Shame and Healing

The Moon is back In Bounds now (less Excitability), till it goes Out of Bounds again (to the South) 4:42 am PDT 3 September 2022. Our next big astroevent should be Feelable already, as Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna Stationary) is prominent till at least 11:33 pm 30 August. More about that soon.

Shame is one of, if not The, hardest Emotion to hide, and the hardest to Heal, and it has a prominent role in the 1:17 am PDT 27 August 2022 New Moon. While it may be hard, it’s surrounded astrologically in the New Moon chart by Supportive Friends.¹ The Guardian recently published a timely article about Exploring the Extremes of Shame…

.https://www.theguardian.com/music/2022/aug/24/oliver-sim-the-way-i-dealt-with-shame-in-the-past-hasnt-worked-at-all.

The other Prominence in the New Moon, which influences the next few weeks, is a Doubly Self-Resolving Superpower Transmutation to Enlightenment.² Can you beat that? Since it’s Doubly Self-Resolving, it’ll probably be a serious Challenge only if you have Afflictions to early Scorpio. On the other hand, many folks see Scorpio itself as an Affliction! Seen from Inside (from a Scorpio’s Perspective), Scorpio just means Fearlessness.

When Scorpio’s doing a Fearless and Searching Inventory of you, however, it can be a serious affront to your Boundaries. So folks with Vulnerable planets like Sappho (Self-Love) or an Afflicted Eurydike (Distrust ), or even Phaedra (Shame), in early Scorpio may be targets for Perp Instincts. If they Attack you, hold up your Garlic and Cross, keep your Head Up, and Back Away without losing eye contact, like you would from a snarling Dog. With a drooling Person, though, don’t look them directly in the eye, but keep a Diffuse gaze on their face, in case they lunge and you need to use your Cross as a Sword. People with Perp Instincts, even Strangers, can Attack without provocation or warning, so keep your Garlic handy.

Better yet, Protect yourself. While Vulnerability is the Ultimate in Protection, you may need something more Disinviting with Perpetual Perps, because they’ll Test your Vulnerability repeatedly until you Stand Up for Yourself. Today’s Perp may be one you know well Personally, or a Total Stranger that through their own Programming knows Instinctively where your Psychic Wound is, and How it Works. You could be just passing each other on the street. My First Teacher used to say, No One Can Invade Your Space When It’s Filled with Your Own Energy. If you know how to do it, “Running Your Energy” is an Important practice,³ as is “Using your Mirrors.”⁴

• ¹ In 5 Virgo (The Edge between Fear and Ego Death). That’s 9:17 am BST in Nottingham and 6:17 pm AEST in Eastern Oz. The New Moon Opposes minor planet Gonggong (Intrusive Memories) and asteroid Phaedra (Shame), both in 5 Pisces (Deep Deep Mystical Awareness Sheltered from Ego by Lack of a Need for Certainty). While the New Moon Chandra Degree Symbol suggests we’ll have work to do, the Gonggong-Phaedra Karmic Shame Chandra Symbol suggests we’ll plow right through it without great difficulty. The latter is also the home of Fixed Star Sadalmelek (Lucky One of the King). The Opposition is part of a Grand Cross, which implies helpful Balance. The other two partygoers are Mars (Action) in Gemini (Flexibility) Opposite Pandora (Hope) and Atropos (Natural Expiry of Karma) in Sagittarius (Letting Go) – more Boons.
• ² Minor planet Zhulong (Enlightenment ) in 6 Scorpio (The Edge between Self-Importance and Selflessness) and asteroid Ka’epaoka’awela (Transmutation) at 3 Scorpio (Addiction to Karma Till the New Energy Makes us Realize How Empty It Is) are at the Focus of a T-Square (Challenge or SuperPower) over Ceres (Sustainability) in 6 Aquarius (Learning to Surrender to the Mystery) and Lachesis (Karma that can be Consciously Let Go) in 5 Aquarius (Surrender to Merging the Chthonic with the Cosmic) Opposite the Stellium of Samadhi (Enlightenment ) in 4 Leo (Dedicated to Shadow Work and Breaking Through to Discovery), Cyllarus Out of Bounds (Focus on Death/Ego Death) in 3 Leo (Larger than Life, but sometimes Missing Important Details), Sisyphus Out of Bounds (Perpetually Perpetual Tasks) in 5 Leo (An Old Soul Who Discovers that the Old Rules No Longer Apply), and Varuna Out of Bounds (The Life Force Unchained ) in 7 Leo (Ready for Enlightenment ).
• Zhulong-Ka’epa are also the Focus of a Finger of the Goddess (first order Self-Resolution) from Mars (Action) in 5 Gemini (Expanding into Limitlessness) to Jupiter (Expansion) in 8 Aries (Acceptance of All without Judgment ). Mars in Gemini would work better with a Diversion than a Frontal Counterattack. Jupiter in Aries should provide plenty of Creativity for your Diversions.
• Second-order Self-Resolution is provided by a Zhulong-Ka’epa Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings) to Veritas (Truth of the Mind ) in 7 Cancer (Returning to Source) and Gonggong-Phaedra (see note ¹).
• ³ Something on the order of Moving Your Attention to the Center of the Earth, Picking Up Earth Energy like wrapping Spaghetti around a fork, Drawing that Energy as if through a Straw or Firehose Up through the Body of the Earth and into your Legs, and pouring it into the Vessel that is your Pelvis; Moving your Attention Up through the Top of your Head and Up through the Sky into Source, Collecting Source Energy as if Filling your Lungs with Air, Drawing that Energy Down into your Head, Neck, Torso, Belly, and Pouring it into your Pelvis and Churning it with the Earth Energy; Then Drawing that Combined and Mixed Energy Up the front of your Body and Back through each Chakra, Up to Chakra Six, Seven, Eight, Nine, however High you’re accustomed to go. There are a zillion variations, and none are right or wrong. You can make up your own version, in fact, you need to, so it Fits your own Energy Body like a glove, and so you can do the whole process rapidly. Practice till you can do it Instantaneously using only Intention.
• ⁴ When Confronted with Energy you don’t like, hold a Wardrobe Mirror up in front of you, facing outward toward the Source of the Energy, so that the Energy is Focused Back to its Source. If you aren’t sure of the Source, make a Guess and Test it by Holding the Mirror for several minutes to see if your Feelings Change. If they don’t, Guess and Test again. When they do, Hold the Mirror there till you Feel Safe. Your current Boss may be using the same Ports that your Uncle installed when you were a Child.
• This is not just a Protection, this is a Healing. Our Programmers left Holes in the Back of our Aura, where we couldn’t see them, so they could reach in Energetically and Manipulate us like a Puppet. Our Boundaries and Ego are Overwhelmed when a Perp Intuits these Ports and uses them for their own Purposes. This is Karmic, and the more you Allow yourself to be Manipulated, the more you Cement the Karma in place. The more you “Use your Mirrors,” the more you Strengthen New Habits and the more you Weaken the Old Karma. Eventually, Using your Mirrors will Seal Up the Holes in your Aura, so you can really Fill Your Body with Your Own Energy, without Leaks. Then you will seldom Encounter Energy you don’t like, because you’ll no longer be a Magnet for it. If you do Feel it again after that, just Use your Mirrors on it.
• We were Programmed to Feel Guilty when we Discovered these Holes and tried to Plug them. So we have to Expect to Feel Guilt when we Use our Mirrors. That’s the sign that you’re Healing your Energy Body. Embrace the Guilt, and Recognize that it Identifies what needs Healing and what’s Getting Healed. That Guilt is the Proof that you’re Catching the Embodiment or Generalization of “your” Perp In The Act, and Setting Firm Boundaries Against their Manipulation. As your Psychic Wounds Heal, you’ll Feel less Guilt, till you Feel Strong and Whole instead.
• Our Codependence is often based on Holes in our Aura which aren’t Odious to us. We may have been Programmed to Keep Our House Clean, or to be Morally Outraged by certain Characteristics or Behaviors of other people. We may even base our Relationships on having our Programs Matched. Even though you may have very well-developed Justifications for these Obsessions and Reactions to Other People, they’ll still Stand Between you and Enlightenment. When you Begin to Notice these Codependencies and are Inspired to Work on them, you can also Use your Mirrors on them.

