Snakes and Ladders I

May 20, 2018

With a huge Reset going on here, it makes more sense to use Birth-chart Sensitivity or “Orb” – 6-8 Degrees, rather than our usual 3-Degree Current-Moment or “Transit”-chart Sensitivity, so we’ve Compromised to a degree.  All of this month’s Stations occur in the same 0-to-9-Degree Zone, and the early-June Nessus Station is at 10 Degrees.  ‘Tis a busy chart.

We should start with the “biggest” Configuration, which is a Grand Cross (Hassles Galore, but they’re often Mutually Complementary) and a Grand Trine (Blessings Galore) with common corners.  This is traditionally considered an “ideal” chart, as it combines great Energy and Motivation (the Grand Cross) with ample Grace (the Grand Trine). 

That is, however, a Colonialist Perspective, where the most Celebrated Traits are Effort and Successful Exploitation of Others.  The current Western Patriarchal and Hierarchical Cultural model, in other words, where the Strong win over the “Weak” (including those with different Life Goals, which are by definition Weak).  The Prize is Ego Inflation, Confidence, and Privilege.  Aka Corruption and Abuse, when seen from underneath. 

We can see this playing out in the news all over the Planet, as this Game is the stock and trade of the Declining Patriarchy.  There’s nothing Abusive or Colonialist or Patriarchal about a Grand Cross-Grand Trine (“GC-GT”) chart itself; it’s the notion that it’s an ideal chart that’s Patriarchal.  There’s a sense in which being born with such a chart “condemns” one to a Life of Effort and Achievement.  But Effort and Achievement can readily be directed toward non-Patriarchal Goals like Community, Collaboration, Balance, Flow, Attunement, and the like.

Here’s the Grand Cross-Grand Trine version of the chart…

We’ve drawn the chart for the time when the Moon reaches the Midpoint between the 18 May Atropos Station (Endings) at Degree 1 and the 21 May Klotho Station (Beginnings) at Degree 0.  You can see that the other two Fate asteroids, Lachesis (the Length of a Timeline) and Moira (Fate or Choice) are close by at 6 and 5 Degrees respectively.  [In case you’ve forgotten, we always round Degrees up – 29 becomes 30 or 0, 0 becomes 1, etc.]

The Grand Trine is extended into a Kite by Chiron, but if we focus first on the primary GC-GT elements, it’s the Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake (Endings-Trusting-Creating) Stellium (a group of 3 or more planets) that’s the overwhelming Star of the chart, as the corner where the GC and the GT converge, as well as the location of the Atropos Station.

So the first thing we need to do is talk about the Cusp of Libra, which is as important as the Aries Point (Cusp of Aries).  At the Aries Point a Seed of Spirit is planted into the fertile soil of our Soul.  At the Libra Cusp we meet Other for the first time.  Aries-to-Virgo is about our Personal Development, Libra-to-Pisces our Social Development.

We are, All of us, as Individuals and as Members of Groups of all sizes, entering a whole new phase in our Relationship to Other Individuals, and a whole new phase in our Relationship to Community.  In a nutshell, we’re now Creating our own Social and Relationship Realities (Makemake), Dropping our Olde Obsolete Patterns around Relationship and Culture (Atropos), and Trusting that we’re going in the right direction (Eurydike) even though we seem to be Betraying Mom’s admonition that “You cannot do that, it breaks all the rules you learned in school.”

Keep that in mind when you’re tempted to be Motivated by Guilt or a Need to Please Others at the Expense of your own Values and Needs.  Expect your Self-Sovereignty to be Tested as we approach 27 May (the Eurydike/Trust Station), when we’re likely to be Tempted to turn back to our Olde Codependent Ways when our old playmates complain that they are being Betrayed by the Shift in our Values and Behaviors.

Which is where Chiron comes in.  The Kite shifts the focus of the GC-GT to Chiron, at the top of the Kite.  Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake (Trusting-that-We-Can-End-Impediments-to-Manifesting-What-We-Want) becomes the Tail that Wags the Dog, and the Dog is Chiron or Despair, Despair that we “can’t win” – we get little Support for trying to Go Our Own Way, but the rewards for running our old Patterns are diminishing rapidly.

Until of course we Empathize with our Despair – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling like you can’t Win, aren’t you.”

The other two corners of the Grand Trine, from which our Blessings flow, are

  • Taking an Active Part in our New Beginnings (Mars-Klotho), which will probably seem Confusing and Difficult until 21 May, when Klotho Completes its Station.  Confusion is the first stage of Growth.
  • Following our Essence (Sun), our Heart, or our Guidance, which in the midst of Rapid and Big Change, can also be Confusing.  We may be in the Habit of Resisting our Fate in favor of Choice, but in this case we’re Asked to Choose to Accept our Fate, because our Fate is Transformation (Moira Conjunct Sun).

A final Caveat.  If you have Expectations about What-It-Will-Look-Like-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way, rest assured that they’re Dead Wrong, no matter how Psychic you’ve proven to be in the past.  This is a New Game.  Yes, if you’re Intuitive you’ll Recognize Home when you see it, but it’s the Vibration you’ll Recognize, not the Form. 

If you’re eager to Play It Forward, focus on How-It-Will-Feel-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way instead.  And make the Effort to Revert to a Blank Slate before noon PDT on 21 May, so you can be Surprised and Delighted when it Feels Even Better once Klotho Completes its Station.

Another Complication – at 11 am PDT on 22 May, Orcus Completes its Station.  Orcus is about Pattern-Breaking.  So even after noon on 21 May you might still be a prisoner to  your Olde Archetypes.  So feel free to focus on How-It-Will-Feel-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way, but you also want to PIAVA that you can Gently and Lovingly and Rapidly and Completely Let Go of All Patterns and Habits that Inhibit your Soul’s Destiny and your Ego’s Transformation to Supporting it Fully.

