Gauntlet X – Ominous

April 18, 2018

Got that Ominous Feeling, Obsessing on something untoward that you may have little Control over, and that refuses to Heel despite your Tapping and Thetas and Poor-Sweethearts?  Well, that’s Pluto Stationary – Heavy, like Swimming through Jello.

Ominous also goes along with questions about our Self-Confidence, as Chariklo is Stationary less than 24 hours after Pluto’s Station and less than two Degrees away.  In addition, both Mars (Action – and possibly Agitation) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) are Merged in with the two Stations, and Chariklo Initiates Mars only a half hour before the Pluto Station.

Lots of astrolguese in there I know; what it means is that we’re likely to interpret the Heavy Pluto-Station Energy as a Threat to our Self-Sovereignty and Self-Confidence and possibly even our Survival.  And it’s most certainly a Threat to our Survival as we know it, because the Strongest elements in the chart (the T-Square that the Stations head and a Grand Quintile) converge on Rebirth (Haumea-Veritas).  Denial-Resistant Ego Death (Nemesis-Eris-Lachesis) is also prominent.

As far as how much of this will Manifest as Karmic Paper Tigers that Act Out mostly in Emotions, and how much will Manifest as Hardcopy Real-Time External events, well, as our Disrupter-in-Chief likes to say, “We’ll see what happens.”  Much probably depends on what you have going on natally in 17-25 of the Cardinal Signs (Capricorn, Cancer, Aries, Libra), and how much of that is remains Unconscious.  Bringing that into Consciousness is after all the Big Opportunity here.

In this Degree Zone of Capricorn we’re building Version 4.0 of some Project, we’re very proud of it, and we’re forced to Get Humble before we Let the Project out into the Public Eye. 

We might PIAVAC something like “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that this Material come into Consciousness Lovingly and Gently, and that any Disruption in my Life be Underwhelming.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  Show me.”

We’ll map all this out over the next several days, just wanted to let you know what’s waking me up in the middle of the night, in case it’s gnawing at you as well.

Gauntlet IX – Confidence

April 16, 2018

Once we get through Chiron’s passage into Aries (1am PDT 17 April) Saturn’s Most-Important-Thing Station (7pm PDF 17 April), the most prominent Energies will be the Station of Pluto (8:30am PDT 22 April) and Chariklo (6am PDT 23 April), and they’ll already be in full Force.  In fact, we could be Experiencing some flashforwards from them already.

Pluto is just Heavy.  “Swimming through Jello” is one way Pluto Stations have been described.  Pluto means Transformation, Trance Re-Formation, Big Changes, even Changes in the very Zeitgeist that we’ve long since come to accept as The Way It Is.  You’ll get Bruised up pretty good if you try to fight against Pluto.  You aren’t Helpless, you can steer to one bank or another to portage around the Falls, you just don’t want to try to paddle upstream because the current is a lot Stronger than you are.

Chariklo is about Confidence, especially Self-Confidence.  Confidence is the most Charismatic characteristic that a person can have, whether we think it’s warranted or not.  Wonder why the Antichrist is so Teflon?  So our Confidence is being Transformed.  Our Confidence, unless we’re a Grifter, is almost always a Trance, below the level of our Consciousness.

Having Chiron in Aries will help a lot, as we’ll be less assailed by the Emotional Bleeding from our Lifelong “Unhealable” Wounds.  Unless you’re Faithless, in which case your Spiritual Lymph might be spilling everywhere.  Faith and Trust are both Important in Confidence – while the Saturn and Hylonome Stations (Trust, Priority, Boundaries, Codependence) will weaken after they’re Exact, they won’t disappear instantaneously.

So if your Confidence crumbles, know it’s “just” a Wound being re-Triggered, and Respond accordingly (Poor-Sweetheart, Soft-and-Warm, Mirrors, everything that Chiron in Pisces has taught us).  It’s just an Ego Death, not a “real” Arrow.  Trust that it will be better in the New Trance on the Other Side.

The Pluto and Chariklo Stations are also only two Degrees apart, with Chariklo on the Waning side of Pluto, which means that we’re laying the Groundwork for a major Letting Go of the Sources of Confidence that we’ve been using since 1931’s “Young woman awaiting a sailboat” Pluto-Chariklo Initiation.  Not embarking on her own journey, but waiting for someone else to give her a ride.

Pluto Initiates Chariklo into a brand-new 90-year Cycle next February, in the same 23 Capricorn as the Pluto-Saturn Initiation we discussed earlier – “A soldier in combat boots receiving two awards for bravery.”  If we Imagine them to be high-heeled combat boots, we could easily Give these awards to the #MeToo troops.

Gauntlet VIII – Chiron

April 16, 2018

Anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that Chiron can be a Bear. 

It’s about Getting Conscious of our Wounds.  Like Saturn helping to Educate us about which Traumas are Really Going On in the Moment and which are Flushbacks, if we’re Conscious of our Wounds we can Differentiate them from new Arrows.  For Present-Moment Traumas we want to improve our Boundaries to stop or dodge the Arrows and Prevent further Harm, and for Flushbacks we want to be very Loving with ourself in order to Heal the Wounds. These are very Different Responses.

That’s a hidden benefit of using our Mirrors to fend off apparent negative Energy coming at us.  Using a Mirror is very Powerful for any situation where you’re having Difficulty being Present with yourself (or Others) and staying Grounded… 

  • When you’re talking to someone and feel insulted for instance.  Is that your Wound, or are you being Attacked?  Or both?  It takes a bit of Practice to Imagine a big Mirror, facing them, while you’re talking to someone, but once you get the hang of it, it’s not too hard.  If the Mirror Changes your Feeling State almost immediately, you were being Attacked. If it doesn’t Change your Feeling State, then it may be “just” your Wound. 

