Quantum Jump 23: The Real Thing IV

♥ A reader writes…

“The post you made this morning about PTSD really hit home.  I don’t think you totally understand the actual biochemical experienceof being triggered, though.  It’s not something that one can ‘laugh off.’  It, in one instant, starts a chain-reaction of chemicals that, even in the most peaceful of people, takes a certain amount of time to ‘come down’ from.  I can sometimes choose to ‘channel’ the energy – into exuberant song, physical activity, dance, speech, performance, whatever: but people don’t like that either.  Rock and hard place doesn’t begin to illustrate it.”

I do appreciate that, and didn’t mean to reduce PTSD to anything less than the Monster that it is.  Thanks for pointing this out.  I’ve been impressed by Bessel van der Kolk’s book The Body Keeps the Score (which recommends Theater as a pathway to Healing) and by Gary Craig’s success with Tapping (see Gary’s – not Dawson’s – book EFT for PTSD, or Gary’s website https://www.emofree.com/trauma/ptsd-post-traumatic-stress-disorder/stubborn-article.html).

♥ Besides the T-Squares in the 7 August (10am PDT) Uranus Station chart, there’s the Grand Cross…Which is four Squares end-to-end.  A Grand Cross doesn’t make its four T-Square Challenges automatically Self-Resolving, but the four do tend to Assist one another, if by no other way than Distracting us before we can get hung up too much on any one of them, the way we do when they’re Isolated.  Grand Crosses tend to make us good at Multi-Tasking, and good at Tolerating Incompleteness, if not Disorder – Skills very useful for Creativity.

The Grand Cross introduces us to two new Corners; asteroid Moira and Saturn-Quaoar. 

Moira represents the Choice we all have between Accepting Our Fate and Changing it.  Virtually all of the Greek and other Classical Dramas, which seem so Fated, are about Consciousness, or lack of it.  Yes, “Fate” can Chase us out of town or Shame us into a Speck, but What If we turned around and Stood Our Ground? 

I know, there’s a bus about to flatten us, but what have we got to Lose?  Our Karma.  Flattened might be a far better Choice than being Stuck in an Archetype that constantly Abuses us.  If stepping in front of the bus was the final Choice that Liberated us from the Archetype, in the next go-round we could be Reborn as the Abuser.  That may not be much of an improvement, but it might be Easier to Stop Abusing than it is to Stop Being Abused.

Fate is nothing but the Choice to Not Choose one of the many Alternatives.  I know, it’s usually not Conscious, but that’s the point.  Fate – aka Karma – is what happens to us when we aren’t Conscious.  If we Don’t Like it, we need to Get Conscious about it.  Our Fate starts to Change when we stop Feeling Bad about going through the Olde Pattern again, and start Feeling Good about Noticing that we went through the Olde Pattern again.

You probably remember that Saturn means The Most Important Thing, and since Quaoar is about our Survival Instincts, Saturn-Quaoar tells us here that Our Survival Instincts Are The Most Important Thing.  Not sure about you, but this week I hear more people talking about how it feels like the End Times, than I did last week.  Which is Good, because the End Times is the Track we’re on.  The sooner we stop Lamenting that we’re on the End Times Track and start Feeling Good about Noticing that we’re on the End Times Track, the sooner we’ll start Choosing Alternatives.

♥ Notice that in the Grand Cross, the Venus-Makemake T-Square makes another Diamond Star…

So whether or not we can Manifest (Makemake) What We Want (Venus) depends on whether we can start Choosing Alternatives to being on the End Times Track (Moira Opposite Saturn-Quaoar).  But as a Diamond Star, this is Self-Resolving.  The Grace which Allows that Flows from the Uranus Station itself (Allowing Soul to come Home) and OR10 (making Lemonade from our Intrusive Memories).

♥ The Moira T-Square and the Saturn-Quaoar T-Square are also Diamond Stars.  In the Moira T-Square…

Our Choice (Moira) is to Get Conscious that our Despair Because We Can’t Always Get What We Want (Chiron Opposite Venus-Makemake), is a natural result of our Failure to Choose one of the Many Alternatives to the Choices we make every day.  For instance, we could make the Choice to Feel Grateful that Sometimes We Get What We Need.

The Cosmic Assistance we get to make this Dilemma Self-Resolving, is Consciousness of our Karma (asteroid Karma) so we can Act Contrary to it in order to Create Self-Sovereignty (Mars-Lilith-South Node).

