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The Most Important Thing

May 9, 2020

If you can find and watch 24:30 through 35:00 of this video, you’ll be very Clear about The Most Important Thing…

If you don’t plan to spend much Future Time on this Planet, in your current Lifetime or others, then no worries.  If Life-Threatening Challenges are your Cuppa Tea, then no worries.  Otherwise, This is Big.  Compared to This, everything else is as Important as making mudpies.  So we highly recommend that you quit wasting Emotional and Physical Energy and Time fretting about the mudpies, and Commit yourself fully to The Most Important Thing.

Don’t worry about the details, just PIAVA to Lovingly and Gently come to Grok your Perfect Unique Role, in your own Time.  When you do find your Perfect Unique Role, it’ll be Great Fun, and not at all the Difficulty – or Impossibility – that you now imagine it to be.  It’s really true that If you aren’t part of the Solution you’re part of the Problem, so please, No Longer Lend Your Strength to That Which You Wish to Be Free From.

Of course your own The Most Important Thing must Arise from your own Heart, but we do need to warn that we’ll be Obsessing about our own personal The Most Important Thing till at least 9pm PDT on 10 May 2020 (when Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Stands Still in the Sky [Impacts us Strongly] at 2 Aquarius).  Oh, our Values will also be up for review till at least 11:45 pm 12 May (when Venus [Values] Stands Still in the Sky at 21 Gemini).  So lots of Self-Review.  Of course The Most Important Way to Approach The Most Important Thing is to monitor yourself to Avoid dwelling on WhatYouDon’tWant, so you can keep your Focus – which is what Creates your Future – on WhatYouDoWant.

Which, with everything (us included) Changing rapidly, means we can Expect to Experience Confusion fairly often.  Confusion isn’t my Favorite Emotion.  Which is why I’m working hard on Turning That Around, so Confusion becomes my Favorite Emotion.  Well, maybe my second-Favorite, after Ecstasy.  At any rate, Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness.  So it’s Precious.  Our Concept Set forms the skeleton for our Ego and rationalizes our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (such as “Nothing I can do about that!“).  Positive Change is Available only when our Concept Set wavers and quivers – which means we Feel Confused.

 

Tweety is our Ego, the Cage is our Concept Set, and Sylvester is everything that’s Eliminated from our Life by our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  Notice how Tweety looks kind of Confused by what’s happening.

 

However, Growth in Consciousness only occurs when we don’t try to outsmart our Confusion.  (Tweety relies on her Instinctual Wisdom of Experience, not Mentality).  When we try to Figure Out what’s Confusing us and make it Go Away, we Lose our Opportunity for Growth.  Figuring It Out just regrouts the bricks in the walls of our Concept Set.  This is especially important here while the symbol for our Ego is still Merged with the symbol for our Confidence (Stationary Saturn [Ego] Conjunct dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt], which runs from December 2019 till January 2021).  I mean, what’s more Important to the Ego than Confidence?

We know Intuitively that nothing makes a Huper more Attractive to Other Hupers than Self-Confidence.  It makes Life so much easier when Others find us Attractive and want to curry our favor.  Confidence is far more Compelling than Competence – that’s how the Antichrist Bullied his way into Fame and Glory.  Self-Doubt is one of the biggest impediments to Abundance.  Unfortunately, many of us are Addicted to Self-Doubt.  We get there by failing to Embrace Ego Death.

The Antichrist gives us a Master Teaching at Avoiding Self-Doubt.  He just Reframes History, Effortlessly and Immediately.  We may not want to do it his way, but the Lesson is Valuable because it brings the Issue into the Light of Day.  The Issue is, Do we Create our own Reality or Not?  He’s obviously a Master at Creating a Surreality that fits him to a T.  History books are full of Masters at Creating their own Surrealities.  The Antichrist Demonstrates the process – just Create your own Surreality, and whenever it conflicts with Reality, quickly Adjust it.  His Goal is Adulation.  We could emulate his techniques for other Goals, such as Abundance (Having Enough to Share), a Livable Environment, a Collaborate Culture, Immunity to 5G and Granolaviruses, Ascension, or WhateverWeWant.

Doubt and Confusion are kissing cousins.  When we Fake our way out of Doubt we often get caught.  If we aren’t famous enough, that matters.  When we try to Fake our way out of Confusion by Figuring It Out, we also Create more Trouble for ourself.  Like any other Emotion, in order to Release it we need to Accept and Embrace it Exactly as it Is.  When we do that, we dispel it – we literally break the Spell that it has cast on us.

We get Unstuck by training ourself to Notice when we’re Feeling Confused, and then Consciously Celebrate it.  Getting Beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs is necessary if we are pursuing Abundance, Ascension, Enlightenment, or virtually any other major Change in our Karma(Our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, by the way, are symbolized by asteroid Vesta, and Vesta Conjoins Stationary Venus as we speak.  We talked about that a little in Values and Beliefs Full Moon.)  We should write about the Venus-Vesta Cycle, because…

The Dance between our Values, Beliefs, Desires, Emotions, and Thoughts – including what and how we Think about our Emotions – are very Important to our progress toward WhatWeWant.  Most of us are very Confused, without Realizing it, about the Difference between Our Emotions and Our Thoughts About Our Emotions.  Emotions happen in our Body.  The minute we move into our Head and begin Thinking About our Emotions, we’ve totally Abandoned both our Emotions and our Selves.  Yet we need to Align our Passion and our Thoughts in order to Manifest Cleanly.

Does any place in your Body hurt or Feel Uncomfortable right now?  Are you Able to Lovingly and Gently put your Total Attention into that place, and watch how it Changes?  How long can you do that without Thinking About how it Feels?  It’s fine to Think About how long we’re Holding our Attention there, as long as we’re Experiencing how it Feels, and not Labeling or Comparing (as Marshall Rosenberg liked to say, “Feels Like” expresses a Thought, not an Emotion) it, or Leaving the Present Moment.

Holding your Total and Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention on any Discomfort in your Body is one of the most Healing things you can do for it.  When you Notice that your Attention has Wandered, just quietly Bring It Back, without Judgment.  Notice if your Body has Created any Hardening around the Discomfort, as we often do in an effort to Separate Pain from our Identity.  If there is, Consciously Soften it.  That’ll Open the blood flow around the space, and accelerate the Body’s natural Healing.  That’s what Bodies do for a Living, if we let them.

Try doing the same with a Difficult Emotion.  Locate it in your Body, and give it Total Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention.  If you can do that without Labeling or Comparing it, or Leaving the Present Moment, you’ll find that the Discomfort dissolves the way it does when you Poor-Sweetheart yourself.  It’s quite Miraculous if you aren’t used to doing it.  When we Leave the Present Moment – “OMG, this reminds me of…” or “What will happen if…” – we’re Thinking About the Emotion, not Feeling it, Experiencing it, or Giving it our Attention.  We’re Abandoning the Emotion and our Self.

Not that it isn’t useful to Anal-yze how any Discomfort fits into your TimeLines.  For instance, Realizing that an Unpleasant Feeling is another Mirror for a Childhood Trauma, can in a few seconds help to Heal both the Discomfort and the PTSD.  And Realizing that some Discomfort that’s Arising is a clue about why we aren’t instantly Manifesting something we just PIAVAed, can in a few seconds help to melt our Resistance to that Manifestation.

Remember that if we aren’t ready to Manifest something that we’ve PIAVAed, the first thing the Universe will do is give us an Illustration of why we aren’t ready.

But we need to Learn to instantly Recognize the Difference between our Emotions and our Thoughts About them.  A Healthy Emotion Arises and then Dissipates, Informing us about something Important in the process.  If there’s no Dissipation, it’s because we’ve shifted from Feeling it to Thinking About it.  That can Freeze Emotions for years, Creating and Deepening Karma in the process.  When we get stuck on an Emotion it’s almost always already Karmic, and every time we Think About it instead of Feeling it, we cement the Karma in place more firmly.