Using Mirrors might seem like a silly game, but your Wound is a Hole in your Aura.  It was installed by your Programmers so they could Control you.  Being Persistent about using Mirrors like this will eventually become a Habit; you’ll start to do the Energetic Equivalent of using a Mirror, but without the Mirror, and without thinking about it.  And that’s just another way of saying that  you’ve Healed the Hole in your Aura and taken a big step toward Self-Sovereignty.

  • Another excellent Mirror situation is when you’re mind is stuck in a Helicopter Trip.  You keep going ’round and ’round, either about some Duality you can’t Decide about, or when you’re Imagining arguing with someone or justifying yourself to them.  Take the first person you think of (it may not be the same person you’re arguing with), and Imagine Mirroring them.  If the Cycling stops, you’re Golden.  If it doesn’t, try the second person that comes to mind.

For instance, one of my Programmers wanted very much for me to be a certain way.  It wasn’t a way I wanted to be.  I Mirrored them fairly often for months, maybe years.  They would “come around to the back door” when I set up the Mirror, and to find Peace I would have to use a miniature domed stadium lined with Mirrors on the outside.  Eventually it became a Habit. 

Often this is your only path toward improving your Relationship with someone who isn’t very Conscious – talking with them about it just isn’t in the realm of possibility.  My Programmer was certainly not Conscious that they were drilling a Hole in my Aura, and in the off chance that they were, would they admit it?  Unlikely.

  • Emotions are supposed to visit for a little while, then move on.  We think of Emotions as “ours,” but they aren’t really, they’re like weather, they blow in and then they blow away.  Sometimes they Resonate and we can use them; other times they feel like they came uninvited out of “left field.”  When an Emotion blows through and sticks to you like Velcro, it may be an imitation of one of your Held Emotions.

One of the principles of Emotional Healing is that it’s Impossible to Let Go of Other Peoples’ Feelings.  So if an unwelcome Emotion moves in and unpacks, use your Mirror on the first person who comes to mind, to see if you’re carrying someone else’s Emotions.  If you get almost-immediate Relief, just bring back the Mirror whenever you start to go back into that closet.  Some people are very accomplished at getting Other people to carry their Held Emotions for them.

In fact, it’s highly likely that you and I do the same.  We’re Scared Shitless of Power, so we Project our Anger (Envy really) on folks who throw Power around like it was a Frisbee.  Death of any sort is such a big Threat to our Ego that we wrap ourself in Grief whenever anyone Transitions to a New Lifetime instead of helping them Celebrate and get Grounded into their new Surroundings.  If their next Life is anything like this one, they’ll be pretty Helpless for a while, and can use all the Support we can Give them.

The Mirror will help you Distinguish your own Held Emotions from Other people’s Held Emotions.  If an unfriendly Emotion moves in to stay, and you Mirror everyone who you suspect might be Projecting it your way, all to no effect, then it’s probably one of your own Held Emotions.  Feels like a Bummer, but in fact it’s a tremendous Opportunity – our Held Emotions are Unconscious, aka Invisible to us.  When one becomes opaque, we can take steps to Heal it.

How?  Own it.  Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure.  You might well get Images of what caused the Emotion to get stuck in the first place, but you don’t need them, and in fact if they appear they may put you in your Anal-ytical mind and distract you from Softening and Warming.

Guess what.  This is what Illness is about.  If you’re very good at Denying your Held Emotions on every other Level, they’ll come to visit on the Physical Level.  Besides, they aren’t Levels, they’re Perspectives.  It’s All One Thing, we just think it’s Different because we’re seeing it from a Different Angle.  So you may not begin with a Held Emotion, you may begin with a Toothache or any Pain or Physical Discomfort, or even Diagnosis if you’re in the Habit of Delegating care and feeding of your Physical Vehicle to the Medical Cartel.

Deal with Physical Pain and Discomfort the same way – Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure. 

And anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that we always recommend “Poor-Sweethearting” ourself whenever Chiron is Lit Up, and at any other time when you aren’t totally Pleased with your internal or external Circumstances.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling [Insulted] [Invaded] [Confused] [Sick] [Pain], aren’t you.”

We bring all this up because after seven years in Pisces, Chiron is moving into Aries (1am PDT 17 April).  Emotions don’t go away when Pisces goes away, though they get less Prominent.  And there are plenty of other planets still in Pisces; for instance Confusion/Neptune will be there till 2026, and Abuse/Nessus till 2034.  So you’ll have plenty of Opportunities yet to Practice your Mirroring and Poor-Sweethearting Skills.

As for Chiron, rather than the Emotional Crises we’ve been Enduring since 2011, we’ll be Experiencing Spiritual Crises till Chiron moves into Taurus in 2027, then we’ll be Enjoying Material Crises for a while.  So our Practice with Emotions will serve us well while we’re doing “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like God has Abandoned you, aren’t you” or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like the Planet is Failing, don’t you.”

If course, long before then we’ll have enfolded all these Healing techniques into automatic Habits, and firing them off so fast we won’t even be Aware that we’re doing it.  Right?

Gauntlet VII – Saturn

April 16, 2018

We wrote quite a bit about the Saturn Station in Gauntlet II and Gauntlet III, though there are a few thing to add.  Probably most important is that you get to Witness Saturn as a Malefic or not.  Saturn has a big reputation as a Downer, but to us it simply means The Most Important Thing.  Saturn asks us to suspend secondary Priorities and Pay Attention to The Most Important Thing.  That seems like a Downer if we’re depending for one reason or another on The Less Than Most Important Things. 