Self-Love New Moon 2

In the 14 November 2020 New Moon chart, the planets in the “Basket of Grace” (blue upside-down Truss Bridge) under the red triangle are an interesting pair. They tell us How the Nasty Challenge (T-Square red triangle) will Self-Resolve. First there’s dwarf planet Eris, which is about Revelation of What’s Been Denied, and second there’s dwarf planet Asbolus, meaning Intuition, Merged With (Conjunct) the North Node, which indicates our Lifetime Mission.

Our Life Mission is way too multidimensional for the Dualistic Mind to be able to do more than get an occasional glimpse of it from one angle, so if our Life Mission were an Elephant, we’d be the seven Blind Men trying to figure out what it is. Our Intuition, though, is able to handle many more Dimensions, as long as we don’t constantly Diminish it by squeezing it into Words. So our Intuition has been giving us Videos of our Life Mission in the form of Skits from our Childhood and Past Lives (Eris).

Asbolus and the North Node are three and a half Degrees apart and separating, so the Connection is weakening, but both of them are well within three Degrees of the New Moon, so they’re Reconnected and Re-Energized by the New Moon. (Three Degrees is the Limit of Connection that we use in this blog; it and one Degree are the most common Limits of Connection that astrologers use. The less Difference between the Locations, the Stronger the Connection.) The Asbolus-North Node Connection was Exact at the end of August, within one Degree between mid-August and mid-September, and within three Degrees between late July and late September, so we’ve been Experiencing this Connection for a while.

Intuition can be illusive. My Intuition Teacher advised me to Ask myself “What If I Did Know?” and tentatively Believe the Answer I got. Translating an Intuition into Words is like pinning a Butterfly to a block of styrofoam – it might look good, but you’ve just Killed it. So Word Pictures of Intuitions are always tentatively or “…Or Something Like That,” as Eugene Gendlin liked to say. But the point is that the Information is Available. We can try retrieving it with a Theta such as “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Grok the Intuitions about my Life Mission that I Received over the Summer (North) or Winter (South) so they will Help Me Let Go of Karmic Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You God/Goddess. Show Me!“

In case you haven’t read Heinlein, Grok means “to drink in all available aspects of reality or to become one with the observed,” the multidimensional equivalent of “Understanding,” which is what the Limited Dualistic Mind does. You may or may not Notice any lightbulbs over your head, but it may be better if you don’t, because then you’ll be less Tempted to Wordify it. Just Trust that you’ve Received and Grokked the Download, and that it has Changed you accordingly.

We need this because the next week plus will be Challenging. Our Ability to Trust, and to Grok what’s Trustable so we can Trust it, is Lit Up through 17 November, as asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust, is increasingly Exaggerated until 1am PST on 18 November. As usual with astrology, that’s for Good or Ill, as our Trust will be Challenged so we can Witness the places where we OverTrust and UnderTrust and Adjust accordingly.

In the New Moon chart asteroid Veritas, the Truth of the Mind, is Merged with Pluto, Compulsion. We may or may not Believe Facts, depending on whether or not they Align with our current Concept Set. For instance, many people Reject the Fact that the Earth is Flat (when seen from the center of a plain, for instance) because they’ve been Hypnotized by “Science” to Believe that it’s Round. It might Look Round from the Moon, but we don’t Live on the Moon. It might Look Curved from an airplane, but there are lots of Curves that aren’t Round. The Dualistic Mind will always Delude you unless you always specify the conditions under which each “Fact” is “True” – and what a Headache that would be.

It’s a lot Easier if we just recognize that like Loki or Coyote, the Mind is a Trickster, simply because it usually thinks in Either/Or, while the Universe is Both/And. “Figures don’t Lie, but Liars sure can Figure,” is a general rule that Statisticians use, if they know what they’re doing. The Truth of the Mind is always Relative to usually-unspecified and often-unknown Assumptions and Conditions, and it’s Dual, so it usually Flips rather than Adjusts. Goddess Knows we’re getting a graduate seminar in Exactly This in our Political Dramas these days. This is Grade-School Bullshit, and we need to see through it so we can instead Focus on The Most Important Thing – Climate Change, as the Dali Lama reminds us. If we don’t, Death by COVID might turn out to be the more Merciful Choice.

In the New Moon chart, Pluto-Veritas (Compulsive Belief in “Facts”) is Challenged (Squared) by Eris, or Revelation of What’s Been Denied. Compulsive Belief in “Facts” is also Contrasted (Opposed) to Respect for All Things (asteroid Hopi) – we will never see Peace and Collaboration and 5D and Sustainability as long as we invest our Trust in Either/Or. Reality is always Both/And.

Besides Compulsive Belief in “Facts” (Pluto-Veritas), Revelation of What’s Been Denied (Eris) and Respect for All Things (Hopi), the fourth corner of the big red square (a “Grand Cross” in astrologuese) in the New Moon chart is The Heart (Venus). It’s the Heart that Groks. The Truth of the Heart is symbolized by asteroid Aletheia. For any given Person, the Truth of the Heart is not Relative like “Facts” are, but Absolute. What we have to Remember about the Heart is that Everyone’s Truth of the Heart is Different. You can, if you’re clever, convince someone to Believe in the “Truth” of your “Facts.” Shame on you, but you can do it.

You’ll never convince anyone to Believe in the Truth of your Heart, if their Heart has a Different Truth. They might pretend to Believe to get you off their back, but our Heart-Truths are Permanent and Inviolable. We Recognize them Intuitively, not Intellectually. Heart-Truths are multidimensional, and suffer Wordification poorly. As long as Hupers fail to Recognize the Difference between Mind-“Facts” and Heart-Truths, and fail to Realize that Everyone’s Heart-Truths are Different, there will never be Peace on the Planet.

How does asteroid Aletheia relate to the New Moon chart? Like so…

That’s a “Grand Quintile,” Grand because it fills the whole chart, and Quintile because it features five planets more or less equally space around the Zodiac. Quintiles are about Teaching and Learning, and a Grand Quintile is about Multidimensional Teaching and Learning. There are twenty-six Relationships we’re being Taught to Grok…

• Truth of the Heart (Aletheia) to Self-Love (Sappho-New Moon)
• Heart-Truth to Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus)
• Heart-Truth to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos)
• Heart-Truth to Freedom (Fixed Star Alpheratz)
• Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking
• Self-Love to Unlimited Potential
• Self-Love to Freedom
• Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential
• Pattern-Breaking to Freedom
• Unlimited Potential to Freedom

Then there are the sixteen Interaction terms…

• Heart-Truth to Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking etc (10)
• Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom etc (5)
• Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom to Heart-Truth to Self-Love (1)

That’s a lot to Learn. It’s a good thing it’s Intuitive, as it’d boggle the Mind. These apply to the New Moon chart, ie, the next two weeks. Meanwhile we’re Dealing with Trust until 18 November, as Eurydike Stands Still. So we’ll be Learning how Trust Relates to each of those twenty-six Relationships. Busy Busy Busy.

Then the Real Teaching takes center stage, as Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet Gonggong) are Lit Up till 20 November and Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) are Lit Up till 22 November. The Poster Child for Abuse and Privilege is the Antagonist of the Big Political Drama, and it’s our own Intrusive Memories of all of our own Karmic Abuse and Privilege Experiences and Patterns that will be Triggered. How many of us will be able to Differentiate the Present Moment from our Regressions?

And the Mind-Truths of Privilege for the White Supremacists? The Heart-Truths of Privilege for the Narcissists? I doubt that many of them will Know the Difference between Reality and their Projections, but we can always pray for Miracles. There are Intriguing Possibilities in the Angle between the New Moon and each of the three Stations – Eurydike, Gonggong, Nessus. We’ll talk about those in the next post.

