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13.12 Full Moon I

December 9, 2016

Everything we’ve just said about Portal 14.12 applies as well to the 13 December Full Moon – which also occurs at 4pm PST.  Plus a lot more.  The Bottom Line is that the Full Moon is about the Unlimited Potential that awaits us when we Fully Embrace our Abandoned Genius – and the Pain we’ll have to Endure to get there!

The Moon Conjoins dwarf planet Chaos, while the Sun Conjoins Ixion, both T-Squared by Chiron.

The Pain, though, is optional.  We can circumvent it by Embracing ourself with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really feeling Despair (or Confused, or Lost, or Scared), aren’t you” or the equivalent.  

A Chiron T-Square is about Mastering – through Challenge – the art of Changing Perspectives.  This is one of the reasons we keep preaching about “Cognitive Dissonance” or the Ability to hold two “Contradictory” Perspectives at the same time, often shortened to Both/And.  The Observing mind is Dual, and so recognizes Contradiction.  Reality is Multifarious and Unitary (Both/And) and so contains a lot of apparent Contradictions.  Call them Paradoxes if you don’t grok Both/And yet.  

News flash – Observed Reality is bigger than Observing mind, not the other way around!

End of sermon.  At any rate, Chiron represents Unhealable Wounds, Unsolvable Problems, Hopeless Cases, Impossible Causes.  We recommend “You poor Sweetheart…” Self-Empathy because Empathy Heals, and being non-Dual, Empathy doesn’t really much care if something appears Unhealable to the intellect.  Despair is, after all, an intellectual Problem.  Also, “You poor Sweetheart…”, like other PIAVAs, is Effortless and, if we succeed in Changing the Subject, fast.  So fast we often don’t notice that it worked!

Einstein himself informed us that we can’t solve a Problem using the same thinking that postulated the Problem – ie, if you want to solve the Problem, or rather, make the Problem go away, we need to Change our Perspective.  “You poor Sweetheart…” is an automatic Change of Perspective, because we’re no longer Identified with Despair, we’re now standing apart from ourself and Empathizing back to ourself, now Identifying with Compassion instead of Despair.

While Despair is an intellectual – Yang – Problem, Compassion is a Yin Response.  Response, not Solution.  A Solution to an intellectual Problem would be an intellectual Solution – not a Change of Perspective.  Sure, there’s an Emotional or Yin side to Despair, but there’s nothing Unhealable about Emotion (Empathy works Miracles); it’s only the intellectual cage that Despair traps our Emotions into that’s a circular maze.

We know from using PIAVA that Yin Responses to Problems or other Unpleasantries don’t work unless we get the mind out of the way, especially with Despair, because by definition there’s No Exit from Despair, no way to think your way out of it.  So we have to Change the Subject, somehow take our Attention and our intellectual grinder away from the intractable Problem that’s so compulsively attractive to us, and find something else to occupy them.

That’s not always easy to do, especially since most of us have at least one Lifetime Unsolvable Problem.  So even if our Present Problem isn’t an exact Mirror for our Lifetime Hassle or Karma, we can’t help but borrow the format from our Lifetime Hassle, because we’re so “good” at the methodology of grinding.  Or non-methodology.  Einstein also supposedly said that Responding (or more appropriately, Reacting) the same way and expecting different results would be a good definition for insanity.

So the basic Problem becomes unhooking the mind from the Object of its Fixation and Frustration.  That’s actually something we can PIAVA, or even “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Fixated here, aren’t you.”  Alternate that with Tapping – “Even though I’m really Fixated here, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  Even a Chocolate bar is likely to Change the Subject, if you “You poor Sweetheart…” yourself first.

End of sermon, again.  Didn’t intend to get into all that, but it’s one of the most important things about the Full Moon, and we haven’t gone through it ad naseum recently, and really, can we say it too much?  What else about the Full Moon?

Oh yeah, there’s the part about the Embracing our Abandoned Genius without getting Lost in the Unlimitedness.  This is the Golden Rectangle we’ve been talking about for a while now, and the Moon sits right on one of its Oppositions, the one we’ve considered the more important one, because it’s the most Challenging – dwarf planet Chaos (the Zero Point Field) Opposite dwarf planet Ixion (Rejected or Pathological Genius).  

In fact, for many of us, the Chironean Despair we face is rooted in the fact that someone else is Acting Out a Bigger-Than-Life Mirror for Pathological Genius in plain sight, even while he makes an even better Mirror for the Bullying Parents or Teachers that originally forced us to Repress our own Pathological Genii.  Or more deeply, for the Tyrant that Repressed us in that other Lifetime where we were Powerless.  Oh yeah, that Lifetime.  Dass vergangen Leben.  Oh, there were many like that, Massa Sir?  Well, small Wonder we’re in Despair.

Double Mirrors.  Coyote is the ultimate Trickster; we shouldn’t expect otherwise when we’re prying Open Pandora’s Box, er, I mean, the Unconscious.

Speaking of Pandora, she just happens to be sitting on the Haumea corner of the Golden Rectangle.  What a Coincidence!

The other Opposition in the Golden Rectangle is Haumea-Pandora (Rebirth into the “Naughty” Feminine) Opposite Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Tolerating the Horrible Memories of all the times when we were forced to Suppress our True Self, in order to make our Yintegrity Permanent).

And by the way, the Sedna-Lilith Yin Gate (Becoming Aware of our Fear around our own Self-Sovereignty and PIAVAing to Heal It) is still well within our Sensitivity.

Which brings us to a need for a note about some of the players here, particularly Chaos, Pandora, and Lilith, not to mention Eris.  All four of these Lasses have been cast as questionable characters in the development of the Patriarchy.  

  • Dwarf planet Chaos is named for the Confusing Powerlessness that came before the Greek Gods straightened things up – that is, for the Matriarchy and Communion and Union with Nature.
  • Pandora was Blamed for unleashing all manner of difficulty and torture on the hapless males of the Greek world.
  • Lilith goes back even further as a miscreant for refusing to kneel to Adam’s self-proclaimed Superiority.
  • And Eris of course, She of the Golden Apple, was Blamed for all manner of difficulty, including the Trojan War, when she was only illuminating the Vanity of Ego and its Contrast to the True Beauty of Walking in our own Heart’s Truth.  And of course that Vanity of Ego was just another Greek slap in the face of Women.

So we aren’t going to get any support from the dominant Western Cultures for any of what we’re doing.  In fact, both internally and externally, we’ll be facing a lot of Guilt for wanting to Transgress any number of Oaths we have made to “Behave” and never do that again, not to mention the Twittered Projected Guilt from others over Oaths that they Believe we should have made, even if we didn’t. 

We’ll talk more about the role of Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) in the 13.12 Full Moon chart, and the 14.12 Pallas-Mars Initiation chart, in Full Moon II.

Support from Wise Women we know, yes, for sure, seek it out, wallow in it, Embrace it, Pay it Forward.  Wise Woman Susun Weed was where I first learned about Both/And, after all.

That Big River in Egypt

April 29, 2016

Many thanks to a reader for asking the provocative question…

“Any way you could share what you yourself feel you need to let go of that you’ve been clinging to so I can see whether I’m on the right track?” 

Eris is about Denial – namely, that which has been pushed into the Unconscious in order not to Overwhelm Consciousness or shatter the Ego.  So as Uranus approaches Eris it’s not about “what we feel we need to let go of that we’ve been clinging to,” it’s about what we will discover in the way of unknown Beliefs, or long-standing Limits that we’ve misinterpreted as Irritations or social norms, and which are likely to come into Focus as Self-Sabotage.  These aren’t just the Masks we put on to meet others, but the Masks we wear to Protect our Ego from the sometimes-brutal Honesty of the Self.

Denial is a healthy process, helping to keeping the Ego functioning in order to keep the Vehicle Safe.  However, the Revelation of Denial, when it’s Gentle and Loving, is also a very healthy process – to everything there is a Season.  The theory, true or otherwise, is that when we persistently ignore Gentle and Loving hints about what’s being ignored, and the Soul feels that Expanded Consciousness has become more important than the Safety provided by the Denial, the Unconscious will resort to more serious tactics than the Gentle and Loving,

Note that when anyone else accuses you of being “in Denial,” it’s always a Manipulation, an attempt to Intimidate and Control you.  They know nothing about the relationship between your Soul and Ego, and never will.  A gifted Psychic may have some information about that, but no Psychic worth listening to would ever accuse anyone of being “in Denial.”  I know Gurus who use a shock method for communicating, but in my experience they’re shocking you into listening to the Inner Voices that you already know of, but which you’ve been discounting for years.  Taking “the answer you’ve already rejected” is a Gentle way of moving in that direction.

