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Self-Love Full Moon III

August 17, 2019

One of the poles of the Fabulous Grace (Grand Sextile) in the Full Moon – with the caveat that you have to kick-start the Blessings with at least a Prayer about What You Want, if not Action in that direction – is a Merger (Conjunction) between the symbol for Revelation of What’s Been Denied (dwarf planet Eris – which was recently Stationary) and the symbol for Ending Timelines or Habits (asteroid Atropos).

To facilitate this Getting Honest stuff, the symbol for Truth of the Heart (asteroid Aletheia) just entered (11:30 pm PDT 16 August) the Sign of Fearlessly Seeking the Truth (Scorpio).  You may not recall that the symbol for Truth of the Mind (asteroid Veritas) (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/25/truthiness-2/) entered the same Relentless Sign a short while ago.  While Head-Truth folks can Agree to Disagree, Heart-Truth people are less likely to be able to Compromise, because their Identity is invested in their Truth.  So we may wish to PIAVA or otherwise Pray that this Potential for increasing Violence doesn’t Manifest.

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-us-canada-49382386

Meanwhile, we’re now well into the Energy of Letting Go of Obsolete Habits (asteroid Atropos, Stationary) peaking 20 August (11:30 pm PDT).  The Fabulous Grace in the Full Moon, which should Bless at least the next two weeks, if we can Feel and Express enough Collective Gratitude for it, could well soften this potential Confrontation of Truths that are Held as Sacred.  We might PIAVA that we and others Decommision our Habits of resorting to Violence to “Get Our Way,” of preferring inflammatory Rhetoric to Listening, and of Working to Eliminate our Opposition rather than Accommodate or Contain it.

Another Boon is the symbol for Choosing Consciousness over Fate or Karma (asteroid Moira) entering the Sign of Ego Death (Virgo) on 19 August (5:30 pm PDT).  If our Ego is Attached to our Karma – which like it or not, for all of us, it is, or we’d just Let It Go before breakfast…

– we may now be more willing to Accept the Ego Death(s) necessary for us to Choose Awareness over Repeating our old Self-Sabotaging Patterns.  Ego Deaths don’t have to be Painful.

By 23 August, two other Boons arrive.  The symbol for Growing the Edges of Consciousness (asteroid Juno) also enters the Sign of Loosening Ego Attachment (Virgo) (5pm PDT).  And the symbol for New Beginnings (asteroid Klotho) moves into the Sign of Flexibility and Change (Gemini), which should make it easier to give up old intransigent Patterns (12:30 pm PDT).

It’s not often that all four of the Greek Mythology symbols for Fate versus Conscious Awareness are lit up at the same time.  The symbols for Fate itself (Moira), and for Starting New Timelines (Klotho) are both moving into new Signs, while the symbol for Consciously Ending Obsolete Timelines (Atropos) is very Strong (Stationary).  And we haven’t written about it yet, but the symbol for Consciously Choosing the Duration of our Habits (asteroid Lachesis) is Lit Up in the Full Moon chart (the focus of one of three Fingers of God).  I read this as a fairly Unique Opportunity for Massive Personal and Global Change.

Busy August III

August 1, 2019

Scorpio is Fearless, Relentless, and won’t stop till it gets to the Bottom of Things.  When you try to Bullshit or Obfuscate or Avoid Scorpio’s penetrating Investigations, Scorpio can get very Icy.  You can tell when you’re dealing with someone who has an emphasis in Scorpio, because they Hold your Gaze.  That Intimidates many.  You can certainly tell Scorpio that it’s None of their Business, but good luck trying to Divert its Attention.  This is the nature of Scorpio as an Energy, not as a Huper.  Note that Pluto Energy is very similar.

So, correcting our brainfart of Busy August I, we are starting a Nemesis New Moon.  You can think of your Nemesis as an Enemy who’s eventually going to Whup Yer Ass, and there isn’t much you can do about it.  I think that’s not far from the use of the term in everyday language.  And yes, if you’re thinking about Getting Yer Ass Whupped, then yes, I’d say you were Guilty – of something.  Feelings are – or are supposed to be – Energy in Motion, or E-Motion for short.  So if you’re Stuck mulling on some kind of Guilt, as with any other Feeling, the Energy needs to Move.

So how do we Move Guilt?  Well, it isn’t usually quite that Clear-Cut, is it.  When we was Kids the Rules were probably pretty Clear, and we were perhaps Punished for Transgressions.  So we had to Hide (Guilt ain’t Moving, is it), or Confess.  If as Adults we Break a Promise, and the Relationship is a Keeper, we of course need to Make Amends.  Breaking Laws can be a bit more complex, because we may Resent rather than Respect the Law we Break.  Being Stuck on Resentment isn’t any Better than being Stuck on Guilt.  In fact, many people Wear their Resentments as if they were Merit Badges.  That’s Ego doing the Wearing.

Guilt is actually similar.  You Transgressed somehow, and your Obedience – or the Continuity of your Consciousness about your Desire to Obey – to whatever Rule or Promise you Broke, becomes a Demerit Badge stuck to your Ego.  You don’t Feel Good about yourself, or you feel like you need to make Excuses for yourself.  But, Amends may not be appropriate.  Someone may be Angry at you for not keeping an Agreement you actually didn’t make.  They just Expected you to Behave a certain way, but you didn’t.  You aren’t Wrong, but you Feel a bit Guilty anyway.  Like, Maybe I Shoulda.  Or If only I’da Known!  Or even, My Moon must be in Klutz!

If you pick up on the Thread, you’ve already noticed that Guilt, Resentment, and Nemesis are about Ego.  They’re neon signs that tell us our Ego needs to Grow.  Egos are nothing if not Tenacious, kind of like Scorpio.  So Egos don’t usually Shift, even if it’s a Shift into Growth, without a fight.  Consequently, we interpret asteroid Nemesis as Ego Death.  The hallmark of Ego Death is the sense that I’d rather Die than do that.  Well, Ego Deaths are seldom fatal to the Body, so, even though we thought we were Experiencing something about Dying, we were really Experiencing something about EgoI would rather Die than…

After we Feel Terrible for a while, we finally Accept what’s going on, bite the bullet, Decide what we have to Do about it, if anything, and Move Forward with a New Ego, vs. 815.9.  We can save ourselves a Shitload of Grief by Learning to Recognize the Signs of Ego Death, and instead of Suffering through the Purgatory of it, just Let Go and Let the Shift happen, quickly and easily.  Beside the I’d rather Die business, other signs of incipient Ego Death are Confusion, Forgetting what we know by Heart, Getting Lost a block from Home, and Major Lackawanna.

