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Self-Judgment and Self-Love VII

January 22, 2019

The direct impact of the 20 January Sappho Station (Self-Love) began fading as soon as the Station was Exact, shortly after 9pm PST.  However, the impact of New and Full Moons (and Eclipses) Increase for several weeks after the fact, including the impact of the 20 January Life-Force (Varuna) Total Lunar Eclipse, which was Exact shortly after 9pm PST.  Now, if you recognize that these two times are the same, you’ll probably Intuit that the impact of the Self-Love Sappho Station will also be Increasing, since it was actually a Self-Love Life-Force Total Lunar Eclipse.

So we may not be done Confronting our Impediments to Self-Love, ie, our Self-Judgments.  The sooner you Notice and Banish (Poor-Sweetheart them or Tap them Out) your Self-Judgments, the sooner you can Bask in your Self-Appreciation.  It’s not a one-time thing – each time you Let Go of your Self-Judgments instead of Indulging them, you build a Habit that’s Foundational for Creating What You Want.

If you travel in the company of folks who like to Judge you, and who can’t Abide your Appreciating yourself, you’ll need to find a Strategy to get yourself out from under their influence.  The first step would probably be to tell them to Stop, though it would probably be a Miracle if that worked.  The second step would then to get them out of your Life, though that’s not always possible.  One of the most constructive things you can do (because it Develops a Habit that will serve you all your Life and beyond), is to Mirror them.

Unless they’re both Psychic and Sadistic (some folks are, alas), they have no control over what you do with your Thoughts and Visualizations.  First you need to Ground yourself well – imagine a cable connecting the base of your spine to the center of the Earth.  It’s a good idea to Practice that when you’re alone, without the Stress of having to relate to a Sadist.  That’ll make it easier to do when you’re in the thick of it.

Then Visualize holding an imaginary wardrobe Mirror between you, facing them.  That will send their Negative Vibes right back to them.  You can also Practice this while you’re alone.  You can certainly feel their Negative Vibes when you’re alone, bouncing from wall to wall in your Skull.  Watch what happens to those Noises when you hold up your Mirror.  You’ll need the Practice, because the first few times it won’t be easy to focus on holding the Mirror, while they’re haranguing you.

Another thing you can do in between your Sessions with your Tormentor, is to Ask yourself, Who does this person remind me of?   It probably won’t be the first person in your Young Life to Abuse you verbally.  Practice Mirroring that other person too.  They’re still very much Alive and Well in your mind, so use your Mirror to make yourself some Space that’s Safe for Self-Appreciation.  If their predecessor isn’t obvious, pick one from the movies.  The movies are full of Abusive Heroes – Hollywood thinks it’s really Cool to put other people down, Pilgrim.

Our tendency is to relive those movie Abuse Victim situations by imagining how we might put the Bully in their place, or find a priceless comeback, or just beat them senseless.  That’s not the right approach; you want their Abuse to bounce off your Mirror so you’re Teflon to their onslaught of garbage.

If you’re stuck in a position where it’s not at all Practical to get a Bully out of your Life, you can get them to Bully other people just by no longer Allowing them to Bully you.  They might escalate for a while, but soon they’ll get bored and look for more Satisfying Victims.  To make this work you’ll have to get Neutral – not Reacting or Responding in any way.  They’ll try to Shame you for that, but once you get the hang of it, your Mirror will Protect you.

The reason this is so important is that your Vulnerability is really an unrecognized Hole in your Aura.  Some Wannabe Puppet-Master in your Personal or Karmic history Manipulated you into Allowing them to Invade your Personal Space so they could reach in and make you Dance to their tune.  Probably someone who convinced you that what they were doing was called “Love.”  From the Energy Perspective that’s a Hole in your Aura.  Bullies see those Holes Unconsciously, and love to reach into them and Dance you.