So if you’re Feeling Stressed by Saturn’s Station (7pm PDT 17 April), stop and Ask yourself what you’re Resisting.  Maybe your Child is sick and you went to work anyway, and you’re Feeling Guilty about it.  There you have it – go home and look after your Kid.  Maybe you stayed home and you’re Scared that the meeting you’re missing will set your career back.  Better stop and Meditate on that one.  The one thing I’ve found about Saturn over the years, is that our secondary Priorities will be just fine if we ignore them for a while.

Once we’re done with Saturn, or Saturn is done with us, the other real issues and apparent issues will jump right back into the foreground.  That’s one of Saturn’s Most Important tasks – to help us Separate the Apparent Issues that are Karmic Paper Tigers, from the Real Issues that we need to Attend To in the Present Moment.  Our Unconscious Beliefs tint our Perceived Reality so that some Imposter issues look a lot more Present-Moment than they Really are, and if we let it, Saturn will help us get Clear about the Edges.

One thing that’s important – four and a half days after Saturn’s Station, Pluto has a Station (8:30 am PDT 22 April), so this week will likely have an ominous Saturn-Pluto Feel to it. 

Saturn-Pluto events are associated with all manner of nasty manipulation and fake news.  The most recent example is 9/11/2001.  The Waning Saturn-Pluto Square occurred a month prior, so the Energy was well on its way out. 

Yet the perps who planned or scammed 9/11 took advantage of another shift (the Moon going Out of Bounds, which occurred at 9am on 9/11) to carry the Saturn-Pluto Energy forward into their Patriot Act travesty.  Given the time involved and the length of the law, it’s obvious that the Patriot Act was written long before 9/11.  Whether or not its authors conspired with the 9/11 actors, they certainly used the events of 9/11 to promote their anti-democratic agenda.  We’re still dealing with the dregs of the Patriot Act.

The actual upcoming Pluto-Saturn Initiation doesn’t occur until mid-January 2020.  Those who choose to stay in 3D can expect a major Fear-promoting Trauma thereabouts – possibly involving Syria, if this preview is prescient – to make sure the Shoeple are cowed properly for the beginning of the Digital Age in early 2021 at the Saturn-Jupiter Initiation.

The January 2020 Pluto-Saturn Initiation occurs in 23 Capricorn, “A soldier receiving two awards for bravery in combat.”  Fun.  Even if the soldier was on “the right side,” it’s the wrong approach, as Dan Scranton’s Arcturian friends point out today…

http://danielscranton.com/the-rest-of-the-journey-to-the-5th-dimension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“You have placed yourselves in the position that you wanted to be in at this time.  You knew before you incarnated that after December 21st, 2012, you would have a window of opportunity in front of you to make decisions as a collective that would either guide you to the fifth dimension or to the destruction of your planet.

“You made the decision to ascend.  The potential was always there, but what was needed in order for the journey to continue to the fifth dimension was enough awakened beings to hold the vibration for the rest of planet Earth and the rest of humanity.

“You are not overpopulated.  Your planet can handle the billions of you that are currently incarnate, and there is power, of course, in numbers.  As we have said, the star children volunteered to come forth to be that final piece of the puzzle to hold space for the collective.

“And those of you who have been awake and living through these past several years have also been doing the work that was necessary to continue the journey.  Now, at this time, you can relax.  You can celebrate the knowing that you are making the journey, and you can feel the significance of this accomplishment.  You can also let yourselves off the hook.

“Many of you who came forth with the knowing that you had a mission did not realize that the mission would be something much bigger than writing a book or opening a healing center.  It would be much bigger than delivering channeled messages.  Your mission has been to hold the vibration for the rest of humanity, and you have done so.

“And for many of you it has been a very tumultuous ride, but there is no turning back now.  Now you can hold space for yourself.  You can shift into creation mode, and you can create the remainder of the journey to be exactly as you want it to be.  You will take the rest of humanity, those who choose to come, with you.”

The actual Saturn-Station chart has one additional term that the Hylonome Station (Gauntlet II-III) didn’t have, namely a Challenge (Square) to Trust (to asteroid Eurydike) that converts the Trine Fez of the Hylonome Station into a Square Fez, with the additional information that it’s Important to PIAVA “I Wonder what there is to Trust about Abuse” (Eurydike Quincunx Nessus; the diagonal Quincunxes are the levers of Power in a Fez). 

While each of us needs to Avoid an intellectual Answer to the Curiosity in the Quincunx (lest we pour wet cement into our Evolution), I’m going to be rash enough to suggest that an alternate version might be “I Wonder if the Abuse that I Feel occurring, or that I Fear will be Repeated, is actually ‘just’ a Flushback from my Karma catalog,” one of those Apparent Issues that Saturn is wont to Differentiate from Hardcopy Reality for us.

The addition of Eurydike Completes the Air Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings, the blue triangle) and a major movement toward Mission-Sustainability (North Node-Ceres Kite), embedding the whole complex into a Flying Squirrel Configuration that suggests we’re now Coasting into our Mission with Trust and Boundaries (Eurydike and Pallas) as our Wings, and Karma as our Rudder or Tail (South Node).

Gauntlet VI – Mercury

April 14, 2018

The Direct Station of Mercury is fairly straightforward…

It wouldn’t hurt us to interpret Mercury as Insight, if we can Differentiate In-sight from Anal-ysis.  It’s tempting, to those of us with proclivities or training or Programming to be “left-brained,” to think that Analysis is a critical Skill, but when we look at it closely we find that Observation is the heart of it; the rest is Conclusion, which is the equivalent of gassing and pinning the Butterfly, Ossifying the World.

