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Times Up II

January 14, 2018

For many years now we’ve been under the “Tyranny” (a Blessing, really) of  a Zone around 25 Degrees, a Zone where our primary avocation has been Fixing the Culture.  Of course that’s mostly about polishing our Mirror.  While this Focus on ±25 is still pretty Strong, it’s weakening enough to make interpreting the Eris-Station chart a bit ambiguous.  So let’s look at it two ways.

First we’ll enforce a tight three-Degree Sensitivity around the Eris Station to get an idea of how our next while – up to six months – is likely to proceed… 

The Big Deal here is Overcoming our Resistance to a Reorganization of our Values as our Soul-Self orders up a major Rebirth.  We may be Confronted with information about ourself that’s doesn’t immediately evoke Self-Love, and we’ll have to Choose between Reframing that information to maintain our Egoic status quo, or Revising our Self-Concepts to make Space for Loving Our Self As We Really Are.  Our best bet for Cosmic assistance will be to step further into the Unknown, and Embrace Confusion as the most Reliable path forward.  (Pluto-Sun-Venus T-Square on Haumea Opposite to Uranus and Stationary Eris, Trine-Bridged by dwarf planet Chaos and Quincunx-Bridged by Mars and Lachesis-Chiron.)

Then a conservative six-Degree Sensitivity to see how Projects we began this week are likely to go…

Which suggests an Excellent prognosis (Dynamic Grand Sextile). 

We Accept our Resistance to Fear, and our Resistance to Confusion about how to Act, by Recognizing that our New Self is just an Infant traveling “where no Infant has gone before,” Realizing that we have no Choice but to Surrender all Expectations (Nemesis T-Square on Haumea Opposite Stationary Eris-Uranus-Moira-Pallas and Nemesis Grand Trine with Chaos and Haumea). 

How can we Permanently make our Mission Priority Number One when Fear and Doubt Reign?  By Trusting that every previous Moment of our Lives has Prepared us for this next Instant, the Instant in which we Celebrate our Mission and take one more Step toward it.  It doesn’t matter how much we Believe that we Know what our Mission is.  What matters is that we Trust we’ve been Living It All Along.  In this Imminent Instant we Choose to Surrender our Pain and Abandonment and Accept the World As It Is.  Nothing Changes until we Accept it Fully, Exactly as it is.  Once so befriended, the World will Please us by taking a Step toward How We Want Her to Be.  (Ceres-North Node Diamond Star on Sedna Opposite Jupiter-Mars-Hopi-Karma-Vesta and the Grand Trine with Ixion and Lachesis-Chiron.)

The 25th Degree resolves to Seven, the Harmonic of Timing.

Time’s Up I

January 13, 2018

Eris was the Lady who, failing to receive an invitation to the Big Party, tossed a Golden Apple, inscribed “To the fairest of them all,” into the Party, putting the other Big-Name Goddesses at the Party into a long-lasting tither that eventually led to the famed Trojan War.  Eris thus becomes the Goddess of “Discord and Strife,” and  Greek Mythology disses women as jealous and petty.  Once we realize that the Greek Mythos was the literary vehicle that described or proscribed the replacement of the Matriarchy by the Patriarchy, we can understand the motives behind the Myth, and reframe our interpretation of the dwarf planet that bears Eris’s name. 

We’ve Chosen to interpret Eris as the Revelation of what’s been Denied.  Recall though that, contrary to the common use of the word as a thinly veiled insult, Denial is a Healthy process that Protects the Ego from what would otherwise Overwhelm it, until the Ego is ready to deal with it, ie, until Eris comes along.  Since the Ego is in charge of insuring the Survival of it’s Vehicle (which is you or me), Denial is an important Survival Skill.  Till it’s not.

As greater Consciousness Descends onto Planet Earth, or the Earth Ascends into greater Harmony, depending on whom you ask, large portions of what’s been Denied are forcing their way into our Consciousness.  #MeToo, for instance, and now #ShitholePresident.  Imagine a future historian, needing only one source, Twitter.  The Patriarchy was not born overnight.  As Hupers gained more control over their Environment, the underlying Story shifted from Everything-We-Fear to Everything-We-Control, with a corresponding Inflation of the Ego.  Born out of Competition with the Matriarchy, Competition became the Foundation of the Patriarchy.

Which brings us to the Present Moment, where Competition is reaching the Limits of its Utility, and begs to be replaced with Cooperation.  This last week, dwarf planet Eris was at its Strongest (Stationary, Exact 10 January at 2am PST).  Eris is still Traveling with Uranus (our Soul-Self) – they’re less than two Degrees apart, so it wouldn’t hurt to review their Initiation,

It’s often said that “Timing is Everything,” and we agree.  If you’re in the Right Place at the Right Time, everything can fall into place Effortlessly – one of the reasons why we put such a heavy emphasis on PIAVAing – the Masculine Dynamic Creative Process can Manifest a lot, but unless Complemented by excellent Intuition and Flexibility, it can be consummately Destructive, as our Planet is Witnessing.  On the other hand, the Feminine Magnetic Creative Process, which we abbreviate as PIAVA, is capable of “Controlling” (actually, Coordinating) many variable far beyond the scope of the Dynamic Process.  (See to review PIAVA).

For instance, many are Dynamically Manifesting Abundance, which as Catherine Ponder remind us (in The Dynamic Laws of Prosperity), means Having Enough to Share.  But can we Dynamically Manifest Abundance that Benefits All Sentient Beings?  Not so Easy to even Plan, let alone Do.  But it’s Easy to PIAVA – for example, “Ganeshi my Love, please Remove All Obstacles to Manifestation of Abundance for All Sentient Beings.”  Sure, you can scoff at that as silly, but what if everyone made that Prayer every day.  How the World would Change relative to everyone Competing to take their own Abundance away from Others.

A major Hindrance to Manifesting Magnetically is that our own Limiting Beliefs will prevent us from Noticing when key portions of our PIAVA fall into place, because our Limiting Beliefs block our Intuition.  As we’ve explained many times, we circumvent that using the Change-the-Subject and Pay-Attention elements of PIAVA, Poor-Sweethearting, and Tapping, in order to Let Go of our Limiting Beliefs and Karmic Archetypes.  A huge part of our Intuition and our Manifestation is Timing.  Being in the wrong place at the Right Time, or the Right Place at the wrong time to Notice and Receive our Blessing, does us no good.

In astrology, Timing is governed by the Seventh Harmonic.  It represents what Don Juan meant when he was always telling Grasshopper Castaneda to “Save his Energy.”  The Tarot equivalent is The Chariot – Stillness and Motion.  The Essence is that Movement is necessary, but it’s wasted if it’s not at the Right Time in the Right Place.  We don’t often see the Seventh Harmonic (multiples of one seventh of the Zodiacal Loop, or 51½ Degrees, the “Septile”) very often, and Configurations or Combinations of Seventh-Harmonic Angles are even rarer. 

