Boundaries IV

February 13, 2019

I’ve been a little surprised at how useful and Powerful Poor-Sweethearting has been around Boundary issues.  I found myself quite Angry yesterday about being overcharged on a purchase, but more so, Angry at myself for not Speaking Up when the cost was higher than I expected.  At the time I didn’t want to rock any boats, make anybody uncomfortable, or appear Flappable!  (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/)

But hmmm, where’s Hylonome-Codependence?  Waxing Squared by Mars-Agitation!  So what’s this Cycle about?  The Initiation was early April 2018 at 12 Capricorn, “An illustrated lecture on natural science reveals little-known aspects of life.”  An illustration of natural social science I guess, and a useful one.  This Degree was one of the Harmonic Convergence Initiations in 1989, between Saturn and Neptune.

That Cycle is now in its Void phase, nearing a Waning Sextile.  We can think of the Saturn-Neptune Cycle as a commentary on how well our Ego embodies our Spiritual Values.  There’s no question that we’ve been getting ample Insights into little-known aspects of Social Science (or at least, usually-Denied if not little-known) over the last thirty years – about Gender, about Authority, and of course about Sovereignty.

So it occurred to me to Poor-Sweetheart myself, especially about the Anger at myself, and the Emotional charge was immediately reduced.  Not long thereafter I Realized that I really didn’t mind the overcharge, because it was the best grocery store in the Universe that overcharged me, grocery stores have famously low margins, this store consciously tries to keep their prices down because their neighbors don’t have a lot of money, and I’m more than happy to contribute to their continued success.

Now tonight, while I’m questioning myself about having Spoken Up in a meeting, wondering whether I done good or not, I Poor-Sweethearted myself again, and it immediately helps again.  These are both about Speaking Up or not, perhaps related to the 10 February Initiation of Mercury (Communication) by asteroid Klotho (Beginnings) at 30 Aquarius.  This last Degree of Aquarius has a rather unusual and long Sabian Symbol…

Deeply rooted in the past of a very ancient culture, a spiritual brotherhood in which many individual minds are merged into the glowing light of a unanimous consciousness is revealed to one who has emerged successfully from his metamorphosis.”

A bit different from the usual “Bird on a wire” or “Famous Blue Raincoat” Symbols.  I’m not even sure how to understand it grammatically.  I guess it means that someone has just Emerged from an Ancient Trance – or Let Go of their Karma.  Certainly fits the theme of The Other Wind that I was just quoting.  And I guess it could apply to an Ancient Trance of being Ashamed of, or Punished for, Speaking Up.  That would certainly be plausible in my own case.

Since this is a Transit (occurring in the Sky now, rather than in an individual chart), it should impact everyone – has anyone else encountered similar issues this week or last around Speaking Up?  Mercury-Klotho is a one-year Cycle, so if this trend is new starting a few days ago, it bodes well for the political situation.  Yesterday’s Guardian article about social media might be an example…

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2019/feb/12/alexandria-ocasio-cortez-twitter-social-media

And of course we’re looking at Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) moving into Gemini (Atomizing), on 10 February (8:30pm PST), which promises to Disassemble all manner of previously-hidden Trances, Ancient or Otherwise, even if it’s only in Gemini for a few months …

This is the same chart we looked at in Boundaries III, but for that version we drew up everything within Sensitivity (3°) of Makemake (6 Degrees); we’re centering this one on 0 Degrees.  The main Configuration in this version is a fine illustration of a Diamond Star (Self-Resolving Challenge), drawn in the heavy lines, though the Configuration excludes Juno and instead focuses on Varuna (Life Force).

A Diamond Star is composed of a T-Square (red triangle) and a Finger of God (green wedge) pointing at the same place, which results in a Double Trine Bridge (blue lines) across the Challenge of the T-Square.

The roots of the Challenge itself are about the Truthiness of our Boundaries (Aletheia-Pallas approaching the Cusp of Scorpio) and Instinctively but Actively Making Space for our Soul to Come Forth (Moon-Mars-Uranus on the Cusp of Taurus).  The Grace or Self-Resolution comes through the Klotho-Mercury Initiation we’ve already Spoken Up about, and a Wonderfully complex Stellium comprising Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Eurydike (Trust), Quaoar (Survival Instincts) and Pholus (Fully Responding).

So it’s our Forbidden Genius that’s been Trapped in a Unanimous (or Indistinguishable from Background noise, aka Unconscious) Trance since Ancient Times, as we Wondered whether it might be.  The Implication is that Speaking Up is not just about Expression, but about Survival, about Fully Responding to our Survival Instincts by Trusting the Native Wisdom that we Channel.  The Wisdom that Speaks Us, our Forbidden Genius.

And Never Looking Back.  Noticing our Self-Doubt or Self-Judgment and Quenching it quickly with, eg, our Poor-Sweethearts.  Eurydike, wife of Orpheus, died at the fangs of one of those Serpents (Dragons) while fleeing from one of those Serial Rapists that the Greek Myths celebrated.  Orpheus’s Grief was so Profound that he was allowed to Retrieve Eurydike from the Other Side, under the Condition that he Did Not Look Back while she followed him out of Hades.  He Distrusted and Looked Back too soon, nullifying the Bargain.

Hence we can’t Second-Guess our Instinctual Speech, lest we kill the Golden Goose – and diminish our own Life Force.  Notice that there are two other Fingers of God (meaning Pay Attention!) in the chart.  One points to Juno – Growth in Consciousness, and the other to Aletheia-Pallas – Let Go of Boundaries Against Your Own Truth.  Truth is in the Heart, not in the Mind or “Facts,” and everyone’s Heart is Different.  If we wish to Grow and Survive we can no more Squelch our own Truth than we can Disallow the Truth of Another.

Cuspal Angles and Configurations hide a secondary Challenge.  Angles and Configurations are Full of Grace when they connect planets that share the same Element – Fire, Earth, Air, Water.  Fire Signs are four Signs apart, for instance, so an Angle connecting two planets four Signs apart is Graceful because the planets share the Element, such as Fire or Water.  Which is to say that they understand one another’s Motivations and Methods, and so Communicate easily.

But when our two planets are on Cusps, they can be Harmoniously Related by Angle, but be in Signs of Different Elements.  Conjunction indicates Merging, so Eurydike/Trust, Ixion/Genius, Quaoar/Survival, and Pholus/Responsibility are Merged here.  They are virtually indistinguishable.  We can attribute our Attention to Global Warming, for instance, to the long span of the Quaoar-Pholus Conjunction (they move slowly, so stay Merged for a long while), especially while they’re in Capricorn (Meaning Just Fix It).

Anyone who Trusts their own Genius (Eurydike-Ixion) will be Paying a lot of Attention to Responding to Threats to the Earth’s Survival (Quaoar-Pholus).  Or Paying a lot of Attention to Responding to Threats to their own Survival on the scale to which they’ve grown accustomed.  One group operates from the General Premise that We Are All One, the other group from the Premise that it’s Us-Against-Them and the ends justify the means because We are Better Than Them.  Since the Trust of Genius and the Threat to Survival are Merged, neither group is open to Debate.