Close your Eyes and Look around for any Cables, Chains, or Dark Spots, particularly behind you.  One at a time, Gently remove the Barbed Hooks at your end of each Cable or Chain, and hand it back to its Source.  If its Source won’t take it, feed it to an Alligator.  Alligators are very Skilled at this Work.  One at a time, put a Mirror between you and any Dark Spots, facing the Dark Spot, then switch on the Bright Light that aims into the Darkness from the top of the Mirror.

Scan your Body for any Foreign Feelings – crawling or goosebumps or raised hackles (but not just your neck).  Put your Attention into that Hole in your Aura, and PIAVA that your Self-Sovereignty and your Essence Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely patch the Hole, Permanently, with your own Energy. 

You’re likely to feel Vulnerable there for a couple of days; consider the fact that you can now Feel your Vulnerability as evidence that you’re Healing – till now you were Unconscious of the Wound.  Like a Tick or Mosquito, your Programmers distracted your Attention before they installed the Hooks.  Whenever you’re Conscious of Feeling the Vulnerability, Fill it with your own Heart Energy.

More to follow.

Mother May I

May 15, 2018

We’ve left a lot of dangling participles, Initiations, Angles, etc.   If Life continues to evolve like it has in the past, we may never get back to them.  “We can trip out so far that we never get back to know that we’ve left” as Ken Kesey once put it.  How many times have we done that?!?!  Nevertheless, if any of the dangling participles is of particular interest to you, let me know and we can follow up.

We’re rapidly approaching the Station of Atropos – Endings – which occurs at 1 Libra on 18 May (4am PDT).  Note that it was prominent in the Uranus-Mercury Initiation chart (see The Soul Speaks a few posts back), Conjunct Eurydike (Trust) and Makemake (Manifestation).  We’ve spoken about how the New Moon Fear theme will try to frighten us back to the false “stability” of our Olde Ego rather than following our Newly Vocal Soul.  From Michael’s NPR interview…

“Each of Pollan’s experiences… was preceded by worry and self-doubt.  But, he says, ‘I realized later that was my ego trying to convince me not to do this thing that was going to challenge my ego.’ “

But this emphasis on Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake tells a different (additional) story.  The way we have traditionally Manifested/Makemake is Obsolete and is falling away.  We are to Trust/Eurydike that this Ending/Atropos, if we don’t Resist it, won’t leave us without Effective means of Survival. 

Resistance could freeze us in between, where our Olde Manifestation techniques are failing us, but we’ve stopped ourself from Opening to our Newe ones.  It will help to PIAVA Both/And (Olde and Newe) rather than Either/Or, with a Gentle and Loving Transition into the Newe.  Our Olde Approach will now become a Skill that we can use when it’s most appropriate, rather than an Archetype that uses us whether we like it or not.

For instance, don’t jump to the conclusion that you’ll lose your job (or other Sustenance) – you might just Encounter an Unexpected Shift where you suddenly Love your job so much that it’s pure Joy rather than “Work,” and the resulting Change in your Approach to Life-the-Universe-and-Everything shifts your Vibration from Resentment and Discontent to Gratitude and Excitement, so your World now Mirrors Gratitude and Excitement back to you instead of Resentment and Discontent.

The rest of May includes these Stations…

  • 21 May, Station of asteroid Klotho (Beginning Newe Timelines) at 30 Capricorn
  • 22 May, Station of dwarf planet Orcus (Breaking Obsolete Patterns) at 9 Virgo
  • 27 May, Station of asteroid Eurydike (Trust) at 2 Libra
  • 29 May, Station of dwarf planet OR10 (Invasive Memories) at 5 Pisces
  • 9 June, Station of dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) at 10 Pisces

Amazing that “Beginning Newe Timelines” and “Pattern-Breaking” – the Stations of Klotho and Orcus – follow Endings/Atropos so quickly!  On the one hand that leaves us treading water for only a few days, but on the other we only get a few days to Figure Out What We Want for our Newe Timeline.

But you don’t Want to Figure It Out – that would be more of your Olde Manifestation process, and that’s Obsolete.  You Want instead to Surrender to one of two things – either your Intuition, or What You’ve Always Wanted.  They may be the same, you may just be Doubting that because you’re so accustomed to Disappointment.

What I and a couple of close friends are discovering is that we have to Let It Flow rather than trying to Force It Through.  That we need to replace Doing with Praying.  That most of the time we want to Choose the Easy Way.

For the next week spend as much time as you can Surrendering into the Vibration of What-You-Want-Most.  Not the Expectation, but the Vibration.  Feel how you’ll Feel when Rejecting Bummer Dreams is automatic, and All of Your Fabulous Dreams Manifest Effortlessly.  Use What-You-Believe-You-Want-Most to Levitate yourself into that Bliss, then drop the Beliefs.

Once you can reliably Generate that Ecstasy, you won’t need the Beliefs, or the “props” and Expectations that Levered you into The-Vibration-That-You-Want-to-Spend-the-Rest-of-Your-Life-in.  You and the Universe will be Flowing Together in Harmony, and Everything you Want will Manifest on its own, as if the Universe was reading your mind.  Actually, the Universe will be “reading” your Heart, or rather, your Heart and the Heart of the Universe will be beating Together. 

Welcome Home!

