Stellia and Enlightenment 2

We were working on the idea that Conjunctions and Stellia (groups of 3 or more planets close together) mean that some of our normal Cultural- and Language-Determined Distinctions (like Boy vs Girl, Blue vs Green, Idiotic vs. Imbecilic) get Merged, so we end up looking at People, Cool Colors, and Dumb instead. Each of these is a tiny Enlightenment. For instance, when we wake up one day and see People instead of Boys vs Girls, it’s Consciousness-Expanding. And we were using the very unusual Total Lunar Eclipse of 27-28 September 2015, which was loaded with Stellia and Conjunctions, as an excellent example. The chart is drawn at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2023/03/30/stellia-and-enlightenment-1/.

Just looking at the Eclipse itself, the Moon was in a Stellia of three, and the Sun was in a Stellia of eight, ie, unheard of. So what happens to our perspective when 8 of our normal Distinctions all run together? Well, let’s start with the simpler, the Stellia of 3…

• Eclipsed Moon – Instincts, Illuminated
• Vesta – Unconscious Limitations
• True South Node – Held Emotion

Our Held Emotions form the most Persistent Core of our Karma, as long ago we were highly Motivated to Never Think About Them again. They were too Painful. Often they were also Verboten in the Current Lifetime by our Programmers, cementing their Banishment for us.¹ Bringing them up into Consciousness by accident is almost impossible, because the clues are usually disguised by Addiction, Illness, or Culturally-Approved Victimizations. Dedicated and Persistent PIAVAs are Required.

¹ Forbidding something is probably the best way to assure that it gets constant Attention. Combining Forbidding and Punishing can drive an Energy into the Unconscious and Lock the door behind it, but that only means that we think about it all the time, without actually Recognizing it.

Our Unconscious Limitations are already the same thing as Held Emotions, but seen from a different Perspective. We just “don’t go there,” and our Behavior is so well-Justified that there’s no reason we’d ever want to. I’d Do Anything for Love, but I Won’t Do That! They’re Walled Off very Effectively by Judgments – in fact our Pet Peeves are often the best Clue to our Unconscious Limitations, but our Pet Peeves are Pictures of Our Identity – of Our Ego itself! The Ego has already made it Clear to anyone who will Listen that they’re Off-Limits. So this is an Effortless Merger!

But our Instincts! Only Carl Jung defined our Karma as a Persistent and Dedicated Effort by the Unconscious to get us to Open to and Accept our Held Emotions. So this sort of Merger is a Given to Jungians and followers of his followers. In Normal Circumstances for most people, this triple Merger would Precipitate a Major Crisis, as we would be forced to Admit or Reveal our Most Shameful Secrets. At the very least we’d be Hiding in a Cave somewhere, so no one would be allowed to Witness our Shame.

But these weren’t Normal Circumstances! Look at the Other Side of this Eclipse – a Stellium of eight planets – I don’t recall ever seeing that before!

• Sun – Essence
• True North Node – Life Mission
• Juno – Growth in Consciousness
• Black Moon Lilith – Self-Sovereignty
• Makemake Out of Bounds – Enhanced Manifestation
• Sisyphus Out of Bounds – Enjoying the Journey Rather than Anticipating the Destination, Exaggerated
• Tantalus Out of Bounds – Valuing Desire as the Essence of Living, More Highly than Satisfaction, Amplified
• Panacea – Healing

While our Ego is Lost in Shame, our Essence is Bathing in the Bright Light of Our Lifetime Mission. Our Mission is so multidimensional that our Ego and 2D Mind seldom actually Witness more than a Whiff of it. But here we’re Immersed in the Urge to Grow in Consciousness, and Intuitively we know that the most Powerful way to do that is to Open to a Held Emotion. With Emphasis on Self-Sovereignty, we’re less concerned than usual about What Everyone Else Will Think of us, which has potential to Neutralize our Shame.

Sisyphus and Tantalus are cousins in the Psyche, both dealing as they do with Forever – Sisyphus Condemns us to Repeat a Task Forever, and Tantalus leaves us Forever Frustrated because the Objects of our Desire Dissolve just as we are about, at long last, to Enjoy Them. Indeed, few things are more Tantalizing than the Desire to Complete our Sisyphean Tasks. Both make excellent adjectives for describing Karma.

Sisyphus and Tantalus are named like “Centaurs,” which are comet-like dwarf planets with elongated 50-100+ year orbits between Jupiter and Pluto, of which Chiron is the most well known. But they aren’t Centaurs at all, they’re “Apollos” – Near-Earth Asteroids that orbit between Venus and Mars. Tantalus is considered a Potentially Hazardous Asteroid, as it’s 4km/2½mi wide and comes within 16 LD (Moon-to-Earth Distances) of Earth, orbiting every 18 months between 0.9 and 1.7 AU (Distance from the Sun, where Sun-to-Earth is 1.0). Sisyphus is a little less dangerous, approaching within “only” 40 LD from Earth though at 9km/5½mi wide it’s bigger than Tantalus. It orbits every 30 months, between 0.9 and 2.9 AU. For comparison, Mars orbits at 1.4-1.7 AU, Venus at 0.7 AU.

Their presence in the 8-fold Merger tempts us to Imagine what Life will be like for us when our Karma is no longer Interminable, nor Fruitless. Panacea tells us that this Merger is a Healing! So it was entirely possible for a Witness to the 27-28 September 2015 Blood Moon to Experience a Significant Burst of Enlightenment. And whether we Witnessed it visually or not, we couldn’t Hide from the Energy of a Blood Moon like this one.

But what about the Kassandra T-Square, the thick red triangle that Challenges the Full Moon? The Full Moon is already a Debate, like any Opposition a Tension between the two sides of a Tug-of-War. But here the two sides are in total agreement – we need to Embrace our Held Emotions to Move into Enlightenment and 5D. So where’s the Tension? Kassandra means Disbelief. Who are we to Claim to be Enlightened? Everyone we know who does that is either a Guru or an Obvious Egotist, sometimes Both.

The green wedge pointing at Kassandra says that the T-Square is Self-Resolving. There’s nothing we need to do except somehow refrain from Interfering in the process as it Unfolds, since it may not Unfold all at once. It can actually help to be Unaware of the astrology at this point, because our lack of Awareness might help prevent our Interference. How does the Self-Resolution Unfold?

The two long green lines are “Quincunxes” – an “Unx” is one twelfth, here 1/12th of the Zodiac or one Sign, and “Quin” is of course 5 – the green lines are 5 Signs long. A Quincunx means Curiosity. Not Curiosity in the sense I gotta figure this out! but Curiosity in the sense of Awe. So our most appropriate Response to the Eclipse would be to Watch or Experience it Slack-Jawed, in Awe. A Quincunx is a Mystery School, where we need to put our 2D tools (Mind) back in the toolchest, Ask to be Informed, and Wait for nD tools to reveal themselves.

There’s a Mysterious Relationship here between Pan, the Primary God of Nature, and Disbelief, that’s somehow involved with the Manifestation of our Enlightenment. And another Mysterious Relationship between Disbelief and The Birth (Klotho) of a New Field (Arachne). Arachne is Grandmother Spider, Who Weaves the Web of Life. So there are things that are Unfolding which are beyond what we can Understand Intellectually.

The Shift Network is sponsoring a course on Communicating Soul to Soul with the Spirit World, presented by “Mystic, Medium, and Author” Suzanne Giesemann. I’d never heard of her, but I Learned enough listening to her hour-long Preview last night, to Connect with many passed Relatives, and a few of my former Teachers. First time I’ve ever had two-way conversations with Disincarnate Spirits. She’s offering a free recording of this Preview for at least three more days (till 5 April 2023), at https://theshiftnetwork.com/Engage-in-Soul-to-Soul-Communication.

What sort of nD Relationships with Disbelief are we talking about here? The 2D Mind will only have enough bandwidth to find Metaphors, but we might be able to get more Intuitive Perspective by Asking for a download from our Teachers and Ancestors on the Other Side of the Veil. Just because someone’s on the Other Side, that doesn’t mean they Know more than you do already, but Suzanne introduces simple ways to Validate what you’re Picking Up. If you aren’t in steady Contact with the Other Side of the Veil already, there’s at least a Talking Mirror here. Validation is important, as our Comprehension of this New Field (Klotho-Arachne) is Explicitly Challenged by Untruthes (Square to asteroid Pinocchio).

There’s one more Stellium and one more Conjunction in this Blood Moon chart, so we haven’t Exhausted the Opportunities for mini-Enlightenments yet. They’re Linked to Pan through a Grand Cross (four planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac) which introduces a Series of Small Challenges that Complement one another. A Grand Cross is Self-Resolving, though there may be some Temporary Discomfort if the segments of the Resolution are separated in Time.

The Stellium involves Intrusive Memories (Gonggong), Truth of the Mind (Veritas), and Confusion (Neptune). The Intrusive Memories are highly likely to be Clues about our Held Emotions, if we Pursue them as Teachings, and sidestep the Temptation to Relive them as Coulda Woulda Shouldas. The Intrusive Memories Intruded in 2015, but remember that Everything that Ever Happened in a Place Is Still Going On, and we have the advantage that by reviewing the astrology we’re Indirectly Triggering our Experience of the 2015 Eclipse, even if we don’t Remember Experiencing its Energy.

The Truth of the Mind tells us to Compare Everything we Learn here to What We Already Know, but not to Reject Anything that doesn’t Agree, but to Practice our Skill with “Cognitive Dissonance,” the Practice of Holding Contradictory Propositions in Mind at the Same Time without Argument between them, which is Essential Practice for using our Mentality in Dimensions higher than 2.

Neptune, Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, here completes the Suite by Reminding us that Confusion is the First Stage of Growth in Consciousness. Without Being Comfortable with Confusion and Standing Still for It, we’ll never get to Allowing Cognitive Dissonance to Enliven Paradox. One trick to make it easier to Live with Neptune, is to shift our Vision from the Mind to the Heart, as the Heart Perceives Spirit and its Clarity. If we Channel the 2015 Blood Moon fully here, we won’t be able to Discern the Difference between Intellectual Truth, Confusion, and Ancient Memory, and that’s Important to Grokking the Enlightenment.

Besides Pan and the Gonggong Triad, the third member of the Grand Cross is the Merger between Mars and Orcus – only two Concepts to Merge – how Easy by now, right? Mars is about Action, and Orcus is about Pattern-Making and Pattern-Breaking, namely, Creating and Letting Go of Karma. So we’re Expected to Actively Let Go of any Attachment we have to Self-Sabotaging Habits. The subscript is that Anger may be involved in our Held Emotions, and that there may be Resistance to Letting Go of our Anger, especially if we’ve heavily Invested our Ego into being Victims of our Pet Peeves.

