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Quantum Jump 3

July 7, 2018

The two Trine Bridges (Blessed Paths) in the 8 July Haumea Station-Lilith T-Square were from Vesta-Ixion and Moira-Chaos.  Let’s examine those a bit.

The Vesta-Ixion Cycle is short enough that we’ve already noticed one Ixion-Vesta Initiation, in November 2014 – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/11/18/newthought-portals/.  The Cycle itself is about the Unconscious Beliefs that “we” (that is, us collaborating with our programmers and our Karma) use to keep our Hidden Genius Forbidden. 

Hopefully we will use each Initiation and Cycle to skim the Edges off of those Beliefs so we can get closer and closer to Embracing the Held Emotions at their Core.  Alternately, we’d be likely to use the Initiations and Cycles to cement our Karma further into Stone – we do that every time we re-Experience the Energy as its Victim, rather than using the Opportunity to become Conscious and Adept with it. 

We used to say “Master,” but we’ve changed that to “Adept” to eliminate any connotation of Slavery or Hierarchy, which as elements of the Patriarchy, are dead meat.

The New Cycle was Initiated at the last Equinox, 23 March, in 28 Sagittarius.  That’s the Galactic Center, so this Cycle means business.  28 Sagittarius is about “An old bridge over a beautiful stream is still in constant use.”  Without the Bridge we’d have to Wade the Stream, or Endure the Emotion.  So this year and the next few, we get to rediscover and use Ancient Techniques for Letting Go of the Restraints on our Forbidden Genius.

The Arch, which allowed folks to build Bridges when felling a tree or two didn’t work, like the Wheel, was a Miracle when someone “first” Channeled the idea.  Before they Channeled the notion of Brakes, the Wheel probably killed a lot of folks, and early imperfectly implemented Arches probably tumbled on a lot of heads too.  If you’ve ever tried building a small stone Arch, you know that it’s still a Miracle.  When we think of Miracles, we think of Chiron, so maybe one of our Ancient Techniques is Empathy – Poor-Sweethearting ourself.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you don’t have Permission to let your Greatest Genius Shine through to the rest of the World, do you.”

The Planet is a giant jigsaw Puzzle, and Each one of us is a piece in the Puzzle.  Before it can come together into a Collaborative, Peaceful, Magical World, Enough of us need to stop hiding our Light under a Basket, and Let the World Enjoy it.  The other pieces that mate with it are Waiting.  Yes, the Boundaries of those Limitations and Restraints are tinged with Pain, but with our current Rebirth, they’re worth Testing again, as the Pain may have Magically Dispersed.

If it hasn’t disappeared, the best way I know to Magically Disperse Pain is with Warmth and Softness.  Locate it in your Body.  It doesn’t matter if you don’t have the right place; here it’s Intention that counts.  Warm that place with your Hand, while you Imagine the flesh around it getting Soft and Receptive.  That brings in Blood, Energy from the Heart.  When your mind wanders, patiently bring it back to Focus on the place where Pain still resides.  When the Pain moves, you can Follow it, or you can take a break from the exercise – when the Pain moves, you’ve succeeded in breaking the Trance.

The Physical World is not Distinct or Separate from the World of Emotions or Spirit or thoughts or Beliefs or Limitations.  Each is just an alternate view of the Unity, as if you were walking around a house to see it from all angles.  Moving Pain in your Body and Shifting Limiting Beliefs are Surrogates for one another.  That’s another Miracle – how often has anyone in your Culture showed you how to Shift the Physical World by Shifting your Emotions or your Thoughts or your Prayers.  How often have you succeeded at it? 

More than once I’m sure, but it’s still a Miracle, isn’t it, because it’s outside of our Birdcage-Belief that the Physical and Emotional and Mental and Spiritual Worlds are “Levels” Distinct from one another.  Time to Realize that if you’ve seen these Miracles even once, it’s your Birdcage-Belief in Separation that’s Obsolete and Limiting.  Time to Realize that Trust is what Separates Doubt from Faith.  Doubt kills Miracles, Faith Creates them.  You can’t fake Trust, but you can Intend it. 

Imagine how Powerful you will be – using your Power for the Benefit of All, including yourself, of course – when you can address every roadblock in your path with Tools from ALL FOUR of your Toolbelts – Spiritual, Physical, Emotional, Mental.  It doesn’t matter which of these Realms your roadblock Manifests in.  You can address it with All Four.  And many others – for instance, to these four astrology adds Creation, Stabilization, and Mutation. 

You can Create a detour around your roadblock, Stabilize a Bridge over it, or Mutate it into a smooth path – in any of the Four Realms that you once considered to be Levels of Reality.  You probably once considered them to be Hierarchical Levels even, where one was better than another, or at least more equal than the others.  Hierarchies are dead meat, as is Separation.  Imagine Living at the Edges where Spirit and Matter meet.  Guess what – that’s where all Conscious Entities Live.  And all Entities are Conscious, whether or not we’ve Conceived of their Identity as Entities yet.

This is where we’re going.  Pure Magic, relative to where we’ve been.  Take a Deep Breath and Imagine every roadblock in your Life dissolving into Nothing.  This is the Rebirth we’re Experiencing right now.  Breathe It In.

Wants, Mission, Compromise 4

June 17, 2018

So, in addition to the Cornucopia (or the Illusion of a Cornucopia) in the Sabian Symbol, what does the chart of the Eris-Juno Initiation tell us?  Because the three major events that dominate this weekend all occur in different Degrees, they each have Different Stories to tell.

The first Story told is that the Most Important Thing is our Self-Sovereignty…

Which is to say, the Eris-Juno Initiation chart features a T-Square to Lilith.  A T-Square (the red triangle) is a Challenge, a Temptation to yield to Frustration, and an Invitation to become Adept at dealing with the subtleties of the Challenge.  Lilith is about Self-Sovereignty.  If that’s not self-Explanatory, it “just” means you take your Orders from yourself, not from Others.  Even if it’s your Ego issuing the Orders, rather than your Soul or other element of your Higher Self, that can still be good practice.