Of course the main reason we don’t see it is because it’s not a multiple of the thirty Degrees that the Zodiac is divided into – it’s Easy to Notice the alignment between ten Degrees of Leo and ten Degrees of Libra, a lot harder to Notice that ten Degrees of Leo are also aligned with two Degrees of Libra.  However, the software I use tallies Septiles, so I watch for Septile Configurations in every chart I draw.  Of all the charts I publish in this diary, not many include Septile Configrations.

All of which is only an introduction to this week’s Energy; the chart of the 10 January Eris Station we mentioned earlier features a Strong Seventh-Harmonic Pattern, drawn here in purple…

A “Grand Septile” consists of seven planets equally spaced around the Loop; here we have five of the seven, which form their own Pattern.  Recognize the shape, even though it’s “upside down”?

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Let’s call this Configuration a Chrysalis, and in the process preserve the implication of  Imminent Transformation. 

There’s a clear emphasis on the “top” (which on the chart here is pointing down), a Pluto-Sun-Venus or Mandatory-Essence-Values Stellium (which means a Group of three or more planets).  Mandatory-Essence-Values.  That’s pretty heavy, and certainly applies to #MeToo – we Need to Focus on the Essence of our True Values, and quit Denying the constant Violations of it.  And it’s been a major emphasis of the International critiques of #ShitholePresident.

There are three purple wedges here, which are Septile Yods.  A Yod or Finger of God is the astrological equivalent of ACHTUNG! – “PAY ATTENTION!”  In the Seventh Harmonic it means Pay Attention to the Timing here, or quite literally, when combined with an Eris Station, Time’s Up!  for that Denial.  One of the Septile Yods points to the Pluto Stellium at the “head” of the Chrysalis. 

The other two Septile Yods point to the base of the Chrysalis – these are the Foundations of the Shift in Timing…

  • Dwarf planet Chaos says that It’s Time to Expand Waaay Beyond What You’re Accustomed To!
  • Ceres-North Node says that It’s Time to Make Your Mission on the Planet in the Lifetime the Permanent Focus of your Attention!

Which leaves the two “Shoulders” of the Chrysalis, which we can consider to be the Supporting Cast of the Change…

  • Neptune says that It’s Time to Avoid Material Confusion by shifting our Perspective to the Spiritual – or of course by Rejecting the mind’s attempts to Analyze the source of our Confusion, and Accepting it as an Emotion in its own Right, one that we need to just Sit With and Feel, without trying to Change it.  Confusion is the first stage of Growth.
  • Asteroids Vesta and Karma in combination tell us that It’s Time to Let Go of the Unconscious Archetypes that have been running our Life so far.  We’ve been writing about that in many recent posts.

The Initiation of Vesta by Karma occurred at 11am PST on 8 January, in 27 Scorpio, “A military band marches noisily on through city streets.”  Notice that it’s not at War, but it is trained for Warfare, and making a Statement loud and clear – It’s Time to stop letting your Unconscious Karmic Beliefs run your Life, and celebrate it with noisy fanfare; It’s Time to Speak Up when we Witness Discrimination or Abuse!

We can peek at the Future of our Emergent Butterfly by looking at the other tight Conjunctions and Sign Changes in the chart that aren’t related by Angle to the Septiling planets…

  • Pholus Initiates Klotho 9 January (5am PST) in 30 Sagittarius – “The Pope blessing the faithful”; A New Timeline for our sense of Responsibility.  Not about Blame, but about what we’re Willing to Respond to.  It’s Time to use our Spiritual Authority to Actively Reinforce Inclusive Behavior and Discourse.
  • Quaoar Initiates Klotho 13 January (8am PST) in 1 Capricorn – “An Indian chief claims power from the assembled tribe”; a New Timeline for our sense of Ultimate Authority, which flows from the Heart.  It’s Time to Recognize that we have the Political Authority to Speak our Truth.  Don’t worry about whether or not it’s Accepted by others; Truths that are Ready to Overcome Denial by the Collective will be Accepted, others will wait patiently, but your Voice is a Vote in the Consensus-Building Process.
  • Hylonome Initiates Lilith 1 February in 10 Capricorn – “An albatross feeding from the hand of a sailor”; It’s Time to Let Go of Inhibitions to our Self-Sovereignty and Fully Support Cooperation over Competition.
  • Sappho is moving from Capricorn into Aquarius – We’ve been Focused on the Practical and Private elements of increasing our Self-Love; now It’s Time to Extend our Self-Love into our Relationship with our Community by Speaking our Truth Out Loud.
  • Klotho is moving from Sagittarius into Capricorn – The New Timelines we’ve been Creating recently have been about Letting Go of Inhibitions; now It’s Time to Use our Newfound Clarity to Help to Fix What’s Wrong.

Never forget that the First Rule is Safety First.  Everyone will be trying to outshout everyone else, including the Racists and Bigots.  You don’t need to be Bullied, and it’s okay to Step Back rather than Argue.  Say your Peace and step toward those who are Speaking in Alignment with you.  Hupers can’t resist gravitating toward what’s Popular, so gradually people who aren’t fully Committed to their Truth will drift over toward a different Truth, to try that on to see if it suits them better. 

As Groups form, those Committed to False Truths will gradually Feel their Shame and step down, either recanting or disappearing.  The Sociopaths will keep Shouting, but they’ll end up Friendless on their soapbox Shouting into the Wind.  The Truths that are Ready for their Time will come forth.  You don’t need to Force them, just to Let Your Own Truth be Known, in a Safe manner.

We’ll talk about Ego Death, and its impact on apparent Safety, in the next post when we talk about the rest of the Eris-Station chart.



Call Bullshit What It Is

July 19, 2017

A good friend the other day said, “Eris – she’s the one with the Golden Apple that means, ‘Call Bullshit what it is’? ”  Couldn’t have said it better myself.  (Eris is Stationary or Strong, with the Energy peaking at 2am PDT 20 July.)  The renditions of Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine and John Perkins’s New Confessions of an Economic Hit Man keep getting shorter and more concise.  We mentioned the other day.  And now today the Guardian gives us…

‘Rump “gets” the Secrecy and Deception part – he’s still today trying to tell us that virtually no healthcare insurance is “What Americans Want.”  Ted Cruz didn’t “get” the Doublespeak and Distraction part of the program; he was too in love with Uncle Milty to be dishonest about it.

