Held Emotion

Post-modern and post-quantum Biology suggests that each Cell in our Body is directly connected to the Zero Point Field (or “Vacuum” of Space) via it’s Mitochondria.  It’s worth noting that our Mitochondria have their own DNA, which is handed down directly from the Mother; the Father has no influence upon it (except perhaps through Abuse, as we’ll see).  Inside the Mitochondria there are “Microtubules” that open and close like Venetian Blinds.  

When these close, we’re cut off from the Zero Point Field, which contains all of the Information in the Universe (and beyond) – that is, we’re cut off from our Intuition.  There are two things that cause the Mitochondria to pull its Microtubule blinds closed.  First, Toxic substances trapped in our Cells – heavy metals or Toxic chemicals like those found in non-organic Grains and Sugars, chemical sweeteners, charred Meats, and the packaged faux food at your neighborhood grocery store.  

And Second, Held Emotions.  Held Emotions are highly correlated with our Limiting Beliefs.  This is not a Conscious process.  When we are Traumatized, which can occur because of a single Traumatic event or from long-term Chronic Abuse, our Body walls off the Emotions around the Trauma, because otherwise we would not be able to function and Survive.  We’d be a blubbering mess and dinner for any Saber-Toothed Tiger or IRS rep with a thick foreign accent.

When we lose access to any Emotion, we lose access to many subtleties of all Emotions.  And we Unconsciously shy away from any Experience that would trigger Memories of our Trauma.  Many of those Experiences are often important building blocks for Creating Fulfilling Activities, Relationships, and Survival.  The result is what we alternately refer to as Self-Sabotage, Limiting Beliefs,  Karma, and Abandoned Genius.  It’s also what keeps us from fulfilling our Deepest Desires.

The Body and Psyche have innate drives to Heal these Limitations.  So we stumble into Experiences of this sort repeatedly, since every recurrence is an Opportunity to become Conscious of the relationship between the Experience and the Held Emotion, and Choose a different Pattern.  We don’t always do it Consciously, but our Karma does not grasp us, we grasp it.  Until we recognize it, Change the Pattern, and put in enough reps to make the new Pattern permanent.

Here’s Dr. Kim’s excellent treatise on this subject…

http://drkimderamo.com/natural-trauma-release/

We can often break through the Veil between our current Limiting Beliefs and their concomitant Avoidance, and their roots in our ancient Trauma by taking note of our “Transits” when our Trauma threatens to reawaken.  “Transits” is astrologuese for the angular relationships between the planets in the sky now (which we write about here) and the relationship between our Natal (Birth) planets and the planets in the sky now.  

If we’re having difficulty with the Current Moment, there’s a decent chance we can understand why, and how to “fix” it, by recalling what was going on in our Life at the previous times when the same astroEnergy was lit up.  For instance, the Muggles who are unable to tolerate Diversity and Equality, if they’re old enough, could learn a great deal by recalling what was happening for and to them in the 1960s, the last time Uranus and Pluto were lit up brightly.  

If they aren’t that old, they could examine the Lives of their parents in the 1960s, since we all Learn to take on the Limiting Beliefs of our Childhood Significant Others – it’s difficult to Survive otherwise.  Or even study the history (official storyline of the conquerors) or herstory (anecdotes from the conquered and discarded) of the 1960s, or of any of the previous times when similar astroEnergies were about.

 For instance, Uranus danced with Pluto in 1901-2 (Opposition), 1932-4 (Waning Square), 1965-6 (Ouija-Board Initiation and Conjunction), and 2012-15 (Waxing Square).

Uranus danced with Eris in 1903 (Waning Square), 1937-8 (Making Fun of Humans Initiation at 2 Aries and Conjunction), 1950-51 (Waxing Square), 1970-71 (Opposition), 1992-3 (Waning Square), and 2016-17 (Abundance Initiation and Conjunction).

Eris moves more than twice as slowly as Pluto (relative to us), so Uranus catches up to it more often.

There is a segment, or a figment, of the Ego that survives from Lifetime to Lifetime, or that connects to our Parallels.  Hence many of our Limiting Beliefs have their roots in Lifetimes other than our Present one.  There is not a one-to-one relationship between our Present Ego and our Past or Parallel Lives.  We may have Chosen for the current Lifetime to Heal Limiting Beliefs from several different Lives.  We may have Vowed to Heal someone else in another Lifetime, and we’re still working on it.

If you haven’t read Steven Levine’s Who Dies, you may not realize that your Identity is an Illusion.  You may perceive yourself (when you aren’t thinking about it) as your Body, your mind, your Emotions, your Energy, your Spirit or Power Animal, or as any number of other Entities and Fragments, especially introjections of our Programmers and Significant Others at various points in our Life.  Or we may think of ourself as our Resistance to those introjections, as in “I’m not one of those people who do that.”

No one’s Identity stops at their Skin.  The correlation between individual Hupers and Egos is much lower than that between Trauma and Limiting Belief.  Some folks say we just set the Karma we’ve Chosen to work on in a Lifetime by using a simulator just before we’re born.  If you’ve never encountered any of your Doubles, you haven’t heard the stories, and you’re interested, let me know, and I’ll tell the story of encountering one of my Doubles.

