Oh That Mischievous Jupiter

The asteroid that means Transcendence (Bee-Zed, 28 February 2020), the dwarf planet that means Intuition (Asbolus, 1 March) and the dwarf planet that means Unlimited Potential (Chaos, 6 March) are all Strong (Stationary) just now.  To me it Feels, very subtly, like Ancient Habits Falling Away.

There may be Challenges to our Judgments (T-Square to asteroid Hopi from Stationary Chaos Opposite Stationary Bee-Zed), especially to our Rejection of our Forbidden Genius (Bee-Zed Conjunct dwarf planet Ixion), the Unique Skill that we were born with but which we can’t exercise without Transcending Social Norms – and/or our great Grandmother’s Inherited Taboos.

We could also be Experiencing some Difficulty Feeling Comfortable with the way the World is Changing (T-Square to dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence] and Saturn-Pluto) and the Unfamiliar Roles we’re being Called to Learn in order to Adapt to the Changes (asteroid Karma Conjunct Venus Opposing dwarf planet Haumea [Rebirth] in the root of the T-Square).

Be especially on the Alert for Self-Doubt (Chariklo).  When you Feel it, Stop and Ask yourself, “How would I be Feeling if I was Confident about this?”  Then spend Time with that Feeling of Confidence.  If you feel like your Guidance is on vacation, Call it back, but don’t Expect the same kind of Help you got before.  The Focus now is on our Rebirth (Finger of God to Haumea), so we need to Embrace Beginner’s Mind.  Let the World be a bit Different now.

Even though the major focus of the Zeitgeist has Changed from Spiritual Assistance to Bravery, you’ve spent the last 35 years Learning how to use that Spiritual Assistance, and it won’t Go Away unless you Let It, by Forgetting it.  How does it Feel if you Bravely Trust that Spiritual Assistance is Still There, it’s just more Transparent?  Spirit is just Reminding you that It’s Always Been There – and Always Will Be.

Big News – asteroid Bee-Zed has a name now!  When new Space Rocks are discovered, they get a code; this one was “2015 BZ509” – hence it’s nickname Bee-Zed.  But then once they’ve been known long enough for observers to understand their orbit, the discoverer or discoveress gets to give it a “real” name.  Bee-Zed is now Ka’epaoka’awela,” meaning something like “Isn’t Jupiter Tricky!” in pidgen Hawaiian.  Ka’epaoka’awela is gravitationally locked to Jupiter, so its orbit is the same length as Jupiter’s, 12 years, but its normal state is Retrograde and its orbit irregular.

As much fun as Ka’epaoka’awela is to say, it’s not so easy to write, so we’ll stick with Bee-Zed for now.  If you’re looking for it in an online ephemeris, you may need to use the Minor Planet Number it had before it got it’s BZ code, which is 514107.

Here’s the chart for the Bee-Zed and Chaos Stations…

At the 28 February Bee-Zed Station (1pm PST) the Moon is at 7 Taurus and Conjunct Uranus.  The Moon crosses Sedna on 1 March (5am PST) and crosses Stationary Chaos on 3 March (10am PST).  By the 6 March Chaos Station (4am PST), the Moon will be at 2 Leo. 

The 1 March Asbolus Station (7am PST) is at 20 Gemini.

♥ After 2 March we should see a lowering of the general Anxiety level, with folks becoming less jumpy (Mars returns In-Bounds at 10pm PST while in 11 Capricorn; it’s been Out-of-Bounds since 9 February while in 26 Sagittarius).

♥ 3 March should bring Blessings, as Unconscious Habits that inhibit our Soul Connection and our Receptivity to Abundance come to an end over the next several years (at 4pm PST Uranus [Soul] Initiates Atropos [Ending Timelines], starting a new 3½-year Cycle in 4 Taurus, “The Pot of Gold at the End of the Rainbow: Riches that come from linking the celestial and the earthly nature.”).

We normally speak about the Pattern-Ending asteroid (Atropos) as being about Conscious Pattern-Ending, because whenever it’s Illuminated we have the Opportunity to do just that.  But in this case, we expect it to signify the End of Habits that inhibit our Soul Connection and our Receptivity to Abundance.  Of course the more Conscious Encouragement we can give to this process, the better.

If you have a birth planet near 4 Taurus, this should be particularly beneficial for you.  For instance, one friend of mine has their symbol for Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos, which is Stationary as we speak, emphasizing the whole process Strongly) there, in their (10th) House of Community, implying that over the next several years they’ll be Challenged to Accept more Grace than they’re used to Receiving.

I Guess We’re Here

Brenda Hoffman has an intriguing message for today…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2020/01/13/your-co-creators-have-arrived/

“January 12, 2020, is a watershed date in your lives and that of all inhabiting earth at this time. For it is as if something clicked inside your hearts, your beings that shifted you from fear to love.

“This shift will not be displayed immediately because many, perhaps including you, have to adjust to the new sensations this shift created. Even though you might have been prepared for something before January 12, this something has never been experienced by you or any earth being. It is as if a shaft of light pierced your tough earth shell.

“Perhaps you think that such comments are a fairytale for how is it possible that one day can create such upheaval?

“This shift will cause many to feel that what was up is now down, and what was down is now up. Because these new sensations will feel unnatural, frightening, it is likely something most will not discuss them. For they will believe that doing so makes them seem odd.

“Those of you in the know will merely adjust as you have to every other burst of energy throughout your earth life. Others, feeling as if their life has been turned upside down, will be the most frightened.

“Even though humans are familiar with the fear of change, this energy event is a tsunami of change. It will be as if someone woke up one night with a new emotional body and must do everything in the dark without understanding how to do so. There will be fear and anger. Not because this shift is bad or damaging, but because it will seem so foreign. So it is many will test these new feelings by doing the exact opposite of their intuitive directives. A confusing time for most.

“You, the forerunners, will slip into your new being easily and effortlessly for you have prepared to do so since you began this transition.

“Those not as open to transitioning beyond 3D as you will be confused and attempt to return to their former feelings only to discover they can not.

“This is a mass transition of proportions you can not begin to envision. For anyone who has dreamt of moving beyond fear and angst will shift rapidly. Such does not mean that in two days all of the earth will be like you, but instead that everyone who wishes to will have their heart opened.

“January 12, 2020, is not a day to take lightly. Allow yourself to move as you wish. And allow the same for all others. For their fear will be displayed long before their heart actions. Just as was true for you when you initiated your transition. The difference is, you have likely been in transition for decades or years. Those now at the beginning stages will shift within days or months.

“You are their beacon – allowing those frightened to know that all is well.

“You will also shift. But your shift will be polishing more facets of your diamond being. Those beginning their transition are discovering their diamond self in the rough.

“Your role and only role is to continue a joy focus. For if you allow yourself to be in fear with those just beginning to transition, they will become more frightened, perhaps not even able to function.

“You are the beacons of the world. Allow yourself to know and accept that.

