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Gauntlet XII – More Con Games

April 24, 2018

Well, we get a couple of weeks without Stations, till the Ides of May.  That should be a relief.

In the interim, Action/Agitation meets Compulsion on 26 April (4am PDT) when Pluto Initiates Mars, beginning a new two-year Cycle at 22 Capricorn, “By accepting defeat gracefully, a general reveals nobility of character.”  As Alan Watts averred, it’s harder to Let Go of our “Good” Karma than our “Bad” Karma.  So we may be Asked to Let Go of our Attachment to Success over the next few days and the next couple of years.

Then on 28 April (12am PDT) Juno leaves Pisces and moves into Aries.  Since Juno represents the Edges of Consciousness, that should make Life a little Easier, as we’re likely to be Growing our Spiritual Consciousness more rather than our Emotional Consciousness.  While Held Emotions (the one we’d Rather Die than Feel) may not be so prominent, we’re still likely to be dealing with Death, as one of the more prominent elements of Spirit is its immutability.  If that’s an intellectual Concept for you rather than a Foundation of your Beliefs, you may be in for Surprises.

Chariklo is about Confidence, and we’ve just squirmed out of a fairly big Challenge to our Confidence, as Chariklo and Pluto shared their Stations over the last few days (Gauntlet IX to XI).  It turns out though that our Confidence Work isn’t quite done.  For the next week we’ll be Working on Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty, as Chariklo Initiates Lilith on 1 May, starting a new nine-year Cycle at 20 Capricorn – “A hidden choir singing during a religious service.”

The “hidden choir” could be our True Self telling us what we’d be Doing and Saying if we were Speaking and Acting from our Self-Sovereignty, or it could be the echos of the many Voices that, throughout our Life, have told us Who and How We Should Be and Do instead of Being and Doing Ourself.  As a Jungian I assume that the Unconscious is always trying to move us forward, even when it requires us to walk through the Swamp instead of around it. 

So I’m opting for the Hidden Choir being our Shoulds.  After all, would our True Self be Shoulding on us?  You know how it Feels when you ignore an Intuition, that “Still Small Voice”?  That’s more likely to be the Voice of our True Self.  Mine doesn’t come from over my Shoulder.  When we get talkback from over our Should-er, if we Notice and just Imagine turning our head to look, or listening for the tone of voice and accent, or just Asking, it will probably be pretty easy to Discern whose Shoulds we’ve Internalized as our own in the current case.

Then we can cycle through Anal-yzing, PIAVAing, and State-Changing (Tapping, Kegeling, Poor-Sweethearting, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrading, and the like) to examine the Agenda of that particular Control Freak, to see if their input is still useful in our Present Life.

Which is kind of the Other Side of the Coin here, or the Other Side of the Mirror – when our own Control Freak comes out of its cave and we Notice that we’re wanting someone else to Act or Speak differently than they are, it would be of great value to our Evolution for us to cycle through Anal-yzing, PIAVAing, and State-Changing to get to the Roots of our own Distaste for whatever it is that they’re up to. 

It may contribute more to Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty to Work with the times when we Should Other, than it does to Work with the Internalized Voices that Should us!

Be Mindful that Shame and Guilt are primary tools that Control Freaks use to manipulate our Behavior, so be Aware that these Emotions may be your first indication that you’re being Shoulded.  Nothing wipes out Confidence and Sovereignty faster and more completely than Shame, and it takes a huge Effort to get Present with Shame.  The first step is Noticing, and if you’re lucky enough to do that, then Poor-Sweethearting will be worth trying, as well as Tapping and Kegeling.

Gauntlet XI – Winding Down

April 22, 2018

We’re down to the last day of the April Gauntlet.  The Pluto Station (Changing the Water in the Aquarium we’re immersed in) and the Chariklo Station (Transforming our Concept of Walking in Beauty) are a day and two Degrees apart, so they basically share a chart…

The Stations are complicated by issues of Self-Sovereignty and Action, not to mention a big Challengeto Acknowledge the Truth that our previous Timeline has run its course and, should we Choose to Accept it, our Life will be very Different from now on – or at least from tomorrow on, once the Chariklo Station (6am PDT 23 April) finishes with us.

Once again with astrologuese…

The Stations are complicated by issues of Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) and Action (Mars), not to mention a big Challenge (T-Square, the red triangle) to Acknowledge the Truth that our previous Timeline has run its course and, should we Choose to Accept it, our Life will be very Different from now on (the base of the T-Square is Rebirth/Haumea and Truth/Veritas Opposing Ego Death/Nemesis, Revelation/Eris, and Choice of Timelines/Lachesis) – or at least from tomorrow on, once the Chariklo Station (6am PDT 23 April) finishes with us.

We’ve highlighted should we Choose to Accept it because that’s a key to the whole complex.  Asteroid Lachesis is the “Fate” or Goddess that “measures the length” of a Lifetime or a Timeline (a thematic segment of a Lifetime).  Fate is what happens to us when we Live from the Unconscious.  When we Live from Consciousness, we substitute Choice for Fate.

Pluto is the Big River of Time, the personification of Irresistible Power.  Planets exercise their Strongest Impact when they’re Stationary.  So we can read the Stationary Pluto-Stationary Chariklo-Mars-Lilith Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) as Having the Supreme Confidence (Stationary Chariklo) to Use the Momentum Created by the Current Big Shift in the Flow of Time (Stationary Pluto), to Act (Mars) in Support of Our Willingness to Create Our Own Reality (Lilith).