To Thine Own Self

July 18, 2017

Okay, we’ve Survived (right?) the Option to Change Ancient Patterns (Lachesis Station), now on to I Gotta Be Me (Eris Station).  Yes, we’re chomping at the bit to tell those folks what they’re doing wrong, but they don’t actually have anything to do with it; we’re just Projecting.  What is it We Want for Ourself?  Are they really stopping us, or are we stopping ourself? 

With Win-Win and Both/And you can do almost anything.  You can even Abuse Other, though you’ll Regret it, as you’ll be the Abused soon enough.  That’s not Retribution, it’s the simple fact that Abuser and Abused, Power-Over and Victim, are just different sides of the same Coin.  Flip it in the air, and it could come down on either side.  There are better Coins to play with.

Of course if you’re already Dancing with the Abuse Coin, it’s sticky, and prying it out of your hand isn’t easy.  But even though the Lachesis Station is past Exactitude, Lachesis is still moving very slowly, so there’s still plenty of Opportunities for PIAVAing to Change your Patterns.  The “I” in PIAVA, for instance, is very Powerful.  Just don’t waste your Energy and Abuse your own Karma trying to Change Someone Else’s Patterns, ok?

The truth of your power is that it has always existed within you and that you have always had access to it.  However, you have been taught that your power comes from your mind, your actions, the amount of money you have in your bank account, the number of people that you have working for you, and many other false idols.

“The power that you seek in those objects, people, and circumstances, is fleeting at best.  External power will always leave you wanting more, and it can leave you completely, and then what will you do?  Hopefully, eventually, you will all come to the realization that your power is your ability to access a vibration.

“Everything that you want to experience, you want because of the vibration you associate that experience with, but you don’t have to wait for anything, or anyone, or any circumstance, in order to feel those vibrations rippling through you.  Those vibrations that you seek are a part of the totality of who you are.  You are Source Energy Beings, and Source Energy is all vibration.

“You, as a conscious being, get to choose which of those vibrations you activate, thereby empowering yourselves to experience whatever you want to experience right here and right now.  No waiting for an outside manifestation to occur is necessary. Get your confirmation from how you feel.”

–Daniel Scranton & The Arcturians,

Duration and Revelations

July 13, 2017

Duration is a funny concept.  It’s not about Beginnings or Endings, but being the space between them it has a lot to say about Beginnings and Endings.  Asteroid Lachesis is about Durations, and it’s Lit Up (Stationary) until 18 July, so I wouldn’t be surprised if a lot of things about Beginnings and Endings are coming up in your neighborhood, like they are in mine. 

Dwarf planet Eris is about Revealing what’s been Denied, and it too is Lit up (Stationary) until 20 July.  So we can Expect to see new Truths Revealed around Beginnings and Endings over the next week, just as we can Expect to see a lot of Changes in how we handle what we don’t like to Talk about, things we Start Talking about and things we Stop Talking about.

We’ll be writing more about all this very soon.

13.12 Full Moon I

December 9, 2016

Everything we’ve just said about Portal 14.12 applies as well to the 13 December Full Moon – which also occurs at 4pm PST.  Plus a lot more.  The Bottom Line is that the Full Moon is about the Unlimited Potential that awaits us when we Fully Embrace our Abandoned Genius – and the Pain we’ll have to Endure to get there!

The Moon Conjoins dwarf planet Chaos, while the Sun Conjoins Ixion, both T-Squared by Chiron.

The Pain, though, is optional.  We can circumvent it by Embracing ourself with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really feeling Despair (or Confused, or Lost, or Scared), aren’t you” or the equivalent.  

A Chiron T-Square is about Mastering – through Challenge – the art of Changing Perspectives.  This is one of the reasons we keep preaching about “Cognitive Dissonance” or the Ability to hold two “Contradictory” Perspectives at the same time, often shortened to Both/And.  The Observing mind is Dual, and so recognizes Contradiction.  Reality is Multifarious and Unitary (Both/And) and so contains a lot of apparent Contradictions.  Call them Paradoxes if you don’t grok Both/And yet.  

News flash – Observed Reality is bigger than Observing mind, not the other way around!

End of sermon.  At any rate, Chiron represents Unhealable Wounds, Unsolvable Problems, Hopeless Cases, Impossible Causes.  We recommend “You poor Sweetheart…” Self-Empathy because Empathy Heals, and being non-Dual, Empathy doesn’t really much care if something appears Unhealable to the intellect.  Despair is, after all, an intellectual Problem.  Also, “You poor Sweetheart…”, like other PIAVAs, is Effortless and, if we succeed in Changing the Subject, fast.  So fast we often don’t notice that it worked!

Einstein himself informed us that we can’t solve a Problem using the same thinking that postulated the Problem – ie, if you want to solve the Problem, or rather, make the Problem go away, we need to Change our Perspective.  “You poor Sweetheart…” is an automatic Change of Perspective, because we’re no longer Identified with Despair, we’re now standing apart from ourself and Empathizing back to ourself, now Identifying with Compassion instead of Despair.

While Despair is an intellectual – Yang – Problem, Compassion is a Yin Response.  Response, not Solution.  A Solution to an intellectual Problem would be an intellectual Solution – not a Change of Perspective.  Sure, there’s an Emotional or Yin side to Despair, but there’s nothing Unhealable about Emotion (Empathy works Miracles); it’s only the intellectual cage that Despair traps our Emotions into that’s a circular maze.

We know from using PIAVA that Yin Responses to Problems or other Unpleasantries don’t work unless we get the mind out of the way, especially with Despair, because by definition there’s No Exit from Despair, no way to think your way out of it.  So we have to Change the Subject, somehow take our Attention and our intellectual grinder away from the intractable Problem that’s so compulsively attractive to us, and find something else to occupy them.

That’s not always easy to do, especially since most of us have at least one Lifetime Unsolvable Problem.  So even if our Present Problem isn’t an exact Mirror for our Lifetime Hassle or Karma, we can’t help but borrow the format from our Lifetime Hassle, because we’re so “good” at the methodology of grinding.  Or non-methodology.  Einstein also supposedly said that Responding (or more appropriately, Reacting) the same way and expecting different results would be a good definition for insanity.

So the basic Problem becomes unhooking the mind from the Object of its Fixation and Frustration.  That’s actually something we can PIAVA, or even “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Fixated here, aren’t you.”  Alternate that with Tapping – “Even though I’m really Fixated here, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  Even a Chocolate bar is likely to Change the Subject, if you “You poor Sweetheart…” yourself first.

End of sermon, again.  Didn’t intend to get into all that, but it’s one of the most important things about the Full Moon, and we haven’t gone through it ad naseum recently, and really, can we say it too much?  What else about the Full Moon?

