while the Eighth Harmonic is about “alignment and balance” and “piercing the webbed veils of illusion, delusion, and deception” (Angie Arrien, Tarot Handbook, p.55).  The part about “the 8 winds as a reminder to avoid attachment to those things which are very desirous while also not avoiding things that are very painful,” in addition to being the core of Liberation from Archetypes, is for me an intriguing addition to the concept of Rebalancing.  

And “Within a moment you will be changed” is the hallmark of Chiron, as the Leap from Despair to Miracles that results from the successful Shift to a New Perspective that, for instance, Poor-Sweethearting can accomplish.  

It also sheds further Light on the Mjolnir or Thor’s Hammer (a third planet at the Far Midpoint of a Square) as Lightning or Epiphany, since the Mjolnir is a pair of Trioctiles, or the combination of the Third (Love with Wisdom) and Eighth Harmonics.  A Waning Trioctile is after all a Quinoctile, combining the Fifth and Eighth rhythms.

Cutting the Cloth VII and Aries Week II

March 16, 2017

In the arenas where we’ve achieved or otherwise enjoy some sort of Mastery, the sense of relative Control feels exquisite.  But then there are the other arenas of Life.  And it’s not actually about Control, it’s about Surrender.  It Feels to me like we’re already into “Aries Week” – time to reread…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/03/08/aries-week-let-it-all-hang-out/ 

Bottom Line…

It’s all about Healing, but if we’re Ego-Attached to any of our Wounds [or any of our Achievements], the Healing Crisis will have to involve Ego Death.  It wouldn’t be surprising if this is what we Took Birth for…  We could easily make the case that the primary astroEnergy bathing us in late 2016 and early 2017 [and especially in late March] is a Struggle between Fear and Self-Love.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Love Heals, Fear is the Foundation for continued Separation and Pain.  “Love” means Unconditional Love.  The sort of Love that Expects something in Return is another category altogether.”

If we’re Struggling to Manifest something and it’s not working, we have to Love Ourself for that too.  How do we Love a Wound without Expecting something – like Healing for instance – in Return?  Lots of Tapping, perhaps?  Poor-Sweethearting the part of ourself that’s craving the Healing?  Looking into the Funhouse Mirror to see if there are other things we’re actually craving more than Healing?  Other cravings which may be holding back the Healing – or which the Universe thinks we need to Heal more than what our Ego wants to Heal, and It’s just using the Frustrating Wound to get our Attention?

The contest this week and next probably isn’t directly about Self-Love versus Fear; it’s probably more about Self-Love versus Self-Abandonment and Self-Doubt.  We have very Powerful Skills we aren’t using – we may not even be Aware of them – and the Universe may be Teasing us our Frustration, trying to get our Ego to open up to the unseen.  If you find Confusion, know you’re on the right track.  Don’t try to Disfuddle yourself; instead, Relax into the Confusion.  

Don’t-Know Beginners Mind is where we want to Be.  It’s all about Letting Go of Expectations and Judgments.  As Michael Roads says (From Illusion to Enlightenment p.94),”I need you to fully realize that you cannot change and remain the same.”  You could also be Feeling Pressure from Others.  Dealing with their Expectations and Judgments is a whole ‘nother story, especially if you Let them have Power Over you, or if they Want Power Over you.  

Sappho – Self-Love – has its 26 March Station and turns Back before it reaches Lilith, but the Station is Conjunct (Merged With) Lilith – Self-Sovereignty.  It will be mid-November by the time Sappho catches up with Lilith again, but the Initiation is intriguing – 2 Capricorn, “Three rose windows in a Gothic church, one damaged by war: The necessary realization by any individual making a violent use of collective power that it will lead to the inevitable destruction of some of the values ensuring group-integration.”

The 25 March Station of Ixion – Forbidden Genius – is also still Conjunct Saturn – Focus, or what we usually refer to as The Most Important Thing, since it implies suspending all priorities of lesser import.  The nascent Saturn-Ixion Cycle began mid-February at 26 Sagittarius, “A flag bearer in a battle” – a flag represents an Identity, particularly a Group Identity.  

Ixion and Saturn are Channeling the Galactic Center here, so we can interpret this as the necessity of moving to our Galactic or “Fifth-Dimension” Identity, the one that emphasizes Collaboration, Cooperation, Respect for All Things, and Shared Abundance, rather than Competition, Success and Failure, Privilege and Abuse, Duality, and Greed.  But we do this by Shifting our Frequency, not by “battle” or “war” or “violence.”