The Star of the show is (Insight into) Letting Go of Impediments to Trusting our Ability to Manifest what we Need (Atropos/Endings-Eurydike/Trust-Makemake/Manifestation Stellium), even if/as the World as we know it falls apart. 

A note on Interpretation – we could certainly Interpret Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake as Ending our Trust in (our Ability to) Manifest rather than Ending Impediments to same.  But why would we want to?  I suppose we could wish that sort of curse on our Competition, but that would be so Patriarchal, wouldn’t it.

In this context we’re Challenged to Master (T-Square) carving Survival-Sabotaging Unconscious Beliefs out of the collection of Perception-Inhibiting Blinders that Limit our Insights (Vesta-Quaoar).  If you Notice the light purple lines, the “Quintangle” that we spoke of at the end of Gauntlet III remains in effect; Learning to Differentiate Survival-Limiting Beliefs is a core part of our April curriculum.

Detoxing our Survival-Manifestation machine is aided by Respect for All Things (Hopi Trine Bridge across the T-Square); hint: ferret out your Judgments – they’re Mirrors for your Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  Intrusive Memories will also play a role, but a more subtle one, as we’ll have to PIAVA how they’re Related to the price of Insight in Loompaland (2007 OR10 Quincunx Bridge).  Like that heavy flushback I had this morning – “I Wonder how that’s Related to Beliefs that Limit my Ability to Manifest Survival.”

There’s a Challenge of some sort between Respect for All Things and the kinds of Flashbacks we’re likely to Encounter (Waning Square from asteroid Hopi to dwarf planet OR10).  The Hopi-OR10 Cycle is about excavating the Memories that caused us to Ossify a Judgment into our Belief Collection.  I almost wrote “Belief System,” but there’s nothing Systematic about our Beliefs, they’re really more of a motley collection.

The current six-year Hopi-OR10 Cycle began in March 2014 at 3 of Pisces, “Petrified tree trunks lie broken on desert sand.”  How appropriate.  At the Waning Square our Assignment is to Let Go of all the Work we’ve been doing for the last four years to promote Respect for Disparity.  Not that either Respect or Disparity will be declining, it’s just that the methodology we’ve been using to promote them is obsolete, and it’s time for us to Let the whole Issue Go so the Work we’ve done can Integrate with the rest of Reality. 

In other words it’s time to Change the Subject around our Memories of Discrimination.  For now, que sera, seraI wouldn’t regard it as an accident that Letting Go of Memories of Discrimination is Lit Up at the same time as the Edgy Love and Denial Timing issues that we discussed in Gauntlet V.  One they’ve served as Insights into our Impediments to Manifesting Survival, they need to be Let Go.  We don’t need any of the lingering grudges that we could easily Create around them.

Some Insights that Dan Scranton’s Arcturian friends suggest for us…

http://danielscranton.com/accessing-fifth-dimensional-abilities-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

You have awakened within you the abilities that are associated with the fifth dimension, but you do not know how to access them yet.  It is like buying a new technological gadget that you’ve never seen before and not having any instructions available to you.  So as you feel for the abilities within you, please recognize that your acknowledgement of them is the first step in gaining full access.

“You won’t be able access these abilities by lamenting the fact that you haven’t accessed them yet.  That is counterproductive.  So what you want to do is focus.  You want to focus on how these fifth dimensional abilities feel as you contemplate them.  We are talking about telekinesis, telepathy, and teleportation, specifically.  There are others as well that you will become aware of as you continue on in your journeys.

“Feel for the power that is within you.  Feel for it vibrationally.  Do not wait until you have full access to these abilities before you feel how powerful you are.  Many of you have already taken sneak peeks at these abilities.  You know that at times you access them, if only for an instant.  You also know that you are becoming your higher selves, and with that means greater access to so much more than these abilities.

“We recommend that you don’t get fixated on them or on any one of them.  Instead we want you to continue to feel for your power and feel for the consciousness and the vibration of your higher self.  Your higher self has the instruction manual.  When you act, speak, and think as your higher self would, you bring yourself into harmony with that which you most desire.  And in so doing, you help others gain access to their higher self and to their fifth dimensional abilities.

You are about to have a lot more fun than you’ve been having.”

It’s PIAVA that’s the gateway to these Abilities.

Gauntlet V – Revelation New Moon

April 14, 2018

I must be Denying some element of Truth, because it’s been kind of a hard day for me.  Probably my sugar Addiction.  As for the Strong elements of the Truth/Veritas-Stationary chart…

  • Choosing to Expose our Essence (Lachesis-Eris-Sun) probably wins this lottery, as it’s a corner of both the Grand Cross (red square and cross) and the Grand Trine (blue Triangle)

There’s an additional vote for this Stellium (group of planets) being the Strong point of the Veritas Station chart – tomorrow’s New Moon (7pm PDT 15 April) is in the same place, extending the impact of the Station chart for another several weeks. 

Dwarf planet Eris is all about Revealing what’s been Denied, often with Ego-Death consequences – hence Eris’s Reputation for Dischord among the Stuck-in-the-Mud set.  And Lachesis is about Measuring the length of a Timeline.  When we’re dealing with Consciousness – aka Choice – then, it’s about Choosing to prematurely End or posthumously Extend a Timeline (which is a temporary or characteristic theme in a Lifetime) relative to its “Fated” Expiration.