So this is what’s likely to be going on for the next few weeks.  Use it as the Learning Opportunity that it is.

October-December

October 4, 2018

Here’s a quick sketch of the rest of the year.  It’s unlikely to be complete…

5 October – Venus Station at 11 Scorpio (noon PDT) till 15 November at 26 Libra. 

Venus is about our Values.  Our Programmers like to think that they’ve saved the World by Programming us to follow their Values – or perhaps their great grandparents’ Values, depending on how Conscious they were.  They want us to think of our Values as permanent features of our Righteousness – Mr. Kavanaugh is a great example; he Identifies strongly with his Values, but Denies his Behavior. 

We’ve been studying this space since 3 September, and now we go back over it, looking at the detail.  What are the last five Degees of Libra and the first ten of Scorpio about?  They’re about Discovering that Other is a Mystery that we perhaps can’t Control as much as we’d like to (Leo-Virgo Duads of Libra), and Beginning to try to Make Sense of that Emotionally – Not Intellectually (Scorpio Decanate of Scorpio).

A Duad is 2½ Degrees, a Decanate is 10 Degrees.  The first Decanate of Scorpio consists of its Scorpio, Sagittarius, Capricorn, and Aquarius Duads.

Again, Kavanaugh and Ford are our poster children.  When you’ve Violated an Other Individual and you’re too Privileged or too drunk or both to notice that it’s a Violation – you think their Terror is hilarious – you can’t understand why you’re being Victimized by Blame.  If you aren’t Willing to be Conscious about it, you Make Sense of it Emotionally by Raging about your Victimhood – you Feel Violated because your Values are that Power and Privilege are Sacred.

And when you’ve been Violated and you were Programmed to Believe that your Culture is supposed to assure that People are treated Fairly, you study Psychology for the rest of your Life.  The academic path much prefers the Intellectual (Ms. Ford is a statistician) to the Emotional, however, so Resolution is unlikely until you’re Willing to Re-Experience your Held Emotions.

The Venus-Retrograde period is about Reviewing your Values to try to Rectify them relative to Perceived Reality.  If Consciousness prevails, our poster kids – and us as viewers of this movie – will be Questioning our Values about Power, Privilege, and Fairness.

Three September through 5 October (Venus Direct across the Shadow Period) postulates the Issue for us – in this example it’s “Where are we in the Fall of the Patriarchy?” – but in terms of your own Values it could be anything or everything.  Our Review (Venus Retrograde) runs through mid-November.  Then we take what our Review had taught us, and adjust the rest of our Life accordingly.  We won’t be done with that till mid-December (Venus again Direct across the Shadow Period)

The Shadow Period is the span of a Retrogradation.

Hopefully we’ll get enough of our Review done before the election to make a Difference.

8 October – New Moon at 16 Libra (9pm PDT)

The October and November New Moons bracket the Venus Shadow Period.

11 October – Juno Station at 1 Gemini

17 October – BZ509 Station at 6 Capricorn

18 October – Nemesis Station at 19 Gemini

24 October – Full Moon at 2 Taurus (10am PDT)

27 October – Sappho Station at 27 Gemini

2 November – Varuna Station at 3 Leo

6 November – Uranus backs into Aries (11am PST)

Election Day in the US.  Uranus in Aries is about Making Space for your Soul in your Life; Uranus in Taurus about Allowing Soul to Descend into Flesh.  Now that we’ve had a taste of the latter, we can see that we haven’t made enough Space, so we’ll go back and work on that some more, till early March.

7 November – New Moon 16 Scorpio (8am PST)

8 November – Jupiter Enters Sagittarius (4:30 am PST)

15 November – Moira Station at 22 Cancer

16 November – Venus Station at 26 Libra (3am PST)

 – Mercury Station at 14 Sagittarius (5:30 pm PST)

19 November – Nessus Station at 7 Pisces

20 November – OR10 Station at 4 Pisces

22 November – Full Moon at 1 Gemini (9:30 pm PST)

25 November – Neptune Station at 14 Pisces (5pm PST)

6 December – Mercury Station at 28 Scorpio (1:30 pm PST)

– New Moon at 16 Sagittarius (11:30 pm PST)

9 December – Chiron Station at 28 Pisces

10 December – Orcus Station at 12 Virgo

21 December – Capricorn Solstice at 1 Capricorn (2:30 pm PST)

22 December – Full Moon at 1 Cancer (10am PST)

24 December – Juno Station at 21 Taurus

3 January – Makemake Station at 6 Libra

5 January – Solar Eclipse New Moon at 16 Capricorn (5:30 pm PST)

6 January – Uranus Station at 29 Aries (12:30 pm PST)

10 January – Eris Station at 23 Aries

12 January – Lachesis Station at 23 Taurus

Full Moon Scramble II

December 3, 2017

BTW, as of 11:30 pm PST 2 December, Mercury is Retrograde, till 22 December.  It backs across the last half of Sagittarius.  That’s the Gemini half of Sadge, promising more Change.  Mercury in Scorpio (16 October through 6 November) would have had us researching some topic exhaustively.  Then Mercury in the first (Sagittarius) half of Sadge, 7-15 November, would have us trying to shake ourselves loose from the conclusions of our research.  Sagittarius is about Burning Away what’s Unnecessary. 

Mercury in Scorpio wants Answers, but we know that it’s Wonder that Liberates us, not Understanding.  So we may have wrestled with ourself in early November, part of us Wanting Freedom, and the rest of us Craving Clarity.  This is what’s particularly educational about Cusps.  It’s an Either/Or, which always means it’s about Politics, Power, Judgment.  Which feels better, which is best – Freedom or Clarity.  With Either/Ors we always look for the “Coin,” right?  An Either/Or sticks us in one Dimension, a line, where we bounce between the two ends of the finite line. 

