Intuitive Confidence V – Lesson Plan

September 18, 2017

The Asbolus Station chart, and the New Moon after it, features no less than three Quintile Yods.  A Yod is a wedge-shaped triangle.  A Quintile is two planets one fifth of the way ’round the Zodiac from one another.  It means Learning and Teaching, the Fifth Harmonic.  We usually draw them in orange (though they look more red here).  A Quintile Yod is made up of two Biquintiles (two fifths of the way ’round) and one Quintile, making a narrow triangle, like these…

The three Quintile Yods include…

  • A Nemesis QYod on a base of Stationary Asbolus and Venus – we will be Learning about Ego Death with our Intuition and our Values as our Teachers
  • An Ixion-Saturn-Lilith QYod on a base of Pallas and Ceres-Aletheia-Mnemosyne – We’re finally Learning that it’s Most Important to Support the Sovereignty of our Hidden Genius, as we Remember the Truth of the Abuse that forced Her underground, and Learn to draw Boundaries to Protect Her
  • A North Node QYod on a base of Chiron and Pluto – This one is Big too; we’re Learning to Support our Lifetime Mission (whether we recognize it Consciously or not), by Accepting the necessary Self-Transformations and Empathizing with the Pain of the resulting Ego Deaths

One Quintile Yod is fairly unusual; three of them at once is a Graduate School.

In the previous post, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/18/intuitive-confidence-iv-asbolus/, we drew in, in light lines, the ongoing Earth Grand Trine that includes the 17 September Chariklo Station, partly to remind us that it’s still about, and partly to point out that… 

  • Orcus Initiated Mercury in 10 Virgo on 17 September (6pm PDT).
  • Orcus Initiated Moon in 10 Virgo on 18 September (noon PDT).
  • Orcus Initiates Mars in 10 Virgo on 19 September (10:30 am PDT).

10 Virgo is “Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows,” which Rudhyar interprets as Transcending Duality.  Wouldn’t that be nice.  Orcus is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking.  The Etruscan God Orcus was in charge of Punishing Oath-Breakers.  Oaths serve only to enforce Slavery, whether to outside Authority or to our own mind.  A distant Ancestor once took an Oath to Breathe Oxygen, so we can’t dismiss Oaths completely – we’re Creatures of Habit, and we’d all be stumbling around like one-year-olds if we weren’t, if we made it to year one. 

However, there’s a one-to-one relationship between Oaths we’ve made and Archetypes that Enslave us.  We live 99% from the Unconscious, and many of the Archetypal Programs running in the Unconscious are Limiting Beliefs.  Since those Limiting Beliefs travel with us from Lifetime to Lifetime, we’ve Vowed to Escape from some of them during the current Lifetime.  The Etruscans were right – Breaking an Oath requires Punishment, and we feel it as Guilt. 

Yes, we Disappoint and Abandon many people, in this Lifetime and others, when we disavow an Oath, and that doesn’t feel good.  This Discomfort is part of our Ego Death.  We use the Ego to Merge with an Oath to create a Limiting Belief – it Defines us – otherwise we wouldn’t reliably Obey it.  So Transcending it requires an Ego Death.  

Intuitive Confidence IV – Asbolus

September 18, 2017

While both our Massive Blessing Energy and the Asbolus Energy are prominent during this whole span (± 15-19 September; refer to the Calendar, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/03/calendar/), now after the Chariklo Station, this Asbolus Energy is Strongest.  There’s only one ‘s’ in the first syllable, but many folks in Western Culture act as if there are two, working hard to renounce their Intuition.  The dwarf planet Asbolus is a Centaur.  In Greek tales, a Centaur is half huper and half horse, spawn of Badboy Ixion raping a Cloud.  In astronomy, a Centaur is a minor planet with an elliptical orbit between Jupiter and Neptune. 

Astrology takes its meaning mostly from six sources.  First, the astronomy.  Second, Synchronies with the mythological name.  Third, a chart for the planet’s initial “Discovery” (as a birth chart; the planet wasn’t born then, but it’s introduction into Huper Consciousness was).  Fourth, our Experience with the planet in birth charts and Transits (when a planet in the Sky makes a significant Angle to one of our birth planets).  Fifth, our Experience when the planet is “lit up” in the sky,  for instance when it’s Stationary, as it is now.  And sixth, Channeling and Intuition.

The meaning we assign to Asbolus is Intuition.  The chart of her Station is less sanguine than that of her fellow Centaur Chariklo (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/15/intuitive-confidence-ii-massive-blessing/)…

The other three corners of the Grand Cross (big red + inside the red , symbolizing high Motivation) are instructive – Trust (asteroid Eurydike) at the top, Priority (Saturn, The Most Important Thing) at the left, and Timing (Lachesis, Choice about when to Change a Decision or Abolish an Archetype) in the foundation at the bottom.  Trust, Priority, and Timing form an excellent foundation for improving our Access to our Intuition, which as we’ll see in the next post is a big part of what we’re Learning this week.

If you turn the chart upside down you can see the Lachesis Diamond Star (a T-Square – red Δ – and a Finger of God – green wedge – with the same focus).  A Diamond Star is a Challenge made Easier by Grace (blue truss Bridge across the Opposition) and Attention to (the feet of the Finger of God) Truth (asteroid Veritas) and Respect for All Things (asteroid Hopi).  We can read this beneficial combination of Truth, Respect, and Timing as Neutrality.

Transformation, or Trance Re-Formation (Pluto), has a prominent role in the Asbolus Station, being the focus of a second Pay Attention! Configuration (Finger of God or Yod, the green wedge pointing to Pluto) around the Truth of our Intuition (Veritas and Asbolus), and Challenging our Ability and Willingness to Respect All Things (Pluto Square to Hopi).  The intellect makes Judgments, which remove us from the Sacred Space of Love and Curiosity.  Intuition makes Recommendations and Preferences that can Ask us to make Choices, but within a Space of Compassion.  