Our reader continues…

Something came up yesterday where in retrospect I can see I felt a powerful need for attention or validation or appreciation or recognition, or something along those lines, from sources from which it’s just not going to come.  This theme is so ancient that it has become exhausting.  I felt sharp pain and anger for a brief moment, but recovered nicely, if not altogether tidily, and the moment passed pretty quickly, all things considered.  I’m left feeling a little…silly, infantile and embarrassed, though not really ashamed because I seem to have already forgiven myself for the temporary lapse in sanity.  Does that qualify?  And if so does it mean I need to provide those things for myself?”

There’s a strong correlation between our Masks and our unmet Childhood needs.  For instance, as a child many of us had “a powerful need for Attention or Validation or Appreciation or Recognition from a source from which it never came.”  So we put on a Mask that protected our Vulnerability to what we were inappropriately led to believe was a weakness.  We all need Attention or Validation or Appreciation or Recognition, and some sources are critical.  For instance, anyone who doesn’t expect that from a spouse or employer or friend is probably in an Abusive Relationship.  A Codependent Relationship is one where the Validation of the Other is more important to us than our own Values.

The part about “I’m left feeling a little…Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed, though not really Ashamed because I seem to have already forgiven myself for the temporary lapse in Sanity” needs to be reversed.  It was the feeling of  “Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed” (or Pain and Anger, as the case may be) that IS the Sanity.  Just not necessarily age-appropriate Sanity, although it would be perfectly age-appropriate in a close Relationship.  “Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed” and “Pain and Anger” were age-appropriate at the age when you were striving for Validation and learned that it was never to be forthcoming.  

It’s not the Emotions that are ever age-inappropriate, it’s their Expression.  When we regress to a Childhood circumstance, which you likely did, our Skillset regresses with us.  So we’re trying to deal with a Current-Moment situation with the Social Skills of a four-year-old or two-year-old, or sometimes even a preverbal child whose primary Social Skills are Awe and an obsession to hunt for Mirrors.  So of course we’re going to feel Silly, Infantile, and Embarrassed.  When we begin to Recover these Lost parts of our Self, we have to endure this for a while, as we give ourself the Space to Practice.  We come up to Current-Moment speed very quickly. however, once we can discern the difference between Present Moment and Regression.

The “brief” part of your Pain and Anger is important.  The faster we “correct,” edit, or Control our True Emotions, the deeper is our Unconscious Devotion to the Archetype (in this case, Vulnerability is Not Safe) rather than to the Self and Soul.  So all three of the “Pain and Anger,” the “Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed,” and the Judgment about “Lapse in Sanity” are doorways to whatever it is that you’re Masking from yourself.  You may already be well aware of it intellectually, but this is not an intellectual process, it’s a deep Emotional one.  To intellectually understand a chronic or acute Trauma is very useful for everyday Control, but it’s far different from the Re-Experience of the original Emotions which is necessary for Healing.

The Cultural idea that “Maturity” means having Control over your Emotions is part of the Patriarchical propaganda that we need to overcome.  “Maturity” certainly includes the ability to avoid Harm to Self and Other through Skillful Expression, but Emotions are the stock and trade of True Relationships, so Controlling them is a serious Self-Abandonment.  Exactly as the Patriarchy desires, because a Self-Abandoned Ego is easily Controlled from the outside.

Do note that the Re-Experience of the original Emotions need not be Re-Traumatizing, as has been shown by Gary Craig, David Feinstein, and Dawson Church in the case of Vietnam Veterans, and by the latter two in many international situations such as the Genocide in Bosnia.  Bessel van der Kolk’s amazing book, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma very readably covers his journey from rookie to Master of these regions.  He believes that buried Trauma is the greatest danger facing Huperity today.  And I would agree that it’s buried Trauma – aka Limiting Beliefs – that create and perpetrate the other greatest dangers that the Planet faces.

Your Reaction to the Pain and Anger was immediately suppression – that is the sort of information that Eris is revealing to us.  The Goddesses who fought one another over Eris’s Golden Apple never realized that Eris was revealing their Vanity, nor did the Gods who presided name it, and the rest of Greek history reflects that lack of Consciousness.  The ending to that story can be attributed to the idea that Greek Mythology is the chronicle of the Patriarchy overcoming the Matriarchy – the Golden Apples story demeans women as irretrievably Devoted to the Archetype of Vanity, and the “superiority” of male Devotion to the Archetype of Warriorship in its defense.  Substitute Vanity for Vulnerability and Warriorship for Maskmaking, and Eris’s story is the same as yours.

You’ve “forgiven yourself” for the Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed.  And you refer to your True Emotions as a “temporary lapse in Sanity.”  More information gifted from Eris.  We’re speculating, as I have no business butting into the Relationship between your Ego and your Soul, but here are some possibilities…

You may have a Limiting Belief that your Childish Joy (Silly, Infantile, Embarrassed) is not valid.  If so, that would be likely to be a strong inhibition on your Spontaneity and Creativity.

You may have a Limiting Belief that Pain and Anger are not suitable for polite company.  If so, that could seriously inhibit your ability to rapidly and effectively set good Boundaries.

You may have a Limiting Belief that your True Emotions are not “Sane.”  If so, that would be a tight collar on your Relationships and your Ability to share your ample Wisdom to Lead others.

You can explore these doorways if you wish, by first making sure you’re Safe, and then recalling as best you can, in turn, the moment when you felt Infantile, the moment when you judged your feelings as not Sane, and the moment when you felt the Pain and Anger.  I’d recommend approaching each in its own session (repeated as useful).  Set a firm Anchor before you start – for instance, some incontrovertible evidence of your current age, so you can return at will to the Present Moment if you begin to get lost in the Past.  Carkeys in hand is a possibility.  Your objective for all three sessions is Wonder

“I Wonder what if anything this has to do with Expanding my Consciousness to include the portions of my Soul that have been missing.”  Or – 

“I Wonder how this might translate into a Limiting Belief that sabotages my ability to Manifest my Heart’s Desire.”  Or even –

“I Wonder if I’m really Living my own Truth around these issues, and if not, how I might move Gently and Lovingly in that direction.”

Or something like these.  Your “sessions” could be as brief as that, if you then Changed the Subject and let your Intuition work on the question.  If Memories start to flow (the asteroid Mnemosyme – Memory – entered Aries a few days ago, and it won’t be far from the Eris-Uranus Initiation in early June), let them come, as long as you still feel Safe.  If you start to feel Unsafe, Revert to your Anchor, and resume later after you’ve Grounded yourself (Food often works).

Be Mindful of Conclusions; you want to Open windows, not close doors.  Remember that Confusion is good, as it indicates that the Consciousness-Expansion has begun.  You want small incremental Ahas, not big Decisions.  Suffix everything with “… or something like that.”  We have time yet, we don’t need to push ourselves, and this is very delicate territory, this Edge between Consciousness and the Unconscious.  

Besides Eris, the major planets dealing with this Edge include…

  • Juno, whose modus operandi was to turn threats to her Ego into Stone
  • Hylonome, who killed herself when confronted with alienation from her favorite Archetype
  • Vesta, symbolizing (for good or ill – we’d be long lost without Habits!) Unquestioned Archetypes

Compared to these, Eris is a Gentle and Loving partner in our urgent need to escape from Archetypes which encode the End of Civilization.  It’s also useful to remember that the Eris-Uranus Initiation is occurring in Aries – that which hasn’t happened before, that which we’re beginning to Create from Scratch (out of Spirit actually), that which we will have no hope of actually understanding for a long time – probably till Uranus gets to its Waxing Square with Eris.  “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia,” suggesting rich rewards for those willing to be Open to the inscrutable Winds of Spirit.

Your original question about “what I myself feel I need to let go of, that I’ve been clinging to”?  If I rephrase that as “where does Eris seem to be leading me next?” then I have no shortage of Stories, which I intend to tell.

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn V

March 27, 2016

Yet another reader writes (a hot topic, eh?)…

“A former ‘bestie’ who has (after my inner enlightenment) shown herself to actually be a ‘frienemy,’ posted a pic of her hand in a splint, held in the position of an ‘F-you’ finger, which seems synchronous enough on its own, but when I send a friendly note of commiseration, she replied, ‘There needs to be someone incapacitated at all times — your turn next!’ 
“It felt as close to a curse as I’ve experienced.

Definitely!  Sad that someone has an Unconscious Belief in Suffering, but not I suppose unusual.

“My husband, a lovely practical man who is able to shed others’ energies like a duck, laughed and asked why I even engaged her.  Good question.  I suppose I am still looking to heal something there. 
“But my larger query is about dealing with a situation stronger than ‘taunts’ — what appears to be active desire to wish ill on me.
“Seems very Ixion, no?  Wasn’t he the one who gave something poisoned to Hercules’ wife that she then unwittingly gave him and caused his death?”

