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Kegels 1

January 30, 2019

One of these days I’ll learn better.  Here again I thought we were getting a few quiet days, when Lo, another Biggie.  As Frank or Earnest (I never knew which was which), “I just get my budget in order, and along comes a big Surprise, like rent, or a weekend!”  So, on 8 February, Sedna (Converting Fear into Power) is Stationary (Strong), but gosh, that’s nine days away.  Not that nine days isn’t too long for a buildup to a Station, especially if it’s a Big Station, or we’re more Sensitive than the average Bear – or if there isn’t much else going on.

Buuut, I just Noticed that asteroid Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) crosses Sedna this morning (30 January, 9:30 am PST), so that’ll be giving us an early preview of the Sedna Station.  This should be a good test of our Misogyny – the crossing, and the Station, occur within a few arcminutes of Algol, the Star most associated with Catastrophe – Catastrophe from the Male Perspective, as to them it symbolizes Female Rage – Algol is the eye in Medusa’s severed head.  From the Female Perspective, it’s a whole different Story.  I mean, gee, what do women have to Rage about, anyway?

If you haven’t noticed any Disturbances in a Force near you, you may want to look more closely at the Gender Dynamics – you might be overlooking something.  And if you’re really Brave, you might want to bring up the subject with members of the Other Gender.  “Is there anything you’d like to talk about, Dear?  How do you think we’re doing on the Male-Female Equality thing?  Anything we could Improve upon?”  If there’s anything a Juno Angle begs for, it’s Expansion of Consciousness.

This isn’t the Initiation of a new Cycle; that was last mid-September, at 28 Taurus, “A woman, past her ‘change of life,’ experiences a new love.”  As if Love was reserved for Youth, or defined by Hormones alone.  This is what we call a “Confidence-Builder,” the third and last Conjunction in a series.  So we’ve already had practice with this Energy, in the first half of September and November last year, and now it’s time to Integrate what we’ve Learned.  A reminder in case you’ve forgotten – Kavanaugh’s Confirmation Hearing spanned 4 September to 6 October.

The chart of this third Juno-Sedna crossing is pretty busy…

The main feature of the Juno-Sedna Conjunction itself, though not the main feature of the whole chart, is our Challenge (Square, or red line) to Receive a New Timeline (Klotho) that will turn our Beliefs (Vesta) upside down and inside out…

You live on Earth as a human being, not as a transcendent, Angelic being or a mythical Sidhe.  However, you can unite your humanity with the Angelic and Sidhe part within you in a rooted and yet heavenly way.  This is your potential, no matter what kind of human you are. 

“How you do this is for you to discover as your journey to revelations opens to the adventure called reality.  The Angel and Sidhe in you speak to your inner core about the most gentle and magical power you are destined to be.  Unfold your wings and walk Mother Earth with tenderness and creativity so heaven can land in the world of manifested creation.” 

— Søren Hauge, The Wild Alliance: Awakening Your Inner Angel & Sidhe, p.7.

The most Exciting (Excitement Less Breathing Equals Fear) feature of the chart as a whole is the Challenge (T-Square, the red triangle pointing left) to see All Apparent Setbacks as the Opportunities that they really are (Chiron = Despair and Miracles).  One of the most important parts of 5D Manifestation is Trust (Eurydike).  We are actually already Manifesting in 5D, but we don’t Trust it.  Whenever our Plans and Expectations and other Intellectualizations about Mechanisms lead us away from our Intentions, Intuitions, and Visualizations about Results, our 5D Guides are likely to spill our paint pot or poke a hole in a tire.

When we see these Gifts as setbacks and Gremlins, and Persist with our preference for Method over Result, we revert to 3D.  If instead we, chuckling, Appreciate the Interruptions as Guidance, then we can lean back, close our eyes, Meditate on What We Want rather than How We’re Planning to Get It, and rejoin the Collaborative Co-Creation that we really Want.  Why struggle against the Unseen Energies when we can Cooperate with them.  We have seen the Enemy, and it ain’t them.