Our favorite Intuition Crystal is Apophyllite, a Potassium Calcium Silicate…

It looks like an exceptionally clear Quartz Crystal, but with four sides rather than six.  While an Apophyllite Crystal often looks integral, it’s actually a Mica, or Phyllosilicate.  Micas are made up of thin sheets of Silicate, with very strong bonds within each sheet and very weak bonds between sheets.  Because the surfaces and edges of each sheet are exceptionally smooth, they Reflect Light intensely, like the Dihydrogen Oxide Crystal in your Lemonade. 

If you look carefully into this Crystal you can see several horizontal lines, where the apparent color of the crystal changes from greyish (top) to greeny-blackish to whitish – those are lines between sheets, and if you dropped or rapped the Crystal it would cleave at those lines.  Most micas will cleave into thin sheets; Apophyllite will often have tighter bonds between some sheets, so a broken Crystal will look whole and unbroken, but with a perfectly flat top and bottom.

Which is an excellent metaphor for Intuition.  Intuition is Bright and Fluid, but easily frozen.  The lines between well-bound sheets represents Intellectualization.  We get a Fluid Intuitive Breakthrough, and we immediately freeze it with the mind into an Idea.  We Ask which way to go and we get the message to go West.  Once we take a step to the West, if we’re truly Operating on Intuition, rather than taking a second step to the West, we need to Ask again – the preferred second step may be to the South.  Yes, the mind says, “How impractical!  It will take me forever to get anywhere!”  The mind always thinks it’s going somewhere.

But like anything else, it takes Repetition to Develop the Habit of Trusting Intuition well enough that it’s automatic, so it Operates as quickly as a thought.  Of course it always does already, so really it’s about Training ourselves to quit using our thoughts to Reject our Intuitions.  Once we’re heading West, the mind will tend to continue heading West.  When I’m out driving around and I’m not sure which way to go, I let my Hands on the steering wheel make the decision which way to turn, rather than Deciding beforehand.  This is an old cartoon, so you may not recognize it, but this kid was a pro at Intuitive Meandering…

Which illustrates another characteristic of Intuition; it comes straight from the Unconscious, so it may not always support our Conscious Egoic Intentions.  Mommy thought the Letters needed to be sent today, but Intuitively, Billy – or the Letters – had other plans.  Time to Change the Subject and Pay Attention.

When you Operate Intuitively, the only Explanation or Justification you ever need to give for your Behavior is that “My Gut told me,” or the equivalent.  Intuition comes to each of us in a different form.  For some of us it’s the Gut, for others the Heart, for others it’s a Voice or a Vision or an Emotion, or a twitch in the third toe, or a “Little Bird.”  Only you know what Channel your Intuition arrives on, based on your Experience with it.  If you don’t know that Consciously already, this would be a good time to PIAVA to gain that Wisdom, but resolve to hold the information lightly.  It may Change, and your Perception of it is likely to get more accurate with Practice.

Intuitive Confidence III – Massive Blessing II

September 15, 2017

Here’s a Massive Self-Confidence Blessing for us, from Dr. Kim…

http://drkimderamo.com/three-reasons-people-dont-heal/

“What is it that blocks so many from healing?  There are three key factors keeping you stuck.

  • OUR WAY OF BEING.  Our state of being creates a chemical imprint.  When we live in fear and try to manage our illness from a state of fight or flight we tax our bodies with stress hormones.  When we try to “fix” the body with our mind, rather than surrendering to the heart, we prevent healing.  We must allow something new to come in, and ‘let go’ of trying to fix the problem so that it can resolve.
  • VICTIM MENTALITY.  Living in a state of mind where you feel as if life is happening to you.  Feeling like nothing you do is working or helping keeps you stuck on this pattern of seeing yourself and the world.  Until we resolve what is actually happening within us, we won’t be able to let go and allow something new to come in.
  • LIVING IN A SPACE OF ‘NOT GOOD ENOUGH.’  When we feel less about ourselves and focus our attention on others needs more than our own, we can’t heal.  When you feel that you are not enough or don’t matter, your body can’t get what it needs, so you block healing.”

Of course, Changing any of the three is the Lottery Prize, but we can start by Asking ourselves if any of the three is true for us; if so, what do we Feel about it; then Tapping it Out and Thetaing it.  And following that by PIAVAing an Improved Outcome. 

See…

if you aren’t familiar with any of those three.

Or, you could nose around on Dr. Kim’s website for a hundred other suggestions, including her small but Powerful book…

http://drkimderamo.com/videos/

And today’s message from Dan’s Arcturian chorus, as is often the case, isn’t far from the current theme either…

http://danielscranton.com/what-you-want-to-create-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“It is the perfect time for all of you to consider what experiences you want to have.  It is a time where the energies have never been more supportive of moving you to the reality you want to experience.  The reason why you need to keep checking in with yourselves, as far as what it is that you want to create, is because you are changing with the energies.  Your desires are shifting, and the thought forms that you have access to are also of a higher frequency.

“So now what you want for yourself, you also want for all others.  You can see yourself as a part of a bigger picture, a collective, a human race.  And your willingness to listen to those desires that you have within you, and feel for how they resonate with your ascension, is crucial in lining you up with the experiences that you want to have.  You are meant to let this universe inspire you to want to create.

“You are not just here to evolve, transcend the physical, and escape to another dimension.  You are also here as the pioneers, creating something brand new, something never before experienced.  And in order to do that, you must acknowledge your desires, and you must be willing to receive that which you are creating.  It is important for you to feel that you deserve that which you are creating so that you can experience it.

“It is through experience that you grow, and it is through experience that you become more specified in what you are creating next.  You are absolutely worthy of everything that you want to create for yourselves and for the rest of humanity, and this journey that you are on is supposed to be one of joy and exploration.  There is plenty of energy to go around for all to live in abundance and for all to experience everything that this universe has to offer and more.”

