For the 22 May 2020 (9:30 am PDT) New Moon in 3 Gemini, which applies to the next several weeks, we’re back to the 10 May Priorities Energy (Saturn Station) that we described in The Most Important Thing 2 post (the chart with the one-eared Flying Squirrel).
That was a week and a half ago, so some of the Players have Changed. For instance, at that time Self-Love (asteroid Sappho) was the major Challenge (T-Square). For the New Moon, the major Challenge is Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake). While the Object of the Challenge has changed, the Source (base of the T-Square) has not. It’s our Life Path (Nodal Axis).
Yes, we absolutely believe in Destiny. If you insist on remaining Unconscious. The more Conscious we become, the more we replace Fate with Choice. We each have a Life Mission (North Node), but it’s waaay more Multidimensional than our Dualistic Mind can grasp. It doesn’t hurt to try, as long as you add “…or something like that” to every attempt. In order to move toward our Life Mission, we need tools that we can only get by facing down our Held Emotions (South Node), the ones that We’d rather Die than Feel.
Oops, we put the accent on the wrong syl-ob‘ble (syllable). It’s We’d rather Die than Feel – we don’t do Held Emotions without an Ego Death. Ego Death is of course the second stage of Growth in Consciousness. The first stage is Confusion, though there’s a lot of interbreeding between Ego Death and Confusion. After the pregnancy, we Birth a new, more Conscious Ego, if we’re willing to do the Work.
Doing the Work has two parts. The first is being willing to Tolerate our Confusion without Killing It – Killing Confusion means Trying to Figure Out (thinking) Why (again, thinking) we’re Confused so we can make it Go Away. Confusion is an Emotion in its own right, and one of the more Powerful, if subtle, Emotions we have. The Patriarchy gets its toxic aversion to Change by banning Confusion from polite company. It’s not macho.
The second part of the Work is being willing to Sit Through our Ego Death without Running Away from it. Sitting through Ego Death means Opening to whatever Emotions arise (not macho) and being Loving and Gentle (again, not macho) with them .
Yes, there will be Stories, but they aren’t necessary. We can briefly Appreciate them, but we want to dismiss them quickly, so we can Pay as much Attention as possible to the Emotion. The Stories are more thinking, and like Chocolate-covered quicksand, they’re totally Compelling, and difficult to escape from. Addictive even. How many people do you know who are Addicted to their Victim Stories?
What Victim Stories are You Addicted to? They might make good material for you to practice on, Separating Emotion from Thinking, and using Sensation as a Guide to keep you Feeling and not Thinking.
There’s a good reason why the word Feeling applies both to Sensation and Emotion.
A good way to Open to an Emotion is to Locate it, or any Discomfort, in our Body, and put All of our Attention on that spot, while we watch what’s happening for us Emotionally. Put your hand on that spot to warm it – Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard. If you can’t find the Emotion in your Body, or there are many Discomforts, just pick the most likely spot, while trying not to think about it. You want to Feel it, not Think it.
Emotions don’t have grammatical Objects. You’re never Angry At [xyz], you’re just Angry. You’re never Sad About [abc], you’re just Sad. The grammatical Objects we love to add to Feelings are thinking, not Feeling. Putting an Object on an Emotion freezes you in Time, and Emotions are Timeless, especially Held or Karmic Emotions. And if an Emotion is difficult for you to Tolerate, and difficult to Let Go Of, you can bet it’s Karmic.
When an Emotion is Karmic, its roots are not in the Current Lifetime, so dwelling on some Current-Lifetime Chagrin will never touch it. And a Karmic Emotion will be cemented in by a zillion iterations, so if you have a Story about it from a different Lifetime, dwelling on that Story is just more Karmic masturbation. It won’t Impregnate you with a new Ego that sports Expanded Consciousness. Just more Thinking when you need Feeling.
When our Attention Wanders, as it will, frequently, we just Lovingly and Gently bring our Attention back to where there’s Discomfort in our Body. No Judgment. It Is What It Is. When the Discomfort Moves, we’ve succeeded. We can Follow it, if we still have Attention to spare, or we can Change the Subject, wait a while, and see that happens.
“PIAVA, in case you’ve forgotten or tuned in recently, stands for Pray-Intend-Ask-Visualize-Affirm. Each is basically similar, but some work better for some of the people some of the time… The Magnetic Feminine manifestation process runs PIAVA, Change the Subject, Pay Attention. You have to Change the Subject (or as the Buddhists put it, Lose Your Mind) because if you keep thinking about it, your Old Birdcage will constrain your Reality to be the way it’s always been. And you have to Pay Attention because whenever you PIAVA anything, the first thing that the Universe provides is information about why you haven’t had what you’re asking for all along.”