♥ In the Saturn-Quaoar Diamond Star…

the Duality to overcome (base of the T-Square) is about our Despair (Chiron) and Desire (Venus-Makemake).  Definitely try Poor-Sweethearting.  If you’re a Buddhist you know that Desire and Despair are really One and the Same from the start, but even then you may not make a Clean jump from Idea to Emotion.  It’s a Human Dilemma irregardless.

The Self-Resolution (the Trine Bridges or blue lines) arrives through Appreciation for our Vitality (Varuna-North Node) and through Comfort with Molting (Sappho-Nemesis).  We’ll need a separate post on that, as it’s a much bigger event and topic than the iceberg-tip we see here.

♥ This leaves only the Chiron T-Square as failing to Self-Resolve.  However the Chiron T-Square is also a Corner of a Grand Trine, which may make it even Easier than a Diamond Star…

It’s a Fire Grand Trine, fitting for Chiron now in Aries.  This will be a big Change for us, as we get enough Chiron in Aries under our belts to see the Difference from Chiron in Pisces.  Sure, we’ll Encounter Spiritual Despair, but that’s a whole lot less gut-wrenching than Emotional Despair, even if it’s more serious from other Perspectives.  Spiritual Despair eventually leads to Surrender, and as long as that happens before we pull the trigger, it Opens us to a Whole New World of Miracles.  Chiron does a Pisces Debriefing between late September and early December, but other than that we’re home free.

The Duality that we need to overcome here is between Fate and Survival (Moira and Saturn-Quaoar) – we do need to Choose Alternatives to business-as-usual, and we’re running out of time.  The Dumb-Luck Blessing is about Distinguishing the parts of our Karma that we actually want to keep.  Our Karmic Patterns are some of our greatest Skills, we just use them in too many inappropriate situations.

Once we Learn (Notice) and Practice breaking out of our Karmic Straight-Jackets, we need to put them in a closet.  Later on they’ll become Life-Jackets instead, once we Learn to apply them only when they fit the circumstances.  Think about your most tenacious and unpleasant knee-jerk Reaction, the one you’d most like to Change but that causes you the most Difficulty. 

Then Imagine someone else Reacting that way.  Now Imagine yourself in any given situation, and freeze-frame while you consider whether to use it or an Alternative as your Response to the situation.  I know, you’ve been in that Coulda-Woulda-Shoulda place a zillion times – after the fact.  You just have to Practice going there before the fact.  Acting it Out with friends will help.  Karma is a wound in our Timing, and when we get to the Seventh Harmonic we’ll see how favorable this week is for Good Timing.

Notice that Uranus and OR10 do make Trine Bridges to the Chiron T-Square, they’re just on the “wrong side” of the tracks to make a Diamond Star.

♥ The Venus-Makemake T-Square is positioned the same way, with an Air Grand Trine enhancing its Diamond Star.  The Friendly terms are Unexpected Ease at Loving Ego Death (Sappho-Nemesis), and the Willingness to Take Action to Choose an Alternative to our usual Reactions, an Alternative that Enhances our Self-Sovereignty rather than Surrendering it.  PIAVA Painless Self-Sovereignty, then Change the Subject and watch it happen.

Paranoid Thoughts?

We’re approaching 9 June’s Station of Nessus (3am PDT).  As most of you know, a planet’s Energy is Strongest at, and leading up to, its Station, and Nessus is about Healing Abuse and Privilege.  It’s in Pisces, which is all about Finishing Business and Letting Go of Excess Baggage, especially Heavy Emotions, so we can begin the next leg of our next Journey with a Light load.

Of course the quickest way to Heal anything is to Embrace it with Unconditional Love and Empathy, and to do that, we sometimes have to Re-Experience it in some form.  So all manner of Guilt, Veiled (or otherwise) Fear or Terror, and other Ugliness may arise between now and 9 June, including otherwise-unexplained unpleasant Experiences with other people that are Unconsciously Standing In as bit players in our Karmic Dramas.

Yes, they could be Reincarnations of our former Perps, but why not give them the Benefit of the Doubt and let them be Innocent, as in their Present Incarnation they’re likely to be.  After all, they could as likely be Reincarnations of former Victims or your own Abuse and Privilege, just with the roles switched for variety.

It’s important to be Aware that this is happening, so we can Respond positively.  It’s very easy to attribute such Flushbacks to the Present Moment, even though our daily Dramas are probably dime-novel Re-Enactments of our Karmic Traumas and all of Their previous attempts at Re-Enacting themselves, some of which could have Been or Felt very Real.