The Disconnect here is that Quaoar and Pholus are in Earth Sign Capricorn (Just Fix It), while Eurydike and Ixion are still in Fire Sign Sagittarius (Just Burn It Off).  So while our Drive is to Ground our Responsiveness to our Survival Instincts and make it Tangible, our Genius is still Burning Off the Chains that have kept it locked in a Trance since Forever.  A Surrogate for that Trance might be our Belief that tomorrow will resemble yesterday.  California, British Columbia, and Scandinavia are doing a Credible job of literally Burning Off that Trance!  Remember that Cold is the Absence of Heat, so Freezing it Off is just the other side of the Coin.

Ixion won’t make its Grand Entrance into Capricorn till December 2020, just as the Digital Age Begins in Earnest.  Ixion sticks a toe into the first Degree of Capricorn earlier, and dangles another into the last Degree of Sagittarius later, but its Primary Entrance is in December 2020.  The Digital Age is Heralded by two centuries of Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions in Air (Mind) Signs.  Jupiter (Expansion) and Saturn (Focus) are the two primary Social planets.  Among other things, they impact the Economies of the World.

We just finished two centuries of Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions in Earth Signs, while the Industrial Era Manifested things in hardcopy.  The old joke about Aquarius is that its favorite haunt is the Pub, where it loves to Design new Social Orders.  Aquarius is more than that, but it’s a fitting snapshot for Fixed Air.  It’s hard to imagine Fixed Water (Ice?), but Fixed Air is even harder.  Think Rules, Ideologies, Fixed Ideas.  While the Age of Aquarius is hailed for “Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding,” will it all be Conditional on Following the Rules?  Perish the thought.

In Capricorn, Ixion is unlikely to become a lot less Forbidden.  It’s more likely that folks will Divide up into Secret Societies.  If so, at least we won’t need to Bear this Demon Alone any more, assuming we can find our own.  As a friend used to say, “There are eleven million people in New York City – if you’re one in a million there are eleven other people here just like you.”  We will Recognize the Vibes; the only thing that will keep us Alone is our Shame.  The ‘Rumps and the Anti-‘Rumps could be just the warmup – the only thing missing is the Secrecy.

 

Boundaries III

February 11, 2019

A we mentioned in Boundaries, “Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.”  We’ve been writing about Libra and Pallas for several days without realizing till now that Other and Boundary are really the same concept or word, just seen from different Perspectives.  Without a Boundary there wouldn’t be an Other, and without Other we’d never have the notion of Boundary.  It’s all about Identity, which is a lot more Fluid than we usually think.  And about Duality, which is a lot more Limiting than we usually think.

We Hupers usually think of the Veil between us and the Other Side as more of a Limitation than a Boundary, but Boundary it is, and the Other Side is as much an element of Libra as your paramour.

“He was not wakened again by Alder, but he had a bad dream of his own.

“He was standing by a wall of stone near the top of a long hillside of dry grey grass that ran down from dimness into the dark.  He knew he had been there before, had stood there before, but he did not know when, or what place it was.  Someone was standing on the other side of the wall, the downhill side, not far away.  He could not see the face, only that it was a tall man, cloaked.  He knew that he knew him.  The man spoke to him, using his true name.  He said, ‘You will soon be here, Ged.’

“Cold to the bone, he sat up, staring to see the space of the house about him, to draw its reality about him like a blanket.  He looked out the window at the stars.  The cold came into his heart then.  They were not the stars of summer, beloved, familiar, the Cart, the Falcon, the Dancers, the Heart of the Swan.  They were the Other stars, the small, still stars of the dry land, that never rise or set.  He had known their names once, when he knew the names of things.

” ‘Avert!’ he said aloud and made the gesture to turn away misfortune that he had learned when he was ten years old.”  (Ursula Le Guin, The Other Wind, pp.12-13)

“We who have true names keep them when we die, it’s our use-name that is forgotten… This is a mystery to the learned, I can tell you, but as well as we understand it, a true name is a word in the True Speech. … When my master Aihal died, my wife was there with him; and as he was dying he said to her, ‘It is changed, all changed.‘  He was looking across that wall.  From which side I do not know.”  (ibid, p.45)

“Kalessin said: ‘Long ago we chose.  We chose freedom.  Men chose the yoke.  We chose fire and the wind.  They chose water and the earth.  We chose the west,  and they chose the east.’

“And Kalessin said: ‘But always among us some envy them their wealth, and always among them some envy us our liberty.  So it was that evil came into us and will come into us again, until we choose again, and forever, to be free.  Soon I am going beyond the west to fly on the Other Wind.  I will lead you there, or wait for you, if you will come.’ …

“Then Kalessin said, ‘Once we were one people.  And in sign of that, in every generation of men, one or two are born who are dragons also.  And in every generation of our people, longer than the quick lives of men, one of us is born who is also human.  Of these one is now living in the Inner Isles.  And there is one of them living there now who is a dragon.  These two are the messengers, the bringers of choice.  There will be no more such born to us or to them.  For the balance changes.’ ”  (Ibid, pp.167-68)

We can also compare our day-to-day Experience with that of Daphne Charters and her friends (Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.260-61)…

“This work, in which we all assist, is known as a transformation.  We seek and find a lost soul whose astral body, as well as the physical, has died, leaving no trace to normal Astral eyes.  However, because we cannot see a ‘dead’ person, owing to his faster rate of vibration, it does not follow that he has no body.  So it is with those whose vibrations have sunk through the years until only the Great Ones know where they lie.

“We find these people by their vibration, however slow and, although we are unable to see them when we reach them, we mark the spot and direct rays of power and love upon them until their vibrations are sufficiently raised for the bodies to become visible to us.  This is the first stage in the rehabilitation of ‘lost souls,’ as much power has to be directed to them over sometimes long periods before consciousness returns.

“In order to achieve even the first part of the transformation, it is necessary for many hundreds of people from the Astral to gather together.  By passing power through their bodies, it becomes sufficiently coarsened to be effective amidst very slow vibrating matter.  This is where Daphne is of use to us, for her physical body vibrates slower than those of us who live on the Astral, a higher plane, thus power which is passed through her coarsens the whole.

“Unless you are clairvoyant, you will not have seen a display of power so you cannot know the magnitude of the volume, or the intensity of light.  Fairies can naturally see this power for it is their life’s work to distribute it, but normally they know only the quantity which they can collectively produce in their own group.  Our own fairies, who always help us, are ever amused at the never-ending supply so we were interested to see how the delegates would be affected…”

“How different is the power which we witnessed today to that which is known by the same name on Earth.  Man ever seeks for power to overcome his neighbors, to add to his possessions, or to acquire authority over more people.  Today we were privileged to see the essence from which all these petty misnomers have their being.

“But this true-power, in its purity of purpose, performed a deed so wondrous that if men were told of it, they would not believe.  If only those who sought to misuse it understood the condition in which they will find themselves when their ridiculous, puffed-up physical bodies and accompanying personalities are no more, perhaps they would then use it to lift up instead of to crush, to comfort rather than exploit, and, in the happiness which they would at last know, they would find the key to a better world.”

So, I was Wondering about the Other planet in Libra, Makemake.  And it turns out that, at least for now, the Bottom Line of Makemake in Libra is that If we Want to Manifest What We Want, we have to Seek Out and Revert our Victim Postures.  Drawing up the Makemake chart for the moment when Juno enters Gemini – ie, when we are likely to be due for substantial Consciousness Expansion (8:30 pm PST 10 February)…

…Reveals two big Challenges (T-Squares)…

A Challenge to Manifestation itself (Makemake) between Making it a Value of ours to be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Venus-Pholus-Quaoar) and Choosing Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).