The new Lachesis-Eris Cycle began at 2pm PDT today, 14 April, at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia.”  Remember that Denial is a Healthy Response to Ego-breakthroughs that we aren’t ready to deal with yet.  Trying to break an Ego prematurely usually leads to backlash and Ego entrenchment.  Look at what happens when you try to break someone else’s Ego with insults – you trigger the other person’s Ego Defenses.  The five-year Lachesis-Eris Cycle is about being Able to Choose if, when, and How to make significant Changes to our Ego.

So then, do I Choose to End my sugar Addiction?  Well, it’s not that Easy to squelch an Addiction, is it.  But Notice that it is in my Consciousness, which is one of the first steps.  So I can PIAVA to end or modify it to make it Life-Affirming, if it isn’t already – Self-Love/Sappho is Merged with Edges of Consciousness/Juno after all. 

Maybe I’ll have an All Organic Go Raw Sprouted Pumpkin Seed Bar with 5g of sugar instead of a Cascadian Farm Organic Honey Roasted Nut Protein Chewy Bar with 10g.  I know, they’re both Prefab Food, but I just had a big bowl of homemade Soup of Wildcrafted Fresh Nettles, organic Shiitakes, organic Farmers-Market Rhubarb, organic Onion, organic Bone Broth, and homegrown Garlic, Oregano, and Thyme, so I may survive.

Speaking of which…

  • Loving the Edges of our Consciousness as alternative to Ego Death (Sappho-Juno) also heads a Diamond Star

Now this one could be a Life-Changer if we take advantage of it.  A Diamond Star is an Emphatic (Finger of God) Challenge to Mastery (T-Square) made Easy by Grace (the Trine-Sextile Lace connecting the bases of the T-Square and Yod).  What if we broke the Karmic Dread-Reaction that most of have to Ego Death, and replaced it with a surge of Excitement and Love about the Liberation from Limitation that we’re about to Receive!  That would definitely be Life-Changing.

The 17-year Sappho-Juno Cycle began on 13 March at 9 Pisces, “A jockey spurs his horse, intent on outdistancing his rivals.”  Whoa, Competitive Love!  Well, if we’re Competing with ourself to see if we can Embrace the next Ego Death better than we Embraced the last one, that’s probably a fine use of Competition, which is after all a normal Huper Urge, even if we sneer at it as the Fundament of the Patriarchy.  And there’s no reason Competition can’t be Friendly, and even coexist with Collaboration.

The apparent Contradistinction that Powers the Challenge to Mastering such Edgy Self-Love involves our Forbidden Genius (Ixion) and our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos), with our Forbidden Genius Channeling (Conjunct) the Galactic Center.  We could easily interpret this as Galactic HQ giving us orders to Open Up our Forbidden Genius.  The Grace is provided by Easy Relationships between Unlimited Potential, Stationary Truth/Veritas, Rebirth/Haumea, and Hidden Genius.

  • New Beginnings (Klotho) are Important because they head a Diamond Star (T-Square and Yod pointing to same planet)

This one is tightly Integrated with the previous two Configurations, as the base of the New Beginnings Challenge to Mastery involves Rebirth/Haumea and Choosing to Expose our Essence (Lachesis-Eris-New Moon), and the Lace of Grace involves Unlimited Potential/Chaos and Truth/Stationary Veritas.

The Unx Angle (the short green lines) reflects the Twelfth Harmonic, Pattern-Breaking.  They’re drawn lightly in the Truth-Station chart in the previous post, but they’re an important key to our success as Self-Transformation, since without them we Change not at all.  They connect Loving our Edges (Sappho-Juno) with Choosing Insights (Lachesis-Eris-New Moon), Embracing Fear as Power (Sedna and Kegels), Unlimited Potential (Chaos), and Truth Squared (Aletheia and Stationary Veritas).

Finally, we neglected to include what might be the most immediate Challenge of this Truth Station, the Challenge between Truth/Veritas and Embracing Fear as Power/Sedna.  If you’re having trouble seeing Fear as Power, look at what it does to the Body – it can give you extraordinary Powers of Flight, Fight, or Freeze that arise directly from the Unconscious, without your Volition.  Have you Experienced the equation “Fear Plus Breathing Equals Excitement”?  And next time you’re watching a Scary movie, try Fear Plus Kegels to see how they Change your Experience of your Body and your Surroundings.

This is the Waxing Square in the six-year Veritas-Sedna Cycle that began in June 2016 at 26 Taurus, “A Spanish gallant serenades his beloved,” which is to say, at least during this Cycle, Fear Enchants Truth.  Certainly being Honest with ourself about our Fears (which after all are highly correlated with our Held Emotions) is a requirement for Authenticity and Yintegrity and all things Fifth-Dimensional.

At the Waxing Square, the Energy of a Cycle Emerges from Underground and enters the Mainstream.  Veritas, now moving forward again, is working toward it’s third Waxing Square to Sedna; the first occurred mid-October 2017 (when the Emergence from the Unconscious of a “new” Fear may have Shocked us), the second late March 2018 (when we would have Learned more about this new-to-our-Ego Fear), and this third one will Complete 13 May.  At this third event we’re scheduled to gain Confidence in our command of the Truth about our Fears.