Remember that our aim here is Consciousness, so we regard Interpretation as much more important than Prediction.  So if you’re thinking, “Shit, I wish I’d have known that ahead of time,” see if you can reframe that to “Oh, okay, I see where I might have Responded Differently.”  However we didn’t Live our Brutus Moment, that’s the Experience that is leading us to Wisdom, to where we might see it as a Mandela Moment instead.

The part about Truth (Veritas)-Rebirth (Haumea) is pretty straightforward.  The Ego Death/Nemesis-Revelation/Eris-Lachesis/Choice Stellium is more complex.  Eris is about Accepting the Revelation of what’s been hitherto Denied.  Nemesis is the Revelation that a Timeline, and the Value System that supported it, has reached a Dead-End.  In the Unconscious, it’s Ended by Punishment.  In Consciousness it’s Ended by Choosing a better Path into the Future.

So when we Face the parts of our Life that are no longer Working and Accept that we have to Let them Go, we’re Liberated into Birthing a New Reality for ourself.

The Big Challenge (T-Square) reveals an Easy Way Out (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) through our Recognition of Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).  In other words, we’ll jump forward by thinking in terms of What Do I Really Want in this Lifetime rather than “How Can I Weasel my way out of this Pickle.”

The second Opposition (long red line) in the chart is closely related conceptually as well as astrologically – Fate Herself (asteroid Moira) Opposing Expansion (Jupiter).  As if there’s a simple Dualistic Choice between Unconsciousness (Moira) and Growth (Jupiter).  The fact that the Stations and their Baggage form the Easy Way Out (Trine Bridge) to this Opposition belies that simplicity. 

Unconsciousness is an Addiction, and while Choice is a critical step in Confronting Addiction, it’s only one step of many – ten by one common measure.  We have to Choose Consciousness over and over again until it’s Second Nature to do so (and then we have to Confront that Habit as an Archetype).  We have to Sustain Choice, and we’ll talk about that in a moment.

Then we notice that the Stations are involved in another important, if subtle, Configuration – a “Sextile Fez” (trapezoid).  In any Fez, we want to Pay Attention to the diagonals, in this case…

  • Unlimited Potential (Chaos) Quincunx (Curiosity) to the Stations and their Baggage (Pluto-Chariklo-Mars-Lilith)
  • Growth (Jupiter) Quincunx to Choosing Ego Death (Nemesis-Eris-Lachesis)

The important thing is to Allow the Curiosity to stay Curiosity, and not try to “Figure It Out.”  Figuring It Out creates Knowledge, which may be useful but is never complete or accurate.  Letting it sit as is creates instead Awe and Wonder, which is where we need to be, Awestruck by the unfathomable Miracles that surround us every day, rather than Powerhungry with the Egobound Illusion that we have Dominion here.  So we might PIAVA something like…

  • “I Wonder just how much Power I could Contain if I had the Confidence to Assert Who I Am” – notice we’re “Containing” Power, not “Asserting” it.  Reread Castaneda if you don’t understand how this works.
  • “I Wonder how Growth and Ego Death are Related – like a Crab or a Butterfly perhaps?”

Notice that these are this week’s Quincunxes, therefore this week’s Curiosities.  We’re blessed that astrology isn’t all Quincunxes, leaving us Stoned out of our minds with Awe all the time.  Curiosity and Confusion are twin Feeling States that Western “left-brain” don’t allow to be the Emotions that they actually are, instead co-opting them as Challenges to the Intellect and shutting down their pathways to Intuition and Wisdom.

Then we notice that there is a lovely perfect Five-Pointed Star in the chart, drawn in light purple lines.  That’s called a “Grand Quintile,” as it divides the Zodiac into five equal parts.  Five is the number of Learning and Teaching – we could even refer to it as Curiosity! 

The Quincunx after all if Five Unxes, or five twelfths of the way round the Zodiacal Loop.  The Twelfth Harmonic is Pattern-Breaking.  So Learning to be Present with Curiosity as an Emotion in its own right is a Powerful Pattern-Breaker and a Powerful tool for breaking free of Unconsciousness and our Limiting, Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.

So this time is shown to be a humongous Learning Opportunity.  We’re Learning about the Relationships between the five planets that make up the Grand Quintile.  Remember that while all Learning leaves a permanent Impact, it’s important that we Recognize that this chart is about the Present Moment, not about Eternity.  It’s the Wisdom we gain from Experience that can Work in Time Provinces other than the current one.  The Conclusions we draw in the Present Moment are only as good as they increment our Stash of Wisdom.

The five corners of this Grand Quintile are…

  • Rebirth-Truth (Haumea-Veritas) – This is the most important corner because it cohabits with the Configuration that holds the Stations.  The most valuable Lesson is that Ego Death is just a reboot, not a hard disk crash.  Rebirth is actually a tremendous Gift, because without if we’re stuck in Limbo, in the Void, for a while.  If you think Resisting the Temptation to pigeonhole Curiosity and Confusion is hard, what till you get to spend time in the Void!
  • Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta) – Being Unconscious, these are not generally subject to Choice, so we usually have to approach them through PIAVA.  In this case, the chart will be Exposing many of our Unconscious Beliefs for the ancient scams that they are, perpetrated by the historical equivalent of the St. Petersburg Internet Research Agency
  • Confusion (Neptune) – Ah, there She is.  She should be in here somewhere.
  • Values (Venus) – As our Unconscious Beliefs evolve, so must our Values, though we may not realize it for a while, till all the Contradictions work their way through.
  • Sustaining Commitment to our Mission – To the extent that we can generalize our Individual Missions, it’s fair to say that it’s about Growing our Consciousness, since it’s next to impossible to execute any nontrivial Mission without Growing in Consciousness.  We hinted at this while we were discussing Addiction earlier, and here it is.

