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Eris-Uranus New Moon

June 3, 2016

Bottom Line

The 4 June New Moon is a major trigger for the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation, which is about Getting Honest with Ourselves around our formerly-Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  We’ve also referred to them as Masks and Archetypes, and Despair.  This is really about Rebirth.  Unfortunately it may not be the most Effortless Birth, as our favorite Pattern is to cling to our Olde Ego while the New Ego is trying to get born.  That’s very painful.

We have to Let Go and Let God/Goddess.  Trust the process.  Whenever the going gets tough, recognize that you’re in Resistance to the Change.  It may not at all be obvious what else you can do besides Resist – Resistance is your Olde Ego trying to Survive, and that’s exactly what Egos do for a living, they’re good at it, and that’s why you hire them, because when they Survive, you Survive.  Except during the occasional Rebirths; we have to endure an Ego Death to allow a Rebirth.  

Your New Ego isn’t formed yet, and while we may have an inkling where to find its chrysalis, we won’t know what it Feels like.  So we’re stuck with PIAVAs (“God/Goddess, please give me a clue what to do besides Resist” or “I Wonder what it will Feel like when I finish wriggling out of this old carapace that’s so tight I can’t Breathe”) and Tapping (“Even though I feel worthless and hopeless, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself”) and Empathizing (“You poor Sweetheart, you really feel like you’re being tortured, don’t you”) and the like.

Once you succeed in Letting Go, you’ll be surprised at how quickly it gets Easy.

 

Details

1.  There’s a big Challenge to Embrace our Despair.  Remember that “Unconscious Despair” is failure to Believe that what you Need is even Possible.  Set aside your YesButs for a moment and Imagine that you could have what you Need or Want.  Now go back to your YesButs and convert each one to a YesAnd.  “YesBut you just aren’t Sexy enough to get that” might become “YesAnd I just Need one Lover.”  “YesBut you’ll never be able to earn enough Money for that” may be “YesAnd What If someone gave it to me as a Gift!”

You want to Touch that Feeling that you would have if your Dream came true, and hold it as long as you can, till it becomes a when rather than an if,  If you can hold that Feeling enough, it won’t matter whether your Dream actually Manifests, because you’ll already have what your Dream would have given you – Peace, Joy, Excitement, Self-Respect, Power, Grace.  What’s a Lover or a Red Convertible compared to that!  And if you had those Feelings most of the time, you could probably score Lovers and Convertibles pretty easy, if you still wanted to.

This is the difference between your Deepest Desires and your Mission in the Lifetime.  What you Desire isn’t actually the Object of your Dreams, it only seems that way because you live in a Material World.  What you actually Crave, what you came her to achieve, is How the Object of your Dreams Makes you Feel.  From that Feeling you can have anything you Ask for.  And guess what!  You’ll be Asking for different things, and they won’t have any YesButs.  It’s a Hologram, y’know, and you’re the projector.

2.  While this is a big Challenge, it doesn’t come without tools that can actually make it pretty Easy.  However, to manifest the Ease, we have to realize that Rebirth is the Ego’s Least Favorite party game, and Love our Olde Ego into oblivion.  Try Gratitude that It’s gotten you this far.  Try just really really appreciating how incredibly Comfortable your Olde Ego Feels, and PIAVA that your New Ego is going to Feel even more Comfortable once you’ve moved through the Grief of Giving Up your Olde Friend who’s kept you Safe.

3.  What will make your Rebirth Easier?  Getting Honest about what you’ve been trying to hide from yourself.  You may not know the details, but you know the general theme.  Abuse?  You don’t need to remember who or when, you just need to Trust your Feelings about it.  Fear?  Anger?  Embrace them.  Locate them in your Body, and move all of your Attention into the center of that place, and hold it there.  Bring it back when it wanders.  Stay with it till it dissolves or moves.  If it moves, follow it.

Eventually you’ll need to Surrender all Blame.  Blame looks toward the Past to assign Cause, while Responsibility looks toward the Future to improve Outcomes.  Any time you catch yourself attributing some Emotion or Sensation in your Body to any outside Cause, stop and bring your Attention back into your Body.  I’m always gnawing at myself because my neighbors have no idea what I’m trying to do in my Garden, and condemn it as a Jungle.