The two Stations bracket Sagittarius – Sappho at the Beginning and Ixion near the End.  Sagittarius is about Letting Go and Letting the Goddess.  So along the way we may be Grieving the Loss of some cherished “Third-Dimensional” Ego props, like Expectation, Judgment, Control, even Mastery.  Try putting Awe in their place.

January Week 3 End – Big Doin’s

January 19, 2017

Whew, made it through the Ixion-Juno Initiation last night, but not without Tapping and Thetaing and Poor-Sweethearting for most of the night.  Our next Big Event is a Station of dwarf planet Haumea, 4am PST 22 January.  Haumea is Pele’s daughter, symbolizing Rebirth – by Fire!  It’s been within one Degree of Sensitivity to this Station since early November, so it’s a big part of what we’ve been Experiencing, as we’ve been trying to get as many of our Unconscious Masters (Archetypes, Karma, and Unfinished Business, O My) wrestled to the Ground so we can get Reborn as Cleanly as possible.

Now that “everything else” Big has gone under the bridge, the Rebirth part takes Center Stage.  Well, almost.  The Reality Show is still about

Bringing our Unconscious Fears Up Into Our Awareness in Order to Reclaim our Self-Sovereignty

for another week or so.  So this Rebirth is kind of a Mid-term in some ways.

By 1 February we’re firmly engaged in Rebuilding a New Timeline or Ego-Lifetime that’s based on Self-Love.

So a Laser Focus on Noticing any Self-Judgment for the next 7-10 days will pay big dividends.

Self-Judgment includes any Values you have that are Moral, or based on Either/Ors.  As Alan Watts informed us,

It’s Harder to Let Go of Good Karma than it is to Let Go of Bad Karma.

And we need to jettison both if we’re going to be able to approximate Self-Love.

Our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.  But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

If we betray our own Standards of Behavior, or fail to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect, we Make Amends and move on.  If we’re in the Habit of indulging Guilt or Remorse or the like (or having a big Reaction when others fail to treat us with Respect, which is just a Mirror for our own Lack of Self-Love), then we need to Change that Habit to Tapping it Out asap so we can get on with the Critically Important Work we’re doing Rebirthing the Planet one Psyche at a time (our own).  What was that Meditation threshold that squelched Crime?  One Percent of the Neighbors Meditating?

There’s a Catch here.  Two days after Haumea’s Station, asteroid Hopi Stations.  Hopi is about Respect for all Things.  Those Sentient Beings we have to Respect?  They don’t just include folks who look like you (regardless of Color).  They include Critters and Plants and Rocks and Dirt and Planets and Stars and anything that your mind is able to Separate from the Background Noise and assign a word to.  Oh, and the Background Noise is Sentient too, especially the Background Noise.  That’s the Unconscious, Master over most of our Behavior, thought, Emotion, and even our Physiology.

So we can say that again now, with the context more clear: It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.

But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.  How will we every Learn to Love our Pathological Genius otherwise?

Saturn, The Most Important Thing, is only three weeks and less than two Degrees away from being Initiated by Ixion, our Forbidden Genius.  

Meanwhile, the Great Amplifier Jupiter is only two weeks and a third of a Degree shy of its Station, and less than two Degrees from Haumea.  In other words this isn’t any ordinary Molt of our Identity exoskeleton (Haumea is Stationary twice a year after all), but a Big Rebirth.  And you might notice that Sedna, our Emissary of Fear as a Gift Reminder to Embrace ourself, is Stationary along with Jupiter.

So we have a Choice here.  We can be Reborn into Big Fear, or we can be Reborn into Big Love.  We Choose the latter by hunting down our Unconscious Fear with a Searching and Fearless Inventory, then Loving our Fear into Submission.

It’s a safe bet that most or all of our Judgments have their roots embedded deep in Fear.  So if you aren’t Scared this week and next, start Examining your Judgments.  What Unconscious Fears stand behind those?  That includes our “positive” Moral Judgments – “I’m Good because I…” – what Fears stand behind those?  What would happen if you chose Yintegrity  or Self-Trust instead of “Good”?

This is what we took Birth for, and why the Planet is so overpopulated with Beings wanting in on the Action.

