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Earth Repair 2 and Karma Repair 1

May 12, 2019

The Global Earth Repair Conference is YouTubing its sessions so we can watch them free.  Since there were about 200 sessions in seven or eight time slots, there are lot of sessions I wasn’t able to attend either, even when I hopped from one session to another in one time slot, which I did whenever I wasn’t Learning a lot.  Not that the sessions lacked quality – I just read a lot and Earth Repair is one of my favorite topics.  I’m much more Optimistic after the Conference than I was before – many of the presenters are already Living in 5D.

Here are a couple of samples…

“When it comes to survival and sustainability, there’s only one story for the human species, and we’re all in this together…  We know when we see a forest, a lake, the ocean, a natural river system, the atmosphere, that it’s more valuable than computers, cars, airplanes, which are valuable for a short time, then become trash and pollution…  If we truly value natural systems, then Nature would truly become the basis of our money and our economy.  To protect Nature then would not be a luxury, but a necessity.”  –John D. Liu, in…

“We’re extremely conflicted and I think it has something to do with two levels of development – our brains are wired for survival, which means anger, jealousy, fear, territoriality, self-esteem, all the things that cause trouble.  And our brains are also wired for beauty and connection and spirituality, and I think it’s a crisis time for us to begin to overcome this hardcore biological survival wiring and begin to activate our spiritual wiring – the forebrain.

“Buddhism does that well with mindfulness and meditation, and the other traditions that do this.  It’s almost like we’re at a crisis point, not just of the Earth, but of our own human journey.  Are we going to give in and basically dissolve?  Will we be a failed experiment?  Or, are we at the beginning of an incredibly exciting part of our journey as we begin to become more human in the sense of truly connected to loving and nurturing all life?”  –Susan Eirich in…

Find out more about Susan at https://earthfireinstitute.org/our-story/, and about John at https://www.commonland.com/en and https://www.ecosystemrestorationcamps.org/foundation/john-d-liu/.  The Conference sessions that have been YouTubed so far are listed at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNPSTkjWIrl7FD31xbJ5STg/videos.  Planning is underway for followup Earth Repair Conferences in Chile, Africa, and India.

Meanwhile, in another galaxy far far away…

https://danielscranton.com/galactic-energies-within-you-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“We are very excited about the progress that we see you all making in regards to the accessing of more of your galactic energies.  You are all receiving activations all the time to awaken within you those parts of yourselves that are not from Earth, or your solar system.  And we can see how these activations are affecting all of you in a positive way.  Much of what you are attempting to resolve there on planet Earth at this time is related to those journeys that you have taken through all the different star systems in our galaxy.

“And so, by becoming more of the whole you, you are better equipped to handle the challenges you face right now on planet Earth.  We see you getting activated and then taking what energies you are accessing from within to the different challenges that you face in your lives.  Even though you still have much to resolve there on planet Earth, you are also bringing a lot to the party because of all that you have already experienced in your lifetimes in other parts of the galaxy.

“You draw from those Sirian, Andromedan, Pleiadian, Arcturian, and other lifetimes, and when you bring those energies forward, you make it easier for yourselves to reconcile the differences that you have there on your planet.  For example, most people are split politically.  They either go in all into one political party or all into another, and they see the others who are putting all of their energy into a different political party as the enemy.  This is a much more toned down version of the battles that have existed throughout our galaxy for millions and millions of years.

“When you recognize that you contain all of those energies inside of you, and you make it your mission to be integrated, then you can be a walking example of what it is like to bring different energies, different beliefs, different star systems, together.  And if you can do that, you certainly can resolve the differences between you and the others there on Earth who have very different beliefs.

“This is why you often find that you are the [sheep of color] in your family.  Those of you who are awake are often the only ones who have the beliefs that you do, and it then falls upon you to make peace with the fact that everyone else that you are related to by blood thinks differently.  And when you can do that, and you can make peace with the differences between you, then you know that you are becoming more integrating with all of the galactic energies that you have inside of you, and you are moving closer and closer to that fifth dimensional reality where all beings co-exist harmoniously.  So keep up the good work.”

And on a galaxy much closer to Home, our Cosmic Recess window is beginning to close, as we’re now only seven days from the planetary equivalent of The Most Important Thing Is Your Karma (Saturn Conjunct the Mean South Node).  “Mean” here means Average, not Cruel, though from the Ego’s Perspective, Cruel wouldn’t be far off the mark.

John Liu reminds us that when our Ecosystem Collapses, nothing is more Important or Valuable than some degree of Restoration.  Jack Rosenberg (in Body, Self, & Soul) points out that when the Ego shatters, nothing is more Important and Valuable than Restoring a functioning Ego, because you’ll just make a big mess of anything else you try to do.  And I (among others) aver that when we’re trying to Manifest something Difficult for us, nothing is more Important and Valuable than Examining our Karma.

There isn’t a lot of astrological Interaction between the 19 May Saturn-South Node Conjunction (Karma demanding Attention) and the 23 May Station of Orcus (Breaking Oaths), but in addition to their Temporal Proximity, the Topical Connections are many and Intense.  We’ll take the chart apart soon, but in the interim we’ll give you some homework.  Make a list of the places in your Life where you don’t Believe that you have Choice.  That’ll likely turn out to be critical.  And, Think about all of the Abuse Stories you’ve heard in your Life; which one had the most Emotional Impact on you?

Ancestors Full Moon 3 (Boundaries VII)

February 18, 2019

A reader asks…

“Now how to come upon that ego death, what is that – and what does that look like?  I know it’s in the ‘literature’; the fine print!  And am I reading between the lines, perhaps, that seem to be about moving up and beyond karmic entanglement?  …it feels so weighted now.”

Yes, I realized last night that I should say more about Ego Death, but I’d already written so much that I didn’t want to stretch it out more.  So I appreciate the Question.

And yes, Ego Death is “in the literature,” at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/identity/ego-death/.  The essence is Noticing that you’re feeling like “I’d rather die than go through that again,” and a key to becoming Adept with this “ED” is to reframe the Experience from “I’d rather Die than…” to “I would rather die than…”  Making that a PIAVA would also be a boon.  There’s much more “in the literature,” for instance, when you get lost in your own ‘hood or can’t remember your own phone number, those are signs that you’re Newly Reborn.

Ego Death is a Psychological Molt that needs to occur whenever we feel Overwhelmed and Recognize that we have to Change something in order to Enjoy going on with our Life, but we also feel Trapped by our Commitments (or lack thereof if we’re Feeling Isolated) and don’t know what we even can Change.  Making our Ego Death a PIAVA Surrenders all that Change mishmash about What and Why and How and Who to our Intuition, which Knows well What needs to be Changed, and How to do it.

We might PIAVA an Ego Death with something like “I Wonder what I need to be Happy” or “Great Spirit, Please Make My Life Enjoyable (Again)” or Asking yourself “What Do I Really Want?” and then spending some time with the Feeling you would have in your Body if you had the Luxury of Allowing Yourself to Receive Exactly That.  And certainly “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel at your Wit’s End, don’t you” or “… you feel Anxious, don’t you” would be a quick way to Change the wallpaper.  Of course you’d Change the Subject after each PIAVA.