Getting really good with your Mirror is the same thing as Filling in the Hole in your Aura, just seen through a different Metaphor.  If your Personal Space is Filled with your own Aura, no one can get in to Manipulate you.  If someone gets “under your skin,” it’s not that You are to Blame for it – it’s that You can Do Something to Stop it.  But you need to be the one to Commit to it.  It’ll take you some Effort and Persistence to build new Habits, but it won’t just Change Your Life, it’ll Change All of You Future Incarnations as well.

The Mythical Hylonome was so “hooked in” to her Lover that when he was killed, she killed herself with the same lance.  She was even more Codependent than Hera/Juno – at least Hera attacked her Rivals, not herself.  The dwarf planet Hylonome Danced with Saturn on 25 December 2018, when it Initiated a new Saturn-Hylonome Cycle at 11 Capricorn.  Capricorn 11 is about “A large group of Pheasant on a private estate” (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/08/wow-vi/).

The new Cycle has begun already, so the Energy is fading into the woodwork, but Saturn and Hylonome are still only two Degrees apart at the Full Self-Love Total Vitality Eclipse Moon, so the Energy hasn’t faded much.  The Saturn-Hylonome Cycle itself says that The Most Important Thing Is to Liberate Ourself from Codependence, and that’s one of the messages that the Eclipse brings.  Pheasants on a private estate aren’t free animals; they’re probably being kept to sell to hunters so they can Torture them as playthings.  The estate owner has his or her hand in their Auras.

So Learning to use a Mirror, and making it Habitual, isn’t just a trick to help us Experience more Self-Appreciation this week.  Once Initiations pass, a Cycle goes Underground for a while, while it gradually undermines the folks who are clinging to the old Cycle (the Bullies).  Once the faster planet (here Saturn) gets three Signs ahead of the slower planet, a Crisis erupts as the Intention of the Cycle bursts into the Open.  In this Cycle, that’ll be the middle of 2028.

The more you can Begin To and Persist At Filling the Hole in your own Aura now, the more likely you’ll find yourself Flying Free in 2028 instead of being Dinner for some Bully.  This whole business with the Antichrist Bullying Federal employees and elected officials in the US, is probably an excellent reflection of the Dance between Saturn-Hylonome and Sappho.  They were five Signs apart (Quincunx) at the Eclipse – that means our best Strategy is Curiosity.

Saturn and Hylonome were also Conjoined by Bee-Zed, which symbolizes Transcendence.  Transcending Codependence gives us an Opportunity to make our new Self-Sovereignty Habits Easier to Develop.  It’s part of the Mars T-Square that we discussed in Self-Love V (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/01/19/self-judgment-and-self-love-v/), the one that Recommends that we Choose to Act.  Acting to Fill the Hole in our own Aura is one of the best things we can do, because Filling our own Aura will make it Easier for everyone else on the Planet to Fill theirs.

Besides, wouldn’t it be great to eliminate Bullies in 2020 instead of waiting till 2028?  It’ll be a lot harder then than it is now.  Ms. May and M. Macron are in interesting pickles as well.  Ms. May seems to be simply lost in an Illusion of Power that she doesn’t have.  Perhaps the Ghost of the Empire has its hand in her Aura, or the Ghost of Ms. Thatcher.

Wow VI

December 8, 2018

The other simple Conjunction in the Orcus-Station chart is the 4 December (2pm PST) Initiation of Pallas (Boundaries) by Aletheia (Truth) at 13 Libra, “Children blowing soap bubbles.”  Since Pallas (4.6 years) and Aletheia (5.6 years) have similar orbital lengths, Pallas can chase Aletheia around the Zodiac for about 23 years before they Initiate a New Cycle.  We’ve been in the Old Cycle since 1995.

The basic Pallas-Aletheia Cycle is about how well our Boundaries serve us.  Do they keep us Safe while Letting In the Lessons we need to Expand our Consciousness?  Do they Eliminate Threats to our Life while Allowing our Ego Deaths?  Are our Boundaries True, in other words.  Since 1995 we’ve been judging our Boundaries by “A gardener trimming large Palm Trees” (25 Gemini) – a True Boundary has been one that looked presentable to polite company.