In case you’ve lost the bigger plot, Jupiter-Haumea is one corner of the Forbidden-Genius-Recovery Golden Rectangle that encloses our Sedna-Lilith Recovering-Self-Sovereignty-by-Embracing-our-Fear Yin Gate, which is about to morph into a Building-a-New-Lifetime-Based-on-Self-Love Yin Gate.  And of course the huge Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since Time As We Know It Ended in 2012, is another corner of the Golden Rectangle.

19 January 1am PST Ixion Initiates Juno Sadge 26
      2am PST Mars WAxing Square Saturn Pisces-Sagittarius 24

22 January 4am PST Haumea Stationary Retrograde Libra 25

24 January noon PST Hopi Stationary Retrograde Libra 13
      11pm PST Chiron Initiates Venus Pisces 22-3

25 January 2am PST Veritas Stationary Direct Gemini 10

26 January: Moon on Pluto T-Squaring Jupiter and Uranus, 1am-11am PST (Moon on Pluto 1am PST, Moon Square Uranus 7am PST, Moon Square Jupiter 11am PST)

27 January: Sappho Conjunct Klotho Scorpio 22 Opposite Sedna-Aletheia in the Yin Gate, with Sedna Stationary
      Quaoar Enters Capricorn
      New Moon 4pm Aquarius 9

30 January: Venus Enters Shadow Period Pisces 27

1 February: Neptune Initiates Pallas Pisces 11

6 February: Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea Libra 24
      Sedna Stationary Direct Taurus 26

15 February: Ixion Initiates Saturn Sagittarius 26

January, Week 3, Middle

January 17, 2017

We should be past the big jump in Fear, as the Aletheia (Truth, who’s camping with Fearsome Sedna) Station was twelve hours ago.  But Fear’s still running around loose at my house.  Carryover?  Or the first wave of what’s next?  What Is next?  

On 18 January the Moon Dances with Uranus (the Soul Self) and Eris (Revelation) and Jupiter (Amplification), but compared to what we’ve been through already, that’s pretty routine.  Just more Masks falling away, we’ve been doing that for almost five years now.  And besides, you’ve never minded being naked in public, have you?

This 19 January business could be the culprit – Ixion (our Abandoned Genius) Initiating (Starting a new Cycle with) Juno (the Edges of Consciousness).  This implies a major rend in the Wall between the Safety of our existing Identity and the untamed wilderness of the Unconscious, so it would make sense if our Identity was running Scared.  That’d be like Tweetybird having a big hole in his cage while Sylvester was about, if Tweety was prone to Freakouts.

And then Haumea (Rebirth) is Stationary on 22 January, so we’re undoubtedly Feeling that already.  A Rebirth is a Molt, so our old exoskeleton (ie, Identity) has to come off in the process.  So yes, our Olde Identity will be looking over a crumbling Edge into the Abyss.  That can be Disconcerting.  We don’t really have the Option of backing away from the Precipice.

And these, of course – Uranus, Ixion/Juno, Haumea – are three of the four corners of our Abandoned-Genius-Recovery Golden Rectangle, which is the cage that contains our Sedna-Lilith Yin Gate.  So this week we’re doing a lot of ancillary homework.  Our major task is still Getting Honest with Ourself about Embracing as many of our Unconscious Fears as we Can (Sedna-Aletheia) in order to Increase our Self-Sovereignty (Lilith).

Our Unique Genius is “Out There,” Risky, Perverse by your Culture’s Normal Standards of Conformity, a Rebel.  If She wasn’t, there’d have been no reason to have to Abandon Her in the first place, and if She’s going to Change the World She’s going to have to Innovate, which will threaten the many Defenders of the Status Quo.  

That means we’re going to have to put our Pleaser in the back room for a while, and you know what that means.  If we aren’t Pleasing people we’re probably going to be Angering them, and they’ll either beat us to a pulp or Abandon us, and we aren’t sure which is worse.  That’s Scary.

January, Week 2, Middle, Full Moon

January 12, 2017

The Most Important Thing about this first Full Moon of 2017 (12 January, 3:30am PST) is, unequivocally, Recovering our Abandoned Genius.  

Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Conjoins (Merges with) Ixion (Our Abandoned Genius), Juno (the Edges of our Consciousness), and Nemesis (Ego Death) Opposing dwarf planet Chaos, Quincunx to the Full Moon.  This Opposition is the central issue in the Yin Gate (Mystery School, or Learning to Accept Paradox) that the Full Moon forms.  The Full Moon is the other Opposition in the Golden Rectangle (Restoring Natural Harmony) that contains the Yin Gate. 