Gauntlet IV

April 13, 2018

Saturn’s Station doesn’t occur till 17 April, so we’re still deep in the middle of Gauntlet II and III, but the 14 April Station of Veritas (Truth) adds another Dimension.  It occurs at 25 Leo, a Degree Zone which we’re quite familiar with after the last several years…

There’s usually one major focus to a chart, but this one has several that are hard to rank…

  • Truth (Veritas) of course is Stationary (7pm PDT 14 April), making it very Strong
  • Choosing to Expose our Essence (Lachesis-Eris-Sun) probably wins this lottery, as it’s a corner of both the Grand Cross (red square and cross) and the Grand Trine (blue Triangle)
  • New Beginnings (Klotho) are Important because they head a Diamond Star (T-Square and Yod pointing to same planet)
  • Loving the Edges of our Consciousness as alternative to Ego Death (Sappho-Juno) also heads a Diamond Star
  • Truth, Rebirth (Haumea), New Beginnings (Klotho), and Embracing Fear as Power (Sedna) are all Lit Up by Fingers of God (the green wedgies)
  • “A Butterfly with the right wing more perfectly formed” (25 Aquarius) is Powerful as the Vacancy that would Complete the Grand Sextile (blue hexagon)

There is a Fixed Star at 25 Aquarius, Deneb Algedi, which is about Leadership and Justice – these are the qualities (and perhaps Transformation into what’s “Right”) that we have to provide if we want Grace to Finish what we Start (the Grand Sextile).  Deneb Algedi is the Dolphin-Tail of the Capricorn Goat. 

Capricorn is a very complex symbol.  The Goat isn’t too far from Ixion, always Irreverent but fully Itself.  With a Fish’s Tail, implying that it’s driven forward by its Emotions.  Yet the Fish isn’t a Fish at all, but a Marine Mammal.  That connects it to Nurturance and Wisdom, like the Empress.  It’s the Return of the Sun, but a time of Privation and Hunger and Community.

All of the Important points deserve more Attention, which we’ll try to find time for in a subsequent post.

Gauntlet III

April 12, 2018

A reader writes…

I’m really trying to sit back and remind myself that it’s only yet another layer of karma.  But oh my goodness, how am I going to get through this alive and in one piece? 

Or is the whole point of this to get broken into pieces and remould myself later…”
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I hear ya!  There are a lot of Issues Lit Up, they’re all Heavy, and – fortunately – they all Complement one another, so if we can Hang On, there will be immense Healing going on.  One of The Most Important Things is not to try to Think It or Figure It Out. 
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Modulate the Heavy Emotions as best you can with Tapping, Kegels, Breathing, Poor-Sweethearting, and PIAVAs, especially PIAVAs that include some equivalent to “Loving and Gentle.”  Modulate the Regressions to other Timelines as best you can by repeatedly bringing yourself back to the Present Moment. 
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Whatever is Dominating your Experience, shift to a Different Modality.  For instance, if your Emotions or your Interpersonal Circumstances are barely (or even Not) tolerable, Ask yourself “What’s going on in my Body Physically?” and Focus there.  If you’re in Physical Pain, Ask yourself, “What Emotion would I be Feeling if I could do Emotions right now?”  If you Feel like the Goddess has Abandoned you, put your Attention on something Beautiful.
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If you’re stuck in a Solutionless Hyperloop in your Mindbone, who’s the primary Other in the Drama?  Imagine holding a wardrobe Mirror up between you and them, facing them.  Hold it for a few minutes, to see if you Feel more Grounded, while you watch to see if they try to stretch tentacles around the Mirror (expand the Mirror), or try to “come around to the back” (use a Dome-shaped Mirror if you need to; Intend that it Allows Air in).  If the Mirror doesn’t help, try the second candidate for primary antagonist – living or dead.
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If it’s a Arbitrary Authority that has you in its grasp, hold your Mirror up to whomever taught you to Obey that Authority more than your Own Instincts, Intuitions, and Intelligence.  If you’ve Personalized the Authority, Dare to hold the Mirror up to the vaunted Personage.  I mean, what would Jesus Do?  He Melts my Mirror and floods me with Love and Mirth.  What does your Air-Hero do?
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Here’s the chart we’re in…
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As you can see, the Hylonome (Becoming Conscious of Codependence) Station (Strong Energy thereof) and the Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Station are in the same Zodiacal location and only a few days apart.  So The Most Important Thing is Becoming Conscious of our Codependence.  Codependence just means that we let someone else, or some Thing else (such as an Unconscious Archetype or Belief, or an Abstract Authority) make our Decisions for us, leaving us without Choice.  As we’ve seen Choice and Consciousness are pretty much synonymous.
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We face three main tightly-coordianted Challenges here, in addition to Untangling The Most Important Thing from our Codependence (which is a Challenge, but not one we’re likely to Master here, as the two Energies are hopelessly Merged)…
  • Facing Codependence as The Most Important Thing involves Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis Squaring the Hynonome-Saturn Stations – heavy lines)
  • Healing Abuse involves Setting New Boundaries that Keep us Safe (Pallas T-Square on Orcus-Nessus Opposition – light lines)
  • Making our Dedication to our Mission Sustainable involves Facing our Held Emotions (Nodal Axis with Ceres on the North Node – light lines)

As John Muir says, “The minute we try to pick out anything by itself, we find it hitched to everything else in the Universe.”  I mean, these are really all the same Issue, just seen from Different Angles, and it’s an incredible Gift from the Universe to be able to Let them Heal One Another.  If we can stay out of their way.