When we Live in Harmony with our True Self, as we’ve been Learning to do since “the End of Time as We Know It” in 2012 (ie, Uranus Square Pluto, enhanced by Eris’s 2016 Initiation of Uranus, which inspired the new 90-year Uranus-Eris Cycle with “Openness to Spiritual Energy), Self-Confidence is never an issue; it doesn’t even come up.  If Narcissism is your True Self, then you have some good models in the public eye to emulate.  It behooves us to Imagine what it is about Weird and Contrary Manifestations that might be their Positive Psychic Purpose in our Planet’s Evolution and our own.

Of course the Exceptions, and they are very prominent Exceptions, include the places where we Surrender our Self-Sovereignty to Cultural or Familial Authority or the “successful” Bullying by someone else’s Intolerance, and where our Forbidden Genius has been “beaten” out of us in one way or another.  What a “Coincidence” that the Stellium between Ixion (our Forbidden Genius), Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) and Saturn (The Most Important Thing) isn’t that far from making another Twentieth-Harmonic Angle (see previous post) to the Chariklo Station.

Arguably the greatest Blessing here is the Opportunity to get Curious and Conscious about these Exceptions so we Accept the Opportunity to convert them from “Fate” to Choice.

Intuitive Confidence II – Massive Blessing!

September 15, 2017

The 17 September (3am PDT) Chariklo (Self-Confidence) Station contains a Blessing so strong that I don’t recall ever seeing one like it.  The Station makes only two within-three-Degrees-of-Sensitivity (“Orb” in astrospeak) Angles – both Trines (Great Grace), giving the chart only one Configuration, a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace).  The Grand Trine is so Blessed that, until we Realize that other people have their own Gifts and it’s not about the Ego, we usually Live it as Arrogance. 

Our respective Gifts complement one another, but when one person thinks their Gifts are the result of their own Superiority, the Collective soufflé is ruined.  In a Culture that Worships the Ego as the Supreme Beingness, this is a fatal self-inflicted wound, as the state of the World demonstrates.

So keep an eye on the Narcissists if you know any (!), they’re likely to be Over-the-Top.  I think one already is, thanks to Chuck and Nancy – the Chariklo Self-Confidence Energy will be strong for at least a week prior to the Station, longer if someone is more Sensitive to it, such as someone who is already a Narcissupremacist.  Look out for sudden reversions to Mean afterward, when the Energy starts to fade.

The Grand Trine is the big blue triangle.  The orange wedge (Quintile Yod), though simultaneous, is otherwise unrelated to the Chariklo Station, unless you want to tune in to the Twentieth Harmonic.  The Moon-North Node Focus of the Quintile Yod is eighteen Degrees (one twentieth of the Zodiacal loop) from the Mercury-Mars-Orcus corner of the Grand Trine.  Which makes it even more interesting.  The Twentieth Harmonic is The Aeon, or a Time period of long but unspecified extent and…

“The principle of good judgment that is utilized in both personal and professional situations…  All perceptions come from our ability to look at the whole and… to consider longevity, history, and broad perspective…  Our creative power to give birth to new forms…  Wisdom comes from experience and is not randomly spoken…  The Last Judgment is faced in all the daily judgments we make of ourselves and others…  Reminds us to look at the history we have shared and to forgive ourselves and others for the judgments we are making about what we are doing or not doing in our lives…  Inspired vision.”  –Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook, pp.95-96).

No wonder our favorite Narcissist seems to be suddenly making good decisions.  Bodes ill for the hangover though, unfortunately.

So lets look at the components of the Grand Trine and the Q-Yod…

A Chariklo-Station by itself implies a Crisis of Self-Confidence, which we may receive as Enhanced Confidence, or an Exacerbation of existing Self-Doubt.  In the latter case you can consider it a “Healing Crisis” (when an affliction gets temporarily worse just before its Demise), particularly if you are Alert enough to notice what Triggers your Self-Doubt, and Recognize that it’s a form of Anxiety. 

Anxiety is an Emotion that makes us probably even more vulnerable to “Transitiveness” than other Emotions do.  A Verb that takes an Object is called a “Transitive” Verb.  In the sentence “Donald fired Jim,” Donald is the Subject and Jim is the Object of the Verb “fired.”  In the sentence “I’m Anxious about such-and-such,” the prepositional phrase “about such-and-such” is the Object of the Verb Anxious.  Well, there’s news.  Emotions are Intransitive.  They don’t take Objects.

I’m Angry at Fred” is a bullshit sentence.  What’s really going on is that we’re Angry, and Fred happens to be in the line of fire.  We have no idea what the original source of our Emotions is.  In fact, there’s an excellent chance that they aren’t even “our” Emotions at all.  Like thoughts, Emotions float around like clouds or Viruses, and easily latched onto.  Fred might remind us of the guy who Abandoned us when we had the Plague in the Middle Ages, and Abandonment may be what Triggers our Anger.  Fred is an innocent by-stander.

It behooves us much to view all Emotions this way.  “I’m Anxious about the Future, now that I’ve been told that the World is supposed to end on 23 September.”  More Bullshit.  Our Anxiety is either pre-existing and Karmic, or Impersonal and just passing by, probably both.  In this Culture, you won’t get much support for Receiving Emotions this way, but if you want to reach for Neutrality, you’d probably be hard-pressed to find a faster route.