That was Nessus, while he was dying after Hercules wounded him to revenge Nessus’s attempted rape of Hercules’ wife.  What tangled webs we weave, eh?

“My current strategy is to imagine a beautiful mesh dome of healing light and mirrors to bounce any negative energies back at the sender, but I’m left feeling so sad.  Why this waste?  But there are likely themes of envy and competition and narcissism that I avoided seeing, out of wanting to “see the best” in her.
“So I am working hard to keep remembering that ‘I Walk in Light.’ 
“My inner Innocent wants to focus on the Good in the World, but there is a rising Inner Warrior who is sharpening her blades — standing ready to cut all ties.  Or at least polishing my shield to reflect back Medusa’s image to her.
“Also interesting how subtle threads can be plucked to create a resonance or tone that others cannot hear, but feel clear to me.
“In any case, I responded with lightness and humor that ‘no thanks — my card’s already been punched, but I was sure she had a full card that could be redeemed for perhaps a free lightning healing!’

As Alan Watts said, “It’s harder to Let Go of our Good Karma, than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.  Bear in mind that the Greek Myths were stories of how the Patriarchs defeated Nature, allowing the Illusion that She can be controlled, which Illusion has been busy destroying the Planet ever since.  You can see Medusa acting through the Superstorms that have been plaguing the Planet since Global Warming started to become extreme – and the Patriarchy’s impotence in its Reactions.  The appropriate Response is to Empathize with Medusa.

Yes, by all means

“a beautiful mesh dome of healing light and mirrors to bounce any negative energies back at the sender,”

though it’s useful to remember that “negative” only has meaning with regard to the Receiver, as “positive” and “negative” only exist operationally.  That means that they aren’t absolutes, but relative to the purpose and context at hand.  Maybe you could instead think in terms of Energies that don’t Serve the Highest Good of All, or the like, rather than “negative” Energies.  That’s nit-picking, but it might be useful.

“But I’m left feeling so sad.  Why this waste?”  

Yes, that’s your Resistance to having to do the Work which you Believe others should be doing – and in a Healed World they would be.  But this World needs Healing, and we’re self-appointed.  This is why we above all need Persistence, because we were programmed to Resist healing the holes in our Auras.  That’s how the significant adults in our childhood controlled us.  So that Feeling of Sadness is your key to knowing you’re on the right track.  Shift your Attention from the Sadness in your Emotional Body to the Fullness you Feel in your Energy Body when you have your Mesh Dome of Mirrors in place.  Adjust your MirrorMesh till you Feel the Fullness.

Your Sadness needs a “You poor Sweetheart, you believe it’s Sad to have to Protect yourself, don’t you” and some hugs, as you fill your Energy Space with Light.  Attend to the Edge between Sad and Safe.  I think the two of you will prefer Safe.  Natally, you have a Finger of God (Pay Attention!) pointing at Nessus, with Ixion (Orphaned Genius), Lilith (Self-Sovereignty), and the North Node (Mission) closely involved.  Nessus represents Power-Over.  

So absolutely sharpen your Inner Warrior’s blades.  You are a highly tuned Sensor for Power-Over, but your Vertex (Intuition) Squares your Nessus.  Our Squares represent Mastery through Challenge, and we of course focus on the Challenge, since it’s always demanding our Attention.  Only by carefully comparing Who We Are to Who Others Are can we see the Mastery.  Power-Over is how the Patriarchy operates, how it’s destroying the Planet.  

It’s not necessarily your duty to blow the whistle on Power-Over publicly, but in settings where the clients were Open, you could be an effective business consultant helping organizations overcome Power-Over problems in their internal Relationship Dynamics.  There are actually businesses out there that are trying to figure out how to Survive AND adapt to greater principles than Exploitation and Quarterly Profits.

More Timely Wisdom

January 11, 2016

More timely wisdom from Elder Mountain…

https://eldermountain.wordpress.com/2016/01/11/chaos-magik/

As the Nodes (with Jupiter on the North Node) are backing into a Grand Cross with the dwarf planets Chaos and Ixion, and Neptune Opposes the dwarf planet Orcus, on 13 January, a few days hence.

A Grand Cross is formed when four planets are equally spaced around the Zodiac.  It’s like four T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge), except it’s Balanced, so it ends up being “just” Busy – lots of little Fires to put out, so we don’t have the luxury or the time to dwell on how imperfect it all Feels, like we do with a T-Square.  We’re so Busy multitasking that we get to Feel some degree of temporary Satisfaction from finding a series of adequate solutions that suffice for the short term.

The Nodes of course indicate what we’re doing here; the South Node where we came from, and the North Node where we’d like to go.  Of course All There Is Is Now, so the Nodes flip a lot…

Turns out we need to Let Go of the Held Emotions or Past-Life PTSD that our South Node represents, in order to Recover the Past Life Skills that are necessary to resolve the issues that stand between us and our destination, and realize our Mission for the Lifetime.

And as our CAO (Chief Asteroid Officer) points out, the asteroid Karma (the Inertia Created by Our Held Emotions) is approaching the dwarf planet Eris (Revelation of What’s Being Denied), crossing it on 18 January.  However, this is a Confidence-Builder crossing.  The Can-Opener occurred 8 October 2015, and the Exposition 30 December.

With Jupiter on the North Node, we’re hearing a Siren Song from our Mission…  

Our intuitive grasp of our “Real” Mission changes as we raise our Frequency to encompass more of the Universe.  Seeing as we do through a glass darkly, it really is a Siren Song that we’re hearing, tempting us to toss ourself into the morass of our Current Desires, rather than lose our current Ego in prayer that we may Embrace more of its True Meaning.

Which dilemma is also being lit up by an impending Initiation of Mars (Self-Assertion) by Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) that’s complete on 24 January.  

The dwarf planet Chaos represents Unlimited Potential – it’s the Zero Point Field or “Vacuum” that existed before Zeus and the Patriarchy “Created” “Order.”  In the Quantum World, “Reality” is indeterminate till it’s not.  (Or as they say, indeterminate till it’s Witnessed, but that’s incredibly anthropomorphic.)  Chaos is what you haven’t Manifested yet.

Ironically, the Greek version of Vesta was the Goddess of the Hearth, Hestia, and the ancient Greeks toasted Hestia before they toasted Zeus, and after they toasted Zeus.  They were smart enough to honor what really mattered while propping up the male Ego.  Vesta – Unconscious Belief – guards the Edges of Chaos, to keep too many Demons and Daemons and Diamonds from breaking through the Veil.  

This week’s Neptune-Orcas Opposition chart includes a Vesta Yod based on the Sextile between Mars-Juno and Orcas.

The dwarf planet Ixion represents our Pathological Genius.  Ixion was the male figure that ignored Zeus’s Rules of Order, and pursued his Desires without thought of Consequences.  Ixion is our feral unprogrammed Inner Child.  

Underneath our Programming we are all Mozarts and Einsteins and Jeannes d’Arc and Queen Victorias – we have an irrepressible Destiny that was not crushed by our Programming, only driven into the Unconscious.  Our Programming relegated our Genius to the realm of the Pathological – we were Punished and Shamed for it.  

No Blame here; this is how Consciousness grows.  As we Create Security we also Create boredom, so we seek the Light by venturing forth into the Wilderness.  Soon we’re Lost, and have to find our way back “Home.”  Then we rinse and repeat.  On the scale of a Lifetime, our Programmers are chosen to set up ways for us to get Lost that will cause us eventually to remember our Mission.  We are each puzzle pieces in a multibillion-piece puzzle, and like one of Gollum’s riddles, the puzzle will be “solved” when we all Embrace our Pathological Genii.

Putting all this together, we can expect that for most of January we’ll be rushing about putting out Karmic Fires.  If these take the form of rescuing anyone from their Pain, don’t waste the Mirror.  External hardcopy “Reality” is no different from our Dreams.  It all has something to do with what we’re bringing into Consciousness, though seldom in a straightforward manner.  

As I’ve done many times, I recommend Eugene Gendlin’s excellent book, Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams.  It’s a collection of clever techniques for coaxing Meaning from your Dreams non-intellectually, and can very productively be used to coax Meaning from your daily adventures in the “Real” Hologram as well.  As an example, he recommends avoiding polarity flip-flops – when you Decide that a Change is necessary, don’t jump from Black to White; instead, shift to a 90%-saturated grey.  Our Symbols are road signs, not airports.

There are directions in our Life that have Unlimited Potential, and Embracing – Witnessing – our Shame and Fear of Punishment, can Create major leaps in that direction.  “You poor Sweetheart, they really Shamed you for that, didn’t they.”  By noticing that we’re in Shame or Fear and Lovingly Witnessing it, we stop being Shame or Fear, and instead become Compassion.