 

Like Butter on the Land

May 15, 2018

Here’s a great interview with Michael Pollan about Ego and Identity…

https://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2018/05/15/611225541/reluctant-psychonaut-michael-pollan-embraces-the-new-science-of-psychedelics

If you do nothing else, listen to the several minutes following the 29:50 mark.  After you click on “Listen,” click somewhere between the 0:00 on the left and the 42:26 on the right to see where you are (your current position will replace the 0:00).  They don’t show the usual progress bar, but it’s there near the top of the page hidden beneath the text ” ‘Reluctant Psychonaut’ Michael Pollan Embraces The ‘New Science’…”  29:50 is under the “The.

A few excerpts…

“If you get really scared… you see a monster, for example, don’t try to run away. Walk right up to it, plant your feet and say, “What do you have to teach me? What are you doing in my mind?” And if you do that, according to the flight instructions, your fear will morph into something much more positive very quickly.”

“One of the things our mind does is tell stories about ourselves. If you’re depressed, you’re being told a story perhaps that you’re worthless, that no one could possibly love you, you’re not worthy of love, that life will not get better. And these stories — which are enforced by our egos really — trap us in these ruminative loops that are very hard to get out of. They’re very destructive patterns of thought…

When this part of your brain bone “goes offline for a period of time… you experience this dissolution of self or ego, which can be a terrifying or liberating thing, depending on your mindset. This is what allows people, I think, to have those new perspectives on themselves, to realize that they needn’t be trapped in those stories and they might actually be able to write some new stories about themselves.”

“What I brought back from that experience was that I’m not identical to my ego, that there is another ground on which to plant our feet and that our ego is kind of this character that is chattering neurotically in our minds.”

The text and the audio are different from one another.

Transmuting Fear New Moon

May 15, 2018

The 15 May New Moon (5am PDT), and therefore the theme of the next several weeks, is all about Reframing Fear into the Power that it really is.  Back in the early days of writing these, I lived in a basement apartment, and often wrote late at night.  As my Consciousness would expand into the darkness beyond the apartment, I’d often encounter Fear that someone was lurking just beyond the curtains, even chills and goosebumps. 

One night, after several episodes of these Fears, I flung the door open – to find a Glorious Full Moon Goddess staring down at me!  The Universe Loves Irony.  The New Moon chart is more organized than it looks…

The first bit of wisdom that it offers is that Lack of Respect for something – anything – is the doorway to Unconscious Fear.  When we’re Conscious of Fear we can Tap it Out, and Theta Clarity between our Intuition and our Negative Expectations. 

When Fear is Unconscious, it runs our Life.  We rationalize it – we “don’t like Such-and-Such because….” so we don’t have to admit to ourself that Such-and-Such, whatever It is, Frightens us, perhaps because we don’t know how to Stay in Control around it.  We’re Uncomfortable around People from Other Cultures because we don’t know how they’ll React to what we say or do.  And in turn, we don’t know how to Respond to their Reactions.

This is Fear.  What if we were Safe enough that we could just be our Natural, Vulnerable, Soul-Directed Self.  Much of what comes up over the next few weeks will be the Ego’s Reaction to the Soul’s New Tendency to say what it will (see previous post).  “Oh my God, what have I said?  And what do They think I said?  How am I going to wriggle out of this?  They might kill me!” 

What if we could just be Present and Neutral, and use the Potential Misunderstanding (or Understanding!) as the Opportunity to Ask Them what they’re Feeling, and actually get to know them better.  I know, They talk too fast, faster than my ears can Listen.  So I’d have to Ask Them to Slow Down, I’d have to Slow Way Down, Ask them to repeat, then mirror back to Them, “Did you mean…?”  What if the Real Objective was to Get to Know Other rather than Show Off the Ego?

The New Moon is Conjunct dwarf planet Sedna (Transforming Fear into Power), and Opposes asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things).

A friend was recently talking about Synchronicity, pointing out that Jung saw it as Acausal, and saying that he thought “the cause was coming… from some other dimension.”  Certainly a valid Perspective, but what if we could see the Universe with Eyes that don’t hold Cause and Effect to be the Bottom Line?  What if being Acausal meant that It just Is What It Is, without ever being Caused by anything?

What if Synchronicity is the Bottom-Line Operating Principle of the Universe, and Causality is only interjected by our Observing Minds because we don’t know how to think without it?  What if all Lapses of Perfect Synchronicity were just our own Negative Expectations interrupting our Perception of the True Natural process of Miracle?

In Physics 101 they introduce the concept of Flatland – if we lived in two dimensions, we were two-Dimensional ants on a flat surface, and an Entity who lived in three Dimensions came along and put their finger on our plane and moved things around.  We’d see it as Miracle.  What if “things” can Manifest and Demanifest directly, fully formed, without ever being “built” or taken apart?  You’ve had things go Walkabout – how the devil does that happen?

What I’m working towards here is the Opposition between the Sedna New Moon and Hopi.  Opposition, the Second Harmonic, symbolizing the Power of Ritual.  This is how we’re Hypnotized.  The mind is Dualistic; it Expects the Universe to Mirror it.  So we see Opposition as Contradistinction, or Contradiction.  We hold Fear/Sedna in one hand, and Respect for All Things/Hopi in the other, and see if we can Balance them.  Balance is a step up from Contradiction.

But the Sedna New Moon-Hopi Opposition is the Central Axis of a Yin Gate (the two green Xs on either side of the red asterisk, inside the blue box that they define – or three Oppositions one Sign apart), and a Yin Gate Asks us to look beyond Dualism into Paradox.  That Fear and Respect for All Things can co-exist relatively Peacefully – as they do in Real Life as opposed to in the mind – is a Paradox.

We may think that Respect for All Things has to demolish Fear if we are to Change Mother Earth.  But Fear will just crop up again in another Form, especially Unconscious Fear – “I’ll be Bach” as Arnold would say.  What if instead they must “just” be Balanced.  Or that we need to Meditate deeply on how Fear and Respect co-exist.  Or that we need to somehow Open to whole New Relationships between them.