The other corners of the Chariklo-Station Grand Trine are Moira, which symbolizes the Duality Fate and Choice (Your Choice), and a Stellium formed by Mercury (Mind), Mars (Action), and Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking).  Wow, this is almost Biblical or Trumpian in terms of being “The Greatest Opportunity Ever” or the like.  Here’s what this Grand Trine can show us…

  • The Realization that Patterns which we’ve been regarding as “Just the Way It Is” (Moira as Fate), are actually the result of our Limiting Beliefs (Mercury-Mars-Orcus as Awareness/Mercury that we’ve been Victimized/Mars by Oaths we made Long Ago and Far Away/Orcus that we really don’t need any more).  This Realization has the potential to open us up to having Confidence (Chariklo) that we can do things that we’ve always envied other people for doing so apparently effortlessly.
  • Notice that these could be “Unconscious Denial,” where we had no idea that Reality could be otherwise than Limited as we had supposed!
  • These Realizations are the sort that can Expand our Consciousness and our Horizons greatly.
  • Since it’s a Grand Trine, we could Experience Breakthroughs in Efforting, as what was previously very difficult suddenly becomes very Easy.  That is, we could suddenly discover we have Talents we didn’t know we had, which can boost our Self-Confidence.  If this happens, Look to see how Changes in your own Beliefs are involved.  If you can make this a Breakthrough in Consciousness as well as a Breakthrough in Efforting, you’ll be miles ahead.
  • Your Self-Confidence could be Challenged, as the Unconscious tries to show you how you are Sabotaging yourself.  If Self-Doubt arises, or you know someone who is “shaking your Confidence daily,” or meet someone who’d like to try doing that, this represents a fabulous Opportunity to Open up to the Realization that you have Choice in the matter.
  • In a situation where a Narcissist is handed a Blessing and their Ego eats it without Sharing, the part about using the Blessing to gain Consciousness becomes even more Important than it is Unlikely.  Even if the Narcissist simply lacks the necessary Skills to gain Consciousness, we can always Open to the Possibility of Evolution.  It’s been shown many times that even in biology rapid and even instantaneous Evolution occurs.
  • This very Station may be what the Evolution of the US is all about.  The US is also an intransigent Narcissist, and perhaps what we’ll see this weekend is the Realization, by the US as a whole, that the Antichrist is just a Mirror for their own Limitations.  Maybe St. Louis will bring us a Kent State Moment.
  • Jose could also create some additional Consciousness in Climate Deniers if it comes ashore, maybe in the Capitol area, where Irma missed.

The Moon-North Node Quintile Yod (which of course is about Learning and Teaching) says that we’re being Educated about our Instincts for Self-Improvement, not in anyone else’s terms, but in terms of our own Mission in the Lifetime.  Grokking our Life Mission is always difficult because it’s Multifarious and Unitary, which means that every time we try to approach it with the mind, we freeze it into Duality and hence we turn Retrograde.  We interpret the Moon as our Instincts, so we may be Semiconsciously Making new Oaths which Create Patterns that facilitate increased Conscious or Unconscious Attention to our Mission.  Yes, that could Create more Limiting Beliefs, but they may be an improvement over our previous Beliefs.

The base of the Moon-North Node Quintile Yod is the Waxing Quintile from Chiron back to Pluto.  This Chiron-Pluto Cycle, recall, is about the “Flag turning into an Eagle turning into a Rooster Saluting the Dawn,” which suggests that the Learning may be larger than Personal.  The Dance between Chiron (Letting Go of Pain through Empathy) and Pluto (Formation of a New Trance) is about “going meta” in our Personal and Planetary Evolution.  To “go meta” means to step up to a larger Perspective, as Angie Arrien’s description of the Twentieth Harmonic at the beginning of this post suggested.

We can Apply what we Learned to the content of our Anxieties on a case-by-case basis; for instance I might be able to facilitate Healing of a sore throat by Tapping or PIAVAing or Thetaing it.  But we make our Evolution exponential when we “go meta” and realize that we can Theta our Anxiety itself instead of, or in addition to, Thetaing an erroneously-Transitive Object of our Anxiety.  What a Leap this Massive Blessing would Bless us with if we really Realize that our thoughts and our Emotions are not our own, but just visiting Entities like Eeyore and Tigger and Piglet and Pooh and Gopher (apologies to British readers) and Wiley Coyote and Taz…

“This is the time of the great remembering.  When we remember our roots and that we are part of nature, life becomes more peaceful and compassionate.  Through many of us ‘mass remembering’ this, we will create a peaceful, positive, and abundant world and a permanent sustainable culture, a Permaculture, across the world.” –Robin Clafyield, “Pioneers of Permaculture,” in Permaculture North America #4, Spring 2017.

Intuitive Confidence I

September 14, 2017

The Calendar (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/) says our next Adventure is about Improving our Confidence in our Intuition, and Nurturing Confidence that’s more Intuitive…

15-19 September 2017

Chariklo (Self-Confidence) turning Direct in 10 Capricorn on 17 September (3am PDT).

Ceres (Sustainability) in 29 Cancer returns In-Bounds on 18 September (11pm) after being Out-of-Bounds (Strong) since 1 July.

Asbolus (Intuition) turning Retrograde in 19 Gemini on 18 September (2:30pm PDT).

Orcus Initiates Mars in 10 Virgo, “Two heads looking out and beyond the Shadows” (Transcending Duality) on 19 September (10:30 am PDT).

Haumea Opposite Eris Exact in 24 Libra-Aries on 19 September (8pm PDT)

New Moon in 28 Virgo on 19 September (10:30 pm PDT).

It’s not so much that we have to think about it to call forth our Self-Confidence.  It’s the other way around – our Self-Doubts (which are thoughts) destroy our Self-Confidence.  So if we were able to Delegate our Self-Confidence to our Intuition instead of our intellect, it might be more Resilient.  If our Self-Confidence really was Intuitive, and not poisoned by the skeptical mind, we might even interpret a sense that something’s wrong as a signal to Attend to our Safety more closely, rather than a signal that We Aren’t Good Enough.

Dualities on Dualities

September 13, 2017

Some Perspective on Duality from Dan’s Arcturian friends…

http://danielscranton.com/duality-polarity-in-this-universe-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have an understanding of this universe that gives us the ability to coexist within it with beings who are not of service to the greatest and highest good of all.  We understand that the universe that we live in with you is about duality and polarity, and therefore we can accept that there will always be dark forces in this universe.