Of course the Patriarchy marks Lilith’s Rebellion as Egoic, since Competition is what the Patriarchy Understands, and Female Self-Sovereignty was and is a criminal Betrayal to the Patriarchy.

We’ve included Pluto and Klotho with Lilith, even though they’re a bit more than three Degrees from the Degree of the Initiation; they’re more than close enough to have a strong influence on any Project that we’d Begin this weekend, and as we’ll see, this chart strongly suggests we’ll be Reborn.

Pluto adds the element of Compulsion to Self-Sovereignty.  The New Lilith-Pluto Cycle began in mid-May at 22 Capricorn, “By accepting defeat gracefully, a general reveals nobility of character.”  Lilith-Pluto is a nine-year Cycle, and the Patriarchy is unlikely to accept defeat, gracefully or otherwise, by 2027, though of course we needn’t exclude the possibility. 

However, the Sabian Symbol suggests continued major progress.  Bear in mind though that during the first quarter of any Cycle, the Resistance of the Olde Order dominates the airwaves, so to find evidence of the New during this period, we need to Look For It.  #MeToo may encounter some defeats of its own here.  We can expect the Apparent Tide to shift at the Lilith-Pluto Waxing Square, around the time that the two-century Digital Age begins in earnest, in 2020-2021. 

Our job in the interim is to continue to Conspire to promote the New Cycle, for instance by Acting and Speaking as though the Patriarchy has already Surrendered.  The folks who are on the fence gain the Courage to step up when they hear enough Voices and see enough Commitment to know that they won’t be Alone when they do, so at this stage our Voices and Actions are even more influential than usual, even though the media will repeatedly emphasize our minority or ignore us entirely.

Klotho, of course, represents New Beginnings.  The latest 4-year Klotho-Pluto Cycle (Realizing that our old methods don’t work, and starting over) began at the March Equinox in the same 22 Capricorn, reinforcing the same Energy as the New Lilith-Pluto Cycle.

The New Klotho-Lilith Cycle (Initiating New Patterns of Self-Sovereignty) began in mid-February at 11 Capricorn, “A large group of pheasant on a private estate.”  This is a picture of the Closure of the Commons.  In the Patriarchy, Greed is Good.  We can easily envision a wall of hungry immigrants just beyond the fence of the estate, adding an Overpopulation picture to the Greed picture, and challenging our Beliefs about WeAreAllOne. 

The whole “what if everyone did that?” pseudo-argument that was used to try to Manipulate and Control many of us by our Programmers, comes to mind.  Lots of Fears to be Let Go Of in this nine-year Cycle.

The base of the Lilith T-Square is the Opposition between the Eris-Juno Initiation itself (the Coming into Consciousness of that which Has Previously Been Denied) and Haumea (Rebirth) – so you can see why we stretched our Sensitivity to Birth proportions and included Klotho.  Bear in mind that Denial is a healthy psychological Response to that which would Overwhelm our Ego and threaten to reverse our Growth in Consciousness.

But the Big Deal here is that this isn’t a usual T-Square, it’s a Diamond Star, which is formed when the focus of the T-Square (Lilith) is also the focus of a Yod (the green wedge).  This creates the “bowl of Grace” (blue lines) under the T-Square, as it’s Bridged by Sun-Chaos (Unlimited Potential is our Essence) and Moon-Ceres (Sustainable Authenticity).

A Diamond Star is interpreted as a Challenge that Resolves itself, as the bowl of Grace Acts to Mediate the Challenge.  Not only that, but this T-Square has two additional Bridges, a Trine (Grace) Bridge through dwarf planet Ixion (our Abandoned Genius), and a Quincunx (Curiosity) Bridge through Sedna (Facing and Embracing Fear as Power)…

Ixion, the Cosmic Bad Boy, represents your Best Qualities and Strongest Skills, which your Programmers, through Competition or their own Programming, Suppressed.  It’s been Opposing, and continues to Oppose, dwarf planet Chaos, symbolizing the Unlimited Potential that will be available to us when we Recover our Abandoned Genius.

And Sedna doesn’t just form a Quincunx Bridge, it’s the apex of a Yod from the Sextile between Ixion and Haumea – Pay Attention to your Fears in order to midwife the Rebirth of your Hidden Genius.  Fear is Power Rejected, Power we Fear.  Meet it with Breathing, Tapping, Kegels, Poor-Sweethearts, and PIAVAs.  Practice till you automatically and instantly shift from Fear to Excitement.  Fear is the Absence of Love, and Love Is All There Is.  When you’re in Fear, you aren’t in Is, you’re in Aren’t.

But, this is a Quincunx Bridge – it’s about Curiosity, as is the Yod.  So we’ll have to avoid drawing any Conclusions about our Fear, or about The Fear.  We Want it to be more like “I’m Scared, I Wonder How I’ll Feel and What Will Happen when I do Kegels.”  Rather than “Great, those Kegels replaced my Fear with Excitement,” try “Wow, I Wonder where this Excitement will Lead me.” 

You want to Wonder about “What Will Happen” when you Embrace your Fear because it will Change your Beliefs, potentially your Core Beliefs (especially with Ixion and Chaos involved in the Dance), and when your Beliefs Change, the World Changes.

More to say about the Eris-Juno Initiation, so to be continued…

Surviving

April 1, 2018

In the grocery store today, most folks looked like they were actually concerned about something big, though I couldn’t say for sure if it was about Being Responsive to the Survival of their Hidden Genius, or about whether they were dumb to schedule their Egg Hunt on cold rainy Sunday instead of warm Sunny Saturday.  Probably both.

The good news is that I managed to get decent-resolution pictures out of Apple Photos – from iPhoto you could copy; from Photos you have to export.  Love these constant undocumented “improvements.”  Uploading a hundred times faster is a real improvement, however. 

So here, in the heavy lines, is the Quaoar Station chart’s Manifestation-vs-Held Emotions (Makemake-Chiron) Yin Gate Paradox School that we mentioned in the previous post…

The lighter lines trace out the Diamond Star that we talked about in the Pholus Station section of the previous post.

