Under the Blanket 3

I know, the Pluto Station is milk under the bridge, but we aim to Interpret our Current and Past Experience more than to Predict our Future Experience.  The more we grok the Present and the Past, the more equipped we’ll be to deal with whatever the Future deals.  Because Reality has many magnitudes more Dimensions than astrology does, and everyone’s Experience is Different, Prediction is always hit or miss anyway.  You could say the same for Interpretation, but if it misses the mark and we’re Open to it, we could gain a New Perspective, and the more Perspectives we can simultaneously hold, especially if they seem to Contradict on another, the greater the odds of our Navigating Life to Advantage.

Also, while many astroevents end fairly abruptly once they’re Exact (the Pluto Station was Exact at noon 25 April), if we mistake the astro Energy for Real-World events and make Decisions to shut them out, we can perpetuate the Energy.  For instance, if we had been in the process of making a big career jump when the corrodavirus hit, and the tension of the 25 April astroevent Triggered enough Fear of Failure that we Decided to go back to being a Barista instead, then we’ll extend the Energy of the astroevent into our Future.

An additional element of the Pluto Station chart (in previous post) is a strong message that we should Pay Attention! to Ending any Karmic Patterns that we have that Allow us to Indulge Fear (Finger of the Goddess [Pay Attention to this!] pointing to the Stellium of dwarf planet Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] and the asteroids Karma [Self-Sabotage] and Atropos [Ending TimeLines or Habits]).  We Indulge Fear when we Forget that by Grounding it through Breathing, Kegels, and Tapping, we Convert it to Power.

It’s also Important to Separate Present Moment Fear (your Housemate tests Positive for the Pomegranatevirus) from Regression to Childhood (your Mom got really sick for a long time) or to Past Lives (watching the ships from China land in Venice in 1348).  Once you’re Grounded, your subsequent Actions will be very different.  With Fear that’s legitimately Present Moment, you need to Act to Protect yourself.  With Regression to Past Fear, you need to Poor-Sweetheart yourself (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/12/28/survival-or-bust-ix-lightening-karma/).  Wouldn’t hurt to also Poor-Sweetheart both yourself and your housemate either.

We Know that Karma is Dead, but we don’t always remember to Know it, so when an ancient Pattern begins to repeat we can forget to Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade it.  The sooner we do that, the Easier it is to do.  If we don’t have full Confidence in that (in our Belly, not in our mind), we need to go through those Tapping, Poor-Sweethearting and other Grounding steps.

Fate Happens to us when we aren’t Conscious of our Karma.  We just think we’re Victim of random events, and we haven’t noticed yet that they repeat, or we haven’t Claimed our Power over our own Life yet.  In the World of Fate, a TimeLine (the span of a Habit or recurring Drama) ends naturally when the Goddesses of Fate have finished with us (Goddess Atropos is in charge of Endings, as is her asteroid).  Once we become Conscious of our Karma, we no longer need to Wait for it to End – we can End it ourself with a PIAVA (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/), though we may need to repeat some version of it several times before we actually Believe it.

This triple Conjunction of Atropos, Karma, and Sedna Initiates three new Cycles…

• The four-year Karma-Sedna Cycle is about the Relationship in our Life between Fear and Karma.  Seems like a Biggie, eh?  This Cycle begins at 11:40 am PDT 30 April in 28 Taurus, “A woman, past her ‘Change of Life,’ encounters a New Love.”  Sounds like we should be Examining all of our Expectations, and revising any that are Pessimistic.

• The four-year Atropos-Sedna Cycle is about Choosing to End any Limitations in our Life that have their Roots in Fear.  This one starts at 5:30 pm PDT 30 April in the same 28 Taurus.  Sounds like we should also be Examining all of our Judgments, which are almost always Rooted in Fear.  These two Cycles could result in considerable Liberation from Limitation for us.

• The Atropos-Karma Cycle begins at 1:10 am 29 April in 27 Taurus, “An old Indian woman selling the artifacts of her Tribe to passers-by.”  Whoa.  We know that Tribal artifacts are held in high esteem by most Indigenous Peoples.  Rudhyar’s interpretation sounds Colonial.  We want to carry forward the Ancestors and their Rituals, and enough Sacred Objects to support that, even as the Changes may prevent us from hauling very much “Stuff” about. 