Folks say that all this “New Agey” stuff is just another excuse for putting off the Action that we need to take, but I differ adamantly about that.  Taking Action from our Dynamic Planning-Doing mindset Changes nothing, as our Inner Male can only perpetuate His Limitations.  We have to Appeal to our Inner Female to Change anything.  She Knows what must be done, and She Knows how to Motivate your Inner Male to Enjoy getting to Work when it’s Time and when it’s Right.

The whole idea behind PIAVA is that, sometime after you Change the Subject, you Wake Up and Notice that You Are Doing What It Takes to Solve the Problem, without even Noticing that you’re Doing it, because once you Changed the Subject you Changed your Perspective, and now the World is running on a whole New engine and transmission, and the words you used to use to describe your Frustration (if you even remember them, which often you won’t) aren’t even Relevant anymore.

Your Inner Lady IS your Heart, She Knows What You Want Intimately, and She Knows How to Get It, because She Knows the World Intuitively.  Your “Head” (really we’re talking about the Third Chakra, not the Sixth, so “Head” is a misnomer – your Inner Male comes out of your Solar Plexus) only Knows What You Think, and you’re Thinking that What You Want is Unreachable, and since He only Knows the World Empirically, He can only Act to Keep On Doing What He’s Been Doing, which Aint Working, or you wouldn’t be in need of an Ego Death.

And yes, Karma has been Dead for a long time now, except for our own Grasping of it.  As for the Weight,

there’s probably an Ego Death in there, and probably a Held Emotion (aka Karmic PTSD).  The quickest way to find out is to make yourself Comfortable, Locate the Heaviness in your Body, Warm It, Soften around It (Fear is Hard and Cold, Love is Soft and Warm), put your Full Attention into the Center of It, and Hold It there until the Heaviness Moves. Then Change the Subject.

Of course it will help to Give your Inner Child Permission to Blubber unashamedly and uncontrollably, and to Complain to friends – but only those who will understand that your Intention is to Let Go rather than to Bitch (a la RC – see https://www.rc.org/) or to Accuse anyone of anything.

By the way, do you know how to Complain without putting the load right on your Listeners?  You speak in I statements rather than You or They Statements, and you use Feeling verbs rather than Thinking verbs (“Feel Like” is a Thinking verb – a Feeling verb is always followed by an Emotion word such as Angry or Excited or Bummed).  This way your Listeners can Enjoy your Story, and to the extent they’re able, Empathize, without having to Take Responsibility for your Process.  If you want to study how to do this, see https://www.cnvc.org/.

Ancestors Full Moon 2 (Boundaries VI)

February 18, 2019

The second Self-Resolving Challenge (Diamond Star) in the 19 February Full Moon is Focused on the Life Force (Varuna)…

The Stress that needs to be Resolved (the Opposition in the base of the T-Square or red triangle) is between Whether our Actions Serve our Soul’s Purpose (Mars-Uranus) in the Lifetime, and Whether our Boundaries are True to our Soul’s Purpose (Aletheia-Pallas, both of which are Stationary or Strong).  The Suggestion is that any Limitations in our Vitality will be clues about how our Actions and Boundaries aren’t Serving our Soul’s Purpose.

The Grace which Supports our Efforts and makes the Challenge Self-Resolving, is split between…

The big uptick in participation by the Ancestors (Sun-Klotho-OR10), which we discussed in the previous post, and…

Trusting our Unique and possibly or formerly Forbidden Genius to help us be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Eurydike-Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar), which we also talked about earlier.

The next Big Configuration in the Full Moon chart is Profound Blessings (a Grand Trine and Almost-Grand-Sextile)…

The Big Dumb-Luck Blessing (Grand Trine) is on the Cusp between Fire and Earth, mirroring the imminent (6 March) movement of Soul (Uranus) into Matter (Taurus).  The Players are an Ego Challenge as our Inner Female steps forward – for any gender (the Moon on the cusp of Virgo), the Genius-Trust-Survival Dance we’ve spoken of (Eurydike-Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar on the Sagittarius-Capricorn Cusp), and the Question about whether our Actions Serve our Soul’s Purpose (Mars in Taurus Conjunct Uranus in Aries).

The two elements in the Almost-Grand-Sextile are the Ancestors (Sun-Klotho-OR10 in early Pisces), and the Changes in our Boundaries (Pallas-Aletheia in late Libra), both of which we’ve discussed.  A Grand Sextile means that all of the elements in it are Operating Cooperatively with one another – sort of the way everything will be in 5D.  So if we can Activate the Almost-Grand-Sextile, we’ll find our Boundaries, the Ancestors, our Survival, our Genius, our Instincts (Moon), and our Actions all in Alignment.

So how do we Activate an Almost-Grand-Trine?  We look at the Energy embedded in the sixth corner, the one that would Complete the Grand Sextile, called the Vacancy, and we Project that Energy Consciously.  Intention is probably Sufficient.  The Vacancy is 2 Cancer, “A man on a magic carpet hovers over a large area of land: The ability to expand one’s consciousness by stabilizing one’s point of view at a higher level.”  Wow, just what the original Self-Resolving Challenge, that we described in the previous post, Creates!  When astrology Repeat itself, we know we’re on the right track.  Remarkable.

The picture above also shows one other feature of the Full Moon – the Finger of God (grey-green wedge) pointing at Chiron (Despair and Miracles), so recently having moved into Aries (1pm PST 18 February).  Despair is one of the defining characteristics of Pisces, as Pisces’s job description is to Embrace All Excess Emotional Baggage, Karmic and otherwise.  So the last eight years, while Chiron has been in Pisces, have been Intense Emotionally for all of us.

By now we’ve hopefully all Learned how to Poor-Sweetheart ourself into Miracles.  By saying to ourself “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Bummed, aren’t you,” and then Changing the Subject (Putting our Attention elsewhere), we can instantly Shift our Identity from Bummed to Compassion.  We may have to rinse and repeat, or use Tapping or other PIAVAs, if we Obsess and have difficulty Changing the Subject.  (Leave a comment if these concepts are new to you.)

With Chiron in Aries, we of course could Encounter Spiritual Crises instead of Emotional Crises, and considering the State of the Planet, that may well happen.  And actually, we’re already hearing about just that on the Fake News every evening, aren’t we.  But a Spiritual Crisis is basically an Ego Death, and we’re well practiced at Embracing those, Right?  And now that we’re Adept at Embracing Emotional Crises after studying them for eight years, we won’t have to deal with those complications, Eh?

The Roots of the Chiron Finger of God are our Instincts about Ego Death (the Moon on the Cusp of Virgo), and our True Boundaries (Stationary Pallas and Aletheia).