In the chart above we’ve included the whole Forbidden Genius-Responsiveness-Survival complex (Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Stations), since they’re close enough together in Linear Time (27 March to 1 April) and Zodiacal Space (28 Sagittarius to 3 Capricorn, and across the Galactic Center to boot) to be one coherent event in Real Life.  Well, Real 3D Life. 

The complex doesn’t peak till the Quaoar Station at 3pm PDT 1 April.  No foolin’.  Well, okay, for many it could have peaked at the Full Moon, which was 4:30 am PDT 31 March.  Like Banana peels, Moons are often Triggers for larger events.  And there could always be Twin Peaks.  Plus, depending on your natal chart, you could easily have felt the Ixion Station (2pm PDT 27 March) or the Pholus Station (9pm PDT 29 March) more Strongly.  The Ixion Station would probably have felt most uncomfortable, as Ixion is such an Outcast.

If we focus in on our usual just three Degrees of Sensitivity at the Quaoar Station itself, we get this picture of the Diamond Star, in the heavy lines…

The light lines show a second Challenge to Mastery (T-Square), a Challenge to Adjust our Values to better Recognize our Intuition (Venus Opposite Moon) so we can better Remember the bottom-line importance of the Life Force (Mnemosyne-Varuna).  We can hardly Respond to our Forbidden Genius’s Desire to Survive if we ignore the Life Force. 

In fact, without giving our Forbidden Genius some Attention, we won’t be able to Support the Ego’s Compulsion to Survive.  Few things are more Soul-killing than suppressing one’s Genius.  Consider that if you know anyone who’s Depressed about more than their Egg-Hunt weather, though that could always just be the surface manifestation – the further correspondence in Time is there.

And speaking of the correspondence in Time with Easter, Notice that when we expanded our Sensitivity to include all three Stations, Haumea/Rebirth ended up Merging with the Moon in the Yin Gate, Dancing with (Opposing) Uranus/Soul and Venus/Values.  In the second, Diamond Star chart above, you can see that the Three Stations (not Stooges) make an Easy Path (Trine-Sextile Bridge – blue lines) across the Life-Force Challenge to Mastery (Varuna T-Square).

In fact, these two Challenges make Easy Paths to one another – Life Force/Varuna Trine-Bridges the Three Stations (Genius-Responsiveness-Survival) T-Square, and the Three Stations Trine-Bridge the Life Force T-Square.  This is remarkably Fortuitous.  If we were examining Projects we’re beginning now (this Rebirth, for example), and hence using larger Sensitivities, we’d see that the Saturn-Mars Initiation is also Merged with the Quaoar and Pholus Stations.

This means that The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is to Act (Mars) to Be Responsive to our Survival Instincts, and by extension to our Hidden Genius.  The Saturn-Mars Initiation occurs on 2 April (9am PDT) at 9 Capricorn, “An Angel carrying a harp.”  This begins a two-year Cycle where this Angel will facilitate our Actions when they Align with Being Responsive to our Survival and that of our Unique Genius.

So “you who philosophize Disgrace and criticize all Fears, take the rag away from your face, cuz now ain’t the Time for your Tears,” as Bobby D put it.  God/Goddess is on our side after all.  It’s been a tough week, but the prognosis is good.

You also got cheated out of a readable chart of the Healing Abuse Full Moon (see penultimate post) with its Decisions-about-Abuse-and-Privilege Paradox School, in the heavy lines…

The light lines show that the impending Saturn-Mars Initiation T-Squares the Full Moon, but Trine-Bridges the Decisions-about-Abuse-and-Privilege central axis of the Yin Gate.  Which is to say that if we Act to Be Responsive to our Survival Instincts, and by extension to our Hidden Genius, it will Heal our Abuse Histories Paradoxically. 

Which is good, because it’s going to be a lot easier to Act-to-Be-Responsive-to-our-Survival-Instincts than it would be to Act-to-Heal-our-Abuse-Histories, for the reasons we explained in the penultimate Healing Abuse Full Moon post.  Penultimate means the post before the previous one.  It usually means next-to-the-last, but in this case, same diff, as the last post is the one before this one.

And finally, youalls deserve a picture of the Mjōlnirs in the Ixion Station chart that we mentioned at the end of the Genius, Forbidden, II (Don’t Panic) post (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/03/28/genius-forbidden-ii-or-dont-panic/)…

The Trioctiles that constitute the Mjōlnirs are the heavy gold lines that connect the ends of each Square (short red lines) with the planet at their Far Midpoint.  If you start from the Squares, they’re fairly easy to see; otherwise they just look like a bunch of lines wandering everywhere.  It’s an unusual Blessing to have Epiphanies (Mjōlnirs) enhancing each Challenge (Square).

Busy Week and Weekend

March 30, 2018

Based on how many folks are checking the Astrobuss home page, it appears that everyone is either doing fine, super busy putting out fires, or enjoying their long weekend looking for lost Eggs.  Just in case anyone’s still looking to put their Experience of the past week into Perspective, let’s review the Timeline.  The greater your Sensitivity, the earlier you’ll start to Experience these astroevents…

  • Around 20 March to 27 March (till 2pm PST 27 March or thereabouts), Forbidden Genius is Strong (Station of dwarf planet Ixion on the Galactic Center at 28 Sagittarius); see the recent Genius Forbidden posts.
  • Around 22 March to 29 March (till 9pm PST 29 March or thereabouts), Our Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong is Lit Up (Station of dwarf planet Pholus at 2 Capricorn); see the recent Capricorn posts, and below.
  • Around 25 March to 1 April (till 3pm PST 1 April or thereabouts), Our Survival Instincts are Strong (Station of dwarf planet Quaoar at 3 Capricorn); see the recent Capricorn posts, and below.
  • About 29 March through 15 April and beyond (peak 4:30 am PST 31 March), Paradox (Yin Gate) Full Moon in 11 Libra; see previous post.

Strong Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong – Station of Dwarf Planet Pholus (a week or so prior to 9pm PST 29 March)…

The first thing we need to know about Responsibility is that it’s very Different from Blame.  Blame looks backward to Assign Fault, while Responsibility looks forward to Improve Outcomes; it means the Ability to Respond Constructively, rather than React Defensively.  The Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong is the Emotion that informs us that there is something which is not yet within our Conscious Span of Awareness, that we need to Respond to.