If we’re talking about something like Scorpio and Taurus, an Opposition, the Dance between Emotion and Matter, between Fearlessness and Beauty, it’s easier to find the Coin – it’s just Manifestation.  But Scorpio and Sagittarius are adjacent.  What’s the Coin between Ice and Fire?  We could say Water, but Water isn’t really a Dimension with Ice on one end and Fire on the other, it’s just what you get when Fire attacks Ice.  What if Ice wins.  What would you have then – Smoke?  You can see the Confusion.  But that’s what’s special about Cusps – Confusion is the first stage of Growth.

There’s a sense in which each Sign is a Reaction to the previous Sign.  Scorpio feels Compulsive, Sagittarius just Shakes It Off.  The Coin there could be Attachment.  There aren’t any Rules or Conclusions for this, you just make it up as you go along, because it’s your Growth and your Edges.  No one else’s.  And it’s different every time.  But when you move from an Either/Or to a Both/And, from a line to a “Coin,” you’re moving from Judgment to Inclusiveness.  That’s an important step toward Unconditional Love, toward Wonder and Mystery and Collaboration with the Universe.  Is there a sense in which you struggled with Attachment to something in the second week of November?

Then at the Ides of November we moved into the Gemini half of Sadge, till 2 December.  Chances are we didn’t know that we were being set up, that it was the first of three Adventures with these Degrees.  Usually when this first third of a triple Dance happens, we’re presented with what feels like a Problem, something that makes us nervous and inspires us to try to “Solve” it, or “Fix” it, or Change it, so we aren’t troubled by Anxiety anymore.  In Real Life, rather than in our mind, this is just Curiosity.  Western Culture trains us to need to squelch Curiosity, to come to some Resolution.  But Wonder is akin to Love, as they both Eschew Judgment.

So if we’re able to exit the Dualistic mind, we get to Wonder, to Detachment from needing it to be one way or the other, Letting it be both way at once, or even three or four ways at once.  Like watching a bonfire, watching the Flames Dance, uninhibited, as if no one was watching.  Now we’re getting somewhere.  How do we Feel while we’re watching the Flames?  Where is our Identity?  Are we the Wood?  The Fire?  The Air that the Fire needs to keep Dancing?

That’s where we are today.  Mercury has reached the End of Sagittarius, the End of the Gemini half of Sadge, and it’s slowed down and Stopped.  Our minds have Stopped.  Gemini’s about to go back and see what we’ve learned about Detachment, or about whatever Coin applies to your own recent Experience, your own recent intellectual Ruminations.  Can you tell the difference between your Experience and your Thoughts about your Experience?  Are you actually Living, in the Present Moment, or are you Thinking about it?  How many of your Senses are Engaged?  What does Identity Smell like?  Is Detachment Comfortable, or does it make you Anxious?

So for the next three weeks, while Mercury is Retrograde, we get to Explore these issues.  The movie has Stopped, and we get to get up and walk around in the Hologram, look at Attachment and Identity from many different Angles.  Try new things or Roles, things we’d never ordinarily Do or Be, just to see what happens when we do.

Meanwhile, Mercury has been Out of Bounds.  That means it’s Stronger than usual.  It went Out of Bounds on 9 November, and comes back In Bounds on 7 December.  So we’re doing some extraordinary Identity and Detachment work here.  We won’t put it all to bed till 10 January – once Mercury turns Direct again, it will be Dancing for a third time over this second half of Sagittarius – this Zauberisches Theatre, as Herrman Hesse called it, where we’re Free to Act Out any Role we Want to.  Try to Avoid Conclusions – we’ve barely begun to Explore.

Who Am I?  What Am I Doing?  It’d be a great time to read Steven Levine’s Who Dies, the quintessential Examination of Identity and Attachment.

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Oh, did I mention there’s a Full Moon tomorrow?  I saw it last night through the Clouds.  Here’s the chart of the 3 December (8am PST) Full Moon…

You can see how strongly the Energy flows toward the Moon, toward Authenticity and Manifestation.  How can we be Authentic if we’re auditioning new Roles every few minutes?  That’s easy.  Authentic means Authentic in the Current Moment.  Consistency and Continuity belong in other Realms, not this one.  This is the Dance of Freedom, of Freedom to Be who we Want to Be in each Moment.

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In addition to the Big Emphasis on Freedom to Change that we’ve been discussing here and in the previous post, the chart tell us…

Grace and Effortlessness flow from Trusting what lies beyond Ego Death… 

The Full Moon makes a Grand Trine with asteroids Nemesis (Ego Death) in Aquarius (Community) and Eurydike (Trust) in Libra (Meeting Other).  That puts the Sun (Essence) in Sagittarius (The Way Out is Letting Go) at the head of a Kite (Directed Grace, here Directed toward Essence).

We’re being Challenged to Open new doors into the Unconscious, into what lies beneath and behind our Limiting Beliefs, to Let Go of the Restraints that keep us from Respecting All Things, to be Present and Loving with the Truth of Memories that force us to alter our Self-Concepts…

Nemesis (Ego Death) Opposes asteroids Aletheia (Truth) and Mnemosyne (Memory), and the Opposition is T-Squared (Challenge to Mastery) by the Stellium (group of planets) of Jupiter (Expansion) and asteroids Vesta (Limiting Beliefs), Hopi (Respect for All Things), and Karma (Inertia).

Grace also flows from the Truth of these Memories…

A second Kite is formed on the Moon-Nemesis-Eurydike Grand Trine, this Kite focused on Aletheia-Mnemosyne.

And Greater Grace yet flows from Following our Guidance…

The two Kites make up five corners of a six-cornered Grand Sextile (Ease at Manifesting).  When a major Configuration like a Grand Sextile is formed but for one of its corners, that Vacant corner becomes the Most Important Point in the Configuration, because it’s up to us to provide the Energy of the Vacancy, in order to unleash the Full Power of the Configuration.  The Vacancy here is 11 Aries, “The ruler of a nation.”  We’ll ignore for now the implications of that Symbol around the Antichrist, and reframe it as Our Guidance.

However, the Stars won’t let us be so casual about it, as there is a Fixed Star sitting in the Vacany.  The Star Alderamin completes the Grand Sextile for us.  Bernadette, in Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars (p.104) tells us…

Alderamin “would relate to the concept of the successful king, raised to the heavens as an example for others to see and learn.  This star, therefore, could well talk of a different role model for male sovereignty.  At the moment the model, as a collective statement, is one of aggression.  At best it is simply out of step with planet Earth and the laws of nature and is thereby a destructive influence.  However, Alderamin could represent a balanced male energy in harmony with the feminine and the Earth but focused and concentrated, in contrast to the more intuitive energy of the feminine.”