Remember that Consciousness pervades Everything, including our Karmic Traumas, and if we’re still in Separation (which to some extent we All are if we’re still Incarnate), then these Traumas are virtually “Entities” with a Life of Their own.  Until we Merge with Them, which can Be and Feel quite Horrible while we’re Transitioning into Their Experience. 

And once we’re Inside of Their Experience, we may need some or all of our Enlightened Consciousness (we All have at least some) to be Unconditionally Loving with Them.  Considering how many Lifetimes we’ve probably Lived (likely approaching Infinity), we have Seen It All Before, so it’s more about Being Loving and Gentle with all the Ickiness, once we get past being Horrified.  Maybe we should practice with Slugs.

When we mis-identify Karmic Flushbacks as Present Moment events, we’re very likely to make Decisions or Oaths like “I’ll never do that again” or “I’ll never talk to them again,” or far worse.  Decisions like this rapidly become Unconscious Limitations, and inhibit our Liberation.

We’ll draw up the chart soon, but suffice it to say for now that Orcus, the planet of Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking, Opposes the Stationary Nessus, forming the base of a T-Square to asteroid Moira.  Moira is about Fate.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; Choice is what we Choose to exercise when we’re Conscious.  So we’re Taking Our Power and Breaking an Ancient Contract with our Fate, potentially the one that equates Life with Suffering.

We tend to think of such Contracts as “Facts of Life,” but in fact they’re just Political Choices we made so long ago that we’ve forgotten that it was our Choice.  While the Resistance may be substantial, and the Implications may be complex, we can actually Choose Whatever We Want.  And if we Consider it carefully and boldly, we can actually also Choose trivial Resistance and simple Implications.  That’s on of the reasons why we recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently” to our PIAVAs.

There is also a T-Square to asteroids Nemesis and Lachesis in the Nessus-Station chart.  Nemesis is about Ego Death, while Lachesis is about Choosing to Shift a Karmic or Fated Timeline before it would Shift on its own.  So what we’re really doing here, should we Choose to Accept it, is Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance. The base of this second T-Square is the Nodal Axis, with Mars (Anger or Action) on the South Node (Held Emotions) and Aletheia (Truth) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime).

Here’s Daniel Scranton’s Channeling for today…

http://danielscranton.com/join-team-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are taking nothing for granted when it comes to our participation in the shift in consciousness.  There are so many beings in this universe who are working to ensure that the shift not only occurs, but that it occurs in the way that serves the most.  We invite any and all of you who want to be a part of this conscious creation to move beyond waiting for something to happen.

“We invite you to join us in ushering in the shift and bringing about an expanded consciousness throughout the entire universe.  You don’t have to wait for any major event to occur in order to participate.

“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen.  It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team.  You have opportunities every single day. They come to you in the choices that you are being given.

“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive.  You can help by processing your emotions.  You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters.  You can be kind instead of being right.  You can forgive.  You can send transmissions of love and compassion.  You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.

“As you make a commitment now to joining the team that spans the entire galaxy and all dimensions, you are helping to usher in the best possible shift that we can all experience.  We are inviting you to join us, and we know many of you already have, but as you make the declaration, you are automatically accepted onto our little team.

Timelines II

Before I go on to the Saturn-Klotho Initiation and the Haumea Station charts, let me annotate the previous post a bit more; I had to hurry it out the door because of engagements otherwise…

As Dan & Friends, and others including us, have frequently pointed out that we Feel our way into New Timelines…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/01/17/having-it-all/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/10/09/piafa-ii/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/01/02/world-peace-timeline-ii/

The Saturn-Klotho 4-Capricorn Initiation (“Capricorn 4 is ‘A group of people prepare a large canoe for a journey by water’ – starting another Timeline, an Emotional one,” 5pm PST 21 January), points us in that direction…

The chart isn’t as messy as it looks.  Put your thumb over OR10-Nessus-Nemesis at the upper right, and what we have left is a Diamond Star Enhanced by a Grand Trine…

That’s a pretty Exalted chart!  It’s all about Boundaries (Pallas).  The would-be Challenge (the T-Square) is about whether your Boundaries Enhance your Life Force or Drain it (Varuna-Aletheia), and whether your Values Serve your Self-Love or Diminish it (Venus-Sappho).  Which are pretty Fundamental, and Serious, Challenges. 