As it was in our Priorities Energy, our Karma in the New Moon Energy is all about Recovering our Hidden and Forbidden Genius (South Node [Held Emotions] Conjunct dwarf planet Ixion [our Unique Genius]…) so we can “fix” Climate Change (…and dwarf planets Pholus [Are we Missing anything?] and Quaoar [Survival]). This is a Unique Opportunity that occurs only every nineteen or so years, when our Hidden and Forbidden Genius and our Held Emotions Converge (South Node Conjunct Ixion).
We’re all troubled by Serious Problems that are much bigger than our usual Span of Control, be they Climate Change, outacontrolavirus, bumpstocks, coyotes, politics, clearcutting, Roundup, in-laws, oligarchies, taxes, overpopulation, locusts, food insecurity, pigshit lagoons, coal ash, people running around nude under their clothes, undsoweiter ecosìviaadinfinitum.
The fact that our Forbidden Genius is Verboten is almost certainly Karmic. If you’ve ever had a Fantasy about having Superpowers and Fixing some Problem much larger than your usual Span of Control, or even publicly Expressing your Frustration about the Problem, you’re Touching your Forbidden Genius.
The World Mirrors our Inner Balance, so we all have our own Inner Climate Change process happening – we’re all Denying chronic Problems that we Believe are beyond our Span of Control because they’re hiding behind our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs. We Deny them because it’s a healthy way to deal with Issues that would just overwhelm our current Ego. And there’s a strong correlation between our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs and our Held Emotions.
To touch the Edges of your Held Emotions, Focus on What You Feel when you contemplate your Obsession with the Global or Personal Problems that seem to be beyond your Power to Change.
To touch the Edges of your Forbidden Genius, Focus on What You Feel when you have that Superpower Fantasy.
Then Change the Subject, and tune in tomorrow to see if anything Feels different. Then rinse and repeat.
“I just realized I am not well versed in the ‘vacant spot’ and how to read it; for example, 19 Virgo (near my Natal Jup) – Is the vacant point an important piece to incorporate Natal planet positions to understand creating the pattern within the transits? Or is the vacant spot more an indication of what is to be understood from the pattern configuration? If you have any references from your posts that I could study further? Or maybe a quick explanation will do the trick.”
Yes, when you’re at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/, there’s a long column of keywords (“categories”) to the right of the text. If you’re looking at a specific post, it doesn’t show up. I try to add a keyword to a post only when the post explains the term, but I’m not totally consistent about categorizing all posts. I notice that there are two cubbyholes for “Vacancy,” one under “Planets etc.” and one under “Astrologuese.” They should be combined, as there’s no difference in how they’re used – but it would take me about an hour to combine them, so I won’t bother.
But let’s go ahead with a quick explanation, as we never know what we’re going to find from the keyword list – I “improve” my astrology constantly, so I’ll just tell you how I use Vacancies now…
Configurations in a chart are combinations of planetary angles that, usually, fill the Zodiac (usually that means they add to 360 Degrees). For instance, the Grand Sextille comprises six planets each two Signs or 60 Degrees apart, 6 x 60 = 360. The Grand Sextile (and the Grand Anything) is considered to be much more Powerful than six Sextiles randomly placed around a chart or less well organized.
I consider it an Almost-Grand Sextile when five of the six Positions are occupied, because if we supply the missing Energy in the sixth Position, then we Complete the Grand Sextile and Enjoy the Benefits (kinda like Bingo or the Lotteries, of a Full Hand in Poker). It’s similar with other Almost-Grand Configurations – Quintile, Septile, etc. Occasionally, when it seems appropriate, I’ll consider a Configuration with two Vacancies to be Almost-Grand. Like the four adjoining Septiles we had at the 25 April 2020 Pluto Station, where just for the heck of it we looked to see if there were Stars at the missing three Positions (still in my queue, Bob!).
Notice that an Almost-Grand Cross is a T-Square – the primary Benefit of any Grand Configuration is that it’s Balanced, including the Grand Cross. It combines four T-Squares, but it’s In Balance, so it’s not considered as Troublesome as the T-Square. The primary Challenge of the T-Square then is to Create Balance from it. We don’t usually consider the Vacancy of a T-Square, but it wouldn’t hurt to do so.
We were looking at a 19-Virgo Vacancy in the Almost-Grand Sextile in the 7 May Full Moon chart. I don’t have a way to check to see if a Vacancy may be occupied by asteroids (or even dwarf planets) that I don’t usually use – I wish I did, as it would help a lot. If anyone has a way to do this, let me know. So if none of the “planets” (meaning planets, asteroids, dwarfs, Lights, Nodes, etc) I use are there, I look for Stars nearby. That’s an iffy proposition, as there aren’t that many Stars that are cataloged for use by astrologers. However, if there’s a Biggie there, like Arcturus or Regulus or Sirius, that’s Huge.