The next Global Configuration in the Full Moon chart is a hidden Chin-Strap Square Fez, so called because the sides of the Moroccan-hat-shaped trapezium are Squares (red lines), and the blue triangle below the bottom looks like a chin strap…

It also forms a Parasol over the Juno Diamond Star, adding extra Grace to our Consciousness Expansion.  The Challenges (Squares) are real…

  • Genius-Trust-Survival (Ixion-Eurydike-Pholus-Quaoar) Challenging our Ability to Transform Despair into Miracles (Chiron).  Basically, this is about using the Tools we’ve Learned to Avoid being a Victim, for which there are many Opportunities.  We could be Victimized by Threats to our Survival.  All our Life we’ve been Victimized by the Programmers who drove our Forbidden Genius underground.  If we misinterpret Respond-Ability as Blame, we’re Victim there as well.  And Lack of Trust is a perennial source of Victimhood.

But – we know how to convert Despair to Miracles, Right?  Only our Ego can be Victim, not our Soul, and we’re in the process of moving our Ego closer and closer to Soul, Right?  So every trace of Victimhood is a Sign that we need to Surrender to an Ego Death and move into Respond-Ability.  We can do that as simply as saying to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’ve Feeling Vicimized here, aren’t you” and then Changing the Subject.

  • Our False Boundaries (Stationary Pallas and Aletheia) Challenging our Life Force (Varuna).  This can easily feel like Victimhood again – if our Boundaries aren’t working, we can feel like someone else is Manipulating or Hurting us.  If we don’t Recognize the connection, we can Experience that as a Diminution of our Vitality.  Again, we can Watch for Diminished Vitality, and when we Notice it, Look For places where our Boundaries are too weak or too strong.

But the key to any Fez is the Tricolors (red-green-blue triangles) created by the grey-green diagonals.  A Tricolor is a combination of Challenge (red), Curiosity (grey-green), and Grace (blue lines).  The prescription is to unlock the Grace by remaining in Curiosity about the Challenge, rather than trying to Figure It Out.  We can’t Figure It Out without Limiting ourself to our current concept-set, so by Avoiding that and staying with Curiosity instead, we invite Growth in Consciousness instead.

This is not the kind of Curiosity that inspires Study and Research – that’s the Figure-It-Out kind.  This is more akin to Awe and Wonder, Accepting What Is at Face Value, and Marveling at it.  Like we did very often as a kid, before we were perverted by the Over-Intellectualization of Colonial Society.

By Knowing Cause we can sometimes Manipulate circumstances to our Advantage.  To the Colonial or Capitalist mind, Win-Lose is Success.  We could use Cause for Win-Win, but first we have to Evert our notion of Success.

By Believing we Know Cause, whether we do or not, and by Enjoying the fruits of Manipulating circumstances to our Advantage, we Seduce ourselves into Believing we’re Superior to those we’re Colonizing.  That somehow makes Colonialism okay – we Rationalize that we’re somehow Helping them while we’re robbing them blind.

The problem is that we never do actually Know Cause.  We may Know some Superficial Connections, but like Vale’s recent murderous dam failures in Brazil, Colonialism always ends up Defiling the Planet and the People for the Profit of the few, and the few usually live far away from the Carnage.

So to achieve non-Figuring-It-Out Curiosity-Awe-Wonder requires a Big Ego Death relative to our Lifelong training as children of Colonialists.  Like Racism and Sexism, it takes a big jolt just to Realize that we are Racist and Sexist and Colonialist, and that we don’t know how not to be.

Moving our Perspective from Appreciation – or literally Worship – of Figuring It Out (and of Wealth and Superiority) to Appreciation of Awe and Wonder (and Sustainability and Equality), takes a Searching and Fearless Inventory of everything in our Lives, but if we want to Trust our Unique Genius and Respond Fully to our Survival Instincts, it has to be done.

We can interpret the diagonals of the Fez and their Tricolors as PIAVAs.  Using just the Major Tricolors (those with the long blue lines or Trines), we have…

  • “I Wonder if I can Poor-Sweetheart myself into Allowing Miracles to Adjust my Boundaries so that my Vitality is Improved” (Varuna Square Pallas-Aletheia Quincunx Chiron Trine Varuna – the “Quincunx” or five Signs is the grey-green Curiosity line)

PIAVA is short for Prayer-Intention-Asking-Visualizing-Affirming.  There are other, “silent” letters as well, such as Wondering, Commanding, and Expanding.  These are all Triggers for our Intuition that can Magnetize what we Want to Receive and draw it toward us – the Feminine process of Creating.  It’s an alternative to the Dynamic or Masculine process of Plan-Execute and its corollaries.  Whenever you’re dealing with What You Don’t Know, aka the Unconscious, the Magnetic process is the only one that works – and it works Wonders.

In the above we’ve used Wondering to Trigger our Intuition, and to make it work – which is to say, to Avoid trying to Figure It Out – we need to immediately Change the Subject and put our Attention elsewhere.  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ for more details, some of which are important.  In the below we’ll use Prayer.

  • “Ganeshi, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Avoiding Victimhood about my Genius and my Survival, while Supporting my Vitality.”

Then we Change the Subject.  By Surrendering Control over the Relationships between (1) Victimhood (Chiron) and (2) Genius-Survival (Ixion-Quaoar) and (3) Vitality (Varuna), and Delegating them to the Remover of Obstacles Ganesh, we’ve Invited our Intuition to Resolve any Conflicts that may arise between them.

That leaves only what’s usually ignored in astrology – the four “Unxes” in the Full Moon chart.  Unx means one twelfth, and it names the Angle between two planets that are one Sign apart…

These are the short green lines.  This is the Twelfth Harmonic, which is about Pattern-Breaking.  So any Self-Sabotaging Habits you have between the Energies on each end of an Unx, this is a great time to replace these Habits with Self-Supporting Patterns.  The Unxes here are…

  • Do you Sabotage your Vitality, by eating Sugar or other empty calories like White Bread, for instance, or failing to eat enough Green Vegetables or Drink enough Water?  You have Instincts that tell you not to do this – do you Ignore them or not even Recognize them?  Now would be a good time to PIAVA that you Attune yourself to them.  (Moon Unx Varuna)
  • Many of us have Habitual Actions that don’t Serve our Soul.  It’s an excellent time to PIAVA that we become Conscious of them so we can Change them.  (Juno Unx Mars-Uranus)
  • And most of us probably feel like Victims of these non-Soul-Serving Actions, as if someone else made us do them (and indeed, we may have been Programmed to do them by someone else).  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Victimized by those Actions, don’t you.”  (Chiron Unx Mars-Uranus)
  • I’m Worried that these Ancestors are coming to Kick Ass because we’re Screwing Up!  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Scared by this Possibility, don’t you.”  (Chiron Unx Sun-Klotho-OR10)

Confusion and Growth

February 4, 2019

The New Moon isn’t the Star of its own chart here.  Neptune is, as should be obvious from a glance at the chart…

Neptune is not only the focus of a Challenging T-Square (the red triangle), but also the apex of an Epiphanic Mjölnir (the big orange wedge).  The New Moon does provide an Easy Path (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) through any Difficulties that might arise.  What does this Easy Path look like?  As we suggested in the previous post, find it by Staying as True as you can to your uncontaminated Deepest Desires.