There’s much more here…

  • The Contradistinctions/Paradoxes between Hidden Genius and Unlimited Potential (Ixion and Chaos-Venus-Pallas), the second Opposition
  • The Contradistinctions/Paradoxes between Rebirth and Ego Death (Haumea and Nemesis-Eris), the third Opposition
  • The green X’s themselves (Quincunxes, Curiosity)
  • The T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) to asteroid Veritas from Sedna-New Moon and Hopi
  • The Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings) between Veritas, Ixion, and Nemesis

But I’m so exhausted I can barely sit up.  I’ll continue tomorrow if I have time.

The Soul Speaks

May 14, 2018

We were in the middle of a dozen or so Initiations before we were interrupted by more pressing engagements.  Each Initiation represents a Change in the Water in our Aquarium, and when a bunch of them occur at once it represents a Big Change in the Zeitgeist.  So it’d be great to go back and summarize all of those Changes and how they might Relate to one another.  But astrology never stops, so it’ll be a while…

Meanwhile, on 13 May, in preparation for the New Moon at the Ides, we have a major Breakthrough in our Relationship to our Soul.  She Speaks to us, and if we Trust Her Lead, we’ll hear Her Speaking to the World, as we become less Willing to Censor Her.  If your Honesty Shocked you – or you were Shocked by the Honesty of Others – on the 13th, this is why.  It’s not even a Choice, though of course we could Choose to Embrace it; it’s an Open Portal for us to walk through; all we need to do is Surrender our Resistance.

More Initiations!  Within the last couple of weeks Uranus (Soul) has Initiated Lachesis (the Fated or Chosen Length of a Timeline), Mercury (Communication), and the Moon (Authenticity).

While the Portal is Open, our Contribution to the Change (that is, Surrendering Resistance) isn’t necessarily Easy.  We have to be Willing to Act to Support the Change without trying to Control it.  We have to be Willing to Allow the New Timeline to Change the way we Are in the World.  And we have to be Willing to Follow the Truth of our Life Force – Do what Energizes us, and Forgo what Enervates us.

The Uranus-Lachesis-Mercury-Moon Stellium (New Timeline around Authenticity of Communication) is the Focus of a T-Square (Challenge).  On the base are Klotho-Mars (Rebirth of Action) and Aletheia-Varuna (the Truth of the Life Force’s Demand for Authenticity).

There’s a second major Challenge around Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts.  This may not mean building a Bomb Shelter, going Off the Grid, or moving to Argentina, though don’t rule those out if that’s your Instinct.  In most cases though, it will mean the Opposite – Rejecting Fear, Embracing Community, and Finding Gratitude for what you’ve already been Gifted with.

This Challenge will involve developing the Habit of Empathizing with Pain and Suffering, especially your own Pain and Suffering, and Trusting that you will continue to Survive in spite of Giving Up your traditional approach to Manifestation. 

Look back over your Life to see where you’ve tended to Suffer, and where you’ve tended to be Blessed.  For example, maybe Money has been a constant Challenge for you, but Relationships have always Flowed Easily, or the other way around.  Those are actually Choices you’ve made, but you don’t recognize them as Choices because your Identity isn’t big enough to encompass the part of you that’s making the Choices.  The Door is Open for you to declare that Intention Now.

Pholus-Quaoar (Ability to Respond to our Survival Instincts) is the Focus of a second T-Square (Challenge) based on Chiron (Suffering and Poor-Sweethearting) and the Stellium of Atropos (Endings), Eurydike (Trust), and Makemake (Manifestation)…

These two Challenges Complement one another Perfectly – we become Fully Responsive to our Survival by Expressing the Truth of our Soul, and we Express the Truth of our Soul by being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts.

The foci of the two T-Squares Trine (Great Blessings) one another.

We don’t have to Struggle at this; there are many Graces fluttering about this chart and the New Moon.

For instance…

The second, Survival T-Square is a Diamond Star (Challenge made Easy by a “bowl of Grace” under the T-Square), with Fate/Choice (asteroid Moira) and Varuna-Aletheia (the Truth in our Life Force) providing the Ease.\

The first T-Square is a Diamond Star folded in half, or you could say a Diamond Star with its skirt up, as the “bowl of Grace” isn’t under the T-Square, but on top of it.  The Trine Bridges to the Authenticity T-Square are formed by Moira and Chiron (Victimhood or Self-Empathy)

Since the two T-Squares Trine one another, they form a Kite, consisting of an Air Grand Trine (Moira in Gemini, Makemake-Eurydike-Atropos in Libra, and Klotho-Mars on the Cusp of Aquarius) and a fourth Planet opposite one of the others (Varuna-Aletheia on the Cusp of Leo).

Cusps complicate matters, because while two or more Energies are Merged, they may not be Energies that are usually considered to be very Compatible.  This is actually a huge Blessing, as it wraps our Prejudices in Glowing Neon Duct-Tape. 

For instance, for the specific time we’ve Chosen for this chart (Moon Conjunct Uranus), Uranus and the Moon are in Aries (Spiritual Creativity) while Mercury and Lachesis are in Taurus (Material Stability).  Wouldn’t it be amazing and wonderful if Spiritual Creativity begat Material Stability!  Well, this chart says that…

When we Authentically Express our Soul’s Truth, then Material Stability will follow.  Sure, this is just a couple of planets passing in the night, soon to fade.  But every astrological angle is a Teaching and an Opportunity for us to Learn and make the Knowledge and Wisdom our own Permanently.  We won’t Learn the Wisdom of Authenticity in one try, but if we use every Opportunity to exercise those Muscles, we’ll soon be Making Miracles. 