Whether there’s a Star near the Vacancy or not, if you have a natal planet there, you automatically Complete the Configuration, without even trying. So for you it’s a full Grand Sextile, because you Embody the Energies of your natal chart. If you have natal planets near any of the other planets in the Configuration, that’s worth noting as well, because that natal planet will be Lit Up more than usual. As Huminals (Huper Animals), we’re like Viruses, with those little Spikes all over, corresponding to the planets in our natal chart, each of which is an Antenna for broadcasting and picking up (and maybe getting Stuck on) Energies from outside of ourself.
So that Almost-Grand Sextile in the Full Moon chart comprised…
Klotho – Beginning New Timelines
Sun-Mercury – Awareness of our Essence
Neptune – Our Relationship to Energies Larger than Our Own
Hylonome-Veritas – Insights into our Codependence
Moon – our Instincts
If we add a Jupiter to that in the Vacancy, which would apply only to you, we Expand everything. A Grand Sextile itself is about fabulous Grace or Good Luck in combining the Energies in each Sextile, which in turn is about Projects where we take the First Step and the Universe takes over after that. So for the next several weeks (Full Moon charts impact the following 2-4 weeks) we might be finding excellent progress around Expanding New Projects that involve Trusting our own Instincts more, and Listening More to (and/or PIAVAing the Assistance of) our Guides, instead of Playing to or Soliciting the Opinions of Others.
Now, for most of the rest of us, without a planet in or near 19 Virgo, we have to Consciously add the Energy of the Vacancy in order to take advantage of the Enhanced Grace of the Grand Sextile. For a guess about what that might mean we’d read the Sabian Symbol for that Degree, 19 Virgo: “A Swimming Race.” To me that means Efficiency at processing our Emotions. So for the rest of us for the next several weeks we might find great progress with New Projects that involve Trusting our own Instincts more, Listening More to our Guides and Soliciting their Assistance more, and Trusting our own Emotions (as Opposed to our Thoughts About them of course), instead of Trying to Please Others.
For all of us, the Programming we received from our Mothers is likely to be particularly Lit Up, since the Saturn Station occurs on Mother’s Day. And we can’t ignore the fact that the Moon goes Out of Bounds on Mothers Day, so it’s all going to be a lot more Emotional than it would be usually – though telling Mom to Butt Out of our Choices will probably always be a Chancy Conversation. But its a Grand Sextile, suggesting very Positive Outcomes from any Project that we Initiate, so it may be the best time ever to Begin our Self-Liberation.
Or, you can take an Easier path, especially if your Mum is Difficult (or Deceased), and use your Mirrors instead. Either way our Relationship with our Dear Mother is Changing, so we want to Make the Best of the Opportunity in whatever way Feels best to us – that is, by Trusting our Emotions. If our Emotions are Conflicted, as they’re likely to be, what an Opportunity to Stay Present with our Confusion and Avoid trying to Fix it.
If your Mother is the type to Demand Commitment, what an Opportunity to Stand your Ground (Veritas-Hylonome) – “Mom, I hear that you’re Asking for a firm Commitment, but I’m not Ready to do that, so we’ll have to leave the whole Issue Dangling till I am Ready, and I don’t know when that will be.” Then, while the odds of Success are Great (Grand Sextile), you get to Practice Not Trying to Fix or Manipulate your Mother’s Emotions!
You might think this all sounds Daunting, but it’s a Critical and Natural part of Claiming Your Power, and as we’ve said, there may never be a Better Time. Trying to stuff your Mother’s Heavy Emotions into your Carrion Bag for the Ascension Flight won’t work. They’ll bump you off the Flight for overweight.
“So are you Adept at the Technique enough to bring Mowser home safely? ‘Cause what I’m doing ain’t worked yet.”
The technique of toggling between Tapping and Theta-ing is Powerful for manipulating our own Expectations, which have a Powerful influence on our Realities. Turning Lead into Gold is a different issue.
Today, when I Theta that Mowser be Safe, the Picture I get is that She’s quite content.
When I Theta that Mowser Come Home, I actually get a picture of Her casually walking through the door as if nothing has happened.
How do we interpret that?
When I Theta that Mowser be Safe in 3D, I get Confusion.
So (after Celebrating Confusion for a moment) I Tap on Confusion about Mowser.
Then I Theta again on Mowser’s Safety in 3D, and the picture I get is that She’s happy.
If I interpret that literally, maybe a neighbor is making Her offers She can’t Refuse. Or of course that She’s Successfully moved to another Lifetime. But I don’t want to give my friend false hope.