Mars was the God of War, and there’s nothing he Enjoys more. Orcus was the Enforcer of Oaths in pre-Roman days in what is now Italy, and his methods were gruesome, as most of the Oaths he Enforced were involved Commitment to Armies. Commitment to things like Fidelity were not even considered in those days. We were Free then to Abuse anyone or anything of lower status than ours. Financial Commitments were probably more one-way Commitments than two-way “Bargains” as Civilized Law expects. There’s probably no more Important Held Emotion to Embrace, than Anger, as we Experience Anger in the Unconscious as Anger Directed Toward us. Another Clue.

Finally, the fourth corner of the Grand Cross contained The Fall of Overtechnologized Civilization (asteroid Atlantis). If any of your Strategies involve Increasing Complexity, turn around and Walk toward Simplicity instead. Universal Equality and Respect for All Things is probably as Simple as we can get.

Denying Nature, Transmuting Abuse

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Pan, Nature’s Head Dude, represented by the asteroid that bears His name, is Lit Up Bigtime today,¹ and has been for several days. It’ll also hang around for a week or so, but the Peak of the Energy was today. Unless we made an important Self-Protecting Decision, in which case it can become Karma and Hang Around till we Let It Go.²

The most important thing to know about this, is that Pan is Merged with both Our Soul and Our Mission.³ That’s a Powerful combination. The second-most important thing to know is that Pan and Our Soul and Our Mission have been ganging up on our Held Emotions, trying to talk them into Emerging from Hiding and Liberating us into Enlightenment.⁴ Held Emotions are the ones that we’d Rather Die Than Feel, and they’re usually Unconscious. Held Emotions are always Karmic, and Karma is never Present Moment until we make it so through Belief, so it’s not Physical Death that we Unconsciously Fear, it’s Ego Death.

And Rightly So, because the Ego is the part of our Psyche that’s in charge of Keeping us Alive! Crabs wear their Skeleton on the Outside, so they have to Molt in order to Grow, and once they Molt it takes them a week or so to harden their new larger Shell, during which time they’re extremely vulnerable to being eaten, nutcracker not required. While we probably aren’t direct descendants of Crabs, we may still have that Genetic Memory in our Karma, and for sure, when we Molt our Egos – Shell is actually a good synonym for Ego – we’re quite Defenseless until we Learn to Explain and Justify our new Ego, so there’s more than one parallel between us and Crabs.

We have to Accept Ego Death if we’re Committed to Ascension, and once we do we realize how many Ego Deaths we’ve already Lived Through Successfully – the Proof is in the Pudding. We Learn to Recognize the signs and Embrace the Fear that arises, and Learn to sail through them with Ease. The Held Emotions are always harder to Embrace, because they’re often Karma cemented by Vows we made to ourself while we were Physically Dying in another Lifetime – “I’ll Never do that again!” Those stick like Glue #10.

The third-most important thing abut Pan’s visit, is that we’re being Asked to Let Go of our Patterns around Abuse and Privilege.⁵ While we’ve had a lot of Practice over the last few years, especially when Abuse and Privilege was traveling hand in hand with Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet Gonggong) during 2015 and 2016. Revisiting Childhood Abuse is never Fun, and Dealing with Ancestral Abuse is always Tortuous and Confusing. And while Privilege seems like it should be a Privilege, it has its own Karma.

I’m always reminded of Stephen Levine’s story about a Meditation Retreat where in one session he was Reliving an Auschwitz Experience and Feeling Relieved that his Sense of Victimization was Justified. Then when he went back into Meditation after a Break, he was the one wearing the Jackboots. Wise men have said it before, but Doing Unto Creates the same Karma as Being Done Unto. That’s why Karma, which is the Inertia of Habit, is easily Confused with Retribution. When you Accept the Traditional Wisdom that We Are All One, that becomes Obvious.

Today in Florida and Texas they’re only Burning Books and The Mouse, and in Florida and Georgia and Colorado they’re trying to Burn Down Democracy, so the Oligarchy can Take All. They aren’t Burning and Drowning Witches again yet. Everyone’s Cutting Down and Burning Down the Sacred Groves again, as if they ever stopped. And some Races are undergoing Genocide as we speak. Abuse and Privilege stretches far beyond the Sexual.

The fourth-most important thing about Pan’s Illuminations, is that we’re also being Invited to Revisit and Let Go Of our Karma around the times when our Cultures Expanded so far Beyond our Values, or Beyond Values that would have Permitted our Survival, that our Civilization Collapsed.⁶

¹ Asteroid Pan Stationary 10 January 2023 (PST 4:20 am, GMT 12:20 pm 10th, IST 5:40 pm 10th, AEDT Qld 10:20 pm) in 13 Taurus, “What we carry around with us is whatever we can believe in and partake in with fantasy, speculation, wonderings, and with every tool of our soul. Whichever world we dream up we can enter, ensoul, and become entirely absorbed in. It is up to us whether it is life-giving or sterile, theoretical or practical, isolating or connecting us with something vast, more universal, more archetypal.” —Ellias Lonsdale, 360 Degrees of Your Soul Destiny, p.77.

² Life-or-Death Decisions often become Karma because we either already Believe, or have to Make ourself Believe, that our Choice was the only way out. Once we convince ourself of that, it becomes an Unconscious Limitation that’s an integral part of our Worldview as if it was a “law of Physics” (which are actually Cultural Karmic Limitations). Worse, it could have been a distant ancestor that made such a Decision (like avoiding Pork in the Middle East in the Olde Days), and the Limitation was passed down to us through Programming. Since we have no way of remembering the origin of such Karma, and since we’re Ridiculed or Shamed for Ignoring it, Letting Go of that sort of Karma has its own Difficulties. We have to lean on our natal Ixion (Psychopathic Ignorer of Traditions) to Transcend it.

³ Conjunct Uranus and North Node.

⁴ Pan-Uranus-North Node Opposite Ka’epaoka’awela (Transmutation), South Node (Held Emotions), and Zhulong (Enlightenment).

⁵ Naked (by its lonesome, without Squares) Opposition between Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) in Pisces (Emotional Baggage) and Orcus (Pattern-Breaking) in Virgo (Ego Death).

⁶ The Pan-Uranus-North Node (Soul-Mission-Nature) Opposition to Ka’epaoka’awela-South Node-Zhulong (Transmutation-Held Emotions-Enlightenment) is T-Squared by the Merger of Venus (Values), Icarus (Dangerous Ambitions), and Atlantis (Civilization Collapse).

Amethyst, Clear Quartz turned purple by Radiation, is the Classical Aid to Ego Death. Its Crown–Chakra Color reminds us nonverbally that we are Spiritual Beings having a Physical Experience, and that Emotional Drama is part of Physical Experience for Hupers, so it Behooves us to Activate our Observer Self, make some Popcorn, and Enjoy the Movie, rather than Empathizing ourselves into the Drama.

Of course, if we Detach like this before we Explore and Embrace the Experience, we can drive our Resisted Emotions further into the dark corners of the Dungeon, especially when we’re Dealing with Held Emotions. So we don’t want to Skip that Explore-and-Embrace Step. We can Explore Emotion through Sensation, for instance, since Sensation involves less Drama, as long as we Avoid Indulging our Thoughts about our Sensations. If we do, we just withdraw our Attention from the Thoughts and Re-Invest It into the Body. To Embrace, we only need to remember that Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.

When we Ask ourself Where in my Body am I Feeling this? and Focus our Attention Deeply into that Place and Hold it there, persistently Returning our Attention when it Wanders, our Judgment-Free Laser Attention can Heal without time-consuming distractions to Story, which is just Metaphor anyway. When we’re Working with Karma, there’s no one Story, there are probably at least hundreds, so Story really is a Diversion. Story is good for Invoking the Occulted Emotion, but beyond that it can become the Ego’s attempt to Avoid Change by monopolizing the Conversation.

Once the Discomfort or Intensity in our Body Moves, we’re Done, we can Detach, though we may need to Return later for a Booster or several. This all sounds Mechanical and Unfeeling, and Held Emotions often involve Horrific Terrors. They’re best just Touched in the Emotional Realm, then Explored and Embraced in the Sensation Realm. Then when we Return to Touch them again, the Intensity may be Less. If it’s not, Gary Craig, who developed EFT or Tapping, has a series of videos demonstrating the use of EFT on PTSD. PTSD and Karma are not the same thing, but PTSD is probably usually Karmic.

Amethyst from the Thunder Bay area of Lake Superior in North Ontario Canada, is often speckled with dots of Rust or Hematite, Iron Oxide. These are red, the color of the Root Chakra, so they can help us Stay Grounded while we’re Exploring out Beyond our Crown Chakra and Deep Inside our Skin. As Angie Arrien liked to say, it will help us Walk the Spiritual Path with Practical Feet.

One of my first Rock photos. Most of these were taken with a very early digital camera, before they had large “viewfinder” screens. Using that camera was very much point and shoot, as the screen was too small to really see what I was photographing. I used to call it my Magic Camera, as many of its photos were just that. I suppose I could claim some credit via my Intuition or Instincts, as my Intellect was pretty much blinded by the small screen. Sometimes I imagine how it would be to Live like that, watching Crystals spontaneously and Magically sprouting Flames. I expect 5D to be as full of Delightful Surprises. Hopefully some day I’ll Deprogram my “left brain” enough to approach it.

The Other Wind

“He laughed. ‘Now I know who called thee, Eldest!’ he said.
” ‘I did,’ the child said. ‘I did not know what else to do, Segoy.’
“She still looked at the dragon, and she spoke in the language of the dragons, the language of the Making.
” ‘It was well, child, the dragon said. ‘I have sought thee long.’
” ‘Shall we go there now?’ the child asked. ‘Where the others are, on the other wind?’
” ‘Would you leave these?’
” ‘No,’ said the child. ‘Can they not come?’
” ‘They cannot come. Their life is here.’
” ‘I will stay with them,’ she said, with a little catch of breath.
“Kalessin turned aside to give that immense furnace-blast of laughter or contempt or delight or anger – ‘Hah!’ Then, looking again at the child, ‘It is well. Thou hast work to do here.’
” ‘I know,’ the child said.
” I will come back for thee,’ Kalessin said, ‘in time.’
“And, to Ged and Tenar, ‘I give you my child, as you will give me yours.’
” ‘In time,’ Tenar said.
“Kalessin’s great head bowed very slightly, and the long, sword-toothed mouth curled up at the corner.
“Ged and Tenar drew aside with Therru as the dragon turned, dragged its armor across the ledge, placing its taloned feet carefully, dragging its black haunches like a cat, till it sprang aloft. The veined wings shot up crimson in the new light, the spurred tail rang hissing on the rock, and it flew, it was gone – a gull, a swallow, a thought.”

—Ursula K. Le Guin, Tehanu, pp.248-9 (Earthsea).

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In Camilla Blossom’s post today, https://camillablossom.com/dragons-support-mass-awakening-on-gaia/, she talks about her Meditations on the Mauna Loa eruption…

“The Stargate above the Hawaiian Islands opened wide to connect Earth to Heaven above. Dragons keep these spaces open and activated. My friend from the Big Island, Pavli, told me she saw numerous dragons flowing out of the crater at Mauna Loa.