Fate is what happens To Us when we’re not Conscious of what’s going on.  It’s not about Why but rather about What.  What’s the Pattern?  When our Repeating Bummers happen, what Precedes them?  When “bad luck” befalls us, there’s a sequence of events that leads up to it.  We aren’t talking Cause & Effect – that’s a left-brain dead end.  Useful if you’re Stuck in the 3D Dynamic Masculine Creative process, but Obfuscating if you want to use 5D Magnetic Feminine Manifestation methods.

PIAVA that you become aware of What Precedes your Self-Sabotage.  If you already knew what it was you’d have fixed it long ago.  It’s behind your Blinders, and you won’t see it without enlisting the Cooperation of the Unconscious – that is, using PIAVA.  For instance, “Lord Ganesh, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Realizing How I Stumble into Self-Sabotage.”  Once you get Conscious about these Patterns, you can Choose otherwise.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

We’ve been working with Responding Fully (Pholus) to our Survival Instincts (Quaoar) – ie, Disallowing our Yes-Buts that try to Protect our Routines – for a long time.  We’re running out of Excuses.  It’s past time to Accept this as a basic Value.

The second Challenge is about Reframing the Beliefs Created by our Victim Postures (Vesta-OR10-Nessus) between Ego Death (Nemesis) and Sustainability (Ceres).

Like our Survival Instincts, we’ve also been working with our Abuse Memories for a long time now.  First we have to Retrieve them – or Allow them to Retrieve us (OR10), and Acknowledge their Reality.  Then we have to Empathize with our Real Victim, Revert any Blaming-the-Victim behavior we indulged or encountered, and Deal with our Real Emotions.  That usually takes a lot more than a few hundred Poor-Sweethearts, though they can be useful.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/.

People talk a lot about Forgiveness, but in a real sense what we need is the Opposite of Forgiveness, as our original Tolerance was a form of Forgiveness to begin with.  We don’t Forgive; we Discover that we’ve Forgiven.  It’s an Observation, not an Action.  As with Self-Sabotage, we need to Discover what Preceded our episodes of Abuse, so we can Learn to Recognize the Pattern before it turns Abusive, and Choose Otherwise.  While Sharing all this increases the Pain, it’s often very difficult to do alone.

Yes, just about every step in the process of Clearing Abuse – Recall, Acceptance, Self-Empathy, Embracing our Real, Explosive Emotions, Opening to the Patterns – requires an Ego Death (Nemesis).  Our Resistance to Ego Death must be Reframed, so we Recognize when it’s happening and Learn to Celebrate it as the fastest route to Living a Better Life.

And as we move through Abuse, we have to Recognize that we’re likely to be Abused in some ways every day.  Every “trivial” unkind remark, Intentional or otherwise, can make us Feel Less-Than.  So we have to get very good at Recognizing it, Owning and Healing our Reactions, and approaching Ego Death as we would a Latte, in order to make this whole process Sustainable (Ceres).

And Sustainability-Ceres is the kingpin of the whole chart, as it is the head of a Kite that connects the two T-Squares.  A Kite is a Grand Trine (three planets equally spaced around the Circle) with a fourth planet halfway between two of the three.  The fourth planet – Ceres – becomes the Focus of the substantial Dumb-Luck Blessings served up by the Grand Trine.

So we have a Golden Opportunity to bring these Challenges – Cleaning Up our Manifestations by Choosing to Support our Survival Instincts, and Rooting Out the Limiting Beliefs that our Abuse History has left us with – into Resolution, where they Serve our Deepest Desires rather than Sabotaging them.

The three corners of the Grand Trine, or Big Grace, are Manifestation (Makemake), Ego Death (Nemesis), and The End of Karma (asteroids Atropos and Karma).  We’ve actually been working on the Death of Karma for a lot longer than we’ve been working on Abuse Memories or Responding to Survival Instincts.  The Realization in the Western World that Karma is about Inertia rather than Retribution has been with us since Alan Watts’s books in the 1950s.

A corollary is that Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  Like our Other Challenges, Letting Go of Our Karma involves Noticing when it’s recurring, Reverting our Belief that it’s Inevitable, Discovering the Patterns that led up to it, Noticing when those Patterns Begin the next time, and Choosing an Alternative.  The Death of Karma is a Given in this Drama; it’s not something we’re being Scheduled to work on, it’s something that we can use as a model for the Abuse and Survival Issues we are working on.

Dragon, of course, is a synonym for Karma, and as we saw, Dragons have gone to fly on the Other Wind.

Boundaries II

February 9, 2019

Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian friends nail the Bottom Line of Boundaries today…

https://danielscranton.com/awakening-your-hearts-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“We are excited to see what will become of this time that you are in because we can see so many potential timelines opening up for you, and the ones that are opening up are going to lead you to a much more satisfying life experience there on planet Earth.  We are noticing that humanity continues to awaken, and that your awakening has gone beyond the mind.

“You are awakening within your hearts, and when your hearts awaken you recognize that this life experience really is all about the love that you feel.  Once you move beyond the mind, which is the tool of the ego, you move beyond merely seeking to survive for as long as you can in as much physical comfort and pleasure as you can derive from your life experience.

“You are awakening to the truth that when you feel love, you are at peace.  And you are not just at peace in that moment.  You are at peace with whatever happens in your future and in the future of the human collective.  The reason you find peace within yourselves is because you know that nothing can get in between you and your ability to love.

“When you awaken at the level of your heart, you also come to know yourselves as Source Energy Beings, and as Source Energy Beings, you are of course, love incarnate.  And therefore, nothing can harm you.  If you see yourselves as physical beings who need to survive and protect yourselves, then of course, there will always be someone out there who can do you or someone you love harm.  But once you embrace the truth that you are beings of love, and that the love you are is eternal and infinite, then you know you have nothing to fear and nothing to protect.

“All you have then is the expansion of that love, which includes everyone and everything.  That is what true alignment with Source is, and that is what your hearts will always guide you towards.”

Just where is this Arcturus anyway, whose Counsel is so often in tune with the planets as seen from Earth?  It’s at 25 Libra.  Bernadette says that Arcturus “embodies the symbolism of guarding, learning, teaching, leading – leading and protecting people as they embrace a new life style” (Bernadette Brady, Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars, p.78).  Another interesting “coincidence.”  The Sabian Symbol (reading for an individual Degree) for 25 Libra is “The sight of an autumn leaf brings to a pilgrim the sudden revelation of the mystery of life and death.”  That echoes Dan’s Channeling.

25 Libra sounds familiar…  Oh, dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth) is at 27 Libra.  Asteroid Aletheia (Truth) sits at 28 Libra.  And the upcoming 18 February Station of Pallas – Boundaries – is at 30 Libra, and it’s turning Retrograde.

Haumea crossed Arcturus in December 2016, February and October 2017, April and September 2018, Stationed Retrograde near it on 24 January 2019, and will Station Direct near it again in July 2019.