So our January will include glimpses of the Unlimited – like a billion-dollar lottery.  Then we’ll recall our humdrum daily life and how seldom we’ve Created real Miracles, dismiss the Dream, and fade back into worrying about the mortgage.  Then our Desires will rise up, and we’ll Fantasize doing what will Really make us come Alive, till our Held Emotions make us realize how incredibly uncomfortable we’d be if we actually came close to indulging that Fantasy.  

This is January’s Grand Cross.  We’re there already, aren’t we.  Celebrate it!  Embrace each glimpse of the Unlimited.  PIAVA it!  Make it BIG.  If we all had to split that lottery, we’d still have more money than we’ve ever dreamed of having.  We could all win!  

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?  Actually, who are you not to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.

“There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.  We are all meant to shine, as children do.  We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”  (Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love, pp.190-191)

Notice when you return to worrying about the mortgage, or cancer, or whether Aunt Charlene was insulted, or anything else, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade, and Tap it out.  Tap on it till you’re Neutral about it.  

When your Forbidden Desire wells up, Celebrate the Excitement trapped in it.  A secret to Manifesting anything is to practice having the Feeling in your Body, that you’ll have when you Manifest it.  That’s what you really want!  You’ll get bored with a red Lamborghini, or scared by a trip around the World; you’ll never be bored or scared by Excitement.  Get Conscious of the Discomfort you’d feel if your Fantasy Materialized.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’d really Feel uncomfortable, wouldn’t you.  Do you want to talk about it?”  Ask yourself how old you are.

Neptune represents everything bigger than our Individual Soul – the Collective Culture, and its many Shadows.  When we try to look at Neptune through Material eyes, the result is Confusion – which of course is the first stage of Growth in Consciousness.  Shifting to Spiritual eyes, we find Clarity.  Unfinished Business, and all of our Emotional Baggage around it.

Orcus is the Punisher of Broken Oaths.  

Your Held Emotions are Held by vows never to put yourself into that position again.  As with Ixion, where you may have Amends to make over Unintended Consequences of Impulsive Actions, with Orcus you may have Yangtegrity Contracts that need to be Renegotiated.  If your counterparties are long since dead or otherwise gone from your Life, no worries.  If you can feel the Weight of the Contract, you can feel the counterparty, and you can Renegotiate with them exactly where they are in your “mind’s eye” or your bellyvision.

This Renegotiation might take the form of noticing the cable or garden hose that connects you with them in the Energy Realm.  It’s connected to your belly by a fishhook.  Gently twist it out with one hand, then use your other hand to seal the wound with Golden Light.  With grace, hand the hook and the cable back to your counterparty.  If they accept it with equal Grace, you’re Golden, though you don’t want to turn your back until they withdraw.  Make a note to scan your Body in a few days to make sure the cable hasn’t been replaced while you weren’t looking.  If so, rinse and repeat.

If they don’t accept it Gracefully, you may need to take more decisive Action.  Enlist the aid of a Carnivore, then reach out with your imaginary Bowie Knife, slice their end of the cable, and feed the cable to your helper.  An Alligator works great for this purpose.  Give your new friend the assignment to stand guard here, and eat any new attempts to re-cable you.  They may also plead for Mercy; don’t buy it, it’s a ploy.  You want your Energetic Contracts to be Equal-to-Equal.  In these realms, keep your spine straight and your shoulders lifted.  There can be no hindrance to your Energetic Self-Sovereignty.

If your counterparties are still Alive, use your wardrobe Mirrors – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/10/21/boundaries-forgiveness-mirrors/.  And remember to persevere.

So a Challenging Neptune-Orcus Angle would be about renegotiating our Social Contracts.

Our Social Contracts stretch a lot farther than we usually imagine.  For instance, if we’re chronically underfunded, we have a Social Contract to Give Away too much of what we need to Survive.  If our Relationships don’t Delight us, then we have a Social Contract of Mistrust or Unworthiness.  When we Renegotiate our Contracts, our counterparties may not be individuals, but Archetypes.  You may need to Renegotiate with Slavery, or Gender Inequality.

There’s an excellent reason why Primary Cultures personified their “Gods.”  If you personify an Archetype, you can Negotiate with it one-on-one.  You can shrink it from a Global Monolith to a Cocker Spaniel.  What if Gender Inequality was a Hamster, and Slavery was a Squirrel; you can personify them however you like, as long as your Vigilance prevents them from nesting in your petticoats.  Use your Mirror and Cable techniques till you stand Tall and Clear and Powerful Beyond Measure, and we can Enjoy the billion-dollar lottery payout together.

Eris Next

January 9, 2016

Next up: Eris, turning Direct.  Here’s one way to put it that’s a lot simpler than how I usually describe things…

https://lightlover1964.wordpress.com/2016/01/08/grid-energy-report-january-82016/

I’d agree completely, if we can redefine being a nervous wreck to “Gaia’s frequency went UP what feels like a whole octave.”  Why not.  But considering the long list of astroevents in our last post, it may not be that easy.

Really we’ve been enduring the equivalent of a Mercury-Jupiter-Eris astroevent, as all three have been Strong/Stationary at the same time.  That would symbolize a Huge uncovering of the previously Mysterious.  Now Mercury and Jupiter have backed off (literally), leaving us alone with Eris and her Golden Apples until half past 8am PST on 9 January, so once Jupiter started moving again, Eris stands alone for a day and a half.  Then another half-day, and next the New Moon, at half-past 5pm PST.  

Since most of us aren’t tuned to Eris, and since Eris has already done it’s Retrograde dance and we’re heading into a Confidence-Builder stage, most of us are unlikely to discern its impact.  Unless like me you have Eris prominent in your natal chart.  

During the Vietnam War I sent folks Christmas cards featuring big US bombers with open bombay doors hatching chains of bombs, lest folks in the US forgot what their patriotism really meant.  

Eris likes to be helpful by pointing out what you might be in Denial about.  If you ever wondered why folks don’t seem to like you, you might want to check to see where Eris is in your natal horoscope.  

Till we learned to hide our Truth behind our Masks and focus on the weather, or found ways to express it as a benefit.  I suppose to some extent patriotic propaganda would be expressing apparently irrepressible and limitless Human aggression as a benefit.  Or I could look in the mirror and ask whether it’s me that’s Denying irrepressible aggression.  If I could believe some of my critics I could grant that; there’s even a hint of that in my natal chart.

Problem is, Denial is a healthy psychological process, designed to keep us from being overwhelmed by something Big and Heavy, till we’re ready to deal with it.  Unfortunately, a bigger problem is that this Big Heavy lurking in the Unconscious tends to take over our Lives, and we lose Healthy Control over a lot of other things.  The adage “You can’t take it with you” isn’t true.  Many or most of us suffer from past-Life PTSD, or we wouldn’t be walking around with such self-sabotaging Held Emotions.  Good psychobabble acronym for Karma, PLTSD.  There’s probably a billable medication for it.

I dreamed this morning that two brothers were pushing their sick and dying father into the back of a station wagon or hearse.  One brother, the one that looked like Tom Cruise, got angry and started shouting and pushing.  He pushed his brother down and in the process a gun somehow went off, firing a bullet into the station wagon.  As the Tom-Cruise brother backed away looking horrified but still shouting, the second brother was on the ground, entangled and trapped in some farm machinery.  You could hear the father’s death rattle.  I couldn’t tell what brother Tom was saying, but he may have been blaming the other brother.

Probably a remnant of a few sick, supposedly funny road-rage videos I’d watched the night before, or an old Greek tragedy lost in time.

Eris at the moment is waaay out there, almost three times further away than Pluto.  Sedna is so far out that it has its own class of dwarfs, the Sednoids, to distinguish them from the Plutoids.  Sedna has an orbital period of 11,000 years, compared to Eris’s 560 years.  Yet at the moment Eris is further out than Sedna!  The further away these dwarfs are, the slower they move.  Eris has moved less than a quarter of one Degree over the past year, moving forward 1:20 Degree but backing up 1:06.  So though it’s not likely to be triggering your natal hot spots, if it does it’ll be a doozy.

It’s backed up, since July, from 23:24 of Aries to 22:18, Squaring one of my natal planets in the process, which goes a long way toward explaining a dominant theme in my Life over the last couple of years.  It’s been dancing there since 2013, and won’t get off till 2018.  Including the Retrogrades, that’s eleven crossings – we have to consider it to be one Can-Opener, nine Expositions, and one Confidence-Builder.  Since I’ve been Unconscious of this since 2013, we may as well recast it as six Can-Openers.  Now that I’m becoming Conscious of it, we can “enjoy” (relatively) the next four dramas as Expositions.