“All who wish are transitioning or beginning their transition as of January 12th, 2020. You have little to do other than to inform those who wish to know that all is well.”

Well, as they say, “Trust but Verify.”

But then, according to our own previous post, aside from the main effect of 12 January’s Big astroevent about Transforming (Pluto) our Priorities (Saturn) to accommodate (Squared by) What’s Been Denied (dwarf planet Eris) – along with its embellishments (Mercury/Awareness, dwarf planet Chariklo/Confidence-and-Doubt) – the Big Challenge (T-Square) was about Trust (asteroid Eurydike), wasn’t it.  The Challenge to Trust was from the Veracity of the Shift (asteroids Veritas/Facts and Bee-Zed/Transcendence) and our Insights about the Incredible Scope of the Change (dwarf planets Asbolus/Intuition and Chaos/Unlimited-Potential)!

And that doesn’t even include what we Believe to define the context for the 12 January event (namely the 10 January Stations/Strength of Uranus/Soul-or-Consciousness which in Taurus is Descending into Matter, and of Eris/Revelation itself, along with the Eclipse/Illumination), which we might summarize as Huperity Becoming Aware that Matter has been Conscious all along.  Which is the Missing Core Belief in the Western Worldview that is Messing Up the Planet for Huperity and Everyone Else.

So unless Brenda has been reading this blog, which I very much doubt, her post is a remarkable “Coincidence.”  What I’ve been Feeling, myself, is quite a lot of Fear.  I’ve been working with it, Tapping and PIAVAing to get Grounded, but even then I’ve Lacked Clarity on a couple of Issues that seem Important.  Till this morning.  Then I remembered to Poor-Sweetheart myself –

“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Scared, aren’t you.”

And Wham, suddenly there’s Excitement, tonnes of it!  Now I even Remember to Breathe, and to Kegel if necessary!

Expanding into Truth 2

As we’ve been pointing out repeatedly since July’s Truthiness post (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/25/truthiness/), both asteroids Aletheia (Truth of the Heart) and Veritas (Truth of the mind) are in Scorpio (Getting to the Bottom of Things, Relentlessly) and moving rapidly toward Merger (Conjunction).  So the ubiquitous news about Habitual Prevaricators getting caught standing in their own you-know-what is no Surprise.  These two Merge on 3 October 2019, about eight hours after Pluto (No Exit) Stands Still (is at Max Power).  They don’t leave Scorpio till early November.

If you haven’t been following this Thread, you’d do well to skim from Truthiness forward till now, as Truthiness has been entwined with our Karma and several other Heavy Threads – including getting Truthy about our own Karma.  Particularly notice how the hooligans are dressed in the first video of the Ixion, Forbidden Genius 3 post.

Our first 27 September astroevent (5:30 am PDT) is asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) moving into Virgo (Ego Death).  Nemesis symbolizes Guilt and Punishment, and we Transcend that with Ego Death – we either Accept that we’re a Bad Person, or Decide that the Rules we’ve broken are Bad, that we’re being Blamed Unfairly. or that we’re being Blamed Fairly, and Intend to Reform.  Any of which Requires an Ego Adjustment, some bigger than others.

Virgo meanwhile is the rope Bridge between Leo and Libra, between the Pinnacle of Individual Development, and the First Meeting of Other, where we’re basically Infantile.  I mean, in Leo we barely knew Other existed.  We thought those disembodied clapping hands were part of our scenery.  Maybe a zip line, or a rappel with no belay, would be a better metaphor than a rope Bridge.  If we don’t go through a tonne of Ego Adjustment in Virgo as the hands stop clapping, we’ll be in big Trouble when we get to Libra.  Maybe you remember situations where you’ve Felt at the top of your game, and Believe you were meeting someone pretty much as Equals, only to very quickly Discover they were waaay ahead of you.

It’s no Help that dwarf planet Chariklo (Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence) is also Strong (Stationary), its Energy peaking a few minutes after midnight PDT on 28 September.  Or maybe it’s Helpful, if Self-Doubt leads us to Self-Examination and Change, or we Respond to getting caught in Over-Confidence by Adjusting our Attitude.

The Nemesis Sign-Change chart is like so…

Just a Big Tricolor (Mystery; the red-green-blue triangle) and a Mjölnir (Epiphany – the lighter yellow lines).  With a Tricolor we unlock the Grace in the blue line by Refusing to Let the mind Believe that it Understands the Confusion inherent in the green line.  Said another way, there’s an Easy Relationship (Trine) between the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar) and our Ego Death (Nemesis).  But the Ease is locked out of our Awareness when we Allow the Challenge (Square) that Unconscious Fear (Vesta-Sedna) makes to our Ego (Nemesis) to Dominate our Attention.  We’re referring to Pholus-Quaoar as the Climate Emergency, but it includes the Political and Economic Uncertainty that’s Afoot.

We Restore the Ease by Surrendering to our Higher Power the Relationship between our Fear (Vesta-Sedna) and the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar), by Allowing it to remain a Mystery (Quincunx).  But that doesn’t mean we defer the Opportunity to bring the Fear up into Consciousness!  For instance, I’ve been gnawing on a Problem for several months now, without coming up with a decent suggestion to Solve it.  This morning I realized that It was Fear that I was Unconsciously focusing on, while I tried to “Solve” it by Strategizing.  That’s a Dead End, obviously.  We Resolve Fear by Embracing it.

So I did just that – laid down, located the Fear in my Body, Softened and Warmed it while Poor-Sweethearting myself (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Scared, aren’t you”), then followed the Sensation when it Moved in my Body, and the Emotional Memories Triggered as it did.  If a Problem can’t be Resolved in a couple of months of Plotting, it’s not a Problem that will ever be Solved by Analysis, Planning, and Executing.  Declare an Intention, Command What You Want, and be Mindful to Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade Thoughts to the Contrary.  Which I did.  Didn’t immediately Solve the Problem, but it certainly Changed my Frame of Reference, so I’m more often broadcasting What I Want to the Universe instead of What I Don’t Want.

Which leads us right to the Mjölnir (Trioctiles reaching from each end of a Square), that focuses on the Saturn-South Node that plagued us last week – namely, our Karma.  Those Emotional Memories Triggered by the Movement of Energy after I Allowed the Fear to become Conscious as a Physical Sensation in my Body and Invited it to Express itself however it Chose.

Asteroid Hopi, joining Saturn and the Dragon’s Tail, is about Respect for All Things.  A great time to go through our…

“_____, whatever I may have done or not done, or said or not said, Consciously or Unconsciously, that hurt you, I Ask your Forgiveness.  _____, whatever you may have done or not done, or said or not said, Consciously or Unconsciously, that hurt me, I forgive you.”

Be careful with this; it can easily Create Powerful Ego Deaths that you don’t notice until you Discover that you’ve Forgotten how to Drive!