Now we’ll get to Play with them instead, and if we get bored with them, we’ll just pop it or send it away, and blow another one.  One of the implications of wearing Boundaries like hats, is that we could end up pretty Vulnerable.  How do we stay Safe?  One way is to recognize that our Core Identity is actually neither Ego nor Matter, but Energy.  I’ve seen kids using the Wind to blow hula hoop-size soap bubbles.  They’re as big as the kids, they take on all manner of shapes, and they can be pretty durable.  Identifying ourselves as indestructible and infinitely flexible Energy Fields is a big step toward 5D.

 

The Stellium at 9-10 Capricorn in the Orcas-Station chart Initiates six Cycles.

Capricorn 8, “In a Sun-lit home Domesticated Birds sing joyously” is where the 12 September (4pm PDT) Initiation of BZ509 (Transcendence, 12 years) by Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty, 128 years) occurs.  This would be a Cycle of about 13-14 years.  It’s easy to imagine ourselves Singing Joyously in Sunshine after we’ve Transcended all Obstacles to our Self-Sovereignty, though the Domestication is worrisome.

Domesticated Self-Sovereignty is a bit of an oxymoron, even if we may not want to be feral.  Perhaps we can think of the Birds as “Tame” instead.  If we’re living Collaboratively with Nature, we’d all be Tame to one another.

Three Cycles Initiate in 9 Capricorn, “An Angel carrying a Harp.”  That’s a Symbol we can accept without much argument.  These three are…

  • The 5 December (12am PST) Initiation of BZ509 (Transcendence, 12 years) by Saturn (The Most Important Thing, 28 years), starting a new 15-16 year Cycle.  This bodes well; the next 15-16 years could be difficult, so if Angels will be facilitating our Attention to Transcendence, sign me up.
  • The 6 December (9pm PST) Initiation of asteroid Karma (Self-Sabotaging Habits, 4.1 years) by BZ509 (Transcendence, 12 years), a 5-6 year Cycle.  Again, no objection at all to Angels helping me Transcend my Karma, even if it’s only for half a decade.
  • The 7 December (3am PST) Initiation of Karma by Saturn (The Most Important Thing), also a Cycle of about five years.  And I don’t mind if The Most Important Thing is Attending to my Karma (what else is new?) when I have Angels helping out!

Capricorn 10, “An Albatross feeding from the hand of a sailor,” is the home of the 11 December (7am PST) Initiation of Karma by Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty), a five-year Cycle.  Another Tame Bird, this one helping us blow away Karmic impediments to our Liberation.

We don’t incur the last of our six Cycles until 25 December (11am PST), at 11 Capricorn, “A large group of Pheasant on a private estate.  It’s the Initiation of Saturn by Hylonome, at about 35 years the longest Cycle of the bunch.  Birds again, not Domesticated, but unless the private estate is a hunting club, Living in relative Safety.  The Cycle is about The Most Important Thing being Transcending Codependence.  It wouldn’t hurt us a bit to Transcend the perceived need for private estates and return to the Commons.

Yintegrity Rising

June 23, 2016

A reader writes…

I don’t think they are happy with me.  I am not following their tradition and I’m not sure what the impact of that will be, but I don’t care!  I’m not doing what I should, I’m doing what I want.  And that is SO different for me.

“I’ve always been the analyze/plan/execute person.  I do my duty.  I fulfill my promises.  If I commit, I follow through.  Period.  No doubt.  No question.  I guess what you would call “Yangtegrity.”  And it has served me well.  Very well.  For my whole life.

“Over the past…18 months, two years, there’s been a growing resistance to all of it!  I don’t even want to show up half the time!  (I’ve always taught my kids-Showing up is 80% of success.)  My intellect is so confused, my ego is having panic attacks.  Is this moving into Yintegrity?  