Initiations Oops

Oops; meant to “Save Draft” – the full article will be along soon.

 

http://www.popularmechanics.com/science/energy/a21382/how-kodak-accidentally-discovered-radioactive-fallout/

 

Chiron Standing

Some good Perspectives here…

http://www.isaacgeorge.com/blog/this-aint-no-disco

And another timely warning that I still haven’t caught up here.  The Swiss Ephemeris had Chiron Standing Still at 4am PDT on 26 June – 20 hours ago.  I should have been writing about Despair and its homeopathic remedy, Self-Empathy.

Other than disorder in the Shadow Cabinet and Scottish Independence, I haven’t heard much hand-wringing about Leavia today here in the Colonies.  That would be appropriate, as Chironean Despair was certainly rampant in the high-drama Remainian propaganda mill Friday and Saturday.  After the Station, folks may be more able to shift their Perspective to the Miracles side of Chiron.

And the Swiss Ephemeris has half-past 4pm PDT 29 June for the Mars Station.  The Mars Station Opposes Sedna’s (Action Taken out of Fear) Initiation of asteroid Veritas (Truth) and makes a big Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace) with Chiron and Varuna (the Life Force).  Powerful shift in The Way Things Are Done Around Here (Mars as Doingness), signifying Despair for those whose Power is based on Fear, and realignment with the Life Force for those who aspire to Live beyond Fear.

Isaac points out some interesting things.  For instance, our interpretation of Ceres is Sustainability – the essence of Grain is Sustenance, and our interpretation of Eris is Exposure of Denial – the root cause of temporary dischord, as the cards are rearranged.  

I hang out pretty far to the left, but I love the way Nigel Farage constantly and flagrantly Exposes EU Denial around its antidemocratic structure.  And for Germans to insist that Greeks and Italians and Spaniards Live by German Values is as ridiculous as it is perverse – and completely contrary to the Uranian and Lilithian trends toward Self-Sovereignty.  That, plus the EU’s capture by Goldman Sachs alums, makes the whole EU game Unsustainable.  

Very appropriate for Ceres-Uranus-Eris to blow that up.  The most sensible part of the Reaction to Leavia was the possibility that the EU Remainia would do some soul-searching.  British economists have never graduated from Colonialism.  EU economists, minions of Wall Street, are striving to achieve the modern form of Colonialism, where the 99% are quite literally Colonized by the 1%.  Thank Goodness that’s not Sustainable.

I haven’t found the time yet to look over the rest of 2016 and 2017-2020, so I’m intrigued by Isaac’s suggestion of “enough Uranian action later in this year and into the first quarter of 2017 to keep us on our toes.”  I look forward to investigating this!

Confusion and Leavia

This is very timely…

https://alchemicalastrology.wordpress.com/2016/06/25/pluto-teachings-on-impermanence/

Confusion is the first stage of Growth.

As Saturn Wanes toward Neptune over the next several years, we need to expect a Breakdown in the Definition (Saturn) of our Cultures (Neptune) that will require (Saturn) us all to shift our primary Perspective away from Matter and toward Spirit (Neptune). 

Someone on the BBC referred to Britain as being divided into two countries, Leavia and Remainia.  It’s amazing how much Fear-based propaganda is being thrown at Leavia – which I guess shouldn’t be surprising, since Remainia was a project of the Corporate Elites and their Fellow Travelers.  London was all Remainia – London is Britain’s “Wall Street.”  When do we get NAFTexit?

The Future hasn’t been Co-Created yet.  Our corner of it will be influenced greatly by what we PIAVA – including all those Unconscious and Semi-Conscious PIAVAs that we put out there under the guise of Anxiety.  Though it should help to Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade those, and replace them as quickly as we can with PIAVAs for What We Do Want for ourself and for our role in the World.

“My power is over myself, is over how I learn to master myself.  Not about how I suppress my emotions but, more perhaps, about how I can work with these powerful energies.  CONSCIOUSLY.”

Yes, Power With ourself, not Power Over.  The difference is subtle and Powerful, critical for Co-Creating a desirable Future, and well described by Starhawk’s amazing and Life-Changing book Truth or Dare.  

Empathy with Self is fundamental.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling uncomfortable Emotions, aren’t you.  I Wonder what it would be like to Embrace them, to Locate them in my Body and put all of my Attention there, Lovingly and Gently.”  My own Response to doing this – when I remember to do it (Ay, there’s the rub, eh?!?), is a feeling of Ecstasy, though not always right away.  Maybe I can PIAVA to remember more often.

“It’s about finding ways to keep yourself centered so nothing (am I deluding myself?!) can throw you off balance.  Nothing!

Alas, we do need to be Vulnerable, and Embrace Confusion for itself, without trying to Change it.  Resistance to Vulnerability and Confusion is a serious Growth-preventing Limiting Belief.  Maybe we can resolve the apparent Contradiction by counting Both “Centered” And “Uncentered” as two distinct Emotions, and PIAVAing “how to work with these powerful energies Consciously” so we can build new Patterns that will allow us to Embrace them both automatically, before they throw us off Balance enough that we can’t Recover our Grounding in a short time.

“Feeling fearful or anxious won’t make any situation better.”