Their Objective is to follow our Lead, but they’re mapping out the Effortless path to Manifesting What We Want, not the Tiresome path of How we Planned to Claim it as Our Own Creation.  The Unseen Energies are taking their cues from our Soul, not from our Ego, and that’s an incredible Gift to us if we’re Open to Looking for it.

Did you notice that this is a Gender-Balance problem?  The intellectual Focus on Method is the Dynamic Male process of Creating; the PIAVAed (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/) Focus on Desired Results is the Magnetic Female way of Manifesting.

Regardless of our external Gender, our Inner Female (Heart, Intuition) knows Where We’re Going and What We Want.  Our Inner Male (Intellect, Engineering) might know How To Get There or How to Get It, but he isn’t hip to Where or What or Why.  They need to Partner Up if we’re going to get to 5D.

The Deeper part of this Challenge/T-Square is the Gateway to our Forbidden Genius and our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planets Ixion and Chaos, in the Opposition at the base of the T-Square).  Both of these lie far beyond our Expectations and Understandings, and will Deliver Rewards that are as Exceedingly Surprising and Delightful.  This Gate is Open in this chart (ie, at this time), and the Treasures that lie beyond the Gate are Glorious.  All we have to do to Open to them, is to see Interruptions as Gifts, as hints that we were veering off course.

The big red square is a Grand Cross – four planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiacal Loop.  It’s actually more Impactful than the T-Square we’ve been talking about, but the T-Square will give us more hassles, so we’ll probably Notice it sooner.  Not only is a Grand Cross a Big Deal (because it spans the entire chart), but this one includes the Nodal Axis, meaning that it’s all about our Journey from Karma to Grace, making it Foundational.

Bringing our Fear up into Consciousness where we can Breathe it into Excitement or Kegel it into Power, is an Easy Path (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) across the Chasm between our Karma (South Node, upper left) and our Mission (North node, lower right).  Our Helpers in Disguise (remember now, Disruptions are Gifts informing us that we’re getting off course) are our own Soul (Uranus, lower left), and our Rebirth (Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas, upper right).

Allowing the Rebirth (Haumea) of our Boundaries (Pallas) between Truth (Aletheia) and Fiction, aka Suspending Disbelief, is a big part of Reframing our Setbacks and Surrendering our Ego into Service to our Soul.  Uranus is on its way back into Taurus (Solid Materiality), after spending seven years in Aries (Creative Spirit).

♥ There is also much Grace in the chart (Grand Trines and Kites, Diamond Stars), but we’ll talk about that in Kegels 2.

Wow VIII

December 9, 2018

Just to slow us down when we do lapse into Trying to Understand, the next-most prominent elements of the Chiron Station chart are two Yin Gates.  A Yin Gate happens when three planets are one Sign apart, each Opposite another planet, forming a rectangle bisected in the long dimension.

Put Mercury (☿) at the bottom of the chart to see one of the Yin Gates, characterized graphically by two green Xs in a tall blue rectangle, with a red asterisk between them.  Put Ixion and Pholus (Pholus.svg) at the bottom of the chart to see the second Yin Gate.

A Yin Gate symbolizes a Mystery School, the purpose of which is to move the Initiate past the Duality of the mind and into Recognizing the Unitary Multidimensionality of the Real World.  Which means, from the perspective of Dualism, Paradox.  The Real World is nonlinear, the primary manifestation of which is that Contradiction is a property of the Observing mind, not a property of the Observed World.

The primary Paradox is Illuminated by the central Opposition – here Chaos (Unlimited Potential) Opposite Ixion-Pholus (Responding to our Forbidden Genius), and Mercury (Awareness) Opposite Sedna-Lachesis (Reframing Fear).  The four corners of the blue rectangle, and the diagonal Oppositions, flesh out the nature of the paradox.

So for instance we might initially believe that the likely result of Responding to our Forbidden Genius would be Punishment, as that has likely been our historical Experience.  In general, an astrological Opposition (Second Harmonic) doesn’t imply a Logical Contradiction, since the Second Harmonic is about Ritual.  The Opposition implies the Duality that we must Do the Ritual correctly or it won’t work, because the Power of Ritual lies in Repetition.