♥ A few hours later, around 8:30 am PDT 27 September, asteroid Bee-Zed (or BZ509, indicating Transendence) Stands Still.  Its chart…

…is more complicated, but the core is two T-Squares (red triangles), one to Stationary Bee-Zed itself, Expanded by Jupiter (Growth), and the other to Chariklo (Self-Doubt/Confidence), Stationary less than a day later (just after midnight PDT 28 September).  Chariklo is Lit up by Pluto (Obsession), which itself is Stationary until 2 October, and our busy friend Hopi again.  This is a hell of a lot of Power.  Make sure you’re swimming downstream.

Expanding Transcendence (Jupiter and Bee-Zed) is Challenged by (Squares) the Dance (Opposition) between Choosing to Become Aware and Trust our Instincts (Moira-Juno-Moon) and Sacred Confusion about our Identity (Neptune-Lilith).  Lilith is about Bringing our Identity back Home to our Self and our Soul, rather than Investing it in someone or something External to us, such as a spouse or a job.  Confusion is always the first stage of Growth, as the Mental Cage we normally trap the Universe in, starts to warp and lead.  Sacred Confusion (Neptune) all the more.

Compulsive Attention to Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence, in the context of our Judgments (Pluto-Chariklo-Hopi) is Challenged by the Dance between our Values (Venus) and our Endings (Atropos).  In other words this is about Letting Go of Obsolete Values that Inhibit our Self-Confidence.  The Greek Atropos was the Goddess who determined the Ending of a TimeLine – a Lifetime or a Habit or a Relationship or any other Thread in your Young Life.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; we replace it with Choice when we become Conscious.  Here we practice Choosing to Let Go of Values that no longer Serve us.

There is a seventh fencepost here – the budding (3 October) Conjunction between Truth of the Heart Aletheia, and Truth of the mind Veritas.  It Bridges both Oppositions – we’ll make everything a lot Easier if we steer toward Truth.

♥ We need to remind that this is all just warmup for the 2 October (11:30 pm PDT) Station of Pluto (Compulsive Change of Trance) and 3 October (8am PDT) Aletheia-Veritas Conjunction (Truth Squared).

And that 28 September is even busier than the 27th,  starting just after midnight PDT with the Station of Chariklo (Self-Doubt/Self-Confidence) which Conjoins the Stations of Pluto and Bee-Zed, and continuing at 9am PDT with the Station of dwarf planet Chaos.  Chaos is a Big Deal; if it weren’t for all these other themes going on and Pluto waving its arms, Chaos would be the Big Topic!  Here it just means that however we React and Respond to these Lit-Up Issues of Karma, Survival, Ego Death, Confidence, Truth, Growth, Ascension (into 5D), and Descension (of Soul into Matter) the Gate to the Universe is Open.  The World is our Oyster; all we need to do is Intend it.

Then, at 11:30 am PDT 28 September, the Moon is New within one arcminute of dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  The primary theme of the New Moon, other than Manifesting What We Want, is Descent of Soul into Matter, not just “our own” Soul into our own Body, but the Reanimation of the Planet, the Wild, and Everything In It, return to the Indigenous World where All Things Are Alive.

♥ If anyone is watching the Degrees and comparing them to their natal chart – which we should all be doing – they’re these…

• Equinox 0 Libra 23 September
• Nemesis Ingress 0 Virgo 27 September
• New Moon 6 Libra 28 September
• Aletheia-Veritas Conjunction 17 Virgo 3 October
• Bee-Zed Station 18 Sagittarius 27 September
• Chariklo Station 20 Capricorn 28 September
• Pluto Station 21 Capricorn 2 October
• Asbolus Station 24 Gemini 23 September
• Chaos Staion 27 Gemini 28 September
• Vesta Station 28 Taurus 23 September

Nuclear Winter 2

As we mentioned, 23 September 2019 is a busy day…

At the Equinox, both asteroid Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and dwarf planet Asbolus (Intuition) are Stationary, or Strong, both peaking at 9pm PDT.  In other words, like Greta says, more or less, You Know in your Heart what’s Wrong with your Beliefs that your Priorities are so Screwed Up, so get to Work Allowing your Beliefs to Change!  This is True for All of us, we aren’t just Preaching to the Choir.  If we Feel Satisfied with the Work that’s being done to Restore the Planet, we’re obviously missing the whole point.

The Libra Equinox symbolizes the Shocks to the Individual Ego that Meeting Other Creates, on its way to Re-Initiating 5D-like Collaboration and Cooperation and Mutual Interdependence at the Capricorn Solstice.  The Station of Asbolus tells us that the “Left-Brain” mind will be doing more harm than good for the next half-year, while the Heart takes charge.  Changing Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta) can only be done by the “Right Brain,” with Insight and Intention, Affirmation, Visualization and Prayer (PIAVA).  The “Left Brain” can certainly contribute, mostly by managing the details of Habit Change (see e.g. https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/09/15/held-emotions-aura-holes/), but Analysis won’t get us where we need to go.

Both of the Station charts supply the necessary Insight, as the Vesta Station sits at the focus of a Mjölnir (Epiphany) from Venus (Values) and Saturn-South Node (The Most Important Thing Is To Clear Our Karma).

The three 23 September charts are separated by 2½ and 4 Degrees, so using our traditional 3-Degree Sensitivity, we’ve drawn them as three separate charts.  However, since an Equinox is a Rebirth, when we look at any Projects we’re Initiating in the next few months, it’s totally appropriate to combine the three charts into one by using a wider 8-Degree Sensitivity.

The most prominent element of the Vesta-Station chart…

…is of course it’s Merger with dwarf planet Sedna (Converting Fear to Power; see e.g. https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/02/07/kegels-5/), which we mentioned in the previous post.  The Vesta Station also highlights likely Ego Deaths (Square to asteroid Nemesis), but that’s not a Surprise, as most any Challenge To or Shift In our Beliefs requires an Ego Death, simply because our Ego is always deeply Invested in our Beliefs.

Vesta recoils in Fear (turns Retrograde) just before She gets to Sedna, so She doesn’t get Initiated by Sedna till mid-March 2020 (12 March 8am PDT), at 28 Taurus.  That’s perilously close to the Fixed Star Algol, whose Chinese name can be translated as “Piled-Up Corpses.”  In the West it’s thought of as the Eye of Medusa.  The Vesta-Sedna Cycle is a little over three years long, which gives us a potential TimeLine for the possible Atrocities that our Planet could witness starting in March.

For eleven years the Moon stays within the Tropics, ie, between 23:27 North and 23:27 South of the Equator.  Then for the following eleven years the Moon goes “Out of Bounds” – beyond 23:27 N or S – for several days every two weeks.  During these Moon Out-of-Bounds Decades, people are more Emotional.  The last time the Moon started an Out-of-Bounds Decade was 11 September 2001.  Remember that day?  The Moon starts its next “OOB” Decade on 16 March 2020, a few days after Sedna Initiates Vesta on Algol.  A good week to stay in bed, if you’re confident your roof won’t fall on you.