The Mythic Pholus got burned (got Dead, actually) because he was Unconscious of the full extent of his Responsibility to Protect Sacred Wine from his house guest Heracles, who assumed that Pholus’s cave was an open bar.  Heracles was on a Mission to decimate what was then the Olde Order, the Matriarchy and its Magic Protocols, and, apparently Unconsciously, he triggered the decimation of the Centaur population by helping himself to the Wine.  Pholus, Hylonome, and others were killed, and Chiron wounded in this debacle.

The Bottom Line is that we have Responsibilities (places where we need to Respond in order to improve Future Outcomes) of which we may not yet be fully Conscious.  That Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong tells us to Pay Attention to our Intuition, and PIAVA an effective interpretation for what we’re Feeling.  We can even try “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling Confused, aren’t you.”

For instance, I woke up in Anxiety on 29 March, and my usual sandwich of Theta and Tapping did not Resolve it.  I asked someone else what their Intuition was telling them, which did not validate how I was interpreting my Anxiety.  Finally, in the shower (running Water always facilitates Intuition), I realized that my Body was telling me to take it easy, as I had Worked my Muscles to failure the previous day, and if I Worked as hard that day I would Injure myself.

The Pholus Station chart features a Difficult Problem with an Easy Solution (a Diamond Star – a T-Square and a Finger of God pointing to the same planet).  The Difficult Problem here is how to Be More Responsive to Our Survival Instincts (Pholus and Quaoar Stationary at the same time, both on the Cusp of Capricorn).  The Difficulty is compounded by that Paradox, discussed below, between What-We-Want and What-We-Can-Manifest (Makemake Opposite Chiron).

The Graces coming to our Rescue (the “Bowl of Grace” or Trine-Sextiles under the T-Square in a Diamond Square) are Boundaries (Pallas) and Memories of the Life Force (Mnemosyne-Varuna).  We might have Memories of the Age of Aries, for instance, when the Creation of Physical Miracles by Heroes were routine.

There are also flies in the ointment, however, first in the form of Friction between our historical Oaths which have become Beliefs, and our Willingness to draw Appropriate Boundaries (Orcus Square Pallas).  Codependence may inhibit our Self-Sovereignty, for instance.  And second, Conflict between what we regard as our Soul’s Values (which may not be current to our Soul’s Evolution) and our Memories of the Life Force (Venus-Uranus Square Mnemosyne-Varuna).  “I’ll do Anything for Love, but I won’t do that!”

Strong Survival Instincts – Station of Dwarf Planet Quaoar (a week or so prior to 3pm PST 1 April)…

This is a very complex chart, but one of its major features is a Paradox School (Yin Gate) featuring the interplay between our Unhealed Held Emotions (Chiron) and our Ability to Manifest (Makemake; the central axis of the Yin Gate is the Opposition between these two).  Neither Healing Held Emotions nor Manifesting are straightforward objects that can be Analyzed Rationally.  We can make Progress on both fronts by PIAVAing, but not with Logic. 

Here our Power lies in recognizing that we Live in two very persistent and apparently incompatible Realities – on one hand We-Want-What-We-Want, and on the other hand It-Is-What-It-Is.  One way to deal with this Paradox is to extend your Arms out to your Sides with your Palms up.  Take a few minutes to assemble a good picture of What-You-Want in one Hand.  Then take a few minutes to assemble an honest picture of It-Is-What-It-Is in your other Hand.  Practice feeling both of them at once, and feeling how they’re Separate from each other and perhaps prohibit one another.

Now close your Eyes and very slowly bring your Hands closer together.  The instant you feel Resistance, stop and sit with the Resistance.  Feel how that feels.  No Analysis, no Conclusions, just Feel it.  If you get Insights, fine, but don’t get lost in them.  Just Hear or See them, then Let Them Go.  Then continue slowly bringing your Hands together.

When your Hands feel about halfway together, Recognize that in order for these two Realities to coexist, we must Allow Paradox.  If you’re able to do that, Resistance may Dissolve.  If Resistance doesn’t Melt Away, Reconsider what Paradox means to you.  You may need to study definitions of Paradox.  When your Hands come together, Notice which Hand ends up on top.

The four corners of the Golden Rectangle that holds the Yin Gate Paradox are Soul (Uranus) Dancing with (Opposite) Rebirth of the Goddess (Moon-Haumea), and Truth (Veritas) Arguing with (Opposite) your Committed Beliefs (Orcus).  Are you Willing to Allow your Soul to be Born into your Ego?  What will you have to Give Up to Allow that?  Can you Accept that some of your Committed Beliefs – some of the Oaths that you have Sworn – are Anti-Truth?  Are you Willing to endure the consequences of Recanting those Oaths?  (Hint: PIAVA that you Let Them Go Lovingly and Gently.)

Genius, Forbidden, II (or, Don’t Panic!)

March 28, 2018

A Square Fez is a trapezoid with Squares on the non-parallel sides, like the one pictured in the previous post.  We spoke there about the Square (Mastery through Challenge) between Ixion-Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs around our Forbidden Genius) and Chiron (Despair and Miracle). 

The other Square in the Fez links our Boundaries around Fear (Sedna-Pallas) with Truth (Veritas).  Unfortunately, that fits perfectly with Opening to our Held Emotions – Loosening our Boundaries against Fear in our own Bodies in order to face the Truth about how they got there.

A Fez is addressed by Paying Attention to the diagonal Quincunxes (green lines, five Signs).  A Quincunx is about Permanent Curiosity, not the sort of Curiosity that seeks Answers, but the sort that’s akin to Awe and Wonder.  That’s not easy for many of us, as we’re so used to “Figuring It Out.”  Even astrology, after all, is just an attempt to “Figure It Out,” or at least an attempt to Figure Out which direction to head in, if not where to go.

I often think of our Process as navigating on a grid, but heading toward a destination that’s askew to the grid.  Like walking in a town with streets that run north-south and east-west, but trying to get to the northeast.  One block east, two blocks north, one block east, etc.  Oops, a dead end.  Now what.  So we need to check back with our Intuition almost constantly, every other step.  Which is actually an excellent practice, because we might eventually Learn to do just that “automatically.”