Since their orbit lengths differ by only four months or so, this Cycle, about Making the Ongoing Choice to Respond to the Present Moment rather than Reacting from our Ancient Habits, lasts for 36 years, so it’s worthy of our Attention.  How can we carry our Traditions and Ambitions of Compassion, Empathy, and Sensitivity to All of Our Planet’s Individual and Collective Denizens into a Digital Age of Bots and Borgs and Billionaires?  That’s not a trivial question, one that will likely require much PIAVAing.

Here’s a Real-Life example…

https://www.electricsense.com/critical-thinking-coronavirus/

“I’d also like to encourage others to consider the advantages of all-fiber-optic connections.  Wireless infrastructure already is fiber-optics-based.  It’s true that installing fiber optics the ‘last nine feet’ to business and residential doorsteps would involve increased marginal costs over wireless installations, but the cost savings would far outweigh these, because:

• “Climate change burdens due to wireless devices themselves have been estimated to account for 4% of the impact, a figure that is projected to double to 8% within five years. [8]
  

• “As regards human health: Costs to treat those who are disabled or made ill by negative physical effects from pulsed digital microwave radiation would be reduced.  Quality of life for such individuals and their caretakers would increase.  Health care burdens would decrease, with the added benefit that quality of life would improve for the medical community as well.

• “As regards the health of the earth, its atmosphere, its soil, and all its inhabitants: The physiological stresses already resulting from wireless radiation would not increase.  Fire dangers from wireless’ effects on plant terpenes, for instance, would lessen.[9]  “In the long run, the consequences of oxidative stress for all living organisms would be reduced.

“Objection to this proposal [will undoubtedly] be made by the wireless industry and those who equate national security with the ability to connect to each individual via wireless transmissions.  Hopefully, both groups could appreciate that their work too would thrive within all-fiber-optic communication infrastructures.”

Manifestation New Moon

The 23 February 2020 (7:30 am PST) New Moon chart, which is prominent for the next several weeks, is pretty much a repeat of the chart of the 19 February Five Moons Enhanced Creativity astroevent (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/02/16/five-moons-enhanced-creativity/).

One emphasis will be on Manifestation (a Diamond Star or Self-Resolving Challenge to dwarf planet Makemake), although we’ll be Asked to Take a Great Deal of Responsibility for our own Negativity whenever the Manifestation isn’t Effortless (the Makemake Diamond Star Opposes Chiron-Lilith [Overcoming Victimhood] and Squares the Nodes [it’s a Life Lesson for us], with Mars, Veritas, Pholus, and Quaoar on the South Node [We Have to Face Facts about whether we’re Being Fully, Proactively Responsive to our Survival Instincts]).

Remember that Responsibility isn’t Blame.  Blame is about looking at the Past to Assign Fault, while Responsibility is about looking to the Future to Improve Outcomes.

If we’re Listening, our Inner Voices will be telling us (dwarf planet OR10 [Intrusive Memories] closely Conjunct [Merged With] the New Moon, at the focus of a Finger of God [Pay Attention!]) which Held Emotions – the ones we’d rather Die than Feel – are Inhibiting our Creativity (the South-Node Stellium [Karma] is part of two Tricolor Configurations [Healing Opportunities]), especially our Creativity at Enhancing our Vitality (the Challenge [Square] side of the Tricolor is Uranus [Soul] Square to Varuna [Life Force]).

Held Emotion is a synonym for Karma – our Ego has a severe Allergic Reaction to certain Feelings or Scenarios, often those that were associated with Past Deaths or other serious Traumas.  By and large we’ve Suppressed the original Traumas, so we’re just left with a serious Aversion to anything that reminds us of the Triggering Event.  That is, Negative Karma is “just” unhealed PTSD.

We need to Reframe our Reaction from “I would rather Die than Feel (or Do) That!” to “I would rather Die than Feel (or Do) That!” – in other words, it’s not really about the Emotion or Scenario, it’s about Identity:  Letting Go of the crippling Karma requires an Ego Death.  We need to Recognize that “I’d rather Die than Feel that!” is never Present-Moment, so it’s not only Safe to metaphorically Let Ourself Go Ahead and Die, but it’s our only Path to Liberation from our Karmic Chains.