We’re told that the essence of Conservatism with its focus on Separation and Me First (and often Me Only), is Attachment to Authority.  Conservatives are lost without someone to tell them what to Do and Believe and Say.  Authority can come from many sources.  If we render unto Mammon what is Mammon’s, we can seek our own Authority elsewhere.  This Full Moon will point each of us toward our own Authority.

Our “left brain” or analytical side likes to Believe that it thinks for itself, and enjoys following the Authority of Logic.  Logic, however, is a house of cards built upon Assumptions.  The nature of Karma is such that we often do not even know what our Assumptions are, we simply follow the Rules that we Believe will keep us Safe, without looking to see who is actually driving our Vehicle.  This Full Moon is a test for Authority of all sorts – the Authority of our Limiting Beliefs, the Authority of our Defining Concepts and Philosophies and Religions, and not least the Authority of our Communities and their Political Systems. 

We may even get to see whether the Ruler of a Nation is subject to the Authority of the Laws of that Nation, or vice versa.

 

Year of Living Deeply

October 8, 2017

Debbie Asks that we have a look at Jupiter’s Passage into Scorpio, which occurs 10 October (5:30 am PDT).  Her request is inspired by a long and worthy 5 October essay by Aluna Joy Yaxkin about what’s happening simultaneously on the Mayan Calendar…

 https://www.facebook.com/alunajoyyaxkin/posts/1701129196573499

“The odd void space, that we have been stalled in since January 2013, I feel is over.  This is great news for us.  We will finally begin to move forward with greater momentum.”

The article, A Year of Great Potential and Tips on How to Achieve Your Goals, includes several very succinct and very timely passages.  For instance, among her Tips…

“4. Set your intentions, but don’t wait around to see if it manifests.  Once you set an intention, and you hesitate and look back to see if you are going to get a result for your work, you are already telling the universe that you are questioning if it will happen.  Remember, the universe listens to you, your intent, your motivation and even your doubt.  Realize your immeasurable power and light.  Put your intent and action out into the world, and move on.”

That’s a subtle point in Manifestation.  Even feeling the need to repeat a Prayer can be a little dodgy.  It depends a lot on our mental and Emotional state when we do it, but much of that is Unconscious.  I find that it works great to modify and clarify a PIAVA, and to reissue the same Prayer after an intervening Letting Go such as Tapping out Anxiety about our need for the Prayer.  And we often need several “practice runs” till we get the phrasing just right, or till we focus our Attention enough to get through the Prayer to the end.

The interesting thing about this tip is that it’s bang on for today’s Eurydike-Venus Initiation (which we’ll write about soon).  Even the phrasing, “you hesitate and look back to see if you are going to get a result” that you want, is straight out of the Eurydice Myth.  Eurydice was wed to Orpheus, but she stepped on a Snake and was  killed while running from attempted Rape – what a classic Patriarchal Myth theme!  Orpheus, like Miranda…

could sing you to tears, which he did to the Patriarchs and their ilk, till they relented and let him retrieve Eurydice from Pluto’s lair – on condition that he not look back as she followed him out.  He was tricked – once he was out he looked back, but she still hadn’t cleared the threshold, so back she went.

But, Jupiter in Scorpio.  Jupiter of course is the Great Amplifier.  Virgo breaks down the individual Leonine Ego in order to prepare one to Meet Other in Libra.  Once we Meet and Dance with Other, we end up very Confused (first stage of Growth, right?), so we’re Compelled to “get to the bottom of this Other Thing,” which is what Scorpio is about.  Scorpio is Relentless and Fearless.  While Libra can appear (from outside) to resemble Codependence, social convention is a minor and easily-ignored inconvenience to Scorpio.

Scorpio is Fixed Water, but Ice it’s not (unless you try to stand in the way of its Relentlessness, or it gets combined with Sociopathy and becomes Ruthless).  Think of it as Water – Emotion – under very high Pressure, like the Water at the bottom of the Ocean.  Think of it as carrying the Emotional weight of Generations, of Tribal histories even. 

Folks often mentioned the demise of the Ottoman Empire when trying to understand the chaos at the breakup of Yugoslavia, but no one mentioned that this was where the Romans settled the Ostrogoths!  Sure, the Babelian chaos in the Middle East today has its roots in World War I, but it goes back to the Greeks and Persians and beyond.  Native Americans say that everything that ever happened in a Place is still going on there, and if you visit a Powerful monument, you can very much feel it.  Puerto Ricans that stay in 3D will still be Living Out their Revenge toward the Antichrist many generations hence.

Aluna Joy’s third Tip is “3. Do not get pulled into the dramas playing out in the world; nor the inevitable conspiracy that follows any tragedy.”  Easy to do if they don’t Trigger our own Karmic hot buttons.  But if they do, we need to get to work Clearing those Patterns.  Which is precisely why “there is a lot of polarizing drama in the world right now” – it’s urgent that we get Clear of our Archetypes because they won’t fit in the overhead bins on the flight to 5D.  The dramas are Invitations, and Jupiter in Scorpio will Invite us to Dive very Deeply into those which are Karmically “ours.”

The faster you can Poor-Sweetheart yourself when you feel yourself being sucked in to them, the Easier it will be.  Scorpio can be as Fearless and Relentless about Getting Clear as it can be about Wallowing in Muddy Waters – your Passion for Clarity needs only to be stronger than your Addiction to Drama.  That would be an ideal Intention to Declare as we move into Jupiter in Scorpio.

While Scorpio and Pluto and Saturn are Heavy, Jupiter is Light.  So the worst case here is the tendency to Enjoy Revenge that we’re seeing in the Trolls that abound on the Internet.  Like the Antichrist and its Follies, that Trolling Fascinates the Media.  That’s an Addiction we need to break as quickly as possible.  Scorpio tells us that “the Way Our is Through” – we don’t eliminate an Addiction by Avoidance, we eliminate it through Indulgence, but with a difference.  For instance, AA Indulges the Addiction, but through Sharing Honesty in a Safe Environment rather than through the original Addictive medium. 