I need to catch myself thinking that, and bring my Attention back into my own Body.  Those Emotions and Sensations have their Roots in my Personal and Karmic Histories.  Those are my Emotions, the neighbors only trigger them.  I need to take up the Practice of locating them in my Body, and Loving them right where they are, exactly as they are.  If I Reject any Emotion, I dampen them all, and without any of them I’m not a Whole Person, I’m dis-eased.

Use this general model with everything that you suspect may be lurking in your Underwhere – Inadequacy, Self-Hate, Belief in Fate, Addiction, Guilt, Shame, any Limiting Belief, and anything else that comes up.  When the Emotion begins to Overwhelm, Tap it Out.

4.  The whole chart actually falls into a pool of Enormous Grace, but there’s a leak in the pool.  To plug it, we need to recognize the Challenges we’ve Lived through, Honor ourself for Living through them, and be Willing to talk about them so others can Learn from our travails.

 

The Astrology

  1.  Aside from the Eris-Uranus Initiation itself of course, the primary focus of the chart is a Chiron T-Square (Challenge to Convert Despair to Miracles) across and Opposition between an Ixion-Pholus Conjunction (Taking Full Responsibility to Let our Orphaned Genius out of the closet) and a Karma-Chaos Conjunction (But without my old Patterns it all looks Chaotic! or Karma is Dead; Long Live Karma!).
  2. This T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) is actually a Diamond Star (Making what would be difficult, Easy), with Sappho (Self-Love) and a Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction (either Feeling like you had this coming, or Recognizing that Rebirth feels like Death because they’re just different sides of the same Coin) on the feet of the Chiron Yod.
  3. The Eris-Uranus Initiation (Revelation of Denial) is at the focus of a Quintile Yod (huge Learning Opportunity).  However, the Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction Opposes the Eris-Uranus Initiation, converting the QYod into a Quintile Kite and shifting some of the emphasis onto Haumea-Nemesis.  A Yod pointing to a Sedna-Atropos Conjunction (The Demise of Fear, foreshadowed of course by the Fear of Demise) from the base of the Sextile from Haumea-Nemesis to Ixion-Pholus.
  4. Eris-Uranus, Karma-Chaos, Sappho, Haumea-Nemesis, and Ixion-Pholus form five points of a Grand Sextile (Enormous Grace, though we need to take the first step).  The Vacancy is 24 Aquarius, “A person, having overcome their compulsions, shares the deep wisdom that results from their experience: The constructive use to which difficult past experiences can be put as examples for those who are still striving to overcome their compulsions,” aka Archetypes/Masks/Karma.

Consciousness and Grief

January 29, 2016

Another reader asks…

“A client has transiting Sedna Stationary right on their natal asteroid Atropos.  So if Sedna is about actions taken out of fear or anger, could its transit over and station on natal Atropos help the native to ‘sever’ this tendency in some positive way?  Otherwise, the other way around, I suppose Sedna could reflect the native’s urge to sever some situation, affair or process out of fear or anger…”

Atropos is the Goddess who wields the scissors to snip our Lifelines when our Time is up.  Sedna turns Direct on 6 February, so it’s Stationary – ie, Strong – till then.  That would not be a good day to test-drive a Lamborghini or retrieve a dropped ballpoint pen from the Lion cage.  It would also be good for them to be hypervigilant on 1 February, when the Moon Opposes Sedna.

What the Ego conveniently forgets is that 99.9% of the time – and probably more – we operate on autopilot (Karma, Trance, Archetype) without realizing it.  I mean, who wants to feel Helpless.  Consciousness is a thin varnish lain over Unconscious Reality, barely more than an Illusion.  The most glaring difference between Consciousness and the Unconscious, is that the Unconscious lacks Direction – good versus bad, left versus right, up versus down.  It has Dimensions, but not Duality.  Since Reality and the Unconscious are almost identical, what we’re reading when we read astrology, is the Unconscious.