Tapping can be very useful in this endeavor – “Even though I’d Rather Die than Feel/Do [this or that], I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself.”

It will be better if we forgo trying to Analyze exactly what it is we’re Resisting, just to Acknowledge our Resistance (we Trigger the Trine [Grace] side of a Tricolor, and heal the Square [Challenge] side of it, by making sure we Avoid Analyzing the Quincunx [Curiosity] side of it).

Here’s the New Moon chart…

In the Major Tricolor [Square-Quincunx-Trine] here, the Square [Challenge] is Uranus-to-Varuna [Soul Granting or Withholding Vitality], the Trine [Grace] is Uranus-to-South-Node-Stellium [Honesty about what’s Stressing Us], and the Quincunx [Mandatory Curiosity] is South-Node-Stellium-to-Varuna [Stress on our Life Force].  So we need to Acknowledge the Stress on our Vitality, without trying to Understand it.  We can Identify it suffixed with “…or something like that,” or we can just Poor-Sweetheart ourself – “You Poor Sweetheart, your Life Force Feels Low, doesn’t it” and not worry about Why it might be.

In the Minor Tricolor [Square-Quincunx-Sextile], the Uranus-to-Varuna Square is the same [Lack of Vitality or Difficulty Manifesting], but the Sextile [Grace after we take the First Step] is New-Moon-OR10-to-Uranus [Recognizing that those Intrusive Memories are sent by the Soul to Help us Heal] and the Quincunx is New-Moon-OR10-to-Varuna [the Intrusive Memories will Inform our Healing – but only if we don’t try to Pin Them Down Intellectually].  The Issues Involved in these Tricolor Configurations are too complex to be Grokked by the Dualistic Mind, so we need to Avoid trying to Pin Them Down like we would a Dead Butterfly.

♥ There are two other minor but potentially Meaningful astroevents occurring on 25 February.

♥ Our Hidden and Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) has graduated from a quarter-century of Shedding its Prohibitions (Ixion in Sagittarius), and will now begin a new 25 years of Doing Serious Work in the World (Ixion in Capricorn).  This is an Important Milestone, as our Forbidden Genii are Exactly the Skills we all need to use if we are to Succeed in Keeping our Planet Habitable.

It will be a halting Beginning, but a Beginning nonetheless.  We will have to go back into our Prohibitions a couple of times to Retrieve the Tools of our Genius Trade, but as Jack and Dean would have put it, we are On The Road.  From 4 May till 10 September 2020, and from 16 July to 12 September 2021, Ixion Retrogrades back into Sagittarius.

♥ Our Skill at Squelching Self-Sabotaging Habits becomes much more Down-to-Earth (asteroid Atropos enters and crosses Taurus) between 25 February and 6 May 2020 (no Atropos Retrograde periods in Taurus).  We’ve been Toying with (Visualizing, really) Changing Negative Patterns, but now we’ll get down to Business and Jettison them for good.

To jumpstart this process, Frequently put your Attention on How You’ll Feel when you’ve Let Go Of these No-Longer-Welcome Companions, including any and all Habits and Addictions you wish to Shed, no matter how Tenacious they’ve been in the Past.  The Power is now on your side.  And while these Habits are Destructive to you now, they served you well at some point in the Past, so finding Gratitude for their Service will also be helpful.  You don’t need to know When or Why, just know that you wouldn’t have them now if they weren’t Powerfully Useful to some version of “you” at some point.

There will be a couple of Red-Letter Days (more likely, the Week prior to them) during this process…

• Around 6 March, we will be able to bring the Full Power of our Soul to bear on these Obsolete Patterns (Atropos crossing Uranus).  Take advantage of this – queue up your Most Persistent Curses for Exorcism during the first week of March.

• Around 1 May, we will be able to Tackle our Greatest Fears and put them in their place on the wall next to the rest of our Big-Game Trophies (Atropos crossing dwarf planet Sedna).  Tapping and Kegels work very well for Grounding ourself in the Presence of Skin-Crawling Fear.