“Humans are perfectly aligned with Gaia and our Divinity and can choose to awaken.

“We are on the cusp of mass awakening supported by Dragons.”

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Our Chief Asteroid Officer noticed that today, 6 December 2022, at 9:27 pm PST (GMT 5:27 am 7th, IST 10:57 am 7th, AEDT Qld 3:27 pm 7th), Pluto Initiates asteroid Atropos in 27 Capricorn, The Ability to See through the Veil, which we can use to Ascend if we Choose to. Pluto represents the Universal Unconscious, or the Zeitgeist of our Time, as it Evolves. Most of us to one degree or another are Addicted to this Zeitgeist, it’s the Trance that Holds us here and makes us Believe that the only Alternative is Physical Death, a Trick of the Ego in its Resolve to push the Soul into the closet.

Programmed by the Patriarchy, the Ego Believes the Soul to be a Competitor. To Ascend is to See through the Veil of the Ego’s Trick and Acknowledge our Immortal Soul as Who We Really Are. With Uranus (the Individual Soul) transiting Taurus (Matter), that Time is here. Time to Allow the Soul to Merge with the Ego, while the Physical Body continues to Live. The Ego’s function is to Keep the Physical Body Alive. The Patriarchy has been telling the Ego that the Soul only Emerges after the Body dies. Near-Death Experiences tell us otherwise.

Atropos meanwhile, symbolizes Expired Karma. Since Karma is our Expectations, we are always the last to know when Karma passes its Expiry Date. When it does we go looking for it, it’s our Familiar, we know it well and we miss it. It has Defined the Edges of our Reality since Time Began, or so it seems. When we can’t Find it, we Make It Up. Our Friends and Family wouldn’t recognize us without it. We’d Betray them if we Let It Go. Sooner or later, though, we stumble into old Circumstances where the Expired Karma would have Limited us, and without thinking, we Notice that it’s Gone!

With Pluto Beginning a New Cycle with Atropos, in which We See through the Ego’s Veil, Freedom awaits us. It’s hardly ironic that the astrochart describing this New Cycle features a Major Challenge with Denial and its Revelation.¹

¹ With no Self-Resolution whatsoever – this is Up To Us – Eris T-Squares the Pluto-Atropos Initiation, which Opposes Pallas Out of Bounds Merged with Black Moon Lilith. Quite literally, the latter Merger means Our Boundaries with Our Codependence. The Pluto-Atropos Initiation meanwhile is Merged with Icarus Out of Bounds! As our CAO likes to say, You can’t make this stuff up! Our Hesitation to Betray our Old Reality (Pallas OOB-BM Lilith) can argue that With Our New Freedom We’ll Fly Too Close to the Sun and Burn Up! The Sun will Melt our Earwax so we can Hear the Voice of What’s Been Denied.

But that’s what the Angels and Devils on our Shoulders are Shouting. We’re Clever enough to Ask, What’s the Coin? What’s Happening Here in the Present Moment? Everyone’s shouting Either/Or. Luckily, we Know Better. We Know Reality is Both/And. How does that work? Does Therru get to take Ged and Tenar home on the Other Wind after all? Both/And works because Either/Or is 2D, and Contradiction doesn’t happen in 5D. It’s Paradox there, or more accurately, it’s just more Unitary and Multifarious than Duality can Grok.

The Naked Square from Converting Fear to Power (Sedna) to Continuing to Melt Down Civilization (Atlantis) by Failing to be Accountable (Damocles) to the Web of Life (Arachne) is also Noteworthy.

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Now, in astrology Dragon is the other name for the Moon’s North and South Nodes. The South Node is the Dragon’s Tail, our Held Emotions, which can knock us several blocks off our Path with a small twitch. The North Node is the Dragon’s Head, our Life Mission, which Lights a Fire under our Butt once we Figure Out what the Hell we’re Doing Here. So do the Nodes play nice in the Pluto-Atropos Initiation chart?

Whew! Fully Self-Resolving! One Big Challenge – to Let Go of not just our Expired Karma, but also our Unexpired Karma (Lachesis). Karma is Dead, Recall. We are not Helpless against our Karma. All we need to do is Bring it into Consciousness, Notice that a situation has Triggered our Expectations of Bummers, and Change our Response to it. With NathaJay’s Lighten Up, Buttercup for instance (see previous post).

But look at all those Heavyweights on the Dragon’s Tail! Whoever moves these planets around really wants us to Pay Attention! to our most Recalcitrant Emotions! Especially the ones that We’d rather Die than Feel. Ego Deaths (Requiem), Transmutation (Ka’epaoka’awela), Trust (Eurydike), and the Red Dragon of Enlightenment (Zhulong), all getting whacked around by the Spurred Dragon’s Tail. Who’s on the other side of the Argument, standing up for our Mission? Just Our Soul (Uranus).

It’s not drawn in on the chart, but there’s even a Yin Gate, a Mystery School, on the Nodal Axis. A Yin Gate means “Don’t you Dare try to Understand the Relationship between your Karma and your Mission – it will only Lead you Astray. Because all of the Quincunxes (two planets five Signs apart) between the planets on either side of the Nodes. Each Quincunx is a mini-Mystery School that the Dualistic Mind lacks the Bandwidth to Grok.

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A Crystal that carries Dragon Energy? Goshenite, Clear Beryl, Beryllium Aluminum Cyclosilicate, where the SiO₄ Silicate nodes are arranged in Hexagonal Rings, like Aquamarine and Emerald, the blue and green forms of Beryl. Goshenite “pierces the veil of maya or illusion which separates the ego and the analytical mind from true recognition of reality” (Marquist & Frasl, p.70). Sounds a lot like “Pluto Initiates asteroid Atropos in 27 Capricorn, The Ability to See through the Veil, which we can use to Ascend if we Choose to,” don’t it. You’ll want Full Screen for this one…

Nature Is Always in Balance

So, what about Hupers? Well, contrary to poplar opinion, Hupers are part of Nature. A small part, but one which punches far beyond its weight when it comes to Destructiveness. So yes, Hupers are always in Balance. What’s Missing when we Feel – or Are – Out of Balance, resides in the Unconscious. We can’t Rely totally on our Feelings to Inform us when we’re Out of Balance, because most of us were Programmed to Overcompensate for what our Programmers Repressed. It’s often a Cultural thing, since Cultures which Overcompensate for Anxiety or Insecurity or Fear, do so by Encouraging Conscious Aggression. Goddess Knows we could do with fewer of these kinds of Cultures, or Families, or Führers on Earth.

This is Lit Up because the planetary symbol for Abuse and Privilege, Nessus, is particularly Emphatic (Stationary) till at least PST 3am (GMT 11am, IST 4:30 pm, AEDT Qld 9pm) 27 November. Hupers get Out of Balance partly because they rely on Mental Dualities to Idealize Behaviors and even Emotions. In Striving toward “the Good,” Hupers push what’s “Bad” into the Unconscious. If anyone’s been following the Collapse of the FTX Crypt-O’Currency Exchange, they’re seeing a perfect example. “SBF” seems to be such a good Con that he may even have Conned himself. Seems to be quite a few of these Self-Con Jobs emerging from the Dustbunnies lately, Emulating that “Man from Florida Who Made an Announcement” and that gazillionaire who’s been Roasting a tiny little bird on a spit for Entertainment, and Recruiting Men from Florida.

Nothing Cons others better than the source of the word itself, Confidence. Hupers probably worship Confidence even more than they Worship Wealth, because they know that Confidence is one of the first prerequisites for Accumulating Wealth. The hallmark of Conservatism is the need to Rely on Authority, and nothing promotes Authority like Unconditional Confidence. Privilege doesn’t happen without Confidence, and Abuse doesn’t happen without Privilege. It’s the Mental Dualities that trap Hupers into circumstances like this.

When we have an Angel whispering in one ear and a Devil in the other and we have a hard time telling which is the Angel, the Way Out is Up. We Tell and Ask ourself, Ok, those are the End Points – of What Dimension? In the case of Abuse and Privilege, one Answer is Equality. If you’re dealing with Sexual Abuse and the protagonists are Equals, you’re just Playing Doctor, or some adult equivalent. There can of course be many Answers to the What Dimension? Question, and most of them will be Useful to some degree. When we look at Abuse and Privilege as an Equality issue, the Power Dynamics become Obvious, and most of them can be Traced to the Patriarchy.

The Classical Crystal for representing Equality is Clear Quartz, pure Silicate, like my personal favorite Diamantina Quartz, or my second-favorite, this Record-Keeper Corinto Quartz…

Just less than half of the Earth’s Crust is Oxygen, and just over a quarter is Silicon, adding to 75% of the Crust. Add other elements to the mix, and Silicates comprise 95% of the Crust, though only 12% is Quartz. Silicon and Oxygen combine as SiO₄ tetrahedrons, with the Silicon nucleus in the center of four triangles pasted together at the edges, like at right. An Oxygen nucleus sits at each of the four corners. Quartz is a tektosilicate, where the tetrahedrons arrange themselves in a three-dimensional matrix.

The overall ratio in Quartz is SiO₂, because each Oxygen nucleus is shared between the Silicon nucleus in the current tetrahedron and the Silicon nucleus of the adjacent one. Quartz is a Messenger, carrying Energy, including Healing Energy, and having unique Electromagnetic properties. Tiny Quartz Crystals are used as timing devices in all computers and communication equipment. You wouldn’t be reading this without Quartz.

There are three Self-Resolving Challenges (in astrologuese, Diamond Star Configurations, or T-Squares [red triangles] and Fingers of the Goddess [green wedges] pointing to the same place) in the 27 November Emphatic Abuse and Privilege (Nessus Stationary) chart. Like all Challenges, these become SuperPowers when we Rise to the Challenge and become Confident that we’re Competent to handle it. The Challenges or T-Squares in our natal charts usually represent Lifelong Frustrations, because the Dramas never Work Out the way we wanted them to.

Once we Realize though that Real Life doesn’t Follow our Perfect Pictures, and think about How Much Experience we have with those Difficult Dramas, and how we have Learned how to Avoid the Worst Consequences of Imperfection, we figure out that – Whoa, these actually Are my SuperPowers! Most of the time, when we stop and think about it, the Elements of Life that give us the most Trouble, are also the Elements of Life that Others Ask us for Advice about! They See and Trust our Experience with the Issue, while we don’t yet, because we haven’t Chosen to Be Confident about the Value of Our Experience.

We probably won’t have time to convert the three current Challenges to SuperPowers, unless we have similar natal Challenges, but by making the effort to Tolerate Imperfection, we can Learn a heck of a lot about these Challenges, to use in future similar Situations. All three are Self-Resolving, which means that if we can take the role of Neutral Observer and Avoid too much Intervention to Save our Ego from Embarrassment, they’ll Work Out for the Best.