By our Abandoned Genius I mean the parts of ourself that were Forbidden to us in our Childhood, or that became Forbidden to us when, in the current Lifetime or another, we

Vowed that We’d Never Do That Again 
or 
Vowed that We’d Never Let That Happen to Us Again.

Chances are, what was Forbidden to us in our Childhood, was probably Forbidden because we made one of these two Vows in some earlier Lifetime, and we came into this Lifetime to Clear it – No better way to get something into Consciousness than to have it be Forbidden.  

We just have to have enough Self-Sovereignty, Self-Trust, Courage, and Self-Love to override the Forbidding and Open the (Yin) Gate to these Forbidden “Pleasures.”  We put that in quotes because Desire is a bit of a Trickster.  Here’s Michael Roads’s comment on Desire (email 10 January, http://int.michaelroads.org/ )…

“Yes. Desire is a prison!  An old saying goes like this: That which you most desire shall enslave you in the end.  Very true.  Oddly, the things that we desire hold very little appeal once we have them, but desire continually whets its appetite for more.  We get very attached to both the idea and the subsequent manifestation of our deep desires, yet our attachment to desire invariably has a price of disappointment and dissatisfaction.  Avoid the cycle of perpetual wants, the desire
for this or that.  If you really need it, get it.  There is a big difference between real needs and baseless desires.”

Yet Desire is our Guide to finding our Mission.  Why?  Because by pursuing our Desire we Discover the Curriculum our Soul designed for us in the Lifetime.  The title Michael gives to this piece is “Attachment Is the Lock on the Prison of Desire.”  We have to follow our Desire, but as we do we also have to give up our Attachment to Outcomes.  What was Forbidden was Forbidden for a reason, but not for the reason we were told.  The esoteric purpose was to pique our Desire. so we’d he compelled to investigate fully.

Remember how we described Squares and T-Squares as the sources of our greatest Frustrations and also our greatest Skills?  Because we are compelled to Perfect what is impossible to Perfect, and as a result we have more Experience with it, and Experience with it at more subtle levels, than anyone else.  This is also the nature of Desire.  Even if we Vowed to be good little girls and boys so Daddy wouldn’t beat us and Santa would Bless us, we’ve still worked out that Desire in more, and more subtle, Fantasies than anyone else can ever imagine.  We should at least take a nom de plume and write the novels about it, if we can’t muster the Self-Sovereignty, Self-Trust, Courage, and Self-Love to override the Forbidding.

This is why we refer to Squares as “Mastery through Challenge.”  Our Squares represent usually-unrecognized Mastery.  And there’s an excellent chance the Squares in your natal chart will lead you to at least part of your Forbidden Skills and Abandoned Genius.

The province of Forbidden Skills per se is the South Node (they are hidden under our Held – or Forbidden – Emotions), and Orcus (the Making and Breaking of Vows) Opposes the South Node.

The Full Moon chart gives us a good deal of information about how this Recovery of our Abandoned Genius might work.  First, it will lead us to Limitlessness.  That means that the core of our most Expansive Daydreams is our Abandoned Genius.  It also means that we’ll need to jettison our Limiting Beliefs to get there.

Second, it’s about Becoming Conscious of our Unconscious Fears.  Oxymoronic, eh – becoming Conscious of the Unconscious?  No; Paradoxical perhaps, but neither oxy nor moronic; we do it every day.  It’s the nature of Growth in Consciousness.  We don’t Grow Consciousness through Discovery, we Grow it through Differentiation – Differentiating Out what was previously undifferentiated background noise.  

Such as your Fears.  On a Casual basis, you might think that you don’t like Fatigue because when you’re Fatigued you don’t feel Productive.  But, Meditating into it, you might discover that your need to be Productive is really your Fear of Abandonment, Fear that your wicked stepsister won’t give you food if you don’t get your chores done.  Your wicked stepsister died years ago, but you still Feel your Desire to be Productive as a Desire rather than a Fear.  You bring this Fear into Consciousness by Differentiating Desire from Fear.