My Motives (Passion in the situation in other words) are different from my friend’s, and that could easily be influencing my Prayers. My Conscious Motives are to Teach my friend what I Know, to Ease their Path, to do what I can to help a Magical Being (Cat) continue to Have a Good Time, and in general to reduce Suffering to the extent that it doesn’t Inhibit the Growth we all need so desperately.
I don’t use Theta to Control “Reality” per se, but more to Orient myself Relative to It. For instance, I must have bad Car-ma, cuz when contemplating a car trip I often spontaneously visualize the worst. So I Theta a Safe Trip and a Safe Return, and if I get a picture of myself sitting back at home, I can just drop my Anxiety. If I don’t, then I Tap on my Anxiety, then Theta again. If I can’t get a Clear picture of returning Safely home, then I imagine Changing my route or timing and check that out. So I use it more as a check on the ongoing struggle between my Intuition and my Karma than to Change “what I can’t Control” (that is, what ain’t me).
So what I recommend is that my friend examine their own Motives, and their degree of Passion in each. I would imagine that their list includes at least Mowser’s Well-Being, Avoiding Grief, and Wanting Mowser to be Free of Suffering. Maybe a high priority is just getting Mowser back in my friend’s arms, because that gives them such Comfort.
I Believe that we Manifest most Effectively when we’re Passionate AND Neutral. Sounds like an oxymoron, but that’s Duality, and Reality is Unitary and Multifarious, not Dual. When we’re Passionate and Not Neutral, we Project our Wants into situations that Look Like our Wants but aren’t, then get Disappointed when the Illusion breaks. When we’re Neutral and Not Passionate, we don’t really care. When we’re Passionate and Neutral, we Persevere at Striving for What We Want, and we’re constantly Attentive to Opportunities to improve the “Techniques” we use to Manifest.
Like it or not, we end up being Passionate and Neutral about our Deepest Desires, and about Resolving our T-Squares. In both cases our Passion isn’t Optional, we’re Driven, and we eventually get to Neutrality after trying all other Options.
So I’ll Ask my friend to Review their Neutrality on each of their Motives, and Tap Out any non-Neutrality that they find. They may also want to Theta Clarity on whether Mowser will be coming home in Her current (or most recent, in our Timeline) Lifetime. If so, they can Theta Clarity about where to Look. If not, they can get on with their Grief and move on to their next-best Reality.
A different friend lost their Beloved Cat, only to find themself later being Adopted by a Cat that was an obvious Reincarnation of the Original.
“Let us speak a little of what it takes to release the tension of the new beginnings upon your Earth realm. Feel yourselves grow, change envelop the new tidings of love and joy – and heartfelt displeasure at what it was that took you so far to get here to this stage of love, joy and unity. Feel yourselves expanding, growing and maturing evermore into the unfolding and refolding and back and forth, like the tides, into the ever more complex multidimensionality of your Selves and cells.
“We are here to bring you the upmost of important of messages. It is: Be who you are. Not what others believe or expect of you. You are who you are for a reason. For the Earth realm. Not for the Higher realms or any other realm. You are on planet Earth, in and on the heart of Gaia for a reason. Embrace it, acknowledge it, share it among yourselves.
“There is so much escaping and expectation, and mourning and loss and it saddens us kinfolk among you to see you are not living up to your expectations of what it actually means to be on the Earth realm. Changing, obscuring, desensitising and obfuscating the Truth for realities of unknown measure. We understand it is difficult to live the realities of who you are, why so many cling to un-realities, driven by ego and greed… yet find within yourselves the measure of the ‘small’ person you are, the smallest most secret and hidden part of yourselves that have been closed up and hidden for fear of being trampled on and exposed.
“Bring them out in full force. Expose them for the greatness and beauty of all their honour. This is the smallest most vulnerable, most magnificent part of your Selves that must expand in consciousness. Stretch out and reach for the stars, planets and galaxies that long to realise the strength of your muster. Earth will take its seat amongst the galaxies of the universe as one of its allies of strength and unity in the Federation of Light.”
Of course one of the first Yes-Butts about Yintegrity is, How do we Survive doing Yintegrity when the rest of the World is doing Yangtegrity. The Yes-And is that we minimize our Commitments, Renegotiate often, and, when we don’t have an opportunity to Renegotiate and the Relationship is valuable, Make Amends.
A more consequential Yes-But is What if I have parts of myself that for very good reasons I don’t like? And worse, parts of myself that I know very well others don’t like, because they’ve told me so, loud and clear? Sure, we can “Prescribe” more Self-Love and more Self-Sovereignty, but really, how do you Respond to that? – “Easy for you to say?” I mean, we’ve been working with that Energy all our Life, and have we found Resolution yet?
