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Ego Edges

September 6, 2021

We’re still trying to satisfy two Goals with one Blog – describing what’s going on on the Planet while gradually teaching astrology, since anything you Learn about astrology will greatly deepen your Experience of Life on Earth and your Adeptness with it. In this post, read through it first while Suspending Disbelief and ignoring the footnotes. Then go back and reread the whole post, exploring the footnotes as you go. Even if you have no interest in Learning anything about astrology, there is much to gain by simply skimming the footnotes to see if anything catches your eye. Skimming may not get us a PhD, but when we’ve skimmed the same or similar material many times, a lot more has sunk in than we Realize.

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One of the greatest Toxins that we Encounter is Certainty. My training as a Psychic was rudimentary. I had fabulous Teachers, I just didn’t pursue it very far because there were too many other Threads going on at the time, but one of the first things I learned was that an easy way to access our Intuition is to Ask ourself, What If I Did Know?

It’s a great technique, and it almost always serves us, but without additional Discernment Skills, it serves our Heart’s Truth, not necessarily the Etheric Truth, and not necessarily Someone Else’s Heart’s Truth. Our Heart’s Truth is a Reliable Guide for Avoiding Self-Sabotage, but it doesn’t Clear our Limitations. Of course, for most everyone reading this, your Heart’s Truth will include a Life Mission of Clearing your Limitations, but that can’t help but compete with other, more trivial matters, such as Survival, or Getting Bald and High…

We’ve just been through a couple of weeks of Fear and Anger,1 and we’re already diving into another week that isn’t per se about Fear and Anger, but is by its nature heavily encumbered with Fear and Anger.2 We’ll talk more about this Forbidden Genius of ours soon, but I want to introduce Them through a prominent (though subtle) feature of the 22 August Full Moon…3

1 The 30 August 2021 Station of Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] in 30 Taurus, stretched out by the 30 August-3 September Out-of-Bounds Moon [Excess Emotionality Covered by Deep and Wide Culturally-Supported Justification, AKA Focusing on our Thoughts about our Emotions rather than on how and where we Feel the Emotions in our Body]. Can we tell the Difference between our Emotions and our Thoughts about them?

Our Thoughts about our Emotions are Mental Gibberish serving only to prop up our Old Ego, Prevent Rebirth, and Maintain our Karmic Limitations. Emotion Itself on the other hand, is the Portal to our Sacred Intuition, to our Future, and potentially to our Liberation from Karmic Limitation (if we have the Fortitude to tackle our Thoughts about the Emotions that We’d Rather Die Than Feel ).

If we can Learn this Discernment1a in this Lifetime, it will be the Pinnacle of Cosmic Success that will Change our Karma forever. Our fellow Gronabixoleans won’t recognize us when we return to our Home Galaxy. Discerning our Emotions (Pisces) from our Thoughts about them (Aquarius) is the Central Lesson of the Pisces-Aquarius Cusp, and if we don’t Learn it here we could be Stuck in Piscean Victimhood for possibly another 25 thousand years, till the next Progressed Pisces-Aquarius Cusp rolls around. Won’t that be Fun. Thank the Goddess that Linear Time is an Illusion.

1a We also have to Learn that Emotions aren’t Ours or Theirs, any more than the Weather is. Emotions are Independent Energies that Visit us, and can Attach to our Egos like Leeches and Suck Away our Life Force. But they also Serve us as a Portal to our Sacred Intuition. We Feel and Dismiss them in a flash, till we get Stuck on Our Thoughts about Them. If we make Decisions based on our Thoughts about Them, we Create sticky new Karma that can follow us around the Multiverse like a hungry Coyote, just Out of Sight. But we know they’re There, don’t we.

2 The 12 September (5:07 am PDT) Station of Ixion [Our Forbidden Genius] in 30 Sagittarius, the same Degree (in different Signs) as the Sedna Station and the Full Moon. When planets are in the same or nearby Degrees, the Interactions between their Domains of Impact are much more Intense. The Full Moon, the Sedna Station, and the Ixion Station span three weeks, but the Unconscious doesn’t Live in Linear Time. There in the Universe beyond the Bounds of our Ego (which Universe, if you haven’t noticed, is usually very much Larger than we are), everything is Simultaneous. Natives of North America (nee Turtle Island) Believe that everything that ever happened in a place is still going on there. If you bother to Look for it, you can Feel it.

3 In 30 Aquarius. The New and Full Moons primarily impact the 2-4 weeks following them. Find the complete chart for the 22 August Full Moon in the Expanding into Fear II post.

…namely, we have a Challenge between a double symbol of Rebirth and a double symbol of Death.4 This is not a Duel, but a more nuanced Conflict with many combatants and collaborators and involved spectators who have Skin in the Game.5 Our Self-Confidence is deeply Involved,6 as is The Integration of Feminine Power into our Life.7

4 Asteroid Klotho [Beginning New Fateful Adventures] Conjunct [Merged With] dwarf planet Haumea [Rebirth in an Unformed Molten State] on the Birth side, Square to [Challenged by – drawn as the shorter red line] two Strangers we’ve added to fill Vacancies, asteroid Requiem [Respect for Death] Merged With dwarf planet Cyllarus [Death in Combat] on the Death side. Centaur Cyllarus was Killed in the battle that Wounded Chiron.

5 The Square is part of a Grand Cross [Difficult and Complex Process involving many Related Issues – four planets equally spaced ’round the Zodiac, shown by the red square with a cross in the middle].

6 The other two corners of the Grand Cross are dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt ] – Chiron’s wife, and…

7 Two Fixed Stars, Al Rescha [Bringing two disparate Concept Sets together to Create Deeper Understanding] and Mirach [Harmony, Receptivity, Intuition, Magnetism, Collaboration].

Remember our first sentence? When we’re in a Life-and-Death Struggle, Certainty is the Order of the Day. We’re Certain that the Oxymoronavirus will kill us if we Let It. Or Wait! No, the Vaccine will Certainly Kill us! Meanwhile, Global Warming is Killing us, drowning some of us while we sleep. The Emperor has no Clouds. What is it that the Howlers Fear Most? Loss of Freedom, all seem to say.

Freedom to continue Life As It Was Known. Freedom to Blame the Threat to Survival on Viruses, Vaccines, Abortions, Masks, Political Opponents, anything which will Focus Attention on those Thoughts about the Fear that Life will Change drastically, because if the Caterwauling is loud enough, Influencing the Outcome of those Issues may be Possible. Won’t it be a shock when it’s discovered that Stopping Abortions and Vaccines and Viruses and Political Opponents doesn’t Stop Floods and Wildfires and Freezeouts. Won’t it be a shock when parents who risked their Children’s Lives sending them back to School discover that the Schooling that the Surviving kids received is worthless because it was only Relevant to Destroying the Earth.

In any four-cornered astrological Configuration, the Diagonals between the corners provide useful information. In this Death-Rebirth Configuration the Diagonals are Oppositions, usually signifying that two Concepts are Arguing, or if we aren’t in Resistance, that they’re willing to Cooperate.

The Rebirth corner Dances with the Integration of Feminine Power corner.8 If we’re indeed on the Cusp of Letting the Patriarchy Burn Itself Out, this will be a Delightful Dance. If we’re Terrified that our Investments in the Patriarchy are Bankrupt, then we’re likely to be Screaming into our Zoom Meetings that it’s Imperative to Bring Back Business-As-Usual, because that’s More Important (to them) than how many people are Dying.

The Death corner Dances with Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt.9 If we’re Confident we’re on our Path, then we’ll Embrace the Ego Death. If we’re in Self-Doubt, our Fear of Death will probably be Lit Up, and we might even be contemplating Physical Death.

But it’s not that simple. If we look closely we can see that both of these Oppositions are Mystery Schools.10 In a Mystery School we Learn something completely Surprising and Unexpected from the Dance, something that’s not accessible to the two-dimensional mind. If we’re Open to it, that is, and if we Avoid trying to “Figure It Out.” The Insights available are not accessible by the Mind, as they’re more multidimensional that the Mind is able to Grok. We have to be Mindful of the Presence of Thinking, Thank it and Bless It, and Open our Intuition instead.

There is something Profound to Learn, available to us over the coming week, about the Relationship between (Ego) Death and Confidence or Doubt, and something Profound for us to Learn about the Relationship between our Rebirth and our Integration of Feminine Power. Astrology does give hints about where to look for these Insights.11 Death and Confidence-Doubt are somehow tied up in this Adventure with Being More Open to Embracing our Hidden Genius and Acknowledging How We Were Punished For It in our Youth. Rebirth and Feminine Power are somehow bound up in this Workshop with Acknowledging our Guilt and Tapping It Out.

8 Klotho-Haumea Opposite Mirach-Al Rescha.

9 Requiem-Cyllarus Opposite Chariklo.

10 These Oppositions are both Yin Gates. The Klotho-Haumea to Mirach-Al Rescha Opposition is surrounded by a big blue “Golden” Rectangle, Golden because the ratio between the length of the sides and the length of the ends is the “Golden Angle” of Sacred Geometry fame, an Angle that is Replete in Nature. Its corners are Karma, Nemesis [Guilt], the Fixed Star Scheat [Creative Freedom from Conventional Thinking], and Sedna.