♥ Finally, we’re  entering the Grip of a couple of Strong Energies.  Our Intuition will be very Strong (dwarf planet Asbolus Stationary) until 1 March, and our Skill at Transcending whatever we are Done With (asteroid Bee-Zed Stationary) will also be very Strong over the same period.

Eris-Uranus New Moon

Bottom Line

The 4 June New Moon is a major trigger for the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation, which is about Getting Honest with Ourselves around our formerly-Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  We’ve also referred to them as Masks and Archetypes, and Despair.  This is really about Rebirth.  Unfortunately it may not be the most Effortless Birth, as our favorite Pattern is to cling to our Olde Ego while the New Ego is trying to get born.  That’s very painful.

We have to Let Go and Let God/Goddess.  Trust the process.  Whenever the going gets tough, recognize that you’re in Resistance to the Change.  It may not at all be obvious what else you can do besides Resist – Resistance is your Olde Ego trying to Survive, and that’s exactly what Egos do for a living, they’re good at it, and that’s why you hire them, because when they Survive, you Survive.  Except during the occasional Rebirths; we have to endure an Ego Death to allow a Rebirth.  

Your New Ego isn’t formed yet, and while we may have an inkling where to find its chrysalis, we won’t know what it Feels like.  So we’re stuck with PIAVAs (“God/Goddess, please give me a clue what to do besides Resist” or “I Wonder what it will Feel like when I finish wriggling out of this old carapace that’s so tight I can’t Breathe”) and Tapping (“Even though I feel worthless and hopeless, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself”) and Empathizing (“You poor Sweetheart, you really feel like you’re being tortured, don’t you”) and the like.

Once you succeed in Letting Go, you’ll be surprised at how quickly it gets Easy.

 

Details

1.  There’s a big Challenge to Embrace our Despair.  Remember that “Unconscious Despair” is failure to Believe that what you Need is even Possible.  Set aside your YesButs for a moment and Imagine that you could have what you Need or Want.  Now go back to your YesButs and convert each one to a YesAnd.  “YesBut you just aren’t Sexy enough to get that” might become “YesAnd I just Need one Lover.”  “YesBut you’ll never be able to earn enough Money for that” may be “YesAnd What If someone gave it to me as a Gift!”

You want to Touch that Feeling that you would have if your Dream came true, and hold it as long as you can, till it becomes a when rather than an if,  If you can hold that Feeling enough, it won’t matter whether your Dream actually Manifests, because you’ll already have what your Dream would have given you – Peace, Joy, Excitement, Self-Respect, Power, Grace.  What’s a Lover or a Red Convertible compared to that!  And if you had those Feelings most of the time, you could probably score Lovers and Convertibles pretty easy, if you still wanted to.

This is the difference between your Deepest Desires and your Mission in the Lifetime.  What you Desire isn’t actually the Object of your Dreams, it only seems that way because you live in a Material World.  What you actually Crave, what you came her to achieve, is How the Object of your Dreams Makes you Feel.  From that Feeling you can have anything you Ask for.  And guess what!  You’ll be Asking for different things, and they won’t have any YesButs.  It’s a Hologram, y’know, and you’re the projector.

2.  While this is a big Challenge, it doesn’t come without tools that can actually make it pretty Easy.  However, to manifest the Ease, we have to realize that Rebirth is the Ego’s Least Favorite party game, and Love our Olde Ego into oblivion.  Try Gratitude that It’s gotten you this far.  Try just really really appreciating how incredibly Comfortable your Olde Ego Feels, and PIAVA that your New Ego is going to Feel even more Comfortable once you’ve moved through the Grief of Giving Up your Olde Friend who’s kept you Safe.

3.  What will make your Rebirth Easier?  Getting Honest about what you’ve been trying to hide from yourself.  You may not know the details, but you know the general theme.  Abuse?  You don’t need to remember who or when, you just need to Trust your Feelings about it.  Fear?  Anger?  Embrace them.  Locate them in your Body, and move all of your Attention into the center of that place, and hold it there.  Bring it back when it wanders.  Stay with it till it dissolves or moves.  If it moves, follow it.