So let’s look at the ways they Heal one another…

  • The Ego Death-Codependence Conundrum is Embraced by two PIAVAs (the Nemesis-Hylonome/Saturn Square is part of a Trine Fez, and we deal with a Fez by attending to the diagonal Quincunxes)…
    • “I wonder about the Relationship between my Codependence and the Sustainability of my Mission” – Not Think about but Wonder about (Ceres-North Node Quincunx to Stations).  Sort of the way you Wonder about how in the devil that gorgeous, brilliantly colored Butterfly just crawled out of that brown turd-like valise!  (If you’re a biologist, Wonder instead about the Night Sky instead.)
    • Ganishi, Please Remove All Obstacles to Reverting my Limiting Oaths with Loving and Gentle Ego Deaths” – our Oaths (such as “I can never tell anyone or he’ll Kill Mom”), if they are Limiting, are protected by Integration with Ego (Orcus Quincunx Nemesis)
  • Our Like-It-or-Not Focus on Healing our Codependence (see above) AND our Attention to our Mission (see below) both represent Easy ways to Master our Boundary Challenges (Both Hylonome-Saturn, and the Nodal Axis, Trine-Bridge the Pallas T-Square on the Orcus-Nessus Opposition)
  • Our Ego Deaths facilitate Movement toward Sustaining our Mission (Nemesis Trine-Bridges the Nodal Axis)

So being Loving and Gentle with our Ego Deaths turns out to be one of the Levers of Power.  PIAVAing that will help, because Ego Deaths aren’t an intellectual process, nor a Power-Over process – we’re attempting to Manipulate the Unconscious.  One of the most Powerful ways to soften an Ego Death is to recognize that “I’d rather Die!” and “I feel like I’m Dying!” are literally untrue as we usually interpret them.  We naturally put our emphasis on the Die/Dying part, whereas what’s really happening is that the accent is actually on the “I” part.

“I’d rather Die” means yes, an Ego Death would be preferable to Re-experiencing our Held Emotions and Traumas, which is great.  When we’re Conscious that an Ego Death is occurring, they’re Easy.  We just recognize that Confusion is the first sign of Growth, Accept the Confusion as an Emotion in its own right, without trying to Fix it, and bang, we’ve mid-wifed our New Identity.  It has some re-orienting to do, so a little Confusion will remain for a while, but we’re basically done.

“I feel like I’m Dying!” is just code for “Oh, there’s my Held Emotion!  Aren’t I Delighted to finally get that out in the Open where I can be Present and Loving with it, because hiding in the cave like it’s been, it Sabotages my Entire Life!”  Make that Reframe and you’re likely to feel tremendous Excitement instead, as you watch the detritus falling off of your Future Timeline.

Bon Voyage!

Oh, one more thing.  Hidden in the chart are several light purple lines that make a wedge pointing at Vesta-North Node.  This is a “Quintangle,” a wedge make up of two Biquintiles (Learning to Break out of Dogma) and a Quintile (Learning and Teaching).  The object of the Lesson Plan is Sustaining our Dedication to our Mission, and the curriculum involves Beliefs (Vesta) and Confusion (Neptune).  Learn to regard the Emotion of Confusion as one of the Greatest Gifts you can Receive, as long as you Celebrate it without trying to “Figure it out.”

Gauntlet II

April 10, 2018

The Life Force (Varuna) Station chart is very straightforward – the Life Force is Merged with (Conjoins) Memories (asteroid Mnemosyne), and is Related through Curiosity (Quincunx) to Being Fully Responsive about Examining any shortage of Survival Value in our Unconscious Beliefs (Pholus-Quaoar-Vesta).  Wondering how the Beliefs that tint our Perception, but that we haven’t Noticed or Differentiated yet (that is, we haven’t Realized that they’re Beliefs rather than facets of Reality), Self-Sabotage us.

Getting Conscious is not a matter of Discovery, it’s a matter of Differentiation – like looking right at a Bird sitting in a Tree but seeing only the Tree till the Bird moves and flies away.  The Bird was there all along, we just failed to Differentiate it from the background information.  This is how our Archetypes work.  They direct our Actions and words, but we don’t Notice that they’re Beliefs because we think they’re Reality.  If we don’t Trust People, for instance, then we’ll be surrounded by People who Betray us.  If we don’t Love Ourself then the Love that comes to us from Others will be Conditional.

As Seth said a long time ago (Jane Roberts, The Nature of Personal Reality), our Karma is right there in front of our face as our Personal History.  Chronic Disappointments and Difficulties in our Personal History are red flags for Self-Sabotaging Beliefs; we just need to look in the Mirror and PIAVA to Become Fully Responsive about Examining any shortage of Survival Value in our Self-Sabotaging Beliefs about “Reality.”

Let’s take Trust of People (our Abandonment) as an example.  Lord Knows it’s easy enough to find People who will Betray us!  The question is, Why do we Choose to make ourself Vulnerable to them, Why don’t we Intuit that they’re Unreliable, and Why don’t we Trust our Intuition till we’ve been Betrayed.  Once we Realize that Trust is a Self-Sabotaging Issue in our Life, we could start our Becoming-Conscious process by PIAVAing something like “Great Spirit, Please Lovingly and Gently give me Immediate and Complete Clarity around my Intuitions about People who will Betray me, and about People who won’t Betray me, and Please Help me to Act upon those Intuitions to Avoid Betrayal.”

Once we get past Varuna’s Station and into Hylonome’s and eventually Saturn’s, it gets trickier.  Both of these Stations Light Up a Challenge to Master (T-Square) Boundaries (Pallas) that will Allow us to Avoid Oaths (Orcus) that will Expose us to Abuse or Privilege (Nessus)

Since the World we Witness is a Mirror for our Personal Relationship to the Unconscious (“As Without So Within” as they say), Oaths that would Grant us Privilege and therefore Abuse Others, are really the same as Oaths that would Expose us to Abuse. 