The Chariklo to Requiem-Cyllarus Opposition is also enclosed in a Golden Rectangle, but it’s drawn in thinner blue lines. It connects Ixion et al, Moon-Jupiter [Expanding our Instincts], Chaos-Asbolus [Intuitive Insight into our Unlimited Potential], and Sun-Thereus [The Places in our Essence where we’re Willing to Wrestle with Bears].

11 In the six diagonals embedded in each of the bisected Golden Rectangles…

For Rebirth-Feminine Power they’re the Karma-Scheat and Nemesis-Sedna Oppositions, Klotho-Haumea’s Quincunxes to Scheat and to Sedna, and Mirach-Al Rescha’s Quincunxes to Nemesis and Karma. Quincunxes are 5-Sign Angles, drawn in green lines.

For Death-Confidence they’re Chaos-Asbolus’s Opposition to Ixion-Pholus-GC, the Sun-Thereus Opposition to Moon-Jupiter, Chariklo’s Quincunxes to Chaos-Asbolus and Sun-Thereus, and Requiem-Cyllarus’s Quincunxes to Jupiter-Moon and Ixion-Pholus-GC.

These many Relationships are for Meditation, not Analysis – that’s 12 Meditations. If you’re up for that, more Power to you! Remember that Quincunxes represent Questions, not Answers or Statements. And Remember that in a Yin Gate, Oppositions will not be Arguments or Collaborations, but Paradoxes, like Zen Koans. What’s the Sound of One Bear Wrestling while Expanding? might be an example (Thereus Opposite Jupiter). The Insights in these Gordian Knots will be Personal, not Global. If you have any natal planets on Cusps, the Rewards from this Exploration may be Immense.

Expanding into Fear II

August 29, 2021

In the 30 August 2021 Sedna Station (Emphasis on Converting Fear to Power) chart…

…we’ve adhered closely to our usual 3-Degree Sensitivity…

That’s “Orb” in astrologuese. Like most astrologers, we consider “Transiting” Angles to be Live if they’re within three Degrees of Exact; for instance, dwarf planet Cyllarus is 1 Degree and 47 Arcminutes (31:02 less 29:16 equals 1:47) from an exact Sextile to Sedna – that’s within 3 Degrees. The Sextile Angle (short blue line) connects two planets that are 2 Signs apart. “Transiting” means “in the sky now,” as opposed to “Natal,” meaning in a Birth Chart. The average Natal Sensitivity commonly used is around 8 Degrees (varying depending on the Angle – more for a Conjunction, less for an Unx). We’ll introduce Cyllarus a bit later.

On the other hand, we’ve expanded our Sensitivity a tad to 3½ Degrees in the 22 August Full Moon chart (if we round up the Degrees, as is customary in astrology, from 29:37 to 30 [=0] for the Moon, from 2:56 to 3 for Pholus, and from 26:10 to 27 for Karma, it still looks like 3 Degrees of Sensitivity – we often do this rounding up)…

We’ve omitted Jupiter (Expansion) in the Sedna station chart, but it was only 3:24 away from a Square (Challenge) to the Sedna Station. And, the 22 August Full Moon was Conjunct Jupiter, which is to say, About Expansion, so you can see why we speak of “Expanding” into Fear. A Full Moon chart applies mostly to the two weeks following the event, while a Station chart applies mostly to the week or so prior to the event, though as we said in the previous post, we expect the Sedna Station chart to influence the week after the event because of the Out of Bounds Moon.

We’ve also added several extracurricular Stars and ‘Roids to the Full Moon chart, in order to fill in some obvious Vacancies. We’ll get to that later. First, let’s look at the Sedna Station chart…

The meat of the Sedna Station chart is the Major Challenge (T-Square, the red triangle) to Becoming Aware of our Karma (Mercury/Awareness Conjunct/Merged With asteroid Karma/Karma). Becoming Aware of our Karma often involves an Ego Death, which are seldom pleasant, unless we Focus on The meat of the Sedna Station chart is the Major Challenge (T-Square, the red triangle) to Becoming Aware of our Karma (Mercury [Awareness] Conjunct [Merged With] asteroid Karma [Karma]). Becoming Aware of our Karma often involves an Ego Death, which are seldom pleasant, unless we Focus on How Wonderful Life Will Be After We Ditch Those Bummers! (Hint Hint). But the vegetables are in the Heavy Heavy base of the T-Square, which is where the Real Action often lies in a T-Square.

On one side of this Opposition (Dualistic Argument aka Politics) are Orders from Headquarters (the Galactic Center), Our Hidden and Often Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion), and That Which Will Blindside Us If We Continue to Ignore It (dwarf planet Pholus). Like Kabul and Nahlins and Waverly and the California Conflagrations, the Message from Galactic Headquarters is We’re Done Messing Around, It’s Time To Get your Creative Butt in Gear and Get This Fixed! Did Recycling save the Roman Empire from decline? Nothing on our Catastrophic Trajectory will Change until Hupers regard the Planet as a Partner rather than a Resource, regard Excess Profit as the Crime of Grand Theft that it is, and regard Social Norms as the Foundation of the Status Quo that is the Cause of the Problem. And that’s Exactly what our Forbidden Genii came here to Fix. Not far from Pholus are our Survival Instincts (dwarf planet Quaoar).

On the Other Side of this Political Duality are Our Intuition (dwarf planet Asbolus) and Our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos). How many of us Cherish our Intuition and Practice Trusting it constantly? How many of us are Exhilarated by Unlimited Potential, and how many of us Terrified by it? On the GC-Ixion-Pholus side of the Political Divide are the Guts to tackle the Elephant in the Room, and on this Asbolus-Chaos side are all of our Yes-Buts. Yes-But it’s Scary – we could Lose our Mod Cons! We’ll Lose a lot more than that if we don’t Change the Trajectory.

Fortunately, we don’t have to do this Alone. We have Allies. There is a Truss Bridge across the Divide (the blue lines connecting GC-Ixion-Pholus, Klotho-Haumea, Eurydike-Thereus, and Asbolus-Chaos). We can Trust (Eurydike) our Ability to wrestle Bears (Thereus). And we can Trust our Recent Double Rebirth

A Significant New Life Chapter Began (asteroid Klotho enters Scorpio) at 4:16 am PDT 26 August. Scorpio doesn’t mess around. It’s Fearlessly dedicated to Getting to the Bottom of Things. What Things? Since it’s on the cusp, it’s the same chart as the 22 August Full Moon. In that chart, it’s blocking for dwarf planet Haumea, another Strong Rebirth Signal. Pele’s daughter Haumea doesn’t make it to Scorpio, though, turning Backwards in January 2022 two arc-seconds shy of the Cusp of Scorpio. Its dallying delays Haumea’s flow of hot lava into Scorpio till mid-November 2022. Klotho has already crossed Haumea, though, Beginning a New Cycle on 14 August, a few minutes past 12 am PDT, in 28 Libra, “A person becoming aware of spiritual forces surrounding and assisting them.” The four-year Klotho-Haumea Cycle is about Rebirth upon Rebirth. We’re just getting started.

The other Powerful Allies are in the Dumb-Luck Blessings (Grand Trine) that also Touches the Mercury-Karma node. The Allies here are Fearlessness (the Sedna Station itself) and Confidence (dwarf planet Chariklo). If Doubt comes up, Let It Go immediately. You know we’re right about this. Business as Usual is rapidly making this whole Planet look like a Martian Desert. By the time Musk and Bezos get there, Mars will look Lush by comparison to Earth. That’s why Gaia threw a well-deserved fifth wave of the Moronavirus at us.

Finally, dwarf planet Cyllarus demands our Attention as it makes the Grand Trine into a Kite, with itself at the Top. Cyllarus, along with asteroid Requiem (Honoring Death) dropped in to Complete two Vacancies in the Full Moon chart, filling a Grand Sextile and a Grand Cross. He completes the Storyboard for the Sedna Station. Herakles, or Hercules, had a Zeus-given assignment to help Rid the World of Threats to the Patriarchy, especially the Mysteries left over from the Matriarchy. On his journey to this end, he bunked with the unsuspecting Centaur Pholus.

Pholus had Responsibility for safekeeping the Sacred Wine of the Centaurs, and while Pholus was out shopping at Emporos Iosif’s, Herakles Opened the unhidden Sacred Wine. Did he know what he was doing? Probably. The scent carried, and the Centaurs immediately went mad and starting killing each other and everyone in sight. Pholus, true to his habit of ignoring consequences, got dead by picking up a poison dart that had killed someone else, and clumsily dropping it on his foot. Chiron (Despair and Miracles) got the Wound that would eventually make him give up his Immortality. The third corner of the Grand Trine is Centaur Chariklo, Chiron’s wife. And distraught Centaur Hylonome (Codependence and Self-Sovereignty) killed herself with the same spear that killed her Centaur-Stud Lover. That Lover was Cyllarus.

If you need a Program, We are the Centaurs in this story, and Predatory Capitalism is Herakles. We’re killing each other as we help kill the Planet, and we don’t even know why.

Rebirth

January 23, 2021

is our next big Station event, as dwarf planet Haumea, named after Pele’s Hawaiian Fertility-Goddess Daughter, Stands Still in the Sky at 10:45 am PST 26 January 2021, in 29 Libra. We’re already immersed in its Energy. Unless you think like a Rock, or spend most of your time in Fire Signs, I suppose Haumea could seem like a Violent Rebirth, especially if your house gets in the way. It certainly Violates the Ego, usually emerging in the wake of its Annihilation. That’s almost always a positive development though, well worth the labor pains.