The two Quincunxes/Curiosities in the Ixion Fez are…

  • Chiron to Veritas – “You Poor Sweetheart, you may never know the Truth,” so I guess we’ll have to assume that we know part of the Truth, take a step, then check to see if we’re moving closer to it or not.  Remember when you had to Learn Calculus, or Differential Equations?  No?  Lucky you!
  • Ixion-Vesta to Sedna-Pallas – Can we Uncloak our otherwise Unconscious Beliefs by fiddling with the Habitual Boundaries around Fear in our Bodies?  We should probably be careful to insert “Lovingly and Gently” or the like into our PIAVAs, so we don’t Re-Traumatize ourself.

A looong time ago I had a friend who always looked like they were Surprised.  The way they held their mouth, I guess.  They never appeared Stressed, just Surprised.  Always.  They were a fairly undaunted Adventurer, so they knew something I didn’t.  I never Consciously tried to imitate they way the held their mouth, but it happened anyway.  Sometimes when I Feel Numb it still happens, and I can’t help but think of my friend.  Like now.

Since last night’s PIAVAs around the Edges of my Unconscious Held Emotions, I’ve continued to Feel fairly Numb, interrupted by a Dream-like Vision of having an Angry Bear trapped inside my car.  Which, I guess because it was Semi-Conscious (though unsolicited), wasn’t actually scary, though now I Feel Shaky.  Tapping on it, trying not to Close any Opened Portals.  Actually, Shaky is probably a fine Response to this chart, and by now we’re well into the Pholus Station.

The third Challenge (Square) in the Ixion-Station chart is between Venus-Uranus (Aligning our Values with our Soul Self) and Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne (Remembering the Truth about our Life Force).  Well, the Truth about our Life Force is that we won’t Recover it – we won’t be Whole – till we Recover our Forbidden Genius.  So the Challenge is about Sensing the Holes in the Whole.

Now I’ve just noticed that I forgot to draw any lines to Haumea in the Ixion-Station chart, and Haumea (Rebirth) is intimately connected to everyone else there.  For instance…

  • Along with Aligning-Values-and-Soul (Uranus-Venus), Rebirth (Haumea) completes the T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) to Remembering-our-Life-Force (Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).  Being Reborn into Wholeness sounds a lot easier, actually, than Recovering our Forbidden Genius, though as a T-Square we need to, as Graciously as we can, Accept the Frustration that we can only hope to Encircle our destination, not Reach it.
  • The addition of Haumea Shifts the Great Grace (Grand Trine) between Forbidden-Genius-and-Unconscious-Beliefs (Ixion-Vesta), Aligning-Values-and-Soul (Uranus-Venus), and Truth (Veritas) into an Emphasis on Rebirth (making the Grand Trine into a Kite, not to mention the Finger of God on the Chiron-to-Sedna/Pallas Sextile).  We can read the latter Sextile as Grace and Rebirth will follow from Poor-Sweethearting our Fears.

It’s easy to forget that the “recipe” for Poor-Sweethearting says that the only thing we need to do is to Poor-Sweetheart; then we can just Change the Subject, and let the Miracles unfold.  Once we Shift from Despair to Compassion, the New Perspective will Allow what would otherwise have been Miracles, but if we micromanage the process, our Old Paradigm will Block the Miracles. 

So our best course will probably be to just follow whatever arises, and continue to Poor-Sweetheart any new Pain that comes up.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Shaky, aren’t you.”  Yes, I always felt that way while I was growing up, till I was well into my 30s.  Kept my weight down, it did.  The “Wisdom of Insecurity,” Alan Watts might call it.

Then there are the Epiphanies (Mjōlnirs, or Hammers of Thor, where a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between two planets that are Square)!  A Mjōlnir symbolizes Lightning, or Sudden Illumination.  Each of the four Challenges is the root of an Epiphany (ie, each of the four Squares forms the base of a Mjōlnir)!  A Mjōlnir is composed of two Trioctiles, which are about Rebalancing into Wisdom.  The Mjōlnirs are…

  • The Light from Consciousness of the Edge between Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity (Juno-Neptune) Shines on the Rebirth of our Life Force (Haumea Square Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).
  • The Light from our own Ancient Archetypal Patterns (asteroid Karma, which is Stationary, Exact on 8 April) Illuminates the Dance between Realigning our Values and Remembering our Life Force (Uranus-Venus Square Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).  Our Karma is, after all, a walking talking Hitchhikers Guide to our Universe.
  • The Light from the Realization that The Most Important Thing is Letting Go of our Archetypes (Saturn-Hylonome, with Hylonome slowing down for its 13 April Station) Brightly Illumines the Truth of our Fears (Veritas Square Sedna-Pallas).
  • The Light from our Innate Knowledge of Our Own Mission (North Node) Shines on our Poor-Sweethearting of the consequences of our Childhood Abuse (Chiron Square Ixion-Vesta).

That Feels a lot better.

Genius, Forbidden, I

March 27, 2018

Well, for some reason the new version of iPhoto (nee “Photos” I guess) will only show me thumbnails of my photos, so if anyone actually tries to read these charts, it may be challenging.  I’ll try to remedy this, but it may take a while.  In the interim, here’s the local chart for todays Station of Ixion…

The close coincidence in Time supersedes the small Separation in Zodiacal Space, so we’re really looking at one chart for all three Stations, but this one merits its own sub-chart.  It’s an interesting conglomeration of several not-very-momentous Configurations.  The off-center Diamond (the Grand Trine, Finger of God, and Tricolor all converging on Ixion-Vesta) is the most comprehensive, but the Square Fez (the Trapezoid) is also telling.

The first thing we have to notice is Forbidden Genius’s (Ixion’s) Conjunction with Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta).  Vesta stands for What-We-Assume-Is-Just-The-Way-It-Is, Beliefs that we don’t ever Question.  Yes, certainly, It-Is-What-It-Is, but that doesn’t mean we grok What-It-Is. 