But it’s a Diamond Star – the “Bowl of Grace” under the T-Square includes What We’re Manifesting (Makemake), and Which Among Our Beliefs are Archaic (Vesta-Karma).  These are “free clues” that, if we’re Open to the Information they provide, will Facilitate our Letting Go of Values that Diminish our Self-Love and Boundaries that Drain our Life Force. 

By PIAVAing Clarity about the Disconnect between What We Want and What Actually Is (Makemake), we can see where we need to go next with our Tapping and Poor-Sweethearting.  And by PIAVAing Loving Awareness of our Archetypes, we can see where we need to Learn new Responses to the World (Vesta-Karma).

Then we have that fat Earth Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace) in the center, promising Great Blessings between our Boundaries (Pallas), our Truth (Veritas), and our New Timeline (Saturn-Klotho-Quaoar).

But where are the promised Emotions?  None of these twelve planets are in Water Signs.  They’re under your thumb – OR10-Nessus-Nemesis in Pisces.  OR10 signifies Intrusive Memories, Nessus represents Abuse, Nemesis symbolizes Ego Death, and Pisces is about Finishing Business with Emotional Baggage.  Yes, that’s all very Threatening, but it’s a zit on the side of a well-organized chart full of incredible Grace. 

So yes, by all means Feel and Embrace any Fear that the Threat of Revisiting your PTSD evokes.  That step is critical, as without it you may have to Re-Experience the Trauma rather than Revisit it.  What to do with Fear?  Certainly Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4), Breathe (Fear + Breathing = Excitement), and do your Kegels (which in combination with Fear cause Time to slow down so it’s more manageable). 

You may want to enlist an Ally to help keep part of you in the Present Moment.  We Heal first by first Holding our Traumatic Regression and our Present-Moment Safety in our Awareness at the same time – which is why we’ve been practicing Cognitive Dissonance (Holding Contradictory Beliefs without Competition between them) all these years.  And second, by enlisting our Present-Moment Self to Poor-Sweetheart our Regressed Self as a start toward Loving Her Unconditionally and Lovingly Reparenting Her.  Or Him.

We’re describing this as if it’s an easy mechanical process when in fact it’s an Overwhelmingly Emotional process.  But maybe not as Overwhelming as we Fear.  Karma is Dead.  We know that Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp our Karma, only because it’s a Habit we have.  Our Present-Moment Self and/or our Ally need to Give us Permission to Let Go of the Habit.  Yes, we drop into the Void when we drop that Habit, but Emptiness is the Womb that precedes Rebirth – another important reminder for our Guides to Give us.

And the chart is full of Grace.  Healing our Emotional Baggage is only the Rider; the Enhanced Diamond Star is the Horse.  The Horse can carry you much farther, and with much greater Ease, than you can travel on your own.  And the Timing is Gloriously Right.  Grand Septiles are rare, and if we can use this one to Let Go of Emotional Baggage that stands between us and our Liberation, it’s a phenomenal Blessing.  You know from Experience how Effortless something is when the Time Is Right, and how Impossible the same task can be when the Time Isn’t Right.

One more boon.  Nessus-Nemesis (Letting Go of Trauma) is part of a second T-Square, with Vesta-Karma (Archaic Self-Sabotage) and Veritas (Present-Moment Truth).  This T-Square is Trine-Bridged by Pallas/Boundaries – the primary Benefactor of the original Enhanced Diamond Star…

So, what would happen if there was an additional planet Opposing Saturn-Klotho, at 4 Cancer?  We’d have another Diamond Star, which would greatly Ease the whole Letting-Go-of-Emotional-Baggage process.  A Vacancy in an almost-Major-Configuration becomes the Power Point of the chart, because if we can Consciously provide that Energy, we Complete the Configuration and Balance the Energy – the astrological equivalent of Tapping. 

Cancer 4 is “A cat arguing with a mouse.”  That’s our Doubt, Anxiety, and Lack of Trust.  Arguments are Either/Or contests, Energy-wasting Diversions.  So we need to be Hypervigilant for these Mental Noises, Poor-Sweetheart them, Tap Out the Anxiety, thank them for attempting to contribute, Chuckle at them Tenderly, and send them away with instructions to return when they’ve Negotiated Win-Win.  They’re likely to come back with the password to Smaug’s hoard.

Stalking II

I believe it’s important to keep in mind that the Patriarchy is dying.  Unfortunately, these kinds of thing aren’t unique to the demise of the Patriarchy, but what we want to Visualize is Women, Together, Walking in Beauty, Secure in their Selfhood and their Right to be Safe and Present and Unapologizing for Who they Are, chins neither lowered nor raised, spines straight, shoulders squared, so that no Woman is ever Alone, Ever, always embedded in this Energy of quiet Power and Strength.  