No wonder I’ve Discerned it this month; the planet of mine that Eris has been Squaring, is itself Can-Opening my Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) next week.  After catching up on my homework (this is the first time I’ve looked at the new dwarf planets relative to my natal chart), I see that the dwarf planets are Gracing me with three Can-Openers this month, as well as an intermediate Exposition of another Undiscerned long-term astro-adventure.  And they all make enormous sense.  Here’s an example.

Last week, apparently while I was working in the garden, an important key went walkabout.  When I needed it and reached for it, it wasn’t in the pocket where it was supposed to be.  It seemed unlikely that it would have slipped out of a pocket on its own, but I retraced my steps several times anyway.  I was raking leaves and scooping molehills, so if it did fall out, it could be buried in any number of places.

Of course I PIAVAed.  But guess what, I was unable to Change the Subject.  It haunted me all night.  Tapping finally helped, and a dim memory surfaced of a time when I was probably pre-teen, and my mother entrusted $5 to me and sent me to the store for some groceries.  In today’s dollars that would be closer to $50, and in our grocery budget at the time it was a lot of money.  This was pre-supermarket days, and grocery stores were small and every mile or so in the neighborhoods; ours was only a few blocks away.  

When I got to the store the $5 was nowhere to be found, and neither was any recollection of where it could have absconded to.  When I got home I was so obviously upset about it that I didn’t even get punished.  Worse than losing the equivalent of a couple of dinners, was that I lost Consciousness of what I was supposed to keep track of.  Staying Conscious was very important to me at that age, and for good reasons.

By the next afternoon (in current, key-walkabout time) I had Tapped and Let Go enough to feel more relaxed and a little more Confident in my PIAVAs, so I set out to retrace my steps again, knowing that the objective probability of finding the key was vanishingly small.  Not twenty steps from the door I came across a Lily stem on the lawn that I remembered dropping the day before and not bothering to pick up.  Which reminded me that I had cut and pulled some spent Lily stems in a couple of beds near the house – I’d forgotten I’d done that.

So I went back to check those beds, and Lo, the key was right there, gleaming away brassily on the edge of the bed.  It evidently had fallen out of my pocket, and done so at a moment when no leaves or dirt would get raked over it – or walkedabout into that bed after adventuring in who knows which Dimensions or Dementias.  Even after finding the key, for a day or so I’d catch myself thinking, “Why am I feeling depressed?”  “Oh yeah, I don’t have to feel bad any more!  Yahoo!”

The New Moon is likely to extend these Energies into the rest of January.

Gauntlet

December 13, 2015

They’ve spread out a little, but we still have a Stellium (a grouping of three or more planets) of dwarf planets wrapped around the Galactic Center.  Over the last ten days Mercury has been dancing with each of them in turn, and between now and December 25, the Sun will be dancing with them in turn…

  • Ixion – The Genius we reject, or the Transgressions we should feel guilty about but don’t
  • Pholus – Taking Full Responsibility
  • Quaoar – Information about what we need to do in order to Survive
  • Galactic Center – Headquarters
  • Hylonome – Ego Death, Soul Recovery
  • Chariklo – Walking in Beauty

They’re also being Squared by the Nodes, meaning that if we succeed in Lovingly Embracing Emotions we don’t like to deal with (which, unfortunately, could be trying to push into our Awareness),  then we’ll find out more about our Mission.  Jupiter’s also moving into a Square with them, which will Amplify them.  Whatever we’ve become intellectually Aware of over the last two weeks, we’ll be exploring more deeply over the next two weeks, with the Awareness moving out of our intellect and into our Belly.

Evolutionary Threads and the Seven Dwarfs

October 18, 2015

If you look back over the last several centuries, you notice a strong correlation between the “Discovery” of a planet (astronomers “Discover” planets in the same sense that Columbus “Discovered” “America” – what is “Discovered” irrupts into the Consciousness of the “Discovering” Culture), it’s implied symbology, and trends in the Zeitgeist.  For instance, Uranus is associated with Lightning and Electricity because Electricity came into the Consciousness of Western European Culture (through Lightning) around the same time that Uranus was “Discovered.”  Similarly, the “Discovery” of Pluto coincided with the arousal of Nucular Energy.

Most of the new dwarf planets – Plutoids and Centaurs – have been “Discovered” since 1990.  Pluto has recently been the subject of a drive-by photo-shooting, but little is known of any of the others, beyond sketchy telescopic observation.  So it’s unknown whether all of these will eventually meet the criteria to be official dwarf planets.  The Plutoids (Ixion, Quaoar, Eris, Chaos, Makemake, Haumea) hang out in the same region as Pluto, while the Centaurs (Pholus, Chariklo, Hylonome) hang out between Jupiter and Neptune.  Sedna, being waaay out there, is in a class of its own.

Without the benefit yet of historical or herstorical Perspective, we Intuit the symbology of the new dwarves from two sources; from their names, and from the astrological charts of their “Discovery” dates.  While extrapolating from the name seems like building a house of cards, the “coincidences” are remarkable.  The asteroid Schadow crossing Pholus and Ixion, unbeknownst, on the day when we were writing that Ixion was a good representation for the psychological Shadow, is a good example.  We can legitimately consider a planet’s “Discovery” chart to be a birth chart for the planet’s impact upon us.

One of the best ways to verify how any planet impacts us, personally and collectively, is to observe what’s going on, in our Lives and Cultures, when the Moon (for instance) crosses the planet.  We recommend the Moon because it loops around the whole Zodiac every four weeks, giving us ample opportunity for study, and because it’s Sensitive.  It very often triggers much larger processes.

The planets in your natal chart will also have a strong – or stronger – influence on how we experience the Moon as it crosses the new dwarfs.  For instance, the Moon crosses Sedna on 28 October, but if Hylonome happens to be sitting there in your birth chart, what you’re going to Experience is Moon-Sedna triggering your Hylonome, rather than Moon triggering Sedna.  You’ll have to wait till Sedna moves on, or rely on the Experience of others, to discern the influence of Sedna.  Of course, if you know your Hylonome from previous Experience, you can get an idea of how Sedna impacts you by comparing your previous Hylonome Experience to the internal (Feelings and Dreams) and external (Events) circumstances of Moon-Sedna over Hylonome.  In this case the influence of the Moon would be mostly that of a magnifying glass.

Thus introduced, let’s map out the next month’s dwarf crossings by the Moon.  For comparison, we’ll include all of the planets.  We’ll give a date, time, and Zodiacal location for the Moon’s crossing for each planet.  The impact should be greatest at and before the given time.  Consider the crossing to be active for about twelve hours, six hours on either side of the time given.  The impact is likely to be greater in the six hours prior to the time, and the maximum impact is likely to occur sometime near the time given.  Since their are other factors that we aren’t considering, the times are approximate.  The Zodiacal locations are included so you can map them onto your own birth chart if you want.  Remember to round up: eg, 21:13 of Sagittarius is considered the 22nd Degree, or 22 Sagittarius.

Since I and several others noticed that the Energy was unusual today, that’s where we’ll start.  To convert the times to your own time zone, you can use http://www.thetimezoneconverter.com/ or http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdtXX.htm and http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pstXX.htm, replacing XX with any number from 0 to 23; 0 for 12 am, 1 for 1am, 13 for 1pm, 23 for 11pm, etc…