“There’s a third part of me that is very calmly standing by, reassuring that we’ll work out a new way of functioning, everything will be fine, the earth will not stop spinning on its axis.  So is that the pressure and fear I’m feeling?  The shift into Yintegrity?”

You bet!!  

And like any Big Change, there’s a hollow space, a gap, where our Olde Ego is in Lackawanna (“I know I’m done for; why should I care?”), and our New Ego hasn’t got its training wheels on straight yet.  So we’re wobbly.  Confusion is good; it’s a reliable sign that we’re Growing.  Anxiety is common, as our Olde Patriarchy-Attuned Egos needed to know what was going on so they could figure out who to Please how, when.

Time for PIAVAs.  “Great Spirit, please help me Trust my True Future so I can Surrender my False Past more comfortably” or the like.  “I wonder where the Hell I’m going, anyway.”  With Saturn Waning Square to Neptune and moving into the Void Space between them, The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is Confusion (Neptune).  Neptune symbolizes Confusion when viewing the World through Material Eyes, and Clarity when we shift to Spiritual Eyes.  “Ganeshi, please Remove all Obstacles to Opening my Third Eye.”

 Another timely story…

https://alchemicalastrology.wordpress.com/2016/06/21/professionautism/

Love the title – ProfessionAutism.  I read it as Professionalism twice before I noticed the Aut.  In another post she says Pluto is on her Moon – I don’t know of any greater Emotional Challenge.  A perfect time to “hang loose,” but not even that is easy under Pluto-Moon.  “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that Ease and Grace fill my Life.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess. … Show me.”

That’s a simplified form of Theta Healing.  Once you say “Show me,” look to see whether your Vision or other Intuitive Sense shows you bathed in Ease and Grace.  If not, look to see what else you need to Command.  Maybe Trust, or Enough to Eat, or just Breathing.

When the World, or your Community, or just your Household or Camp, operates through Yintegrity, the whole World is different.  People do things when they want to, and when someone resents something not being done, it’s up to them to recognize that it’s their job to do.  Or their job to inspire (not require or bully) someone else to do it, maybe as a group project where participation is of course optional – you would join or not because, in the moment, it’s more fun than doing otherwise.  

The Most Important Thing gets done, even if it’s not what you thought was The Most Important Thing.  Between the Waning Saturn Square to Neptune and the next Initiation, Cultures break down.  The next Neptune-Saturn Initiation isn’t until 2026, six years into the Digital Age.  It’s at the Aries Point – Manifestation into (Feminine) Form.  Aries Creates by Instinct, not by having a picture beforehand of the “finished” product.  Creating and “finishing” are two different Universes, with only accidental intersections.

Here’s a picture of it anyway – it’s not a “finished” picture, but a picture of the Yintegrity process unfolding…

https://cristenrodgers.net/2016/06/23/speak-your-truth-not-your-mind/

I would suggest though, that “The ways in which Other Living Things can speak may also be almost infinite – the truth or a lie, clearly or in riddles, with language or with art.”  We maybe just haven’t heard them yet, till we get our Third Eye – or Ear – Open.  And that Everything is Living.

And, Saturn runs a Gauntlet of Initiations before it gets back to Neptune – Ixion, Pholus, Quaoar, the Galactic Center, Chariklo, Hylonome, Pluto. OR10, and Nessus!  Saturn will be a very different Animal by then, and we will be too.  Sounds like this Gauntlet would be worth a post of its own, eh?

And we didn’t even notice that Saturn was Initiated by the Great Attractor this last February, with an Exposition in May!  The Great Attractor is Headquarters to the Galactic Center – Cosmic HQ.  No wonder it’s been a heavy year so far, as if we haven’t had enough excuses!  We’re being asked to align ourselves with an Energy more Powerful than even Galactic Energy.