Karmic Emotions are Held Emotions, the ones We’d rather Die than Feel.  So it’s a natural, Healthy Reaction to find any way we can to Avoid that, including shifting transparently from Feeling to Thinking.  If you’ve been reading this blog long, you know that “We’d rather Die than Feel that” is a misrepresentation.  It’s what we Experience, but it’s an Illusion.  It’s really “We’d rather Die than Feel that” – yes, We, our Ego, our current Identity, has to Die in order for us to Feel that.  That’s how Karma works.  The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive and Well, so this works well.

Except when we Want to Change or Manifest something that’s not already in our Karma, and then we need to Tolerate or even Court Ego Death in order to get beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  In fact, Ego Death becomes The Most Important Thing.  It doesn’t even matter if the Planet has been Destroyed, because we in fact Create our own Reality, as a Mirror for our Internal Self-Love processes, so we’ll just Re-Create it in our Image.

We’ll talk more about these things, and how Confusion and Curiosity (the Quincunx and Finger of the Goddess) relate to one another, when we look at tomorrow’s Saturn Station chart in detail.

Ego Death and Confidence III

May 3, 2020

Well, both our 30 April 2020 Nemesis Station Ego Death Seminar, and our 2 May Chariklo Station Confidence Workshop have technically finished, but as is often the case, the Impact lingers.  Sometimes there are good astrological reasons for that.  For instance, the Moon might be Completing a Related Angle, as the fast-moving Moon often serves as the Trigger for the Influence of slower astroevents.  Often when an astroevent lingers though, it’s because we didn’t know what was going on, we Personalized it, and we made Decisions and set Boundaries.

Such Decisions and Boundaries can continue the Impact of an astroevent beyond it’s Expiry Date.  Suppose for instance that someone who Abused us as a child wore a distinctive cologne or perfume, and last week we “happened” to meet someone wearing the same scent.  If we didn’t know that we were scheduled for an Ego Death around Abuse, and especially if we hadn’t Healed or even Opened Up to memories of that Abuse, then we would Eschew that person.  So if they had come into our Life to help us Heal our PTSD from the Abuse, we’d lose the Opportunity, and the Unconscious Impact of the PTSD would continue to Constrain our Life, perhaps Intensified by the astroevent’s Reminder.

Or, if we invested a lot of Time in the last few days, while Doubt was rampant, indulging our Fear of the Bolognavirus without Tapping it Out or Thetaing What We Want from it, we will have sent that Fear Vibration forth and increased the odds that our Future will contain What We Don’t Want, or at least What our Evil Twin in the Unconscious Wants.

And of course if we’ve made Big Life-Changing PIAVAs, whether we were Conscious of the astroevents or not, the Changes that those unfurl will likely continue to ripple through our Life for a loong time.  If we Asked that they be Loving and Gentle, which is always a good idea, they might take even Looonger, though being Loving and Gentle they’d have lower odds of meeting intractable Resistance.

And of course with two birthdays every few hours, we’re all Aging a lot faster than usual.  It’s probably a good time to increase our input of Resveratrol.  My fave, based on what works and doesn’t in my own Body, is Resveratrol from Blueberries, aka Pterostilbene.

Marilyn Raffaele, in her Arcturian Download for today, reminds us of our Mission…

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To hold the light, help others awaken, and to bear witness to a new and higher reality, is why you are on earth at this time.  It is what you came to do and you are doing it dear ones, you are doing it.  You may think you are doing nothing but do not judge by appearances based in concepts of the third dimensional belief system, because a large part of your mission has been to clear remaining dense cellular memory and any present false beliefs, both of which only serve to perpetuate experiences of duality and separation…”

She continues…

“Ascension is simply the process of evolving into a higher state of consciousness through the experiences of every lifetime.  The Higher Self of every individual determines when they are ready for their next level of awareness.  This is why proselytizing is a useless and ego based activity.  Individuals cannot be forced into someone else’s consciousness of truth.

“You cannot make something out of nothing and thus everything seen, heard, tasted, touched, or smelled whether seemingly good or bad is a Divine reality being interpreted by individual and/or the collective mind according to the state of consciousness.

“Look deeply into every appearance, both the good and the bad, for good appearances are just as illusory as the bad ones.  By not judging according to three dimensional standards but rather seeking to understand the underlying reality of all appearances, you are living truth and opening yourself for more to unfold.

“Example; When in the presence of a sick person, know that in reality they are Divine Consciousness and because Divine Consciousness knows nothing of disease, you then realize that you are witnessing a manifestation of the belief in disease and separation.”

While the Chariklo Station Confidence astroevent is (just a day) past it’s Peak, it’s still Strong, and the Opportunity to Let Go of Belief in Manifesting Ill Health (dwarf planets Varuna [the Life Force] Opposing Chariklo [Confidence] T-Square Haumea [Rebirth]) is still very much in the air.  And even if it wasn’t, we could PIAVA it at any time.  Every Thought is a Prayer, and All Prayers are AnsweredThat’s why we have to be Hypervigilant with our Thoughts.

Chariklo [Healing Doubt, by Suspending Disbelief if you’re Unable to successfully PIAVA Confidence] of course is here The Most Important Thing (Conjunct Saturn), Expansive (Conjunct Jupiter), and all about appropriate Boundaries (Conjunct Pallas) with Other, including especially your Evil Twins in the Unconscious. In any given moment, if you aren’t Identifying with something, it’s Other).

The Confused COVIDiots threatening implicitly to massacre governors with their Kalashnikovs don’t realize that they’re Acting Out a scene from the two-Century Digital Age that begins in December 2020 (when Jupiter Conjoins Saturn in an Air Sign; yesterday’s Chariklo Station occurred at the Exact Jupiter-Saturn Midpoint, and we’re already under the Influence of next week’s Saturn and Jupiter Stations).  They’re unwittingly demonstrating against Unemployment, as Bernie would do, while Believing they’re Supporting the Antichrist’s Racist agenda.  Granolavirus Unemployment is only a dim preview of the Digital Age Unemployment that will likely Mirror the 1930s.

We introduce T-Squares as Challenges because that’s how most of us Experience them, when we aren’t Feeling Victimized by their Energy.  But bottom line, the Fourth harmonic (Squares) are all about Dominion, or Healthy Control.  How do we gain Dominion over anything?  Through the Wisdom that arises from Experience with it.  Our natal Squares and T-Squares indicate our Greatest Skills, even though they may feel like our biggest headaches. 

Our natal T-Squares and Squares are headaches when we Devolve into Feeling Victimized by them.  They become Skills as soon as we Embrace the Wisdom that we gain from repeatedly having to deal with their Challenges.  They become our Greatest Skills as soon as we Recognize that we have more Experience with their Teachings than anyone else, because we’re the one with the T-Squares!

Marilyn again…

“You are Divine Consciousness utilizing the material body you formed for yourself in order to function in the denser energies of the third dimension.  You have reached a point of spiritual readiness in which you must begin to identify with your real SELF rather than with the limited person you believed yourself to be.  If you were not ready you would not even understand these messages.

“The physical body is like a car that you use while on earth.  You utilize it as needed while keeping it clean and well maintained as best you can.  Occasionally the car may crash or get damaged for some reason but you never have been or ever will become the car [though of course you can Identify with it, and so lose this Realization].