Gauntlet IX – Confidence

April 16, 2018

Once we get through Chiron’s passage into Aries (1am PDT 17 April) Saturn’s Most-Important-Thing Station (7pm PDF 17 April), the most prominent Energies will be the Station of Pluto (8:30am PDT 22 April) and Chariklo (6am PDT 23 April), and they’ll already be in full Force.  In fact, we could be Experiencing some flashforwards from them already.

Pluto is just Heavy.  “Swimming through Jello” is one way Pluto Stations have been described.  Pluto means Transformation, Trance Re-Formation, Big Changes, even Changes in the very Zeitgeist that we’ve long since come to accept as The Way It Is.  You’ll get Bruised up pretty good if you try to fight against Pluto.  You aren’t Helpless, you can steer to one bank or another to portage around the Falls, you just don’t want to try to paddle upstream because the current is a lot Stronger than you are.

Chariklo is about Confidence, especially Self-Confidence.  Confidence is the most Charismatic characteristic that a person can have, whether we think it’s warranted or not.  Wonder why the Antichrist is so Teflon?  So our Confidence is being Transformed.  Our Confidence, unless we’re a Grifter, is almost always a Trance, below the level of our Consciousness.

Having Chiron in Aries will help a lot, as we’ll be less assailed by the Emotional Bleeding from our Lifelong “Unhealable” Wounds.  Unless you’re Faithless, in which case your Spiritual Lymph might be spilling everywhere.  Faith and Trust are both Important in Confidence – while the Saturn and Hylonome Stations (Trust, Priority, Boundaries, Codependence) will weaken after they’re Exact, they won’t disappear instantaneously.

So if your Confidence crumbles, know it’s “just” a Wound being re-Triggered, and Respond accordingly (Poor-Sweetheart, Soft-and-Warm, Mirrors, everything that Chiron in Pisces has taught us).  It’s just an Ego Death, not a “real” Arrow.  Trust that it will be better in the New Trance on the Other Side.

The Pluto and Chariklo Stations are also only two Degrees apart, with Chariklo on the Waning side of Pluto, which means that we’re laying the Groundwork for a major Letting Go of the Sources of Confidence that we’ve been using since 1931’s “Young woman awaiting a sailboat” Pluto-Chariklo Initiation.  Not embarking on her own journey, but waiting for someone else to give her a ride.

Pluto Initiates Chariklo into a brand-new 90-year Cycle next February, in the same 23 Capricorn as the Pluto-Saturn Initiation we discussed earlier – “A soldier in combat boots receiving two awards for bravery.”  If we Imagine them to be high-heeled combat boots, we could easily Give these awards to the #MeToo troops.

Intuitive Confidence II – Massive Blessing!

September 15, 2017

The 17 September (3am PDT) Chariklo (Self-Confidence) Station contains a Blessing so strong that I don’t recall ever seeing one like it.  The Station makes only two within-three-Degrees-of-Sensitivity (“Orb” in astrospeak) Angles – both Trines (Great Grace), giving the chart only one Configuration, a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace).  The Grand Trine is so Blessed that, until we Realize that other people have their own Gifts and it’s not about the Ego, we usually Live it as Arrogance. 

Our respective Gifts complement one another, but when one person thinks their Gifts are the result of their own Superiority, the Collective soufflé is ruined.  In a Culture that Worships the Ego as the Supreme Beingness, this is a fatal self-inflicted wound, as the state of the World demonstrates.

So keep an eye on the Narcissists if you know any (!), they’re likely to be Over-the-Top.  I think one already is, thanks to Chuck and Nancy – the Chariklo Self-Confidence Energy will be strong for at least a week prior to the Station, longer if someone is more Sensitive to it, such as someone who is already a Narcissupremacist.  Look out for sudden reversions to Mean afterward, when the Energy starts to fade.

The Grand Trine is the big blue triangle.  The orange wedge (Quintile Yod), though simultaneous, is otherwise unrelated to the Chariklo Station, unless you want to tune in to the Twentieth Harmonic.  The Moon-North Node Focus of the Quintile Yod is eighteen Degrees (one twentieth of the Zodiacal loop) from the Mercury-Mars-Orcus corner of the Grand Trine.  Which makes it even more interesting.  The Twentieth Harmonic is The Aeon, or a Time period of long but unspecified extent and…

“The principle of good judgment that is utilized in both personal and professional situations…  All perceptions come from our ability to look at the whole and… to consider longevity, history, and broad perspective…  Our creative power to give birth to new forms…  Wisdom comes from experience and is not randomly spoken…  The Last Judgment is faced in all the daily judgments we make of ourselves and others…  Reminds us to look at the history we have shared and to forgive ourselves and others for the judgments we are making about what we are doing or not doing in our lives…  Inspired vision.”  –Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook, pp.95-96).

No wonder our favorite Narcissist seems to be suddenly making good decisions.  Bodes ill for the hangover though, unfortunately.