The orange Octiles and Trioctiles dominate the chart.  Nothing like the vibrant Grand Octile in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/01/18/self-judgment-and-self-love-iv/, but impressive nonetheless.  Octiles are about Adjustments, Trioctiles about Bringing Things Back into Balance.  We can use some of that.  A lot of it actually.

The Neptune Mjölnir combines two Trioctiles on a Square (Challenge, red line at the base) between Boundaries (Pallas) and the Life Force (Varuna) – there are places in our Life where we Resist certain kinds of Experience, and the Resistance eats away at our Life Force.  We Resist these Experiences because they Confuse us, and we’re very Vulnerable when we’re Confused.

Folks might try to tell you that this Vulnerability is exactly what will Heal, but you won’t Hear it.  But there’s a good chance that you’ll encounter Insights in the next few weeks that you will be able to Hear.  It’s likely that these Insights will have something to do with Self-Love (Sappho), and will help you shift your Identity from Defending your Masks to Supporting your Soul (Uranus).

The New Moon itself is Octile to Chiron (Despair/Miracles) and to Venus (Values), signifying that we’re due to be Adjusting our Values so they are more Invigorating (or even Thrilling) than Limiting.  If you get stuck, use your Poor-Sweethearts“You Poor Sweetheart, you won’t let yourself Enjoy what you Really Want, will you.”  You Believe you’re a Victim of this, that someone else is somehow the Perp.  But they aren’t, it’s you.

That’s Hard, because you can’t just Betray your own Values.  They’re there for good reasons.  Besides Letting other people Down you’d feel like you’ve Let yourself Down.  So what to do?  Well, you can Change the Subject after you Poor-Sweetheart yourself about Depriving yourself of Enjoyment.  Your mind can’t solve this or any other Neptune problem, and it’ll try damn hard to do it.  Sound familiar?

Poor-Sweethearting and then Changing the Subject is a Powerful Invitation for your Intuition to suggest Alternatives to what you’ve been doing all of your Life, Alternatives that your mind will never think of.  You may not even see them as related to your Resistance to Self-Love, till long after you’ve Opened Up to them.  If it’s hard to Change the Subject because your mind keeps returning to the “Problem,” go deeper.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you can’t Change the Subject, can you.”  Then Change the Subject.  The mind isn’t easy to outsmart, but Patient Persistence helps.

Kegels 1

January 30, 2019

One of these days I’ll learn better.  Here again I thought we were getting a few quiet days, when Lo, another Biggie.  As Frank or Earnest (I never knew which was which), “I just get my budget in order, and along comes a big Surprise, like rent, or a weekend!”  So, on 8 February, Sedna (Converting Fear into Power) is Stationary (Strong), but gosh, that’s nine days away.  Not that nine days isn’t too long for a buildup to a Station, especially if it’s a Big Station, or we’re more Sensitive than the average Bear – or if there isn’t much else going on.

Buuut, I just Noticed that asteroid Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) crosses Sedna this morning (30 January, 9:30 am PST), so that’ll be giving us an early preview of the Sedna Station.  This should be a good test of our Misogyny – the crossing, and the Station, occur within a few arcminutes of Algol, the Star most associated with Catastrophe – Catastrophe from the Male Perspective, as to them it symbolizes Female Rage – Algol is the eye in Medusa’s severed head.  From the Female Perspective, it’s a whole different Story.  I mean, gee, what do women have to Rage about, anyway?

If you haven’t noticed any Disturbances in a Force near you, you may want to look more closely at the Gender Dynamics – you might be overlooking something.  And if you’re really Brave, you might want to bring up the subject with members of the Other Gender.  “Is there anything you’d like to talk about, Dear?  How do you think we’re doing on the Male-Female Equality thing?  Anything we could Improve upon?”  If there’s anything a Juno Angle begs for, it’s Expansion of Consciousness.

This isn’t the Initiation of a new Cycle; that was last mid-September, at 28 Taurus, “A woman, past her ‘change of life,’ experiences a new love.”  As if Love was reserved for Youth, or defined by Hormones alone.  This is what we call a “Confidence-Builder,” the third and last Conjunction in a series.  So we’ve already had practice with this Energy, in the first half of September and November last year, and now it’s time to Integrate what we’ve Learned.  A reminder in case you’ve forgotten – Kavanaugh’s Confirmation Hearing spanned 4 September to 6 October.

The chart of this third Juno-Sedna crossing is pretty busy…

The main feature of the Juno-Sedna Conjunction itself, though not the main feature of the whole chart, is our Challenge (Square, or red line) to Receive a New Timeline (Klotho) that will turn our Beliefs (Vesta) upside down and inside out…

You live on Earth as a human being, not as a transcendent, Angelic being or a mythical Sidhe.  However, you can unite your humanity with the Angelic and Sidhe part within you in a rooted and yet heavenly way.  This is your potential, no matter what kind of human you are. 

“How you do this is for you to discover as your journey to revelations opens to the adventure called reality.  The Angel and Sidhe in you speak to your inner core about the most gentle and magical power you are destined to be.  Unfold your wings and walk Mother Earth with tenderness and creativity so heaven can land in the world of manifested creation.” 

— Søren Hauge, The Wild Alliance: Awakening Your Inner Angel & Sidhe, p.7.

The most Exciting (Excitement Less Breathing Equals Fear) feature of the chart as a whole is the Challenge (T-Square, the red triangle pointing left) to see All Apparent Setbacks as the Opportunities that they really are (Chiron = Despair and Miracles).  One of the most important parts of 5D Manifestation is Trust (Eurydike).  We are actually already Manifesting in 5D, but we don’t Trust it.  Whenever our Plans and Expectations and other Intellectualizations about Mechanisms lead us away from our Intentions, Intuitions, and Visualizations about Results, our 5D Guides are likely to spill our paint pot or poke a hole in a tire.

When we see these Gifts as setbacks and Gremlins, and Persist with our preference for Method over Result, we revert to 3D.  If instead we, chuckling, Appreciate the Interruptions as Guidance, then we can lean back, close our eyes, Meditate on What We Want rather than How We’re Planning to Get It, and rejoin the Collaborative Co-Creation that we really Want.  Why struggle against the Unseen Energies when we can Cooperate with them.  We have seen the Enemy, and it ain’t them.

Their Objective is to follow our Lead, but they’re mapping out the Effortless path to Manifesting What We Want, not the Tiresome path of How we Planned to Claim it as Our Own Creation.  The Unseen Energies are taking their cues from our Soul, not from our Ego, and that’s an incredible Gift to us if we’re Open to Looking for it.

Did you notice that this is a Gender-Balance problem?  The intellectual Focus on Method is the Dynamic Male process of Creating; the PIAVAed (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/) Focus on Desired Results is the Magnetic Female way of Manifesting.