Now that our Forbidden Genii are pushing to the fore, we’ve got some real homework to do.
These Energies have three feet in the Unconscious – if they were Conscious we’d have Dismissed them long ago – and we don’t Change the Unconscious with Prescription. We’ve spoken often about how to use the combination of PIAVAing, Poor-Sweethearting, and Tapping, iteratively to Liberate ourselves from Archetypes. But what if, Nevertheless, They Persist? And what if we don’t yet have enough Clear Consciousness about them to know how to proceed?
Let’s take an example. This is the approximate birth chart of one of the long-time Perps of Abuse of Power, currently a “Victim” (not that they haven’t worked hard to earn this dubious distinction) of #MeToo…
We find a serious Challenge (T-Square) to Self-Love (Sappho) and to Ending their Resistance (Atropos) to same (the Houses aren’t accurate). If you knew who this is, you’d see instantly how they’ve made a fortune by Acting Out that Challenge. Though this may or may not have been a Conscious choice on their part, it’s an example of how Recovering our Forbidden Genius can pave our Yellow Brick Road. That’s one way to put our Forbidden Genius to work – Act it Out in a way that seems like you’re making a parody of It.
A parody of It in others of course – few of us have a Forbidden Genius that’s so unique that others won’t understand our Pain, and appreciate the opportunity to make Light of it. That’s likely to feel very Vulnerable – of course your audience will think you’re talking about yourself, which will likely Retrigger the Shame that drove your Genius underground in the first place. Our “Native” (that’s what astrologers call the person whose chart they’re reading – the one with the “Nativity”) may have been able to pull this off because of Intuitive Memories of Trust (Asbolus Opposite Mnemosyne-Aletheia in the base of the Sappho-Asbolus T-Square).
So we have a Perp who’s been Abusing Power. So where is their Nessus, the dwarf planet that we associate with Abuse and Privilege? Okay, it’s seriously Challenged by (T-Square to) Compulsion (Pluto) and Action (Mars). Anybody with a Nessus-Mars-Pluto T-Square has dialed up a very serious Karmic Lifetime. Most folks with this Configuration, if they haven’t gotten very Conscious and very Practiced with this Energy, are probably in prison. If this is your Forbidden Genius, prison counselors aren’t very well paid, but there’s a huge and lucrative market for Hollywood crime scriptwriters.
Ah, the T-Square is Completed, by Venus, making a Grand Cross. A Grand Cross is more Balanced than a T-Square alone (even though a Grand Cross is composed of four T-Squares), probably making our Native less Out of Control. And Venus would soften the whole Energy – though worse case it could make for an Unconscious person who Values (Venus) Active Compulsive Abuse of Power. So far we have a person who might do well as a Detective, since they’d know quite well what Motivates many scofflaws.
And, our Perp’s Nessus is at the focus of a Pay-Attention (Finger of God – the green wedge). That will raise the probability that our Native gets Conscious of their Compulsions. And if they don’t get Conscious, it’ll raise the probability that Trouble will find them, and it’ll Escalate its prodding until they do figure it out.
Ah again – look at all those blue lines! Those represent Blessings. The big blue triangle is a Grand Trine, symbolizing Dumb-Luck Grace, the kind of Luck that can make us Arrogant till we figure out that everyone has a Unique Skill. It’s in the Earth Signs, so our Native will be very Grounded, and that includes Mars, so they’re likely to be less reckless in their Actions than they otherwise might be.
And there’s more – the shorter blue lines trace out five sides of a hexagram or Grand Sextile. A Grand Sextile makes the results of their Actions likely to be successful, but theirs is one corner (labeled with a “V” in a circle, for “Vacancy”) short of Complete, so they’ll need to contribute that Energy Consciously to make their Endeavors work out. That corner is occupied by a Star, however – Markeb, signifying Steadiness in the course of Movement – and Good Fortune followed by Disgrace. But, as it’s in a Grand Sextile, the Disgrace may not be as complete as it has been with some #MeToo Perps.
I made a quick check on five other #MeToo Perps relative to their natal Nessus, and found…
So, what’s our point? When our Development of a particular Skill is Frozen st some age, our Psychological Age with that Skill remains the same as it was at the time the Skill was Frozen. In addition, when the Issue arises, we Regress to that Age, and lose track of ALL of the Skills we’ve Learned since. In a Culture that’s very screwed up about Power and Sex, when either or both are Strong in a chart they’re likely to be driven underground, producing many adults whose relationship to Power and Sex remains Infantile or Adolescent, and who lose most of their Adult Skills when Issues of Power or Sex arise.