For instance, suppose we never Question the reasonable proposition that Huperity is simply Cruel by nature, or that, as Mutual of Omaha’s Marlin Perkins programmed us to Believe back in black-and-white days, that Nature is simply Cruel by nature.  There’s no room in that Belief for 5D.  If we hold that Belief Unconsciously, which was certainly Mutual of Omaha’s Intention, then we’ll Sabotage ourself every time we move toward Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.

Of course, our Forbidden Genius is already an Outcast, so it’s no Accident that our Abandonment plugs right into our Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  After all, if it’s True, which it obviously was, that our Unique Genius was Forbidden, then of course the World was Cruel, or at least, those who we were told Loved us were. 

So we need to examine every Negative Emotion and Critical Urge.  What are the Unconscious Beliefs that support these?  For instance, I was asked to review a newsletter today, which, on several of its objectives, it failed miserably.  I was honest in my review, and I fully expect to be Judged heavily for that. 

If Broad Perspective is part of my Unique Genius, and I’m accustomed to dealing with People whose Ego feels Attacked when their Limited Perspective is challenged whenever my tongue is less than Golden (or even when it is), I’ll find few Mirrors for Self-Love.  Actually, I Expect People to feel Ego-Attacked whenever I Speak my Truth, so I don’t really know how they React or Respond.

How do I Open the door on those Self-Sabotaging Unconscious Beliefs, so I can bring them Into the Light and Love them to Death?  Well, without even noticing yet that the Ixion Station and its sidekick Vesta Square Minister of Despair Chiron, Poor Sweethearts come to mind.  The Little Voice over my Shoulder Lectures me Angrily for taking so long to make the Connection.  I guess I start by Making Amends to my Deeper Self.

Chiron of course symbolizes just this – the places where our Unconscious Beliefs leave us in Despair because there are no good outcomes.  If we can manage to Shift our Perspective from this Box Canyon to a nearby Ridge or Hilltop, our Options are likely to improve, possibly Miraculously so.  By Poor-Sweethearting ourself, we shift from Hopelessness to Self-Compassion, a path which usually leads upward toward Vision.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you really Expect to be Rejected for Being Your True Self, don’t you.”  At that my Inner Lecturer goes silent and hangs her head.  “We both” do. 

“You Poor Sweetheart, we’ve Learned a lot of Self-Hate, haven’t we.”  I Tap Out “Even though I’ve been programmed to hate myself, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself,” but I still Feel Numb, other than the Urge to Eat.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Numb, don’t you.”  There’s a subtle stirring in my Belly, and after a few Kegels to amplify it, a Spontaneous Vision of my skin like an Elephant’s hide.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re on the Edge of the Held Emotion that you Repress with Food, aren’t you.”  As the Urge to Eat gets stronger.  “Ganeshi My Love, please Remove All Obstacles to my Lovingly and Gently Opening to this Emotion.”  Now I See/Feel an Opening, along with some Fear.  “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command Loving and Gentle Liberation from this Limitation…”

The Stone is a Manganotantalite Crystal, Manganese Tantalum Oxide (MnTaO), which facilitates Speaking so Others Can Receive Your Message with Neutrality.  It turns out that MnTaO makes powerful Capacitors, which are like Batteries but more Powerful.  Without MnTaO Capacitors, cellphones would not be possible.  The Connection between the MnTaO Energy in your phone and modern Communication is intriguing.

Mercury and Ixion

March 22, 2018

There are more ominous warnings trotting about on the web (such as https://awakening5dhealing.com/2018/03/22/the-arcturian-council-message-for-awakened-souls/), but if we take it seriously, this summarizes it just as well…

“You are embarking upon a journey now that will take you through some experiences that you have set up for yourselves in order to elicit certain emotions.  When you are in the midst of clearing and processing these emotions, please keep in mind that it is a necessary part of the process, and it is better for you to do it now rather than later. ”  –Dan & The Arcturians, http://danielscranton.com/process-your-emotions-before-the-shift-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/.

We’ve already published our version of it, in the prior post.  And, many of us have already been in the thick of it for a while now.

We try to pay the most Attention here to things that happen least frequently, so the three- or four-times-a-year Mercury Stations aren’t one of those.  Nevertheless this one is probably worth a note or two.  Mercury turns backward 22 March (5:30 pm PDT) at 17 Aries till the Ides of April (2:30 am PDT) at 5 Aries.  Aries 5-17 is the Gemini-through-Libra portion (“Duads” in astrologuese; a Duad is 2½ Degrees or one twelfth of a Sign) of Aries.

Without noticing, some time around 6 March we started a new Project.  Around 9 March we noticed, got serious about it, and it’s been prominent in our thinking ever since.  During this time we’ve trashed “version 1.0” of our Project (Gemini Duad), started over (Cancer), perfected “version 2.0” (Leo), then torn that apart, trashing our Identity in the process (Virgo).  Now we’ve started over again, this time involving Other People (Libra).  Till today.

For instance, I got the Flu in early March, and little did I realize while I was being Victim to it, that a week in bed did absolute Wonders for the chronic low-back ache and occasional hip pain that has plagued me for years.  I could walk more freely than I have in years.  Then for the last two days I had to do more physical work than I have for a while, reclaiming the back pain.  This morning when I woke up I dosed it with Traumeel (topical Arnica and other herbs) and Focused Attention, and the pain receded almost to nil.

So that’s one of my Projects, restoring some of the Freedom that my Physical Body offered in my youth.  Then of course there’s “clearing and processing these emotions” that the Flu and its Regression brought up.  (As we wrote in the previous post, those are about a lot more than just a Mercury Retrograde.)  So now, as I discovered yesterday and today, we’ve entered a new phase of these Projects, a phase that is likely to be characterized by backtracking.

So the only Progress we can expect in our Project over the next 3½ weeks, is making a Fearless and Searching Inventory of it, what it is we think we’re doing, why we’re doing it, and how we want to go about it.  For the rest of March (Libra and Virgo Duads) we’ll probably wish we hadn’t told Others about it, and wrestle with their misunderstanding of our Intentions (which we barely understand anyway).  This is Aries – it’s Hopeless to try to Explain yourself, because you have no idea what you’re doing.  You’ll just be making up stories to Justify yourself.