Indulging with Awareness is key, because we need to become very Conscious of our Triggers, so we can spot them sooner while they’re Easier to redirect.  It’s a dangerous business, but Scorpio is Fearless and Relentless. 

“Hit me,” said the Sadist.  “No,” said the Masochist. 

Our Self-Sabotaging Archetypes run Deep, and to root them out we need to Dive as Deeply.  There is an Edge where we will still be Aware that Poor-Sweethearting is possible, before we lose ourSelf in the Addiction.  That Edge is where we’ll be Dancing while Jupiter is in Scorpio.

It’s very important to Congratulate yourself for Noticing that you slipped again, rather than Abusing yourself for slipping.  If you don’t Love Yourself Unconditionally, you’re a Masochist.  That’s the first Archetype you need to Transcend, because it’s the root of all the others.  That’s more important than failing to Love Other Unconditionally.  Aluna Joy’s first Tip is “1. First take care of yourself before you engage yourself out in the world.  I know this can feel self-centered and selfish to many sensitive ones.  But if you are not fully ready to take action, what you manifest will reflect this.”

This fifth Tip is also profound (a Scorpio word)…

“5. Listen to your first hits.  Doubt usually follows truth.  Any time you have an amazing realization, it is quite common to have the next thought sabotage it.  Example … You might have a spontaneous insight about what you are to do next, or where you need to place your energy, and then you immediately think of 20 reasons why you can’t do that. 

“If you find yourself feeling negative a lot, go back one step to find out what was the first thought you had.  If you are having a lot of negative thoughts, you could actually be having a lot of incredible semi-subconscious insights as well.  Just take a step back, and look at your first thought.  That original insight might feel much like the way you access a memory of a dream as you wake up in the morning.”

Remember to Yes-And rather than Yes-But.  Instead of “Yes, But I can’t Hurt them,” do “Yes, And I can somehow do it without Hurting them; I Wonder how.”  Then you’d of course Change the Subject and let your Intention Manifest.  If you follow it, your Yes-But Patterns will hijack it (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).  Once you’ve Changed the Subject and given the Universe and its Ally the Unconscious a few days or weeks to start the process you’ve Intended, it’s time to Pay Attention to see what actually happened. 

That’s the time to Modify and Clarify, and Reissue your Prayer, because your Unconscious Resistance will be Revealed.  If the Mirror is too Funhouse to understand, PIAVA Clarity and Change the Subject.  You’ll be Relentless and Fearless, but be careful not to issue so many PIAVAs at once that you can’t tell which PIAVA the Universe is addressing when you Pay Attention.  Coalesce your PIAVAs if you have too many.  For instance, if you Want Money and Relationship, Ask yourself what Emotion each of these will bring.  Security?  PIAVA that instead.

If you can bring all of your PIAVAs into the World of Emotion, you can Practice them directly.  You may not have any Experience to rely on if you Imagine what it will feel like to have Money and Relationship.  But in some circumstance at some time, you may have Experience Feeling some degree of Security.  The more time you can spend indulging that Feeling, the faster you’ll Manifest What You Want.  That’s the Passion side of Jupiter in Scorpio, and Passion is the glue that holds the Material World together.

Now, what would Jupiter in Scorpio, here in 3D Time, look like from the Perspective of 5D?  Well, when we raise ourSelf to 5D (I know, you don’t know how to do that, but Yes-And your Higher Self absolutely does, all you need to do is Ask), what I see is a giant Roomba racing around our Life, vacuuming up the detrital Karmic Patterns that obscure the Lost Fragments of our Soul.

If you look at the chart of the Pholus-Lilith Initiation in the previous post, you’ll see six Unx Angles (the short green lines) connecting planets in the same Degree of adjacent Signs.  An Unx shows the Twelfth Harmonic, the Harmonic about Pattern-Breaking.  There will be eight Unxes in this evening’s Eurydike-Venus Initiation.  These will show the Patterns most open to be Let Go of.  For instance, Chaos Unx Sedna – Letting Go of our Fear of the Unknown is Available to us.  See if you can interpret the other five.  For example, Nemesis Unx Lilith-Pholus-Quaoar-Ixion-Galactic Center; Breaking our Pattern of Resisting the Ego Deaths that prevent us from Accepting our Forbidden Genius and our Ability to Respond to the Galactic Program of Gaia Ascending to 5D.

Cause an Defect Full Moon IV

August 9, 2017

Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…

As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively.  Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality. 

(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious.  Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)

You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after.  That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly.  Abundance is having enough to Share, After all. 

This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force)Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while.  As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd?  And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?

Expressing our Anger (Mars) can Create Community, and it can drive folks away.  While Communing with Everyone is a fabulous Aquarian goal (http://danielscranton.com/your-universal-family-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/), we may not actually be ready for such Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.  And that’s all right.  We Are Who We Are, moment to moment (http://danielscranton.com/creating-experiences-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/).

We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness.  While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.

This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality.  Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community.  Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form.  Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form.  Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence.  To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain. 

The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege.  Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions.  Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal.  To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes.  Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions.  As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.

While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional.  Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs).  Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality.  Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.

The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love.  That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time.  And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger.  The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.

Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy.  Dan and the Arcfolk concur – http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ .  The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.”  Hmmm.  I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis.  But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.  

There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda.  Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power.  Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm.  In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood.  If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.

Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us.  Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it.  It’s a foundation for our Ego.  So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping.  We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger.  While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.

To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it.  Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort.  “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.”  It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation.  If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t.  “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.”  Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.”  Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.

The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4).  If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations.  Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress.  Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.

We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul. 

We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession.  Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?

If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death.  That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort.  Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong.  But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.

So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart?  What would we look for?

Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus.  These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair.  Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?

Well, yes. seven of them.  We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets.  So seven is a whole bunch.

We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…

Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things.  We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us.  This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.

It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion.  It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that.  We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.

Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth.  Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio.  Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with.  Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.

Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures.  Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.

These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them.  Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.

That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.

So, which planets are we talking about?  Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.

Whoa, this is Big.  The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack).  Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot.  All very strongly Lit Up this week.  So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts.  Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?

Oops, have to interrupt again.  A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy.  What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?

Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture.  For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet.  What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged!  The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.

So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference.  Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all!  So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.

And that’s just two planets.  With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times.  To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40.  However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?

Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true.  You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium.  You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.