“Now, once we came to accept this truth about the universe, we were able to let go.  We were able to let go of any need or desire to eliminate or even punish those dark forces.  We know that there is so much more power in the light, and we also know that any being who wants to remain in the light must be focused on the light.  In other words, the light must let go of any preoccupation with the dark in this universe in order to fully be the light.

“And so that has been our journey, and we are here now to suggest that it be your journey as well.  Part of your journey is becoming aware of the darkness, and we know that once you awaken it becomes impossible to ignore that darkness.  The next step is acceptance, and finally you let go of your attachment.  You let go of the attachment to a need to be right.

“Only a being who feels the need to be right would want to continue to focus on what is wrong or what is lying in the shadows.  We would much rather see you encouraging more people to come to the light in order to free themselves from the bondage of that preoccupation with the dark.  You can do this in your own lives, and you can encourage others to do it by setting your example and by holding space for them, but ultimately the darkness must always remain as a choice.

“Once you allow that choice to be, you can still choose the light, and we know that if you are listening to or reading this message, you are choosing the light.”

Of course Light and Dark, and Good and Notsomuch, are just more Dualities.  Signposts on the road.  If possible we don’t want to make them into Ideals to Identify with – that would just make more Archetypes.  But if we can Choose Light and Good and Neutrality somehow, Letting Go of Judgment, then maybe we can start scraping off our patina of Light and Good and start getting down to what’s underneath.

Codependence

September 13, 2017

Codependence is the technical term for when you can’t tell where you end and someone else begins.  For instance, you might “walk on eggshells” when your partner is in a bad mood, because your sense of Personal Safety depends on not being blasted if you say the wrong thing or look the  wrong way.  Or you may be flooded with Abandonment when an expected phone call from someone important doesn’t materialize.  Then when they do call they ask you questions that you’re squeamish about answering because if you’re Honest you Fear it might damage your reputation with them.  That might bring up your Shame, or if you’re Offended that they ask such questions, your Suffocation; either way you Withdraw.

Another technical term for issues like these is Boundaries.  Boundaries is how we know, to the extent that we do, where our Sovereignty ends and theirs begins.  If you look around you’ll probably see a lot more Codependent Boundaries than you will Healthy Boundaries.  The very Polarization that’s characterized our no-longer-so-new Century (correlated with the Grand Cross in the 1/1/2000 chart) is a Boundary issue.  People are unable to listen to one another or tolerate one another because their Identities are Merged with their Ideologies, and their Ideologies differ so much that they collide like two bowling balls.  Boundaries are Difficult. 

Hylonome was a Centaur in Greek stories, whose boyfriend was killed in the same melee that Killed Kenny and Pholus, and Wounded Chiron.  She rushed to her boyfriend’s side, pulled the arrow out of his still-warm body, and killed herself with it.  She preferred that to the Grief that she would Feel if she didn’t.  That’s a good example of Boundaries gone awry. 

Juno (her Roman name; she was Hera in Greece) was Zeus’s wife.  Since Zeus invented the Alpha Male Patriarchy, he dined on any female that he fancied.  Hera/Juno was Offended by this, and turned many of her Rivals to Stone, though it didn’t slow Zeus down much.  Another Boundary issue – Juno’s jealousy prevented her from seeing where BigBoy ended and she began.  When he screwed around, she felt it like a knife in her ribs.  Yes, certainly there’s an Energetic Truth to that.  But it’s also an Aura with big holes in it.  We’d prefer Choice – Choosing to be Open in some circumstances, and Closed in others, our Choice.

Sensitivity and Vulnerability are not the same thing.  The first thing a good Intuition instructor teaches is how to Protect yourself, how to close up the holes in your Aura with tricks like our Mirrors.  The second thing a good Intuition instructor teaches, is where you end and someone else starts.  A typical exercise has one person Sending an Emotion and another Receiving, then the roles are switched.  How many times does the Receiver get the same Emotion as the Sender?  Not so often, because the Receiver’s Archetypes get in the way.  Or the Sender’s – they could have been programmed to Believe that Anger was actually “Love.”   Which isn’t so rare.

Our Calendar says (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/03/calendar/)…

14 September 2017

Hylonome turning Direct in 5 Capricorn on 14 September (3am PDT).

And Hylonome just happens to be Stationary right on top of Juno…

So we get to work on our Edges.  We interpret Juno as the Growing Edges of our Consciousness, because every Codependent Dance we do is a blatant invitation to get Conscious of that Archetype so we can achieve Choice.  We interpret Hylonome as getting Conscious of our Karmic Archetypes because if we had Choice we wouldn’t need to follow our Alter-Ego to the Other Side.  When they sit on top of each other, with one Stationary, the message is pretty clear.

Their Conjunction Squares Makemake (Manifestation) to remind us that if we see the World through an Archetype darkly, it will be more difficult to score What We Want, often even to know What We Want.  Our Archetypes, our Mergings, our knee-jerk Reactions that preclude Choice, are Self-Sabotaging.

The T-Square in the chart betrays an all-too-frequent source of our Unconsciousness.  It’s focused on Sappho (Self-Love), but its base is the Opposition between Nessus-OR10 (Unbidden Memories of Abuse and Privilege) and Mercury-Mars-Atropos (an End to Bullying).  Childhood Abuse is so fraught with Denial, Secrecy, Deception, Bullying, and Disrespect, that it’s too often the vehicle for conveying our Karma into our Current Lifetime.  It’s a perfect stage for installing an Archetype that overwhelms our fragile Childhood Ego and replaces our Power to Choose what we want to Experience.

This chart is a Perfect Storm for Recovering our Abuse Memories, Painful as they are likely to be.  But their Recovery can lead us to Freedom from our Karmic treadmills, and Self-Love is available if we Choose it.