“Once you can accept that you are Consciousness and not simply a material body subject to every belief floating about in the collective, you can begin to use your mind as it was intended, as an avenue of awareness rather than the ‘boss.’  The mind draws and then feeds information through one’s state of consciousness and as you begin to accept yourself as Divine Consciousness, allowing IT to express, everything in the outer begins to change…”

You have been removing veils for a very long time through many many lifetimes.  The intense high frequency energies of today are serving to speed up the process depending upon each one’s readiness and how thick and dense their veils.  As some intense long standing veils surface, their energy is frequently re-experienced physically, emotionally, mentally, or spiritually.  If or when this happens, do not resist but rather allow these energies/experiences to flow through and out without claiming them back in as your very own personal ‘problem’…”

“As each veil of false belief lifts from individual consciousness more of the already present Light Consciousness is able to shine without the need for prayers, candles, crystals, chants, ceremonies, or anything else meant to attract some separate God.  All that is or ever has been required is an intention for more Light and the ability and willingness to get out of the way.  Divine Consciousness needs no help from concepts of spirituality in order to express ITSELF.

“Release the belief that spirituality must be or look a certain way in order to be authentic.  Clear your mind of images of saints with folded hands and ascended masters bestowing light and blessings on adoring crowds.  These as well as most metaphysical ‘tools’ are valid in earlier and less awakened states of consciousness but relying on anything in the outer after once realizing that everything already exists fully present within will simply hold [you] in an outgrown state and perpetuate the experiences of separation…”

“Know that the one Omniscient, Omnipresent, and Omnipotent Divine Consciousness is and always has been manifesting ITself as infinite form and variety.  Know that every rock, every bird, every blade of grass, and every tree is just as much an expression of IT as are human beings.

“Every different form holds a unique pattern of wholeness and completeness representing the Divine plan for that particular expression/form of ITself.  Different, but not less than.  EVERYTHING is Divine Consciousness and to judge certain life forms as being better or of more value than another is three dimensional ego unawareness.

“Be aware that with every breath you breathe in the omnipresent Light of Divine Consciousness.

“Rest in the realty of your own soul’s perfection.

“Trust that all is as it needs to be at this time while releasing once and for all the belief that you need to do, do, do, in order to be.

“You will never be more spiritual than you already are. It is time to accept and allow…”

Enjoy!

Ego Death and Confidence II

May 1, 2020

Whooo!  The Goddess is still working me over to Clear my Resistance to my PIAVA of the other day to let Her take over that major segment of my Live.  Earlier today I found myself dealing with not just Big-Time Self-Doubt (appropriate for the imminent 2 May 2020 4:20 pm PDT Station of Chariklo [±Self-Confidence]), but with heavy-duty early-Childhood chronic Abandonment Trauma.  Haven’t worked with that so Strikingly in a long while!  We never really finish our Karma, we just get more efficient at being Present with it.

I was in a Zoom meeting today that signed off with a “Inspirational” quote: “No matter how much you push the envelope, it’s still stationery.”  Too True, so given the length of my todo list, let’s dive right into our Dance with our Self-Doubt (Chariklo Station).  Of course it’s also about Self-Confidence, but who’s gonna complain about having too much Self-Confidence?  Well, okay, maybe Evel Knievel, if he ever complained, so it might be a good idea to Hedge our Risks this weekend.

Saturday’s chart features Great Grace directed toward our Health (Cuspal Earth-Air Kite pointing to dwarf planet Varuna [the Life Force] on the Cusp of Leo [Presence]), and Great Grace directed toward Liberation of our Unique Genius (Cuspal Air-Water Kite pointing to dwarf planet Ixion [our Forbidden Genius] and the South Node [our Karma] on the Cusp of Capricorn [Just Fix It, K?]).

That’s a Powerful combination, as it Integrates all four Elements – Spirit, Emotion, Matter, and Mentality (Fire, Water, Earth, Air).  The Health issue is paramount these days, and perhaps even more so the Genius issue, as we’re all going to need that, first to Survive as the World Turns Over, and second to Manifest Collaboration with all of the many Others we’ll be dealing with in the post-Granolavirus World.

However, while Great Grace Abides, we’ll also be Compelled to Pay Close Attention to our Health and our Unique Skills (both Varuna and Ixion-South Node are at the business end of the Goddess’s Index Finger, ie, Yods [Pay Attention!]).  As we’ll Learn later, the overriding Energy here is about Growth in Consciousness (A Parasol, or Quintile and Tridecile Yods [Intense Learning Experience] focused on asteroid Juno [Expansion of Consciousness]).

The Universe will Handle those Energies for us (Grand Trines [Dumb-Luck Grace]), but we also have our Work cut out for us, as Lighting Up our Doubt-Confidence weekend (Chariklo Station) comes with two Major Challenges (T-Squares).  We’ll have to Renegotiate all of our Relationships (T-Square pointing to dwarf planet Haumea [Rebirth] in Libra [Relationship to Other]), and we’ll have to be mindful that we Lovingly Embrace our Transformations (T-Square pointing to asteroid Sappho [Self-Love] in Virgo [Ego Death]).  The Challenges are not Self-Resolving, so we’ll be Working.

There are two other arenas where we need to be very Attentive (foci of Goddess Fingers or Yods), and which Information we’ll need to Weave together the Graces and the Challenges.  The first is Sustainability (dwarf planet Ceres), which is key to using the Grace around our Health (Varuna Kite) to mediate our Self-Love Challenge (Sappho T-Square).  The second is Letting Go of Limitations and Unexamined Judgments that are based on Hidden Fear (dwarf planet Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] Merged with [Conjunct] our Conditioned Reactions [asteroid Karma] and our Ability and Willingness to Consciously End Self-Sabotaging Habits [asteroid Atropos]).

Methinks the Bottom Line of all this Doubt-Confidence (Chariklo Station chart) Complexity is that we may be able to Let Go of Subtle Resistance to Believing in our Heart that what we Intend will actually Manifest.  An Intentional Placebo Effect so to speak.  As we’ve mentioned before, we often combine Theta Healing and Tapping Iteratively to Strive for Manifesting Deep Belief or Confidence of this sort.  The PIAVA process, when done fully, can also make progress toward the same result.  This Deep Belief is the difference between Creating What We Want and Not.

The last Big Issue in the 2 May Doubt-Confidence astroevent is the placement of the symbol for Confidence itself (Chariklo).  It is Merged with the symbols for Expansion (Jupiter), Boundaries (Pallas), and Priorities (Saturn).  That’s a whole lot.  On the one (Ultimate) hand it says that The Most Important Thing is that we Expand our Confidence in our Vulnerability.  Vulnerability is the Perfected form of Boundaries.  Till we get there though, The Most Important Thing is that we Expand our Boundaries to Provide Confidence in our Personal Safety.  Especially if we’re Remembering to Hedge our Risks.

Safety is much Inferior to Vulnerability, but Safety insures that we don’t Overreach for Ascension.  Overreaching can cause the Ego to Overreact, which can create New Limitations that may take us years or Lifetimes to Transcend.  So a Compromise may be the most Practical path, something like The Most Important Thing is that we Learn to Expand our Vulnerability to the point where we have Complete Confidence in our Boundaries.  If we Learn this rather than just Doing it, better yet if we Learn by Doing, then we can continue to Stretch our Vulnerability, which will move us toward 5D.

Here’s the main Chariklo Station chart…

And here’s the Overarching Quintile-Tridecile Yods Parasol chart…

It looks like something Elon might build to Rocket us directly into Expansion of Consciousness (asteroid Juno [Growth in Consciousness] at the focus)!  The base of the central Rocket (Quintile Yod) is the Connection between our Essence (the Sun) and Sustainability (dwarf planet Ceres).  The base of the Stabilizing Wings (Tridecile Yod) is the Link between our Values (Venus) and our Willingness to Surrender into a Whole New Trance (Jupiter-Pluto)Our Plutonic Trance is the Fundamental Unconscious Belief System with which we approach – and Manifest – our Reality.  What we See – and Feel – is What we Believe.  The Fuel that Powers the Rocket is our Belief that the Integrity of Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) Creates Miracles by Removing all need for Victim Postures (Chiron).