Before we get there however, we have a bunch of Sign Changes and other minutiae to Entertain us…

🌅 Asteroid Klotho is also about Rebirth, as it’s the Greek Goddess of Fate after whom cloth was named. She “cut the cloth” from which our Fate was sewn. Consciousness is our Get Out of Fate Free card. Well, almost Free. We have to not only bring our Fate or Karma into Consciousness, but then we have to Notice when it begins to recur, Choose to Do or Invite something different, and then Repeat many times till it becomes the Dominant Habit. It may be a Help to do this while Klotho is lit up, such as this week or the week of 15 February, as that should make it much easier to Begin a New and Better Pattern to replace the olde Karmic one.

Klotho moved into Scorpio on 19 January, though it turns Retrograde 19 February and backs into Libra again in March. It won’t return to Scorpio till September, and then it hurries through, moving into Sagittarius in November. Klotho in Libra increases the odds of making Connections with new people, while in Scorpio it’s about Inspirational New Projects that have Deep Meaning for you. In Sagittarius you’re likely to be Opening Space for the Unknown to occur.

🌅 Asteroid Nemesis, which we might Experience as Guilt if we don’t Let Go of it, and as Ego Death if we do, has been in Scorpio since October 2020, wherein we’ve probably taken Guilt and Ego Death very seriously. It moved into Sagittarius 21 January, where we’ll be highly Motivated to Clear our Guilt Calendar so we can Enjoy Life more while Sea Level is still at bay. We’ll be Letting Go of Guilt till June before Nemesis backs into Scorpio to reprocess the Regrets which have proved Resistant to our efforts to Leave them Behind. We have to Fully Accept Reality As It Is before we can Change it. It returns to Sagittarius in August and in November moves on into Capricorn.

🌅 Asteroid Moira is named after the Goddess of Fate herself. It symbolizes that ancient mental masturbation about whether Fate or Free Will characterizes our Planet. It’s like when the Heart and Brain were arguing over which of them was more indispensable, when in walked the Anus. All Either/Ors are artifacts of the Observing Mind, because Reality doesn’t include Either/Ors, just Both/Ands. The difference between Fate and Free Will is Consciousness. When we’re Conscious of our “Fate” (ie, our Karma or pre-birth Habit Patterns) we can Choose Otherwise.

Moira entered Capricorn in November, wherein Pragmatism was likely to rule and we hopefully Discerned quite a bit of Karma and scheduled it for Change. In Aquarius, which it entered on 22 January but in which it only remains for two months before moving on to Pisces, we’re likely to be working on Changing our Social Habits, softening some Boundaries and stiffening others. The recent shift where the urge to Pale Supremacy managed to criminalize itself is undoubtedly a prime example. Even if it ends up swept under the rug again, every episode like this one weakens the Karmic Pattern.

🌅 Speaking of Karma (it’s always Listening!), asteroid Karma backed into Leo on 22 January. It’s been in Leo since September, but began visiting Virgo in November. When Karma’s in Leo we work on our Unconditional Self-Love. In Virgo we just Surrender (Willingly or otherwise) our Self-Doubt to Ego Death. Our remedial work in Leo lasts till June, then we finish Virgo in the following three months. It would behoove us to Reframe Self-Doubt as a signal to Poor-Sweetheart ourself, instead of a signal to go into the mind and figure out why we’re so inferior.

🌪️ Then there’s Moon Out of Bounds, when the Moon moves more Northerly than the Sun’s Northern Solstice and we become more Emotional than usual. It’s subtle, because we attribute it to External “Causes” rather than our Internal Reactions. Emotions don’t have Causes. Cause is an Intellectual Concept that Western Civilization has become Addicted to since Isaac Newton got pissed off after Eve hit him in the head with an Apple. The Moon goes Out of Bounds at 7:10 pm PST on 24 January, till 6:53 pm PST on 27 January. It’s Stationary, as it turns around to head back South, on 26 January at 7:40 am PST. While it’s Out of Bounds it spans 22 Gemini through 30 Cancer, Standing Still at 11 Cancer.

🌅 On 26 January, Haumea Stands Still Conjunct Klotho, but we’ll have been Feeling this Urge to Reboot all week already. We’re intending to dedicate a post to this Station soon.

🌅 On 27 January Chariklo moves into Aquarius. Chariklo isn’t just another asteroid, but a dwarf planet with a 63-year orbit, so this is a Big Deal. Chariklo is about Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt. In Capricorn, where it’s been since January 2015, we’ve had the tools (Capricorn’s Practicality) to effectively address and Reject Self-Doubt, but we’re more likely to have followed the Cultural Folly of our Programming and gone into our Mental Labyrinth seeking “Reasons” that we might be able to “Correct,” simply because that’s our Cultural Karma. Self-Doubt is an Emotion, so seeking Reasons is like looking under the streetlight for the keys that we lost back in the woods, because the Light’s better under the streetlight. Like Despair, Self-Doubt is another prime candidate for Poor-Sweethearting.

Chariklo stays in Aquarius till February 2028, except for a short Capricorn debriefing in September-November 2021 and a preview of Pisces in April-July 2027. Chariklo in Aquarius is likely to Challenge our Codependence, as we may be in the Habit of Confusing Social Approval with Self-Confidence. 5D won’t work unless we all Contribute our Heart’s Truth without Diminishing or Intimidating anyone else’s Heart’s Truth (we’re fresh from a four-year lesson from a Master about how NOT to do this). So we may have to Work on ourself, and solicit Help from others, to Learn to have complete Confidence in our own Heart’s Truth without hedging it to protect or flatter anyone else’s Ego, and without Hesitating out of Caution or Fear, as some of us may have been doing for the last four years living under the shadow of an Abusive Tyrant wannabe.

🌅 Then on 28 January asteroid Sappho (symbolizing Unconditional Self-Love) moves into Capricorn until April 2021, from Sagittarius where it’s been since November 2020. Since November we’ve been Letting Go of Impediments to our Unconditional Self-Love. Now we’ll turn the tides and begin Learning new ways to Enhance our Self-Love. While Sappho in Capricorn is short-lived, its timing is obviously a booster for the entrance of Chariklo into Aquarius.

If nothing else we can work on the Habit of quickly Poor-Sweethearting ourself (and then of course Changing the Subject) every time we Notice that we’re touching Self-Doubt or Hesitating to Speak our Truth because of Codependence or Caution. We don’t need to practice Taking Risks to Speak our Truth when it’s Dangerous. Every time we Poor-Sweetheart ourself we shift our Identity, and once we’ve shifted it enough times we’ll find ourself Speaking Up with Full Authority and without Coercion, as we simply get Grounded in our own Truth. When our Languaging doesn’t Coerce and our Authority is Grounded, our Presence will be Strong enough that Danger is no longer an issue. As my First Teacher used to say, “When your Body is Filled with your own Energy, no one can Invade you.”

🌅 Finally, at 3pm PST on 29 January, Out-of-Bounds asteroid Eurydike (Trust) reaches its Northernmost extent at 29 Degrees North and Stands Still as it turns around to head South again. It’s at 18 Cancer when it Stations. I expect we’ll be more Intensely Experiencing whatever Trust Issues we may be Working with, for the week or so prior to the 29th. A likely time for this Experience to peak would be the neighborhood of 9pm PST 26 January, when the Out-of-Bounds Moon crosses the Out-of-Bounds Eurydike. The crossing is in longitude, at 19 Cancer – the Moon will be only 25 Degrees North, four Degrees South of Eurydike. That would be approximately overhead at Havana Cuba and Fort Lauderdale Florida, or Dhaka Bengladesh and Lhasa Tibet. Your 19-Cancer natal planets may be jumping up and down and shouting for your Attention.

WhyAreWeFeelingGuilty New Moon 2

October 15, 2020

Time flies (away) when you’re doing taxes, but (phew!) that’s milk under the Bridge now, so we can Celebrate with a New Moon, among other Energies. Many of us broke out of several weeks of Chagrin into more Hopeful places at the end of last week, but if you’re starting to Feel Overwhelmed again, just Embrace the Confusion as a Feeling, and don’t try to “Fix It.” Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness, but only if we don’t try to Anal-yze It, “Figure It Out,” or Fix It. We’re now in the middle of several Strong Energy cross-currents, including…

💓 The 16 October 2020 (12:30 pm PDT) New Moon in 24 Libra, which is all about Being Reborn Out of Lifelong Guilt Patterns (New Moon Conjunct dwarf planet Haumea [Rebirth] and asteroid Nemesis [Guilt, Ego Death]) and Assertively Opening Up to Long-Hidden Secrets – or Finding that the Universe Aggressively Opens Them Up “For” Us – or what might feel like “Against” us (New Moon Opposite Mars [Action, Assertion] and dwarf planet Eris [Revelation of What’s Been Denied]).