Pholus-Quaoar VI

September 10, 2017

Here are some Pholus-Quaoar-appropriate excerpts from Marilyn Raffaele’s latest Arcturian Channelings…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

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http://www.onenessofall.com/archives.html

“All mankind must realize that the planet was never created for people to selfishly use and abuse.  The idea of ‘dominion over’ was the result of many mistranslations of the word ‘shepherding’ long ago.  It is time for all to understand that everyone, all life forms as well as Gaia herself, are in and of the One Divine Consciousness while never excluding self from this totality through some false sense of unworthiness.

“It is a time of change for everyone, for the awakened as well as the un-awakened.  Long established manifestations of duality and separation are being exposed and dissolved by the ever increasing presence of high dimensional frequencies.  Light will always serve to expose the shadow much as the shining of a flashlight into dark corners illuminates what was previously unseen.

“Personal tragedy is often the only way some people will wake up and shift out of a comfortable but un-aware state of consciousness.  You are witnessing this with the the fires and floods.  Weather events need not always be so destructive, but because humans are ignorant of their creative abilities, they elaborate, discuss, and fill the atmosphere with fear and dire predictions whenever these occasions arise.  Remember always–you are creators.”

“Some (not everyone) presently suffering from great loss lived from a sense of separation believing themselves to be better than, less than, more evolved, more worthy, etc. than everyone around them.  To suddenly find themselves in the same situation as those they felt superior or inferior to, is providing profound attitude adjustments and spiritual growth for those who would not of otherwise been receptive to ideas of connection and oneness.”

“To send Light means acknowledging the true nature of another no matter how deeply it may be hidden.  To hold the Light means resting in the Light of your true self.  When you do this or send Light to a person or place, visualize golden/white Light.  Have no specific purpose other than to send and enfold another with high resonating Light because Light is conscious and knows what is needed far better than some human concept.  Light is not sent to fix something but rather to illuminate and release the hidden perfection already present.”

“Send Light to the so called ‘leaders’ and authority figures of the world.  Send it to all those who are suffering whether it be of their own making or from circumstances seemingly beyond their control.  Visualize and send Light to Gaia and all her kingdoms, recognizing and acknowledging their Divinity.

“Be the Light in every conversation and activity regardless of how seemingly mundane through the realization that all activity is spiritual activity, none more spiritual than another.  Live, move, and have your being in and as who and what you really are.  This is healing work and is how you bring more Light to a world hungry for it.”

“With much love, respect, and appreciation for your willingness to experience and grow in order to assist others–“

Yes, the Antichrist needs Light too, more than anyone.  I’m impressed by his feint to the Democrats, tired as they are.

Pholus-Quaoar V

September 10, 2017

With the Pholus Station at 27 Sagittarius and the Quaoar Station only two Degrees and one day later, it would be totally appropriate to draw up one chart for both.  With our usual three Degrees of Sensitivity, we’d include planets between 24 and 2 Degrees.  Of course the Moon moves 12-14 Degrees in that one day, so we’ll take that into account.  Asteroids move on average only about a quarter of a Degree per day, so that would come out in the wash.

In this case though there were several planets on the bubble, and when a Sensitivity Span crosses a Sign Boundary, that’s worth extra consideration.  So for these Stations we drew up two separate charts, and as it turned out they look quite different.  Here’s the Quaoar Station…

The primary Configuration here is a Diamond Star (which is a T-Square – red triangle – and a Finger of God – green wedge – pointing to the same astrolocation), focused on the Double Station.  A Diamond Star is a T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) made Easy by the “Bowl of Grace” under (here “over” – the Diamond Star is upside down) the Opposition that forms the base of the T-Square (the Trines and Sextiles between Vesta, Ceres-Aletheia-Varuna, Moon-Sedna, and Chiron). 

There was a Diamond Star in the Pholus Station chart as well, but it got lost among all of the other Configurations.  This one is emphasized because Sedna Initiates the Moon only an hour and a half before the Station, at 27 Taurus.  We’ll talk about that later.  The addition of Mercury-Atropos (Ending Obsolete Thought Patterns) on the Virgo Cusp also adds a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace) pointing to the Double Station.

Trines are Harmonious because all three planets are in the same Element – Sagittarius, Aries, and Leo are all Fire Signs.  But when one of the three planets laps over into an adjacent Sign – here, Mercury-Atropos dipping their toes into Virgo – that Harmony is disturbed.  It’s still a Dumb-Luck Grand Trine, it’s just not quite as Lucky or Easy.  While Mercury-Atropos Trines the Double Station by Degree, it Squares the Double Station by Sign.  Sign-Angles are much weaker than Degree-Angles, but not vanishingly so.

Envision your Fire Grand Trine as three Goddesses Dancing Ecstatically around a Fire under a New Moon, throwing off Spiritual Blessings as they Dance.  When you add the Virgo Cusp into the mix, one of the Goddesses would be throwing off Ego Deaths as their Spiritual Blessing.  Not that this isn’t a Blessing; for most of us most of the time, an Ego Death is necessary for Growth.  They could even be throwing off Painless Ego Deaths, though with Mercury and Virgo, probably not.

So the Challenge Made Easy in this case is the Challenge to our Limiting Beliefs (Vesta) and our Ability and Willingness to Embrace our Victim till they Surrender into our Love and become Transformed into Power (Chiron), as those are our major Obstacles to Becoming Fully Responsive to Instructions from Headquarters (Pholus-Quaoar).  The Finger of God tells us that we can Resolve Fear of Receiving Abundance (Moon-Sedna) and Limitations to the Sustainability of our Life Force (Ceres-Aletheia-Varuna) by Becoming Fully Responsive to Instructions from Headquarters.

The two Squares lurking in the Bowl of Grace “under” the Diamond Star are actually Opportunities, if we Choose to see them that way.  One of them Allows us to End Obsolete Thought Patterns (Mercury-Atropos) that hinder our Willingness to Manifest Gifts (Moon-Sedna).  Sedna represents Fear, yes, but remember that Fear plus Breathing equals Excitement, and Fear plus Kegels puts you into the “Zone” where you can Create Miracles because Time slows down and you can see how you might bring into Consciousness processes that otherwise occur too fast for you to notice them. 