Power and Sex are additionally complicated in some cases by Genetic and Socially Conditioned Patterns that differ from the Cultural Norms. There may be Unconscious Archetypes or Conscious Strategies operating that are perfectly Healthy in some Cultures, just not in the Culture that the person happens to be operating in.
For instance, in some Cultures and Species it’s appropriate for Survival that the alpha males do most of the mating – and in practice that’s often what happens in Human society. The rest of the males shift to the Yin Masculine as Genia Haddon calls it, as the equivalent of “Worker Bees.” When an alpha male is a Bully, or when a beta or omega male has a high Sex drive and low Consciousness, problems arise. The #MeToo Perps fall mostly in the latter category.
What’s True about Power and Sex will also be True about any other aspect of our Forbidden Genius, whatever Skill that involves.
So, what do we do about this? Well, of course the first thing we need to do is get Conscious of what’s Frozen. Since we Regress when it comes up, we’re very likely to be Frightened by it; it’s as Overwhelming now as it was then, because we are then. It’s also almost always Karmic, so we’re also Regressed to “Previous” Lives where the Issue was unresolved, so it’s probably Traumatic, and may well have led to our Death in those Lifetimes. So there are Strong barriers to a straightforward Recovery.
We need to start with any kernel we can get hold of – which is probably easy, since it’s likely to be something about what we’ve always Craved but have never given ourselves Permission to Receive. Which may look like something we’ve been trying hard to Achieve all our Life but never successfully. Nevertheless, we Persisted. We never had a choice.
Bessel van der Kolk’s Experience and Research (The Body Keeps the Score) shows that one of the most reliable ways to overcome PTSD is Theater. We don’t need to move to Hollywood or get involved with our local theater group; all we need is a Trusted Collaborator or two. We let our Creativity loose and Dance around the kernel we have. This may or may not shake loose the Held Emotions so we can endeavor to Heal them, but it will give us practice. Our primary need is to advance the age of our Frozen Skillset, and we do that the same way we would have done it at the age of its Freezing – we practice.
Once we are able to put and keep our Current-Moment Adult and our Regressed Child in the same room at the same time, the many additional Skillsets that our Adult can contribute will be a tremendous aid to advancing our Frozen Skillset beyond the age of the Regressed Child.
Vedic astrology has a tendency to Believe it does have a monopoly on Truth. If it provides Perspective that is useful to you, then, as with any Perspective, by all means use it. The more Lenses we have to see the World through, the closer we are to actually participating in Reality rather than our own Projections. When any Perspective strikes Fear, though, we need to Tap Out the Fear before we use the Perspective. If a Perspective is good for nothing more than bringing Unconscious Fear into Consciousness where you can Love it to Death, then it’s a very Powerful Perspective for you. Alternatively, with a technique like Theta Healing, where the Outcome is immediately available to us, we can modify our Command until we find one that works, or alternate Theta and Tapping.
The root of the monopoly tendency in Vedic astrology is Religious Politics. Simply put, if it’s Either/Or it’s Political. If it’s Both/And, it’s Spiritual. We make no claim that this is an absolute Truth, but we suggest strongly that it’s a very Reliable First Approximation and a very Useful Perspective. Vedic astrology supported Political Hinduism, as distinct from Esoteric Hinduism. Political Hinduism supported ongoing Abuse of the Dalit or Harijan caste just as Political Christianity supported ongoing Slavery and Abuse of Primary Cultures everywhere they were encountered. Certainty is a Tool of Political Agendas.
We look at it this way. Hinduism is frequently accused of promoting Fatalism, and Political Hinduism certainly appears to. As with most Religions, I don’t believe that Esoteric Hinduism does promote Fatalism. Fate and Free Will are usually seen as an Either/Or, so as with any Duality, we Know that this is a 3D Veil attempting to obscure the Both/And, Multifarious and Unitary Reality on the Other Side.
The difference between Fate and Free Will is that our Fate is what befalls us when we’re Captives of the Karmic and Generational and Social Archetypes that we usually refer to as our Limiting Beliefs. Free Will is what we Obtain when we step outside of the Limited Reality of the these Archetypes. Even the “Laws” of Physics are simply Archetypes, Projections of the Ego’s need for Stasis and the mind’s need for the Illusion of Understanding. If you’ve ever had a Wannabe Guru Manifest in your bedroom in a pillar of shimmering colored pinpricks of light like on Star Trek, you’d understand this. Or Channeled an Antarean, or met a Walk-In, or Encountered one of your Doubles.