So yes, we have a merging of a Dimension of Endings with a Dimension of Fear.  So, making a guess, your client might terminate a Relationship or a job or a Habit on 6 February, or thereabouts, out of Fear that it will be harmful.  They could give up smoking, or speedboat racing, or allopathic medicine, or an other risky Habit.  Or, more likely considering who Sedna was, something that they’ll later regret Rejecting.  On the other hand, once the dust settles, it will eventually look like a Blessing.

They might undergo a Big Ego Death; living in a Culture that can’t Discern Physical Death from Ego Death, that of course could create Big Fear.  If it was my client I’d give them a list of dates when their natal Atropos was Lit Up Big – for instance, the approximate date every year when the Sun crosses it, and the years when Jupiter and Saturn have crossed it – so they might become Aware of their historical Unconscious Reaction to their own Apropos.  Also, every four years Atropros will have crossed their natal Sedna; those would be useful dates to know as well.

As long as we’re in the Unconscious, we don’t know if Fear will increase or decrease here, and we don’t know if Endings will begin or cease.  We don’t know the Direction; only the Dimension.  If we can help our client get into Consciousness – which after all is the astrologer’s primary goal, right? – then they can develop some Healthy Control over their choice of Direction.

And yes, the Symbol for the Degree of the Sedna Station (25 Taurus), “A vast public park,” isn’t obviously related.  As with Dreams, we always want to consider the possibility of “prediction,” without adding extra Fear to the situation.  The park may include a big parking lot for Lamborghini test-driving, or a Zoo with a Lion cage.  

More seriously, though, an implication might be spaciousness.  To me spaciousness implies Meditation, and the flavors of Sedna and Atropos are both akin to the flavor of the 12th House.  The traditional meaning of the 12th House is hospitals and prisons, but if we choose a Direction different from the traditional, we can use Introversion and Meditation to reduce Stress and promote Self-Assessment, which can reduce the causes of hospitalization and imprisonment.  Introversion and Meditation can also reduce the odds of stepping into a Lion’s cage to avoid a Paper Tiger that’s chasing us.

Another view…

https://lightlover1964.wordpress.com/2016/01/28/energy-grid-report-part-1-january-282016/

And another reader’s note about our Fairy-Star Adventures…

“Yes… This is the School we’re in, and to really learn and participate (love) we have to Be Here Now.  But yesterday, in a moment of realizing that ‘Success’ as defined by my culture and upbringing, and my Yingtegrity (acting as my True Self) are fundamentally opposed, caused a kind of mind-heart freeze.  How to go forward without those cultural markers that I’ve ‘done it right’ and am acknowledged as skilled/creative by my tribe?  To realize that I have, in a sense, chosen to walk away from the village and into the forest alone, is a strange emptiness that I am working with all my selves to not be discouraged or terrified by.  I think Jung said something about the path of individuation being a lonely one, but to experience it in myself is truly an Edge.”

Yes, the Hero’s or Heroine’s Journey isn’t Thornless.  We’ve actually all been dancing on this Edge all our Lives, between our True Self and our necessary Community.  As children we were at times punished for being our True Self, and we’re left with the Belief that we have to Choose.  But we don’t.  As we’ve danced ever since, we let our True Self sneak out at times, and indulge our Community’s Demands at other times.  It’s not actually about Choice; it’s about Both/And.

Especially as the Internet has spread, we’ve all begun to migrate our Community.  Most of us are far closer to the people who Allow our True Self to bloom, and less close to those who don’t, than we were in our younger days.  There will be times when the cliff is steeper, when we need to cut chords that have Supported our False Self and haven’t yet replaced their Support.  And we will move toward Sustenance – the other side of the Coin from Sustainability – because Money is a tool often used to Exploit our False Self.  

Every Loss must be Grieved, so yes, there are times when the emptiness and loneliness seems to dominate.  As with other Emotions, we need to Discern, Witness, and Embrace.  Grief has its own timetable, but it will be much shortened if we give ourselves a healthy dose of “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling your Abandonment, aren’t you.”