Because the New Moon strongly Triggers that Energy, we’ve combined the New Moon chart with the chart of the 3-4 October Exaggerations (Stations) of Confidence and Doubt (dwarf planet Chariklo) and of Compulsion and Trance-Formation (dwarf planet Pluto)

To Create a New Habit, we Hypnotize ourself. Various components of our Universe are always introducing new Trances into our Life as well. The consummate Adept at Trance-Formation is dwarf planet Pluto. It’s pretty much in charge of our Culture’s Weltanshaung at any given Moment, and since Pluto Guards the entrance to the Underwhere, and since the Underwhere is the Source of our Trances, we damn well better Befriend Pluto if we want to Live a Life that, from the Ego’s Perspective, “works,” and provides us any sort of Satisfaction.

Planet Earth entered a New Time Province around Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt on 3-4 October. If you haven’t figured out yet that You Can Choose Between Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence, the next few weeks (the period when the New Moon has its greatest impact) is a great time to make that Choice. We spoke a bit about this in the previous post. I know, Self-Doubt has a Life of its own, fostered by Power Figures in our Personal History that stoked it for their own gain. However, like any Bane in our Life, we need to Learn to interpret any Triggering of our Self-Doubt as an Opportunity to Let It Go once and for all.

Since Trance and Habit and Karma and élan all sit on the Edge between our Consciousness and the Unconscious, this is PIAVA territory. Trying to influence the Unconscious with Dynamic (“Masculine”) Plan-Execute Energy, while useful, is at best arduous (“training,” “reps,” “practice”), and often not even effective, especially if Discipline isn’t our Greatest Joy. But this is precisely where Magnetic (“Feminine”) Energy Excels. So we might try a Sustainable (Ceres Stationary Conjunct Damocles 18 October) global PIAVA like this Theta

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that henceforth, whenever Self-Doubt Arises, I Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely, and Safely, Choose Self-Confidence instead. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

Of course you’ll want to go over that and modify it so that all of your Yes-Buts are satisfied.

In this chart the Guilt-Free-Rebirth-New Moon is Challenged by the New Global Trance (Pluto and Chariklo Stations), which in the chart is The Most Important Thing (Conjunct Saturn). So it’s Important to carefully Examine how Self-Confident or Self-Doubting you’ve been since the beginning of October, and modify your PIAVA accordingly. For instance, if you’ve been blistering your feet Fire-Walking or the equivalent, you’ll want to Emphasize the Safety part more.

If you’ve been Wallowing in Self-Doubt, you may want to add terms about Gradual Improvement with Frequent Checkpoints or the like, so you don’t Sabotage yourself by Overreaching and Bouncing off your Goals. It’s always more Sustainable to move 10% in the Direction you want to Change, than it is to do a 180. So you might want something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that henceforth, whenever Self-Doubt Arises, I Choose to Lovingly and Gently and Safely Move A Few Steps Toward Self-Confidence instead. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

As usual, if your “Show Me!” doesn’t reveal Bliss, Tap Out whatever Stands in the way, and then repeat the Theta, modified accordingly if necessary.

Trust in Respect for All Things (asteroids Eurydike and Hopi Opposing Saturn-Pluto-Chariklo) is part of the Complex Equation here, so if you encounter Global themes like Racism or Misogyny or Abusiveness in your Yes-Buts, take that into account. For instance, a Black Man in a traffic stop by a racist cop might Trigger the cop’s worst Trances by Acting Confident. Or a woman in an Abusive Relationship. We want internal Confidence that we can finesse our way out of a Dangerous situation, not outer Confidence that we’re Bullet-Proof, which could get us Dead. We might need something closer to…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that henceforth, whenever Self-Doubt or Fear Arises, I Choose instead to Lovingly and Gently and Safely and Carefully Move Toward a Belief That I Can Effectively Finesse My Way Out of Trouble. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

Or something like that. There are five Challenges (T-Squares) in this chart, and the Challenge of The Most Important Thing is Self-Confidence that my Trance Serves Me (Saturn-Chariklo-Pluto T-Square) is the only one that promises to be Self-Resolving (Diamond Star, or T-Square and Finger of the Goddess coinciding), so “The Goddess is on our side” here.

Charts of the Portals XII

September 24, 2020

We’ll be focused on the “25-Degree chart” for the next several weeks…

We haven’t Felt it since the 17 September 2020 New Moon and the 10 September Exaggeration of our Forbidden Genius (Station of Ixion), but it’s in our face now…

  • Exaggeration of our Intuition (Asbolus Stationary in 26 Gemini) until 6am PDT 25 September.
  • Focus on The Most Important Thing (Saturn Stationary in 26 Capricorn) until 10pm PDT 28 September.
  • Which is likely to be Our Unlimited Potential (Chaos Stationary in 29 Gemini) until 2:30 am PDT 29 September.

We did talk about these, and about Changing our Karmic History, in the Charts of the Portals X post.

  • A Huge Teaching about our Confidence (Chariklo Stationary in 25 Capricorn) till 1:20 pm PDT 3 October.  If we’re Open to it, the Teaching is likely to be that Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt are not Created by External Processes – they are products of our own Internal Decision Process.  The Teaching is Huge because it’s Merged with (Conjunct) and nearly simultaneous with…
  • A Big Shift in the Underlying Trance through which We See the World (Pluto Stationary in 23 Capricorn) through at least 6:30 am PDT 4 October.
  • A New Moon (in 24 Libra) on 16 October (12:30 pm PDT).  A New Moon will paint this Energy over at least the following two weeks.
  • Emphasis on Sustainability and Sustenance (Ceres Stationary in 29 Aquarius) until 10am PDT 18 October.  The first step toward Sustainability is Elimination of the Unnecessary, the Superfluous, and the Self-Sabotaging.  This event also brings us back to the Global Climate Change chart.
  • Learning to Have Respect for All Things (Station of Hopi in 26 Cancer) until 3am PST on 7 November.
  • Two more New Moons (in 24 Scorpio and 24 Sagittarius) on 14 November (8pm PST) and 14 December (8:15 am PST) will carry this Energy through the Capricorn Solstice (2am PST) and the Dawning of the Digital Age (Saturn Initiates Jupiter in 1 Aquarius  at 9am PST) on 21 December.  Small wonder that we’ve been growing out our hair…

And we thought it was because of the Payolavirus.  We’ve Abandoned a lot of Dreams since 1969, haven’t we.  Time to call them back.

So, we should oughta take apart this chart pretty good, eh?  Shall we start with the T-Squares (Challenges), as we often do?  They’re pretty Profound.

When we introduced this chart we were remarking about how unusual it was that it contains five Stations (planets Standing Still and hence Strong).  The chart spans three weeks, but still, five is a lot of Stations.  But we were wrong.  There are actually seven Stations in the chart – we forgot to mark Chariklo and Pluto Stationary – and eight Stations if we count Hopi (Respect for All Things), who joined after we drew up the chart.

The T-Square (Challenge) that Focuses on three of the eight Stationary planets is the obvious place to start.

A T-Square is an Opposition (the “Base” of the T-Square) with a third planet halfway in between.  We draw it as a red triangle by connecting the planets, but if you instead draw lines from the center to each planet, you can see the “T.”   A T-Square puts significant Stress on the third planet, while the first two planets contribute hints about the Nature and Origins of the Stress.  By adding a fourth planet Opposite the third to create a “Grand Cross,” much of the Stress is relieved (or at least Changed), because the latter Configuration is more Balanced.

That would be

  • Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Stationary 28 September,
  • Chariklo (Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt) Stationary 3 October, and
  • Pluto (Compulsion, Change, Formation of a New Background Trance that shifts Cultural Weltanschauungen or Milieux for Huperity) Stationary 4 October.

We might phrase this Triple Conjunction (“Stellium” in astrologuese), by itself, as something like The Most Important Thing is that we Maintain Our Confidence that we can Respond to the Changes Resiliently.

As the Focus of a T-Square, if we were intending to label Difficulties for us to Expect and Prepare for, we might phrase it as something like It may be Difficult to Maintain Our Confidence that we can Respond to the Changes Resiliently.

As the Focus of a T-Square, if we were intending to Coach ourself to Excel, we might phrase it as something like The Most Important Thing may be to Remember that any Sign of Self-Doubt will be a Red Alert that our Thoughts are leaning toward the Old Paradigm, just when we need to Remain Conscious that the Paradigm is Shifting and we need to Shift with it.

So, Shifting How?  Do we have any clues?  Before we look at the Base of the T-Square, does the Triple Conjunction itself tell us anything?

Well, a T-Square is in general about Perceived Problems.  We know we can’t Resolve an Apparent Problem without Changing the way we Think about it.  And Capricorn is about Mechanics.  It’s key phrase is Just Fix It! so Capricorn is about the Mechanics of How we’re going to Fix It.  Capricorn is about Creative Matter (the Cardinal Earth Sign), so we need a New Approach that’s Down-to-Earth, Hands-On, and involves Something Touchable.

So, maybe…

No, no, our “Problems” are bigger than that.  We have to worry about a Climate that’s Out of Control, an Economic System that’s Destroying the Planet and treats it’s Inhabitants (including us) as Expendable “Resources,” Staying Healthy amid for-profit “Medicine,” a Culture that worships Sociopaths and wants to reduce the population of us 99%ers, and the Danger of Techno-Atlantean “Solutions” that make things exponentially worse.  A lot more than darts might Fix.