Oh yeah, there’s the part about the Embracing our Abandoned Genius without getting Lost in the Unlimitedness.  This is the Golden Rectangle we’ve been talking about for a while now, and the Moon sits right on one of its Oppositions, the one we’ve considered the more important one, because it’s the most Challenging – dwarf planet Chaos (the Zero Point Field) Opposite dwarf planet Ixion (Rejected or Pathological Genius).  

In fact, for many of us, the Chironean Despair we face is rooted in the fact that someone else is Acting Out a Bigger-Than-Life Mirror for Pathological Genius in plain sight, even while he makes an even better Mirror for the Bullying Parents or Teachers that originally forced us to Repress our own Pathological Genii.  Or more deeply, for the Tyrant that Repressed us in that other Lifetime where we were Powerless.  Oh yeah, that Lifetime.  Dass vergangen Leben.  Oh, there were many like that, Massa Sir?  Well, small Wonder we’re in Despair.

Double Mirrors.  Coyote is the ultimate Trickster; we shouldn’t expect otherwise when we’re prying Open Pandora’s Box, er, I mean, the Unconscious.

Speaking of Pandora, she just happens to be sitting on the Haumea corner of the Golden Rectangle.  What a Coincidence!

The other Opposition in the Golden Rectangle is Haumea-Pandora (Rebirth into the “Naughty” Feminine) Opposite Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Tolerating the Horrible Memories of all the times when we were forced to Suppress our True Self, in order to make our Yintegrity Permanent).

And by the way, the Sedna-Lilith Yin Gate (Becoming Aware of our Fear around our own Self-Sovereignty and PIAVAing to Heal It) is still well within our Sensitivity.

Which brings us to a need for a note about some of the players here, particularly Chaos, Pandora, and Lilith, not to mention Eris.  All four of these Lasses have been cast as questionable characters in the development of the Patriarchy.  

  • Dwarf planet Chaos is named for the Confusing Powerlessness that came before the Greek Gods straightened things up – that is, for the Matriarchy and Communion and Union with Nature.
  • Pandora was Blamed for unleashing all manner of difficulty and torture on the hapless males of the Greek world.
  • Lilith goes back even further as a miscreant for refusing to kneel to Adam’s self-proclaimed Superiority.
  • And Eris of course, She of the Golden Apple, was Blamed for all manner of difficulty, including the Trojan War, when she was only illuminating the Vanity of Ego and its Contrast to the True Beauty of Walking in our own Heart’s Truth.  And of course that Vanity of Ego was just another Greek slap in the face of Women.

So we aren’t going to get any support from the dominant Western Cultures for any of what we’re doing.  In fact, both internally and externally, we’ll be facing a lot of Guilt for wanting to Transgress any number of Oaths we have made to “Behave” and never do that again, not to mention the Twittered Projected Guilt from others over Oaths that they Believe we should have made, even if we didn’t. 

We’ll talk more about the role of Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) in the 13.12 Full Moon chart, and the 14.12 Pallas-Mars Initiation chart, in Full Moon II.

Support from Wise Women we know, yes, for sure, seek it out, wallow in it, Embrace it, Pay it Forward.  Wise Woman Susun Weed was where I first learned about Both/And, after all.

That Big River in Egypt

April 29, 2016

Many thanks to a reader for asking the provocative question…

“Any way you could share what you yourself feel you need to let go of that you’ve been clinging to so I can see whether I’m on the right track?” 

Eris is about Denial – namely, that which has been pushed into the Unconscious in order not to Overwhelm Consciousness or shatter the Ego.  So as Uranus approaches Eris it’s not about “what we feel we need to let go of that we’ve been clinging to,” it’s about what we will discover in the way of unknown Beliefs, or long-standing Limits that we’ve misinterpreted as Irritations or social norms, and which are likely to come into Focus as Self-Sabotage.  These aren’t just the Masks we put on to meet others, but the Masks we wear to Protect our Ego from the sometimes-brutal Honesty of the Self.

Denial is a healthy process, helping to keeping the Ego functioning in order to keep the Vehicle Safe.  However, the Revelation of Denial, when it’s Gentle and Loving, is also a very healthy process – to everything there is a Season.  The theory, true or otherwise, is that when we persistently ignore Gentle and Loving hints about what’s being ignored, and the Soul feels that Expanded Consciousness has become more important than the Safety provided by the Denial, the Unconscious will resort to more serious tactics than the Gentle and Loving,

Note that when anyone else accuses you of being “in Denial,” it’s always a Manipulation, an attempt to Intimidate and Control you.  They know nothing about the relationship between your Soul and Ego, and never will.  A gifted Psychic may have some information about that, but no Psychic worth listening to would ever accuse anyone of being “in Denial.”  I know Gurus who use a shock method for communicating, but in my experience they’re shocking you into listening to the Inner Voices that you already know of, but which you’ve been discounting for years.  Taking “the answer you’ve already rejected” is a Gentle way of moving in that direction.

Our reader continues…

Something came up yesterday where in retrospect I can see I felt a powerful need for attention or validation or appreciation or recognition, or something along those lines, from sources from which it’s just not going to come.  This theme is so ancient that it has become exhausting.  I felt sharp pain and anger for a brief moment, but recovered nicely, if not altogether tidily, and the moment passed pretty quickly, all things considered.  I’m left feeling a little…silly, infantile and embarrassed, though not really ashamed because I seem to have already forgiven myself for the temporary lapse in sanity.  Does that qualify?  And if so does it mean I need to provide those things for myself?”

There’s a strong correlation between our Masks and our unmet Childhood needs.  For instance, as a child many of us had “a powerful need for Attention or Validation or Appreciation or Recognition from a source from which it never came.”  So we put on a Mask that protected our Vulnerability to what we were inappropriately led to believe was a weakness.  We all need Attention or Validation or Appreciation or Recognition, and some sources are critical.  For instance, anyone who doesn’t expect that from a spouse or employer or friend is probably in an Abusive Relationship.  A Codependent Relationship is one where the Validation of the Other is more important to us than our own Values.

The part about “I’m left feeling a little…Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed, though not really Ashamed because I seem to have already forgiven myself for the temporary lapse in Sanity” needs to be reversed.  It was the feeling of  “Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed” (or Pain and Anger, as the case may be) that IS the Sanity.  Just not necessarily age-appropriate Sanity, although it would be perfectly age-appropriate in a close Relationship.  “Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed” and “Pain and Anger” were age-appropriate at the age when you were striving for Validation and learned that it was never to be forthcoming.  