To me Growth in Consciousness (which means Freeing yourself from some Archetype), which usually requires an Ego Death of some sort, is not about Discovery, but about Differentiation. We See or Feel more layers of Reality when we start noticing that there are Trees in the Forest, Trees of different Colors, Trees that have Birds and Bears in them, Birds and Bear that may be different from one another and that eat different Foods, etc etc. There is no better way to Illuminate an Archetype or Assumption that we’ve wrapped our Limited view of Reality around, than for it suddenly to disappear.
Would we notice if suddenly all the Birch Trees disappeared from the Forest? We might only notice that something had Changed. But if they reappeared while we were pondering what it was that Changed, then suddenly our Consciousness would have a whole new Perspective on Birch Trees. This is precisely what happens during an Eclipse; that which we Assume is Constant blinks off for a short time, then returns to its former Glory. And we’re talking about the Sun, which Symbolizes our Essence. Hence we consider Eclipses to be about Illumination, and that’s precisely what they are.
Remember that in the Unconscious there is no Negation. When you Pray for No War, you’re most likely to get War, because the Unconscious does not have a No in its vocabulary. As we usually put it, astrology and the Unconscious determine Dimension, but not Direction. The Cat may still be Alive or Not. Eclipse is the Absence of Light, as Fear is the Absence of Love. The Dimensions in those statements are Light and Love. The Direction – Absence or Presence – is a Political Decision by the Ego, by yourself.
When you make a Decision to Choose Light and Love rather than Absence on any Issue in your Life, you threaten theKarmic or Family or Cultural Archetype that would keep you in Scarcity, with Fire and Fury like the World has never known. So guess what the Archetype does in return? It threatens to surround your Ego with Missiles, while its Ally the Ego warns you to seek cover and “not” to look at the flash. As if you would have time for anything approaching that. Ego and Archetype are one and the same.
Hence we always recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely” to our PIAVAs.
PIAVAs directly address the Unconscious. The Unconscious is in Charge, and one of its “Rules” is that no Prayer goes unanswered – that’s just a Perspective, but we suggest strongly that it’s a Reliable First Approximation and a Useful Perspective. Use it as a filter to Examine your Life. Every Negative thought you have is a Prayer. Every Victim Emotion that you have is a Prayer. Your Prayers specify the Dimension, and your Negativity and Victimhood specify the Direction. Thoughts and Emotions are self-reinforcing, and their Negativity and Victimhood reinforce each other. Your Negative thoughts and Victim Emotions are generated by your Archetypes.
When you PIAVA something and you’re ready to Receive it, the Universe will deliver it, just like Amazon or Taobao. When you aren’t ready to Receive it, what the Universe will deliver, when you see the Universe through a Benevolent Lens, is Illustration of Why You Haven’t Been Manifesting That All Along. That often looks like the Opposite of what you Asked for – the same principle as an Eclipse; often the fastest way to get you to Notice something that you’ve been taking for granted, is to Remove it.
There are some things which you have always been Abundant in. Your Archetypes support your Ego in those arenas. There are other things that have always been Difficult for you. Those Define your Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.Jane Roberts’s (Seth’s) The Nature of Personal Reality is an excellent exposition of this Lens.
Your thoughts and Emotions are not beyond your Control. Your Ego can Choose to Intervene and Change the Direction. It may take years of Persistence to shut down a strong Archetype, but never consider it Impossible. You can PIAVA Assistance in Changing the Direction of the Archetype from Scarcity to Abundance – or vice versa for Abuse, though you’re better off Asking for Respect and Inviolate Boundaries, or whatever it is that you Want, rather than Asking for what you Don’t Want.
In Real Life this is an Either/Or Universe. Fate is still going on. If your Fate is to be Rich and Famous and Irresistible, then you may not want to Change it – though “Good” Karma is said to be harder to Change than “Bad” Karma, so when you start to get tired of being Rich and Famous and Irresistible, you may want to PIAVA Choice. You may want to Choose Rich and Famous and Irresistible on Tuesdays and Fridays, Happy and Private on Wednesdays and Thursdays, and Surprised on Saturdays and Sundays and Mondays – but even that is an Archetype that will be Obsolete soon.
There isn’t much difference between Attention and Intention. If your Attention is always on Negativity and Scarcity, whether in thought or Emotion, the Unconscious will consider that your Intention, and Manifest it for you. Your Attention is under your Control. You may have a nasty Habit of Focusing on your Negative thoughts and Bummer Emotions, and it may take a lot of Work to Change the Habit, but it is doable. The Key is Noticing and Congratulating.
Rather than beating yourself up when you Notice that you’re Unconsciously indulging your Negativity, Congratulate yourself for Noticing. You’re substituting Positive Reinforcement for Negative Reinforcement, and the more often you do this, the easier it becomes. You’ll be surprised at how Effective this simple step is; Congratulate yourself for Noticing that you’re Repeating an undesired Habit, rather than cursing yourself for Repeating the Habit.