No, but we do need to Embrace our Fear as a valid Emotion (and Tap it out when it Feels Overwhelming – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 ).  And Learn to quickly recognize Anxiety as mental noise that keeps us from Feeling uncomfortable Emotions, so we can get right to work Learning how to Lovingly and Gently Embrace those Emotions, Rapidly and Completely.

Yintegrity Rising

A reader writes…

“I don’t think they are happy with me.  I am not following their tradition and I’m not sure what the impact of that will be, but I don’t care!  I’m not doing what I should, I’m doing what I want.  And that is SO different for me.

“I’ve always been the analyze/plan/execute person.  I do my duty.  I fulfill my promises.  If I commit, I follow through.  Period.  No doubt.  No question.  I guess what you would call “Yangtegrity.”  And it has served me well.  Very well.  For my whole life.

“Over the past…18 months, two years, there’s been a growing resistance to all of it!  I don’t even want to show up half the time!  (I’ve always taught my kids-Showing up is 80% of success.)  My intellect is so confused, my ego is having panic attacks.  Is this moving into Yintegrity?  

“There’s a third part of me that is very calmly standing by, reassuring that we’ll work out a new way of functioning, everything will be fine, the earth will not stop spinning on its axis.  So is that the pressure and fear I’m feeling?  The shift into Yintegrity?”

You bet!!  

And like any Big Change, there’s a hollow space, a gap, where our Olde Ego is in Lackawanna (“I know I’m done for; why should I care?”), and our New Ego hasn’t got its training wheels on straight yet.  So we’re wobbly.  Confusion is good; it’s a reliable sign that we’re Growing.  Anxiety is common, as our Olde Patriarchy-Attuned Egos needed to know what was going on so they could figure out who to Please how, when.

Time for PIAVAs.  “Great Spirit, please help me Trust my True Future so I can Surrender my False Past more comfortably” or the like.  “I wonder where the Hell I’m going, anyway.”  With Saturn Waning Square to Neptune and moving into the Void Space between them, The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is Confusion (Neptune).  Neptune symbolizes Confusion when viewing the World through Material Eyes, and Clarity when we shift to Spiritual Eyes.  “Ganeshi, please Remove all Obstacles to Opening my Third Eye.”

 Another timely story…

https://alchemicalastrology.wordpress.com/2016/06/21/professionautism/

Love the title – ProfessionAutism.  I read it as Professionalism twice before I noticed the Aut.  In another post she says Pluto is on her Moon – I don’t know of any greater Emotional Challenge.  A perfect time to “hang loose,” but not even that is easy under Pluto-Moon.  “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that Ease and Grace fill my Life.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess. … Show me.”

That’s a simplified form of Theta Healing.  Once you say “Show me,” look to see whether your Vision or other Intuitive Sense shows you bathed in Ease and Grace.  If not, look to see what else you need to Command.  Maybe Trust, or Enough to Eat, or just Breathing.

When the World, or your Community, or just your Household or Camp, operates through Yintegrity, the whole World is different.  People do things when they want to, and when someone resents something not being done, it’s up to them to recognize that it’s their job to do.  Or their job to inspire (not require or bully) someone else to do it, maybe as a group project where participation is of course optional – you would join or not because, in the moment, it’s more fun than doing otherwise.  

The Most Important Thing gets done, even if it’s not what you thought was The Most Important Thing.  Between the Waning Saturn Square to Neptune and the next Initiation, Cultures break down.  The next Neptune-Saturn Initiation isn’t until 2026, six years into the Digital Age.  It’s at the Aries Point – Manifestation into (Feminine) Form.  Aries Creates by Instinct, not by having a picture beforehand of the “finished” product.  Creating and “finishing” are two different Universes, with only accidental intersections.

Here’s a picture of it anyway – it’s not a “finished” picture, but a picture of the Yintegrity process unfolding…

https://cristenrodgers.net/2016/06/23/speak-your-truth-not-your-mind/

I would suggest though, that “The ways in which Other Living Things can speak may also be almost infinite – the truth or a lie, clearly or in riddles, with language or with art.”  We maybe just haven’t heard them yet, till we get our Third Eye – or Ear – Open.  And that Everything is Living.

And, Saturn runs a Gauntlet of Initiations before it gets back to Neptune – Ixion, Pholus, Quaoar, the Galactic Center, Chariklo, Hylonome, Pluto. OR10, and Nessus!  Saturn will be a very different Animal by then, and we will be too.  Sounds like this Gauntlet would be worth a post of its own, eh?

And we didn’t even notice that Saturn was Initiated by the Great Attractor this last February, with an Exposition in May!  The Great Attractor is Headquarters to the Galactic Center – Cosmic HQ.  No wonder it’s been a heavy year so far, as if we haven’t had enough excuses!  We’re being asked to align ourselves with an Energy more Powerful than even Galactic Energy.

Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade

• Cancel the Negative thought
• Neutralize the Energy Created by it
• Upgrade the thinker  

We aren’t through yet with the Solstice-Full-Moon action, so I’ve been trying to put off writing about next week.  Then it finally dawned on me – after several images of Trauma intruded – that we’re in the middle of next week’s Energy already.  

(1)  That Energy’s name is Fear.  

It’s part of the work we’ve been doing getting Honest with ourself, and it’s a foundation for our Rebirth.