The doorway to this Opportunity is any hint of Victimy around your Willingness and Ability to Surprise and Delight yourself with Unexpected Gifts from the Universe.  Sure, you’ve never Manifested that before, but there’s always a first time.  Your Doubts and Discouragements will postpone that first time as long as you Choose to Nurture them instead of Nurturing What You Want.  If you’ve got a lot of Aries and can’t tolerate Delayed Gratification, Poor-Sweetheart your Impatience and work up a cordial, Fun, Light-Hearted Relationship between “you” (your Identity of the Moment) and your Lust for Immediate Gratification.

The second Challenge/Opportunity is about your “Upper Limits” (Uranus Square to Ceres-Aletheia-Varuna).  You hit Upper Limits when you bump up against Guilt because you’re having too much Fun, or you’re “Over” Indulging in your Yintegrity (Setting your own Priorities about how you spend your Time).  Guilt may mean you have Amends to make, if you Value the Relationship with the person who’s involved in your Guilt.  Make them, so you can see what happens after that.  If the Relationship isn’t worth it to you, use your Mirrors to return their Energy to them, then Flood them with Light and Love as you Bless them on their way.

Okay, how about that “Sedna Initiates the Moon only an hour and a half before the Station, at 27 Taurus”?  27 Taurus is the location of Algol, the “Curse” of Feminine Sexual Power.  This deserves a long quote from Bernadette Brady’s Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars (pp.188-191)…

“All writers agree that this is the most malefic star in the heavens and causes hangings, death by the loss of one’s head, and any other foul, demonic deed that could befall the [male] human race.”

The Arabs called her “Head of the Demon,” “wife of the devil,” the brightest star in the Gorgon’s head.  She was “Piled up Corpses” to the Chinese.  In the esoteric Jewish Tradition she was Adam’s first wife Lilith, who “left him because she refused to be submissive to his needs” and became a “demon of the wind” that “gave sexual pleasure and was the cause of all male wet dreams.”

“Laughter – does anybody remember Laughter?” as Robert Plant put it.

Algol “embodied everything that men feared in the feminine…  She is female kundalini energy…  Algol, in other words, is the wild, raw, frightening face of the outraged feminine which has been labeled as demonic or simply evil…  Immense female passion and power…. the power of Mother Nature, not to be called evil for being strong.”

“Algol represents a strong consuming passion that may devour you with anger and rage.  If one can contain an unconscious compulsion to take revenge, and focus that passion into a more productive outcome, Algol is one of the most powerful stars in the sky.  Whatever planet it affects in your chart will be charged with strong, intense, sexual energy that has the potential to be wonderful or, if repressed, to lead to rage or violence.”

Hoo boy, no wonder some folks Experience Sedna as Anger rather than Fear – a healthy reaction, actually.  While Anger might get you Dead, your odds are probably better than they are with Fear.  How appropriate, as we Transition from the Oppressive Yang Male to the Yang Female Age, that Sedna should park on Algol.

The Sabian Symbol for 27 Sagittarius is “An old Indian woman selling the artifacts of her tribe to passers-by.”  Indigenous Peoples cherish their Ancestors, so this image is of someone driven by desperation to sell off her Heritage.  The Moon-Sedna Cycle lasts one month, so we should be watchful over the next month for situations of Self-Betrayal.

Pholus-Quaoar IV

September 10, 2017

Here’s our Pholus-Station chart again…

In our previous posts we’ve talked about the Stellium (Pholus-Quaoar-Galactic Center-Ixion-Lilith grouping, in the lower right), the Grand Cross (red square, Stellium-Chiron-Chaos-Vesta), and the T-Square (separate red triangle, Ceres/Aletheia on Jupiter/Haumea-Uranus/Eris Opposition).  These are all pretty intense.

But the most important Configuration in the chart may be the Kite (outlined in blue, in its traditional diamond shape, sitting bolt upright in the chart).  A Kite is a Grand Cross (Dumb-Luck Grace) with Directionality appended to it.  The Energy in this Kite is moving from Self-Love (Sappho at the bottom) toward Fear (Sedna at the top).  Notice how the Kite Unifies the Grand Cross and the T-Square, as it Connects, with Great Grace (Trine, blue line), the Focus of the T-Square (Ceres-Aletheia) with the Transformation-of-Pain (Chiron) in the Grand Cross. 

Notice too how it forms a Flying Squirrel with one square from the Grand Cross (Stellium-Chiron) and one short side of the T-Square triangle (Ceres/Aletheia-Jupiter/Haumea).  We talked about the Flying Squirrel Configuration in Big Doin’s This Week III  (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/04/big-doins-this-week-iii/).  This one says Pay Attention to Lovingly Embracing Your Fear about Earth Changes and Your Rebirth, and to any Obstacles to your Attention.  The Obstacles are likely to be about Letting the Earth Changes Take Your Power, and Letting Go of any Limiting Beliefs about the Sustainability of your Rebirth.

That is, Pay Attention (the Sedna Yod) to Lovingly Embracing (the Sappho Tail of the Squirrel) Your Fear (Sedna) about Earth Changes (Stellium) and Your Rebirth (Jupiter-Haumea), and to any Obstacles to your Attention (the Squares).  The Obstacles (Squares) are likely to be about Letting the Earth Changes Take Your Power (Stellium-Chiron), and Letting Go of any Limiting Beliefs about the Sustainability of your Rebirth (Ceres/Aletheia-Jupiter/Haumea).

We recommend Poor-Sweethearting any Fears, and Overwhelm or Helplessness, and Tapping to reduce the Intensity of the Emotions if necessary to Restore your Neutrality.  Appropriate Action won’t have the Intended Result if you don’t Initiate it from Neutrality.