If we take Capricorn apart to see where in Capricorn we are, the suggestion is that we already know How to do this (we’re late in Capricorn, at the 22½-25° Libra Duad and 25-27½° Scorpio Duad, which are about taking the Mechanical Solution we already know, and subjecting it to User Testing/Libra and Torture Testing/Scorpio).

(The Stages of Capricorn might be described as 0-2½° Capricorn Duad, the Mechanics of what we’re looking at; 2½-5° Aquarius Duad, Intellectual context; 5-7½° Pisces Duad, Reject attachment to old approaches; 7½-10° Aries Duad, Experiment with new approaches; 10-12½° Taurus Duad, Test same; 12½-15° Gemini Duad, Debrief testing; 15-17½° Cancer Duad, Review higher purposes; 17½-20° Leo Duad, Design; 20-22½° Virgo Duad, Critique; 22½-25° Libra Duad, User testing, 25-27½° Scorpio Duad, Torture testing; 27½-30° Sagittarius Duad, Deployment.)

Recognize that, if we aren’t the UN Secretary General, Solving The World’s Problems is just Mental Masturbation.  So, when we look at how (1) Climate and (2) Environment and (3) Food/Shelter and (4) Health and (5) Culture and (6) Survival and (7) Technology Impact us as Individuals and our Immediate Community, What Do We See?  We could actually make a list of our most pressing specific, tangible (Capricorn, eh?) Issues in each of those seven categories, Ask ourself What Do We Already Believe Might Help Us with This Issue for each of the seven, and start Testing each one to see How Well it Works.

Delegate (Libra Duad, eh?) parts of this Testing to other members of your Immediate Community, and when it looks like something might Resolve one of the specific tangible Issues, get your most Persistent Community member to “Torture Test” it to see how Resilient it will be in Changing Situations, and make adjustments accordingly.

There aren’t any Victims or Complainers in Capricorn, only Engineers.  It won’t look like they Expect it to in Engineering School, but we all have Inner Engineers – it’s just about Looking at a Problem, Imaging what that’s within our Span of Control might address it, and Trying them out to see if they work.

We do need to add a few steps that Engineers might not be used to, though.  Remember that we have to Change the Way we Think if we want to really address an apparent Problem.  One way to do that is to Ask, What if this isn’t Really a Problem, but a Spontaneous Solution to some other Problem that we haven’t Recognized?  For instance, the Zambonivirus “instantly” Solved the otherwise-intractable Problem of Stopping Predatory Capitalism from Rushing to Destroy the Earth, at least to some extent.  That might turn out to be The Most Important Thing that happened this year.

We’ll look next to see what clues we can glean from the Base of the Saturn-Chariklo-Pluto T-Square.

Charts of the Portals X

September 23, 2020

From Charts of the Portals VIII

“A Caveat though – we’ve also entered the Province (in Time) of Exaggerated Dependence or Exaggerated Independence (Hylonome Stationary till 5pm 23 September 2020 in 5 Capricorn).  That’ll put a very different twist on our Debriefing of what we’ve Learned this year about Self-Love and Consciousness around Relationship (Sappho and Juno in Libra).  For instance, if you’ve considered or experienced Big Changes in a Relationship, it may well Evolve Rapidly in the next few days.

“By all means Take Advantage of what you’ve Learned about yourself and Others, and especially Act to Expand your Consciousness and your Self-Love, but recognize that this ‘Crisis’ stage will probably be Temporary.  If you’re on the verge of Life-Scale Relationship Changes, you may want to ‘sleep on it’ for several days first.  It’s a great time to make such Changes, but if they’re done ‘in the heat of the moment’ you may regret it later.”

This astroevent is in our Jupiter Station chart…

Of course, all three of these charts are active all of the time this month, but this one is front and center this week.

Before we get there though, starting at 7:30 am PDT 23 September, the Moon goes Out of Bounds again, meaning we’ll be more Emotional than usual.  That also means that Our Instincts will be Sharper than they usually are.  Which can make trouble – we could misinterpret our Instincts to think that they mean we must be “right,” and let our Strong Emotions take over.  Don’t be surprised by an uptick in assaults and worse – but stay out of one yourself, K?  This lasts till 5:40 am PDT 25 September.

Dubya could have his invasion and destruction of the cultural history of Iraq (to erase all that evidence about his benefactors the Anunnaki) under cover of this Confusion between Instincts and Emotions, in his followup to the previous Moon OOB period and the WTC.  Don’t let the Antichrist pull off the same kind of tricks.

Meanwhile, till 6:10 am PDT 25 September, our Intuition is Exaggerated – or our ability to Ignore it! (Asbolus Stationary in 26 Gemini)It’s a fabulous time to Notice that we’re Ignoring it, and correct that Habit.  The Difference between our Intuition and our Instincts is subtle.  It would be useful for us to Explore that Difference here where they’re in sharp contrast.  Our Strong Intuition Lights Up the same Energy (chart) that we Experienced early in the month when our Creative Genius was Standing Out (Ixion Stationary, 10 September)

Which happens to be an Energy we’ll be Suffering Under – Wait!  I mean, Living With a lot for the next while, as it’s the major Energy in all of the following…

  • Focus on The Most Important Thing (Saturn Stationary in 26 Capricorn) until 10pm PDT 28 September.
  • Which is likely to be Our Unlimited Potential (Chaos Stationary in 29 Gemini) until 2:30 am PDT 29 September.

Remember that we likely just had a Big Breakthrough on this…

“So we use the Energy in our Survival Instincts, which run about as Deep as any Energy, to Excite our Passion for Growing our Unconditional Self-Love, [which in turn] Allows our Karmic Limitations to Shift and Open Up our Boundless Potential so it Changes our Emotional History and Creates a [New] Internal Reality (Emotion<->Thought) that Sustains the Truth of our Heart.”

Changing our Emotional History isn’t as hard as it sounds – we do it every time we have a significant Change of Perspective on some Profound past event, or Forgive someone at whom we got very Angry when we Realize that it wasn’t their Fault, or See the World through New Eyes for any of a number of other reasons.

Also notice that these two Stations (Saturn and Chaos) Relate to one another through Curiosity (Quincunx)The Most Important Thing is likely to be Our Unconstrained Potential, but we need to Grok the fact that Our Potential is far more Multidimensional than our Dualistic Mind can ever Understand and Utilize Effectively.  The only way we can work with our Unlimited Potential is via a Tool that is as Unlimited, namely our Intuition.  The thick plottens, doesn’t it.

The Saturn Station is of course the second step in our Initiation into the Digital Age, the first being the 12 September Station of Jupiter, as the two prepare to Merge at the Capricorn Solstice.  Opening to our Unlimited Potential will be a very valuable part of Creating Our Own Reality in the Digital Age, which may entail a lot of Suffering for those who Don’t Have This Luxury.

  • A Huge Teaching about our Confidence (Chariklo Stationary in 25 Capricorn) till 1:20 pm PDT 3 October.  If we’re Open to it, the Teaching is likely to be that Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt are not Created by External Processes – they are products of our own Internal Decision Process.  The Teaching is Huge because it’s Merged with (Conjunct) and nearly simultaneous with…
  • A Big Shift in the Underlying Trance through which We See the World (Pluto Stationary in 23 Capricorn) through at least 6:30 am PDT 4 October.

It’s going to be a very busy couple of weeks.

The Most Important Thing

May 9, 2020

If you can find and watch 24:30 through 35:00 of this video, you’ll be very Clear about The Most Important Thing…

If you don’t plan to spend much Future Time on this Planet, in your current Lifetime or others, then no worries.  If Life-Threatening Challenges are your Cuppa Tea, then no worries.  Otherwise, This is Big.  Compared to This, everything else is as Important as making mudpies.  So we highly recommend that you quit wasting Emotional and Physical Energy and Time fretting about the mudpies, and Commit yourself fully to The Most Important Thing.

Don’t worry about the details, just PIAVA to Lovingly and Gently come to Grok your Perfect Unique Role, in your own Time.  When you do find your Perfect Unique Role, it’ll be Great Fun, and not at all the Difficulty – or Impossibility – that you now imagine it to be.  It’s really true that If you aren’t part of the Solution you’re part of the Problem, so please, No Longer Lend Your Strength to That Which You Wish to Be Free From.

Of course your own The Most Important Thing must Arise from your own Heart, but we do need to warn that we’ll be Obsessing about our own personal The Most Important Thing till at least 9pm PDT on 10 May 2020 (when Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Stands Still in the Sky [Impacts us Strongly] at 2 Aquarius).  Oh, our Values will also be up for review till at least 11:45 pm 12 May (when Venus [Values] Stands Still in the Sky at 21 Gemini).  So lots of Self-Review.  Of course The Most Important Way to Approach The Most Important Thing is to monitor yourself to Avoid dwelling on WhatYouDon’tWant, so you can keep your Focus – which is what Creates your Future – on WhatYouDoWant.

Which, with everything (us included) Changing rapidly, means we can Expect to Experience Confusion fairly often.  Confusion isn’t my Favorite Emotion.  Which is why I’m working hard on Turning That Around, so Confusion becomes my Favorite Emotion.  Well, maybe my second-Favorite, after Ecstasy.  At any rate, Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness.  So it’s Precious.  Our Concept Set forms the skeleton for our Ego and rationalizes our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (such as “Nothing I can do about that!“).  Positive Change is Available only when our Concept Set wavers and quivers – which means we Feel Confused.