Ready to become very noisy Power at a moment’s notice.  Men joining them in collaboration, and the men that are too threatened by this Energy isolated and cowering in Fear as the Energy rises, running for their lives.  A tsunami of this Energy crashing over the walls of the Olde Boy hangouts with all of their Sanctioned and Unsanctioned criminality, their Slaves and Bitches rebelling.  Here’s Shonda Rhimes’s story about the progression of Power in one arena (Year of Yes, pp.171-3)…

“This moment right here, me standing up here all brown with my boobs and my Thursday night of network television full of women of color, competitive women, strong women, women who own their bodies and whose lives revolve around their work instead of their men, women who are big dogs?  That could only be happening right now…

“Fifteen years ago… there’d have been maybe a few women in Hollywood [with decision power].  And a lot of D girls and assistants who were gritting their teeth and working really hard…

“Thirty years ago… maybe there’d be a thousand secretaries fending off their handy bosses back at the office and about two women in Hollywood in this room [at a Women of Power award ceremony].  And if I were here, I would be serving these two women breakfast.

“Fifty years ago, if women wanted to gather in a room … well, it better be about babies or charity work.  And the brown women would be in one room over there and the white women in another room over here.

“From then to now … we’ve all made such an incredible leap.”

“This?  Was a group effort.”

There is Movement.  Without relaxing Vigilance, we need to recognize that there has been Progress.  Shonda’s talking specifically about Dynamic Power, but her industry is about Creativity, which doesn’t happen without Magnetic Power.  She’s talking about the Dynamic Power which makes room for fully respected Magnetic Power.

The Stationary Chariklo is at the focus of a Yod (Pay Attention!) based on a Hopi-Asbolus Sextile (Knowing Intuitively who we can Trust), and it’s Trine-Bridges (provides a shortcut to) an Asbolus (Intuition) T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) across the Orcas-Nessus/OR10 Opposition (Irrupted Memories of Oaths Against Abuse)…

The suggestion is that our Intuition flows when our chins are neither lowered nor raised, our spines are straight, and our shoulders squared.  Have we made Oaths to Abandon ourself because we thought we’d be Safer that way?  Maybe it’s time to vacate those Oaths, to Revert!

Which Configuration produces a Major Orcus-Square-Asbolus-Quincunx-Chariklo-Trine-Orcus Tricolor (I Wonder if I can get Clearer about which Oaths may be sabotaging me, by Standing Tall) and a Minor Nessus/OR10-Square-Asbolus-Quincunx-Chariklo-Sextile-Nessus/OR10 Tricolor (I Wonder if Standing Tall will help me deal with these Memories of Abuse).

Wondering if Standing Tall will help us see what Promises we need to Vacate and how to Respond to our Memories.  Not the kind of Wondering that requests an Answer or Solution, a permanent sort of Wondering, a Surrender of Control.  Followed by Changing the Subject – moving on to deal with other issues that can divert the mind – while we make space for our Intuition to speak to us.  

If we don’t otherwise engage the mind, we cannot break through to a new Way of Seeing the World, the Way we’ll need in the future.  The old Oaths and Promises we made have probably been long lost in the Unconscious, and were probably made to help us Survive in the face of someone Abusing their Power over us.  We may be spontaneously re-experiencing the original sources of the PTSD we’ve been pretending we weren’t afflicted by. 

The Chariklo-Stationary chart features a strong Shamanic Kite Configuration – Mars (Action) Biseptile Chiron-South Node (Past-Life Despair) Septile Mercury (Awareness) Septile Moon (Instinct) Triseptile Mars, which creates a Mars Septile Yod on a Mercury-Moon base.  The Seventh-Harmonic Septile series of Angles are about Timing the use of Power – about Acting only when the moment of Greatest Power arrives, and prior to that building up our Energy to provide maximum thrust at that moment of Greatest Power.

There is a strong Call to Action, a Call to Act differently this time, than we Acted at the time we made our original Oath.  There’s also the suggestion that in the Present Moment we’re actually Safer than we Feel ourselves to be – what we Feel is Memories of past Abuse.  In the Present Moment we have immensely more Power than we had then, and we need to Ground ourself and be Present with our Power, rather than letting ourself Regress to the situations where we had no Power.  Shonda again (op cit pp.64-5)…

“Power posing like Wonder Woman is when you stand up like a badass – legs in a wide stance, chin up, hand on your hips.  Like you own the place.  Like you have on magical silver bracelets and know how to use them.  Like your superhero cape is flapping in the wind behind you.