The third Chariklo-Station chart is a Mjölnir or Trioctile Yod [Epiphany] to the Jupiter-Chariklo-Pallas-Saturn Stellum…

The Trioctile combines the Eighth Harmonic [Rebalancing] with the Third [Love with Wisdom].  We interpret this Configuration (the Trioctile Yod) as productive of Epiphany because Rebalancing ourself into Love and Wisdom is Ecstatically Life-Changing.  Traditional astrology refers to it as “Thor’s Hammer,” emphasizing Destruction.  We use the Norwegian spelling, Mjölnir, to emphasize its ancient connection to Lightning, EnLightenment, Penetrating all Resistance.  The root of the Nordic Mjölnir is the Vedic Vajra, a Magic Wand that combines the indestructibility of Diamond with the irrestibility of a Thunderbolt, symbolizing Firmness of Spirit and Spiritual Power.

In other words, The Most Important Thing is that we Learn to Expand our Vulnerability to the point where we have Complete Confidence in our Boundaries.  If we Learn this rather than just Doing it, better yet if we Learn by Doing, then we can continue to Stretch our Vulnerability, moving us toward 5D.

I’m not sure we’ve ever talked about Cusps, which Dominate here.  Cusps are like the Changing lines in the I-Ching, Opportunities for New Adventures.  Not to mention all of the New Cycles Beginning (Jupiter-Chariklo, Pallas-Chariklo, Saturn-Chariklo, Pallas-Jupiter, Pallas-Saturn, Karma-Sedna, Atropos-Sedna, Karma-Atropos, South Node-Ixion)!

Ego Death and Confidence

April 30, 2020

This is why I am Grateful for astrology…

Yesterday I PIAVAed that Control over the success of a major segment of my Life be transferred from LeftBrain or Ego to RightBrain or Goddess or “Mysterious Coincidences.”  This morning when I Opened that segment of my Life I felt a profound sense of Failure, and an Urge to Give Up on it.  But, knowing that the symbol for Ego Death was Lit Up (asteroid Nemesis Stationary till 30 April 2020 11:20 am PDT), I was able to quickly connect the Feeling of Failure to Ego Death, and to my PIAVA of the day before.  This allowed me to just move on to other segments unencumbered by the Discouraging Emotions, without even having to Poor-Sweetheart myself.

When I Opened the Surrendered segment later in the day, the Goddess had indeed delivered a nice “Mysterious Coincidence,” for which I was very Grateful.  I know I still have a lot of Resistance to overcome (Do I “Deserve” this?  Why should I?  Why me?  Will this really work?) as my LeftBrain Grieves its Loss of perceived Esteem.  This is textbook PIAVA.  If we are Ready to Receive, we’ll just Get what we’ve Requested, outright.  If we aren’t, then we’ll Get an Illustration of our Resistance.

The average Illustration may not be anywhere as near as Clear as my Feeling this morning, but if I’d never Learned what I know about PIAVAing, and if I didn’t know that we were scheduled for Ego Death, I may not have made the Connection at all, or worse, Believed by first interpretation as Confirmation of my Inadequacy.  We do also have an episode of Self-Doubt barreling down the pike at us, just two days after our Ego Death Lesson, until 2 May 2020 (dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt] Stationary) at 4:20 pm PDT.

Which is a handy Segue to something I read the other day (I think it was Demetra George) about the Immune System being kind of an ultimate Boundary (and hence an issue in the realm of asteroid Pallas).  I’d never made the connection before between the Immune System and Boundaries.  The Immune System is kind of a big deal these days!  And while we’re on this track, our Skin is another ultimate Boundary, and the folks who study our Microbiome refer to the “walls” of our Intestinal Tract, from mouth to pucker, as a continuation of our Skin.

It’s an interesting image – physically, “we” abide in the space between our Skin and our Stomach-Intestines.  And mouth-esophagus.  Something Escher might draw.  What a mess we’d be turned inside-out.  I suppose we’d have to exclude the inside of our Lungs too.  Or rather, include the lining of our lungs, and all their alveoli, as part of our External Physical Boundary.  And nose-trachea.  Kind of puts a different perspective on our Vulnerability to such as the Pomonavirus.

The Microbiome folks take it a step further – the lining of the Intestines is the front lines of our Immune System, because when it’s operating properly it screens out molecules that would cause havoc if they got into the blood stream because of their large size.  That’s exactly the kind of Damage that antibiotics, including Glyphosate/Roundup (which contaminates most non-organic sugars and grains), cause in the Intestines.  They eventually eat holes in our Intestinal lining, and the resulting large molecules in our blood cause havoc with our Health, starting with the Mucosal lining of our nose.

We bring all this up because the symbol for The Most Important Thing (Saturn) happens to be Merged with the symbol for Boundaries (Pallas), and both of these are within spitting distance of the symbol for Confidence (Chariklo) that’s Lit Up until 2 May.  The symbol for Confidence is also Merged with the symbol for Expansion (Jupiter).  As we recall from the fellow who was talking yesterday about the J-Dude…

…When we’re exercising our own Ultimate Authority, it’s Critical that we “in our Heart Believe It” – we need to have Confidence in it.  So whatever Relationship we wish to have with the Spumonivirus, when we PIAVA that Relationship, we need to have Confidence in our own Power to PIAVA it.  The same is true for whatever Relationship we wish to have with 5G, and for that matter 5D.

In other words there’s no better time to PIAVA our Ideal Relationships with…

  • Our Immune System, with
  • Known and unknown threats to our Health, with
  • Intrusive Electromagnetic Energy (with “iot” coming down the pike, 5G isn’t our only problem – “smart” electric meters have been burning down people’s houses often enough that the new US National Fire Code requires whole-house surge protection for all new residential construction), with
  • What We Want, including 5D if it fits into that basket for us, and with
  • Any situations where we want to establish Boundaries that will provide us with Total Confidence that we can meet our Objectives without Betraying our Values.

Then we need to be Hyperalert for the Ego-Death of our Resistance to what we’re PIAVing, because if we weren’t Ego-Attached to the Resistance, we would have been Manifesting them all along!

Can’t wait to draw up that Doubt/Confidence (Chariklo Station) chart, as it has some fun Configurations that we don’t see every day!  (Such as a Mjölnir or Trioctile Yod [Epiphanies] to the Jupiter-Chariklo-Pallas-Saturn complex from a Square between Moon and Vesta [Breakthroughs around Unconscious Limitations], and a Quintile Yod [Learn This!] to asteroid Juno [Growth in Consciousness], and that’s before I draw in any of the extra-credit planets!)

Self-Love Full Moon

February 8, 2020

A few of the Players have changed Partners, but otherwise the chart for the 8 February 2020 (11:30 pm PST) Full Moon is identical to the lovely symmetrical chart for the 5 February Self-Deprecation Squall (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/02/01/possible-self-deprecation-squall/), which hopefully for youalls turned out to be a Self-Love Squall.

We still have a Major Challenge (T-Square) to our Unconscious Limitations (asteroid Vesta), which is always fabulous, as long as we Recognize that it’s our Limits that are Threatened and not our Ego.  This one will be more In-Our-Face than the mid-week event (the base of this T-Square is the Full Moon itself, which is a junior SuperMoon; the base of the 5 February T-Square was Sun/ Essence Opposing asteroid Lachesis/Conscious-Pattern-Breaking).

