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Eris-Uranus New Moon

June 3, 2016

Bottom Line

The 4 June New Moon is a major trigger for the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation, which is about Getting Honest with Ourselves around our formerly-Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  We’ve also referred to them as Masks and Archetypes, and Despair.  This is really about Rebirth.  Unfortunately it may not be the most Effortless Birth, as our favorite Pattern is to cling to our Olde Ego while the New Ego is trying to get born.  That’s very painful.

We have to Let Go and Let God/Goddess.  Trust the process.  Whenever the going gets tough, recognize that you’re in Resistance to the Change.  It may not at all be obvious what else you can do besides Resist – Resistance is your Olde Ego trying to Survive, and that’s exactly what Egos do for a living, they’re good at it, and that’s why you hire them, because when they Survive, you Survive.  Except during the occasional Rebirths; we have to endure an Ego Death to allow a Rebirth.  

Your New Ego isn’t formed yet, and while we may have an inkling where to find its chrysalis, we won’t know what it Feels like.  So we’re stuck with PIAVAs (“God/Goddess, please give me a clue what to do besides Resist” or “I Wonder what it will Feel like when I finish wriggling out of this old carapace that’s so tight I can’t Breathe”) and Tapping (“Even though I feel worthless and hopeless, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself”) and Empathizing (“You poor Sweetheart, you really feel like you’re being tortured, don’t you”) and the like.

Once you succeed in Letting Go, you’ll be surprised at how quickly it gets Easy.



1.  There’s a big Challenge to Embrace our Despair.  Remember that “Unconscious Despair” is failure to Believe that what you Need is even Possible.  Set aside your YesButs for a moment and Imagine that you could have what you Need or Want.  Now go back to your YesButs and convert each one to a YesAnd.  “YesBut you just aren’t Sexy enough to get that” might become “YesAnd I just Need one Lover.”  “YesBut you’ll never be able to earn enough Money for that” may be “YesAnd What If someone gave it to me as a Gift!”

You want to Touch that Feeling that you would have if your Dream came true, and hold it as long as you can, till it becomes a when rather than an if,  If you can hold that Feeling enough, it won’t matter whether your Dream actually Manifests, because you’ll already have what your Dream would have given you – Peace, Joy, Excitement, Self-Respect, Power, Grace.  What’s a Lover or a Red Convertible compared to that!  And if you had those Feelings most of the time, you could probably score Lovers and Convertibles pretty easy, if you still wanted to.

This is the difference between your Deepest Desires and your Mission in the Lifetime.  What you Desire isn’t actually the Object of your Dreams, it only seems that way because you live in a Material World.  What you actually Crave, what you came her to achieve, is How the Object of your Dreams Makes you Feel.  From that Feeling you can have anything you Ask for.  And guess what!  You’ll be Asking for different things, and they won’t have any YesButs.  It’s a Hologram, y’know, and you’re the projector.

2.  While this is a big Challenge, it doesn’t come without tools that can actually make it pretty Easy.  However, to manifest the Ease, we have to realize that Rebirth is the Ego’s Least Favorite party game, and Love our Olde Ego into oblivion.  Try Gratitude that It’s gotten you this far.  Try just really really appreciating how incredibly Comfortable your Olde Ego Feels, and PIAVA that your New Ego is going to Feel even more Comfortable once you’ve moved through the Grief of Giving Up your Olde Friend who’s kept you Safe.

3.  What will make your Rebirth Easier?  Getting Honest about what you’ve been trying to hide from yourself.  You may not know the details, but you know the general theme.  Abuse?  You don’t need to remember who or when, you just need to Trust your Feelings about it.  Fear?  Anger?  Embrace them.  Locate them in your Body, and move all of your Attention into the center of that place, and hold it there.  Bring it back when it wanders.  Stay with it till it dissolves or moves.  If it moves, follow it.

Eventually you’ll need to Surrender all Blame.  Blame looks toward the Past to assign Cause, while Responsibility looks toward the Future to improve Outcomes.  Any time you catch yourself attributing some Emotion or Sensation in your Body to any outside Cause, stop and bring your Attention back into your Body.  I’m always gnawing at myself because my neighbors have no idea what I’m trying to do in my Garden, and condemn it as a Jungle.