Self-Love New Moon

New Moons Suggest the tone and traffic we can expect in the following two to four weeks. The 14 November 2020 (9:06 pm PST) New Moon is Merged with (Conjunct) the symbol for Unconditional Self-Love (asteroid Sappho)…

This is in Scorpio, and Scorpio is about Fearlessness and the Compulsion to Get to the Bottom of Things, so we can Expect to find All of our Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love to be showing up in the next few weeks. Welcome them. They’re Showing Up so you can Bless them and Let them Go. Once and For All, if you’re Willing. Memorize this paragraph, and repeat it to yourself every five minutes for the next several weeks.

Let’s start by Tapping Out our Impediments. “Even though I don’t Allow myself Unconditional Self-Love, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself ” or some such. What came up while you were doing that? Tap It Out. “Even though I don’t Take Full Responsibility for the way Certain People Irritate Me, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself,” just to use a random example. By the way, Responsibility is very Different from Blame. Taking Responsibility means you Respond to the circumstance. If you’re good at NVC, you can talk Honestly about your Experience without making anyone Defensive, maybe even working up a Win-Win out of it. Blame is about looking backward to assign Guilt, while Responsibility is about looking forward to Change Outcomes.

Follow up your Tapping with a Theta on the order of “God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command that I henceforth Unconditionally Allow Myself Unconditional Self-Love. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!” Then Tap Out each of your Yes-Buts. Go back and forth between Theta and Tapping as many times as you have Patience for.

There’s a lot to talk about in this chart, and since it’s a Self-Love chart, it Deserves every bit of it. I want to start by talking about asteroid Damocles, the symbol for Preemptive Guilt. Damocles isn’t on our list of usual astrosuspects, but he’s one of my favorites. He was a Leader with a (hopefully) virtual Sword suspended over his head, ready to drop if he made too many enemies, or the “wrong” enemy. Talk about an Editor on our Yintegrity! In the New Moon chart, Damocles Challenges (Squares) our Self-Love! If we’re always on Probation with ourself or our Loved Ones or Significant Others, we preempt our Self-Love before it even starts!

I didn’t write it into the chart because it’s just beyond our usual limit of three Degrees (it’s three and a half Degrees away), but asteroid Karma, signifying you guessed it, sits across the chart from Damocles, so the two of them gang up to make a Nasty Challenge (T-Square, or 90-Degree triangle). So not only are we Fearlessly Scraping the Bottom of the Barrel (Scorpio) looking for Self-Judgment – and you know damn well you’re going to Believe it when it first comes up, before you reread that earlier paragraph you saved – but we’re also Scraping the Bottoms of our Past Lives! Gonna be a Fun several weeks.

Now, bear in mind that the “we” in that sentence about Scorpio isn’t our Ego, it’s our Soul. To the Ego it’s going to feel like Somebody Else is Attacking us and Triggering our worst Vulnerabilities. Till we reread the earlier paragraph and Recognize that this is about Bringing up Ancient Scabbed-Over Buboes so they can finally be Healed. Nightmares! But look more closely. There’s a Finger of the Goddess (the green wedge, meaning Pay Attention!) pointing at the New Moon and Sappho.

When both a Nasty Challenge T-Square and a Pay Attention! Finger of the Goddess point to the same place, the result is a Self-Resolving Challenge (called a Diamond Star in astrologuese). Whew! So yes, all this Shit’s gonna hit the Fan, but If we can stand to be a Curious Spectator, it’s all going to Heal Itself! Here’s the Diamond Star…

In these charts, red means Stress (the red triangle or T-Square), green means Curiosity (the green wedge or Finger of the Goddess), and blue means Grace (the blue “basket” under the T-Square that completes the Diamond Star) – and means “Happily Ever After” if we can stand to stay in Curiosity while we Watch the Dramas Unfold without getting Anal-ytical or Emotionally Involved. It Is What It Is. Without the Curiosity, we get sucked into the Stress and Discount the Grace.

Love Dies when Judgment Replaces Curiosity.

This isn’t Curiosity as in “Hmmm, how can I fix this now?” It’s Curiosity as in “Look at that Remarkable Thing!” As in Awe and Wonder. Unconditional Self-Love is one of the keys to 5D, so I hope most of us use this Opportunity to Advance our Neutrality. But it also applies to what’s going on in the World. If we can Watch the Spectacle as if Shakespeare wrote it, and admire the Literary talent, the Drama will Self-Resolve and Subside.

That’s your Karma being Acted Out on the World Stage. As with all Karma, the Choice is yours. You can Grasp it because it’s so Familiar, and Strengthen it’s Hold on your Ego-Self. Or you can Let It Go and dare to Choose an Alternative. Meanwhile, we hope to find time to write more about the overall chart, because it’s fascinating.

Handmaids and Handbaskets

Other than the fact that it actually is, there are several astroenergies about these days that can “make” us feel like the World is going to Hell in a Handbasket.

On 22 October 2020 for instance, asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious and Semi-Conscious Limiting Beliefs, entered Virgo, which, representing as it does Ego Death, is big on Criticism. Without Self-Criticism, where would our Motivation arise to propel us into Ego Death? — Which ranges from mostly Unpleasant to, more commonly, I’d rather Die than Do That! In between Self-Criticism and Ego Death, before we muster the Motivation to Actually Change, we Protect our Ego by Projecting our Self-Criticisms onto Others.

When we base our Ego on our Pet Peeves – “I’m not one of those People who…” – we can’t really say that our Limiting Beliefs are Unconscious, we just don’t Own them. So we have to refer to them as Semi-Conscious. If we put some thought into it, and/or enlist our Honest friends, we could all easily catalog our “Unconscious” Limiting Beliefs. They aren’t hidden. They’re writ huge in the current Political Polarity, where some folks are Choosing Homicide over Ego Death. The people with a Compulsive need to Control your Behavior preach about Freedom, while the people who are Compelled to Do what they Want preach about Control.

In my own back yard, I’m Praying that all of the ways my father predicted my Failures are Lit Up because They’re Leaving Town, not because they’re coming home to roost. Meanwhile I’m sure wasting a lot of Energy Fighting them Off. I should be Accepting them, not because he was right about me, but because I have to Accept them as Self-Criticisms before I can Motivate my own Ego Death and Let Them Go for good. Till then I’m driven by the Trance that his repeated disdain installed in the Unconscious that I Live with.

Because I Experienced his Energy as a wet blanket on mine, I used to think that his Saturn must be on my Sun. Once I knew how to check though, I discovered that it’s my Saturn that was on his Sun! Growing up in the Depression, where there were always a hundred people lined up to take whatever job he could get, he had to suppress the Lightheartedness of his Gemini Sun in order to avoid being seen as a flibbertigibbet. Growing up as I did in the 50s and 60s, after his Generation had busted their butts to rebuild a World Economy (not that it’s a solid measure of anything, but it wasn’t until 1954 that the stock market exceeded its 1929 high), my own Gemini Saturn flibbertigibbet was a source of Pride.

Since we’re only a Deflation-Delaying Ongoing Heroic Monetary Stimulus or a Hyperinflation away from our next Great Depression – many are already there – it’s appropriate that my father’s Information would emerge for me now from the Unconscious. I even had a vivid dream yesterday of setting up a homeless camp for myself in an empty corner of a strip mall. My camp wasn’t protected from rain or cold, it had no latrine or provision for food or sleep, but because it featured what have more or less been prize possessions for me for much of my Life, I was happy with it. Bookcases! It was made of Empty Bookcases. Clap your hands! Till strangers feigning Authority started prying them apart looking for contraband and woke me up.

So Virgo will be Lighting Up all of our Self-Limiting Beliefs, until mid-July 2021. Mostly we’ll Experience these as Judgments of Other People. It’s Safe to assume that whatever we Judge in Others is a caricature of an important part of Ourself that we don’t Allow to Express itself. These caricatures are Funhouse Mirrors and are seldom easy to decypher, especially anal-ytically. Since we’ve banished them to Live in the Unconscious, we’re more likely to find success by PIAVAing them.