“I’m not just some dork telling you to pretend to be Wonder Woman.  It’s a real thing.

“My online network tells me to power pose like Wonder Woman and reminds me of the actual studies that say that power posing like Wonder Woman for five minutes not only improves self-esteem but even hours later improves how others perceive you.  Let me say that again.

“Standing around like Wonder Woman in the morning can make people think you are amazing at lunchtime.”

“(You don’t believe me?  Watch the TED Talk.)”

http://video.ted.com/talk/podcast/2012G/None/AmyCuddy_2012G-480p.mp4

Hylonome New Moon

While the New Moon occurs at half-past 4am PDT on 7 April at 19 Aries, the highlight will be a Station of Centaur Hylonome at 10pm PDT 6 April, at 5 Capricorn.  Hylonome is another one of those Archetype-busting Ego-Deathing dwarf planets, so if you get caught up in one of those hypercurrents, remember to Celebrate the Liberation you’re receiving after spending who knows how many Lifetimes as a Slave to some Self-Sabotaging Oath you made who knows how many eons ago to try to protect yourself from what was then a serious threat to your continued Survival.  And 19 Aries is cozied right up to Uranus, representing our True Self, who will much prize the Liberation, believe me!

The overall New Moon chart is quite auspicious, so the deeper you descend into TraumaDrama on the 6th, the more Ecstasy you’re likely to find on the 7th.

The New Moon-Uranus Stellium includes by extension Eris and Veritas (that is, while Eris-Veritas is more than three Degrees from the New Moon, it’s within three Degrees of Uranus, which is within two Degrees of the New Moon – New Moon 19 Aries, Uranus 21, Eris 22, Veritas 24).  Uranus-Eris-Veritas Opposes Haumea at 23 Libra, which is in turn only a little more than two Degrees from Lilith (at 25).  

This Opposition (New Moon-Uranus-Eris Opposite Haumea for the least Sensitive among us, and New Moon-Uranus-Eris-Veritas Opposite Haumean-Lilith for the more Sensitive) makes a Quincunx Bridge to the Nodal Opposition, with Chiron still close to the South Node, and a Trine Bridge to the Opposition between dwarf planet Chaos and the Saturn|Ixion Midpoint (Saturn’s at 17 Sagittarius, Ixion at 25).  Complicated I know, but the result is a Golden Rectangle intersecting a Grand Cross, which we can interpret at Hypercompetence.  

The corners shared by the Grand Cross and Golden Rectangle are Chaos and Saturn|Ixion, signifying…

Unlimited Potential will result from Paying Attention to our Abandoned Genius – only our Limiting Beliefs will keep us from Soaring.

The free corners of the Grand Cross are the Nodes and Chiron, while the free corners of the Golden Rectangle are New Moon-Uranus-Eris and Haumea.  Oh, and by the way, Jupiter Biquintiles New Moon-Uranus!  In other words…

We have an enormous opportunity to Let Go of Discouragement, Rebirth ourselves into Honest Intimacy with our True Soul Self, and leap forward into our Mission for the Lifetime.  Don’t worry if you’re unsure of exactly where your Mission lies, just Follow Your Bliss.  Now, if the only thing that will hold us back is our Limiting Beliefs, what can we do about those?

Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) still Opposes Juno (the Edges of Consciousness), with Sappho (Self-Love) T-Squaring them…

So we have a fabulous Opportunity to Master our Limiting Beliefs, by moving toward non-Judgment.  Sappho represents Singing the Praises of Love, and in her original form, it was Lesbian Love.  

So imagine (whether you’re in a boybod or a girlbod) seeing your Inner Female in the Mirror, and walking right through the glass to first Hug, and then Merge with Her.  Take a few steps while Merged with Her.  The “two” of you occupy the same space, but She is backwards relative to “you” – Her left foot moves backward as your right foot moves forward, and Her right arm swings forward as your left arm swings backward.  If you practice holding this dual Consciousness for a few minutes once or twice a day for a while (it’s not easy), pretty soon you’ll start seeing out of the eyes in the back of your head – a whole new level of meaning for “Feminine Intuition.”  As a bonus, you’ll also gain a better physical metaphor for Parallel Lives.

A T-Square may be Mastery, but it’s Mastery through Challenge.  We’re already Challenging our Homophobia, but what else might behoove us?