The January Retrograde Station of Haumea, at 27 Libra, somehow got left off of my calendar, so we didn’t write about it in January, when we were busy with Self-Judgment and Self-Love.  Here’s what we did write (in Self-Judgment and Self-Love VIII)…

“Haumea Initiated Pallas at 9:30 am PST.  This almost-five-year Cycle is about Resetting all of our Boundaries.  There’s an obvious Connection to our Self-Sovereignty, as our Boundaries are what Separates Me from Not-Me.  Expanding our Consciousness is usually about Growing Me into Not-Me, but Rooting Not-Me out of Me can be more essential.  There’s no way we can Pursue What We Want if we can’t tell What Our Puppet-Masters Want from What We Want.

“Our Mission isn’t even something we Recognize till we Banish Who We Should Be and Claim Ownership of Who We Are.  This Cycle Begins in 27 Libra, ‘An airplane sails, high in the clear sky.’  Our only tether would be Fossil Fuel.  The implication is that we may want to Let Go of the Old Order and make our own Homestead.  Not necessarily as a hardcopy Farm, but as an Independent Agency, where we Depend as little as possible on the Fossil Culture that’s so obviously in serious Decline.”

Pallas crossed Arcturus on 12 January, and will again 24 March and 10 August 2019.

Aletheia crossed Arcturus 20 January, and will again on 30 March and 29 July 2019.

With Haumea Stationary when it Initiated Pallas, this means that all of our Boundaries have been Profoundly Altered.  I’ve Noticed some of the Changes in my Life, and they seem Big.  Have you Noticed any Boundary Shifts in your own Life yet?  Or in your Fellow Travelers’ Lives?  We can Expect these Changes to continue to ramify in our Lives through August.

25 Libra is the Beginning of the Leo Duad (2½ Degrees) of Libra, the time when we’ve thoroughly vetted Other, and Decided that we have the Right to Approach them as an Equal.  So the Arcturians should be Highly Qualified on the subjects of Love and Self-Love as seen from Earth.  (At this stage Other hasn’t Rejected us or set Conditions yet – that would be the Virgo Duad of Libra, where our resulting Ego Deaths would set the stage for the intense Searching and Fearless Inventory of Self and Other that we encounter in Scorpio.)

Boundaries

February 9, 2019

Boundaries were prominent during the Sedna Station, as the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia (Boundaries-Rebirth-Truth) Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) Squared the Nodes – which means that it is Important to our Life Path, and Opposed Uranus-Mars-Eris (Soul-Action-Revelation) – implying that we’d be Learning enough about what we’ve been Denying that we’d be Feeling Reborn with Boundaries that are less Defensive of the Ego, and more Welcoming to the Soul.

That Specific Ambient Energy has moved on now that the Sedna Station is Complete, but once we stopped Screaming and started Noticing what was happening, we probably Learned enough from its Passing, that as we move away from it we’ll be Noticing that our Resistance to Self-Love has Softened.

What hasn’t “gone away” is the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia Stellium, as our next serious astroevent is an 18 February (9am PST) Pallas Station in the last Degree of Libra.  So whatever it was that we Learned, and whatever Introduced itself uninvited, around Boundaries during the Sedna Station and the Juno-Sedna Conjunction that preceded it, we’ll be Developing and Extending it for the next ten days.

Pallas is turning Retrograde, so it won’t move into Scorpio till the end of August, and it backs up over the last twenty Degrees of Libra.  It takes about four years for Pallas to run the Zodiac once, so divide your age by four and you’ll know how many times you’ve Iterated your Experience with Boundaries on the Spiral of Growth that is your current Lifetime.

Every four years when Pallas moves into Libra, we first Meet Other Anew, and after two years in the Personal half of the Zodiac, I’m sure it’s always a Shock.  In the second ten Degrees of Libra, we’re reinventing our Boundaries with Groups of Other, and in the third we get Confused about where we End and Other Begins – we’ve been here in this Confusion of Boundaries since New Years, and we’ll be here through early April.

Confusion of course is the first stage of Growth, so it’s a Positive thing if we can drop our Resistance to it.  We’re basically Debriefing what we’ve Learned about Other in this four-year Pallas Zodiacaloop, so we can be ready for Pallas in Scorpio, where we Deeply Fathom what this whole Me-Other business is all about.  We could be moving out of Codependence, or moving into Unity, and most likely Both, in different arenas of our Lives.  Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.

Stationing as it is on a Cusp, Pallas joins several other planets Dancing on Cusps.  Juno Enters Gemini on 10 February (8:30 pm PST), Eurydike Enters Capricorn on 13 February (am PST), and Chiron finally Re-Enters Aries on 18 February (1am PST).

Juno barely dipped her toe into Gemini during October (she never got beyond the first Degree), but now she Dances all the way across it, until mid-April.  Juno in Taurus (since last July) has probably made Growth in Consciousness slower and stickier; in Gemini we’re likely to be Experimenting with all manner of Weird Notions, as we eagerly Explore the Edges of our Limitations.  We’ll be Growing by leaps and bounds, though we may not know it, because it will all Feel so Strange at first.

Juno will Dance with asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) in mid-March, cross dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) in early April, and chase Sappho (Self-Love), catching up in early June.  Chaos Initiating Juno should be Life-Changing.

Kegels 7

February 8, 2019

It’ll probably help to redraw the Sedna Station chart to emphasize the Grand Cross and Kites – even I had trouble following the lines in the Kegels 4 chart, and I drew it…

This chart makes the Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas Rebirth-Truth-Boundaries Finger of God stand out, and reveals that the Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas T-Square is really a Diamond Star, or Self-Resolving Challenge.  A Diamond Star happens when a T-Square and a Finger of God both point to the same place, because the base of the Finger of God (Sedna et al and Chiron) weaves a Nest of Grace (blue lines) under the T-Square, automatically Resolving the Challenge in it.

We can also see that the North Node corner of the Grand Cross (red box) is also a Diamond Star, with Klotho-Mercury (New Insights) and Ixion-Eurydike (Trusting our Forbidden Genius) forming the base of the North-Node Yod.  So we’re likely to gain Wisdom, or at least Information, about our Mission.

This chart also makes it more obvious that any time we find two interlocking Kites, only one corner of a Grand Sextile is missing.  The Vacancy in this Almost-Grand Sextile is 27 Leo, “The Luminescence of Dawn in the Eastern Sky.”  That’s Encouraging, suggesting that we’re getting close to Letting Go of the Darkness remaining in our 3D Worlds.

However, we need to Celebrate that this Energy has passed the Earth and is now following ‘Oumuamua back to Beetlegeese.  We don’t say this often enough, but in the short term, the Energy of planetary Stations and Angles generally increases up till the moment that the event is Exact, and then falls off rapidly.  However, and its a big However, we often Grasp the Energy and don’t Let Go of it.  That’s great when it’s a Positive and Productive Energy, it’s not so great when it’s a Bummer of one kind or another.

Generally, our Experience of a Sedna Station is likely to be closer to Bummer than Positive, unless and until we Harvest the Energy and Convert it from Fear to Power.  I mean, can you honestly say, yet, that you Love the Experience of Fear and Treasure it above all?  Eventually you will, but I’m guessing most of us are still Learning.

So, now that Sedna is happily on its way, it’s very Important to Review what’s going on for us.  Are we Worrying about anything?  Anxious about anything?  Scared about anything?  Those would be typical Sedna hangovers, and there’s a high probability that they’re Fake News.  Let It Go.  Tap It Out.  Shake It Off…

PIAVA What You Want instead.