  • 17 October:
    • 8pm PDT – Ixion (22 Sagittarius)
    • 10pm PDT – Pholus (24 Sagittarius)
    • With these two so close together, you may not be able to pick out separate impacts for Ixion and Pholus; you’re experiencing Ixion-Pholus together.  Ixion would be a little stronger before 8pm, and Pholus a little stronger 8-10pm.  The weirdness here had diminished by 8pm.
  • 18 October:
    • 5am PDT – Pallas and Quaoar (26-27 Sagittarius)
    • 9am PDT – Chariklo and Hylonome (29 Sagittarius)
    • Note that Pallas-Quaoar’s 12-hour span lasts till 11am, while Chariklo-Hylonome’s 12-hour window starts at 3am, so there’s overlap between 3 and 11am.  We could easily consider this to be one astroevent, peaking sometime between 5 and 9am.  Since the impact of an astroevent is usually more prominent in the six hours prior to the event than in the six hours following the event, we could also expect to tune into Pallas-Quaoar more during 3-5am, and Chariklo-Hylonome more during 7-9am.
  • 19 October: noon PDT – Pluto (19 Capricorn)
  • 20 October: 4pm PDT – Ceres (29 Capricorn)
  • 23 October (note overlap):
    • 2am PDT – 2007 OR10 (3 Pisces); this one, as yet unnamed, is new to me as well as you
    • 10am PDT – Neptune (8 Pisces)
  • 24 October:
    • 3am PDT – Chiron (18 Pisces)
    • 11pm PDT – South Node-Vesta (30 Pisces-1 Aries)  
  • 26 October (note overlap):
    • 4am PDT – Uranus (18 Aries)  
    • noon PDT – Eris (23 Aries) 
  • 28 October: 4pm PDT – Sedna (26 Taurus)   
  • 30 October: 10am PDT – Chaos (21 Gemini)
  • Note that we’re using Pacific Standard Time after November 1
  • 6 November: 6am PST – Jupiter (18 Virgo)
  • 7 November (note overlap): 
    • 1am PST – Mars (27 Virgo)
    • 5am PST – Venus-North Node (29 Virgo)
    • noon PST – Makemake (3 Libra)
  • 8 November: 1am PST – Lilith (9 Libra)
  • 8-9 November (note overlap):
    • 11pm PST – Juno (20 Libra)
    • 6am PST – Haumea (23 Libra)
  • 11 November (note overlap):
    • 1am PST – Mercury (15 Scorpio)
    • 9am PST – New Moon (20 Scorpio)
  • 12 November: 5pm PST – Saturn (6 Sagittarius)
  • 14 November:
    • 2am PST – Ixion (23 Sagittarius)
    • 5am PST – Pholus (24 Sagittarius)
    • 11am PST – Quaoar (27 Sagittarius)
    • 5pm PST – Hylonome-Chariklo (30 Sagittarius-1 Capricorn)

Keep this calendar handy for the next month, and when you notice anything unusual – strange Dreams, unique Feelings, Events out of place or time, check the calendar to see if anything rings any bells.  You can also flag the days in pink, and be mindful to watch for the unusual.  These are the Evolutionary Threads that will govern the 21st Century (along with the major elements of the 1/1/2000 chart, which we’ll re-examine soon).  

Consciousness does not Expand through Discovery, it Expands through Differentiation – we Discern that the Forest we saw earlier is actually made up of unique individual Trees, or that the Trees we’ve been looking at are actually part of a Forest.  Or that Foreigners are actually Hupers, or that the only folks who gain from War are the owners of the manufacturers that make the killing machines.

Native American New Moon II

October 12, 2015

Earlier…  “The other Significant Configuration in the New Moon chart is about being Reborn into the Unimaginable through taking small steps toward Embracing our Orphaned Forbidden Genius.”

“A Golden Rectangle between dwarf planets Eris, Chaos, Haumea, and Ixion, with Centaur Pholus Conjunct Ixion, the New Moon Conjunct Haumea, and Uranus Conjunct Eris.”

The New Moon Conjoins dwarf planet Haumea.  Haumea was Pele’s daughter, and a Fertility Goddess.  We usually interpret her namesake dwarf planet as Rebirth.  

Next June, Uranus Conjoins dwarf planet Eris.  Eris was the young lady who threw a Golden Apple inscribed “for the fairest one” into a banquet full of Greek Goddesses.  The resulting melee, as the Goddesses argued over the rightful owner of the Apple, eventually resulted in the Trojan War (after codependent and corrupt intervention by the Gods).  So we interpret Eris as the Revelation of what has been Denied (in this case Vanity and Competition), or as New Information.  Keep in mind that Denial is a healthy process, allowing us to postpone dealing with issues that would Overwhelm us, till we’re ready to deal with them.  

We usually put this kind of talk in doubly-indented italics, reserved for folks who want to learn astrology.  But we all need to get in touch with these new players in the Unconscious Realms, as it’s where our Evolution lies.  So let’s review…

  • dwarf planet Haumea – Rebirth
  • dwarf planet Eris – Revelation of what’s been Denied

A New Moon itself represents a small Rebirth; add Haumea and we’re due for a Big Rebirth.  Probably aided and abetted by New Information that was hidden under a rock before.  Uranus symbolizes the Individual Soul; its rendezvous with Eris means we’re due for some shocking information about who we are.  After our Rebirth we probably won’t recognize ourselves.

Haumea-New Moon and Uranus-Eris Oppose one another.  Oppositions are about resolving Dualities.  The Second Harmonic is symbolized by the Priestess; the Priestess defends a Tradition, so an Opposition involves confronting the Rules.  Maybe we understand the Ritual correctly, but the Zeitgeist has moved on and the Ritual needs revision.  Maybe we’ve been getting the Ritual wrong.  That would explain why that Frog keeps singing at our back porch.

So there’s something coming up, something irrupting from the Unconscious most likely, that’ll shock us into realizing that the “Rules” we’ve been Living by don’t really do the job we’ve been Expecting them to.  Sometime in the next few weeks, perhaps, since the Energy in a New Moon often evolves over the following 17-18 days.  Most likely we’ll discover that we didn’t know we were following “Rules” – we just thought that was how the World worked.

The other Opposition in the Golden Rectangle is between dwarf planets Chaos and Ixion, with Centaur Pholus Conjunct Ixion.

More review…

  • dwarf planet Chaos – not Disorder, but Unlimited Potential, the Zero Point Field
  • dwarf planet Ixion – now there’s a complicated fellow worthy of more discussion…

Ixion was a psychopath, someone who just followed his own Lust without regard for anyone else.  I don’t know about your country, but my country is ruled by psychopaths, the 1% and 0.1% who care only about themselves.  If we’re going to evolve into something beside self-appointed royalty and a return to feudalism, we have to get Conscious of the way we worship psychopaths, admiring their wealth and falling head over heels in love with their propaganda about how if we work hard enough and greedily enough, we too can be psychopathically wealthy.

But it’s not that simple.  We were each of us born with unusual Talents.  You know people who worked hard to develop their unusual Talents.  And you know people who hide their unusual Talents under a bushel, probably because in their youth they were Shamed or Intimidated into having to hide their True Self.  There are parts of yourself that you regard as unhealthy, or unacceptable in polite company, or psychopathic.  Those parts are probably your unusual Talents, warped by Shame or Intimidation.  These parts are due to be exposed.  Before they are, in order to avoid reliving Shame and Intimidation in public, we should get in touch with them, lovingly and gently, and find out what they look like when they’re seen as unusual Talents rather than psychopathic faults.

  • The dwarf planet Pholus (who was a Centaur in Greek mythistory) represents Taking Responsibility

Pholus was a pretty Responsible fellow, but as a result of a crime committed by a friend that made Pholus look irresponsible, he ended up getting dead.  So we think of Pholus as demanding that we Take Full Responsibility – for our unusual Talents that we may see as psychopathic faults.  A few folks may actually be exposed as perpetrators of unforgivable behavior – we all have a short list of names of public figures we’d like to see fall into that category.  But for more folks it’s likely to be about behaviors for which they were Shamed or Intimidated, behaviors which are not abnormal or pathological, but supernormal.  Your Inner Banksy who was punished long ago for drawing on the wall, for instance, and who hasn’t drawn since.  Remember that Responsibility means being able to Respond – relatively Consciously – rather than Reacting inappropriately.

Again we have some aspect of “Rules” involved; it could just be that exposing your unusual Talents is against the Rules you Live by.  The bottom line here is that once you Take Full Responsibility to make Amends for what you feel Guilty about, and Take Full Responsibility to begin nurturing your Forbidden Talents, your Future becomes Unlimited.

The Golden Rectangle means that the two Oppositions complement one another perfectly…

We could even draw a Get Out of iDeath card when we land on the Ego Death square that usually precedes the Rebirth square.  There’s some sort of Grace around…

  • What irrupts from the Unconscious,
  • What we’re asked to Take Full Responsibility for,
  • What we’ve been hiding under a bushel,
  • Our Rebirth, and
  • Our Unlimited Potential.  

They’ll combine in unexpectedly positive ways.  It’ll look differently for each of us, so we can’t really get more specific.  Maybe we can make up an example, though.

Suppose you were Shamed or Intimidated for knowing that the “party line” was wrong.  Some redneck junior-high teacher tried to Shame me once for reading a paperback in study hall, for instance.  Fortunately I didn’t fall for it, since the book was about the history of the Universe.  But last month I was Shamed for practicing Permaculture in my Garden, because it didn’t look like the monoculture that the Powers That Be thought a Garden should look like.  I did fall for that, because it triggered the Powerlessness I felt in my family of origin.  Not having been in contact with that for many years, this might qualify for an irruption of what’s been Denied.  Let’s see if I can Manifest an Unlimited Future by Levitating over that razor-wire fence.  Taking Full Responsibility could just look like doing that Levitation, or otherwise seeking Healing.