Regardless of our external Gender, our Inner Female (Heart, Intuition) knows Where We’re Going and What We Want.  Our Inner Male (Intellect, Engineering) might know How To Get There or How to Get It, but he isn’t hip to Where or What or Why.  They need to Partner Up if we’re going to get to 5D.

The Deeper part of this Challenge/T-Square is the Gateway to our Forbidden Genius and our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planets Ixion and Chaos, in the Opposition at the base of the T-Square).  Both of these lie far beyond our Expectations and Understandings, and will Deliver Rewards that are as Exceedingly Surprising and Delightful.  This Gate is Open in this chart (ie, at this time), and the Treasures that lie beyond the Gate are Glorious.  All we have to do to Open to them, is to see Interruptions as Gifts, as hints that we were veering off course.

The big red square is a Grand Cross – four planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiacal Loop.  It’s actually more Impactful than the T-Square we’ve been talking about, but the T-Square will give us more hassles, so we’ll probably Notice it sooner.  Not only is a Grand Cross a Big Deal (because it spans the entire chart), but this one includes the Nodal Axis, meaning that it’s all about our Journey from Karma to Grace, making it Foundational.

Bringing our Fear up into Consciousness where we can Breathe it into Excitement or Kegel it into Power, is an Easy Path (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) across the Chasm between our Karma (South Node, upper left) and our Mission (North node, lower right).  Our Helpers in Disguise (remember now, Disruptions are Gifts informing us that we’re getting off course) are our own Soul (Uranus, lower left), and our Rebirth (Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas, upper right).

Allowing the Rebirth (Haumea) of our Boundaries (Pallas) between Truth (Aletheia) and Fiction, aka Suspending Disbelief, is a big part of Reframing our Setbacks and Surrendering our Ego into Service to our Soul.  Uranus is on its way back into Taurus (Solid Materiality), after spending seven years in Aries (Creative Spirit).

♥ There is also much Grace in the chart (Grand Trines and Kites, Diamond Stars), but we’ll talk about that in Kegels 2.

Life Force Full Moon

January 12, 2019

It’s still a week away, but the Full Moon and Total Lunar Eclipse occurs on 20 January (9pm PST) at 1 Leo.  It’s visible in full throughout the Western Hemisphere.  And it’s Merged with (Conjunct) dwarf planet Varuna, the Life Force, the Energy which Animates Entities of all sorts.

An Eclipse symbolizes Illumination, as what we have not been Seeing is suddenly Obvious by its Absence.  Consciousness is Expanded not by Discovery, but by Differentiation.  We hear a Bird chirping in a Tree, but we can’t find it – till it moves.  Then we Realize we’ve been looking at it all along, we just didn’t Differentiate it from its Background.

“At first each change leads to new fears and discomforts but once acclimatized to the new conditions, the knowledge that they have overcome yet more hazards rewards them with greater happiness and their power grows with each new experience; the more power they develop, the speedier is their progress in every way.

“Power is the key which controls all life in growth, in colour and in form; the greater the power, the greater the progress of both the giver and receiver.  As it increases, so the capacity for giving grows and, with each advance, the giver evolves in sensitivity and is thus enabled to enjoy each ensuing experience with added understanding and pleasure.  Power is that which enables all events to take place and without it life would become extinct.

“You may think that a plant extracts all the nourishment that it requires from the soil and so, in a small measure, it does, for there is power of Life in the earth too and without this individual effort of plant or tree, it could not progress.  We can come a little more than halfway, but each entity, or part of one, whether it be man, beast, or plant, must make his contribution too.

“However much power we give, unless the recipient, by his own endeavor, opens himself to receive it, very little can penetrate his physical jacket, and if he relaxes his effort altogether, he dies; to live again, it is true, but as it is not permitted for a Man to take his life, so it is not good for a plant to die because it has ceased to thrive.

“Remember, I pray, when you are weary and wish to give in, if you relax and ask for help, we will respond immediately, for by your request you have built the bridge over which we must pass to aid you.  We are waiting, not miles up in the sky, but right by your side, and that one simple effort to contact us will serve as the breeze which will revive the almost dormant spark of courage within you.”

“Power to the fairies is work, food, drink, recreation, and love-making combined; in fact, the giving and taking of it in its various forms constitutes their entire lives…”

“Always there is a fairy present when you light a fire, whether it is an open grate of crackling logs or the kitchen boiler; it is his duty to give power to the astral body of the fuel and thus stimulate it so that it will burn brighter for your benefit.  Others, likewise, must give power to the water in your pipes, or else it would lose all its health-giving properties.  The air, too, has constantly to be revitalized or that which you draw into your lungs would choke rather than keep you alive…”

“All the material objects in your home, whether of fabric, wood or metal, must receive power, otherwise they would fall to pieces, for power is a necessity to an astral body whether of Man, beast or inanimate object, as are food and drink to the physical body of the animal and even vegetable kingdom…”

“If Man and Fairy would work together as they should, the Earth would bring forth fruits such as Man has never known.”

–Deva Marusis, “The Origin, Life, and Evolution of the Fairies,” in Daphne Charters, Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.45-54.

That which Animates.  If you know anything about Quantum Physics, you recognize the process.  Same Phenomena, different Metaphors.

There are three levels of Interpretation for Lunar Energy.  Not three levels of Lunar Energy, but three levels of sophistication in Interpreting and understanding Lunar Energy.  At the first level, the Moon represents Change, or random variation, random Motion, random Emotion.  When someone cuts you off on the freeway, sometimes you think, “They must be in a hurry,” and other times you curse them.  Random Reactions.

In the second level of Interpretation, the Moon represents our Instincts.  In the first case, you likely sensed that the person who cut you off was having an emergency of some kind, while in the second case you may have Instinctively Knew that the driver was Angry, and his (well, would a her cut you off?  Maybe, but less likely) reckless driving was an Act of Competition.

On the third level, the Moon stands for the Energy that holds Matter together, in the way described by Marusis above.  Remember, to Manifest we need Clarity, Neutrality, and Passion.  Clarity in the sense that we’ve Cleared any Resistance from the Unconscious, Neutrality in the sense that we don’t have an Emotional Investment in any specific Outcome, and Passion in the sense that we Care Deeply.

Is there a Contradiction between this Neutrality and this Passion?  Maybe, but Remember that Contradiction occurs only in Duality, ie, only in the mind of the Observer, not in Observed Reality.  So if you want to call it a Paradox instead of a Contradiction, I’d be fine with that.  Still skeptical about how you could Care Deeply and Passionately without an Emotional Attachment?  Your Passion is your Motivation.  It drives you to immer Streben.  Not getting the Outcome you want doesn’t deter you.

Consider your Deepest Desire.  You’ve been Streben for it as long as you’ve been Alive, and you still don’t have it.  Does that mean you give up?  You couldn’t if you wanted to – you’d just sublimate it and Seek it by a different name, one that is politically correct to your Ego.   Spots?  No, those aren’t Spots, they’re Stripes!  You’re the only one who Believe that, but what does that matter?  It’s just a word.