Well, Jupiter and Neptune both Trine-Bridge the Sappho T-Square.  Jupiter is four Degrees from an exact Opposition to Neptune, but otherwise they form a second Golden Rectangle.

Vive la Ressemblance.  We need to Allow our Identity to Expand, Embrace our Confusion, Surrender Control, and Trust the Process.  Actually, not that hard, once you’re Aware that it needs to be done.  Yes, it could disrupt “business as usual” in your Life this week, but you won’t regret the interruption.

Emotion and Trauma

Emotions are not an Energy to be Controlled, they’re an Energy to be Respected and Listened to.  Without our Emotions we couldn’t keep ourself Safe, we couldn’t find Community, we couldn’t Transition from one Life phase to another.  Emotion becomes a problem when it Overwhelms all of our other Media.  We’re awakened in the middle of the night by a noise in the house, and our Body is overcome by Fear.  We become Ungrounded, and the mind is only useful for trying to figure out what the noise was and how much time we have to escape before being hacked to death by the neighborhood Samurai.  

Compared to our normal State of Being, and compared to being Grounded and Centered, our Experience of our Body is entirely different when Fear grips it.  In that kind of circumstance, we want to suppress our Fear Reaction just enough to Recover all of our other Senses, so we can be fully Present for attending to any danger that may actually befall us.  In other circumstances, Fear or Anger or Grief may grip us, but our Experience of our Body isn’t Overwhelmed.  Instead, our mind is Overwhelmed by Anxiety or Worry or Hypervigilance.  Actually, in many Experiences of that sort, our Sense of our Body may actually be very different – but our Anxiety is taking up so much bandwidth that we don’t even know what our Body Feels like.

Then there is Trauma and its aftereffects, situations where we are definitely not in the Present Moment, but reliving a segment of our Trauma.  We can’t Judge Trauma objectively; we can’t say whether we should or shouldn’t have been Traumatized when Ms. Grundy shamed us in front of the class, or we fell off that roof, or Uncle Fred slapped us for farting during Thanksgiving dinner, or the Nightly News comes on.  Or worse.  Trauma Reactions are subjective.  They depend on our State of Being as much as the exterior stimuli, and not in any predictable way.  The difficulty with Trauma is that it keeps on giving.

When a Present-Moment situation triggers a memory of part of our stored Trauma, we React as if we were in the middle of the Trauma, when it occurred.  And it occurs on the Unconscious level, so we don’t know that we’re not in the Present Moment.  Until we notice that the cars don’t have tail-fins, or that we aren’t in the jungle or the desert, or that the wallpaper is a different color.  Drunk drivers kill more people every week than were killed in Paris, and in the US allopathic medicine kills more people in two hours.  But we don’t notice that, because the Paris attacks trigger different stored Traumas.  Unless it was our own family or friends that were killed by drunk drivers or allopathic medicine.

Gilles gives us an interesting Perspective from stage right…

https://sailingondreams.wordpress.com/2015/11/22/slippery-ice/

And Donna taps Dawson Church for a thorough Tapping sequence that can probably be adapted for dealing with any resurrections of Trauma…

http://innersource.net/em/article/468-resources/1173-tapping-script-for-incomprehensible-tragedy.html

It’s an excellent example of the form Tapping can take when it’s taken seriously – as it deserves to be.  Many people say “Oh I tried Tapping and it didn’t work,” but I question whether they’ve tried it to this extent.

I remember lifting my head at the wrong time while crawling under a table, and after I Recovered my sense of Self, making an Oath never to let myself be unaware of my surroundings like that again.  I was probably about nine.  Some of our Traumas came with Oaths, and some didn’t.  When Mother Shamed us we may have Sworn never to let anyone see that we were Shamed, in hopes that they’d lose interest if they didn’t see a result.  Or maybe an Oath never to get caught doing that again.  We make Oaths like this fairly often, usually without considering the context and unintended consequences.  Each one becomes a Limiting Belief, mostly Unconscious, and constrains our Future.

You’d think that if I decided I wanted to, I could bang my head on the underside of a table all I wanted, and that’s probably true, though you’d also think I’d be old enough to know better.  But what about other situations where I don’t want to be hypervigilant about my surroundings.  Suppose I want to relax my Boundaries so the Birds in the Garden can come speak to me.  Or I want to avoid jerking my head when I see something move out of the corner of my eye, because when I do that I’ll never make contact with the Sylph there.  It’s much harder to downshift from the unintended consequences of our Oaths, and in fact often very difficult to connect our current Limiting Beliefs to our historical Oaths, because our vision doesn’t penetrate the Veil.