We may be particularly Open to Insight around 9-10 November, as Vesta is Strong then (Standing Still), while the Moon crosses it. That begins our real Ego Death Curriculum, as Vesta enters what astrologers call its “Shadow Period,” the window of its Retrogradation. Between 9 November 2020 and 27 June 2021, Vesta Dances across 7-22 Virgo three times. If this process unfolds like it often does, our Troublesome Semi-Conscious Evil Twins will Act Out between 9 November 2020 and 19 January 2021. They may be especially Active around 7 December and 4 January, when the Moon visits Vesta.

Vesta first crosses 7 Virgo on 9 October, and then on 19 January, in 22 Virgo, it turns Retrograde and starts moving Backwards. It Retrogrades from 22 back to 7 Virgo until 20 April 2021. During this period we should be gaining Insight into our Projected Self-Judgments, with a boost from the Moon around 1 and 27 February and 26 March.

Finally, after 20 April, we enter the “Confidence-Building” phase, as Vesta moves forward (“Direct”) again, crossing 7-22 Virgo for the third time – by then we’ll have become “Old Hands” at using Ego Death to Claim our Projected Self-Judgments as Our Own, and if we Succeed we’ll be much closer to the Unconditional Self-Love that we need to move into The Light. The Moon will again Clarify things around 23 April, 20 May, and 17 June, and we Graduate from the whole Retrograde Adventure on 27 June 2021.

And when any planet Dances across the same patch of astrological surreal estate thrice, it’s going to get pretty Intimate with any other planet that happens to be Dancing in that same patch at the same time. So, anybody Sitting Around in the middle half of Virgo these days?

Yes, dwarf planet Orcus. “Does anybody remember Orcus,” as Robert Plant famously almost sang? The Fearsome Mythic Orcus worked for the Pre-Romans, Punishing Oath-Breakers. With Women closer to Property than People in those days, Relationship Oaths weren’t the Issue so much as Loyalty Oaths for soldiers and servants and perhaps business dealings. The problem with Oaths, and their equivalents Vows, Promises, Commitments, and even Decisions, is that they’re Sticky. These days, many of us Swear a lot, casually. We may want to reconsider what we’re Doing there.

Since we Feared the Punishment for Oath-Breaking, we worked hard to Avoid it, and the Easiest way to do that was to “Forget” that it was a Decision (which could theoretically be Renegotiated), and instead consider it to be Just The Way Things Are. If we can succeed at that, Reneging doesn’t even seem possible. And while we may not be able to take Money with us from one Lifetime to the next, we can certainly take Attitudes. So when we Forget a Decision and it becomes Just The Way Things Are, it becomes Karma, and will Follow us around till we figure out What we need to Renounce, and How to do it.

The How is actually Easy, we just need to Realize that a Limitation isn’t Just The Way Things Are, it’s Just our Karma, and Karma is only Sticky because we’re so Comfortable thinking that it’s Just The Way Things Are. The What is a bigger question, being another Funhouse Mirror that we’re probably Projecting on Others. If we aren’t always in Abundance (Having Enough to Share) in our current Lifetime for instance, When and To Whom might “we” have Sworn an Oath of Poverty or the equivalent? Maybe that Convent in France in the 7th Century? Or was it even on Earth? Maybe we were a Coyote and felt sorry for the Squirrels.

That kind of info isn’t always the Easiest to Retrieve, especially with “Left Brain” methods. We’ll be rooting in the Unconscious, so we’ll need PIAVA again. Maybe something like a Theta – “God/Goddess, Creator of All There Is, I Command that I Connect to All of my Vows of [e.g. Poverty] in All of my Lifetimes. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!” We don’t need to Remember them all – there may be a bewildering number. We just need to Flash on our Frame of Mind and Heart while we were Swearing the Oath.

Then, while we’re there, we may need some sort of Renunciation Ritual. Writing and Burning perhaps, or “Revert!“, or whatever works for you. Another Theta might work, maybe “God/Goddess, Creator of All There Is, I Command that I Now Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely Renounce All of my Vows of [Poverty] in All of my Lifetimes. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

If you don’t Feel a sense of Immediate Liberation, check to see if you skipped over a Yes-But or two. Then Tap Out any remaining Resistance – “Even though I have Resistance to Letting Go of [Poverty], I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself…” Then repeat your Renunciation Theta, and alternate Theta and Tapping till you Feel the Liberation you Want. If it’s not working, sleep on it and try again tomorrow. We can’t always Change Lifetimes of Habit in a single sitting.

Vesta first crosses Orcus on 29 November (4pm PST), in 14 Virgo, while both planets are Direct (moving forward). Considering the Players, this may be a fairly Explosive Experience, as our Unconscious Limitation literally “Meets its Maker.” We usually refer to this first of the three events in a Triple-Crossing as a “Can-Opener,” as a Can of Worms often appears in our Life, sometimes fairly Traumatically. If you have any natal planets in mid-Virgo, that’ll Complicate matters and make the Experience more Intense.

We can often dodge Trauma just by knowing that such an event is about to occur. If, say, our natal Mars is in mid-Virgo, and wee’re Conscious that an “Event” is about to Go Off, we can be Alert for any sign that Anger or Physical Injury is about to happen, and Revert it. A few days prior, we can Theta that we’ll be particularly Alert for the next week. A few Kegels can Slow Time for us so we can be more Aware. Sometimes nothing happens just because we’re Aware. Even if a Trauma sneaks up on us, as they often do, knowing what was going on astrologically can help us interpret “our own” role in the event and Neutralize our Victimhood.

We aren’t “Blaming the Victim” for Traumatic events, we’re Recognizing that Life is Fully Interactive. We actually Invite our Experiences, sometimes Consciously and sometimes Unconsciously. When we can Intuit or Figure Out Who in the Underwhere is Inviting our Unpleasant Experiences, we can Ask them what their Needs and Wants are, remind them of our then-Ego’s Needs and Wants, and Renegotiate with them to move toward Win-Win, where each of our “parts” is helping the other Achieve their Goals.

In this process “both of us” are usually Changed, as we move toward Knowing that We Are They and They Are Us and eventually Drop All Separation. This is the Growth in Consciousness that asteroid Juno presides over. What’s Juno got to do with all this? As we speak, Juno is Quintiling Vesta, and Quintiles (one fifth of the Zodiac or 72 Degrees) are about Teaching and Learning. On 29 November, Juno will Quintile Vesta-Orcus.

Also on 29 November, Neptune will be Standing Still (Strong) in Pisces, roughly Opposite Vesta-Orcus. Neptune likes to Confuse everything Material so we can Clearly see the Spiritual side of things. We may also be Letting Go of Abuse Patterns (Nessus Opposite Vesta-Orcus), Discovering Unexpected Heart Truths (Aletheia Quincunx V-O), Breaking Patterns that have Inhibited our Rebirth (Klotho Unx V-O), and Enjoying Clarity on Guilt and Codependence (Nemesis Sextile and Hylonome Trine V-O). Busy day – mark your calendar!

We refer to the second event of a Triple-Crossing as the “Exposition,” because it usually Exposes much more about whatever occurred at the Can-Opener. At any Exposition, the faster planet (here Vesta) will be Retrograde, which will Slow whatever processes are occurring so we can see them more Clearly. In this case, Orcus will also be Retrograde. The Vesta-Orcus Exposition occurs on 13 March 2021 in 13 Virgo.

We call the final of the three crossings a “Confidence-Builder,” because by now, if we’ve been Paying Attention, we’re Experienced with the Collision and Collusion of these two Energies, and we know how to Respond. The Vesta-Orcus Confidence-Builder happens on 25 May 2021 in 12 Virgo. Orcus is Standing Still and Turning Direct (Strongest) when this occurs, so we can Expect it to be particularly Powerful.

That’s one of the astroevents that can help us feel like the World is going to Hell in a Handbasket. The other Biggie is asteroid Nemesis (Guilt and Ego Death) moving into Scorpio (Fearlessness about Getting to the Bottom of Things). That happened a few days ago, on 26 October (2:40 pm PDT). Actually, both Nemesis and Scorpio can Feel a lot more ominous than either Vesta or Virgo, so hopefully we’ll have time to write soon about how this will Unfold. Nemesis only stays in Scorpio for three months, though it returns for seven weeks next summer.