So lets look at the components of the Grand Trine and the Q-Yod…

A Chariklo-Station by itself implies a Crisis of Self-Confidence, which we may receive as Enhanced Confidence, or an Exacerbation of existing Self-Doubt.  In the latter case you can consider it a “Healing Crisis” (when an affliction gets temporarily worse just before its Demise), particularly if you are Alert enough to notice what Triggers your Self-Doubt, and Recognize that it’s a form of Anxiety. 

Anxiety is an Emotion that makes us probably even more vulnerable to “Transitiveness” than other Emotions do.  A Verb that takes an Object is called a “Transitive” Verb.  In the sentence “Donald fired Jim,” Donald is the Subject and Jim is the Object of the Verb “fired.”  In the sentence “I’m Anxious about such-and-such,” the prepositional phrase “about such-and-such” is the Object of the Verb Anxious.  Well, there’s news.  Emotions are Intransitive.  They don’t take Objects.

I’m Angry at Fred” is a bullshit sentence.  What’s really going on is that we’re Angry, and Fred happens to be in the line of fire.  We have no idea what the original source of our Emotions is.  In fact, there’s an excellent chance that they aren’t even “our” Emotions at all.  Like thoughts, Emotions float around like clouds or Viruses, and easily latched onto.  Fred might remind us of the guy who Abandoned us when we had the Plague in the Middle Ages, and Abandonment may be what Triggers our Anger.  Fred is an innocent by-stander.

It behooves us much to view all Emotions this way.  “I’m Anxious about the Future, now that I’ve been told that the World is supposed to end on 23 September.”  More Bullshit.  Our Anxiety is either pre-existing and Karmic, or Impersonal and just passing by, probably both.  In this Culture, you won’t get much support for Receiving Emotions this way, but if you want to reach for Neutrality, you’d probably be hard-pressed to find a faster route.

The other corners of the Chariklo-Station Grand Trine are Moira, which symbolizes the Duality Fate and Choice (Your Choice), and a Stellium formed by Mercury (Mind), Mars (Action), and Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking).  Wow, this is almost Biblical or Trumpian in terms of being “The Greatest Opportunity Ever” or the like.  Here’s what this Grand Trine can show us…

  • The Realization that Patterns which we’ve been regarding as “Just the Way It Is” (Moira as Fate), are actually the result of our Limiting Beliefs (Mercury-Mars-Orcus as Awareness/Mercury that we’ve been Victimized/Mars by Oaths we made Long Ago and Far Away/Orcus that we really don’t need any more).  This Realization has the potential to open us up to having Confidence (Chariklo) that we can do things that we’ve always envied other people for doing so apparently effortlessly.
  • Notice that these could be “Unconscious Denial,” where we had no idea that Reality could be otherwise than Limited as we had supposed!
  • These Realizations are the sort that can Expand our Consciousness and our Horizons greatly.
  • Since it’s a Grand Trine, we could Experience Breakthroughs in Efforting, as what was previously very difficult suddenly becomes very Easy.  That is, we could suddenly discover we have Talents we didn’t know we had, which can boost our Self-Confidence.  If this happens, Look to see how Changes in your own Beliefs are involved.  If you can make this a Breakthrough in Consciousness as well as a Breakthrough in Efforting, you’ll be miles ahead.
  • Your Self-Confidence could be Challenged, as the Unconscious tries to show you how you are Sabotaging yourself.  If Self-Doubt arises, or you know someone who is “shaking your Confidence daily,” or meet someone who’d like to try doing that, this represents a fabulous Opportunity to Open up to the Realization that you have Choice in the matter.
  • In a situation where a Narcissist is handed a Blessing and their Ego eats it without Sharing, the part about using the Blessing to gain Consciousness becomes even more Important than it is Unlikely.  Even if the Narcissist simply lacks the necessary Skills to gain Consciousness, we can always Open to the Possibility of Evolution.  It’s been shown many times that even in biology rapid and even instantaneous Evolution occurs.
  • This very Station may be what the Evolution of the US is all about.  The US is also an intransigent Narcissist, and perhaps what we’ll see this weekend is the Realization, by the US as a whole, that the Antichrist is just a Mirror for their own Limitations.  Maybe St. Louis will bring us a Kent State Moment.
  • Jose could also create some additional Consciousness in Climate Deniers if it comes ashore, maybe in the Capitol area, where Irma missed.

The Moon-North Node Quintile Yod (which of course is about Learning and Teaching) says that we’re being Educated about our Instincts for Self-Improvement, not in anyone else’s terms, but in terms of our own Mission in the Lifetime.  Grokking our Life Mission is always difficult because it’s Multifarious and Unitary, which means that every time we try to approach it with the mind, we freeze it into Duality and hence we turn Retrograde.  We interpret the Moon as our Instincts, so we may be Semiconsciously Making new Oaths which Create Patterns that facilitate increased Conscious or Unconscious Attention to our Mission.  Yes, that could Create more Limiting Beliefs, but they may be an improvement over our previous Beliefs.

The base of the Moon-North Node Quintile Yod is the Waxing Quintile from Chiron back to Pluto.  This Chiron-Pluto Cycle, recall, is about the “Flag turning into an Eagle turning into a Rooster Saluting the Dawn,” which suggests that the Learning may be larger than Personal.  The Dance between Chiron (Letting Go of Pain through Empathy) and Pluto (Formation of a New Trance) is about “going meta” in our Personal and Planetary Evolution.  To “go meta” means to step up to a larger Perspective, as Angie Arrien’s description of the Twentieth Harmonic at the beginning of this post suggested.