Here’s a good description of it…

https://boozilla.wordpress.com/2016/06/16/rolling-in-the-deep/

And as usual, Dr. Kim is tuned right in.  Here are two of her recent short videos on the subject, similar but different, and both very worthwhile, short maps of exactly what we recommend…

http://drkimderamo.com/are-you-living-in-fear/

http://drkimderamo.com/living-beyond-your-fear/

If what you Experience turns out to be Anger instead, drill down beneath it.  Anger is a perfectly valid Response to Fear, as Anger is just a Self-Protection.  But underneath your Anger is Fear.  Find it.

(2)  Fear is literally a Siren Song for us; we can’t not Pay Attention to it.  In this case there is a very strong Call to Action involved, and the appropriate Action is to look at what it is about ourself that we’re afraid to admit.  Afraid to admit to others, yes, but especially what we’re afraid to admit to ourself.

This is not about Self-Criticism.  We aren’t talking about those nagging voices telling you what’s wrong with you.  We need to dig beneath those.  We can start by Asking “Whose voice is that, anyway?” – that’ll remind us that the Self-Criticism isn’t really Self at all.  Ask “What is it that would really Excite me?”  Excitement is Fear plus Breathing.  The question of the month is “Why haven’t I been doing those Exciting things all along?”

You can make a list of those “reasons,” and then convert each of the Yes-Buts to Yes-Ands.  Yes-But I would make a fool of myself.  Yes-And, How would that Feel in my Body?  Yes-And, I’ll have to Learn to Love that Feeling too, won’t I.  Yes-And, I can do that, can’t I; I’ve done worse things.  Yes-And, if I had the Choice, which would I Choose?  To have Excitement in my Life, or to never Feel Embarrassed?  Yes-And, it might be Exciting to be, Um, Bareassed occasionally, eh?

This is all about Embracing our own Truth and recognizing how much doing that unlocks Unlimited Potential.

If Traumatic Memories or Visions arise in the next several weeks, go out of your way to Embrace yourself – “You poor Sweetheart, you must have Felt horrible when that happened.  Remember that Trauma can be Acute (sudden and Shocking) or Chronic (slow, easily dismissed as no Biggie, but repeated).

(3)  There is much Grace available to us here; we only need to remember to find Gratitude and Embrace it, even – especially – in the midst of Pain and Despair.

(4)  Be mindful that what you Experience in the next few weeks may not be Personal.  Don’t waste any Energy on “That couldn’t have happened.”  It doesn’t matter.  What matters is that you accept what you’re Feeling as if the Memories were Truly yours, and Embrace your Emotions in their wake.  The Planet is moving through big Transitions, and you may just be Chosen to help Heal that dark Energy.  We’re All One, what happens to Any of us happens to All of us.  The important thing is the Healing.

The Memories could be those of another Lifetime, of a neighbor, of a character in a movie or newsfeed, or of a Soul Sibling you hardly if at all know in the current Incarnation.  The Memories could be a Story that your Psyche made up to symbolize other, more subtle or profound Fears.  What’s Important is to Embrace the Feelings that arise, and the more repulsive the Feelings, the more Important it is to Embrace them.  Whether or not the Memories are True and Truly yours, in this moment the Feelings are True and Truly yours.

There are no failures here; Embracing ten percent of them is far better than Resisting a hundred percent of them.  And you can Trust that whatever you don’t get Embraced this time around, you’ll get to revisit later.  Good reason to make a little extra Effort now.  But Safety First; take it one step at a time so you don’t bite off more than you can chew, or try to do in public what will be a lot more comfortable in private.  Without Safety, we can easily tread backwards.

(5)  Like your Mission, the exact nature of your Abandoned Genius may be hidden from you.  Even if you spend a good part of your day daydreaming about it, the Story may be a Metaphor – and probably is.  You hear stories about folks stumbling into what seems to be their Right Livelihood or True Calling, and it may be more Important to Make Yourself Available for your Genius to find you, than to Seek it out Actively.

But it doesn’t matter.  You can PIAVA to “Lovingly and Gently take meaningful steps toward your Abandoned Genius” without having to know what you’re approaching, or what’s approaching you.  It’s likely to be related to those Feelings you’ve been Resisting all your Life, the ones you’re now Embracing with all your Heart because you know the Survival of yourself, your Loved Ones, and the Planet depends upon it. 

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For the rest of the Solstice-New-Moon stuff we’re still working with, see… 

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/06/15/big-solstice-full-moon/ and https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/06/17/5755/ .

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The Astrology

(1)  The dwarf planet Sedna (Actions Taken out of Fear) Initiates the asteroids Veritas (Latin for Truth) on 27 June, and Aletheia (Greek for Truth) on 8 July, both at 26 Taurus (“A Spanish gallant serenades his lover“).

The reason we put such emphasis on the Initiations, is that they signify important Changes in the Energy, in the Milieu, in the temperature of our bathwater.

Asteroid cycles are usually about four years, so for the next four years our Disowned Fear will be serenading us.  It would be an excellent time to start crooning back to it, so we can convert it to Excitement.

(2)  Sedna-Veritas-Aletheia is the Power Source in one of those Crossbow-Slingshot-Boomerang Yod-Yod Kite Configurations.