However, Perseus’s slaughter of Medusa was part of the budding Greek Patriarchy’s Suppression of the “Terrors” of Feminine Power, Algol being the most “Terrible” and Snake-Haired of them all.  When we Reframe Algol as an Orgasm of Feminine Power, rather than a typical Patriarchal Pussy-Grabbing and Pecker-Waving, we could see a Rebellion led by Females against an attempt of the Patriarchs to use another Rabid-Patriotism-Evoking War to divert Attention from the Climate Emergency and the US Election, and the Travails of Brexit.

The Greeks Saluted Hestia – their version of the Roman Vesta – before they Saluted Zeus, and Saluted Hestia again after Zeus.  So sure, Zeus was granted the Attention He wanted, but guess who the people gave the real Power to?  Hestia/Vesta, Goddess of the Hearth – Food and Warmth.  Ego came second.  The Romans recognized a good thing, and made Vesta their Goddess of the State.  We know Her mostly from Her Vestal Virgins, which intended to symbolize the inviolability of the Roman State.

But the biggest Configuration in the Vesta-Station chart is a Self-Resolving Challenge to our Karma, or the Demise thereof (Diamond Star to asteroid Karma).  The source of the Challenge is the Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) Available if we Respond to our own Hidden Genius (Pholus-Ixion) – that is, in order to access that Potential, we need to Let Go of our Karma.  The Grace that leads to the Self-Resolution is our Willingness to undergo Ego Death and Rebirth (asteroid Nemesis and dwarf planet Haumea).  The Self-Resolution implies that we may not have a Choice.

If we use our 3-Degree window to examine the Asbolus-Station chart…

…the Self-Resolving Challenge to asteroid Karma disappears, and devolves into a Grand Cross, a chorus of small Challenges that Balance one another.  Asbolus/Intuition is Merged with Chaos/Unlimited Potential and Contrasted with (Opposite) Ixion/Hidden Genius, proposing that like Bilbo Baggins, we will be led to this Karma-free Treasure by Intuition, not Logic.

More problematic is the Challenge (T-Square) to our Instincts (the Moon) presented by a Contrast between Revelation of Denial (dwarf planet Eris) and Rebirth (Haumea).  Contrast implies Duality, that we may be invited to Choose between keeping the Comfort of our Denial, and Accepting Rebirth.  But Instinct, like Intuition, is non-Dual.  So the Real Choice will be between Trusting our Instincts, or Avoiding Ego Death.  Spiritual is always Both/And.  Either/Or is always Politics.

As we Dance here with Intuition and Instinct, we are reminded that both symbols for Truth – both the Truth of the Heart (asteroid Aletheia) and the Truth of the mind (asteroid Veritas), are in Scorpio.  As we’ve said, we expect people who live by the Lie to encounter Trouble here, because Scorpio is Relentless about Getting to the Bottom of Things.  We’ll see this Lit Up very strongly between now and early October…

As we’ve pointed out, 23 September was a very busy day.  But it’s only a prelude for the larger Dramas that we’ll encounter between now and October 3.  We’ve interpreted the 23 September events as if they were isolated events, but they’re only the first act.  The real fireworks will be…

• 27 September…
  • Asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) enters Virgo (Ego Death) (5:30 am PDT).  Ego Death Squared.
  • Asteroid Bee-Zed (Transcendence) Stationary Conjunct Aletheia and Veritas (Truth) (8:30 am PDT) in 18 Sagittarius.

• 28 September…
  • Dwarf planet Chariklo (Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt) Stationary Conjunct Pluto (Compulsion) (12am PDT) in 20 Capricorn.
  • Dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) Stationary Conjunct Asbolus (Intuition) (9am PDT) in 27 Gemini.
  • New Moon Conjunct Makemake (Manifestation) in 6 Libra (11:30 am PDT).

• 2 October… Pluto Stationary (11:30 pm PDT) in 21 Capricorn.

• 3 October… Aletheia (Truth of the Heart) Merges with Veritas (Truth of the mind) (8am PDT) in 17 Virgo.

As busy as 23 September was, it’s going to get a lot busier.  It’s a good thing we were able to sweat through all that Deep Letting Go of Karma last week, so we can Endure this Gauntlet with less Baggage!

New Awareness 2

To continue…

As we approach 9 July we’re regaled with a Big Increase in our Awareness (Mercury Stationary in 5 Leo 4pm PDT 7 July) of our Victimhood (Chiron Stationary in 6 Aries 4:30 pm PDT 8 July)  and of our Hidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion Initiates asteroid Bee-Zed in 28 Sagittarius 1:30 pm PDT 8 July), which results in a Significant Rebirth for us (dwarf planet Haumea Stationary in 25 Libra 2:30 pm PDT 9 July).  We need to parse this, one phrase at a time…

♥ Resuming with Transcendence of our Resistance to our Forbidden Genius (Bee-Zed or BZ509 Initiated by Ixion).  This begins an eleven-year Cycle that somehow resembles “An old bridge over a beautiful stream still in constant use” (Sabian Symbol for 28 Sagittarius).  Makes me chuckle – if it’s Genius, it’s something we Learned consummately in a previous Lifetime – the old Bridge still in constant use.  Our Genius might be Hidden and Forbidden, but that doesn’t mean we don’t Let it Stream forth Beautifully in private.

Our Genius is like our Mission – we’re unlikely to find it by Seeking.  We Approach it like we would a Wild Animal we’re trying to Befriend.  We make ourself Available, at a distance, looking the other way, for a long time, till our Friend gets used to our Presence and begins to Trust it.  Maybe we occasionally leave Offerings that we think She might like.  Eventually She may Speak to us, or even Approach, but She may not – we leave it entirely up to Her.  We don’t Indulge the Arrogance to Believe that we Understand Her.  She’s a Wild Animal, Multidimensional and Unpredictable, just like your Genius and your Mission.

When you Live from the Heart, you Live your Mission and your Genius.  The more you try to Understand them, the more they’ll slip away, because they don’t like Cages.  Love dissolves when Judgment replaces Curiosity, and Understanding is Judgment, even if it’s “good.”  Did someone mention Curiosity?  There’s an App, er, Angle for that, isn’t there, the Quincunx, five Signs of distance between planets.  This is the Birth of a Cycle, so its chart foresees the Essence of the entire Cycle.

The Initiation is at the apex of two Quincunxes (a Yod or Finger of God), which means “Pay Attention to this!”  The other end of these two Quincunxes are Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis) and Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna).  The raison d’être of a Quincunx is to replace Understanding with Curiosity, permanently if at all possible.  So, to the extent that we can stay out of our own way, over the next eleven years (or at least seven years, till the Cycle fruits) we’ll automatically go through whatever Ego Deaths are necessary to Squelch our Resistance to our Hidden Genius, and we’ll Convert Fear to Power without even thinking about it.  Yay!