We can Apply what we Learned to the content of our Anxieties on a case-by-case basis; for instance I might be able to facilitate Healing of a sore throat by Tapping or PIAVAing or Thetaing it.  But we make our Evolution exponential when we “go meta” and realize that we can Theta our Anxiety itself instead of, or in addition to, Thetaing an erroneously-Transitive Object of our Anxiety.  What a Leap this Massive Blessing would Bless us with if we really Realize that our thoughts and our Emotions are not our own, but just visiting Entities like Eeyore and Tigger and Piglet and Pooh and Gopher (apologies to British readers) and Wiley Coyote and Taz…

“This is the time of the great remembering.  When we remember our roots and that we are part of nature, life becomes more peaceful and compassionate.  Through many of us ‘mass remembering’ this, we will create a peaceful, positive, and abundant world and a permanent sustainable culture, a Permaculture, across the world.” –Robin Clafyield, “Pioneers of Permaculture,” in Permaculture North America #4, Spring 2017.

Intuitive Confidence I

September 14, 2017

The Calendar (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/) says our next Adventure is about Improving our Confidence in our Intuition, and Nurturing Confidence that’s more Intuitive…

15-19 September 2017

Chariklo (Self-Confidence) turning Direct in 10 Capricorn on 17 September (3am PDT).

Ceres (Sustainability) in 29 Cancer returns In-Bounds on 18 September (11pm) after being Out-of-Bounds (Strong) since 1 July.

Asbolus (Intuition) turning Retrograde in 19 Gemini on 18 September (2:30pm PDT).

Orcus Initiates Mars in 10 Virgo, “Two heads looking out and beyond the Shadows” (Transcending Duality) on 19 September (10:30 am PDT).

Haumea Opposite Eris Exact in 24 Libra-Aries on 19 September (8pm PDT)

New Moon in 28 Virgo on 19 September (10:30 pm PDT).

It’s not so much that we have to think about it to call forth our Self-Confidence.  It’s the other way around – our Self-Doubts (which are thoughts) destroy our Self-Confidence.  So if we were able to Delegate our Self-Confidence to our Intuition instead of our intellect, it might be more Resilient.  If our Self-Confidence really was Intuitive, and not poisoned by the skeptical mind, we might even interpret a sense that something’s wrong as a signal to Attend to our Safety more closely, rather than a signal that We Aren’t Good Enough.

Full Moon Jupiter 3

June 11, 2017

The 9 June Jupiter Station Lit Up 11-17 Degrees of the Cardinal Signs.  Let’s take another reader at random and see how having these Degrees Triggered might impact them… 

Well, this will reveal the reader’s age, so we can’t say anything else about their chart without giving out too much information, but for our reader, the Jupiter Station Lights Up a “Chariklo Return” that they’re in the middle of.

Every half-century or so, Chariklo Returns to the same place, and for us Hupers, this marks a major Crisis of Self-Confidence.  Chariklo symbolizes our Charm and Beauty, two characteristics that Hupers are particularly Fond of becoming Addicted to.  This Fondness from Other easily translates into Confidence for us – if folks tend to fawn over me, why wouldn’t I (ceteris paribus) develop Self-Confidence!  A patina of Privilege can thus constellate around Chariklo, if one’s Ego Attaches to the deference that others might grant.  And, y’know, Ego and Attachment are pretty much synonyms, so that wouldn’t be unusual.

Now, when a planet in the Sky crosses one of our natal planets, then turns Retrograde and crosses again, we refer to the first crossing as a “Can-Opener,” because it may open a “Can of Worms” for us.  Since the most likely planets to do this are the outer, slower, planets, we may not have much Experience with the Energy in their crossings.  We’ve all Lived our whole Lives with Chariklo, but we Experience Chariklo most Intensely only every twelve and a half years, when it Squares, Opposes, then Squares itself again, then finally Returns to its natal position.  So unless we Live past a hundred, we’ll only Experience a Chariklo Return once in a Lifetime.

In other words, we’re all rookies at outer-planet Returns.  So when Chariklo Returns, we can expect some fairly intense Self-Questioning about whether or not we Deserve the Respect we Receive.  And it wouldn’t be surprising to find Respect withdrawn from us, as Chariklo noses its way into Consciousness.  The fastest way to Trigger Gratitude is to have something withdrawn when we’ve taken it for granted.  A Full Moon already tends in the direction of greater Consciousness anyway, as Full Moons are all about Illumination.  And just now, at this Full Moon, Chariklo is Dancing with Juno, which is about the Edges of our Consciousness as well.  And all while Jupiter is blowing everything out of proportion.

So this was probably a pretty Big Full Moon for our reader.  Fortunately, they had their Chariklo-Return Can-Opener in January.  Chariklo has since turned Retrograde, so this is Chariklo’s second pass.  We call the second, Retrograde crossing an “Exposition,” because it Exposes more about what likely caught us off guard at the Can-Opener.  At the Exposition we’re no longer raw rookies; we’ve seen this Energy before, and recently.  Plus, it’s Retrograde, so the whole Process, however it unfolds, will unfold more slowly, giving us time to Learn about it, to become Conscious of how it works.  Our reader’s Chariklo Return Exposition will be Exact soon.  