The Yod or Finger of God is a third planet at the Far Midpoint between two planets that are Sextile to one another.  The focus is the third planet.  Now add a fourth planet at the Near Midpoint of the first two (Opposite the third planet), and you have one of these Slingshots.  The focus remains the third planet, while the fourth planet becomes the projectile aimed at the bulls-eye, powered by the tension between the first two planets.

Here the third planet (focus or target) is a Stationary Mars (Action).  Mars goes Direct at 24 Scorpio on 29 June.  That’s the tail end of the Leo Duad of Scorpio, so it’s about diving deep (Scorpio) into our Ego Identity (Leo).

The first two planets, in the Sextile-bowstring, are the Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne Stellium (Making our Truth Permanent), and Mercury-Chaos (Glimpsing our Unlimited Potential).  Mnemosyne adds the possibility that we can Recover Memories of the landmark events which caused us to Mask ourself in this Lifetime.

• Mnemosyne Opposes Haumes on 25 June
• Eris Initiates Mnemosyne on 2 July at 24 Aries (Abundance)
• Uranus Initiates Mnemosyne on 5 July in 25 Aries (Awareness of New Dimensions)
• Mnemosyne Opposes Nemesis on 12 July

(3)  Sedna-Verititas-Aletheia is also the head of a Kite, mounted on a Grand Trine between Mars, Chiron (Despair and Miracles), and Varuna (the Life Force).

(4)  Chiron, meanwhile, is also at the head of a T-Square across the Opposition between Mercury-Chaos and the Ixion-Pholus-Lachesis-Quaoar Stellium (Taking Full Responsibility for Embracing our Abandoned Genius is not only Timely, but also Essential for Survival – ours and the Planet’s).

The Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne Stellium Trine-Bridges the T-Square.

(5)  Which leads us to a second Slingshot, this one aimed at the Ixion-Pholus-Lachesis-Quaoar Stellium, powered by Mercury-Chaos, with the Sextile between Varuna and Sedna-Verititas-Aletheia as the bowstring.

All these Configurations take place between 22 and 29 Degrees, and will trigger your natal planets in those Degrees.  That’s a wide Orb for Transits, but the planets themselves stretch the Sensitivity.  For instance,

• Chaos is a little over two Degrees from Opposing Ixion
• Ixion is a little over one Degree from Opposition to Mercury
• Mercury is one Degree from Opposing Pholus
• Pholus is only a few arcminutes past Lachesis
• Lachesis is one Degrees short of the Galactic Center
• Quaoar is one and a half Degrees past the Galactic Center

Altogether spanning 22-29 Degrees of Gemini-Sagittarius.  These folks are all Retrograde, so there are no Initiations or Can-Openers among them at this time.

And while the Orb may be wide for Transits, it’s not wide at all for a birth chart, and there’s no question that this is our Rebirth, the Birth of our True Self.  

Which means that all this will apply for the Life of our Reborn Self, and will apply to any Projects we begin now, including the Project of Unconditionally Loving ALL of our Emotions, and of Embracing our Abandoned Genius.

Curiosity and Desire

It’s hard to overemphasize how important it is to maintain our Curiosity about how our newfound Vulnerability (ie, Loss of our Masks) will impact our Mission (and Deepest Desires).  

As always, we don’t mean Curiosity as a means to an end – Questions seeking Answers.  We mean Curiosity as an end in itself – Wonder and Awe, eyes wide and mouth ajar.

Since our Deepest Desires are often a source of Vexation – we Want it but we can’t seem to Get it, or Keep it when we do – we might well find our mind grinding away on our Lifelong Frustrations.  If that’s the case, this grinding is exactly the Pattern that we need to Replace.  That’s why it’s Lit Up.

Which is the Key to the Temple, to Realize that when any Bummer is Lit Up, it’s Lit Up to inform us that we have Work to do on our Limiting Beliefs.  And the Work is easy – we just Embrace ourself.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Bummed by this, aren’t you.”  The apparently difficult part is Discerning that Oh Yeah, we’re Feeling here, and we don’t like the Feeling!  We need to Learn to Love ALL of our Feelings, and this is The Opportunity to Practice just that!!  Hooray!!

Chances are we’ve built up Stories around why our Deepest Desires elude us – because of some quirk of our childhood perhaps, or maybe we’ve concluded that Huper Nature just works that way, or some Pattern that we believe Limits us but we’ve never been able to Change.  Mindstuff.  Let it all Go.  Come to Curiosity instead…

“I Wonder why my Deepest Desires always elude me.”

Just that simple.  Make it a Mantra, a Ritual.  Carve it into your mirrors, your refrigerator door, your smartphone, write it on the inside of your eyelids.  Don’t let it become rote.  Close your eyes when you say it to yourself (except when driving or operating machinery), and really Feel that Energy bubbling up from the Deeps.

While this particularly applies next week to our Deepest Desires, it’s an excellent strategy for dealing with any stuck Pattern we have.  What if we want to Eat less, or less often, or less Sugar, for instance.  Then whenever we have a moment of Awareness before or during our urge to Eat, we can pause a minute and…

I Wonder why I always want to Eat while I’m writing.