And while we’re on the subject of Sign Changes, asteroid Klotho (Beginning New TimeLines) moved into Libra (Meeting Other) on 17 October for three months. That was probably a Relief after nine weeks in Virgo, where we would have been Clearing Resistance to Being Reborn.

Charts of the Portals IX

When our Responsiveness to our Survival Instincts finally Reboots “for good” (for far longer than our Lifetimes anyway) in 2022 (Quaoar Initiates Pholus, 21 February 2022, in 7 Capricorn), the event is not Cuspal.  The “Stinkbug chart”…

…occurs on the Cusps between Signs, which is astrological important, particularly for Blessings (Trines).  Trines represent Dumb-Luck Blessings because they usually connect Signs of the same Element (Fire, Air, Earth, or Water).

For instance, considering Emotions or Water Signs, Cancer (Cardinal Water) Generates Emotions, Scorpio (Fixed Water) Consolidates them, and Pisces (Mutable Water) Changes them.  So there is a Natural Flow of Energy between the three Signs, which Allows us to potentially be Complete with a Transaction.

The Grand Trine in the Stinkbug chart, however, includes two Mind (Air) Signs – Chaos in Gemini (Mutable Air) and Sappho-Juno in Libra (Cardinal Air), and one Emotion (Water) Sign – Aletheia-Ceres-Gonggong in Pisces (Mutable Water).  So the Energy of the Stinkbug Grand Trine starts by Generating Dualities (Libra), then Changing the Emotions (Pisces) that evolve from these Thoughts, and then Changing the Thoughts (Gemini) that arise from the New Emotions.  Rather than Flowing Smoothly to Completion, this Pattern is more likely to Increase Complications and Confusion.

Of course Confusion is the first Stage of Growth, to it’s not to be rued, but it may not be as obviously Dumb-Luck as the average Trine.  It’s still a Grand Trine, so the Grace is definitely there, it’s just likely to be disguised.  Prepare to be Surprised when Apparent Difficulties become Unexpected Blessings.

Now if we factor the planets into this equation…  The Energy of the Stinkbug Grand Trine starts by Generating Dualities around Self-Love and Consciousness (Sappho-Juno), then Changing our Emotions around Truth, Sustainability, and our Personal and Karmic History (Aletheia-Ceres-Gonggong) that evolve from these Thoughts about Self-Love and Consciousness, and then Changing Thoughts that arise from these New Emotions into Expansive Fantasies about How It Could Be (Chaos).

In other words, we could be Experiencing Glimpses of the World In Which We Really Want to Live while Dreaming for once that they might be Possible – which will Feel Complicated and Confusing.  All our Life, with a lot of help from Others, we’ve been Discounting the Possibility of Achieving our Dreams, so that will be the first Pattern that arises.

But this is dwarf planet Chaos.  It’s not about Possibility, it’s about Potential.  So don’t Discount your “Expansive Fantasies” here, instead use them as the ground for your Focus on The World You Want to Live In, whenever you catch yourself thinking about The World you Don’t Want to Live In.  Remember that we’re at a Crossroads here, and we’re wasting the Fruits of a Hard-Fought Lifetime if we Decide to be Victimized by all of the Changes that are Going On and will increasingly be Going On.

Another Caveat…  We Create the Dynamic way by Discounting the Improbable and Planning all of the intermediate steps to Building what we want to Bring into Form.  Dynamic Manifestation requires that we know What We Want, What It Will Look Like, and How to Build It.  It’s not Possible to Change Our World with those Constraints.  We need Magnetic Manifestation – PIAVA – to Create What We’ve Never Created, only Craved.

So besides indulging your Karmic Habits of Discounting What You Want, the second-best way to Kill it is to Believe that you have to know How to Create it.  Magnetic Creativity works by Focusing on What You Want and assiduously avoiding Focusing on the Mechanisms that might Create it.  You’re in Design here, not Engineering.  You Build the Energy, and let the Form come to you – that’s the Magnetic part!

So, if you get Confused here, Let It Be.  We need to be able to Sit with Confusion as an Emotion, without trying to “Fix” or Change it, if we are going to use it as our Engine for Growing Consciousness.  And if things get Complicated, Laugh it Off.  The Complications are part of the Engineering.  Your job is to Hold your Single-Minded Focus on What You Want.

Now, as of today, Self-Love (Sappho) and Consciousness Growth (Juno) have moved out of Creative Thought (Libra), and into Consolidating Emotion, aka Passion (Scorpio).  So our Process has Changed.  Our Dumb-Luck Grace no longer has a Motivator (Cardinal Sign).  Chaos won’t get to Cancer (Cardinal Water) till 2023, so we’re going to have to look elsewhere for a Starter.  In other cases, we’d have to Generate the Motivation ourself, but in this case we’re in luck, we have a Kite (a fourth planet midway between two of the Grand Trine planets) and the top of the Kite is in Capricorn (Cardinal Earth)!

So now the Energy begins with How We Want to Respond to Our Physical Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar in Capricorn).  Praying for a Planetary Healing is Noble, and every bit helps.  But Praying (PIAVAing, Meditating) for the World that WE Want to Live In, for the World that Supports Our Own Personal Survival and Bliss, adds a whole ‘nother Dimension, namely our Personal Passion, without violating anyone else’s Freedom to Manifest their own Reality – on their own World, not ours.

To move the Energy from Creation to Stabilization to Change (Cardinal-Fixed-Mutable), we need to run the Kite backwards (Capricorn-Scorpio-Gemini-Pisces).  So we use the Energy in our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar in Capricorn), which run about as Deep as any Energy, to Excite our Passion for Growing our Unconditional Self-Love (Sappho-Juno in Scorpio) to Allow our Karmic Limitations to Shift and Open Up our Boundless Potential (Chaos in Gemini) so it Changes our Emotional History (Gonggong/OR10 in Pisces) and Creates an Internal Reality (Emotion<->Thought) that Sustains the Truth of our Heart (Ceres-Aletheia) – which will Change (Pisces) as we bring it out of our Hope Chest and wipe away the Spiderwebs.

Intuition, Choice, Self-Sovereignty IV

As much importance as we assign to the Meaning of asteroid Moira, it behooves us to look in detail at her Retrogradation.

Planets appear to go backwards or Retrograde when, on our way around the Sun, we “pass” them.  It’s like when we pass another car on the freeway – if we focus on the other car, it looks like they’re going backwards.  Of course we’re all going “forward,” but the sort of astrology we use looks at the planets as they’re seen from Here.

To filter out the effect of the Earth spinning on it’s own axis, we have to take a snapshot of the Sky at the same time every night to detect an other planet going backwards.  And of course we think the other planets and Stars “rise” in the East and “set” in the West, but that’s the Earth’s rotation.  The other planets, when moving “forward,” actually move from West to East, so on our daily time-lapse photo series, “backwards” movement is East to West.

When a planet goes Retrograde, it crosses a given patch of Sky thrice – once prior to its Retrograde Station, a second time while it’s Retrograde, then after its Direct Station, a third time.  A Spiritual Purpose of the moving planets is to Educate us.  When we have to suffer through a Lesson three times, we know that it’s an Important Lesson.

Moira’s Retrograde Station, on 21 March 2020, occurred at 19:05 Scorpio.  Her Direct Station will occur on 15 June at 7:30 Scorpio.  She first crossed 7:30 on 22 January, and She’ll cross 7:30 again on 15 August.  So our Moira-in-Scorpio curriculum spans 22 January to 15 August, and 7:30 to 19:05 Scorpio.  So we’ve finished the first Repetition of this Deep Exploration (Scorpio) of Fate versus Choice (Moira), and beginning the first Remedial session.

Astrological Signs are divided into twelve “Duads” of 2½ Degrees each.  For Scorpio, the first Duad is the Scorpio Duad of Scorpio, the second Duad is the Sagittarius Duad of Scorpio, etc.  So our span of 7:30 to 19:05 is about the Aquarius through Gemini Duads of Scorpio.  The Meaning of these are…

• Aquarius Duad – Deep Examination (Scorpio) of our Relationship to our Community and Culture (Aquarius); are we Victim of, or Adept with (Moira), our Community and Culture?  We had this Lesson initially from 22-29 January.