And while our Codependence or Self-Sovereignty was Challenged mid-week (T-Square to Jupiter and dwarf planet Hylonome), the Full Moon will Challenge our Wannas and Gottas (T-Square to Pluto) themselves.  This is about the New Bravery Zeitgeist (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/01/11/where-are-we-then/).  The more we Resist our Wannas and Self-Loving Gottas, the more we Resist our Brave New World (No matter how hard you Resist, Pluto always Wins).

Unfortunately, our Obsolete Self-Deprecating Gottas are often loaded with Guilt and other Brakes on our Journey into Unconditional Self-Love.  But if we override the Brakes and take a Self-Abusive Gotta too seriously, we could end up burning Bridges that we Need.  It would be a good time to PIAVA the best of both Worlds.  Maybe something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command a Loving and Gentle and Smooth Transition from my Old Scarcity Identity to my New Abundance Identity.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  Show me!”

And as we described a few posts back (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/02/01/possible-self-deprecation-squall/), if your “Show me” isn’t Paydirt, Tap it Out, adjust your Command if necessary, and try again.

Midweek, our Sovereignty was Challenged by our Karma and our Self-Love (asteroids Karma and Sappho Opposing one another in the T-Square base).   Now we’re Challenged to End our Karma by Opening to “New” Information and Lovingly Expanding our Consciousness to Encompass It (asteroid Atropos/Consciously-Ending-Obsolete-Habits, dwarf planet Eris/Revelation-of-What’s-Been-Denied and asteroid Karma Opposing Stationary asteroids Juno/Growth-in-Consciousness and Sappho/Self-Love in the base of the T-Square).

The information we’ll be Receiving is “New,” in quotes, because we knew it all along, our Old Identity just didn’t Allow ourself to Acknowledge it.  This morning for instance, I discovered that when I’m interrupted while concentrating deeply, my behavior and tone of voice are “vicious.”  I didn’t know that.  In retrospect I can see it.  In the moment, all I’m trying to do is Protect the Space that I’m concentrating in (Channeling these posts, for instance, or juggling several tasks at once), so I don’t lose the plot.  Knowing this now, I can retrain myself to smile, raise a finger, and say “Please Wait?!?!” or the like.

The deed to the ranch is still Working with our Higher Powers, Guides, and Guardian Angels (Neptune as the key Player at the Apex of the Chrysalis and the Finger of God from Moon and Juno).  So it will behoove me to enlist them in this Behavior Change, with a Theta Command or other PIAVA, to make sure I stay Conscious for Interruptions while I’m Concentrating, because my Trance can obviously get pretty Deep in those circumstances.  I may even end up drastically Changing the way I use that Trance.  What if I could use if for Direct Healing?

Here’s the Full Moon chart…

There are three Stationary planets in this chart.  Sappho was Stationary on 5 February, and it loosely Conjoins the 8 February (10am PST) Juno Station.  The third Station, of dwarf planet Sedna/Converting-Fear-to-Power also occurs 8 February (7:30 pm PST).  Here’s the chart of the Juno and Sedna Stations…

The Juno and Sedna Stations Quincunx/Curiosity one another, and because the Sedna Station stretches the Sensitivity of the Juno Station, Juno Conjoins dwarf planet Haumea/Rebirth, making our Expansion of Consciousness potentially Life-Changing.

In these two extra-credit astroevents that accompany the Full Moon, the Big Challenge (T-Square) to how we Balance our Wannas and Gottas (Pluto) gets more complicated.  Now it becomes The Most Important Thing (it’s joined by Saturn and…), and it’s Critical to how we Balance our Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt (…dwarf planet Chariklo/Self-Assurance).

Since this is the Heart of the New Zeitgeist, it means that our Expanded Consciousness must Bravely Acknowledge Self-Doubt and Fear when they arise, so they can be Reframed into Confidence that by combining Vulnerability and Research we can Resolve the Doubt and Embrace the Fear, and no longer Introject Doubt into our IdentityWouldn’t that be the Cat’s Pyjamas!

These two events also add another Big Challenge, this time to our Skill with Ego Death (T-Square to asteroid Nemesis/Ego Death).  Of course we’re going to be working with Ego Death, as Transformative as these Challenges seem to be.  It’s a complicated Challenge (the base of the T-Square finds dwarf planets Chaos/Unlimited-Potential and Asbolus/Intuition Opposing Mars, dwarf planet Ixion/Forbidden-Genius, and asteroid Bee-Zed/ Transcendence).  Which means that, if we’re Willing to Let Go Of our Resistance to Ego Death, we can glimpse the Wonders that our Forbidden Genius can Manifest for us.

Finally, we need to Recognize that Converting Fear to Power is a strong theme here, and be Watchful for it.  Remember near the beginning of this post, where we mentioned our “Old Scarcity Identity?”  That’s Scare-City.   We need to trade it in on a Joyful New Abundance Identity…

Fortunately, our work Converting Fear to Power (Sedna Station), and both of the Big Challenges (Foci of the two T-Squares) – our Confidently Brave New Identity (Saturn-Pluto-Chariklo) and our Willingness to Endure Ego Death (Nemesis), are all joined at the hip with Great Grace (Grand Trine/ Impossibly-Good-Luck).  So we may not actually have to Endure the Ego Death – it may just “happen,” and we may sail through it with little or no Discomfort, as it did for my vicious Evil Twin this morning.  It will pay, though, to be Proactive (Mars).  Don’t sit on it, take a Deep Breath and Bravely start a conversation about it.

Changes IV

January 29, 2020

Just a quick note to say that, while we may or may not be Adjusted to the Changes of the last three weeks (which are not at all routine or minor), this week is relatively quiet, in terms of new hurdles and portals.  We’re soon back into a couple of major new Adjustments, though, as we continue to Adapt to the Big Changes of 10-12 January 2020.

Next week we’ll cover several additional Lessons, mostly about Self-Love, Fear, Power, and Karma (5 February Station of asteroid Sappho/ Self-Love-and-its-Dark-Mirror, 7 February Stations of dwarf planet Sedna/Conversion-of-Fear-to-Power and asteroid Juno/Growth-in-Consciousness, 8 February Extinguishment-of-Karma Full Moon, and Mars/Action-and-Anger moving Out-of-Bounds 9 February through 2 March; Stations emphasize the Energy of a planet in the week or so prior, and the Energy of a planet is also emphasized while it is Out of Bounds).

To review, the Big Changes of 10-12 January were centered on the start of a New 35-year Cycle that forms the Zeitgeist that we Live In (12 January Pluto-Saturn/Transformation-Priority Initiation and related 10 January Lunar Eclipse), shaped by Descent of Soul and Insight into What Limits us (simultaneous 10 January Stations of Uranus/Soul into Matter/Taurus and dwarf planet Eris/Revelation-of-What’s-Been-Denied).

Since then we’ve Felt a Gauntlet of ancillary Changes, in Identity (14 January Station of asteroid Nemesis/Ego Death), Creative Power (24 January Manifestation New Moon and Lunar New Year), and a Whole New Rebirth (26 January Station of Haumea/Rebirth).

By way of preparation for the Big Changes, we Reviewed and Revised how we use our Creative Energy (4 January Station of dwarf planet Makemake/Manifestation), and began a major New TimeLine that will Change our Relationship to our Karma (6 January Station of asteroid Klotho/New Beginnings and Initiation of a New 7-year South Node-Jupiter Cycle/Expanded Attention to our Held Emotions).

We also started the Year and Decade with a Major Challenge to How We Deal with Our Karma (1 January Initiation of a New 5-year Cycle of asteroid Karma with Chiron/The-Edge-between-Being-Victimized-by-our-Karma-and-Becoming-Adept-with-It).  As a primary (or even The Most Prominent) feature of the birth chart for the Year and Decade, this Drama will characterize our experience of 2020 and 2020-2029.

Find more details about these Shifts in the posts we’ve published since the beginning of the year.