Followed by a pause.  This is a PIAVA – an invitation to Intuition – so we need to pause and Change the Subject.  We could go back to Eating 

(we Change the Subject to prevent the mind from constraining us to our existing Limiting Beliefs; Eating is quite different from Analyzing Eating),

for instance, or back to writing.  The Intuition will surprise us later.

We mentioned in passing that Jupiter’s Initiation of the North Node (Exact 3pm PDT 24 June at 17 Virgo – Volcanos) Biquintiles (Learning New Rituals) Uranus’s and Eris’s Initiation of Ceres (Exact 8pm 21 June and 5am 23 June, respectively, both at 24 Aries – Abundance), but it deserves more than a mention.  

These are Waxing Biquintiles.  

In the evolution of a Cycle, the Waxing 

• Trioctile (8th Harmonic/Rebalancing, and 3rd Harmonic/Compassion) precedes the 
• Biquintile (5th Harmonic/Learning, and 2nd Harmonic/Ritual), which in turn precedes the 
• Quincunx (12th Harmonic/Pattern-Breaking, and 5th Harmonic/Learning).

So once a new Energy

• Becomes Permanent (Square) and
• Blesses us for Acknowledging it (Trine – without Acknowledgement, the Trine denotes Arrogance),
• We Lovingly Adapt to it (Trioctile),
• Learn and Practice new Rituals that match the new Energy (Biquintile), and 
• Break any old Habits that would get in our way (Quincunx).  

By choosing Magnetism (PIAVA – Curiosity) instead of Dynamism (Plan-Do), we gain Free Attention to use on our Seva rather than our Process.

So it would behoove to see what our Jupiter-Uranus and Jupiter-Eris Cycles are about.  The current Jupiter-Uranus Cycle (Expanding into greater Connection to Soul) began in June 2010 at 1 Aries (Manifesting Form).  The current Jupiter-Eris Cycle (Amplifying Truth) was Initiated at the end of April 2011 in 22 Aries (“The gate to the garden of all fulfilled desires“).  Intense.

What a “Coincidence” that Desire arises.  Not to mention the hint that Truth leads to fulfillment of Desire.

For a while on 23 June (approximately 6am to 11am PDT), the Jupiter/North Node to Uranus/Eris/Ceres Biquintile is joined by Venus and the Moon to form four-fifths of a Grand Quintile (Learning Made Easy).  The Vacancy – the Energy we’d Supply Consciously in order to complete the Grand Quintile and remove the Stress – is the last degree of Scorpio (Mischievousness).  So it’s important to Play, perhaps just a bit impolitely.

At the same time, Chiron and Saturn join Venus in an intertwined Septangle – Venus Triseptiles Saturn which Biseptiles Chiron which in turn Biseptiles Venus.

The Biseptile is about Timing our Rituals for maximum Effect, and the Triseptile is about Timing our Compassion so it’s neither Taken for Granted nor Abused.

We could read this as, The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is to be Loving and Gentle with ourself (Venus) whenever we find ourself touching our Despair (Chiron).  Venus occupies the inflection point between the Septangle and the incipient Grand Sextile, telling us that the Key is Magnetic.

History Lesson

Here’s some fascinating history I didn’t know… 

http://billmoyers.com/story/trump-virus-dark-age-unreason/

Stations of the Tōkaidō

This is a technical note about astrology, though I think most folks will find it useful.

Because we all go around the Sun at different speeds, for part of the year most of the planets appear to go “backwards,” or “Retrograde.”  

We use “Tropical” astrology, which means we look at the planets as they appear from Earth; in Sidereal astrology (as the planets would appear from the Sun, if you have your asbestos booties on) there are no Retrogradations, everybody’s just in the same roller derby.  Also, in Tropical astrology, we locate the planets in Signs relative to the March Equinox, not relative to the location of a particular Constellation in the Sky, as Sidereal astrology does.

The planets and Moon move in the Sky from west to east; it’s the turning of the Earth that makes it look like they’re moving from east to west.  To see their true movement, you have to take a series of snapshots of the Sky every night at midnight and play them in a zoetrope.  When we pass a slower planet in the derby, that planet will appear in this series of midnight snapshots to stop, go westward for a while, stop again, and then resume its eastward motion.

When a planet stops, it’s said to be “Stationary,” or to be “having a Station” or “Standing Still.”  But there are several important nuances to this term, that we usually gloss over.

The most important thing to know is that the influence of a planet is Strongest in the days (inner planets) or week (outer planets) before it’s Exact Station.  

The influence of any planet is always relative – if there are six Big astroevents going on at the same time, any one of them by itself probably won’t seem as overwhelming.  And the Strength of a Station depends on our Sensitivity – in general, to that planet, and to the Location of its Station.  If it Stands Still on one of the planets in our birth chart, for instance, it may as well be Standing on our toe.

We say a week for the Strong influence of a Stationary outer planet because that’s about as much time as we can get without contamination for a zillion other astrothingies, and because that’s approximately where my span of Sensitivity lies for the average outer planet.  If your Sensitivity is greater, you’ll Feel a Station earlier; if you’re a Muggle, you may not Feel it at all.