 

Tweety is our Ego, the Cage is our Concept Set, and Sylvester is everything that’s Eliminated from our Life by our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  Notice how Tweety looks kind of Confused by what’s happening.

 

However, Growth in Consciousness only occurs when we don’t try to outsmart our Confusion.  (Tweety relies on her Instinctual Wisdom of Experience, not Mentality).  When we try to Figure Out what’s Confusing us and make it Go Away, we Lose our Opportunity for Growth.  Figuring It Out just regrouts the bricks in the walls of our Concept Set.  This is especially important here while the symbol for our Ego is still Merged with the symbol for our Confidence (Stationary Saturn [Ego] Conjunct dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt], which runs from December 2019 till January 2021).  I mean, what’s more Important to the Ego than Confidence?

We know Intuitively that nothing makes a Huper more Attractive to Other Hupers than Self-Confidence.  It makes Life so much easier when Others find us Attractive and want to curry our favor.  Confidence is far more Compelling than Competence – that’s how the Antichrist Bullied his way into Fame and Glory.  Self-Doubt is one of the biggest impediments to Abundance.  Unfortunately, many of us are Addicted to Self-Doubt.  We get there by failing to Embrace Ego Death.

The Antichrist gives us a Master Teaching at Avoiding Self-Doubt.  He just Reframes History, Effortlessly and Immediately.  We may not want to do it his way, but the Lesson is Valuable because it brings the Issue into the Light of Day.  The Issue is, Do we Create our own Reality or Not?  He’s obviously a Master at Creating a Surreality that fits him to a T.  History books are full of Masters at Creating their own Surrealities.  The Antichrist Demonstrates the process – just Create your own Surreality, and whenever it conflicts with Reality, quickly Adjust it.  His Goal is Adulation.  We could emulate his techniques for other Goals, such as Abundance (Having Enough to Share), a Livable Environment, a Collaborate Culture, Immunity to 5G and Granolaviruses, Ascension, or WhateverWeWant.

Doubt and Confusion are kissing cousins.  When we Fake our way out of Doubt we often get caught.  If we aren’t famous enough, that matters.  When we try to Fake our way out of Confusion by Figuring It Out, we also Create more Trouble for ourself.  Like any other Emotion, in order to Release it we need to Accept and Embrace it Exactly as it Is.  When we do that, we dispel it – we literally break the Spell that it has cast on us.

We get Unstuck by training ourself to Notice when we’re Feeling Confused, and then Consciously Celebrate it.  Getting Beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs is necessary if we are pursuing Abundance, Ascension, Enlightenment, or virtually any other major Change in our Karma(Our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, by the way, are symbolized by asteroid Vesta, and Vesta Conjoins Stationary Venus as we speak.  We talked about that a little in Values and Beliefs Full Moon.)  We should write about the Venus-Vesta Cycle, because…

The Dance between our Values, Beliefs, Desires, Emotions, and Thoughts – including what and how we Think about our Emotions – are very Important to our progress toward WhatWeWant.  Most of us are very Confused, without Realizing it, about the Difference between Our Emotions and Our Thoughts About Our Emotions.  Emotions happen in our Body.  The minute we move into our Head and begin Thinking About our Emotions, we’ve totally Abandoned both our Emotions and our Selves.  Yet we need to Align our Passion and our Thoughts in order to Manifest Cleanly.

Does any place in your Body hurt or Feel Uncomfortable right now?  Are you Able to Lovingly and Gently put your Total Attention into that place, and watch how it Changes?  How long can you do that without Thinking About how it Feels?  It’s fine to Think About how long we’re Holding our Attention there, as long as we’re Experiencing how it Feels, and not Labeling or Comparing (as Marshall Rosenberg liked to say, “Feels Like” expresses a Thought, not an Emotion) it, or Leaving the Present Moment.

Holding your Total and Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention on any Discomfort in your Body is one of the most Healing things you can do for it.  When you Notice that your Attention has Wandered, just quietly Bring It Back, without Judgment.  Notice if your Body has Created any Hardening around the Discomfort, as we often do in an effort to Separate Pain from our Identity.  If there is, Consciously Soften it.  That’ll Open the blood flow around the space, and accelerate the Body’s natural Healing.  That’s what Bodies do for a Living, if we let them.

Try doing the same with a Difficult Emotion.  Locate it in your Body, and give it Total Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention.  If you can do that without Labeling or Comparing it, or Leaving the Present Moment, you’ll find that the Discomfort dissolves the way it does when you Poor-Sweetheart yourself.  It’s quite Miraculous if you aren’t used to doing it.  When we Leave the Present Moment – “OMG, this reminds me of…” or “What will happen if…” – we’re Thinking About the Emotion, not Feeling it, Experiencing it, or Giving it our Attention.  We’re Abandoning the Emotion and our Self.

Not that it isn’t useful to Anal-yze how any Discomfort fits into your TimeLines.  For instance, Realizing that an Unpleasant Feeling is another Mirror for a Childhood Trauma, can in a few seconds help to Heal both the Discomfort and the PTSD.  And Realizing that some Discomfort that’s Arising is a clue about why we aren’t instantly Manifesting something we just PIAVAed, can in a few seconds help to melt our Resistance to that Manifestation.

Remember that if we aren’t ready to Manifest something that we’ve PIAVAed, the first thing the Universe will do is give us an Illustration of why we aren’t ready.

But we need to Learn to instantly Recognize the Difference between our Emotions and our Thoughts About them.  A Healthy Emotion Arises and then Dissipates, Informing us about something Important in the process.  If there’s no Dissipation, it’s because we’ve shifted from Feeling it to Thinking About it.  That can Freeze Emotions for years, Creating and Deepening Karma in the process.  When we get stuck on an Emotion it’s almost always already Karmic, and every time we Think About it instead of Feeling it, we cement the Karma in place more firmly.

Karmic Emotions are Held Emotions, the ones We’d rather Die than Feel.  So it’s a natural, Healthy Reaction to find any way we can to Avoid that, including shifting transparently from Feeling to Thinking.  If you’ve been reading this blog long, you know that “We’d rather Die than Feel that” is a misrepresentation.  It’s what we Experience, but it’s an Illusion.  It’s really “We’d rather Die than Feel that” – yes, We, our Ego, our current Identity, has to Die in order for us to Feel that.  That’s how Karma works.  The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive and Well, so this works well.

Except when we Want to Change or Manifest something that’s not already in our Karma, and then we need to Tolerate or even Court Ego Death in order to get beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  In fact, Ego Death becomes The Most Important Thing.  It doesn’t even matter if the Planet has been Destroyed, because we in fact Create our own Reality, as a Mirror for our Internal Self-Love processes, so we’ll just Re-Create it in our Image.

We’ll talk more about these things, and how Confusion and Curiosity (the Quincunx and Finger of the Goddess) relate to one another, when we look at tomorrow’s Saturn Station chart in detail.

Ego Death and Confidence III

May 3, 2020

Well, both our 30 April 2020 Nemesis Station Ego Death Seminar, and our 2 May Chariklo Station Confidence Workshop have technically finished, but as is often the case, the Impact lingers.  Sometimes there are good astrological reasons for that.  For instance, the Moon might be Completing a Related Angle, as the fast-moving Moon often serves as the Trigger for the Influence of slower astroevents.  Often when an astroevent lingers though, it’s because we didn’t know what was going on, we Personalized it, and we made Decisions and set Boundaries.

Such Decisions and Boundaries can continue the Impact of an astroevent beyond it’s Expiry Date.  Suppose for instance that someone who Abused us as a child wore a distinctive cologne or perfume, and last week we “happened” to meet someone wearing the same scent.  If we didn’t know that we were scheduled for an Ego Death around Abuse, and especially if we hadn’t Healed or even Opened Up to memories of that Abuse, then we would Eschew that person.  So if they had come into our Life to help us Heal our PTSD from the Abuse, we’d lose the Opportunity, and the Unconscious Impact of the PTSD would continue to Constrain our Life, perhaps Intensified by the astroevent’s Reminder.

Or, if we invested a lot of Time in the last few days, while Doubt was rampant, indulging our Fear of the Bolognavirus without Tapping it Out or Thetaing What We Want from it, we will have sent that Fear Vibration forth and increased the odds that our Future will contain What We Don’t Want, or at least What our Evil Twin in the Unconscious Wants.

And of course if we’ve made Big Life-Changing PIAVAs, whether we were Conscious of the astroevents or not, the Changes that those unfurl will likely continue to ripple through our Life for a loong time.  If we Asked that they be Loving and Gentle, which is always a good idea, they might take even Looonger, though being Loving and Gentle they’d have lower odds of meeting intractable Resistance.

And of course with two birthdays every few hours, we’re all Aging a lot faster than usual.  It’s probably a good time to increase our input of Resveratrol.  My fave, based on what works and doesn’t in my own Body, is Resveratrol from Blueberries, aka Pterostilbene.