There’s one other strong Angle to the Ixion-BeeZed Initiation, and that Angle is about Unlimited Potential (Opposition to dwarf planet Chaos).  That’s precisely the promise of our Genius, to unleash our Unlimited Potential, so it’s no accident that it’s there.  Let’s quote Joe Dispenza (Becoming Supernatural, pp.61-62)…

“Getting beyond out body, our environment, and time isn’t easy – but it’s worth it because once we disconnect from three-dimensional reality, we enter a whole other reality called the quantum, the realm of infinite possibility.  Describing this reality is a bit challenging because it’s unlike anything we are familiar with in the physical universe.  The rules of Newtonian physics, the way we are used to thinking the world works, simply don’t apply.

“The quantum (or unified) field is an invisible field of energy and information – or you could say a field of intelligence or consciousness – that exists beyond space and time.  Nothing physical or material exists there.  It’s beyond anything you can perceive with your senses.  This unified field of energy and information is what governs all the laws of nature…

“To give you some idea of what this field is like, imagine taking away [every thing and Entity]… There is no air, and there isn’t even any light that you can see with your eyes.  There’s just absolute blackness, the void, the zero-point field.  It’s important to remember this because when you as a consciousness in the present moment unfold into the unified field, you will be in an infinite black space – void of anything physical…

“Yet as strange as this may sound, the quantum field is not empty.  It’s an infinite field filled with frequency or energy.  And all frequency carries information.  So think of the quantum field as being filled with infinite amounts of energy vibrating beyond the physical world of matter and beyond our senses – invisible waves of energy available for us to use in creation.  What exactly can we create with all this energy swimming in an infinite sea of potentials?  That’s up to us because, in short, the quantum state is a field in which all possibilities exist.“

Or 5D, as many call it, as distinct, thankfully, from 5G.  Many of us are using this Energy to Co-Create a World where the Operating Principles are Collaboration and Cooperation and Respect and Compassion instead of Competition and Greed and Abuse and Exploitation – the end of the Patriarchy in other words.  You’re invited.

♥ The fourth parameter in our till-9-July equation is Rebirth into the Truth of our Instincts (dwarf planet Haumea Stationary Conjunct to Moon and asteroid Veritas).  When we’re so busy Seeking our Mission, we aren’t really Attending to our Mission, we’re Attending to Seeking.  We need to recognize that once we Learn to stop trying to be Someone We Aren’t, and just let ourselves be Who We Are, the road will unfold in front of us.  If we Open to it, this will be Revealed to us Clearly (Haumea et al Opposite dwarf planet Eris).

This Revelatory Energy Dances Closely (a Grand Cross) with a second Energy that’s about the Ego Deaths (asteroid Nemesis) necessary to remove Programming, Beliefs, and other Impediments that have till now prevented us from Being Compulsive and Uncompromising about our Self-Respect, our Self-Confidence, and our Respect for All Things as Conscious Entities equal to ourself (a Stellium of Pluto, dwarf planet Chariklo, and asteroid Hopi).  While there may be some Stresses (Grand Cross as four Squares) in this Dance, the Stresses tend to Complement one another (Grand Cross as Balance).

The Revelatory Energy also Dances Closely, and very Cooperatively (a Golden Rectangle), with a third Energy – namely, the Transcendence of our Resistance to our Forbidden Genius, and Opening to Unlimited Potential (Ixion and Bee-Zed Opposite Chaos), that we opened this post with.  Here’s the Haumea Station chart…

♥ Both of these charts feature remarkable Symmetry, the first (previous post) Aesthetically, and the second (above) Energetically.  Symmetry feels Natural and Balanced to us, making Life more Enjoyable and Flowing.

Gordy’s Knot Merit Badge #4

Predatory Capitalism and Fascism have strong tendencies to elevate Greed above all other Social “Values” and Psychopathology above all other “Skills.”  But they haven’t yet totally banned Conscience from business…

https://www.washingtonpost.com/technology/2019/05/30/tech-giant-brings-software-gun-fight/

Of course the other side of this argument, and probably the basic reason for the Amendment in the first place, is that “When guns are Outlawed, only Governments will have guns.”  I don’t know if your own local Police Department was trained in Iraq and Afghanistan and is still so terrified of Surprise Death that they would rather shoot to kill than let you finish taking out your cellphone to call your lawyer, but I look forward to a time when no one has guns.

Here’s the chart of the 30-31 May Stations of asteroids Pallas and Aletheia in 11-16 Libra…

For all but the fine print, this is also the chart for the 3 June New Moon in 13 Gemini.  We talked about the Pallas-Aletheia T-Square in the previous post.  We haven’t talked about the T-Square that’s focused on the Sun (or in the case of the New Moon, on Sun-Moon) yet.  The Obsolete Ritual (or Dualistic) Belief here is that the Oaths we have made around Abuse cannot be Reverted (Nessus Opposite Orcus).  Typically these Oaths are Promises to ourself never to Allow ourself to be Vulnerable again, or always to Avoid certain circumstances, or Never to tell anyone, or Never to Remember.  The last-named is particularly nasty, because it Poisons our Life from the Unconscious.

Since the Sun represents our Essence, and Sun-Moon our Rebirth, to have either of these Squelched by Obsolete Oaths is Suffocating.  To Breathe again we need to Recant the Oath.  That’s Difficult when we’ve Forgotten that we made it.  We have to “go meta” (raise our game to the next level) and get General, with a PIAVA such as

“God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command that Oaths I have made in any Lifetime about Abuse Be Recanted, and that I remain Safe and Whole in their Absence.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  Show me.”

Then we need to Pay pretty close Attention to what’s happening around us, so we can get more Conscious about our Vulnerabilities and use the knowledge to Set the more Effective Boundaries demanded by the first T-Square (previous post).

In between the Pallas and Aletheia Stations, dwarf planet “OR10” (a dozen years after its discovery it doesn’t have a formal name yet, so it’s still hailed by its code name, “2007 OR10”) is also Stationary.  Planets are at their peak Influence when they’re Stationary, so having three planets Standing Still within a few hours has nearly the same impact as a Triple Conjunction.  A Triple Conjunction of Pallas, OR10, and Aletheia would be about Remembering the Truth about Good Boundaries.  Like Realizing that selling sub-machine guns to the average “Joe” doesn’t set a good Boundary example.

The OR10 Station chart looks like this…

We Notice that while asteroid Hopi was Stationary a few days back, it was in the same Degree as the OR10 Station, and it Dances prominently in the OR10-Station chart.  A quadruple Conjunction of Pallas, OR10, Aletheia, and Hopi would be about Remembering the Truth about Setting Respectful Boundaries with Everyone – not something we’re getting good Leadership about today.  If a few more people Realize that we aren’t being well Led in this regard, it could lead to Regime Change where it will count most.