Identity and Perspective

May 11, 2018

Here’s a great short video essay on Identity, Yintegrity, Yindependence, and Perspective…

http://www.karmatube.org/videos.php?id=7626

My considerable distractions are starting to wind down, so we should be able to return to our “regularly scheduled programming” shortly.

Portal 1.5 III

May 6, 2018

As we mentioned in the previous post, “There are other Changes going on as well” – that is, other Initiations or Conjunctions or Changes of the Nature of the Field or Trance that we’re Embedded in.  I missed one in that post…

  • Revelation of what’s been Denied Initiating Ego Death (Eris Initiating Nemesis)

until Marilyn Raffaele reminded me…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

Choosing to to remain locked in some particular belief system in order to please others or simply ‘keep the peace’ is a surrendering of personal power. This does not mean that you abandon family and friends unless it becomes necessary which it sometimes does.  It simply means that you stay centered in truth and alert to the temptation to align with any beliefs the group may hold but that you no longer resonate with.   Life becomes  being ‘In the world, but not of it’.”

Though Marilyn’s Channeling would also fit perfectly well with…

  • The Most Important Thing Initiating Letting Go of Codependence (Saturn Initiating Hylonome)

And with the fact that by now we’re deep into the Energy of the first Station of May, the 8 May Station of asteroid Vesta (1 am PDT at 5 Capricorn), which herself symbolizes Beliefs.  Unconscious Beliefs have a particularly strong hold on us because when we don’t Discern their existence, we never Reconsider them.  When they start to become Conscious and we begin to Question whether they Serve us or the Planet, it can be particularly disruptive, often even Blasphemously, to Relationships based on Mutual Belief.

So many of our Beliefs are Installed by our Programmers, using Repetition, “Logic” (such as “You wouldn’t want someone else to do that to you, would you?”), Story (Snidely: “Did you hear what Soandso did to Whozit?”), and particularly Shaming and other forms of Abuse.  Shame is one of the hardest Belief Traps to Escape from, because it’s a Feeling so Distasteful that we never want to do the Work Exploring it.  Abandonment can be as Difficult, as it can create a Blank Spot in our Awareness.

Many others of our Beliefs are Karmic and Enforced by other Held Emotions, Emotions that are equally Distasteful as Shame to us personally, Emotions that we’d “rather Die” than Experience again.  To break free of these we need on some level, Voluntarily or otherwise, to endure the Ego Death (Nemesis) that breaking out of our cage often requires.

Another of the “other Changes going on as well”…

  • Fear Initiating Fate, or Embracing Fear as Power Initiating Choice, depending on whether the Universe is Perp or Partner to you (Sedna and Moira)

is also well covered in Marilyn’s Channeling…

Words and actions that flow from an evolved state of consciousness are capable of triggering a new state of awareness for those seriously seeking a higher way for themselves and the world.  Many are on the verge of awakening at this time and those satisfied with the status quo are becoming a minority.  Some who have always lived in fear are now reclaiming the power they ignorantly gave away and feeling comfortable instead of fearful doing it.  You are on the verge of much change in spite of appearances but you must be patient and allow the process.

“We wish to speak to the idea of security which in the third dimension primarily revolves around vulnerability and separation, concepts designed to keep the majority locked in fear.  The only real security there ever is or will be is already fully present within you.  Safety and security is the automatic manifestation of the conscious realization that there is nothing you need to protect yourself against.  This is your protective work, not the hundreds of material concepts believed necessary for personal survival.
 
“The third dimensional belief system holds that there are millions of people, places, and things you need protection from–diseases, bad people, dangerous places and anything deemed dangerous by those in authority.  If there is only ONE, who or what can there be that you need protection from?”

Portal 1.5 II

May 4, 2018

We earlier referred to this 1 Aries Chiron-Juno Initiation as the Opportunity, should we choose to Accept it, to end Suffering.”  But we didn’t mention what Acceptance would look like.  Of course we won’t encounter the End of Suffering without encountering Suffering – that’s not how it works.  We’d encounter the end of Suffering by encountering Suffering and Letting it Go…

Which of course means Tapping, or Mirroring the first Antagonist you think of, or Poor-Sweethearting, or just Laughing at how Ironic the Universe is.  It’s so easy to forget that the Universe just Mirrors our internal state and fall for the Bullshit that it’s Objective.  Under our Programmed Trance, we’re not only Separate from the Universe, but we’re Its Victim.  From that Perspective, Spiritual Truths like “We Are All One” and “As Within So Without” are just campaign slogans. 

This story…

 https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/nation/2015/06/15/spokane-naacp-president-ethnicity-questions/71250504/

https://knpr.org/npr/2018-05/rachel-divide-director-says-dolezal-has-remained-resolute

When we Pretend to be Separate from the Rest of the Universe, and particularly when we Imagine ourselves to be a Victim of the Rest of the Universe (when we Suffer, for instance), that’s about Identity as well.  Growth in Consciousness means that More of the Universe becomes part of Us.  As Rachel’s story illustrates, there are a lot of stages to go through, including many heavy Emotional states, before we can Grok how the Perp is part of Us.  But that’s how we Shake Off Suffering.

The chart of the Initiation is intriguing…Every corner is multiple, either a Conjunction or a Stellium (Three or more planets Conjoining).  The First Harmonic (Conjunction) is the Magician.  Conjunctions are about Merging, or Loss of Individual Identity, or Expanding Identity to include More…

  • What happens when Despair (Chiron) and Consciousness (Juno) are Merged?  Miracles (Chiron) and Consciousness?