Of course we all React and Respond Differently to events, but the next while should be a lot easier than the last while, as our next likely Difficult astroevents won’t be felt till mid-April.

Kegels 6

February 7, 2019

As we mentioned early on, the Sedna Station chart also includes a Grand Cross – the globe-spanning box with the “+” inside, drawn in thin red lines.  A Grand Cross represents a coordinated set of Hassles, which complement one another, each Hassle being at least a Distraction from, if not a partial Resolution of, the next Hassle.  Grand Crosses often indicate Success because they result in Skill at Multi-Tasking, and if they’re joined by many blue (Grace) lines, as this one is, it’s a particularly Positive sign.

A Grand Cross is composed of two Oppositions three Signs apart, making, you guessed it, a Cross, or at least a Plus Sign.  One of the Oppositions in this Grand Cross is between the Nodes, which indicate our Lifetime Path.  The South Node, which looks like a stethoscope without the tail, is where we came from (ie, Past Lives, but those are just Mirrors for our Karma and Held Emotions).  The headphones-shaped North Node represents our Mission, or Where We’re Going.

Anything Squaring the Nodes, as the second Opposition does, is an important indicator of how we can Break Through blocks on our South-to-North Node Path.  The second Opposition here joins (or separates) two Stelliums (which are groups of three or more planets) –

  • Uranus-Mars-Eris (Soul-Action-Revelation) is Big, as anything involving the Soul always is.  The Mythological Mars and Eris were siblings.  In Ego astrology, Mars stands for Violence, and Eris for Discord.  Mars was the God of War, and it was Eris who threw a Golden Apple labeled “To the Fairest of Them All” into a banquet of the Big-Name Goddesses, leading to all manner of Competition and Jealousy among them.

The Greeks never bothered to notice out loud in their Stories that if these Ladies just Recognized their Vanity and had a good laugh about it, the incident would have faded into HerStory in a short while.  Greek Mythology prototyped the Patriarchy, so of course female Vanity was Storied as an antithesis to Peace, while Male Vanity was Rewarded with Power, Respect, and License to Rape at will.

This is a second Gender-Balance Issue in the Sedna-Station chart, after the Medusa-Perseus theme introduced by the Fixed Star Algol, which stands behind the Station.  In Ego astrology, Uranus represents Disruption, because as the Soul it Disrupts any Ego Investments that impede the Soul’s Evolution.  So to the Ego, we have here Disruption, War, and Discord.  Know anybody who’s Acting that Out?

To Growth astrology, we have Soul-Action-Revelation, or a time to gain Insight on what we’ve been Denying, and Act to Support our Soul rather than our Ego…

…if we’re capable of it of course.  Is there any sense in which you’re Acting this Out?  I’ll wager there is, and it might be Self-Loving for you to Identify it and Acknowledge yourself for it.  The whole Sedna-Juno theme after all is Opening to the Edges of Consciousness.  Nobody Lives in Fear more than the Ego.

  • The other Stellium is Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas, Rebirth-Truth-Boundaries.  Pallas is already the counterpart to Mars, as she, Pallas Athena, was the Goddess of War, but also the Goddess of Wisdom.  So you have Mars shooting first and Asking Questions later, and Pallas Asking Questions first, and Shooting only as a Last Resort.  Hence, we interpret Pallas as Boundaries.

So this Stellium is about being Reborn into Truth about our Boundaries, meaning that our Conflicts are revealed as Failures of our Ability to set Effective Boundaries.  For those to whom the only Effective Boundary is a Wall, Rebirth into Truth can be a serious assault on the Ego.  We can repeat part of the passage from John Matthews’s The Sidhe: Wisdom from the Celtic Otherworld (pp.49-51) that we quoted earlier this month in the Manifesting in 3D and 5D II post…

” ‘If the spirit within you can speak to the spirit within another, then you can create a link that enables you to combine the two within one.  In this way you can bring about changes that are very subtle.  You could, for example, change your form by establishing a link with a creature.

” ‘So long as it was willing to sustain the exchange between you, you would become the creature and the creature would, in a certain sense, become you.  It is a matter of overcoming otherness.  The identity which we all possess, Sidhe, animal, humankind, is only a matter of outer form. 

” ‘The reality of Spirit is much deeper and more constant, since it does not require form of itself.  This is the importance of reestablishing contact between yourselves and the spirit within everything.  Once you have reconnected your own scattered selves, this should be a natural outcome.‘ “

In this view of the World, our Goal is the Recognition of the foundational Spiritual Truth that We Are All One.  So this second Opposition is very clearly a Contest between Ego and Soul, and between Competitive 3D and Cooperative 5D Manifestation.  Which one will most Support our Mission and further our Evolution?  Which are we Choosing?

Don’t be Embarrassed about either – if we can Identify an arena in our Life where we’re Choosing the 3D-Ego Approach, and Shift it toward 5D-Spirit, that would be a great Boon for our Life, a far greater Boon than Feeling Smug about our 5Dness.  It’s probably there – see if you can Stretch your Consciousness and Find it.

As for those blue Grace lines we mentioned, Uranus-Mars-Eris is the head of a Kite – a Grand Trine (three planets evenly spaced around the Zodiac) with a fourth planet halfway between two of them.  It means Grace, Directed toward the top of the Kite, helping us move to 5D’s Acting to Support the Soul through Revelation of what we’ve been Denying, instead of 3D’s Egoic Struggle to Avoid Discord and Disruption.

In this case, though, the short blue (Sextile – 2 Signs) bar across the top of the Kite creates a Finger of God (Pay Attention!) pointing at the tail of the Kite – Rebirth-Truth-Boundaries, affirming that this end of the Kite is not to be Ignored either!  The base of the Finger of God is made up of Sedna itself and Chiron, the two runaway Stars of the whole chart, further Emphasizing the notions of Unity, soft Boundaries, and Inclusiveness.

There’s a second Kite formed, pointing at Ixion-Eurydike (Trusting our Forbidden Genius), and this one has a Finger of God pointing right at the Top, making this Trust even more Important.  The base of the Finger of God is the Sextile between the North Node (Mission) and Sedna et al (Becoming Conscious of our Unconscious Fears and Learning to Choose the Endings of their Timelines).  In other words, Trusting our Forbidden Genius will not only bring our Fears into Consciousness, it will Allow us to Extinguish them!

In https://roseandcactusquartz.com/2019/01/09/no-more-cherry-picking/, katie suggests…

“Yes, self love is so many different things and all of the things I have mentioned.  It also extends so much deeper because for me it is also about loving and accepting your authentic self a.k.a your intuition and not being afraid to follow it/completely surrender to it.  Your intuition is a gift because it hasn’t been touched by any of the conditioning.  This can also make it scary because since it hasn’t been touched by any of the conditioning, it’s unlike anything you are used to.

“We all have wonderful intuitive gifts at the core.  They may not look like anyone else’s and they aren’t meant to.  Self love includes loving and honoring all aspects of yourself whether it is third dimensional e.g. your body or beyond e.g. your intuition.  I’m sure I couldn’t have read this in an article somewhere if I just looked up what self love meant but there is such a huge difference between reading about it, hearing your friends talk about it and living it.”