In the first week of April we restore enough privacy to get centered and restart forward progress (Leo and Cancer).  Which Progress we won’t actually make, but we’ll have the illusion of it a couple of times.  In the second week of April we take it all apart again (Gemini), till finally in the third week we’re ready to Start Over again, and this time we know what we’re doing (Taurus).  By now we’ve probably figured out that this Project is part of the Graduation from 3D to 5D, and noticed the correlation with the end-of-March Triple Stations of Ixion, Pholus, and Quaoar.

Which brings us to what we really want to write about today.

When the usual Huper Development Progression is interrupted, our Emotional Development in that arena stops.  Let’s say we got sick a lot in the eighth grade, and missed out on many of those horrible teenage disasters that would have taught us some degree of Social Skills.  We can never catch up.  Those parts of our persona are stuck at age 14, perish the thought. 

What if that was when your Programmers and other Abusers came down hard on your Unique Genius?  Then whenever Ixion is Lit Up you’re going to be obsessively reviewing all of the things that permanently stunted your Life at ages 14 and 15, ruing your charismatic peers, craving Understanding from anyone who might figure out what you’re going through (but which you can’t describe because you’re Lost in it), and longing to Act Out what you would otherwise have been Doing and Learning at age 14.  That’s just an example; for most of us our Ixion was Repressed long before we got to 14 years, sometimes before we got to 14 months.

Like these people who are compulsively Freaking Out and insisting on their First-Amendment Right to be an Asshole.  (Actually, it’s the Second-Amendment freaks that are scarier.)  But that’s the core of the dilemma.  Without Practice we’ll never be able to bring our Repressed Skills up to an age-appropriate level.  When you encounter an Asshole on the street or an Antichrist in a white house, you’re unlikely to Poor-Sweetheart them and offer to help them bring their Skills up to their chronological age level.  They’d probably be deeply Offended if you did, unless you were deceptively subtle about it.

So this is exactly what we need – someone to Poor-Sweetheart our Retardation and offer to help Remediate our Childishness.  In Bessel van der Kolk’s book Your Body Keeps the Score, he points out that his PTSD clients have Healed most rapidly when they’ve taken up theater.  Which is exactly how we can resolve the Bringing-Our-Skills-Up-to-Date issue.  We certainly don’t need to join a local theater group and splash our Ego all over town, though if that’s what will Heal us, then that’s what will Heal us.

You can get together with two or three trusted friends and either find Plays with roles that touch your Tender spots, or make one up.  With luck and some internet searching you might even be able to find one Play with roles that fit what each of you needs to Recover.  Something like Waiting for Godot for instance, or In Watermelon Sugar.  By the end of March you might be very glad you did. 

Once you start in earnest to catch up to the Present Moment, you’ll stop Regressing, Notice that you’ve actually Learned a lot since age 14 or whenever, and find your Skills approaching the Current Moment surprisingly quickly.

Earth Changes

September 6, 2017

Well, thanks to Eliza Ayres’s https://bluedragonjournal.com/ , Clarity evolves around that “Jewelry shop filled with valuable Gems” (the Vacancy in today’s Nemesis and Ixion charts) – the 23-Taurus “missing” Earth element, Perseus’s sword Capulus.  Of course the Earth element couldn’t possibly be “missing,” or we’d have nowhere to Stand.  We’re just being Asked to Become More Conscious of Her, if not Responsible To Her.

With a strong Total Solar Eclipse (which is a “Parallel Conjunction” of the sort we spoke of last time; a non-Eclipse New Moon by comparison is a simple Conjunction), where are the Earthquakes and Landslides?  New and Full Moons, especially Eclipses, are points of great Tension in Planetary-scale Gravity, so Earthquakes aren’t unusual.  The biggest Earthquake (with its own Landslide) in the last month was generated by BadHaircut’s Nucular toy – which itself  is intriguing.

Those of us with European Ancestors are at least passingly familiar with the Druidic Tradition for Dancing with Mother Nature.  Even more Ancient is the Bon Tradition from Tibet.  Quaoar taught Natives of the “Serengheti of the West” – California’s Central Valley – how to Survive.  Griz may have been one of the biggest Challenges, as She was at the top of the Food Chain there. 

The Bon Tradition enabled People Living at 15,000 feet – 4500 meters – and above to Survive in Tibet, which would seem to be a greater Challenge.  When Buddhism came to Tibet it didn’t replace Bon, it merged with it, producing Practices like sitting on a corpse while it rots, to fully understand Temporality, Change, TranceFormation, Identity, und so weiter.  Perhaps an explanatory hint about Marilyn Raffaele’s suggestion that Living with one foot in 3D and another in 5D will be Challenging. 

A Touch of Bon…

https://lisarisingberry.wordpress.com/2017/09/06/fire-in-the-west-and-water-in-the-east-azoth-purification-in-the-usa/

Here’s another Perspective, from Jelelle Awen…

 https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/09/06/intense-weather-patterns-offer-death-and-rebirth-growth-with-gaia/

Feeling Gaia as a planetary consciousness allows the current events to move beyond 3D perception of ‘weather patterns’ and ‘natural events’ that are beyond any control into feeling the Divine invitation that they are for us and WITH us.  Gaia is in collaboration with us as a human species to move out of our comfort zones of 3D living and into the now of transition, change, and resurrection.  Gaia brings us to the edges of death and rebirth, in-our-face reminders of our own mortality and need to be in the now, and it is our choice from there how to respond to this edge……to jump off, to surrender, to leave the Gaia timeline.

“The 3D self is programmed and conditioned to BE a victim to what is outside of it and to remain disconnected through this victim perspective.  Something is ‘being done to it’ rather than it/your soul being WITH life on all levels, as would be the higher sense of it as you move more into unity consciousness. 

“You can feel deep compassion for the 3D selves that experience pain and being devastated by ‘weather events’ such as this and I do feel that Gaia (as a planetary expression of Divine feminine love) doesn’t want us to unnecessarily suffer over our suffering either.  However, it can bring in more trust to feel how ALL of this is being held with MUCH love for us.  It is about moving us through the necessary growth crucibles at a rate and pace to minimize the suffering of our 3D self and Metasoul aspects too.