So the proper Cultural and Religious Ritual is to quite purposely NOT Respond to the Desires of our Forbidden Genius.  Responding would Open a social can of worms, of Unlimited Potential for Disorder.  Dwarf planet Chaos by itself doesn’t symbolize Disorder, it implies Unrealized Potential.  The proper Esoteric Psychological Ritual is that we MUST Respond to the Desires of our Forbidden Genius, or suffer forever remaining a Partial Person.  The proper Esoteric Religious Ritual is to Constrain Response to the Desires of our Forbidden Genius within the bounds of Rituals that are kept Private from the general public.

The proper 5D Ritual is that Responding to the Desires of our Forbidden Genius (and tolerating the actual or perceived 3D social condemnation) is necessary for Yintegrity to function.  As Rudhyar said, “When you don’t follow your nature there is a hole in the universe where you were supposed to be.”

Recovering your Forbidden Genius is a prerequisite for moving to 5D – where you will have Unlimited Potential to Manifest your Deepest Desires.  If you feel like you Understand that, you’ll have to Let It Go, because Paradox isn’t something that we Understand, it’s something we have to Accept, and something that’s Initiated by Confusion and Curiosity.  There are still miles to go before we sleep.

Quantum Jump 19: Vesta III

July 30, 2018

Here’s the Vesta Station chart…

The Square Fez, Golden Rectangle, and double T-Squares (or, together, Square Fez with double chinstrap) are drawn in heavy lines, and the Grand Trine in lighter lines.  To Identify each…

  • The Square Fez is Pluto-Venus-Chaos-Eris
  • The Golden Rectangle is Chaos-Eris-Vesta-Haumea
  • The T-Squares are the red triangles
  • The Grand Trine is Eris-Vesta-Mercury

Since we’re dealing with a Reorg of our Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta Station), it shouldn’t be too surprising that we may be Compelled (Pluto T-Square) to Violate or Reform our previous Values (Venus T-Square). 

Two questions are prominent – see if you can Hold them as Questions rather than trying to Answer them; our Answers always spring from what we already know, so it we use them to Close the Questions, we never Grow…

  • “I Wonder what previous Limits I’ll be Compelled to Exceed” (Pluto Quincunx Chaos-Asbolus)
  • “I Wonder what I may now be ready to See, that I’ve been Denying” (Venus Quincunx Eris)
  • These are the Diagonals of the Square Fez; any Fez is most easily approached through its Diagonal Quincunxes

And there are two Dualities that are important for us to Transcend or Unify.  Answers are more appropriate here, as long as we remain Open to Better (New or more Comprehensive or just plain outrageous) Answers…

  • My Hidden Genius and its Suppression (Vesta-Ixion Opposite Chaos-Asbolus)
  • Denial and Rebirth (Eris Opposite Haumea-Atropos)
  • The Grace in the Golden Rectangle (it’s blue in the chart; it’s Golden because the ratio of its ends to its sides is Sacred Geometry’s Golden Angle) is Liberated by Resolving its Diagonal Oppositions

A New Atropos-Haumea Cycle Begins 10 August at 24 Libra, “A butterfly with an extra wing on its left side.”  In general, the Left Side implies the Receptive or Yin side of things, so we could interpret the Symbol as an emphasis on the Feminine.  While the Cycle itself can be seen as enigmatic – Beginnings (Haumea) Initiating Endings (Atropos) – we can also read it as Quenching Hindrances to Rebirth.  Hence, Quenching Hindrances to the Rebirth of the Feminine.

Which puts us right into the Heart of the Eris Myths – Eris Challenged the Vanity of the Primary Greek Goddesses, as well as the Hubris of the Greek Gods who both Manipulated and were Enthralled by their Vanity.  That’s kind of a Metaphor for an Archetype in general – we are loathe to Surrender the Archetype because we Manipulate it to our Advantage, even while the Archetype Manipulates us to its Advantage.  Think manchild ‘Rump and daddyproxy Pootin’.