And now you’re going to run into another problem.  Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio.  When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon.  I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates.  That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.

So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while.  Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating.  There should be a reasonable number of those folks around.  You won’t be their Onliest…

Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you

as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.

Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho).  So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children.  That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.

So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings.  We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.

Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio?  So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!

Did someone say Obsession?  Damn Right!  Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!!  It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime!  So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is!  Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.

Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue.  Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle).  That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly.  To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.”  Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.

So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above).  “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero.  If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different.  This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?

Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it.  Are we done?  Not a chance.  Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron.  Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…

A T-Square is like a graduate seminar.  We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent.  But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.”  In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions.  No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.

It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily.  You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.

So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.

That’s what T-Squares are all about.  Now, what about this Mercury T-Square?  Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you.  Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk.  So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.

If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it.  You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk.  You could write best-sellers about it.  You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first.  I guarantee you, it is True.

Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed.  With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are.  You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.

Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…

Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled).  Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules.  To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.

But you’ll always be condemned for it.  So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others.  And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you.  Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).

In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand.  That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project.  It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you.  Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.

But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone.  So you’ll have to Learn to Notice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness

Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.

What’s that?  Oh, we aren’t quite done?  Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio?  Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong).  All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.

We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample.  The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway.  This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.

Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.

And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both.  We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.

Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too.  It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it.  Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself

Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.

That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.

Shedding

December 30, 2016

Snagged on a poignant Vignette this morning, I caught myself beginning to indulge my Pain.  So I Shed – which feels somewhere between Opening my Angelwings and pouring a quart of (dry) water over my head – and in the process Realized that Stephen Levine’s writings would be particularly Powerful for us in this phase of our Transition.  My copies of his books aren’t handy, but I believe it was Healing into Life and Death or Guided Meditations, Explorations, and Healings that I was thinking of, probably the latter, the one full of incredibly Heart-Opening Guided Meditations.

There is a big difference between Forgiveness and Boundaries.  Forgiveness is a Discovery, not a Decision – you wake up one day and Discover that you aren’t Angry at them any more.  Which doesn’t mean you can’t Invite Forgiveness into your Life, as Stephen often does in these Meditations.  This is a Memory, not a quote…

“Whatever you may have done to Hurt me, Consciously or otherwise, I Forgive you.

“Whatever I may have done to Hurt you, Consciously or otherwise, I Ask that you Forgive me.”

I don’t think Stephen would mind if I misquoted him or borrowed his Work; he had an Ego as Inclusive as the Galaxy.  We’re approaching the first anniversary of his Transition out of his Incarnation…  

https://www.ramdass.org/remembering-stephen-levine-1937-2016/

Hurt is complicated – it can be a Commission or an Omission, or something else entirely, often “just” a Misalignment, where you’re trying to relate but you’re on different tracks.  But where there’s Pain, Inviting Forgiveness is useful.  This one is a quote, from http://levinetalks.com/Writings/single_post/ego-death 

“In the course of breaking the narrow confines of the self-image, a whole new world becomes available when you find out who you aren’t, including your suffering, which wipes out most of your precious/painful identity.  This can be a little disconcerting.

“Just before my face fell off, I looked back at my life as though it were my own.  I was possessed by memory.
“But as I passed behind the well-woven tapestry of appearances, history was undone.  The knots and snags that hold the illusion in place unraveling.
“The suffering defended so long dissolved like the Cheshire smile as a karmic wind caught a loose end and pulled . . .
“In transit beyond the known.”

And if you haven’t yet, and you can spare a week where you can’t do anything else but read (because it’s so compelling), Stephen’s Who Dies? is required reading for anyone.  Actually there’s a good chance you’ll find it to be The Most Important Thing you’ve ever done, so “sparing” a week might not be the right verb.

Back in the 1980s, when Pluto was in Scorpio (“The Way Out is Through”), before it crossed Sagittarius (“The Way Out is Letting Go”) into Capricorn (“Just Fix It Already”), a wonderful body of Literature was produced by the
“Recovery Movement.”  One of my favorites was Susan Forward’s Toxic Parents.  Nothing against parents, and mine were by no means the worst, but this book just does a great job of differentiating Forgiveness from Boundaries, and we need to understand this.

The Time is Now 4 – Action

July 18, 2016

The Seven-Pointed Star and the Twelve-Pointed Star in the 19 July Full Moon chart share only one point – Mars.  Which is to say, Action is called for.  It doesn’t need to be Dramatic or Aggressive – a PIAVA or Meditation would be appropriate Action.  

Mars is in Scorpio, and Scorpio tends to Forgive other people’s transgressions.  Up to a limit.  After that, there’s no turning back.  It would be a good idea in the current situation to defer tendencies to Forgive.  Instead, just calmly state your Grievance, so the other person knows that you noticed when they stepped on your toes.  That’ll keep the air clear, so complications don’t compound.  

If they make excuses, just tell them “Hey, don’t worry about it, it’s not a big deal.  Just don’t do it again.”  Scorpio does eye contact better than anybody, so they’ll know you’re serious.  They’ll be shook up, but you don’t need to rescue them from their Discomfort; it’s their homework, not yours.  Your homework is to be upfront about the “small stuff,” so it doesn’t accumulate, but in a casual, non-confrontational way.  

You’ll probably notice that you have to Break some pretty Ancient Patterns of your own to pull that off.  Make the Effort; it’ll be easier than you Expect.  This level of casual Honesty is important in close Communities, and we’ll be living in close Communities under the New Economic Paradigm.  Under Yintegrity and Yindependence, no one tells you what to do or how to do it, unless you’re studying under them, or they’re paying you to do it their way.  There isn’t any debate about this, it just is.

Here’s an interesting Perspective on the breakdown of the Old Order of Things (the July 10-17 passage)…

https://nurturingthegiftofseeking.org/master-hilarion/

Have you ever seen the movie The Corporation?  It’s worth seeing.  Kind of a video version of John Perkins or Naomi Klein, without the Cosmic Humor of The Yes Men.  I saw it some years ago at a private showing put on by a small group of activists.  Afterwards I left their meeting thinking, “Oh shit, I guess we have to go back to the barricades again” like we did in the 1960s.  