I need to catch myself thinking that, and bring my Attention back into my own Body.  Those Emotions and Sensations have their Roots in my Personal and Karmic Histories.  Those are my Emotions, the neighbors only trigger them.  I need to take up the Practice of locating them in my Body, and Loving them right where they are, exactly as they are.  If I Reject any Emotion, I dampen them all, and without any of them I’m not a Whole Person, I’m dis-eased.

Use this general model with everything that you suspect may be lurking in your Underwhere – Inadequacy, Self-Hate, Belief in Fate, Addiction, Guilt, Shame, any Limiting Belief, and anything else that comes up.  When the Emotion begins to Overwhelm, Tap it Out.

4.  The whole chart actually falls into a pool of Enormous Grace, but there’s a leak in the pool.  To plug it, we need to recognize the Challenges we’ve Lived through, Honor ourself for Living through them, and be Willing to talk about them so others can Learn from our travails.


The Astrology

  1.  Aside from the Eris-Uranus Initiation itself of course, the primary focus of the chart is a Chiron T-Square (Challenge to Convert Despair to Miracles) across and Opposition between an Ixion-Pholus Conjunction (Taking Full Responsibility to Let our Orphaned Genius out of the closet) and a Karma-Chaos Conjunction (But without my old Patterns it all looks Chaotic! or Karma is Dead; Long Live Karma!).
  2. This T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) is actually a Diamond Star (Making what would be difficult, Easy), with Sappho (Self-Love) and a Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction (either Feeling like you had this coming, or Recognizing that Rebirth feels like Death because they’re just different sides of the same Coin) on the feet of the Chiron Yod.
  3. The Eris-Uranus Initiation (Revelation of Denial) is at the focus of a Quintile Yod (huge Learning Opportunity).  However, the Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction Opposes the Eris-Uranus Initiation, converting the QYod into a Quintile Kite and shifting some of the emphasis onto Haumea-Nemesis.  A Yod pointing to a Sedna-Atropos Conjunction (The Demise of Fear, foreshadowed of course by the Fear of Demise) from the base of the Sextile from Haumea-Nemesis to Ixion-Pholus.
  4. Eris-Uranus, Karma-Chaos, Sappho, Haumea-Nemesis, and Ixion-Pholus form five points of a Grand Sextile (Enormous Grace, though we need to take the first step).  The Vacancy is 24 Aquarius, “A person, having overcome their compulsions, shares the deep wisdom that results from their experience: The constructive use to which difficult past experiences can be put as examples for those who are still striving to overcome their compulsions,” aka Archetypes/Masks/Karma.

21.5.16 Full Moon

May 16, 2016

The Full Moon is bang on Mars, and the Opposing Sun Conjoins Vesta.

Keep an eye out over the next several weeks for anything that makes you Angry.  It’s a doorway into Letting Go of a Limiting Belief.

The Full Moon is Squared by a Stationary OR10, which Conjoins Pallas and Nessus.  Nessus Initiates Pallas on 26 May at 6 Pisces, “A parade of army officers in full dress.”  Stationary Orcus, which turns Direct on 19 May, completes the Grand Cross, though it’s five Degrees off the Full Moon.  Orcus Opposes Nessus by less than a Degree.

One of the things likely to Anger you is War, or any other form of Abuse or Privilege.  The key is to connect with your own historical or Past-Life experiences of War or Abuse – they’re likely to be “in your face,” even if you don’t recognize them as yours.  Whatever you encounter – in your own Emotional bank, in movies, in the news, in other people – pretend that the experience was yours.

You made an Oath never to do that again over your own equivalent of that experience.  The Oath still Limits your current Life, in ways you may not suspect.  Be Loving and Gentle with yourself, but Let Go of that Oath.  You can “Revert!” (taking an Oath is really the equivalent of putting a Curse on yourself), Tap it Out, or just Ask Ganeshi to Lovingly and Gently Remove All Obstacles between you and Letting Go of the Oath, whatever it was (you don’t need to know the details; it’s enough to know that you have upsetting memories).

Sun-Vesta is the focus of a Finger of God from the Sextile between Juno-Lilith and Lachesis-Hylonome.