We can’t forget that the first step in Growth of Consciousness is Confusion.  If we interpret Confusion to mean that we have to Figure It Out, we Lose, because all we’ll do is force ourself back into the old Concept Set that enforces the Limits of our old, narrower Consciousness, our Birdcage. 

We have to Let Confusion Be, Celebrate it.  We also may have to pass through an Ego Death as our old Identity/Consciousness/Ego tries to keep us Safe from the Unknown.  No Blame, that’s just the Ego’s job description.  Give it Gratitude. 

Ultimately our Project is to Befriend the Unconscious.  Since the Unconscious is In Charge, Resistance is not only a waste of time and effort, but also the major Source of Suffering.  Since the major impediment to doing that is Ego Death, which most of us most of the time Resist mightily, we need also to Befriend the Ego.

We can start by Appreciating it’s Efforts to keep us Safe.  “Thanks, Honey, I know you’re trying to Protect me!”  “You Poor Sweetheart, this feels like a Death to you, doesn’t it.”  “Hey, do you suppose we could work out a way for both of us to move to a Higher Level of Protection, Together?!?”  It’s been done before, we can do it again.

  • What happens when the Soul (Uranus) is Merged with Choice (Lachesis)?
  • What happens when Truth (Aletheia) and the Life Force (Varuna) Merge?
  • What happens when our Survival Instincts (Quaoar) and our Ability to Respond (Pholus) feel like One and the Same?
  • What happens when Trust (Eurydike) and Endings (Atropos) are Merged?  And what happens when that is Merged with Manifestation (Makemake)?

Each of these Conjunctions represents either an imminent Initiation itself, or a reiteration of a recent Initiation.  An Initiation means that a Cycle is restarting.  It’s like Changing the Water in your Aquarium, a Change of Timelines.  Think of it as the more Powerful (slower) planet giving the lesser one Shaktipat.

There are other Changes going on as well…

  • Unlimited Potential Initiating Boundaries (dwarf planet Chaos and Pallas)
  • Mission Initiating Sustainability (North Node and Ceres)
  • The Most Important Thing Initiating Letting Go of Codependence (Saturn and Hylonome)
  • New Beginnings Initiating Action (asteroid Klotho and Mars)
  • Fear Initiating Fate or Embracing Fear as Power Initiating Choice, depending on whether the Universe is Perp or Partner to you (Sedna and Moira)
  • Intuition Initiating Values (dwarf planet Asbolus and Venus)

That’s a whole lot of Change happening all at once, too much for me to try to keep up with.  No wonder folks are signifying that this is a Tripping Point!

Portal 1.5

May 2, 2018

(http://www.philip-reeve.com/?s=widdershins+moorland+mythic+arts+in)

Mayday means a lot of different things, from Pagan Rites to military parades to Maypoles to SOS to Bonfires.  This year it also means “A Woman just risen from the Sea, embraced by a Seal”…

As Chiron (Despair, Healing, Empathy) Initiates Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) at 1 of Aries (10am PDT 29 April).  1 of Aries is where it all begins.  This is a Biggie, as the Opportunity, should we choose to accept it, is the end of Suffering.  We wrote about the Juno-Chiron Cycle four years ago, at the previous Initiation…

 https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/01/24/chiron-and-juno/

Thanks to Beautiful Hummingbird for the reminder.

Along these lines, several Channels have proclaimed this Portal to be a major Milestone – Brenda Hoffman for one…

 https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2018/04/30/turning-point/

“Today, April 29, 2018, is a day that will go down in history even though you do not know such is so at this time – for you have shifted from fear to joy. 

“You believe such is not necessarily so for you still have thoughts of, “What if this or that happens?”  Neither of which will become your reality.  Today is a full Scorpio moon, and most of you accept that a full moon means confusion, even disaster. So you wait for that which does not happen.

“So it is you are adjusting to new you, one possible 3D calamity at a time.  For you are so comfortable with fear, you cannot imagine that there is nothing left to fear…”

And “Galaxygirl”…

 https://eraoflight.com/2018/04/30/pleiadian-collective-the-light-has-won/

“The Light has won.  It is time for Humanity to be freed of misconceptions, of the pain, of the lie of Separation…”

And our old friend Daniel Scranton…

http://danielscranton.com/humanitys-timeline-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

It is more challenging for you because most of you only access the past and the present, but that is enough.  It is enough to be present and to feel for the vibration of the timeline that you’re on.  You can determine for yourself whether that timeline suits you or not.  What becomes more challenging for you is when you attempt to take the temperature of humanity and determine the vibration that the rest of the collective is offering.

“It can be very challenging for some of you to believe that humanity is headed in a positive direction at all, but that is usually due to the fact that you are tuning in to what the media is emphasizing.  If you want to truly take the temperature of humanity, and access the truth of the collective’s vibration, you need to connect to Mother Earth and feel for the vibration that she is giving off.

“You can also look at the people around you and notice how they are evolving.  You can tell by how a person’s energy feels whether he or she is moving in a positive direction, and although it may be hard at times to notice, we know that you can feel for the progress in the beings that you connect with on a regular basis.  We know that you can, with a little effort, feel for the motion forward that humanity is making, and you can rest assured that this timeline you are on now is one that will lead you to a more joyous journey, and ultimately, to the fifth dimension.”

It feels like profound Changes are afoot to me as well.

Full Moon Blessings II

April 29, 2018

There is a third Diamond Star in the Full Moon chart, this one to the Venus T-Square.  The Bowl of Grace in it consists of the Moon and Saturn-Hylonome.

This is a tightly Integrated series of Gifts, where each Reinforces the Others.

The Vacancy that would create a more-Balanced Grand Cross out of the Venus T-Square is 8 Sagittarius, “Within the depths of the Earth new elements are being formed: The Alchemical Fire that both purifies and transforms the Inner Life.”