But your Deepest Desire is just a placeholder.  The closer you get to it, the more it morphs.  It’s a distorted picture of your Mission, but it’s the Clearest picture you can grok at your current level of Awareness.  Your True Mission is ineffable.  PIAVA it, and see what happens.  “I Wonder what it might look like to have Neutrality and Passion at the same time.”

This is why the Moon frequently Triggers other astroevents.  Because the Lunarglue is necessary for events or objects or circumstances to Adhere and stay Adhered.  Personalizing this Lunar Energy, whether by the name of Faerie, Ganesha, God/Goddess, the Unseen Therapist, Mother Mary, or Fred, gives you the advantage that you have someone to address when you Ask for its, or their, aid.  If you make it a Religion, you lose, because in most cases, when you confine Spirit to Either/Or, you’ve put a dagger through its Varuna.  Spirit and the Moon are Both/And.

Instant Healing

January 6, 2019

One of our greatest Limitations is Expectation.  A brilliant fellow named Karl Friston even believes we can understand Life, the Universe, and Everything by measuring how well our Expectations work…

https://www.wired.com/story/karl-friston-free-energy-principle-artificial-intelligence/

The problem with this, is that when we Project our Expectations upon the Universe around us, and especially when we also dismiss whatever doesn’t fit our Expectations as False News, we don’t Grow.  If you’re already Enjoying Nirvana, or if you’re Resigned to your Fate (You Poor Sweetheart! or maybe the Male version, You Poor Bastard!), you have no need for Growth.  But the rest of us are rightfully Hungry for it.

In my Experience, Expectation is the primary reason that people Reject Tapping.  I use it daily, it almost always works, it’s quick and Easy, and it gives me Healthy Control over parts of my Life which would otherwise create a lot of Inconvenience.  But many people won’t even consider it.

Tapping was created by Gary Craig.  Other folks had similar ideas before he did, but he condensed it into a very usable form (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4), developed it extensively, promoted it widely, and gave it away free to anyone interested.  Back before the Internet, you could get a whole box of VHS tapes from him free.

A year or so ago, when a friend introduced me to Gary’s latest Opus, which he calls The Invisible Therapist, I looked it over but didn’t dig further because it seemed too subtle and complex for the amount of free time I then had.  But now I run into it again…

https://emofree.com/answers/doing-the-impossible/gary-s-severe-knee-injury-recovers-in-24-hours.html

…and now his free introductory ebook is interactive and more approachable.  It’s still subtle, and it’ll still take study and practice, but I Trust Gary enough to make the effort.  The remarkable thing though, is how tightly it fits with yesterday’s New Moon/Eclipse chart…

We see the Expectation/Belief Perspective in the Stellium (Group of 3 or more planets) of asteroids Klotho (Beginning New Timelines) and Vesta (Limiting Beliefs), with Lilith (Sovereignty).

We see the Possibility of Change arising from asteroid Atropos (Ending Old Timelines) Merged with (Conjoining) the Eclipse (Illumination) and Opposing asteroid Moira (Choosing Alternatives to “Fate”).

We see Moira (Rejecting our Karma) Emphasized by its Yod (Pay Attention!) from Klotho et al (Choosing Self-Empowerment) and Eurydike-Jupiter (Trust the Process).

We see Change also enabled by the one-Sign Twelfth-Harmonic Unx Angle (Pattern-Breaking) between Klotho et al (Allowing New Belief-Extending and Sovereignty-Promoting Timelines) and the Atropos New Moon (Illumination about which Patterns can be Abandoned as Obsolete).

We see the Surprise Introduction of Self-Loving Patterns, which the Unseen Therapist represents (Sappho-Asbolus).  We see the Trust I feel for Gary’s work in the Conjunction (Merger) of Jupiter (Expansion) and Eurydike (Trust).  We see the Challenge (T-Square) to Accept a Spiritual Perspective (Neptune) and allow these apparent Miracles to be Witnessed.

We see how the Spiritual Challenge (Neptune T-Square), the Illumination of what Karma to Jettision (Eclipse-Atropos-Moira), and Expanded Beliefs (Klotho et al) complement one another well (Klotho et al Trine-Bridges the T-Square, while Neptune Trine-Bridges the New Moon Opposition, and the elements of both are connected by Pattern-Breaking Unxes).

Creating What We Want III

January 3, 2019

“It takes a lot of time and energy to create a dream from the outside with an airbrush.  When it finally becomes a fully painted reality and you inhabit it, you may find that you have created what you imagined, but from the inside it is not what you actually want.  This is often what happens when dreamers stand outside of their dreams, separate from them, creating them.  Why not inhabit your dream from the start?  Inhabiting the values of your dream before you devote yourself to manifesting it empowers you to realize what you are truly seeking.

To optimize your alignment for bringing a dream into realization, translate your dream from images into values and feelings, and inhabit the values and feelings of your dream.  When your visualize, contemplate or meditate on your dream, or when you are communicating your dream to others, ask yourself, ‘What part of myself am I seeking to express by living this dream?  What aspects of myself will gain realization?  What values will I have an opportunity to explore?  What will I bring to life?  How will I feel living in this dream?  How will I grow?’

These questions will enable you to identify the values inherent to your dream.  It is these values, rather than the images you have dressed them in, that you are longing to inhabit.  And it is inhabiting these values that aligns you to magnetize your dream into reality.  Once you identify the values and find the feelings that will come to life in the realization of your dream, inhabit them deeply every time you visit your dream.  By doing so you generate a magnetic field for dream realization that is profoundly more powerful than the field generated by visualizing your dream from an emotional distance.”

–Elia Wise, Letter to Earth, pp. 123-4.

Creating What We Want II

January 2, 2019

Here’s an interesting, ironic, and surprising Perspective from Daniel Scranton’s Channeling of his Arcturian friends…

https://danielscranton.com/the-year-of-conscious-receiving-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are planning to assist all of you in the sneakiest ways that we possibly can because we need to find the cracks that you will create for us so that we can slip in the help that you want and need.  You are constantly in a state of creating, asking, processing, or receiving, and you are mostly not in that receiving mode that is so important.

“So we have to look for opportunities, as do your guides and the other high frequency beings who want to help.  We are all seeking to find those cracks where you are allowing yourselves to surrender into the moment so that you can receive.

“Most of you are tense, afraid, resistant, or sad for the vast majority of your waking hours, but you’re not any of those things enough, in terms of intensity, to notice.  That’s why we will guide you towards that which is joyous to you, that which you love to do.  We will guide you towards play, as will the faeries, so that you will open up and let in that which you have summoned.

“Now of course, you do a lot of receiving while you are asleep, but then when you wake up your consciousness re-enters your body, and since your mind is unaware of what just happened, you go about your day as if you haven’t received everything you’ve been asking for.  Those downloads can sit in your energy field for years before you inadvertently let them in.