• Pisces Duad – Deep Examination of our Unfinished Emotional Business; does it Victimize us or are we Enthused by the Opportunity to Confront our Held Emotions and Let Go of our Self-Sabotaging Karma?  That Lesson was 30 January through 7 February.

• Aries Duad – Deep Examination of our Spiritual Creativity; does it Burden us or Motivate us?  Initial Lesson 8-17 February.

• Taurus Duad – Deep Examination of our Relationship to Matter; does it Rule us or do we Rule it?  First Lesson 18 February through 1 March.

• Gemini Duad – Deep Examination of our Willingness to Let Go of Who We Are in Order to Allow a Greater Identity to Form; Victim or Master?  Preview 2-22 March.

Now that Moira is Retrograde, we now go through this curriculum in reverse.  This second iteration is when we really get the opportunity to study the material – the initial set of Lessons merely introduced the Issues, mostly as Questions.  Now we begin to look not for Answers, but for Strategies for dealing with the Issues.  This is Real Life, not college, so the Issues don’t have Right-or-Wrong Answers, they only result in new ways of Organizing our Experience.  Eventually they’ll result in Wisdom, but that may take many Lifetimes.

So our curriculum for the next three months looks like this…

• 23 March-11 April, Gemini Duad, Are we Victims of our Losses, or are we Grateful for the Opportunity to Grow a New Identity?

• 12-25 April, Taurus Duad, Do our Possessions and our Health Define our Identity, or are we Adept at Manipulating Matter and at Manifesting Wellness?
  

• 26 April-7 May, Aries Duad, Are we Clear about what Inspires us, and do we Allow it to do just that, or do we Shut Down our Deepest Desires in order to avoid rocking any boats or Confronting our Programming?

• 8-19 May, Pisces Duad, Yes, we’d rather Die that Feel or Do That again.  Do we Cower before this Fear, or do we Recognize it as an Invitation to Liberation from our Limitations, and Bravely Embrace the Fear as our Power in Disguise?  Remember that Bravery is the Fundamental requirement for success between 2020 and 2055 (Saturn-Pluto), but don’t forget that we still have access to what we Learned between 1982 and 2019, that Spiritual Forces Surround and Assist us.

• 20 May-15 June, Aquarius Duad; So, do we Choose to spend our Attention and Energy on Ruing what we don’t like about the World we Live In, or do we Let that World Go and Persistently Devote One-Pointed Attention to a Vision of the Community that We Want to Live In?

The third and final series of Lessons is mostly about Exercises that allow us to Acknowledge our new-found Confidence that we now know how to…

• We now have Confidence in our Ability to Focus our Energy on a Community that Enlivens us, whether we Feel that we’ve Created it already, or we still need to PIAVA it more, all the while staying in Gratitude for what we have already Manifested in the way of Community.  Aquarius, 16 June-11 July.

• We now have Confidence in our Ability to Recognize that any Experience we don’t Like is an Opportunity to Jettison our Karmic Pattern to Create it again and again, and Let It Go.  Karma is Dead.  The only thing that keeps it Alive for us is our Unwillingness to Let It Go, because we’re so accustomed to it, and frightened by the possibility that the Alternative could be worse.  It won’t.  Pisces, 12-23 July.

• We now have Confidence in our Ability to Recognize the Sources of our Inspiration, Invite them when they’re Absent, and Follow them Wherever they lead us, no matter what anyone else will think or say.  Aries, 24 July-2 August.

• We now have Confidence in our Ability to Manifest What We Need and What We Want, When We Need It.  Taurus, 3-10 August.

• We now have Confidence in our Ability to Recover Quickly from Losses, Be Grateful for What We Have Kept, and Be Able to Swivel Quickly when Conditions Change.  Gemini, 11-15 August.

We need to get very serious about dumping this Karmic shit, and our Belief in it – which perpetuates it – while we still can.  Otherwise we’ll just be Dancing on the Wheel for several more Millennia on some other Planet after this one has finished Atlantis II.  Or on this one after it has split in two.

“When the apparition ended, there in his notebook was ‘The Gospel According to the Dark.’  The handwriting was his, but he had no memory of setting down her words…

” ‘Say to the Nations, let there be no light upon the face of the Earth.  Let the machines all cease their movements, the wires their humming.  Let the skies be empty of satellites and silver birds.  Let the forests return and the watercourses find their way.  All things seek their Mother – save man only.  Now is the hour of Her return.’ …

” ‘Not one syllable of all that is written will remain.  Of the former things, not one will be remembered.  Did you suppose that what was written by the wind on water should last forever?  How much shallower are the traces left by man.‘ ”

–Clark Strand and Perdita Finn, The Way of the Rose: The Radical Path of the Divine Feminine Hidden in the Rosary, pp.53-54

Shades of Hank Wesselman.

Chopping Cherry Trees IV

Here’s a great example of how we as consumers really do have Power over the faceless Corporate World…

https://www.organicconsumers.org/blog/consumers-force-lobbying-group-big-food-brands-re-brand-itself

“To a child, all Nature is new.  Given the chance, a child interfaces with a Nature that has no names, no labels.  Grass is not green; it is not a lawn; it is Mystery.  This is what a child connects with; Mystery.  But the child grows, learning to walk and talk, then to read as their schooling begins.  Names and labels are now being attached to Nature.  That ‘stuff’ that tasted strange is now green grass, and Mystery is banished, along with that previous connection.

“As we are taught more and more about Nature, so, without our ever realizing it, we actually know less and less.  Our intellectual knowledge grows, but our direct knowing recedes.  Moving through our school grades, we are now pushed into an intellectual world that seeks to understand Nature, yet adding ever more of the labels of limitation.  If once, as a child, we had a real connection with Nature, by the time we are an adult, the average student is locked out of any true relationship with a metaphysical Nature.

“Intellectually, most adults relate only to a physical Nature, accepting, as does everyone else, that this is all there is.  But there is so much more!  How can we intellectually understand Nature, when it is not an intellectual expression?  It makes no sense!  Like us, Nature is an expression of conscious intelligence, but this, our greatest potential, is abandoned, littering the classroom floors where it was destroyed by the scissors of unintentional ignorance and thoughtless separation.

“Throw away the keyhole – if you can – and let me give you a different, considerably larger view.  The Nature that we see and relate to on Earth is the physical reflection of a vast, holistic, intricate, metaphysical and universal Nature.  In everything in life, the metaphysical precedes the physical.  There are no exceptions.  Consider the implications of this!

“When all this becomes your inner knowing – not a concept – your actual reality, then your whole relationship with Nature and life is forever changed.  You are now able to have a relationship with the nonphysical Nature that cannot be physically seen or touched, but which can be experienced and listened to.  Nature communicates, but nobody is listening.  We have lost the skill.  We no longer realize that there is a vast difference between hearing and listening.

“Two people talk to each other, but neither truly listens; they hear.  We can hear and think, but we cannot listen and think.  Thinking takes us out of the moment… we cannot think our way into the moment.  To listen, we are required to be in the moment.  This means that to listen to the inaudible voice of Nature, we have to be in the moment.  We are not good at this!  It means being fully conscious.”

–Michael J. Roads, Entering the Secret World of Nature, pp.182-4.

Today, 3 October 2019, the two asteroids that symbolize Truth, Aletheia and Veritas, met in the middle of the Sign that means Diving Relentlessly into the Heart of the Matter, Scorpio.  They were joined by the asteroid that symbolizes Boundaries, Pallas.

In the chart of this Union…

…this Protection of Truth is part of an Easy Path (Double Trine Bridge) across a Challenge to Transcend our Resistance to our Instincts (T-Square to a Stellium of Bee-Zed, Jupiter, Ceres, and Jupiter).  The other part of this Easy Path is our Compulsion to Know the Importance of Respect for All Things (a Stellium of Pluto, Saturn, and asteroid Hopi).  The sources of the Challenge (Opposition under the T-Square) are Becoming Conscious of our Choices (Juno-Moira) and Confusion about our Sovereignty (Neptune-Lilith).  Bear in mind that the Unconscious does not know Direction, only Dimension.  Direction is a property of the Dualistic Observing mind.