Marilyn Raffaele, in her Arcturian Download for today, reminds us of our Mission…

https://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

To hold the light, help others awaken, and to bear witness to a new and higher reality, is why you are on earth at this time.  It is what you came to do and you are doing it dear ones, you are doing it.  You may think you are doing nothing but do not judge by appearances based in concepts of the third dimensional belief system, because a large part of your mission has been to clear remaining dense cellular memory and any present false beliefs, both of which only serve to perpetuate experiences of duality and separation…”

She continues…

“Ascension is simply the process of evolving into a higher state of consciousness through the experiences of every lifetime.  The Higher Self of every individual determines when they are ready for their next level of awareness.  This is why proselytizing is a useless and ego based activity.  Individuals cannot be forced into someone else’s consciousness of truth.

“You cannot make something out of nothing and thus everything seen, heard, tasted, touched, or smelled whether seemingly good or bad is a Divine reality being interpreted by individual and/or the collective mind according to the state of consciousness.

“Look deeply into every appearance, both the good and the bad, for good appearances are just as illusory as the bad ones.  By not judging according to three dimensional standards but rather seeking to understand the underlying reality of all appearances, you are living truth and opening yourself for more to unfold.

“Example; When in the presence of a sick person, know that in reality they are Divine Consciousness and because Divine Consciousness knows nothing of disease, you then realize that you are witnessing a manifestation of the belief in disease and separation.”

While the Chariklo Station Confidence astroevent is (just a day) past it’s Peak, it’s still Strong, and the Opportunity to Let Go of Belief in Manifesting Ill Health (dwarf planets Varuna [the Life Force] Opposing Chariklo [Confidence] T-Square Haumea [Rebirth]) is still very much in the air.  And even if it wasn’t, we could PIAVA it at any time.  Every Thought is a Prayer, and All Prayers are AnsweredThat’s why we have to be Hypervigilant with our Thoughts.

Chariklo [Healing Doubt, by Suspending Disbelief if you’re Unable to successfully PIAVA Confidence] of course is here The Most Important Thing (Conjunct Saturn), Expansive (Conjunct Jupiter), and all about appropriate Boundaries (Conjunct Pallas) with Other, including especially your Evil Twins in the Unconscious. In any given moment, if you aren’t Identifying with something, it’s Other).

The Confused COVIDiots threatening implicitly to massacre governors with their Kalashnikovs don’t realize that they’re Acting Out a scene from the two-Century Digital Age that begins in December 2020 (when Jupiter Conjoins Saturn in an Air Sign; yesterday’s Chariklo Station occurred at the Exact Jupiter-Saturn Midpoint, and we’re already under the Influence of next week’s Saturn and Jupiter Stations).  They’re unwittingly demonstrating against Unemployment, as Bernie would do, while Believing they’re Supporting the Antichrist’s Racist agenda.  Granolavirus Unemployment is only a dim preview of the Digital Age Unemployment that will likely Mirror the 1930s.

We introduce T-Squares as Challenges because that’s how most of us Experience them, when we aren’t Feeling Victimized by their Energy.  But bottom line, the Fourth harmonic (Squares) are all about Dominion, or Healthy Control.  How do we gain Dominion over anything?  Through the Wisdom that arises from Experience with it.  Our natal Squares and T-Squares indicate our Greatest Skills, even though they may feel like our biggest headaches. 

Our natal T-Squares and Squares are headaches when we Devolve into Feeling Victimized by them.  They become Skills as soon as we Embrace the Wisdom that we gain from repeatedly having to deal with their Challenges.  They become our Greatest Skills as soon as we Recognize that we have more Experience with their Teachings than anyone else, because we’re the one with the T-Squares!

Marilyn again…

“You are Divine Consciousness utilizing the material body you formed for yourself in order to function in the denser energies of the third dimension.  You have reached a point of spiritual readiness in which you must begin to identify with your real SELF rather than with the limited person you believed yourself to be.  If you were not ready you would not even understand these messages.

“The physical body is like a car that you use while on earth.  You utilize it as needed while keeping it clean and well maintained as best you can.  Occasionally the car may crash or get damaged for some reason but you never have been or ever will become the car [though of course you can Identify with it, and so lose this Realization].

“Once you can accept that you are Consciousness and not simply a material body subject to every belief floating about in the collective, you can begin to use your mind as it was intended, as an avenue of awareness rather than the ‘boss.’  The mind draws and then feeds information through one’s state of consciousness and as you begin to accept yourself as Divine Consciousness, allowing IT to express, everything in the outer begins to change…”

You have been removing veils for a very long time through many many lifetimes.  The intense high frequency energies of today are serving to speed up the process depending upon each one’s readiness and how thick and dense their veils.  As some intense long standing veils surface, their energy is frequently re-experienced physically, emotionally, mentally, or spiritually.  If or when this happens, do not resist but rather allow these energies/experiences to flow through and out without claiming them back in as your very own personal ‘problem’…”

“As each veil of false belief lifts from individual consciousness more of the already present Light Consciousness is able to shine without the need for prayers, candles, crystals, chants, ceremonies, or anything else meant to attract some separate God.  All that is or ever has been required is an intention for more Light and the ability and willingness to get out of the way.  Divine Consciousness needs no help from concepts of spirituality in order to express ITSELF.

“Release the belief that spirituality must be or look a certain way in order to be authentic.  Clear your mind of images of saints with folded hands and ascended masters bestowing light and blessings on adoring crowds.  These as well as most metaphysical ‘tools’ are valid in earlier and less awakened states of consciousness but relying on anything in the outer after once realizing that everything already exists fully present within will simply hold [you] in an outgrown state and perpetuate the experiences of separation…”

“Know that the one Omniscient, Omnipresent, and Omnipotent Divine Consciousness is and always has been manifesting ITself as infinite form and variety.  Know that every rock, every bird, every blade of grass, and every tree is just as much an expression of IT as are human beings.

“Every different form holds a unique pattern of wholeness and completeness representing the Divine plan for that particular expression/form of ITself.  Different, but not less than.  EVERYTHING is Divine Consciousness and to judge certain life forms as being better or of more value than another is three dimensional ego unawareness.

“Be aware that with every breath you breathe in the omnipresent Light of Divine Consciousness.

“Rest in the realty of your own soul’s perfection.

“Trust that all is as it needs to be at this time while releasing once and for all the belief that you need to do, do, do, in order to be.

“You will never be more spiritual than you already are. It is time to accept and allow…”

Enjoy!

Ego Death and Confidence II

May 1, 2020

Whooo!  The Goddess is still working me over to Clear my Resistance to my PIAVA of the other day to let Her take over that major segment of my Live.  Earlier today I found myself dealing with not just Big-Time Self-Doubt (appropriate for the imminent 2 May 2020 4:20 pm PDT Station of Chariklo [±Self-Confidence]), but with heavy-duty early-Childhood chronic Abandonment Trauma.  Haven’t worked with that so Strikingly in a long while!  We never really finish our Karma, we just get more efficient at being Present with it.

I was in a Zoom meeting today that signed off with a “Inspirational” quote: “No matter how much you push the envelope, it’s still stationery.”  Too True, so given the length of my todo list, let’s dive right into our Dance with our Self-Doubt (Chariklo Station).  Of course it’s also about Self-Confidence, but who’s gonna complain about having too much Self-Confidence?  Well, okay, maybe Evel Knievel, if he ever complained, so it might be a good idea to Hedge our Risks this weekend.

Saturday’s chart features Great Grace directed toward our Health (Cuspal Earth-Air Kite pointing to dwarf planet Varuna [the Life Force] on the Cusp of Leo [Presence]), and Great Grace directed toward Liberation of our Unique Genius (Cuspal Air-Water Kite pointing to dwarf planet Ixion [our Forbidden Genius] and the South Node [our Karma] on the Cusp of Capricorn [Just Fix It, K?]).

That’s a Powerful combination, as it Integrates all four Elements – Spirit, Emotion, Matter, and Mentality (Fire, Water, Earth, Air).  The Health issue is paramount these days, and perhaps even more so the Genius issue, as we’re all going to need that, first to Survive as the World Turns Over, and second to Manifest Collaboration with all of the many Others we’ll be dealing with in the post-Granolavirus World.

However, while Great Grace Abides, we’ll also be Compelled to Pay Close Attention to our Health and our Unique Skills (both Varuna and Ixion-South Node are at the business end of the Goddess’s Index Finger, ie, Yods [Pay Attention!]).  As we’ll Learn later, the overriding Energy here is about Growth in Consciousness (A Parasol, or Quintile and Tridecile Yods [Intense Learning Experience] focused on asteroid Juno [Expansion of Consciousness]).

The Universe will Handle those Energies for us (Grand Trines [Dumb-Luck Grace]), but we also have our Work cut out for us, as Lighting Up our Doubt-Confidence weekend (Chariklo Station) comes with two Major Challenges (T-Squares).  We’ll have to Renegotiate all of our Relationships (T-Square pointing to dwarf planet Haumea [Rebirth] in Libra [Relationship to Other]), and we’ll have to be mindful that we Lovingly Embrace our Transformations (T-Square pointing to asteroid Sappho [Self-Love] in Virgo [Ego Death]).  The Challenges are not Self-Resolving, so we’ll be Working.