We also Notice that in this chart we have a third T-Square to wrestle with this weekend – a T-Square focused on Climate Change, the ongoing Conjunction of dwarf planets Quaoar and Pholus (Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts), joined by asteroid Bee-Zed or BZ509 (Transformation).  Like OR10, BZ509 still known only by its code name.  What is the Obsolete Ritual Belief that Quaoar-Pholus-BZ509 Challenges this weekend?  It’s that we have to Sell our Soul to Manifest what we Need (Uranus-Atropos Opposite Makemake).

We can Reframe that.  Atropos symbolizes Endings, and we could Reinterpret the T-Square as Ending our Resistance to What Our Soul Wants will Manifest all manner of Miracles that will Transform our Survival Odds.  In other words, you know Intuitively what needs to happen in order to assure our Survival.

For instance, Survival won’t happen because your neighbor figured out a way to Recycle a hundred styrofoam peanuts.  Asking everyone to put their thumb in the hole in the Titanic’s hull will never Save anybody.  Survival will happen when our Government gets its head out of its Egoic Ass and makes it illegal to create or sell styrofoam peanuts.  The more people Realize that, and stop electing politicians with their heads up their Asses, the sooner we can get on with Earth Repair.

Dwarf Planet Quaoar (Survival Instincts) Initiates asteroid Bee-Zed (Transformation) on 17 June (7pm PDT) at 3 Capricorn, “A Soul, in its eagerness for Experiences, seeks Embodiment as a Huper” (we’ve edited that slightly), Beginning an eleven-year Cycle.  What’s likely to be Transformed is our Relationship to our Survival Instincts – we may start Listening.  If you have Conservative friends who suddenly turn Environmentalist, it’s probably a Walk-In.  Hooray for them.

Pholus (Being Fully Responsive) Initiates Bee-Zed on 22 June (2pm PDT) in 2 Capricorn, “Three Rose Windows in a Gothic church, one damaged by war.”  We tried Surrender to a Higher Power in Gothic days, but it turned out, as is always the case when we use an intermediary, that we were Surrendering to an Agent that was Fully Responsive only to its own Survival as our intermediary, and our Altar was destroyed in the resulting Competition for our Loyalty.  Another Either/Or Choice disguised as Spiritual.

This is also an eleven-year Cycle.  So how will we Respond this time?  By rebuilding Notre Dame, or by Sequestering Carbon and Restoring the Planetary Water Cycle?  Most educated Observers don’t think we have very many eleven-year Cycles left before we descend into Dischord and Damage the second window.  Quaoar and Pholus are the Entities that will Govern our Demise or Rescue.

We know that there are a lot more Efforts going on to Restore a Healthy Planet than the Retarded Media tells us about.  We’ve already had Saturn (The Most Important Thing) and Pluto (Compulsion) cross Quaoar-Pholus.  Jupiter (Expansion) and Ceres (Sustainability) will follow in November, and the South Node in March 2020.  Every step counts.

Bee-Zed

We’re falling under the Influence of a recently discovered asteroid nicknamed “Bee-Zed,” which is Stationary 16 March (2pm PDT) in the middle of Capricorn.  It’s an unusual animal, orbiting “backwards” around the Sun, with an orbit as long as Jupiter’s (about twelve years) – most asteroids take four or five years to circle the Sun.  It’s orbit is elliptical; at the moment it’s an Earth-Sun distance beyond Jupiter, but when it’s closer to the Sun it’s no further from us than Mars.  It symbolizes Transcendence.

Compared to what we’re used to, the Station has a simple chart…

The Station Merges with (Conjoins) symbols for Self-Sovereignty (dwarf planet Hylonome) and Trust (asteroid Eurydike), makes an Angle of Curiosity (Quincunx or five Signs away, the green line) to symbols for Consciousness (asteroid Juno), Intuition (dwarf planet Asbolus), and Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis).

We take that to mean that we’re Transcending the tired notions (mostly Resistance) that we Learned early on about Ego Death being anathema.  We have after all recently Learned that an Ego Death, as Unpleasant and Scary as it can be when we’re in Resistance to it, is actually a huge Growth spurt that will allow us to Expand beyond what used to be our most distressing Limitations.  We could easily say that our most Exhilarating Experiences – after the fact – have been Ego Deaths.

There’s also Grace in the chart, in the form of a Blessings-If-You-Take-the-First-Step Angle (Sextile, the blue line) to planets symbolizing Beginnings (asteroid Klotho) and Spirituality (Neptune).  That our Discovery of a Whole New Relationship to Life, the Universe, and Everything (Klotho-Neptune) Clashes with (Square, the red line) our Old Fear of Ego Death is a given, and the Clash is much softened by Acceptance of our Transcendence.

The combination of red, green, and blue lines in one triangle is called, logically enough, a “Tricolor.”  We unlock the Blessings in the blue line by directing our “right brain” to hold on to the Amazement embedded in the Curiosity of the green line and Resist the Compulsion that our “left brain” feels to “Figure It Out.”  That Wonderment will Resolve the apparent Tension of the red line.

It’s almost Spring in the Northern Hemisphere!  You know what that means…

Meanwhile, the ridiculous “Second Law of Thermodynamics” has been Transcended – shown up for the bunk that it is…

http://blogs.discovermagazine.com/d-brief/2019/03/13/scientists-reverse-time-possibly-breaking-laws-of-physics/

We run Time backwards all the time, whenever we Remember something.  We don’t Manifest it outwardly very often because when Moses carved this “Second Law” on his stone tablet, we Believed it.  It was Carved in Stone after all, how could it not be True?

Wow XII

Our reader (the one with the knees) responds…

“This was all so thoughtfully answered, fascinating in scope, and beyond helpful – I’m still processing all of it, really, but I can’t tell you how spot-on and surprising and eye(soul)opening this is.  Much gratitude and grace in abundance emanating your way.

“So much to digest here, and so much that a deep thread in me sings to.  Abbey Road is my father’s favorite Beatles album, and I listened to it so much growing up I feel it is nearly inextricable from my dna – strange to say in a way, but it is really hard to separate (sometimes) the sounds/songs you grow up with from your current timeline.  This alone is a Big Thought…”

A Big Thought indeed!  How many songs from our formative years still go through our head and get stuck there!  Music is Powerful.

“…but I find it so amazing that for as much as I have always loved “Oh Darling!” I never truly heard those particular lyrics, “Nearly fell down and died”, so loud and clear.  “Something” paired with it is almost a call and response, and absolutely relevant to my thoughts that January eve.  Ingeniously appropriate you chose the Clapton version – Patti Boyd and all.  :)”

I didn’t know of Patti Boyd, I was out of the loop at that time.  But what a story.  When young Women were “Birds.”