It’s not the Emotions that are ever age-inappropriate, it’s their Expression.  When we regress to a Childhood circumstance, which you likely did, our Skillset regresses with us.  So we’re trying to deal with a Current-Moment situation with the Social Skills of a four-year-old or two-year-old, or sometimes even a preverbal child whose primary Social Skills are Awe and an obsession to hunt for Mirrors.  So of course we’re going to feel Silly, Infantile, and Embarrassed.  When we begin to Recover these Lost parts of our Self, we have to endure this for a while, as we give ourself the Space to Practice.  We come up to Current-Moment speed very quickly. however, once we can discern the difference between Present Moment and Regression.

The “brief” part of your Pain and Anger is important.  The faster we “correct,” edit, or Control our True Emotions, the deeper is our Unconscious Devotion to the Archetype (in this case, Vulnerability is Not Safe) rather than to the Self and Soul.  So all three of the “Pain and Anger,” the “Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed,” and the Judgment about “Lapse in Sanity” are doorways to whatever it is that you’re Masking from yourself.  You may already be well aware of it intellectually, but this is not an intellectual process, it’s a deep Emotional one.  To intellectually understand a chronic or acute Trauma is very useful for everyday Control, but it’s far different from the Re-Experience of the original Emotions which is necessary for Healing.

The Cultural idea that “Maturity” means having Control over your Emotions is part of the Patriarchical propaganda that we need to overcome.  “Maturity” certainly includes the ability to avoid Harm to Self and Other through Skillful Expression, but Emotions are the stock and trade of True Relationships, so Controlling them is a serious Self-Abandonment.  Exactly as the Patriarchy desires, because a Self-Abandoned Ego is easily Controlled from the outside.

Do note that the Re-Experience of the original Emotions need not be Re-Traumatizing, as has been shown by Gary Craig, David Feinstein, and Dawson Church in the case of Vietnam Veterans, and by the latter two in many international situations such as the Genocide in Bosnia.  Bessel van der Kolk’s amazing book, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma very readably covers his journey from rookie to Master of these regions.  He believes that buried Trauma is the greatest danger facing Huperity today.  And I would agree that it’s buried Trauma – aka Limiting Beliefs – that create and perpetrate the other greatest dangers that the Planet faces.

Your Reaction to the Pain and Anger was immediately suppression – that is the sort of information that Eris is revealing to us.  The Goddesses who fought one another over Eris’s Golden Apple never realized that Eris was revealing their Vanity, nor did the Gods who presided name it, and the rest of Greek history reflects that lack of Consciousness.  The ending to that story can be attributed to the idea that Greek Mythology is the chronicle of the Patriarchy overcoming the Matriarchy – the Golden Apples story demeans women as irretrievably Devoted to the Archetype of Vanity, and the “superiority” of male Devotion to the Archetype of Warriorship in its defense.  Substitute Vanity for Vulnerability and Warriorship for Maskmaking, and Eris’s story is the same as yours.

You’ve “forgiven yourself” for the Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed.  And you refer to your True Emotions as a “temporary lapse in Sanity.”  More information gifted from Eris.  We’re speculating, as I have no business butting into the Relationship between your Ego and your Soul, but here are some possibilities…

You may have a Limiting Belief that your Childish Joy (Silly, Infantile, Embarrassed) is not valid.  If so, that would be likely to be a strong inhibition on your Spontaneity and Creativity.

You may have a Limiting Belief that Pain and Anger are not suitable for polite company.  If so, that could seriously inhibit your ability to rapidly and effectively set good Boundaries.

You may have a Limiting Belief that your True Emotions are not “Sane.”  If so, that would be a tight collar on your Relationships and your Ability to share your ample Wisdom to Lead others.

You can explore these doorways if you wish, by first making sure you’re Safe, and then recalling as best you can, in turn, the moment when you felt Infantile, the moment when you judged your feelings as not Sane, and the moment when you felt the Pain and Anger.  I’d recommend approaching each in its own session (repeated as useful).  Set a firm Anchor before you start – for instance, some incontrovertible evidence of your current age, so you can return at will to the Present Moment if you begin to get lost in the Past.  Carkeys in hand is a possibility.  Your objective for all three sessions is Wonder

“I Wonder what if anything this has to do with Expanding my Consciousness to include the portions of my Soul that have been missing.”  Or – 

“I Wonder how this might translate into a Limiting Belief that sabotages my ability to Manifest my Heart’s Desire.”  Or even –

“I Wonder if I’m really Living my own Truth around these issues, and if not, how I might move Gently and Lovingly in that direction.”

Or something like these.  Your “sessions” could be as brief as that, if you then Changed the Subject and let your Intuition work on the question.  If Memories start to flow (the asteroid Mnemosyme – Memory – entered Aries a few days ago, and it won’t be far from the Eris-Uranus Initiation in early June), let them come, as long as you still feel Safe.  If you start to feel Unsafe, Revert to your Anchor, and resume later after you’ve Grounded yourself (Food often works).

Be Mindful of Conclusions; you want to Open windows, not close doors.  Remember that Confusion is good, as it indicates that the Consciousness-Expansion has begun.  You want small incremental Ahas, not big Decisions.  Suffix everything with “… or something like that.”  We have time yet, we don’t need to push ourselves, and this is very delicate territory, this Edge between Consciousness and the Unconscious.  

Besides Eris, the major planets dealing with this Edge include…

  • Juno, whose modus operandi was to turn threats to her Ego into Stone
  • Hylonome, who killed herself when confronted with alienation from her favorite Archetype
  • Vesta, symbolizing (for good or ill – we’d be long lost without Habits!) Unquestioned Archetypes

Compared to these, Eris is a Gentle and Loving partner in our urgent need to escape from Archetypes which encode the End of Civilization.  It’s also useful to remember that the Eris-Uranus Initiation is occurring in Aries – that which hasn’t happened before, that which we’re beginning to Create from Scratch (out of Spirit actually), that which we will have no hope of actually understanding for a long time – probably till Uranus gets to its Waxing Square with Eris.  “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia,” suggesting rich rewards for those willing to be Open to the inscrutable Winds of Spirit.

Your original question about “what I myself feel I need to let go of, that I’ve been clinging to”?  If I rephrase that as “where does Eris seem to be leading me next?” then I have no shortage of Stories, which I intend to tell.

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn V

March 27, 2016

Yet another reader writes (a hot topic, eh?)…

“A former ‘bestie’ who has (after my inner enlightenment) shown herself to actually be a ‘frienemy,’ posted a pic of her hand in a splint, held in the position of an ‘F-you’ finger, which seems synchronous enough on its own, but when I send a friendly note of commiseration, she replied, ‘There needs to be someone incapacitated at all times — your turn next!’ 
“It felt as close to a curse as I’ve experienced.

Definitely!  Sad that someone has an Unconscious Belief in Suffering, but not I suppose unusual.