If he’s lucky, Tony Robbins might pick that up, after his story about “Powerful” and “Important” men.  Tony has done great work with many people, but in spite of the way he names his seminars, he Teaches Hypercompetitive Power-Over, not Collaborative Power-With (see Starhawk’s Truth or Dare for comparisons).  If he accepts the Opportunity that Nanine McCool has offered him, more Power-With to him.  It’ll take a whole lot of Self-Examination, and so far he’s Expressed no Respect at all for Ms McCool.  His apologies sound as self-serving as The Zuck’s.

Hylonome itself is about Choosing to Let Go of Codependence.  Or not, as was Hylonome’s own Choice, to Kill herself with the lance that Killed her Lover.  Since we Strive toward Consciousness, we can Choose whatever we want, or at least fake it till we make it.  We don’t have to follow the mythical Hylonome’s example, we can instead read her Story as an example of a Mirror for our Personal History.  While Codependence is commonly applied to a Relationship with another person, it applies just as well to our Relationships with our Archetypes.  We Delegate to the Other our own Power to Respond . 

While the Hylonome and Saturn Stations Light Up a Challenge to Master Boundaries that will Allow us to Avert Oaths that will Expose us to Abuse or Privilege, their charts are also a very tight-knit Healing of same, involving the Stations (The Most Important Thing is Becoming Conscious of our Codependence), Ego Death (Nemesis), our Held Emotions (South Node), and Sustaining our Mission (Ceres-North Node).  We’ll say more about all this in the next post.

Gauntlet 1

April 10, 2018

Okay, we’ve started down our next Gauntlet…

  • Varuna (Life Force) Station 11 April 8pm PDT (approx.)
  • Hylonome (Ending Codependence) Station 13 April 9am PDT
  • Veritas (Truth) Station 14 April 7pm PDF
  • Mercury (Communication) Station 15 April 2am PDT
  • Chiron (Poor Sweetheart) Leaves Pisces (Whew, less Emotion now!) and Enters Aries (We’ll talk about that later) 17 April 1am PDT
  • Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Station 17 April 7pm PDT
  • Pluto (Trance Reformation) Station 22 April 8:30 am PDT
  • Chariklo (Self-Confidence) Station 23 April 8am PDT
  • Juno (Edges of Consciousness) Leaves Pisces (Whew, if we’ve been doing our homework, we may not have to Confront so many Held Emotions now) and Enters Aries (Insights become Spiritual rather than Emotional)

I don’t Expect April to be nearly as heavy as the end of March was.  UndeniablySara had a fabulous summary of that…

 https://undeniablysara.com/2018/04/04/today-yesterday-last-week/

In fact we’re already deep into the Life Force (Varuna) Station, when the Life Force should be Strong, for better or worse.  If we’ve been trotting along happily being someone other than who we Really Are or who we Need to Become, then a Stronger Life Force could knock us off of that path into the Weeds.  Just PIAVA that you “Hew Easily to the Path I Need to be on, with Loving and Gentle Transitions” or the like.

Varuna Energy is more than Ancient, more like Archean, so one of the Challenges may be Noticing Resistance to the most Basic of Urges (Breath, Hunger, Elimination, Lust, Freedom to Grow) and finding ways to Embrace them as your Best Friends, Fundamental to Life.  Potty Training.  Masturbating.  Lebensraum and Xenophobia (think Hungary).  Food that actually Serves your Body’s Needs.  Rather than Resisting your Archaen instincts, Celebrate them, Consciously Merge with them and Notice how you’ve been Unconsciously Merged with them already. 

Once long ago I was lying in bed on Psychedelics, and had to pee.  I tried to conceive of it, which Muscles would have to be moved in which ways in order to get up and transport my Body into the water closet.  It was unfathomable.  While I was hopelessly lost in this anatomical maze, my Body just got up and did it without “my” volition.  I was Amazed at how much Intelligence it had, far more than I could muster!  The Experience launched me on a path of Gratitude for the Natural and Respect for Healthy Food.

We’re in the midst of a very Heavy (and long overdue) Transition around Attitudes toward Sex, but in Archean days it was simply about Reproducing.  Lots of Baggage to Let Go of there.  Look at this Exchange, for instance, highlighting Gender Differences that were barely Established in Archean times…

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/arts-and-entertainment/wp/2018/04/08/tony-robbins-suggested-metoo-was-about-victimhood-now-hes-apologizing/

The Earth was not Oxygenated yet in Archean days, so if you have any trouble Breathing, Relax into it.  Of course those are all Metaphors, as Geology, while certainly intriguing, isn’t a lot more definitive than Genesis.  We may well have Experienced most of our Lifetimes in Physical Systems with unrecognizably different Rules.  “In the Reaches” relative to this Planet, as Ursula would put it, though it’s more likely that it’s Earth that’s In the Reaches.

Here’s another interesting Story that takes us back to Archean Times…

https://veganbuddhaguru.wordpress.com/2018/04/03/vegan-mara/

Indian Culture is deep in the roots of Western Cultures.

We’re probably already feeling undercurrents from the Hylonome, Veritas, and Saturn Stations.  It’s not too early to Remember that Saturn calls us to Focus on The Most Important Thing, and Let Go of the Rest.  Letting Go of the Rest is  Scary because it Feels Permanent.  It’s not; it’ll wait patiently in the wings and pop right back into our Life when Saturn is done with us.  We could interpret the overall Energy for the next few days as The Most Important Thing is to find the Truth about the Deep Parts of our Unique Self that Feed our Life Force, shifting on 12 April to The Most Important Thing is to find the Truth about our Yintegrity.