“All of this made me contemplate holes as well – what is an interpretation of a black hole or dark matter?  Do they have a place?  I’m assuming/ believing of course they must, but it makes me think mostly of the kinds of things we carry without knowing consciously the what or the why or the how of it.  A little like karma you unconsciously carry?  (Fixing a hole where the rain gets in and stops my mind from wandering where it will go) Ringo and his hole in his pocket, and of course, Alice and that particular trip down a hole. I suppose on a macro scale the 60’s offered a lot of holes, and this interpretation needs obvious work, but perhaps not all missteps are missteps, and not all holes are void – or even to be avoided?  Narnia and other such portals might agree :)”

Voids and Holes (Wholes) are the complements of Matter, teleologically and epistemologically necessary to Complete a Material World seen through Duality.  I think that’s why Holes and Wholes are homophones.  As kids we believed for a while that if not for the Moon radiating Cold, the World would get too Hot from the Sun.  Till we Learned that Cold is the relative Absence of Heat, the way Fear is the Absence of Love and Small is the Absence of Larger.

Some elements of our Language are Unitary rather than Dual.  Since Physics defines Heat as the degree of Movement of elementary particles, it doesn’t define an Anti-Heat.  There’s Movement and there’s Rest.  In these cases, the Limit – the Absolute – is usually unreachable, only Approachable.  As we Approach the Limit we can only Adjust our Scale to measure Smaller and Smaller.  So with a Black Whole, where Gravity Approaches Infinity, we as Matter lose all Opportunity for Perspective.  We have to travel out of our Body to Experience it.

With Dualities it helps to use Circular or Spherical or Cyclical Scales, where if you go far enough toward North you end up going South, or far enough toward Absolute and we end up Relative.  The same might be true of Black Wholes – if we fell into one we might end up Knowing the Incredible Lightness of Being, as our Material Vehicle would be so torn apart that the only thing left would be Spirit.

“(My knee faired so much better this time around – nothing ice and time can’t fix, thank god/goddess!)”

Good news!

“BZ / Transcendence – I’m still really curious about this, and your perspective resonates, and I’m very interested to see what it continues to reveal.

“I’m working carefully on absorbing all of this, along with my PIAVAs, but in the meantime I just wanted to extend an effulgent parhelion of gratitude to you.”

You’re teaching me new words!  Thanks!!  And thanks for the complements!

As for asteroid BZ509, or Bee-Zed as it’s known (if you’re looking for it, you might find it under “514107” or “2015 BZ509”), here’s its Discovery chart…

A lovely Grace-filled Grand Sextile, with planets near 19 Degrees of all of the Dynamic (Air and Fire) Signs. There’s a T-Square (Challenge) to Pallas (Boundaries) in Scorpio (Fearlessness), but it’s Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star).

A Discovery chart is a Birth chart (the birth of Hupers’ Awareness of Bee-Zed), so we could easily have stretched our Sensitivity to six Degrees or so, which would include…

• Lachesis in Virgo (Allowing Ego Death)
• Aletheia in Capricorn (Conjunct Pluto and Karma – Accepting the Truth of What Is)
• Chiron in Pisces (Poor-Sweethearting our Suffering)
• Sedna in Taurus (Reframing Fear)

…leaving only the Vacancy at 19 Cancer to fill in the Magnetic (Earth and Water) Signs and make a Grand Unx, where there would be a planet near 19 Degrees of every Sign.  Since Unx is the Twelfth Harmonic – Pattern-Breaking – a Grand Unx is the epitome of Liberation.

The Vacancy in any Almost-Complete Configuration becomes one of the Most Important, if not The Most Important, indicator in the chart.  Cancer 19 is “A priest performing a Marriage Ceremony.”  So to Complete our Liberation from Patterns, we need a Ritual – a Pattern whose Power lies in its Repetition – and we need to break out of Separation and Duality into Unity.  Gollum couldn’t have come up with a more twisted Riddle.  The message is that what we need to do to graduate into 5D is to Recognize and Embrace our own Anxiety and Discontent, our own Resistance to What Is.  It’s not about Changing 3D.

The chart has a litany of other Clues to our Transcendence…

• Bee-Zed itself is in the process of Initiating asteroid Nemesis at Leo 19, “A houseboat party” – rather than sinking beneath our Held Emotions or Living in them, we need to Float atop them and Celebrate our Ego Deaths.

• Sappho (Self-Love) is being Initiated by Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) at 28 Aquarius, “A Tree felled and sawed to ensure a supply of wood for the winter” – do we need to Love our Abuse?  No, we need to deconstruct it and make Lemonade out of it.

• Pluto (Trance re-Formation) is Initiating asteroid Karma (Recurrent Bummers) at 13 Capricorn, “A Fire worshiper meditates on the ultimate realities of Existence” – what are the Relative Values in our Life of Comfort and Learning?

• Orcus (Oath-Breaking) is Initiating Moira (Fate/Choice) at 8 Virgo, “A five-year-old child takes a first dancing lesson” – Our Oaths inevitably get Forgotten, and become Limitations, with or without Held Emotions.  So a Cycle where we Discern our Historical Limiting Oaths and Dance out of them.

• Vesta (Beliefs) is being Initiated by Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty) at 27 Sagittarius, “A sculptor at work” – Which of our Beliefs sculpt a Reality Devoted to the World we Want to Live in, and which carve a Reality that someone else Wants us to Live in, someone to whom we have Consciously or Unconsciously Given our Power?  Time to Reject Codependence and PIAVA our own Path.

Offhand I don’t think it’s routine for five Cycles to be Initiated in the same Discovery chart.

Another Molt IV

And the week wasn’t just about Ego Death, it was also about Transcendence, as asteroid BZ509 was also Stationary, on 17 October.  Pairing their Stations in time is like having BZ509 Initiate a new Cycle with Nemesis – we have to read them as if they were Merged.  BZ509 is a recently-discovered asteroid with a somewhat Jupiter-like orbit, which would give it some of the Power of Jupiter.  But its orbit is Backward relative to most everyone else.  It symbolizes Transcendence.

Here’s the chart of its Station…

A lot more going on here than in the Nemesis-Station chart.  Just for starters, we notice that the BZ509 Station is Merged with (Conjoins) both our friend Saturn, whom we’ve just discussed, and dwarf planet Hylonome.  Hylonome is about Stepping Out of Relationships where we’ve been Merged with Other.

Of course that only applies to college freshpersons without dependencies and other complications.  Real Life is a lot more complicated.  But the “Leaving” isn’t really about Physical Separation, it’s about Egoic Separation, about becoming your own person, directed by your own Mission, and not someone else’s.  When we Change, the World Changes to reflect our Change.  Many of the repercussions we Fear don’t actually evolve, and/or they’re Compensated by other Changes we didn’t foresee.

So in this case I was probably Merged with Rebellion, possibly as an Unconscious (and probably Karmic, given the Nemesis-Station chart) Reaction to having been Judged all my Life for “Lacking” Discipline.  Everybody’s got a Saturn, so nobody Lacks Discipline – we just don’t understand how their Protocols differ from ours.

So to complete my homework I need to spend some time Wondering how Rebellion and Self-Sabotage have complemented one another in my Karmic history.  If I don’t do that, I’ll likely be less Conscious the next time Saturn and Mars are in a Challenging Angle to one another. 