Kegels 5

February 7, 2019

I see that more folks than usual are up late looking for answers.  At the risk of sounding oversimple, it probably wouldn’t hurt to review the equations in Einstein’s famous Theory of Relativity…

  • Fear + Courage = Perspective
  • Fear + Breathing = Excitement
  • Fear + Tapping = Grounding
  • Fear + Kegels = Power
  • Anxiety + Poor-Sweethearting = Detachment

I often write late at night, and I used to live in a basement apartment.  While writing I would sometimes feel the hairs on the back of my neck rising, as if someone was just outside my curtained windows looking for an opening.  One night I gathered up my courage and flung open the door – to find a Glorious Full Moon staring at me from the Darkness!

Another time I lived in a creaky old house, and I was alone in the house, in my bedroom with the door shut, when a series of creaks and groans sounded for all the world like someone sneaking up to my door.  Again I flung open the door – and found myself staring at a wardrobe mirror leaning against the wall in the hall, just outside my door.  Now that was scary!  “We have found the Enemy…” as Pogo used to say.

Fear + Breathing is an old equation, which I’ve heard from many reliable sources, and which works well.  Dr. Kim has dozens of excellent variations at…

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=dr+kim+d%27eramo+anxiety

Many of the videos that are less than two minutes long are pitches for her longer sessions, but most of the longer ones share Powerful Mind-Body techniques, like this one…

Dr. Kim includes Tapping in many of these videos.  One of the first things we do in serious Fear is Leave Our Body.  Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) can bring us back in.  In some sense, Leaving our Body is an effective strategy – if someone is about to kill us, we’re already gone, so there isn’t much else they can do to hurt us.  But it may help create a lousy next Lifetime, if we re-enter as a Terrified, Implacable Child.  We have more tools at our disposal when we stay in our Body, or get back In.

I’ve mentioned my Kegels story before, so humor me while I repeat it.  I Learned about Fear and Kegels in a workshop with Jack Schwarz (http://holisticu.org/).  Quite innocently, I went to see the movie Aliens after the workshop.  If you haven’t seen it, the Fear level goes off the charts after a few minutes, and never comes back down till a few minutes before the end of the movie.  Having just Learned it, I was doing Kegels like mad all through the movie – two hours of solid Kegeling!

Jack taught that Kegels Slow Down Time.  If Fear is coming at you at 2mph, it’s a lot easier to handle than at 60mph.  Between the movie theater and where I lived was a mile-long bridge, and after the movie it took me absolutely Forever to cross that bridge!  In that mile I looked at my speedometer maybe ten times, and it kept saying 40mph, but the bridge wouldn’t go away.  It was like being in the Twilight Zone.  I’ve never heard anyone mention Kegels in connection with sports, but I now understand how someone can hit an 80mph curveball.  Sports often refers to it as being “In the Zone.”

And once we’ve determined that our Fear or Agitation is not Present-Moment, or that we aren’t in Imminent Danger, we can say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxious, aren’t you.”  Or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Worried about that deadline, aren’t you.”  As Quilless testified in her Comment to Kegels 4, she “experienced notable Shifts” when she Poor-Sweethearted herself.  It’s a remarkably simple and Powerful technique.

We don’t Leave our Body when we Poor-Sweetheart, but we certainly Leave our Ego, or rather, switch Horses to a different Ego.  It’s basically a Shift into Self-Love.  It’s particularly effective with Anxiety and Worry, because those are markers for being Out Of Self-Love and Questioning our own Competence.  Every Experience is an Opportunity to Learn something Life-Changing.  What if we started every morning with “I Wonder What Wonderful Life-Changing Things I’ll Learn Today.”

One thing I Learned today is that I can afford to be even more Assertive about shunting my Shoulds to the side to make more room for my Wannas.  I tried to work on a big project that’s due next week, and got nowhere, wasting several unproductive hours in the process.  Even when I Noticed how much more Anxiety was involved in having to do everything myself, and PIAVAed help from the Great Spirit and Her Designees, I got nowhere!  So I got the message, Gave It Over, and dove Joyfully into my Wannas.

Considering that Sedna (Fear/Power) is Stationary (Strong) within an eighth of a Degree of the Fixed Star Algol (the Eye of Medusa), we need to review the status of Gender Balance in the World this week.  I think this sums it up fairly well…

…with Speaker Pelosi giving the Antichrist a Celebratory Stinkeye for soundbiting compromise while offering none.  Not exactly a Perseus Moment for the Alpha.

Kegels 4

February 5, 2019

We haven’t left that Neptune New Moon chart, since the New and Full Moons impact the weeks following more than the weeks preceding.  But we have dropped, rather unceremoniously, into the unadulterated Sedna Station.  Sedna is about Learning to convert Fear into Power.  We’ve been practicing this for a while, so it may feel like we just aren’t so scared any more.  But what is it you are Feeling?  Maybe having a hard time staying awake, like me?  Emotions, especially our Held Emotions, are tricky.  They can hide behind Other Appearances.  Maybe it’s just your Implant tingling.

Here’s Dan Scranton’s Channeling for today, for example…

https://danielscranton.com/the-e-t-s-are-evolving-with-you-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“We have begun to investigate the different agendas that exist in the current moment amongst the extra-terrestrials who are keeping a close eye on humanity.  We know that most of you are aware that there are well-intentioned e.t.s and there are malevolent ones, and we also want you to recognize that as you evolve, so do they.

“They are not the same e.t.s that they once were, no matter whom we are referring to with that statement.  Therefore, it is time for humanity to start looking at your own fears and prejudices when it comes to your brothers and sisters from other parts of the galaxy.  You will need to come to terms with experiences that you have had in this lifetime and in past lives as you awaken those memories.

“The memories we are referring to here are the ones involving e.t.s who have either knowingly done you harm or unintentionally have created trauma within you.  Remember of course that everything is happening by co-creation and that you would only create an experience that would trigger fear within you because you needed to have that experience.

“So it is time for letting go, and it is time for tuning in to those emotions that come up when you consider being abducted, experimented on, or invaded by extra-terrestrial races.  All of these things have happened at some point in your history as a being who has incarnated all across the galaxy.  It’s time to make peace with that, and it’s time to consider that others can evolve, just like you.

“Now you are still going to need to use your discernment, but that discernment needs to come from your feelings and not from the facts that you have compiled.  So prepare yourselves for much more contact, and do it now, before the ships start landing and you have to face those fears all at once.  This method that we are proposing is going to make everything easier on you as you shift and ascend.”

This second example is an advertisement, and I’m not specifically endorsing Restore™ (though I do use it), but the text is a very concise description of the real threat that Glyphosate poses to our health, and what we can do about it.  It’s easy to associate Glyphosate (RoundUp) with GMO foods, but it’s less known that Glyphosate is used almost universally on non-GMO Grains and Sugars…

http://blog.restore4life.com/cancer-and-the-truth-about-pesticides/

And what have you been reading lately about Global Warming?  I often catch myself thinking, “You guys better get your act together.  I’m too old to be around for most of the carnage, but many of you aren’t!”  And then I think about my next Lifetime and where and when that might be.  And really, how many other Parallel Lifetimes is my Soul Living right now, and what are my age and circumstances in those?