Vacancies typically are Energies that we have to provide Consciously, but in this case Goddess Gaia/Pi is doing it for us.  We reinforce the Energy by Paying Attention to it.  In Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian Channeling yesterday…

http://danielscranton.com/conscious-evolution-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

You are putting an emphasis on the evolution of your consciousness.  Now, this is something that happens naturally, without any intervention on your part.  But when you put an emphasis on it, you are doing more good than you know. 

“You are choosing to live in a reality where the emphasis on the evolution of consciousness is something that is an invitation that is being offered to all beings.  You can live in whatever reality you want to live in, and where you put your emphasis determines which reality you will find yourselves in…

“We just want you all to recognize yourselves as being the creators of the experience that you are having.  It is a much better experience than most of the alternatives that you are faced with, but because you chose to put an emphasis on raising your vibration, being more of who you are, and being of service, that is the reality that you are going to experience as you continue on in this journey.”

And from today’s…

http://danielscranton.com/breaking-free-from-programming-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

You are breaking free from the chains that you placed upon yourselves before incarnating in this lifetime.  You had to have these chains in place until you were ready to bring yourselves to the fifth dimensional frequency range.

“You knew that there were certain experiences that you had to have this lifetime to set yourselves up for the full integration of all aspects of who you are and who you have been, and now that you have lived those experiences you have much more freedom than you have ever had in any Earthly lifetime.

The chains are no longer there, but the programming still is

The easiest way for you to release yourselves from the programming is to turn off your TVs, your computers, your phones, and all of your devices, get out into nature, and feel for the truth of the high frequency energies that have been competing with that programming for quite some time.  Just as you are free from those chains, you have made yourselves available to these energies, and they have made themselves available to you.

But the lower frequency vibrations of the social programming has been the interference.  It has been keeping you divided.  It has been telling you that you have reason to be afraid, and it has you striving for a level of success that has nothing to do with becoming more of who you are.

The Blessings continue…

Including the Full Moon but not the Nodal Axis, dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking), Saturn-Hylonome, and Nessus comprise five of the six points that would Complete a Magnetic Grand Sextile.  The Vacancy that would Complete it is 10 Cancer, “A large Diamond in the first stages of the cutting process.”

Again, our Task is to Pay Attention to the World We Are Creating rather than the one that we want to leave.  As Jewel put it…

“Lend your voices only to sounds of Freedom
No longer lend your strength to that which you wish to be free from”…

Which includes Paying Attention to the fact that we’re still in the “first stages” of Shaping our Diamond.

Not that we aren’t Spectacular and Gorgeous just the way we are, but getting smug when we aren’t finished with our Mission just sets ourself up for unnecessary future Ego Deaths.

While we’re on the subject of Oath-Making and -Breaking (Orcus), we need to point out something that we seldom mention – the short green lines in any chart.  These are the “Unxes” – the seldom-used word Unx means one twelfth of something, and an Unx is a Twelfth-Harmonic Angle, or two planets that are one Sign apart. 

The Twelfth Harmonic is the “Hanging Man,” but he isn’t Hanging by his Fingernails or Neck, rather by his Heels – in order to get a new Perspective on the World and Break Old Patterns.  There are usually a number of Unxes in each chart, and each one Creates an Opportunity to Break Free of our Programming and of the places to which we No Longer want to Lend our Strength.

Let’s look at a few examples…

In addition to the Diamond-Star Trine Bridges, the Full Moon is also Bridged by a Quincunx to asteroid Sappho.  We’d usually focus on PIAVAs that would attempt to preserve the Curiosity inherent in the Quincunx (two planets five Signs apart), because that Natural Curiosity is a red flag indicating a Pattern that we have a current Opportunity to Explore more deeply.

For instance, Moon in Scorpio Quincunx Sappho in Aries.  Marko Pogačnik (Sacred Geography, p.104) suggests…

“To perceive Water Beings [Scorpio] one can use the language of traditional symbols attributed to them.  Standing in front of a water body, imagine that your buttocks are covered with fish scales and your legs are shaped like a movable fish tail.  Then quickly detach yourself from your imagination and open yourself instantly to perception.”

and (p.107)…

“To get a good perception of Fire Beings [Aries], one should concentrate on the warmth and pulsation of the blood within one’s veins – which represents the Fire Element within our body.  Open your perception from there.”

These would both be great PIAVAs.  We could start each of these exercises by briefly calling to mind a current Emotional (Water/Scorpio) or Spiritual (Fire/Aries) Difficulty or Question we have.   Then we could follow with a PIAVA about how they are Related. 

If you’ve ever had a gas stove and flicked water into the flame, you see the flame turn from blue to orange briefly, as the heat cleaves the highly flammable Hydrogen from the other Element in the Water, the Oxygen that Ignition requires.  Water and Fire are not so far apart as one would think.

Emotion can quench Spirit (Water extinguishing Fire), Held Emotions by cutting part of ourself off from the rest of ourself, and Intense Emotion just by demanding our Full Attention and blotting out Spiritual Perspective.  In the former case we’d like to Strive for Wholeness; in the latter we have to Surrender to the Overwhelm for a while in order for the Emotions not to become Held. 

But in appropriate proportions, Spiritual Fire can Break Up the Persistence of Emotions.  In the Wild, we often either processed Emotion quickly, or became someone else’s dinner.  No Blame there, we’re just returning the favor, as so many times Other Beings have become our dinner, and we’re just Giving Back.  Many tuned-in Cultures “bury” their Dead on platforms, so the Nutrients can be directly Recycled by the Critters that the Culture Co-Exists with and Cooperates with to maintain Sustenance.