The three red triangles and green wedges point to…

• 1. Mercury-Venus (Mind-Heart) with Mercury Out of Bounds (Strong) – Noticing how the Mind in its Arrogance or Privilege Believes itself to Make Better Decisions than our Heart, Emotions, and Values, and how we Abuse our Heart, Discount our Emotions, and Violate our own Values as a result! I don’t know about you, but for every minute I spend Learning to Quiet the Mind, Attend Closely to the Feelings – Sensations – in My Body that Align with My Emotion, Ask Reverently for Advice from my Body’s Ancient Wisdom, and Learning to Listen Attentively and Patiently and Impartially for that Advice, for every minute of that, I have spent and still spend days, months, years, Lifetimes Listening to My Thoughts about My Emotions, which at their very best are Fiction based on a True Story but Warped by My Programming, and more often Merely a Rehashing of My Past Failures to Learn the Wisdom Embedded in My Failures and the Failures of my Programmers.
  • The base of the red triangle, Juno-Nessus (Growth in Consciousness around Abuse and Privilege) Opposite Orcus-Thereus (Pattern-Breaking Merged with Bear-Wrestling) gives us a picture of what those would-be Angels-Devils on each Shoulder are whispering in our Ears – “You’re so fucking tired of Wrestling with this Bear of a Question about whether there’s Anything You can Do Differently to Avoid this Abuse or Memory, that you may as well just Surrender to Your Forever-Unresolved Anger and Fear and Shame about it.” “No, you’ve Done that a thousand times and you Know it doesn’t help At All. There must be Something you can Do Differently, that you haven’t Thought of yet!”
  • The base of the green wedge, Uranus-North Node (Soul Merged with Lifetime Mission) Sextile (Grace once we Make the First Step) Ganesa (Remover of Obstacles) tells us to whom we must Surrender in order for the Issue to Self-Resolve. Clues Galore! We might PIAVA to Ganesh that the Bear of a Question be Removed as an Obstacle. We can Ask Ourself, What If I Did Know My Soul and a Little about My Lifetime Mission – Maybe if I just Daydream about that I can Open Myself to My Own Intuition about What – If Anything – I need to Do About It.
  • The long green arms of the Finger of the Goddess, namely the Relationship between Mind-Heart and Soul-Mission, and the Relationship between Mind-Heart and Removal of Obstacles, are Quincunxes (5 Signs apart), which are Mystery Schools, filled with so many Paradoxes that the 2D Mind can only Screw it Up Royally. PIAVA that we Gain Wisdom Somehow, and Change the Subject!!! Get your Mind busy with Anything Else. Otherwise you’ll condemn yourself to more months and Lifetimes Debating with your Programmed Self-Sabotage. Guess who will win.
  • There are two short green lines or Unxes (1 Sign apart) on each side of the Focus. An Unx is a Get-Outa-Jail-Free card for Pattern-Breaking, an excellent time for some PIAVAs…
    • Mind-Emphasized-but-Merged-with-Heart Unx South Node – God/Goddess, Please Help Me Let Go of All My Held Emotions Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely! or something like that. (See 2. Lachesis, below)
    • Mind-Heart Unx Klotho-Magdalena – God/Goddess, Please Open Me to Beginning a Whole New Life (Klotho) where I Constantly Ask For and Graciously Receive Mary Magdalene’s Loving Guidance (Magdalena) or something like that. (See 3. Chiron, below)
  • The Focus of the Diamond Star is at the Midpoint of Sagittarius, which is the Place where we Let Go Of Believing that we Know the Answer, and Open to Brainstorming about Alternatives, and Stop Rejecting Our Intuition (end of Taurus Duad and Beginning of Gemini Duad of Sagittarius).
• 2. Lachesis (Karma that has not Expired on its own, but which we have the Power to Let Go Of Consciously If We Choose to) – There is a Pattern or Habit or Addiction that is Stopping Us from Moving Forward, and we can’t seem to be Able to Break it. We haven’t given ourself Permission to Break it, and Permission to Accept the Consequences, which are Unpredictable. Karma is Dead. It doesn’t have us in its Grasp, we have it Firmly Grasped. Even when Karma has Expired, we still seek it out, because it’s Familiar and we Feel Lost without it. Karma is our Expectations. The last time that happened, such and such happened, and now that is happening again, and I’m Terribly Anxious that such and such will happen again. Once again, we have to Move Up! What’s really going on in Current Moment Reality? I’m Feeling Anxiety! What will I Create when I’m Feeling Anxiety? More Anxiety. So I need to find a way to Move to a Posture of Love or Gratitude or Peace or Excitement
  • The base of the red triangle and the Angels and Devils Shoulding us? The Nodal Axis, with Uranus at the North Node (The course of my Life, from my Held Emotions [South Node] to my Lifetime Mission [North Node], with Soul Merged with My Mission!). Wow, that’s one Hell of a Pattern! Well, the only thing we can do is Go For It! First thing we need to do is Open up to Ego Death, because Held Emotions (the ones We’d rather Die than Feel, but which are really that We‘d (our Ego) rather Die than Feel them) won’t Let Go without an Ego Death. PIAVA that – God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, Please Open Me to the Ego Deaths I Need, Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely! Then we need to just Surrender to Our Soul and our Mission – Lord, Take Me Now! plus whatever caveats you think you need to stay Safe, the Fewer the Better. The only Ultimate Protection is Ultimate Vulnerability. Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely! never hurt nobody. This is Big – you been waiting all your Life for this! May as well Dive In Completely!
  • The base of the green wedge and Self-Resolution Grace? Ganesa (Remover of Obstacles) Sextile (Grace If Only I’d Ask for it) Orcus-Thereus (No-Holds-Barred Teacher of Pattern-Breaking) – God/Goddess, Please Help Me Surrender Completely to These Unbelievable Gracious Energies and Leave All My Stress Behind! or something like that.
  • Don’t Think of an Elephant, and while you’re at it, Acknowledge that the Relationship between Obstacles and Karma and between Pattern-Breaking and Karma (the long green lines) are so far above what anybody’s 2D Mind can comprehend, that you’d Never Bother to waste your time trying!
  • The short green lines…
    • Lachesis Unx Klotho-Magdalena – God/Goddess, Please Help Me Let Go of All Impediments to Opening Up to Beginning a Whole New Life where I Constantly Ask For and Graciously Receive Mary Magdalene’s Loving Guidance! Or something like that.
    • Lachesis Unx Juno-Nessus – God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, Please Help Me Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely Let Go of All Impediments to a Huge Growth Spurt in Consciousness around Equality! Or something like that.
  • Lachesis, the Focus, is in 13 Aquarius, We Have All the Time in the World to Let Go of Yet Another Attempt by the Collective to Drag Us Back into Anxiety about Life and Death.
• 3. Chiron (Despair and Miracles) – We Know How to Handle Despair, Right? We Poor-Sweetheart Ourself! “You Poor Sweetheart, You’re Feeling Hopeless, Aren’t You.” Then we Change the Subject. Changing the Subject is important, because if we don’t Divert our Mind, it’ll Think us right back into Hopelessness. What, We Like to be Hopeless? Goddess, it’s Strangely Satisfying, isn’t it. Who are we Punishing by Feeling Hopeless? Who was it that put Roadblocks in front of us no matter which way we turned? It wasn’t their fault, they were just trying Protect us? Well of course, but it wasn’t much of a Protection, was it! Who are we Punishing by staying in Hopelessness? Is it really worth it? Wouldn’t we Get Even with them better by Stepping into Freedom that they won’t be Able to Spoil?
  • The Opposition in the base of the Chiron T-Square is Ganesa Opposite Klotho-Magdalena! What a Horrible Fate, to have to Decide whether to let Ganesha Guide us or Mary Magdalene!! What, we can do both?!?!?! Hallelujah! Do you Really Think that they’d ever Disagree with one another and couldn’t combine their Wisdom into something far Better? Oh, that was your Catholic father and Anglican Mother you were confusing with Ganesh and Mary. Ok, that’s understandable. But now you’ve Let that Go, right? I mean, they’ll speak in different languages, but what Fun it will be to have Mary Magdalene whispering Advice into one Ear and Ganesh into the other! You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Overflowing with Grace, Aren’t You. Good Old Upper Limits! (Hendricks, The Big Leap)
  • I’m sitting here with a nasty Squall blowing cold rain or hail against the skylight, Grateful to be Warm and Dry, when the notion of Homelessness shakes me to the core for a moment. Then I Realize, Been There Done That, Don’t Have to Do It Again! followed by But What About All Those Poor Souls Out There Right Now! So I say a Prayer for them. Then I come back to Don’t Have to Do It Again! and that’s Exciting. Another Prayer for the Others, this time with (Better) “Feeling”!
  • The base of the green wedge to Chiron is the Sextile between the South Node and Orcus-Thereus, Thereus the Teacher who don’t take much flak, and Orcus the Ferocious Pattern-Breaker. I don’t mind them Helping work on my South Node at all!
  • The Pattern-Breaking Unxes are…
    • Chiron Unx Uranus-North Node, Breaking Patterns that would Impede Merger of my Soul with my Mission.
    • Chiron Unx Juno-Nessus, Expanding my Consciousness around Equality, Letting Go of any Karmic, Programmed, or Ancestral Support for the Patriarchy.
  • Chiron sits in 13 Aries, Liberation from our Mental Cage. Where do I sign?
• 4. Finally, with Vacancies in Air and Fire, the only Grand Trines (Unconditional Blessings) are in Water and Earth. Since the only T-Squares are in Air and Fire, so none of the three is Enhanced by a Grand Trine to its Focus. However, the Water and Earth Grand Trines connect the ends of all three of the basal Oppositions, helping make the three Complementary to one another. In addition, the two Magnetic/Feminine Grand Trines create a Grand Sextile (Fabulous Grace, though it requires the Initiative of the “User”). So while the Challenges are all to the Dynamic/Masculine Signs (which obviously need the Work the most), the Goddess lends her Max Grace to the pudding!

I neglected to draw in the blue lines representing the Grand Trine in Water, and I mislabeled Cancer, home to Ganesa, as Leo. Please make those corrections for me on your copy of the chart.

Loonies Loose and Then Some

The Loonies will be on the loose again from 4:22 pm PDT 23 July 2022 till 12:04 pm PDT 28 July¹ as the Moon goes Out of Bounds North again. Us Hupers are more likely to Panic when the Moon’s “OOB,” as we get lost in Our Exaggerated Thoughts about Our Emotions rather than Paying Attention to the Physical Sensations that the Body uses to Inform us about What’s Happening. Camilla Blossom Bishop’s Mermaid Ambré gave us a great Lesson on this a few posts back. When will we ever Learn?