Along the way we’ve ignored a number of minor astroevents, simply because they were overshadowed by the Biggies.   These include…

  • Becoming more Practical about how we deal with the Absolutes that we harbor in our Hearts, which should be Beacons that Guide our Actions, but which we often instead use as Judgments to cudgel Other Folks who have Different Absolutes in their own Hearts (10 January Egress of asteroid Aletheia/Truth-of-the-Heart into Capricorn/Just-Fix-It).
  • Becoming more Practical about the Boundaries we set with these Other Folks (18 January Egress of asteroid Pallas/ Boundaries into Capricorn/Solution-Orientation).
  • Becoming more Heartfelt about our Respect for Other Beings and Things (19 January Egress of asteroid Hopi/ Judgment into Pisces/Compassion).
  • Becoming more Trustful of our Guides (26 January Egress of asteroid Eurydike/Trust into Aries/Spiritual-Creativity).
  • Becoming less Ruled by Self-Doubt (26 January end of a fourteen-year Out-of-Bounds episode by dwarf planet Chariklo/Self-Confidence-and-Self-Doubt, since November 2004).

If you Experience the Opposite of any of these Energies, Recognize that the Energy is prompting you to Let Go Of precisely that Habitual Reaction to events and entities, so you can replace the Reaction with a more Positive and Enjoyable Response.  We are creatures of Habit – Imagine how Unmanageable (and Awesome!) Life would be without Habits.  But the result of our Programming is that we are often slow to Respond to Changes in the Energy Fields that Embrace us, and sometimes we make Life a lot harder by Resisting these Changes entirely.

I Guess We’re Here

January 13, 2020

Brenda Hoffman has an intriguing message for today…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2020/01/13/your-co-creators-have-arrived/

“January 12, 2020, is a watershed date in your lives and that of all inhabiting earth at this time. For it is as if something clicked inside your hearts, your beings that shifted you from fear to love.

“This shift will not be displayed immediately because many, perhaps including you, have to adjust to the new sensations this shift created. Even though you might have been prepared for something before January 12, this something has never been experienced by you or any earth being. It is as if a shaft of light pierced your tough earth shell.

“Perhaps you think that such comments are a fairytale for how is it possible that one day can create such upheaval?

“This shift will cause many to feel that what was up is now down, and what was down is now up. Because these new sensations will feel unnatural, frightening, it is likely something most will not discuss them. For they will believe that doing so makes them seem odd.

“Those of you in the know will merely adjust as you have to every other burst of energy throughout your earth life. Others, feeling as if their life has been turned upside down, will be the most frightened.

“Even though humans are familiar with the fear of change, this energy event is a tsunami of change. It will be as if someone woke up one night with a new emotional body and must do everything in the dark without understanding how to do so. There will be fear and anger. Not because this shift is bad or damaging, but because it will seem so foreign. So it is many will test these new feelings by doing the exact opposite of their intuitive directives. A confusing time for most.

“You, the forerunners, will slip into your new being easily and effortlessly for you have prepared to do so since you began this transition.

“Those not as open to transitioning beyond 3D as you will be confused and attempt to return to their former feelings only to discover they can not.

“This is a mass transition of proportions you can not begin to envision. For anyone who has dreamt of moving beyond fear and angst will shift rapidly. Such does not mean that in two days all of the earth will be like you, but instead that everyone who wishes to will have their heart opened.

“January 12, 2020, is not a day to take lightly. Allow yourself to move as you wish. And allow the same for all others. For their fear will be displayed long before their heart actions. Just as was true for you when you initiated your transition. The difference is, you have likely been in transition for decades or years. Those now at the beginning stages will shift within days or months.

“You are their beacon – allowing those frightened to know that all is well.

“You will also shift. But your shift will be polishing more facets of your diamond being. Those beginning their transition are discovering their diamond self in the rough.

“Your role and only role is to continue a joy focus. For if you allow yourself to be in fear with those just beginning to transition, they will become more frightened, perhaps not even able to function.

“You are the beacons of the world. Allow yourself to know and accept that.

“All who wish are transitioning or beginning their transition as of January 12th, 2020. You have little to do other than to inform those who wish to know that all is well.”

Well, as they say, “Trust but Verify.”

But then, according to our own previous post, aside from the main effect of 12 January’s Big astroevent about Transforming (Pluto) our Priorities (Saturn) to accommodate (Squared by) What’s Been Denied (dwarf planet Eris) – along with its embellishments (Mercury/Awareness, dwarf planet Chariklo/Confidence-and-Doubt) – the Big Challenge (T-Square) was about Trust (asteroid Eurydike), wasn’t it.  The Challenge to Trust was from the Veracity of the Shift (asteroids Veritas/Facts and Bee-Zed/Transcendence) and our Insights about the Incredible Scope of the Change (dwarf planets Asbolus/Intuition and Chaos/Unlimited-Potential)!

And that doesn’t even include what we Believe to define the context for the 12 January event (namely the 10 January Stations/Strength of Uranus/Soul-or-Consciousness which in Taurus is Descending into Matter, and of Eris/Revelation itself, along with the Eclipse/Illumination), which we might summarize as Huperity Becoming Aware that Matter has been Conscious all along.  Which is the Missing Core Belief in the Western Worldview that is Messing Up the Planet for Huperity and Everyone Else.

So unless Brenda has been reading this blog, which I very much doubt, her post is a remarkable “Coincidence.”  What I’ve been Feeling, myself, is quite a lot of Fear.  I’ve been working with it, Tapping and PIAVAing to get Grounded, but even then I’ve Lacked Clarity on a couple of Issues that seem Important.  Till this morning.  Then I remembered to Poor-Sweetheart myself –

“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Scared, aren’t you.”

And Wham, suddenly there’s Excitement, tonnes of it!  Now I even Remember to Breathe, and to Kegel if necessary!

January 2020 V+

January 7, 2020

Resending this post, with an addition or two in blue…

The Archduke has been Assassinated, though Choosing Sides for the WW to follow hasn’t begun yet, officially.  Anyone who Believes that an “I for an I” means…

“Okay, I named the Reality first, so you Lose”

…as in “[I did this] to stop a war, not start one” must have Learned The Art of War from a starving banker, or from a bigger Bully.  One named Roy maybe.

I’ve met several people, though, who also woke up on 1 January 2020 feeling quite Differently, and very Mellow (perhaps abetted by Mercury/Awareness Out of Bounds/Strong crossing Jupiter/Expansion).  So in spite of my Cynicism about Huperity I actually don’t advocate “Lending our Strength to that which we wish to be Free From.”

While Ascension requires knowing that We Are All One, it also requires Liberation from Attachment to what Other People do.

On 4 January (9pm PST) and earlier, the dwarf planet that symbolizes Manifestation (Makemake) is very Strong (Exactly Stationary in 7 Libra).  A friend of mine celebrated this by getting a rebate for a less-than-Perfect trip on an airplane – to the tune of $1600.  Maybe the rest of us weren’t Dreaming big enough.

On 6 January (1pm PST) and earlier, the asteroid that symbolizes Beginning New TimeLines (Klotho) is very Strong (Exactly Stationary in 5 Gemini).  Start a New TimeLine where you Imagine how you’ll Feel when you Receive a surprise, unexpectedly large, check in the mail.

Also on 6 January and earlier, our Held Emotions (the ones we’d “rather Die than Feel”) could Feel magnified (Jupiter Merges with the South Node).  Start a New TimeLine where you Imagine how you’ll Feel when you’ve Learned to meet each Held Emotion with Delight because you Realize that Bummers which we haven’t Learned to Love yet are running our Lives from the Unconscious.  Now that would Manifest as Abundance!