It also depends on your ability to distinguish one Energy from another.  If six planets are Stationary at once, like at the Centaur Convention on the Galactic Center a few years back, or if there are a number of Strong Angles going on at the same time (like now), it’ll take a very Discerning eye to separate out the Influences – as if it mattered.

This week Neptune and Makemake were Stationary at the same time, with less than a day between them.  We couldn’t really tune into Makemake while Neptune was still Stationary – the Energy we were experiencing wasn’t Neptune, but Neptune-Makemake.  Once Neptune found its Exact Station, its Strength began to wane, and we could tune in to Makemake more readily.  

Next week Pallas and Juno will do the same trick; Pallas’s Exact Station occurs about half-past 6pm PDT on 21 June, and Juno’s at 1pm on 22 June.  So we’ll be feeling Pallas-Juno for most of the 21st, and Juno after that – though there’s a whole lot else going on next week, so I don’t expect these Energies to stand out prominently, unless they’re Standing on your toes.

While there is a moment of Exact Station, when the planet literally turns about, they don’t screech to a sudden stop, then burn rubber; they slow down and speed up gradually before and after their Stations, and in general the slower they’re moving, the more they’re saying “Hey, Look at Me!”  So we often say that a planet “is Stationary” when it’s within one Degree (inner planets) or one week (outer planets) of it’s Exact Station.

We find the Energy to be Strongest before the Exact Station.  A planet speeds up gradually after the Exact Station, and while it’s still moving very slowly it’s still technically Stationary and still Stronger than usual, but not as Strong as before the Station.  With this week’s Neptune and Makemake Stations, for instance, we mostly talked about how Strong they were leading up to their Exact Stations, not so much afterwards.

As with any astroevent, we’ve found that Consciousness is primary.  If we’re Aware that Pallas is Stationary, for instance, then we won’t be surprised if we see Boundaries coming up for renegotiation.  If we aren’t Conscious of what Pallas is up to, we may be caught off guard, and avoid the suggested renegotiations.  If we renegotiate in a timely fashion, then the Energy is deflated once the Exact Station passes.  If we don’t, then the Energy can drag on.

In particular, Decisions can extend any astroevent.  For instance, if someone insults or harasses us on the 21st and we don’t call them on it (here’s a helpful tool: https://s3-us-west-2.amazonaws.com/nwrn.org/files/Nw16N/NW16News0316.pdf  ) and instead just Judge them, then we lose our Curiosity and poison our Relationship with that person.  That Energy could last “forever.”  If we renegotiate on the spot and Revert, then Pallas Energy moves back into the background.

The poster child for this is 9/11.  The Saturn-Pluto Energy that provoked 9/11 was finished in August.  But the Lizards had other plans, introducing their 1000-page Patriot Act and US-economy-supporting (as arms merchant to the World) “Perpetual War” within a few days anyway.  So we’re still dealing with that Energy fifteen years later, and it shows no sign of de-escalating.

A planet can be “Stationary Retrograde,” when it’s slowing down to turn backwards, or “Stationary Direct,” when it’s slowing down to turn forward again.  Personally, we find that the Strengthening of a planet’s Energy at either Station is much more important than whether it’s turning Retrograde or Direct, so we usually just focus on the Station.

Similarly, we don’t usually make a big deal out of whether a planet is Direct or Retrograde.  There are some cases where the impact is obvious – as with Mercury – but usually it’s just a matter of whether we’re being Extroverted or Introverted around the planet’s Energy, and we find that whether the planet is Stationary is much more prominent than whether it Retrograde.  Your experience may differ.

One thing that does matter, is that when a planet turns Retrograde it crosses a patch of Sky three (or more, if the planet is far away) times instead of once, implying that the Universe really wants us to get the hang of this piece of Sky.  If the planet makes a triple Angle to another planet in the Sky, or to a planet in our birth chart, that’s a Big Deal.

When a planet makes multiple Angles to another, we refer to the first event as the “Can-Opener,” because the Energy often appears to come out of “left field” and surprise us.  If we’re dealing with slow-moving outer planets, we may have little or no experience with that particular combination of Energies in our Lifetime, so it may really catch us off guard.  The Can-Opener occurs before a planet turns Retrograde.

As the multiple Angle repeats, we gain experience with it, so we refer to the second (Retrograde) and subsequent events as “Expositions,” because they Expose us to the Energies so we can get more comfortable with them.

The last event of a multiple Angle we call a “Confidence-Builder,” because by now we’ve probably gained enough familiarity with the Energy combination that we feel confident dealing with it.  The Confidence-Builder occurs after the planet turns Direct again.

When folks refer to a Retrogradation, they’re usually referring to the timespan when the planet is actually Retrograde.  To an astrologer it’s more important to know when the planet first enters the patch of Sky over which it will later Retrograde, and when it finally exits that patch of Sky, after it turns Direct again.  

This entire span is called a “Shadow Period,” in both time and astrological Degrees.  It’s important because it encompasses the Can-Opener and the Confidence-Builder, while the Retrograde period itself only includes the Expositions.

The two most important things to know about Stations are (1) that a planet’s Influence is Strongest just prior to its Exact Station, whether it’s turning Retrograde or Direct, and (2) that we need to look ahead to find a planet’s Shadow Period, so we can be Conscious of Can-Openers as the arise.