A seldom-mentioned subtext of PIAVA is Expansion.  Like that old Meditation where you become as big as your house, then your yard, etc etc till you’re as big as the Galaxy.  Or the one where you Ascend to larger and larger Geophysical Perspectives.  These are good ways to Explore your Karmic history, while Remembering that All There Is Is Now.

Mars is Waxing Novile to Saturn these days.  The Novile is about Meditation.  The current Mars-Saturn Cycle Initiated early April of this year in 9 Capricorn, “An Angel carrying a harp.”  That’s pretty cool.  The Mars-Saturn Cycle is about how our Energy interacts with our Attention to The Most Important Thing.

This chart has two Big Challenges (T-Squares)…

• Can we stop Projecting those Memories of Abuse onto everyone who reminds us of our historical Abusers?  Or Get more Neutral about the Memories themselves, so we can Respond instead of Reacting in the many situations where they arise, especially when they’re Unconscious?  (Nessus-OR10 T-Square on Hopi-Lachesis Opposition)

• Do we Trust our own Values?  Do they Deserve to be Trusted, or do they need to be Updated, particularly the Values that came to us from our Karma?   Or from our Abuse?  (Eurydike-Venus T-Square on Lilith-South Node to Varuna-North Node Opposition)

And the most prominent planets in the chart are the two outliers that aren’t knitted into the bottom of the chart like everyone else is – Lachesis (Changing TimeLines by Choice) and Varuna-North Node (achieving Good Health by Cleaning Up our Karma and Attending to our Mission).

There’s a potentially interesting free series of webinars this weekend called “Finding the Life You Were Born to Live: Astrology, Life Purpose & Destiny,” https://www.astrologyuniversity.com/astrology-destiny-and-life-purpose-summit/, put on by Astrology University (which I’ve never heard of, but their faculty is reputable).  They include a Wonderful quote from Dane Rudhyar…

“When you don’t follow your nature there is a hole in the universe where you were supposed to be.”

Notice that these two form the base of a Yod (Pay Attention to…) focused on Saturn-BZ509-Hylonome (Transcending our Patterns of Giving Away Our Power).  Touchè.

Another Molt I

A story that marine biologists tell is that when Crabs Molt, a male wriggles out of his old shell, then holds the shell of a female, to help her to wriggle out of hers, back end first…

Whether this is Chivalry or Grounds for #MeToo, I’m not in a position to Judge.  Here while the Patriarchy winds down, this approach may not be the most recommended way for Hupers to Molt, but since Molt we must, whatever works is good.  As Con Ed may have once said, “Molt we must, for a Growing New Consciousness.”  We usually refer to it as Ego Death.

Newly Molted Crabs are undefended against predators, as their new shells don’t calcify and harden for a couple of weeks.  The same and more is probably true for those of us who wear our Protective Ego-shell on the inside rather than on the outside.  In the next picture, the new shell is at the upper right, the old shell at the lower left…

Which is what an Ego Death often feels like – like being “Eaten Alive.”  Ego Death may dominate our Experience until about 18 October, as asteroid Nemesis slows down and Stands Still.  A few signs of Ego Death include…

• Self-Doubt
• Anxiety
• Confusion
• Guilt
• Shame
• Getting Lost in your own neighborhood (or your own house)
• Feeling like you’re out of Options or at a dead end
• Discouragement
• Feeling like you don’t know who you are or what you’re doing or why
• Waking up and not being sure where you are
• Noticing when an Existing Habit or Addiction is being Triggered
  

These Experiences often Inspire Fear that “something is wrong” (which, from the Ego’s Perspective, is quite true).  On the Contrary, something is very much “right.”

When we Learn to Recognize these signs…

• As Not-Wrong (Fear plus Thinking)
• As Curious or Wondrous (Fear plus Delegation to a Higher Power)
• As Exciting (Fear plus Breathing)
• As Power (Fear plus Kegels)
• As the Threshold to Liberation (Fear plus Vision beyond the Drama)

It’s dramatically Life-Changing, as we’re now on the road to eliminating Self-Sabotage.

Some of us are used to Experiencing these signs most of the Time, most of our Lives.  If we’ve somehow avoided medicating them out of our Life, we can simply Recognize that we’ve (on the Soul Level) Chosen a Lifetime on the High Road to Enlightenment.  Your birth chart will usually show this.  As the Transformation Game says, “The most difficult tasks are only given to the best people.” 

But Ego Death is Miserable till we make that Transition from Fear to Excitement or Power or Liberation or Surrender to God/Goddess, and begin to Look beyond the current Drama and Wonder how our Life will be Levitated by the Elimination of whatever Limits this particular Ego Death is Removing – and to Awe about how Miraculous is the Process.  It’s counterproductive to try to Understand what’s being Transformed, as it Limits the natural course of the Process by drowning the Miracle in your old, Limiting Grid. 

Instead, Wait and Enjoy the Gift of Surprise.  You’ve made it this far, you can hold on for another few days.  Besides, once you Detach from immersion in the Drama, the sticks and stones and lances and bullets go right through you, so it’s not even a matter of holding on or holding out!  After you laugh at how Overwhelming it was when you were immersed in it, you can dust yourself off and Enjoy what you Really Want to do with your time.

We get a huge boost by Developing a Relationship with an Entity or Energy (Guide, Angel, God/Goddess, Channel, or Whomever) that can Assist from the “Other Side” or the Unconscious.  And then Developing the Habit of Giving Over our Difficulties to their Assistance, rather than having to Do everything “ourself” by Force of Ego.  If you don’t now have this Relationship or Habit, we often Recommend Theta, Ganeshi, and other forms of PIAVA, but these Suggestions are by no means intended as a Limit.  If you already have a Process that works, don’t fix it.

See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/, and/or https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/.  Ganesh is the “Remover of Obstacles,” often Prayed to Ritually as “Ganesh My Love, Please Remove All Obstacles to…”

We are of course All One, so while we Personalize these Entities as External to “ourself,” we Recognize that our Ego thrives on Separation.  So if we Identify with Soul, these Entities are just Specialists we can call upon.  When we Identify with Ego, these Entities are indeed Separate from “us.”   By definition, Ego is how Hupers naturally Operate, and we may never actually fully Transcend Ego while Embedded in Matter – and that’s Okay.

We want to hold both Perspectives (“I” am Soul and “I” am Ego, or, as it’s often Expressed, “I Am That I Am”), at the same time, as often as we can – “our” Helpers be Separate in the sense that they can make Easy what is Difficult for “us,” and they be part of “us” in the sense that we’re all on the same Team.

While asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) is Stationary till 18 October (2pm PDT), another Helper, asteroid BZ509, is also Stationary till 17 October (4am PDT).  BZ509 (look for “514107” or “2015 BZ509” in ephemerides) is a recently discovered Jupiter-scale (in orbit length) asteroid that orbits backwards relative to most of the rest of our Solar System.  It symbolizes Transcendence, so the Opportunity for us this week is to Transcend Ego Death.