We can hope we Learn a lot this weekend, because our next astroportal is 11:47 pm PDT 24 July,² and it’s about Expansion of Consciousness and Understanding Our Mission in the Lifetime on the Planet.³ The latter requires two distinct Steps. In order to be able to Understand our Mission, to stretch far enough out of 2D to begin to Grok it, we must first Clear our Karma, because our Karma is the Sand that we Ostriches bury our heads into, totally Obscuring our higher-Dimensional Vision. The 24 July astroportal itself is a very useful feature, but fairly trivial – it happens twice a year.

But it’s difficult to tally how Important the next week is on the Lifetime scale. We have five separate parameters here…

1. The Soul, symbolized by Uranus.
2. Our Karma – the Habit Patterns we’re Stuck in, symbolized by asteroid Karma.
3. Our Lifetime Mission – symbolized by what astrologers call “the Moon’s North Node” (don’t ask; we’ll go into what the devil that is in another post).
4. Our Held Emotions – the Deepest part of our Karma, the Emotions We’d Rather Die Than Feel, which means they Require an Ego Death to Transcend, symbolized by “the Moon’s South Node” (see #3).
5. Amplification or Exaggeration – the process of appearing under a Microscope, symbolized by the astroadjective “Out of Bounds,” which here applies at times to asteroid Karma.

All five of these parameters will not recur together again until 2067, 45 years hence. So if anyone over age 40 or so came here to Become Enlightened, this is the week to Do it. Soul and Mission Merge every 15 years, so we’ll Enjoy that again in 2037 and 2052. Soul Dances with Karma every two years or so, but not always with Held Emotions involved, and not always when Karma is Exaggerated, or Easier than usual to Identify. This week is a Unique Opportunity. And it’s Self-Resolving. All we need to do is Avoid Disrupting the Process.

Before Enlightenment, Chop Wood, Carry Water.
After Enlightenment, Chop Wood, Carry Water.

• ¹ 12:22 am BST 24 July in Scotland, and 9:22 am 24 July in Queensland. The Moon will move from 10 Gemini (Through the Dark Side to Wholeness) to 7 Leo (Ready for Enlightenment ) while it’s visiting the Reaches of the Northern Hemisphere.
• ² Station of asteroid Juno (Expansion of Consciousness) at 7:47 am 25 July BST in Wales and 4:47 pm AEST 25 July in New South Wales.
• ³ The single Self-Resolving Challenge in the Juno Station chart is a Diamond Star (T-Square and Finger of the Goddess) focusing on Saturn (The Most Important Thing) in 24 Aquarius (Mandatory Mastery of Thinking, until the Basic Assumptions Prove to Be Wrong, then we must Surrender to Intuitive Survival ) T-Square to the Nodes (The Unfolding of a Lifetime) in 19 Scorpio (Driven by Spirit but Plagued by Doubt ) and Taurus (Giving Up Self-Image). Saturn in 24 Aquarius is Merged with two Fixed Stars, Sadalsuud (Luckiest of the Lucky) and Deneb Algedi (the Empress, or Love with Wisdom).
• Uranus (Soul ) sits on the North Node (Mission) in 19 Taurus (Giving Up Self-Image).
• The South Node at 19 Scorpio (Driven by Spirit but Plagued by Doubt ) is Merged with the Star Zuben Eschamali (Social Reform but with Corruption and/or a Need for Status by the Reformers – that’s certainly going on!). This Star is thus also adjacent to asteroid Karma in 20 Scorpio (Dedicated to the Path but Challenged by Spiritual Pride till Spiritual Guidance Reigns).
• The parameters of the Self-Resolution (ie, feet of the Finger of the Goddess) are Samadhi (Enlightenment ) in 20 Cancer (Coming into Enlightenment ), and Requiem (Respect for Death) in 19 Virgo (Focusing on our Feelings Instead of Our Thoughts About Them) Merged with Eurydike (Trust ) in 24 Virgo (Stubbornly Persistent Messenger of the Light ) – ie, Trusting Ego Death. Samadhi in 20 Cancer is adjacent to Fixed Star Castor (Blending and Bridging of Opposites, Optimistically). Eurydike in 24 Virgo is Merged with the Star Alkes (Messenger of the Light ).

Scary Lunar Eclipse II

Sandwiched between the Storm of Sign Changes 14-21 November 2021 (previous post) and the Gonggong-Nessus Abuse Review 20-25 November, all of which tickle the Sign Cusps, the 19 November (12:58 am PST) Dang-Near Total Lunar Eclipse Full Moon chart does a good job of summarizing the whole Pickle¹…

💥 The first thing to notice is the Moon-Sedna Merger. Sedna is the Star of a complex Inuit story, Goddess of the Sea and of the marine Critters that have always fed the Inuit. The dwarf planet Sedna has an orbit of over eleven thousand years, compared to Pluto’s two hundred fifty years. It takes eight minutes for Light to travel from the Sun to Earth. In the far reaches of Sedna’s orbit, it takes five and a half years for the Sun’s Light to arrive. It’s quite cold out there, and our anthem that Fear is Cold and Hard while Love is Soft and Warm fits here.

A powerful Shaman disguised himself as an everyday Inuit guy, and asked Her father for Sedna’s hand in marriage. But once her father realized that Her suitor was really a Giant Bird, the father tried to rescue Her from his nest. Enraged, the Bird-Shaman rose a storm and attacked their fleeing boat. In his Terror, the father threw Sedna overboard, and when She clung to the side of the boat, cut off Her fingers. Her fingers became the Seals, and She sank to the bottom, where She still Lives, commanding the Sea Critters. Before each hunt, a Shaman is sent into the Sea to comb Her hair, placating Her rage so She’ll send some of Her Critters to be hunted. A Mermaid representing Feminine Rage and Masculine Terror.

We interpret Sedna as Converting Fear to Power, and we could equally consider it Converting Rage to Power. We usually advise Kegels as a mechanical process that will Convert Fear to Power. Kegels slow down Time, and that could also Convert Rate to Power.

💥 The second thing to notice (though it’s not in the chart) is that the Eclipsed Moon is also Merged with the Fixed Star Algol, in the Constellation Perseus. Algol is the Eye of the Gorgon, in Perseus’s hand after he has cut off Her head, as part of the destruction perpetrated by Zeus of the symbols of the Matriarchy so he can replace them with the Patriarchy. Bernadette says (Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars, p.188), “All writers agree that this is the most malefic star in the heavens and causes hangings, death by the loss of one’s head, and any other foul, demonic deed that could befall the human race.” The Chinese referred to Algol as “Piled Up Corpses.” Algol too represents Feminine Rage and Masculine Terror.

💥 The third thing to notice is the Major Challenge² that asteroid Damocles presents to our management of these immense Energies. Damocles was a courtier to King Dionysius who flattered the opulence of the King’s Life so much that Dionysius offered to trade places with Damocles for a day. But to emphasize to Damocles that a King’s opulence comes at the price of constant danger from the King’s enemies, Dioysius hung a sword over the throne by a single horsehair. Damocles withdrew in Fear. Damocles in the chart is Larger than Life (Conjunct Jupiter).

Damocles is in the Gonggong corner of the chart, indicating that the Threat of Danger arrives through our Intrusive Memories which in the larger picture³ may well be Intrusive Memories of Abuse. However, between Damocles and Gonggong we have a Boon, in the form of asteroid Sappho, representing Self-Love. When we have our head on backwards, Sappho can also mean Self-Doubt, but Self-Doubt is never Real, it’s always just Thoughts about our Feelings.

When we Feel Self-Doubt about our Behavior or Goals, we can easily rectify that, deciding whether the Relationship merits making Amends for untoward Behavior, or running our Goals through our Heart to verify that they’re really Ours and not Someone Else’s. Self-Doubt about Our Self is Self-Abandonment. We probably need an Ego Death, but we know we can do that, don’t we, so No Worries. Usually when we Doubt Our Self, it’s because we’re trying to Judge ourself by someone else’s standards. We need to Ask ourself Who? and Why? and When did we start that? but beyond that, this is a strategy with no Winners, only Abuse.

I understand that this is can be a Dilemma if you’re trying to keep up with Amazon’s Performance Metrics and Fearing that you and/or your Family will starve if you don’t, or if Long COVID confines you to bed most of the day, but Recognize that this is about Behavior, not Self-Worth, and probably also Abusive. After a Lifetime of Abuse from others in our environs, it’s no wonder we’ve developed Habits of Self-Abuse, without even Realizing it. We feel like it’s just the Way the World Works. Many of us Bounce around from one attempt to another for the better part of our Life before we Find the place in the World where we Fit, if we ever do. Better to Bounce again than to Self-Abandon.

When we come to what feels like a Dead End, where we feel like we’re out of Bounces, we’re in the same situation as an Addict “hitting bottom.” A good way to cope with any Dead End, is to Poor-Sweetheart ourself for feeling like we’re at a Dead End. It’s a concise way to Surrender Control, to Let Go and Let God. Keep in mind that it’s not about how often we Fall Down, but how often we Get Up. If you have trouble Changing the Subject after Poor-Sweethearting yourself, Poor-Sweetheart yourself for having trouble Changing the Subject. Rinse and repeat as often as you need to. As your high-school coach used to say, “Sticktoitedness is Important.”

💥 The other two corners of the Famous Red Triangle also have their Boons. On the Moon-Sedna corner, the Moon’s North Node is nearby.⁴ That symbolizes our Lifetime Mission. It’s no Surprise that we’d encounter our “Upper Limits” (Gay Hendricks, The Big Leap) when we’re making major advances toward our Lifetime Mission.

💥 On the Sun corner, the Moon’s South Node⁵ (our Held Emotions, the ones we’d rather Die than Feel, aka our Karma) is Merged with asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious Limitations. That’s a tremendous Blessing, as it represents an Opportunity to Clear Out the Deepest of our Unconscious Limitations, the one’s that feel like Life or Death to us. If you Feel Deathly Ill or like Death would be a Relief, Celebrate it! That’s what it will feel like when you’re successfully Confronting Unconscious Limitations.

But the Big Boon on this corner is the asteroid Klotho, which symbolizes New Beginnings. In the midst of your Worst Feelings, you may find surges of Ecstasy climbing up your Spine – that’s what happens when you’re Willing to actually Feel those Feelings, though it’s always a Surprising “What the Devil is That about?” when it occurs. Honor it, it means Success! It means you can stop obsessing about those Bummers.

• ¹ The 25 November Station of Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is at 12 Degrees, so it’s not Cuspal, and we’ll consider it separately later. But taking the 21 November Gonggong (Intrusive Memories) Station as an introduction is warranted because Gonggong and Nessus have been traveling together for several years, so we’re accustomed to Enduring Intrusive Memories about Abuse and Privilege, so the Intrusive Memories on their own may well feel like Abuse Memories.
• The major impact of Stations (when a planet Stands Still in the Sky) is usually felt over the week or so prior to the Station, so we’re highly likely to notice the Exaggeration (Station) of Nessus entangled with the Exaggeration of Intrusive Memories, beginning as soon as now. I’m already (on 17 November) noticing Strong Trances of Intrusive Memories, not about what I would usually consider Abuse per se, but now that I’m thinking about it, they’re revealing to me how Abusive some everyday Behaviors actually are.
• ² The red triangle or T-Square that Damocles and Jupiter make to the Full Moon Opposition.
• ³ Gonggong and Nessus Stationary in the same week – see previous post and note ¹ above.
• ⁴ That’s the “headphones” or “earmuffs” symbol, in early Gemini. The Nodes move backwards, so from their Perspective it’s actually Late Gemini, but few Degrees.
• ⁵ The “stethoscope” symbol.