When you read about the impacts of Global Warming that are already happening around the World, are you like me more readily Empathic with some folks and circumstances than with others?  That’s probably an excellent clue about where your Other Personas might be hanging out.  For instance, some of those Tropical Beaches have my name on them.  You can read it in the Sand when you kick the plastic aside.

https://www.permaculture.co.uk/news/extinction-rebellion-rebellion-day-london

A logical place to start discussing the Sedna Station is its Conjunction (Merger) with asteroids Lachesis (Conscious Choice of Timelines) and Juno (the Growing Edge of Consciousness) and its Waning Square (Challenge to Let Go) from Klotho-Mercury (Awareness that we need to Start Over).  Or the Grand Cross to the Nodes (Threats to our Survival and Mission) – that’s the biggest Zodiac-Spanning Configuration.  So let’s come back to those later, and start with the Chiron T-Square…

The Chiron T-Square (red triangle) and its many emoluments (blue and green lines) are drawn in heavy lines.  The basic Challenge is pretty Profound – Accepting our Unlimited Positive Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) by Trusting that our Forbidden Genius (Eurydike-Ixion) will know how to Transcend Despair and find Miracles (Chiron).

The primary Gift to make this Challenge Easier is the Truss Bridge (Double Trine Bridge, blue lines) formed by Mercury-Klotho (Acknowledging that we’re at a Cultural Dead End and we need to Begin Anew) and Uranus-Mars-Eris (Listening to the Soul’s Assertive Calls to Action around What We’ve been Denying).  If it’s been increasingly Difficult to keep your Forbidden Genius in the closet lately, this may be why.  You don’t understand the Relationship between your Forbidden Genius and your Mission, but your Genius does.

You’ll notice too that the T-Square is holding a Parasol (Gift of Grace) – the small triangle of blue lines that also point to Chiron, from the South Node (Held Emotions) and Stationary Sedna itself, with its companions Lachesis and Juno (Becoming Aware of our Unconscious Fears and Choosing Alternatives).  Our Held Emotions are going to be the most serious of our Unconscious Fears, almost by definition.  If we’re Feeling Fatigued or vaguely Sour, we’re probably sitting on the tip of these Nightmare Icebergs.

While this is a great deal of Grace, it’s also Complex, and doesn’t specify a definite Path to Transcendence.  But the chart also says, Clearly, Pay Attention! – to the Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas Stellium (the Truth about the New Boundaries we’re being Reborn into) at the bottom of the chart.  The big green wedge that points to it is called a Finger of God, and it means Pay Attention!

At the base (upper, wider end) of the Finger of God are both Chiron and Sedna et al.  Have you been Learning that Karma is Dead, and that if you Choose not to Grasp it when it Threatens, it’ll get bored and go bother someone else?  Even if you’ve only been practicing that on minor Self-Sabotages, if you’ve seen any Success at all with it, or with Poor-Sweetheart, or with Tapping, or with PIAVA and its many corollaries, then you’ve Learned that whatever you’ve been most Hesitant to Approach, may just turn out to be No Big Deal.

Our Held Emotions are probably like that.  Sure, it was the shits when those Palefaces in the covered wagon shot up your whole family.  But guess what.  That was then, this is Now.  The chart Invites us to PIAVA that our Held Emotions be Exposed as the Paper Tigers that they are, mere Shadows.  All you need to Eliminate Shadows is to cast Light on them.  If you use Light from all sides now, from up and down, but still somehow – Wait, wrong song! – you can Eliminate Shadows completely.  That’s what the Unseen Therapist does.

We might try PIAVAs like…

“I Wonder if it’s Possible to just Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely Blow Away my Held Emotions, as if they Never Were.”

“Ganeshi My Love, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Effortlessly Letting Go of my Held Emotions Completely.”

Held Emotions, if you’re new to the concept, are those which you’d rather Die than Feel.  Your thoughts are “I’d rather Die than Experience that again.”  But, as our Poor-Sweethearts have so clearly Illustrated, our Identity is very Flexible.  So the real situation is “I’d rather Die than Experience that again.”  In other words, you’re Inviting an Ego Death, or Shift in your Identity.  When we Resist Ego Death, it gets hard.  But it’s the Resistance that makes it hard – there’s no reason why an Ego Death can’t be as easy as just Choosing a Different Approach, or changing your pants.

If you’re new here, you might want to look up…

Use the Category list on the right to look up any other term that’s not clear; if there isn’t a Category list on the right, find it on the home page at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/.

Even if you aren’t Feeling what you usually refer to as “Fear,” you can still use Kegels.  See what happens when you do.  Different people can have very different names for the same Emotions.  We all Experience the World Uniquely.

In the same way that Cold is the Absence of Heat, Fear is the Absence of Love – from that Perspective neither Cold nor Fear actually Exist; they’re just very low levels of Warmth and Love.  Fear is Cold and Hard; Love is Soft and Warm.  It’s good to remember that whenever there’s Discomfort in your Body – nothing Heals quite like Love.  Notice when you’re Hardening yourself against Pain or Discomfort, and Soften and Warm instead.

And while I’m not so sure about the Alligators, I otherwise wholeheartedly Agree with Dale…

https://dalegreenearts.gallery/2019/01/28/john-dor-prairie-home/

“I returned to this place and the place is the same but I am not.  And the thing I discovered is that we are what we love, not what we fear.  But here is the unique miracle of our existence.  Of all the creatures that have ever risen and fallen on this tiny round stone traveling through nothing – we are able to choose.  Imagine an alligator deciding one day to be a vegetarian.  It can’t happen.  Alligators don’t have the capacity to choose.

“But we do.  We can choose.  We can wake up every day and choose.  So what do we choose?  Some choose anger, some bitterness, some loneliness.  But some,  far too few, choose peace and happiness and love.  And every day we all have the same day, the same now, the same choice.  No matter what our outer circumstances, we can choose how we regulate the inner world where we live.  And today I choose here.  And I choose now.  And I choose love.”

Did you know that Antarctica is On Fire?

Confusion and Growth

February 4, 2019

The New Moon isn’t the Star of its own chart here.  Neptune is, as should be obvious from a glance at the chart…

Neptune is not only the focus of a Challenging T-Square (the red triangle), but also the apex of an Epiphanic Mjölnir (the big orange wedge).  The New Moon does provide an Easy Path (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) through any Difficulties that might arise.  What does this Easy Path look like?  As we suggested in the previous post, find it by Staying as True as you can to your uncontaminated Deepest Desires.

The orange Octiles and Trioctiles dominate the chart.  Nothing like the vibrant Grand Octile in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/01/18/self-judgment-and-self-love-iv/, but impressive nonetheless.  Octiles are about Adjustments, Trioctiles about Bringing Things Back into Balance.  We can use some of that.  A lot of it actually.

The Neptune Mjölnir combines two Trioctiles on a Square (Challenge, red line at the base) between Boundaries (Pallas) and the Life Force (Varuna) – there are places in our Life where we Resist certain kinds of Experience, and the Resistance eats away at our Life Force.  We Resist these Experiences because they Confuse us, and we’re very Vulnerable when we’re Confused.

Folks might try to tell you that this Vulnerability is exactly what will Heal, but you won’t Hear it.  But there’s a good chance that you’ll encounter Insights in the next few weeks that you will be able to Hear.  It’s likely that these Insights will have something to do with Self-Love (Sappho), and will help you shift your Identity from Defending your Masks to Supporting your Soul (Uranus).

The New Moon itself is Octile to Chiron (Despair/Miracles) and to Venus (Values), signifying that we’re due to be Adjusting our Values so they are more Invigorating (or even Thrilling) than Limiting.  If you get stuck, use your Poor-Sweethearts“You Poor Sweetheart, you won’t let yourself Enjoy what you Really Want, will you.”  You Believe you’re a Victim of this, that someone else is somehow the Perp.  But they aren’t, it’s you.