There are two other arenas where we need to be very Attentive (foci of Goddess Fingers or Yods), and which Information we’ll need to Weave together the Graces and the Challenges.  The first is Sustainability (dwarf planet Ceres), which is key to using the Grace around our Health (Varuna Kite) to mediate our Self-Love Challenge (Sappho T-Square).  The second is Letting Go of Limitations and Unexamined Judgments that are based on Hidden Fear (dwarf planet Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] Merged with [Conjunct] our Conditioned Reactions [asteroid Karma] and our Ability and Willingness to Consciously End Self-Sabotaging Habits [asteroid Atropos]).

Methinks the Bottom Line of all this Doubt-Confidence (Chariklo Station chart) Complexity is that we may be able to Let Go of Subtle Resistance to Believing in our Heart that what we Intend will actually Manifest.  An Intentional Placebo Effect so to speak.  As we’ve mentioned before, we often combine Theta Healing and Tapping Iteratively to Strive for Manifesting Deep Belief or Confidence of this sort.  The PIAVA process, when done fully, can also make progress toward the same result.  This Deep Belief is the difference between Creating What We Want and Not.

The last Big Issue in the 2 May Doubt-Confidence astroevent is the placement of the symbol for Confidence itself (Chariklo).  It is Merged with the symbols for Expansion (Jupiter), Boundaries (Pallas), and Priorities (Saturn).  That’s a whole lot.  On the one (Ultimate) hand it says that The Most Important Thing is that we Expand our Confidence in our Vulnerability.  Vulnerability is the Perfected form of Boundaries.  Till we get there though, The Most Important Thing is that we Expand our Boundaries to Provide Confidence in our Personal Safety.  Especially if we’re Remembering to Hedge our Risks.

Safety is much Inferior to Vulnerability, but Safety insures that we don’t Overreach for Ascension.  Overreaching can cause the Ego to Overreact, which can create New Limitations that may take us years or Lifetimes to Transcend.  So a Compromise may be the most Practical path, something like The Most Important Thing is that we Learn to Expand our Vulnerability to the point where we have Complete Confidence in our Boundaries.  If we Learn this rather than just Doing it, better yet if we Learn by Doing, then we can continue to Stretch our Vulnerability, which will move us toward 5D.

Here’s the main Chariklo Station chart…

And here’s the Overarching Quintile-Tridecile Yods Parasol chart…

It looks like something Elon might build to Rocket us directly into Expansion of Consciousness (asteroid Juno [Growth in Consciousness] at the focus)!  The base of the central Rocket (Quintile Yod) is the Connection between our Essence (the Sun) and Sustainability (dwarf planet Ceres).  The base of the Stabilizing Wings (Tridecile Yod) is the Link between our Values (Venus) and our Willingness to Surrender into a Whole New Trance (Jupiter-Pluto)Our Plutonic Trance is the Fundamental Unconscious Belief System with which we approach – and Manifest – our Reality.  What we See – and Feel – is What we Believe.  The Fuel that Powers the Rocket is our Belief that the Integrity of Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) Creates Miracles by Removing all need for Victim Postures (Chiron).

The third Chariklo-Station chart is a Mjölnir or Trioctile Yod [Epiphany] to the Jupiter-Chariklo-Pallas-Saturn Stellum…

The Trioctile combines the Eighth Harmonic [Rebalancing] with the Third [Love with Wisdom].  We interpret this Configuration (the Trioctile Yod) as productive of Epiphany because Rebalancing ourself into Love and Wisdom is Ecstatically Life-Changing.  Traditional astrology refers to it as “Thor’s Hammer,” emphasizing Destruction.  We use the Norwegian spelling, Mjölnir, to emphasize its ancient connection to Lightning, EnLightenment, Penetrating all Resistance.  The root of the Nordic Mjölnir is the Vedic Vajra, a Magic Wand that combines the indestructibility of Diamond with the irrestibility of a Thunderbolt, symbolizing Firmness of Spirit and Spiritual Power.

In other words, The Most Important Thing is that we Learn to Expand our Vulnerability to the point where we have Complete Confidence in our Boundaries.  If we Learn this rather than just Doing it, better yet if we Learn by Doing, then we can continue to Stretch our Vulnerability, moving us toward 5D.

I’m not sure we’ve ever talked about Cusps, which Dominate here.  Cusps are like the Changing lines in the I-Ching, Opportunities for New Adventures.  Not to mention all of the New Cycles Beginning (Jupiter-Chariklo, Pallas-Chariklo, Saturn-Chariklo, Pallas-Jupiter, Pallas-Saturn, Karma-Sedna, Atropos-Sedna, Karma-Atropos, South Node-Ixion)!

Ego Death and Confidence

April 30, 2020

This is why I am Grateful for astrology…

Yesterday I PIAVAed that Control over the success of a major segment of my Life be transferred from LeftBrain or Ego to RightBrain or Goddess or “Mysterious Coincidences.”  This morning when I Opened that segment of my Life I felt a profound sense of Failure, and an Urge to Give Up on it.  But, knowing that the symbol for Ego Death was Lit Up (asteroid Nemesis Stationary till 30 April 2020 11:20 am PDT), I was able to quickly connect the Feeling of Failure to Ego Death, and to my PIAVA of the day before.  This allowed me to just move on to other segments unencumbered by the Discouraging Emotions, without even having to Poor-Sweetheart myself.

When I Opened the Surrendered segment later in the day, the Goddess had indeed delivered a nice “Mysterious Coincidence,” for which I was very Grateful.  I know I still have a lot of Resistance to overcome (Do I “Deserve” this?  Why should I?  Why me?  Will this really work?) as my LeftBrain Grieves its Loss of perceived Esteem.  This is textbook PIAVA.  If we are Ready to Receive, we’ll just Get what we’ve Requested, outright.  If we aren’t, then we’ll Get an Illustration of our Resistance.

The average Illustration may not be anywhere as near as Clear as my Feeling this morning, but if I’d never Learned what I know about PIAVAing, and if I didn’t know that we were scheduled for Ego Death, I may not have made the Connection at all, or worse, Believed by first interpretation as Confirmation of my Inadequacy.  We do also have an episode of Self-Doubt barreling down the pike at us, just two days after our Ego Death Lesson, until 2 May 2020 (dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt] Stationary) at 4:20 pm PDT.

Which is a handy Segue to something I read the other day (I think it was Demetra George) about the Immune System being kind of an ultimate Boundary (and hence an issue in the realm of asteroid Pallas).  I’d never made the connection before between the Immune System and Boundaries.  The Immune System is kind of a big deal these days!  And while we’re on this track, our Skin is another ultimate Boundary, and the folks who study our Microbiome refer to the “walls” of our Intestinal Tract, from mouth to pucker, as a continuation of our Skin.

It’s an interesting image – physically, “we” abide in the space between our Skin and our Stomach-Intestines.  And mouth-esophagus.  Something Escher might draw.  What a mess we’d be turned inside-out.  I suppose we’d have to exclude the inside of our Lungs too.  Or rather, include the lining of our lungs, and all their alveoli, as part of our External Physical Boundary.  And nose-trachea.  Kind of puts a different perspective on our Vulnerability to such as the Pomonavirus.

The Microbiome folks take it a step further – the lining of the Intestines is the front lines of our Immune System, because when it’s operating properly it screens out molecules that would cause havoc if they got into the blood stream because of their large size.  That’s exactly the kind of Damage that antibiotics, including Glyphosate/Roundup (which contaminates most non-organic sugars and grains), cause in the Intestines.  They eventually eat holes in our Intestinal lining, and the resulting large molecules in our blood cause havoc with our Health, starting with the Mucosal lining of our nose.

We bring all this up because the symbol for The Most Important Thing (Saturn) happens to be Merged with the symbol for Boundaries (Pallas), and both of these are within spitting distance of the symbol for Confidence (Chariklo) that’s Lit Up until 2 May.  The symbol for Confidence is also Merged with the symbol for Expansion (Jupiter).  As we recall from the fellow who was talking yesterday about the J-Dude…

…When we’re exercising our own Ultimate Authority, it’s Critical that we “in our Heart Believe It” – we need to have Confidence in it.  So whatever Relationship we wish to have with the Spumonivirus, when we PIAVA that Relationship, we need to have Confidence in our own Power to PIAVA it.  The same is true for whatever Relationship we wish to have with 5G, and for that matter 5D.

In other words there’s no better time to PIAVA our Ideal Relationships with…

  • Our Immune System, with
  • Known and unknown threats to our Health, with
  • Intrusive Electromagnetic Energy (with “iot” coming down the pike, 5G isn’t our only problem – “smart” electric meters have been burning down people’s houses often enough that the new US National Fire Code requires whole-house surge protection for all new residential construction), with
  • What We Want, including 5D if it fits into that basket for us, and with
  • Any situations where we want to establish Boundaries that will provide us with Total Confidence that we can meet our Objectives without Betraying our Values.

Then we need to be Hyperalert for the Ego-Death of our Resistance to what we’re PIAVing, because if we weren’t Ego-Attached to the Resistance, we would have been Manifesting them all along!

Can’t wait to draw up that Doubt/Confidence (Chariklo Station) chart, as it has some fun Configurations that we don’t see every day!  (Such as a Mjölnir or Trioctile Yod [Epiphanies] to the Jupiter-Chariklo-Pallas-Saturn complex from a Square between Moon and Vesta [Breakthroughs around Unconscious Limitations], and a Quintile Yod [Learn This!] to asteroid Juno [Growth in Consciousness], and that’s before I draw in any of the extra-credit planets!)