The central Sedna-Sappho Fear-Love axis is also the central axis of a Yin Gate (the two adjacent heavy green Xs).  Yin Gates recall, are about Accepting Paradox.  If you encountered a Lost Child in Fear, what would you do?  Reassure them Verbally that they’re Safe now, warm and feed them, and gingerly test to see how much Physical Contact is Reassuring to them, moment to moment, perhaps?  While they will undoubtedly be in their Abandonment, they may also be in their Suffocation, so if you assume that their Boundary Issues are the same as yours, and Project your own Abandonment onto them, that will likely only Traumatize them more, and probably cause them to Withdraw. 

This is how you want to treat yourself.  Your Forbidden Genius is indeed a Lost Child.  As an Adult, you have Expectations that most parts of yourself should “act like one.”  That may actually be part of your Forbidden Genius’s difficulty, if they were told by their betters that they needed to “Act Like [their programmers’ interpretation of] an Adult” before they were one.  So when you first Contact your Abandoned Genius, they will have the intellectual and Emotional maturity of the age when they were Exiled.  No worries – once you Contact them, they will Grow rapidly, because your Adult Skillset will bleed through to them quickly.  But in the interim, they will need your Gentle and Loving Parenting, Parenting that’s Sensitive to Their Needs moment to moment.

We’re used to dealing with other Adults.  “Maturity” often involves making Decisions about Who We Are and Who We Aren’t, partly in order to present a Consistent facade to Others.  Those are Judgments, and Judgment is not Loving.  Judgment Separates.  We need to Love all of our Lost Children Unequivocally, most especially our Forbidden Genius – they’ve been Exiled all this time because we Collaborated with our Programmers to make Judgments about what was and wasn’t Acceptable.  It will take them a while to Learn to Trust us again, and we need to give them that Space, withdrawing our Explicit Attention when they need privacy without Withdrawing our Unconditional Love for them.

These are a few of the Paradoxical Lessons we’re being called to Learn here by this Yin Gate.  There will be more.  The nature of Paradox is that we “haven’t thought of it yet.”  If we want to seek them out we can Wonder about the four Quincunxes (heavy green lines)…

  • I Wonder if it’s possible to Love Limitlessness (Sappho-Chaos)
  • I Wonder if I’ll still be Scared after I’m Reborn (Jupiter/Haumea-Sedna)
  • I Wonder if I’m Scared that I’ll fail at Responsibility (Stellium-Sedna)
  • I Wonder how often I’ll remember to Unconditionally Love my New Self (Sappho-Uranus/Eris)

These are the Fears that Marilyn Raffaele’s Channel spoke of last week when they advised that it would be difficult to keep one foot in each World, and that Raphael Awen referred to when he recommended against “burdening ourselves with choosing a career, or looking for a way to ‘earn a living.’ ”  So then, who will feed us?

A core principle of Magnetic Creativity (PIAVA) is to Focus on Outcomes (What), and let Mechanisms (How) evolve on their own.  For me at least, that’s difficult Programming/Karma/Limiting Belief/Archetype to Transcend.  Energy Follows Attention, and if we invest our Attention in Mechanisms we’ll be very likely to Manifest what we’ve Manifested before – we aren’t Changing the Subject, we’re letting Olde Mind try to map the path into the Unknown.  It doesn’t work.  Better to Imagine how it might Feel when we arrive at what we Want, whether it’s Safety, Abundance, Self-Respect, Yintegrity, or a Hamburger.  No matter What it is we Want, if we can’t Manifest Passion for it, our Creativity Engine will lack fuel.

There is also a second Yin Gate in the Pholus-Station chart, wrapped around the Opposition between our Big Rebirth (Jupiter-Haumea) and our Open Connection to our Soul (Uranus-Eris).  Two of its green lines are drawn lightly, so it’s harder to see; you’ll see the second, canted, vertical blue rectangle more easily.  Definitely Fears here; to the extent that our Forbidden Genius is Forbidden, in the past we’ve been Punished for Expressing our True Self, and we’ll have to Empathize with the Victim of that Punishment. 

Imagine our New Selves Sliding Out of the Birth Canal, Standing Up, and Walking Away, each step worth a year of growth for a “normal” infant.  By the time we’ve taken about twenty steps, we Stop, Look Around, and Wonder WTF?  Don’t Attend to what you See, but Attend, Creatively and Assertively, to What you Feel.  If you don’t Feel Ecstatic, Theta it…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command to Feel, Now, the Ecstasy that I will Feel when I am Free to Enjoy and Express and Embrace All of My True Self without Hesitation.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess! … Show Me.”

If your “Show Me” gives you anything other than Ecstasy, Locate the Feeling in your Body and be Loving and Gentle with it.  Tap it Out if necessary.  Fear is Cold and Hard; Love is Soft and Warm.  Put you Hand on that place in your Body, Warm it, Imagine it Softening.  Need to modify your Theta?  Maybe “…when I am Safe to Enjoy…” instead of “…when I am Free to Enjoy…”?  You may not get all the way to Ecstasy in one sitting; strive for Neutrality at least, Change the Subject, then come back in a few days, Pay Attention to anything Unusual that occurred in the interim, then Theta or otherwise PIAVA it again.

Daniel Scranton’s Channeling for today includes…

http://danielscranton.com/opening-yourselves-to-receiving-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“You have been convinced over the years by parents, teachers, governments, and other authority figures that it is important for you to achieve and accomplish as much as you can through your actions.  It is the masculine energy taken to an extreme.  To think that everything that can and will be achieved will be done so through your actions is to limit yourselves tremendously.

“You want to use all of your powers, not just the tangible ones, not just the identifiable gifts that you have.  Your ability to receive is very closely tied to your ability to hold a vibration.  Holding a vibration and staying in a place of expectation are the tools that are necessary to receive so much more than what you can do with your physical bodies, but you are not taught that in schools.  You are essentially taught to be workers and possibly thinkers.”