One of the easiest way to Resolve any Disharmony is to Reframe it as a Virtue, though it’s not about “Spinning” it, it’s literally about viewing it through a new legitimate Perspective.  For instance, Denial, while we use it as an insult to Manipulate Guilt in others, is actually a Powerful Psychological Tool that we use, mostly Unconsciously, to postpone what we’re not ready to deal with.

So the Eris-Haumea/Atropos Opposition becomes an Invocation to Accept greater Authority and Autonomy for the Feminine in our Personal and Cultural Beliefs and Actions.

The New Vesta-Ixion Cycle began 23 March at 28 Sagittarius – on the Galactic Center – “An ancient bridge over a beautiful stream is still in constant use.”  Our Hidden and Forbidden Genius Ixion is almost certainly a long- and well-honed Skill developed in many Past and Parallel Lives.  That could be our Ancient Bridge.  The Beautiful Stream could be the Unconscious Beliefs that have brought us to Where We Are.  In the spirit of Denial as a Powerful Focusing Tool, our Limiting Beliefs have served to bring us to the Cusp of Ascension.

A bit more subtle but Powerful is the “Still in Constant Use” part of the Symbol.  Even though our Hidden Genius has been Forbidden, the Limitation is more about Recognition than Use.  So while we won’t Talk about it, or use it in situations where it would be Seen, we actually use it all of the time when no one is Watching.  So there is Hidden Power in your Fantasies about Manifesting your Greatest Desires.

Fantasies are usually scenarios we don’t actually Want to happen, because they would overly Complicate our Life, disrupting too many of the Masks we use to Protect our True Self.  It may be reasonable to suggest that Enlightenment occurs when we no longer need to Protect our True Self, when we Realize that our True Self is actually Source and as such is not Vulnerable to Harm.

While Chaos doesn’t Initiate Asbolus until 2024, it’s a 96-year Cycle, so we can reasonably consider the five-degree gap between them to be at least Hinting about the New Cycle now.  The New Cycle begins at 4 Cancer, “A cat arguing with a mouse.”  The Cat here would be our Unlimited Potential, while the Mouse would be our Resistance to our Intuitions about Reaching into it to pluck its Fruit.

So how can we Honor our Fantasies more as Practice for Plucking the Fruits of our Unlimited Potential?  We could Fantasize that our Fantasies themselves Manifest in such a manner that our Resistance to them is undisturbed, that Miracles Allow our Deepest Desires to Manifest without Resistance from ourself or Others.  But that would be a Fantasy, which by definition we tend not to Want to actually happen.

What to do then?  We could PIAVA Both/And.  To do that we have to recast our Resistance to our Hidden Genius as our Friend.  Rather than the Side Effects we Don’t Want to happen as a result of Living our Genius Out Loud, list the Effects we Do Want to happen.  For instance, that might be Confidence and Celebration rather than Shame and Banishment.

Such a PIAVA is likely to be so Powerful as to Explode our Lifestyle, so we want to approach it carefully.  We can easily Entrench our Current Ego rather than Expand it, by asking it to Grow too much at once.  A Powerful approach to Powerful Shifts is to alternate Theta and Tapping and Resting.

Suppose we’ve been a Skinny Kid all our Lives in spite of our Best Efforts to the contrary, and we Want to stop Others from kicking sand in our face at the Beach.  We could start by Thetaing what the Italians call Bella Figura (https://www.theguardian.com/world/2018/jul/27/10-of-the-best-words-in-the-world-that-dont-translate-into-english).  Then when we get to the Show Me part, we just look to see what Resistance arises in ourself.

Then we Tap on that Resistance, and run the Theta again, allowing the Command phrase to Change as our Perspective on it Changes.  When we find more Resistance, we Tap it Out too.  After a couple of Iterations, or even just one, we Rest for several hours or a day or two, to let what we’ve Changed so far Integrate.  Then we run another Theta-Tap-Theta-Tap Sequence, and Rest again. 

Try this, and let me know how it works.  If you don’t already have the Theta and Tapping techniques down, the details are at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/ and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4.