But as I walked I could feel the Earth moving under the sidewalk, and in my inner vision I saw a large green Alien-looking fellow – he would have fit right in on Sesame Street – standing in a pit next to the sidewalk.  He telepathed to me, very clearly, “No, we just need to set the Vibration of what we Do Want.”  That’s the kind of Action that will be appropriate.

Fateful Full Moon

April 20, 2016

There are three big themes to the 21 April Full Moon (10:30pm PDT) – Transitions, Fate, and Truth.

  • Transitions because the Full Moon occurs on a Cusp between two Signs – a place of Change, Transformation, often Contradistinction.
  • Fate because the asteroid Moira – Fate – Motivates (T-Squares) it.  Fate and Free Will are of course a Duality, an Either/Or, an Intellectualization.  Real Life is Both/And.  How can anything be Both/And when they’re Opposites? Well, if that’s upsetting to you, the answer is in your hand – you’ve shifted into Emotion – Cusps again, the Cusps between modalities of Perception.  You could also have shifted into Body or Spirit.  Either/Or is a characteristic of mind, and though we’re trained to Believe that mind is bigger than the Universe, in Real Life the Universe is much bigger than mind.
  • Truth because both of the Truth asteroids – Aletheia (Greek) and Veritas (Roman) adjoin the Sun.  Which brings us back to the larger theme of Removing our Masks.

Let’s focus on the Cusps…

  • The Moon itself is on the Cusp of Scorpio.  Here we Change from intellectually and Creatively contemplating the new-found concept of Other (Not-I, including Other People), to intense Emotional Curiosity about Other.  Does Other really exist, or is that just a Mirror?  Does the Other Side really exist, or is it just a Projection?
  • The Sun is on the Cusp of Taurus, along with the asteroids Aletheia, Veritas, and Atropos.  Atropos is Responsible for enforcing the measure of length of Life – another form of Truth.  At the Cusp of Taurus we shift from Making Things Up, to Casting them in Stone.  The Edge between what may or may not be Fantasy, and what the Muggles would consider “Real.”  Natural-born Chemists think it’s Matter that’s Real, while natural-born Physicists know that it’s Energy that’s Real.  Yes, I do take sides, though of course it’s Both/And.
  • The asteroid Moira – Fate – sits on the Cusp of Aquarius, as do we.  Sit on the Cusp of the Age of Aquarius I mean.  Here we move from hard-nosed down-to-Earth Pragmatism, to Idealism, or Idolatry.  Notice anybody worshipping Sacred Cows or Golden Calfs?  Such as Power, or Profit?

All together eight of the twelve Cusps are involved in the Full Moon.  If we’re worried that our Fate is to contemplate Truth and Compassion (if Other is a Mirror, we better find Compassion!), the other five Cusps each provide alternate paths that are easier than that one.

  • Our first Escape Route is the Cusp of Capricorn (where reside the dwarf planets Quaoar and Hylonome), where we Change from Letting Go of difficulties, to actually having to try to Resolve them.  (Quaoar-Hylonome tells us that if we want to Survive, we need to Molt, shed our old Ego and Open Up to the new.)
  • The Cusp of Pisces is our second path to higher ground.  Here we’re fairly rudely dumped from drinking beer and discussing grand schemes for solving the problems created by the existence of Other, to having to Feel the Realities that arise because of the existence of Other.  (On this Cusp we find the asteroids Pallas and Lachesis, and the dwarf planets OR10 and Nessus, reminders that a Life in the realm of Matter is a Privilege and a Deep Mystery, and one which has well-defined Boundaries.)

The last three Cusps are about Curiosity (Quincunxes to the Sun or Moon).

  • The asteroids Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) decorate the Cusp of Aries.  Buddhists say that if you immerse yourself in the Water (Emotion), you’ll come out in the Fire (Spirit), and this is the place where you’ll come out.  I Wonder where these Memories will lead me.
  • The asteroid Karma is parked on the Cusp of Gemini.  On this Cusp we go from being Trapped in Stone, to being Liberated, free to walk around and Be whomever we want to Be.  I Wonder how we could ever find a more perfect place for Karma.
  • Finally, the Cusp of Libra is where we find the dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  At the Cusp of Libra we’ve just finished an unpleasant-feeling period of Ego Transformations, and we’re ready to test our new Selves out on Other People.  I Wonder how I’ll be received.

Adventures in Consciousness!

Aim Higher

February 26, 2016

Step One: Focus on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want.  This step is critical, don’t skip it.

If that’s hard, start by finding something you can be Grateful for.  Running Water.  Hot Water.  Clean Water.  Enough Food, or even some Food.  A roof when it Rains.  A flush krapper.  A little less Pain than last week.  Make a short list of things you aren’t Anxious about.  The other shoulder doesn’t hurt.  Someone said a kind word to you last month.  You have a comfortable chair.  Anything will do.

Good start.  Now make a short list – several things – of what you Don’t Want.  Doesn’t matter if you’re already afflicted with it, or if it’s just threatening, or if you’re Anxious that it might threaten.  Give each of them a number, 1 to 10, 10 being “I’d Rather Die,” and 1 being “Oh Bother.”  Tap on each of them a couple times: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 if you need a review.  Then give them numbers again, 1 to 10.  Any reduction?  If not, circle that one, you’ll have to come back to it later.

Now make a short list of what you Do Want, several things.  They can be an inch away or Pie in the Sky, no matter.  Give them numbers, 1 to 10, 1 being “That’d be cool” and 10 being “I’ll Die without That!”  Make a short note about how you’ll Feel when you get each one.  In descending rank order (starting with your 10), for each one, take a minute and practice Feeling exactly that.

Step Two: Focus on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  If your second Want is close to your top Want in number, do the same with it.

Step Three: What has Stopped you from Taking What you Really Want a long time ago?  Your underprivileged upbringing?  Guilt?  Your Significant Others?  Fear?  Your Belief that it’s happening to you?  Your Mother’s Ghost?  Do you Deserve it?  Are these reasons external to you, or internal?  Tap on a few of your Stops.  Bring them inside; if it’s a Bully that’s been Stopping you, recognize that it’s your Unwillingness to Confront, or your Belief that you’d be worse off if you Confronted, or your Hopelessness.  Rather than spend a lot of time on this, take notes.  This is important, so you’ll want to come back to it later.

Step Four: Focus again on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  Notice if it’s any easier or deeper than it was in Step Two.  If it is, make a note to repeat Steps Two and Three later.  If you want, do the same with your second Want.