“We want you to recognize how much you are receiving, and take a few moments right after you wake up to let it in.  Put yourself in that receiving mode before your mind starts telling you about all of the things that you need to do, or at the very least worry about, and you can make this year be the year of conscious receiving.”

To be technical about it, we do suggest that we not send out more than a few PIAVAs at once, so we can be Open to Receiving the Information returning to us about why we haven’t been Manifesting that all along.  We’re all Adepts at Manifestation, but we seldom focus on What We’ve Already Created, because it’s in our Nature to Always Want More.  Immer strebend, as Goethe put it, which in his view is what allows us to be erlösten.

The basic idea is that when you PIAVA (Pray For, Intend, Ask For, Visualize, Affirm, Command, etc) something, if you’re Ready to Receive it, it will Manifest, since All Prayers Are Answered.  The tricky part comes when you Aren’t Ready to Receive it.  What Manifests then, is an Illustration of why you haven’t been Manifesting it all along – an Offering from the Universe to assist you in Learning how then to Get Ready to Receive.

Once you PIAVA, the next step is to Change the Subject.  Looking for your car keys is the classic example.  You look everywhere you remember having had them recently, and they aren’t there.  So you PIAVA, “Ganeshi, Please Remove All Obstacles to my finding my car keys.”  Well, if you keep looking in the same places, they probably still won’t be there (though sometimes “Inanimate” things do go Walkabout, then return later).  So you Change the Subject – check your email for instance, or look to see if Trump Tweeted you.

Chances are, once you Change the Subject, your car keys will “Magically” appear.  But if they don’t, step three is to Pay Attention, to what Did happen, particularly if something unusual occurs.  You want to wait a while between step two and step three – a day or two is best.  That allows time for the Lesson to ripen.  So, What Did Happen after you Changed the Subject?  If nothing unusual seemed to occur (such as a Tornado moving your car to the next block, or a complement from your mother-in-law), then among the usual things that did happen, did any of them have anything to do with cars or keys?

Maybe you get an email advertising car insurance, or the Antichrist Tweeted something about Key Maralogo.  Then we have to figure out what it means, which usually isn’t all that hard.  Maybe we forgot to mail an insurance payment, or left our keys in the car, and it’s now on its way to Florida.  If the Lesson escapes us, we may have to PIAVA to Receive Clarity about the Lesson we Requested (it actually behooves us to think of our PIAVAs as Educational rather than Acquisitive), because when we’re in Deep Denial we often end up with puzzles worthy of Gollum.

The most relevant Question is usually whether the Resistance is within the Object of our Desire, or within us.  That’s why we recommend that we toggle back and forth from Theta to Tapping…

Theta What You Want, then at the “Show Me” stage, if you don’t get a Clear Picture of Receiving it, then either Tap out any Resistance you detect in yourself and/or modify your Command to sneak up on your Object, Rinse, and Repeat; https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/ and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4.

Now, if we have to wait even one day between Changing the Subject and Paying Attention, you can easily imagine that any Paying Attention we do will be very Confusing if we’ve PIAVAed three more times since our original Changing the Subject.  If our PIAVAs are Manifesting quickly most of the time, then rapid fire is no problem.  And if we get into the Habit of Visualizing every Action before we Commit it, then we’ll be doing exactly that.  But if we’re working on a Big Lifetime PIAVA like Abundance or Peace, or working on a smaller issue that’s proving to be thorny, then we might be limited to several PIAVAs a week.

Dan’s friends are talking about this Paying Attention stage, but without the Intellectual Analysis we’re accustomed to using to solve riddles like figuring out the connection between our mother-in-law and our car keys.  Even for that, we’d probably be better off Opening to the Question in Meditation rather than Dissecting it with Anal-ysis.  It is after all our Expectations that Limit our Reality, so Intending to Revert those is a Powerful Practice in its own right.

Creating What We Want

January 1, 2019

In an earlier post we talked about the Cluster of Stations that are Embracing us between now and 10 January (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/28/astroevent-clusters/).  Basically, it’s about Choosing a New Timeline that reaches beyond our Denial, accesses our Soul, and contains What We Want.  Step one: Being Aware that we have the Power to Choose.  Step two: Choosing It.  So, just how does one Choose a Timeline?  Is it like ordering from a menu or a catalog?  Does Amazon carry them?  Walmart?

It’s probably tactically easier to start with What We Don’t Want, especially since that’s where we often start anyway.  Anything in your Young Life that you’d just as soon Leave Behind?  How long has it been bugging you?  That’s a Timeline.  Can you Choose to End that Timeline?  If we see ourself as a Victim of our Timelines, we won’t have the Sovereignty we need to be the Chooser.  But we could certainly Intend, or any other PIAVA term (Pray, Visualize, Ask, Affirm, Command, etc.).  If we Trust the Process and Respond to Setbacks constructively, then Intending Is Choosing.  Creativity often involves one step forward, three sideways, and two back, before we can go four more steps forward.

This week, though, Creativity and Manifestation should be Easier including swapping Timelines – which is a bit like Changing Horses in Midstream.  If it’s not Easier, then rest assured you’re being Taught an important Lesson about Manifestation.  If you Intend to Create What You Want, this week should be invaluable.

The Foreground is the Station of dwarf planet Makemake on 3 January (7pm PST) in 6 Libra.  It’s another “Coincidence” that a planet named Make-Make is about Manifesting – Makemake was the God-figure who evidently taught Easter-Islanders how to Survive after they chopped down all their Trees, and the Makemake Discovery chart positively “reeks” of Manifestation.

We were otherwise engaged, so we’re a bit late, since this Energy has already been prominent for a week or so.  However, that’s useful, because now you can look back on the last several days to see how your Manifestation processes have been working for you.  And how have they?  If you’ve encountered Frustration, have you Responded constructively?

For example, I’ve Learned an important Lesson from trivial examples – if I Want to do anything Easily, I have to first Visualize it.  I already knew that the general rule is that everything forms in Energy first, before it translates into Matter.  But it wasn’t an automatic process, where I Remembered it every time.  Who knows how many Repetitions it’ll take to make it a reliable Habit, and to translate it into every Realm, but for the first time I now understand that I need to Intend to precede every Action with a PIAVA.

(https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/)

This Manifestation Province is abetted by the Stations that are lined up behind it…

  • Endings (Atropos) New Moon/Partial Eclipse on 5 January, which should be handy for Timeline-swapping.
  • Strong Soul Presence (Uranus Station) on 6 January, to keep the Wind behind us.
  • Revelation of What’s Been Denied (Eris Station) on 10 January, to Enlighten any Frustration around inefficient Manifestation.
  • Choosing Timelines (Lachesis Station) 12 January, to Anchor the Curriculum.

For instance, I find myself Intending to End my Old Timeline of Expecting “Inanimate” Objects to behave unpredictably, and Begin a New Timeline where Other Entities follow my Intentions when it’s within their Nature, and Let Me Know when I’m Asking for something that isn’t within their Nature in that Moment, so I can Adjust and Compensate.