This particular Eclipse occurs while Mercury is Retrograde, and the Vedic Eclipse interpretation we linked to at the beginning of this article reads much like the average Western astrology’s interpretation of Mercury Retrograde. Our approach to Retrogradations is the same as our approach to Eclipses. But rather than Demanifestation of something routine, a Retrogradation may encourage Obsession on it – not a matter of Dimension, just a matter of Direction, so absolutely available to be Changed by the Ego with PIAVAs and Persistence.
I usually find Retrogrades to be more Contemplative than Obsessive, but the same Energies apply – Contemplate What you Want, not What you Don’t Want. If you’re particularly Skilled at Obsession, Obsess on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want. We’ve already talked about Obsession and Changing the Subject, an important step in PIAVAing…
If you can’t shake Negative Energy while you’re trying to Focus on What You Want, Tap it Out. Be sure to measure the Intensity of the Energy before and after Tapping, and Recognize that you may need to Iterate, and even alternate with other forms of PIAVAing. Persistence counts.
The dwarf planet that deals with our Unlimited Potential is Chaos, which is in the Air Grand Trine and Dynamic Grand Sextile of the recent Full Moon; see the previous post. It’s joined in the Grand Trine by Haumea/Rebirth and South Node/Karma, but the other three, Fire, points in the Grand Sextile are North Node/Mission and Purpose, Eris/Revelation of Denial, and Lilith-Saturn-Ixion-Pholus/In Order to Achieve Self-Sovereignty the Most Important Thing is that we Become Responsible to our Unique and Probably Forbidden Genius.
The dwarf planet and Centaur Hylonome deals with Letting Go of Archetypes, and the asteroid Juno deals with the Edges of Consciousness. It’s no Coincidence that they’re Conjunct as we speak. Hylonome Initiated Juno in February 2017, starting a new 9-year Cycle at 8 Capricorn, “In a Sun-lit home domestic birds sing joyously.” We’re in the middle of the Exposition (which actually peaked 28 July). The Confidence-Builder occurs at the September Equinox.
Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…
As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively. Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality.
(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious. Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)
You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after. That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly. Abundance is having enough to Share, After all.
This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force). Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while. As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd? And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?
We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness. While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.
This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality. Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community. Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form. Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form. Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence. To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain.
The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege. Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions. Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal. To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes. Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions. As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.
While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional. Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs). Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality. Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.
The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love. That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time. And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger. The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.
Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy. Dan and the Arcfolk concur –http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/. The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.” Hmmm. I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis. But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.
There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda. Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power. Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm. In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood. If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.
Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us. Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it. It’s a foundation for our Ego. So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping. We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger. While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.
To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it. Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort. “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.” It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation. If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t. “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.” Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.” Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.
The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4). If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations. Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress. Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.
We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul.
We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession. Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?
If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death. That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort. Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong. But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.
So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart? What would we look for?
Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus. These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair. Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?
Well, yes. seven of them. We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets. So seven is a whole bunch.
We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…
Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things. We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us. This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.
It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion. It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that. We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.
Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth. Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio. Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with. Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.
Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures. Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.
These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them. Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.
That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.
So, which planets are we talking about? Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.
Whoa, this is Big. The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack). Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot. All very strongly Lit Up this week. So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts. Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?
Oops, have to interrupt again. A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy. What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?
Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture. For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet. What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged! The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.
So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference. Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all! So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.
And that’s just two planets. With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times. To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40. However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?
Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true. You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium. You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.
And now you’re going to run into another problem. Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio. When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon. I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates. That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.
So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while. Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating. There should be a reasonable number of those folks around. You won’t be their Onliest…
Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you
as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.
Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho). So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children. That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.
So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings. We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.
Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio? So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!
Did someone say Obsession? Damn Right! Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!! It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime! So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is! Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.
Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue. Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle). That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly. To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair. “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.” Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.
So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above). “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.” Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero. If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different. This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?
Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it. Are we done? Not a chance. Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron. Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…
A T-Square is like a graduate seminar. We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent. But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.” In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions. No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.
It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily. You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.
So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.
That’s what T-Squares are all about. Now, what about this Mercury T-Square? Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you. Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk. So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.
If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it. You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk. You could write best-sellers about it. You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first. I guarantee you, it is True.
Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed. With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are. You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.
Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…
Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled). Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules. To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.
But you’ll always be condemned for it. So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others. And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you. Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).
In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand. That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project. It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you. Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.
But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone. So you’ll have to Learn toNotice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness.
Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.
What’s that? Oh, we aren’t quite done? Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio? Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong). All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.
We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample. The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway. This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.
Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.
And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both. We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.
Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too. It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it. Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself.
Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.
That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.
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