A reader writes…
“I don’t think they are happy with me. I am not following their tradition and I’m not sure what the impact of that will be, but I don’t care! I’m not doing what I should, I’m doing what I want. And that is SO different for me.
“I’ve always been the analyze/plan/execute person. I do my duty. I fulfill my promises. If I commit, I follow through. Period. No doubt. No question. I guess what you would call “Yangtegrity.” And it has served me well. Very well. For my whole life.
“Over the past…18 months, two years, there’s been a growing resistance to all of it! I don’t even want to show up half the time! (I’ve always taught my kids-Showing up is 80% of success.) My intellect is so confused, my ego is having panic attacks. Is this moving into Yintegrity?
“There’s a third part of me that is very calmly standing by, reassuring that we’ll work out a new way of functioning, everything will be fine, the earth will not stop spinning on its axis. So is that the pressure and fear I’m feeling? The shift into Yintegrity?”
And like any Big Change, there’s a hollow space, a gap, where our Olde Ego is in Lackawanna (“I know I’m done for; why should I care?”), and our New Ego hasn’t got its training wheels on straight yet. So we’re wobbly. Confusion is good; it’s a reliable sign that we’re Growing. Anxiety is common, as our Olde Patriarchy-Attuned Egos needed to know what was going on so they could figure out who to Please how, when.
Time for PIAVAs. “Great Spirit, please help me Trust my True Future so I can Surrender my False Past more comfortably” or the like. “I wonder where the Hell I’m going, anyway.” With Saturn Waning Square to Neptune and moving into the Void Space between them, The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is Confusion (Neptune). Neptune symbolizes Confusion when viewing the World through Material Eyes, and Clarity when we shift to Spiritual Eyes. “Ganeshi, please Remove all Obstacles to Opening my Third Eye.”
Another timely story…
Love the title – ProfessionAutism. I read it as Professionalism twice before I noticed the Aut. In another post she says Pluto is on her Moon – I don’t know of any greater Emotional Challenge. A perfect time to “hang loose,” but not even that is easy under Pluto-Moon. “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that Ease and Grace fill my Life. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank you, God/Goddess. … Show me.”
That’s a simplified form of Theta Healing. Once you say “Show me,” look to see whether your Vision or other Intuitive Sense shows you bathed in Ease and Grace. If not, look to see what else you need to Command. Maybe Trust, or Enough to Eat, or just Breathing.
When the World, or your Community, or just your Household or Camp, operates through Yintegrity, the whole World is different. People do things when they want to, and when someone resents something not being done, it’s up to them to recognize that it’s their job to do. Or their job to inspire (not require or bully) someone else to do it, maybe as a group project where participation is of course optional – you would join or not because, in the moment, it’s more fun than doing otherwise.
The Most Important Thing gets done, even if it’s not what you thought was The Most Important Thing. Between the Waning Saturn Square to Neptune and the next Initiation, Cultures break down. The next Neptune-Saturn Initiation isn’t until 2026, six years into the Digital Age. It’s at the Aries Point – Manifestation into (Feminine) Form. Aries Creates by Instinct, not by having a picture beforehand of the “finished” product. Creating and “finishing” are two different Universes, with only accidental intersections.
Here’s a picture of it anyway – it’s not a “finished” picture, but a picture of the Yintegrity process unfolding…
I would suggest though, that “The ways in which Other Living Things can speak may also be almost infinite – the truth or a lie, clearly or in riddles, with language or with art.” We maybe just haven’t heard them yet, till we get our Third Eye – or Ear – Open. And that Everything is Living.
And, Saturn runs a Gauntlet of Initiations before it gets back to Neptune – Ixion, Pholus, Quaoar, the Galactic Center, Chariklo, Hylonome, Pluto. OR10, and Nessus! Saturn will be a very different Animal by then, and we will be too. Sounds like this Gauntlet would be worth a post of its own, eh?
And we didn’t even notice that Saturn was Initiated by the Great Attractor this last February, with an Exposition in May! The Great Attractor is Headquarters to the Galactic Center – Cosmic HQ. No wonder it’s been a heavy year so far, as if we haven’t had enough excuses! We’re being asked to align ourselves with an Energy more Powerful than even Galactic Energy.