There’s more – a second Famous Red Triangle T-Square Challenge that also symbolizes rising from the Ashes of your Karma, and a very Strong naked Opposition that’s actually the primary access of a Yin Gate Mystery School. After the Misery Schools we’ve been working with, that’ll be Delightful, though also not without its Frictions. We’ll deal with those in our next installment. It’s a Daunting Time, but if it doesn’t Kill us, it’ll catapult us to a much Higher level, one that we need to Aspire to if we want to Survive, and want our Species to survive, these End Times.

New Project Week II

As we move into our New Self (asteroid Klotho Stationary 4:30 am PDT 7 June 2021 in 18 Libra), it will behoove us to Attend to our Relationships with Abuse and with Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus Stationary 9:24 am PDT 14 June in 16 Pisces). Though it’s only one of many Challenges that will Confront our Newbie shortly after our Rebirth, Unconscious and Conscious Changes in our Relationship with Abuse and Privilege is probably the biggest one. The intervening Challenges…

• Emotional Intensity (Moon moving Out of Bounds for four days starting 10:57 pm PDT 9 June in 18 Gemini). This hits a peak on 11 June (Moon Stationary in North Declination 25:39 and Longitude 11 Cancer at 9:08 pm PDT), and fades on 13 June (Moon moving back In Bounds at 6:19 pm PDT in 4 Leo).

• Ego Death(s) Required to Let Go of Karma (asteroid Karma moves into Virgo 2:34 pm 9 June). If you have a Journal, Karma was previously in the Sign of Ego Death (Virgo) between 1 December 2020 and 23 January 2021), before it backed back into Leo till 2 April. It’s been moving forward in its third Dance over the last five Duads (2½ Degrees) of Leo since then. This deserves a post of its own.

💥 For now we’ll just say that Virgo is what happens between the Cyclic Culmination of our Individual Identity (Leo) and Meeting Not-Us or Other (Libra). Just as Pisces is about Letting Go of Emotional Baggage so we don’t have to drag it with us into our next Adventure, Virgo is about Letting Go of Obsolete Identities so we don’t mess up our Relationships with Others by “Pretending” (usually Unconsciously) to be someone we ain’t. “Others” includes not just People, but since Everything in the Universe is Conscious, it also includes Everything that we aren’t Being or Owning in the Moment. For example, if you Identify with Loving Nature, prove it to yourself by Inviting a Bird to perch on your finger, without pooping on your hand or giving you Salmonella.

💥 We also need to say that our most troubling Karma is where We Would Rather Die than Feel That Again, aka our “Held Emotions” (South Node). Because most Hupers Believe that we’re Once-Born or Twice-Born, we misinterpret “I’d Rather Die Than Feel That” as “I’d Rather Die Than Feel That,” while it’s really “I’d Rather Die Than Feel That” – Ego Death. We’re just sawing through one of the legs of the three-legged stool we usually sit on. If we Want to minimize Pain, we’d stand up before we did that. But if you know what it means to Go Without an Identity (ie, stepping out of your Identity) for a few minutes, I’d love to know. The Emotion of Confusion is the closest we can come, and we regard Confusion as one of the best Emotions because it’s the Doorway to Evolution. We usually try to suppress it by Figuring Out What’s “Wrong,“ which is one of our most Self-Destructive Habits.

• Illuminations about the State of our Planet and the Likelihood of our Survival if we continue on our Current Trajectory (Annular Eclipse of the Sun 3:52 am PDT 10 June in 20 Gemini [Sabian Symbol “A modern cafeteria displays an abundance of food, products of various regions“], primarily impacting the several weeks following it). It will be visible if you happen to be crossing the North Pole (bring a Boat, that’s cold Water). An Annular Eclipse is one where the moon is far enough from the Earth that it doesn’t quite appear to cover the face of the Sun – an Almost-Total Eclipse. Consciousness Grows by Discovery, not by Invention, and under Eclipses we Discover what’s now missing, that we hadn’t noticed previously. For more details, see https://svs.gsfc.nasa.gov/4910.

• An Increase in Selfishness (Mars enters Leo 6:33 am PDT 11 June). Which is not always a Negative thing. We can’t Love Other Fully until we Love Ourself Fully. Given our Illuminations about the State of the Planet and its Huper inhabitants, though, the Greedheads will probably be making another Power Grab. If we Pray enough for it, they might Betray their Heartlessness and be met with Rotten Tomatoes, or better yet new laws about, say, voting, taxing, and legal theft, and new Cultural Norms about Worshiping Wealth. The few Greedheads who aren’t Sociopaths might even have Epiphanies about their own antisocial Greed. Mars will stay in Leo till the end of July.

While we usually just dwell on the Back-of-Hand/Palm dynamics of Abuse and Privilege, we should actually look at the Pros and Cons of each. For instance, having Privilege can make so many things so much Easier. Rather than Gloating about our supposed Superiority as the source of our Privilege, or arming ourself to the hilt to keep the Rabble from “stealing” back what we’ve stolen from them, or Resisting Privilege because we’re Conscious of the Abuse that results and Guilty about it, we might instead find our Gratitude for our Privilege. In 5D where Collaboration outduels Competition, we’ll no long be in a Zero-Sum World, but back in a Natural World where the Sum is Much Greater than its Parts. From a place of Gratitude for our historical Privilege we may be able to Share it or Teach Others how to Enjoy it without creating more Abuse – not like the Missionaries that enabled the Conquistadors, however. How would we avoid that?

As for Abuse, until enough people Unite against the Psychopaths and Sociopaths and Missionaries (which will require that we no longer Worship Wealth and Greed) and enforce a meaningful Equality, the most positive feature I can envision for Abuse, is for it to Inspire us to Delete our Abuse Karma. History of course was written by the Abusers, who were by and large proud of their Conquists, so the Horrors of our Karmic History may be Exaggerated by their Pride, though I’m not naive enough about the Cruelty and Sadism of our Species, or the extreme Privilege of the Abusers, to Believe that any such Exaggeration has been more than slight.

“Trust but Verify” is good advice. During the 1980s, when Pluto was in Scorpio and Recovery was all the rage, I Learned to Ask, “What color is the wallpaper?” to remind myself that most PTSD episodes are Flashbacks and not Present-Moment. The Jungle “wallpaper” of Vietnam, and the Bare Metal “wallpaper” of the Ships, contrasts with even unadorned wallboard, so we could distinguish hallucinations from real napalm, torture, anal probes, and implants. Grounding is always a helpmate (running an imaginary cable from the base of your spine to the center of the Earth), Eating, and Orgasm are reliable Grounders.

Mirrors are always useful, especially when you’re trying to Heal Feelings that aren’t yours, which is not possible. Mirrors are even useful as a first response – when you’re Feeling awful without obvious Triggers, take the first person who comes to mind, and for five to ten seconds hold a wardrobe Mirror between you and them, facing them. If your Feelings become more acceptable, you know you’re trying to run their Emotions through your Body – or, they’re Manipulating you. If you’re being Manipulated, even with the best Intentions, it’s never fun. Most folks are totally Unconscious that they’re Manipulating. Mirrors are a good strategy for dealing with Climate Deniers, Mask Objectors, Gun Freaks, folks who want to Deny your Vote and Control your Body, and other Antichrist Lovers. You won’t need to get into a hopeless morass of Conversation with them, and if you position your Mirror so it Reflects their Energy back at them, they’ll get a bit of their own toxic “Medicine.”

The Big Advantage of using “Then versus Now” tricks, Grounding, and Mirrors, is that they’re Habit-forming. When we’re Vulnerable to Manipulation by Other People’s Energy, it’s because our Programmers “Intentionally” (though probably Unconsciously) carved a Hole in the back of our Aura, so they could reach in and pull our strings whenever they wanted or needed to. It often looks and feels like Shaming. Habitual Manipulators “see” those Holes, usually Unconsciously, so we can be Manipulated by strangers we pass on the street. Our Programmers just thought it was good parenting, and you may do it yourself when your own kids threaten to drive you Batty. As these “tricks” become a Habit, the hole in our Aura actually Seals Up, so not only do the “tricks” become second-nature, they also Heal the Source of our Dis-Ease. When our Will is Healthily Self-Serving, Habitual Manipulators pass us by without a second glance, because we’re useless as an Object for their Power Games.

Issues such as these may Confront our Experiential Infant this coming week. It never hurts to recall that we’re actually an Eternal Energy Nexus (often called an “Immortal Soul”) borrowing a Material Body. Energy can never be Destroyed, only Transformed. Revelation of Denial (dwarf planet Eris) remains Out of Bounds through all of this (until 4:12 am PDT 18 July in 20 Cancer), so don’t be Surprised if New Information about your Personal or Karmic History or Herstory comes into your Consciousness during these Adventures. If you’ve noticed that almost everything above occurs in 16-20 Degrees of one Sign or another, you’ll be checking your natal chart to see what will be Lit Up for you, as your own Energy System meshes with the Planet’s.

All of this is Important, because as we get past the 14 June Exaggeration of Abuse and Privilege (Nessus Station), we drop into a week of very Intense Manifestation Energy, as three Big Energies are simultaneously Emphasized. When Energies Conjoin in Time, it’s as if they’re Conjoining in Longitude – and these Big Fellas are also actually in neighboring Degrees of their respective Signs. The three Energies are Manifestation Itself (dwarf planet Makemake Stationary 6:42 pm PDT 19 June in 6 Libra), Expansion (Jupiter Stationary 8:04 am PDT 20 June in 3 Pisces, and The Opportunity to Jettison Karma Early (asteroid Lachesis Stationary 2:42 pm PDT 20 June in 6 Scorpio).

If as is the case hereabouts, you’re Wondering why the Foundations of your Personal Infrastructure seems to be Falling Apart, each Failure is a Big Clue about the Unconscious Energies “you” are running but not Owning, that Block what you’re trying to Manifest. Take time to Sit with each Failure of Intention or Function, and Merge with it Energetically. The Objective is to Meet each of your Unconscious Blocks as Energy Clusters in the Unconscious, Meet them in Neutral territory without Bias or Judgment on your part, and with an Open Mind Ask the Question, “Is this Energy really My Own, but I’ve been Denying it?”