“My husband, a lovely practical man who is able to shed others’ energies like a duck, laughed and asked why I even engaged her.  Good question.  I suppose I am still looking to heal something there. 
“But my larger query is about dealing with a situation stronger than ‘taunts’ — what appears to be active desire to wish ill on me.
“Seems very Ixion, no?  Wasn’t he the one who gave something poisoned to Hercules’ wife that she then unwittingly gave him and caused his death?”

That was Nessus, while he was dying after Hercules wounded him to revenge Nessus’s attempted rape of Hercules’ wife.  What tangled webs we weave, eh?

“My current strategy is to imagine a beautiful mesh dome of healing light and mirrors to bounce any negative energies back at the sender, but I’m left feeling so sad.  Why this waste?  But there are likely themes of envy and competition and narcissism that I avoided seeing, out of wanting to “see the best” in her.
“So I am working hard to keep remembering that ‘I Walk in Light.’ 
“My inner Innocent wants to focus on the Good in the World, but there is a rising Inner Warrior who is sharpening her blades — standing ready to cut all ties.  Or at least polishing my shield to reflect back Medusa’s image to her.
“Also interesting how subtle threads can be plucked to create a resonance or tone that others cannot hear, but feel clear to me.
“In any case, I responded with lightness and humor that ‘no thanks — my card’s already been punched, but I was sure she had a full card that could be redeemed for perhaps a free lightning healing!’

As Alan Watts said, “It’s harder to Let Go of our Good Karma, than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.  Bear in mind that the Greek Myths were stories of how the Patriarchs defeated Nature, allowing the Illusion that She can be controlled, which Illusion has been busy destroying the Planet ever since.  You can see Medusa acting through the Superstorms that have been plaguing the Planet since Global Warming started to become extreme – and the Patriarchy’s impotence in its Reactions.  The appropriate Response is to Empathize with Medusa.

Yes, by all means

“a beautiful mesh dome of healing light and mirrors to bounce any negative energies back at the sender,”

though it’s useful to remember that “negative” only has meaning with regard to the Receiver, as “positive” and “negative” only exist operationally.  That means that they aren’t absolutes, but relative to the purpose and context at hand.  Maybe you could instead think in terms of Energies that don’t Serve the Highest Good of All, or the like, rather than “negative” Energies.  That’s nit-picking, but it might be useful.

“But I’m left feeling so sad.  Why this waste?”  

Yes, that’s your Resistance to having to do the Work which you Believe others should be doing – and in a Healed World they would be.  But this World needs Healing, and we’re self-appointed.  This is why we above all need Persistence, because we were programmed to Resist healing the holes in our Auras.  That’s how the significant adults in our childhood controlled us.  So that Feeling of Sadness is your key to knowing you’re on the right track.  Shift your Attention from the Sadness in your Emotional Body to the Fullness you Feel in your Energy Body when you have your Mesh Dome of Mirrors in place.  Adjust your MirrorMesh till you Feel the Fullness.

Your Sadness needs a “You poor Sweetheart, you believe it’s Sad to have to Protect yourself, don’t you” and some hugs, as you fill your Energy Space with Light.  Attend to the Edge between Sad and Safe.  I think the two of you will prefer Safe.  Natally, you have a Finger of God (Pay Attention!) pointing at Nessus, with Ixion (Orphaned Genius), Lilith (Self-Sovereignty), and the North Node (Mission) closely involved.  Nessus represents Power-Over.  

So absolutely sharpen your Inner Warrior’s blades.  You are a highly tuned Sensor for Power-Over, but your Vertex (Intuition) Squares your Nessus.  Our Squares represent Mastery through Challenge, and we of course focus on the Challenge, since it’s always demanding our Attention.  Only by carefully comparing Who We Are to Who Others Are can we see the Mastery.  Power-Over is how the Patriarchy operates, how it’s destroying the Planet.  

It’s not necessarily your duty to blow the whistle on Power-Over publicly, but in settings where the clients were Open, you could be an effective business consultant helping organizations overcome Power-Over problems in their internal Relationship Dynamics.  There are actually businesses out there that are trying to figure out how to Survive AND adapt to greater principles than Exploitation and Quarterly Profits.

More Timely Wisdom

January 11, 2016

More timely wisdom from Elder Mountain…

As the Nodes (with Jupiter on the North Node) are backing into a Grand Cross with the dwarf planets Chaos and Ixion, and Neptune Opposes the dwarf planet Orcus, on 13 January, a few days hence.

A Grand Cross is formed when four planets are equally spaced around the Zodiac.  It’s like four T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge), except it’s Balanced, so it ends up being “just” Busy – lots of little Fires to put out, so we don’t have the luxury or the time to dwell on how imperfect it all Feels, like we do with a T-Square.  We’re so Busy multitasking that we get to Feel some degree of temporary Satisfaction from finding a series of adequate solutions that suffice for the short term.

The Nodes of course indicate what we’re doing here; the South Node where we came from, and the North Node where we’d like to go.  Of course All There Is Is Now, so the Nodes flip a lot…

Turns out we need to Let Go of the Held Emotions or Past-Life PTSD that our South Node represents, in order to Recover the Past Life Skills that are necessary to resolve the issues that stand between us and our destination, and realize our Mission for the Lifetime.

And as our CAO (Chief Asteroid Officer) points out, the asteroid Karma (the Inertia Created by Our Held Emotions) is approaching the dwarf planet Eris (Revelation of What’s Being Denied), crossing it on 18 January.  However, this is a Confidence-Builder crossing.  The Can-Opener occurred 8 October 2015, and the Exposition 30 December.

With Jupiter on the North Node, we’re hearing a Siren Song from our Mission…  

Our intuitive grasp of our “Real” Mission changes as we raise our Frequency to encompass more of the Universe.  Seeing as we do through a glass darkly, it really is a Siren Song that we’re hearing, tempting us to toss ourself into the morass of our Current Desires, rather than lose our current Ego in prayer that we may Embrace more of its True Meaning.

Which dilemma is also being lit up by an impending Initiation of Mars (Self-Assertion) by Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) that’s complete on 24 January.  

The dwarf planet Chaos represents Unlimited Potential – it’s the Zero Point Field or “Vacuum” that existed before Zeus and the Patriarchy “Created” “Order.”  In the Quantum World, “Reality” is indeterminate till it’s not.  (Or as they say, indeterminate till it’s Witnessed, but that’s incredibly anthropomorphic.)  Chaos is what you haven’t Manifested yet.

Ironically, the Greek version of Vesta was the Goddess of the Hearth, Hestia, and the ancient Greeks toasted Hestia before they toasted Zeus, and after they toasted Zeus.  They were smart enough to honor what really mattered while propping up the male Ego.  Vesta – Unconscious Belief – guards the Edges of Chaos, to keep too many Demons and Daemons and Diamonds from breaking through the Veil.  