Eventually you’ll need to Surrender all Blame.  Blame looks toward the Past to assign Cause, while Responsibility looks toward the Future to improve Outcomes.  Any time you catch yourself attributing some Emotion or Sensation in your Body to any outside Cause, stop and bring your Attention back into your Body.  I’m always gnawing at myself because my neighbors have no idea what I’m trying to do in my Garden, and condemn it as a Jungle.

I need to catch myself thinking that, and bring my Attention back into my own Body.  Those Emotions and Sensations have their Roots in my Personal and Karmic Histories.  Those are my Emotions, the neighbors only trigger them.  I need to take up the Practice of locating them in my Body, and Loving them right where they are, exactly as they are.  If I Reject any Emotion, I dampen them all, and without any of them I’m not a Whole Person, I’m dis-eased.

Use this general model with everything that you suspect may be lurking in your Underwhere – Inadequacy, Self-Hate, Belief in Fate, Addiction, Guilt, Shame, any Limiting Belief, and anything else that comes up.  When the Emotion begins to Overwhelm, Tap it Out.

4.  The whole chart actually falls into a pool of Enormous Grace, but there’s a leak in the pool.  To plug it, we need to recognize the Challenges we’ve Lived through, Honor ourself for Living through them, and be Willing to talk about them so others can Learn from our travails.

 

The Astrology

1.  Aside from the Eris-Uranus Initiation itself of course, the primary focus of the chart is a Chiron T-Square (Challenge to Convert Despair to Miracles) across and Opposition between an Ixion-Pholus Conjunction (Taking Full Responsibility to Let our Orphaned Genius out of the closet) and a Karma-Chaos Conjunction (But without my old Patterns it all looks Chaotic! or Karma is Dead; Long Live Karma!).
2. This T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) is actually a Diamond Star (Making what would be difficult, Easy), with Sappho (Self-Love) and a Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction (either Feeling like you had this coming, or Recognizing that Rebirth feels like Death because they’re just different sides of the same Coin) on the feet of the Chiron Yod.
3. The Eris-Uranus Initiation (Revelation of Denial) is at the focus of a Quintile Yod (huge Learning Opportunity).  However, the Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction Opposes the Eris-Uranus Initiation, converting the QYod into a Quintile Kite and shifting some of the emphasis onto Haumea-Nemesis.  A Yod pointing to a Sedna-Atropos Conjunction (The Demise of Fear, foreshadowed of course by the Fear of Demise) from the base of the Sextile from Haumea-Nemesis to Ixion-Pholus.
4. Eris-Uranus, Karma-Chaos, Sappho, Haumea-Nemesis, and Ixion-Pholus form five points of a Grand Sextile (Enormous Grace, though we need to take the first step).  The Vacancy is 24 Aquarius, “A person, having overcome their compulsions, shares the deep wisdom that results from their experience: The constructive use to which difficult past experiences can be put as examples for those who are still striving to overcome their compulsions,” aka Archetypes/Masks/Karma.

Consciousness and Grief

Another reader asks…

“A client has transiting Sedna Stationary right on their natal asteroid Atropos.  So if Sedna is about actions taken out of fear or anger, could its transit over and station on natal Atropos help the native to ‘sever’ this tendency in some positive way?  Otherwise, the other way around, I suppose Sedna could reflect the native’s urge to sever some situation, affair or process out of fear or anger…”

Atropos is the Goddess who wields the scissors to snip our Lifelines when our Time is up.  Sedna turns Direct on 6 February, so it’s Stationary – ie, Strong – till then.  That would not be a good day to test-drive a Lamborghini or retrieve a dropped ballpoint pen from the Lion cage.  It would also be good for them to be hypervigilant on 1 February, when the Moon Opposes Sedna.

What the Ego conveniently forgets is that 99.9% of the time – and probably more – we operate on autopilot (Karma, Trance, Archetype) without realizing it.  I mean, who wants to feel Helpless.  Consciousness is a thin varnish lain over Unconscious Reality, barely more than an Illusion.  The most glaring difference between Consciousness and the Unconscious, is that the Unconscious lacks Direction – good versus bad, left versus right, up versus down.  It has Dimensions, but not Duality.  Since Reality and the Unconscious are almost identical, what we’re reading when we read astrology, is the Unconscious.