August-September VII

August 26, 2015

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After dwarf planet Sedna turned Retrograde today, it took three and a half hours for Wall Street to realize that the Fear had subsided and they could buy again.  Sedna’s a newcomer, so nobody knows a lot about it, but I interpret it as Actions taken out of Fear, and that’s certainly what Wall Street’s been doing for the last several days.  When a planet is slowing to a stop, in this case turning Retrograde (backward in the sky), we feel the planet’s effect very strongly while it’s slowing down.  Then once it stops and starts moving again in the opposite direction, the impact usually diminishes quickly.

The exception is when we personalize the Energy, and make Decisions based on it.  For instance, if we attributed the Fear around Sedna’s Station to economics, we might make a Decision to get out while we can.  Then we’ll be selling into any Recovery the market makes.  In that case, the impact of Sedna’s Station could linger long after the event.  It remains to be seen whether this is the first body blow of the Monster Depression that the bears have been predicting for years.  Economists are well know for predicting twenty of the last twelve Recessions.  But as corrections go it’s pretty routine – sure, it was 1,000 points, but that’s only six percent, and a correction of that size is long overdue.

Which doesn’t diminish the fact that we’re in uncharted territory, where derivatives (which are gambles about bets on wagers) could turn a 1,000-point decline into 10,000 points overnight if the wrong bull was gored.  And that yes, a Monster Depression is likely sometime between now and 2020, which is why we’ve been advising alternative approaches to Survival for many years as part of our Perspective on the Chiron-Neptune Cycle – growing your own food, exploring small-scale entrepreneurship with things like the Maker Movement, finding our Tribe, working toward Sustainability in any way we can.

Chiron is the poster child for a group of dwarf planets that we want to talk about today, the “Centaurs,” so named because they appear to be half asteroid and half comet, like the Centaurs of Greek fame that were half horse and half Huper.  The astro-Centaurs orbit between Saturn, Uranus and Neptune – that is, between the Will, the Individual Unconscious, and the Cultural Unconscious, or between the Ego, the Individual Soul, and the Group Soul.  As such they deal with Emotions that are on the Edges of our Consciousness.  For instance…

  • Chiron deals with Discouragement/Despair over the Shortcomings of our Limiting Beliefs, which we perceive as Limitations of Reality; once we Lovingly Witness our Despair we Expand our Consciousness and are visited by Perspectives beyond our previous Limiting Beliefs
  • Chariklo deals with the Expectation of Privilege, from the Female side (Nessus from the Male side); like Self-Love, the Expectation of Privilege tends to be Mirrored by external Reality
  • Hylonome deals with our Identity – Ego-Identification or Merging with people or things outside ourself, and in particular the Ego Death which we experience as Grief when our external Mirror-Image is broken
  • Pholus deals with the Expectations of Others, and how well we meet them; it’s about Taking Full Responsibility for what’s important to us and important to those with whom we have tacit or explicit contracts

The Centaurs represent Challenges, Challenges that we meet by Expanding our Consciousness to include Awareness of these Emotional issues which often blind-side us till we Learn to include them in our Emotional repertoire.  One of the characteristics of Centaurs is that their orbits are unstable; they could get a wild hair and fly out of here in any given millenium.

The other group of dwarf planets that we want to talk about today are “Plutoids” – asteroids that orbit in the neighborhood of Pluto.  There’s a big shift between Neptune and Pluto.  Neptune is the last of the four “Gas Giants” – huge planets that are mostly Gas, too small but otherwise Star-like – along with Uranus, Saturn, and Jupiter.  Beyond Neptune we find only small iceballs like Pluto.  Because it’s so large, Neptune’s gravity exerts a big impact on the orbits of many Plutoids.

Pluto is generally associated with the “Universal” Unconscious, or the Zeitgeist, the flow of Time.  As such, it’s about Transformation – or Trance Reformation, as the Zeitgeist evolves or devolves – and about the things we pretty much must do or not do, if we don’t want to end up on a siding in the flow of Time.  While the Centaurs work on the Edges of Consciousness, the Plutoids work, for most people, beyond the Edges of Consciousness.  So we don’t normally see the Plutoids as within our Span of Control.  Of course it’s As-Without-So-Within and We-Are-All-One (including all the Entities that we don’t routinely personify), so the Edges of our Span of Control are really only the Edges of our Consciousness.

Some of the Plutoids include…

  • Quaoar – the Law-Giver, not for the sake of Order, but for the sake of Survival; Quaoar defines the Edges of Survivability
  • Ixion – Impulse, the Desire Body, that operates without concern for Other
  • Chaos – Unlimited Potential
  • Haumea – Rebirth
  • Eris – the principle of Denial and the Changes required by its Revelation
  • Makemake – Manifestation
  • SednaActions taken out of Fear

Sedna is an outlier here; Pluto and all of the others orbit between 30 and 100 times as far from the Sun as is Earth, while Sedna’s orbit ranges between 76 and 936 times as far from the Sun as we are.  For reference, Jupiter is at about five times, Saturn 10, Uranus 20, and Neptune 30 times.

All of which is background for early September, because between 4 September and 9 September, Ixion, Chariklo, Pholus, Hylonome, and Quaoar are all Stationary – and all more or less in the same place.  Astrologers call it a “Stellium” when three or more planets convene in the same Zodiacal place, but here we have a Stellium of five, all Stationary at the same time.  During a Station, as we said at the beginning, the impact of a planet is greatly exaggerated.  And during a Stellium, the Energies of the Conjoined planets are combined, which creates Energies we aren’t used to.

For instance, we’re well acquainted with the Energy of Assertion, Mars, and the Energy of Receptivity, Venus.  But now that they’re Conjoined (as they are on 31 August, with the Energy felt most strongly for the several days prior), do we know what to do with Assertive Receptivity or Receptive Assertiveness?  “Go screw yourself” is a common insult, but we don’t usually mean it literally.  If you “accused” most people of Androgyny, they’re likely to give you a similar insult.  Yet achieving Androgyny, where our Receptivity and our Assertiveness are Balanced, is a Mission of the Soul.   Would you recognize it if you saw it?  And if so, would you admire it?  Can you imagine how it might Feel to be Androgynous?  And this is only two planets.

In our 4-9 September Stellium we’re dealing with five dwarf planets being Strong at the same time, all of which have impacts much more subtle than Assertiveness and Receptivity.  And by the way, Venus is also Stationary during this period, and while it’s not in the same place, it’s in a Harmonic location to the Stellium. 

Venus is Trioctile to the Stellium, indicating that the Stellium of Stations will be inspiring us to evolve our Values.

In addition, the Stellium is Stationary very close to the Galactic Center.  This means that as these subtle Unconscious Energies combine they will be Channeling a message – Instructions – to the Unconscious from the Galactic Command Post.  So we can Expect to see a shift – a Major Shift, whether too subtle to Notice or not – in the Consciousness of the Planet.  What sort of Shift?  While since it’s Unconscious it’s not for us to know in any detail, yet if we can get an idea of what to look for, we can in a general way Witness it and Grow our Consciousness.

There are many other related Planets in the early-September chart; we’ll discuss their role as we go on.  But for now, let’s focus on trying to imagine how the Energies of the five dwarf planets in the Stellium might combine.

While the Stellium combines all five planets, two are close together but separated by a few Degrees from the other three, which are also close together.  So we can start by looking at the Pair and the Triad, then trying to tie them together.

The Pair is Pholus and Ixion.  We’ve talked about these two before, as they’ve been traveling together for a while.  Ixion is Uncontrolled Desire, Pholus Full Responsibility for the consequences of our commissions and omissions.  So this combination seems to be about Taking Full Responsibility for our Deepest Desires.  Our religious training would suggest that we interpret that as Taking Full Responsibility for controlling our Deepest Desires. 

But since the astrology we practice is about Healing and Integrating, we interpret it as Taking Full Responsibility for allowing and welcoming our Deepest Desires.  To the extent that they’ve been repressed (which we can assume – if you already Love your Deepest Desires, this is an opportunity for you to go Deeper), there will likely be some personal and social discomfort involved at first, as we experiment with how to let them out of their cages.

The Triad is composed of Quaoar, Chariklo, and Hylonome, and this Triad sits astride the Galactic Center, so forms the core of our Instructions. 

Chariklo symbolizes Beauty and Grace, and Humans are wont to give deference to Beauty and Grace – hence Chariklo has the flavor of unearned Privilege.  Of course Beauty and Grace can be Learned and so may carry a price and Feel earned.  Yet to Grow our Consciousness we may be Asked to Notice that we give deference to Beauty and Grace in situations where it may not be in our own best interests.  He turns the notions of Beauty and Grace upside down (but so what – astrology is about dimensions, not directions on the dimension), but we can’t help but wonder if The Donald (Trump, that is) isn’t personifying this Energy.  If that hunch is true, then we should expect to be hearing a lot less about him by mid-September. 