Consequently we often encounter the Exact Opposite of what we Expect.  Someone totally ruled by their Instincts, who Respects only themself, who like Goebbels works very hard to set Boundaries against the Truth, who is very Confused about their own Sovereignty, and who is not Conscious of their Choices but only Obsessed with their own Perceived Fate, is a Poster Child for this Energy.  While the Star itself has “moved on,” the Midpoint of Scorpio is associated with the Royal Star Antares.  The Royal Stars promise great success, but with a caveat, a downfall.  The downfall of Antares is to seek Intensity and Drama for the sake of Intensity and Drama.

Expanding into Truth 2

As we’ve been pointing out repeatedly since July’s Truthiness post (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/25/truthiness/), both asteroids Aletheia (Truth of the Heart) and Veritas (Truth of the mind) are in Scorpio (Getting to the Bottom of Things, Relentlessly) and moving rapidly toward Merger (Conjunction).  So the ubiquitous news about Habitual Prevaricators getting caught standing in their own you-know-what is no Surprise.  These two Merge on 3 October 2019, about eight hours after Pluto (No Exit) Stands Still (is at Max Power).  They don’t leave Scorpio till early November.

If you haven’t been following this Thread, you’d do well to skim from Truthiness forward till now, as Truthiness has been entwined with our Karma and several other Heavy Threads – including getting Truthy about our own Karma.  Particularly notice how the hooligans are dressed in the first video of the Ixion, Forbidden Genius 3 post.

Our first 27 September astroevent (5:30 am PDT) is asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) moving into Virgo (Ego Death).  Nemesis symbolizes Guilt and Punishment, and we Transcend that with Ego Death – we either Accept that we’re a Bad Person, or Decide that the Rules we’ve broken are Bad, that we’re being Blamed Unfairly. or that we’re being Blamed Fairly, and Intend to Reform.  Any of which Requires an Ego Adjustment, some bigger than others.

Virgo meanwhile is the rope Bridge between Leo and Libra, between the Pinnacle of Individual Development, and the First Meeting of Other, where we’re basically Infantile.  I mean, in Leo we barely knew Other existed.  We thought those disembodied clapping hands were part of our scenery.  Maybe a zip line, or a rappel with no belay, would be a better metaphor than a rope Bridge.  If we don’t go through a tonne of Ego Adjustment in Virgo as the hands stop clapping, we’ll be in big Trouble when we get to Libra.  Maybe you remember situations where you’ve Felt at the top of your game, and Believe you were meeting someone pretty much as Equals, only to very quickly Discover they were waaay ahead of you.

It’s no Help that dwarf planet Chariklo (Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence) is also Strong (Stationary), its Energy peaking a few minutes after midnight PDT on 28 September.  Or maybe it’s Helpful, if Self-Doubt leads us to Self-Examination and Change, or we Respond to getting caught in Over-Confidence by Adjusting our Attitude.

The Nemesis Sign-Change chart is like so…

Just a Big Tricolor (Mystery; the red-green-blue triangle) and a Mjölnir (Epiphany – the lighter yellow lines).  With a Tricolor we unlock the Grace in the blue line by Refusing to Let the mind Believe that it Understands the Confusion inherent in the green line.  Said another way, there’s an Easy Relationship (Trine) between the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar) and our Ego Death (Nemesis).  But the Ease is locked out of our Awareness when we Allow the Challenge (Square) that Unconscious Fear (Vesta-Sedna) makes to our Ego (Nemesis) to Dominate our Attention.  We’re referring to Pholus-Quaoar as the Climate Emergency, but it includes the Political and Economic Uncertainty that’s Afoot.

We Restore the Ease by Surrendering to our Higher Power the Relationship between our Fear (Vesta-Sedna) and the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar), by Allowing it to remain a Mystery (Quincunx).  But that doesn’t mean we defer the Opportunity to bring the Fear up into Consciousness!  For instance, I’ve been gnawing on a Problem for several months now, without coming up with a decent suggestion to Solve it.  This morning I realized that It was Fear that I was Unconsciously focusing on, while I tried to “Solve” it by Strategizing.  That’s a Dead End, obviously.  We Resolve Fear by Embracing it.

So I did just that – laid down, located the Fear in my Body, Softened and Warmed it while Poor-Sweethearting myself (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Scared, aren’t you”), then followed the Sensation when it Moved in my Body, and the Emotional Memories Triggered as it did.  If a Problem can’t be Resolved in a couple of months of Plotting, it’s not a Problem that will ever be Solved by Analysis, Planning, and Executing.  Declare an Intention, Command What You Want, and be Mindful to Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade Thoughts to the Contrary.  Which I did.  Didn’t immediately Solve the Problem, but it certainly Changed my Frame of Reference, so I’m more often broadcasting What I Want to the Universe instead of What I Don’t Want.

Which leads us right to the Mjölnir (Trioctiles reaching from each end of a Square), that focuses on the Saturn-South Node that plagued us last week – namely, our Karma.  Those Emotional Memories Triggered by the Movement of Energy after I Allowed the Fear to become Conscious as a Physical Sensation in my Body and Invited it to Express itself however it Chose.

Asteroid Hopi, joining Saturn and the Dragon’s Tail, is about Respect for All Things.  A great time to go through our…

“_____, whatever I may have done or not done, or said or not said, Consciously or Unconsciously, that hurt you, I Ask your Forgiveness.  _____, whatever you may have done or not done, or said or not said, Consciously or Unconsciously, that hurt me, I forgive you.”

Be careful with this; it can easily Create Powerful Ego Deaths that you don’t notice until you Discover that you’ve Forgotten how to Drive!

♥ A few hours later, around 8:30 am PDT 27 September, asteroid Bee-Zed (or BZ509, indicating Transendence) Stands Still.  Its chart…

…is more complicated, but the core is two T-Squares (red triangles), one to Stationary Bee-Zed itself, Expanded by Jupiter (Growth), and the other to Chariklo (Self-Doubt/Confidence), Stationary less than a day later (just after midnight PDT 28 September).  Chariklo is Lit up by Pluto (Obsession), which itself is Stationary until 2 October, and our busy friend Hopi again.  This is a hell of a lot of Power.  Make sure you’re swimming downstream.

Expanding Transcendence (Jupiter and Bee-Zed) is Challenged by (Squares) the Dance (Opposition) between Choosing to Become Aware and Trust our Instincts (Moira-Juno-Moon) and Sacred Confusion about our Identity (Neptune-Lilith).  Lilith is about Bringing our Identity back Home to our Self and our Soul, rather than Investing it in someone or something External to us, such as a spouse or a job.  Confusion is always the first stage of Growth, as the Mental Cage we normally trap the Universe in, starts to warp and lead.  Sacred Confusion (Neptune) all the more.

Compulsive Attention to Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence, in the context of our Judgments (Pluto-Chariklo-Hopi) is Challenged by the Dance between our Values (Venus) and our Endings (Atropos).  In other words this is about Letting Go of Obsolete Values that Inhibit our Self-Confidence.  The Greek Atropos was the Goddess who determined the Ending of a TimeLine – a Lifetime or a Habit or a Relationship or any other Thread in your Young Life.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; we replace it with Choice when we become Conscious.  Here we practice Choosing to Let Go of Values that no longer Serve us.

There is a seventh fencepost here – the budding (3 October) Conjunction between Truth of the Heart Aletheia, and Truth of the mind Veritas.  It Bridges both Oppositions – we’ll make everything a lot Easier if we steer toward Truth.

♥ We need to remind that this is all just warmup for the 2 October (11:30 pm PDT) Station of Pluto (Compulsive Change of Trance) and 3 October (8am PDT) Aletheia-Veritas Conjunction (Truth Squared).