Later in the year, Chariklo will turn Direct again, and cross a third time; we refer to this third crossing as the “Confidence-Builder,” because by then we will have become a Master at working with the Energy.  By the dawn of 2018 our reader will probably understand that we just have to Create Confidence out of thin air.  Not over-Confidence; we’re always better off tempering Confidence with Honest Appraisal of our Skills.  We want to Stretch, but as we Stretch we don’t need to mislead.  If we’ve done something before, we can be pretty sure we can do it again.  If it’s similar to something we’ve done before, we can give odds of our success.  If we’ve never done it before, then we might be better off being Honest about our Eagerness to Try. 

All of which is far superior to Giving Up before we start – when Chariklo Acts Out and disrupts our normal Confidence Patterns, we could easily do just that.  The Mythological Chariklo was Chiron’s wife, so She was no stranger to Despair, and Testing our Mettle against Despair is well within Her bag of tricks as she Educates us about Confidence.  Which gives us a knife-edge to walk, between “I Can’t” and “I Will.”  We’ll always Learn more by erring on the side of “I Will” – within Limits.  If we Stretch too far we can get “burned” and Create new Limiting Beliefs in the process.

Cavansite - Calcium Vanadate Phyllosilicate HydroxideCavansite (Calcium Vanadate), the bright blue-green Crystal Cluster, Connects us with our Multidimensional Self and with Skillsets we developed in other Lifetimes, boosting our Self-Confidence.  The matrix is Stilbite, which also loosens our Attachment to our Current-Life Ego.

Karma-Chariklo-Pluto III

April 17, 2017

The Chariklo Station is just a few hours after the Karma Station, but they’re in different Degrees; the Chariklo Station is in 15 Capricorn.  Remember what we said last time about a Square Fez?  This one’s almost upside down.

We can be quick about a Fez by just interpreting the diagonal Quincunxes.  Quincunxes are about True Curiosity; not to seek an Answer, but to regain the sense of Awe and Wonder that we felt as Children when everything was New and Amazing.  

Why do we aspire to that?  Because our progressing Belief , as we grew older, that we Understand more and more, is an Illusion.  We live inside a birdcage, and the components of our Understanding are the bars on our cage.  It’s not that we Understand the World, it’s that we Limit our Vision.  

Mostly this is about Fear.  The Illusion of Understanding makes us Feel Safe, because we Believe we know how to Respond to most of what the World can throw at us.  Which is great until it isn’t.

One of the Quincunxes links Jupiter (Expansion) to Neptune (Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity).  Spiritual Clarity is more about Trust or Faith than it is about Understanding.  Confusion means that the bars on our birdcage have come loose.  Can we tolerate that?  “I Wonder if I have enough Trust in my Self and the Universe that I can tolerate Confusion.”

Chariklo herself (Self-Confidence) Conjoins the Moon (Instinct, Manifestation) and Juno (the Edge of Consciousness).  There’s an Opportunity here to amp up our Ability to Create What We Want just by PIAVAing it.  When we’re able to “Feel into” as Dan and the Arcturians put it, What We Want, the odds go way up.  “Feeling into” is what a reader once called “Feelizing” as an alternative to Visualizing – PIAFA in other words.

When we have complete Confidence in our Ability to Manifest something, we interpret Hindrances as speed bumps rather than brick walls.  The other end of this Quincunx is Centaur Asbolus.  The Mythological Asbolus was a Psychic whose chief claim to fame was in unsuccessfully  warning his fellow Centaurs that fighting would only bring their demise.  Which in itself is an interesting observation at this time.

It’s intriguing that this Quincunx is between two Centaurs, and the cosmological definition of a Centaur is a body orbiting between Jupiter and Neptune – while the second Quincunx is between Jupiter and Neptune.  Of course that’s “only” a Coincidence, as Robert Moss would say.  “I Wonder what this tells us.”

That’s the diagonal Quincunx approach.  We could also use a more traditional analytical approach – what are the two Challenges to Mastery or Squares (red lines)?

  • How do we Expand Access to our Unconscious Ability to Manifest Directly?  (Jupiter Square Chariklo-Moon-Juno)
  • Can we Intuit our way out of Confusion without sacrificing our Growth in Consciousness?  (Asbolus Square Neptune)

The Gift in the Configuration is the Trine (long blue line) – Expansion of our Intuition.  It would be great if we could just Expand Access to Manifestation and Intuit our way out of Confusion by Expanding our Intuition, but Expanding Intuition is an arcane process.  

One method I Learned long ago was “What if I did know?”  That’s works well as a Heuristic (Teaching device) but we have to be aware that Intuition and Certainty are uncomfortable in bed together unless we have a natural facility, or until we’re well trained.

Well, we’re dealing with the Edges of Consciousness, so we know PIAVA will be useful.  That’s where our Quincunxes aid us.  “I Wonder if I have enough Trust in my Self and the Universe that I can tolerate Confusion” and “I Wonder if I Trust my Intuition enough to Let it Lead me to Manifesting What I Want” may Liberate the Gift.

All of which means that we need to be mindful this week to catch ourselves when we’re Experiencing Doubt, Insecurity, or Confusion, as these are the impediments to Self-Confidence and Clarity about What We Want to Manifest and therefore the Gatekeepers to Self-Condidence and Clarity.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Doubt, aren’t you.  Would you like to talk about it?”