On 10 January (11:30 am PST) the Full Moon is a Partial (Penumbral) Lunar Eclipse.  We regard Eclipses to be about Illumination.  This one just happens to Light Up (Oppose) the Convention of Heavies (Stellium of Sun, Ceres, Saturn, Pluto, Mercury, and Chariklo in 22-25 Capricorn) that dominates 3-14 January.  Lunar events often act as Triggers for Bigger Events.  The Moon Opposes the Heavies one after the other from 2pm till 7pm 10 January.

On 10 January (5:30 pm PST) and earlier, the dwarf planet that symbolizes Secrets Long Hidden Being Revealed (Eris) is very Strong (Exactly Stationary in 24 Aries).  Since you’ve already Started that New TimeLine where you’ve Learned to meet each Held Emotion with Delight, you’ll meet any unpleasant Secrets with Excitement.  Well, what if you did.

I can always tell when the planet which symbolizes Soul (Uranus) is very Strong (Stationary) because I can easily Sleep when I’m Tired, but I don’t get Tired very much.  It gets Manic around here.  As long as I Realize what’s going on, it happens without the Depressive part.

Well, this planet that symbolizes Soul is also very Strong at 5:30 pm on 10 January, at the same time as the dwarf planet that symbolizes Revelation.  Yes, could also be Revelations.

Also on 10 January (3am PST), the asteroid that symbolizes Truth of the Heart (Aletheia) enters the Sign that means Just Fix It (Capricorn).  This could be a very Potent combination, Soul, Revelation, and Truth of the Heart all Lit Up at the same time.  I’ve been Feeling some of that already.  If you thought about it, you might be too.  You may not even have to think about it.

And then on 12 January (9am PST) and earlier, we get what many of us have been Dreading, the Merger (Conjunction at 23 Capricorn) of Saturn (Focusing on The Most Important Thing) and Pluto (Compulsion and Transformation).  If you find yourself Compelled toward something you’d rather Leave Behind, Transform itIf we follow the Pattern of 2001, we may wait till the Ides of March to Feel the brunt of this Energy (Moon Begins Decade of being periodically Out of Bounds).

You might be very Surprised to find that Intention is all you need, especially since the Transformation of our Priorities (Saturn-Pluto) is Challenged by the Revealing of Long-Hidden Secrets (Square to the Station of Eris) and aided by Powerful Awareness (Mercury Out of Bounds Crossing Saturn-Pluto at 2am PST, before returning In Bounds at 7am PST).

It will be very important to be Mindful of Self-Doubt.  The dwarf planet that symbolizes Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt (Chariklo) sits just two Degrees past the Saturn-Pluto Merger, and it is also very Strong (Out of Bounds).  Our Awareness (Mercury) will be less Acute (no longer Out of Bounds) by 13 January (2am PST), when Awareness and Self-Doubt/Confidence Merge (Mercury Conjunct Chariklo) but our Self-Doubt/Confidence will still be very Strong (Chariklo Out of Bounds).

Remember that this is in the context of Powerfully Transforming the Most Important Thing.  If we could Create a New TimeLine that disables our Self-Doubt and cues our Self-Confidence instead, wouldn’t that make a huge Change in our Lives!  We could do that without getting trapped in Overconfidence, just by being Confident enough to say I Don’t Know.  If you give yourself Permission to go ahead and Dream Big, that could be just a PIAVA away (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).

Expanding into Truth 2

September 26, 2019

As we’ve been pointing out repeatedly since July’s Truthiness post (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/25/truthiness/), both asteroids Aletheia (Truth of the Heart) and Veritas (Truth of the mind) are in Scorpio (Getting to the Bottom of Things, Relentlessly) and moving rapidly toward Merger (Conjunction).  So the ubiquitous news about Habitual Prevaricators getting caught standing in their own you-know-what is no Surprise.  These two Merge on 3 October 2019, about eight hours after Pluto (No Exit) Stands Still (is at Max Power).  They don’t leave Scorpio till early November.

If you haven’t been following this Thread, you’d do well to skim from Truthiness forward till now, as Truthiness has been entwined with our Karma and several other Heavy Threads – including getting Truthy about our own Karma.  Particularly notice how the hooligans are dressed in the first video of the Ixion, Forbidden Genius 3 post.

Our first 27 September astroevent (5:30 am PDT) is asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) moving into Virgo (Ego Death).  Nemesis symbolizes Guilt and Punishment, and we Transcend that with Ego Death – we either Accept that we’re a Bad Person, or Decide that the Rules we’ve broken are Bad, that we’re being Blamed Unfairly. or that we’re being Blamed Fairly, and Intend to Reform.  Any of which Requires an Ego Adjustment, some bigger than others.

Virgo meanwhile is the rope Bridge between Leo and Libra, between the Pinnacle of Individual Development, and the First Meeting of Other, where we’re basically Infantile.  I mean, in Leo we barely knew Other existed.  We thought those disembodied clapping hands were part of our scenery.  Maybe a zip line, or a rappel with no belay, would be a better metaphor than a rope Bridge.  If we don’t go through a tonne of Ego Adjustment in Virgo as the hands stop clapping, we’ll be in big Trouble when we get to Libra.  Maybe you remember situations where you’ve Felt at the top of your game, and Believe you were meeting someone pretty much as Equals, only to very quickly Discover they were waaay ahead of you.

It’s no Help that dwarf planet Chariklo (Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence) is also Strong (Stationary), its Energy peaking a few minutes after midnight PDT on 28 September.  Or maybe it’s Helpful, if Self-Doubt leads us to Self-Examination and Change, or we Respond to getting caught in Over-Confidence by Adjusting our Attitude.

The Nemesis Sign-Change chart is like so…

Just a Big Tricolor (Mystery; the red-green-blue triangle) and a Mjölnir (Epiphany – the lighter yellow lines).  With a Tricolor we unlock the Grace in the blue line by Refusing to Let the mind Believe that it Understands the Confusion inherent in the green line.  Said another way, there’s an Easy Relationship (Trine) between the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar) and our Ego Death (Nemesis).  But the Ease is locked out of our Awareness when we Allow the Challenge (Square) that Unconscious Fear (Vesta-Sedna) makes to our Ego (Nemesis) to Dominate our Attention.  We’re referring to Pholus-Quaoar as the Climate Emergency, but it includes the Political and Economic Uncertainty that’s Afoot.

We Restore the Ease by Surrendering to our Higher Power the Relationship between our Fear (Vesta-Sedna) and the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar), by Allowing it to remain a Mystery (Quincunx).  But that doesn’t mean we defer the Opportunity to bring the Fear up into Consciousness!  For instance, I’ve been gnawing on a Problem for several months now, without coming up with a decent suggestion to Solve it.  This morning I realized that It was Fear that I was Unconsciously focusing on, while I tried to “Solve” it by Strategizing.  That’s a Dead End, obviously.  We Resolve Fear by Embracing it.

So I did just that – laid down, located the Fear in my Body, Softened and Warmed it while Poor-Sweethearting myself (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Scared, aren’t you”), then followed the Sensation when it Moved in my Body, and the Emotional Memories Triggered as it did.  If a Problem can’t be Resolved in a couple of months of Plotting, it’s not a Problem that will ever be Solved by Analysis, Planning, and Executing.  Declare an Intention, Command What You Want, and be Mindful to Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade Thoughts to the Contrary.  Which I did.  Didn’t immediately Solve the Problem, but it certainly Changed my Frame of Reference, so I’m more often broadcasting What I Want to the Universe instead of What I Don’t Want.

Which leads us right to the Mjölnir (Trioctiles reaching from each end of a Square), that focuses on the Saturn-South Node that plagued us last week – namely, our Karma.  Those Emotional Memories Triggered by the Movement of Energy after I Allowed the Fear to become Conscious as a Physical Sensation in my Body and Invited it to Express itself however it Chose.