For this to work I’ll probably have to become more Aware that All Things have their own Consciousness and Sovereignty, which Awareness would be great, so I can also Intend another New Timeline that includes this.  If I can Apply these Timelines Generally and Thoroughly Enough, that should also End a number of Timelines that are riddled with Anxiety.

While the ambient Strong Manifestation Energy will Dissipate after 3 January, there’s no reason we can’t Hold onto it with our Attention past that date.  To me “5D” means that we Manifest Effortlessly by Enlisting the Energies of the other Animate and “Inanimate” Entities with whom we wish to Collaborate, to our Mutual Advantage.

The Makemake Station chart is pretty straightforward, especially compared to the Ultima Thule Discovery chart we were working with yesterday…

We refer to this Configuration as a “Trine Fez,” because it looks like the silhouette of a trapezoidal hat made from stiff felt, and because it has Trines (Blessings) on the non-parallel sides.  The Challenge in it is the Square or red line between Nemesis (Ego Death) and Nessus-OR10 (Intrusive Memories of Abuse and Privilege).  A Square is formed when two planets are three Signs apart, so named because if you have four of them back to back around the astroloop they literally form a square.

Abuse takes many forms, including not just the Sexual or Physical Abuse we’re familiar with.  For instance, if your parents weren’t very mature (and after all, in many cases they were just teenagers themselves), they may have Projected their unwelcome Emotions onto their Children, accusing you of all manor or ill deeds, yelling at you, or Shaming you for being yourself.  And of course, Karmic Intrusive Memories could well include Past Deaths, many of which were Abusive, and Tortures.  If your parents or other programmers saw you as a “blank slate” that needed to be Programmed, and made no effort to find out who you were as an Individual with many Past Lives, that too was Abusive, as having never been Seen or Heard, you’d end up Expecting to be Discounted by Others.

Then there’s Privilege.  Abuse is Perpetrated by folks who for one reason or another, often Unconsciously or Semi-Consciously, see themselves as Superior and therefore Allowed to or even Required to Abuse, sometimes “for your own good.”  Karma isn’t Retribution, it’s Inertia.  Being stuck in a Pattern of Abuse has two sides, Abuser and Abused.  But it’s one Energy, Abuse.  While the Emotional Experience might be very Different, the Energetic Experience is Unitary.  You see that when many Abused kids grow up to be Abusers.  So Privilege isn’t Balanced by Abuse, it Is Abuse.

Ego Death is necessary for Growth, because our Ego is a cage that surrounds us and prevents us from Growing larger.  We store much of our historical, herstorical, and Karmic Abuse in the Unconscious, where unseen it Controls our Life.  When it Emerges – as it’s done a lot lately while Nessus has been Dancing with OR10, it usually Creates a Big Ego Death as we Realize that the people we thought Loved us actually didn’t.  And once it Emerges, it usually Keeps Coming for a while – if for no other reason that We Are All One, and once we’re in the Energy of Abuse, we can run Other People’s Abuse as easily as our own, and if it’s Karmic, what does it matter whose Ego was involved; Rebirth Scrambles Egos.

So, this is a Big Manifestation Opportunity – why are we messing around with Abuse?  Well, Letting Go of Abuse is actually a huge step toward greater and Easier Manifestation.  For instance, you may suddenly Discover that you Deserve to Receive What You Want after all, after a Lifetime of not Believing that.  It’s very Difficult to Manifest when we Unconsciously Believe that we don’t “Deserve” it.  Since the Ego’s job is to Persevere, Ego Death is seldom welcomed.  We want to change that, and Recognize that Ego Death is our Soul’s best friend, even if its anathema to our Ego.

That’s the Challenge here.  You’ve been Laboring to Manifest something, and it just hasn’t been forthcoming.  That’s often because of Unconscious Internal Resistance to Receiving it, which is in turn often the result of Hesitation to Accept Change.  We aren’t Satisfied with What We Have and we Want More, or Something Else, but we’re Afraid that in order to move forward toward our own Wants, we’ll have to give up What We Have.  Because 3D is the Realm of Duality, we have Difficulty Visualizing getting What We Want and also retaining What We Have.

Which puts us between Fritz Perls’s two chairs, Negotiating Win-Win between What We Want and What We Have.  But our lack of Success at Manifesting this all along testifies that Duality is inadequate to solve this gollumish riddle.  We need to shift to PIAVA, in order to access the Unconscious and Open ourself to Wins that lie beyond our Dualistic mind, in a virtual Ultima Thule.  So, what do we PIAVA?  Can our frozen minds even formulate the Request?

In any Fez, the answer to the Challenges it presents, lie in the diagonal Quincunxes.  A Quincunx (two planets five Signs apart, the green lines) is about Curiosity, and not the sort of Curiosity that sends you to Google or Bing, but the kind of Curiosity that triggers our Awe and Wonderment.  The two diagonal Quincunxes are…

  • Veritas (Truth) Quincunx Nemesis (Ego Death) – What is the Truth about which part of our Ego needs to Molt?  That’s not a Question seeking an Answer.  It stands on its own.  If you can stand to put your mind away in its cigarbox for a time (which in itself may be a major Ego Death), and Change the Subject (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/), then the Unconscious, which comprises Everything That’s Not You (your Ego) will provide plenty of Creative Alternatives.
  • Stationary Makemake itself Quincunx Nessus-OR10.  What, are we to Manifest Abuse?  Well, maybe the most Constructive thing we can do is to Manifest Memories of Abuse that have been pulling our strings unnoticed for decades if not Lifetimes.  How would our Ego Respond to that?  But it’s a Quincunx; we don’t even want to go there; it would be too predetermined.

We’d do better to PIAVA “Do Memories of Abuse have anything to do with Manifestation?”  If you have several internal voices piping up being Know-It-Alls, tell them Thanks for Contributing, and ignore them.  That would be a fine Question to Ask or Wonder or Pray about, but we need to Change the Subject if we want to be Open to Perspectives we haven’t already Rejected.

The other three sides of the Fez are also useful to examine.  The Trines tell us that…

  • Ego Death and Manifestation Complement each other Fabulously here.  That may not always be the case, but the Trine says it is this week.  When you review what it is about you that’s Worthy of Admiration, are there any adjectives you’re willing to Surrender in exchange for one that indicates Fulfillment?
  • Truth and Memories of Abuse make very Positive partners.  This is about getting those Held Emotions out of the Dungeon and into the Kitchen.

Then there’s another, final side, the short green line, which is called an “Unx,” which means one-twelfth, or the Angle between two planets that are one Sign apart.  The Twelfth Harmonic is about Pattern-Breaking, and Goddess knows Breaking out of our Pattern of Unfulfillment is one way to Allow What We Have and What We Want to Live in the same house.  Which Pattern is that?

Manifestation Unx Truth.  What are we Learning this week about Manifestation?  What Fake News have we taken as gospel?  Maybe all we need to do is Intend that We Can Have It All, and Let the Universe Show Us How.