There is a Limit to Grief, and its beginning is reached by resolving to Let Go of the Archetype that binds us to Grief.  How many times in our Karmic history has War or other Violence taken our Soulmate, or our Children, or our Land from us?  Random Chance would probably “gift” us with this experience in more than half of our Lifetimes as Hupers.  

Looking back, we might find that we Cherish those as our “lucky” Lifetimes, when we were able to Enjoy Love or Family or Independence, at least till we lost it.  How many other Lives brought us none of those satisfactions?  We forget that Change comes to All things, good or bad, and we Vow not to Experience those Emotions ever again.  In vain; we can’t abandon Any Emotion without squeezing all of the others.  Each episode is an invitation to Take Our Power back.  We’re being Asked here to re-establish our Self-Sovereignty.

Makemake makes a Trine Bridge across the Full-Moon Opposition, forming a Sun/Vesta-Square-OR10-Quincunx-Makemake-Trine-Sun/Vesta Major Tricolor and a Moon/Mars-Square-OR10-Quincunx-Makemake-Sextile-Moon/Mars Minor Tricolor.

Permaculture looks beyond Sustainability towards Resilience – the ability to meet any Crisis with multiple Responses.  Our greatest tool for increasing Resilience is Curiosity.  “I Wonder how I can make Lemonade out of these Emotional intrusions.”  Don’t forget to Change the Subject; you want to get the mind and its YesButs and ThatWon’tWorks onto some other issue, so your natural Survival Instincts and Brilliant Intuitions have an Open Space to rise into.

Uranus inches ever closer to Eris; they’re now just over half a Degree apart.  Closely related, by Degrees, are Chiron (Unx), Sedna’s recent Initiation of Venus (Unx), Chaos’s impending Initiation of asteroid Karma (Sextile), Ixion (Trine), and Haumea (Opposition).

The Sedna-Venus Initiation occurs the day before the Full Moon, in 26 Taurus, “A Spanish galant serenades his beloved.”  The Chaos-Karma Initiation occurs 24 May, in 21 Gemini, “A tumultuous labor demonstration.”  

Whatever is happening in our Young Lives – and I know some of us are enduring torment – it’s roots probably lie in the Masks we retain.  There are still things we admit to no one, and still things we don’t admit to ourself.  No one is proposing that we expose ourselves to Shame, but it would behoove to Ask what triggers Shame for us, then Lovingly Embrace it.  We’ll never get to the bottom of these puzzles without Curiosity and Intuition – if we could get there by other means, we would have done so long ago.

For some of us, Matter is bottom-line, for others of us, Energy.  Our Perspective on Life and Difficulty depends a lot on this Duality.  But it’s not Either/Or, it’s Both/And.  Spirit, Matter, Mind, Emotion, Soul – these aren’t discrete “levels” or compartments of Reality, they’re Perspectives on Reality.  Reality itself is Unitary and Multifarious.  There is Power in shifting Perspective.  

If you’re struggling with a Physical issue, try Asking the Universe to show you pictures of it in the languages of Emotion, Thought, Spirit, and/or Soul.  If you’re struggling with an Emotional issue, try Asking the Universe to show you pictures of it in the languages of Soul, Spirit, Thought, and Body.  If you’re in the middle of a Spiritual Crisis, Ask to be shown what it looks like from the Emotional or Physical point of view.

If the result is Confusion, you’ve arrived.  Your only task is to sit with the Confusion, without trying to “fix” it by seeking Certainty.  Certainty is a method, not a result.  You Ask, “What if I did Know?” when you’re stuck in Duality.  Then you examine the consequences of that Knowing.  But you don’t want to assume you have the “right” answer – the Universe is much too complex for that.  We might move in the “right” direction for a little while, but I guarantee that soon enough this direction will lead us astray.

Pluto Trine-Bridges the Nodes, and Jupiter makes a Waning Square to Saturn as Jupiter prepares to Initiate the North Node at the end of June.  The Can-Opener of the Jupiter-Saturn Waning Square occurred in early August of last year; this one (exact 26 May) is an Exposition.  This Waning Jupiter-Saturn Square marks the final Swan Song of the Industrial Age.  Expect economic malaise until the Digital Age reboots in 2020.

Even though it’s not pleasant, Trust that we’re moving in the direction we need to go.  Resilience will be particularly important for the next four years, and Trusting our own Truth increases Resilience markedly.