“Gaia has long collaborated with us in this 3D experiment for which so much of Her has been negatively impacted by it as She is a consciousness that is learning and growing too.  She is choosing something higher for herself and inviting us to wake up WITH her.  To be in collaboration or to not be…..to be in love WITH Her or to not be.  To choose love or fear WITH Her as we choose it within ourselves…from one part of us to another.”

And Eliza’s own Perspective…

 https://bluedragonjournal.com/2017/09/06/journal-entry-09-06-2017-hurricane-irma-looms/?wref=tp

Big Doin’s This Week II

September 4, 2017

Here’s a great Perspective for greeting a Mercury Station.  I double-dare you to take it to Heart and use it at least twice a day.  I’m taking that dare myself – wish me luck!  I’ll have to put it on the bathroom mirror; otherwise I’d have to cling to the thought, wouldn’t I…

http://danielscranton.com/thoughts-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have noticed that you all like to sit with a particular thought and ruminate on it until it has worn out its welcome.  We see you intersecting with certain thought forms and then dissecting them as if they were somehow now your problem to deal with or fix.  You don’t have to worry about fixing anything, and you certainly don’t have to worry about any thought that comes into your awareness as though it were somehow a part of you.

“Your thoughts are not your own.  You borrow them, and it usually serves you better to give them back before you all do.  You mustn’t be afraid of the thoughts you think.  It does not serve you to give them any power over you whatsoever.

“Many individuals have been led to believe that their thoughts originate from inside of them, but we know that thoughts are floating around, and you are colliding with them.  And then you have to determine for yourself whether you want to continue to exist in that thought’s presence or whether you would like to move on.

“Thoughts, like emotions, can move right through you if you allow them to.  But once you let them define you, then you feel that it is your responsibility to do something about them.  You are energy that vibrates, and when you vibrate in harmony with other energies, you become aware of them.

“If you don’t like the energies that you are becoming aware of, that you are intersecting with, then it is to your benefit to change your vibration.  Go to the core of what is bringing you that thought, but let the thought be.  Let the thought exist for those who want to harmonize with it.

“When you understand the importance of vibration, you will also understand that thoughts are just symbols.  They have absolutely no power over you, unless you give them that power, unless you let them define you.  We know you as you really are – pure, unconditional love.”

Actually, this is a great exercise in working with our Forbidden Genius and the upcoming Ixion Station as well – Letting Go of all of our Restraints to the Power we’ve been hiding and afraid to Unleash.  Wouldn’t hurt to watch the movie again.  If you feel Guilty, use your Mirror on the person or people who made you Feel that way about your Most Powerful Skills.  No reason why the Antichrist should be the only one to Unleash its Ixion!

Cause an Defect Full Moon IV

August 9, 2017

Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…

As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively.  Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality. 

(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious.  Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)

You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after.  That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly.  Abundance is having enough to Share, After all. 

This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force)Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while.  As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd?  And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?

Expressing our Anger (Mars) can Create Community, and it can drive folks away.  While Communing with Everyone is a fabulous Aquarian goal (http://danielscranton.com/your-universal-family-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/), we may not actually be ready for such Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.  And that’s all right.  We Are Who We Are, moment to moment (http://danielscranton.com/creating-experiences-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/).

We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness.  While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.

This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality.  Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community.  Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form.  Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form.  Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence.  To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain. 

The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege.  Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions.  Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal.  To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes.  Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions.  As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.

While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional.  Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs).  Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality.  Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.

The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love.  That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time.  And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger.  The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.

Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy.  Dan and the Arcfolk concur – http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ .  The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.”  Hmmm.  I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis.  But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.  

There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda.  Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power.  Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm.  In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood.  If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.

Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us.  Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it.  It’s a foundation for our Ego.  So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping.  We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger.  While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.

To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it.  Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort.  “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.”  It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation.  If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t.  “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.”  Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.”  Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.

The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4).  If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations.  Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress.  Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.

We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul. 

We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession.  Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?

If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death.  That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort.  Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong.  But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.

So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart?  What would we look for?

Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus.  These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair.  Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?

Well, yes. seven of them.  We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets.  So seven is a whole bunch.

We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…

Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things.  We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us.  This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.

It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion.  It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that.  We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.

Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth.  Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio.  Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with.  Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.

Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures.  Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.

These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them.  Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.

That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.

So, which planets are we talking about?  Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.

Whoa, this is Big.  The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack).  Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot.  All very strongly Lit Up this week.  So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts.  Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?

Oops, have to interrupt again.  A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy.  What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?

Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture.  For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet.  What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged!  The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.

So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference.  Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all!  So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.

And that’s just two planets.  With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times.  To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40.  However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?

Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true.  You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium.  You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.

And now you’re going to run into another problem.  Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio.  When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon.  I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates.  That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.

So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while.  Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating.  There should be a reasonable number of those folks around.  You won’t be their Onliest…

Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you

as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.

Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho).  So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children.  That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.

So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings.  We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.

Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio?  So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!

Did someone say Obsession?  Damn Right!  Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!!  It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime!  So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is!  Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.

Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue.  Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle).  That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly.  To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.”  Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.

So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above).  “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero.  If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different.  This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?

Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it.  Are we done?  Not a chance.  Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron.  Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…

A T-Square is like a graduate seminar.  We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent.  But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.”  In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions.  No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.

It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily.  You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.

So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.

That’s what T-Squares are all about.  Now, what about this Mercury T-Square?  Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you.  Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk.  So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.

If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it.  You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk.  You could write best-sellers about it.  You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first.  I guarantee you, it is True.

Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed.  With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are.  You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.

Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…

Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled).  Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules.  To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.

But you’ll always be condemned for it.  So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others.  And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you.  Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).

In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand.  That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project.  It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you.  Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.

But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone.  So you’ll have to Learn to Notice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness

Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.

What’s that?  Oh, we aren’t quite done?  Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio?  Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong).  All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.

We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample.  The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway.  This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.

Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.

And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both.  We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.

Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too.  It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it.  Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself

Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.

That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.