The central issue of the Yin Gate that endures through the end of January is the Opposition between Sedna-Aletheia (Getting Truthful with ourself about our Fears) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty).  The Golden Rectangle (Restoring Natural Harmony) that contains it is formed by the Opposition between Jupiter-Haumea (Expansive Rebirth) and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Removing our remaining Masks and making their Removal Permanent; access to Memories of the events that caused us to put them on), and the Opposition between the Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis Stellium and dwarf planet Chaos.

Once into Consciousness, use your “You poor Sweetheart…”s and Tapping to Hold them and defuse them.  Don’t let them slip back into the Darkness.  Celebrate them – they will Liberate you.

Third, the Full Moon is all about Letting Go of what no longer serves us – and what has already Died but we’re ignoring the smell and acting as though it’s still Alive because we’re Habituated to it.  Such as our Karma, our Suffering, our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, and even our Desires.  For many of our Desires we’re just going through the motions.  Think about it – would you really Accept it if your Fantasy came true?  I know, you Glow like a Phosphor when you Dream about it, but what if it was “Real-Life”?  Lots of Yes-Buts there, eh?

The Full Moon Conjoins asteroid Atropos (Endings, Death of an Ego Timeline).  These Endings are particularly important, because we’re about to Rebirth a whole new Ego Timeline based completely on Self-Love, as our enduring Yin Gate transitions from Sedna-Aletheia Opposite Lilith to Sedna-Aletheia Opposite Sappho (Self-Love) and asteroid Klotho (the cloth from which a new Timeline is cut).  Of course the Golden Rectangle that encloses this new Yin Gate is the Ixion-Chaos-Uranus-Haumea Golden Rectangle.

There is a degree of Urgency here, or at least of Importance relative to the steps we’ll encounter in the near future.  At the ides of February we begin a 35-year Cycle during which The Most Important Thing is the Recovery of our Abandoned Genius, as Ixion Initiates Saturn.  The nature of the Cycle is “A chubby boy on a hobby-horse: The anticipatory Enjoyment of Powers one can only as yet Dream of Utilizing” (25 Capricorn).  This is the Embodiment of the Limitlessness that awaits us when we find the Self-Sovereignty, Self-Trust, Courage, and Self-Love to Embrace our Abandoned Genius Unconditionally.

And there’s a huge Arrow in the Heavens pointing to the Beliefs we have which are Anti-Life and Beseaching us to Abandon them.  The fletchings on the Arrow are…

  • Setting Boundaries against Abuse and Privilege (Pallas-Nessus-OR10-South Node)
  • Becoming Conscious of our Abandoned Genius (Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis)
  • Giving up Prejudice (asteroid Hopi)
  • Communion with Nature (the star Menkar)

These are Big Doin’s.  This is the Foundation for our Future.  Build it Sturdy.

This is the Grand Quintile we’ve previously discussed.  It was prominent on 7 January, and on 12 January at 9am PST we have a Triple Conjunction of Moon (Authenticity), Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs), and Varuna (the Life Force) on this corner of the Grand Quintile.  In a traditional chart it shows up loud and clear as a Quintile Yod (Pay Attention to Learning This) – the Arrow – from a base of the Quintile between Saturn-Ixion et al and Pallas-Nessus et al.  The other two fletchings, Hopi and Menkar, show up when we complete the chart.

There’s a Meditation and process for a thorough Cleansing of all of our Disused Psychic and Behavioral contents at…

https://cauldronsandcupcakes.com/2017/01/12/full-moon-meditation-and-journalling-exercise-for-releasing-fear-january-2017/

It constantly amazes me how everyone is on the same page here as we enter a Province where we’ve never been.  There is a very strong Collective Synchrony here, operating completely out of the Awareness of the folks yelling about today’s Disasters on the nightly news – or maybe they’re yelling at us because they’re trying to distract us from the Collective Synchrony and Trance us back into Overconsuming Sheoplehood.

And here’s another missive from Michael Roads, this one titled The Situation You Are in – Now – Is the Very Substance of Your Growth

“You may not like the situation you are in, but you created it, and you can benefit from it.  First, pay attention to all the positives in your situation, and then work with them, building anew.  Odd as it may seem, most people focus on the negatives, then oppose them, creating
more stress and suffering.  

“Truly, nothing in life ever works against you.  But you, of course, can work against life.  This means working against yourself.  Turn this around.  Accept the growth that is on offer, work with your situation, not against, and be aware of, and grateful for the blessings it always confers.  It is with life to always . . . choose Love!”