Asteroid Hopi, joining Saturn and the Dragon’s Tail, is about Respect for All Things.  A great time to go through our…

“_____, whatever I may have done or not done, or said or not said, Consciously or Unconsciously, that hurt you, I Ask your Forgiveness.  _____, whatever you may have done or not done, or said or not said, Consciously or Unconsciously, that hurt me, I forgive you.”

Be careful with this; it can easily Create Powerful Ego Deaths that you don’t notice until you Discover that you’ve Forgotten how to Drive!

A few hours later, around 8:30 am PDT 27 September, asteroid Bee-Zed (or BZ509, indicating Transendence) Stands Still.  Its chart…

…is more complicated, but the core is two T-Squares (red triangles), one to Stationary Bee-Zed itself, Expanded by Jupiter (Growth), and the other to Chariklo (Self-Doubt/Confidence), Stationary less than a day later (just after midnight PDT 28 September).  Chariklo is Lit up by Pluto (Obsession), which itself is Stationary until 2 October, and our busy friend Hopi again.  This is a hell of a lot of Power.  Make sure you’re swimming downstream.

Expanding Transcendence (Jupiter and Bee-Zed) is Challenged by (Squares) the Dance (Opposition) between Choosing to Become Aware and Trust our Instincts (Moira-Juno-Moon) and Sacred Confusion about our Identity (Neptune-Lilith).  Lilith is about Bringing our Identity back Home to our Self and our Soul, rather than Investing it in someone or something External to us, such as a spouse or a job.  Confusion is always the first stage of Growth, as the Mental Cage we normally trap the Universe in, starts to warp and lead.  Sacred Confusion (Neptune) all the more.

Compulsive Attention to Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence, in the context of our Judgments (Pluto-Chariklo-Hopi) is Challenged by the Dance between our Values (Venus) and our Endings (Atropos).  In other words this is about Letting Go of Obsolete Values that Inhibit our Self-Confidence.  The Greek Atropos was the Goddess who determined the Ending of a TimeLine – a Lifetime or a Habit or a Relationship or any other Thread in your Young Life.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; we replace it with Choice when we become Conscious.  Here we practice Choosing to Let Go of Values that no longer Serve us.

There is a seventh fencepost here – the budding (3 October) Conjunction between Truth of the Heart Aletheia, and Truth of the mind Veritas.  It Bridges both Oppositions – we’ll make everything a lot Easier if we steer toward Truth.

We need to remind that this is all just warmup for the 2 October (11:30 pm PDT) Station of Pluto (Compulsive Change of Trance) and 3 October (8am PDT) Aletheia-Veritas Conjunction (Truth Squared).

And that 28 September is even busier than the 27th,  starting just after midnight PDT with the Station of Chariklo (Self-Doubt/Self-Confidence) which Conjoins the Stations of Pluto and Bee-Zed, and continuing at 9am PDT with the Station of dwarf planet Chaos.  Chaos is a Big Deal; if it weren’t for all these other themes going on and Pluto waving its arms, Chaos would be the Big Topic!  Here it just means that however we React and Respond to these Lit-Up Issues of Karma, Survival, Ego Death, Confidence, Truth, Growth, Ascension (into 5D), and Descension (of Soul into Matter) the Gate to the Universe is Open.  The World is our Oyster; all we need to do is Intend it.

Then, at 11:30 am PDT 28 September, the Moon is New within one arcminute of dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  The primary theme of the New Moon, other than Manifesting What We Want, is Descent of Soul into Matter, not just “our own” Soul into our own Body, but the Reanimation of the Planet, the Wild, and Everything In It, return to the Indigenous World where All Things Are Alive.

If anyone is watching the Degrees and comparing them to their natal chart – which we should all be doing – they’re these…

  • Equinox 0 Libra 23 September
  • Nemesis Ingress 0 Virgo 27 September
  • New Moon 6 Libra 28 September
  • Aletheia-Veritas Conjunction 17 Virgo 3 October
  • Bee-Zed Station 18 Sagittarius 27 September
  • Chariklo Station 20 Capricorn 28 September
  • Pluto Station 21 Capricorn 2 October
  • Asbolus Station 24 Gemini 23 September
  • Chaos Staion 27 Gemini 28 September
  • Vesta Station 28 Taurus 23 September

Expanding into Truth 1

September 25, 2019

A quick Summary of the fireworks we listed in the previous post…

  • 27 September 2019 – Ego Death Squared (Nemesis enters Virgo).
  • – Transcending Untruth (Bee-Zed Stationary Conjunct Aletheia-Veritas).
  • 28 September – Dancing with Self-Doubt (Chariklo Stationary Conjunct Pluto).
  •  – Wandering in Paradise (Chaos Stationary Conjunct Asbolus).
  •  – Making New Friends (New Moon Conjunct Makemake).
  • 2 October – No U Turn (Pluto Stationary).
  • 3 October – Truth Reigns (Aletheia Conjunct Veritas).

The overarching Energy is Pluto.  We usually describe Pluto Energy  as floating down a large river – when we hear the waterfall coming up, we can steer to one bank or the other to portage around it.  So we do have the flexibility to Manipulate the Energy to our advantage, if we have the Skills.  But it’s a big river – if we try to paddle upstream, we’ll just get swept over the falls backward.  When Pluto Energy Shifts, Going Back takes great Effort, and if you get there it’s not the same anyway.

This Pluto Station is about Revising our Values to account for New Information we’ve gotten (Pluto Stationary T-Square Venus and Eris).  Except for minor differences, the 27 September Bee-Zed Station and 28 September Chariklo Stations make the same basic chart, as all three of these Stations occur within the same 3-Degree window.

Pluto is often read as Transformation, or Formation of a New Trance, Bee-Zed as Transcendence, and Chariklo as Self-Confidence or its evil twin Self-Doubt.  So this week we wouldn’t be Surprised to find ourself Doubting our Old Values, as we Transcend previously Unconscious Limitations.  By next week we should be ready to have Confidence in a whole set of New Values.

Lingering beneath this Pluto Energy is a Station of dwarf planet Chaos, which, if we Allow it, can blow our Limitations to smithereens.  With our Values in Flux here, the odds are improved.  Dwarf planet Chaos implies, rather than Disorder, a Blank Slate on which we can draw anything we can Imagine that draws out our Passion.  We’re only Limited by our Imagination and our Manifestation Skills – which are much Enhanced by the 28 September New Moon only one arcminute from dwarf planet Makemake.

Chaos has been Dancing with our Intuition (Asbolus) and our Forbidden Genius (Ixion).  As we’ve seen, our Genius is tied up with the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar), so it’s Important that we Receive and Embrace Her.  Greta is a great Model for our Hidden Genius – when the trolls attack her for being “mentally ill,” she points out that she regards her Asperger’s Syndrome as her Superpower.  We all have a Superpower that’s been Shamed by the Status Quo Culture.

As you Doubt your own Values this week, you’ll see first hand why others would much rather ridicule their superiors than Allow their Ego-draped Values to be Threatened.  The 27 September Ingress of asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) into Virgo (Ego Death) will Amplify all that.  Leo is the apex of the Individual, and in Libra we Meet Other.  In between – in Virgo – we Discover, like we did as infants, that we aren’t the Center of the Universe.

To get from Leo to Libra requires a Gauntlet of Ego Deaths.  Virgo’s bad rap follows from Maladjustment to and Judgment of Ego Death.  For all the (Lack of) Attention that Ego-Worshiping Western Culture gives to Ego Death, it’s a Wonder anyone is Well-Adjusted to it – if anyone is.  I felt it today in the form of missing two turns on a 2-mile trip that I drive almost every day.