That’s Hard, because you can’t just Betray your own Values.  They’re there for good reasons.  Besides Letting other people Down you’d feel like you’ve Let yourself Down.  So what to do?  Well, you can Change the Subject after you Poor-Sweetheart yourself about Depriving yourself of Enjoyment.  Your mind can’t solve this or any other Neptune problem, and it’ll try damn hard to do it.  Sound familiar?

Poor-Sweethearting and then Changing the Subject is a Powerful Invitation for your Intuition to suggest Alternatives to what you’ve been doing all of your Life, Alternatives that your mind will never think of.  You may not even see them as related to your Resistance to Self-Love, till long after you’ve Opened Up to them.  If it’s hard to Change the Subject because your mind keeps returning to the “Problem,” go deeper.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you can’t Change the Subject, can you.”  Then Change the Subject.  The mind isn’t easy to outsmart, but Patient Persistence helps.

Manifesting in 3D and 5D II

February 3, 2019

This conversation between John Matthews and his Sidhe guest is an excellent summary of 5D Manifestation…

” ‘Everything has Spirit.  You have Spirit.  Stones have Spirit.  The very air has Spirit.  Thus, if the spirit within you can speak to the spirit within another, then you can create a link that enables you to combine the two within one.  In this way you can bring about changes that are very subtle.  You could, for example, change your form by establishing a link with a creature.

” ‘So long as it was willing to sustain the exchange between you, you would become the creature and the creature would, in a certain sense, become you.  It is a matter of overcoming otherness.  The identity which we all possess, Sidhe, animal, humankind, is only a matter of outer form. 

” ‘The reality of Spirit is much deeper and more constant, since it does not require form of itself.  This is the importance of reestablishing contact between yourselves and the spirit within everything.  Once you have reconnected your own scattered selves, this should be a natural outcome.

“So you are saying that what we call ‘magic’ is the manipulation of spirit?

” ‘Not manipulation.  We are all part of a process that has no end – though I understand that this may be a difficult concept for your kind, who see yourselves as finite beings.  Part of the process is to establish the deepest possible link between all things, all aspects of life.

” ‘When this occurs, it occurs naturally, and the cooperation between each aspect of Spirit is such that there is no manipulation involved.  You might wish to raise a heavy object such as a stone.  To do so you need the agreement of the stone and the fellowship of the stone with your own spirit.  Together, in harmony, the stone may then be moved. 

” ‘In this sense all things that are incarnate are part of the whole – many among your kind have already recognized this, but have been unable to move to the next stage.  Once the understanding of this relationship is truly in place, you must be ready to move forward by applying the knowledge to your lives.’

“How can we do that?

” ‘I am aware that this is a difficult thing for you to grasp.  Try to think of everything around you as sharing in a larger state of being that is all inclusive.  This does not mean that you have no individual reality, any more than it means that for us. 

” ‘Simply, it gives us both access to a level of reality that is different from the one you experience daily.  One of your wise men once said that all form was illusion and in some way he was right.  The outer shape assumed by all beings at the moment of incarnation is far more subtle than is generally understood by your race.’ “

–John Matthews, The Sidhe: Wisdom from the Celtic Otherworld, pp.49-51.

So, if we’re thinking about Manifestation, we have to ask, Where is dwarf planet Makemake in all this?  Well, it stuttered a bit between Virgo and Libra in 2013 and 2014, before moving into Libra “for good” (ie, for about thirty years) in mid-2015.  The Aries-Virgo half of the Zodiac is about Being.  The Libra-Pisces half is about Relationship.  Makemake is now at 6 Degrees of Libra, so it’s already moved through the Libra and Scorpio Duads (two-and-a-half Degrees) and is in the Sagittarius Duad.

The Libra Duad of Libra (first 2½ Degrees) is about Relating to Relationship, or Discovering the Existence of Other as Distinct from Self.  The Scorpio Duad (second 2½ Degrees) is about Relating to the Truth of Other rather than the Exterior Form.  The Sagittarius Duad (5 to 7½ Degrees) concerns Letting Go of our Preconceptions and Expectations so we can move more deeply into Relating to the Spirit of Other.  Is this relevant to the Now?

Yes…

Tomorrow’s New Moon features an Almost-Grand Quintile – four of five planets that would be more or less evenly spaced around the Zodiacal Loop.  The Quintile is about Learning and Teaching, and a Grand Quintile indicates unusually good Opportunities for Learning.  When a Zodiac-spanning Configuration is Almost, lacking one corner, we have the Opportunity to harvest the Boon of the complete Configuration by Consciously Adding the Energy of the Vacancy.

In this case that’s 13 Taurus, “A porter carrying heavy baggage.”  That would be the 3D part.  Yes, we certainly need to deal with Heavy Baggage – our Karmic Held Emotions – to the extent that we haven’t already.  Otherwise, as John’s Sidhe friend pointed out, it’s not going to be about Heavy Lifting any more.

The four extant corners of the Almost-Grand-Quintile are the North Node (our Lifetime Mission), Makemake (Manifestation), Jupiter (Expansion), and our recent (1 February) Sign-Changer Vesta (Beliefs).  So the Heavy Baggage we’ll be Confronting is our Emotional Beliefs – kind of an aggressive introduction to Vesta in Pisces.  Vesta asks, Who Do You Worship?  Who do you most Respect?  Who provides your Bottom-Line Guidance?  Do you ever have any Doubt?

You can see the connection to the New Moon in the chart – the New Moon (Celebrating New Energy) makes a Trine Bridge (Easy Path) across the Jupiter-Sappho/Asbolus Opposition (Expanding our Intuitive Self-Love).  How does our Intuitive Self-Love Relate to our Beliefs?  As we’ll see in the next post, this Opposition is the base of a Neptune (Confusion) T-Square (Challenge), and this Challenge to our Appreciation of Confusion – as the first stage of Growth, is the Power Point of the New Moon.

The New Moon is at the Midpoint of Aquarius.  The Midpoints of the Fixed Signs (Aquarius, Leo, Taurus, Scorpio) are represented by the four Royal Stars of Persia, Aquarius by the Star Formalhaut, which…

“contains a touch of the mystic, a sense of magic, and inspires high ideals or lofty visions… it bestows charisma, beauty, or perfect harmony.  An individual [or a New Moon] with Formalhaut strong in their natal chart will have to clash with mainstream thought in order to achieve these ideals.

“If the ideal is a noble cause, the person will find personal happiness or success for the benefit of the collective.  However, if the ideals or dreams are corrupt in any way, then the downfall is total.  The challenge of people strongly influenced by Formalhaut is to maintain the purity of their ideals or dreams.”

–Bernadette Brady, Brady’s Book of the Fixed Stars, p.197

Such is the nature of our Adventures with our Held Emotions and our Response to Confusion.  Our Concepts about what makes the World tick are among the most fundamental of our Beliefs, and Growth in Consciousness is not possible until we Transcend those Limitations.  Resisting the Temptation to Figure It Out, and Learning to Bask in Confusion for its own sake, as an Emotion to be Embraced rather than Squelched, Controlled, Corrected, Suppressed, or Overruled, is Task Number One here.