This is a Waning Quincunx, so beginning to think about Recycling is appropriate.

But let’s look at the Unx half of the Quincunx Bridge – Sun Unx Sappho, Breaking Patterns around, or Gaining New Perspective on, how our Essence and our Self-Love Relate to one another.

A reader today writes…

“The work now becomes ‘growing’ those skills of boundaries, healthy anger, putting True Mission first, finding Right Community and all the rest.  Certainly work of a lifetime!  Plus continual Loving of the parts that still feel Betrayed, Abandoned and Shamed.  I kept wanting Justice, but now I’m just aiming to become aware of, and Love, those sad, angry, and hopeless parts, without changing them into something more ‘acceptable.’ “

Our Essence often Values Justice, but we always need to remind ourself that Nothing Changes Until We Accept It Fully Just As It Is.  It’s not like the Urge for Justice then goes away; it’s that without the Emotional Load (which is usually runoff from some distantly-related Held Emotion) we’re much more Able to Act Effectively to Change the World in (usually small but) Measurable ways.

Our reader continues…

“There is still some difficulty, in that you and many others talk about the thoughts we have as shaping our timelines.  And so I feel uncertain as to how I can welcome these… less pleasant?… manifestations while not having them rule any capability I have to set new directions.”

We don’t talk enough about Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade, but it’s a very important tool for dealing with unwelcome Thoughts.  The Statement Asks the Universe to Cancel the “Negative” thought we just had, Neutralize the Vibration it has Projected into the Ethers, and Upgrade the Thinker (that be us).  With practice we can build the Habit of issuing this Directive quickly after thoughts that could potentially Create Realities we don’t Want. 

While we’re working to develop that Habit, we can follow the Invitation that the Unconscious has offered through the “Negative” thought – Gestalt immediately springs to mind.  We would not have had that Negative thought (says the Jungian) if it did not have a Positive purpose for our Enlightenment.  So there is a part of us that regards this as Negative, and a part of us for which this is evidently some form of Truth.

We could Tap Out the “Even though I sometimes think [this Negative thought] [Negative Thoughts (in general)], I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself…”  That could help squelch the thought.  But the Gestalt process could help us Get To The Bottom Of It (which is what Scorpio is all about).  The Negative thought is an Expression of something we actually Want, we’re just in the Habit of Expressing it in Negative terms, probably because someone once told us that What We Want wasn’t Politically Correct.

Fritz (Perls) had us Imagine two chairs.  In one chair would sit the part of us that is in the Habit of reciting this Negative thought, and in the other chair was the part of us that is in the Habit of Judging this particular thought as Negative.  The first assignment is to Discover What the part of us in the Negative chair Wants that will make a Positive contribution to our Lives.

For instance, maybe the part of us in the Negative chair is in the Habit of thinking about Fear of Scarcity.  Well, an obvious possibility could be that what the part of us in the Negative chair really Wants, is Abundance, and it’s trying to urge us to work on Strategies for same.  Maybe.  This is always an “…or something like that” game as Eugene Gendlin would say.  Conclusions are Killers.  Possibilities are Life-Enhancers. 

Or maybe our Negative thought is an Intuition that some element is flawed in the Abundance Strategy that we already have.  Or maybe it’s an Intuition that since our Abundance Strategy is an attempt to Control an Uncertain Future, we should perhaps consider switching to PIAVAs about Future Abundance, where we specify What We Want (Katherine Ponder reminds us that Abundance means Having Enough to Share), Trust that the Universe will Provide that in its own way, and Tap Out the Anxiety underlying our Negativity.

Now of course in the other chair sits our Judgments.  Which is worse relative to the Evolution of our Consciousness – Judgment, or a poorly worded Desire for Abundance (if that’s what it was)?  Do we Judge Judgment?  This may be an Opportunity to Differentiate Blame (assignment of Past Causation) from Response-Ability (attempting to improve Future Outcomes).

You can see the Vast Field of Opportunity Opening up here!  Remember that Growth in Consciousness is not about Discovery; it’s about Differentiation.  The Complete Universe has always been here; there are just parts of it that we haven’t been in the Habit of Differentiating from background “Noise.”  That Bird was in the Bush all along; we just didn’t See it till it moved.  If it was could have been our Dinner and it just flew out of range, Growth in Consciousness – and Survival, might mean Upgrading our Attention and Sensitivity to Shapes and Colors.

For instance, in moment of writer’s block I often play a game of Solitaire on an ancient laptop.  It’s recently gone crazy with its colors, so I now have the Shape of the suits, but not the Colors.  It demands an additional layer of thought, where Habit no longer works, which is a real Pain in the Scales.  It’s Exhausting rather than Relaxing, as Learning often is.  The Universe is trying to tell me something, I have no idea what, but it obviously has to do with Recognizing Shapes.

Some of the Angles in this chart I’ve drawn in with light lines, in order to emphasize the many primary Configurations, but please don’t regard the light lines as less important.

For instance, there are six Fingers of God in the Full Moon chart, each one Asking us to Pay Attention To This!  We’ve already talked about Ceres-North Node, Venus, the Moon, and Saturn-Hylonome.  Hidden in the light lines are additional Fingers of God to Sappho and Orcus.  We’ve talked about both of those, but in the process we haven’t noted the Importance that the Fingers of God add to their Impact.  You might want to reread about them in that Light.

Which leaves the Grand Quintile and it’s other celebrity (in addition to the North Node-Ceres Initiation), the Sedna-Moira Initiation (5:30 pm PDT 27 April).  We’ll write about that soon, but if you want homework, we’ve written about the interaction between Moira and Sedna at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/08/27/eclipsalypse-iv/.