Hylonome was a female Centaur who immediately committed suicide with the lance that killed her lover.  So we have the concepts of Unbearable Grief, but even more important, the concept of Identification with Other to the point that the Self is virtually non-existent.  The implication is that we all have elements of our Identity that are Other-based.  Just as Fundamentalism is the process of Believing that your metaphors are literally true, Codependence is the process of Believing that your Mirrors are You.  We often admire what we don’t have permission to Be in ourself.  So while Grieving the Loss of our Identity is an Ego Death with all of the Soul-searing pain that involves, it’s actually a Soul Retrieval, as we are forced to give up Codependence and substitute a previously orphaned portion of our True Self.  Let’s hope this doesn’t involve the demise of a beloved World Hero or Heroine, if we have any left.

As with other processes of Growth in Consciousness and Spiritual Growth, we’re Asked to Focus on the Unknown Future rather than the Known Past.  In that task, Perpetual Curiosity is our greatest friend, as long as we can maintain it and not surrender to our craving and addiction to trying to Understand.  The World is a Mystery; when we Believe we Understand, we murder the World.  Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, but if we quash it with illusions of Understanding, we stop our Growth cold.

So we’re being Ordered (Quaoar) by Central Command (the Galactic Center) to Grieve the Loss (Hylonome) of Unearned Privilege (Chariklo), or better yet, to accept the Loss as a Return to Self, or the invocation of a Vision Quest to Retrieve a portion of the True Self through Honest Curiosity about an unknowable Future.  But wait – we’re also being Asked to either Take Full Responsibility (Pholus) for the parts of ourself which we previously rejected as unfit for polite company, or Take Full Responsibility for the parts of ourself that our friends and associates would love to be able to reject as unfit for polite company (Ixion).  Not Blame, which looks backwards to attempt to Understand a Cause (ie, murder), but Responsibility, which looks forward to attempt to improve an Outcome.

To me this suggests a further loosening of the yoke of Hierarchy and Inequality.  As Power Over corrupts, Taking Full Responsibility for Power means shifting to Power With.  If you haven’t read Starhawk’s Truth or Dare yet, this would be an excellent time to do it, as in it she Teaches us the difference between Power Over and Power With, all in the context of an Inferior Conjunction of Venus (the Descent of Inanna), which we’ve just experienced.

This is all happening in Sagittarius, the Sign of Letting Go.  So while Noticing what’s going on is appropriate as part of Growing our Consciousness, Giving Up Control is also appropriate as part of Sagittarius.  We can do Both/And, and it behooves us to do so. 

We’ll look at the rest of the early-September chart when we continue…

Who Are We? Part Two

August 11, 2015

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Great gratitude to our asteroid-hawk reader Elizabeth, who has pointed out several things we didn’t notice yesterday.  For example…

  • If we have a Uranus Grand Quintile, we also have an Eris Grand Quintile, since the two are inching toward Conjunction
  • The Eris Grand Quintile will endure till around 23 August
  • Asteroid Karma crosses Eris  on 13 August
  • Vesta is Stationary today, 11 August – highly relevant because our Beliefs will be Changing as our Identity Changes
  • Pallas was Stationary on 2 August – relevant because Who Are We? Part One  ( https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/08/09/who-are-we-2/ ) emphasized Boundaries
  • The Moon crosses Juno on 16 August
  • Mercury crosses Juno on 19 August
  • Also on 19 August, the Moon Opposes Uranus, Eris, and a.Karma
  • The Moon crosses Saturn on 22 August

In other words, the plot thickens, a great deal.

Pluto represents, more or less, that which we can’t avoid.  We can manipulate it, but not avoid it.  I think of Pluto as a large River (the River of Time, literally); trying to paddle upstream is futile, but if we’re willing to be carried by the current, we can steer toward one bank or another, and if we Pay Attention we can “hear” rapids and waterfalls approaching, and portage around them.

Uranus represents, more or less, the Voice of our Personal Soul.  Uranus has a reputation for Disruption, because it Disrupts that which is no longer in alignment with our Soul’s Intentions for us in the Lifetime.  Uranus can be avoided, but at our peril, as the Voice gets louder and louder when we ignore it, till we have to stop business as usual, back up, and clean up the mess we’ve made by ignoring our Soul’s Voice.  Better to Listen Up.

Pluto Initiated Uranus – which means that the River of Time gave our Soul’s Voice an assignment – in the 1960s.  Think of it like the Initiate (Uranus) receiving Shaktipat from the Guru (Pluto).  Thus began a new 140-year Cycle.  Uranus-Pluto Cycles are about synchronizing the Individual with the Zeitgeist.  This particular Uranus-Pluto Cycle is about Learning to Trust our Intuition more strongly than we Trust Authority.

The Sabian Symbol for the Initiation was “A Ouija board.”

The Energy of a Cycle is prominent at the Initiation – witness the struggles in the 1960s between the youth and the Powers That Be, over the Vietnam War, over Privateering (the folks who get rich from War), over Racism, over Poverty, over Sexism, over Inequality in general.  The Energy then goes “underground,” where it slowly grows, though mostly out of sight.  Till the Cycle is one fourth of the way through – then the Energy of the Cycle emerges and become prominent again, this time “for good” (for the duration of the Cycle at least, but what the Cycle Teaches us is permanent). 

This “one fourth” point of the Cycle occurred in 2012-2015, when Uranus and Pluto danced together seven times.  So, as you may have noticed, all those issues – War and Inequalities of many sorts, are lit up again.  But this time they won’t go underground again, they’ll get louder and louder till we Listen Up.

We’ve been referring to this Energy as Yintegrity, and defining it as “Doing what we Feel like Doing, moment to moment” – as opposed to Yangtegrity – “Doing what we said we would.”  If you review the Marianne Williamson quote in “August II” ( https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/08/05/august-ii-big-integration-gets-bigger/ ), if you realize that Cooperation and Collaboration are at least as important in Nature as Competition (and probably much more important), and if you project that eventually folks will Learn to Tolerate Differences (Vive le), then you can dimly envision how a Society might operate based on Yintegrity rather than Yangtegrity

We propose that as the current Cycle develops further, we’ll see more Yintegrity and less Yangtegrity.  If you study Management or Innovation, you can find many examples where Individuals are making huge social contributions by indulging their Yintegrity.  Unfortunately, in most of those examples, the person who’s exercising their Yintegrity expects a great deal of Yangtegrity from others – with exceptions.  When a first mate demonstrates that their Yintegrity is productive, some captains can accept it.  Think Steve Jobs with Tim Cook and Jonathan Ive, or the Pixar team, where “constructive criticism” is the order of the day.  Eventually, as Humans expand their Consciousness and become less Defensive of their Ego Props, Collaborative Yintegrity will become available to more people than the Bullies and Radical Honesty graduates.

We normally use three Degrees of “Sensitivity” – that is, when an Energy is descending (or ascending) upon us, we start to Pay Attention when the two planets that symbolize the Energy are three Degrees apart.  Some of us are more Sensitive than others, so we’ll start to Feel the Energy sooner, but for most Energies, three Degrees is useful.  So while Uranus and Pluto won’t be dancing cheek to cheek, they will approach one another within three Degrees for a while, between 26 November 2015 and 9 April 2016.

If there’s any part of our Yintegrity homework that we didn’t finish in 2012-2015, we’ll get the opportunity (and it may not be voluntary) to polish our Techniques and Commitment between December of this year and March of next year.

In June of next year another long Cycle (about 90 years) begins, when Eris Initiates Uranus.  Eris is a dwarf planet out near Pluto, and it symbolizes the Revelation of that which has been Denied.  Denial is a healthy psychological function, as it allows us to work on foundational issues without other more complex issues intruding into our Consciousness before we’re ready to work with them.  As this new Cycle begins to take hold (the more Sensitive among us are already Feeling it), we’ll come to appreciate Yintegrity in a social context a lot more.

The Initiation occurs at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a Cornucopia.

The current major Energies, of which there are two, are preparation for the new Uranus-Eris Cycle.  The current “Who Are We?” Energy tells us that The Most Important Thing is Expanding our Consciousness to allow our Self-Concept to include what we’ve been hiding from ourSelf.  And the current “Taking Full Responsibility for our Rebirth into Radical Honesty” (August I and August II – Big Integration) Energy is Creating the Miracles we need to lift ourSelf into greater Yintegrity.

We have to include the Pholus-Ixion Cycle in this complex, since it’s the bottom line of the current “Full Responsibility” Energy.  The Pholus-Ixion Cycle spans about 110 years.

That’s the background; let’s look more closely at the foreground in “Who Are We” Part Three…