So yes, we have a merging of a Dimension of Endings with a Dimension of Fear.  So, making a guess, your client might terminate a Relationship or a job or a Habit on 6 February, or thereabouts, out of Fear that it will be harmful.  They could give up smoking, or speedboat racing, or allopathic medicine, or an other risky Habit.  Or, more likely considering who Sedna was, something that they’ll later regret Rejecting.  On the other hand, once the dust settles, it will eventually look like a Blessing.

They might undergo a Big Ego Death; living in a Culture that can’t Discern Physical Death from Ego Death, that of course could create Big Fear.  If it was my client I’d give them a list of dates when their natal Atropos was Lit Up Big – for instance, the approximate date every year when the Sun crosses it, and the years when Jupiter and Saturn have crossed it – so they might become Aware of their historical Unconscious Reaction to their own Apropos.  Also, every four years Atropros will have crossed their natal Sedna; those would be useful dates to know as well.

As long as we’re in the Unconscious, we don’t know if Fear will increase or decrease here, and we don’t know if Endings will begin or cease.  We don’t know the Direction; only the Dimension.  If we can help our client get into Consciousness – which after all is the astrologer’s primary goal, right? – then they can develop some Healthy Control over their choice of Direction.

And yes, the Symbol for the Degree of the Sedna Station (25 Taurus), “A vast public park,” isn’t obviously related.  As with Dreams, we always want to consider the possibility of “prediction,” without adding extra Fear to the situation.  The park may include a big parking lot for Lamborghini test-driving, or a Zoo with a Lion cage.  

More seriously, though, an implication might be spaciousness.  To me spaciousness implies Meditation, and the flavors of Sedna and Atropos are both akin to the flavor of the 12th House.  The traditional meaning of the 12th House is hospitals and prisons, but if we choose a Direction different from the traditional, we can use Introversion and Meditation to reduce Stress and promote Self-Assessment, which can reduce the causes of hospitalization and imprisonment.  Introversion and Meditation can also reduce the odds of stepping into a Lion’s cage to avoid a Paper Tiger that’s chasing us.

Another view…

https://lightlover1964.wordpress.com/2016/01/28/energy-grid-report-part-1-january-282016/

And another reader’s note about our Fairy-Star Adventures…

“Yes… This is the School we’re in, and to really learn and participate (love) we have to Be Here Now.  But yesterday, in a moment of realizing that ‘Success’ as defined by my culture and upbringing, and my Yingtegrity (acting as my True Self) are fundamentally opposed, caused a kind of mind-heart freeze.  How to go forward without those cultural markers that I’ve ‘done it right’ and am acknowledged as skilled/creative by my tribe?  To realize that I have, in a sense, chosen to walk away from the village and into the forest alone, is a strange emptiness that I am working with all my selves to not be discouraged or terrified by.  I think Jung said something about the path of individuation being a lonely one, but to experience it in myself is truly an Edge.”

Yes, the Hero’s or Heroine’s Journey isn’t Thornless.  We’ve actually all been dancing on this Edge all our Lives, between our True Self and our necessary Community.  As children we were at times punished for being our True Self, and we’re left with the Belief that we have to Choose.  But we don’t.  As we’ve danced ever since, we let our True Self sneak out at times, and indulge our Community’s Demands at other times.  It’s not actually about Choice; it’s about Both/And.

Especially as the Internet has spread, we’ve all begun to migrate our Community.  Most of us are far closer to the people who Allow our True Self to bloom, and less close to those who don’t, than we were in our younger days.  There will be times when the cliff is steeper, when we need to cut chords that have Supported our False Self and haven’t yet replaced their Support.  And we will move toward Sustenance – the other side of the Coin from Sustainability – because Money is a tool often used to Exploit our False Self.  

Every Loss must be Grieved, so yes, there are times when the emptiness and loneliness seems to dominate.  As with other Emotions, we need to Discern, Witness, and Embrace.  Grief has its own timetable, but it will be much shortened if we give ourselves a healthy dose of “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling your Abandonment, aren’t you.”