This week’s Neptune-Orcas Opposition chart includes a Vesta Yod based on the Sextile between Mars-Juno and Orcas.

The dwarf planet Ixion represents our Pathological Genius.  Ixion was the male figure that ignored Zeus’s Rules of Order, and pursued his Desires without thought of Consequences.  Ixion is our feral unprogrammed Inner Child.  

Underneath our Programming we are all Mozarts and Einsteins and Jeannes d’Arc and Queen Victorias – we have an irrepressible Destiny that was not crushed by our Programming, only driven into the Unconscious.  Our Programming relegated our Genius to the realm of the Pathological – we were Punished and Shamed for it.  

No Blame here; this is how Consciousness grows.  As we Create Security we also Create boredom, so we seek the Light by venturing forth into the Wilderness.  Soon we’re Lost, and have to find our way back “Home.”  Then we rinse and repeat.  On the scale of a Lifetime, our Programmers are chosen to set up ways for us to get Lost that will cause us eventually to remember our Mission.  We are each puzzle pieces in a multibillion-piece puzzle, and like one of Gollum’s riddles, the puzzle will be “solved” when we all Embrace our Pathological Genii.

Putting all this together, we can expect that for most of January we’ll be rushing about putting out Karmic Fires.  If these take the form of rescuing anyone from their Pain, don’t waste the Mirror.  External hardcopy “Reality” is no different from our Dreams.  It all has something to do with what we’re bringing into Consciousness, though seldom in a straightforward manner.  

As I’ve done many times, I recommend Eugene Gendlin’s excellent book, Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams.  It’s a collection of clever techniques for coaxing Meaning from your Dreams non-intellectually, and can very productively be used to coax Meaning from your daily adventures in the “Real” Hologram as well.  As an example, he recommends avoiding polarity flip-flops – when you Decide that a Change is necessary, don’t jump from Black to White; instead, shift to a 90%-saturated grey.  Our Symbols are road signs, not airports.

There are directions in our Life that have Unlimited Potential, and Embracing – Witnessing – our Shame and Fear of Punishment, can Create major leaps in that direction.  “You poor Sweetheart, they really Shamed you for that, didn’t they.”  By noticing that we’re in Shame or Fear and Lovingly Witnessing it, we stop being Shame or Fear, and instead become Compassion.

So our January will include glimpses of the Unlimited – like a billion-dollar lottery.  Then we’ll recall our humdrum daily life and how seldom we’ve Created real Miracles, dismiss the Dream, and fade back into worrying about the mortgage.  Then our Desires will rise up, and we’ll Fantasize doing what will Really make us come Alive, till our Held Emotions make us realize how incredibly uncomfortable we’d be if we actually came close to indulging that Fantasy.  

This is January’s Grand Cross.  We’re there already, aren’t we.  Celebrate it!  Embrace each glimpse of the Unlimited.  PIAVA it!  Make it BIG.  If we all had to split that lottery, we’d still have more money than we’ve ever dreamed of having.  We could all win!  

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?  Actually, who are you not to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.

“There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.  We are all meant to shine, as children do.  We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”  (Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love, pp.190-191)

Notice when you return to worrying about the mortgage, or cancer, or whether Aunt Charlene was insulted, or anything else, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade, and Tap it out.  Tap on it till you’re Neutral about it.  

When your Forbidden Desire wells up, Celebrate the Excitement trapped in it.  A secret to Manifesting anything is to practice having the Feeling in your Body, that you’ll have when you Manifest it.  That’s what you really want!  You’ll get bored with a red Lamborghini, or scared by a trip around the World; you’ll never be bored or scared by Excitement.  Get Conscious of the Discomfort you’d feel if your Fantasy Materialized.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’d really Feel uncomfortable, wouldn’t you.  Do you want to talk about it?”  Ask yourself how old you are.

Neptune represents everything bigger than our Individual Soul – the Collective Culture, and its many Shadows.  When we try to look at Neptune through Material eyes, the result is Confusion – which of course is the first stage of Growth in Consciousness.  Shifting to Spiritual eyes, we find Clarity.  Unfinished Business, and all of our Emotional Baggage around it.

Orcus is the Punisher of Broken Oaths.  

Your Held Emotions are Held by vows never to put yourself into that position again.  As with Ixion, where you may have Amends to make over Unintended Consequences of Impulsive Actions, with Orcus you may have Yangtegrity Contracts that need to be Renegotiated.  If your counterparties are long since dead or otherwise gone from your Life, no worries.  If you can feel the Weight of the Contract, you can feel the counterparty, and you can Renegotiate with them exactly where they are in your “mind’s eye” or your bellyvision.

This Renegotiation might take the form of noticing the cable or garden hose that connects you with them in the Energy Realm.  It’s connected to your belly by a fishhook.  Gently twist it out with one hand, then use your other hand to seal the wound with Golden Light.  With grace, hand the hook and the cable back to your counterparty.  If they accept it with equal Grace, you’re Golden, though you don’t want to turn your back until they withdraw.  Make a note to scan your Body in a few days to make sure the cable hasn’t been replaced while you weren’t looking.  If so, rinse and repeat.

If they don’t accept it Gracefully, you may need to take more decisive Action.  Enlist the aid of a Carnivore, then reach out with your imaginary Bowie Knife, slice their end of the cable, and feed the cable to your helper.  An Alligator works great for this purpose.  Give your new friend the assignment to stand guard here, and eat any new attempts to re-cable you.  They may also plead for Mercy; don’t buy it, it’s a ploy.  You want your Energetic Contracts to be Equal-to-Equal.  In these realms, keep your spine straight and your shoulders lifted.  There can be no hindrance to your Energetic Self-Sovereignty.

If your counterparties are still Alive, use your wardrobe Mirrors – see  And remember to persevere.

So a Challenging Neptune-Orcus Angle would be about renegotiating our Social Contracts.

Our Social Contracts stretch a lot farther than we usually imagine.  For instance, if we’re chronically underfunded, we have a Social Contract to Give Away too much of what we need to Survive.  If our Relationships don’t Delight us, then we have a Social Contract of Mistrust or Unworthiness.  When we Renegotiate our Contracts, our counterparties may not be individuals, but Archetypes.  You may need to Renegotiate with Slavery, or Gender Inequality.

There’s an excellent reason why Primary Cultures personified their “Gods.”  If you personify an Archetype, you can Negotiate with it one-on-one.  You can shrink it from a Global Monolith to a Cocker Spaniel.  What if Gender Inequality was a Hamster, and Slavery was a Squirrel; you can personify them however you like, as long as your Vigilance prevents them from nesting in your petticoats.  Use your Mirror and Cable techniques till you stand Tall and Clear and Powerful Beyond Measure, and we can Enjoy the billion-dollar lottery payout together.