Step Five: Aim Higher.  What if you could have more of What you Really Want, or What you Really Want with a lot of bells and whistles?  Feel how that’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  If you Change your mind and decide that what you Really want is something else entirely, great!  Feel how that’ll be when you Receive it.  Any Stops?  Take notes so you can come back to them later.

Step Six: Now Aim a lot Higher.  Stay with What you Want, but get ridiculous about it.  You Wanted a Mate?  Imagine having three!  A house?  Make it a mansion with its own caretaker, and a luxury RV with professional driver besides.  World Peace?  Go for Galactic Peace, or Universal Peace.  You Wanted Good Health?  Go for Good Health and Superpowers.

At this point in our Timelines, this is where we need to be.

The dwarf planet Chaos, which symbolizes Unlimited Potential, turns Direct on 29 February a few minutes after 3pm PST, 11pm UT.  It’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  It’s in Gemini (Mutation).  No better time to nurture Huge Changes than when your Infinite Improbability Drive is firing on all cylinders.  Did you think Douglas  Adams wrote fiction?

The Chaos Station Squares Chiron, so there’s great potential for Discouragement or even Despair, but far greater potential for Miracles when we Empathize with any Discouragement we feel.  Chiron’s moving through Pisces, where it’s churning up every Emotional component of our Limiting Beliefs and exposing them to the Sun, which will sterilize them.

The asteroid Juno, which symbolizes The Growing Edge of our Consciousness, turns Retrograde on 2 March at a few minutes before 3am PST or 11am UT, meaning it’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  This occurs at the Midpoint of Scorpio – one of the Strongest points in the Zodiac, particularly adept at turning over rocks and diving deep to uncover hidden motives.  No better time to remove Limiting Beliefs and Grow your sense of the Possible.  And Chaos will still be Stationary.

Between the Full Moon and 8 March, a Quintile between Pallas (Boundaries) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs and Limits) forms the base of a Quintile Yod focused on Jupiter (Expansion).  The Quintile Yod says that It’s Really Important to Pay Attention to Learning This!  Learning what?  Learning to Expand our sense of Self by stretching our Boundaries to Let Go of Limiting Beliefs.  Jupiter is in Virgo, and Virgo is about Disassembling the Ego in order to make Space for Growth.

Jupiter completes a T-Square with Chaos and Chiron, focused on Chaos – Expanding our Discouragement and Overwhelm about the sheer quantity of Possible Futures we face, and Expanding the incredible Potential for Miracles waaay beyond what we can imagine!  We just have to stretch into them.  While it’s a few Degrees out of orb, Saturn (The Most Important Thing) completes the Grand Cross – so it’s our Willingness to Focus our Attention on what we Want to Create that will Co-Create the Big Shift.

The Most Important Thing that the Lizards are here to Teach us, is that Crisis breeds Opportunity.  Read Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine and Tom Perkins’s New Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, and turn them on their heads – like it or not, Crisis is here, and likely to remain till 2020 (when Saturn Initiates Jupiter), What are WE going to do with the Opportunity?  Do we have enough cumulative Attention to Focus on What we Want and Shift the Planet away from Greed and Competition, and back toward Community and Collaboration?  Do we have enough Self-Love to Create what we Need for our own personal Peace, in order to have Loving Attention to spare for the Planet, so we aren’t just Projecting our Anxiety?

Jupiter meanwhile is moving toward an Initiation of the North Node (Mission and Deepest Desires) – Expanding our sense of What we Want and Where we’re Going.  That’ll happen in June, close to when Eris Initiates Uranus and we come face to face with all the ways we’ve been forcing the True Self to Hold Back.  Jupiter and the North Node are now two Degrees apart – Conjunct, in other words – meaning that we can’t tell the difference between them.  The more Work we do with our Wants and Stops now, the easier June will be, and the impact will be exponential.

Lunar Portals along the way, all ± three hours…

  • 10am PST 28 February, Moon over Stationary Juno
  • 11pm 1 March till 7am PST 2 March, Moon over Saturn corner of the Grand Cross
  • 11am PST 6 March, Moon over Pallas
  • 11am till 9pm PST 8 March, Moon over Chiron corner of the Grand Cross
  • New Moon at 6pm PST 8 March Conjoins Chiron, stretching the Grand Cross into the rest of March

If you focus on what you Don’t Want over the next several weeks, you’re going to be miserable, because you’ll be wallowing in everything you’re going to have to Give Up in order to Grow into What you Want.  If you focus on your Pain about having to Give Up what you Don’t Want but you like better than the Unknown, that’s fine – but Witness it and Embrace it.  Put All of your Attention into the center of your Pain, and leave it there until the Pain melts away.  Or step back and “You poor Sweetheart” yourself to Death.

This is, after all, a colossal Ego Death.  Re-read our Full Moon readings, Heavy I and Heavy II.  The World is Changing fast, and even when we stand up our arms aren’t long enough to reach the cord to ring the driver to let us off.  Focus on What you Want to Create, be Loving and Gentle with every Resistance you encounter, be especially Loving and Gentle with your Grief about what you’re Giving Up, but stay Present with the realization that what you’re Creating will be far better than what you’re Giving Up. 

Remember that Confusion is the first Stage of Growth, it means that your rigid mental structures, which are the intellectual rationalizations for your Limiting Beliefs, are starting to break down.  Try to avoid talking yourself out of Confusion.  Don’t forget Curiosity.  “I Wonder how the devil we’re going to pull this off!”  It is WE – we’re in this Together!  Curiosity is next to Love, as both eschew Judgment, and we know that Love is greater than Hope or Faith.

If you have notes from Steps One or Three or Four or Five, set aside as much time as you can spare between now and March 1, and between now and March 8, to work on these more.  Use your PIAVAs when you get stuck on something; see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/ if you need a review.  If What you Want is important to you, the time you spend on this will be more important than that.

Not only are the relevant Changes happening in the Unconscious, but they’re shifting the Future, and most of us most of the time aren’t able to see either.  There will be plenty of time for Planning, Doing, Executing the details of our Manifestations as we go forward.  Now is the time for PIAVAing the Big Picture of What we Want our Manifestation to look like, and most of all, Lovingly and Gently Letting Go of all of our internal obstacles to Receiving what we Really Want.