Karma-Chariklo-Pluto

April 16, 2017

 It’s also busy next week, as…

  • asteroid Karma Stationary 11pm PDT 17 April, 3 Virgo
  • Centaur Chariklo Stationary 12am PDT 18 April, 15 Capricorn
  • Pluto Stationary 6am PDT 20 April, 20 Capricorn

We can interpret this as if it were a Karma-Chariklo-Pluto Conjunction, since it is a Conjunction in Time if not in Location.  That would look something like the Transformation (Pluto) of the Impediments (Karma) to our Walking in Beauty (Chariklo).  

We can see Karma as the collections of Archetypes that keep us Acting from the Unconscious rather than from Conscious Choice.  Archetypes have us using the same script for all of our plays.  Karma is always a bit more subtle than this (at least till we see through it), but you can imagine screaming “Stella” while Making Love to Fred or Susie, while buying spaghetti at the local Tesco, and while a gendarme is asking to see your driver’s license.

Walking in Beauty is not about being gorgeous.  It’s about having perfect Self-Confidence in one’s ability and willingness to Respond appropriately to any situation that arises.  In some Cultures, Walking in Beauty may imply perfectly performing one’s Role in the Community, but that would be Truly Walking in Beauty only during Rituals where the Role was rigidly defined.  

True Walking in Beauty would combine Yintegrity with Self-Confidence.  That would include the Courage to be Vulnerable in situations of Uncertainty when one is Safe, the Flexibility to Stonewall when one is not Safe, and the Wisdom to tell the difference.  This coming week we can expect to get practice at this.

Pluto of course symbolizes a Change of Trance, Transformation, or Resurrection.  We can presume that Consciousness in Full would mean operating from Presence rather than Trance, but most things are actually Relative.

There may be a Threshold beyond which one is comfortable proclaiming oneself to be Enlightened or Always Present, but while the difference is subtle and obviously depends on the Self-Love of the observer, I haven’t found it difficult to tell the difference between “since I became Enlightened” as a statement of Ego, and as a statement of Fact.  In the latter case it’s seldom spoken.

And as always when we’re dealing with Unconscious Beliefs (ie, Karma, Archetypes), it’s important to remember that “I‘d rather Die than go through that again” isn’t a statement about that, it’s a statement about “I,” namely an Ego Death.  Getting to this point is actually a cause for Celebration, because it means that Letting Go is the only thing left between us and our scheduled Growth in Consciousness.

Remember that Karma is actually dead; it’s not that our Karma grasps us, it’s that we grasp our Karma.  Karma is actually the intersection of our Expectations and our Held Emotions.  When we’re Traumatized, acutely or traumatically, we Experience anything that reminds of that Trauma as a Repetition of the Trauma.  And it’s logical that we Resist this, and that we are loathe to re-Experience the horrible Emotions that accompanied the Trauma.

So our Held Emotions – the Experience of Trauma that we’re loathe to Feel again – are a wall between us and Presence.  But our Held Emotions are a Reaction to the Trauma, they are not the Trauma.  So we can actually practice tiptoeing up to the Edge of our Held Emotions and peeking in, especially if we have a Trusted helper standing by to remind us that we’re just practicing.  We can thus Teach ourself that the Emotions and the Trauma are not the same thing.

When our Karma is defended by “mere” Repetition rather than by Held Emotions, it’s a lot Easier to Let Go of our Karma, even as, without the Held Emotions to warn us, it’s more difficult to Notice that we’re entering a Trance.  Most of us “hired” parents to create Programming for us by forcing us to Repeat Patterns that they found acceptable, rather than allow us to practice our “Childish” Yintegrity, which being Experimental can be fairly “immature.”

If you know when you’re being Present (Grounded, Alert, Listening, Engaged but Neutral) and when you aren’t, this is a good week to watch for times when you exit Presence, and then Ask yourself What’s Going On.  How are you not Present?  Emotional?  Anxious?  Thinking?  Talking?  Drowsy?  Spaced out?  I don’t recommend you Analyze, but that you PIAVA Clarity.  Analysis can rework the Known, but only some form of PIAVAing can penetrate into the Unknown.

Huge Reboot 10

September 18, 2016

And now that we’re deep into the Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake Triple Conjunction (Expanding Self-Loving Abundance), we may as well mention a couple of additional speedbumps.  We mentioned that any emphasis on Self-Love will trigger all of your reasons to recall your Self-Rejection – as Opportunities to Let them Go.  We grasp our Karma, not the other way around, because once we get a whiff of old Bummers, we Expect them to follow through.  So, Change your Expectations.  If that’s hard, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade and persist.  Not how many times you fall down, how many times you get up.

So, while in Reboot 9 we proposed that Clearing our Limiting Beliefs was The Most Important Thing, it turns out that “God” also wants us to Pay Attention to the Quality of our Self-Love.

That is, a Finger of God points at Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake from the Sextile between Ceres (Sustainability, Permanence) and Nessus-OR10 (Irruption of Unconscious Contents about Abuse and Privilege).

In particular, there’s a suggestion that Memories of Abuse – or Abuse of Privilege – may pop up unbidden.  Or bidden, if you want to push the envelope.  Welcome them as a Clearing.  They may bring up Challenging Emotions, but that’s exactly what’s going on here – Neptune, South Node, and Chiron are in Pisces after all, and Pisces is about Finishing Unfinished Emotional Business.  Use you many tools if they do – Tapping, “You poor Sweetheart…” et al.  