Big Solstice Full Moon

(1)  The 20 June Full Moon precedes the Solstice by a little less than half a day, so we can see this Moon as impacting the next half-year.  And I’ll venture a prognostication that the next half-year, and even the next month, will have a big impact on how long our species continues to dominate this Planet – to the extent that it does.  Our species is a much bigger legend in it’s own mind, than it is the Planet’s natural herstory.

(2)  This should be no surprise, as we’ve been working up to it since mid-May, but a very prominent feature of this Full Moon, and of the span of its influence, will be setting Boundaries against the Abuses of the Patriarchy.

(3)  It should be obvious how closely all this is Related to our recent adventures in Removing our Masks.  This represents a Major Shift in our Consciousness, as we begin to realize how much we’ve (been) Changed, and as we begin the hard work of rebuilding our Cultures to reflect our new Awareness.

(4)  As our Consciousness Shifts, so will our Values, very Powerfully – so you can be liberal with your Yes-Ands about letting your Values Grow along with the rest of you and your sphere of influence.  

Methinks we’ll see some very profound Changes in the near Future, even perhaps our long-awaited Tripping Point.

(1)  The asteroid Lachesis, the dwarf planet Quaoar, and the Galactic Center all stand behind this Full Moon.  That’s a heavy lineup.  Lachesis measures the thread that determines the length of a Lifetime.  Quaoar provides Guidance that permits Survival.  And the Galactic Center is the Source of our Bottom-Line Energy, the Sun’s Sun’s Sun so to speak.  In a word, Headquarters.  

The Quaoar-Lachesis Initiation occurred 18 March in 30 Sagittarius, which reflects the Power of Ritual.

(2)  In addition, the asteroid Klotho (she who cuts the cloth for the Lifeline that Lachesis measures) begins a gauntlet on Solstice Day, as it Opposes dwarf planet 2007 OR10 (potentially disruptive material erupting from deep within the Unconscious). It Opposes Centaur and dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) on 26 June, and is Initiated by dwarf planet Orcus (Dismantling of Obsolete Oaths) on 28 June.

The Klotho-OR10 Cycle (An Assignment from the Deeps) that’s now Blooming was Initiated at the Northern Winter Solstice in 2014 in 2 Pisces, which is about  Removing ourself from Unsafe Situations.

The Klotho-Nessus Cycle (Letting Go of Abuse and Privilege) that’s Flowering as we speak began earlier in December 2014 at 28 Aquarius, which concerns Maintaining our Safety.

The 28 June  Klotho-Orcus Initiation (Learning to Discern Living Vows from Dead ones) is at  7 Virgo, which is about Patriarchal Privilege and Enslavement of Females.

Mercury (Awareness and Communication) ran the same Gauntlet (but in Gemini, T-Squaring the lot) from 13-18 June.  

The asteroid Atropos (she who cuts the Chord when a Lifeline has run out of thread) will also be T-Squaring everyone from Gemini, for the rest of June.

Pallas (Boundaries) ran this Gauntlet (but in Pisces) during the last half of May, being Initiated by the Three Dwarfs in the same Degrees as Klotho.  Pallas is Stationary (Strong) and turning Retrograde on 21 June at 8 Pisces, so she’ll be retracing her steps across this minefield in an Exposition between now and August.

Pallas Initiated Klotho (Starting over with new Boundaries) on New Years Day 1980 at 28 Aquarius (Maintaining our Safety).  This was the year that the 1% resumed their Control over the US government for the first time since the early 1930s.  The Klotho-Pallas Opposition (Flowering) occurs on 30 June.  

Because Klotho’s orbit is less than three months shorter than Pallas’s, their Cycles are very long and irregular, and their speeds are so similar that it’s difficult to identify their Angles with certainty.  A previous Opposition occurred in 1934.  If this Cycle proves to be correlated with the tug of war between the People and the Lizards, then we could see a return to relative Democracy by 2020.  

We’ll need it, because with current trends by the time the Digital Age begins in 2020, there will be four very distinct classes of people in the “developed” World: the Owners, the Engineers and Coders, the Servants, and the Indigent.

(3)  The Full-Moon Opposition is Bridged by a Trine from the Sun to the asteroid Juno (the Edges of Consciousness), which is Stationary (Strong) and turning Direct on 22 June.

The dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation), still Stationary (Strong) from its 13 June turnabout, T-Squares the Full Moon.

(4)  Venus (Values, Walking in Beauty) Quintiles (Learning) Uranus-Eris-Ceres (Making our new Honesty with Ourself a Permanent part of our Psyche and Personality) and Jupiter-North Node (Expanding into our Mission) from 18 June till 22 June, wrapping itself around the Solstice Moon, as Uranus-Eris-Ceres and Jupiter-North Node Biquintile (Learning – Cementing – new Patterns) one another.

Eris and Uranus both Initiate Ceres on 21 and 23 June at the familiar 24 Aries, the Picture of Abundance.

Jupiter Initiates the North Node on 24 June in 17 Virgo, which concerns “The explosive energy of long-repressed contents of the Unconscious.“

The Biquintile between Uranus-Eris-Ceres and Jupiter-North Node persists in one subset or another from 6 May till 22 July, so this has been an integral part of our Mask-Replacement endeavors as well.