Dropping Self-Sabotage

As we’ve said many times, Karma died in 2012, when Linear Time became Obsolete. But our Karma doesn’t cling to us, we cling to it, because like Dinner and Dessert, it’s what we’re accustomed to. Without it there’s a Big (w)Hole to fill – disconcerting at best, often crazy-making. It’s very Addictive, very difficult to break the habit without Support and Commitment.

Like Alan Watts pointed out, it’s harder to break our Good Karma than it is to break our Bad Karma. That should be fairly obvious – Bad Karma often involves Punishment on one level or another, and Good Karma gets constant positive social Reinforcement, so there’s Motivation for the Bad, quite the Opposite for the Good. Without Motivation, from whence will the Commitment arise? Yet if we want to get to Yintegrity and 5D, we need to Break our Good Karma as well.

Remember that all Karmic Patterns are Profound Skills – simply because we’ve had so much Practice and so many Repetitions with them, in so many different situations. Karma isn’t Good or Bad on the surface, it’s Undesirable because we have no Choice about when to use the Skill – it Operates beneath the level of our Consciousness, whether or not it’s Appropriate and Effective for what we want to Accomplish. In fact, once we break free of the Unconscious Compulsion, we need these Skills, used Intentionally, to Accomplish our Life Mission.

We Believe that Karma is created when we make an Oath or Vow or Promise, or even a Decision, that has Life-or-Death or other serious consequences. Conscious of these consequences, we work hard to forget that we made the Choice, instead Reframing it as Just The Way Things Are. If we can make it a Fact of Life, we’re less likely to Violate it. Through Repetition, we convince ourself that it really is The Way Things Are, and that ends up as an Unconscious – Karmic – Belief in subsequent Lifetimes.

All Karma is Personal. Sure, there are Cultural Patterns and Prescriptions that Act Out like Karma. Like the almost-Universal Practice of scapegoating other Cultures. Once in a while, a Cultural Karmic Pattern can shift on its own. But does that actually Change the World, when all of the folks who Practice it are still Addicted to it? Not until at least a hundred of the “Monkeys,” and probably a lot more, who Practice it have brought it into Consciousness and converted it to a Purposive Skill. Or until (seven?) previous generations move on to their next Adventures.

When asteroid Karma is Lit Up, our Karma is usually in our face. The South Node is similar but different. It includes our Held Emotions, the ones we’d rather Die than Feel. Much Cultural Karma is the result of Cultural or Racial Trauma. We can think of the South Node as Individual or Collective PTSD. The South Node harbors Behaviors that Got Us Dead in other Lifetimes. Those Behaviors were probably Karmic – if they weren’t, we might have Chosen other Skills instead.

We still need those Skills, and there may be a bundle of other Skills that we collected or emphasized in that Lifetime, that we Repressed along with the one(s) that Got Us Dead. This collection of Skills, used Intentionally, is particularly Critical to Accomplishing our Life Mission (the North Node).

Dwarf planet Orcus is in charge of Punishing Oath-Breakers, which would include Karma-Changers. As a fearsome Beast, Orcus helped Enforce our Oaths during Karma-gestating Lifetimes, and that Memory of Terror that’s attached to the Karma may be added to our Fear of what might happen to us if we skip Dinner and Dessert. Asteroid Vesta represents our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, which are highly correlated with our Karma.

Meanwhile, is our Fate different from our Karma? In many ways, not so much. And there are four asteroids that are named after the Greek Goddesses who were in charge of our Fate. Greek Drama (or at least, our Cultural Projections into Greek Drama) was particularly adept at dramatizing Fate. While it’s easy to view Greek Drama as implying that The Devil Made Me Do It, we can also view it as Information about What We Need to Bring into Consciousness so that we can make Choices that save us from being Victims of our own Fate.

Asteroid Moira is in charge of the whole Process of Unconscious Fate and Conscious Choice. Asteroid Klotho “cuts the cloth” (that’s where our word “cloth” comes from) on which the Tapestry of our Fate is woven. Asteroid Lachesis “measures the cloth,” or determines the Duration of a particular Karmic “Gift.” And Asteroid Atropos is in charge of Endings – literally Death, but we generalize to include the Death of an individual thread of Karma, which is appropriate because the Termination of any significant Karmic Pattern usually requires an Ego Death.

Our Held Emotions are the poster child for this, as they are the Emotions which We would rather Die than Feel. But here we don’t interpret that as We would rather Die than Feel, we interpret it as We would rather Die than Feel – that is, an Ego Death, the equivalent of a Rebirth without an intervening Physical Death.

This has been a significant week from the Perspective of Fate and Karma, as asteroid Atropos (Endings) was very Strong (Stationary) on 10 March 2021 (2:04 pm PST in 20 Cancer), asteroid Lachesis (Karmic Duration) was very Strong (Stationary) on 13 March (7:12 am PST in 18 Scorpio), and asteroid Vesta (Unconscious Limiting Beliefs) crossed dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) on 13 March (2:18 pm PST in 13 Virgo).

In addition (Busy, Busy, Busy), the Lachesis Station, supercharged because it’s Out of Bounds, Complicates (T-Squares) an Argument (Opposition) between asteroid Karma and an Expanded asteroid Moira (Conjunct Jupiter). “Wait! Are you saying that I can Change my Fate? ” Lachesis Measured the Duration of a thread of our Fate, but there’s nothing to prevent us from cheating Fate by bringing that thread into Consciousness Early.

The Vesta-Orcus Merger (Conjunction) makes a major Challenge to (T-Squares) the North Node and the Brightly Lit Up South Node (Conjunct the Great Attractor, an unknown Massive Object or Field pulling the whole Milky Way toward the Midpoint of Sagittarius). “Wait! Are you saying that it was ‘my’ Choices that ultimately created my Limitations? Can I unmake those Choices?“

And the Atropos Station not only gets very Tied Up in issues around Trust (Conjunct Out-of-Bounds asteroid Eurydike), but also issues around Self-Love and Self-Authority (Opposite asteroid Sappho and dwarf planet Hylonome). “Wait! Can I really Trust that Fear of Emptiness is the only thing that inhibits my Freedom, not Dragons? That’s not what my mother and the preacherman told me!“

In addition to Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty and Codependence), Lilith (ditto) is also Activated (Opposing the Lachesis Station and also T-Squaring the Jupiter-Moira to Karma Opposition) – remember what we said earlier about Good Karma and Yintegrity?

Dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is also involved, as it Opposes Vesta-Orcus and also T-Squares the Nodes, including the South Node that’s glowing like Rudolph’s nose, meaning that it may be a particularly fortuitous time to Let Go of Abuse Karma. And a fortuitous time to jettison Privilege Karma.

That leaves out asteroid Klotho. Are we to endure the Emptiness without the Rebirth of a new Ego? Well, it’s a sleeper, but it’s there. It’s Merged with (Conjunct) dwarf planet Haumea (also symbolizing Rebirth), and at the focus of a Mjölner (Epiphanies) to the Square between Nessus and the North Node. If you look close in the chart below, and your monitor or printer is good enough at color separation, you may be able to distinguish the orange Mjölner lines, pointing to Klotho-Haumea, from the many red (Square and Opposition) lines.

Insights that shift Energies from a Belief that “It’s Just The Way It Is” to “Omigod! I can Change that too?!? ” can count double as Karma-Changers, if they’re followed up by the ongoing Work of substituting Constructive Thoughts and Behaviors for their Karmic forbears. Ultimately, it “Reps” – Repetitions – that shift Self-Sabotaging Karmic Patterns to Habits that we want to cultivate.

For instance, I read this earlier this week…

“Anthony Trewavas described plants as operating: ‘There is no unique separate response to each signal in this complex of informational inflows but merely a response issued from an integration of all environmental and internal information.’ In other words, the organism takes in all the incoming data simultaneously as it occurs and integrates it as one coherent whole, then crafts a response… The amount of incoming data includes trillions upon trillions of bits; when you are talking about Gaia the numbers are close enough to infinity as to make no difference. There is no way that linear processes could be used to generate the increasingly complex innovations on form and behavior that would stabilize homeodynamis. Top-down control here just doesn’t work.” –Stephen Harrod Buhner, Plant Intelligence and the Imaginal Realm, pp.152-3.

Within a few hours I read correlated ideas in three other books on different subjects (by Gay Hendricks, Timothy Hass, and Marko Pogačnik). The result was that I Realized that I’ve been relying too much on Intellect to move toward an important Manifestation that I’m working on, when I need to shift even more than I already am to Intuition and PIAVAs. I Realized that I had been Doubting my next interim Target because I couldn’t imagine what Mechanism would get me there.

Mechanisms are Logical, Known Steps. We can’t Manifest Territory beyond our Known World using Known or Logical Steps. If we could, we’d have done so long ago. We can’t Reach Beyond our Grasp with Dynamic Processes, only with Magnetic Processes.

We aren’t without Blessings to make this process Easier…

Vesta-Orcus and the two Fatefull Stations are all two Signs apart, and they’re joined by three other Sextiles to create a Grand Sextile in Water and Earth – the PIAVA Signs.

There are eight Unxes (two planets one Sign apart, indicated by the short green lines), including at least one Unx for each of the three Stars of this show. Atropos (Endings) gets two such Pattern-Breaking Gifts, one to asteroid Karma itself, and one to the North Node (MIssion) and dwarf planet Asbolus (Intuition, which we’re already Summoning). Asteroid Karma also Unxes Vesta-Orcus.

These three Unxes alone are enough to banish whatever Self-Sabotage you’ve been working on. If you still Feel Stuck on those, check to see if any of them Let Go while you weren’t looking. Try some Easy but Meaningful PIAVAs to see if they work now – that should Ease any Discouragement you have over the others.

The Lachesis-Station Unxes the South Node and Great Attractor, suggesting to me that your Held Emotions may be ready to be Eased into your stable of Permitted Emotions. Remember this fellow from Yellow Submarine? If you Ask him, he can just vacuum them up. So much for unknown Mechanisms.

Self-Love New Moon 2

In the 14 November 2020 New Moon chart, the planets in the “Basket of Grace” (blue upside-down Truss Bridge) under the red triangle are an interesting pair. They tell us How the Nasty Challenge (T-Square red triangle) will Self-Resolve. First there’s dwarf planet Eris, which is about Revelation of What’s Been Denied, and second there’s dwarf planet Asbolus, meaning Intuition, Merged With (Conjunct) the North Node, which indicates our Lifetime Mission.

Our Life Mission is way too multidimensional for the Dualistic Mind to be able to do more than get an occasional glimpse of it from one angle, so if our Life Mission were an Elephant, we’d be the seven Blind Men trying to figure out what it is. Our Intuition, though, is able to handle many more Dimensions, as long as we don’t constantly Diminish it by squeezing it into Words. So our Intuition has been giving us Videos of our Life Mission in the form of Skits from our Childhood and Past Lives (Eris).