They’re coming up now, if they do, in order to make your Recovery Permanent.  They may come up in unremembered Dreams, of course.  You don’t need to process them intellectually, and may not need to process them Consciously.  You’re free to Change the Subject.  Just make a note to Pay Attention in a few months to see if your sense of undefined Dread arises less often.  And you do need to be Loving and Gentle with yourself – that’s what breaks the Pattern, and that’s what Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake’s all about.

And of course, Recovering from past Abuse, including the sort of Self-Abuse and Self-Sabotage and Self-Abandonment involved with Either/Or Oathing and the Limiting Beliefs that result, is really the same thing as Clearing our Limiting Beliefs, isn’t it.  The Universe is just coming at us from all Angles, to make sure we’re Supported on all sides.

We’re also “Celebrating” the End of our Attachment to Archetypes around Charisma.  If you want to know where Unexamined Charisma leads, just look to T’Rump.  Charisma Unexamined is an Archetype.  It’s like an Imaginary Bridge over a chasm.  It works fine as long as you don’t Realize that the Bridge is Imaginary when you’re halfway across.

Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake is also the focus of a T-Square across the Opposition between the asteroid Atropos (Endings) and Hylonome-Chariklo (Grief over the Loss of Identity with an Archetype).

All that said, the net result is extraordinary Positive.  A great deal of very Effective and very Targeted Grace is also Present, which will make everything much Easier than it otherwise would be.

A Finger of God and a T-Square pointing at the same planet(s) makes a Diamond Star configuration, where the “Bowl of Grace” under the T-Square (the Sextiles and Trines between the ends of the base of the T-Square and the base of the Yod) make the Challenge of the T-Square very Gracious, and the Mastery less Effortful.  

Responsibility IV

September 9, 2016

Hylonome turns Direct (8am PDT 10 September and 9am PDT when the Moon crosses Hylonome)
Chariklo turns Direct (3pm PDT 19 September and 1pm PDT when the Moon crosses Chariklo)

A reader writes…

“I woke up feeling so much fear… a feeling like I was a child who was taken care of by adults and now they all suddenly left without preparing me for the world and I was alone and I had no clue how to survive in the world without the adults taking care of me…

“I felt like a child who thinks nothing can go wrong in their life, a bit cocky, ready to take on anyone who they don’t like…. suddenly come to realize all that confidence and cockiness and feeling invincible is no longer here when the support of the adults is gone and suddenly the support system is gone and I have to fend for myself…. it was pure fear…. I cannot even tell you how intense and weird and foreign it felt…”

It’d be difficult to find a better description of Chariklo and Hylonome.  I’ve never found it easy to explain, but I’ve always said that “Beauty has its own Karma.”  Like Romney’s 47% and Trump’s “What have you got to lose?”, or losing our credit cards, Privilege is Blind to Lack of Privilege.  And among modern Hupers, Beauty begets Privilege.  Chariklo is about Beauty and Charm.

Hylonome on the other hand is about Loss of an Archetype that we Depend upon.  We’ve Given Away our Power to someone or some thing that we’ve Merged with, and when the object of our Projection goes away, we’re left without our own Resilience and means of Independent Survival.  Hylonome and Chariklo have been traveling together since early 2014, though Chariklo will begin pulling ahead now.

Hylonome Initiated Chariklo at the end of January 2015 in 30 Sagittarius, which is about the Repetition of Ritual.  No question that there’s Power there, but is it Support, or Obligation?

It should be fairly obvious, again, that these last three years have been preparing us for the Loss of what we have come to Take for Granted.  The Saturn-Neptune (Cultural Structure), Saturn-Pluto (Zeitgeist Clarity), and Jupiter-Saturn (Cultural-Economic Balance) Cycles are all Waning (Deconstructing), with the Saturn-Chiron (Limits of Possibility) Cycle joining them by year-end.  Our proper course is Letting Go of anything unnecessary, in preparation for major Changes.

Several of these major Cycles recharge in the first year or two of the next Decade.  The 1/1/2000 chart also promises major Changes – Loss of the Veil that Constrains our sense of Reality (Neptune-Nodes), Loss of National Identity (Chiron-Pluto), and Loss of Surplus (Ceres Rising).  

Over the next six months new Saturn (Structure) Cycles will be Initiated by all of the players we’re dancing with now – Ixion, Pholus, Quaoar, Hylonome, Chariklo, sharply Changing the way we relate to Genius, Responsibility, Survival, Identity, and Privilege.  Mars will cross this field over the next month, Changing the way we apply our Energy to these endeavors.  Jupiter will run this Gauntlet in 2019.

Hylonome and Chariklo have moved into Capricorn, whose motto is “Just Fix It.”  The message for us is to Examine our Attachments, and Transform or Jettison all Self-Sabotaging Identities that we find, along with those which don’t Serve our Mission.  The other gangsters – Saturn, Ixion, Pholus, Quaoar – are still in Sagittarius.  Sagittarius is “Mutable Fire,” or Spiritual Mutation – Burning Off the chaff, Letting Go before we burn our fingers.

The Waxing Cycles provide clues about where we’re heading – Uranus-Pluto (Yintegrity), Chiron-Pluto (Transformation of Identity), Chiron-Neptune (Transformation of Culture – our Fresh Violets in an Ancient Pottery Bowl), Uranus-Neptune (We Are All One).  Bottom Line?  Back to Community.  Time for a Searching and Fearless Inventory.  If it’s not growing Organic Corn, Compost it.