Oaths are declarations of Intention – PIAVAs, and to reverse them we need a reverse PIAVA – an AVIAP if you will.  If “I Intend to reverse the Oath that Separates me from connecting with the Critters and the Faeries,” then I’ll need to Change the Subject and Pay Attention this time.  I may need to Pay Attention not to hit my head, if indeed this is the Oath that applies here.  The adage, “Be Careful what you Ask For” very much applies here.  When we PIAVA or make an Oath, we’re calling Energy out of the Ethers and coaxing it into Form.  In some circles, all broken Oaths must be Punished.  If we’re dealing with an Oath that severely Limits us, we may want to Celebrate this Punishment!

Supposed for instance in our youth we Vowed not to Cause Trouble, however it was that our Significant Adults at the time defined “Cause” and “Trouble.”  We could easily have made such an Oath because we were tired of being Punished by them, even though their definition of Trouble never made sense in our own playbook.  Well, now that we’re compelled to Open up to our Pathological Genius, we may need to “Cause Trouble,” in many ways by many definitions.  Pathological Genii are Disrupters, and Disrupters Cause Trouble for the Status Quo.  When we make an Oath to accept the Trouble that our Pathological Genius will create, our Psyche will Punish us, because in making our original Oath we were Merged with our then-Significant Adults.  

They’re no longer around, but a portion of our own Unconscious carries their Energy, and fills in for them.  If you think they no longer have Control over us because we’ve “grown up,” try going home to their house for a few days.  That self-administered Punishment may just take the form of Anxiety, or appear in the form of “Accidents,” like my bumping my head.  Or worse.  Remember how Confusion is good because it’s the first stage of Growth?  Well, maybe we need to adopt the same approach to Anxiety and Accidents.  Oh, there’s Anxiety!  I must be Breaking Through a Limiting Belief!  “I Wonder what Limiting Belief this Anxiety is connected to!” (that’s a PIAVAW).  Curiosity about these Realms will help us untangle ourselves from the Archetypes and Oaths that structure our Personal Unconscious.  The more we know about that, the better.

All that just to introduce a Full Moon.  Well, not just a Full Moon, because Wednesday’s Full Moon is intimately connected to Thursdays Saturn-Neptune Square.  And once we get beyond that, the predominant Energy is that of the dwarf planet Orcus.  Orcus is the Punisher of Broken Oaths.  But we’re Learning to Recognize this Punishment as an early stage in the process of Letting Go of Restraints, Celebrate it, and Study it to understand as many of its ramifications as we can.  So we can PIAVA that our Punishment be mild and relatively obvious in how it’s Connected to what Oath or Archetype that we’re betraying, and that we notice the Connections.  The Unconscious is our Ally here, and need never be otherwise.  Since it’s in Control of our Life 99% of the time, it behooves us to befriend it.

The Full Moon Sun is Conjunct Saturn, so Neptune, Square to Saturn, T-Squares the Full Moon.  But the Stationary Orcus Opposes Neptune, so the Full Moon makes a Grand Cross with the Neptune-Orcus Opposition and the Saturn-Neptune Square.

There is Powerful Medicine here to Manifest a Reality that’s more to our liking and closer to our Heart’s Desire, based on the Limiting Beliefs we’re Releasing and the Freedom that results.

The only Grace Blessing the Grand Cross is Mars Conjunct Makemake, which Trine-Bridges the Full Moon and Quincunx-Bridges the Neptune-Orcus Opposition,

There are also very strong Insights available over the next few weeks, about how to increase our Yintegrity, and how to Enjoy doing it. 

Venus and Uranus Oppose one another at the far midpoints of the Moon-Neptune Square and the Sun-Orcus Square, respectively.  The result is two interlocking Mjolnirs on the opposite sides of the Grand Cross.

There’s more.  The Saturn Square will shake loose additional Unconscious Contents, and they will irrupt to seriously Confuse and torture us with rampant Feelings that make no sense whatsoever in our current Concept of how Reality is assembled.  Confusion!  Wow, we’re about to make leaps and bounds in our understanding of how Reality works, and this Confusion is just the first step.  Time for Celebration!  It already Feels like we’re drunk, so we may as well make it so.  But not while we’re driving – driving is dangerous enough in our Confused State.

Dwarf planet 2007 OR10 (Revelation of Unconscious Contents) is close enough to Neptune to be considered Conjunct for many purposes, and thus Opposite the Stationary dwarf planet Orcus.