Asbolus and the North Node are three and a half Degrees apart and separating, so the Connection is weakening, but both of them are well within three Degrees of the New Moon, so they’re Reconnected and Re-Energized by the New Moon. (Three Degrees is the Limit of Connection that we use in this blog; it and one Degree are the most common Limits of Connection that astrologers use. The less Difference between the Locations, the Stronger the Connection.) The Asbolus-North Node Connection was Exact at the end of August, within one Degree between mid-August and mid-September, and within three Degrees between late July and late September, so we’ve been Experiencing this Connection for a while.

Intuition can be illusive. My Intuition Teacher advised me to Ask myself “What If I Did Know?” and tentatively Believe the Answer I got. Translating an Intuition into Words is like pinning a Butterfly to a block of styrofoam – it might look good, but you’ve just Killed it. So Word Pictures of Intuitions are always tentatively or “…Or Something Like That,” as Eugene Gendlin liked to say. But the point is that the Information is Available. We can try retrieving it with a Theta such as “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Grok the Intuitions about my Life Mission that I Received over the Summer (North) or Winter (South) so they will Help Me Let Go of Karmic Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You God/Goddess. Show Me!“

In case you haven’t read Heinlein, Grok means “to drink in all available aspects of reality or to become one with the observed,” the multidimensional equivalent of “Understanding,” which is what the Limited Dualistic Mind does. You may or may not Notice any lightbulbs over your head, but it may be better if you don’t, because then you’ll be less Tempted to Wordify it. Just Trust that you’ve Received and Grokked the Download, and that it has Changed you accordingly.

We need this because the next week plus will be Challenging. Our Ability to Trust, and to Grok what’s Trustable so we can Trust it, is Lit Up through 17 November, as asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust, is increasingly Exaggerated until 1am PST on 18 November. As usual with astrology, that’s for Good or Ill, as our Trust will be Challenged so we can Witness the places where we OverTrust and UnderTrust and Adjust accordingly.

In the New Moon chart asteroid Veritas, the Truth of the Mind, is Merged with Pluto, Compulsion. We may or may not Believe Facts, depending on whether or not they Align with our current Concept Set. For instance, many people Reject the Fact that the Earth is Flat (when seen from the center of a plain, for instance) because they’ve been Hypnotized by “Science” to Believe that it’s Round. It might Look Round from the Moon, but we don’t Live on the Moon. It might Look Curved from an airplane, but there are lots of Curves that aren’t Round. The Dualistic Mind will always Delude you unless you always specify the conditions under which each “Fact” is “True” – and what a Headache that would be.

It’s a lot Easier if we just recognize that like Loki or Coyote, the Mind is a Trickster, simply because it usually thinks in Either/Or, while the Universe is Both/And. “Figures don’t Lie, but Liars sure can Figure,” is a general rule that Statisticians use, if they know what they’re doing. The Truth of the Mind is always Relative to usually-unspecified and often-unknown Assumptions and Conditions, and it’s Dual, so it usually Flips rather than Adjusts. Goddess Knows we’re getting a graduate seminar in Exactly This in our Political Dramas these days. This is Grade-School Bullshit, and we need to see through it so we can instead Focus on The Most Important Thing – Climate Change, as the Dali Lama reminds us. If we don’t, Death by COVID might turn out to be the more Merciful Choice.

In the New Moon chart, Pluto-Veritas (Compulsive Belief in “Facts”) is Challenged (Squared) by Eris, or Revelation of What’s Been Denied. Compulsive Belief in “Facts” is also Contrasted (Opposed) to Respect for All Things (asteroid Hopi) – we will never see Peace and Collaboration and 5D and Sustainability as long as we invest our Trust in Either/Or. Reality is always Both/And.

Besides Compulsive Belief in “Facts” (Pluto-Veritas), Revelation of What’s Been Denied (Eris) and Respect for All Things (Hopi), the fourth corner of the big red square (a “Grand Cross” in astrologuese) in the New Moon chart is The Heart (Venus). It’s the Heart that Groks. The Truth of the Heart is symbolized by asteroid Aletheia. For any given Person, the Truth of the Heart is not Relative like “Facts” are, but Absolute. What we have to Remember about the Heart is that Everyone’s Truth of the Heart is Different. You can, if you’re clever, convince someone to Believe in the “Truth” of your “Facts.” Shame on you, but you can do it.

You’ll never convince anyone to Believe in the Truth of your Heart, if their Heart has a Different Truth. They might pretend to Believe to get you off their back, but our Heart-Truths are Permanent and Inviolable. We Recognize them Intuitively, not Intellectually. Heart-Truths are multidimensional, and suffer Wordification poorly. As long as Hupers fail to Recognize the Difference between Mind-“Facts” and Heart-Truths, and fail to Realize that Everyone’s Heart-Truths are Different, there will never be Peace on the Planet.

How does asteroid Aletheia relate to the New Moon chart? Like so…

That’s a “Grand Quintile,” Grand because it fills the whole chart, and Quintile because it features five planets more or less equally space around the Zodiac. Quintiles are about Teaching and Learning, and a Grand Quintile is about Multidimensional Teaching and Learning. There are twenty-six Relationships we’re being Taught to Grok…

• Truth of the Heart (Aletheia) to Self-Love (Sappho-New Moon)
• Heart-Truth to Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus)
• Heart-Truth to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos)
• Heart-Truth to Freedom (Fixed Star Alpheratz)
• Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking
• Self-Love to Unlimited Potential
• Self-Love to Freedom
• Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential
• Pattern-Breaking to Freedom
• Unlimited Potential to Freedom

Then there are the sixteen Interaction terms…

• Heart-Truth to Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking etc (10)
• Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom etc (5)
• Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom to Heart-Truth to Self-Love (1)

That’s a lot to Learn. It’s a good thing it’s Intuitive, as it’d boggle the Mind. These apply to the New Moon chart, ie, the next two weeks. Meanwhile we’re Dealing with Trust until 18 November, as Eurydike Stands Still. So we’ll be Learning how Trust Relates to each of those twenty-six Relationships. Busy Busy Busy.

Then the Real Teaching takes center stage, as Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet Gonggong) are Lit Up till 20 November and Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) are Lit Up till 22 November. The Poster Child for Abuse and Privilege is the Antagonist of the Big Political Drama, and it’s our own Intrusive Memories of all of our own Karmic Abuse and Privilege Experiences and Patterns that will be Triggered. How many of us will be able to Differentiate the Present Moment from our Regressions?

And the Mind-Truths of Privilege for the White Supremacists? The Heart-Truths of Privilege for the Narcissists? I doubt that many of them will Know the Difference between Reality and their Projections, but we can always pray for Miracles. There are Intriguing Possibilities in the Angle between the New Moon and each of the three Stations – Eurydike, Gonggong, Nessus. We’ll talk about those in the next post.

Charts of the Portals XVI aka WhyAreWeFeelingGuilty New Moon 3

There’s a Big Rhyme between the current 16 October 2020 New Moon chart…

…and the earlier 17 September New Moon chart…

They both have Karmic Challenges – T-Squares – to the Nodal Axis from late Virgo. We spoke in the previous post, WhyAreWeFeelingGuilty New Moon 2, about the 16 October T-Square to Saturn-Pluto-Chariklo, our Confidence Trance Priority, and we spoke in the earlier post Charts of the Portals XV about the 17 September T-Square to the same Triad. Though the embellishments differed, the core of the base of both T-Squares was an Eris-Haumea – Revelation and Rebirth – Opposition, promising Rebirth once we Let Go Of Suppressed Material in the Underwhere.

In both cases the peak of the T-Square was “Unx” to – one Sign away from – the base of a second T-Square. An “Unx” is one twelfth of something, and Ego astrology, unaware of its connection to the Tarot, gives this Twelfth-Harmonic Angle the dull geometrical name “Semi-Sextile.” The Twelfth Harmonic – 360 Degrees divided by 12 – however takes its meaning from the 12 card in the Tarot Major Arcana, the Hanged Man or the Pattern-Breaker. He hangs by his Heels (not his Neck or Fingernails) in order to gain New Perspective and hence Break Patterns, aka Habits, aka Trances, aka Karma. So in each New Moon chart these two T-Squares serve one another as Disruptors of the Status Quo.

In September the Virgo T-Square focused on asteroid Klotho. The Mythic Klotho was the Goddess of Fate who “Cut the Cloth,” or plunked her Magic Twanger and Created New Karma.

So in September we had the Opportunity to Put in Place New Habits that Served our Confidence Trance (the first T-Square’s focus on Saturn-Pluto-Chariklo – aka Priority-Trance-Confidence) and also Served our Life Mission (the Virgo T-Square’s base of the Nodal Axis – aka Our Hero’s Journey from Karmic Limitation to Achieving our Soul’s Mission for us in the Lifetime).

In October the Virgo T-Square focused on asteroid Lachesis. The Mythic Lachesis was the Goddess of Fate who “Measured the Length of the Chord” or the Duration of the Karmic TimeLine – any process or activity that has duration in time, including a Lifetime. Fate and Karma occur as long as we remain Unconscious about them. Once we bring them into our Consciousness, we replace Fate with Choice. So October’s Opportunity is to Choose to Revert Habits that Hinder our Confidence Trance or Hinder our Life Mission.

The base of the Virgo T-Square in both New Moons is the Nodal Axis, with the Galactic Center at the South Node and dwarf planet Asbolus at the North Node. Asbolus means Intuition, reminding us that the Dualistic Intellect is not multidimensional enough to grok our Mission – the North Node – so we need to access it through our Intuition instead, and be aware that we’re always dealing with an Approximation.

The Galactic Center represents Marching Orders from Headquarters and the South Node symbolizes Our Held Emotions. Held Emotions are the ones that We’d Rather Die Than Feel – in other words, the mostly-Unconscious Emotions that require an Ego Death before we can Let Them Go. You’d think we’d be Delighted to Let Go Of Emotions that We’d Rather Die Than Feel, but the problem is that the Only Way to Let Go Of them is to Feel Them. And Headquarters says It’s Time. Oh Bother!

Of course, We’d Rather Die than do that. Which is what defines an Ego Death – it’s not We would Rather Die, it’s We would Rather Die. Ego means Identity, meaning Us. When We’d Really Rather Not, we Banish It from our Consciousness, and when we Banish anything from Consciousness, it Controls us from the Underwhere. The Soul Craves Wholeness, so it won’t long Tolerate Split Personalities, and it Acts by Showing us our Splits, becoming more Exaggerated about it the more we refuse to Pay Attention. With Mars – Action abetting Eris – Revelation of What’s Been Denied Opposing the Virgo planet, our Evil Twin becomes harder and harder to Ignore.

We’re dealing with the Underwhere, to which the Intellect doesn’t have the password, so we have to use PIAVA instead. If your Universe is Acting Ornery with you, you may have to PIAVA that it gives you an Obvious Clue why, or better yet, that it Lovingly and Gently Melts Your Denial. Remember that Denial is a Healthy process that Allows us to Focus on More Important Issues while we Ignore Others. It’s just Time to deal with one or more of the Others.