And that 28 September is even busier than the 27th,  starting just after midnight PDT with the Station of Chariklo (Self-Doubt/Self-Confidence) which Conjoins the Stations of Pluto and Bee-Zed, and continuing at 9am PDT with the Station of dwarf planet Chaos.  Chaos is a Big Deal; if it weren’t for all these other themes going on and Pluto waving its arms, Chaos would be the Big Topic!  Here it just means that however we React and Respond to these Lit-Up Issues of Karma, Survival, Ego Death, Confidence, Truth, Growth, Ascension (into 5D), and Descension (of Soul into Matter) the Gate to the Universe is Open.  The World is our Oyster; all we need to do is Intend it.

Then, at 11:30 am PDT 28 September, the Moon is New within one arcminute of dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  The primary theme of the New Moon, other than Manifesting What We Want, is Descent of Soul into Matter, not just “our own” Soul into our own Body, but the Reanimation of the Planet, the Wild, and Everything In It, return to the Indigenous World where All Things Are Alive.

♥ If anyone is watching the Degrees and comparing them to their natal chart – which we should all be doing – they’re these…

• Equinox 0 Libra 23 September
• Nemesis Ingress 0 Virgo 27 September
• New Moon 6 Libra 28 September
• Aletheia-Veritas Conjunction 17 Virgo 3 October
• Bee-Zed Station 18 Sagittarius 27 September
• Chariklo Station 20 Capricorn 28 September
• Pluto Station 21 Capricorn 2 October
• Asbolus Station 24 Gemini 23 September
• Chaos Staion 27 Gemini 28 September
• Vesta Station 28 Taurus 23 September

Self-Love Full Moon III

One of the poles of the Fabulous Grace (Grand Sextile) in the Full Moon – with the caveat that you have to kick-start the Blessings with at least a Prayer about What You Want, if not Action in that direction – is a Merger (Conjunction) between the symbol for Revelation of What’s Been Denied (dwarf planet Eris – which was recently Stationary) and the symbol for Ending Timelines or Habits (asteroid Atropos).

To facilitate this Getting Honest stuff, the symbol for Truth of the Heart (asteroid Aletheia) just entered (11:30 pm PDT 16 August) the Sign of Fearlessly Seeking the Truth (Scorpio).  You may not recall that the symbol for Truth of the Mind (asteroid Veritas) (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/25/truthiness-2/) entered the same Relentless Sign a short while ago.  While Head-Truth folks can Agree to Disagree, Heart-Truth people are less likely to be able to Compromise, because their Identity is invested in their Truth.  So we may wish to PIAVA or otherwise Pray that this Potential for increasing Violence doesn’t Manifest.

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Meanwhile, we’re now well into the Energy of Letting Go of Obsolete Habits (asteroid Atropos, Stationary) peaking 20 August (11:30 pm PDT).  The Fabulous Grace in the Full Moon, which should Bless at least the next two weeks, if we can Feel and Express enough Collective Gratitude for it, could well soften this potential Confrontation of Truths that are Held as Sacred.  We might PIAVA that we and others Decommision our Habits of resorting to Violence to “Get Our Way,” of preferring inflammatory Rhetoric to Listening, and of Working to Eliminate our Opposition rather than Accommodate or Contain it.

Another Boon is the symbol for Choosing Consciousness over Fate or Karma (asteroid Moira) entering the Sign of Ego Death (Virgo) on 19 August (5:30 pm PDT).  If our Ego is Attached to our Karma – which like it or not, for all of us, it is, or we’d just Let It Go before breakfast…

– we may now be more willing to Accept the Ego Death(s) necessary for us to Choose Awareness over Repeating our old Self-Sabotaging Patterns.  Ego Deaths don’t have to be Painful.

By 23 August, two other Boons arrive.  The symbol for Growing the Edges of Consciousness (asteroid Juno) also enters the Sign of Loosening Ego Attachment (Virgo) (5pm PDT).  And the symbol for New Beginnings (asteroid Klotho) moves into the Sign of Flexibility and Change (Gemini), which should make it easier to give up old intransigent Patterns (12:30 pm PDT).

It’s not often that all four of the Greek Mythology symbols for Fate versus Conscious Awareness are lit up at the same time.  The symbols for Fate itself (Moira), and for Starting New Timelines (Klotho) are both moving into new Signs, while the symbol for Consciously Ending Obsolete Timelines (Atropos) is very Strong (Stationary).  And we haven’t written about it yet, but the symbol for Consciously Choosing the Duration of our Habits (asteroid Lachesis) is Lit Up in the Full Moon chart (the focus of one of three Fingers of God).  I read this as a fairly Unique Opportunity for Massive Personal and Global Change.

Busy August III

Scorpio is Fearless, Relentless, and won’t stop till it gets to the Bottom of Things.  When you try to Bullshit or Obfuscate or Avoid Scorpio’s penetrating Investigations, Scorpio can get very Icy.  You can tell when you’re dealing with someone who has an emphasis in Scorpio, because they Hold your Gaze.  That Intimidates many.  You can certainly tell Scorpio that it’s None of their Business, but good luck trying to Divert its Attention.  This is the nature of Scorpio as an Energy, not as a Huper.  Note that Pluto Energy is very similar.

So, correcting our brainfart of Busy August I, we are starting a Nemesis New Moon.  You can think of your Nemesis as an Enemy who’s eventually going to Whup Yer Ass, and there isn’t much you can do about it.  I think that’s not far from the use of the term in everyday language.  And yes, if you’re thinking about Getting Yer Ass Whupped, then yes, I’d say you were Guilty – of something.  Feelings are – or are supposed to be – Energy in Motion, or E-Motion for short.  So if you’re Stuck mulling on some kind of Guilt, as with any other Feeling, the Energy needs to Move.

So how do we Move Guilt?  Well, it isn’t usually quite that Clear-Cut, is it.  When we was Kids the Rules were probably pretty Clear, and we were perhaps Punished for Transgressions.  So we had to Hide (Guilt ain’t Moving, is it), or Confess.  If as Adults we Break a Promise, and the Relationship is a Keeper, we of course need to Make Amends.  Breaking Laws can be a bit more complex, because we may Resent rather than Respect the Law we Break.  Being Stuck on Resentment isn’t any Better than being Stuck on Guilt.  In fact, many people Wear their Resentments as if they were Merit Badges.  That’s Ego doing the Wearing.

Guilt is actually similar.  You Transgressed somehow, and your Obedience – or the Continuity of your Consciousness about your Desire to Obey – to whatever Rule or Promise you Broke, becomes a Demerit Badge stuck to your Ego.  You don’t Feel Good about yourself, or you feel like you need to make Excuses for yourself.  But, Amends may not be appropriate.  Someone may be Angry at you for not keeping an Agreement you actually didn’t make.  They just Expected you to Behave a certain way, but you didn’t.  You aren’t Wrong, but you Feel a bit Guilty anyway.  Like, Maybe I Shoulda.  Or If only I’da Known!  Or even, My Moon must be in Klutz!

If you pick up on the Thread, you’ve already noticed that Guilt, Resentment, and Nemesis are about Ego.  They’re neon signs that tell us our Ego needs to Grow.  Egos are nothing if not Tenacious, kind of like Scorpio.  So Egos don’t usually Shift, even if it’s a Shift into Growth, without a fight.  Consequently, we interpret asteroid Nemesis as Ego Death.  The hallmark of Ego Death is the sense that I’d rather Die than do that.  Well, Ego Deaths are seldom fatal to the Body, so, even though we thought we were Experiencing something about Dying, we were really Experiencing something about Ego – I would rather Die than…

After we Feel Terrible for a while, we finally Accept what’s going on, bite the bullet, Decide what we have to Do about it, if anything, and Move Forward with a New Ego, vs. 815.9.  We can save ourselves a Shitload of Grief by Learning to Recognize the Signs of Ego Death, and instead of Suffering through the Purgatory of it, just Let Go and Let the Shift happen, quickly and easily.  Beside the I’d rather Die business, other signs of incipient Ego Death are Confusion, Forgetting what we know by Heart, Getting Lost a block from Home, and Major Lackawanna.

So this is what’s likely to be going on for the next few weeks.  Use it as the Learning Opportunity that it is.