Eris Next

January 9, 2016

Next up: Eris, turning Direct.  Here’s one way to put it that’s a lot simpler than how I usually describe things…

I’d agree completely, if we can redefine being a nervous wreck to “Gaia’s frequency went UP what feels like a whole octave.”  Why not.  But considering the long list of astroevents in our last post, it may not be that easy.

Really we’ve been enduring the equivalent of a Mercury-Jupiter-Eris astroevent, as all three have been Strong/Stationary at the same time.  That would symbolize a Huge uncovering of the previously Mysterious.  Now Mercury and Jupiter have backed off (literally), leaving us alone with Eris and her Golden Apples until half past 8am PST on 9 January, so once Jupiter started moving again, Eris stands alone for a day and a half.  Then another half-day, and next the New Moon, at half-past 5pm PST.  

Since most of us aren’t tuned to Eris, and since Eris has already done it’s Retrograde dance and we’re heading into a Confidence-Builder stage, most of us are unlikely to discern its impact.  Unless like me you have Eris prominent in your natal chart.  

During the Vietnam War I sent folks Christmas cards featuring big US bombers with open bombay doors hatching chains of bombs, lest folks in the US forgot what their patriotism really meant.  

Eris likes to be helpful by pointing out what you might be in Denial about.  If you ever wondered why folks don’t seem to like you, you might want to check to see where Eris is in your natal horoscope.  

Till we learned to hide our Truth behind our Masks and focus on the weather, or found ways to express it as a benefit.  I suppose to some extent patriotic propaganda would be expressing apparently irrepressible and limitless Human aggression as a benefit.  Or I could look in the mirror and ask whether it’s me that’s Denying irrepressible aggression.  If I could believe some of my critics I could grant that; there’s even a hint of that in my natal chart.

Problem is, Denial is a healthy psychological process, designed to keep us from being overwhelmed by something Big and Heavy, till we’re ready to deal with it.  Unfortunately, a bigger problem is that this Big Heavy lurking in the Unconscious tends to take over our Lives, and we lose Healthy Control over a lot of other things.  The adage “You can’t take it with you” isn’t true.  Many or most of us suffer from past-Life PTSD, or we wouldn’t be walking around with such self-sabotaging Held Emotions.  Good psychobabble acronym for Karma, PLTSD.  There’s probably a billable medication for it.

I dreamed this morning that two brothers were pushing their sick and dying father into the back of a station wagon or hearse.  One brother, the one that looked like Tom Cruise, got angry and started shouting and pushing.  He pushed his brother down and in the process a gun somehow went off, firing a bullet into the station wagon.  As the Tom-Cruise brother backed away looking horrified but still shouting, the second brother was on the ground, entangled and trapped in some farm machinery.  You could hear the father’s death rattle.  I couldn’t tell what brother Tom was saying, but he may have been blaming the other brother.

Probably a remnant of a few sick, supposedly funny road-rage videos I’d watched the night before, or an old Greek tragedy lost in time.

Eris at the moment is waaay out there, almost three times further away than Pluto.  Sedna is so far out that it has its own class of dwarfs, the Sednoids, to distinguish them from the Plutoids.  Sedna has an orbital period of 11,000 years, compared to Eris’s 560 years.  Yet at the moment Eris is further out than Sedna!  The further away these dwarfs are, the slower they move.  Eris has moved less than a quarter of one Degree over the past year, moving forward 1:20 Degree but backing up 1:06.  So though it’s not likely to be triggering your natal hot spots, if it does it’ll be a doozy.

It’s backed up, since July, from 23:24 of Aries to 22:18, Squaring one of my natal planets in the process, which goes a long way toward explaining a dominant theme in my Life over the last couple of years.  It’s been dancing there since 2013, and won’t get off till 2018.  Including the Retrogrades, that’s eleven crossings – we have to consider it to be one Can-Opener, nine Expositions, and one Confidence-Builder.  Since I’ve been Unconscious of this since 2013, we may as well recast it as six Can-Openers.  Now that I’m becoming Conscious of it, we can “enjoy” (relatively) the next four dramas as Expositions.

No wonder I’ve Discerned it this month; the planet of mine that Eris has been Squaring, is itself Can-Opening my Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) next week.  After catching up on my homework (this is the first time I’ve looked at the new dwarf planets relative to my natal chart), I see that the dwarf planets are Gracing me with three Can-Openers this month, as well as an intermediate Exposition of another Undiscerned long-term astro-adventure.  And they all make enormous sense.  Here’s an example.

Last week, apparently while I was working in the garden, an important key went walkabout.  When I needed it and reached for it, it wasn’t in the pocket where it was supposed to be.  It seemed unlikely that it would have slipped out of a pocket on its own, but I retraced my steps several times anyway.  I was raking leaves and scooping molehills, so if it did fall out, it could be buried in any number of places.

Of course I PIAVAed.  But guess what, I was unable to Change the Subject.  It haunted me all night.  Tapping finally helped, and a dim memory surfaced of a time when I was probably pre-teen, and my mother entrusted $5 to me and sent me to the store for some groceries.  In today’s dollars that would be closer to $50, and in our grocery budget at the time it was a lot of money.  This was pre-supermarket days, and grocery stores were small and every mile or so in the neighborhoods; ours was only a few blocks away.  

When I got to the store the $5 was nowhere to be found, and neither was any recollection of where it could have absconded to.  When I got home I was so obviously upset about it that I didn’t even get punished.  Worse than losing the equivalent of a couple of dinners, was that I lost Consciousness of what I was supposed to keep track of.  Staying Conscious was very important to me at that age, and for good reasons.

By the next afternoon (in current, key-walkabout time) I had Tapped and Let Go enough to feel more relaxed and a little more Confident in my PIAVAs, so I set out to retrace my steps again, knowing that the objective probability of finding the key was vanishingly small.  Not twenty steps from the door I came across a Lily stem on the lawn that I remembered dropping the day before and not bothering to pick up.  Which reminded me that I had cut and pulled some spent Lily stems in a couple of beds near the house – I’d forgotten I’d done that.

So I went back to check those beds, and Lo, the key was right there, gleaming away brassily on the edge of the bed.  It evidently had fallen out of my pocket, and done so at a moment when no leaves or dirt would get raked over it – or walkedabout into that bed after adventuring in who knows which Dimensions or Dementias.  Even after finding the key, for a day or so I’d catch myself thinking, “Why am I feeling depressed?”  “Oh yeah, I don’t have to feel bad any more!  Yahoo!”

The New Moon is likely to extend these Energies into the rest of January.